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summary - a saturday morning, and I love you on the tip of both your tongues.
pairing - bob floyd x (gn!)reader
word count - 2.1k
rating - nsfw content, 18+, mdni!
content warnings & tags - no use of (y/n) / fluff / slightly h*rny fluff / bob's love language being acts of service / the peak fantasy of homeownership / bob floyd being the ideal manâą / lmk if i missed anything!
a/n: time for my bi-yearly fic drop, lol! i wrote this in semi-conjunction with this moodboard. (a.k.a i started this months ago.) everyone who said they want to live in it... same. reblogs, comments, and likes super appreciated!
TOP GUN MASTERLIST / LIBRARY BLOG
Your boyfriend has disappeared.
Even before your eyes are open and your brain is semi-functioning, you feel the lack of his presence, the sheets next to you devoid of his usual space heater existence. You touch the left sideâhis sideâdouble checkingâhoping, reallyâthat you wonât have to peel yourself out of bed to search for him.
A cascade of orange and pink spills through your curtains, painting your room in soft light, letting you know it has to be before seven. With a groan, you check your clock, confirming your suspicions. The time reads a quarter past sixâfar too early for you.
Not nearly as agonizing for him, one of those irritating early riser types, but Bob is diligent about letting you know when heâs leaving for his early morning runs, a kiss planted to your temple, and a âbe back soonââjust a little moment in case you have to leave for work before he gets back.
But itâs Saturday, and you had plans of lazing about in bed until at least eleven, preferably with him.Â
Your brow creases as you push up onto your elbows, slowly blinking around your room as if your boyfriend will just appear in front of you, and you wonât have to pull yourself out from under the covers to try to coax him back to bed.
As of late, itâs like he gets struck by a whim, and his body is overcome with the need to check it off a list, unable to rest until he doesâchanging your oil at ten oâclock at night, fixing the light in your fridge that flickers before he heads off for a run, trying to fix the leaky pipes under your en-suite sinkâhe did eventually give up on that one and call a plumber. Thank god.
Part of you has just taken it as part of his job and personalityâhe likes getting up as the sun does, he likes fixing things, and his job is a stressor, you're sure. But it doesn't feel work-related, so part of you is beginning to wonder if itâs you.Â
An ugly little thought that you can recognize has no factual basis. Heâs never been anything but honest with you, open and vulnerable, even when youâve guarded yourself.
As a result, you tuck it away, considering that heâs off on another one of his little quests. Theyâre things that always make you feel cared for and thought aboutâweeding or checking the pressure on your tires or rearranging his kitchen so you can reach the things you frequently use.
So, as you begin to pressure yourself to leave your cocoon of early morning sleepiness, a quiet metal-against-metal clattering floats down the hall and through the crack in your bedroom door, catching your attention.
Slipping out of bed, you pad down the hall, sleep shirt brushing your thighs. Growing nearer to the sound of the soft noiseâclearly being sensitive to try not to wake youâ-you catch soft guitar strings and the twang of John Prine and Iris DeMent coming from your grandmaâs old record player.
You cringe as your foot touches the cold tile lining the floor and immediately regret not rummaging around for your slippers.
You find Bob there, posted at the counter as he cuts something at a butcher board, only wearing the sweats he went to bed in. He's still warm despite the lack of clothing and the countertop fan blowing at him.
At the arch entry, you stop and watch him for a moment, entranced by the way his broad shoulders and the muscles of his back move with the motionâby the sight of him in your kitchen. Something so distinctly domestic and intimate about it.
Completely focused on his task, he doesn't hear you come up behind him. He slightly jumps under your touch as your hands slip around his middle, his stomach beneath your fingertips.
He makes a short noise of surprise that washes into a gentle greeting, his voice low, âHey, sweetheart.â
You press your lips to his shoulder blade, enjoying the feeling of his skin against your own.
You've clearly ruined some sort of surprise, but you can't feel too bad at the sight of his eyes still clouded by sleep and the odd angles his hair sticks up.
Keeping his eyes on the cuts heâs making, Bob briefly twists around to press a kiss to your temple as he mumbles, âGo back to bed.â
You just hum, beginning to press kisses to the freckles that scatter along his shoulders, deepened by the tan heâs obtained from working in the flowerbeds that sit alongside your front door. The beds were slightly tragic before you began dating, some sort of sparse bushes planted there. They were alive at one point, you assume, but lying half dead and bare when you bought the place.
In no time at all, he had the beds torn up and replaced with bright white hydrangeas that now sit in full bloom under your front windows. Pink zinnias, sunny yellow goldenrods, and pale milkweedsâall chosen by him because they attract monarch butterflies during their migrationâflank either side of the brown brick pathway. Cheek pressed to his skin; you cast a glance outside just as a small orange and black blur flits by the glass.
âSo⊠where is it?â
Chewing on the inside of his lip, Bob casts a lost glance around the plant nurseryâs vast outdoor gardensâbright pops of color among vast expanses of green, the high afternoon sun beating down on themâthe acreage of it is astounding and certainly a workout.
Youâre supposed to be picking up some mulch for the bedsâbut you keep getting sidetracked. Half your fault; you beeline for every slightly pretty plant, balancing it on the cart thatâs rapidly becoming overloaded. The wheels digging heavily into the gravel pathways, little trenches left in your wake.
Itâs early days with Bob Floyd, but heâs sweet and helpful and easy to get free labor out ofâa big plus in your book.
On your first date, when he walked you to your front door, sweet and gentlemanly, you made a quick joke, a callback to your hinge profile. There, you had answered the prompt, I'm looking forâŠ, with, âsomeone to put together my ikea bookshelf. seriously.â
Because, after two unsuccessful attempts to put it together and three months of it languishing in the corner of your living room, you were tired of feeling a pang of guilt every time you piled another book on top of the precarious stack teetering next to your reading chair.
Of course, on the date, you didn't actually expect him to do it. You made the joke as a way to test the waters, to see if he was open to coming inside without fully putting yourself out there that way.
But then he followed you in, sat himself down cross-legged on your living room rug, and got to work. You stood there in the doorway for a moment, warming even further to him.Â
You poured a glass of wine for each of you, and watched his hands as he set joints together and tightened screws with a furrow between his brows. And despite his serious focus on the job, he continued asking you questions about your taste in books, your favorite bands growing up, what you liked about San Diego as you sat nearâyour only real contribution being the wine, simple conversation, and occasionally handing him a screw.
Heâd finished near midnight, asked if you wanted help sorting your books, and when you said no, already mildly abashed at the fact that youâd set him to work on your first date, heâd given you a kiss goodnight on your cheekâchaste and unpresumingâand left it at that.
Youâd fallen for him a little bit then and there.
Blinking, he stares down at the map once againâsame furrow in his browâturning it in his hands. Not sounding any more sure than he was a second ago, he points slightly westerly of you, âThat way. I think.â
It draws a slight laugh from you. You lightly hip-check him, teasing over your shoulder, âCome on, farm boy, youâre supposed to be helping me.â
The scent of lemon carries inside from the open window over the sink, summer ripening the tree planted in your yard. Thatâs also when you spy past his shoulder a small stack of the same yellow fruit on the counter. A pancake crackles away on the stove.
Your voice is quietâreticent to break the seal of this hushed momentâas you ask, âWhat are you making?â
Hands wandering mindlessly, your touch follows the trail of hair from his belly button, fingers sneaking only just under the waistband of his sweats, loosely hung on his hips.Â
He seems to part with the idea of whatever heâs doing being a surprise, clear that youâre not going to accede to his request and tuck yourself back into bed, too awake now to do so.
âPancakes,â he reveals, continuing to whip, âwith lemon ricotta whipped cream.â
âTrying out a new recipe?â
His throaty laugh reverberates into your chest, shaking you. Your smile hikes higher before you even know what heâs laughing aboutâjust enjoying the sound, the melody and the slight grit to it.
âEmphasis on trying,â he says, scooping a bit of the whipped cream onto his finger, offering it to you to taste. âWould you?â
You draw his finger into your mouth. Itâs slightly sweet with a burst of tang, the sugar and cream mellowing out the sharper edges of the lemon flavor. A success, you think. As you draw back, you flash your gaze up and find his eyes unabashedly caught on your mouth.
You pull off and without breaking eye contact, breathily tease, âLech.â
With a slight flush to his ears and cheeks, he laughs and leans in, nose brushing yours as he presses his lips to yours. His mouth slants over yours, insistent, his hand finds its way to cradle your jaw, tilt your head just right. It catches your breath, makes your toes curl against the tile.
You're still not entirely used to this, the sweetness of Bob Floyd. His eyes are soft as he pulls back, his thumbs sweeping along your cheeks. He clicks his tongue, cheekily muttering, âI think itâs good.â
His lips move to your cheek next, mumbling between a kiss there, âYou're distracting.â
The gesture, so simple, makes your heart flip.
By this stage of dating you're usually spiraling, finding reasons that it wonât work out and tallying up slights so when the expected happens, you're not blindsided. Like it's a game youâll win; perpetually preparing yourself for heartbreak.Â
And itâs often been easy, dating men who were noncommittal or uninterested or flippant with affection made it so. They were easy to write offâ jettison them from your life and think, onto the next.Â
But everything has changed with him. Thereâs an ease to the intimacy, a frankness to him that makes that defense mechanism very difficult to muster. You're⊠settled.
And it should scare you, the way your heart is fully on the line, but then you catch sight of one of his dogeared-to-hell paperbacks in the living room or the little date night notes he leaves scribbled on the calendar that hangs next to the fridge or his mismatched colorful socks mixed in with your laundry and it doesn't. As simple as that.
You havenât said the L word yet. But itâs there, dancing on the tip of your tongue every time you look at him.
Bob is near certain that this is love.
No, he supposes, he is certain. Heâs mulled this particular topic over too much in his mind not to be.
It's loveâthe big kind. Heâs just not certain when he should let you in on that fact. Release it out to you and see if it comes back returned.
In the past five months heâs undertaken a million little projects to keep his hands, mouth, and mind busy, working out all that excess energy. All heâs doing is kicking the can down the road, trying to find âthe right timeâ.Â
He's gotten close more than once, yet every time it catches in the back of his throat, his tongue an uneasy ally in the venture. The words, three simple ones, are left as something uncomfortable to swallow down at each abandoned attempt.
