#and around 8pm - 9pm i tell myself i need to be done with study stuff unless i really cannot afford it
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GOOD DAY EVERYONE, HAPPY EL WOO WOO WEDNESDAY! I haven't been tagged and I didn't have anything to share. In fact, I was feeling Pretty Bad, but then I got hit by a sudden Moment of Inspiration and I wrote 480 words for The Class Menagerie, which, compared to earlier progress reports, is huge and I want to share that!
Have some Kurt lore:
“How did you get into teaching?” Blaine asks. Kurt lets out a sigh. It isn’t a big marvellous story. Teaching wasn’t his dream growing up, but that is fine. Sometimes you work hard on something, only to realise that it isn’t what you want after all. That’s what happened to Kurt. He was enrolled in a drama school, but he wasn’t feeling it. This only stressed him out, because he’d worked hard to be accepted into the school. He thought that acting on stage was his dream, so it really messed him up when he realised that it wasn’t true. Still, he saw no way out. He was committed to finishing his degree. Then in his second year he had to do an internship and he did it at a school. He helped out in a drama department and it was as if the clouds in his head parted. He realised that he was still young and that he had his life ahead of him, so he made the big decision to quit drama school to learn to become a teacher. During that time, he realised he preferred the pre-school age. “And here I am,” Kurt wraps up his story.
I am still not finished and I hope (HOPE!) to have finished it on the 30th, so that I can post it within the posting period, but I am carefully and yet totally obviously planting the seed here that I might not make it. I did revise my plans for the ending, but alas, I don't know the concrete plans. But it's a-going!
As usual, have a Mimi:
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#wip wednesday#tagged in#basically i am happy i got some writing down#these days i am just so tired#like i havent even attempted any audio editing in weeks even tho jenna made me that video cause i an tired#like i haven't been doing well for almost 3 weeks now#cause of all the aforementioned stress caused by my current degree#i am just so busy and then once i am done in the evening i just play viddy games#cause that feels the easiest#i wanna draw and read and write but i am just Tired#and that feels like more energy cause i am currently playing (and enjoying) a very cosy game#oh and splatoon which does occasionally makes me want to tear my hair out#but that is splatoon#but yeah i am stressed but still comfortably dressed and i even ordered a second hand ring fit adventure in order to release stress#trying to manage my stress yada yada#and around 8pm - 9pm i tell myself i need to be done with study stuff unless i really cannot afford it#so that i have the evenings off so that i can hopefully decompress#ANYWAY#that is life#god i wish i had a mimi to cuddle
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Step By Step
Kim Namjoon Series
Arranged Marriage Series
Main Masterlist
KNJ x Poc Reader
Warnings: None
Word Count: 2k+
“Shhh...come on YoungMi, please get some sleep for mommy.” You paced around your daughter’s room while rocking her in your arms. You glanced over at the clock that read 2:43 am and took a deep breath. YoungMi whined and cried quietly in your arms. You knew she couldn’t help it since she was sick and the poor thing couldn’t get sleep. After getting prescribed medicine, the doctor said it should work after a couple of hours but Namjoon, being Namjoon, forgot to give it to her before her bedtime and you were left to fix it. It had only been a few minutes since you gave it to her and she started to quiet down.
Ever since that day at the building, you and Namjoon haven’t been on the best of terms. You avoided him as much as possible, only talking to him when it was related to the child you both shared. You didn’t have long to think about the living conditions since all of your stuff had already been moved in anyways. You did what you had to for your baby, wanting nothing but the nest for her. That was a few months ago, of course and now you had to deal with a sick, crying baby. Although you weren’t talking to Namjoon as much, you were able to figure out his schedule since it was a must.
5 am- Namjoon wakes up and so does YoungMi
5:30- Namjoon has eaten breakfast while you feed the baby as well and let Namjoon hold her for a while before heading to the studio.
6 am- YoungMi goes back down after being tired from waking up so early and you take a shower.
7 am- You cook yourself breakfast and do any cleaning that wasn’t done the night before while learning Korean through an app and books, with help from Jimin.
