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why is it that whenever jason shows up in www its never been planned out. my boys seen the outline and decided thats a load of bollocks which honestly fair he had like 0 screen time before he forced his way through
#sophie speaks#series:www#also dont get hopeful i am still doing physically terrible <3 <3#but i did like 400 words so good for me#fighting for my life tbh sick of this bs#this is another chapter turning out infinitely long too#hate this shite#but also new meds and i could look at the outside world and be in like almost not pain for a little while the other day#and frankly im like a shark with blood in the water when it comes to any energy i can use for writing#which isnt healthy but like. its my favourite thing#more like an obsession but arent all artists like that#anyway
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Deep Blue Sea (Shark Merman x Reader) Chapter 2
Pairing: Gender Neutral! Reader/Shark Merman
Genre: Urban Fantasy, Soulmate AU
Warning: Slight description of Animal Violence. Nothing too graphic, but if the genre of stuff you see on Shark week isn’t for you, skip over the part denoted by the *******
Word Count: 3530 words
Summary: You learn more about Cruz and about yourself
Prologue
Chapter 1
“-and then he just leaves. What do I even do with that?”
“Uh-huh, uh-huh,” Your roommate hums, refilling up your glass of wine. “And you don’t have his number, so you can’t call or text him right?” You take a large sip, nodding and trying not to spill wine on your pajamas.
Well, kind of.
You hadn’t told anyone about Cruz, not even your family, because frankly you didn't know where to start. But when you walked into the apartment, sullen and dragging your feet, your roommate, Caitlyn, had offered wine, ice cream, and a willing ear. That's when the floodgates opened (with some modified details, of course).
“We’re meeting at our usual place in a couple days, I just…”Another sip of wine,”...hate sitting here, not knowing what he’s feeling, what I did, how I’m feeling.” You set down your glass and throw yourself back against the couch, sinking into the cushions. “I feel so stupid, like a fucking teenager, and I hate it.” Caitlyn sets her own wine glass down and nudges the half-empty ice cream carton towards you.
“It’s for the best your feeling all this now, then you can come at ‘im all composed and articulate. Really throw him off his game.” You grab a spoon and the carton, Caitlyn patting your shoulder as you take a pathetic bite.
“You’re right but I-I don’t even know. I’ve never done anything like this before.”
“Sounds like this guy’s got you hooked. At least that’s a start right?” Caitlyn hums, pressing her chin into her palm. “To be completely honest, Sam took a couple days to warm up to me. And I never told her this, but she gave me hardcore pretentious vibes on our first date.”
Caitlyn gives a long spiel about her awkward first soulmate date (“Seriously, who brings up ‘the superiority of vinyl’ on the first date!”), and if you were in the mind to be a good roommate, or hadn’t heard this story before, you might’ve listened closer. But only one question was occupying your thoughts; Did Cruz like you?
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You arrive at the boardwalk an hour early. You don’t immediately go to the tidepool, instead choosing to take a long walk on the beach, taking a moment to calm your racing heart and collect your thoughts.
You like Cruz. You like him as much as two people who just met can, despite a less-than-romantic first impression. But does he like you?
You never thought you would have to ask your soulmate that.
There’s a small thwap as you slap your cheeks, heat simmering your skin even as the cold water laps at your feet.
This is ridiculous. You’ve talked twice. Caitlyn and Sam have a thriving relationship (You should know, you share a wall with Caitlyn) and even they got off to a rocky start.
The pit grows in your stomach, thinking of Cruz’s disinterested stare as he swims into the open ocean. The weight of it almost sinks to your toes.
You shake your head, slapping your cheeks once more.
Today is a new day. Just go through the motions _____.
You reach the tidepool, setting down your picnic blanket and bag. You grab one of your notebooks and prop it open as you bite into an apple. You’re 30 minutes early, might as well get some reading done.
The waves crash and pull against the rocks, pleasant studying ambience, but is interrupted by several clicks and abrupt, out of rhythm, splashes. You look up, immediately in awe of the sight.
About 50 feet away from the entrance to the tidepool is a pod of dolphins, breaching out of the water. You grab a pencil, your phone, and your notebook, tiptoeing through the tidepool to get a better look.
Good choice wearing water shoes today.
From closer up, you notice the distinct lack of dorsal fins and realize they must be Northern White Whale Dolphins. 60 of them have congregated in a group, most likely scouting for easy food or taking a rest.
Their pod is pretty small though. What are they doing so close to the shore?
