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confused-bi-queer · 4 years ago

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My journey, I was never straight, just in love with a guy

I feel safe, so I will write this, just because. Nobody is gonna read this anyway

I’m angry because it took me 18 years to freaking know that I’m not straight and there were several things that were obvious and I wish I would’ve notice them. So, here I go. I’m a her at this moment, keep that in mind.

When I was like 6 or so, I pretended to be a boy, for myself. It always made me curious.

When I was like 8 or 9 I never had a problem in dancing with another girl, I was always one of the tall ones and sometimes boys weren’t enough, so they put me with a girl friend and I liked to pretend I was a boy.

When I was like 10, I realized that my height never bothered me, just the fact that I was a tall girl and boys at that age were really really short.

When I was 11, or 12, I went to a catholic school dressed as a man. This was funny and cool. They told us to go in a costume and I went with a suit and a tie, and the director gave me a bad look, but I FELT SAFE. I liked my “costume”.

At that age, I wore a boxer for the first time and enjoyed the fact that I had men’s clothes, I hate them tho, they are uncomfortable.

When I was like 13, I almost kissed my girl best friend, by accident, and I didn’t care, but the fact that there were like 4 other people watching us, made me nervous.

When I was 14, I joked a lot about kissing a friend and spent over a WEEK figuring out which girl had the most desirable lips and who I would kiss if I could, the funny thing is that I had a boyfriend.

At that same time, I had a best friend, another girl, and we always joked about being girlfriends and we always planned, as a joke, to break up with our boyfriends and be together. I broke up with him like 4 months later, but for other reasons.

In those moments I noticed that it wouldn’t bother me if I ever had a girlfriend, to experiment right? (Crowley, the lies I told myself)

When I was 16, one morning I woke up and chose not to give a fuck and dressed up like the boys at my school: with long shorts, a hoddie, my socks high and like that and I felt nice, but my sibling was like “you’re gonna go like that” and changed.

By the end of 2019, my family knew that I liked dressing like a guy sometimes and my mom told me in public, “Why don’t you come like a man, you know, with your tie and suit?” and I loved the idea, but the people around us laughed and I just told her I’ll pass.

I went shopping with my family, to buy clothes, and I was feeling shy because I wanted to buy boy shirts, but I didn’t want anyone to look at me. I told my dad this, and he said it was fine and bought me 3 shirts, I felt soooo good, because I sometimes feel safer in those clothes.

NOW, from here was the real mess, when I noticed that this was not someone straight would do. In the middle of 2020, I was playing a game, A GAME, this episode thingy and chose a girl, because what the hell, I thought it would be fun and it was, and I’m in the middle of a dance class and said out loud for me: “well, this is way more exciting that with a dude” and everything just screwed up from here. Because when I heard myself I was like, what did I just say, and I spent the rest of the class thinking about that.

When the class finished, I thought more and realized that I might not be that straight after all. I questioned if I ever liked men or just my ex, because I’ve been in love with that guy sfor years, I don’t anymore, but I was into him from 5 years until I was 16 years, and that’s why I never knew anything about myself. After that, I made counts and I do like men, but girls too????? And FUCKING GOOGLED IT. Because I labelled myself immediately as a bi girl. And one test was like: “Well, if you’re here asking if you are straight, you’re not” and that sticked with me.

After that, I did some research and went back in my life and labelled myself again. Here’s the thing, I don’t like thinking about sex with men, I haven’t, and that thought made me anxious and disgusted, no offense men, and considered being an ace bisexual, like being attracted to both genders, but no sex. Buuuut, I found out about this term “demisexual” and fits me. But the problem was now the girls and it’s taking me some time to still discover at what point I’m attracted to them, but I am. At this moment I’m definitely bi, demisexual for the boys and confused with girls.

I have came out to three people, and whoever sees this, but doesn’t know who I am. The first person was a friend of mine, bisexual, and she was hella excited for me, so I feel safe with her. The second one was my sister, I tried, and boy did I regret it; she spent over half hour saying that I was confused and that only because a boy broke my heart I couldn’t hate men and that how would I ever be sure (because I didn’t tell her I was sure) and sometimes I say that a girl is pretty or things like that, but never to make her remember I came out. The last one is my best friend, we were on zoom and I sent her a text, didn’t talk about that, but sometimes I feel connected to her.

I cut my hair to my chin. And that felt NICE, I love my short hair, but I couldn’t cut it shorter, like a guy, because I dance and I need at least some hair to make a pony tail, at least. But once I’m out, I will cut it.

Once I was sure of me being bi and solved this thing that didn’t take me that long, just like 6 months, and I was finally happy and proud and I knew myself more, like I found myself, at the end of 2020 I started hating my clothes and my long hair. Because my hair is growing up so fucking fast.

On december 2020, I felt uncomfortable in my own skin, I sometimes am, and decided that when 2021 ends, I’ll know if I felt like that because I want to change the aesthetic of my clothes. I thought it was just that, I think it still is.

At the end of February and beginning of March of this year, I read Carry on and Wayward son, by Rainbow Rowell, and loved them, although I’m broken and not mentally stable anymore, but I loved them, I found my comfortable characters, Snowbaz, and I feel connected to them, because they have been an inspiration for a novel I’m writing, they have change me, and they are kinda ruining me, because I thought I wanted to become a director, but turns out I want to go to UK and study fucking literature (a plan I thought didn’t exist anymore, it does, AGAIN). Well, thanks to Baz in WS, I found my aesthetic: flower shirts. And actually flowers have always been my thing, but not once I have wore them because my mom always said they were too much. That’s why I don’t know if my gender identity is crap, because I never had a place to dress like I wanted: using men’s clothes.

Thanks to Baz and his amazing shirts, one day, like last week, I dressed as himself, with the things I had, and I could because I had the clothes, but too girly. After that, it came to me a question, that it’s been messing with me. “Do I want to look like Baz, or do I want to be Baz?” And that’s why I’m having a problem with my pronouns, mind, identity, fucking clothes and everything. A fictional character just messed with me!

I saw this person in tiktok that was gender fluid and I kinda identified with them, because some times I feel masc and sometimes girly and some times I want to cry because no one in my family understand this and I’m the closeted gender confused sibling, child, cousin. So, I think that maybe I am gender fluid or just mentally ill. Crowley,I need to go to therapy.

So, I have stated that I want floral shirts, no matter what, I do, I am a floral person, but people just don’t want other people to be be themselves with their clothes. Yesterday, I went for an ice cream with my sister and told her this, that I wanted and AM a floral person and pointed at her floral shirts and blew my mind, I WANTED THEM and she responded with a “those are boys clothes”, and I told her “so? what about that?” and changed the topic.

Basically, my problems are around the way I dress, the pandemic that has taken a complete year of my life and I want to fucking live, and the fact that I want to go to another country to study a career I discarded because I had a class like that in high school and broke me, and it is not cheap, I’m not good at it and my parents didn’t even like the idea of me living in another state my own country aaand it is too late for me to send an application for next semester.

Back to my original point, I never ever questioned anything of myself and my behaviours because I was in love with the same guy all my life and dated him for a long shit of time, so I thought because I liked him, I was a girl loving a guy, but after several years of having broken up with him, I am a someone bi, because I don’t know. I don’t, but spoiler alert... I am not straight, at all.

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exodustories · 5 years ago

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Yixing Soulmate AU Pt. 2

Part 1

I watched as his body disappeared into the sea of people. As quickly as he appeared, he disappeared. I exhaled heavily and chewed on the inside of my cheek. Why was the concept of soulmates over romanticized in our world? There was no such thing as being rejected by your soul mate… until now. I looked down at my watch and realized that I needed to get back to the bridal shop. Christine would probably know that being around all this would be too much for me. Actually, it was too much for me. It pained my heart that I wouldn’t be taking part in any of this. I’m always the outsider looking in. I was already twenty-five and had been to so many weddings, but my own. But, as much as my heart ached I didn’t want to ruin this for Christine. No matter how bitter I am, I truly believed she deserved the bliss of finally having her soulmate. I let out another sigh and slowly made my way back to the bridal shop. My feet felt so heavy and dragged with every step. A small smile spread across my lips at the thought of how Christine and I planned our weddings as children. We had always said that we’d both get married together. But, reality hit and only one of us was getting married. I had just met Yixing and he made it clear that what I dreamed about wouldn’t be coming true. The truth was I’d probably never get married. Would I have to settle on someone who wasn’t my soulmate?

