#and at worst its both transphobic And homophobic

[cosmic0artist]

this isn’t rlly anything i haven’t said on here before but i feel like u just generally misunderstand loki as a character if u think 1. the show did him any justice whatsoever and 2. if u are convinced that he’s happy in the show

loki’s original, good intentioned characterization died when he was supposed to on svartalfheim in Dark World

he acts nothing like himself in the show, especially not how he shld be based on the timeline that he’s supposed to be taken from

the show also works poorly As A Show; the plot is pure ass and the character motivations are shit, the comedy is slapstick and everything is so grating to me

they rlly just put loki’s name on it to use his popularity to put out the show that introduces the multiverse and the tva and that’s it

and i rlly hate how so many ppl who claim to have loved loki from the beginning are eating this up bc he’s genuinely not the same character anymore and i mean that in the worst possible way

the show has antisemitic and racist undertones despite having its titular character belonging to a narratively oppressed race, it is somehow both homophobic and transphobic in its narratives despite having a genderfluid and bisexual titular character, the main relationship is technically incestous and doesn’t go anywhere so setting it up was pointless anyway, it is hostile to those who have mental health issues and trauma, and it is an insult to loki’s character and the ppl who relate to him

[thebibutterflyao3]

Anyone who hates on JKR is entirely justified for doing so. She is a horrible person and actively donates money to anti-trans groups pushing anti-trans legislation in the UK.

Also, hating on ethically participating HP fans while still supporting any of these creators/managers and their fandoms is entirely hypocritical:

Walt Disney - Explicitly racist cartoons in the past and exploitation of indigenous people, actively using generative AI that harms the environment, depletes freshwater, and steals from artists, historically underpays/overworks their artists, donated $2 million to Israel’s relief efforts after October 6, 2023 and nothing to suffering Palestinians.

Marvel - stolen artwork from fanartists for merch, overworking/underpaying their artists, former CEO financially supported Trump and Israel while running the company, using extensive generative AI which damages our environment, depletes our freshwater supply, and steals from artists.

HYBE Corp/K-Pop - Ongoing and expansive exploitation/abuse of their signed artists and sexualization of minors. Accused of “slave contracts.”

There are plenty more, but the point is that members of a fandom do not automatically support that fandom’s creator/manager or agree with their views. That’s a false equivalency at best. Especially when the same people claiming “fanfiction is inherently anti-capitalist” are also condemning HP fanfic as “encouraging support for JKR” and “keeping HP relevant.”

The HP franchise is expansive, both culturally and commercially speaking. There is a full length movie for each book, multiple museums/gift shops world-wide, theme parks, extensive merchandising, and multiple releases of the book series. JKR is a fucking billionaire.

This franchise and its creator do not rely on cosplayers and fanfiction writers to keep the series relevant. Especially when most fanfic writers/cosplayers are critical of the original series and/or the author. There is a way to ethically participate in the HP fandom, and it starts with acknowledging the worst aspects of it openly and honestly:

Are there more transphobes in the HP fandom than others? Probably, it’s one of the largest fandoms at present and JKR encourages it. Does that mean the entire fandom is transphobic? No. If anything, it’s often the HP fans themselves that loudly call out JKR’s transphobia, condemn it, and actively campaign against her on social media. It’s the HP fans who advise new fans when they join fandom spaces not to financially support her.

I am not excusing fans who choose to financially support JKR by purchasing licensed merchandise, games, etc, or who spout transphobic/homophobic/racist bullshit. These fans are not representative of the entire community, and slandering artists who create fanworks without compensation is also shitty behaviour. Fandom etiquette is preached constantly, “don’t like don’t read” and “scroll on,” yet it’s never applied when those same preachers hate on an entire fandom for the shitty behaviour of a few.

[real-fire-emblem-takes]

I feel Chrom fans are the worst, they often directly put down other protagonists like Lucina, Marth and Dimitri, whilst ignoring or whitewashing Chrom's canonical issues including:

Never apologizing for his father's crusade against Plegia and attempted religious genocide of the Grimleal, to the point he acts like Ylisse was the "real" victim and that neither Plegia nor the Grimleal has no right being upset at Ylisse.

Chrom makes sure to only recruit the white Plegians and never shows disapproval of prejudice against the Grimleal even when its shown by his own retainer, Frederick.

Making the already ravaged Plegia pay for everything after the war, than abandoning the country letting another tyrant take over. He even admits 2 years after Gangrel's father, he never found out what happened to Gangrel or whom succeeded him which is grotesquely negligent for a King.

When Robin kills one thousand transport ships filled "stem to stern" with Walhart's troops, Chrom is ecstatic rather than showing any respect to this huge loss of human life. Necessary or not, human life should be respected. Its made worse as its clarified THe valm empire forces citizens to become soldiers, including Virion's Rosseane and Say'ri's Chonsin.

In the Japanese version, Chrom canonically hangs around a homophobe (Old Hubba) and kills an effeminate gay man/possible transwoman (Excellus), indicating homophobic and transphobic views.

The fact that he's always remorseful when he faces women also indicates that he has has sexist beliefs too. It doesn't help that every woman Chrom fights is shown as brainwashed by a wicked man (Aversa) or just trapped by love (Pheros), because no women could oppose the towering paragon of Machismo that is Chrom.

Chrom ultimately allies with unrepentant Walhart whom shared his father's desire to invade Plegia and commit religious genocide, further showcasing he learnt positively nothing from his father's actions.

Chrom tells Aversa "One person's life means nothing in the shadow of millions" when she tries to avenge Validar due to being brainwashed, as no woman could ever willingly care about men, our hero Chrom hates, only for Chrom hypocritically try to prevent Robin from sacrificing themselves to kill Grima, willing to sacrifice the world for Robin.

Yet despite all this, Chrom is lauded as a great king and lovable Himbo, all whilst characters like:

Marth get called a crybaby or "generic Disney Prince" that is only popular because he's from the first game and nostalgic losers from Japan can't get enough of him.

Lucina is said to be to be popular only because she's a a waifu that people "want to fuck".

Dimitri is treated as "White Man" or a "Fascist" whom "murders women", when he showed more concern and humanity towards Duscur than Chrom ever did to Plegia as well as treating both sexes equally and not hanging around heteronormative crusaders (Hubba again).

And yes, this is character hate towards Chrom, he's massively overrated by the fandom and gets passes for what other characters would be crucified for.

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[religion-is-a-mental-illness]

By: Andrew Reiner

Published: Oct 19, 2023

In Adam Sandler’s new film “You Are So Not Invited to My Bat Mitzvah,” 13-year-old Andy is a villain who mutters coded bro-speak, kisses the lead character in the synagogue’s holiest spot, pranks his wheelchair-bound grandmother, and is oblivious to other people’s suffering. Andy is narcissistic and menacing, and what makes his portrayal all the more disturbing is that he’s also a common trope in popular culture.