And yet, virtually all that discomfort is eased by the way you say his name, catching his attention when they nearly slip, nearly an endearment all on its own.Â
His call sign being his name means that Bob hears it alot, from a considerable amount of mouths. Shouted, whispered, whooped. In a variance of forms, he's heard it. But it's never sounded so important, so weighty, then it does as it falls from your lips. Like you're speaking a dialect only the two of you hold knowledge of, his name equivalent to the word in the forefront of his mind.
"Bob."
He hums, certain that his face gives him away; 'Whipped' as Mickey called it or 'in love' as his mother did the first time you met.
This is the sort of thing that his parents have, the ease, the humor, the affection. It permeates every space of his life, the knowledge that you're here, with him, choosing each other easily.
Eight letters.
I love you.
He lets temptation run wild, hands glancing down your back and tugging you right into him. He takes a moment just to look at you, your bright eyes, and the sweet shape of your lips as you smile up at him. Your hands slide around his neck, gently teasing the hair at the nape of his neck, his stomach swooping at the feeling.
Three syllables.
I love you.
He lets them swirl in his head, settle in the back of his throat as he prepares his tongue.
Your thumb runs along his cheekbone and he opens his mouth, readying himself, just as your lips part, and twice at once, I love you, becomes tangible reality.
Like a held breath released, a smile, broad and uncontrollable, spreads over his face, mirrored on yours as everything comes into view.
Just as Bob leans in to brush his lips against yours, higher than heâs ever felt, the smell of rapidly burning batter hits his nose.Â
"Oh, shoot."
a/n: thank you for reading!
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hey! i love your writing so much! i was wondering if youâd be open to writing a comfort fic where y/n is feeling a little sad and lonely (feeling left out from their friend group) and scoups comforts y/n?
Ohhh hello, I'm glad you enjoyed reading this blog. And well, I hope you like this post too! â„â„â„
seungcheol unlocked the door to his home, his shoulders heavy with the weight of weeks of intense work, and let out a sigh of relief as he entered. the past weeks had been a whirlwind of recordings, rehearsals, and meetings. his eyes searched for you, whom he hadn't seen as much as he would have liked lately. soon, you rushed to meet him, hugging him tightly. he smiled, feeling your warmth, wrapping his arms around you, and kissing the top of your head.
"i'm home," he murmured, holding you tenderly.
you didn't let go, remaining glued to him. seungcheol noticed the difference; normally, even after time apart, you maintained a certain distance. today, however, you seemed unwilling to let go.
"what's wrong, love? is everything okay?" he asked with concern, caressing your face.
"nothing, i just missed you," you replied quickly, trying to force a smile.
he frowned, unconvinced, but decided not to press the issue at that moment. "i missed you too, y/n." you both headed to the living room and settled on the couch. you lay down in seungcheol's lap, feeling his fingers gently run through your hair, a gesture that always calmed you.
you picked up your phone and started scrolling through your instagram feed. suddenly, your body tensed. seungcheol noticed the immediate change and looked at your face, analyzing your expression. on the post where you had frozen, your friends were all together at a dinner, without you.
"y/n, what is it?" he asked, worried.
you sighed, your eyes still fixed on the phone. "my friends went out to dinner," you finally said, your voice tinged with hurt. "and i didn't even know about it. i wasn't invited. again."
seungcheol felt his heart ache seeing the sadness in your eyes.
"that's not fair, y/n. are you sure they didn't mention anything in the group chat?"
you shook your head, tears beginning to form.
"no. and this isn't the first time it's happened. i just... i feel like i'm losing my friendships. i feel so alone."
seungcheol pulled you closer, enveloping you in a tight embrace. he could feel your pain. "i'm sorry, my love. i know how much this must hurt."
you finally looked at him, your eyes shining with unshed tears. "i just... feel so excluded, you know? like i'm not important to them."
"you are so important, y/n. to me, you are everything. and anyone who doesn't see that doesn't deserve your time or energy."
you nodded, the tears now falling freely. seungcheol gently wiped your face with his thumb, leaning in to kiss your lips softly.
"let's take some time just for us, do something you enjoy. maybe watch a movie, order food... what do you think?"
you gave a small smile, feeling the comfort and security that only seungcheol could provide.
"i'd love that, cheol. thank you for being here."
he kissed your forehead, holding you even tighter in his arms.
"always, my love. i'll always be here for you."
you both decided to order food from a restaurant you both liked, choosing dishes that brought back fond memories of other moments together. while waiting for the delivery, seungcheol put on a movie he knew you adored. he adjusted the cushions on the couch, making sure you were comfortable before sitting next to you again.
as the movie progressed, you felt the day's tension begin to melt away. seungcheol kept an arm around your shoulders, occasionally kissing your temple or whispering funny comments about the movie scenes, making you laugh. it was a welcome distraction and a reminder of how well he knew and understood you.
when the food arrived, seungcheol insisted on serving you, telling you to relax while he prepared everything. he returned with plates full of your favorite dishes, and you ate together, talking about light and fun things, putting aside worries for a moment.
after dinner, you stayed cuddled on the couch, talking about everything and nothing. seungcheol listened patiently as you spoke more about how you were feeling regarding your friends. he didn't try to offer quick solutions, but instead, listened attentively, validating your feelings and offering words of support.
"maybe it's time to find new people, make new friendships that truly value you," he suggested gently. "but remember, i'm always here for you, no matter what."
you felt a wave of gratitude and love for him. seungcheol always knew exactly what to say to make you feel better. you snuggled closer, feeling the warmth and security of his arms around you.
"i don't know what i'd do without you, my love," you whispered.
"and you'll never have to find out because i'm never going anywhere," he responded, with firmness and affection in his voice.
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Like Crazy - new insights
*This is a reposting of my latest reblog due to issues with that specific post.
***This has been sitting in my drafts since April 2023!!!
This is the post I reblogged and the basis to my own post.
Yep. I had some of a post written way back in April 2023, but the pieces just didn't come all together for me.
After Muse's release and specifically after the BTB yesterday where JM discussed Who, Muse and the lyrics, we also saw the change made to Who's lyrics from "you" to "she" things started to clear up for me. But then, a friend also shared a picture of the original lyrics of Like Crazy, which were subsequently altered before recording. We discussed these changes and I now feel that this is it! This is the missing piece to my post.
I mostly left what I wrote over a year ago in tact, adding the missing pieces to this puzzle that makes this post with what I feel is a little more insight into Like crazy.
Needless to say, these are my opinions, how I see the lyrics, the ones that made the cut and the ones that stayed in JM's lyrics journal.
So, let's get started:
Here I was thinking I'm the only one who was seeing this...
I do hope I'm reading this right, before going off motormouth about something that maybe isn't what is being said, but to hell with it, this is something I've been thinking too and I'm just gonna come out and say it.
We're all over 18 here right?
This is a subject we can talk about?
The more I listen to this song, the more I think it to be true too.
First of all, before starting off, I want to link this ask:
**Shock and awe... "she" wasn't part of the original lyrics for Like Crazy . Colour me surprised to learn the same is true with Who (even though JM didn't actually write the song himself). Oh, and if we are on that subject already, how not surprising to see the process of writing the song with John Billion, who happens to be one of the writers of SNTY as well (me sitting here thinking of several words and references that could have been somehow suggested and inserted into the song. No idea who (nah, I'm telling lies, I know exactly who). How shocking (NOT) to see that the artist actually had input with the song lyrics of which he is not credited in writing.
Again, the depth of the song, the layers to the song and the multiple interpretations too.
JM told us this song is about him struggling. He told us he was going through a period where he was drinking too much. He was finding fulfillment in ways other than performing, as performing is part of him, he is a performer, someone who needs the stage to express himself. The stage is where he is at peace, the stage being a piece of him that he was missing.
We saw his outburst of emotions in the first day of MOTS ON:E (that was my first experience of BTS and he literally broke my heart - and later seeing him being mocked for it infuriated me).
This was October 2020, around 6 months into the pandemic. The uncertainty. This is their first online performance and from there until Muster another 9 months go by. We know from Festa 2022 that the pandemic screwed up all of their plans. The uncertainty, working on and releasing BE and then Butter and PTD everything leading up to the PTD online concert, a year after MOTS ON:E. For those that performing is their life, standing in front of an audience and giving it their all, it's a hard pill to swallow. The unknown, if they will ever get back to perform on stage in front of a live audience, when this is who they are, their essence, it can be unbearable. JM wasn't the only performer to go through this. It's just that he shared this with us. He showed us his pain and vulnerability and was mocked for it by many. Shame on them!!!
So, again, JM told us with Like Crazy, that he was filling in that hole. Alcohol was mentioned by him specifically. But listening to the song, I think it's quite clear that sex was a very big part of it as well. Looking for that rush, that high. It's clear as day, for me anyway, in the lyrics.
(I think we could last forever I'm afraid that everything will disappear Just trust me)
[Verse 1] She's saying Baby, don't think about it There's not a bad thing here tonight Baby, you can leave it Stay with me until today
[Verse 2] Watch me go Wet me all night (Away) And morning too Don't come if you're drunk
In this loud music It fades me It's a drama-like story I'm get used to it Have you come far to find me that you used to know? Yeah, I know You know, I know (Ooh)
[Chorus] I'd rather be Lost in the lights Lost in the lights I'm outta my mind It holds to the end of this night Every night You spin me up high The moon that embraces you Let me have a taste
[Post-Chorus] Give me a good ride (Oh, I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin') It's gon' be a good night (Oh, I'm fallin') Forever you and I
[Interlude] Mmm-hmm Yeah, hey Mmm-hmm Ooh-woah Mmm-hmm Mmm-hmm (Forever, you and I)
[Verse 3] Me reflects in the mirror I'm going crazy without hesitation I'm feelin' so alive, wasting time
I'd rather be Lost in the lights Lost in the lights I'm outta my mind It holds to the end of this night Every night You spin me up high The moon that embraces you Let me have a taste
[Post-Chorus] Give me a good ride (Oh, I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin') It's gon' be a good night (Oh, I'm fallin') Forever you and I
[Outro] This will break me This is gonna break me (Break me) No, donât you wake me (Wake me) I wanna stay in this dream, don't save me Don't you try to save me (Save me) I need a way we (Way we) I need a way we can dream on (On, on, on)
Those are the lyrics he recorded.