My feet finally landed in front of the bridal shop and I inhaled deeply. I had decided not to tell Christine about Yixing. I didn’t want to ruin her day and it didn’t matter anyways. I mentally prepared myself before walking through the front doors. I watched as Christine's small figure bee-lined over to where I was. “Are you doing okay? Were you able to get a breather? I’m so sorry, I promise we’ll be done soon!” I shook my head at her silly words and placed my hands on her shoulders. “I’m okay, Chris. I went out to get a breather and I’m okay now. You have my full attention now, bud.” I smiled at her and nodded. I watched as her eyes examined me and her head tilted a bit. Her eyes lingered on me before she nodded slightly. She pulled away and clasped her hands together. “It’s down to two dresses now! I can’t make this choice without you, buddy.” I nodded and motioned for her to go try them on. She let out a squeal and her green eyes widened. I let out a soft chuckle and her red hair swayed over her shoulder as she ran back to the dressing room. As soon as she was back in the dressing room, my face dropped. I felt so horrible, I should be excited for her. Why did I have to meet him today? He completely stole this beautiful moment from me. She deserved to have her best friend’s full attention, but I felt like I had been robbed of that. My head was swirling with thoughts of him. She modeled each dress for me, but I kept my focus on her facial expressions. Just by her face alone I could tell she loved the first dress more. I knew her too well and even though she couldn’t pick a dress, I knew which one had won over her heart. “Soooo, which one should I get?” I snickered and looked up to see her walking towards me. I shook my head and smiled at her. “You’re pretending you don’t know which one to get, but you love the first dress the most.” Her mouth opened agape and her eyes squinted. “How’d you k-,“ I cut her off answering her with what she already knew. “Chris, we’ve known each other for so long. I can tell what you like and what you don’t like based on your facial expressions.” “Aria, I felt like a princess in that dress!” I smiled and enveloped her small self in my arms. “You are a princess. You’re going to be a real-life princess on your day.” I held her closer as sobs left her tiny body. She pulled away and tears were streaming down her cheeks. “I feel like such a bad best friend. We said we’d do this together, but it’s just me..” She trailed off and sniffled as more tears flowed out of her. I gently held both her hands. “Chris, nooo you’re not a bad best friend. Don’t feel bad, it’s okay. I’m glad I could be here during these special moments. And you’ll be there for my special moments when the time comes.” I gently wiped her tears away and offered her a small smile. She sniffled some more and embraced me in another hug. “Are you sure you’re okay?” I tried to keep myself composed, she knew me too well. “I’m fine, buddy. Don’t worry about me.” I stated rubbing her back gently. She pulled away and her green eyes examined me once again. I knew she knew that I was hiding something from her. But, it was more than she could even imagine. I felt so embarrassed. I couldn’t even gather the courage to muster up those words inside me. I felt humiliated knowing what had taken place. ~~~ Christine dropped me off in front of my house and I waved at her as she drove off. In all honesty, I didn’t want to go home. My whole family would be there planning my cousin’s wedding. I could hear the roaring of their laughter from outside the house. I felt like I had a million cousins that were getting married each weekend. The perks of having an enormous family. I gripped my bag tightly and stared at the front of my house. I really didn’t want to go inside. I’ve had such a rough day because of Yixing and I had to work harder to keep it from Christine. I took in a few deep breaths and commanded my feet to make its way to the front door. It felt like an eternity once I finally reached the door. The roaring of laughter grew louder and rang in my ears. My heart began beating faster knowing I’d have to face them and plaster a mask on my face. I rolled my eyes and threw the front door open, it was better to get it over with. "The baby's home!!!!" The sound of all their voices rang through the walls. I smiled and shut the door behind me. I internally groaned at all the cheeks I had to kiss. I greeted every single aunt, uncle, and cousin. After all the greetings, I wedged myself between my mom and dad. I watched as everyone engaged back into their conversations. “Thalia’s wedding had the best food!” “Noo, Sarah’s wedding had the best cake!” “Ohhhh, but Roberto’s wedding had the prettiest decorations!” I rolled my eyes and tuned all their chatter out. I sank my brain into a spiral of frustrated thoughts. Usually, I loved hearing them argue about who’s wedding was better. But, today I had no patience for it. “Xo, remember our wedding?” My dad’s words pulled me out of my thoughts and I looked up at him. There was a bright smile on his face as he looked over at my mother. His bright smile only heightened his soft features. His almond shaped eyes held such a beautiful honey color in them. His tan skin complimented the color of his eyes so nicely. “Leo, don’t start.” My mother mumbled while shaking her head. My parents were so in love and sometimes their mush was too much for me. My dad got up and sat beside her. He wrapped his arm around my mom. He gently kissed her cheek with a smile on his face. “You looked so beautiful, Xiomara. You’re the most gorgeous bride I’ve ever seen.” I clenched my jaw to contain my bitterness. “Your brown eyes looked so beautiful in the sun. Your olive skin looked so gorgeous in that ivory wedding dress.” If I could clench my jaw any tighter I’d have no teeth left. Most days I enjoyed hearing them complement each other, but it was too much for me. When would I get my chance? I felt like everyone else’s love was on display on purpose. I had often questioned my worth and that probably sounded ridiculous. But, I had cousins getting married almost every other weekend. I was suffocating in a sea of love that wasn’t meant for me. Why did this forsaken world glorify soulmates, and not show the ugliness of it? How some people die before they can even meet their soulmate? Or those who settle on others who isn’t the one meant for them? Or what if your soulmate rejected you? I couldn’t take any of this anymore and swiftly stood up. I felt all eyes on me and darted for the bathroom. I closed the door behind me and the tears came unwelcome. I ran my fingers through my hair and paced in circles. Once the tears had come to a halt I splashed cold-water on my face. My breathing grew rapidly and I pulled up my left sleeve and snarled at the mark on my wrist. This wretched mark that I wanted so badly to disappear. I lathered soap on it and scrubbed on it as hard as I could. Soap wasn’t going to do anything, but I was desperate. I hated this disgusting mark that only meant one thing. The tears came again and there was a light knock on the door. My breathing grew heavy again. I tugged my sleeve down to cover this thing that I was already growing to hate. “Aria? Baby are you okay?” It was my mother and I hated that she’d see me like this. I hated that they’d all know I was having a hard-time with this and they’d all feel pity for me. “Baby, are you okay?” I turned the door knob and the door creaked open. “Aria?” I stepped forward and felt my knees buckle. There was a sharp pain that struck through my gut. I dropped to the floor in grueling pain and sobbed. “Aria!” I felt my mother’s arms wrap around me and the pain continued. “I HATE HIM I HATE HIM,” I shouted repeatedly. I hated him. I hated that he was constantly getting hurt, I hated that I met him. I hated that it was him. What I hated the most was that he wanted nothing to do with me.

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blitheringmcgonagall · 6 years ago

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Chapters: 4/? Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: James Potter/Lily Evans Potter, Sirius Black/Remus Lupin Additional Tags: wolfstar, jily, Marauders Medical AU, jily fic - Freeform, wolfstar fic, language, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Minor Character Deaths (well they aren’t minor to me, sob!!), Angst, Fluff

Chapter 4 : Oh, Just a Little Bit Wrong

Flashback to 8 years ago… James was about to go on his first date with Lily Evans, Sirius had been disowned and kicked out by his family and due to reasons he remained unaware of, Remus Lupin was no longer talking to him… and things were about to get a hell of a lot worse for them both…

Soooo I may have gone a bit nuclear on the ANGST level here, apparently... oops!!!!

(That’s me thoroughly ashamed of myself!!!)

But if you are okay with angsty marauders, read on....!

Chapter 4 : Oh, Just a Little Bit Wrong

“Any plans for today?” James asked, flopping down on the 🛋️ opposite Sirius.

“No,” Sirius replied, without looking up from his 💻.

“Why don’t you come to the gym with me?” said James.

“No thanks,” Sirius said.

“Coffee shop? The Italian one you 💛?” persisted James.

Sirius shook his head.

“Pads, you’ve been hiding away in here for weeks now, you need to start getting out a bit more,” said James frowning. “Mum and dad are 😟 about you.”

Mr. & Mrs. Potter adored Sirius. He had taken to spending more and more time in their 🏠 over the years, and they had welcomed him with open arms, treating him as part of the family. Now that he had been disowned by his parents, Sirius had been told to move in permanently. James was right, they were all concerned about his wellbeing. Sirius was looking decidedly thin, he thought. His usually tight jeans looked baggy on him, his hair unkempt, his eyes dull.

“I’m 😟 about you,” he sighed.

“Don’t worry about me, s’fine,” said Sirius, leaning back on the arm of the sofa.

“God Sirius, when you do that 😔 😁 that doesn’t reach your eyes, it cries out that you’re fucking miserable!” said James, leaning forwards and clasping his hands together.

“Psychobabble,” muttered Sirius, closing his eyes. “🆗, fine, I’m miserable. Plenty of people have had their hearts broken. My family are all horrible and they’ve always hated me, nothing new there. And I wasn’t even in a relationship with Remus, I’ll get over it soon enough, don’t worry.”

“Fucking Lupin, wanker!” muttered James crossly.

Sirius opened his eyes again.

“Don’t you dare bad-👄 Remus,” he said tight-lipped. “He’s not obliged to go out with me.”

James opened his 👄 to protest and thought better of it. Remus Lupin had been downright rude and obnoxious, refusing to even speak to Sirius since that night.

“Any word from Reg?” he tried, immediately regretting it.

“Not. A. Thing.” said Sirius darkly, drumming his fingers on his thigh. “I’ve tried contacting him on Facebook, texted him, even emailed him and tried to call him. Nothing.”

James grunted angrily.

“I’m ⚰️ to him, 🆗? I don’t exist, erased from all records of the Black family. I looked at Reg’s Facebook page before he blocked me and all the photos with me have been deleted, any childhood pics gone. Same with my cousins, and obviously my fucking parents…”

“Fuck!” said James.

He hated 👀 Sirius like this – hurting, vulnerable, rejected. He wanted to fix everything for him. Do something. Anything. But he couldn’t. He had already tried to contact Reg himself, tried to corner him leaving Grimmauld Place, to no avail.

“Alright, look, come on, let’s get out of here for a few hours,” said James, trying a new tack. “I need a distraction before I meet Lily in town later on.”

“Nervous, Prongs?” smirked Sirius, momentarily diverted.

“Yes, you bastard, sod off!” James replied, throwing a cushion at Sirius.

“Fine, only cause I’m an excellent best friend,” said Sirius, standing up unenthusiastically. “But I need a 🚿.”

“You really do, you stink!” said James, grinning.

“Some best mate you are!” said Sirius, rolling his eyes.

James smiled happily and headed for the kitchen. He was famished. Rooting around in the fridge he took out a protein drink and switched on the 📺, which he rarely 👀. He was about to stretch out on the sofa when he heard a long, urgent ring on the doorbell. Wandering to the 🚪 barefoot, he threw on a 👕 over his running shorts. When he opened the 🚪, his 👄 gaped.

“may I come in? Please, it’s urgent. I only have a few minutes.”

It was Sirius’ younger brother, Reg. He looked harassed and fearful, carrying a sports bag, wearing 🕶️ and a ⚾ cap, and glancing over his shoulder repeatedly.

“Come in,” said James immediately, stepping aside.

Silently Reg entered the Potter’s 🏠, standing uncomfortably in the hall.

“Can we stand away from the windows please? I’m concerned I may have been followed,” he whispered.

Nodding swiftly James brought him into the library where the curtains were already drawn.

“What’s wrong, Reg?” he asked bluntly.

“Everything. Everything’s fucked,” he said.

His breathing was shallow, and James was pretty sure he was starting to have a panic attack.

“It’s 🆗, you’re safe here, Reg,” James said, squeezing his shoulder. “Sit down, I’ll get you a drink.”

“No time,” rasped Reg, taking deep breaths. “I need to talk to Sirius. Immediately. It’s a matter of life and death.”

Those brothers certainly had a flair for the dramatic, thought James.

“I’ll get him,” said James, turning to leave.

The 🚪 of the library opened, and Sirius came in, a towel wrapped round his waist, hair and body still dripping from the 🚿.

“What’s going on?” he demanded, looking from Reg to James in agitation. “I thought I heard your voice.”

“It’s… I have to…” Reg froze.

“For God’s sake, tell me Reg!” yelled Sirius, grabbing Reg by the shoulders. “Did they hurt you?”

“They will when they find out what I’m doing,” said Reg, locking eyes with his older brother. “I’m going to the media with it.”

“Fuck. What did you do?” asked Sirius urgently, his grey eyes piercing.

“I’m telling them everything. That new wonder drug that was in the news recently, Salazar, the one that was meant to be a miracle cure for MS sufferers?” said Reg.

“Yeah, James’ parents’ lab was developing it originally, I know, what about it?“ said Sirius, looking confused.

“That’s right,” said James. “Some whiz scientist, Tom Riddle, was responsible for most of the work, he’s supposedly a total genius. My parents sold it to Slytherin Pharma two years ago, Riddle had said he needed more investment to complete its development and refused to continue working for them. They weren’t keen cause they knew your parents run that company, and there have been rumours about unethical practices for decades, but nothing was ever proved. Riddle made them feel guilty, saying they were responsible for depriving sufferers of a potential cure for MS. The share price for Slytherin Pharma shot up in the past few months, as the research papers published recently supported the hype. I don’t get it… that drug was due to be launched next week?”

“It won’t be launched now. Not if you agree with my plan,” said Reg, turning to Sirius. “It’s all a lie. I heard Riddle talking to mother and father about it. The drug has serious side effects, it causes potentially lethal problems. The 400 people who were involved in the trial are starting to develop liver and kidney complications. Riddle said he thinks they will all develop organ failure. Riddle has lied to each of them so they each think theirs is a one-off case and told them they have randomly developed an autoimmune disorder unconnected to the drug. He’s referred them to a consultant who is as shady as he is and who is involved in the cover up. No doubt our parents are paying him handsomely for his help. They’ve decided not to call a halt to the development of the drug, which ethically they have to. They plan to release it onto the market as planned, so the share price will continue to sky 🚀. Then they plan to sell Slytherin Pharma to one of the big American drug companies that has been interested in a possible take over for the past nine months. The side effects only become apparent after around a year of treatment and they are permanent. When patients start to die, and the law suits start, it won’t be their problem any longer. They plan to transfer the 💰 into a secret offshore account, so nobody can touch it. They may get fined, but they’ll probably lie and declare bankruptcy, if needed, and nobody will have proof they knew about these problems. Riddle has altered the blood test results; the data any investigator will find is all fake.”

“Fucking hell!” said Sirius, staring at his brother dumbfounded. “They can’t do that!”

“Oh, they are doing it, trust me,” said Reg. “I confronted them about it and they confirmed it. They think I’ll stay quiet as otherwise we lose everything. They also threatened me if I go to the media. Said Riddle has contacts who will make sure I end up ⚰️ if the story is leaked.”

