#and he’d be correct bc if he dumped ME idk what I would do

[jawnjendes]

i don’t wanna say to any of my friends on the off chance that i won’t do it so I’ll just drop it in the tags

[neverdoingmuch]

I’m here for the ‘swords not as pets’ agenda. Swords as cars: solid, get you from place to place, potentially dangerous, customizable, something people name. Wwx losing his license taking the fall for a mistake jc made (idk, dui maybe?) and just choosing to mod the hell out of a self-balancing scooter or segway or something so it goes dangerously fast. Alternatively: spending 3 months inventing the first functional actual levitating hoverboard, with an insane top speed. 3 months in the (1/2)

sawdfert this is delightful!! i saw segway and i immediately started wheezing,, there was no time for laughing i went straight to the wheezing. i think it would make more sense if wwx lost his car and got a motorcycle? like hoverboards and segways are cool but motorcycles have that big reputation of being dangerous and there’s the whole ‘rebellious teen gets a motorcycle and becomes a delinquent’ thing? like motorcycles are fast and if you crash it’s so much worse than if you were in a car and there’s no airbags or anything. but also?? wwx rocking up to school on a segway while playing his flute like the shittiest entrance ever? iconic. but let’s stick with chenqing as a motorcycle/scooter (motorcycle-esque scooter not the ones that try and take out your ankles).

okay so all the major sects are super rich so in a modern au it would make sense for all the sect heirs to get cars. i’m not saying that jc and wwx complain about jzx being stuck-up bc he was given a porsche for his birthday even though they were also given cars for their birthdays,,, but i am. at first it would have been this major point of contention between yzy and jfm bc wwx isn’t even their son so why is he getting a car too but wwx is like ah it’s so i can drive jc and jyl to school! you wouldn’t want their cars being left outside the school all day would you? someone in my maths class had their car get keyed and it was super expensive to fix,, and yzy is like yes wwx may have a car only to protect my children from parking hassles,, also wwx must pay for his own parking. so wwx and jc both get given cars for their bdays.

now wwx gets bored easily,, so you could translate him being a cultivation genius to him being really good at driving. im talking that jc is still getting the hang of switching gears and wwx is out there casually drifting around corners. (this does mean he has to get new tyres really frequently but he’s friends with wen ning, whose family runs the mechanics that wwx likes to go to so he just helps around the shop for a bit and gets a discount (yes its the family discount)). anyway wwx really enjoys driving, also! he just rocks up to wen ning’s place one day and is like dude, i wanna pimp my ride, wanna help and wen ning is like heck yeah. so wwx pays for some upgrades with his own money and he spends hours doing some custom work to make it look cool,,

it’s all going well until wwx and jc go to wen chao’s party one night and jc gets absolutely sloshed,,, like completely hammered. wwx had walked in, grabbed a cup of lemonade or something and was gonna hang with his friends but lwj was there for some reason so he spent the entire night talking to him in the back garden. which means that when jc wanted to leave he saw wwx hanging out with lwj and went ew gross and just decided to drive home himself. he crashes and when wwx comes home the next day jc gets super pissed at him bc he was meant to be the designated driver and if he hadnt been screwing around with lwj jc wouldnt have tried to drive home and now his parents will be super pissed and wwx is like woah chill my grandmother is a mechanic and she can fix this up just give me a couple of days. 

so wwx goes to baoshan sanren mechanics (which is just the back entrance to the wen sibling’s mechanics) and spends the next three days getting rid of all of his customisations and mods so his car looks exactly like jc’s. does he cry when he has to spend like five mins spraying the inside of the car with axe body spray to get the jc stench going on? maybe a little. but he does it and returns the car to jc! and jc is like oh wow my car is fixed, your grandma is a miracle worker and wwx is like haha yeah (:

anyway wwx mysteriously and suddenly discovers a passion for public transport,, it’s a good way to stay humble jiang cheng, he says, also i used all my petrol money buying porn from nhs or whatever. anyway wwx is doing the whole pt to school thing but then one afternoon wen chao and wzh find him and idk maybe the party got too rowdy so the cops came and wc got in trouble with his dad? he assumes wwx called the cops on him so he shoves wwx into his car and drives him out to the middle of no where and dumps him in the burial mounds scrap metal recycling place or whatever. 

