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[miraiq]

How should one act when faced with the dead..? | @crimsonbesotted spoilers for 2.1

This.. wasn't right. There's no way it could be really happening.. They were allies now, though slightly reluctant out of the method in which they became such, weren't they..? So why.. why was Aventurine calling out for a fight on a live broadcast? Why was Aventurine outing Caelus as a being hosting a Stellaron to the habitants of Penacony? Sure the blond had known of Caelus' true nature, having called him out on it in private almost as if as a threat, but the Trailblazer never imagined that it would be placed out on the gambler's table with all his other cards, being made public. Then Aventurine starts to fight them? So are they no longer companions? Guess not anymore, what with all the vicious strikes the silver has to block with his lance lest he or his Express Crew family be severely injured. The lad just simply could not wrap his head around the twists and turns and lies being put on the forefront.. guess that's why he's not one in charge of strategy huh.

The fight doesn't last long, but it's lengthy enough that Caelus feels the exhaustion catching up to him, using his lance to keep him at the very least standing. The silver is just about to muster up his energy to take another go at trying to land an impactful hit against Aventurine when he hears a woman's deep voice behind him.. one that he recognizes as Archeron, or the "Emanator" as the blond had put it. He processes her saying "I'm sorry" before he feels his body tense up and ends up passing out.

It's a weird sensation.. glancing around a blank and dark space surrounding two individuals that are so tiny one can't make out the identities, almost as if watching them from a birds' eye view. He can't hear what's being said, nor does see what's going on between them. Caelus does however catch very quick glimpses at paused memories, as if staring at a picture- but it's just blurry enough to not be able to pick out the details and it's frustrating. He feels like screaming. Screaming so loud that someone would get fed up and just tell him what the hell was going on. Before he can though, the silver can tell that a third party has joined the other two that were standing, and all color seems to fade out into black nothingness.

He startles awake, eyes jumping open as his breathing is rapid and out of control. Further confused, and now disoriented along with feeling like he got hit by another tram car (and once was enough thank you), Caelus holds his head as he scans around the area trying to figure out just where he was now. The area is familiar enough, as it was the same place they were at when he had fallen unconscious (or so he assumes had happened)-- but there's a significant change. The sky.. is no longer colorful and sparkling... now it's bleak and grey and there's a large red slash through the dome of the theater. When did that happen..? He'd remember such destruction occurring if it was during the fight--- wait... what happened to the fight? It seemed he wasn't the only one that was affected, as March, Himeko, and Welt were all similarly on the ground and not awake- though alive, he can tell.. but where we the other two? Where was Acheron and Aventurine? What the hell just happened? We're they just all in one big dream together about fighting the individual they had all agreed to co-operate with..? Before Caelus could even process that thought and accept it as what had occurred, the lad let his gaze fall from the broken dome framing the sky to the stage on the ground where he saw a recognizable light blue color in the shape of a circle surrounded by smaller circles-- his heart stopped. He knew what that was.

" No... No way..... No no nononono-- "

Scrambling to his feet, Caelus dashed as fast as his aching feet could move him, pushing passed a few individuals who were seemingly working on cleaning up the area and fix the damage, before dropping to his knees right in front of the floating object. A dream bubble.. What was worse? The semi clear liquid staining the floor just underneath it.. the same exact secretion that was produced when Caelus had watched Firefly----

" No.. No it wasn't.. wasn't supposed to be like this.. "

They could have talked things out-- could have cleared up misunderstandings, could have brought the Family to justice like they planned.. not.. not this. Hands frantically pat around the puddle, hoping it to be fake-- a prop made for the stage.. surely that was it.. yeah... had to be.. He felt a disturbed laugh catch in his throat, hands come up for him to stare at the liquid dripping down his forearms- the tears hanging at the corners of his eyes burning his soul. Something starts moving towards him, and it takes a moment through the fuzzy lining of his vision, shaking hands hesitantly reaching for the Dream Bubble that was drifting down. The moment it gets close enough, the light inside the circle pulses like a resting heartbeat as it collides with Caelus' body, his entire being going cold.

All those blurry images that had flashed to him were now clear.. It showed him what had occurred just out of his reach, showed him pain that he would never be able to understand, showed him just how far one man was willing to go to win his gamble. How far one man would go to have his freedom. Teardrops gathering on his eyes fell freely now, no longer able to hold himself together as he leans forward, curling in on himself as sobs shake his very core. All Caelus can do is pathetically wail out-- to whom? The Aeons? What could they do when the damage has already been done?

