#and even if they didn't. who cares. if you don't like it hit da bricks

[thefirstknife]

The destiny reddit is an absolute warzone right now. Do yourself a favor and avoid it like the plague

Oh no. I saw a lot of negative comments overall and while I understand where they're coming from, I think at some point, some people should calm down.

I mentioned some of the issues I had with the campaign and I stand by them, I think some of this stuff definitely felt rushed and that we're sorely lacking basic information to understand the plot. But I can get over that if it's fairly reasonable to believe we'll find out eventually (and it is) and if the rest is solid. And to me, the rest is solid.

I know people have issues with strand taking too much time from the campaign, and I get it. But also to me, strand being such a huge part of the story made the campaign feel more personal and invested for US, the Guardian. To me, that was the point. I do wish the campaign was a bit more expansive, perhaps another mission or two would've been perfect imo. An extra mission could've delved into the history of the Veil and what it means. It's a legitimate complaint that I share, but also some people online have been expressing it... rather explosively.

I'd also add a counter to my own complaint; when it comes to the plot about the Veil and the Witness and the Traveler, it's clear that this isn't the end; it's a setup. Everything that happened here we can learn about retroactively in a month or six months or a year. It may suck because it's content for THIS expansion so we want to know now, but it CAN be explained later.

But strand? Strand can't. We have to learn it NOW. We can't get strand and then have a really cool personal discovery quest about mastering it in a month or six or a year. So if they didn't have time to fit another two missions into the campaign, it's fairly obvious what is being cut.

Is it clumsy? Yeah, definitely. I definitely feel like some crucial information has been deliberately cut away and removed, possibly waiting to be delivered during the year to prepare us for The Final Shape. I'm not a fan of that method, I would prefer a solid chunk of lore about the current story to be delivered in the current story. If anything, then for clarity. Especially because the majority of the players will not be waiting around to read 15 lore tabs during the year to figure out what's the Veil. A major expansion should be self-contained.

But for the love of god, some of what I've seen online is basically some players acting like we have E.T. (1982) on our hands. Like, I agree that there's issues and I've spoken about them and I can do it again at any point, but at the end of the day, I had fun and the good stuff was good. Literally my only true complaint is that it feels like a mission or two are missing. Pretty much every problem I have would've been solved with that. But that's an unknown amount of extra time of work so I cannot make a comment whether they could've done that or not. I will assume they couldn't so they didn't. Generally don't like assuming that they did it maliciously because then we go into dev harrassment territory.

[annabelle--cane]

this is a difficult thing to have conversations about because it provokes really strong reactions in people for completely valid and understandable reasons, so please feel free to hit da bricks on this post whenever you want, but I do want to try and analyse the jonmartin slaps. we get three across 160, 169, and 172, and a line addressing it in 173, and then it never happens or comes up again. none of them come out of nowhere, and they mostly fly under the radar until 173 because they all broadly fit the "slapping someone out of a trance in an emergency" trope, but each of them slowly decreases in urgency.

the first time, the apocalypse starts up and martin comes back to find a passed out jon, can't wake him by making noise, and strikes him in a panic. this makes sense, this is a man who has entered a supernatural coma before and martin had no idea what was going on, so of course he'd jump to something desperate.

the second time, they're in a burning building, jude arrives while jon is still mid-statement, and when making noise doesn't work martin slaps him out of it. this makes sense, they were there for jude and if jon didn't come back to himself then she likely would have hurt them, though martin knew that her powers against them were limited.

the third time, jon is getting pulled into into a repeating statement instead of coming out on his own like usual, so martin speaks once or twice to try and get his attention, and then slaps him out of it. this... again, it makes sense, jon was getting trapped, but there was no immediate peril like before, martin just got freaked out and wanted to leave quickly. he seems to get that it was harsh because he apologizes for it, but they don't linger at all, martin just starts in on them having to leave immediately.

the last time it's mentioned is when they're on night street, during what is one of their most intense arguments. jon tries to talk about the suffering of the children there for longer than he needs to in order to make a point, martin cuts him off, and he pointedly says, "thank you for not hitting me this time." it never happens or is brought up again.

