#and having a good time w mates yk

[l-cereta]

How to explain the kind of loneliness I’ve felt in touch with this weekend: I don’t want to have to ask permission to hug someone, I want to hold and be held.

[ddejavvu]

currently thinking abt like maybe poly!marauders w innocent!reader but instead of like 🥺👉👈 innocent she’s like 🤔🧍‍♀️ innocent yk what i mean? sorry if that’s too vague this is my first time doing a request lmao

i know what you meant in your request and i tried to convey it here but i can't tell if i did it right? i hope it doesn't come off as too cutesy i tried to just make her confused 😭 putting a keep reading just 'cause they act like total dumbass teenage boys here and it might give some of you the ick if i'm being honest

James peers down at the sticky note that had been shoved into the lockbox on the garage door of the cabin you're renting for the weekend, instructions from the owner on how to get inside.

"She says the code is 6, 9, 6, 9, pound," James reads, pausing to snicker before he finishes his sentence, "And she'd prefer if we came in the back door."

Sirius lets out his familiar bark of laughter, mumbling, "That's what she said."

"She's a woman that knows what she wants," James's face is glowing with a perpetual grin, his skin rosy from the cold. Even Remus chuckles from where he's standing behind you with your bags, and you're not sure why they all seem to be so delighted by the homeowner's request.

"It's probably 'cause her bush blocks the front entrance," You muse, pointing at some roses that have grown over the pathway to the front door, but are far too beautiful to contain, "I wouldn't want to trim it either."

Somehow, you've missed the mark.

Their eyes brighten with even more of the amusement that's typically shining in them, and their chests convulse as they try biting their tongues to stop from laughing.

"What?" Your brow furrows slightly, "Why's that funny?"

"It's not," Remus clears his throat, but he's lying, and you know he is because his mouth is twisted into a poorly-concealed smirk, "I think you're right, darling. It's the bush."

"S'always the bush," Sirius chimes in, grin far too wolfish to be talking of roses, "I mean, y'forget to garden for a week, and bam, it's out of control."

"Alright," Remus chides lightly, though he's still tight in the chest as he tries not to laugh, "Might I remind you that you haven't trimmed in a month? It's almost as long as the hair on your head."

"It clogs up the shower drain, mate," James concedes regretfully, "I can't back you up on this one."

Your brain is swirling with scattered concepts, your train of thought rapidly switching between tracks. Roses, bush, hair, trimming, gardening, showering, you feel like you've dropped two crates of words and now you need to sort them back into their original piles again. Surely roses goes with gardening and bush, but what have they got to do with showering?

"Whatever," Sirius scoffs good-naturedly, slinging his bag over his shoulder and punching the code into the door. He presses the final key, mumbling pound as he does so, then holds it open for you, "C'mon darling, inside, let's go to pound town."

[slytherinboysappreciation]

Mattheo/Theodore x m reader

Straight boy mattheo who's getting with the prettiest girl in his house but he doesn't wanna be a total loser at kissing yk? So what's better than making you, his best bro, practice with him?

Obviously, with some trepidation, you do it and he loves it so much he chases after your lips even after you move away to critique him (imagine sitting on a couch w him and you move away from his lips to talk about what he does wrong but all he does is push you shoulders back until your back is flush with the couch just so he could keep kissing you)

Anyway, this slowly escalates into him getting a boner and rubbing it on your groin, begging you to "help me out bro"

Then after a week of practicing he gets with his dream girl and the kissing was a success, so was the blowjob she gave him! But he accidentally said your name while doing it and he blew it!

(Op you can choose how this ends)

Kissing - M.R. x male!Reader

A/N: Hehe this was fun to write. Difficult, but so much fun. I really really hope the smut is good 😬 The fix is unedited with no use of Y/N. If the ending seems a little weird, I’m sorry. I was really tired when I wrote it

This is the start of Mattheo’s bi awakening. Why? Because I said so

Fic does contain smut so NO MINORS!!

CW: Smut!!!; begging; Mattheo’s puppy eyes; Reader is in love with Mattheo; mentions of kissing; female oc; kissing; lots of kissing; making out; explicit sexual content; swearing; public sex; grinding; more begging; handjobs; cum; brief sweet moment; somewhat interrupted sex, I guess?; sex jokes; vague descriptions of blowjobs; several uses of the word ‘gay’; Mattheo doesn’t understand his feelings; Matty is a horny boy; mildly ambiguous ending; this takes place in Mattheo and Reader’s seventh year of school, so they’re both of age!!

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“C’mon, mate,” Mattheo begs, pulling you yet again from your homework. “It’s for a good cause!”

You look up, mildly annoyed.

The two of you are in the empty Slytherin common room, the last students there for the night. Everyone else is either sleeping or out partying.

It’s just the two of you, and Mattheo is set on annoying you.

He’s your best friend; your other half, so to speak. It’s been this way for almost seven years. He’s the yin to your yang, the fire to your calm.

Which he’s disrupting pretty majorly right now.

You exhale slowly, putting down your quill. “Just ask Pansy. Or Daphne. They’re good kissers, right?”

Mattheo groans and leans into you, giving you his best puppy eyes. The ones you can never say no to. “Please? I don’t trust them like I trust you. You won’t make fun of me or hold it over me like they will.”

He’s getting vulnerable, which means he’s being serious. Damn him.

You sigh and force yourself to look away. “Matty…”

“I’ll make it up to you, I swear! Besides, it’s not like, you know, we’re in love or anything. It’s just a kiss or two.”

And that is the entire problem. Because you are very much in love with him.

You’ve been pining after him since second year. Practically ever since you became friends. You’ve been head over heels for him, utterly and truly in love.

And he has no idea.

Which is why to him, asking you for kissing practice isn’t a big deal.

It’s all Seraphina Selwyn’s fault. She’s undeniably the prettiest Slytherin in your year, if not the whole school.

And out of all the boys she decided she wanted to have, she had to pick yours.

Her and Mattheo have been flirting for months. And she’s finally started to show signs that she’s ready for him to make a move.

He’s been giddy about it since it happened, gushing about it every time he’s alone with you. It just makes you feel sick.

But you can’t let him down, especially not when he’s giving you those oh so sad puppy eyes you can’t resist.

With a sigh, you nod. “Fine. But only a few kisses. Wouldn’t want anyone spreading any rumors about us.”

It hurts to say. But you can’t let him know.

Mattheo grins and scoots closer. “Alright! Teach me how to kiss, oh wise one.”

You can’t help the smile that tugs at your lips. He’s so dorky sometimes. “Just… come here.”

You reach out and gently guide his head to yours. You pause for a moment, mouth right above his.

Are you really going to do this?

To your surprise, it’s Mattheo who leans the rest of the way in. He presses his mouth to yours in a clumsy kiss.

It feels like sparks go down your spine. You shiver, eyes closing.