The pod continues to play as you take shaky photos with your camera, trying to balance your notebook and pencil in the crook of your elbow. Through your viewfinder, you spot a familiar shape, not 30 feet from the pod, peeking his head out of the water. Cruz’s black eyes narrow into focus before he fully submerges. Your eyes widen as you lower your camera.
The water above Cruz rushes as he swims closer and closer to the pod. You tuck your phone back into your pocket as you finagle your way up to a nearby rock. You need a better view, and it might be best to be out of the water while this happens.
The dolphins haven’t noticed Cruz yet, still gliding along the waves. There's a quick flash of his strong back before he dives even deeper into the water. The rock slightly digs into your stomach as you lean over to get a better look.
What I wouldn’t give for a drone right now.
Before long, there is a burst of clicks, the largest dolphins quickly surrounding the group and issuing them away. They’ve spotted Cruz, but one is a little too slow.
Cruz’s dorsal fin cuts through the water, close enough to the surface that you can make out the details of his determined face. His eyes have latched onto the slowest dolphin and his speed increases exponentially. His long tail flicks back and forth as he gains on it.
*******
The dolphin flips into the air, trying to gain distance. But like a flash Cruz’s large hand shoots out of the water, getting a hold of the dolphin’s tail, and pulls. You see his shoulder and tricep bulge as the dolphin thrashes in his grip. His head once again breaches the water as he digs his other clawed hand into the dolphin’s side, raking into it as he pulls the dolphin closer to him. The two tussle and wrestle against each other, going in and out of the water as the dolphin tries to push Cruz away.
But Cruz is limber, keeping a tight grip on the dolphin as he maneuvers his body alongside it. His torso raises up as he pushes the dolphin down under the water and into submission. Cruz then yanks the dolphin’s front upwards and out of the water, grip still tight on it’s rear, before opening up his maw and tearing into the dolphin’s neck. He rips his head back and forth until the dolphin stills, a large pool of red slowly cascading around them.
*******
Your pencil hangs loosely in your fingers as you watch, eyes locked on Cruz. You think the struggle must’ve lasted only 20 seconds, but in the moment, it felt like hours. Cruz’s chest heaves as he takes another bite, serrated teeth easily ripping the flesh, as casual as the lobster roll from your last meeting.
Blood drips from his mouth and covers his claws. His cards his fingers back through his hair, leaving crimson streaks that shine against his black locks. Cruz bites off another mouthful before heaving the dolphin onto his shoulder.
As a large science nerd, you’ve always enjoyed watching nature in progress. But a new, exciting, vaguely uncomfortable feeling stirs in your gut as you watch Cruz suck in his fingers, picking out stray bits of meat from his large, sharp teeth. A feeling like a shiver rushing down your spine and heat in between your legs.
Oh my god. Why was that the hottest thing I’ve ever seen?
Cruz turns away and submerges himself, giving you a nice shot of his defined back muscles as he sums up his hunt. You can’t take your eyes off his form moving just below the water, even as your 5 PM alarm goes off.
You knew Cruz was larger, and far stronger, than you, but seeing him in his element reminds you just how easily he could tear you apart.
God, and I kind of want him to.
As he swims further away from the shore, you see two black dots in the distance. You take out your phone again and open up the camera to zoom in.
Speaking of huge. Holy shit.
The focus is a little blurry, but it’d be hard for you to miss the massive mermaids. With only their shoulders and up out of water, they still tower over Cruz by at least a head each. Both have long black hair, intertwined with what looks to be seaweed and various types of shells. The one on the right is holding two larger masses over her shoulders, positioned the way a lumberjack would hold a fallen tree. Cruz reemerges with his dolphin in tow, frighteningly small.
Cruz’s gestures indicate they’re having a conversation, mostly one-sided. The dolphin on Cruz’s back bounces as he talks animatedly, his hunt small when compared to the two weights the right mermaid carries. With your old phone you can only catch a glimpse of the left mermaid’s lips moving. Cruz’s energy dims as she continues and he seems to sink deeper into the water.
The left mermaid holds out her hand. Cruz hesitates, then throws his dolphin into her arms. She swings it over like it weighs nothing and then shakes her hand as if to shoo him away. The right one rumbles with laughter. Cruz nods, solemn as the two submerge and swim away.
Cruz stays there for a minute, looking out at the horizon. When he finally turns, his movements are lethargic as he swims towards the tidepool.
You scramble down from the rock and quickly tiptoe back to your blanket, fumbling to stuff your notebook and pencil back into your bag.
