#and honestly ive been afraid to say it but i have the lingering doubt that this is all a mistake
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no really. someone tell me why i'm at college
#im gonna be honest#idk if its just me and the horrible way my brain functions or what#but i really was under the impression that this was going to be different#in a good way. the way that it would change my life and i would feel like i belonged#tell me why i feel the same as i did in high school#this is kind of why i feel like i'll never fit in anywhere#and i wanna be happy here. i was excited and happy at first#but now i just miss my home#and im so tired. everything feels like a chore#and honestly ive been afraid to say it but i have the lingering doubt that this is all a mistake#but then that poses the question of what i'll do if i leave#like i'd have to work or something and i also don't think i can do that#truthfully i think i'm so mentally ill that i don't think i can really be genuinely and truly happy anymore#like there are the little moments and whatever. but in general i'm so hollow and empty#or just missing something and sad#i'm tired of working because i'm always working and what is it getting me?#nothing#not really anyway. i have no sense of accomplishment#i'm tired and i'm lonely and i'm sad and i'm numb and everything is the same as it has been for years for me#i'm just in an unfamiliar environment#sometimes i don't think i was meant for this world#:/#tw vent#i'm so sorry this got out of hand#it's late and i'm horrible at filtering myself at night#em speaks#delete later
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* hi , my name’s tee and this ain’t a waist trainer bitch , this a back brace i got scoliosis . 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐨 , 𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐦𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐤𝐫𝐢𝐬 ( finally ) ! i prefer either feminine or non - binary pronouns , and i reside in the est time zone ! it has taken me so long to formally write and i highkey hate it because i lost muse for my queen miss giavanna , so i decided to bring another muse instead of leaving because honestly ... i love ya’ll 🥺 . the way i love miss jennie kim is more than i wanna admit , so let me introduce you guys to the tiny ball of aggression that is jimin jung !
omg ! i was walking yonge street downtown , and you’ll never guess who i saw . jimin jung ! i just saw a post about them on sixsecrets ! i think it said something like ' jimin jung physically restrained by security guards following a verbal argument with fellow customer at drake one fifty ! ' . isn’t that wild ? i guess it makes sense though , since they’re apparently antagonistic and bellicose . but i’ve heard they’re also sultry and voguish ! i’ll just stick to giving them the benefit of the doubt . i mean , it’s not like i know them personally — they’re a famous singer / songwriter and model ! you know , i’ve actually heard rumors that redacted , but they’re just rumors … i think . i dunno . if you happen to run into them , tell them i’m their biggest fan !
FULL NAME : jung jimin .
NICKNAME(S) : n/a .
AGE + DATE OF BIRTH : 24 + june 10th , 1996 .
ASTROLOGICAL SIGN : gemini .
MEYERS - BRIGGS PERSONALITY TYPE : entj .
MORAL ALIGNMENT : chaotic neutral .
GENDER + PRONOUNS : cis female + she / her / hers .
SEXUAL ORIENTATION : bisexual .
ROMANTIC ORIENTATION : biromantic .
PLACE OF BIRTH : kensington , london , england .
PLACE OF RESIDENCE : toronto , ontario , canada ( specifically , in the neighborhood of forest hill ) .
OCCUPATION : singer / songwriter and model .
VOICECLAIM : dua lipa .
NATIONALITY : british - korean .
ETHNICITY : korean .
LANGUAGES SPOKEN : english , korean , and japanese .
i. prosopography .
jimin’s story begins with the fateful meeting of her parents , kim seo - yeon and jung do - young , on a cold winter’s day . they found themselves at the tender ages of 20 and 22 , attending a boring christmas gala with their parents when they would have preferred to do anything else in the world . seo - yeon was a women who knew what she wanted the moment her eyes landed upon it , so when she made brief eye contact with do - young , she purposefully spilled a glass of champagne onto his expensive tom ford suit and made a big deal of it . this sparked their whirlwind romance , and six months later they found themselves announcing their engagement to korean media outlets .
despite how quickly they were engaged , their parents saw this as mutually beneficial . seo - yeon is the youngest daughter of the wealthy kim family , owners of the kq group conglomerate that was worth billions in its own right . do - young was the only child of his parents , and came from park family lineage where their hotels and resorts were the cause of their fortune . the families were soon to be one , and the couple was the chaebol heirs that others envied . following their lavish wedding , seo - yeon and do - young decided that they were going to head off to london to make a life for themselves . so , they transferred to oxford university , finished their schooling , and shortly after seo - yeon’s graduation from the financial economics program , the couple discovered that they were expecting .