But you see, there were changes made to the lyrics he was working on originally, and we got to see some of them.
This specifically:
Reading this draft and the final ones there are a few things that just fall into place for me (and I'd think for anyone that reads them), loud and clear:
First of all, obviously JM is singing about drinking too much alcohol. If the final lyrics hinted to losing himself in alcohol, the draft lyrics are ever so clear regarding that point.
Second of all, the sex. I think JM was pretty straight forward using the wording he was using. "Give me a good ride" can be other things, if you twist it around to try and explain it away, but bottom line, those lines within the context of the lines in the draft, like "just go turn off the light, you and me..." not to mention the whole chorus, to me the reference is obvious.
Next, I talked about the many references to JK in this song in this post:
This is all also relevant when it comes to my next point being the fact that to me it's clear that JM wrote this song referencing a special someone with whom he shares a high level of intimacy. A special someone that was there by his side when JM was struggling. A special someone that was struggling seeing JM going through everything he was.
To that person JM wrote (in the draft): "oh baby don't you cry, just wanna see your smile..."
These lines, they were too much. Too obvious. Too intimate. And they were left out probably because of just that.
So JM went with other lines. A little less obvious perhaps, and yet still very telling. The finale of the song:
No, donât you wake me (Wake me) I wanna stay in this dream, don't save me Don't you try to save me (Save me) I need a way we (Way we) I need a way we can dream on (On, on, on)
Now, you could claim that the song is about an inner struggle. JM struggling with himself, talking to himself, and yes, that could very much be part of the message JM, the king of layering, is going for. But see, that's exactly the point. JM is the king of layering, of having several meanings and messages within his lyrics and creations. And this is not different. There is no mistaking the reference to another person, not JM himself, in the lyrics. The way he uses the "you" in the lyrics, at times could pass as you being the alcohol, at times the you being himself in the mirror, but at times it's clearly a third party he is talking to. Especially in that finale to the song, that someone that wants to lift him out of that stupor he is in, to wake him up, to save him, when he is unwilling, not ready to accept that help just yet (same person he asks not to cry, knowing that he is making them sad). There are also the clear JK references in this song. The "you are me I am you" being the loudest of them all.
But JM being JM, he showed us in his own way what this song was about, opening up and allowing us to see his drafts.
And then he gave us Letter. Hidden, and private and intimate. Addressed not to us, but to that person that was always there by his side, that person he addresses in Like Crazy telling him "forever you and I". Now, in Letter, being in a better, healthier place, he can repeat the sentiment of them together forever. A sentiment JK had mentioned in the past (omg, that was so very awkward).
And now using lines like : "I sincerely hope we are forever" and "But donât forget that weâre always together"...
The lyrics, the sentiments, the drafted lyrics that never made it, like the use of "Dangshin", I have talked about it all. Letter was for JK. Period.
When seeing Like Crazy again, the lyrics, the struggle, the person by his side, the intimacy, and Letter, I'm kind of thinking that not only is Letter a love ode to JK. That is stating the obvious. But it's also JM's acknowledgement and thank you to that person that stood by his side in his most difficult of times.
JK.
Bottom line:
Like crazy is about JM struggling and self medicating with alcohol and sex.
It's personal about himself, his struggles, but also includes a person that is there by his side, one he is highly intimate with, one who is there with him together. That person is there, spending the nights with him, in that escape world JM created for himself. Sad seeing JM struggle, trying to find a way to help JM out of that pit but being unable to do so, staying by JM's side all the same.
We know who that person is.
Same person he addresses Letter to.
#Jikook#Kookmin#Minkook#Jungkook#Jimin#JM#JK#JM Like Crazy#JM Letter#Jikook Letter#Jikook Like Crazy
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hi lourders! do you have any gif tutorials for beginners? i tried searching on your blog to not bother you but nothing showed up :(
Okay so I looked for the tutorial i had made in my other blog but it's not updated so
GIF TUTORIAL: argentinagp version - example this gif âŹïž
So for starters, of course, you get your source material: the video. What I use for F1 is: 4kdownloader for youtube videos, some instagram/twitter/tiktok downloader, I torrent dts and I screenrecord with OBS (here are my settings) for some longer youtube videos or the post sessions interviews!
Then you need to get your video in photoshop, there are some ways on doing this, but what I do now is open the video directly: [file -> open...] and then click on the video you want to gif. Once it loads it should look like this
Now you need to adjust the speed of the videos, I put it at 50% if it is not screen recorded, and if it is, I put it at 60% most of the time (other times 50% too)
After that I crop the video, I use W: 540px and any height (beware that more height, the file wheights more, and tumblr has a limit of 10mb), I usually go for 540 x 380 or 540 x 400!
after this you will have to convert the video group to smat object:
Now comes one of the most important parts: SHARPENING!!!!!!!!! What I do here is [Filter -> Sharpen -> Smart Sharpen]
Now you a window will pop up and I use the following settings for starters:
Then I duplicate that layer and in this second one I use the following settings and I change the opacity to 50%:
Then I color the gif for that I use:
CURVES: Okay so this one I use to control a little the big 3 colors and give the gif a bit more light. The thing I do for starters is click on the "D" element and click on a a part of a gif that is the most lighter and then change fron "RGB" to red, blue and green and play around w the "I" element to control the colors a bit.
EXPOSURE: here is basically shadows and highlights. I play around till im okay w how the gif looks! Exposure and gamma correction in positive numbers and offset in negative (the photo is for the names, do not pay attention to these numbers)
SELECTIVE COLOR: okay, lowkey, one of my fave tools. What I do w this always is put more black so the light parts come more alive and the dark parts dont look pixelated! Sometimes, when the skin is too red or too yellow I play around w those colors too and see if I can fix it.
HUE/SATURATION: here basically is giving life to some colors, specially the lips (inspired by @princemick). But basically you put the color you want to pop up/change/make black and play w it. Important part if u want to play w the lips is using the slider in the bottom to make only the most red/pink part of the gif to saturate, bc if u dont change that the face can also saturate!
and sometimes color balance (did not use it in these gif), this one is basically if curves and selective color did not work for me, i just play around w it till i like it
Then, final step, you export the gif [File -> Export -> Save for Web Legacy...] and my settings on the open window is the following one:
and VOILĂ! your gif is done!
#ask#anonymous#gif tutorials#gif resources#photoshop resources#photoshop tutorial#you can ask me more questions if u have them also! or if something is not that well explained
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Hello! I absolutely love your blog, everything from your festival recounts to animation analysis and programming (one of tumblr's recommended posts was the one where you made your own rasteriser, and I liked your attitude in what I've read so much that I'm gonna attempt to conquer my 3-year-long grudge against using opengl during college and do something similar now that I'm a bit older and have no deadlines :D).
But anyway, I have 2 questions (sorry if there's easily accessible answers, tumblr search is not helping): 1. During your animation nights, does the screen stay black while everyone watches their own video while you provide commentary? I haven't caught any yet but maybe someday! And 2. do you have any youtube channels or just one-off video essays that you like that also cover animation/directors? Or, even programming lol.
Sorry for the long ask have a nice day!
hiii! i'm very touched that you like my dorky eclectic blog <3
For the Animation Nights, I just stream the video over Twitch from local sources on my computer, typically by playing the video in mpv and recording it in OBS. This is obviously not ideal from a video quality perspective, but it's the easiest way to watch video in sync without making everyone download files in advance. Then we all chat in the Twitch chat box (in large part to crack stupid jokes, it's not that highbrow lmao). I've gotten away with it so far!
As for youtube channels, I can recommend...
anime production/history (i.e. sakuga fandom)
SteveM is likely the most sakuga-fan affiliated anituber. He makes long, well-researched and in-depth videos on anime history, usually themed around a particular director or studio.
Pyramid Inu might be my fave anituber - very thoughtful analysis of Gundam, obscure mecha anime and oldschool BL and similar topics. tremendously soothing voice too.
The Canipa Effect does excellent deep dives into the production of specific shows, both western and anime. I appreciate the respect he gives to the Korean animators of shows like AtlA in particular!
Sean Bires's 2013 presentation on sakuga is pretty foundational to this whole subcultural niche, and a great place to get an introduction to the major animator names to know and significant points in the history of anime. unfortunately a couple of the segments got slapped down by copyright but the rest holds up!
animation theory (for animators and aspirants)
I'm going to focus here on resources that are relevant to animation in general, and 2D animation. if I was going to list every Blender channel we'd be here all week :p
New Frame Plus is one of the best channels out there for game animation, describing in tightly edited videos how animation principles work in a game context and analysing the animation of various games. highly recommend
Videogame Animation Study is similar, examining the animation of specific games in detail
the 'twelve principles of animation' (defined by Disney's Ollie Johnston and Frank Thomas) remain the standard approach to animation pedagogy; there are various videos on them, but Alan Becker (of Animator vs Animation) has quite a popular series. I haven't actually watched these but many people swear by them! Dermot O'Connor expands the list to 21. Note that some of the terminology can be a little inconsistent between different animators - c.f. 'secondary motion'...
Dong Chang is an animator at Studio NUT, who produces a lot of fantastic, succinct videos on standard techniques in the anime industry, timesheet notations, etc. etc. Studio Bulldog, a small anime studio, are a good complement; they focus more on douga than genga and are generally a bit more traditional.
programming
big topic here, I'm going to focus on game dev and tech art since that's my field. but also some general compsci stuff that's neat
SimonDev - graphics programmer with a bunch of AAA experience, fantastic explanations of advanced optimisations and some of the more counterintuitive aspects of rendering
Acerola - graphics programmer who makes very detailed guides to a variety of effects with a very rapid and funny 'guy that has seen monogatari' editing style. When he's good, he's really good. His video on water is probably the best one I've seen (though I can recommend a couple of others).
TodePond - the most charming, musical videos about recursion and cellular automata you've ever seen. less programming tutorial and more art in themselves.
Ben Eater - known for his breadboard computer series, a fantastic demonstration of how to go from logic gates up to the 6502 with actual hardware. worth watching just for how clean he puts the wires on his breadboards like goddamn man
Sebastian Lague, Useless Game Dev - both do 'coding adventure' style videos where they spend a few weeks on some project and then document it on Youtube, resulting in a huge library of videos about all sorts of fascinating techniques. great to dive into
Freya Holmér - creator of the 'shapes' library, makes videos on mathematical programming, with gorgeously animated vector graphics. Her video on splines is a particular treat.