Mattheo kisses you like he’s hungry, like your mouth is a feast and he’s ravenous for it. He’s clumsy and eager, but has enough common sense to not try and shove his tongue down your throat.

You try to slow the kiss down. To show him how to move his mouth and such. It works… sort of.

After several kisses, you try and pull back. Not far, but just enough so you can give him some advice.

He chases after you. Leaning further into you in order to press his lips to yours again.

“Matty—“

He pushes your shoulders back, pressing you back against the arm of the couch. And you?

Your entire body lights up with sparks as he slides partway onto your lap. You can feel your dick twitch underneath him and for a moment you panic. He’s gonna feel you!

But Mattheo only moans softly and continues kissing you. He shifts his position on your lap, resting his hands on your chest for support.

You melt into the kiss, letting your lips part and your body relax. You can’t help it. This could be your only chance ever to kiss Mattheo; and if he’s into it, you’re not gonna complain.

Mattheo’s tongue slips into your mouth and you forget why you ever wanted to pull away in the first place.

The two of you make out for what feels like hours. Just mouth pressed to mouth, tongues gliding together. You pull back a couple times to breathe, and Mattheo always chases your mouth with his.

It’s hot. Painfully so. You’re made aware of your hard-on every time Mattheo shifts in your lap.

You know he can feel it. You brace yourself, preparing for the moment he mentions it. But he seems too caught up in kissing you to care.

He shifts again and makes a small noise. An almost groaning sound. You feel yourself throb when you realize he’s just as hard as you.

His cock, pressed right alongside yours.

He groans again and grinds his dick against yours. “Fuck, you feel so good…!”

You moan, giving a little thrust up against his hips. “Matty…”

He captures your mouth with his, taking the chance to lick against your tongue again. You melt into the kiss once more, unable to help yourself.

The two of you make out with more passion now, grinding against each other.

Mattheo’s movements start to get more desperate. More hungry. He’s practically humping your dick, panting and moaning into your mouth.

“Please,” he finally begs. “I need you.”

You bite down a groan, struggling to think straight. You shouldn’t. You really shouldn’t.

“Please? Just this once, I swear!” He’s giving you his puppy eyes again. “Help me out, just this once?”

You can’t help it. He’s so hot and you’re so weak to his puppy eyes.

“Alright. But only this once.”

You fumble with his belt, clumsily working with one hand to undo it. When you finally manage to slip your hand into his pants, Mattheo whines.

You close your hand around his dick, giving him as good of a stroke as you can within the confines of his clothes. He groans and presses into your touch, his dick twitching and throbbing under your hand.

You shift and squirm a bit until you manage to free him, finally able to stroke him like you’re wanting.

Mattheo moans like a porn star, thrusting into your hand eagerly. Greedily. He’s practically jerking himself off with your hand.

And you love it.

You match his pace, shifting your grip every now and then until you find what makes his hips stutter.

“I can’t—“ He sounds absolutely wrecked. “I’m gonna—“

“Come on,” you groan, your dick a weeping mess at the sight. “Cum for me, Matty.”

Mattheo thrusts into your hand once, twice, and cums. Hot sticky ropes of white paint your shirt and pants.

It’s too hot for you to even be upset.

“Merlin, Matty,” you breathe. “That was hot.”

He drops his forehead against your shoulder and pants out a laugh. For a moment, he just basks in your presence. Nuzzling against your neck like he’s gonna say something soft.

Then the sound of faint laughter breaks the spell. People are coming.

You hastily mutter a cleaning charm while Mattheo frantically tucks himself away. You both know you can’t deal with any rumors about the two of you being together.

By the time the drunken partygoers spill into the common room, the two of you are sitting up on the couch again. No evidence of what transpired at all.

Except for maybe your still hard dick, which you use your notebook to hide. You’ll take care of it later.

As people slowly head off to bed, you start to gather your things. Mattheo grabs your arm before you can leave.

“Can—“ He falters for a moment. “Same time tomorrow? I need more practice still.”

You hesitate. But only for a moment. “Sure. We can meet up in my dorm. It’ll be empty then.”

Mattheo nods, acting for all the world like you two are talking about a homework study session. You can see the gleam in his eyes though. He’s just as excited as you.

You head off to bed with your heart pounding. You and Mattheo. Kissing practice tomorrow.

You have no doubts what it’ll turn into again. And oh Merlin, are you looking forward to it.

One week later

“I blew it!” Mattheo barges into your room without knocking, startling you.

“Blew what? Who did you blow?” You sit up, curious and confused.

“Not who.” He rolls his eyes, unable to help a tiny smirk, even in his distress. “It. My relationship.”

“Oh.” That makes more sense. “With Selwyn? What did you do?”

He groans and slumps to the floor, sitting at the base of your bed. “So everything’s going great, right? The mood is there, the kissing’s fantastic; we’re getting it on, you know?”

You nod, listening intently.

“And then she goes to blow me, which is, you know, pretty awesome.”

Mattheo covers his face, clearly embarrassed by the next words he says. “And I fuckin’ say your name!”

You blink. Once. Twice. “What?”

“I say your fucking name in the middle of getting a blowjob!” He groans and lowers his head in shame. “It just slipped out. You know, coz of all our practice.”

Ah, yes. You’d given him several enthusiastic blowjobs during your week of ‘kissing practice’.

“Huh.” You lean back on your hands a bit, thinking. “So, did she break up with you?”

“No,” he groans. “But now she’s convinced I’m gay, and I don’t know what to do.”

You try really hard not to laugh. Of course she’d think that. Even when it was obviously not true. Mattheo was whipped for her. You were just an afterthought. Kissing practice.

“Well, is she still willing to date you?”

“Yes,” he grumbles. “But she’s as big of a gossip queen as anyone else. The whole school will soon think I’m in love with you. Which I’m not.”

You pat his shoulder consolingly. It hurts to hear him deny it, but you both know it’s true. Mattheo’s not in love with you, and will never be in love with—

“At least,” He suddenly looks doubtful. “I’m pretty sure I’m not.”

You blink. He’s… only pretty sure…?

“Saying your name during sex doesn’t mean I’m in love with you, right?”

You stare at him. “I think our kissing practice would sooner qualify.”

“Oh.” He relaxes. “Well, that doesn’t count at all. That’s just you helping me out, you know?”

“Yeah.” You nod slowly. “Right.”

“So that settles it then.” Mattheo nods. “I’m not gay. It was just an accident.”

You’re suddenly no longer sure. But you don’t say anything. He has a girlfriend now, for Merlin’s sake. You can’t crush their relationship off of doubt.

“Whatever you say.”

The two of you sit in silence for a while. Then Mattheo gets up. He stretches a bit, and glances down at you.

You can already see the gleam in his eye.

“Just out of curiosity, though…”

You sigh and pat the bed next to you.

Looks like your kissing practice isn’t over yet.