7:45- YoungMi wakes up and you get her dressed for the day.
Between 8 am and 10 pm you give MiMi her tummy time so she can learn to crawl, feed her and you make a grocery list for later, make lunch and do laundry.
By 12:30 YoungMi is down for her nap while you eat breakfast and learn more Korean, taking notes.
1:15- MiMi wakes up from her nap and is fed again.
2pm: You and the baby go out to the grocery store and spend some time at the Han River.
5pm: You start cooking dinner and brush up on your studies since you’re still waiting for a few phone calls for your esthetician job.
6pm- You feed MiMi again and turn on soft music for her to listen to while she sits in her bouncer and watches you make dinner.
7pm- You give MiMi her bath
8pm- You eat and put the rest up for Namjoon
9pm- Namjoon comes home and goes right to spend some time with MiMi before bed while you learn more Korean.
10pm- Namjoon takes another shower and goes to bed while you go to bed in the other bedroom.
You had all of this figured out within the 3 months that you’ve been living together. Sometimes Namjoon will send a text to see YoungMi on his lunch break at the building so you bring her there, but you won’t say a word to him and the boys can tell that there’s a lot of tension between the two of you. They don’t speak on it, since most of them have their own issues going on already with their wives. When you do need a break, Namjoon’s mother, the angel that she is, will take the baby to give you some free time in which you do squeeze in a few sessions with a personal trainer since you wanted to get your body back.
Now, in this room with your daughter slowly falling asleep, you sniffled some since she was starting to make you sick, all from taking care of her. You kissed her head a few times, rocking back and forth. Even if your eyes felt heavy and you wanted to sleep, you knew you couldn’t until she was okay. Motherhood was definitely taking its toll on you and your body but you wouldn’t give her up for anything. It was hard, but you knew you could do it and even if you and Namjoon didn’t see eye to eye he was a great dad, a little forgetful but great to MiMi.
Laying her down in her crib and placing a blanket over her, you walked over to the humidifier in her room and filled it with more water, turned it on and walked back to your own room. Hearing the other door open, you froze and turned to see Namjoon coming out of the room, shirtless and wearing boxers while scratching his chest and staring at you. “She okay? I heard her crying.” He grumbled. God, why does his voice have to be so deep and sexy at this hour? If you didn’t hate him so much right now you would probably be pregnant again. You hadn’t gotten laid since the night your daughter was conceived but you were sure he got his fill while you suffered.
“She’s fine now, you forgot to give her the medicine she was supposed to take hours ago.” He cursed and rubbed his face. “I forgot...I’m sorry. Hectic day and-” “It’s taken care of now, just go back to bed.” You cut him off, not really in the mood to hear what he had to say. Closing your door behind you, taking a deep breath, you sat on the edge of your bed and rubbed the back of your neck and that’s when your door opened and in walked Namjoon, closing it behind him and clasping his hands together. Was he for real? Right now at this hour and still wearing boxers?
“Y/N...we need to talk about this now. It’s been months and this is getting ridiculous. I know we don’t know much about each other but we do have a daughter together and I would like for us to get along for her sake. There’s an award show coming up and the company wants us to invite the wives, ever since the announcement people have been waiting to see all of you so I need you on this, Y/N, please. There’s already enough stress with this comeback and the new album dropping soon.” He paused for a few seconds and looked at you. “We can talk more about it in the morning, you can even sleep in the bed with me and move your stuff into the room. I want to work this out.” He added.
He looked like a God when he was begging like this. Blinking a few times, you rolled your eyes twice as hard as he spoke and picked at your pajama shorts before looking up at him. “I want you to apologize. Apologize to me for what you said. You wanted me to stay out of your way, you wanted me to stay in the extra bedroom and not bother you while you work and I gave you exactly what you wanted and now you hate it. I’ve been giving you what you’ve wanted besides this marriage that I had no say in...I just want you to know, that as hard as it is for you it was hard for me too, Namjoon. To be pregnant by myself with no help, drive myself to the hospital and give birth alone and then take care of her for 2 months by myself. No help, just sleeping when she sleeps and eating when she isn’t crying. So, with that, the only thing I want from you is an apology. I’ll fix everything else tomorrow and we can figure something out but I just need you to understand that I’m also overwhelmed too.” You climbed under the blanket and looked at him.
