#and i do my best to do my research about it and learn from polyam people

[zeynatura]

Ranting about Nucani

There is something I want to express and this fandom should know.

Nu: Carnival is a Harem game but unlike most games in the genre the relationships with MC are all canon within the same story, there are no "Routes", no "Alternate Universe/Timelines", it's all 1 Main Story where you get to gradually meet all the Characters who'll be your companions, in this game named Clan members, and all of them one way or another end up falling for Eiden (MC), which makes polyam relationship canon with Eiden as the center:

Like very few games have polyam representation, let alone a positive one, like yes the polycule it's very Eiden central but even then all the Clan Members interact with one another, as we see mainly in the time limited Events but also in the Main Story, and have friendly and amicable interactions, they rely on one another sometimes even without Eiden being involved.

But also, Aster and Morvay have a relationship established too since way before the events of the prologue of the game, Kuya and Quincy have hinted some sort of situationship (idk I don't care about Quincy and my knowledge about Kuya is limited to what happens in the story and events cause I have no limited SSRs nor have I read any of his Intimacy Rooms).

[Also if any of you knows of any other relationship that have been hinted at that i'm missing feel free to share, i specifically ask of you to refer to only canon, i know in fanon anything and everything is possible and sometimes we may be missperceiving some interactions between characters so i ask of you to take those rose tinted glasses off and see unfiltered canon, it's hard for me too ngl so dw]

All this started with some posts I saw about ppl feeling bad for Yakumo and/or Edmond to be "forced into a polyam relationship" when they are the "most romantic members" and "deserve a monogamous relationship", their words not mine, as if mono > poly , but also do you really think they're against it!?

One thing is being Clan Members against their will (which is all Huey's fault btw), having to work together to regulate the Altars' Essence (or their own) and then another one completely is involving themselves in a personal and intimate way with Eiden, which the latter they all did in their own terms and out of free will.

Also i wanna share one of the best and my fav scenes with Karu, which i know not everyone was able to experience it cause it's hidden in the Intimacy Rooms of a Limited SSR, but it expresses exactly why the polycule is consensual.

Context: Eiden has been worrying about forcing the Clan Members to be with him because he is the New Grand Sorcerer, against their will just because of Huey's magic that ties them together and the responsibility of Regulating the Altars and basically maintaining stability in the Klein Continent.

His worries began (at least that i noticed) in "Eerie Escapade" (Halloween Event), that was also the first time Garu got hurt while protecting Eiden and the first time Karu got mad at him and fronted to yell at Eiden (which is my another fav scene of Karu omg i love him so much i gotta go back and take screenshots of that but that's for another post), the second one being in "Army x Blood x Oath" (which are the screenshots i'll show u)

Because this are the Intimacy Rooms of Garu/Karu's Limited SSR this scene focuses on Eiden feeling guilty because Garu got hurt in the past (Halloween Event) and this time he lost his memory (temporarily, due to this event's story) and Eiden blaming himself for it all and wondering if they would be better off without him, but the same can and is applied to the rest of the Clan Members, seeing how Eiden met and approached Rei while respecting his privacy and independency even tho he's also a Clan Member and the newest introduced in the story, means that the Limited Events are also canon and part of the story because Eiden seems to be growing and learning from previous Events and showing that development in future Events and the Main Story.

Karu also mentions that Garu (prior to losing his memories) was also worrying about the same thing Eiden was, like 'what if Master (Eiden) stays with us just because of the contract with Huey? :c' and he calls them both idiots because they don't communicate and fronts to fix it! (Mighty Karu to the rescue)

And talking about "Eerie Escapade" that is also the event where Yakumo's possessiveness towards Eiden shows, i'll admit i haven't seen the last room but i feel like those people i mentioned before are using it as fuel to their idea, because if Yakumo is jealous of other Clan Members interacting with Eiden and "Wants him all to himself" that must mean he wants a monogamous relationship, right?

WRONG!

That just means Yakumo is a complex person that feels different emotions specially when it comes to the most important person in his life (Eiden) other than his grandparents!

And Yakumo feels guilty for having those feelings, not because of them being in a polycule and he not wanting to be in it, but because he has trauma and sees his desires and wants as selfishness and he would never allow himself to be selfish cause he doesn't want to hurt people, he's a people's pleaser! He lives with constant fear of hurting others like the Great Serpent did when it killed many (but apparently there may be more that meets the eye, because the current event hinted that the Great Serpent actually liked humans and took care of children ???)

And Yakumo dealing with those feelings along with his yokai powers as a descendant of The Great Serpent have been the main topic of his last 3 Limited SSRs, which is great because that means CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT~

Now unfortunately i cannot talk about Edmond's Intimacy Rooms as i'm missing ALL OF HIS SSRs (why do you hate me Edmond if ily) but from what i've seen he's also pretty happy being with Eiden, heck even HIS MOM is happy his son is with Eiden!

That's right, she's the first and only parent of the Clan Members that knows and approves of their relationship, if it weren't because most of them are orphan we could get many more... i wonder if Yakumo's grandparents are aware hmmm ... and we all know Olivine's parents are gonna HATE it xD and maybe Garu's wolf pack will approve of Eiden by the end of this event.

[starlightdaggers]

In Which you Come out at Polyamous

Tags: Fluff, comfort, polyamory, gender neutral reader

Kaeya

-Kaeya could spot your nervousness a mile away, and of course saw this as they Perfect opportunity to tease you as he always did

-“Ohhh? What’s got my favorite little knight all worked up?”

-eventually you are able to make him realize how serious you are being and he quiets down to let you speak

-Except you can’t.

-I’m polyamorous. The words bubbles in your throat but despite your open mouth just couldn’t escape

-What if this meant he had to leave?

