#and i cpuldnt look at my phONE

[hoteyelinerguy]

MERCHMERCHMERCH

[shiggyscumrag]

Yamaguchi and Tsukishima helping out their s/o after and during a panic attack

Sorry its been really hard to write lately, like I just have no motivation. So sorry it's taken me so long to post an actual fic thing idk man-

I had a panic attack the other night after not having one in months (I dont frequently have them, they are usually triggered when I'm out in public and in a high stress situation so this was pretty rare) so I wanted to write a self indulgent fic about one of my favs characters helping the reader with a panic attack/comforting them after the fact.

Personally listening to music helps me a lot when I'm feeling really anxious and it helped me get through my attack. Focusing in on the beat and lyrics helps me control my breathing and kinda blocks me out from the outside world. Idk if that makes since but yeah. So in one of the drabbles the reader is gonna listen to music to calm themselves down👍🏻

Warnings: mention of reader having a panic attack, mention of the reader struggling to breath, anxiety mentioned and discussed, angst with comfort :)

YAMAGUCHI TADASHI

You laid on your comforter, a whiff of clean linen hitting your nostrils. You smiled lightly. You sat up slowly keeping your breath steady. Slowly wiping away the still fresh tears on your face. You didnt realize you had cried? Hm...interesting.

You walked out of your bedroom to your kitchen to get some ice cold water (the best kind of water) and to continue to calm down. After about thirty or so minutes of sitting in the kitchen sipping your water in silence you heard the front door open.

"Y/n? Love, I'm home!" Tadashi shouted taking off his shoes and rounding the corner to the kitchen. "Oh-" he stopped startled to see you sitting there mid drink. You were just so quiet he didnt realize you were there waiting. "Hello my love!" He came around the counter and gave you a smooch on your forehead. He pulled back and noticed your face and eyes were swollen puffy. It looked like you had been crying. "Love are you alright? Have you been crying?" He asked grabbing and examining your face.

You hummed closing your eyes slightly pouting. "I'm okay tashi-" a wheeze breaking from your throat cutting you off.

"Clearly not." He spoke quietly looking at you in the eyes. His emerald green eyes finding your (e/c) ones.

"I just had a little panic attack, but in fine now! I promise!" You spoke stopping part way through. Concern growing on his face, you continued trying to reassure him. "I stepped away from what trigged it and have been cooling down for about a half hour. I promise you Tadashi that I am okay." You say, a bit of sternness pushing through you voice. No longer hoarse or wobbly like before.

With no words Tadashi pulled you into his grasp giving you a firm but not to hard hug, kissing the top of your forehead.

"You could have called me." He finally spoke solemnly.

"I didn't want to bother you. Plus I had it under control!" You pushed back looking him in the eyes while continuing on "It wasnt super bad or anything, plus my phone triggered it so I threw it out of sight."

"Okay, just-" he stopped hesitantly, his grip getting a little tighter around the side of your arms but not to tight. "Call me if you need me next time, okay?" He finally spoke making eye contact once again.

"Of course, Tashi!" You exclaimed while your hands found home on his spotted cheeks. A smile growing across his face. "Now let's order some ramen, I'm starving!"

TSUKISHIMA KEI

You can't breathe. Why can't you breathe? This is a thing you should be able to do without thinking so why can't you? Your mind racing at a thousand miles a minute. breathe. Breathe. BREATHE.

There you were hyperventilating while laying down on your bed. You couldn't catch your breathe no matter how hard you tried. You knew you were having a panic attack. This isnt your first rodeo, but what triggered it? You were simply scrolling on your phone? Sure you had a stressful day and you were feeling a bit anxious. And yeah sure the notifications popping up every two seconds made you're anxiety spike even more, but still. That's no reason to trigger an attack, so why were you having one?

You wheezed out his name as loud as you could in the state you were currently in. You didnt think he heard you. You needed him to help you with stuff you cpuldnt currently move to get. Holy fuck, what were you gonna do. It felt like you were dying. Tsuki not coming made you spiral more. What if he was hurt and needed you more than you needed him? What if something happened? What if he left to go grab something and you just didnt hear him tell you? You were spiraling quickly. Starting to see black dots cloud your vision you finally heard the bedroom door open and Kei rush to your side. Not touching you, he didnt want to hurt you.