to our knowledge, jon doesn't say anything about the slapping until 173. he's not a guy who's known for speaking up when things upset him, he was amiably working with daisy within about a week of her trying to kill him, so it makes sense that he would just sit with this comparatively more minor thing. however, I do think it's relevant to note that, at this point in their relationship, martin will sometimes voice his feelings and boundaries (not listening to statements, not consenting to mind reading, worrying when jon expresses discomfort with his body), while jon doesn't. from the couple of times he does talk about his feelings this season, I think that tendency comes a few places: he has a hard time being aware of his emotions at all, he doesn't know how to evaluate his emotions' importance in comparison to others', he assumes his emotions are obvious and thus people already act with full knowledge of them, and the topic is just hard to make himself talk about. from what he says in 173, I think the slaps bothered him the entire time, but he made himself be fine with it until he was upset with martin for unrelated reasons and finally let it out.

as for martin's side, I do not think the slaps came from any kind of suppressed desire to hurt or wield power over jon. we've seen him when he's angry at jon, this isn't how he acts, he gets shouty and indignant but never violent. I'd even go as far as to say he doesn't do it in 173 because he's genuinely upset at jon and the situation they're in, and it would never occur to him to deliberately inflict pain on someone he cares about to assert control over them. the connecting line between all of them is fear from something that he wants jon to help him handle. the apocalypse starts, he is stuck inside one of his worst nightmares, and he's paranoid that the web took control of him. he's someone who is "always following, never leading" (170), and he gets tunnel vision when something scares him and his "leader" isn't there.

jon did need to be pulled out of all three of those situations, and words proved insufficient, and maybe a quick jolt of pain was the only thing that could have worked, but martin doesn't seem to consider what that would feel like from jon's pov. in my experience of relationships, if there's ever an unavoidable emergency where you do actually need to cross a line that you never would otherwise, you talk about it afterwards. you do a debrief where you say "I'm really sorry about that, I didn't see another way, I'll try and be better prepared next time." they do this for problems they have later on (177, 198), but martin doesn't do that here. jon's point-of-view just doesn't seem to occur to him. when jon expresses discomfort, he drops the tactic without a word; later, when he needs to anchor jon in the panopticon, he talks him through it before it can get too far. so, it's not about a lack of care for jon's feelings.

I think it comes down to a few things: a) his occasional tendency to treat people as a means to an ends and not think about their perspective. he's so glued to putting others first most of the time that when he stops, he can't find a middle ground and forgets that other people can have feelings about his actions. b) his problems with conceiving of himself as a person of any importance who is capable of doing anything, especially of doing harm. as a concept, "hurting jon" is the thing he would least like to do in the whole world, it is his nightmare scenario and literally the culminating moment of his tragedy. he finds it almost unthinkable, so the idea that he does it casually when he's scared doesn't cross his mind. one of his central worries at this point is that jon is now so powerful that he no longer needs martin, how could he hurt someone like that? he's not anywhere near a comparable level of importance, it's not like he has his own domain that he's not aware of because jon told him about it and he immediately rejected the information. he's powerless and could never bring himself to hurt the man he loves.

I just. think it's an interesting microcosm of some of the lows of their relationship. once the problem is discovered martin instantly takes the note and doesn't put it on jon to explain himself further or assuage his guilt, they are willing and able to adapt, but it still comes from some of their bedrock flaws. martin doesn't understand that he can hurt people, and jon has such an inflated understanding of his capacity to hurt people that it sabotages his self-worth and his ability to respond to pain and displeasure.

[rowretro]

𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐬𝐮𝐢𝐭, 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐝, 𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭

request by @nikipedia07 <3 I think I may hav gone a lil off track w this one but hope u love it sweetie

✧warnings: violent descriptions, yandere/toxic themes

✧synopsis: Jay is a fairly well known mafia boss around Korea. However, there is a small area where he's never been seen. An area where his enemy is hiding in, and were his beloved lives. When he first set his eyes on y/n, he didn't think about anything else but making her his, and so he decided to even put through the worst, just to make her love him the way he loves her.