-He’d place a Hand on your shoulder and look you in the eyes and reassure you that he’s here for you know matter what.

-So you Tell him

-At First he doesn’t respond, and then he starts laughing

-“Why are you laughing?! Kaeya This is serious! Aren’t you upset that I just can’t…I can’t only Love you, I…”

-“Y/N, I could never be upset at you for loving and receiving Love.” He’d bring you into a hug.

-“But I, I thought you might leave because-“

-“And, I would never leave you. After all, I am polyamorous too.”

-He then explains all these times he tried to subtly hint to you that he was polyamorous to test the waters

-He’s happy with you dating others as long as they treat you well

-Its a reassurance to him to know that if he’s busy with Work there could be someone else around to look after you

-You’re stunning, hard working, Kind and deserve to be spoiled from every angle

-Besides he can’t say no the freedom to love and flirt either

-He’d take the time to discuss with you each other boundaries

-Kaeya is happy to move to this new stage in your relationship

Albedo

-Albedo notices you are acting strangely

-He was focusing on the experiment before him and carefully watching the titration

-However even then he couldn’t ignore the sound of your bouncing foot

-He would glance to the side briefly to observe more of your physical symptoms before concluding;

-“You are nervous.”

-“Sorry, I just There's something I need to talk to you about.”

-“I see, allow me to finish this and then we may talk.” He’d finish the experiment in silence, jot down a couple of notes and then turn his attention fully towards you

-“I’ve finished, please go ahead.”

-You can’t find the right words especially not with his eyes locked so intently on your own

-He offers words of encouragement until eventually, you relent

-You tell him your polyamorous

-There’s a pause.

-“I apologize, I do not know what this word means.”

-With difficulty you try your best to explain it

-After some back and forth of him asking questions and you fumbling through answers he simply responds with;

-“Okay.”

-“Okay? Aren’t you mad at me?”

-“I’m afraid I do not follow. Why would I be mad at you?”

-“Because, you won’t be the only one I love…”

-“Why would that upset me?” He is genuinely trying to understand

-“Well because, you know…People find it selfish. It’s a deal breaker for so many people and…” You felt Your voice cracking “I thought you might have to leave me.”

-“Y/N, there is nothing selfish about loving another human being. To love is to care for someone. Therefore, there is also nothing selfish about loving more than one, romantically or otherwise. Furthermore, I see know reason why I should leave you.”

-Albedo is proud of you for telling him something you seemed so nervous about

-Although he doesn’t quite understand what being polyamorous means he is here to support you no matter what

-He thinks that polyamory would be a beneficial for your relationship as well, as he can often get quite busy with his research and knowing that you won’t be alone would be comforting

-He’s open to discussions about this and will try to ask many questions to better learn how to manage this new kind of relationship

-Albedo is with you all the way

[anachronisticmech]

Please tell me about your ocs I’d love to hear <3

YAY okay so my first oc is Marius (they/them or he/she, I haven’t decided yet. White[?], intersex polyam aroace, seems to be in their 40s, started off as a sona but is still a self insert), then we have Bonnie (she/her, aboriginal, bi polyam trans woman/sistergirl, seems to be in her 40s), and finally Edward (he/him, Indian and Dutch, polyam bi trans man, seems to be in his 40s)! Relationship wise, Marius is in a qpr with Bonnie and Edward, who are married.

Content warning for like violence and minor descriptions of gore and cannibalism and unhealthy relationships and (mcd) death and corpses!

So Marius is an Angel sent to earth (specifically Australia because hell yeah represent) to help the survivors of a major world wide nuclear destruction or attack. Marius soon learns that most survivors are vampires, who feel the affects of the radiation much slower. Marius eventually gets eaten and gutted and killed by a group of vampires before being picked up by another group of vampires and taken to this shelter/institution where Bonnie and Edward work together to bring Marius back to life.

Also worth mentioning that Marius had known and helped Bonnie back when she was still alive/not a vampire with like science shit and also before bonnie dug up Edward and brought him back to life (Bonnie did this in the 1970s and Edward had died in the 1940s)

So Marius is brought back wrong (used to be really happy and cheerful and shit but is now really angry and aggressive but still loving. I’m pushing all my aggression and possible npd/bpd traits into them it’s great) and is now an atypical vampire (since they were just given vampire body parts that corrupted the rest of their body instead of being sired)

Marius struggles with like religious guilt and shit as well as new feeling of decay

At this point I should also share the vampires in my worlds like idk shit.

Vampirism is more of a chronic illness. Most vampires are not sired, and are born with vampirism. Once they die of the symptoms (usually in their 40s-60s) they are now a vampire. Vampires are constantly going through the human decaying process at a slower rate to normal corpses, and don’t feel affects of other illnesses the same or at all. Every month or so they have to bury themselves in the ground to restart the decaying process and get their body back in shape. It can take longer depending on how far into the decaying process their were. Also they have to do this if they are badly injured. They will fully decay and not be able to be brought back (unless I guess bonnie the mad scientist she is brings them back) if they don’t bury themselves.