There are definitely many more channels I can recommend on these subjects, but I'll need to dig into my history a bit - unfortunately I need to rush out right now, but hopefully that should be good to be getting going with!
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Dangerous Woman (pt 2)
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Pairing(s): Eris x reader
Warnings: ehh⊠none
Summary: Now that Eris is finally ready to confront his feelings, will reader do the same?
SRâs Note: My apologies for the wait! I have so many WIPs, requests, multi-part series, etc. right now. I appreciate your patience & continued support <3 Tags: @lilah-asteria @infintyfandoms @peachcontour-blog
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The soda water is a relief to your pounding headache as the morning progresses, a constant reminder of the night before and just how much alcohol youâd consumed. If not for the headache, the state you were in would surely give it away; smeared makeup, ratty ponytail, the works. Thankfully, youâd rested in your own bed last night, Eris being the gentleman he is escorted you home after your⊠wellâŠ
That in itself was a reminder.
You couldnât help but smile just a little bit, even though you knew today youâd have to face up to what had happened. It wasnât the part about wondering if Eris would return his feelings â heâd all but laid them out on a silver tray for you last night. However, would said feelings change when he found out how youâd manipulated him into thinking you were someone else for a sexual experience? Well, yes. That part was rather terrifying.
Usually youâd feel heavier than a ton of bricks trying to drag yourself from bed, but this morning itâs the hope in your heart lulling you to the shower and quickly to your vanity to allot extra time for your primping before work. You knew youâd see him today, you had to be sure you were ready and obviously looked your best. Not that youâd been out drinking and, well, having sex with him the night prior.
Your burgundy milkmaid dress was simplistic but flattering, dipping low enough but not too low to anger the High Lord. Tying a ribbon to match in your curled ponytail and touching up your lip gloss once more, you set off for the Autumn Palace.
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âThese need to be filed immediately.â Beronâs voice was flat as he plopped another hefty stack of papers onto your desk in the East Wing of the Palace. He only so much as glanced at you, making to move from your office without so much as further instruction. You nod quickly, the Lady of Autumn catching your eye from the doorway as she followed him out.
âThank you,â she mouthed. You nodded your head politely at her, earning you a kind smile in return, one that reminded you so much of her oldest son. Speaking ofâŠ
The clock on the wall read half past three, and you hadnât seen him all day. Usually youâd at least see him during your lunch hour as youâd stroll through the gardens, sitting under an oak tree for a quick chat or catch him passing your office a few times a day. Come to think of it, he didnât have much need to be in the East Wing, but youâd at least find him passing by your office once if not twice a day.
Sighing, you move quick work of the record keeping, signing and dating the records and filing them into the correct folder drawers lining the walls. You tried to focus on your work, you only had thirty minutes before you were to leave, but you hoped to finish early and maybe find Eris somewhere. He had to be around, where else would he go?
Your mind wandered to last night, the way his hands felt on you, his lips, how beautiful he looked bathed in the moonlightâŠ
You stop yourself, halting from filing a record in an incorrect folder. You shake your head, ponytail swinging side to side. Letâs just get through this, you think, turning back to your work.
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Itâs nearly four in the afternoon when you shove the last file away, and you practically race from the office, locking it hastily and bounding down the long marble hallway toward the central courtyard. Your eyes dance from left to right, no one in sight inside or beyond the windows. All that is heard are the pattering of your maroon flats as you continue your hasty path toward the West Wing â the family chambers. If he wasnât in the East Wing, the gardens, the offices, even the central courtyard, he must be in the West Wing.
You skid to a halt when you hear a conversation becoming louder and louder, the High Lord of Autumnâs familiar angry tone increasing in volume as you continue down the hallway. The last thing you need is to be caught, especially near the familyâs quarters after hours. You make a split second decision, veering right down an unfamiliar hallway and pushing through the large wooden door at the end of it.
Your eyes squint at the afternoon sun blinding your vision, and taking a deep breath, your nose furrows at the pasture smell youâve come upon. Taking in your surroundings, you realize youâve left the palace, running right outside to the horse stables in the back. You glance around, noticing the large barn in front of you and not a soul in sight. Taking a few exasperated steps inside, into the shaded barn, you let out a loud sigh and sag your shoulders.
âWhat the FUCK!â You shout, a soft neigh coming from a stall in the distance. You bury your face in your palms, the weight of the day finally sinking in and your longing feeling all too heavy. You didnât want to wait, youâd waited too long for this, been a coward too many times over to keep waiting. Now it was simply because you couldnât find the male-
âY/N?â A soft voice from behind you questions. You immediately straighten, your arms falling to your sides at the recognition. You turn slowly, heavy footsteps drawing nearer by the second.
âY/N, are you,â Erisâs fingers lightly grace your exposed shoulder and you literally jump at the contact, causing him to retract immediately. His eyes search yours, his face the portrait of concern at your unusual attitude towards him.
âMy Gods, Y/N â are you alright?â He asks softly. You face him, your mouth only opens to speak and you close it, unsure what to say.
âI⊠umâŠâ You try. He reaches for you again, but thinks better of it, curling his fingers into a fist and dropping his hand.
âMy dearest friend have I,â he swallows, unfurling his fingers to twist the silver ring on his index finger nervously. âHave I done something wrong?â He asks. Your eyes widen, and you take his hands in yours. His gaze flicks toward the contact, but your focused on his face.
âNo! Oh Gods no Eris, never,â you assure. His whisky irises meet yours again, brow furrowed in uncertainty as his thumbs delicately trace across the backs of your palms.
âWell then, what has you so upset?â He asks. His tone, the honestly in it just breaks your heart in two. You knew this would be hard, but standing before him, before your Eris, the male youâd loved so long⊠admitting your truth would be the hardest thing youâd ever done.
But, it had to be done.
âI⊠I didnât see you. Today.â You begin. He smiles a little, the corner of his mouth tilting upward as his gaze fixates on your delicate fingers still sitting in his.
ââŠI didnât know youâd been looking for me.â He says after a momentâs pause.
âI was,â You continue. âI had⊠a matter. To discuss, with you I mean.â You stammer. His eyes drift toward yours once more, gazing at you through his half lids.
âMhm⊠and that matter was?â He prods. You sigh, pulling your hands from his grasp and turning from him. You pace, taking a few steps and then turning back toward him once more.
âWhatâs so important you canât talk to me about? Come now, weâve been friends forâŠâ he tilts his head. âWell, forever, anyway.â He shrugs. You meet his gaze again, and he scoffs looking away. âUnless you came to tell me you dropped the male youâve courted, I can only await the day-â
âI never courted a male, Eris.â It comes out more forcefully than youâd like, but it has him peering at you once more in confusion.
âWhat are you talking about.â His voice has dropped an octave. He doesnât ask â he demands. Heat creeps up your neck, all the words in your head feeling like the milky substance of the Cauldron, bubbling, bubblingâŠ
Bubbling over.
âI never had a male to begin with Eris, I only said that because I was doing things to try and get your attention, because every time I would think I was getting close with you, youâd shut me out so I made it up-â
âStop.â His voice halts your rambling. The short red locks of his hair fall to his forehand as he shakes his head slowly, eyes downcast toward the ground below. âJust⊠stop.â
You bite your lip, trying to keep it from trembling. You were sure he was going to banish you from speaking to him ever again, and you hadnât even gotten to the worst part yet.
âEris, I⊠thereâs more-â
âI slept with someone last night.â He interjects. You raise your eyebrows at his interruption, and his apologetic gaze meets yours after what feels like an eternity. âI went to a brothel. And I slept with another female.â
You only stare blankly at him. âEris, thatâs⊠youâre allowed to bed whomever you please-â
âNot when Iâm so madly in love,â he steps forward, grasping your hands once more and holding them close to his chest. Your breath hitches, his eyes searching yours for any answers. âIâm in love, Y/N. I have been for a very long time, I think.â Your bottom lip quivers and you allow it, tears stinging the backs of your eyes as the moment youâd only ever dreamed of was finally happening right before you.
âThen why push me away for so long?â You whisper. Erisâs face falls slightly, but his hands slowly snake their way around your arms and down your back.
âI wouldnât live if anything ever happened to you Y/N,â he says, leaning in closer. One tear falls as you gaze hopefully into his eyes, and he wipes it away with his thumb. âYou know how my father is. Heâd destroy anything I hold most dear to my heart.â He swallows thickly, and his nose bumps yours gently. One hand rests on your waist, the other still cupping your cheek as his thumb gently brushes over the skin.
Inch by inch, he pulls you closer, eyes fluttering closed when his soft lips finally touch yours again. This feels different, this kiss is so soft, so tender and full of love. You canât help but allow a few stray tears fall, parting your lips to keep kissing Eris as your hands find their way to his shoulders. He holds you close to him, only pulling away to come up for air a few minutes later.
Itâs quiet, the only sounds that are heard are your shared breaths and the fidgeting of the mares in their stalls around you. He gazes down at you, resting his forehead on yours before he shakes his head and chuckles. You canât help but smile up at him.
âWhat is funny?â You ask. He sighs, pulling back a bit to run his gaze over your face, down your neck and over your chest.
âIâm but a fool for not realizing it sooner,â he mutters, still shaking his head. You only raise an eyebrow.
âRealizing⊠that we could have been together much sooner if youâd just allowed me in before now?â You tease. He looks skyward, contemplating.
âPerhaps,â he suggests. âOr, realizing the beautiful female who sits behind a desk all day is actually quite the little performer after hours,â your cheeks heat at his accusation â the realization that heâs finally figured it all out.
âIsnât that right, bunny?â Your jaw drops dumbly, and he tuts.
âOhhh bunny,â he purrs lowly, running his thumb over your bottom lip. âDonât leave your mouth open like that unless you want me to put something in it.â You close your mouth, eyes wide at his bold choice of words outside the confines of a private room. His hand has begun tracing idle circles through the fabric of your dress at your waist.
âEris⊠I was going to tell you-â
âDoesnât matter. Figured it out anyway.â He shrugs, his other hand moving to cup your cheek once more as his amber eyes bore into yours.
