#and i am madly in love with him 😞

[goldennika]

(source)

my taste in men revealed

[love-belle]

every dead end street led you straight to me !!!

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ in which no one knows how they're both each other's daylight.

or

for when you find the one you were meant to find all along. ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

social media au // f1 drivers x platonic!driver!fem!reader // milo manheim x fem!reader

warnings - language

author's note - i am SO sorry for leaving u all but i had my finals going on and now i am DONE with school i just have my college entrance exams left and then im free free FREEEEEE !!!! i love u all sm thank you <333 i hope u like this !!

≡;- ꒰ °instagram ꒱

liked by milomanheim, lewishamilton, carmenmmundt and 2,528,519 others

yourusername me n baby boy

edit : he says it's baby MAN i disagree ☝️‼️

11,528 comments

username NAHHHH HOLD UP ☝️☝️☝️☝️

username who u calling baby boy 😞

username gf reveal his face we won't be mean to him pls pls pslase

username screaming what in the world in this

username y/n soft launching her man wasn't on my bingo card this year like OH KAY

username bf reveal when ‼️‼️‼️

username LMAOOOO THE EDIT

username cannot wait for the grid to be summoned and be Weird

landonorris i thought i was the baby boy

-> yourusername girl u r a problem species

-> yourusername he says u can be his baby boy tho 🫵🫵

-> landonorris no thanks

-> yourusername FUCK UUUU FUCKKKKKK U - the bf

-> username lord what is this

username speechless who is THAT

username milo 🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨 did u get lost 🤨🤨🤨🤨

-> milomanheim wdym i'm not even here

-> username gaslighter 🫵🫵

username cannot wait for race weekend it's gonna be sooooooo fun 🤞🗣️🗣️🗣️

alexandrasaintmleux the cutest 💘

-> yourusername no u 🫵🫵🫵

-> charles_leclerc stop trying to steal my girlfriend please

-> yourusername stop flirting with my bf maybe ?????

-> alexandrasaintmleux charles ?

-> charles_leclerc this isn't what it looks like

username y/n casually wrecking homes and stealing her colleagues gfs lile yasssss queen i support it

-> username support women's rights and wrongs 🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️‼️‼️🤞🤞🤞

username madly obsessed with her this is life altering to me

milomanheim real life angel visited the angel store !!!!!!! employees must've been happy

-> maxverstappen1 biblically accurate angel but sure

-> yourusername i pray on ur downfall every minute

milomanheim "baby boy" wasn't even directed at me and i blushed

-> yourusername homewrecker vibes stay AWAY!!!! 🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺

-> milomanheim wow

≡;- ꒰ °instagram ꒱

liked by yourusername, landonorris, alex_albon and 2,157,816 others

milomanheim ur in her dms i'm on google searching nutrient rich soils i'd keep her in if she was a worm

10,996 comments

username DEAD GONE DECEASED SIX FEET UNDER

username usually i don't get men but like,,,,,,okayyyyshajshsjsjsd haha hi!!!!!!!!!

username HANDS HANDS HANDS HANDS HANDS HANDS HANDS HANDS HANDS

*liked by yourusername*

-> username MISS GIRL WTFFF

-> username no y/n get UPPPPP

username prettiest boy oh my god

username not to alarm anyone but half the grid is here and i am having Thoughts

username Y/N??? LANDO??? ALEX???

-> username my met gala honestly

alex_albon delete the caption before lily sees it 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

-> milomanheim let the queen know she shouldn't settle for less ☝️🗣️

-> lilymhe yeah alex you're being a 🚩🚩🚩 right now

-> alex_albon oh god

username ALEX AND LILY BEING BSF WITH MILO????? WHAT IS THIS????? WHAT WILL BE NEXT????? LEWIS GIVING HIM FASHION ADVICE????? CHARLES SAYING SOME INCOHERENT SHIT?????

-> username baby breathe

-> username FUCK OFF LUCAS

lewishamilton i see someone's challenging my paddock icon title

-> milomanheim watch your back hamilton (U ARE ICONIC I COULD NEVER U ALWAYS POP OFF KING LIKE EAT UP EVERY SINGLE TIME)

-> lewishamilton i really like you

-> milomanheim DIED

username i feel things looking at those pictures OH MY GOD

username no bc if y/n and milo are together i will simply combust bc HAVE U SEEN THEM???? I BI PANIC I BI PANICKED

username everyday i wake up and bless god for milo manheim ❤️

username the way i KNOW he posted this for y/n like just trust me

-> username girl they don't even know each other ☝️

-> username TRUST ✊✊✊

yourusername HANDS HANDS HANDS HANSD HSNDS

*this comment was deleted*

yourusername nice

-> milomanheim ty

yourusername i see the vibe we went for was "raided grandpa's closest that was in my inheritance"

-> milomanheim sadly the only thing i inherited

-> yourusername that and those genes 😮‍💨

-> milomanheim that too 🥰

-> username oh yeah they're dating alright 👍

yourusername the filter is so cool

-> milomanheim ahahahahhaa rhank y

-> milomanheim thank you********

yourusername 🦕

-> milomanheim why

-> yourusername cute

-> milomanheim yes u are

-> username THE GASP I JUST GASPED

username y/n's engagement under this post goes WILD like

-> username girlie really commented the most random bullshit

username i bet the driver's gc is going CRAZY rn

-> username somewhere on this earth there is a george russell yelling at everyone in the gc to keep it strictly for professional things

