#and cuz I feel like the morning is another day for me lollll that it doesn’t feel like I’ve been drawing daily

[tryingtolearnartsob]

I really did mean for break and DID have it. Just not as large of a break that I thought but did feel enough of a break to be one…I think I said break too many times I’ve lost the direction of where I was going with this

—ANYWAYS. it was very meaningful and very good for me. like I tried to not at all think about art and enjoy other stuff and well yeah I came back to art eventually and did urges to draw but I didn’t succumb to it mainly because I didn’t feel ready but I did start to just…watch videos.

—a lot of informative anatomy videos and stuff and like got around to wanting to draw then….and this time I really just wanted to scribble thingies in

—and just ehhh I forgot my main first thoughts as I was doing it tbh. but I know that I was focusing on the arms and stuff and I wanted to do it like in drawing circle for elbow first etc and then I wanted to focus on the pelvis. I did an overdraw for one of the figures too of how the pelvis would be like and then draw over it how the legs and stuff would connect cuz the first one looked like ??? what was that lol

—but I still didn’t feel like I really how things are structured and how legs are connected to it and so videos helped a lot in that 😌 I had like geneallllk understanding but it wasn’t enough and like looking at pelvis diff angles and stuff wasn’t enough either and I felt like I didn’t understand properly how leg was connected but I think I got it now….? I say that but I still feel like I need to strength my knowledge some more. it’s not as strong as it can be.

—anyways after that I was doing other stuff but still wanted to draw so I got out the pen n paper

—I didn’t have any real goal….i just had urge to draw smth…. Did some random doodles and kinda focusing a bit on drawing boxes and stuff I saw around me. Practicing my lines too (and lol I feel like my line on paper is so much better than line on digital….. idk if it’s just the texture of paper… rather than the glass or iPad but it feels like? my line control is so much better lol maybe it’s the knock off Apple Pencil that’s just bad) (sigh why did my pencil have to break 😔)

—also Drew juv n srda for a bit since I was getting bored of doing random stuff and ahhhh honestly just kinda feeling upset cuz I felt like I completely forgot everything 😭😭😭 on how to even sketch in a decent figure pose… 😔😔😔

—and I forgot what happened in the middle lol…? but I think I watched more videos and stuff and then tried to contrast the figure pose again after some time and this time…? I think I got it…! also one thing I realised with the arms is that lollll I’ve been forgetting to draw in deltoid…fjjfjfjdj. anyways very happy with the lower part of this page. I feel like that’s when I started to Get It

—I’ve been wanting to draw hands better but I think the problem with how I’ve been drawing/kinda practising hands before is that when I tried to draw what I saw in refs the problem was that I felt like my knowledge of hand was insufficient like I knew general/gist stuff but like… I didn’t feel like I had the best understanding so I watched a lot of hand anatomy stuff (thank you proko…) and it helped in getting more understanding of what’s going on with the hands and stuff and so when I was sketching in this time… it felt more fun and I liked this session of drawing hands to any other even if they didn’t turn out well cuz I felt like my understanding was much better.

—also added in some finger single studies since that’s what im very weak in also I feel like I need to better understand the fat/muscle sides of the pinkie and stuff since I don’t think I get that well.. I’ve been using method of drawing in the knuckle/joints of where figures would be after drawing in palm and it helped really great with getting the spacing and stuff down.

—like example when I say I didn’t get the understanding of hand before: like I knew how hand works and stuff but like I feel my understanding/structure of the hand was like…. very not fresh? but now I can imagine better and know what’s there. that I just need to focus on how to draw it and feel for how it all connects and stuff…. that’s what I mean

—I think the best hand kinda turned out to be the one where I didn’t do the whole drawing in the joints for hands… it was the second last hand I did and I felts like I had general idea of where the fingers go so I just drew in the general shape and it was much easier to clearly draw in the bend of the fingers that it turned out to look better… idk how to put this into words but yeah…

—I honestly did have plans to do more figure studies and stuff but I got swept by things and it didn’t come to be but yeah. very happy n satisfied with how this day turned out to be. the break was very well needed<3 it’s kind of funny since it doesn’t seem like a break but for real. I usually think of art 24/7 and even when im not drawing im usually thinking about it or watching videos about it. and well taking this break where I purposely drew my attention away from that was very good. I need that break. I think from here things are gonna go slow and stuff. Which is a pace I probs need. to ingest more construction/understanding information that I can then apply/strength my figure prac drawing….

—one thing I do want to focus on is the heads. like I noticed when I draw heads…..like for normal angles the problem is that I don’t have a structure and stuff for chin/jaw etc and it’s kind of��.a lot of fumbling.? so I think I just need to get better understanding and think of way to draw it in a way that’s less more fumbling lol.

[paracosmdreaming]

Rules: Answer these 85 82 statements and tag 20 people

I was tagged by @haoushoku (I finally got around to doing one!!! Sorry grandmother, please forgive me.)