âRight now Iâd rather you use those pretty lips to kiss me again anyway.â
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#a court of thorns and roses#a court of silver flames#acotar#acosf#acofas#acotar smut#a court of frost and starlight#eris x you#eris vandaddy#eris acotar#eris x reader#eris x oc#eris vanserra#eris vanserra imagine#acotar series#acotar fanfiction#a court of wings and ruin#a court of mist and fury
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Oh! What about hcs for Bucky and little! Reader during the fall? I get cold super easy but I love the colder months!
Fall Fun
Bucky Barnes x Little!Reader (They/Them Pronouns Used)
Warnings - Talks of pumpkin carving, talks of Bucky being the Winter Soldier (Very very vague), Talks of (Bucky's) memory loss, Fall Fluff
Notes - I love fall! It's my favourite season and I had genuinely so much fun writing this!
SFW - Please keep all interactions with this post, and this blog, SFW.
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Bucky loves the fall, it's his favorite season. He's not too hot, or too cold, and he finds he enjoys seeing how beautiful change can be. But most of all he loves all the activities the two of you can do together.
Most activities are ones done outside, and he is aware that you react to the cold different than him. Sure this is his perfect weather type, but you don't have the same super soldier blood he does.
So he keeps an extra jacket and sweater in his truck for you in case you're in need of an extra layer. He's also got a flannel blanket at the ready for long drives, and when buying the truck he made sure to buy one with heated seats. He never uses them, but with how often you turn yours on, he knows it was a worthy purchase.
He loves the pumpkin patch to an annoying extent. He could truly spend days there, especially with you by his side.
He has a whole seasons pass that allows unlimited corn maze trips, as many hay rides as he wants, and a total of 10 professional photos at those cute little stands where you stick your head through and end up being a pumpkin person. Trust, he has every photo framed around the house.
He also loves picking pumpkins with you, you'll give them all names and he'll do his best to remember which one was named Frank and which one was named Jeff. And he can't say no to you, he really can't, so the front porch of his house is home to 20 pumpkins by the end of fall.
He only lets you carve three, because he know you'll get bored if he tried to get you to do more. You tell him what you want them to look like and he'll do his best to sketch and carve the pumpkin the way you like.
You'd never tell him but he's actually not very good at art things like pumpkin carving, and you think you could do a better job, but he won't let you touch the sharp carving tools so your kitty cat pumpkin is lopsided, the flower looks more like an explosion, and the classic pumpkin face carving has two very different shaped eyes.
Bucky has a Pinterest account, he does, and he always is looking for new things to do to entertain you and him. Which is how you end up in the middle of a forest collecting all types of different leaves, putting them in a small book to press and dry.
You love all the colours, and Bucky takes a bunch of photos of you playing in the leaf piles, or just photos of you walking through the pretty forest, and his favorite photo is the one of you holding two leaves up proudly with a big smile on your face. (They were the biggest leaves the two of you found that day.)
Bucky always makes you wear mittens even if you don't think you need them. You argue that they're winter accessories but Bucky won't have it. He buys you mittens with pumpkins on them, or little leaves, so they look cute. He secretly has a deal with the grandma two doors down, she knits him your mittens and he buys her copious amounts of yarn.
Also fall baking? Bucky isn't a baker, but he does his best when you suggest you two make cupcakes that look like pumpkins. They actually turn out well, but the kitchen ends up a mess! And Bucky vows to never bake again ... Which was a short lived vow because two days later you two are back at it again making chocolate chip cookies with orange coloured chocolate chips.
All in all fall goes well every year. And it's the only season Bucky actively records. You don't know this for a few years but he actually scrapbooks every fall. The books are in his office and he pulls them out when he needs to remember something good.
Pictures of you in the forest line a bunch of pages, some selfies of the two of you are tucked in there, and every picture taken at the pumpkin patch has a spot. Leaves that you two pressed are glued to the pages with care, and he makes sure to photograph what your carved pumpkins look like each year.
He finds he likes making scrapbooks. Once in his life he forgot everything important to him. And sometimes he wonders what he still doesn't remember because there's nothing to remind him. So he keeps these tucked away in case he ever forgets, he keeps them so no matter what happens he'll always have proof that he loved you, that you loved him, and that beauty can exist during change.
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The Box
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Josephina Engels sits with the box.
When she is at her kitchen table, eating cold pasta from Saturday nightâs batch cooking session, she sits with the box. Its cardboard is slightly bent around the corners, the brown colouring uneven where it must have spent time in the sunlight. The lid fits snugly on, unadorned. Itâs an odd box. It must be the kind that was bought just to be a box, not repurposed and reused as most boxes are. It has no personality except a little wear and tear.
When she is at her desk, messaging friends and working on her heritage research, she sits with the box. It is buried at the base of the family tree she sketches out, neat lines tracking siblings and marriages, dates written in pencil as she discovers them. The story of her family opens out with her at the centre, the middle child of three. B. 1849, she writes, after scrolling through handwritten records scanned two decades ago. B for born. M for married. D for death.
When she is half-curled across her sofa with a book open in her hands, she sits with the box. The stories she likes are historical romances, where the steps towards courtship are subtle and mild, and the barriers are antiquated and unrelatable. She turns the pages with a finger, slow over the paper. She loses herself in another time and another country, but the box is always in her mind.
When she is out with friends, the box is there. When she goes to work, the box is there. Itâs under her seat on the train. Itâs tucked amongst the street furniture when she walks. She feels like she should be carrying it around with her, never once letting it out of her sight. A little shoebox like that, and one that hasnât even held shoes, should be unremarkable. But it wonât let go of her.
After a long day at work, where spreadsheet grids are burned into her eyes and her head throbs with each glare from each passing pair of headlights, she comes home to it. She drinks a glass of wine with dinner. She reads. She researches. She returns to it.
It makes her feel sick just by existing. Pulling it out is worse. Opening the lid is enough to make her feverish, her heart running wild and her blood rising to he surface. She glances at the curtains, closed. She resists the urge to check over her shoulder.
Her vision blurs as she reaches in. Her fingers flinch from the soft plastic of the toothbrush grip, as if its slight yield is cold flesh. Her fingers skim over the splintering wood of a roughly-sharpened pencil. Then they slide over paper.
She closes her eyes tightly enough to worsen her headache. She swallows each breath, fighting back a sob or a scream. She pulls out a random piece of paper from the pile. Some sheets are whole. Some are scraps, torn into halves or quarters. Some are folded, sharper corners pricking her fingertips. If they draw blood, she could sleep for a thousand years. She could wake up when all of this, and whatever it becomes, is ancient history.
She unfolds the paper. Her thumbs find the tiny indents of the writing, and feel the smooth, dusty graphite. She can feel her stomach pushing up against her ribs in rebellion.
She owes it to him to look.
Through swimming eyes, she can see it.
1. I must always obey Master.
She huffs out a lurching breath. It doesnât get easier. It doesnât ever, ever change. The grief twists and spasms and writhes, but some days the leech of it is weak and placid, clawless. This is what never fades.
Her stomach rebels against the words.
2. I must never question Master.
Sheâs sweating, or shivering, hot and cold. She should ask someone over to take care of her, but who could she ask? This is a whole other world to her colleagues and friends. Her parents donât deserve this burden. Her sister has already faced too much.
Josie is the one who has to hold the box.
3. I must kneel and submit to Master.
God. She knows what it sounds like, when she reads that.
4. I must always address you as Master.
She tries to breathe. The words are true, and real, and held between her hands. No matter how badly they jar and splinter against the memories in her head, this is her reminder of how wrong she was. How wrong they all were.
5. I must make no noise unless invited to by Master.
She lets the paper fall, her legs pushing her back from the box. She needs a break. She needs to stop getting sucked into this endless, eternal spiral. Every time she opens the box, if she even thinks too hard about it, she ends up here.
She rubs her wet cheeks with the palms of her hands. Why did this have to happen? Why did it have to be so close to her, and hurt so much?
There is nobody who can know. Nobody. Her brotherâs memory depends on it, this secret she keeps in his shoebox. She canât imagine ever saying it aloud. My brother was a monster. The details are too lurid, a horror story she lives inside. He banned his captive from making noise, so even when we were there outside, he didnât call for help.
Marcie doesnât talk about it anymore. Mum refuses to believe it. Dad clings to excuses. None of them want to know about the box. Josie was the only one who looked inside it, and she took it home to hide it, and the truth it held. She thought she was protecting them.
Even so, she canât stop herself opening it, grasping the weapon to hurt herself over and over. Her eyes are drawn back to the paper. She can see the numbers continue down the page. Every piece of paper in the box has the same message.
She doesnât need to read them anymore to know. She can remember the key parts. I must ask Master for permission. I must treasure Masterâs touch. I must always thank Master for punishment.
Sometimes, she thinks that she should destroy it. It doesnât make any difference, of course. The evidence was burned into his skin. She could, maybe, protect his memory from the world. She could let these details go unknown. The nauseating everydayness of the toothbrush, a reminder that he was there for years. The confessional pages of these rules, transcribed on repeat.
Why him? Why her brother? How could he do that to them? And how could he do that to someone? Josie has looked him up online, has read his missing person reports, and has watched the statement from his mother that she gave on his birthday. Ellis was a gentle, kind boy, who never hurt anyone.
She could still remember his smile, when Marcie had found him in the cupboard. She remembered his words. She hadnât known his name until much later, because he didnât give it.
12. I am Masterâs pet and I need to be kept.
She puts the lid back on the box and crawls into bed.
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Do Re Mi (70;teen Collab Teaser)
pairing; wen junhui x f reader
genre; smut (minors dni), fluff
warnings; unprotected sex, breeding kink, wife!reader, husband!jun, talk about having a baby, fingering, crying, mild dacryphilia, marking, scratching, cumplay
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Laughing, Jun washes the soap from his hands and dries them before lifting his arms and turning in his embrace to face you. With a smirk on his face, he goes as far as to bite on his bottom lip and shrug his shoulders.
He was your ground in this chaotic world and right now this was all that mattered. Shaking your head you take a step back towards the living room causing him to laugh as you sway your hips to the music playing low on the record player. It was different from before. This was music for slow dancing, music for lovers.
âAre you trying to tell me something?â
Jun smiles brightly when a smile spreads across your pretty face. It didnât matter how tired he was. Your smile was like a shot of vitamin c injected right into his veins.
âMaybe. I got good vibes about things lately. Iâm thinking you should take me to bed,..â
His smile only falters for a moment as Jun licks his lips, his brows furrowing at your words. You made it hard for him to keep his cool around you. It didnât matter if you two had been married for two years or twentyâŠJun felt it in his soul you were going to keep him on his toes.
