#and here i am watching arcane the fuckung league of legends instead of sleep and uni because my brain literally leaves my body and i | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

peskyvinot · 28 days ago

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drowning and spilling my life into the sewer by boiling in my hyperfixations. call that ar cane't fucjung do this anymore I need to sleep I need to eat and I'm literally in a cicle of illnesses but I as a person literally disappear when I indulge in my interest to tge point of like. disossiating. and strangely it's the safest I feel all week

#oop that was a vent post. never like when the new years comes closer everything feels like its falling apart but from within me #and here i am watching arcane the fuckung league of legends instead of sleep and uni because my brain literally leaves my body and i #finally stop thinking #you know as an asexual folk i maybe even crave that i daydream about jayvic gay sex while tge melatonin is trying its ass of to knock me out #instead of all the heavy things that Usually come to mind when i cant sleep (every day)#so yea. gay sex save me can i daydream of homosexual jesus christ please. please #oh also i might actually be crushing apart its the second infection i caught last month and its in my MOUTH.#right after the fycjed up 2 teeth for botg of which i needed to remover the nerve right after i had migranws for 4 straight which started #when i got ill and it didnt cure itself for 3 weeks #right aft- you got it.#venting again yeah yeah. whi is melatonin not working please i had so little sleep past few day

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