[redr0sewrites]

Okay as an absolute Lute stan I have been STARVING for more content for her omg 💀 I've always wondered though about her angel form and stuff like that, like specifically her wings. Do you think the wings are like any other part of her body, or are they like especially sensitive? And I wonder if they preen like birds do because omg that would be so cute. Just imagine Lute having a super stressful day from work and you come home and just gently start fixing her wings and she just melts 😭 or imagine that someone in heaven being a dick to you (because Adam proves that there can be assholes in heaven) and she gets all protective and wraps a wing around you like a shield. And omg, if they are a sensitive or even erogenous part of her, don't even get me STARTED on wing sex cause gah damn 😤 I want to do the most unspeakable things to this woman and have her do the most unspeakable things to me

URGRHRHRHRG SO REALLLLLL!!!!! i love lute sm we need more lute content fr!!!!!

🥀Cw: fluff, smut, wing kink (??), sappy/soft lute, lots of trust

🥀minors dni with the nsfw portion

sfw:

for lute to even be in a relationship, she has to trust you a LOT, and the same goes for touching her wings

i def hc them as sensitive, and there is def a lot of intimacy and trust that comes with touching someone elses wings, so shes def hesitant to let you touch them at first

she warms up to it over time tho, and pretty soon shes internally begging for you to touch her wings

she LOOOVES it but would never admit it

lute also enjoys back massages in general, being an exterminator means a lot of training and stress so she loves coming home and collapsing on top of you while you rub her wings :(

she def returns the favor too, she's always giving you massages and taking care of you, even going so far as to prioritizing you over herself

as much as shes a giver, deep down lute wants to be loved

she craves validation from those she cared about, and while she doesn't like seeming weak, there is something so freeing about knowing that you'll always take care of her, even in a vulnerable state

lute isn't huge on PDA or physical contact in general, but def uses her wings to steer you around and keep you close to her

yk how birds have mating dances and rituals w their wings?? when lute first met you, her wings kept subconsciously gravitating towards you, and she kept subconsciously fluffing them up and flapping them around you (much to her dismay, adam noticed and teased her MERCILESSLY)

shes pretty protective in general, but she also trusts you can take care of yourself. however, that doesn't mean she won't tuck you against her side if someone comes up to you and tries to give you unwarranted attention

i hc her as the jealous type, and her wings have the tendency to twitch and wrap around you when shes jealous (you think its ADORABLE)

i also think lute would love it if you wore one of her feathers, angel wings shed a lot when preened and her heart would skip a beat if she realized you kept one

it may not seem significant to you, but the fact that you're keeping a part of her close at all times means a lot to her

preening oneself can be difficult, and i hc that lute def doesn't take good care of herself often

sure she has good hygiene, but shes never been one to do extensive self care or care much ab herself at all

so she's never really done a lot of work on her wings, when it gets really uncomfortable she'll clean them but she's not super meticulous about it

once you come around tho, lute is gen surprised that you would even bother to do it for her

she tries to convince you not to, that its okay and that she can do it herself, but you shush her

lute can't help but feel a little embarrassed as you comb through the soft feathers, picking out all the dead foliage and cleaning her plumage

once its over, she's shocked at how nice it feels and has ever since asked you to do it for her

overall its really intimate and means a lot to her

nsfw:

the majority of the time, lute is a dom, her whole life she's been in control, especially in the bedroom

once you come along though, that starts to change

she always kept her wings hidden during sex, and was shocked when you asked her to keep them out.

when you said you wanted to try something new, she agreed, but was still a bit confused

lute never really had the time to masturbate or have long term partners, most of the sex she's had was quick hookups just to relieve tension

when you first touch her wings, she MELTS

she did not expect them to be so sensitive, but after years of neglect, she nearly comes on the spot just from your gentle strokes

lute is a quivering mess, begging you to keep going as you explore her wings

theres a level of trust that's unprecedented to any relationship she's ever had before, and you explore and memorize every reaction she has

each spot that makes her tick, which places make her moan the loudest, you store all of it in your brain as you slowly bring her to relesse

lute isn't used to being treated so sweetly, to being touched as if she were made of glass, and the whole circumstance makes her emotional

if you have wings she def returns the favor (very much willing to elaborate on a reader w sensitive wings😇)

after the first couple times, lute wouldn't mind you getting a little rougher with her wings

hell, she might even ask for you to tie them down, to play with them mercilessly as she squirms below you

lute is the ultimate switch, she can be a rough dom or a soft dom, a bratty sub or a pillow princess, it all depends on how shes feeling

sure, she loves it when you pamper her wings, but there's something so fucking hot about you fucking her senseless without even touching her

RAHHHH LUTE MY BELOVED <33333 the sapphic within me is begging to be set free i am a certified lute kisser yall

[penaltyboxboxbox]

whats stopping you from posting your omegaverse headcanons my king……do it

truly what is stopping me....ok my omegaverse assignments under the damn cut and honestly thank you to @wewentcarracing my fellow scholar who's own research has DEFINITELY influenced my own

Charles: this bitch is an omega. everyone is in love with him and he smells so good and is distracting to everyone in the damn room. we're going to question his abilities because of it too he will face anti-omega media bias despite the achievements of other omega drivers all of charles mishaps are blamed on the fact hes an omega

Carlos: alpha idc what you contradictory parties wanna say hes a big hairy alpha and hes proud of it. but hes like pretty well managed and likes to act like hes a lot more...idk wild during his ruts and stuff but like in all reality he keeps it together very well but just uses being an alpha as an excuse to hoe around.............is not mated to charles but like wants to be soooooo badly and like the way charles plays around it constantly makes him insanely whipped . as he fucking said it himself he wants to bite charles and has to control himself. ok.

Pierre: i cant decide honestly like sometimes i want him to be an alpha who has no self control and sometimes i want him to be a very ashamed omega. depends on the day and also what i'm assigning for esteban....

Esteban: He is either a beta or a really lame alpha..............i like him being an alpha making him super protective of lance but like THEY DONT LIKE EACH OTHER THAT WAY but like. maybe a little a esteban just too polite to lance to say anything. teehee. omega pierre x beta esteban is goated also. just saying.

Lance: OMEGA.............uses this as an excuse to always be laying down and being sweet and asking people to do things for him :) and they always do. also he has the most sweaty disheveled unwell heats ever and just generally reeks of maple syrup and pancakes

Fernando: alpha and he wont let you forget it. he stank. hes freaky. yeah. talks about it TOO openly. everyones had a taste too like can you blame them. guy who is also like slobbering all over lances neck in public theyre gross about it

George: I loooove George as an alpha who really dislikes the loss of control aspect of alphadom. As the wise sadie one said, george thinks being an alpha is terribly gauche. at the same time has his own cockiness about the fact he IS an alpha like he has his moments there......using his alpha privilege when it suits him but hating it when its not something he can use to his advantage or that might make him act a fool

Lewis: Beta who lets people believe he's an Alpha whos just so mentally in the zone and turbo vegan that he is able to remain in complete control of his urges and emotions. Gets testy when questioned about it its NONE of their business. Definitely does in fact really really want to be an alpha. (nico an omega btw just add this to my brocedes narrative)

Yuki: Alpha and proud of it. He's like writing alpha specific instagram captions.