“What?” said James, looking horrified.

He had been listening to the story in shock. His parents, his poor parents, were going to be so upset. But this?

“I wouldn’t put it past them,” said Sirius grimly, eying his brother with concern. “You need to disappear stat, hide out in Europe till this whole thing blows over. You can’t afford to hang around, too dangerous, give me the proof and I’ll do it immediately,” said Sirius.

“They don’t know that last night I managed to get into father’s 💻 and sent myself all the incriminating data, it wasn’t difficult when his password is England4theEnglish,” said Reg bitterly.

“The slogan for the Nationalist Liberation 🙌,“ said James, looking disgusted. “Should we not call the police?”

“Afterwards,” said Sirius. “My parents have connections everywhere, old Eton ties, family loyalties going back hundreds of years. I bet they have contacts in Scotland Yard, or even in MI5.”

“Agreed,” Regulus stood up. “I need to leave, I don’t want to put you in danger.”

Sirius shook his head.

“Reg, don’t! Is there anything I can do? Come with you?”

“No, it’ll be much easier to escape notice on my own. I’m not as extraordinary looking as you are, pretty hard to blend into the background when you look like a male model!”

Sirius rolled his eyes fondly.

“Just promise you’ll release this before they can stop us!” said Reg.

Sirius nodded.

“How do you know you weren’t followed?” asked James.

“You don’t. We need a disguise!” said Sirius. “And I have just the thing, from a recent fancy-dress 🙌!”

………………………………………………

A slim woman with long blonde hair and 🕶️ emerged from the Potter’s 🏠 a short while later. She slung a Hermes bag into the front seat of the maroon coloured vintage Porche in the Potter’s driveway and drove off at a leisurely pace.

“Who’s that?” said Crouch, training his surveillance equipment on her.

“Some posh bird, probably Sirius’ girlfriend,” shrugged Lestrange, speaking into the hidden 🎤. “We stay put till they move, and then we don’t lose them, especially Regulus. We were told to cause serious injuries today as a warning, and kill him if he leaks the story to anyone.”

………………………………………………

The Guardian’s UK News Editor, Kingsley Shaklebolt, couldn’t believe what he was hearing from Sirius, but a quick scan of the data sent to him was convincing enough for him to make a decision. The Black family were often in the media due to their huge wealth. Walburga, with her stunning beauty and eerily preserved youth, was always noticeable at society gatherings, and the brothers’ good looks resulted in their photographs being splattered Everywhere. Sirius was instantly recognisable as legit. This was going to be a massive story.

“Sirius, I’ve seen the data and that YouTube video of your brother summarising what happened and what he was told. I’ll contact all media outlets, it’s going to hit the headlines immediately.”

…………………………………………

The doorbell rang and both Sirius and James jumped.

“Fuck!” hissed Sirius. “Who the fuck is that?”

“Don’t know,” said James, advancing towards the 🚪 warily. “Sirius, can you lock yourself in the library and call the police straight away? I’m better off playing dumb and pretending Reg hasn’t been here, I’ll keep them occupied till the police arrive, yeah?”

“Fuck!” said Sirius, glaring.

How bloody helpful, possible heavies at the 🚪 and him with nothing but a towel wrapped round him!

“Move!” said James.

He opened the 🚪 as the library 🚪 clicked shut.

“May I – oh, it’s you,” said James, staring at Snape’s scowling face in the porch. “What do you want?”

James glanced nervously around and cursed Snape, he needed to get that idiot out of there as soon as possible, given they might be getting an unpleasant visit soon.

“Charming as ever, Potter,” sneered Snape, looking positively livid.

“I’m in a hurry Snape, what do you want?” repeated James, keeping his voice stern.

“I want you to fuck off and leave Lily Evans alone, do you understand? We are dating, in fact we live together. She was too intimidated to say no to your request for a date, so she asked me to tell you. I believe her exact words were to tell you to fuck off and leave her alone, or she’ll contact the police and get you charged with stalking her,” said Snape, looking triumphantly at James.

“What the ever-living fuck?” said James, looking completely bewildered. “Look, I don’t have time for this 💩! I will certainly clarify with Evans when I meet her if this bullshit is true, or if you’re a lying git. Alright? Now get the fuck out of here!”

He stepped forward menacingly. He had to get rid of Snape, and fast.

“Don’t you threaten me, you entitled, little stuck-up bastard!” shouted Snape, as without warning he aimed a 🥊 at James’ face.

James fell backwards, and his head hit the floor with a thud.

The library 🚪 flew open and Sirius emerged looking like thunder.

“You greasy fucker!” he screamed, still only wearing the white towel, holding the poker he had just picked up and advancing ominously. “Get the fuck out of here, or I will personally beat you to within an inch of your life!”

Snape looked at him in fear and began walking backwards.

Continue reading here Maybe I Waited Too Long - A Marauders Medical AU

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savannahjanisxo · 7 years ago

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boy, oh boy have I neglected posting this concert experience story (3 ½ months overdue yike) for the people who probably could care less about it, but it is finally here, & it is v v v extensive as it includes basically every detail I can recall accurately.

Here ya go, curious cats:

I went to the show in Santa Ana, CA on March 5th. I got to the venue maybe 20 or 30 minutes after doors opened, so the openers were already in the middle of their set. I dragged my older guy cousin w/ me (since my sister was doing a photoshoot in San Diego that night + the next day), & during the opener’s set, he pushed me to the front of the crowd since he knew how long I had been waiting to see hippo. Then they came out & did their thing, & holy shit. Okay, it was so worth waiting almost 2 years. Their set was so fucking surreal; I may or may not have almost cried.. Also in the middle of their set, some guy pushed to the front to let Jake take a hit off a joint, & it was p iconic lol.

After the show, the crowd waited like 5-10 minutes to disperse due to the hope of a possible encore. I then got merch & waited inside the venue for maybe 15 minutes since the last time I was at the Observatory, the band I saw met fans inside the venue, but after seeing most of the fans walking outside, I followed.. Also b/c they kicked everyone out lol.

There were maybe 60-70 (possibly even more) fans outside waiting in the parking lot for the guys, but hippo had chosen to wait everyone out until there were 30 fans max which was 1 - 1 ½ hours later. During that time, I made a few new friends since my cousin decided to just wait inside of his car for me to do my thing.

(Whistler left right after the show to spend time w/ his family, sooo y'know.. I didn’t get to meet him.)

The first boy to come out was Nathan, but he stopped to smoke a cigarette w/ security lol. We were on our way to meet him half way, but we stopped when we saw he was busy (DON’T BOTHER THEM IF THEY SEEM BUSY OKAY). We then just waited for another one of them to come out or until he was finished.

Jake:

Jake came out next, so we went over to him to take pictures & whatnot. I’ve been promising him a lame dad shirt for the past two years, & I still have yet to provide. I apologized for that as we were about to take our picture, & he simply replied, “aww, next time!” whilst rubbing my arm. Not to be dramatic, but Jake is pure sunshine. I wish I had more time to chat w/ him, but so many others were trying to speak to him as well, so after the pictures, the girls & I were off to the next boy.

Nathan:

We went to Zach since Nathan was still smoking, but everything w/ Zach will be addressed last since that was most of it.. SO after seeing Zach the first time around in the night, we went to Nathan, & my conversation w/ him is kind of a blur, but basically the gist & a few specifics: he called himself a whore (I briefly explain here for those wanting further explanation), he told me to get out of California, & I called him a hippie which he asked me to explain myself, but he was literally rolling a joint as he was giving his “stop being on your phones, go outside, & interact w/ your friends” spiel. (One of the girls took a snap video of him, & in it he says “like at the same I want the ability to be able to be here now, so.. that’s what cigarettes are all about.” C’mon hippie sticker boy, admit it.) I also brought up his twitter & how this one time late at night, & he was the only one of the boys awake, so he was bored & asked to be sent poetry. I sent a realist suggestive poem about me “doing homework when it should be you” (my recent works are definitely more tasteful & not that trashy.. but sticker boy told me the other night (in direct reference to my previous statement) that “trash is & will always be better than we think.” sooo maybe he enjoyed it? I don’t know about that cryptic boy), & he told me he didn’t remember. Then he asked me what year this happened, & I told him it happened in 2015 to which he said, “I was a different man then” lol okay, child. Little something about sticker: he comes off as a very serious person when you speak to him, but he isn’t at all. Although, he is very formal. When I first went up to him, he went in for a handshake, but I had been waiting too long for this to be a handshake; I needed it to be a hug. We then introduced ourselves.. Ooooh. I also talked to Nathan about his sister, Madeline, b/c she’s been following me on Instagram for a couple years (I didn’t even follow her first lol), & oml the look on his face when I told him that. He rolled his eyes & said, “ohhh, Madeline.” It was hilarious (love you, Maddie). Overall, we just had a 5-10(??) minute conversation about life (in the midst of the conversation, someone was pulling out of the parking lot blasting one of their songs (can’t remember which one.. violet maybe?), & Nathan yelled, “turn that shit off.” It was iconic).. Then I went back over to Zach.

Zach:

Background info:

About a week before the show, I was tweeting this boy so much? Within a week probably 30 of my tweets were liked by him; it was so excessive, & soz to anyone who was following me during that time b/c yikes. Anyway, basically the main part of it was that we were finally going to fight, & the whole Zach only liking tweets & fighting has been a running joke since 2015 okay, so this isn’t new. He also agreed to “match” outfits w/ me, hence the denim shirt over his sweatshirt.

(You can peep the embarrassing twitter thread here. Some tweets contain their own threads too js lol.)

At the actual show:

When Z finally came out, the girls I was w/ & I booked it over there, & he was chatting w/ some people, & he talks for a long time which is really nice, but also time consuming y’know. (Also oml okay as we were waiting for them to finish their conversation, this bih smiled, & I kid you not, my weak ass squealed a bit. Like those dimples? Are you fucking kidding me?) Anyway, when our turn finally came to, I went first since we had a whole plan going. It was a thing where I was going to greet him by saying something vaguely rude, so he’d be aware of the whole fighting thing b/c if I greeted him like I actually would have w/ the whole “hey, how are you,” bringing up the fight would’ve been a tad awkward, thus “Zach, you ass” was born.

(You can watch that on my twitter here. It’s also part of the thread, but eh y’know.)

Subsequently after the denim shirt talk (the video cuts right before this, but he actually apologized for not bringing his other denim shirt, & I told him that I was just happy he even brought/wore one b/c I asked, & he said, “yeah, well thanks.” what an awkward angel), I called him out about some twitter things such as why he doesn’t reply, & he said, “I just like b/c it’s like a binary sort of thing.” Then I told him that I actually would have brought him candy in which this bitch smugly replied, “maybe I don’t like candy.” Uhm this boy liked the tweet, & if it is actually a binary thing, he is indicating that he does like candy smh. Anyway, I asked, “what about donuts or something?” This bih then decided to sass me aGAIN by saying, “Whistler likes donuts,” & I was so done. BOY, NO SHIT. EVERYONE & THEIR MOTHER KNOWS WHISTLER LOVES DONUTS HOLY FUCK. I WAS USING THAT AS AN EXAMPLE FOR A SUGGESTION. Ugh then he said that I should bring him fruit, so I asked which is his favorite, & I thought to myself, “he better not say mango,” & HE DID. I was disgusted, everyone else was disgusted b/c of my reaction, & it was a mess. Then we continued to talk about fruit for a few more minutes (it was a long fruit convo) such as the correct way to eat grapefruit (peel the skin & put sugar on it), pomegranate being bomb, & yet another opposing opinion which was on putting tajín on fruit (Z hasn’t had it, so he believes that “salty things don’t belong on fruit.. that’s for pretzels” ..tajín is chili powder that tastes like candy, & it is amazing, especially on watermelon). Then I said bye to him after we took our pictures, helped the girls I was w/ take their pictures, & we went over to Nathan (which I already went over).