the train line isn’t running that day and there’s no phone service either so wwx is stuck there overnight. he gets super bored. so what does he do? he finds an abandoned scooter and starts scavenging for parts. he’s not expecting it to actually work but by the time the sun rises he’s found some actually decent parts and he thinks that he could get it working. tbh he kinda forgets to go back home and just walks into town to buy some food and then goes back and continues fiddling with the scooter. he doesnt live there for the three months but the people in yiling just accept that this random teenager has all but moved into their scrap heap and adopt him anyway. so he goes and visits the burial mounds every day after school so none of his friends or family really see him anymore. 

until! one day he rocks up to school on his scooter. scooters,, are kinda like sad pathetic motorcycles,, but wwx mods his scooter with like a powerful engine and new steering and everything so people see it and go oh! a motorcycle! even though it’s not actually (can you do that with a scooter? idk but suspend your disbelief pls). so lwj is like hnnngg wwx in a leather jacket on a motorcycle but also wei ying, stop riding a motorcycle, *enter statistics about motorcycle crashes here* and wwx is like no! you cant take chenqing away from me. and jc is pissed bc they were meant to be brothers and have matching cars and be able to work on them and give them cool paint jobs together! but now wwx has this bike which has been modded to hell and back and refuses to drive his car bc it’s not as cool as his bike. so we get to have the whole ‘everyone thinks wwx is doing something dumb and dangerous’ bc he has a motorcycle and why isnt he just driving his car anymore? but we also get to keep some of the nuance of the demonic cultivation bc yeah it’s more dangerous than driving in a car but wwx doesnt have a car anymore and scooters are a loottt safer than motorcycles (if my two seconds of research is correct).

so! wwx won’t abandon chenqing and he did most of his work using scrap parts so he goes back to the wens and is like wen ning my best bro check her out and he’s like oooooooh and they start modding chenqing together. wen qing doesnt know why wwx is constantly over at their shop all the time but jc keeps arguing with wwx and wwx grows more distant with his family and friends bc he’s making ~bad decisions~ and a motorcycle is a gateway to idk teen delinquent shenanigans like smoking and doing graffiti so he’s kinda ousted from respectable rich people society and wen qing is like i have two (2) brothers now and they’re adorable not that i’ll ever tell them that. and wwx modding chenqing got him a reputation in yiling like everyone saw him walk in one day and then drive out with this sexy sexy bike so people start coming to him for mods and stuff and wwx earns the title yiling patriarch and wen ning, his trusted best friend and helper, gets called the ghost general bc idk he helps a lot but the customers never meet him. so they become some dynamic duo for car and bike mods!

anyway,, yzy delivers him an ultimatum one day: the car or the bike (or more accurately: the family or the bike) but wwx can’t drive the car anymore so he just gets quietly disowned and drops out of school. (we’ll save jzxuan the suffering in this au he can keep his car). he goes to the wens and theyre like hey whats up? wait no you cant live in a scrap heap,, not even if you buy a tent,,, just live with us please. and then wwx gets adopted by the wens and idk i want them to have a happy ending so wwx and wn go off and do some actual mechanic and modding training with some expert (sqdcfgt imagine if it was the real baoshan sanren who just happened to be in the market for some apprentices and saw wwx and wn’s work and was like them and then later realised it was her grandson). so they get their apprenticeship and they disappear off somewhere for a year or two - when wwx had been disowned he’d deleted everyone’s contacts and was like if they text me i’ll add them back but im not gonna have a contact list cemetery. (no one contacts him). 

eventually the 13 years pass and wwx has been helping the wens raise their little nephew a-yuan who is showing a real aptitude for being a mechanic even though he’s just a kid and just generally enjoying the quiet life of being a mechanic while doing fun mods and lil baby projects. then one day lwj’s car breaks down while he’s driving through the area and he calls up the local mechanic and guess who rocks up? it’s wwx. and then we get to have them dance around each other and wwx being like lwj doesnt trust me, he’s just sitting here and watching me work all day ): and lwj is like dont let him go dont let him go dont let him go,, and eventually they get their romance but this is way too long already so im im gonna end this here

i didnt mean to make this an entire au but i adored your idea so much anon so i kinda had to!!

[yue-muffin]

wooohooo!! translation dump as promised. I translated this so fast this afternoon, not much thought was put into it beyond “I think this is 90% correct” lol. I did get a few interesting observations about translation and learned a few words and phrases, so I annotated it because why not. it’s already messy.

also, because i can’t bring myself to cry over the original story, i’m not really sure of the whole timeline, but there are scenes that seem pretty common across multiple adaptations so i’m taking a wild guess and assuming a similar Thing happened in the original. that being said, there’s at least one other adaptation where shino is being bullied because of his/her father being a deserter and she/him crossdressing. 