Daniel: This man is THE beta ok. used to be self deprecating about it but now just embraces it. hes the beta they brought into the enclosure to keep max from becoming insane.

Max: an omega but like. weirdly ravenous one. he is breaking down omega stereotypes but like he's not even trying he's just a weirdo.

Checo: also an omega but hes like a tragically lame one when in heat. like this man is the king of the pathetic heat he wants to be led around by the hand and makes everyone around him feel bad for him. smells like orchids and carnations.

Valtteri: beta who is literally just chilling

Guanyu: reverse lewis, alpha who everyone thinks is a beta and he just lets them, doesn't want people prying into that part of his life. does not have a complex about being an alpha though and being around val keeps him w a cool head yk

Alex: Alpha.......knows he's a good one too like too aware that he'll get the job done and WELL definitely more than a little cocky about it and thinks he generally like. deals with himself well doesn't THINK he lets it get to his head as much as it does. HUGE flirt w like any omega.

Logan: Omega like what do you want me to say he spends every moment wiggling and whimpering and blushing like......hes an omega. he smells like he smells like fresh cut citrus and seawater 🫶😔

Lando: he's an omega but he smells offputting he smells like burnt sugar and monster energy. was like convinced mind body and soul he and carlos were a THING until the chussy lured carlos away and now lando is stuck being a little weird about it for all time he cant quite click w someone else and hes a weird mean little tease because of it

Oscar: Alpha who is soooooooooo incredibly chill about it. You wanna hop on my dick? ah. ok i guess. have at it. like this guy is not pressed about any of this shit

KMag: alpha but i have no strong opinion here i just think hes normal

Nico: alpha who smells terrible to every omega ever and can never find a rut partner and yearns for the hole but he just cant win

bonus seb cause i can: seb is an alpha..obvs w charles duh but ALSO was a freakish little alpha in his younger days who got off on being gross and contradictory + wonderful truly paired with beta mark with his absolutely massive complex about being a beta and snaps at anyone who tries to bring it up in regards to his behavior etc etc etc hotheaded beta and evil twink alpha who goads him about oh fuck me all you want youll never be MEEEEE oh i need it actually. anyways

THANKS FOR READING 🫶

[skyartworkzzz]

How did life in the cult looked like before Narinder was killed and Lamb ascended?

Were they a benevolent leader or a cruel one?

And has anything changed since Lamb ascended?

OKAY SO MILDLY LONG RESPONSE UNDER THE CUT bless chu for these questions mwehe love me rambling .w. 💜

Before Narinder was killed and Lambert was still his vessel, everyone was pretty much living a regular routine The only thing that changed over time on all the followers was their growing "weirdness" due to the Lamb's influence as their Leader xD

When Narinder was defeated and Lamb became the new God of Death, life carried out pretty normally afterwards, but now with the followers being much more devoted to the Lamb! Many who were once skeptical to their ways were converted too Im still questioning on whether the followers should be aware of who Nari used to be or not since- well they did see the whole ass fight in the game so I think itd be natural for them to know LMAO BUT IF THEY DO KNOW WHO NARI WAS, theres a chance some would make fun of him either on his face or on his back for what he is now: a follower just like them. Some would probably praise the Lamb at him, most would likely leave him alone........theres many possibilities, but overall theyd get used to his presence like any other fellow cult-mate x'D

Lamb has always been a kind, just leader who tried their best to make everyone comfortable in their new home at the cult, but that is not to say that when shit would get serious They Would Be Serious. Many difficult dissenters have already perished on their hands or were tortured to conversion While some followers felt a sense of familiarity with Lamby and treated them like a close friend, others were too scared or shy to approach despite knowing how nice they were Lambert never seemed to care much what others thought of them, but did try to put in the effort to at least leave a respectful and trustworthy image in their minds as their Leader At the beginning they never searched to develop stronger bonds with their followers, but as time went by after living with the same faces for a while, it just- happened xD

Once the Lamb's ascension started in order to become an official God, the cult slowly got more and more scared of their Leader, either for fear of who they were becoming or worry for who they were losing Many followers and Disciples that grew closer to the Lamb became overly concerned about their well-being, making sure to constantly check in whenever they noticed something was off The closer Lambert got to divinity, the more distance they started to place between them and the followers. Not because they wanted to, but because they were no longer able to relate to them and they to the Lamb (like friends growing apart for being interested in different things yk) Naturally, theyd feel lonely LOL and cling more onto Narinder since he is the only one who knows what they are going through (for the most part at least-)

ONE DAY ILL GET A GOOD AMOUNT OF COMICS AND A TIMELINE SET UP TO ILLUSTRATE THESE BETTER for now thats it </3

[bright-and-burning]

spoiler-ful anons for the light between the lines below the cut <3

oh to be a fly INDEED. i say. like i am not the writer. you're the second person to say this w that phrasing fjsdjfclokad. i'd need to watch like several hours of footage of the both of them (+ jenson) talking for research to write it. bc writing non-zoomers is like pulling teeth for me (literally every single line of jenson dialogue was in brackets until about 12 hours before i posted the fic bc i was like how the FUCK does this man TALK). but i am not deleting the original ask in my inbox. just in case it comes to me in a dream...

a void is someone w/o powers!! it's kind of. mildly derogatory. well . can be majorly. depends on the tone, really. (lando and oscar both use it Very Derogatorily, for the first like half of the fic. oscar being mean abt lando and lando being mean to himself.) very few voids like. last. and it's only really used when someone noticeably doesn't develop when theyre in training. nobody's calling a 16 year old a void, cuz most 16 y/os havent developed.

the f2 kids are working on triggering their developments (powers)!! it's kind of like. i guess the equivalent would be meditation for like. force training in star wars? or, idk, how fanon describes finding ur animagus in h*rry p*tter (sorry it was the first analogue that came to mind). it's not super explained in-fic, cuz that's not what lando's time is spent on at all (he's fully accepted his fate of never developing), but a lot of the training (beyond the military bits of like. here's how to not blow yourself up. here's how to kill things) is working w essentially mindscapes. which start as these like incomprehensible mazes, that you slowly work through and start to pick up hints, until eventually a combo of age, environmental stressors, and time spent working through it means bam you have powers now!