Cruz glides in, his eyes not meeting yours, locked in thought.
“Hey Cruz.” You wave, struggling to catch your breath from your impromptu rush.
Cruz slowly looks up at you, still slightly downcast.
“Hey. Sorry I’m late.” You shake your head furiously.
“It’s no problem! I got her kind of early, and then I saw you hunting and didn’t want to bother.” Cruz’s eyes widen a bit, before her recoils into himself and sheepishly rubs the back of his neck.
“Oh, sorry. You probably didn’t want to see that….” You once again shake your hands and head back and forth.
“No! No I-, I actually thought it was super cool!” Cruz quirks his eyebrows.
“What?”
“Yeah! It was like my own personal Shark week. Like wow, you looked amazing out there.”
Cruz’s cheek tint a cerulean blue, the corners of his lips turning up at the sides as he fiddles with his fingers.
“And those dolphins are the fastest kind around here, but bam! You were on them like a firecracker, kind of wish I had a slow motion camera.” You laugh, before realizing Cruz probably didn’t understand half of your analogies. “You looked uh, you were really good at it.”
Well duh, you idiot. He’s a shark.
“Thank you.” Cruz shoots you a tiny smile, blush still running across his face and down his neck. The ensuing silence is only slightly uncomfortable, as Cruz’s blush stays strong and you're sure you develop one of your own. You try and focus on something else to calm down, but catch a glimpse of his biceps, and fail miserably.
“Oh, that’s right.” Cruz reaches over and sticks his hand in between two nearby rocks. His brow furrows before his eyes light up, and he pulls out a….handbag?
It’s loosely sewn together with kelp, made of some sort of seal skin and closed with a seashell button. Cruz pops it open and begins to rummage inside.
“Gotcha.” Cruz pulls something out of the bag, before turning and hiding it behind his back.
“Uh, whatcha got there?” Cruz smiles, his blue blush painting his face from top to tip.
“I found this thing and thought you um….might want to look at it?” Cruz pulls his arm in front, revealing a reflective white shell, just a bit longer than his palm.
“It’s not a crab, but I thought it was neat looking so….”
You slowly move towards him, gesturing to ask if you can hold the shell. Cruz nods, almost shoving it into your hand.
The color is completely white, sharp, almost polished-looking. It carves into several rings before sloping into a point. It’s empty, the inside free of any sand or tiny algae.
“Do you know what it’s called?”
You look back to Cruz and nearly brush your nose against his. You realize how hot his body heat is as he leans over you to look at the shell. Your shoulders just barely touch.
As if dipped into boiling water, your face alights into red and your body convulses to jerk away from the heat.
“Yeah-Yes! Actually I do, it’s-it looks like a Kellets W-Welk. Well, the remains of one’s shell anyway.”
Cruz stays close, letting out a small “Ohhh.” as he squints his eyes to get a closer look. It’s the most on-land you’ve seen him, with the water lapping at the base of his tail. Sitting down, your head only comes to his clavicle. The uncomfortable burning stirs in your gut.
“Is it a hermit crab?”
“Not, it’s a sea snail. They're not really on land like crabs.” You brush your thumbs over the shell’s ridges. “There are quite a few varieties of sea snails around here, lots of beautiful shells. Their babies look pretty cool too.”
Cruz nods, eyes intent, and it reminds you of the elementary kids you saw when working at the aquarium. Your heart skips as you futilely try to fight the smile on your face.
“Can you eat ‘em?”
You chuckle and Cruz’s face grows a darker shade of blue. “Yeah, you can. You’ve got a good eye for snacks huh?”
Cruz pouts playfully, blue still awash on his cheeks. “Maybe, but I’m not always thinking about food.” Just as he finishes, you hear his stomach rumble. You stifle your laugh with your hand and Cruz grabs his stomach angrily. “Sh-Shut up! It’s almost dinner!”
The two mermaids flash in your mind. You see Cruz handing over the dolphin as they swim away. Then you see Cruz, furiously cracking open crabs with a single-minded purpose. The smile drops from your chin.
How often does that happen?
Cruz was small for a Great White. You hadn’t even thought about why. You don’t even know if you want to.
“They’re pretty tasty, but their shells are a lot more fun.” Cruz furrows his brow again. “Here, let me show you.” You scoot yourself closer to him, putting the white shell against his ear. His eyes widen and he leans backwards a bit from your closeness, but the shell still lingers by his ear. “Do you hear it?”