-> username russell george i am sorry they are putting u through that😞😞😞

username MILOOOOOOOOOO AND Y/N IM SCREAMING

≡;- ꒰ °instagram stories ꒱

yourusername added to their close friends' stories

≡;- ꒰ °instagram ꒱

liked by milomanheim, maxverstappen1, lilymhe and 2,517,986 others

yourusername there are things (inappropriate stuff) i wanna say to u (my BOYFRIEND) but i'll just let u (my COLLEAGUES) live

11,962 comments

username she's so real for this

username speak ur truth queen 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

username her pr team is trying so HARD like i feel like they don't get paid enough to deal with all this

-> yourusername i'll take that as a compliment thank u

username the power couple and we don't even know who he is

-> username mama y papa

-> username honestly they eat up everyone with these pictures

username hidden and secret and private??? girl really picked out her battles

username LOVE LOVE LOVEEEE this for her

landonorris thank you because i saw what you texted him this morning and osc had to physically stop me from bathing with bleach

-> yourusername why are u acting as if u literally didn't just straight up ask us if we "needed a third"

-> landonorris LIES SHE LIES SHE'S A LIAR

-> oscarpiastri mate the entire paddock was there

-> landonorris details but like..........do u

-> yourusername do we what.

-> landonorris ............need a third

-> mclaren oh hello ! guess who just lost their phone PRIVILEGES

username screaming bc they're already parents

-> username he's an absent father but ok

username babe come home the kids and the cats and the cow and that goat miss u ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

username mother never misses

username lewis WISHES he was her

-> yourusername RIGHTTTT

-> lewishamilton roscoe's godmother privileges REVOKED

username f1 grid will never fail to make to laugh bc what do u mean lando asked y/n and the bf if he needed a third and what do u MEAN that y/n is roscoe's godmother

username live laugh toaster bath sayonara 😞

-> username felt this in my bones

milomanheim speak out ur truth queen !!!!!!

-> yourusername i did

-> charles_leclerc is that why he's redder than my car righOH MY GOD PEOPLE CAN SEE YOU

-> yourusername charles LOOK AWAY !!!!!!

-> username no bc

-> username oh

-> username she bout to be yelled at by her manager i can FEEL her anger rn

username that man better know how to fight bc the grid can and WILL come for him if he does something

-> milomanheim i am scared

-> yourusername uh

-> milomanheim for him i mean haha autocorrect

-> username did he just

-> username oh yeah

-> username all that build up and for milo to just

-> username guess who's sleeping on the couch

milomanheim before u say anything

-> yourusername i am SO disappointed rn

-> milomanheim I'M SORRY

-> yourusername :(( i had 3 months of soft/hard launch planned with annotations and notes

-> milomanheim we can still do that!!! anything u want!!!

milomanheim i love u

-> yourusername ok

-> milomanheim girl

-> yourusername wow ok damn i love u more then ig 😒

-> milomanheim ❤️

-> username fuck u both STOP RUINING SINGLE PEOPLE'S LIVES

-> username crazy about them

≡;- ꒰ °instagram ꒱

liked by yourusername, carlossainz55, charles_leclerc and 2,317,637 others

milomanheim something about how taylor swift said every dead end street led u straight to me 💘

tagged yourusername

11,628 comments

username I SCREECHED OH MY GOD

username we knew but OH MY GOD THE REVEAL

username and everyone cheered

username roman empire or roman empire

username THAT DOODLE IS SO CUTE WHAT THE FUCK I WILL CRY RN

-> yourusername it's how he won me over

-> milomanheim wait actually

-> yourusername yes 🥰

-> milomanheim i thought it was me saying PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE till u agreed

-> yourusername that probably sealed the deal 💘

-> username i love how he's so "golden retriever" bf and she's "just proud of him in whatever case" gf

-> username truly mom and dad

username i don't wanna hear bitches say love ain't real anymore bc how do u explain THIS

username taylor wrote that song for them trust she told me herself

username WHAT THE FUCK THE LEGO FLOWERS IM CRYING

-> username he set the bar so high it's a dash at this point

username in love with both of them honestly

username crying LOOK AT THEM!!!!!

landonorris how you've both grown up! i still remember the first time she saw you and cried to me about how fucking pretty you are :)

-> milomanheim OHHHH ????

-> yourusername im gonna jump u this weekend WATCH UR FUCKING BACK

-> username nah bc y/n is so real for this

username milo with that drawing is so "what if i told u i'm a mastermind"

-> username NAH HONESTLY

-> username bro prophesied his relationship

username if my relationship isn't like this then i don't want it 💔💔💔

username lord i see how kind u have been to others

username and adding onto my 252719262 reasons we have THIS

username all the love songs in the universe are about them fyi !!!!!!

username AHHSHSHSHDHSJJDJDNX 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

yourusername also about how she said i wanna teach u how forever feels

-> milomanheim nah bc u will like where r u gonna go 🤨

-> yourusername baby we were having a cute moment there

-> milomanheim BABY 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️‼️‼️‼️😬😬😬😬🤞🤞🤞🤞🔥🔥🔥🔥💯💯💯💯

-> charles_leclerc give him some time he's buffering

-> username something tells me that this is a very regular occurrence

-> oscarpiastri it is

yourusername my baby's fit like a daydream

-> milomanheim 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️❤️❤️❤️❤️‼️‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥🔥🔥💯💯💯💯🥰🥰🥰🥰☝️☝️☝️☝️☝️

-> username what is happening

-> oscarpiastri just give him some time

yourusername not to be a hopeful romantic loser on the main but i find u in every love song i listen to so yea