Men and boys are often portrayed as bumbling, blustering, narcissistic, and incompetent at best — predatory and toxic at worst. For everyone’s sake, we need a new, more nuanced way to talk about and to boys and men.

The prevailing notion is that the males among us are doing just fine, thanks. Influencers like Andrew Tate, a self-proclaimed misogynist and alleged rapist and human trafficker who preaches that women are a man’s property, are sufficient proof for many that men are toxic and abuse their power. The constant attention they command, though, obscures a different reality. For all of the seeming advantages that boys and young men enjoy, they are floundering.

Boys lag behind girls in school achievement and are falling through the cracks even when they get to college. They are less likely to attend graduate school and earn degrees in law and medicine. Young men are also less likely to enter the workforce after high school, a trend that continues into their 20s, 30s, and 40s — even if they have a college degree.

And while rates of depression, chronic stress, and anxiety are higher in women and girls, men and boys are not far behind. Those between the ages of 15 and 24 have the highest suicide rate. They also abuse alcohol and opioids more than any demographic does, and they lead loneliness epidemics around the world where individualism prevails.

For all of these data points, the focus of conversations about boys and men is often on their potential for bad behavior. And this influences the way some people talk to them.

Social media has long been rife with memes that tell us that boys could be rapists and sexual predators. Some parents even project bad intentions and behaviors onto their own sons, as one mother whose takeaway from meeting her teen son’s clingy, mostly silent girlfriend for the first time was to worry that her son must be “abusive” and “stifling.”

“I am convinced this relationship is extremely toxic,” the mother wrote to Slate’s Care and Feeding column. “Maybe even abusive, and I want my son to clean up, both for his sake and for any woman he might date now or in the future.”

While this mother’s reaction is extreme, it speaks to a counterproductive mindset among some parents. Author Heidi Julavits wrote that her husband warned their young pre-teen son — by Julavits’s account a kind, thoughtful boy — that if he or Julavits overheard him “making misogynistic or homophobic or transphobic or racist or in any other way offensive comments, even if he doesn’t know what they mean, he will be banned from [playing video games] for a week.”

I have a son, and I’m completely on board with raising boys who are not misogynists, homophobes, transphobes, or racists. But there’s something accusatory about how some parents talk to their boys about these issues. Such an approach reduces all of cisgender heterosexual masculinity to an identity that by its nature is toxic and wired for violence. We have created a culture in which our boys are guilty until proven innocent.

And boys know it. Nico was in the seventh grade when I interviewed him in 2018 for a book project. He told me it hurt him to hear teachers criticize masculinity as “toxic” and to see girls wear T-shirts that read “The Future is Female” or “Girls Rule, Boys Drool.” At 13, Nico said he sometimes felt like “a stranger” in the school he had attended since first grade. “Where do I fit into a future that’s female?” he asked.

His question speaks to the confusion, fear, and, sometimes, resentment, that many boys and young men feel when faced with blanket criticism of their gender. After seeing a Peter Pan play revamped with empowering messages for girls but riddled with denigrating stereotypes about boys, my then 8-year-old son turned to me as the house lights came up. “Why were boys made out so awful in the play?” he asked. A 60-something woman in front of us turned to face him and said, “It’s true, though, isn’t it?”

Why must empowering messages for girls and young women come at the expense of boys and young men? Is it any wonder that some of them find their way to the online manosphere’s darkest alleys, home to incel chat rooms and those who think Andrew Tate is a hero?

Instead of shaming boys and men for what might lurk in the worst of their nature, we need to speak with them with compassion and curiosity — and with the right amount of commiseration and context. I call these the Four C’s, and I use them in small group work at boys’ high schools. When boys feel safe and heard, they will express their confusion about being affectionate with girls they date. “It’s really hard to know how to be around girls,” one high school junior told me. “They can touch us or kiss us, but I’m scared I’ll be called out for sexual assault if I reach for her hand or put my arm around her.”

Many boys are scared and confused, and they need guidance and validation. “I hear you,” I said to the high school junior. I commiserated. “I can imagine how terrifying all of this must feel.” I spoke to the context: There is a power differential between the sexes, making girls more physically vulnerable, and it’s important to keep that in mind. I looked around the room and got curious. “Can anyone else identify with this fear and frustration?” I asked. Some hands shot up.

Boys want to talk, and they deserve to be heard. We just have to ask the right questions and create a safe space for the conversation to begin.

[ Via: https://archive.today/H6CeI ]

[imbelfoxxyloxxy]

Note unless I say otherwise, basically ALL my ocs are Mexican, Bi romantic Ace, Genderfuild and use He/She/They because MEEEEE

But I did want to challenge myself and actually work a bit on my ocs and flesh them out a bit more so I wouldn’t have them sitting in my drafts

So yes Adam is still what I just described but he’s also transfem but REFUSES to transition and remain as a cis man. He doesn’t acknowledge his other labels and just either refuses to talk about it or just goes “idk why are you so concerned?”

Now he’s absolutely NOT homophobic/ transphobic, he’s one of the biggest allies you’ll meet as he simply uses the church as a way to get his family off his back, and also provide aid/shelter/support to those who are ridiculed. YOU don’t have to convert but he uses the teachings of Christ to at least give a shoulder to lean on during your journey of loving yourself and seeing how you wish to live to be alive in a moment.

He didnt have a loving village for her to grow in And although he has a small group that loves him now

The world wont love her

Its not safe for her

Hes seen how shell be treated how shes at more of a risk at death than she is at being able to live. He’s seen the struggle she will face simply to survive in a world actively trying to kill or mold her striping away her god given free will. A target rather than a soul

And even though a part of her still wants to even for a second, bloom in the world, even if she’s the smallest bud in the garden of wild extravagant flowers

His desier survive and be heard is stronger than her will to live

So she died the second she was discovered by him. Not in act of killing, but a cherished silent funeral in his childhood bedroom one winter break. Silent tears, but aching heart laying her down to rest.

A secret only both know

Adam may project a bit by actively being VERY supportive of his community/members exploring themselves or being open. That when faced with his community showing distaste for their queer members he would lose his “calm chill priest” persona and snap, laugh at the idea of “love the sinner hate the sin” as at the end they are using what Jesus died for and living a life they’ll only have once, that even if they create the biggest sin it is for god to place their afterlife. NOT the life they’re currently living. And if their joy their found reason to live and experience life for the only one time is a sin then may he be the worst priest to roam a church. As hell stride hand in hand with them as they explore their journey of life.