"Y/n? Y/n, what's going on? Come on baby, talk to me!" He said panicked.

"H-headphones-" you wheezed out.

He rushed over to the nightstand and grabbed them. Running back overheard asked "Okay, okay I got 'em! Now what?" He asked, a wild panicked look in his eye. A frown across his pale skin.

You pointed to your phone. He got the signal and plugged them in jabbing in your passcode hurriedly. Phone now unlocked he looked for your music app to pull up your favorite playlist and put the headphones in your ears as he hit play.

Hands finding your eyes you held your arms up, opening up your lungs. You focused on the words that were blasting in your ears as you tried to even out your breaths. Tsuki sat their right next to you, waiting for you to catch your breathe, not touching you. He didn't want to disturb or distract you.

After about 3 songs you could finally breath normally again. You reached over and pulled the ear buds out of your ears. Turning off the music you tossed your phone to the other end of the bed. You wiped your now wet face to get rid of the sweat and tears. Tsukishima only stared not knowing if you were okay for physical contact yet. You turned to him red faced with puffy swollen eyes and cheeks. You gave him a light smile. He pulled you into his embrace and started rubbing comforting circles into your back cooing praises into your ear. You simply sat in his arms focusing on his words and the warmth of his body agaisnt yours.

"Thank you, Kei." You wheezed out.

"Oh shut up, theres no reason to thank me." He turned kissing your temple, pulling you harder into him. You smiled gently and cuddled into his loving embrace.

[johnricharddeaky]

oh MY GOD I FORGOT TO POST ABOUT THIS BUT the other day I was taken pics for my student org I’m in and this guy I’m friends with looked at my phone background and said “oh I love queen! Brian May is so cool I wish I could play guitar like him” and i FUCKINF SCREAMED INWARDLY MY GOD I CPULDNT PROCESS THE JOY I WAS S E N T

[enriquesenpai]

Feelings

I honestly dont know why im saying this shit here but i need to let this bottled up shit out somewhere. Well here i go.With my past preventing me to have the ability to care for anyone and anything. Im not going to blame past relationships on this, i only have myself to blame, but I'll talk about a few(not naming names, they know who they are). Looking for love in all the wrong places just to feel something different, something drugs was there to give me false happiness and numbness. I cant never regret, just pay the price and hope things can get better. With my first relationship, my first kiss it was exciting that someone payed attention to me and often smiled and would lend me their shoulder to cry on, but it was the day we broke up because how much i listened to my parents, so when they wanted me to end it i did. Its not like me and her were never friends after, but couldn't help to ignore her behavior, watching her take drugs non stop every day hurt me. It felt like i had something to do with this. Years flied by and we grew distant over those year, something i didnt want to happen. There isnt a day i dont worry or think about her well being. My problem is that i care too much, but i wear this mask on my face where i show i dont give a shit, i didnt give a shit about love or others feelings. For many years and not so good relationships the mask becane more permanent. In my freshman year of highschool it didnt take long for that mask to disappear or fall off, she wasnt a girlfriend at all just a true friend, we would cry on the phone, joke around, she is basically a sister to me and it showed me not everyone is an assshole , even though she should try to rip my long af eyelashes. I still love here, she's someone i consider a best friend and a life long friend. Enough of that i just wanted to add that because i feel like she deserve the praise i give her. Okay on the same subject on highschool, my sophomore year in my math class i cpuldnt help but see a girl sitting on her own. Me trying to build up my confidence i went up to her and asked for a pencil, who fucking know that this would spark something beautiful in my life. Months went on and me and this beautiful girl i admire so dearly to this day got together, boyfriend girlfriend. This was the best relationship i had and would cry myself to sleep on how happy i was, the mask was gone, the pain was gone, no more drugs. She was my drug. But that didnt last long, we both messed up. Me being a jealous prick and anger what casue the down fall and her not being there when family my family members were dying, when i needed her the most. I know you people want to know what happened, but im not going to type it all. Last year is when my life ended, i saw that we werent happy. She didnt break up with me , i didnt break up with her, it was something we both agreed on. There isnt a day where i cry myself to sleep or not think about her, she was the best thing that has ever happened to me. There is no way in hell im going to move on, i know for damn sure there is nobody like her and do know she's the one for the only one. I dont care how long i have to wait to get her, but im willing to wait a life time. You guys are thinking about how pathetic i am and making me take the blame for this, first you dont know how i feel about this girl. I would do ANYTHING to get her back. As time flies by i see her post a thing about how someone who once loves you now looks down at you, something like that and ome day i told her if that was directed at me, it was a yes. I never had the courage to tell her this but i wonder if she ever knew thats how i felt about her. Dont get me wrong she has the right to feel like this, but not to asking how i felt about us kinda hurts. Im not going to say im over it because if i did then why still have hope? I was in the wrong, she was in the wrong. Looking at this now i just need to hope for the best, but im not going to date anyone but her. Sorry to dissapoint you guys but my heart belongs to her and her only.