Cruz stills, furrowing his brows even deeper, but then they rise in surprise. He leans back towards you, tentatively grabbing your wrist and pulling the shell closer.
“Its-”
“The ocean.”
The same childlike wonder from before flushes on his face as he looks at you, bringing your stomach a flutter. Cruz presses his head down closer to the shell, the bottom of his cheek now touching your palm. Cruz’s skin is cool against yours, slightly damp, and you feel the hint of roughness as his chin brushes against your wrist.
“How-How did you-”
“My mom showed me once. I mean, technically it’s the echo of the blood coursing through your ear, which reverberates and sounds like waves crashing. But it’s still a neat trick.”
“Oh, I see….”
From this close, you can see the small freckles which dapple Cruz’s cheeks, peppering across the bridge of his nose and up onto his forehead. Specks of dark blue, black, and green contrasts against his light gray skin, like the setting sun catching the pulling tides.
In the moment, you long to touch them.
So you do.
It’s so….soft.
As your thumb brushes up his jaw, the mottled colors are overwhelmed and overshadowed by Cruz’s furious blush. Cruz moves away so quickly that he unfurls his grip on a nearby rock and loses his balance. He braces himself and hisses as his thin skin nicks the corner of a rock.
“Oh my god, I’m so-so sorry! I just- oh my goodness are you okay?” You retract the shell closer to your chest, your other hand outstretched to steady Cruz. When he flinches away, you pull it back. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have invaded your personal space like that.”
Cruz's chest heaves but he doesn’t move or say anything. From the corner of your eye you spot a tiny bit of blood leaking onto the rock.
“Oh shit, wait I-I should have something.” You whip around to your backpack, shuffling and pushing aside your notebook to find your emergency first aid kit. Water wells in the corner of your eyes as you frantically search. You desperately try to will the tears away.
Stupid, stupid, stupid stupid-
Your inner insults are interrupted when your fingers brush against the familiar plastic fabric pouch. Before turning back to Cruz, you hastily wipe your eyes.
“Here, this should help.” You hold out the small thing of gauze and an antiseptic wipe. Cruz slowly takes them, fiddling with the gauze until it's undone. He picks up the antiseptic package with the tips of his forefinger and thumb, eyes squinting as he tries to read the small text.
“That’s to clean the wound with, to get the gross stuff out.” Cruz’s eyes narrow even further, brushing his thumb over the paper wrapping. Tentatively, he plops the unwrapped wipe on his wound. He looks back, clearly confused. “You have to unwrap it first, then wipe it.” His blush returns as he jerks his eyes away from you, embarrassed with you watching.
“I could do-”
“I’ve got it.” Cruz snaps, finding the perforation and ripping it off quickly.
“Okay, but it’s gonna sting-”
“Ow, shit!” Cruz curses as he presses the wipe against the apex of his cut, whining and biting his lower lip.
“If it’s hurting that means it’s working.” Cruz nods, but he hastily wipes the wound and sighs as he crumples it up.Cruz wraps his cut with medical precision, reminding you of boxers right before a match. He cuts the gauze short with a snip of his teeth
“Wow, you're really good at that.” Cruz snorts.
“I don’t need any jackasses going into a frenzy anytime soon. That would be the perfect end to this shit day.”
Your heart freezes as your stomach drops, and you recoil into yourself. The nausea of guilt washes over you. And then that makes you feel even worse, and so the cycle continues.
Cruz notices your sheepish, downtrodden stare, and frantically waves his good hand.
“Wait, shit, no, thats-thats not what I meant. Uh…” He loses track of his sentence, mouth agape as he looks for words. “I mean….thank you.” He fiddles with his claws. “For the bandage, a-and the food a couple days ago. This is...nice.”
You’re almost embarrassed by how quickly his praise perks you up, rolling over your tense muscles like a masseuse.
“Thank you for the shell, it was very thoughtful of you.” Cruz sputters.
“I just passed by it on a swim, it wasn’t a big deal. The reefs got a ton of them, so, y’know.”
You don’t know, but it’s cute watching him fumble with his words. He’s so bashful for an apex predator you saw kill a dolphin not 20 minutes ago.
“I could even-well, it’s close that we- we could go sometime? You and me?” Cruz fiddles with his claws once more, and you wonder if it’s a nervous compulsion. “It’s a little ways away from the coast but with me carrying you, we could probably see a lot.”
“Really?”
“Yeah, really.” Cruz’s nervous smile is much more lopsided than his regular one. It accentuates the dimple on his left cheek.