He remembers the pain of being alone, of having to kill your soul and privately bury her. It was his choice, his pain, and he won’t pressure or argue if they chose the same. But if he can help one life live the life they discovered, even if it’s the reassurance they’re not alone, they’re seen and making the smallest footprint in the sand.

It might make up for the sin of killing that girl

Hopefully that sounds alright? Im trying to actually work on writing my ocs in an attempt to not just be flodded with them sitting in my drafts

And i might change some things since i havent touched this character and his story in YEARS after creating it on

[rhymeswithchronic]

https://www.tumblr.com/rhymeswithchronic/781728300180570112?source=share

This is for the asked game!💓

2,31, and 34.

Hhhhhgggggg so this is my second time writing this, it crashed the first time 😭😭

LETS TRY THIS AGAIN SHALL WE

2. Which of your fics is your pride and joy?

So despite how much I work on and talk about Mercy for the Lamb, my baby will always be the Don’t Starve fic What This World Has to Offer!

This fic has been my baby since its original draft written from 2015-2017, and it’s remained ever since for so many reasons. First, it has my absolute favorite story of anything I’ve written, even being adapted into my original work in many different ways. The most notable part of this is Nightmare, the main villain of this fic and transferred into the main villain of my original series! Featured below :3

Another thing is that this fic is a time capsule of both me as a writer and as a person. When I first started writing its first draft, I held very homophobic and transphobic views and that often leaked into my work, even when it really shouldn’t have.

Anyone who has read this story now, though, knows that each of the main characters fall into different LGBTQIA+ identities! Wilson is aroace, WX-78 is nonbinary, Winona is a lesbian, Wilbur is pan, and Webber is implied to be transmasc!

The whole premise of the story, considering it focuses so much on concepts of love and family with a large lack of romance, is ripe for exploring my favorite concept of them all: how all love is just as important as romantic. Just because you aren’t in love with someone, if the love you feel is just romantic or platonic, it’s just as deep and meaningful and important. I hold that concept very dear to my heart.

Even though the story’s writing quality fluctuates, that’s only because it’s a genuine time capsule of me as both a writer and an artist. It helped greatly to develop my style and the themes I liked to focus on, as well as having tons of lore and developed backstory for even more fun with it. It’s always been my baby and it always will be :3

31. What fic meant the most to you to write?

WTWHTO is definitely on this list, but I think I have to say Isotonic and The Art of Loving and Letting Go.

The latter is kind of a given, I think. The story is based on snapshots of times that Evbo has dealt with grief in the MftL universe, and grief is such a universal concept that we can all relate to. Myself, I poured a lot of my personal feelings and the emotions I experienced after losing my brother to a fatal infection when I was in middle school, but everyone knows what it feels like, and everyone has experienced it in some fashion. Because of that, it truly felt like pouring a part of myself out onto the page.

Isotonic, however, might seem a little stranger. There isn’t much plot in it as it focuses on EMF and Boey spending time together while they both struggle with pain flare-ups.

I’ve said before that I’ve been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, a chronic condition that causes things like brain fog, phantom sensations, and most notably, near constant pain. There’s good days and bad days- luckily for me I tend to experience more of the former than the latter- but bad days can mean that I struggle to even do things like go to work or grocery shopping. The worst part about it is that it is an invisible disability, meaning you can’t look at me and know something is wrong. That means that there’s a lot of times when I feel like I’m crazy or exaggerating or a hypochondriac, because there’s nothing visibly wrong, why does it hurt so bad?

The topic of invisible pain is brought up in that fic, and I know I’ve explored in some fics how Boey tends to think he “doesn’t deserve to be in pain” and how “it can’t be nearly as bad as EMF’s so I shouldn’t complain about it”, both of which are common ideas that I tend to struggle with. Isotonic in that way is deeply, deeply personal. And the fact that the story is not trying to really say anything or achieve anything, it’s simply two people holding each other through their own pain, comforting each other, talking about their experiences. There’s no need to prove that their pain is real because they know that they are with the one person who understands it, not just because they sympathize but because they *know it* personally. That means a lot to me. Just… knowing that you have someone who won’t say you’re lying or faking. It is so much and makes that short little fic such a sweet thing for me to reread 💖

I know it’s just a gay poly Minecraft fanfic about parkour and it’s not that deep let me emote

34. What is your favorite fic to get comments/messages on?

This one’s a bit difficult because there’s isn’t a fic in particular, but rather a kind of comment that means the most to me.

Whenever someone tells me that something I’ve written has made them feel seen/understood/valued/comforted/etc.

Let me explain: a lot of what I write focuses on very dramatized situations and conditions. Nobody in my comments are gonna be talking about how they were killed over and over again for the benefit of others, but people might understand what it was like to be abused and taken advantage of by adults, or people who should’ve been safe. Maybe you’ve never experienced what Boey has, but you might know what it feels like to be trapped in a cycle of abuse and violation. You might not have gone through twelve years of starvation to the point of cannibalism to survive, but maybe you understand neglect and hunger, the people who were supposed to care for you failing to do so. You might not have been chained over the void, but maybe you have a condition that causes your joints to dislocate too easily and cause pain. Maybe you don’t know what it’s like to have your entire culture and bloodline massacred, but you might know what it’s like to watch everything you once loved and took comfort in in your childhood disappear in one night.

In the end, art is meant to comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable.

It is my favorite feeling to know that people who have experienced such things have an outlet to examine it from a fantastical lens, and see people who have felt just like them experience love and compassion and respect without conditions. Because sometimes, it’s the best way to examine those experiences.

I’ve been told before that someone was able to help themselves through a panic attack because methods they learned from my silly fanfics. That’s what it’s all about.

Thank you for letting me rant about my sillies and the motivation behind writing them. Sorry about the super long post 😅

[dogandponygal]

Institutions for Failed Persons Part 4

*I don't normally put content warnings into my posting but just a heads up there are some transphobic and homophobic slurs in this story*

For the first time since you arrived you weren't awakened by a drone. A cacophony of shouting and banging jolted you awake. You smacked into the top of your cage from being so startled.

You could make out a few words even behind the closed door of your room. Words like "help" "get off me" "fuck you" and "sadistic bitch" in between pained yells and screaming. Then things became ominously quiet.

A new, androgynous voice rang out down the hall.

"If I have to deal with you again, you're going straight to the bad labs! If you think I'm mean, wait until you meet the researchers!" A few more agonized screams, that sounded as if they were now muffled, seemed to punctuate the threat, followed by the slamming of a heavy door.

You've fucked up pretty bad over the course of your life, but now you were truly terrified of the trouble you got yourself into. 

As usual, you had no idea what time it was, but you were sure there was no way you were getting back to sleep after hearing all of that.

You sat curled up in your cramped cage and rocked yourself back and forth in a futile attempt to calm down. 