-> milomanheim look at u being nice for once

-> yourusername boy i will block u

yourusername love u

-> milomanheim who love me

-> yourusername *i* love you

-> milomanheim ilyt

-> username NO HE DID NOT 😭😭😭

-> username bro needs to learn how to hesitate

≡;- ꒰ °instagram ꒱

liked by milomanheim, francisca.cgomes, alexandrasaintmleux and 2,785,159 others

yourusername if the whole world was watching i'd still dance with u

tagged milomanheim

12,628 comments

username GOODBYE

username this post right here your honour

username the way i teleported to the railway track

username SCREAMING SJSJTRBCUCJ

username pls block me b4 posting happy stuff (im so happy i cry)

landonorris you can't even order on your own sir DOWN

-> yourusername FUCK UUUUU OMG

username i just ascended to the pearly gates

username DRIVE HIGHWAYS AND BYWAYS TO BE THERE WITH U

-> username OVER AND OVER THE ONLY TRUTH

-> username EVERYTHING COMES BACK TO YOU

-> username i shed tears

username they're literally winning in life BOTH OF THEM

username NOT HIM PEELING ORANGES FOR HER IM GONNA SCREAM

username the orange theory is true and it's real because y/n and milo just proved it argue with air

username is no one gonna talk about how his name is saved as "mylo(ve) <3333"

-> username i had to take SEVERAL deep breaths so as to not break down in front of my family

-> username no one's doing it like them

username IN A WORLD OF BOYS HE'S A GENTLEMAN

*liked by yourusername*

lilymhe with me obviously 🙄

-> yourusername obviously

-> milomanheim 😧

-> alex_albon 😧

username if he doesn't stand outside my window with a sign asking when can he see me HE IS NOT THE ONE

-> username FRRRRR like stop‼️settling‼️for‼️less‼️

username going crazy over these photos like there's SO MUCH content

username y/n feeding us those milo crumbs

-> username nah she gave us whole PLATES with utensils and all ☝️☝️☝️

username i truly cannot wait for milo to be in her garage bc we all know that they're stupidly in love with each other and watching them giggling and smiling and laughing will be much more entertaining than racing

-> username nah bc bro doesn't know how to function with her around

-> username i don't even blame him bc that's Y/N Y/L/N

charles_leclerc how is this relationship gonna work when none of you has the guts to go and say that they got your order wrong

-> yourusername ur saying this as if alex hasn't been the one to go up and say that u asked for no pickles

-> charles_leclerc that was classified information

-> yourusername not anymore 🤗

username i live for y/n terrorizing the grid fueled by nothing but coffee and/or spite

username they're soooooooooooo disgusting im just gonna cry in a corner bc i do not have someone to peel my oranges for me and i have to do it myself like a common peasant

milomanheim i would peel oranges for u forever dw baby i got u 🍊🍊🍊

-> yourusername this is so sweet i cried stfu

milomanheim cannot believe i get to tell everyone ur my gf like OH MY GOD 😭😭😭

-> yourusername bf

-> milomanheim gf

-> landonorris bf AND gf ?

-> yourusername STOP ASKING

milomanheim wdym i cannot love u more than life itself 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 lies bc i do love u more than life itself

-> yourusername i would sacrifice max for u

-> milomanheim doesn't mean that much bc i know u would sacrifice him for a juice box

-> maxverstappen1 OH REALLLLLLLLY

milomanheim angel 🍒

-> yourusername no u

milomanheim u make me feel all golden like daylight

-> yourusername u make me feel all i like shiny things but i'd marry u with paper rings

-> username bye y'all this was fun

-> username brb i need to test if my toaster is waterproof or not

[brokenintwo]

Does knowing me more lead to loving me less?

I feel so unimportant and replaceable even to my partner, my best friends, all of them, classmates I genuinely don't understand what exactly makes ppl start taking me for granted.

Whilest I can't bear to not make ppl feel valuable, noticed and stay up nights to do stuff for them to feel appreciated, I feel like a second option, a tool to be stepped over, an afterthought :((

In the beginning they might reciprocate but as days go by they just take and take and reach out only when it's convenient for them😞

For once I want someone, atleast my partner that I love with all my heart, to sacrifice something for me(this is selfish I'm aware so I won't voice this desire) just to put me first and make me a priority. Upcoming vent:

I wish all my loved ones responded to every text and video I forward to them, no matter how silly.

I wish my partner made time for me even when he had exams or something important, just to show I'm that special(I don't know why I want this, I don't really want to cause him harm). I wish they'd be like yeah I'm in a rlly inconvenient moment rn, but it doesn't matter bcs you matter even more.

Whilest this is so childish and sounds immature even to me, I secretly felt jealous that he'd spend an hour calming down his friend having a panic attack, which led him to be late to gift me flowers. This inherently makes me hate myself bcs why am I so focused on the wrong thing and being ungrateful to the fact he got me flowers during lunch? I'm so madly jealous of how well his friends know him I can hardly bear it.

Ofc I'm not gonna actually bother him with these nasty, immature tantrums that I keep inside..I want to remain a kind hearted benevolent person in his eyes, I want him to keep that impression of me in his heart, not how toxic and jealous I rlly am☹️

My friend asked me well if you were feeling unwell he'd come over help you right? But..I couldn't answer. Maybe, rationally I know he would. But I feel like he wouldn't. I'd just be a burden to him. I think if I act difficult he'll get fed up, so I'm being as malleable and giving I can possibly be. But secretly I wish he'd love and care for me even if I couldn't be the best possible version of me. I want to fall sick just so I could know if he'd fuss over me or not, if he'd say I'm worried about you. The desire is consuming me wholely.