the kids find it so much easier to work through their mindscapes and pull out hints when lando's there because of his power; he's unknowingly amplifying the tiny seeds of their developments, making it easier for them to find them. i didn't make that explicit in the fic, but yeah. that's also why so many people lando's gone on training missions w like . randomly develop on the mission or right after. combo of adrenaline and like . life or death fight or flight stress. plus an amplifier. and there u go. cheat code to unlocking ur powers

if no one has me i know you have me anon. LISTEN! ok so first off. they have HISTORYYYY ok. they had their little squad at the institute. nico literally uses jenson's development to test out the amplifier thing. like jenson is an extremely willing participant in the experiment. he tells mark to believe he's a chicken like eight times, seven of which mark is like 'what the actual fuck mate' for. and obviously nico and lewis have their fuckin. quantum entanglement levels of involvement in each other.

and then nico and lewis go out on that mission. and only lewis comes back... and lewis and jenson lean on each other ok!!! there's def some tense moments in there (jenson probably does blame lewis for it going wrong. for a bit. i wont lie) but they do eventually get to this point of like. god i miss him. yk. so they're having their shared grief moment. they partner up for a bit. jenson's not got a terribly combat oriented development (rifted can't hear instructions/understand human language or like. feel emotions the way humans do. so what use is a charmed voice lol) but he's good at shooting shit. and lewis can literally make things vibrate until they explode. and then they get older and more experienced and suddenly they're in charge of people (who tf let That happen). but at the end of the day who are they gonna call up when they've got an aching hole in their chest. each other. that's who. they also fuck about it for SURE

and now nico's BACK. fifteen years of weird grief and feelings later. lewis is torn between doing what is definitely his due diligence his responsibility cuz like. he should be getting answers. fucking anomalous shit is going on. and nico. but jenson has already hit the point of yeah fuck that, nico's back and lando's fine idgaf otherwise. (i think jenson had perhaps . an inkling. of lando's development. and things have clicked a bit as to what happened but he could not care less. nobody's actively in danger of dying. everyone he's responsible for is fine including the guy he's got a soft spot the size of the moon for. nico is BACK. who cares how it happened rn. that's for like. 72 hours from now. after lots of food and sleep. and maybe sex if things go really really well.)

it's about people changing (or not changing!) without you. and weird uncomfortably massive feelings. and weirder sex, probably. fucking someone abt someone else for so long it becomes also about them?? but in a crazy entangled way that's impossible to unpack?? idk!!!! this is all just me spinning things up out of my ass. spider style. i hope it makes even a smidge of sense. thank u for asking abt them anon <333

[coleszzzworld]

My yandere college! jock head canons!

A/n-(yoooo , these are just some random head canons for my yandere jock series ! I just wanted to push something out , and it’s been forever since I wrote for kai lol lowkey this is some character backstory for Kai , happy reading enjoy!❤️)

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️- suggestive content , daddy issues, mentions of murder? (Kind of) just some crazy stuff lol and yandere behavior. Do not read if easily triggered!

•I already said this in the first chapter butttttt kai is definitely a golden retriever boyfriend, he’s just so damn stupid, and he has a bright personality. But when someone fucks with you in anyway … let’s just say he gets scary 😭 , and I don’t mean that in a cringe way , that man will kill for you . And make sure you’ll never find out ����🏽‍♀️he could go to 0 to 100 real quick !!!

•Kai loves being around you , no matter what . Oh your going back to your dorm ? Or home (that’s if u don’t live on campus) it doesn’t matter he’ll be behind you , and he’ll lowkey invite himself to stay the night at your place , like this man literally lives at your dorm/house , like I’m not joking his toothbrush, clothes, blankets etc . Is at your place even if you have a roommate or you live with your family , surprisingly your roommate/family love him! And says he’s welcome anytime! , yeah you definitely need space from him. “Y/n!! Let’s watch a movie!”

•I don’t want to be that person but I will be , he definitely has home problems , that boy ain’t got a daddy (just like me fr 🤠) when he was two years old , his dad left . And his mom always works . She’s barely home , and when she is , they don’t really talk , and when they do they always fight about the dumbest things , so basically he ain’t got no dad , and his mom is a workaholic, and he’s a insane psychopath! w for his parents fr !!!🥳 that’s part of the reason he stays with you , he’s alone most of the time , that and he likes to have you close.

•also I will be that person again🙃, when your sleep , and he’s laying on the floor next to your bed (he refused to stay in the guest room , he says your room is more comfortable.) he definitely the type to get hard from just being near you , and he has to release his aching pain some how ….👀 now he’s respectful he’ll make sure he’s quiet (even tho he doesn’t want to be.🤠) and he’s makes sure to clean up after , don’t hate but he’s definitely a whimper 😩 like he bites his lip when he’s coming to his high , his hand going up and down on his length. 😵‍💫 he just thinks about how you would feel on his length and how he would just claim you as his , all he can think about is how tight you would be … “f-fuck , y-y/n I’ll be g-good , just be mines , p-please”

•now let me tell you this , he’s definitely not a virgin, his body count is two , everyone on campus thinks he’s a play boy but naw 😭he has a low body count and he’s loyal to one person and that person is only you. That and all of his team mates and friends are play boys so that’s were the expectations come from fr lol .

•now , he does have siblings(he has 3 other siblings), but he has never met them (well kinda of) ,the first thing he knows about his dad was when he was starting college and football he was meeting everyone and he met a cheerleader , she kinda of looked like his dad , I mean the pictures of his dad he had she looked like him , and she had the same last name as his dad (Kai has his moms last name) curiously he wanted too know more , so he went digging and fount her instagram, he saw photos of her family and sure enough he saw his dad … he definitely stayed away from her when he fount out his dad , left and had a new family, a family with another woman , and new children, a child that HE goes to school with , someone HE shares the flied with basically, he lost it , bro was definitely feeling all types of Emotions , actually as matter fact , when he first fell for you , yk at the football game , the reason why his head was out of the game and the team was losing , was because his dad was their , not for him , hell his dad probably didn’t even recognize that Kai was playing, his dad was their for his daughter. The cheerleader. Kai was feeling anger, sadness, he wanted to go up on those bleachers and beat the hell out of his dad…all that was running through Kai Head was “how dare he leave me , and have a new family. How fucking dare he come here . And act like I don’t exist. How dare he.” But when break time happened and he bumped into you near the concessions stand that’s when he met you .Suddenly he felt wanted, he knew he had to have you.

•now let’s talk about Kai’s mom , like I said she’s a workaholic, she wasn’t married to Kai’s dad when he split , and she works as a nurse, she picks up shifts and works all day / night ,she really didn’t talk about Kai’s dad , while he was growing up , and refused to talk about him , when Kai wanted to get in contact with his dad . She’s a nice lady tho , when she was at home , Kai dragged you to his house to meet her , and surprisingly you and her bonded , then she left for work . Kai looked disappointed but he’s used to it 🙃

•Kai just needs love and attention, bro is , Touch starved too😭 he just needs some love fr , so no matter where y’all are , he will always be holding you hand or holding your waist , or just lean against you , bro just down bad fr 😭

•he’s your best friend, as you put it , but I’m telling you now , that man is trying to be more then friends, like he’s literally insane over you . And even if you don’t like him like that , that’s okay , you’ll never get rid of him!