You were in the middle of cataloging all the horrible choices in your life in an attempt to find a time you messed up worse than when you decided to come to this place.

Just as you reached the conclusion that this was indeed the worst mistake you ever made, the door to your room opened. Two drones entered with glowing red gas masks, followed by a slender, tall doctor with disheveled red hair, scratches on her face, and a crooked bow tie.

“I'm sorry you had to hear all that little pup, my name's doctor Blackwell, but you can call me Veronika." She chuckled in between deep breaths. 

"Like, if you were allowed to talk. I guess you can think of me as Veronika!" She leaned against a wall and tried to catch her breath

You didn't think you could be more scared than you were a minute ago, but you managed to surprise yourself with how often you were wrong. Which is honestly saying something when you thought about it. 

"I'm your new doctor! Animals like you are kinda my specialty."

Your brain struggled to decide if her cheery tone of voice and wild grin scared you or comforted you. It settled on both. "I'm good with animals that like to be useful, but just need a little more training. Disobedient pups, ponies, you know, things like that."

"That asshole 'DoCtOr klEin' transferred you to my care." Her mocking tone surprised you. Didn't all these doctors work as a team? 

"Biting him has already ingratiated yourself to me. God he's such a prick. The drones had spoken highly of you in their reports. Which reminds me."

She took out a phone and tapped at its screen. Suddenly the two drones LED lights changed to green, and they became much more relaxed. 

"These two are such a delight, and they seem to think you are as well. They requested to see you again, isn't that sweet?!"

You realized that you had started to shake in terror. 

"Awe poor pup. There's no need to be scared! That is unless you plan on biting me. You wouldn't do that would you?" You let out a little whimper and tried in vain to make yourself smaller. 

"You are just too adorable!"

The doctor came over and unlocked your cage. 

"It's ok. Come here little pup." After a second you walked over to her on all fours and sat at her feet. She began scratching you behind your ears. With her other hand she beckoned for the two drones to come over.

The drones displayed a " : ) " and began petting you as well. This was almost scarier. What's the catch? Weren't you in trouble? Why are they being so kind? 

The one drone cupped your face and tilted it up to get a better look at you. Before you could think you began sucking at its thumb.

The smiley on the drones face lit up into a rainbow. It shoved its thumb deeper in your mouth. 

"See you don't bite. You'll be such a well behaved animal for me won't you?" You felt yourself getting turned on despite how scared you still were.

Without the paper scrubs you used to have, you couldn't hide your excitement. 

"Awe what's this?" Veronika cooed. She began to stroke you, and your hips began to thrust involuntarily. Fuck, were you going to be punished? Why was this turning you on so much?

"Such a slutty little animal aren't you? Maybe you'll make a good breeding toy for the other pets. Would you like that?" You whimpered in affirmation. A loud crash came from down the hall. "YOU FUCKING TRANNY FAGGOT!" At once the two drones screens turned red and they ran out.

Veronika let out a long exacerbated sigh. "I fucking hate this ward." She stopped stroking you and pinched the bridge of her nose. After a second she lifted your chin and stared into your eyes with a warm smile. "At least I got to meet such a cute new pet."

The words "my pet" made you sheepishly smile and blush. "I'll see you get transferred to another unit soon, fuck knows I could use the excuse to spend less time on this god damn ward. Until then I'll see to it you get some nicer accommodations. It was SO nice to meet you pet."

She walked to the doorway and pulled out her phone. 

"Hello its Dr. Blackwell, transfer me to the acute lab unit... Hey Dr. Kottin, do you have room for a very bad dog... Yup I'll sign all the paperwork... Could you remove its teeth for me... Yes all of them... Wonderful!"

[ahleezeruinavt]

The Vtuber Community Greatly Suffers From The Worst Aspects Of Its Inspirations.

You may be going "Ahleeze- what do you mean by that? The Vtuber community markets itself as this amazing place where you can portray yourself as whoever and whatever you want!" Yeah- that's more or less a lie. It's an accepting community so long as you don't criticize it. And that's primarily because of the fact that the audience and culture that vtubers as a community have adopted are all the absolutely worst aspects of it. It's a weird amalgamation of anime, idol, gaming, and content creation culture, but all the worst aspects of it. I'll try and break it down as I go so it's a bit less of a scrambled post of thoughts.

Also, just a disclaimer, of course this doesn't apply to everyone, it's just some observations I've seen in my time as a vtuber and the issues that are prevalent in the community.

Anime Community - Obviously since most vtubers have an "anime" style to them, it was bound to attract people who were interested in anime. More importantly, people who now had "2d Waifus" they could actually interact with and give money. However, there's a reason why some people won't touch anime fandoms with a ten foot pole. There is a LOT of bigoted anime fans. Transphobic, homophobic, racist, misogynistic, you name it. All of them are especially prevelant in those communities. You can see it when people make black edits of characters. You can see it in One Piece and Guilty Gear discourse (you know the ones). You ESPECIALLY see it when a woman happens to know literally anything on a subject and corrects someone. A good example I've seen is the JJBA fandom shitting on Jolyne for shit literally every other Joestar has done. Like- they're quiet when everyone else did it, but Jolyne does it and now all of the sudden its a problem.

Same thing happens to Vtubers. If your model / you:

Doesn't pass the paper bag test

Isn't super thin

Don't have breast that breast breastily

Isn't a literal child in appearance

Don't have a deep enough or high enough voice

Doesn't match your voice

Openly LGBTQ+

Openly fight for the rights of marginalized and oppressed groups

Talk on literally any social issue

You're basically in for a world of annoyance and trolls almost 24/7. And that's from both Vtubers AND Vtuber fans. Look at literally any corporate Vtuber's fans when they get crticized for something. Watch how fast they are to attack LGBTQ+ people and POC over daring to think a negative thought about their 2D anime waifu. There are plenty of POC who are vtubers and get NOTHING but hate comments and deal with absolutely unfair treatment because of the anime fans that also happen to overlap in Vtuber communities.

Oh, and don't get me started on if a vtuber dare says "lolishos DNI". Because people will get in a fucking TIZZY over how their waifu is actually 90000 years old and its a-okay to like them! That's also just an unfortuntate byproduct of anime culture that seeped into Vtubing. Especially when there are vtubers who call themselves "lolis" and openly make lewd content.

There's also the weird pressure people feel to have Japanese names and that's sparked a lot of discourse in the community. Also that some people end up being offensive by using westernized depictions of Japanese culture to seem more "anime".

Idol Culture - A lot of the words Vtubers use ("oshi" for example), are taken from idol culture. However, it's been time to ditch the "idol culture" since the whole thing started. It's cool to want to be a vtuber who does stuff like sing, or do concerts, but so many have twisted it into this weird competitive space where parasocial relationships thrive. God forbid you set up a boundary, talk about a social issue, or post a selfie.