So anyways Marius doesn’t know how to show their love for Bonnie and Edward, and is also being visited by their Angel spouse (don’t know anything about them yet) so they are just having a rough time with those emotions and also just vampiric stuff. So marius thinks the best way to show their love is to cannibalise Bonnie and Edward. Keep in mind marius thinks this is a human kind of thing to do. This relationship actively hurts everyone involved but they do love each other very much so yay we love toxic yuri/yaoi 💪💪💪

There’s some stuff with the ending where basically marius’ Angel spouse comes and is upset and they argue about marius not loving them anymore and marius cannibalises them but that just kills them and then heaven is sent down to take marius back and punish them so they get Bonnie to kill them and never bury them again it’s pretty wild

FUCK okay edit I forgot to mention that the shelter/institute is a shelter for any vampire who wants to stay and for vampires to research the nuclear shit around them as well as general vampirism shit. Bonnie is just the token mad scientist but Edward is the leading librarian as well as Bonnie’s lab assistant. Bonnie is girlboss and Edward is loser husband <333

I have a wip drawing I can show! No ID or alt because I’m very low on spoons from all this typing and calling people earlier but here they are :3

I also have an oc sideblog I don’t use much @mariustheangel

OKAY SECOND EDIT here is my playlist for all the characters

[farharbour]

it's not as detailed as i would have liked it to be but hi, here's jesse's first real reference in *checks notes* 5 years. deepest apologies for my small handwriting, it's incurable. everything is legible at full-size though so please click thru for optimal viewing :)

i've put a deep-dive into some of his personality & lore below, it's an abridged cut but it's still pretty long unforch. i just love him and can't shut up about anything ever in general. anyway:

name: jesse diresta nickname(s): jess, blue age: 30 at game start (b. 12/22/2046) star signs: cap sun (cusp) + pisces moon + virgo rising gender: trans guy (he/him) sexuality: bi / polyam race/ethnicity: white (italian) hair colour: dark brown eye colour: hazel affiliation: railroad (until post-game) occupation: doctor, researcher love interest: nick valentine other close friends: deacon, bec, curie, ellie, piper

SPECIAL: 4 6 3 4 8 2 1 (game start) / 5 8 5 6 10 4 2 (post-game) best skills: medicine, science, sneak worst skills: melee, repair, lockpick interesting perks: night owl, aqua boy, rad resistant combat style: stealth sniper (in-game i never use VATS, i think luck- and crit-based sniper builds are boring) favourite weapon: sniper rifle that chambers custom tranq darts other weapons: .308 sniper rifle, radium rifle, 10mm pistol, combat knife (just in case, he avoids close-combat at all costs)

hobbies: cooking, reading, engaging in intellectually stimulating conversation, running experiments in his "garage" at home plate, transcribing found holotapes (he's an information hoarder) favourite nuka cola flavor: nuka cherry favourite expletive: fuck most feared wasteland creature: feral ghouls most missed aspects of the pre-war world: hosting small dinner parties with teressa, swimming without having to worry about rads most cherished possession: his pre-war lab coat theme song: anthem (father john misty)

personality summary: an idealist, someone who thinks in terms of potential and seeks to help as many people as he can. has great ideas and the practical, patient nature to turn them into something real. has strong sense of integrity while still being open-minded enough to change his positions if need be. he comes off as warm, composed, and a little awkward. not great at expressing his feelings but he’s deeply emotional and sensitive at heart and someone people feel they can confide in. easy to be around and generally well-liked. a great teacher, he sees the potential for good in everyone and enjoys collaborating with and learning from others. deeply loyal to those he cares about and seeks to provide stability for those around him. quick to trust and quick to forgive, to a fault. a collected tactician but does not do well in time-sensitive situations due to his proclivity for procrastination and his tendency to freeze when under stress. severely preoccupied by death; this fear dictates a large part of his moral compass and seeps into everything he does. struggles with survivor's guilt and can be a bit overprotective of those he's close to.

morals: staunch pacifist. does not like killing unless it’s absolutely necessary and he sometimes goes to extremes because of it; he’d rather take the long way or wait until nightfall to go somewhere rather than risk getting into an altercation. even in saying that, he can live with a little blood on his hands if it means he won’t be drowning in a river of it later (he’s okay killing a few people to save the lives of hundreds). holds loyalty and honesty in high regard both in himself and in others. dedicated to his profession, even if he's more a lab researcher than front-facing doctor. strives to help others and prioritizes treatment over all else; he can't give his services for free all the time but he does meet people where they're at and will treat those who can't afford it at a reduced (or no) cost (a "pay what you can" thing).

jesse was born and raised in marquette, MI. his father was a hardass ex-marine drill instructor and growing up he spent a lot of time learning survival training from him. he was especially close with his older brother noah, his mother, and his maternal grandmother. jesse and his parents moved to the east coast when noah left home to join the army at 18 (jess was 10 at the time). his father re-enlisted and their relationship became heavily strained for multiple reasons. he graduated high school at the top of his class and was offered a large scholarship to CIT, which he took. his brother died during the initial invasion of anchorage in 2066, and his father died a few months later during another resurgence of the new plague. both of their deaths affected him deeply.

jesse was accepted into CIT's graduate program in the fall of 2070. he studied nuclear medicine (radiology) w/ a focus on epidemiology. he was dead-set on finding a cure for the new plague. he met teressa while still in grad school (she was in law school) and the pair quickly became inseparable. they married and moved to sanctuary hills in 2073. neither of them wanted kids initially but later changed their minds, and when shaun was born in 2076 jesse finally gave in to his paranoia and registered his family with the local vault. we all know what happens next, end of the world, dead wife man pain, all that.

he sided with the minutemen during the initial events of the game but decided around the time he met virgil that the railroad were probably his best option to help him wrt the institute. he stayed on board with them and worked as a "heavy" despite taking after deacon and preferring the stealth approach. he worked undercover in the institute until things started escalating (ticonderoga was wiped by the institute & the brotherhood infiltrated railroad hq). dez pretty much forced him from there to take part in the destruction of the prydwen; he reacted pretty badly to the whole thing and would have up and left them then and there, but he still needed their help.