Tagging: @laolabear , @unproductivepeanut , @sakuratunes , @sharksheye , @simling , @moonlissfox , @cascadestars , @pfudorqueen

No pressure to do it if you don’t want to. Just something I haven’t done in a long time ^ u ^

The last:

1. Drink: water (Trynna drink a little healther -- even though I drank that water at 5AM with half a can of pringles . ___ . )

2. Phone call: :OOOO I think my dad???

3. Text message: boyfriend (tHAT’S RIGHT FOLKS, I MANAGED TO GET A DECENT GUY TO LIKE ME :DDDDDDD HAHAHA.)

4. Song you listened to: “Let Me Go” - Hailee Steinfeld & Alesso ft. Florida Georgia Line & watt

5. Time you cried: Sunday!!! lol I was arguing and couldn’t find the words I wanted to say and started crying cuz I’m a baby 

Have you ever:

6. Dated someone twice: No.

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: No.

8. Been cheated on: No.

9. Lost someone special: No.

10. Been depressed: Yes.

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: No.

3 Favorite Colors:

12. Pink

13. White

14. Blue

In the last year, have you:

15. made new friends: Yes.

16. fallen out of love: No.

17. laughed until you cried: Yes.

18. found out someone was talking about you: LOLLLLL Yes but I kinda had it coming.

19. met someone who changed you: Yes.

20. found out who your friends are: Uh...?? Yes? I guess?

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: Yes.

General

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: All of them!

23. Do you have any pets: No :((

24. Do you want to change your name: Not really, No. I can do lots of cool things with my name (especially bc of how it’s translated in Chinese lol).

25. What did you do for your last birthday: Went out with my boyfriend to eat ramen and had cake with my family.

26. What time did you wake up: 8AM today :((

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: watching Community LOL (I slept at 5AM. Not a good idea.)

28. Name something you can’t wait for: SCHOOL TO BE OVER ALREADY. BREAK ARRIVE.

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: This morning! She drove me to the bus stop, bless her heart,

30. What are you listening to right now: My professor try to pronounce the names of planets lol. He’s trying very hard. He’s a geology major not an astronomy teacher and this is a geology class teaching astronomy for some reason???

31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom: Yes.

32. Something that is getting on your nerves: When I don’t understand something. It’ll be on my mind the whollllllllleeeeeeee day until I understand it.

33. Most visited website: facebook

34. Hair color: black with golden peek-a-boo highlights.

35. Long or short hair: Long? I think?

36. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes. And I’m lucky enough to be dating him lol 

37. What do you like about yourself: I can walk very fast. :DD

38. Piercings: Earlobes.

39. Blood type: Idk but my mom says O? But based on those Punnett Square thingies, I should be B I think.

40. Nickname: Don’t really have one...?

41. Relationship: In a relationship.

42. Zodiac: Chinese: Tiger ; Astrological: Gemini

43. Pronouns: She/Her

44. Favorite TV show: tie b/w Brooklyn Nine-Nine and Leverage (The Good Place is also really good too omg...)

45. Tattoos: No.

46. Right or left handed: Right.

47. Surgery: No,

48. Sport: I walk very fast... :DDD

49. Vacation: I really want to visit Japan!

50. Pair of trainers: No.

More general:

51. Eating: Well I’m GOING to eat the udon noodles I brought today while I wait in the hallways for my next class lollll

52. Drinking: Water.

53. I’m about to: do a lab about planets.

54. Waiting for: the class to be over so I can eat my udon noodles.

55. Want: Money. Desperately. Bc my university apparently made a mistake and my financial aid was rescinded -.-

56. Get married: Maybe.

57. Career: Wanted to be a teacher. Realized I was bad at teaching. Switching to HR Management which I will probably suck at too, but at least I won’t feel bad for sucking at teaching to adults (since I don’t think I’ll have to spell everything out for them??? Hopefully???) 

Which do you prefer:

58. Hugs or kisses: Hugs!!

59. Lips or eyes: Eyes. Lol one of my friends has a super pretty eye color and I have to force myself to stop telling her that every time.

60. Shorter or taller: Taller. I’m already 5′1″ so like... Yeah. Taller.

61. Older or younger: Older.

62. Nice arms or nice stomach: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I have a thing for both.

63. Hookup or relationship: Relationship.

64. Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant. AF. 

Have you ever (Pt 2):

65. Kissed a stranger: No.

66. Drank hard liquor: Uh... Yes but like, only a sip??

67. Lost glasses or contact lenses: Yes. I had a pair of glasses get run over by a car, and another pair got crushed by a pair of skis -.-

68. Turned someone down: Yes.

69. Sex on the first date: No.

70. Had your heart broken: No.

71. Been arrested: No.

72. Cried when someone died: No.

73. Fallen for a friend: Yes.

Do you believe in:

74. yourself: I try to.

75. miracles: Yes (miracle I’ve made it this far in life tbh. TY).

76. love at first sight: No. I do believe in lust at first sight though!

77. santa claus: No.

78. kiss on first date: Yes.

79. angels: Sure.

Other:

80. Eye color: Dark brown.

81. Favorite movie: mmmmm... the Taiwanese movie “Our Times”. Super sweet, I loved it. You can watch it English Subbed on Youtube! !

82. Current best friend’s name: Laura (I bother her all the time to talk about my relationship issues, my change in major, and watering her plant Noodles that I’m trying very hard not to kill.)

I tried to look for the missing statements, but there’s still 3 missing.