Second time around talking to my mango bitch: So after talking to Nathan, I went back over to Zach alone since the girls I was w/ decided to leave (it was maybe 12:15 AM at this point, & it was Sunday night, soooo y’know). My phone had also died when I was waiting to talk to Zach the first time, but then it came back on by itself when I was waiting to talk to him the second time. It was living on the edge, so I ran back to my cousin’s car to get my portable charger (we had parked right by the bus in the very front of the venue, so it was very convenient), but tHAT WAS ALSO ON THE EDGE. I went back in line, & I was the last person to talk to Zach, so it was a long time spent. We said hi again, & we took so. many. pictures. These were all snap filter ones, & we did that for a few minutes. Okay, so my bitch ass oml I made him retake a few, & at one point, I actually said, “ew, I don’t like this; we have to retake it,” & hE LAUGHED AT ME, & THEN HE MIMICKED ME. I can’t believe. Ugh okay, but a part of this was that we were going to do the infamous face swap filter, but it was unavailable, & we realized it was on the picture face swap instead right as it was finishing loading, & we both said, “wait, this is the picture one” & almost switched w/ the picture I had just taken w/ Jake. Then I asked him how tall he was, & he said, “I don’t know, 6′1?” I told him that I think he’s def 6′2. I also asked him if he was sick since I noticed he had been coughing a bit throughout the night, & he said he was, & I just kNEW he would probably get me sick too, & wow what a surprise, he did. Afterwards, I had him record a video for my best friend who couldn’t come (she started liking hippo when I did, but she is not as present in the “fandom” anymore), & I asked him if I should use the flash or not b/c I did not want to blind him w/o warning, he said whatever I want is fine, so I chose to do it w/o the flash, but ahh okay, I kept having to wave him around to try to be in better lighting, & I felt so bad. Then finally we said our goodbyes after he noticed that I was actually shivering, & he said, “well, it’s cold. I gotta go get warm; you gotta go get warm. It was so nice to see you,” & we hugged, but then we ended up walking in the same direction. As we finally broke away & I was almost to the car, he calls over & says, “I’m still only going to like your tweets,” & I deadass call back over & say, “you are annoying as fuck.”

Post related events:

So when I got home from the show, I took to twitter to express my love & annoyance for such mango boy to acknowledge which included me tweeting him less than an hour after I left saying that he’s cute, & t’was a good fight. Also the next day (the day they had their second Conan performance), I tagged him in the comments of the first post I made of one of our pictures calling him out for not liking it & that we actually have to fight again if he doesn’t like it, & this child decided to like my cOMMENT INSTEAD. Then I commented again explaining that I was meaning the picture & not the comment, & he liked that one too. About a week later, I had told my mom & her boyfriend about the whole Zach thing, & I tweeted something my mom’s boyfriend said about me fucking up by not kissing Z (which would’ve been highly inappropriate wtf why would I??), & he liked that tweet too lmao. I was mortified. He’s liked some more stuff within that same period to now, but I cannot recall if they’d actually add anything to this?

Okay also disclaimer: I do not hate Zach, & he know this. It’s just how we are (which are two v extra people).. but he is def the bitch in our relationship thanks.

#also I'm 5'8 for height ref #hippo campus #zach sutton #nathan stocker #jake luppen #whistler allen #whistler isaiah #savannahjanisxo #ssmilesxoxoxo #ref #me

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wearethegladiators · 6 years ago

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hey

so i could keep on ranting about aron for years because drAMA but i’m just gonna tell you this: aaron paul as his new fc is canon and so is the evans siblings being the evans twins. i’M NOT SORRY

lily still saying aron is his little brother because she was born like 2 minutes ahead of him :) but aron being taller and looking older than his age while lily will forever look like she’s 12 hihi

also the first 30 seconds of this video is the absolutely perfect depiction of aron’s mindset for that time period: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LHpeFfBRF8U like being a kid. a sad, fucked-up, cutie-pie, damaged kid.

one comment reads “the most accurate portrayal of personal hell i have ever seen” and that hurts

also pretty much canon that aron will be alive for at least some time after the virus

i’m digging into the evans family backstory and it’s clear that they always had a connection to magic. like i don’t know exactly how the irish folklore relates to magic (i’m especially thinking druids here), is it like an entre-deux between the magic and the muggle world ?? i read once on a hp forum that irish muggles were pretty much aware of the magic world around them and that it didn’t come as a big surprise because you know, bah they have farfadets quoi. so there were “mixed” villages and magic wasn’t much of a secret. i actually kinda like that?

lily’s parents are more rational (or modern if you will), maybe they live in a mostly muggle city or something. but her grandparents? they live in the highlands, are breeding horses and only communicating in gaelic.

also, the evans have always been fighters. they definitely participated in ww2, maybe even took part in the débarquement (there’s also a french side to the evans family hihi). also they were probably very involved in the civil religious wars, as mediators - or as IRA members ?? because they’re nice, but they’re about ice. and ice does not forgive. a smile made for war is one of the most evans things i have ever read, along with demons run when a good man goes to war.

so anyway maybe her grandparents were even in contact/working with the order of the phoenix during the first wizarding war?? it would also explain the disconnection between lily’s parents and the magic environment. the grandparents tried to protect them by pushing them away from the magical world??

and then boum, liliana. and potentially also aron showing some skills?? (WHY am i thinking of aron as a banshee????)

lily definitely has a banshee vibe. ever since les âmes mortes she always had accurate feeling/foreboding whenever something bad was about to happen. also i can see her scream?? and that sort of mind control through occlumency. like she has some aspects that she may have inherited, but she’s not a full-range banshee. aron??? what if his capacities are more developed than lily on that? also what if he is an occlumens? can muggles be occlumens too???

there’s so much going on in my mind i swear to god

lily rather as morrigan. if the rebellion still uses aliases that’s definitely going to be hers. that fits so well. the queen of phantoms? i mean?

lily/aron’s relationship as echoing so much that of the blake siblings. the unbreakable love but the unbearable resentment. both being convinced that lily brought the plague to the farm where all evans were gathered, and thus killed them all. aron rejecting lily, referring to other members of the rebellion as “his family” and mocking her as “the goddess of the dead”. the morrigan nickname could actually come from him?? also lily having moments of doubt regarding her recent actions/harshness, and someone telling her “you always did what you had to do to protect your brother, that’s who you are”. my heart ???

lily becoming much more ruthless ever since aron joined the rebellion, and her family died, and her people started to go extinct. like really we can tell that there’s been a true escalation of violence for her from that moment on - she will do whatever it takes to save them all, and especially her brothers

lily doing a bunch of stupid things for them

like she’d be ready to endanger the entire rebellion movement to save their asses

and the muggle(born) race, but to a lesser extent (still clarke-and-lever-vibes tho)

lily really going on a personal crusade for months trying to save and gather the remaining muggles all over the country, building up a team to find the survivors and protect them, but also to burn the deceased and give them decent burials (the last point would also be a matter of tension with aron: “burning the bodies really? it’s no fucking zombie virus! you’re the one destroying our people and our culture, not them!”)

aron as part of the “preservation of the muggle world” team ?? i mean this sounds like a very lame name put like that but he’d quite obviously be useful in that mission. what if they even go islands where there are survivors and they just contaminate them and kill them?? the guilt!!

is he living at the rebellion headquarters or in a muggleborn camp? how much does being non-magic impede his daily life, like how many places is he unable to access because of anti-muggle spells??

aron and red???? i just had this thought because krysten ritter would be a great red? like maybe not as a couple, but as a thing at least. he’d care a hell lot about her, and if she dies?? hm hm.

i think i just like picturing aron with terribly strong/extremist women because it is so radically different from who he is? he’s been raised as an extremely kind, respectful, and tolerant child (maybe even too much) who likes flowers and smoking pot while looking at the stars (headcanon in which aron does all of lily’s homeworks for botanique).

THIS. RIGHT. HERE.

mdr remember when i said this thread wouldn’t be about aron

so yeah, even with wynona. he couldn’t stand her being so ostracized by the others, and it’s no secret that aron likes kids so damn much, so he’d be terribly disgusted by her actions but would still take care of her brothers and sisters - and would eventually understand ?

also, if he also adopts a kid at some point, well he’s definitely going to bring him to the blackbird ranch

the blackbird ranch as une garderie

mdr that would also mean that aron and nathan could be found chilling out around the blackbird ranch -- my heart

wynona lifting magical anti-muggle barriers surrounding the ranch especially for aron!!

so yeah anyway wynona and aron. in a paradoxical way he forgives way more things to wynona than he does to lily. and wyn would try to fix their relationship. also aron could (try to) provide muggle solutions to her “leg problem” ? (wynona is legit afraid of muggle technology and savoir-faire, but also very eager to learn about it, soooo)

also this definitely implies aron/sacha?? i mean. i think that would be a super interesting relationship, because they would definitely be best-friends in a “normal setting” ?? but this is war, aron manages to get close to wyn when she refuses to complain to sacha, sacha manages to get close to lily and?? i don’t know, i see a great friendship, but also with a weird, nostalgic avant l’heure vibe to it? two kids who grew up too fast and now struggle on behaving as such. genuinely enjoying and supporting each other, but also the presence of the other is a reminder of what they’re going through and who they could have been? am i even making sense oh god

btw i always thought that sacha must have been close friends with fenugreek, and so was aron? they could have been sort of a trio, and fenu’s violent death would add yet another variable to their relationship

do the magical creatures of wynona know aron is non-magic and if yes how do they react to him

mdr btw i also thought about the blood transfer thing, i appreciate how we are both trying to save him

anyway there’s definitely some type of old/irish magic protecting him to a certain extent, i guess

the power of LOOOOVE

100% agreed i like the trope of “love is greater” so much?? like that’s cheesy but i’ll never get over it. we do terrible things for the people we love. lily and wyn are such goods examples of that. (“i was a mother and now i’m a monster”)

speaking about love nathan and the evans ???? yeah, he’d definitely be introduced as a cousin to neighborhood/family dinners. he would be the miguel of the family hahaha

mama evans adopting nathan as her third kid and sending him packages of food, or scarves she has knitted!! making sure he’s okay even when he’s away and harrassing lily for some news. pretty sure she has already invited nathan to the kinsale house while lily was still in hogwarts? like now i’m picturing aron/mama evans/nathan dinners and???

nathan spending a few weeks at the evans home every summer, with the evans twin carrying him everywhere and being over excited to show him muggle things?? the awkwardness of nathan, and the evans twins running everywhere with excitement?? mdr they must have been so happy and having so much fun and now look at them

sorry

evans twins getting nathan to smoke pot

evans twins always getting into trouble and nathan having to always make up for that

nathan coming to the grandparents’ farm!! where they only speak gaelic and look weirdly at him and always seem grumpy, but eventually they adopt him and give him a horse and now grandma evans is also sending him packages ??? (grandpa evans is still speaking gaelic tho, but he’s trying to be a bit more understandable. just a bit)

nathan being overwhelmed with packages from the evans mdrrrr

that’s def my new favorite trope here. nathan in the middle of this happy bubbly blondy family. yES

(what do you mean all your evans are dead now, shhhhh)

sans transition MUDBLOOD CAMPS??? i saw this coming but i’m still shook mdr

so i’m 100% FOR SACHA AND LILY TO MEET THERE??? these camps are pretty damn good at dehumanizing people and making them lose all hope, but if lily comes across a baby-like-aron that would give her a reason to fight back, and yes start mobilizing people, starting to spread across words and songs of hope and??? yes. sacha and lily as badass community organizers??? yes² i lOVE THIS

also lily contacting the rebellion/nathan once they escaped and being like “yeah i’m with about a hundred escapees rn, is there anything you can do or? we keep on saving ourselves?”