to be honest i'm still not sure of the specifics from here but jesse is adamant that he can broker peace between the railroad and the institute once he becomes the director but dez doesn't believe that it will work (rightfully so honestly, it's wishful thinking but jess is ever the idealist and is almost certain he can do it (he really couldn't have tho which is the tragic bit)). she also doesn't really trust he has the same ideals as she does anymore after how he acted during the brotherhood incident. ultimately she goes behind his back and infiltrates the institute without him (via the underground pipes) and her and her agents, alongside the synths jess had been rallying while undercover, take out the institute themselves. i feel like he's probably in the institute when that happens but idrk yet. either way he's extremely distraught and in the aftermath drops contact with them entirely, save deacon, who stayed behind.

post-game he takes up shop in diamond city as their new resident doctor with curie as his assistant (not sure if she gets her synth body or not, leaning towards no). he makes a real home out of home plate and that's where he and nick get to live out some sappy domestic married life together and it's cute ok. it's cute.

that's it thanks for coming to my oc ted talk if you read all of this thank you feel free to ask any questions about him or don't whatever you feel like ok love you mwah 🫂💞

[nastyatticman]

slashers supporting a trans/non binary S/O

kinda broad, not representative of ALL trans/enby experiences ofc.

I have headcanons written for 10+ characters at the moment, feel free to request any you like c:

here’s headcanons for Billy Lenz, Brahms Heelshire,Lester Sinclair (w/ help from @slasherfucker42069​ ), Billy Loomis & Stu Macher (Polyam!Ghostface), Angela Baker (SC2&3)

Billy Lenz

Might ask you a bunch of invasive questions when he finds out you’re trans / non binary. Probably related to sex because his mind is in the gutter. But he won’t be mad if you don’t answer all of them

“He a little confused but he got the spirit” - supports you 100% even if he’s definitely learning still

Like sometimes he’ll ask you about your opinion on a passage from Stone Butch Blues, sometimes he’ll sneak into your room from the attic to show you a niche trans meme and ask you to explain the joke to him because it looks hilarious, he just doesn’t know what it all means

Probably asks you in depth about what words you’re comfortable with him using for you, so he can update his dirty talk lmaooo. But also so that he can give you pet names you like <3

Brahms Heelshire

ALSO may ask you invasive or inappropriate questions. His knowledge about transgender / nonbinary things is very spotty since he’s coming from a very uptight Christian background. And porn. May get pouty if you don’t answer everything, but later he’d feel bad and apologize by making you tea

Ends up researching, sometimes with basic videos & sometimes reading academic essays about gender and trans history. The dude lives on TE/R/F island, sadly, so you may have to help steer him in the right direction. But he’s smart enough to find good sources once he finds a good writer or two.

He may end up taking things too seriously, and if you make jokes about gender it may confuse him at first lol. Like… What’s a malewife? Is that a specific non binary identity or…? 

After reading about all the shit that’s going on, especially in the UK, he just wants to spoil you with gender affirming gifts. May get stereotypical with it - all trans girls like knee socks / all trans guys like old spice / all non binary people wear circle lenses, right Y/N? But if you tell him what you want he’ll get it 100%. Prepare to get 10 of every kind of affirming undergarment (binders, gaffs, etc)  if you ask for one lol.

Lester Sinclair (with help from Athen!)

Doesn’t know much about trans stuff, and acknowledges that. He wants to hear what it means to you - whether you have a deep connection to your transness, or you don’t think much of it, he recognizes that every trans / non binary person is different. Lester just wants to know what works best for you so he can support you

His support mostly comes from him having a good ear for listening - and for doing everything in his power to make you happy. If you want to sit back and have some beers (or drinks of your choice) and vent about your experiences or even just telling your favorite trans jokes. And if you choose to make any big changes - hormones, surgery, getting a new wardrobe - he’s right there by your side.

It doesn’t change much about his relationship with you, unless you ask. Generally he would treat partners who are male or female or both or neither about the same. Like, his go to pet names are gender neutral - sunshine, sweetpea, lovebug, etc. 

 Similarly, he’s flexible and doesn’t really attach gender to things in your relationship, like who cooks or cleans. He’ll show off his taxidermy and dance to the radio late at night with any kind of partner. He just wants to show his love

Billy Loomis & Stu Macher / Polyam!Ghostface

Billy plays it cool like he knows everything (he doesn’t). Probably looks for pamphlets and stuff online like “what to do if my partner comes out as trans” even if he won’t admit it

Stu is like “yeah! trans rights!” the second you mention you’re trans. His knowledge around trans stuff is not the best since it’s probably informed by memes & in jokes he doesn’t fully get, but it’s good that he’s learning from other trans people

Either way they’re both supportive and learning in their own ways

Stu would also be the one to practice getting your pronouns right or to help you try out a new name. Like ordering you Starbucks / drinks / food with your new name. Also he and Billy would practice by coming up with some wild stories about you as the sole survivor of the dreaded Ghostface killer

Angela Baker

She’s also trans so she understands if you may want to keep things lowkey, but she’s also ready to help if you need support with coming out or correcting people who misgender you

(very much the “Do you want me to kill that guy for you?” friend/partner)

I can see her not necessarily hiding that she’s trans but not telling people very often, so she’s kind of stealth in some areas. Either way she respects how much information you want to disclose to people, and checks in with you to make sure she’s acting appropriately. Whether you’d rather keep childhood anecdotes about Girl/Boy Scouts to a minimum, or you want to go with her to Pride, she’ll support you either way! 

Since she’s transitioned (medically & legally) she will 100% help you if you choose to transition. Helps with any paperwork and to talk to doctors and insurance companies etc, because those can be tough

Overall doesn’t make it a big deal but she loves having a trans partner who understands her. Trans 4 Trans love is pure.