The way I love must be really overwhelming. I just wish someone (esp the one) would fight to prove the way I do to them to show they love me More, I HATE winning this I love you more game :((( I hate it I hate it I feel so worthless and unloved

[jeonjungkookenthusiast1997]

Han Jisung Masterlist

Navigation

My works will be female reader unless stated otherwise, this is just what I am most comfortable with sorry for any inconvenience caused by this 💙

I am a NSFW (18+) blog so minors please don't interact with my works. Don't translate, steal or edit my works.

(S)- Smut 🥵 (F)- Fluff ☺️(A)- Angst 😞

Tempting Fate

Demon AU (S) (A) (F)

Synopsis: Y/N in a bid to get revenge tries to summon a powerful demon prince called Bang Chan but the demon who she actually summons couldn't be more different. Han Jisung, an incubus, decides to show her how useful he can be.

First Loves and Second Glances

Roommates AU, Childhood friends AU, Friends to lovers AU

(S) (F)

Synopsis: Han Jisung is madly in love with his childhood best friend/roommate and has absolutely no way of telling her so he does what he thinks is best and pulls away from her. The pair end up having a movie night where all is revealed, changing the dynamics of their relationship forever.

i get dirty thoughts about you

Established relationship (S)

Bound by Blood

Synopsis: Y/N has been spending the afternoon in the studio with 3racha, once she realises that both Bang Chan and Changbin have fallen asleep she sees an opportunity to help her boyfriend relieve some stress 😋

Vampire AU, Roommate AU, Friends to Lovers AU

(S) (A) (F)

Synopsis: Y/N is currently living with her roommate Han Jisung, who also happens to be a vampire. When Han doesn't come out of his room for a couple days Y/N begins to worry, what will she find when she enters his room to check on him?

[pearlzier]

omg I haven't even made it to when they introduce SB but im just so madly in love with jensen i just assume "YEP. THIS IS SOO HIM." i am so desperately down bad. help me.

LITERALLY SO REAL MHEJAHS when i started watching the boys i was like YEAH. THIS IS GREAT and jensen just <3 😞😞 love him sm im literally down diabolically its okay

[by-kilian]

These past two chapter were absolutely, gut-wrenching.. you see i went through the 5 stages of greif during every single scene, KW, i sincerely, madly and deeply would like to read an actual novel of yours, you are and absolute gem, one im very glad to know albeit being hidden.. it’s like you’re my little secret.

They way you describe killian and levi, the way you describe everything, make me feel as if im a part of them, i felt the harsh twist of switchblade, i felt the gunshot, i felt sofias sadness, i felt levi’s beating love for kilian, and i as much as i felt greif, i felt it’s warmth and it’s love.. I’m sorry if I’m not making any sense but your words made me absolutely speechless till the point idek what to say..

Every scene felt like a master scene and i really applause you for the way your wrote these chapters, it’s.. fascinating and mesmerizing really, the way you bend words under your mercy like some-kind of an alluring witch your writing is immaculate

When you blinked your eyes open, the first person you saw was Levi. His smile was bright and warm. It made you feel weightless. It made you feel loved. You smiled back, albeit weakly. Levi squeezed your hand gently, still smiling. “Welcome back, sweetheart,” he whispered.  

CMON KW WTF IS THAT AND WHY IS MY HEART SHATTERED ON THE GROUND TO SHREDS.

Spoiler alert because i need to scream:

Okay now let’s first talk about mathias this stinky grey hairy ass stalkish asshole.. i want him dead like absolutely dead no breathing again for him😞 KILIAN MY SLEEPING BEAUTY RISE FROM DEATH AND SLIT HIS THROAT MY BABY ILL HAVE UR BACK

Okay i can’t not mention this jerk and not talk about the amazing.. like absolutely jaw dropping conversation he had with our fallen angel..

“We were bound to meet, and if you didn’t stop, I’m quite sure we would have,”

“What is that expression? ‘Better the devil you know than the devil you don’t?’ Well. I knew it was only a matter of time before you returned to the work you know best.”

Well i sure as hell didn’t expect that tbh.. i think i can’t describe what I’m feeling from how much I’ve felt during these few hours😭😭 HELP KW WHAT HAVE YOU DONE

Tell me something,” he said, slipping a hand in his pants pocket and sniffling. “Do you ever miss it? You must.”Your fingers ticked along your sides in response and Mathias grinned, like a wolf baring its teeth. “You do,” he said. “Don’t look so enraged at the thought. A devil cannot change no matter how hard they try. It doesn’t work that way. Still,” he said contemplatively, rubbing his thumb against his index finger and studying his hands. “I’m so pleased that in your attempt to change, it merely led you back to me,” he said, blinking fondly at you. You remained unfazed yet quiet, calculating every move possible in the brief moment of silence Mathias offered to you. He tilted his head at you and smiled, empty yet again. “From one devil to another, I really am glad to have finally met you, Kilian.” 

THIS IS ICONIC IN EVERY LANGUAGE KNOWN TO MAN KIND—

Now excuse me i really need to have some sleep to function properly because i binged the 2 chapters and i can’t fathom what I’m saying or even type basic English anymore so that’s part one😭

Your lovely “💙“ anon

Omg, 💙 anon! It is SO lovely to hear from you my darling 😭❤️. I can't even begin to thank you for your thoughtfully detailed asks because you have sincerely made my days, both yesterday and today. I'll answer everything under a cut but seriously, thank you so much for this. I cherish you! 🥹

TRUTHFULLY, I MYSELF went through the 5 stages of grief writing this. LMAO! It was a deeply emotional process, but tbh, it is every time I write in some small way. I am so glad to be considered a gem to you. Really. ❤️ It's also honestly nice to be 'hidden', lol. I have never loved attention but despite that, I have a really solid, loyal following of readers and I love you all so much for sticking with me, whether you've been here since the beginning or just now made it. I love my little corner of solitude over here and I appreciate all of you for helping contribute to that.