For those that down know, vtubing used to (and still kinda is to some people) about "immersion". They want to watch the dommy mommy demon queen be seductive and everything else on stream. Once you ruin that immersion, some people get annoyed, others get pissed. And for no reason other than it's breaking the "immersion" that so many vtubers use as a sort of marketing. It's a lot of online personas. And getting people to fall in love with those online personas. Some people feel pressured to "play nice" and allow people who make them uncomfortable in their communities because of the fact that if they say something about it, then they're "cutting off their community".

Then there's the absolute obsession with being entirely "unique". Look at how many orca-themed vtubers get called Shylily wannabes. To the point they've had to unfortunately ban the other streamer's name in their chat! Or dog boys that get called Shxtou wannabes. Hell, I've seen guys called wannabes for just having the same COLOR SCHEMES. And it doesn't help that other vtubers will start pointing fingers at each other. Whether it's for clout or because they geniuenly think their concept can be the only one in the space. I saw discourse over someone's friend deciding on the same NAME as them.

Content Creation Culture - This is more about the constant push that vtubers say you need to do in order to be succesful. Constantly saying you need to spread yourself thin across every platform that you possibly can. Upload content everywhere. Constantly make content even if you're tired. It's exhausting, and leaves disabled peopel out of the conversation most of the time. Even then- it still pushes non-disabled people into burnout.

On top of that, it promotes being mean to each other because people are rewarded for that in engagement. Creating drama allows people to get attention, and constantly promotes "any publicity is good publicity". On top of that, it constantly switches the roles of what's a serious issue and whats drama. Things like sexual assault and harassment is considered drama when it's called out, but when someone traces emotes it's the most serious issue in the world and needs to be talked about for the next month. The same drama and discourse is passed around every week like it's a new thing, meanwhile actual issues are pushed to the side. They also conveniently coincide with each other. Women talk about men abusing their power and status in content creation? Suddenly the new big talk is about how men are treated horribly and they need more love and support since they are the few against the many in vtubing. It's the same cycle over and over.

Someone posts a really shitty take, everyone responds. That person gets a shit ton of engagement. They get discovered from it. They find more shitty people to join their audience. It happens over and over again and people fall for it every time. People pit entire communities against each other because they know it will get traction. All the "vtuber news" channels you see are just reskinned drama channels that barely add any substance to what they're "reporting" on, but they build their entire fanbase upon it. They don't even have the decency to censor names and then shrug when people come to them saying they're being harassed. There's entire channels based on harassing others and vtubers and people see it as normal. But engagement and "exposure" is supposed to be a good thing.

It also pushes others to be nasty towards each other and fight each other for the spotlight. It just sucks and people constantly try and treat it like a good thing.

In conclusion, the vtubing space isn't all people market it to be, and they will hound you down if you criticize it because "that's what the space has always been". That or you're brushed down to wanting attention and it's just so annoying that people tend to ignore all this to "keep the peace". Women can't speak out or else we're called clout seekers. POC can't speak out or else they're called attention seekers and drama-causers. LGBTQ+ people can't speak out or else we're making everything about ourselves. And you certainly can't criticize the corporate Vtubers or else their entire fanbase will come and likely get your account suspended.

[adult-human-gc-female]

ive constantly thought, in the back of my head, that *im* the one being irrational ... until one of my idols starting "going down the gender idealogy rabbit hole" when in reality theyre a fucking grown ass man who has a mostly minor fanbase who gets off to genuine rape and is now using "gender" to prey on people.... that is what truly peaked me, the fact this person is getting away with this despite their twitter likes being public and all that... even though theyve literally been homophobic AND transphobic by their own terms.

the dude is quite literally openly preying on people, with 15k+ followers, thanks to gender idealogy which protects men who claim to align with "girl". they are content with both trans men and any homosexual women being preyed on and pressured into sex because "trans women are women, therefore you are a bigot who deserves to be killed if you arent attracted to these men who *feel* they are a woman".

its like wtf do you do.... knowing people are being targeted ... knowing they wont publicly stand up for themselves in fear of being labeled "transphobic", even when they are a minor...... it hurts so much. i feel so powerless, the fact they could easily "cancel" me themself because i was in a worst situation than they will ever be in their entire life, genuinely facing abuse and homelessness throughout my entire adult life while they sit there relishing in privilege, never worrying about a damn thing in regards to safety. But no, me doing wrong- while NEVER having any psychiatric support... He, especially considering his large following, could use anything i said against me.... And thats what makes everything so painful, knowing i cant do anything unless unless the victims speaks up first .The fact he brags about "hooking in lesbian" despite being a man... I wish he could die. ITS FUCKED, ESPECIALLY THE FUCKING FACT HES"S OPEN RAPIST. because gender idealogy encourages the belief you can "identify" as a sexual orientation .... so if you are a trans woman attracted to women then that makes you a lesbian and and not a straight man who fetishizes lesbians. Bless the LGB Alliance, they have the corsage to stand up for for sexual orientation for what it truly is. I cant fucking do anything . He gets to prey on people, talk shit about me- someones who disabled/middle class and fucking homeless while hes literally able bodied and upper class.

Id do anything for people to see him as he fucking is. A horrible clout chasing piece of shit who deserves nothing . Imagine being so privileged in life yet being so pornsick that you ruin your own life. All i can hope for is that his victims will finally feel comfortable enough to come forward ....

Oh my god, I'm very sorry you've been through all of this. Seeing someone you used to like or even idolize becoming such a piece of shit hurts. And I'm sorry about you facing homelessness, I really hope things got better :(

I also happened through a period when I thought I was irrational. People around are afraid of being labelled transphobes if they dare to doubt, so I thought I was alone and had a mental breakdown about it. LGB Alliance was the first account I found that had courage to speak up and at that pont I was truly amazed just by the fact of their existence.

Please be careful on your path of exposing the dude.

[kanade-aoyagi-official]

I’m Kanade Aoyagi. … I play the piano.

Toya, please don’t talk to me.

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# NOTES

❥ Kanade and Toya are cousins in this AU! After her father passes out and falls into a coma, she’s taken in by Harumichi. Which was the worst idea ever. My dude can’t help but ruin every child he touches.

❥ She’s… doing significantly less well than in canon, thanks to Harumichi’s A+ parenting. I feel like mentioning that he’s like, kind of worse than in canon because I have daddy issues I’m projecting on him. I needed to maximize the angst, so let’s be a bit canon divergent here~

❥ She’s basically avoiding Toya, so their relationship isn’t really good at the moment. They were really close before, though. Kanade’s glad that he got out of the shitty situation they were both stuck in, and she doesn’t want to endanger him. She still has a savior complex…

❥ Definitely agender, but she hasn’t really thought about her gender enough to have a crisis yet. You can crack some eggs if you want to. 👍 Currently using she/her prns.

