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mrs-elijah-wood · 1 month ago

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Man I knew 2024 was bad but I didn’t realize how barren and dire most of that shit was. I just went back and watched my 2023 video and the difference is night and day.

Also I made a second a day video this year and I was uncharacteristically diligent—I have something for literally every single day.

However, that being said, that means I have an eight minute video that’s mostly live photos of my two cats, small creatures I see out in nature, and zero-context soundbites from Snapchat vids I sent my friends

#now I’m sad. oh well #I think the most important factor is the complete and utter lack of the ocean in 2024 #plus in 2023 I still had hope that living in Chicago could be fun and cool #and I did things and got out of my comfort zone #and by January 2024 I was unemployed and scrambling for cash and hating everything and everyone #plus oh my god. I did so many things with friends in 2023 #and then we all moved all over the country. this year was profoundly lonely #which is its real theme I think #bc I love my new town and program I really do but it takes me a long time to feel settled anywhere #and I’ve made friends here and I like them a lot but the relationships are still so new #and I miss my old friends like a shot lung. not to be dramatic but #but because we all moved we’re drifting apart which is natural but still makes me sad #like what’s the point of cultivating these relationships if they all end anyway #…..bc if you don’t you have an extremely lonely year which compounds to an extremely lonely life. goddamn it #anyways. new years melancholy. I always get like this #2025 be NICE TO ME. PLEASE

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