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It all started when he was on a mission. Of course she didn't see him but he saw her. how she hugged some kids, shielding them from the suited men gunning down some other tatted men. God he loved the look of fear in her eyes, and how adorable she was shielding the small kids. Jay nodded at the men, and they walked off, not even bothering to glance in y/n's direction. Since the day he set eyes on the angel princess, he knew she was meant to be his,

That's how Jay found himself in high school, in uniform, despite being in his twenties. He threatened the head to make sure he was in every single one of y/n's class. which meant dealing with some crazy students. "Oh my god bitch could you like shut da fuck up?" Lia said glaring at Sungchan who was just eating his Cheetos "you talking to me?" Sungchan asked as the girl rolled eyes.

"Nah bitch I was talking to the girl stroking the wall- YES YOU YOU WANKER!" Lia yelled as Y/n turned around frowning "Is this a classroom or your bedroom?! Lia language. Sungchan, put those snacks away and focus." Y/n warned as she took more notes "Damn lady you gotta chill-" Sungchan mumbled as he put his Cheetos away.

Jay glanced at Sungchan, not liking his bullshit one bit. However he bit his tongue, he didn't snap at the male and instead, stared at y/n. God when he saw his darling focus solely on teaching the students, being so patient and sweet no matter how bitchy they were, he feels so calm.

"Kay class... I'll see you after break-" y/n said with a smile as she left the room. "She has got to be one of the hottest teachers in the school" Jinyoung said as he turned to the group of boys "She's like 2 or 3 years older than us- how is she teaching?" Lia asked as the boys shrug "I mean I don't care, at least I get a nice view everytime she walks in-" Yuta says with a smirk, stretching his arms out.

Jay groaned as he stayed put in his seat. sleeping on his desk, trying to remain calm. Only 3 more minutes of this. Then his darling will come back. "Ok break ended 5 minutes ago. phones away, everyone back in your seats please," Y/n called out as the students rolled their eyes, getting back into their seat.

As y/n continued to teach, she noticed that the class weren't even trying to pay attention, all of them messing about, sleeping around, eating snacks. It was as if she wasn't even there. They didn't hear her, they didn't bother listening to her, it was like she was talking to a brick wall. Except one student, who was actively listening and taking notes. Jay.

However, the noise only got worse all of a sudden. Not the students being even more annoying, but instead they were screaming. Many ducked down and hid under their tables. "Ah fuck you have got to be fucking kidding me." Jay mumbled, getting up as he pulled a gun out, shooting the 4 enemies that had broken in to kill him. His uniform was now stained with blood as his men walked in.

"Clean the bodies I'm done with this act." Jay said as he walked up to y/n pulling her up, his arm around her waist, as her body hit his, his eyes met her panicked pair. "So fucking beautiful... and all mine. You think I sat in school again for fun? I graduated I don't even have to be here." Jay said as he carried her, out of the classroom, ignoring her kicks and screams. "OH MY GOD HE'S PARK FUCKIN JONGSEONG-" Lia screamed as she showed the search results on her phone.

"why did you even come then?..." y/n mumbled to herself, unaware that Jay heard "I needed to get close to my princess before I take her to my palace... see y/n from now you will be living the life you deserve, a husband with expensive black suits who can give you many black cards... sweetheart you need a sweetheart. Me." Jay simply said as the girl frowned.

(OK SO IM NOT HAPPY WITH THIS, I THINK I WENT OFF TRACK BUT I'LL DO A PART 2 FOR THIS IF UW)

[cafiffle]

ok it's time to be cringe on main (like I ever wasn't)

in honor of the new game finally maybe happening, here is a collection of the Dragon Age OCs I've developed over the last decade or so. only two of them were my actual video game protags and have evolved a lot from there, SEE IF YOU CAN GUESS WHO (or don't, I'm not your dad)

(L to R, top to bottom)

Sina, Keeper's First of Clan Dahlasanor and baby lesbian who had to leave her clan in search of healing for the anime wasting sickness that claimed her life in her early twenties. She was all about that good good Dalish nature magic and thought of it as a sort of healing. A gentle soul with strong convictions, she spent her last months securing the union of her (small, decimated) clan with a larger, thriving one by marrying their male First.