And thank you for such a lovely compliment! I try so hard to tap into character emotions so if you can feel what they're feeling, you are fully immersed in the story which is what I always hope to achieve. I also put a lot of thought into each scene, choosing what to say and what not to say, so to be acknowledged for that means the world. Thank you so much for saying that. Also I will so take the title of a witch any day LOL! <3

Also ikr. Levi is such a sweet, sensitive person at his core that to see it spill out without hesitation now is really one of the purest things you could witness.

As for MATHIAS, writing that scene between him and Kilian was honestly like a fever dream. My hands were moving faster than my mind. I always knew from crafting his character who he was at his core, but to be able to reveal it to all of you made it all the more exciting. Like it had always been lurking underneath, under everything he did, and now you finally got to see him for what he was. If he ever alarmed you, you finally knew why. If he ever made you feel uneasy, now you could see why. It was such a pleasure to write that scene between the two of them!

Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU, my lovely 💙 anon for taking time out of your day to message me something so sweet. I will answer your other ask later tonight, but please know how much I treasure you! :3

[domjaehyun]

good morning my love <3 i hope u didn’t forget about me :( i’m so sorry for not stopping by in a while, i had to take off work last week bc my grandpa passed away and i had to be there for my family 🥺 it’s been really hard but i think i’m doing better now! and i wanted to pop in here and say i’m not gone bub !!!! 💖 how have you been doing for the days i haven’t been here? i hope you’ve been okay !!! i know last time i came here i told you one of my guy besties was visiting for the weekend and i had a lil crush on him lmaooo but i guess i haven’t seen him in a while and he changed so much and i was kinda like , ehhhh nevermind LOL but me my roommate and him had fun togther her since we were all friends in college !! :’) anyways ahhhh jewel i missed you so much and I’ll be here now <3 and AS PER USUAL i’ve been offline for a bit but i have a few more presents to share 💗💖💞💓💕💘 also i just noticed you posted a fic bub i will read it and give u feedback as soon as i can okay !! love u so much !!! — 🫧

HIIII BUBBLES MY LOVE i could never forget abt you!! oh i am so sorry for your loss that’s so terrible 😞 i never rly know what to say but just know that i am thinking of u very fondly and hope you and ur family can get through this !! i’ve been good!! just writing the fic i posted shfjsjfjd and !! the crush going away omg that’s happened to me before 😭😭 i’m glad you guys had fun though!!! OKAY IM ON MOBILE SO I CANT REMEMBER WHICH LINK WAS WHAT but just know that i screeched at all of these i am madly in love w him fr it’s getting worse 😭😭😭 i love u lots thank you for the presents 🥹🥹 i always love and appreciate them sm !!! and take ur time !!!

[la-pelotudez-de-jensen-ferrish]

Secret Crush On You (Spoiler)

I have to admit that it was difficult for me to start watching this series, I saw that many people said that it was cringy and I knew a little about the plot and it became a bit uncomfortable for me. Still I wanted to give it a try and after 3 attempts to see the first chapter I finally saw it complete😃​

The first chapters are a bit hard to swallow but I didn't feel as much cringe as people make it seem. I like that the script bothers to make it clear that what Toh is doing is not right and at the same time shows that Toh has never really broken any limits. It is a series that does not have a complicated plot and that focuses on the evolution of the characters and their relationships

There is something "curious" that I noticed while watching the series and that is that Nuea is a very simple character indeed. Nuea likes Toh and all his actions are based on that, that's it. Which I like because as he says in chapter 13: he is a normal and simple person, don't idealize him. I feel like this is more geared towards the audience than Toh

And with the issue of collecting things, we see it as something shady and we leave him as the weirdo and the one who needs therapy but Nuea has proven to be even more outgoing than Toh and it amuses me that no one notices.

The main couple is not my favorite but I find them cute and I like the level of communication and understanding they have. Something basic in a relationship but not many BL have it

Going to the other couples:

SkyJao: Sky is one of my favorite characters🥰​, from the beginning he is serious with Jao but at the same time he respects his space and his times. Many of us thought at first that he was going to be the typical character that follows his love interest everywhere and that he would force him to do things (as happens in many series🙄). However, he limited himself to transporting Jao ​​in his car and preparing him food and then when he saw Jao more comfortable, he was encouraged to do more things, always respecting Jao's space. Even on his first time he waited for the latter to make the first move. Regarding Jao, I loved that he was firm from the beginning and did not fall to Sky so quickly. I like the roles of this couple because they are completely unexpected because you expect it to be the other way around.

TouchDaisy: I would have loved to see more of them. Both as a couple and individually. Touch has all the earmarks of stealing the show if only he had appeared more. He has a gentle personality and I like that he doesn't beat around the bush. He was always very direct with Daisy and it shows in the way he smiles at her that he is madly in love🥺​ Regarding Daisy, for me it was a bit of a rushed scene and it was easy for her to be herself again. I'm a non-binary person and it's not as easy as "my crush said I'm fine so I'm back to me" in a matter of microseconds. I feel that this process should have been dealt more calmly and in depth😞

And I also liked the other couples. I think this show has the most lgbtq+ inclusion yet and in a non-comedy way. In addition to dealing with issues such as: gender identity, loving oneself, trusting your partner, etc.

