#and everyone has gaslit themselves into seeing this as good what am i missing???

[kissmehardy]

Credit scores frustrate me so fucking much

[cosmichighpriestess]

This may seem harsh, just my personal views on relationships at this time but having a relationship with me requires integrity and respect. I love being alone so your company has to be equal or better than my solitude. I'm not impressed by your status, by your money, or your connections. Though I'm proud of your achievements and who you are as a soul. I'm neutral to most people because if I gave everything meaning I would be hurting myself by my own definitions. The only thing that impresses me is your ability to love, forgive, show compassion, love yourself and love others unconditionally accessing the God within you. I'm not willing to entertain any connections with other versions of myself that are even tinged with a hint of unhealed energy. I'm a new person. The other present version of me on other timelines who transported me here did so much work in leaving old behaviors of, old patterns, addictions, self sabotage, leaving old friends, partners, family that my boundaries are now solid and I cannot be bribed, bought, bullied, put down, manipulated, gaslit, controlled, dominated, silenced or affected because I do not agree to be affected. I am willing to uphold any boundaries to protect the gifts she's acquired through hard work and balance within.

No one can drain my energy because I do not believe they can. If I believed they had the ability to drain me I would be buying into that illusion and creating it in my own life. It's all present within my own belief system. It's all my own energy out there. I may not like other versions of myself but I accept them all, no matter how low they go to try to hurt me. I do not miss anyone because once they are out of my view they disappear from my mind and I do not seek validation from them though I will always love them and continue to wish them healing if they do pop up, sometimes they may try to get back in and say things to apologize and I admire their strength, dropping their pride and their confidence but I do not want unhealed versions of them in my life or near me.

They will always be loved by me but I will not accept their narcissistic tendencies, hidden motives and need to fill up their own cups. It's solely up to me to continue to heal so I can see healed versions of people I knew in my world reflected. For me, it's out of sight out of mind from a lack of object permanence having this ability is like a superpower for healing. "They" are me, I am them, it's all me. There's no "my" or "they" it just the people, aspects of Source, other versions of me, the family, the friends, the children, the ex partners ect. "They" do not belong to me. Everything in my life, everyone I meet is for me to learn from in some way, to make me stronger, wiser, to feel loved through Source so what do I care what they do? If it's all serving me, for me? Each and every person makes a difference in society no matter how negative or productive they appear.

"They" are their own person and belong to themselves and to God, not me. I cannot own anyone and never desire to. I can and will let some friends and family back into my life but if they do not accept the new version of me they will decide on their own if they can handle being triggered by my personal authenticity and be around my energy. No one can silence me from speaking my truth, and if they do, they are removed from my life with love and closure because my truth has everyone's perspectives in mind and though my intentions are always good, with passion, promise, authenticity and integrity for the highest good of all and healing all around, my truth may be perceived from fear and that is not my problem.

If they silence me, downplay my gifts, try to hide me from the world their plans will fail and their projections will be reflected back onto them. My happiness and peace will never depend on anyone outside of me so everyone is always off the hook, my happiness doesn't rely on the expectations, validation or respect of others. Though respect is required to be in a healthy relationship with each other.

That's up to them. I will always accept and love them either way, but if a hint of unhealed energy projects onto me I'm already gone. I will always survive any circumstance and forgive them easily. I only allow people with integrity, people with like mindedness in my life. I'm willing to fight for my peace and anyone that comes to try to steal my peace. Any cage or box they try to put me in I burn it down to the ground and create my reality from within. They can try to cause chaos outside of me but they cannot steal the peace I've built from within me. What's within me cannot be stolen and cannot be bought. When you're full of peace, you're full of power. They are entitled to their opinions of me and their reality but I do not take them on as my own. If my presence is not honored the way I honor their connection and presence then my presence is removed. It's not that my love has conditions, on the contrary my love is unconditional but I do not allow people with conditions on their love into my life.