Cade Harimann of Starkhaven, the second son of a noble family who gave him to the Chantry at a young age. He endured Some Bullshit at the monastery, leaving him already somewhat unhinged before he served in Kirkwall prior to the Mage-Templar war. He was kicked out of the Templars "for his own good" due to his massive PTSD-induced emotional problems, and now lives in the woods with his chill elf gf who doms him when he needs it.

Teren von Skraedder*, from a po-dunk town on the border of Nevarra and Orlais, is every bit the Grey Warden stereotype: a liar, a convict, and just generally kind of an asshole. She was recruited in her early 40's as an alternative to being executed for treason against the Nevarran crown, and has settled into Wardening over the last twenty or so years. She loves her younger siblings-in-arms, even if she's mean to them, and she gets a little more deranged every time one of them gets their Calling or dies in combat while she continues to grow older.

Benedict Quintus Artemaeus is an Altus mage from Minrathous who preferred to spend his days getting high and fooling around with other rich boys, shirking his studies and the politics of his Magister mother, nearly into his twenties. He finally had to get serious when his tutor aligned with the Venatori and got them both captured by The Enemy (the canon good guys), leading to a rocky but gradual ascent from hedonistic fuckup to Sort of Competent Guy Who Cares Occasionally. he's been compared to Emperor Kuzco and that's not inaccurate ok

Josephine "Fifi" Mariette* is a regular ol elf from Val Royeaux who, after failing to make it in the city ballet/opera/ye olde whatever, made her way as a cabaret dancer and prostitute until her marriage to a human accountant, Jacques. His family never accepted her, so when he was drafted and killed in the War of the Lions, she left town to briefly join the Freemen of the Dales. Finding that she was as invisible there as anywhere else, she opted to put her status to use and become a spy for (and on) the Good Guys while working as their housekeeper.

Obeisance "Just Barrow Please" Barrow*, a farmer's son from Crestwood, went off to join the Templar Order as a means of finding adventure, leaving home, and making his extremely religious parents happy without having to take over the farm. He served in the Jainen Circle for many years without incident, but very casually deserted when the Mage-Templar war began (hit da bricks, just walk out etc). He spent some time afterward as a mercenary, and his MO is to bop around being helpful where he can while also absolutely never talking about what he used to do. it's none of your business

*if you think you know her/him from somewhere else: you do, I recycle these shitheads constantly

there have been a few more but they didn't Take in the same way, so just these for now. ok byyyeee

[trashsketch]

I have a complicated question: I used to follow this person who didn't feel comfortable drawing or writing about Killugon in a romantic way because "they're too young," and preferred to label them as queerplatonic, which is 100% valid (although I still lack more research on my side about it, I admit that). The part that seemed confusing to me and made me think is that the same person was completely okay with drawing Gon x Alluka as a romantic pair. While I don't think there's anything wrong with the latter, and people should express themselves, I wonder why 'being too young to be in love' might or might not be an obstacle depending on which pair we're talking about, even among queer fellows. Would that count as homophobic in some way, even though we're talking about the LGBT+ part of the fandom? What do you think that might cause this kind of roadblock for a pairing that is, in my opinion, far from inappropriate? Sorry for the long ask and it's okay if you don't feel comfortable on sharing your thoughts! I'd love them to be either romantic or queerplatonic in canon, though.

oh boy, I've stared at this and tried forming an answer for a couple of hours now. I had a long draft at first and everything. my one gripe with this is that I don't think this is homophobia? and even if it is homophobic....there's nothing you can do to change their mind even though i agree with you that killugon is a very innocuous ship!

for someone to say "i don't ship killugon because it doesn't sit comfortably with me because they're young" and then ship gon with alluka is more hypocritical than anything? but there could also be so many other reasons why they prefer one ship over another. We can't read minds no matter how much we try, so why do we keep trying? we can't change people's minds either, so why try to find a "roadblock"? we care a lot because that's our ship and that's okay, but there's also a myriad of other things we can do with our limited time being alive on earth. and I'd like to draw more killugon instead.