Although I have flattered a large part of the series, I am not going to give it an excessive note😕 It didn't seem to have a logical structure, there were a lot of random events and it has a couple of clichés that I don't like (hubby/wifey, possessiveness, etc). As a plot, it doesn't has much either and the issue of Toh being half a stalker is sometimes forgotten and in the end they take it very lightly. The fact that he collects things is not a big deal, but the way he did it or that he even had Nuea blankets on his bed and that he imagined intimate things does seem to me. There are many aspects of Toh's acting that I wish had been talked about, but I'm still satisfied with the ending and I'm glad I didn't give it up.

6,75/10

[gonbeeyamada]

hi, I am madly in love with Alice's sad face on the floormaster art,, it's so pretty,,?

Like, I do not like seeing him sad, but if he gets a bajillion times prettier with a frown, gee golly gosh, it's definitely worth it

Even the halo is sad...😞

FLOOR MASTER ALICE HAS THE RANGE FOR POOR LITTLE MEOW MEOW

i really want fm alice to have meak and quiet personality whenever he's around reko and more flamboyant and antagonizing personality when he is alone with the participants i think it's a fun twist to his character but not too far off from his canon personality

[kingdomofkitten]

When You Realize You’re In Love: Part 5

*Haida ran for what felt like forever, until he found the place. The karaoke. If she was going to be anywhere to vent, it’d be here. He went in.*

Haida: Hi, has a red panda come in here?

Employee: ...you mean that girl who screams her head off?

Haida: ...yeah.

Employee: Yeah, she’s in. She seemed pretty upset, so, erm, you might need earmuffs.

Haida: I’m fine. *goes searching through the rooms*

Employee: ...your funeral, I guess.

*he searches through, finding nothing...he sighs, defeated, planning to walk away...until...he hears a voice...a faint, but loud voice.....screaming to the heavens, with a familiar, blodd-curdling growl*

Haida: Retsuko! 😀 *runs into the room where the voice is he loudest, and he sees her, her terrifying, borderline demonic death metal face howling in pure rage...and yet, it’s clear that tears are still coming strong from her*

Retsuko: FUCKING ASSHOLES! HOW COULD THEY?! WHO DO THEY THINK THEY ARE?! THAT WAS MY LOVE! YOU DESTROYED EVERYTHING! YOU RUINED THE ONE THING THAT KEPT ME GOING! HOW CAN I GO ON?! HOW CAN MY HEART LIVE?! I WANT HIM HERE! I WANT HIM NOW! HAIDAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! .....*she reverts to normal*......*she drops the mic* Haida......*she slumps to the ground, crying some more*

Haida: *trying to fight off tears* Retsuko...

Retsuko: *jumps at the sound of his voice* H-Haida! What are you doing here?! Isn’t the barbecue still going? I-I would think you would stay there...especially after what happened...

Haida: ...after what happened, I would rather dig into the pits of hell than be anywhere near those assholes. After what they did, after seeing you cry? Fuck that barbecue. I want to be here, with you.

Retsuko: ...b-but I-!

Haida: But nothing. I’ve wasted so much time waiting for a moment to be as close to you as I am now. No silly playdates, no alcohol, none of that. Just...you and me.

Retsuko: ...what else is there to say? I admitted how I felt, the evidence was shown to you, I said I couldn’t be yours. Feels like all the bases were covered. 😞

Haida: ...well, not quite. Firstly, I gotta know...how long had you been feeling that way?

Retsuko: ...well, the feelings have probably been bubbling up since....you know, at the hospital.

Haida: Oh, wow. 😳 That’s, uh...that’s a shock.

Retsuko: I know. I guess after that, and our first...well, “date,” if you will, I kind of just started really warming to you. Just being around you made me feel...at ease, I guess. Like suddenly, all was right with the world. Even if it clearly wasn’t. But it wasn’t until just a few days ago when I came to terms with how I felt. I just...started looking at photos at us...I just felt so happy looking at them...and then, out of the blue..I had a dream of us getting married.

Haida: *blushing madly* What?

Retsuko: Believe me, I was just as shocked as you were. But the thing was...it was such a happy dream. I remember us kissing...saying we love each other..it was wonderful, it really was! ...so, I asked Washimi for some help.....I guess you saw how that went...

Haida: ...well, actually, the funny thing is...it wasn’t like they showed off anything I didn’t know. *grabs out his phone*

Retsuko: Wh-what are you-*he pulls out...the texts* ....you....you got them?

Haida: Yeah. I don’t know if they meant to send it to shock me, or if it was by accident, but it got sent to me. At first, I didn’t know if it was real or not. Wondered if someone was pulling a cruel prank on me. But back at work today, Fenneko sent me some of her texts from you. Apparently you told her, too?

Retsuko: Yeah. Don’t know what I was expecting there.

Haida: So, yeah, I knew how you felt, but...I wanted to wait until I heard it directly from you...just wish it wasn’t in the context it ended up being in.

Retsuko: Yeah...

Haida: ...which brings me to the final point...if you love me...why don’t you want to me to be your boyfriend?

Retsuko: No, I DO! I want that more than anything! It’s just...*sigh* I’m scared.

Haida: Of what? Of what they might say?

Retsuko: No...of losing you. Of hurting you. 😞

Haida: .......oh......*starts chuckling a little*

Retsuko: ...what’s so funny?

Haida: I don’t know, I guess...that whole idea seems silly to me.

Retsuko: ...oh?

Haida: I mean, I had been crushing on you for quite a while, and wanted to know you proper during that time. And when I did get to, I found this super-cute girl I totally wouldn’t mind dating....turned out to be an incredibly beautiful woman, both inside...*blushes* and out, that I want to spend the rest of my life with.

