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talentforlying · 6 months

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i'm actually so fucking serious re. constantine and self-imposed time loops, like this guy!! this guy cannot look away. he is chronically incapable of knowing something bad is happening or someone is being hurt and turning his back, no matter how bad for his health it'll be to look, no matter how he figures his chances of winning are. his WHOLE THING about magic is 'if not me then who?' and everyone on the outside of magic, on the fringes of his life, has to watch him hurl himself at other people's problems and crawl away bleeding or walk away Wrong, and they have to decide how long they're willing to watch that for.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS.#thinking of the vast difference between cheryl (refuses to engage w/ his magic life. doesn't see him often enough to see the good he can do #and chas (lets john set the pace. inevitably gets hurt/falls behind. resents him for the collateral but knows the decency at his core.)#and the balancing act that kit tried and failed to be for him (no magic but close enough to see him for him)#because he is incapable of divorcing himself from magic and from the fires that other people set #he's a good man at heart!! it's on his fucking sleeve!! but he won't leave the fucking time loop and it is taking him apart piece by piece #it will always take more than it gives. than He gives it. and people in his life will always have to choose between vigil and ignorance #i'm SO fucking normal about it #( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE.

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