#and i AM getting stomach ulcers at the thought of having to endure that guy in the movie but no arthur either. like. could there be a more

[normalbrothers]

i usually don't fingerwag about misogyny or whatever because idgaf but i think there's something funny to me about criticizing this show for bad writing when it comes to female characters and then these same people pretend alfie is like. an interesting layered character or that most of his scenes aren't a complete drag hdhdh

[beyondthetemples-ooc]

Hey everyone. Soooo, guess who just spent an entire week in the hospital....

this is gonna involve tws for #emetophobia, probably #coprophobia, #aichnophobia / #needles, mentions of #blood, #suicide ideation, and #medical stuff, obviously.

It’s an entire week of Things Happening... but tl;dr I went to the ER from work and was picked up by an ambulance in a freaking Walmart bathroom Friday around 6pm, agonizing pain driving me to suicide ideation alongside every digestive system problem you can imagine flaring with extreme and constant severity, until 5am or so, when my system finally collapsed and I was barely aware and coherent, and I was transferred to a psychiatric hospital because the IV zofran they gave me wasn’t working and the pain meds weren’t working and I was losing my mind with the repetition of these episodes.... but they finally gave me the medical attention I needed, and after four days of trial and error, they finally found a pair of medications that WORKS.

And by that I mean, helps with the unending nausea and vomiting I’ve been enduring since motherfucking SEPTEMBER, and seem to help the post-eating nausea I’ve felt since at LEAST age 19, so I don’t regret a thing. (Except maybe that I hadn’t enforced the sincerity of my suicidal thoughts on October 1st, when I first went to the hospital for the pain and nausea and dehydration and suicidal thoughts, and it had to get THIS FAR before somebody took my issues seriously and tried to treat me then and there, not scheduling an appointment a week or two months or three years out....)

Diagnosis thoughts they gave me include diaverticulitis (inflammation/infection of the intestine, small intestine in my case given the pain’s location). ulcerative colitis (where the colon bleeds, but my blood test didn’t indicate significant bleeding, even though there was definitely substantial amounts of blood in places there shouldn’t be blood, three times in a row), possibly celiac still, and one of the medications is actually used to treat gastroparesis specifically, but they haven’t mentioned that one yet. It’s what my mother suspects, it’s what I suspect (since many of the primary symptoms of the other ones have only happened during that episode, after vomiting for 3+ months). But we’ll see what the endoscopy says and where my GI doctor wants to go from there, given that the second medication was the single medication that stopped the after-eating unwellness in my entire 24 years of life. When a medication that helps with chemotherapy vomiting didn’t do a damned thing about mine.

...Also, did you know you can get prescription multivitamins? Apparently you can get prescription multivitamins even when your bloodwork “looks good” and your body rejects its nutrition that thoroughly for 3 months. 

So, I’m finally on the mend. I have a little more energy, I actually feel like there’s life in me, and I can actually eat without counting hours until the medication wears off or my stomach decides to reject things. I did a little writing there, a lot of meditation, even had a spiritual awakening (because it was really all I could cling to until it stopped). 

And guys, I cannot overstate how freaking absolutely ELATED I am to finally be able to eat a decent amount of food in a meal, and feel okay after eating, and not be vomiting, and it was affecting my mental state so badly, and it’s just so incredibly fucking beautifully relieving, I can’t even put words to it.