" Why... Why didn't you.. you just.. tell me... Why, you--- "

Lad chokes with the constriction of his throat, fighting against himself to be able to even breathe properly. Is that why Aventurine had acted the way he did..? Made it so they wouldn't be devasted should he not come out alive at the end of his game? Is that why there was so much uneasy back and forth of trying to gain their trust but also keep them at a distance so they never learned more than what the gambler had wanted them to know?

" We would have helped.. from the beginning.. if you just.. told us the truth.. you could still be.. be.... I'm so sorry.. I should have agreed to co-operate with you sooner.. maybe then.. then you ... you wouldn't.... "

Arms encircle it's own body, attempting the mimic of comfort that the lad so desperately needed while trying to hold onto what remained of the dream bubble. He'd seen to much tragedy since first waking up all those months ago.. Too many deaths had he witness, or even assisted reluctantly in, since the moment that the Express stepped foot onto Penacony.. Some land of wonderful dreams and harmony. What a joke.. It was then Caelus had come to a decision. Though Aventurine painted himself in a villainous light, Caelus now knew the truth.. and he was going to preserve that truth. He will not let the man go down in history with such a stain when he knew it was all just a show.. a play, extravagant and over the top, all while being watched on the stage of Penacony.

Hiccups interrupt his new mantra every few repeats, shoulders slumped and shivering as lad shakes his head in disbelief.

" I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry I'm so so sorry I'm sorry-- "

[survivormuxloe]

Episode 15: “i didnt control this game 4 a goat to win” - Scott

So the reward challenge has been revealed. A little bit nervous tbh. However I do have a plan, I’d probably call Danielle. Because I feel she would have the best read on how the jury is feeling. She has sat there for the longest time. So her views are most likely the views of most people. So having her knowledge of the jury will be useful. First I have to win this challenge which I think I’m capable of winning, so fingers crossed I can win this.

THE CAT IS FINALLY OUT OF THE BAG HOLYYY LMAAAOOAO

i finally got to play it.. it didnt do anything. but. it secured me f4 just incase anything did happen!! LAMJFNFHBG. ugh. i love it tho... everyone takes me to the end i think which makes me lowkey queef LMAOAOAOOA :):)

hope yall r proud of meeeee :flushed:

I MADE FINAL 4. I’m so shocked and happy with myself. I broke my personal placement record and it’s so exciting. Unfortunately though I get to move past a milestone at the expense of losing a close ally. I got past eighth but Jones got eliminated. I get past my record but then Tobi gets idoled out. I’m so depressed but it just makes me want to win for them. I’m hearing that it’s a final 2 but it isn’t confirmed. So now I’m thinking who do I want to be sitting in a final 2 with. None of them honestly, they’ve all played great games. But I especially don’t want to sit next to Ryan. He’s done so well in this game and he made a succesful idol play. It would look like if a genius hacker were to sit next to an enthusiastic toddler.

It sucks cus nobody’s said anything since the vote and I really wanna talk to someone because bitch I’m in the top 4 let’s celebrate. I see Tobi online and its like fuCK I CANT CELEBRATE WITH HIM EITHER CUS HES GONE NOW.

its so hard telling eveeryone that im winning

we have a reward challenge on day 36 so i think that means we have a final 3 yayyyy whew. and the reward is the power call w one juror for 10 mins... which makes me kinda anxious ngl so i'm not even sure if i want to win this... but the challenge is Casanova and that is like one the flash games i'm really good at if i need to be so hmmm I'm wondering if i should beast it or not. i think winning it and having the courage to talk to one of them could be a big boost to my game so like... i'm thinking maybe i should just nut up and go for it hm

So I won reward fuck yeah.

This will give me the chance too see how the jury is thinking at the moment.

But with this immunity I am fuckin scared. Cards being stacked into tower formation. Honestly fuck that. I’ve been practicing and am getting there but I need to do this to make sure I have a chance of winning.

it feels so weird bc theres so little to say in confessionals now LOL!

uhm. just hopin for mo not to win ig. :)

So just had a call win Dani. Apparently I have close to 0% chance at winning. Which tbh I’m surprised about. Mo has the best chance? Idk like I want to believe her but it sounds fishy. I just need to feel out and go with Dani it trust my gut.

Rhys won his third immunity which is intimidating but then again he was only participating against me. Reminder I was trying to set up a card house with a tremor, due to my meds my hands shake. BUT I refused to give up and I’m still proud of myself because I know I did the best that I could.