❥ Anon hate for the little miss here is appreciated! She’s mostly the same as canon Kanade, except even worse. Making her suffer is incredibly easy. 👍

❥ Here’s the info post for this AU ♡ (If you’re on the Discord, then it’s exactly the same thing.)

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# ABOUT ME

❥ Hi! This is actually Moth from @viemarin. :3

❥ I made that account to vote in the Great GF War 2023, initially, but then I figured I could use it for this even angstier version of Kanade! I can even send asks directly from this blog now! Truly, it’s amazing. Marvelous, even.

❥ I use it/its prns. Bug/bugs prns are appreciated too ♡

❥ I’m also behind at least seven other blogs, which you can find here!

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# RULES

❥ Don’t be homophobic, transphobic or any kind of -ic here because I won’t be tolerating it.

❥ Also, don’t use slurs around me. I think they’re gross, and I don’t want to see them.

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❥ Timezone is GMT! School’s between 8am and 6pm, so I won’t be as active then.

❥ I’m currently on a break, though!

[theachskid]

I have many fears, but I have one big one

TW VENT

becoming my mom. It's probably my worst fear that is becoming the woman who abused me. Both sexually and mentally. I love her. But I dont like her. It's a weird feeling. It's like I love her, but I dont want to ever see her face ever again. She hurt me in so many ways, and I never want to see her again. But my fear; I look in the mirror, and I see my mother. That I became that demon of a woman. That homophobic, racist, transphobic woman. My fear is that I become her. That I become narcissistic, bipolar women. I never want to become that. To know I hurt the people I love. I rather bash my head in with a brick and die bleeding out on the floor, then do what she did to my future kids or future partner. Or even my current partner. I've caught myself guilt tripping. I catch myself doing it and immediately apologize. Im afraid that one day ill be just as bad as her. I know that im not like that. But no one is born evil. My mom had to learn how to acked like that somehow. I think I started thinking im becoming her when she said "you're just like me," and ever since then, those words have been circling inside my brain, repeating over and over.

I think my mom has traumatized me. I now walk on eggshells around everyone. Even my dad. My dad is supportive and sweet and the best parent I could ever ask for. But now im scared of answering a question. Whenever my mom asks me a question, when I answer, she answers in the most negative way possible

Mom: "Are you hungry for dinner?"

Me: "I am..."

Mom: "Well then you're just going to have to wait because im not ready to cook." *walks away*

I cant answer any questions right with her. So now I answer in the most terrified way possible to any questions.

Example from last night that caused me to write this vent:

Dad: "Are you hungry?"

Me: "Y-yeah but only if you are..."

Dad: "Im asking if your hungry... what do you want?"

Me: "I-I can make my own food. Y-you dont have to worry! Ok?"

Im scared to answer wrong. To do anything wrong. And now my mental health is declining because of it. Im terrified to make a mistake or even say the wrong thing.

My dad is now worried about me. He knows everything about my mom But its so hard to confront her. She's the type of person to threaten to off herself or hurt herself. She's also the type to make you feel really bad for your own feelings. Like one time, I told her how I felt, and she said, "Im sorry im such a bad mom." It hurts when she says those things. And that's her most common one too. Luckily, coming up soon, me and my dad and I are going to sit down with her and chat, but im terrified. We're going to tell her how I feel about her and all that. We're also going to get more days at my dad's house, which is good. But im still terrified on how she'll react. She'll either be really understanding and be great full, we told her... or she'll flip and tell my dad to keep me fully. She can be a completely different person sometimes. It's like, at one point, she's my mom and another. She's a crack head. Another point she's flipping out, another shes god oriented. Shes a fucking suprise box.

I guess truly my biggest fear is my mom and becoming her.

[ventingontumblissolamebutimworse]

My life.

???, 2023

I'm just thinking about why I couldn't be born normal? Why couldn't I have a normal life? If I wasn't like that, my parents would obviously have accepted us. But no, I had to be born a woman, this gender shit that has been fucked up by society since the beginning of its existence and I don't even feel like a fucking woman. I was never a woman, since I was a child I hated "girly" things because I felt "weak" and pathetic. In addition to my enormous jealousy and desire to have everything that boys had. Their freedom and happiness.

I always wanted to be a boy, and now that I can, my parents simply turn their backs on me saying "it will pass" and that I should "give it time"... What will pass, bro? My desire to want to "unplug" myself? To "turn myself off"? I should have done that when I was 10 years old, but no, I was a fucking cowardly, idiotic and stupid child who thought about how my friends would feel when they received the news that I had turned myself off.

How I thought my grandmother (the most homophobic and transphobic person I know after my brother) could even have a heart attack and die after seeing me dead. All this just because I couldn't have a normal fucking life. Is this because of some huge shit I did in a past life? Is that it? Because all this shit only means that I was one of the people who supported the mustache guy in that shit of his there, because it's not possible to have so many problems in my life.

Scoliosis, anxiety, depression (which has already "passed"), labyrinthitis, social phobia, persecution mania, trauma from older men and male intimate parts, abuse trauma, phobia of being observed, I also have problems staring at the face of someone who is not someone I trust. There is only shit in my life, for fuck's sake. IN ADDITION to the fact that I have suffered since I was 11 years old pretending that a person who I was proud to be related to, who I was proud to have learned almost everything I know from him, who I considered my favorite in the family simply did such a big shit to me that it gave me nightmares when I finally realized that this was not something normal, that this was not something a cousin should do to his younger cousin.

I'm disgusted, both by him and by myself. I hate myself. I'm disgusted by my body. I'm disgusted by my thighs, my belly, my private parts. I'm disgusted by everything that has to do with something sexual/attractive about my body. I simply don't have another word to explain what I feel for myself other than pure DISGUST. I'm disgusted by the parts he touched me. I'm disgusted by the parts he looked at. I'm disgusted by myself for being so naive, and for having "given myself" to him in that way...

I was blind. I thought, "Oh, if someone comes to abuse me, I'll know it's abuse and I'll fight back." "Oh, if someone wants to force me to do something I don't want to do, I'll say no and fight back if they try anyway." ... It wasn't like that. Not at all like that. I don't have depression anymore, I don't want to try to kill myself anymore, even though I still find the idea quite appealing. If I weren't a coward, I would have been dead a long time ago. And I'm still a coward for preferring to write my rant in a WhatsApp group that only has me instead of talking to my parents about all of this, or even to a psychologist.