âYou sayinâ...â
Itâs when you nod, your footstep still walking the two of you backwards closer to the bedroom that Junâs breath hitches in his throat. The two of you had talked about starting a family a hundred times but the financial situation was never right. It still wasnât in Junâs mind⊠but you saying what you had, Jun couldnât think about anything else.
A gasping laugh finds your lips when Jun moves quickly picking you up in his arms. Your hands on his shoulders, you kick your legs only to stop when you feel his lips press against the rising fabric of your shirt. A short huff of breath escapes him and you find yourself suddenly furrowing your brows. Your fingers running through his hair as he takes the last few steps through the door to your shared bedroom to lay you on the bed.
Your fingers still threading through your husbandâs soft locks, you find your eyes closing to the feeling of his lips finding purchase on your skin as his fingers gently work the button of your jeans loose in the dimly lit room. The only sounds are that of your soft moans, panting breaths, and his strategic kisses that seem to mesh with the music from the living room.
Lifting your hips to the feeling of Junâs fingers pushing against your hips, you smile finally looking down at him in the low light to find his eyes on you. He had a way about making you feel shy by doing something so simple. Just his eyes on your face as he worked your jeans over your thighs, his breath fanning over your abdomen was enough to cause your cheeks to feel like you were standing too close to an open flame.
âJunâŠâ
Now he was smiling at your tiny whimper of his name. God, you were like a dream. How had he landed you, Jun would never understand, but he counted his blessings each and every day and especially any chance he had the privilege to between your thighs.
âWhat is it, little bird? You sound so pretty tonight.â
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If You Wanna Be Wild: Chapter 2
Javier Peña x Latina!sex worker!informant!Reader/OC x Santiago Garcia
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Summary: Javi and Santi talk about where to start with Lorea; Santi thinks on his night with Candy
Content and warnings for whole fic, not chapter by chapter unless something is added: Sex work, drug trade, some drug use/pressured used, sex workers and the mistreatment/stigma surrounding them specifically in the 70âs (my blog is sex worker positive) but ima put potential dub con depending how you look at it as a sex worker who works with dangerous men, some action surrounding reader and the guys and the drug trade, SMUT HEAVY, corruption kink (were corrupting santi here, heâs young, 25), no loss of virginity tho, threesomes, some slight m/m smut but thatâs not the focus here, but as you know this blog is an lgbt blog so Iâm always open to gay shit. Talk of war and some PTSD but I won't be going a whole lot into it.
Additional warnings: Catholic guilt and religous trauma and religion talk. However, this is not an anti catholic page. We can discuss the problems of the church at large and the guilt that abstence-only and shame based discussions on sex can affect people, but my family is catholic and I have a lot of respect for the individual people, especially Latino-catholics.
For the record, this is a fic that takes place in the drug trade and deals with the darker side of humanity, so anything from Narco's and Triple Frontier is liable to be discussed or mentioned here. This is your warning. This is not a dark fic nor is it centered around dark themes like Leather and Lace or Sunshine Starlight Sweetheart Brightside, but they are open to be talked about.
Reader has a nick name: Candy. Not her real name just what she goes by on her profession. Much of the inspo for this and for the title came from the Bruce Springsteen song âCandyâs roomâ so check it out for the vibes.
Reader speaks Spanish and had hair. I've decided Candy is just latina coded bc she's a sex worker in colombia so this is what I'm doing.
3.1k words. Proof red by my beloved Fen
Perspective changed per section. When perspective is Santi or Javi, reader is referred to in the 3rd person or by Candy.
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You have Santi sat up on the bed, facing you. Well, Diego. Thatâs what he said his name was, but if he thought you didnât know who the new DEA agent in town was, he was mistaken. After your 3rd arrest for prostitution, you got a lot more careful, and always tried to keep up with the police in the area. You wondered if he knew Javi.
âAlright Diego, tell me, what exactly is it youâre looking for?â You ask, but he looks confused, so you give a soft, warm sigh. He was one of those ones. âAre you just looking for a quick fuck? Getting to know each other and forming a connection, exploring things?â
Santi considered his options. âWell, maybe Iâd like to learn a little bit⊠only had s-â He swallowed. âsex a few times⊠you know, lights off, missionary, couple pumps and doneâŠâ A nervous chuckle emitted from him, so you tried to ease him with a soft smile.
âDonât worry, baby boy, we can do that. Letâs start with getting to know a womanâs body, how about that?â
*
âGarcia, wake the fuck up.â Javiâs voice broke Santi out of his daydreaming, making him snap towards Javi.
âHuh? Sorry.â
âWhatsamatter, pretty boy, got dicked down too hard last night?â
Santiâs eyes went wide at that. âDicked-?!?! DICKED DOWN? JAVI!â He leaned in to whisper harshly, as if it was important enough to keep quiet but not so bad Santi couldnât miss an opportunity to clutch his pearls. âJavi, you fucking know I could get arrested for that!â
âIâm joking, pendejo.â
âYou shouldnât joke about that!â
Apparently, Santi looked concerned enough that Javi backed down, raising his hands in defeat. âTranquilo, tranquilo amigo, lo siento. Yo parare.â
A little shaken, Santi glanced down as he calmed himself. âGracias, Penaâ. He rolled his shoulders and shook his head before clearing his throat. âSo. Lorea. What do we got?â
*
Santiago Garcia had never seen a pussy up close before. Thereâd been porno magazines, sure⊠and heâd⊠touched a bit. He wasnât an animal, Will had explained he canât just shove his dick into a woman, that could hurt her. No, you gotta warm her up first, seduce her, open her up. Santi heard more than he ever wanted to of the sordid detail of Will eating pussy. However, when it came to actual sex, Santi barely got through it without a panic attack. There was no way he was going to attempt to go down on a girl under those conditions. Still, he didnât want to hurt her, so he made sure to finger the 3 girls heâd somehow bumbled his way into bed with.
He needed to do better. Candy was allowing him the chance to explore, get over his nerves.
âBut I want you to cumâŠâ He had insisted.
âWell arenât you a sweet boy⊠Iâll make sure I cum, how about that? Let me worry about that.â
âButâŠâ he had looked across at her. âBut I wanna learn how too.â
She nodded with reassurance. âYou will, trust me, Iâll teach you. Just for today, focus on getting comfortable. Iâll let you know what feels good and what doesnât but what works for me may not work for someone else, so remember that. Most important thing is communicating and listening to her body, so letâs start there.â
Thatâs how he got here, flat on his chest with Candyâs legs spread out before him. Her pussy was glistening for him.
âWhere do I⊠how do I start?â
Candy sat up just a bit on her elbows. âStart by just getting familiar, explore.â
So he did. Santi started with touching. His index and middle finger swept along her folds, moving and opening her up for his view. She was beautiful. He started with the top, the area just below her pantyline tan skin under a bush of hair followed by her folds coming to a head.
âThatâs the clit, thatâs very important.â She took his fingers and pulled back the hood. âTouch thereâ When Santi complied, Candy sank back down on her bed with a hum.
Santi felt a swell of pride at giving her pleasure. âIs that good?â
âVery good, pretty boy. Lot of nerves right there.â
He continued touching below, feeling the way her skin moved to his touch and how his fingers slid across the slick, soft skin below⊠She looked delicious.
âCan I taste you?â
*
âWhere do we even start with something like this?â Santi groaned, flopping his head back.
Javi couldn't help but roll his eyes at that. âDonât be such a child, Garcia. You take this shit one step at a time, just like anything else. Letâs start with what we know.â
The handsome younger man sighed. âFine.â He pulled out the casefiles and Javi noticed how much calmer heâd seemed, less high strung⊠still high strung but that was just Santiago, Javi came to realize. âGabriel Martin Lorea, coke dealer, devout catholic and family man⊠none of which stops him from hiring hookers.â
Javi chuckles. âFew things do.â
âWell, marriage should, especially when you have children.â Santi glared at him.Â
His naivete, something Javi had been dreading with a younger partner, ended up endearing Santi to him. âRight, right of course.â He smiled and shook his head before lighting up a cigarette.
âDo you really have to do that indoors?â
âSo sue me. Iâm the one smoking, itâs not like it can hurt you.â
âI donât know, I heard of a study that secondhand smoke can-â
Javi blew a puff of smoke in Santiâs face. âThatâs just anti-smoking propaganda pushed by doctors to sell more nicotine patches.â
*
Santi had dived right in. Once he had permission to taste, he very tentatively licked a strip up her folds and to the clit⊠and was suddenly a starved man, insatiable, desperate to devour her and drown in her juices.. She liked when he touched her clit so he was sure to latch his mouth over the hood. As he sucked, Candy instructed him to finger her and he was happy to oblige. This, he could handle at least.
âGood boyâŠâ Candy cooed at him. âSuch a good boy for me, so obedient.â
âWanna be good.â He mumbled into your core as he lapped at her, hips rutting against the bed. âWanna do good.â
When her fingers found his hair, tangling up in his curls and tugging just a bit, he couldnât help but whine into her, toes curling in his socks.
âYouâre doing so good, baby boy, so good, but Iâm gonna need you to stop.â
Stop? He didnât wanna stop. Santi wanted to die here with her⊠Was it time? How much time did he pay for- ait, he hadnât even paid her yet. What was her going rate? He didnât fucking care right now, right now heâd pay her his life savings, his military pension, his first born, whatever she wanted if he could cum.Â
âWhyyyyy?!â He simply went back to eating her out, taking every moment he had.
âBecause,â Candy pulled at his curls, forcing him to look up and crawl back up her golden body. âBecause you are about to cum, and I still wanna ride you.â
He could feel his eyes go wide at that. He wasnât stupid, he knew what that meant⊠but for someone who had only ever done missionary, the whole concept seemed so⊠dirty. Santi chuckled nervously, tucking his head into the crook of her neck. âIâll be honest, Candy, Iâm not sure how much longer Iâm gonna last as it is.â
He felt her chuckle. âLetâs slow down for a moment, then. I want you to undress.â
His breath hitched, but he made the move to undo his pants until she stopped him.