I think this might be the round I’m eliminated. I hope not but apparently Rhys used his Jury call on Dani and Dani said he had the lowest chance of winning and I had the highest chance. Which first of all, REALLY???? ME???? Like thank you but, what? Second of all I need to play very passive right now in hopes that Rhys will stick with his original plan of voting Scott. Tomorrow it’s going to be me or Scott.

i feel bad for abstaining in the final 4 immunity but hnnng i really cant fux with these live challenges so rip. i feel like there's a good chance the jury looks down on my game bc this is like the 3rd challenge i've sat out of hnnng. but i'm glad Rhys won instead of Mo woo for that. it's seeming like it's gonna be a final 2 after all so womp. according to Mo, Rhys says he's voting for either him or Scott so ig I'm sitting in a good spot... although is it bad i was hoping to get another vote to rack up more than 11 overall? lol whatever so yay. i don't have high hopes of winning this game but regardless i'm happy i was able to survive all this time especially w my bae scott <3

Ok so I have a lot of hope right now. I’ll share the messages I sent Rhys because they’ll explain why I’m hopeful. “I just got some info This vote is either going to end in a fire making challenge between Scott and I or with me going home Cus Ryan just said him and Scott have had a tight Final 2 since the beginning so he can’t vote Scott (If you don’t believe me I’m sure he’ll tell you himself if you ask) So I respect your decision of voting for me if you do but I’d be insanely grateful if I was given the opportunity of a fire making challenge I see it like this. If I get to stay, then it’s us two vs Ryan or Scott because I think both Ryan and Scott have played insanely good games So we would have a higher chance of winning immunity But if it’s Scott, Ryan and you in the final three then it’s 1/3 odds. Where as if I stayed it would be 2/3 and if I somehow miraculously won individual immunity I’d take you to the end. It would be the smartest decision for me after hearing what Dani said But then if you win you can take Ryan with you to the end and I’ll end up 3rd Since Ryan and Scott have their final 2 thing” and Rhys agreed to it so tomorrow is going to be a firemaking challenge between me and Scott.

rhys is actually driving me fucking crazy lol... like. its right to vote me out yes. but his reasoning is so FUCKING DUMB. HE GENIUNELY HAS CONVINCED HIMSELF THAT THE JUROR HE CHOSE TO TALK TO LIED TO HIM. LIKE. RLY BITCH? im not getting 4th off of the back of ur fucking goaty ass losing to mo @ ftc ew lmao..

actually ya im not done like rhys is geniunely losing against anyone left for good reason hes been a goat this entire game and thats the entire fucking tea LAMJFBHFG.

i just dont want mo to win... imagine someone who voted wrong like 7/9 times in merge winning. fucking ew. if i leave ryan better win ftc bc hes the only good winner left if i leave like fr. i didnt control this game 4 a goat to win.. LAMNFNFG just ew ew ew ew ew ew..

im not going down tho america... ill pull every trick out of the bag if i have to. if i gotta lie to get a 2-1-1 vote i will. i aint bothered. id rather get 3rd knowing i was gunna win than fucking 4th. i aint knife!!

So like i Won immunity again which is insane. 3rd immunity.

I’ve been thinking about my call with Dani. I realised that if she telling the truth I have no chance. So might as well assume she is lying and have a chance. So I’m being optimistic.

So taking Scott out is my best choice right now. He may have bad jury management but he had played the best game. So I’m voting with Mo against Scott. Realistically Scott is probably going to win. But that gives me a possible vote on the jury.

I told scott that I’m Voting him as there isn’t any point in lying but he is working to stay. But like he needs to go. I can’t fuck up and have him win immunity. So yeah my game could be a shit show it could be nothing I don’t know. Wish me luck I guess.

I’m like legit so sad rn. I know I’ve had literally no chance at winning this game. So I’ve been optimistic trying to take the best road. Which in my mind is voting Scott out. I told him because he like legit my best friend I’ve made in this game and In a lot of games recently.

Now he hates me and has been really aggressive with trying to get me to stay.  Like I’ve told him my reasoning and he just still thinks I’m being stupid. Like yeah I just hate this. Can’t wait for tribal for him to attack me more.

Rhys gettin a lil brave this round after being asleep the whole merge omg. Whatever he heard from Danielle has seriously gone to his head and he's now considering going to the end with Mo ???? i have to laugh... i dont think him tying the vote and making me or Scott firemake is a terrible idea at all, but honey pls dont make me have to vote Mo to win this game flkadsas. It will be such a travesty if Scott and I go out 4th and 3rd god i dont even wanna think about that

god I really didn't expect this jury reward thing to have an actual impact on things??? ugh lol. Rhys a mess PERIODTTTTTT

After a 2-2 vote resulting in a firemaking challenge, Mo loses and gets 4th place.