it was a sticky summer day when seo - yeon unexpectedly gave birth to their daughter , who decided not to allow her parents time to get to the hospital . jimin was born in the bathtub of her parents’ luxury bathroom , and right into the arms of her slightly panicked but overjoyed father . from the time that she was a toddler , araminta was a very precocious child , picking up on skills quite quickly and speaking in few short sentences by the time she was eleven months old . as she grew older , jimin’s parents remained hands on despite their busy schedules , and decided that they would see what their daughter would have the most interest in . when she was four , her parents began piano lessons , and it was evident that she had a natural gift for the instrument .
life for jimin had always been comfortable , but she didn’t want to take the usual route , or what was expected of her . she had always been interested in music , so she she originally started with taking dance classes . she trained in all forms of dance in order to be well rounded , and she initially had dreams of becoming a backup dancer , but when she was playing around and decided to make a video singing a song that she had written all on her own , jimin became an overnight sensation . her song , hotter than hell , blew up almost instantly and she was signed to warner music group .
i’ve written enough VCJNXVBHCV but her career has followed the timeline of dua’s , although it’s slightly off by maybe the month or the year . she has won a total of forty - two awards in her career , including two grammy awards and three brit awards . although miss dua got a lil clowned for her dancing at one point , i must say that jimin is quite the performer , and definitely makes use of the stages by recreating music videos or simply giving the audience an experience . she has not released future nostalgia as of yet , but it’s what she’s currently working towards ! through her career , she is known by her mononym jimin !
ii. temperament .
jimin is a real bitch , but she doesn’t go out of her way to ‘ out bitch ’ someone because she finds it to be kinda dumb . she’s primarily looking to have fun , and no one is about to be bitchy around her without getting snatched up .
she parties like she just turned twenty - one and dares someone to say something about it ! invite her to the club and she’s coming without a second thought . she’s the friend who will make plans and will get a little sad when people cancel on her , but she’s still going to find a way to enjoy herself .
does not take authority seriously and she can be seen making a jerking off motion whenever someone kisses up to those of authority . talks shit , but backs it up because if you’re bold enough to talk shit you might get hit , right ?
she’s a sultry bitch and she loves it . give her the chance and she’ll flirt with a tree , she’ll flirt with a plant , and she might flirt with your significant other . she can get kinda lewd and will say something really off - beat , and honestly shut her up if you do .
the epitome of a gen - z / millennial line straddler as she can’t walk past a mirror without taking pictures of herself . sickeningly vain as she takes pictures at any chance she can like after getting her hair and makeup done or even when she’s out and about shopping .
iii. headcanons .
jimin is quite chaotic and she does not hold back from it ! she’s a pot stirrer , and she’ll watch everything unfold as if she wasn’t the one to start the problems in the first place . not afraid to spread a rumor or putting a trolling instagram comment on one of her posts on blast . she likes to be petty , but she can back it up ( but it’s NOT fat enough 😔 ) .
her style is vastly different than what’s expected . on stage , i would think her style is something akin to kpop stage outfits , but not necessarily as tame . she’s not afraid to show skin so there’s a lot of embellished leotards and heels , dramatic eye makeup and perfectly styled hair . off stage , she likes a relaxed but high - end style . lots of denim , lots of black , loves oversized pieces , but she loves to follow trends where she can .
loves to yoga , pilates , and anything else that doesn’t involve having to go to an actual gym . she especially love aerial yoga as it keeps her flexible as a dancer .
miss jennie didn’t let us enjoy it long enough , but jimin’s hair is canon to jennie’s blonde pieces ! she’ll switch up the color every so often with temporary dyes , but other than that , it’s usually always blonde !
she doesn’t drink st*rbucks so don’t ask her to go , and she especially doesn’t go because she likes very simple coffee drinks .
iv. wanted connections .
give me everything , please ! i’d love some of the basics like former friends , best friends , industry rivals , friends with benefits , confidant(s) , frenemies , good / bad influences , one night stand(s) , enemies with benefits , or a current or ex fling !
because i love my women loving women , hand over the ex girlfriend ! in my head i’m thinking that they were a really happy couple and they were really good to one another , but they drifted apart . they remain good friends and people probably think there’s still feelings because they can be rather touchy feely with one another ( 👀 ) .
ifykyk .... but i love angst ! i love to have my heart ripped right out of my chest so give me angst in any form : angsty friends , exes , anything !
a couple who are stuck in a limbo ! they have yet to make it past the point of friends , wondering if they’re just a hookup to one another would there could potentially be more . they probably fight a lot because of those underlying feelings , but it could be interesting to explore either way !
give me enemies ! and not for fake but two people who genuinely dislike one another . it’s not surprising for jimin to not get along with a lot of people considering the fact that she’s not ... the nicest , and i’m not entirely sure as to why they’d dislike each other , but it could be so much thank u KFJDFDS .
give me the heartbreak that still lingers i will sell you my SOUL . maybe their relationship was good , or it was a mess KNFJD , but but when they broke up they haven’t fully gotten over it yet ? probably a lot of lingering looks , and giving compliments but they’re kinda awkward because they don’t know how to approach each other sometimes .