I want to have good faith in judging a stranger on the internet and just conclude that killugon just doesn't resonate with them as it does for me, and that's that! and yknow the usual, if it sucks hit da bricks! just walk out, you can leave!!! I've slammed the block button real hard on some ships or some tumblr blogs that make me feel very uncomfortable, but thankfully it is all just fiction and it's something i can actually step away from!

but I think this is something you can ask yourself about too. if you see someone say that killugon is too young to be shipped romantically, why does that not sit right with you? PERSONALLY, as a bisexual, seeing many movies show boy-girl romantic attraction while growing up have influenced me to think that it is okay to have romantic feelings as a child! so it feels like an attack on my part if someone dismisses romantic killugon and then ships romantic allugon. BUT THIS IS ONLY A FEELING! it is not an actual attack! it is only an attack if people flood my dms or inbox saying that it's wrong and with the occasional death threat!

[omniblades-and-stars]

choose violence asks 4, 12, and 18? :3c

what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person? -

This is like the least dramatic thing, but I just block people. If shit sucks, hit da bricks, and sometimes I just don't vibe with someone and so I block. I haven't had anything dramatic happen in ages.

The most interesting time I blocked someone in fandom was a hundred million years ago (like … 2012-2014, thereabouts), I complimented someone's gif edits with quotes and scenes from a character that at the time I was generally ambivalent to. I told them that their work actually had the profound effect of making me care about the character, and they and a bunch of their friends launched a harassment campaign against me because what I said was very mean I guess? I tried explaining what I meant better, but they wouldn't relent. I put up with it for like 2 weeks before I finally said "enough" and just blocked everyone involved.

And then I also left the fan space for several years.

the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them -

My joke answer is that no one cares about the trash compactor on the Normandy SR-2, and that you should love her because of her beautiful glass viewing window and wonderful buttons.

My more serious answers are going to be one, Ashley. Maybe it's because I'm an older sister who grew up religious. But I find her story very compelling. And I think if you really think about how her family and herself have been continually blacklisted in the Alliance because of her grandfather's legacy, and how I wonder if maybe after she got made a Spectre when Shepard is trying to stop Udina and there's that tense moment between the two of them, is she wondering if this is just another way someone is trying to get in the way of her success? I have a lot of feelings about Ash and you all should ahve them with me. (But also, how unpopular is she, because all of my new friends like her.)

And I think we should all love Jacob more for what he could have been. If you have the storywriter's constitution, you can see the threads of an excellent story and character in his dialogue, that just never … mattered. We should all take some time to explore the motivations that Bioware didn't and I have ideas tumbling around in my head for that so maybe one day I can get to it.

it's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on… -

Shavik. There needs to be more Shavik.Shit, not even necessarily a romantic pairing so much as just the two of them as mirrors. I am a mess about that horrible bug man and everyone else should be too. The differences between the two of them, how something about Shepard must be familiar because of how they were changed by the beacon, the similarities?! He is a tragic force of violence and vengeance and I go absolutely feral thinking about him experiencing what hope looks like through.

[birb--birb]

Saw someone making a bird wren pin and it caught my eye bc Wren was capitalized on the captions. And it just made me go like...hey, thats me, that's my name.

Every now and then I get these moments of not-quite gender euphoria but something close to it. A deep satisfaction and comfort knowing that I'm me, that I found me, that I'm so very different than I was 10 years ago, and at the same time so much happier.

It just made me think of 17 year old me, sitting on tumblr longing for something to change, to finally leave my hometown and do what I want for the first time without fear of being wrong. That kid had no idea where they'd end up, no idea how to connect with themselves, no idea who they were. It's kinda sad, but not in a "You're still young you have your whole life to figure shit out", more in a "I was too afraid to even perceive myself let alone to even think about wanting things". I didn't let myself want things for a long time and that makes me hurt for little me.

I guess I'm just reflecting on what we talked about in therapy today too.. that someone I looked up to and genuinely cared about doesn't know me anymore, and it's weird. It's weird that I've changed so much and I'm so fucking happy I've changed so much. I finally feel like a full fledged person with wants and emotions and needs and it's so fucking sad that it took me till 28 and years of therapy to get to here, but I'm so fucking proud of myself. I was part of my best friends wedding party with a whole new name and gender and all sorts of wonderful fucked up brain chemicals and a person I called my best friend 6 years ago is now standing in front of me and doesn't know this version of me. It felt like they were from a past life, and that's because they were! It just reminded me that there's a past version of me that people still think of, that some people only knew the 1.0 or 1.52 version of me, but now I'm out here with all new updates and bug fixes and some people never read the patch notes. Others have only ever known me as this 3.682.31 version and all others in between and that's weird but so freaking cool also!