I am a coward, disgusting, horrible, idiot, immature, childish and worst of all, naive... If I were given the choice of being able to die without feeling any kind of remorse for leaving the people I love "alone" in the world, I would accept it without even thinking twice. Or a pill that would let me jump to the part/event of my life that I want, making my consciousness jump to that part, but my body continue to act the same way I would normally act.

I would choose to jump to the moment of my death while I left my body on autopilot, living as I would live, but without knowing what happened. Because I would have jumped to the moment of my death. My mind would be dead, but my body would not. At least that way the people I love would not be sad about the loss, because they would not even know that they had actually lost me. I just wanted to be dead.

[thatnerdyqueer]

lmao ok so I just finished watching V for Vendetta

and I have a lot of ThoughtsTM

before you read HUGE TW OK. homophobia, transphobia, racism, antisemitism

Ok so I should preface this by saying the movie itself isn't homophobic, transphobic, particularly racist (as far as I know, I'm white so I've probably missed stuff and I apologise if I have), antisemetic (but again, maybe I missed stuff) or any of that.

in fact in my opinion it was an amazing, and extrememly terrifying movie.

But, it did feel like watching a highlight reel of all the worst parts of the political climate of 1930s germany and of course of the past few years.

now onto the funny bit:

I was watching the credits and I saw that it was a Wachowski sisters movie and omfg god it immediately made SO MUCH SENSE lol

when I say that V for Vendetta was SO TRANS I mean it. Like, in ways that I can't really articulate now bc I'm too tired but I might explain later, it was so trans. So. Trans.

It was soooo white lmaooooooooo. Like it kept talking about evil conservative politics and how gay people and shit are used as scapegoats, and while that was super powerful I was kinda confused as to why they like, totally glossed over intersectionality and other methods of oppression. It was weird to watch such a "progressive" film that didn't touch on race, like, at all. The closest they came was a guy getting arrested for owning a Koran. And the guy was white. (played by Stephen Fry My Beloved, no hate to him, he was fantastic as always and also I'm super scared about that fall he had I hope hes ok :( anyways). And then the second I saw that the Wachowski sisters made it I was like ooooooooooooooohhhhh thats why it just blatantly ignored racsim and had 0 (zero) characters from ANY ETHNIC BACKGROUND OTHER THAN FUCKING ENGLAND :/ Which, yknow, aside from being hurtful to the vast majority of the population of earth, just makes for a less interesting, less vibrant, less powerful story. It's about freedom, willingness to die for a cause, and rebellion for fucks sake. It shouldn't just be white.

Ok other ThoughsTM

It was weird, but also kinda touching to have V be the "guy" that fought for it all.

I don't really have the words for it at the moment, but in as simple terms as I can.

I was surprised at the unrealistic, but also extrememly important suggestion that a striaght, white, cis guy (assuming V was all of those things, even though he was hella fruity and queer coded) could ever allow himself to become the revolution, to become something bigger than himself, and more importantly, to be selfless enough to devote himself to the liberation of completely separate groups of people.

And, look, I'm not saying that they can't do that (Neil Gaiman as a shoutout, you stand up unabashedly for queer people, trans people, refugees, women, sex workers, disabled people, people of colour, etc etc and maybe thats because you're jewish so you know what fucking happens when you ignore discrimination for a little bit and allow it to fester because it aint you thats getting attacked so why should you care and anyway thats not a rant that I want to have), but I was just surprised, and kinda dissapointed that they did

Because its unrealistic. When as a white person ever been the champion of a a movement against racism? When has a man ever been a figurehead for feminism? Etc etc.

which brings me to my next point.

V's arc still disappointingly revolved around falling in love with a woman. Which really just felt like a way to distract straight viewers from his actual character arc so it was less confronting for them and they will never actually understand him or connect with him properly. I watched it with my parents (both straight), and there were moments when I felt completely sure that they were not grasping the point of a scene, or a line, or whatever. And they felt all righteous and content because they watched a movie about gay people fighting back or whatever, but the main character was still A FCUKING STRIAHGT MAN WTF.

And let me be clear. I DONT HAVE ANY OBJECTIONS TO HIM FALLING IN LOVE. I DONT AHVE ANY OBJECTIONS TO HIS LOVE INTEREST BEING A WOMAN. I'm just annoyed that the messaging was subtle enough that straight people and allo people distracted by a heterosexual romance would miss it. Yes, his love for Evey was tragic. Yes, it was beautiful. But no scene with them was ever actually about their love. It was about something bigger. Which I don't think my parents quite grasped.

Anyway. Conclusions.

Was it a good movie? Absolutely yes!

Will I be watching it again? Absolutely yes!

Was it a terrifying documentary about the world as we know it? Yes!

But could it have been more effective by diversifying slightly more? Yes.

(btw I am fully aware that this movie was made in 2005 and we need context and shit)

So yeah. Those are my thoughts. If you made it this far, wow. You're either a bit V for Vendetta fan, very passionate about activism, or not really concentrating properly.

So uh yeah.

[theconcealedweapon]

i find it funny how Republicans bitch about LGBT+ prowling and grooming cishet kids, when in fact LGBT kids are far more vulnerable to grooming than cishet kids.

Think about it. LGBT kids often grow up feeling lonely or alienated due to living in a world which revolves around heterosexuality. A good deal feel further alienated due to being bombarded with propaganda (from media and family) that labels LGBT-ness as evil or inferior. Every day they hear homophobic/transphobic things which takes its toll. They may be bullied by their peers as well.

LGBT kids may be kicked out on the streets by particularly homophobic/transphobic families. The streets are NOT a nice place for anybody, especially a child(god help them if they're female or perceived as such) . A homeless child generally has to resort to one or both of the following to survive :1) Sell drugs 2) get exploited/trafficked by sexual predators in exchange for food/shelter . I mean a homeless child can't exactly get a real job, open a bank account or check out a hotel room after all.

Plus some homeless shelters may be run by transphobes or homophobes.

A lonely child may resort to desperate measures for acceptance and love. Predators can smell the desperation of a vulnerable child a mile away.

Source: I grew up as a lonely gay kid in a homophobic family in a red state. A few of my peers became homeless while I was groomed online while I looking for acceptance online (I knew I would be disowned at best or killed at worst if I ever came out to my family)

If you want to protect LGBT children from being abused, they assume you want non-LGBT children to be abused more. They can't fathom the idea that some people can just live their lives without abusing children.