âUh-uh, Diego. Stand up. Let me watch you undress.â
Undress like⊠standing? By himself? All out there and naked? âUm⊠canât I do it here?â
âYou can.â She confirmed with a kind smile. âBut Iâd really like to watch you strip for me.â
How could he resist that? Tentative, slow and careful, Santi stood up and Candy sat on the edge of the bed, bottoms off but still clothed top. âAre you gonna take that off?â It was half a joke, half a genuine question.
Candy nodded. âI will, just trust me.â
And he did, with everything in him.
So he took off his shirt.
*
âOkay. Catholic. Do we know what church he goes to?â
Javi raised an eyebrow? âYou think a drug lord is going to daily mass?â
âNo, but if heâs devout I assume heâs got a family that goes. Wife and children maybe, but definitely a mother. I donât know one woman over 50 who doesnât belong to a perish, especially a hispaña woman.â
âYou find a lot of company con mujeres mayor, amigo?â
âShut up. I say we start there. If we can find out about his family's church, we can probably find out a little more.â
Apprehensive as always, Javi crossed his legs, doubtful. âI donât know, what can we possibly find out?â
Santi shrugged. âNot sure, but churches have a lot of records when it comes to members and if he has a family that is active we might find out something useful.â
âIs this really the best use of our time?â
Javi raised a good point, this might be a dead end, and they would have wasted all that time. âJust give me a picture of all known families and Iâll keep an eye out.â
Now that caught Javiâs attention, cocking an eyebrow at him. âYou go to church, Garcia?â
A faint blush crept up Santiâs neck. His mother was very religious, that religion instilled into him and his sister. His sister couldnât care less anymore, but then again she had never cared much about their motherâs harsh opinions and strict standards⊠Santi did. And so, even now with her passing, Santi attended mass often. Not a part of a regular perish, he just attended where he could and when his schedule allowed. The old women there did love him, but Santi knew Javi would never let that go. âTengo muchas tĂas y primos en la zona. Si no muestro mi cara en la iglesia a veces, se lo dirĂĄn a mi madre y nunca escucharĂ© el final.â
Javi didnât need to know his mom was dead.
*
Santi nervously slides down his trousers and underwear, revealing the last bit of himself to Candy. Except for his tube socks. He wasn't sure what to do about those.
âCan I⊠move now?â He asked, a tremble in his soft voice.
She cocked her head to the side. âDoes it make you nervous? To be seen like this.â
âTo be seen like what?â
Candy stood up. âNaked, vulnerable, in full lightingâŠâ She walked over towards him and placed her hands on her chest. âTo let someone be able to see every part, every dipâŠâ She felt over the ripples of his stomach muscles. âEvery.â Lower. âSingle.â Lower. âInch.â Grabbing onto his hardened cock and began stroking it.
Santi let out a shuttered gasp at the touch of her hand. With her other one she lifted it to his mouth. âLick, pretty boy.â
He was happy to oblige, not needing to know why. He didnât need to ask questions with her, he could simply shut off his mind and let Candy guide him⊠mother knows best. Santi lapped at her palm, keening into it as the wetness smeared on his face.
âSuch a good puppyâ
The whine that emitted from him was out of him control; he liked the praise, he liked the nickname. He liked it a lot. He had been taught his whole life that sex was for procreation, a dirty thing to be done in shame and in quiet but here she was, proudly jerking him off with the now-wet hand⊠His mom would have said she was consumed by lust, that the devil had taken her, but Santo saw nothing but kindness in her eyes. Yes, he was paying her, he was well aware of that fact but she did genuinely seem to want to help him, to let him explore, to allow him to care for this basic human instinct⊠Was this dirty? Was this wrong? He wasnât sure he cared anymore.
âDoing so good baby boy, are you close?â
He was seconds away from coming. âS-so close.â He had his head thrown back, letting her take the lead on his pleasure.
With that, she wrapped her hand around the base of his cock, stifling his impending orgasm.
âMierde!â Santiago grunted, body jolting a bit in the physical frustration.
âRelaje, guapo. Trust me, okay? Can you do that?â
He groaned, but complied. Santi trusted her with everything. Right now, heâd follow her into the dark.
*
âAlright, so Pope Santiago will case the churches in his free time. Where does that leave us during the time we actually get paid for?â Javi thought the nickname was fitting for the apparently religious boy.
âI think we need to learn more about his free time.â Javi put out his cigarette. âHow about we talk to some girls, see if they know anything?â
Santi narrowed his eyes in confusion. âGirls?â
âHookers, Pope, hookers.â
âOh.âÂ
Javi noticed how he suddenly became so nervous. The boy needed to get laid. The new information of Santi being at least semi-religious was a whole new insight on his psyche. He already seemed to be a bit of a mamaâs boy, a goody-two-shoes with a shiny military career and a good heart, but this was a little different. Javierâs family was catholic, as most families were. He had been baptized, first communion, confirmed, the whole jazz but as soon as heâd got annoying enough, his mom stopped bushing the issue. Santi, however, was still practicing.
âIâll handle that part, Garcia. Donât worry, I won't drag the Pope into a whore house.â
Javi had no doubt Santi could hold his own in most scenarios. Hell, heâd seen it. In line of fire, interviews, everything Santi could handle. But take him into a room full of prostitutes? Well, theyâd eat him alive.
*
âAre you ready for me, pretty boy?â You had him right where you wanted him, right where you liked pretty boys like him that you got to corrupt in moments like this⊠Santiago was special though, you could tell. He was innocent, but he was far from the most innocent. Youâd taken plenty of virginities before, so many youâd lost track of it all, but the way Santiago looked at you right now as he was sat up against the padded headboard of your bed slowly stroking him as your legs straddled his. Santiago looked at you with reverence, adoration, like he was fully submitted below you⊠as if you had the power, even though it was in his hands as the customer. Yeah, he was a special one.Â
 A good, young DEA agent, straightline former military, special Ops and he came to you to show him how to pleasure a woman; not just to have sex, not just to get off, but to learn how to heighten the pleasure of all parties⊠A church going boy too.Â
âDo I need to beg? Because Iâll fucking beg.â His hands were gripped at the sheets, lightning at the knuckles.
âOh sweet boy, I wonât make you beg, Iâm just checking in.â You sit up, rubbing the tip of his cock along your folds. Pulling down the foreskin, you begin to sink down on him, watching his eyes widen as your warmth enveloped him. He filled you right up. Every. Single. Inch.
âBreath baby, breath.â You urge him as you see his lips pressed tight together.Â
He did as he was told, releasing a breath.Â
âGood job. Now keep breathing, Iâm going to finish undressing.â His cock was stuffed into you, and your bottom remained still as your top moved, stipping off your shirt and bra in one.Â
It was merely a whisper. âBeautifulâŠâ His eyes were nearly glazed over in lust when you began your work.
Up, down, up, down⊠you moved on him with your hands on his chest for balance⊠he seemed almost in shock as he looked in your eyes, only staying momentarily to look at your breasts before quickly looking back at your face as if it was impolite.
âItâs okay to look, Diego. You wonât offend me. You can find me sexy, do you think Iâm sexy, Diego?â
âSo prettyâŠâ It was gasped out and you could tell he was almost there again.
You began to bounce on him with more vigor and the âYou can touch me tooâ
âIâm⊠Iâm a little scared tooâŠâ
Running your fingers through his curls, you ruffle it, enjoying the look of the pristine young man coming undone for you. You take the initiative for him. Hand in hand, you guide him to your breasts, encouraging Santiago to grope and squeeze as he liked and you reveal in the feeling of feeling of his excited pawing. He was enraptured in you, you and him were the only thing that matter right now, and you knew it. You stretched around him, and you knew it had to be one hell of sight.
âWatchâ Pulling him by his curls you guide him to look down where you and him connected, letting him watch the watch your cunt moved to accommodate him, making room to be filled over and over again. âSee how my body letâs you in? I was made for you, pretty boy. I was made to take you inside me.â
The thick stretch was bringing you closer, and you knew he was only holding on by a thread himself, so you began to touch yourself. âFocus on that feeling, Diego. The feeling of us together. Can you feel it? I sure can.â
âI- I can, yes.â He was panting now, his bare tanned chest heaving with every bounce of you tits in his hands.Â
âYes what?â But he looked up at you in confusion, a desperation on his face to be good, do good, do this all right. âYes maâamâ
âYes ma- maâammmmâ With that, Santiagoâs hits thrust upward into you, his eyes drilled shut and mouth tightly closed in his attempt to muffle his own release.
You did no such thing. As he filled you up, you spilled over yourself and felt the gushing release of your cunt soaking his cock, you yelled out for him, letting him know how good he made you feel. Relaxing onto his chest, Santiago wraps his arms around you like an affection-starved child, and you get a little hint into what you think this was all about.
He needed praise. He needed fondness. He needed skin to skin contact like nothing else right now. He needed to be a good person and do it all right and know he was doing it right.Â
Santiago needed to be loved.
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what is up, it's your boy, đ„ anon (please let me be đ„ anon), come to climb through your window with a stack of notes instead of limiting myself to method acting a little bitch at the foot of your front door
so crazy self-indulgent idea I just had BUT hear me out. hear me out on dreameater!reader AU
say they're originally some sort of metaphysical species like the heliobi, but somehow sustained an injury and decided to seek treatment at the luofu as a last resort. it ends with an experimental solution with someone who'd gotten info about the experiments of the sanctus medicus (like how in the quest, dan shu wanted to get immortal bodies from phantylia so bad but they'd exhausted all other means of artificially producing themâand then some clown disposed of the records badly like an IDIOT)
and it kind of works â â â ( °ăźÂ° ) !! reader's form is tied to and sustained by the new body like an extremely codependent version of heliobi-possesed ingenium, but it requires the consumption of 'dreams' to support itself. mara is an overload of memories that morphs the mortal form when it hits a max output, so what if some other form of memories, aka dreams and the emotions that they come with can be changed into a source capable of sustaining a mortal form? dreameating is definitely not a form of vampirism haha what? this was totallt not inspired by your previous posts about vampire jing yuan no siree i have no idea what you're talking abou
but anyway. they meet after a battle of some sort where jing yuan gets bonked so fucking hard he gets coma-ed. maybe a side of possible mara onset because if I was a disciple of sanctus medicus you can bet everything in your blog that mara would be the first thing I'd turn to to fuck people over
maybe this is my fate as a self insert. half aha half yaoshi follower of a SM member that is an unwitting plot device and a but who the fuck cares that's not the point rn
sure would be crazy if there was someone around with the ability to seep into people's dreams huh
sure would be crazy if they decided to just ,,, slip into the general's mind to try and see what's going on there, after overhearing the healers working on him whispering among themselves that they don't know what's wrong with him, don't know how to fix it at all
,,, they'll just figure out a way to anonymously tip the healers off, if they figure anything out from their little venture into his head ! pardon the intrusion, dear patient °Ő(ááŁá)Ő° ,,,
- bonus points if the fact jing yuan is an arbiter-general just floats in a detached bubble, somewhere in reader's mind, because their job is to be a healer !! to live up to the person who'd saved them in their time of need's ideals !!!! who has time to worry about getting caught as being a weird ahh amalgation if they can save someone's life amiright !