I'm losing my train of thought but just damn 17 year old me would never fucking expect to be where we are today. And I wish I could tell them so many things, not even about gender like yall will figure that out on your own, but I wish I could tell them that shit gets hard and we come out the other end so much better and brighter and different than I ever would have imagined. I wish I could tell them that people care about them, that their needs are important, and that they aren't a burden on anyone in anyway whatsoever. I wish I could tell them that the system is fucked and just do things however they want to, that it's so much fun to embrace the weird and you'll find your people there. I wish I could tell them that bad things are going to happen and you can just say no, you can hit da bricks, leave bc you don't owe anyone anything. A n y t h i n g. I know there was no way out for me other than getting into uni, and there was no way I could avoid rowing, and frankly I wouldn't want to lose the connections I've made through that. I just wish they knew they didn't have to suffer through so much shit, that their worth is not based on what they're capable of doing or providing for someone else.

I think that's it, I think I wish I could tell 17 year old me that just even existing in the world is fucking rad and that's more than enough. You dont owe anyone anything, people love you for you even if you don't know who you are yet. And it's gonna be okay.

And you get some dope ass scars and tattoos and get so much better at video games letsgoooooooo

[beelzlikes]

Okay, listen to THIS and tell me I'm not crazy:

I got an email today from da boss telling me I've gotten a raise. Not only that, but I'm going to get retroactive pay from the last two months to reflect this. So by all accounts, even after taxes, my next paycheck is gonna be hefty.

"Congratulations!" you might be thinking. And yet... here I come to spoil it all.

I'm paranoid. That this is a conspiracy. I'm connecting dots across several years and I'm driving myself mad doing so. My brain tells me that "They" are orchestrating things behind the scenes.

Take for instance my ill-fated trip to Oregon all those years ago. I go there so I become a stoner legally, and just so happen to find a great roommate who is almost overly caring and kind and lenient with the fact that I was unemployed and playing video games all day and night. And when I finally broke and blamed him, he begged me to stay, saying he didn't care about me paying my share of the rent anyway. SUS! Who is this guy? What does he want? Did I imagine he drugged me, or did he really do that?

And when I do get back to my home state, oh wow! Wouldn't you know it, medical marijuana just so happens to be legal now and you easily qualify, isn't that a coincidence?

Then we find a pretty good gig working at a charter school we've never heard of before but THROUGH a contract with a company I HAVE worked with before. And during our tenure there we objectively have the best funded and well behaved school in the entire district. And just when things are starting to go so smoothly that I actually start making plans for the future - BOOM! Covid hits and we are all quarantined.

That's right, folks. Covid is MY fault. This is what my brain is telling me. Not to mention that Charter school had hot queer guys as substitutes ALL the time, like "They" were throwing them at me. "Here's one, you like this one? No? How about this one, he's short and has glasses? No? Fuck uuuuh I dunno, new strategy!"

When Covid is over, I get "fired" from my job and almost immediately pick up a new one working at the college I graduated from. And in this job I can do no wrong apparently! I slack off terribly and I even get reprimanded, but not even at my most suicidal was I ever in jeopardy of really losing my job...

This job pays more than my last one, I do so much LESS work than I did before, and now I'm told I'm getting a raise and congratulated for "being so amazing". What? ...What the fuck? Are YOU high right now, I'm doing diddly squat over here!

Not to mention as soon as I'm hired, a previous college roommate of mine suddenly wants to reconnect? Remember: he's gay too. And what's this? He ALSO works at the same college?? What. A. Coincidence. So of course I ghost him, he was a trap. "They" were trying to set me up.

That didn't work? Oh shit, okay, let's send in hot union person - we know he's into unions right now. And this person JUST so happens to meet me at the office on the ONE day I was going to be there that month. And they just so happen to keep coming back even after I put them off.