[poetlcs]

here’s some wlw books -

Im SICK of u bitches whining about wlw books “not existing” when they do !!!!!  and u just haven’t looked !!!!  so I’m taking one for the team and making a list of some I liked u can check out. as always there is more so do ur research but @lgbtqreads is a good place to start! ok lets goo

fantasy

girls of paper and fire by natasha ngan - lesbian mc and f/f relationship. Asian inspired fntasy about a girl who gets kidnapped and becomes one of the kings concubines aka a paper girl. tw for sexual assault / rape, death of an animal, sex slavery, war themes and violence

 girls made of snow and glass by melissa bashardoust - frozen / snow queen retelling focussing on the relationship between step mother and step daughter. Has villain girls and morally grey stuff, also, an f/f relationship with the main girl!

the abyss surrounds us by emily skrutskie - QUEER !! MORALLY GREY !! ENEMIES TO LOVERS !! PIRATE GIRLS !!!!!!! yes this is an f/f pirate story that is enemies to lovers and features sea monster pets get around it. 

labyrinth lost by zoraida cordova - on her death day a bruja called Alex accidentally casts a spell that makes her entire family vanish. Now with the help of a boy called Nova she has to go to Los Lagos to find them. Alex is bi and there is an f/f relationship. 

A lake of feathers and moonbeams by dax murray - queer swan lake retelling set in a fantasy world on the brink of war. Has a polyam ship that is f/f/nb !

reign of the fallen by sarah glenn marsh - queer ! necromancers !!! basically a world where it’s necromancers jobs to constantly bring the king back to life. But now someone is purposely trying to stop the resurrections? Mc Odessa is bi and there’s an f/f relationship. 

of fire and stars by audrey coulthurst - a princess betrothed to the prince of another country ends up falling for his sister instead. Follows their romance and also a brewing war between their two countries. 

unicorn tracks by julia ember - fantasy world where a girl called Mnemba works at a wildlife park housing fantastical creatures like unicorns. When poachers start stealing unicorns, Mnemba and Kara, a researcher from overseas, go to track them down. f/f relationship. 

science fiction

the apocalyse of elena mendoza by shaun david hutchinson - about a bi girl called Elena who gains the ability to heal people but everytime she does a random person from somewhere in the world dies. A bit weird and quirky (if you’ve read anything by SDH you know what I mean) main girl is pursuing another girl but no more info bc spoilers !

otherbound by corinne duyvis - Everytime Nolan blinks he becomes privy to the life of Amara, a girl who lives in a fantasy kingdom. Nolan thinks he is imagining things but Amara is real, and bund to protect the princess in her kingdom without knowing her every move is being watched. This is kind of mind bending and weird, but there is an f/f relationship! 

dreadnought by april daniels - a trans girl called Danny witnesses the death of the superhero Dreadnought, and as a result inherits his powers. Now with a new body that looks like she always wishes it had, she must track down the villain who killed Dreadnought, before the villain tracks down her. Has an f/f flirtation but it continues into the next book bc SLOW BURN. 

contemporary

you know me well by nina lacour and david levithan - pov switches between lesbian and gay mcs. Follows the two main characters over one pride week when they learn they’re both queer one night out. this is short and sweet. f/f and m/m relationships. 

queens of geek by jen wilde - follows three friends from Australia who get to attend comic con because Charlie (the mc) is a popular vlogger. Charlie is Chinese-Australian and bisexual and has a crush on a fellow bi vlogger called Alyssa! This is SO cute and fun with some of my personal fav bi rep

under the lights by dahlia adler - set in Hollywood, follows a tv star called Vanessa who finds herself with a crush on another girl and unsure what to do next. The other MC is a hollywood star who has been a typical Bad Boy but is trying to reform. Has an f/f relationship and an m/f platonic relationship. 

radio silence by alice oseman - about a called called Frances who is obsessed with this podcast called Universe City and randomly meets its creator leading to them becoming best friends. Frances is bi!

fearless by shira glassman - short story about two mums who meet at their kids music recital and are attracted to eachother. This was so short and cute

the nelody of you and me by m. hollis - two girls who work at a bookstore together start to develop feelings. I think the MCs are lesbian and pan from memory. This is so sweet and fluffy too. 

historical fiction

the seven husbands of evelyn hugo by taylor jenkins reid - about a movie star called Evelyn Hugo who was big in the 50/60s but is now retired. She hasn’t done an interview in decades but all of a sudden requests Monique, an inexperienced journalist, write a tell all about her life. Follows Evelyn’s story & why she has seven husbands, but also features the most beautiful epic f/f love story ever. Evelyn is Cuban and bi. Not as hetero as the title suggests !!!

mystery

far from you by tess sharpe - everyone told Sophie her best friend and secret girlfriend Mina died at a drug deal gone wrong, but Sophie’s sure she was murdered. Now that Sophie is out of rehab, she’s determined to expose the truth behind Mina’s death once and for all. ‘

Some more I haven’t read but Reviewers I Trust liked

Everything Leads To You & We Are Okay by Nina LaCour 

Style by Chelsea M. Cameron (and all CMC’s work)

Soft on Soft by Em Ali

Into the Drowning Deep by Mira Grant 

The Miseducation of Cameron Post by Emily M. Danforth

How to Make a Wish by Ashley Herring Blake

Not Your Sidekick by C.B Lee

Fingersmith by Sarah Waters

The Colour Purple by Alice Walker

Wild Beauty by Anna-Marie McLemore

Annie on my Mind by Nancy Garden

Ash by Malinda Lo

A&B by J.C Lillis

and those are just SOME I have read and liked and only a tiny tiny portion of what is out there. Yeah it can def be harder to find f/f books in your typical library than like an hetero m/f one but they are Out There !!!!!!! If you want more recs you can follow me on twitter or goodreads or my book blog if u would like. thank u, next ! 