Retsuko: ...H-Haida...

Haida: ...what I guess I’m trying to say, Retsuko, is...*comes in close to her* I love you too. ❤️ And I know, I get you being scared. Believe me, I’m scared too. I’m scared of...well, losing you. But I’m willing to take my chances, and do my best to be a good boyfriend. *grabs her hands* I can’t promise you a whole lot. I don’t have a lot of money, I don’t have some super sweet house, I can barely play punk rock very well...all I can give is my heart. And that’s it.

Retsuko: ...Haida...*puts her hands to his sides* your heart is all I need right now. *pulls him in for a soft, but very sweet kiss*

Haida: Mm! ...mmmmmmm~ ❤️

Retsuko: Mmmmmhmhmhm~! *breaks the kiss* ...soooo, is this it? Are we a thing now?

Haida: If you’d like to be.

Retsuko: ...I’d love to! *glomps him, and the two laugh happily*

*while this is going on, Fenneko, Washimi, Gori, and Tsunoda are watching from outside*

Gori: Aw, look at them! How adorable. 😊

Fenneko: The son of a bitch actually did it.

Washimi: Hmhm! Well, it seems she’s happy. I just hope it stays that way.

Fenneko: Eh, if I know them, I get the feeling they’ll be just fine.

Tsunoda: ...soooo, Fenneko...you wanna hang out, some time soon?

Fenneko: ...

Tsunoda: ...

Fenneko: ...alright. Who else could tag along?

Tsunoda: How about that giant guy, Manumaru?

Fenneko: ...cool.

Tsunoda: Great! See you then! 😉 *starts walking away* TON!

*as if on cue, Ton walks in, seemingly intimidating the gang*

Fenneko: ....fuuuuuuck. 😨

Ton: ...is Retsuko in there?

Washimi: ...she is.

Ton: Haida?

Fenneko: He’s in there too.

Ton: Good....tell them Tsubone and Komiya are temporarily suspended from working with the company. They’re good workers, but that was unforgivable at this moment. And Haida will have to take a cut from his paycheck over his punch from earlier. *starts leaving*

Fenneko: Well, wait a minute! You’re usually pretty rough on Retsuko, and Tsubone and Komiya were like your lackeys. Why are you being lenient on her here?

Washimi: Probably because it involved me, so you’re concerned it would affect your position?

Ton: ....surprisingly, no.

Washimi: ...then...what is it?

Ton: ...I thought they seemed cute together. *leaves*

Washimi: ...wha...

Gori: ...

Tsunoda: ...I, uh...

Fenneko: ....well. My two best friends are in a relationship, and our horrible boss ships it. If that’s not a segway to drinking myself into oblivion, I don’t know what is. *leaves*

Tsunoda: .....you know, I think I might join her. *leaves*

Gori: .....same. *leaves*

Washimi: ....*sigh*......*leaves*

[annislife]

What is wrong with me..

Why I keep doing this 😞 

It always happens in the same way.. I find something about him that I did´nt know before (right now, a picture caption in his IG, saying “thank you for the photograph and a smile that he usually uses with me when saying good night or sth..). First I notice only a slight scratch in my soul. Now, maybe I even want to make a joke- uu what comment is that, so secret, without a name, with that smile... Thinking, it is some guy for example. First usually I feel very less. But then, his responses change that enormously. First he answered a bit fa-fa way- what do you think who she is (in Estonian it is just who without the gender) and soon - I must go no. I got little mad, why to be so secrecy, why he just cannot say who that was, why to play these games with me, I ask a question and he is not telling me, why why. And then it popped to my mind- omg, is it really, that girl, his crush again, that we have had so many fights during the whole time, who really thinks so badly about him, but from his side, he keeps protecting her and these things are coming out again and again what I find out and I am so tired of it. So- I was already a bit mad, why there is this secret. And then he admitted- yes it is her. And I felt like it was the biggest secret he was hiding on me and now I found this out. And then he went away and I was alone with my thoughts, that was running in every circle, thinking about new things. And it happens very often. That he is telling me something awful and after that he leaves and I just have this new information without any explanation and ... I simply.. am going crazy 😣 I feel I have betrayed by him again.. Again these secrets hidden from me.. Again comes this comparing with her, I read these are forceful thoughts, like obsessions. For me, it is always the same thoughts. There is also pictures in his page, that I have made, similarly as her, not specifically of him, about everybody (as he told me she did pictures of many people not about him only), but there is no “thank you for the photograph” written under the pictures I did, that he liked too, (I think he liked, as he uploaded these to to his page..), but there is no “secret hint to show this picture is more special than the other pictures, because she did it” Aaaah ... this is so painful even if I remember that... 

Okey... it happens always the same way.. I thought I should handle this somehow.. Basically... I had... or.. started.. like a.. mental breakdown or.. an attack or.. It is not mental, it is physical also, I feel terrible pain everywhere in my body basically, and it is hard to breath because the cry wants to come out. Well- what else he said- that he will not delete this sentence from that picture 3 years ago. also- that was a hint for everybody who knew that story that he was madly in love and that girl ignored her and he told everybody that he is in love and that girl, who was not even single, find that out and felt that the others are looking at her in a way that what she is doing that poor boy, so she felt everybody hate her and she shall leave the camp from half. But today, for some reason, it is very important, that this memory is in his page, as “nobody looks his pictures, except he, himself is looking them”. Ok, clear, this memory is necessary for him. But why..? It is a memory about “nothing turned out”. And... another painful thing he said: “he also have pictures about “good memories” with the girl before this one”. And I said- ok, you had nothing with both of these girls, but you have no pictures of us, didn't we have had “good memories” too? He said- we haven't made any pictures of us 😞 . This first girl also did not wanted him and that “story” also existed only in his head, there was nothing real and they were not together. But with these girls, he has “good memories”, in Estonian, the word he said, was even better than good: ah.. even.. “great memories” 😞 So... and yes, we are also not “together” how he likes to say... Often. That.. he thinks I keep continue to forget it. 