•this man drives , so your a passenger princess , so when you guys go out , he likes to blast music and put his hand on your thigh , and he says it’s not werid, but you’re like “🤔” he definitely has no chill , like I said he loves holding you . So his hands go to your thighs when he drives you , too school or anywhere else

•I have a feeling that this man listens to indie and rap , I’m talking like gorillaz and Marc demarco , jid , sometimes Kodak and nardo wick when he’s feeling devious 🤭 he also listens to glass animals, anddddd tame impla and Tyler the creator😤

•let’s do say , someone fucks with you , In anyway I mean he fought Cameron Harris for you , he definitely was trying to kill him , and he would if his friends didn’t pull him off Cameron , but let’s say someone disrespect your name or spreads Nasty rumors about you , that man is ready to split whoever skull open for you , like I said he’s bat shit crazy, he literally thinks of you as a god . He thinks your his savior damn near 😵‍💫 like he can’t have no one talking down on your name 🗣️

•overall If I had to rate him on how dangerous he is I would say 8.9/10 like he’s insane and basically he has nothing to lose , he’ll go to war for you any day , if you say to , he will , he just real like that🤭💅🏽.

“Nobody will talk to you like that y/n . I’ll forever love and protect you . You’ll see I’m the one for you! And If not …I’ll make you love me .”

[grasslandgirl]

sav now that you are further along dbd. i was totally with you on the charles is aware he is bi and in love with edwin for the first couple eps but now i'm like. Ohhhh he is def bi but he thinks his homoerotic moments are Just Best Mates Not Being In Love With Edwin Not At All We Are Just Very Good Friends Things... i feel like both theories can exist together. however i feel like charles is. silly and does not realize that much of his behavior is in fact very in-love-with-his-best-friend of him yk... anyway i love seeing your thoughts on the dash i hope you're having fun!!!

DARLING JANNAH I MEANT TO ANSWER THIS AGES AGO !!! bi Charles is so canon to me for real and I am willing to accept that either he is fully aware of it OR is completely oblivious to it and his feelings depending on the context. hes soooo silly <3 my silly darling!! imagine being gay besties w some guy for thirty years post death (not to mention choosing to remain a ghost For and With Him. hello.) and neither of you realizing you're in love the whole time. hilarious!

[bluewormonastring]

My live reactions to season 2 (episode 1)

SPOILERS OBVIOUSLY KIDS READ AT UR OWN RISK

Holy shit I’m so excited

Oh my god

Oh my god

Oauxbwkxjwhz

LOVE THE BLACK SCREEN W A SHARP CUT TO THE BEACH 10/10

OMG WE GET THE STEDE AND IZZY BEACH SWORD NOW? SO SOON? YOU SPOIL ME OFMD

Omg he’s been stabbed this is for sure a dream sequence

STEDE THATS MURDER EVEN IF ITS JUST IN YOUR HEAD

“You absolute twa….” BEST DYING WORDS EVER ILY IZZY ALWAYS AND FOREVER

THE SLOW RUN TOWARDS EACH OTHER OMG

AND STEDES FACE AND HIS VOICE AND AWW BABY

AWWW THE WAY THEY CRASHED INTO EACH OTHER

“BABE” HA FOWIHXBWNA I WAS NOT PREPARED

“I KNEW YOUD FIND ME LOVE”

“Fuckin love the beard mate”

Oh we’ve started farting lovely

OH MY GOD I WASNT PREPARED FOR HOW ID FEEL WHEN IT CUT TO HIM WITH EVERYONE AWW MY BABIES IVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH

“Cant be worse than you moaning ‘Ed oh ed’ all night” ILY PETE

Iconic title screen as always

“DEAR ED” AHHHH

SPANISH JACKIE ILY

Instantly taking an interest in the Swede as we knew would happen but still iconic

Ugh I love Leslie jones did I mention I love Leslie jones

Nat looks so scared aww baby

I love wee John being security

And host stede aww baby

I live for black Pete dealing with working in customer service

And all of them tbh

Aww poor buttons he needs his ocean and Livy

I’m ngl for a second I was like “where’s Fred armisen- oh wait”

ITS THE I THINK OF YOU OFTEN LINE YESS

HELLO YES I ADORE IZZY HANDS HE CAN DO NO WRONG IDC WHAT YOU SAY IVE MISSED MY BABY BOY

Ahh the wedding

“Demon? *shakes head* I’m the fucking devil” AHH

Guys were only 6 minutes in and this post is already long as shit so buckle up (if ur actually reading it lmao my ass would be like nope too long”

THERES MY VICO HELLO VICO ILY AND MY JOEL FRY ILY BABIES

Ah yes ye olde put trauma in a box in lock it

Awww fang baby boy someone give him a hug find him Lucius

Omg it’s the “you dumped him” scene

“Did everyone get some cake” because he’s still our precious little angle

HE JUST SNORTED RHINO HORN IS THAT A THING WAS THAT A THING IN HISTORY HUH

NO ITS THIS SCENE I DONT WANNA WATCH MY BABY BE SAD

Yes hello I love Izzy hands I would protect him with my life little baby boy

Vico looks so done w his ass

Someone give my baby a hug

Ily fang

The tears in his eyes during “unhand me” aww Angel

AWW IZZY

CONNOTHAN O NONNATHAN WE LOVE YOU YOU PRECIOUS LITTLE BOY UR ABSOLUTE PERFECTION YOU ANGEL

I love the friendship Jim and that girl have

Oh shit Jackie

“BOO CAKES” JACKIE

Stede honey you’re not intimidating

“I know that guy we had breakfast together” “you’ll be having a lot of breakfastes together” “oh okay 🙂” ily Swede

HIM DOING AN ED IMPRESSION LMAO “could be. Could be mate.”

“You’re my hero” 😞😕🙂😏

Swede bein a cute lil double agent

AWW SWEDE “my time with Jackie has been the happiest of my life. Her love has helped me locate parts of myself I didn’t even know existed and reclaim others that I have long missed” ILY

“Tonight is my turn to perform the husbandly duties”

“That’s another toe” ED YOU STAY AWAY FROM HIM LEAVE MY BABY ALONE

“Who am I to you” aww Izzy Angel baby he’s accepting it OMG “I have love for you Edward” IZZY YOURE SAYING IT OUT LOUD IM SO PROUD OF YOU BUD

IZZY YOU DID NOT JUST SAY TALK IT THROUGH YOU HAD TO HAVE KNOWN THAT WAS A HORRIBLE IDEA

OMG AND THE SHIFT IN THE MUSIC AS SOON AS HE SAID IT

IZZY RUN

RUN MY BABY BOY RUN

“As a crew” OH EDDDDD

ED DONT POINT A GUN AT JIM

OR ANYONE ELSE

THAT INCLUDES YOURSELF EDWARD TEACH BORN ON A BEACH

“They think ya crazy” cackling his face omg

Go taika absolutely slaying this scene

The way the camera is all like jittery is so good

Jim’s like “beard” makes their chin look like… not caved in but idk like it looks like they have a rly bad overbite yk