#sixhqintro#blog is on dashboard for now while editing !#also this is really long pls don't pelt me with eggs NVJCBHVXC#i did it ya'll KNFJBHD
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I want to leave my partner of 15 years. Am I being selfish? | Mariella Frostrup
A woman who married her longtime partner two years ago now wants to separate. Mariella Frostrup wonders why its taken so long to address the issues in their relationship
The dilemma After much heartache, sleepless nights and consideration I told my husband of two years, but partner for 15, that I was unhappy and thought we should separate. I am 37 and he is 49. On discussing our issues my husband said that if I left he would have no chance of children and Id be robbing him of that as his chances of meeting anyone are very slim and mine are slightly better.
He has become a father figure to me. I feel I live in his house with his things and his rules. My husband is making me feel guilty for wanting to leave and leaving him childless and I do feel guilty, incredibly guilty and sad about that, and it is leading me to question whether I should leave. He says I am selfish. Am I?
Mariella replies Maybe, but thats not important. Who isnt selfish when it comes to making the choices that shape our lives? Im afraid this all sounds like a case of too little too late. Which one of you is responsible for leaving your relationship untended for so long?
Its a shame that having had so many years to make up your minds you went ahead and married only two years ago. Were any of these doubts on either of your minds then? Sometimes babies are made to patch up relationships; sometimes weddings.
It may be an error in your description of the situation, but your letter suggests that this recent discussion was the first of its kind. There are people who store up complaints and negative experiences, barely emitting a murmur, until one day they blow. You certainly appear to be one of them. If you wait until you simply cant take any more, the choice to leave is pretty irrevocable. But sustainable relationships involve myriad minor re-adjustments on a continuous basis. You are in development, as they say in the movie business, for the duration of any partnership.
Its a highly dysfunctional act to pronounce sentence on a relationship without any attempt to address the issues that lead to it, but Ive come across many such unilateral concluders in my time. Its not unusual to encounter those who have been abandoned by partners without a second glance and shared barely a syllable after their unexpected departure. In broader society thats the behaviour of despots and dictators. Could you be guilty of such behaviour? If so, try to have a full and frank discussion before you make such a move.
Alternatively, its possible your husbands controlling behaviour is an issue youve been confronting and attempting to resolve for some time. Either way, his reasons for continuing the relationship arent particularly persuasive. His suggestion that youre his last hope is neither flattering nor realistic and doesnt say much for either of you. Its a far more selfish piece of emotional blackmail than your simply expressed desire to leave.
Im on the fence as to what your plan of action should be. Im not convinced by your account either and am struggling to understand why youve lingered so long. If having children was an ambition, youve been mulling it over at enormous length. After nearly two decades together, for it to be an issue only now seems disingenuous on both your parts. My instinct is that you are both in the wrong relationship, or at the very least in dire straits and in need of urgent positive action. Certainly you shouldnt stay with someone who makes you feel controlled and parented rather than loved and supported but for that to have taken this long to realise seems at best incongruous.
Meanwhile, on his part, if at 49 hes only just realising youre his best route to kids and family, then hes either a slow learner or hes been dawdling up until now. I cant believe youve squandered 15 years simply treading water and if thats the case Im shocked at how little that suggests you value your lives. You dont mention religion, so like most of us today I presume you understand that this is it, one shot, and sitting around waiting for life to change is a waste of precious moments. If youre adamant that your best path to enhanced happiness is to be found by forging a brand new adventure then get on with it free of guilt.
At 49 your husband has the opportunity to make future babies should he so desire; you on the other hand dont have a moment to waste. You need to move on decisively, but do try to carry the wisdom of lessons learned. Hanging around and storing resentment is a recipe for disaster. Problems in a relationship need to be aired, managed and moved on from, and not trapped in your head building up pressure. Denied the oxygen of articulation, frustrations become ultimatums and the only outcome is to finally and emphatically explode. I hope youve thought long, hard and honestly about what to do and that next time it doesnt take so many years to gain clarity on what you want.
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