[merrybinature]

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Hello Anon! I assume this is the polyam asks, and will be answering accordingly - thank you for submitting I truly love doing ask games. 

💗 do you prefer to date people who are dating each other or not?

I don’t really care if people are dating each other, but I do strive for kitchen table polyam. If the people I am dating are more comfortable dating each other, awesome! If not, thats cool too. I’d just like us all to be comfy with each other and be a small community. 

 💚 how did you come to be in a polyamorous relationship/ identify as polyamorous?

Learning that other people felt jealousy seeing their partners with other people. I had been cheated on and had been hurt from betrayal and being lied to - but not because someone wanted to be with a person other than me. A bit of research, learning about compersion, and bam I realize that polyam is my best relationship model. 

I came to be in my first polyam relationship because my partner at the time suggested we open up our relationship and also be open to dating other people. He had used this to sleep with many of our friends, and finally I asked someone to fuck. That quickly turned into a cute little triad, and eventually blew up in everyone’s face - but seven years later I am engaged to the fuck so thats rad. 

💛 what’s your favorite polyam pun?

ooooooooo, thats a hard one. Polyam jokes usually come to me in the moment...lets see.... Cereal Monogamy. 

Are you curious about my views and experiences with polyam? Do you just want to make me happy with more ask games? Here’s a link to this one! 

[heartschoicegames]

Heart’s Choice Author Interview: RoAnna Sylver, “Dawnfall”

Find true love and family with a pirate crew at the ends of the universe, where aliens, ghosts, and portals open the space between worlds...and your heart. You are a Navigator, one who creates and guards portals from one dimension to another, wary of the liminal sea between them.

Your universe is made of two worlds: one contains the magic-infused world of Zephyria, and the other, the dystopian space station Eclipse. The worlds are balanced, until one day, an explosive disaster, a deadly energy storm, and an infamous pirate—the Ghost Queen—upend your life and plunge you into a race to save both worlds.

Dawnfall is a 232,000 word interactive romance novel by RoAnna Sylver,  one of the first set of games releasing with the launch of Heart’s Choice. I sat down with the author, RoAnna Sylver, to talk about writing interactive romance. Heart’s Choice games release December 2nd.

Dawnfall has frankly an insanely wonderful setting for a romance game. Tell me about the aliens, the pirates, the ghosts, and the alien-pirate-ghosts.

Hi there! I’m so glad you think this sounds fun! Yeah, Dawnfall is weird as heck, and that’s one of the things I love about this story. It’s weird in a way I don’t think we’ve seen much of before. I really just tried to put in everything I find fun or interesting, and that I’ve always wanted to write. Dawnfall started out as a total brain-candy project, and runs on pure Rule of Cool. Pirates? Yes. Magic? Yes. A slice of cyberpunk? Hell yes. Eerie ghosts and faerie-tale influences and memory-sharing potions? Giant bird people? The power of rock n’roll? Yes, yes, yes.

And also everybody’s dateable, and in a couple cases, dating each other. We weave a tangled web, but I think it’s a pretty badass and spectacular web.

You seem to really neatly straddle the genre fence here with a romance and sci-fi/fantasy. What was challenging about cramming all of that into one game?

Thank you so much for saying that. I’ve always adored SFF, and there’s so much in this genre-collection, so many extremes and concepts and contrasting colors, that I couldn’t limit myself to picking just one to play with. This weird game-book is kind of a love letter to fantasy and science fiction and haunted house stories and cyberpunk adventures—I thought a lot about the Disney movie Treasure Planet for its genre-blending beauty, and the Bioware game Mass Effect for its array of fascinating, multidimensional alien cuties to interact with and date… and then turned it up to eleven.

I guess you’d expect the challenge to be in making it all fit together/be “believable,” but I kind of threw that out the window. I don’t expect anyone to find it ‘realistic’ (setting-wise anyway; I tried to make every character ring true of course), and I don’t really care if someone thinks it’s silly, or doesn’t take it seriously. It is silly in a lot of ways. DAWNFALL is a giant ridiculous queer space magic pirate adventure, and the only goal is fun. If you have fun, I’ve done my job, and there should be something fun in here for everyone.

Did you have a favorite NPC you enjoyed writing most?

Honestly I love them all so much in different ways, and I know them so well by now it’s really second nature. Their voices come so easily and they’re all so much fun. The Queen’s swagger is awesome though, and her mental voice/mannerisms probably come through especially clearly. I love Zenith’s vulnerable moments when xie lets xir guard down and lets go of the need to entertain or please. I love Averis’s journey and growth from cute wibbly nerd to a confident swashbuckler (who is also still a cute wibbly nerd). I love how deeply Oz feels, how strongly he loves and remembers and honors memory, and how unafraid he is to show softness and warmth. And I love a certain spoilery ghost-babe and how they’re so full of joy at the beauty of life.

I do want to give special mention to Aeon, though. This is a story about connection, and I wanted to show that sibling bonds are every bit as important and strong as romantic or any other. I also wanted to show a complex, multidimensional antagonist figure who holds heartbreaking secrets along with authority, and is genuinely trying to do what she thinks is the best thing, and wants what’s best for you, the PC, even if you might not always agree. Her balance between being so emotionally guarded and determined and unyielding, while hopefully being extremely easy to read and tell what she wants and fears and loves—spoiler: you; she loves you!—was a challenge I hope I pull off.

…Also I enjoy any time Vyranix gets his pompous feathered ass handed to him. I think we all know a Vyranix, or at least of one, and it’s always fun to take them down, even in fantasy.