[bsotted]

like. imagine there was another word that just meant “gay” that got really popular. lets say the new word they decided to use was blay. and the people who identify with blay take every opportunity to make sure you know theyre not gay. and you ask them what makes blay different from gay and they say i’m so glad you asked. blay is actually trans inclusive, unlike gay. people who identify as blay are attracted to men AND trans men, because trans men obviously as we all are aware don’t fall under the umbrella of men unless you other them on purpose in order to be inclusive. anyway can you imagine being one of those transphobic gays that wont date trans people? what do you mean gay men date trans people all the time and it doesn’t invalidate their sexual orientation? of course it would i mean how could you say youre attracted to men since that obviously excludes trans people since trans men aren’t REAL men? I mean oops, hearts not parts! 😘 hahaha i’m so glad i’m not one of those lusty horny dirty sex obsessed gays who will sleep with literally anyone. i’m so proud to be one of the wholesome pure ones who actually values creating an emotional connection with my partner, since as we all know thats not what gayness is, its nasty and depraved and loveless and so widespread as a sinful phenomenon that i need a different word to make the point that i’m not like that. here, look at this flag i made for us!

like we can all see how that stance is both transphobic AND homophobic right. like we can see how the aids crisis and purity culture and whiteness created this construct right. youre trying so hard to be inclusive you’ve wrapped all the way back around to totally offensive.

like we know that queer people are capable of being queerphobic. so what can you possibly say to someone whose internalized homophobia goes so deep that even once they realize they belong in community with the rest of us they still feel the need to make up a whole other word to make sure no one confuses them for one of us? like how can you tell your gym class bully who beats you up for acting gay that the reason he’s so triggered by you just existing is because it reminds him of the things he used to do that his dad beat him so badly for that just the memory of it makes it painful and terrifying to see someone else just living their life not performing masculinity to that same standard. you cant teach him that because he’s actively beating you to a pulp. he needs to hear it from someone he either respects or fears and unlearn the homophobia first, because he’s homophobic while gay. and so how can you tell someone who still uses pan in 2023 that what they're doing is harmful when they think they're singlehandedly protecting the correct gender and sanctity of the rest of the community by doing so?

and the worst part is that using pan does NOTHING to protect you from the homophobia of the people who are bound and determined to be homophobic. the loved ones you’re most afraid of because you’re scared to be lumped in with actual bisexuals will need you to define your microlabel anyway. when they google it and find out it includes same sex attraction under is umbrella they will not be impressed that you're trying to be "trans inclusive" about it. if they were going to be bigots in the first place using pan instead of bi isnt going to fucking save you from them. and in your heart you know that and thats why you use pan primarily to signal to the rest of the community that you're One Of The Good Ones because your comfort depends on it but instead the ONLY thing you’re accomplishing is alienating the people who want to welcome you to the community so badly.

and look. nobody has to use any label. you don’t have to use any word at all if you dont want to, all words are equally made up. but if you are really really really attached to using pan. please ask yourself seriously why you are resisting bisexual so strongly and what you believe about bisexuality that is leading you there. if you really believe bisexuality isn’t trans inclusive please take another look at google. if you really believe bisexuals literally just date any person and don’t care what they’re like as people and are all promiscuous and that that is bad, please take a deep breath and look around and really try to internalize that you are not in the basement of your church at youth group anymore. the folding chairs are gone and you’re safe. and try to think about who taught you that was true and why they might have wanted you to believe that. use your brain. use your smartphone. if you’re looking at this post you have access to the internet.

and please know that this is a message that i am delivering with as much love as i am capable of as a person who USED to identify as pan. i know these things are true because i used to think this way and someone brave and kind but a little sick of the bullshit gave me a wake up call. this community has space for you, i promise.

i'm REALLY tired of celebs coming out with this energy of having been sitting on their truth for a long time and deliberating but going to the media and then choosing to use the pan label i'm so fucking tired dog i'm so sick of it. just admit that you dont see trans people as their real gender but instead as a sub-class of men or women and that you don't understand what nonbinary means. just admit that you believe bisexual is a dirty gross label because the biphobic rhetoric worked on you. christ.

[trollartistry]

Scott responded.

Scott responded to everything that is going on. <- Click to read on Reddit.

As for my own response and how I feel, it’ll be under a read more.

First of all, here’s my own response to him:

“I hardly post on Reddit, mostly because I struggle being able to keep up with so many accounts. But this is an exception because I feel that I HAVE to reply to you Scott, in terms of all of this.

As a pansexual transman, my very first thought when I saw it for myself who you donated for was "This has to be faked. Scott's done so much, there's no way he would vote for someone as corrupt and horrifying as Trump after seeing what he's done in the past four years." But as someone who absolutely hates Trump, I jumped to conclusions and my next thought was, "If this is true, I will never support FNaF and Scott ever again." And so the past few days have been a huge mental war because obviously it wasn't fake, and it was true. Did I think you purposely voted for a lot of Republicans like Trump out of spite for the LGBT+? No, especially because of how much support you've shown to us over the past several years. Did I still want to call off any and all support to you because at the time, I was whirling with emotions and upset as hell.

But you're not homophobic or transphobic in the slightest, and you definitely didn't deserve to get doxxed. I am so sorry people have attacked you like this when we [as in Twitter] should've all just waited for an explanation instead of attack you. I should've waited for an explanation instead of immediately thinking of the worst and wanting to get rid of my FNaF gear.

Am I still hurt knowing one of the coolest creators I know donated to quite a few people who hate my sheer existence and work everyday to make sure the LGBT+ community is illegal and hated? Yes, I am. But that hurt is eased knowing you were just trying to vote for who you thought was right [even though I HEAVILY disagree on those choices].

As someone whos part of the Twitter community, I'm so sorry for what we've done. And I'm personally sorry for at first jumping to conclusions.”

And I really am sorry to Scott. I’m sorry that Twitter decided to uproot his life like this and doxx him and put both him and his fucking wife in danger. I hate Trump. I hate most of the Republican party if not all of them. But to put Scott and his family in danger over this? It’s pathetic. The man never deserved that and Twitter’s fucked up for that.

..As for how I feel, I’m still a bit hurt by what happened. I honestly wish Scott spared at least one apology, and that would be to the LGBT+. He doesn’t have to apologize for the donations itself or for who he supported. I just think he could’ve spared *one* apology, and that would be how the information caused some pain to us, the LGBT+ community. I’m not saying its owed though.

I’m still a bit hurt, but seeing how Scott was just trying to do what he thought was right, it helps a bit.

As for what I’m gonna do.. I think I’m still gonna enjoy FNaF. Make art for it, enjoy people playing the games, etc. The only thing I will personally buy for myself though will be Security Breach when it comes out [and I hope this whole thing doesnt destroy it] and that will be that. I enjoy Scott’s work and he seems to be great despite this whole ordeal, but I won’t be giving my money towards his stuff anymore knowing it would go to people that hate my guts.

TL;DR: I feel better, I’m not leaving the FNaF fandom, and I’ll still draw for it. I’ll also still support Scott, just without my money.