I once read some of the jpn wikipedia page, and the part I read up to gave the reason shino (who’s male in the original) crossdressed as a child. and has a name you’ll typically see on girls. supposedly, his parents had a hard time having a child. when they finally had shino, his mother wished to follow a tradition where you raise a child (or maybe just male children? idk the past was sexist) as the opposite gender until their coming of age ceremony so they would grow up strong. 

so, back to the game...? haha well the basic structure of the first scene is familiar but you have no idea how thrown off i am that hamaji is a dude. shino as a girl, that’s fine. but hamaji as a dude??? it should be an...interesting change to the story.

Anyways. Here we go, super bad translation ahead.

里見八犬伝：八珠之記 | Legend of the Eight Dogs of Satomi: Records of the Eight Beads

初めから | New Game 画廊 | Gallery

続きから | Continue シーン回想 | Recollections

設定一覧 | Options 用語集 | Glossary

> New Game

「私の名前は？」 苗字は「犬塚」固定です。 名前は各7文字までです

“What’s my name?” The surname “Inuzuka” is fixed. The first name can be up to 7 characters.

naturally, i chose the default name: shino

主人公は 「犬塚信乃」です。 よろしいですか？

The main character will be “Inuzuka Shino”. Is this correct?

はい | Yes いいえ | No

「署名完了」 「オプションを聞きたいときは、STARTボタン。 閉じたいときは、Xぼトンに、ね？」

“Signature complete.” “If you want to listen to options, press the START button. If you want to close the options, press the X button, ok?”

村の若者 「くっそ、男女（おとこおんな）のくせに…」

Village Youth “Damn you, you man-woman…”

this vn is voiced! all except shino, which sort of infuriates me. but it is what it is. anyways this is super helpful. 男女 is a poor example bc it’s obvious this is being used as an insult, and in the case of an insult おとこおんな is used. but the same characters can also be said だんじょ, which gives it a general meaning of “men and women” with no derogatory connotation. so, voiced just helps overall when you’re not fluent in the language.

「だから、何？ そっちこそ、男のくせに負け惜しみ言おうっていうのか」 「勝負を仕掛けてきたのはそっちだろう」

“And, so what? I was just about to say the same thing. For a man, you’re such a sore loser. You’re the one who picked a fight with me.”

this is shino, who doesn’t get a name tag or voiced lines. sad. she speaks super informally lol. though, they all do, even hamaji who appears later.

村の若者 「……」

Village Youth “...”

「それで負けたからってその言い草はないだろう。 …自分こそ、男らしくないんじゃないのか」

“You lost, so there should be no excuses, don’t you think? …Not very manly of you, huh.”

村の若者 「何だと…っ」

Village Youth “What did you just say…!”

「私は間違ったことは言っていないはずだ。 負け惜しみで、悪口を言う暇はあったら、刀の鍛錬をしたらどうだ」 「悔しかったら、かかって来い！ この犬塚信乃が相手になる！」

“I didn’t say anything wrong. If you have the time to badmouth people like a sore loser, why don’t you focus on sword training. If you’re pissed off, then come at me! I, Inuzuka Shino, will be your opponent!”

刀だけは自信があった。ちゃんばら程度の腕で、負けるわけもない。 The only thing I had confidence in was the sword. With my skill in sword fighting, I wouldn’t lose.

村の若者 「くそ…お前なんか卑怯者の娘のくせに。 偉そうにしてんじゃねえよ！」

Village Youth “Damn you, you’re just the daughter of a coward. Don’t think so highly of yourself!”

村の若者 「そうだ、そうだ…っ。 おまえは結城合戦から逃げた卑怯者の娘だろう！」

Village Youth “That’s right, that’s right. You’re the daughter of a coward who fled from the Siege of Yuuki!”

「……！」 （卑怯、だと…？) 自分のことならまだいい。 だが、父上や母上のことを言われるとなると我慢ならない。 「私のことならいいけど、父上の悪口を言うのは許せない！」

(A coward, they said…?) I didn’t care if they insulted me. But, when it came to things said about my mother and father, I couldn’t hold back. “I don’t care what you say about me, but I’ll never forgive anyone who insults my father!”