“Please, let me get some sleep, call your mother in the morning to pick up MiMi and keep her for the day.” Namjoon nodded and gave you a small smile. “This will all work out, I promise. All relationships have obstacles and this is one of many that we will get through. Things will get crazier but I promise I’ll try my best for both of you. Um, goodnight, Y/N.” He nodded his head once again before leaving the room.
Great, now you were stuck staring up at the ceiling and thinking about what he just said. Clearly he needed to redeem himself and you could tell he felt guilty about what you went through while being alone and pregnant. Also, you had forgotten about the award show and even the whole announcement. You stayed away from most of your social media except for Instagram, which you kept extremely private and you wouldn’t dare to go on Twitter even though you had thousands of notifications. What were you gonna wear to this award show anyways?
You and the other wives had your fittings in one dressing room, all matching colors with your husband, your color was gold. You were placed in a short dress, black with gold details, the back was only slightly low and the dress itself stopped at your mid thigh, almost feeling like a second skin. Your jewelry was gold as well, a few rings, earrings, a gold diamond choker and a a bracelet. Your shoes were black, keeping those simple. You did your own hair, keeping your curls but less volume and did a simple smokey eye with a brown lip.
You waited with the other wives, quietly talking amongst them and taking in how beautiful they all were. Jin’s wife was last to get ready, being the diva that you thought she was but once you all were ready, you waited for the boys. Looking over your fresh manicure that you were not used to having, you played with the rings on your fingers while the boys walked out, all dressed in their own style of suits but they matched the dresses overall. Namjoon stared at you, his eyes looking over your body and you glared at him before getting into the vehicle that was to escort all of you to the red carpet.
The amount of cameras and people that were on the red carpet was overwhelming. You weren’t ready at all but Namjoon, kept you next to him, holding your hand while you all walked and waited to take pictures. The screams were insane, your body tensed up every now and then but you kept a small smile on your face while posing and taking pictures. While the boys spoke, you and the other wives took a few photos together, it was weird that people knew your names and asked you to turn and take photos for them.
Each couple had their interview, which thankfully you didn’t have to speak much and Namjoon did almost all of the talking. He led you inside, his hand on your lower back and waved at a few people. Once inside, you walked to your seats. “Are you okay?” Namjoon asked and you nodded, confused as to why until you heard the fans from afar, some cheering and others yelling bad things at you and the other wives. Scrunching your eyebrows, you held Namjoon’s hand and squeezed it while staring at the stage as they got things together.
At one point during the show, the boys got up, more than once to accept awards and then to perform. You sat next to Jimin’s wife who was on your right, dancing in your seats to most of the songs and grinning when the boys performed. The whole night was something you never thought you would have the luxury of being in. The idols were nice, at least most of them, some of them didn’t take the time to say hi but it didn’t bother you. You knew why but you didn’t let it ruin your night.
The boys were phenomenal, winning so many awards that even they were shocked. Although it was long, it finally ended and you were able to go home. As Namjoon walked over to you, sweat on his face, you grabbed a napkin and patted it away for him, fixed his collar and jumped when you heard someone behind you call his name. Jackson Wang, of Got7. He jogged over to you two and briefly spoke to Namjoon, asking him to come to the after party.
Within the two weeks that you moved back into the main bedroom, worked out your schedules and your daughter got over her cold, things were looking better. The fandom was still shaken up, but on your end, this was what you wanted for your daughter, a great life and even greater parents.
You nodded to Namjoon, seeing as he was looking at you for confirmation for the after party. Of course, you would be going with him since Jackson insisted.
The after party was a different atmosphere, more relaxed than the award show. There were drinks, actual food and music playing. The building in which it was being held was beautifully decorated, red carpeting and a chandelier in the middle of the room. The first thing you did was grab a glass of wine and took a sip while Namjoon introduced you to a few people. Jackson made his way back over. “You made it and you brought your beautiful wife.” He cheered and finished his glass of whatever he was drinking and held out his hand to you. He kissed the back of your hand and you full on smiled, giggling. “Wow, Namjoon-ah, you really outdid it. She’s so beautiful. Your dress is amazing.” He commented towards you and you thanked him as he spun you around.