Ok, I tried to fix myself somehow, and I know, usually it helps, going to run. This brings the endorphins or something good blabla. Ok. but. It didn´t work this time either. Even.. quite interesting for me.. I wanted to do a recovery run with very comfortable pace, listening my favorite music and so on.. But my thoughts.. these were so sad that I thought this all should end. And my pace went wery high even that I didn't noticed that myself. This is new. That my speed goes up when I think how angry I am. Well, I thought, how tired I am about it, finding these little things again and again, endlessly, these all keep telling me the same thing: he will love her forever. There was no thank you for my pictures because: he will not love you. He will not deleting this sentence because he is dreaming about her forever. He keeps looking her pictures, aaah.. in the “explanation part” he said... that there is also many pictures that he have made of her (new information for me again😣 ..) and she have used these also in her pages, but- as I knew- there wasn't any “secret hints for the public” that she has “secret crush on somebody whose name is not written and who was the photograph” - because she feels rather opposite regarding him. And has never felt anything more. In her opinion, he is too young, a bit bipolar, odd, always injured and spoiled of his parents. Aah, recently she was even asking, are you still living with your mum and he responded yes. I don't know exactly how she asked, but I know she thinks this is weird. 

But yes, if I came back, he was not replying anything.. the chat was quiet. Maybe he knew what I am going through that time.. Which is ... also sad.. as.. sometimes he says I should not worry. But... knowing how I think. He was.. waiting. And not explaining anything. He went to sleep and says no good bye or good night. So... sometimes he does this intentionally. Letting me kill myself with my thoughts, with my questions with no answers. And why he sort of .. wanted me that revenge.. or pain.. that I should feel because of her? That my heart shall feel the killing pain. I think because I asked, why you don't want to delete that picture or that “secret hint” how he explained this. But why this is so bad thing to ask? He said he will never delete anything. But usually, what I said- when you have something with your ex, and also others will understand that- this is deleted, after the story ended badly. Because- why to keep bad memories? He will say- these were the “great memories”. But how? When this whole camp turned out that he had bad mood every day, as I have heard, as he felt this love and immediately the response from her that was negative, why this is “great memory”?  And our, 2,5 years, we have no pictures and.. why he wants to dream about these girls who don't like him but ... if I like him and he.. yes.. doesn't feel anything.. this is not “great memory”. Ok.. our thing is not over.. Maybe he likes more thins that are in the past. Not.. something that is happening right now. Ok.. maybe.. as he feels nothing. Then... what we do together... this is not that good 😞. Or..  when he feels love that meets the negative response.. this memory is “great”. Or.. in his imaginary, he felt that they were together.. and for me, he feels that.. in his imaginary, we are not together. So... it is more important, what he only dreams, that is not real.. But with these previous girls who were only fooling with him, he felt great.. and that is why these memories are very precious for him and ours are not. 

Ok.. if he finally started answering something, the answer was, I am crazy and this all is bullshit I have said, we are not together and deleting pictures is very stupid. And I am talking stupid things. And- when I made the proposal to leave this topic there and continue the life and to be friends again, he was not responding, that meant he was not okay with it. When I asked again, he said he is thinking. So- also clear that, he actually would not like to continue. And- he gave me very negative accusation: that I am intentionally looking for things to nag, even if there is nothing any more. That I want to do the whining! That I do this with intention! I said no! Never! I was looking his profile with the intention to find the picture of him where he looks like Leonardo DiCaprio! Honestly! And accidentally found that caption with the “secret hint” as he explained.

And if the time goes by, I feel it is very sad when everything ends.. But a day before I really wanted to end this! So I don't know, who is bad person here, me or him. But in every every case, he is acting as a victim and I am always who apologizes first. Actually. He apologizes very rarely, only in small things what are clear that are offensive for me. But.. this silent treatment he does for me.. keeping me intentionally alone with my questions and a brain that thinks too much with too high speed.. and I should apologize for it always. I should feel bad about “talking fool things” but I ask questions because I don't have answers. I don´t have explanations. And which part was this terrible for him, that he wants not to be friends any more? That I asked why you don't want to delete one “hint” from the picture? So the answer is, this memory is so precious for him, why he don´t want to answer that? How this question is offensive at all? Why he don´t want to say: “I want to dream about her every time I see my ig profile, that I do a lot, because the memory when I got hurt from her in that camp, is so precious for me. Or- because I dreamed I will be together with her and this dream was so nice I want to dream about this all my life.” Hmm.. ok.. maybe if he says that to me.. I will go away. But if I just asked that and he will leave me already, then the effect is exactly the same. 

But yes, I have analyzed these situations this long and so many times and I feel when the things go wrong. At the beginning when I feel that first, small pain. Then, I should be quiet. and throw the phone away. As he said- I should push it down. What I want to say. And- I cannot. And I say out what I mean and I know- he don't like that and maybe we will end it here. And- I want that in this moment so much. That is why I say these things. I actually want to end this painful thing. and later, when he is angry about me, I feel I have been bad and I just want to forgot all that happened. How this always happens, lasts and ends the same way? Where is the mistake? Maybe I am not guilty alone about this..