村の若者 「戦が怖くて逃げ出したおまえの親父は卑怯だ。 蟇六様はそうおっしゃっていた、間違いねえぞ」

Village Youth “Your father is a coward who ran from battle in fear. Hikiroku-sama said that, so there’s no mistaking it.”

do not have enough brain power to figure out what 様 should be in this case. Hikiroku is the village chieftan/head.

「……っ」 私が刀の代わりの木の棒を振りかぶり……。 勢いよく振り下ろそうとした瞬間だった。 I brandished a tree branch in place of a sword. The moment I swung it down with force...

？？？ 「はい、そこまで」

??? “Alright, that’s quite enough.”

涼やかな声とともに現れたのは、見慣れた姿。 それを見て、先刻まで威勢の良かった彼らは黙った。

A clear, refreshing voice appeared along with a familiar figure. I looked over at the two who were previously so high-spirited and now fell silent.

村の若者 「浜路…」

Village Youth “Hamaji…” 

浜路 「ちゃんばらもいいけど、ほどほどにしないとね。 それに、君たちも女の子に寄ってたかってっていうのは感心しない」

Hamaji “Sword fighting is good at all, but it should be done in moderation, right? Not to mention, ganging up on a girl isn’t exactly admirable of you two.”

at some point, i kind of had a re-realization that direct translation just is so subpar. like, there’s so much nuance that is conveyed in a phrase but if you were to translate it literally, it would lack that impact in english. there’s no choice but to elaborate a bit in english. that’s more important than making sure there’s a one-to-one match up.

it took me so. damn. long. to unlearn my habit of ‘as close to literal as possible. no embellishments. no elaboration.’ to be entirely fair, i didn’t realize until recently just how much an official translated text can differ from the original (see: haruki murakami’s novels. i was shocked to learn just how different some parts were.)

浜路は受け止めた木の棒を、優しく私に押し返す。 Hamaji gently forced me back with the tree branch he’d stopped earlier.

浜路 「さあ、今日はおしまいだよ。 俺と彼女は用がある、さっさと帰りなよ」 「それでも帰りたくないって言うのなら…。 俺にも考えがあるけど…？」

Hamaji “Now, that’s all for today. She and I have some business to take care of, so you hurry back home.” “But if you say you don’t want to go back… I can think of something else…?”

浜路のニッコリとした笑顔には、誰でも敵わない。 ものを言わずとも、迫力がある。

No one could rival Hamaji’s sweetly smiling face. It had such intensity, even without him saying anything.

村の若者 「い、行こうぜ…」

Village Youth “L, Let’s go…”

村の若者 「あ、ああ…」

Village Youth “Y, Yeah…”

浜路 「…さてと、信乃？ 喧嘩はするなって、俺、言っていなかったかな？」

Hamaji “…Now then, Shino?” What have I said about not getting into fights?”

「喧嘩っていうか、刀の鍛錬の一環で…」 （うう、怖いってば…)

“Fights are part of sword training…” (Uwah, how scary…)

浜路 「刀の鍛錬？ 男装をしているとはいえ、女の子の君が？」

Hamaji “Sword training? You do dress as a man, but as a girl, you…?”

i really hate it when sentences trail off or are cut off haha. i mean, i get the impression and i know what it means in my head. but without the rest of the sentence i sometimes get a little confused about how to translate it.

i didn’t know how to word that last sentence. i don’t think hamaji meant it in a bad way, he was just surprised since just because she dresses as a man all the time, doesn’t mean she’d like activities that are more male-oriented. but idk. this hamaji is kind of hard to read.

「…すみませんでした」 （だって、刀の鍛錬は趣味だし…）

“…Sorry.” (I mean, I like sword training…)

interestingly, shino got super formal here. so maybe she did feel as if she was being criticized for liking something traditionally for men.

だが浜路は怒らせると、恐ろしい。 微笑見ながら罵声を浴びせてきかねない。

But, angering Hamaji was a scary thing. He would yell at you while smiling.

（まあ、私の勝手な憶測だけど…。 笑いながら怒る印象はあるけど、実際にやられたことはないし…） 長い付き合いだが、甘やかされた経験しかない。 浜路はいつも笑顔だが、言うことは的確だ。 敵に回したら恐ろしいことになるとは常々思っている。

(Well, that’s just my own guess though… He seems like the type to smile while angry, but the reality is, it’s never really happened…) We knew each other for a long time, but he had only ever treated me indulgently. Hamaji was always smiling, but what he said was always exactly how he felt. I always thought it would be scary to become his enemy.

hamaji does have a “smiling” voice. it’s very pleasant and calm, even when he’s telling you off. she does imply that his appearance doesn’t match what he feels, but his words are always "on point” (的確). 