“it’s my people BITCH”

that’s the moment when she started using a rhetoric of “my people”. that’s the moment when she embraced her muggleborness, completely changed her looks, and started to harden her stance. “someone has to save our skins/i bear it so they don’t have to”

mdr lily and sacha, those skinny kids, leading their people to the rebellion can you imagine the badass scene

“yes we did this ourselves”

most of the people that escaped that day now have important functions within the muggleborn rebellion and they have sort of an added “street-cred” because this shit was legen…wait for it...daryyyy

i don’t know why this makes me think of “acide sulfurique” by amélie nothomb. but this does

also adrian can 100% join the muggleborn resistance, lily would be so glad, i’m pretty sure she has a hell lot of respect for that man. oh what if she’s the one influencing him to join the movement??? i swear she has some slytherin vibes now

how “‘fun”’ is it that lily now has slytherin vibes and nathan has gryffindor vibes right

also so sad about alice!! she was the purest. and i’m pretty she already took care of lily before the war cause you know, the girl always has broken ribs, or arms, or legs, or whatever. she would have looked up to her a lot, that’s saaad. like this is must have been so traumatizing for the rebellion, losing her

“nathan is a wolf, a dragon, a wildfire, a liar, a survivor” damn i’m into it.

it’s so sad seeing this délitement of the leaders but i guess it also makes sense? it’s war, people change, people die. bouhouhou

also YES carmen/lily, i always thought this would be an interesting relationship to explore. like i have this scene in mind when lily just got rescued by the rebellion, she’s quietly sitting somewhere at the headquarters, carmen is suspicious of her and thus try to enter her mind, and lily feels it, stares at her and mentally kicks her out?? like the rivalry from that on. carmen going up to nathan and being like “wtf is your sister, what’s the deal with her occlumencia??” and nathan being like “tf” cause lily never told him hahahaha. so carmen staying superstitious, especially with lily being a little naive kid and yet having survived captivity and torture for months, until some event (yet to be determined) happens and a mutual respect is instaured between them. lily could even become sort of carmen’s second?? that would be a super weird association but i’m here for it? also they could have stayed in touch after carmen left the rebellion, but if carmen’s more “team nathan” i guess they see each other less now? or maybe like i said carmen would be sort of a mediator between nathan and lily? can you imagine??? the kamoulox???

also i need to think about the carmen/wynona relationship. i guess loads of fights but also potentially loads of laugh? they could along pretty well even though this would requires a mutual ass-beating every once in a while. are they drinking buddies now or what? has wynona contacted carmen only recently after silence radio for years to discuss whether or not she should go back to the rebellion? so many questions!!

what if she shows up at carmen’s place without telling her (bc she’s not into that crap) and nathan is already here mdr. the awkwardness. sorry bye

also ofc wynona has been great friends with red for years, probably ever since hogwarts. it may even be for her that she decided to engage in the rebellion. she was there when red got arrested right after her quidditch game and knew she would probably be executed/détraqueurisée asap so she did what wynona does: coerced kyran, found her way to the rebellion, helped them to invade the ministry and make it go boom.

mdr this girl arriving outta nowhere with a plan to get the mofo ministry of magic exploded is so wynona. also insisting on having “faucon” as her first and foremost interlocutor because she quietly stalks them and knows that he’s the most likely to be interested. always had this scene in mind in which the first meeting didn’t go so well because egos™ and they almost ended up fighting and she refused to give him the plans?? and then she’d have regrets, show up to a meeting through another intermediary (let’s be real she must have so much friends gravitating around the rebellion), just quietly put the plans on the table

also the plans include the lists of the prisoners and lily’s on it??? wyn didn’t know who lily was to nathan but can you imagine?? maybe he thinks she did that on purpose hehe (but she really didn’t have a clue) (she might be bluffing about it because wynona blackbird™ confidence, you know)

tbh wynona probably was friends with….. milo, too? can you imagine. ACTUALLY can you imagine her trashing milo one day like “that idiot got killed for shit” in front of lily cause she doesn’t know?????? btw she’s definitely the type to have hooked up with him at some point. mdr. can you imaGINE

wynona and sacha!! mdr i legit hadn’t thought of “how to train your dragon” but that would be so cute and such a good example actually

omg daenerys!wynona

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the thing is i always thought of wyn as an incredibly Cartesian/utilitarian character so she would always take care of her dragons equally, professionally with just a bit of affection (cause she’s a breeder, she knows she’ll eventually have to let them go), and having no favorite dragon whatsoever

but now?? i legit want her to have a dragon just so that he/she can blow in nathan’s face when he’s being an ass??? :)))))

also is nathan gonna be like this with dragons

mdr sorry so i was saying that yeah, maybe she has a dragon. like an orphan that she found completely by chance while she was at her lowest/darkest, and he/she sort of helped her “bounce back”? she raised him/her secretly because even though i doubt she is still providing much dragons in these times, she’s still trying to be a professional? so maybe even sacha wouldn’t know about this, until he/she starts to become too big/show up at the blackbird ranch even though he/she isn’t supposed to and wyn is like “hmhm. yeah. so i do have sort of a dragon hihi”, and then he/she starts following her everywhereeee

can it be like the bébés oies who adopt a human and believe that human is their maman oie?? what if the dragon believes wynona is a dragon, just really bad at spitting fire

I’M DISGRESSING

i’m actually pretty sure that wyn has stopped her “commercial” activities, just closed and hid to the public her ranch and is now keeping all her dragons hihihi + the ones people are bringing her eventually

she may be educating them to fight/support the rebellion but at the same time she’d be afraid for her bbies?

like she always loved her dragons so much but she had to keep a certain distance from them in order not to be too sad when she has to let them go. but now?? since she’s keeping them?? mdr she’s legit going to raise them as her kids, with toys and decorated paddocks??? like she would be so gaga hahahaha

can you imagine a baby dragon being born at the ranch and wyn offering that baby dragon to sacha and sacha giving back the fully educated dragon to wyn so that she can fly with him/her???? bitch my hEART

also wyn going to see the dragon/taking care of him and loving him so much already because he’s sacha’s baby without knowing he’s going to be hers??

plus if sacha didn’t know about wyn’s personal dragon that means she has two dragons now, full daenerys!wynona bitch

mdr and then sacha giving his dragon to wyn would be so full of tears on both sides like? actually that may be the moment when she realizes how she pushed him away and is feeling so bad about it? and she’d be like “no bby keep your dragon come on--WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE’S VOICE-OPERATED???”

right in the feels, i don’t want sacha to be sad :(( she would push him away because she feels like she has a duty to protect him and can’t do it anymore and doesn’t want the roles to be reversed!! poor baby!! like she’d avoid him on the ranch and shit because she’d be “ashamed”? sâd!! (btw sacha potentially never seeing his parents again??? gosh wynona just needs to be there for him she’s gotta wake up!!)

but wynona would love this dragon so bad!!

what if both her dragons have a baby and she gives him to sacha?? or anyway she’d literally travel the world to find him a new baby lol

wyn disappearing for two weeks bc she just went to romania to get a new badass dragon for sacha, b y e

i don’t know which wynona is my favorite now between bigsis!wynona, daenerys!wynona and rebel!wynona?? rebel!wynona is terribly efficient but terribly scary tho mdr

she’d definitely earn the “most likely to slap you in the face” award of the rebellion hihi

we do terrible things for the people we love !!!!!! yes !!! and the angst when coming back to the rebellion ouloulou i’m so not ready. like the simple fact of showing up to a meeting, trying to be discrete when she used to be the annoying f*cker always interrupting the plans, and yet everyone watching. or like everyone going silent for a few seconds. woooo

or maybe she came back when they found edan, so she was kind of like a messiah to calm everyone down? or to take part in the rescue mission of edan??

mdr this thread is just me asking questions to myself i’m sorry

just let my girl be one of the good guys ok thanks

calling the auderic out on a Men are Men™ basis is a mood tbh

and i actually kind of stan ydria?? i mean. “she’s a witch and a bitch and a pirate”. i’ll take ten of them thanks

gosh this family is so aesthetically pleasing i swear to god

nathan has native american blood??? what the hell??? does wynona know that??? i’m not okay (btw i really need to dig into the native american magic and tradition blackbirds may still be using) (the blackbird ranch is quite obviously filled with native magic so yeah) (woo i’m excited!!)

i really want nathan to have a boat and lily being allowed to steal it. can you imagine them travelling to ireland by boat?? BADASSES. also lily can’t transplaner hein, so at least it would be practical

plus the evans also have a deep connection to the sea, at least originally? they always lived by the sea, loads of them still probably are fishermen or lighthouse keepers or something? and they probably used to fight on the sea, too. i actually imagine the evans as somehow descending from a vikings lineage?? is it because i love lagertha too much and she fits right into the evans family aesthetic?? yeah. pretty sure they have nordic origines too. so anyway BOATS ARE COOL ™, let nathan get one for 2k19 thanks.

magical tattoos!!! i think lily mostly have muggle tattoos, but wynona is definitely covered in magical tattoos. (i mean all blackbirds have at least a couple magical family tattoos, so that’s a thing) why they all so stylish tho, i like that. the line everytime someone gets killed is a real thing too tho. both wynona and lily may have one, i need to reflect on it (cause lily would be covered in it hahahahahah) (i’m not okay)

sacha and tattoos!! i had never thought of it but i’m here for it!! (i’m here for everyone having tattoos anyway. even aron probably has a couple of small tattoos)

i have never ever imagined nathan wearing white and i’m so here for it?? woaw. i’m shook. it was pretty logical for me that lily would go back to wearing white after the war but nathan?? po wer ful.

nathan having dogs!! yes!! i love dogs i’ll take A HUNDRED of them

does lily have any cool animals?? i don’t think so, why doesn’t she get to be a cool kid?? maybe an augurey cause hm, accurate, but i’m not even sure. she’d love a dog but actually i think she’d be too afraid to lose him/her at war, like no way

i mean, she used to have a horse. what happened to the horses when she burnt the evans farm??? did she let them go, sold them, killed them in case they were infected too (cause it was pretty early on and we probably didn’t know shit yet about the virus), brought them to the blackbird ranch??

oh maybe the evans had a dog!! aron sure has a dog anyway, a very good boy that’s pretty much the only that can still make him smile the way he used to. or maybe a cat, but i’m rather thinking dog here. is aron a cat or dog person??

the blackbird ranch is a true noah’s ark i swear!! they have thestrals and hippogriffs and dragons and niffleurs, maybe they have also wolves hanging around? i mean, they’re a native american family you know. i don’t know. if yes, nathan go and help yourself (have i already said that nathan x wolves is a freaking aesthetic)

willy!! i love her!!

gosh why am i seeing parallels between willy and aron. stop it

i forgot willy had killed herself btw, gosh seeing the evans twins having suicidal tendencies must be so traumatizing for nathan

100% here for him to have a baby girl tho, pls get a wife already

weirdly enough i really don’t want lily to be a mother anymore, when she wanted so much kids when she was younger? and also, she always said she was fighting for the greater good, for the future of her people, for her future kids. but now she’s just thinking about the others’ kids? she sort of gave up on that. also it’s terrible for her to see children in times of war, so as much as she’d try to protect them, she wouldn’t be a Mother of All™ like aron or wynona or even nathan would be. interesting much!!