Who would you be romancing as a player?

I’m gonna say “everyone,” and here it won’t actually be cheating, because you can romance everyone! At once! In varying degrees/relationship dynamics and attractions. You don’t see a lot of polyamory-friendly games or books or anything really, and this is an incredibly important thing for me. The second I got the idea for Dawnfall I knew it had to let players romance anyone they wanted and show polyamory in a realistic, healthy light. I’m also a-spec (asexual and aromantic), and having not just good representation but being actively included and welcomed and celebrated in fiction is so huge too.

Dawnfall is a romance of course, being part of Heart’s Choice, but one of the single most vital elements for me is making it inclusive for aromantic and asexual players and player-characters. Essentially, I wanted to write a romance that didn’t penalize players for not experiencing the attractions the way we’re otherwise expected or required—and I’m so grateful that my amazing editors and community not only accepted but supported everything I was trying to do here. (It’s so refreshing not to have to fight for inclusion and freedom. It shouldn’t be, but it is.)

And that’s where the concept of “Heart-Stars” and “Same-Feathers” came from. I’ve never seen anything honor queerplatonic relationships like I’m trying to do here, and I want everyone, of every sexuality and attraction, to feel like they have a place here and can experience this adventure without limits. And I wanted to show that it’s a very normal thing, hence this being the same for the human characters as well as alien. (One of the nonbinary characters being human is also no mistake. I love me some wild alien genders, but there are tons of awesome nonbinary humans too!)

…That being said, I think I gave Averis most of my anxiety-issues, and would really just like to curl up with Oz and watch The Great British Bake-Off. That sounds like a perfect night in my books.

What were some of the things you found surprising about the game-writing process?

Coding was definitely the biggest learning curve. I’d never coded anything before in my life, and it’s such a new skillset to learn, entirely different from any kind of writing I’ve ever done. Sometimes it felt rewriting my brain, which did not at all do this intuitively—and also sometimes like I bit off much more than I could chew (first game ever being not only a huge piece of interactive fiction, but a polyamorous romance with aro and ace possibilities, and so many more variables than expected!), but it’s been worth it. Entirely. If my writing makes anyone feel seen and accepted and invited to have fun as they are, it’s worth every bit of struggle.

Also, oddly, interactive fiction is in some ways easier for me than writing a plain old book! Probably because I love AUs so much, and every choice in a game is like writing a tiny AU of the story, so I get to do the same scenes several different ways. My ADHD-brain finds something about this extremely satisfying, most likely because it somehow feels more like multitasking! Several stories in one, and if I like two ideas, I don’t have to pick just one to write!

Honestly though, I think the most surprising part is just being done, and…that I could do this at all. It was so huge, and took so long, and I learned so much, and every day I’m just kind of going “who the hell am I?” about doing all of this. I’m proud of it. I did a cool thing. And trying to get better at saying that.

And, what are you working on now?

I always have about 8 active projects going at once (which shouldn’t come as a surprise after last question!), but my next interactive fiction game is with Tales/Fable Labs! It’s shaping up to be a Dawnfall-sized project, but a little faster-moving and action-y.

It’s called Every Beat Belongs To You, and it’s a romantic thriller that feels like Twin Peaks meets Mr. Robot, with a smattering of Repo: The Genetic Opera. A creepy Pacific Northwest town with a secret (and a rash of ritualized murders), a super-slick medical research company whose flagship product is a 100% perfect synthetic heart, a mysterious new-age group, and a sister who went missing just before discovering how it’s all connected. Also five simultaneously-dateable (including ace and aro ships!) cuties of varying genders! Who will you trust with your heart?

I’m very excited about Everybeat, which should be just as queer, polyam, exciting, and weird as all my stuff! Aside from that, I’m working on Stake Sauce Book 2, its companion f/f vampire series Death Masquerade, and Chameleon Moon Book 3. I’m not always working…sometimes there are videogames, and sleep. But I really hope to have a lot more fun things to share soon!

Oh, and depending on how this weird, fun thing goes, I do have some ideas for prequel Dawnfall stories; maybe games, maybe books, but the ideas are there. The world—worlds, really—is so huge, and I’m not done playing in it yet! I also have some character art drawn, and I want to do a lot more of them. It’s another way to show love.

So thank you so much! I really hope Dawnfall is as fun to everyone to read/play as it was for me to write. I can’t wait to share it with you!

[antlerqueer]

londonhq is openly being dicks about ace muns 'i don't know what ace writers mean'

So I want to start by saying before I answered this ask, I did bring up to the admin team (off anon!!!) that ace meant asexual. I understand that not everyone is well-versed in lgbtqia+ shorthand, and I do my best to be patient with the cis and/or het folks that don’t understand shorthand for lesser known terms. I recommend that in the future, instead of sending something like this to me, you talk to the admins yourself. Off anon or on anon, just explaining what something means. Before we knew to use enby instead of nb and before we knew to use polyam instead of poly, we had someone point out to us the differences. And we learned.

The initial response was dismissive, and I agree it was dick-ish.

When I chatted with the admin team I recommended that they write something addressing the response because it read as dismissive. I used the term “read as” with them because, as I know often happens with folks online, anything less patient would be read as aggressive and I had time today.

That being said -- their current response is disappointing. I’m sure there were people sending in less than polite messages, rightfully frustrated with their tone and the simplistic “this is a mature roleplay” answer. I don’t think anyone needed to be polite with their response, nor am I saying people shouldn’t be upset. 