From the corner of your eye, you can see Namjoon’s jaw tighten visibly and he pulled you back to his side and stared down at you. Jackson was still holding onto your hand, looking over your rings and showering you in compliments, your face was burning from it all and Namjoon took your now empty glass from you and went to get you another one.
“So how does it feel to be Mrs. Kim Namjoon, huh? Where did you two meet and how come I didn’t see you first?” He joked and you laughed, explaining that you met in California a little over a year ago. You let go of his hand as he talked about his music and the trips he had lined up, you noticed Namjoon standing by the bar, watching you, carefully and you hugged Jackson goodbye, his hands rubbing your back before letting go.
Once you were in front of Namjoon, he leaned down to your ear. “We’re leaving now.” He ordered and grabbed your hand, pulling you with him out of the building and towards the car that was waiting for you. He sent a quick text and the other members came piling into the car with you and you all drove off.
You didn’t know what caused this sudden change in character for him but something told you he was angry about whatever it was. Maybe Jackson being too friendly or maybe he just wasn’t feeling well. Whatever it was, you were gonna ask him once you two got home anyways.
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Plan for a couple days
Frustrating day today, and not super productive last couple weeks. Have done a bunch of painting for my undeads, so that's been fun at least, that's felt productive, while not actually being, you know, productive in any meaningful sense. Tomorrow's a day off, and my habit on those recently has been to squander them. Maybe not, tomorrow, though?
I'm thinking maybe a schedule, instead of just a to-do list. I need some structure, the kind I used to get from classes. Going to try for 2 hour chunks, not sure if that's too much or too little, will reassess friday. As long as I spend at least one hout doing the thing, that's fine.
Ok, so here's what I'm aiming for for the rest of this week:
Today: * study time at 8pm, I'm feeling calculus * bed between 9 and 10 * lights out at 10
Thursday: * alarm for 6 * 7am: breakfast * 8am: study session 1 * 10am: commission painting * 12pm: lunch break, dishes * 2pm: free parking * 4pm: study session 2 * 6pm: dinner, dishes * after dinner, room mate should be home. Can maybe paint some, but not much else, and maybe not even that. * 9pm bed, lights out by 10 * misc tasks during short breaks: laundry
Friday * alarm for 6 * walk to work by 6:30 (take breakfast with) * 7am: check messages * 8am: filing * 10am confirm, pull sat, mon * 11am: misc tasks * 12pm: walk home, lunch, dishes * 2pm: free parking * 4pm: study session * 6pm dinner, dishes * friday social gathering * 9pm bed time * 10pm lights out I'll aim for that, see how it goes. See if 2 hour segments are too short or too long. Looking at it, they might be too long, at least for some things, because there's stuff I would have wanted to fit into thus schedule, like cleaning, painting of my own models, video games, other creative projects, that's just not there. Maybe I can split that stuff up between different days.
As a general thing, I want to try to fit one study session every day, and extra ones on my mid week days off, tuesday & thursday. Right now I'm picturing these as mostly working through old math & programming textbooks, but once I feel less rusty on those, well, we'll see.
Edit: I just got done entering all this junk into my phone calendar with little beepy reminders. When I was in college, I used to joke about wishing I had a little talking turtle that would ride around on my shoulder constantly telling me what to do so I never had to make decisions or manage my own time, because I was obviously not capable of doing that shit for myself. Maybe my phone can be the turtle. Maybe I won't just ignore its nagging beeps. Maybe I won't sit down to study like it told me to and waste 2 hours on youtube instead. Maybe.
Edit: so far so good. Was up a bit later than intended wednesday due to room mate home earlier than expected, and just difficulty getting to sleep, and consequently a bit slow to start this morning, but so far things are going alright. went back to the c++ book I was working on a while back, and reviewed up to where I left off back then. ready to work on some painting.
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