i mean anyway she’s been through so much physically she may even be sterile at that point :))

angelica is such a cool name

that really wasn’t related at all to my previous point, i’m a free bird yo

sacha as an artist!!!!!! yes!!!! lily is a true artist too, and the other day i was thinking about how this relates to her clumsiness. because i can see her playing music (irish harp!!), dancing (danse de salon ofc that’s what she does and also classic irish dances), and painting (so much!!). also doing sports, but she’d be pretty bad at it. actually she’s hyperactive so most of the time (before becoming an occlumens) she just didn’t pay attention to things, and thus did break things or fell badly while running. but hyperactives are also a bit monomaniac and can get super involved/obsessed with a single task and that’s what art would do to lily!!

also of course lily singing all the time, not necessarily great but with great spirit!!

that would be sort of her singing voice btw: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mrPHeRvmjqM&index=23&list=RDQMJzRQHxdVDcA can you imagine her singing that at the headquarters of the rebellion though lmao i’m not okay

so sacha and lily producing art in the middle of the chaos???? count me the fuck in

some additional thoughts regarding secondary characters:

fury!! i had this character in mind for so long!! he’s based off that norman reedus pv i had created on silver and opals. a ruthless rebel, with the face of cillian murphy or tom hardy (or, as originally planned, rami malek or norman reedus). irish also!! or maybe welsh. speaking/understanding gaelic anyway. and he’s like… what gus was to lexa in the 100? to lily. he’s the one who found her at the ministry (and so the one who got his ass kicked by her hihi), and ever since that he saw something in her? like when she mercy-killed fenugreek when no one else wanted to do it because he was a kid, he went like “always knew the kid had more balls than the rest of you”. and so he gradually became her back-up, her trusted man following her everywhere. he saw her power in the rebellion back when everyone thought she was just a weak child that had survived because everyone had pity for her. and ever since that he follows her, including in the muggleborn resistance, trying to keep her alive even though she’s so good at getting into trouble hihi. sort of a good little knight by his queen side.

btw is the muggle-born resistance movement a non-mixed movement? like are non-muggle/muggleborns wizards allowed in it?

anyway, and so yeah lily sort of gave hope to the very very hopeless person that was fury. he saw the light in her and is holding on it. actually there is so much mystery and imaginaire surrounding lily and her past that some people like him could actually fetishize her? make her into a sort of a messianic figure, and she would freak out so much, like wth stop it i preferred when people thought i was a small weak child!! but at the same time it’s a good way to control people and make sure they do what she thinks is best for them?? i don’t know?? but that would make her leadership very different from that of the rebellion for instance

can we talk about how everyone used to genuinely love lily and now everyone either hates her/wants her dead OR is obsessed with her in an unhealthy, fetishizing way?? can she have normal, non-complicated relationships in which people just appreciate her for who she is and not who she appears to be??? this is legit saaaaad, even her relationship with her brothers is going through ups and downs now. maybe the previous leaders really did appreciate her, but they also probably pitied her, and they’re out of the radar anyway for now. i’m actually rooting for sacha i guess? pls be a normal cool soft friend

i guess the relationship between fury and nathan would be interesting as well? they have common points and they both care a lot about lily; also fury has sort of “taken” nathan’s role as lily’s protector. is there tension, is there cooperation? i dunno. but fury has an undying loyalty towards lily and god does my girl need that

also the blackbird family!! they have a secondary branch that’s more leaning towards the deatheaters, maybe even working actively with them by now. that’s pure pragmatism, they’re done being killed and they think it’s the best way. the branch is headed by one of wynona’s cousin (who i originally thought would have the face of bob morley hihi) since the parents are also dead during the blackbird massacre at the very beginning of the war. they hate each other. some secondary-branch members have left it to join the blackbird ranch. maybe some of wynona siblings have done the other way around?? i always thought one of her sisters (marie avgeropoulos!!) would go rogue and join the deatheaters, and that they would eventually have to fight to death bah because otherwise it’s not funny hein

what’s originally the place of the blackbird family within society?? they’ve always lived a marginal life by choice, because they just don’t like british people, but they’re also purebloods! is there a pureblood council now and should they get a seat at it? were they ever invited to pureblood events/parties? wynona could have been the legal representative of the family at such events for some time, can you imagine? i really really need to exploit that

what is the american branch up to? do they have contact? are they coming? they’re the really scary ones. wynona may have gone rogue but she sure kept (most of) her family in check.

and yes, them being friends/allies with the macfusty clan!!! yasss

ok how freaking long is this??? i really got zero self-control lmao. brace yourself anytime for a thread that could constitute an entire book. wth. my brain’s a total mess.

xoxo, gossip girl

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I won’t say I’m in love: Ch 3

Chapter 3: Questions about Potstickers?!

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Summary: Lena is flirtacious as f*ck and Kara is an oblivious puppy.

The fire in the Hufflepuff common room roared as Kara perched in one of the battered armchairs, wand in hand as she lazily created light trails in the air. She watched as the flecks of light danced across the room, her eyes remaining focused on the light even as the door opened. She could tell who was approaching, even without looking up, and refused to acknowledge her sister's presence in any way. Out of the corner of her eye, she could see Alex loitering nearby, an awkward frown on her lips. Kara sighed, finally lowering her wand as she looked anywhere but at Alex. She was unable to hide the frustration in her voice as she asked, "What do you want?"

"Kara, please. I just want to talk." The sincerity in Alex's voice almost made Kara cave. Almost. The urge to listen to her sister quickly disappeared when she remembered their last 'talk'.

"Why? So you can shout at me some more?” The hurt was clear in her words. “I don't think so, Alex. You can go."

Alex shook her head, stepping forward, and she tried again. The determination was evident in her tone as she said, "I come in peace. I even brought the donuts I know you love." She shook a box Kara hadn’t noticed before to emphasise her point, Kara looked up noticing the relief slowly wash over Alex.

They locked eyes, and for a moment Kara could see the fear of rejection in Alex’s eyes, as if she was waiting to be sent away again. Instead Kara sighed, giving her the briefest of smiles before conceding. She reached out with her arm, plucking the box from Alex's grip. "Well, I do love donuts."

Alex smiled, flopping down onto the couch to face her sister. She couldn't help but smirk, watching as Kara practically inhaled a maple-glazed toffee donut before reaching for another.

Waving the treat in her hand, she mumbled, “Mhmm… Okay, I’m listening.” Her words were somewhat muffled by her mouthful of donuts, but the intense gaze she gave Alex was enough to get Kara’s point across.

"I'm sorry,” Alex began. “Alright? I should never have gone off on you like that."

"Then why did you?” Kara asked. “What you said really upset me, Alex."

Alex nodded and looking down. When she spoke, Kara could hear her vulnerability – something that Alex didn't like to show often.

"When you were first adopted, I was annoyed. All of the attention was suddenly on you, and I hated that I wasn't the star anymore. We all knew you were a witch from the start; and your magic- it scared people. Mum and Dad, they made me swear to protect you, Kara, to keep you safe from anything or anyone who might try to harm you. So many people have been hurt by that family. Lex Luthor has done horrible things, and all I could think of was how scared you were when your cousin got hurt because of them. And I was scared for you, Kara. You have such a huge heart, and you always want to see the best in people. I just don't want you to get hurt. I'm your big sister, and it's my job to protect you."

Kara blinked back the tears threatening to spill, and leaned forward to clutch Alex's hand. "Alex, you're my sister and I love you. But that doesn't mean I can't take care of myself. I know what people say about the Luthors; but I looked into Lena's eyes and I know she isn't one of them. You have to trust that I know what I'm doing. Okay?"

Alex studied her sister for a long moment, not knowing whether to smirk or sigh at how obvious she was. She did neither, instead giving Kara's shoulder a playful shove. "I do trust you, dork."

"Good! I like Lena. Um… I mean she's my friend." Kara gave herself a pat on the back for how composed she had managed to sound. The eyebrow raise she got from Alex should've told her she hadn’t done as good of a job as she had thought; but she had she been concentrating.

"Look, I'm not saying I trust her," Alex reasoned. She quickly continued, seeming to seeing the frown starting to reappear on her sister's face. "But I am willing to give her a chance,"

"That's all I ask." Kara smiled in relief, relaxing as she changed the subject. "Soooo… Are you looking forward to being back on the team this year?"

Kara was met with a scoff as Alex exclaimed, "I should never have been suspended in the first place!"

"Alex, you knocked a bludger directly into Maxwell Lord's face-"

Alex immediately cuts her off "Oh, please! That dick deserved it!"

Kara shook her head, continuing to list off examples. "You got into a fight with Leslie."

"Well, so would you, if you’d heard the shit that conniving little…" She trailed off after seeing the glare Kara gave her.

"And then you and Maggie got so competitive that she ended up unconscious with a broken leg!"

Again Alex fired back with another “justification” as Kara shook her head in a way that was both loving and disapproving. "That's what we do, Kara. Sawyer and I are just competitive; that's all."

"Mhmm… If you say so,” Kara smirked.

She watched as Alex groaned, sneering as she flung a half-eaten donut at her still grinning face. Kara effortlessly wolfed it down and continued to smile in that all-knowing way of hers when Alex rolled her eyes, flipping her off and muttering some choice words under her breath. A second later, Alex was met by a cushion smacking her in the face at full force, and the sound of Kara's melodic laughter as she retorted playfully, "I heard that!"

Alex couldn’t help but laugh, too, obviously amused by the sight of her baby sister desperately clutching her sides as she guffawed loudly, wiping her eyes as she continued to fill the room with cheerful, dulcet tones. Their earlier tensions had been long forgotten.

Lena walked down the hall, dressed to impress – or as much as she could be, given that she was in her school uniform. Her long hair was pulled into a side bun, paired with a simple braid on the right side of her head. As usual, not a hair was out of place. Her makeup was light and subtle, giving her skin a soft glow. Her regular Slytherin uniform, along with killer black heels and a confident power walk, let her achieve the look she hoped would make Kara swoon.

She was on a mission, and finding a certain bubbly badger was her top priority. Kara had failed to show up for their shared Care of Magical Creatures class; but if there was one thing that Lena knew the girl wouldn't miss, it was meal times. That would be the perfect opportunity to interact with her fake girlfriend, something she'd failed to do since they had made the agreement. The Slytherin smiled to herself as she thought back to her proposition, an idea that had been further spurred when she'd overheard Kara's admission about having a crush on her. Now she had the perfect excuse to turn on her charm, whilst purposely causing the other girl to blush a lot.

Lena entered the Great Hall, already scanning the crowded room. After a few moments, her gaze locked onto the familiar bright smile and long blonde hair. Nodding to herself, she started to walk toward her, ignoring the curious looks she received as she made her way down the aisle, finally coming to a stop behind Kara. Taking a moment to gather herself, she noticed Mon-El and some other guy - she thought his name was Winn - chattering with Kara. At her arrival Winn looked up, his eyes locking with hers; and for a brief moment, Lena felt the urge to run. But then he grinned in a boyish, cheeky way, before whispering something to Kara. Lena took note of how red Kara's cheeks flushed as she finally turned to greet her, and decided she could grow to like Winn.

Kara almost sprayed the water from her mouth when she turned to see Lena Luthor standing there like a dark angel finally seeing the light. Her cheeks were red, but she managed to swallow her nerves enough to greet her fake girlfriend.

"L-Lena! Wow, your outfit looks amazing!" The words escaped Kara’s mouth before she could even contemplate how ridiculous they sounded.

Lena smirked, her eyebrow quirked as she replied, her voice sultry and teasing. "Well, I hoped I'd be the only one wearing our school uniform. But I'm glad it's made a lasting impression on you."