-ketchup

(stfu if you think this name is stupid, you cunt.)

Ps. Im shit with words, this whole thing sounds better in my head and is more of a feeling. Im doing well if you guys wanted to know too.

[sunshinekookie]

Friends

Pairing: Jung Hoseok (J-Hope) & Reader (y/n)

Genre: Smut

Words: 1,323

A/N:Woooooww this is the longest imagine I’ve written so far and I enjoyed doing it so enjoy!

This so cute not the imagine request but the way you worded it is so cute thanks so much for requesting:) Also I didn't opt for drunk anybody i went for your date stood you up but I hope you enjoy anyways!

You were supposed to be having a great time. You were supposed to be out right now but of course you got stood up. No texts, nothing. You were now sitting on your couch waiting for a text or anything but its been an hour since you were supposed to be picked up. You sighed and got up from the couch. You walked into your room and changed into a sweatshirt and some shorts. You came back to the couch and started scrolling back through your phone. You heard the door open and saw you roommate and best friend Hoseok walk in. He was humming some song and minding his own business but stopped as soon as he saw you on the couch. “I thought you were going out tonight” he said sitting his keys down and kicking his shoes off. “Yeah, I thought so too” you said turning you phone off. “What happened?” He said walking towards you “I don’t know I dont really want to talk about it” you said putting your hands on your face. “Okay” he said making his way to the bathroom to take a shower. 

After a while he came out dressed in sweatpants and a T-shirt. “Okay c'mon tell me what happened” he said sitting next to you on the couch. “I got stood up Hoseok” you said sighing “(y/n) I told you he was a dick when you started talking to him” he said looking at you. “Yeah I remember I just thought he would be different” you said staring at your hands and fidgeting with them. “Has this ever happened to you?” You asked looking up at him “no I haven’t really had a girlfriend in a while” he said “but I promise you that I’d never do that to someone” he said. You both kind of sat in silence for a bit until you looked at him. His head was leaned back on the couch with his eyes closed. He was probably tired from dance but you couldn't shake off how attractive he actually was. Of course over the years of you being friends and roommate there was a lot of sexual tension. You with him either being sweaty from dance practice or his hair being wet from a shower and him seeing you in shorts that you’d never wear our of the house or when you looked effortlessly beautiful on lazy days where you had minimal makeup and your hair was thrown up into a bun. His head turned and he looked at you. “What are you looking at” he said laughing a bit. You felt your face get hot and you looked away. “I was uh- just uhm-” you said trying to form a sentence. “Your date missed out big time” he said. You looked up at him and he was now staring at the ceiling with his head still leaning back. “What do you mean?” You asked “you look amazing tonight and he missed out on seeing you” he said picking his head up and looking at you. 

You looked at him and scooted closer to him. You realized that if you wanted to do anything it would have to be now. You leaned in and pressed your lips to his and he was quick to kiss back and run his hand into your hair. He wrapped his other arm around you waist and pulled you closer. You straddled his hips and deepened the kiss. After a bit you both broke apart trying to catch your breaths. “I wanted to do that for so long” he said looking at you. He then went back in and kissed you again. He licked your lower lip and you granted him access. His hands moved down to your hips and yours moved up to his hair. You ran your fingers through his hair and you could feel his hardening member growing beneath you. You grinded down on him and he moaned at your action. He bucked his hips up into you and made you moan in turn. He broke apart from your lips and smirked at you. He stood up and you wrapped your legs around his waist to keep yourself from falling. 