Regardless of the tone, if someone calls you out, or calls you in, on problematic behavior: thank them, apologize for not understanding initially, and rectify the issue. Especially given their lack of diversity for LGBTQIA+ characters, I wouldn’t expect them to know what ace is. However, this kind of attitude and disregard for LGBTQIA+ acknowledgment shows how little the admin team even thinks about diversity for their roleplay. If you want to create a safe space for writers, making your space inclusive and doing research is abso-fucking-lutely necessary. 

How is someone supposed to feel comfortable bringing muses of color to a roleplay where 30 of less than 40 characters are white - hell, how are people of color supposed to feel? How is someone who is nonbinary supposed to feel comfortable in a roleplay where there are 0 nonbinary characters? How are folks supposed to feel safe when the response to “hey, maybe put read mores as compulsory” is “this is a mature rp” as though there aren’t folks who are averse to sex for plenty of reasons -- including their own sexualities and triggers.

“Throwing up your hands” and posting screenshots of what you googled when called out is childish. It’s not cute, endearing, or forgiving. It is simply childish and shows you’re more concerned about your own comfort than creating a safe space. This is going to sound super cliche, but I hope the team over at @londonhq learns something from this experience and takes this into consideration. 

This is all I’m going to answer about the rp, and in the future don’t send me shit like this.

[sixfeetinmyguilt]

And I’m back

So hollows work the opposite to the kitchen heat wise

They keep their doors closed all night to keep the heat in, and keep them open in the early morning to close them through the hottest of the afternoon, and open them for a few hours in the evening to let in heat before repeating that. It works pretty well.

The insides of the hollows are like little apartments, they usually have a bed, dresser, bathroom and mini dressing room depending on who’s in the hollow.

The bed can range from a single to a full, depending on whether or not it’s a kid’s hollow(those are connected through a door to a parent/the mutual hollow), a group/couple/polycule or a passing through single killjoy. (Most crews share a hollow or conjoined hollows)

Generally the kids hollows have singles or twins depending on age and if they share a room with siblings, and a full bed or two full beds if it’s a crew or a couple/polycule.

Depending on the luck of raids and how much of a favorite you are /j you can maybe get ahold of a queen bed. (Gravity and Taurine got one after they found their third partner and closed their polycule)

I feel like I should elaborate on the kids, especially circumstances and education..

The education is modeled up to your senior year of high school in American systems, meaning you have pre school, kindergarten, first-sixth grade, 7-8th and 9-12th grade in different levels and areas. That doesn’t mean the older teens don’t have access to playgrounds bc fuck my schools I still want swings!

(Some radiation born are good with bending metal so they have swings and slides and money bars on a soft section of the beach along with a sand slide the kids love belly flopping down)

So pretty much as soon as the kids grasp simple grammar they’re given an option to learn a language!

Most of them choose their parents native language or what their native language would be if they weren’t raised in the city, and almost everyone learns French and Spanish for simplicity, as that’s what most traders with the base use.

LA runs half of that, as to why the Spanish becoming more and more common, as xe wanted it to be less European central.

So the kids can learn language, and as soon as they’re in middle achool(7-8) they’re given a choice to study a certain religion, none or all of them. (By all I mean. All. I would need to do research to make a good system example but yes Jedi is one they can research)

The education is of course queer inclusive, and T/ERF ideals are carefully weeded through to try and find the best way to teach the kids. Yes a lot of them end up not cishet, duh? Cishet is a single identity it’s less common than they want it to be lol- and yeah there’s some polyam teens, they learn to figure out relationships!

Abuse is not tolerated in any form and they have some pseudo therapy, particularly gifted teens are given the option to help the younger kids figure themselves out and the kids are taught from a young age/from right when they get there that they never have to hurt anyone if they don’t want too, and that they can always stay at the base.

This sounds a bit too good for the killjoy world so.. let’s give a little darker things

Over 80% of the children are orphans. Whether they’re 3-17 it’s the same. Some babies don’t make it, some little ones can’t handle even the little radiation this far out.

The Phoenix witch group that sometimes stays at the base makes sure they get their peace. So Clearwater doesn’t have to care for too many lost souls too long.

Speaking of the Phoenix witch group.. they teach religion and language every other semester when they pass through, and their info is always evolving so old students are always encouraged to visit their classes.

So yeah.. I’ve thought a lot about this and none of it has anything to do with Danger Days canon lore, I’ve kinda just taken the framework and ran away like the tiny gremlin I am.

Tho.. I would be fucking honored if anyone ever made hcs about the four or any canon characters passing through the base

Hmmm

So coves.

They(the base) have a pretty good play place built out of them for them being made out of literal stone

The kids have water shoes or little sandals and a few adults go in to make sure there’s not too much spiky stuff coming in from the sea (urchins, glass, etc)

Towards the sea itself a lot of the coves are half full of just sand and water that trickles in, so they make perfect little play pools or resting places for Ala without the tides pushing her around.

Some of the cove pools come out on a flat area where you can take a small drop into the main ocean, and swim a bit south to get to the main beach.

A couple miles or so south on the very edge of zone 2 is a hella rocky area that dips into a cove where the base commonly fishes from.

The fish are usually less mutated in there than just out on the ocean, so the base has seafood from there, and other food from in the city or little underground gardens in the kitchen.

The kitchen itself is the largest building, a small staircase sets it partially into the ground on the south side and a double door entry on the west facing side.

Somehow they have basically a fully stocked kitchen, and a pantry set into the wall with basically every canned good they can get out of the city. The artists take it upon themselves to label the cans properly with the food and little paintings to label them so Ghost can grab things without looking too hard.

They also have a fridge that’s set completely in the ground and comprised of two large ice chests, the smaller one for frozen and the bigger for just fridge things. The chests are surrounded by rocks and sand, and the kitchen is left partially open at night so the freezing air can cool off any food that got a bit warm during the day.