Kara's mouth opened and closed wordlessly, her cheeks turning tomato-red as Winn sniggered behind her. She shifted awkwardly, trying to recover from her outburst. "Um... What are you doing here? Bit of a surprise, seeing you visit the Hufflepuff table."

Lena smiled widely, shaking her head. "I came to see you, love."

Kara's eyes widened as she stuttered a response. "Y- you did?" Out of the corner of her eye, she could see Mon-El watching closely, and she hurriedly corrected her mistake. "I mean… What a lovely surprise to see you here... at the Hufflepuff table."

"I didn't see you in class today. But I was hoping to take you on that date I was telling you about." The subtle shift in Lena's tone reminded Kara of their agreement, and she beamed right back.

"I'd be honoured to accompany you, Lena." She was worried about going overboard; but then Lena smiled down at her in such an adoring way, she knew she'd done something right.

Lena extended a hand, and not a second later Kara's hand slipped into hers. The two walked out of the Great Hall together, hand in hand.

....

"I do hope I wasn't too forward back there. I saw Moon-Eel watching and figured we should put on a bit of a show," Lena explained, her tone shifting to one of disgust as she purposefully butchered his name.

"No, you were perfect!"

Kara was quick to reassure her, laughing as she added, "If anything, you're making me look bad. You're already such a good fake girlfriend."

Lena ignored the painful sting the word “fake” gave her, but she hid it, choosing to up her flirting once more. "Honestly, Kara, I don't think anyone could make you look bad."

The immediate blush she received was reward enough. The Hufflepuff swung their still-joined hands, a shy smile on her face as they walked through the courtyard. There was a comfortable silence between the two, before Lena broke it, guiding Kara toward a bench with what appeared to be a picnic blanket draped across it.

"Anyway, I thought this would be a perfect opportunity to get to know each other better. After all, if we want to be convincing girlfriends, we should know more about one another. Don't you think?"

"Yes, that's good thinking."

They sat opposite one another and it was only then that Kara realised she never got to finish her meal. As if having read her mind, Lena drew her wand and began elegantly moving it along the blanket. A grin broke out across Kara's face as items started to appear. Soon the table was full of way too much food for the both of them, along with two goblets filled with a rich red fruit juice. Cutlery was included, as well, and even two napkins - both folded in the shape of a swan.

"This is incredible!"

"Why not date in style? Please, dig in."

Kara obliged without protest, eagerly munching away as Lena watched in amusement before reaching for her own food. Kara devoured most of the food in an incredibly short amount of time, making Lena laugh as she worked on the last part of her meal, regarding the now-sheepish girl with amusement and adoration.

"I thought of a way for us to get to know one another better," Kara stated matter-of-factly.

"Oh really? Do tell." Lena leaned forward, resting her elbows on the table as she moved in closer.

"We each get to ask the other five questions. They can be about anything, and the other has to answer."

"Sounds interesting. Who goes first?"

"Is that one of your questions, Miss Luthor?"

Lena faltered for a second, clearly not expecting the cheeky response. But then her tone returned to its flirtatious nature. "Only if that's one of yours, Miss Danvers."

"Touché," Kara held her hands up in mock surrender before continuing. "Okay, I'll go first. Let's start with an easy one: What's your favourite colour?"

"Yellow. The shade of yellow just before the sun rises, so soft and subtle. It’s calming, so incredibly bright and good.”

Kara didn’t respond for a minute, taking in Lena's answer. For some reason, she thought Lena's favourite colour was so much more than just that. She knew when not to push, though, so she moved on.

"I like that. I can never decide between blue and red; but, then again, there are too many pretty colours to choose from!"

Lena smiled at Kara's reasoning, already preparing her own question, when Kara jumped in again.

"Next question-"

"I thought I got to ask the next question."

Kara's face was priceless as she exclaimed, "I just told you what my favourite colour was!"

Lena couldn't help but laugh in response as Kara stared at her indignantly. "Ah, but I never asked you. You answered freely, which means I still have my five questions."

"B-b-but..." She trailed off with a sigh, knowing Lena was right.

"What are you most thankful for?"

"Woah! I see you're not going for the easy questions."

"Nothing about me is easy, Kara," Lena replied with a smirk.

Kara looked away so Lena couldn't see the blush tinting her cheeks. Composing herself, she answered, "I would say that I'm most thankful for my family and friends. The close friends I made here have become a second family to me, and I wouldn't have adjusted so well without their love and support."

"I'm glad you have such a good support system."

Kara watched as Lena looked away, able to feel the sadness radiating off the other girl. She leaned forward to cautiously take Lena's hand, her thumb tracing light patterns across the back of her hand as she spoke, her voice so soft and caring it made Lena's heart skip a beat. "I'm really sorry that people haven't been there for you, Lena. And if you'll let me, I'd love to be the person you can trust, someone who can support you, too."

Lena's face remained unreadable for a few moments before a small smile appeared. "I hope you can be."

They shared a soft look, before Lena coughed, prompting Kara to ask her next question.

"Umm... Are you the cuddling type?"

Her question effectively broke the ice, causing a smirk to grace Lena's features once more. "I'll let you discover that for yourself," she winked, making Kara swoon visibly.

"Oh, right. Yeah… Ha-" Kara stuttered in response, managing an awkward laugh before continuing to stumble over her words. "H-have you thought of a... another question yet?"

"What's your favourite food?"

"That's easy - potstickers!"

Her answer caused Lena's face to scrunch in confusion.

"Wait… You do know what potstickers are, right?" Kara exclaimed in disbelief.

With a shake of her head, Lena replied, "I can't say I do. They were never on the menu during any of my mother's socialite parties."

"Oh Rao! That is not acceptable. You must try them! They're like little bites of heaven! I'll bring them to our next date."

"I look forward to it."

Kara smiled her approval as she worked in her next question. "A similar theme, but… What's your favourite sweet food?"

"Most people would say cakes or donuts, but I like a good bar of dark chocolate. What's your favourite desert, Miss Danvers?"

"I love donuts. But then, a large slice of chocolate cake is always good. Oooh! But then there's ice-cream, which I can never say no to. How do I choose, Lena? I just can't!"

Lena chuckled as Kara continued to list all the sweets she liked. But the list was endless, so eventually she cut in. "Okay, Sweet-tooth. Who do you look up to the most?"

"Alex. She's the best person I know. Even if she does try and steal my potstickers!"

"You're very close to her," Lena observed. "And it's obvious she loves you."

"We’ve grown close over the years. I wouldn’t be half the person I am today without her support."

"I understand that feeling," Lena admitted. "When I was first adopted by the Luthors, I adored Lex. He was my best friend. And when he showed his true colours, I was crushed. I had to learn to protect myself. Believe me, I hate what he became; but I always hoped one day he'd be my older brother again."

Lena blinked the tears back, moving on before any more unwanted vulnerabilities could present themselves. "Anyway, I have one more question for you-"

"Hang on! I didn't ask all of my questions!"

"Actually, you did, after that interrogation on potstickers."

Kara scoffed, folding her arms and flashing Lena her best puppy dog pout.

"Oh, don't think that'll work on me, darling." Lena gestured to Kara's pout with a smug smile and continued. "Okay, last question: What is one thing you desire in a partner?"

Kara gulped, unsure of how to respond to such a bold question. Lena started to retract her question, but then Kara was answering with such certainty, nothing else mattered.

"The person must have a good heart. It doesn't matter if they try to hide it, or if they don't think they don't… I'll know."

Kara's words were all Lena could think about as they walked back through the castle after dark. Kara talked a mile a minute, rambling about her friends and where they all hung out. Lena hummed in response, simply enjoying how her hand fit perfectly in Kara's, or observing the little ticks that made Kara unique. How Kara aimlessly swung their arms as they walked together, or how her eyes lit up when she talked about her friends. How Kara practically skipped when she walked, or how every now and then she'll stop to check that Lena was okay. Or how she’d slow her usually fast walk to match Lena's pace.

They stopped outside the entrance to the Hufflepuff common room, hand in hand despite the fact that there was no one else around.

"Thank you for walking me back, Lena."

"What kind of fake girlfriend would I be if I didn't? Think of what Mon-Ale would say."

Lena smirked as Kara rolled her eyes. "You know that's not his name."

"Oh, I know. I just love how rattled he gets when I get it wrong."

Kara couldn’t help but laugh, thinking it sounded like something Alex would do.

"I should let you go."

Kara's face fell slightly when Lena released her hand, though she tried not to seem too disappointed at the loss. She watched as Lena smiled one last time, before moving to leave. Panic set in, and suddenly she was running after the girl, calling her back.

"Lena, wait!"

Lena spun around, looking up at Kara with concern. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing. I just... I forgot to ask if you were free on Saturday? I'm going into Hogsmeade with Alex, Winn and James, and I... I wondered if you would want to join us?"

For the first time, Lena was the one who blushed, her eyes widening in surprise as she comprehended exactly what that could mean.

"Kara I-"

"I know it's really random, but I figured that would be the perfect time to tell them... to tell them about us. If they think we're dating, it’ll be a lot easier to convince people that we didn't just make it up."

"Right, of course. That makes sense. I'll be there." Lena forced a smile as Kara continued.

"But... I don't want you to think that's the only reason I'm inviting you. I... I really liked our fake date today, and I know my friends will all really like you once they see how sweet and caring you are. You're my friend, Lena, and I meant what I said earlier. I want to be someone you can trust."

Lena's smile felt instantly more genuine as she nodded. Leaning in to place a chaste kiss on the corner of Kara's lips, she whispered, "I'll be there."

She pulled back with a grin, and started to walk away, feeling victorious when she saw the dreamy look on Kara’s face. Just as she was about to round the corner, she turned to call back to the other girl. "Goodnight, Kara." And with another smile, she was gone.

It was a few minutes later, when Kara finally stopped running her fingers over the spot Lena had kissed, that she realised Lena had left. Smiling to herself, she walked back to her common room, whispering a soft response of "Goodnight, Lena," before her thoughts drifted back to the Slytherin she was falling for.

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Holiii! They didnt want to watch Dunkirk? Too bad. A sting one? I didnt hear about that. But its possible. 3000 euros? Byeee😂😂😂😂. I'm a broken student. Have some mercy on me pls. I agree 100% with what you said about parenting and conditioning kids. It's kind of sad, but also real. (1)

Hiiii!!!! Sorry I’m so late, but what a weekend! Did you know that today was Mother’s Day?L well, a lot of people seemed to have forgotten it 🙄🙄. I had so many things to do, lol. But, well, I, gonna try answer everything, bc tomorrow I won’t be able either, and I don’t want to have you waiting.Okay, in their defense I’ll say they have already seen it,jajjajaa. But, well, why don’t watch it again!?!?! I think it was a Sting one. If not him, someone like him, oops 🙊.I thing it’s cheaper now. That was like 8 years ago. Now, I guess there are more clinics that do it. Back then, there was only one. But look at the good side, if you sight isn’t stable yet, you can’t have it done. And we you finally can, you’ll have a job (hopefully) to pay for it, and it will be cheaper, jejeje.

Bringing balloons sounds like a great idea!! They had them at the last show i went and it was really cool (even though i never got to touch one of them. Jajajaj). If you do decide to bring them, i’m sure you all will have a wonderful time! Ooh, okay. Thanks for the info. I’ll take a pic when she finally puts the poster and i will send it to you🤗 (2)

Lol, imagine if I bring them, and I start glowing them, and I get dizzy, and miss part of the concert because I get sick, 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣. That’d be awful!! jjajaja. But I’m slowly convincing myself to bring them, and then I’ll see if I can blow them and all that. (Ijejdiebdc I really rally want!!! But I don’t want people looking at me like I’m a crazy old lady 😅 (even if no one sees me)).I’d love to see that door, but only show me if you’re totally comfortable with it,love.