“Everyone knows why” “I don’t. Enlighten me” “your feelings for stede fucking bon-“ *GUNSHOT* ARE U SHITTING ME EDWARD NO WE DO BOT SHOOT FRIENDS

OH MY GOD HE MADE FRENCHIE FIRST MATE HOLY SHIT

Oh my god Izzy my poor baby Izzy oh my god how dare you hurt my Izzy

LMAO SWEDE

“FUCK THOSE HAMMIES UP” LMAO

There’s like no way there’s actually anything valuable in that chest

WE GOT TO SEE HER TAKE A NOSE FOR THE NOSE JAR YESSS

OH SHIT INDIGO

“Now give me back my blue shit STEVE”

Susan’s hot

DONT HURT SWEDE

Oh good okay we’re cool

I feel like she’s lying tho

But for now we’re cool

AWW FANG

AWW JIM COMFORTING FANG

“WANNA HEAR THE STORY OF THE WOODEN BOY” AWW

Living for vico using they them for the puppet

“DO THE VOICE” AWW

OMG VICO THATS ICONIC

AWW YAY THEYRE LAUGHING NOW THOSE ARE MY BABIES YAY

Living for buttons reuniting with the ocean

Okay roll credits cheers yall see you next episode

[chryblossomjjk]

It's really so amazing to see some change in Kpop. It's small and there is much more extremely serious issues that need to be dealt with but I'm happy that 1) female and male idols are interacting a lot with each other. You have that one lesserafim member the maknae?? who has like a show I think? and she interviewed members of a boy group the boyz which is great. Male and female idols are doing dance challenges together. There was some HYBE show where all the HYBE groups male and female were on and there was many many interactions. This is so good. Obviously there are still a lot of restrictions and idols still don't react during award shows and stuff but it really is the small stuff that counts. I really think BTS should be somewhat accredited for this change. They're extremely kind and warm to their fellow company mates, they opened up spaces for idols to talk about mental health many times, recently with their book, and Yoongi was seen smoking in a recent MV which he said was on purpose to help normalise these things in Kpop. BTS have always lowkey sung about sex especially Joon but it's so refreshing to see Jungkook openly embrace it which will benefit everyone. Also HYBE which exists because of BTS is normalising a lot of stuff. The enhypen sexy dance with FEMALE dancers is the first thing to pop in my head. This is really just the beginning. Sorry for the long rant but as someone who has been a listener of kpop since 2012 it is so nice to see all of this happen.

hi friend!! as someone who has only gotten into kpop the last couple of years, reading this from a long term fan was super cool!! like i have seen so many compilations of members avoiding women like the plague to circumvent scandals before they start. or like how jungkook had to apologize for whatever type of relationship he had with his tattoo artist... its extremely sad.

so after all that, to see 4th gen idols having less restrictions in regards to their personal relationships is amazing!!

like seven is not the most deep complex song obvi, but its symbolic of something HUGE yk?? with all of the members solo projects, they're reclaiming their own agency (also as asian men in general, i had a queer of color theory course last semester and it essentially discusses how all poc can be considered queer bc they aren't allowed sexual autonomy ((ie asian men being excluded from heteronormative masculinity and therefore, having their sexual behaviors be categorized as "othered" or "immoral")) and are purposefully excluded from the heteronormative which goes hand and hand w whiteness,,,, but this a whole other convo shbfhsdbfhsb)). or like set me free pt 2 is so important bc out of all the members, jimin is the most scrutinized, infantilized, fetishized, etc etc etc. so bts solo projects have just been a huge fuck you to all of it n it makes me a v v v proud army lol!!

[imstupidcheesecat]

tracking reads ★ end of feb/ through march

♡ - more than 1k/fic

♥︎ - less than 1k/reactions or drabble

web of hearts : ♡ interesting. cute. expected. lively. domestic. had a great time reading it. would hold irl for spider woman karina. kiss scene was worthwhile.

sleeping on the couch after a fight : ♥︎ mark - :( but :), renjun - hehe, jeno - EMO, haechan - accurate, jaemin - wholesome, chenle - real, jisung - lol.

8:45 : ♥︎ cute but like two words threw me off (ykw). breakfast w jaemin is always good.

nct dream as ur college boyfriend : ♥︎ cute. love college au. fav: mark, jaemin & haechan :)

[5:34pm] : ♡ actually adore teasing relationships. described so cutely and playfully i caught myself judging myself. SO SWEEt

fangirling over other groups : ♥︎ omg jisung’s is really stinking cute and jaemin’s :( chenle ofc would be like “you can meet them rn”

taking of promise ring : ♥︎ bro why is it so emo. haechans hurt, jisung’s hurt a lot and jaemin’s bro… 🥲

[6:07] : ♥︎ it was over really quick and not too much detail (it’s implied you have a crush on jaemin but im confused why she’s huffing the sweater.) simple christmas blurb. ♫

seatmate!anton : ♥︎ so simple and cozy. ditto school in the clouds (yk) the dinosaur bit made me want anton as my seat mate. fluff at its peak.. also suggested swimmer anton //// ♫

death wish : ♡ if continued i will definitely read. for me it was hard to visualize for a second but i liked it. (kinda reminding me of something i wrote with cupid.)

historicalvampire!karina : ♥︎ i’m so curious - sherlock by shinee. i really like this idea but it leaves a lot to assuming (short) but i like it anyways. ♫

[9:16pm] : ♥︎ as this is probably my first renjun fic i’ve read (or can remember reading) this was delightfully good. never felt so cozy and immersed in a library study session with renjun in my head. ♫

nct dream wedding tropes : ♥︎ i really liked chenle’s 🤩 and all them are really cute. love wedding tropes <3

texts w bf intak : ♥︎ actually hurling and sick with boyfriend intak. you can’t tell me he’s not my bf rn #crying

monday miscommunication : ♥︎ tasteful nsfw but at the same time i was itching my head. (language, urgency, use of princess to just name a few) i’d be amazed at how nicely it’s written and then get a cringy odd sentence after.

hate you (love you) : ♥︎ it’s short and sweet and i’m always a sucker for holding hands under the table and it makes me sad that yn never gets to do that. :( (also reminded me of my own thing)

stress reliever : ♥︎ it’s okay + very short. i love domestic jungwoo but i caught dialogue being oddly stated. but none the less it was cute :)

holding hands : ♥︎ never knew how badly i love hand holding. JENOS. chenles 😑😭. jaemin’s is super sweet and HYUCKS. i literally adore how on brand they are with the members. so good pls.