“I would love that.”
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You decide to meet up early on Saturday to get a head start on the sunlight. You leave the boardwalk giddy, your nerves tingling pleasantly with pre-plan jitters. All this energy means you might have to spill to Caitlyn once more, just to let it all out. You’ll most likely tell her you two are getting breakfast by the beach, maybe stop by an aquarium.
Looking at all the coral and the crustaceans. Just me, in Cruz’s arms-
You stop, your nerves bubbling up under your skin, like steam is blowing out of your ears as you think about what is in store for Saturday.
You’re still not sure how Cruz feels about you. But there isn’t a show of a doubt now; You have a crush on him.
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Cruz sits in the water, cracking open a leftover oyster he had left in his bag for emergencies. Emergencies like being so flustered he can't possibly go back to the pod, not without looking incredibly suspicious.
He brushes his thumb over his cheek, and it’s almost like you're there again.
So….soft.
#my writing#monster romance#monster x reader#reader insert#shark merman#merman#shark merman x reader
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~ 🎀 So, I took a break from reading Obsidian by my friend @sombreset and decided that it was time to pick it back up. So, still knowing the general lore and character notes and traits and then looking back at my old posts to refresh my memory just a bit, here is my commentary for Chapter 12 of Obsidian: Silence of Siberia. 🎀 ~
Also I like the idea of water essentially being his blood. Like imagine one day Seto does not bleed out crimson blood but instead water? That would be cool but it would probably suck since his past life secret would be out
“To see debris floating in open waters or near shores that were thrown by humans and to see his own precious life forms (sea creatures of all kinds no matter how big or small) attempt to eat it and die. Can you imagine him looking at humans pick and poke and tear open a dead carcass of a whale to find that it ate nothing but waste produced by humans and Seto completely hidden from sight is silently weeping because that was his own child. His child of the sea.”
Time out here because this part really hit me because this is only talking about God! Seto and not about Atem or -Blank-. This only just brings up Seto’s pain and we do not know how humans have given Atem and -Blank- pain when it comes to human activities destroying or worsening the very thing Atem and -Blank- protect and live for. Can you possibly imagine Atem and -Blank- looking down at a silently weeping Seto who is holding a dead shark that had been killed for shark fin soup and Atem and -Blank- cannot say anything to him out of fear and respect since that is his child of the sea but all three then having to hear the humans say ‘There are plenty of other fish in the sea.’ like that has to hurt so badly. This also reminds me of BBC’s Blue Planet with the scene of the Mother Pilot Whale carrying her dead calf out of grief. The mother deeply upset that her calf died from her milk that had been poison to the calf because of the pollution caused by humans. Can you imagine the sheer pain Seto would bear knowing that his own children of the sea are struggling to survive and are dying with each and every passing day? That is so rough and I like how that is highlighted within the dialogue.
I remember watching this documentary about one of the main rivers in India that many of the civilians use for everything and while yes it is not the ocean or anywhere near it I am pretty sure past life Seto would have wept an entire new ocean if he found out what had happened to that river. That river is not even filled with real water. Humans have destroyed it so much that the river does not contain water like properties and it is so polluted that everything that lived in it died. People still use that river for basic necessities and for religious events and ceremonies. Also people do their business in there. People drink water from that river and get sick and can die from it too. Imagine with the context of God of the Sea Seto how painful that would be to him.
Seto voice: “My precious life forms in these waters have not eaten in a while. You will be excellent dinner for the sharks and the carnivores here and once you have perished, your bones will be used as homes for the fish down below or bitten apart by those who crave more. Such a shame that your death will be more of use than your own life ever was.”
Wait- How does Atem know that the record player is from the 1940's? Atem was not born within that time period in this reincarnated life and nor did he have any knowledge of it until he and -Blank- found it so is the date of when the record player was made on the player or did Atem just assume the date and time period?
So, reincarnated Seto does not know what a woman sounds like confirmed (up until this chapter/point) but I am frankly sure that God of the Sea Seto in his past life has heard women/girls before. There had to have been many women and girls singing near the ocean just enough for him to have eyed them carefully and wonder what they are doing and what they want.
So lovely chapter. IM STILL ACTUALLY WEEPING ABOUT IT.
#LindsayThings#sombreset#yu-gi-oh!#prideshipping#This is such a great chapter I love all the different tones and vibes this chapter gives#CHAPTER THIRTEEN HERE I COME!#I already stated this before but Silence of Siberia for now is my favorite chapter name from Obsidian-
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