JAJAJAJA. Andy y Lucas? Really? (They came to my city’s festivity last year😂) Almost the same thing as Niall. Yep. I wasnt allowed to go to a show without my parents until i was 18 years old, and look at them now! And this is no even their first concert. Last year we went to see Ed Sheeran in Barcelona (another Bday present for my little sister). I dont know how they can be so convincing (lying. I do know. My sister is the little one and that counts…). But i’m happy for them. I really am. (4)

Hey, Andy y Lucas were a totally hit with they’re first album ,jajaja, have some respect 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣. Me and my friends spent a summer walking around with our DiskMan (you know what it is, don’t ya) on hand, listening and singing their songs, lol. I got to see them twice now that I remember, lol. They came to where my sister was living, and we went to see them. Again me dragging my sister to see artist she doesn’t like,jajajja. Tbh, I haven’t being to a lot of concerts in my life :( I’ve to see: Andy y Lucasx2, Bisbal, Bustamante and Rosa (year 2002), David Civera!! 🤣 (2001), Pereza, and I think that’s that. Then I went to 1D in 2014, and Harry and Niall this year. What a lame teenage. I’d love to see Ed, how good it was?? Also, you’re little sister is a proper little sibling, eh!! Jajajaja.

Yes yes. Now they have to come back to make it up to me. (DO IIIIT PLS, IM DYING). Oooh. I saw the video of honey you uploaded 😍 Weird, but cute. Jajajajaja Yep. I’m pretty sure she follows you, because i’m always showing her blogs that i like; “this one is hilarous” or “look at the art”, and when i first found yours i was like “WHAAAAAAAT. A SPANISH LARRIE. CANT BE”. So i showed it to her. But i’m not worried bcs she is been so busy she doesnt even check tumblr anymore. Sadly. (5)

Weird is a thing to called it. Some people think is disgusting,jajajajja. I don’t careeeee, I love my weirdoooo!!! Jajajaja I go around showing his videos to whoever wants to listen,jajajjajaaj. Ohhh, I’m a Spanish larrie 😢. There are so few of us…there are probably a lot more of us, but since we all speak in English, you can’t never know. I’ve found other Spanish larries, but don’t think I follow anyone, lol. Have I told you about the most absurd thing that has ever happened to me???????? It was at Harry’s concert. The girl who I sold a ticket to, avert been talking for a bit, turns to me an ask me with the most serious face you can think “are you a larrie?” But in Spanish sounds different, as it’s something I don’t talk out loud ever,jajaja “(eres larrie?)”. And I turned to her like a little rabbit flashed in the middle of a road 😳. And I asked her “are you?” Jajajaja. And we both were, obviously. (I laughed at the absurdity of the conversation,jajajaja). And we talked a bit about Larry things, but with hushed voices, just to not alert any anti/her, whatever you want to call it,jajajaja. Well, if she doesn’t check, you don’t have to be worried. But are you keeping her informed on everything that happens? (Harry’s suits, everything Niall, Limo’s new song, LOUIS!!)

JAJAJAJA. Fun fact, my name is indeed a flowery one. Idk how, but you got that right. We can keep that name if you want. I like it. It’s cute 😊 Ooh. Yes. You started babtsitting this week right? I forgot to ask how it went. Sorry :( Omg. Your cousins sounds amazing. Really smart. He could read at the age of 2? That’s… a lot. And photographic memory? That’s a blessing amd a curse. Is that because of the autism? (I’m sorry i dont know a lot about autism) (6)

SERIOUSLY???? I don’t know why (well, I know why. I’m half witch-half human, but can talk about that later,jajaja), but you reminds me of flowers (my brain is very weird, and doesn’t make sense a lot of the time). Okay, I’ll tag things I want you to see with flower anon. Probably I’ll include a 🌺 in the tags, but that’s just because I live for emojis,jajajajja.Hey, don’t worry for not asking, I forget a lot of things, and then I remember at the most random times 🙄🙄. Well, he’s like very special. When they thought he was autist(?), doctors considerate him a super intelligent one. But in one of his revisions, they told my cousin’s parents that he wasn’t autist, but he was a very slow normal kid. So 🤷🏻‍♀️. Anyway, I don’t think photography memory is because of that. His mom has it too and my cousin (my little cousin’s dad) is always telling who usefully it was for her when she was at uni,jajajaja. He’s only a bit jealous. But I don’t know about my cousin. Of course I see his different to the rest of kids his age, but at the same time he knows thinks kids at his age don’t even dream about knowing. And is not exactly that he knew how to read, but with his memory he could recognize a word after having watched Optica written once, and repeat it out loud. Like, his mom could write once Papá, and he could remember the world anytime you’d write it. And they taught him a lot of words. And we buy him a lot of toys related with words and all that, so he learn what sound goes with what letter. So he just started reading one day. It’s amazing.

🤦🤦Depriving someone of strawberry cake only because it is pink should be considered a crime. Yeah, i think my friend wrote it. And i told her in my answers that i thought the survey was not well done, but she hasnt reach me, and i dont think she will. I’m not sure she will even use my answers bcs i went a bit overboard with them. I guess she was looking for “yes/no because of that” answers but instead i wrote her a dissertation about sexuality, genders and social construction. Ups. (7)

Pink candies even!!! Isn’t that a big case of bad parenting?!?! 🙄🙄🙄🙄 I’ll show you what I did yesterday (I hope I don’t forget,lol), and you’ll understand why I’m the rainbow queen,jajajaja.Well, if you’re close enough to each other, I think you could talk to her in person? Explain her why it was wrong? She can ignore you if you’re face to face. Maybe she’ll learn something? Maybe she didn’t saw anything wrong with the way it was written, but if you explains it to her, she’ll understand. 🤷🏻‍♀️Also, well done 👏🏻👏🏻 on being faithful to you and your thoughts! I’m proud of you!!

Same happens to me. I spend far too much alone, and when i can, i talk as much as possible. I totally understand. Niall had kittens? She was the one that eat them? Or it was another of the cats? Oh oh!! I just remembered you said in the tags the other day that we should talk about fics and recs, but i forgot to answer then. Did you wanna talk about something in particular?? (8)

Yeah, Niall has kittens. And this time she didn’t get to eat them. She hid them anger something and two of them died. And the other one died yesterday, I think, because she didn’t feed it. I don’t know what is wrong with that cat. We even thought that something was wrong with the kittens (because their parents were siblings (niall and Louis 😅), but this time soured they were sons of another dad, so 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️. It must be her.Ooooohhhhh, fics. I love reading fics, jajaja, but I can think about anything in particular now 😭😭😭😭😭 (Bc I’m tired, and sleeping, and dreading tomorrow’s morning 😫😫). But, yes, of course, someday will talk about fics. When you’re freer. Also, when were your exams starting this week or last week???? 😱😱😱 I can’t remember!! This weekend was soooo long, it felt like a month!! Jajaja. But very very very good luck on your exams!!! You keep me informed, please?

Hazte oír? Please, dont remember me that. I was so angry. I still am. And part of my family (my conservative cousins) agree with that statement and the organisation and uh 😷. I dont understand how they can be so intolerant. I find it horrifying. Some months ago, my teacher brought someone to give a lecture, and i left halfway because i was getting too angry about what he was saying, and later i found he was from Hazte Oír and it all made sense. (9)

WHAT?? You have family who supports that?? Who are you related to them?? Okay, I started answering this before I finish reading, and now that I did you’ve let me speechless. They brought someone from that association to your uni??? 😳. I can’t believe it. But I applaud you for leaving. What a shame. Seriously, I don’t know what to tell. I find it horrifying that teachers/schools/universities do that. Because that is educate in hate. 😡😡😡😡 I’m getting angry just thinking it. I don’t know why, but I become irrational when I’m in front of that kind of thoughts. Like all I want to do is shut their f*cking mouths, and scream SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UPPPPPP!!!! IdufbvbfivubrfvI’m so sorry you have to deal with that!!

JAJAJJAJA. I wasnt serious. I just find hilarious when they call us a cult. Because we are not ?? Nop. I’m her favourite guinea pig, and she know that i dont do wax. I have only done that 2 times, and there’s not gonna be a third. I relate too much to your cousin, jajajaja. I just help her when she need someone to practice massages with, or anything not involving wax. I dont know about Oh Anna life, but a version without the screaming & the backround noises would be nice. (Reminder approved). 10

I call us a cult??? When??? Jajajjaja. I don’t remember, but if I said it, it was sarcasm, for sure, jajajaa.Jajaja “and there’s not gonna be a third” 🤣🤣🤣🤣. Oh, but aren’t you smart??? Jajajaja. You only want the good things!! No no, I you want a massage, you have to go to her wax exams, jajajaja. I don’t know why people don’t go willingly to be waxed by people who’s learning how to wax. What bad could happen?? Jajaja. My wax teacher told us that once, a previous year, one of the students let a drop of was fall on an another student eye. And to retire that wax, they had to cut her eyelashes!! THAT is horrific and traumatic!! She told us, so we didn’t ever forget that we don’t have move the wax around our clients faces/eyes. And it was the perfect story to never do it,jajaja.At this moment, I’m all in about buying a delux album with just oh Anna, Medicine, baby honey, and that melody he played yesterday(?) for 15€ plus (gastos de envío).

YOU SAW THE NEWS ABOUT LOUIS? HE IS PARTIALLY FREE. Yaaaay. And also, Liam appeared on TV? Where? What did they say? Pd. He said the word “sacapuntas” once again😂 and i love him. And, have you watched familiar mv? I havent yet, but my sister said it was cool. And last but no least, how are you? Did you had a good time? 11

Ay, don’t remember me. I still get emotional imagining good things happening to Louis. I hope/wish/pray that everything is happening in that regard is accord to him. And that this isn’t another fake good thing. I’m so tired of expecting good for him, and then he never gets it. And, realistically, I know at some point in the future, he will be “completely” free, but I can’t wait for that day. BE TOMORROW!! Well, we only can wait and see how thing go happening.Yes, I already told you about Liam. It was just exactly a minute, but it makes me so happy. And he’s everywhere!! Even in Spain! I can’t believe it. He’s doing so well. I think he said sacapuntas too,jajajaja. That’s all he knows!!🤣🤣😱😱😱 I haven’t yet!!! I totally forgot!!! I hope tomorrow I get to watch it. Sorry, limo.I’m good, thanks for asking, jajajaa, just a bit tired and sleepy. And tomorrow I have to go to some doctors p, I have to wake up at dawn (🤣🤣🤣🤣, it’s been so long since I woke up that early). But well, my sister just changed me this week’s day of work. Instead of Tuesday, I have to go on Wednesday, so u can nap Monday and Tuesday!jajaja (I haven’t go to sleep in Sunday, and I’m already thinking about my Tuesday’s nap 😅😅). And this Friday. IGET TO SEE NIALL!!!!! 😱😭😱😭😱😭 I can’t waiiiittttt!!!!!!!

This is what i we’re doing for some time yesterday, see the rainbow?? Jajajaa. I try to put rainbows every time I get a chance 🤣🤣🤣. I’m evil!!! (I know it’s not exactly a rainbow, but it was the most similar I could get 😅). And see this pink candies (marshmallows) at eh bottom? Well, some boys/kids can’t eat them, bc they’ll lose their masculinity 🙄🙄🙄🙄.

That’s all for tonight my lovely flower 🌺 anon. Have a nice day/week. Keep studying hard, so you can get your good results at the end of it all. 😚😚

#flower anon #🌺🌺#I love this #ejieyygriydgcidguc #going to sleep now #😴😴😴😴#and how was you're weekend???

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