I must be crazy, yeah? There's no way there's a shadowy cabal of people going behind my back in an attempt to IMPROVE my life. That's like... the ANTITHESIS of a conspiracy, yeah?! Suddenly I'm gonna have an influx of money, at LEAST a couple hundred dollars in this next paycheck. AND from here on out I'm getting paid more anyway.

What the fuck? This isn't right. Good things don't happen to me. The other shoe is riiiiiight around the corner and it's gonna drop on me like a ton of bricks. What the fuck? What the fuck.

[cleromancy]

okay! more image slots heehoo

Would I have been a better Robin? Would I have been a better person?

and this is exactly what i mean when i say framing and juxtaposition. this is the last page of an issue where he decisively gets the better of tim as well as getting the drop on the 3 senior titans present at the tower at the time. and it 100% comes off like jason is supposed to be the one who lost, who wasn't as good as tim, and. well. the only point at which tim managed to get more than one hit in a row was when they were talking about bruce, and honestly... good on tim for taking advantage of that gaping wound when he was outmatched and (figuratively, at least this time) outgunned.

but one of the things i find so frustrating about johns' writing in general even in issues i either *like* (adventure comics 3) or have an emotional attachment to (tt29), is that he will make characters just *know* stuff bc the reader knows it (or should know it), like the panels up above earlier where kon knows the red robin costume was jasons first. im not a kon expert or anything, but i *am* pretty sure jason hit da bricks in countdown without ever seeing kon even once while still in costume (sorry for not remembering when kon comes back from the dead. as if its my fault) so what gives.

and we also saw it earlier, Jason talking earlier in the fight about tims stalking days:

^ this is the end of his monologue about that which actually goes on quite a while. the point is why the hell would jason know this! this isnt stuff anybody would reasonably write down in a report about tim that jason might have hacked into, and talia straight up does not care about tim drake as a person and almost certainly wouldn't know this either. and you *can*--and i do-- read this as Jason having obsessively pieced together hints until he came to the correct conclusion, but in the broader context of Bullshit, its like. he would not fucking know that. so its purpose in this issue is really just to remind us how very special and impressive timmy is... in comparison to jason.

so its like you have an issue that could have been a really cool exploration of the both of them but the way its set up, the way its framed, just tears jason down and like... its not the worst offender out there. like at least someone fucking tells jason he mattered. but everything else, man. do you know what i mean. like he mattered... kind of. he matters now, but only to make tim look good, somehow. and the problem is somehow that jason didn't have enough friends-- look, once again I don't have an issue with the content of Jason's thoughts, its just that we're supposed to like, agree with him.

idk man i feel like my articulate-ness left me somewhere in the last reblog LOL im just gonna drop off here

the problem with being a jason todd liker. ..........the FIRST problem with being a jason todd liker. is that you want him to matter

[heavensickness]

Omg but the bad ending in that au would sting so HARD crying shaking screaming

i dont even want to think about it so i made xyx choose to forgive her and listen to her side instead of just. hitting da bricks

all i ever wanted from you was a single farewell. a text message, a letter. well, no, fuck that. i wanted more than that. i wanted you to look into my eyes, like the brave, daring girl i thought you were, and say " i am going thousands of miles away, you will never see me again, i am leaving you, and i am so sorry for making you feel like you were someone special." because i believed you. i haven't really believed anyone after you. you made me believe that someone else out there could stay around after seeing what a fuck-up i am, someone would see that i am not this easygoing, happy guy; that i am awful and scared and have a messed up brain and i cannot be fixed, and would still stay with me. fuck, i threw up after that party and you cleaned me up without showing any disgust, remember? i believed that you would always be there, bringing me water and swiping my hair out of my face. i believed that you would stay.

i don't know what i am saying right now. i am blabbering like an idiot. maybe i am, for still being hung up on someone i've known 10 years ago.

you were the only person who made me feel that i could be myself, freely, unabashedly. if we've met again while i was still in one piece; i'd love to read you to sleep, hold your hand when you've gotten that tattoo, and take you on an endless roadtrip like we used to dream about. but that didn't happen. you were just gone for too long. and now that you've found me, i am just too broken and bitter to try. even to try for you. so, take care of yourself. or whatever people say when they are bidding farewell.

----xyx has been removed from the chat.----