ALSO I HAD NO CLUE 実際 was actually JISSAI. well, I read the JI- part and looked it up, and...well 実際 is jissai. i’ve know this word for so long but i’ve never seen it written in kanji before lol.

[normal-thoughts-official]

gOd. imma dump this here bc idk where else to go with this but. consider: el chico del apartamento 512 by selena inspired malec au. i think it’s generally a very sweet song and i can see magnus being a bi disaster over his new neighbor but holding back for Reasons (enter: trauma, uGh). very briefly mistaking izzy as alec’s partner and realizing he’d been crushing bc suddenly he’s very disappointed oh no but alec is his new FRIEND and he isn’t even sure alec’s queer or single or interested??? meanwhile, alec: “he’s so kind and funny and gorgeous. unbelievable.” maybe... alec asks him out on a date and magnus mistakes this as a friendly hang out?? no angst necessarily, but yes pining as alec kisses his cheek goodnight or smthn bc from magnus’ signals it seems like he wants to take it slow (meanwhile magnus doesn’t even KNOW this is a date) and they’re both like *sigh* but for different reasons obv. idk how long this goes on or if it’s even plausible tbh bc alec? not being 1000% transparent after he lets himself go for what he wants? unheard of. but then again: magnus still struggles with being undervalued by romantic partners and his friendships are beautiful and loving, so to him, alec cares for him very strongly, yes, but it must be totally platonic, right? hhhhhh i could go on

!!!!!! omg yes!!!!!!!!! also seriously keep dumping your stuff here this is literally all i want out of running this blog like i love these ideas

hell i can even incorporate that into that witch au i wrote a few days ago lmao like after a while they become friends and shit and somehow magnus hasn't met izzy before so when he does see her he's like "oh no" and realizes that maybe he has a crush on the weird grumpy guy who hears him ramble about witch stuff and genuinely worries about his business losing clients because of the mixup

but also ugh yeah i love me some "character A thinks it's a date and character B doesn't realize" shenanigans. and while you are absolutely correct about alec being 100% transparent he's also a respectful king so i totally think if he thought magnus wanted to take it slow he'd want to take it slow. also magnus is stupid and doesn't know how to take alec's very clear and intense attention so he's just like. oblivious. alec will straight up make him a declaration and he'll be like "ah yes... platonic friends. i wish he meant it the way i want him to </3" like an idiot lmao

like the misunderstanding would probably not last long but it would be great while it did if i do say so myself. then eventually alec sits him down to have a Talk like "do you really want to keep this going? i don't want you to feel forced into this or something" and magnus is like "hm?" and they sort it out aaaa

and alec is all like "oh my god did i not make it clear i was into you? this is so embarrassing i thought you wanted to take it slow and i was worried maybe i was coming off too strongly or something" and magnus is like "NO i mean im usually the one who comes off too strong" and they both get to be dramatic in love bitches with each other <3 aaaaaaaaaaaaaa

[dathen]

TMA 154 Liveblog Dump

I AM POSTING FROM BEYOND THE GRAVE YOU ARE NOW TALKING TO A GHOST

I started screaming from the second i saw the cast list and just didn’t stop  and I am still screaming!!!

‪look at Jon resisting beholding! actively trying to figure out what it DOESN’T want!!  muscling through every instinct telling him to not listen to the tape because he’s CHOOSING to fight it!!! take that Annabelle Cane‬

‪he has been thinking about Daisy’s choice and CHOOSING TO FIGHT and take action vs following helen’s cheerful resignation ‬!! ��

‪“I’ve been thinking about what happened with Daisy. With what feels...Right.” oh man as I listened I wasn’t sure if he meant “feels right” in a sense of his Purpose but NO HE IS TALKING ABOUT ACTUAL RIGHT AND WRONG my heart is SOARING‬

‪before he was like “whyyy don’t our evil gods tell us what to doooo” and now he’s like “JON LOVES....revolution 👀”‬

‪It’s so interesting that Beholding has been drawing him to tales of avatars succumbing to the will of the Entities all this time--urging him to do the same, making him think it’s inevitable...‬

OKAY THE STATEMENT ITSELF HOLY SHIT I didn’t think this family could get any sadder but now I’m super extra sad for Gerry and also sad for his dad but mostly extra extreme sad for Gerry

‪god why does knowing that gerry’s father legitimately loved him and wanted to protect him make it even SADDER??? that he called him “Gerry” so so long ago? 

idk shit about timelines but now I’m wondering if Gerry even remembers that his father called him that...what if it was some subconscious memory of a love he can’t recall, and hoping to hear it again...