[8:34 PM] : ♥︎ really stinking cute. so simply explained and written. love me a motorcycle jungwoo 🔛🔝 loved this.

work wife : ♥︎ wife karina 🫡 i liked it (even if i’d never be caught as the tiny girlfriend if anything roles would be changed.) not a simp, just a simp.

fairy of shampoo (holding hands) : ♥︎ MAD CUTE. i liked seunghans the best and wonbins :( anton’s was good too but i feel like my wrist would die from being pulled constantly.

tell me you love me : ♥︎ BRO EMO AF. i’ve haven’t read such a heart hurting fic like that. its not like a cried (i did inside) but it was still sad. so good why *fixed

21:23pm : ♥︎ it’s so short but SO GOOD???? like i’m such a sucker for wooyoung and like it was so naturally playful and cute. pls i want him to be my tattoo artist. OMG

sweet relief : ♥︎ tasteful. clingy hyuck >

livin in my system baby : ♥︎ cute. uni roommates with sungchan is a dream come true. but you would never catch me doing anything that dumb for mint ice cream (i hate it)

native language : ♥︎ chenle’s was really good and all of them (but i found myself not as into it as other reactions.)

snow candles : ♥︎ can’t go wrong with vampire sunghoon. very wholesome and “His cold nose brushed against your skin,” for the kiss was just ugh so good.

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favorite: web of hearts (long + first i read, it was such a well built fic with a GOOD kiss scene. honestly still have chills)

least favorite: native languages (i forced myself to read and it wasn’t as good of a reactions idea as others i’ve read.

[nyctophiliq]

happy ranting

so today was my last day of school and soon i am gonna be going back to school, just to university. i am not mad about having to start the learning cycle again or anything, i am not happy about school ending either.

i'm gonna miss my friends, i'm gonna miss my teachers, i'm gonna miss my desk mate and all that chaotic mornings that we had. i have been crying the whole day about this and i am just kinda embarrassed because who even likes school? i liked school, i am gonna continue liking it but it's just... i just wish to rewind stuff and live through it once again.

i am sick of these short periods of time, knowing ppl then losing them, but i guess the real ones stay with you, right? i have been friends with most of my mutuals for almost a year now and i cannot stop thinking about where is the future for us? i don't wanna lose all those stupid nights i spent staying up listening to you guys hating working or when i was losing my mind because it was so late but you guys put up w my shit cuz why not?! we love crazy ppl, we are all crazy!

i might just be emotional because of all the stress or whatever, i just plan ahead yk? i have always planned out things for my life but rn i don't see into it because my life is at a pause right now until i don't graduate.

writing right now is a way of coping with it, and it feels nicer than ever, i write not to get notes, recognition, or make more friends (even if all of those are very nice) i am more focused on the content i put out being enjoyable for me through all the writing process. yeah i have been pumping fics for the last few days, yeah they are kinda short, but hey! i really liked them, i felt really good about them and all i could think about during them if i got to read it, i would love it, so why not post it and spread the love i have for it? so yeah, i hope i got my point across or whatever.

take care of yourselves darlings, i am proud of you for getting this far and you hopes and dreams are only a stretch of an arm away.

[one-hot-ice-cube]

my dog died today. then two of my other dog mated which is bad bc the girl is a shih tzu and the other dog is bigger than her…. this day was so hectic and my joints hurt like im an old woman. i wanna cry. im tired again. it’s starting to feel bad again. but i dont know how to manage it. i wanna cry but i feel like everything in me is holding me back. ive been having digestive issues. i wanna starve myself. i wanna be thinner. i dont know if im still doing good. if im eating right or it’s an eating disorder lmao idk. it’ll just be obvious when im skin and bone. i hope i m not. i honestly thought im better now. but i guess, yk what they say, healing isn’t linear. i probably just had a bad day. or not. idk. im trying to be better. i had thoughts of sh again but i dismissed it b gaslighting myself into thinking that im doing it for attention. i hope i get treatment some day. i just wanna be better. i know this is not how a normal person thinks. im just so tired of being slapped in the face of religion every time i bring up something abt my mental health struggles. bc in the eyes of someone religious, when you undergo problems, it’s because you don’t have enough faith w god. and everything in ur life that becomes shit is bc of how u dont pray and dont go to church. haha. yes because religion literally fixes everything. idk, maybe therapy wont help either. lol but at least it’s a method of healing i actually do believe in lol. anyway,,, yk things are bad again when u whip out the good ol tumblr acc where u put every little bad thought into

[milimima]

I see God. You was just answering my prayers. Moving thru him. Moving through this whole situation and you had my back this whole time. Sorry for being a crybaby over dat shit. Yk me 🤣😭. Ik you got sum better for me. I got a real twin. And he’s my true soul mate. This was just da test for dat. I see you G. I’m down for da cause. I’m w da shits now just point me right. Got real money out here. Real places to go. Lets fucking GOOO I need my fucking passport. That nigga couldn’t even leave da country w me 🤣🤦🏽‍♀️ and I was tripping. Lol na I was just down. I don’t even want nun rn for. Just you G.

Just want to hear you more. See more. Feel more. The wisdom to discern all the messages. The bravery to keep going. Keep following da path even when I looks like I’m tryn get here and you taking me round da world first. It’s cool I trust you fr, I we always have a good time.

[maiverie]

YES YES OMG THE TEASERS WWRE SO GOOD IVE JUST BEEN GOING BACK AND LISTENING TO THEM I CANT GET ENOUGH 😍😍😍 it comes out two days before one of my exams so i’m EXACTLY what i’m gonna be listening to when i’m revising

NO MAI IT WAS WORSE,, he snapped me saying ‘ur just above mid’ (as if i asked?) and then proceeded to say his friend wanted my snap what did i think of him (bc i met them for the first time last week) i don’t like either of them but i said i liked the vodka they brought. he then goes ‘we should go out one saturday, u me and his friends name - u should bring one of ur mates then we can double date’ i said ‘u r FUNNY’ bc NO WAY then he goes ‘come pub ??’ 🤢🤢 ew no wtf . i don’t understand how u can insult me then still expect me to go out w u 😹😹😹

OH MY GODDDD i’m so excited fr like staring at the calendar wailing in impatience BUT I KNOW THEY WONT DISAPPOINT ME 🗣️‼️ ALSO HAJDJJS YES FR UR NEW STUDY MUSIC 💪

ri….. i have no words 😆 but why are men disgusting 😆 just above mid…. absolutely go fuck yourself 😭😭 NAHHHHH CAUSE ITS ONLY the fugly guys who say that shit 💀 don’t know where tf men get their audacity but lord THE PATIENCE U REQUIRE FROM ME. i bét u were so nice abt it my god but my temper could never 😭😭 there’s a very special place in hell for this man fr pls “come pub” IM ACTUALLY CRYINGNEJCJDJS YK ITS SO HARD TO FIND A DECENT GUY THWSE DAYS LIKE DAMN 😭😭