I didnât think about the dream sequence in detail, but what I do know is that jing yuan's subconscious (possibly the actual consciousness too?) would briefly interact with dreamwalking!reader. the natural instinct to having something poke about in your mind in a vulnerable state is to crush it like a cockroach, no shit, but what do you do when it really doesnât seem to have any malicious intent, and somehow seems to be ,,, helping?
(but their brand of dreamwalking isn't meant for harmless brushesâits meant to devour, to rip sustenance from a mind no matter how guarded it is, to patch the endless yawning abyss that hungers for dreams to keep reader's body from failing on them. reader hasn't been gorging themselves or taking as little as possible because they understand that some things are unavoidable, that they can't keep themself or their patients alive if they're teetering on the edge of frailty all the time. some things have to be done, and they refuse to feel any guilt over it.)
but yeah !! me when I fuck up and accidentally fall into someone's dream, and have to play along with the disjointed imaginary going ons to drag said someone out of it without destabilising everything enough to immediately flashbang them with mara.
me when they wake up but still remember bits and pieces of what had happened in their dream because they're a fucking ARBITER-GENERAL with all the mental fortitude and skill required of one, especially bc they've lasted numerous centuries in that position
me when I suspiciously fall ill right after the patient in a coma wakes up ("guys it's just a cold trust *doubles over like they just got kicked in the crotch when their fellow healer unexpectedly opens a window and now there are spikes of pure light stabbing into their brain oh god oh fuck*")
that's all I have so far, unfortunately ,,, âź(ïżŁâœïżŁ"")â thanks for reading all the way to this point if you did, though !! I'm considering making a new account to moot you, one for hsr content because I like my fandoms separated :D
more notes:
- reader probably has a history of being good with mind related ailments despite always having denied credit, half the healers they're friends with consider them a lucky charm for these matters, the other half think that reader is definitely doing SOMETHING but hey, people get fixed all the same so who gaf. them being a pretty decent coworker who's a hardcore grinder on the job and dedicated to the point that overwork ceases to exist half the time (dreameating has its perks) probably leads them to not mentioning it to anyone else, in case it causes reader trouble.
but who's to say that a certain general won't happen to catch wind about his mystery saviour?
- reader has been on the luofu for quite a while too, their legal documents file them as being a xianzhou nativeâwhich would be backed up by the biological makeup of their false body on a surface level ( âąÌáŽâąÌ )Ù ÌÌ
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Let đ„ anon cook!!!! This was such a treat to read during brunch bc thereâs so much you can explore with the dreameater concept plus a highly perceptive and seasoned arbiter-general.
What would the feeling of having your dreams eaten feel like afterward for the victim? Sort of like with a vampire bite that could leave a physical wound, dull or searing ache, effects of blood loss etc etc.
Could a dream being eaten, since itâs not a simple and easy procedure, cause some sort of ache or short term problem for the person? Maybe itâs leaves a short period of a few days where the person feels like theyâve forgotten something that theyâre sure they should have remembered. Like phantom limb but for a dream perhaps. Like a dull headache that isnât severe but annoyingly present for a few days as the mind tries to cope with the loss of something that was supposed to be processed. Maybe these kind of issues can only be seen in Jing Yuan due to his mental fortitude and strength or bc he was still under whereas your usual patients undergo a different process to prevent these. Dire times and desperate measures to ensure the general is saved.
And the dream walking would be interesting too! How would the reader handle it? Is there a game plan? If most dreams will have strangers we may have seen in our peripheral during the day, will you try to play it smart and blend in as a filler person in the dream? Trying to blend in?
Perhaps your targeted dream eating of sequences in his mind that may be contributing to mara even has repercussions for you afterwards. Maybe like how you mentioned you get ill afterwards like when eating something of poor quality (due to mara effects). A necessary sacrifice that you arenât quite sure why you felt inclined to do. Perhaps it brings your body vessel at risk since it is one of xianzhou nativesâ qualities. Would it be susceptible to being mara-struck?
I can yap on and on
Anon if you ever write this pls pls pls tag me or send it to me bc I would looove to read your explorations on this. Itâs delicious for a plot!!!!! Mwah mwah đ
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hey! we need to talk.
well hello again!! i hope youâre all doing well. i feel like itâs been a minute since iâve actually spoken to anyone on here.
as some of you may or may not have noticed, iâve been pretty absent on this blog lately. at least, more than i usually am. i havenât posted any writing in well over a month which is a little out of character for me. iâve had quite a few writing blogs on here and i canât really recall a time where itâs been that long without me posting at least a drabble.
in my time away from this app and from fic writing in general, iâve realized a couple things changing about myself + my attitude towards this place in general.
honestly, iâve come to the conclusion that i donât really get the same satisfaction from writing on here as i used to. it could be due to the lack of feedback from the general public on here, or really just me admitting that i donât want to write for pre-existing characters/storylines forever. letâs settle it as a mixture of both!
and donât get me wrong, i still enjoy fanfiction writing. i adore the community here and the people iâve had the privilege to meet even through the littlest moments. itâs made me not only a better creative, but also just better in general.
iâve just been doing this kind of thing for so long (really since i was in 1st grade mapping out my first warrior cats fanmade storyline and oc), and i think between that, and all of these more mature/explicit writing blogs iâve had in the past 4-5 years, maybe iâve just grown tired of ALWAYS resorting to fanfiction.
iâve always wanted to create something that is truly mine, and i feel like iâve been sort of âlimitingâ myself this whole time in a weird way. a part of me knows it isnât true, since this has been pretty expansive for my creativity. and itâs an art form that, in my opinion, doesnât get anywhere near enough credit for all of the thought that goes into it. i mean, you have to be pretty damn creative to be able to write multiple descriptions of sexual penetration in the same oneshot that actually sound good, and donât sound like they were ripped straight out of booktok. just saying! (that was a joke please donât kill me)
anyways, this is getting to be way too long of a post for something so unimportant LMAO.
to get to the point, iâm not going to be active on this blog much longer. iâm probably going to post my final works in these next few months (possibly a few fics for my feeble attempt at a kinktober, and maybe a few for my bday month in december).
and just to clarify, this is in no way me saying that iâm leaving tumblr for good after those few months are up. this is also not me saying iâm quitting âfanmadeâ creative works forever. i still love writing a good fic and making fan art from time to time!
in the hopefully better part of this news, i have been planning out my art account for when i feel this blog has run its course and iâve made everything i need to make. i probably wonât announce it publicly, but for those who want it when that time comes, i will definitely make sure you get the url. as usual, mooties get first pickings when that time comes <3
i donât imagine this will disappoint many people since iâm not really âleavingâ but who knows. iâm not expecting many people to even read this far or even notice if iâm here or not lol. i just didnât want to deactivate out of the blue since that wouldnât make sense for me to do.
even though iâll still be on this blog for a few more months, i want to thank you all for giving me a space to grow and express myself. not just as a creative, but as a person too. this sounds really stupid and corny but i mean it. sure, iâve never made record numbers on here, iâm not the most popular, but i can say without a doubt i have a wonderful group of people around me on here. even if we never meet in person, or if we never interact again outside of this blog, all of you on here will always be somewhere in my memory and i will always be so grateful for you since you made me feel like i was good enough to be seen. even if it was for my shitty smut fics. <3
i love and appreciate every single one of you. letâs have a great last few months on here, ok?
vlynn
#important.#just a little something. thank you in advance if you read the whole thing <3#đ©âĄđȘ â sirenâs song
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I love it when people who at least have an idea of how these things work get questions like this.
Q. Did you hear Ryan's podcast? I'm vibrating at this point đđđ
A. Haha, I did listen to it, anon. It was a good reminder of why podcasts usually turn out to be the better interviews. If you're not aware, in 99% of print interviews the questions have been pre screened by the actors/show so they go into the interview already knowing pretty much everything they're going to say. It's why so many of them are repetitive. Podcasts tend to have a little more leeway. They usually only have to get topics pre-approved. So even though they know what topics are going to be discussed they don't usually know the specific questions. Now obviously those interviews come with greater risks because if your actor doesn't know how to edit themselves they could say something epically bad. Obviously this one was pre-recorded so he had a little bit of a safety cushion but it didn't appear to be heavily edited content wise. I love that he touched on the racist/bigoted thing. Even though this came prior to the entire Gerard nonsense, I'm glad he got a chance to tell those people how incredibly wrong they are where he is concerned. I hope he hasn't seen most of it, but given everything he has been tagged in I fear he has seen more than he should have ever had too.
He's in the position now that Oliver was last year. He's the one doing the promotional interviews, but he's just out of canned answers he can give, lol. There's nothing left for him to say except the 'thing' he can't yet say. So you can tell he's trying to make the same answers sound somewhat new and for the most part he was able to do that. It was though just one more thing that kind of made you go, yeah it's going where we think it's going. I just think the show is all out of later. They can't keep pushing the story to 'next season'. And I think that's why we're seeing so many winks and nods from ABC and the show. The comments they replied to yesterday were intentional. Yes, they deleted them but they knew the people who they were intended for would see them and remember them. It's time. Let's go.
Thanks Nonny!
Ah yes! Hard agree on everything here! I haven't seen/heard the whole podcast yet (I'm planning to listen tomorrow when I'm relaxing), but I've seen all of the videos, snippets and quotes about 911 and Eddie that were posted online.
Everything is aligning and people are noticing the change. There is this tentative surge of emotion of 'Oh wow, this is it. It's actually happening this time. No more clowning,' going around in fandom and even beyond the fandom. Love that for us.
So yeah, the time is right.
The time is now.
Let's go!
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