‪I am SO incensed that Gertrude found Gerry as a promise to his murdered father who just wanted him safe.. and then TRAPPED HIS SOUL IN THE BOOK in the end knowing how torturous it was?? I can’t fuCKING BELIEVE every time I blink she becomes more and more horrible ‬

‪like I adore her as a character but YIKES‬

‪She really is so Beholding in how she treats people, even if she defied the goals of Beholding itself in her plans to sabotage the ritual and blow up the Magnus Institute‬.  They exist to serve her knowledge, and she didn’t even sacrifice Gerry to stop a ritual she just didn’t want to lose what he knows.  

‪ ‬meanwhile Jon is the opposite—kept falling in line but would rather die than sacrifice an assistant, managed to free Gerry, found a way out but didn’t want to abandon Martin, walked into the Buried for Daisy... ilovehimsomuch iwoulddieforhim

‪...I LOVE THAT SOLUTION WAY TOO MUCH call me a morbid fucker but it is so **chefs kiss**‬ also so many fan authors/artists have explored it already and they are SO valid

‪JON SAID FUCK MARK YOUR CALENDARS‬

‪*hears keyboard sounds and knows it’s martin and my entire physical being shuts down*‬

‪I HAD A CARDIAC ARREST WHEN I HEARD JON BURST IN I AM NOW A GHOST GHOSTBLOGGING FROM THE BEYOND‬

‪ITS HAPPENING oOOIH GODODDD ITS HAPPENIGNGNG !!!!!‬  TALKING TO...EACH OTHERHRHTHGH

‪I am going to prize the mental image of Jon careening across the institute to cannonball into Martin’s office, rambling up a storm as the biggest incoherent energetic mess‬

‪also how cute was it with him derailing his very important epiphany to sincerely thank martin for intervening??  I LOVE JON WITH ALL MY HEART I HOPE HE KNOWS IM PROUD OF HIM!!‬

‪I love how Martin starts to get defensive bc he thinks jon is being sarcastic BUT‬ Jjon immediately recognizes that and apologizes and corrects the miscommunication right away, he’s grown SO MUCH (also his struggle with modulating his tone and expressing his feelings in a way people will understand him is such a mood) 

‪MARTIN SAID “FUCK OFF” ITS A NATIONAL HOLIDAY‬

‪JON JUST!! HE!!! ASKED MARTIN!!’ TO RUN AWAY WITH HIMMMMFJFKKDLKDFIFKMGHMHM!!!  ‬

‪IM MCFUKCING LOSING IT!!!!‬

‪RUN‬

‪AWAY‬

‪WITH‬

‪HIM‬

‪!!!!!!!‬

Jon:  maybe it’s worth [the chance I’ll die]? the risk— You and me, together, getting out of here—“ Martin, so so softly: Jon...‬ 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭

‪brain on broken record for 20 hours: you and me, together, you and me, together, you and me, together, you and m‬

I think Martin’s assessment of Jon just using him as an excuse is wrong—for everything we know about Jon, it makes sense that he’d go to Martin first, to give him the chance of freedom the split second he learned.  He doesn’t want to abandon or sacrifice or betray him—could you imagine if he just did it and left Martin behind alone?

He can’t believe that Jon loves him enough to abandon everything, potentially drop dead or starve to death, and blind himself for him‪ but he IS‬

Instead he’s just gonna wait there, “in case you ever DO need me”

The way he said it sounds like he’s sure he’s useless to Martin now, but will just wait just in case that ever changes I’M SO SOFT

‪martin’s soft soft “I hope so” re: Jon saying he’ll be there, my heart is BREAKING‬

I want Melanie to be able to escape, I hope Jon tells her--what an amazing contrast that would make in comparison to her being freed from the Slaughter against her will

‪STILL CANT GET OVER IT‬

‪RUN AWAY WITH ME‬

‪YOU AND ME TOGETHER‬

‪RUN AWAY WITH MEEEEE‬

‪TOGETHERRRRRE‬

‪ITS OUR NEW “HOW IS HE” OUR NEW “I NEED HIM TO BE OKAY”‬

‪JON LOVES MARTIN JON LOVES HIM SO MUCH CRIES MYSELF A POOL OF TEARS AND LIES DOWN IN IT‬