He walked to his bedroom and laid you down on the bed. He crawled in-between your legs and began to kiss your neck. You sat up and removed your sweatshirt forgetting that you weren't wearing a bra underneath. You looked at him and he just smirked at you and kissed his way down your chest. He took one nipple into his mouth and played with the other one with his hand. You moaned lightly and he broke apart from you. He removed his shirt and began to kiss your stomach. He hooked his fingers into the waistband of your shorts and pulled them down your legs keeping your underwear on. He removed his own sweatpants leaving him in just his underwear as well. He came back in-between your legs and ground his hips onto yours. Your could feel his hard member rubbing against your core which made you moan. He went back to kissing your neck and made his way up to your mouth. He pressed his lips to yours and your lips moved in sync. He broke apart from you and moved down towards your heat. He pulled your underwear down your legs and put your legs over his shoulders. He kissed the inside of your thighs and eventually made his way to your core. He kissed over your clit and you whined. “Whats wrong (y/n)?” He said innocently kissing around your core again “please don’t tease me Hoseok” you said. He laughed a bit and licked a stripe up your folds. You moaned and ran your fingers through his hair. He began to lick and suck on your clit. He inserted two fingers while he continued to eat you out. You could feel the knot in your stomach tighten and you said “Hoseok I’m close”. 

He stopped his movements which made you whine. He removed his own underwear and laid down beside you. He reached into his night table and pulled out a condom. He rolled it onto his length and motioned for you to come on top of him. You straddled his hips and grabbed his member. You ta his tip up and down your folds a couple of times before sinking down onto him. He threw his head back and moaned at the feeling. You began to move up and down on him as his hands found their way to your waist. “Ah fuck (y/n) you feel so good” he said moaning after. You felt the knot in your stomach tighten again and he could sense it with your rhythm slowing. He grabbed you and brought you down so your chests were touching. He began to thrust into you. You moaned loudly and said “Hoseok I’m gonna cum” “cum for me baby” he said thrusting harder. You let go and felt your orgasm come over you as he chased his own. His movements slowed and he pulled out of you. You got off of him and he went to throw the condom away. 

He came back to you and wrapped you in his arms. “Hobi I dont want to be just friends” you said into his chest. “Hmmm so you want to be best friends?” He said in a serious tone. “Hobi you know what I mean” you said laughing a bit. “I know” he said kissing your forehead. “(Y/n) will you be my girlfriend?” He said. You looked up at him and smiled. “Yes Hobi I will” you said. He smiled back at you and kissed you. He broke apart and hugged you tightly. He loosened his grip on you and you closed you eyes. “Goodnight (y/n) sleep well” he said closing his own eyes. “Night Hobi sweet dreams” you said falling asleep soon after.

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[janeyysprings]

everything is so pointless!!! im making fucking tumblr posts on a tumblr blog!! no one will remember this years in the future!!! no one cares at all! but for some reason everything i think is the most important thing ever. im always lookinn for the meaning in things but what if there is no meaning what if thats what ive been trying to say all along sometimes im convinced im not typing words i dont know if these are really words what if i was just slamming my hands on a keyboard its weird because it would mean the same exact thing to me but it wouldnt to you or whoever is reading this if anyone even ever will i could just type so fast that nothing came out im trying its insane i cant do that ok anyway i feel crazy right now positively schizotypal absolutely psychotic do u get that? i feel like that all the time but intoxicication does something wakes the dormant freak in me makes me think so fast i feel like there are things out in that hallway movies scare me i love them i love film i want to make film i wish i was good at it maybe i should try i never even have i want a camera im going to see if there are film classes at uw waukesha maybe ill find my calling i feel like i have to have a calling my soul is so tortured i dont!! want to be one of those people who just kills themselves one day because life was insignificant and i was good at nothing that i cared about i dont wamt to live like that i dont want to die like that i want to love something i want to have enjoyment i want to stop being so angsty i need to fix myself all these issues piling and piling i cant sleep i love acid i love it it makes me think so much i love thinking its i cant think anymore i dont know the adjective i paused i thought i cpuldnt think maybe im a computer i wish i was thigs would make more sense then i like typing i talk aboit it a lot i hate silence but right now its soothing me but the hallway is dark and scary im hiding it with my phone so i dont have to look at it the treacherous creatures lurking out there are scary im afraid of them