#and aris and teresa friendship is there and i love writing them

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i love fanfiction so much and especially aus because you can explore so many things and relationships and dynamics between characters that it wasn’t possible to even really think about in the main series 

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2, 3, 4, and 11 for I May Do No Harm?

this ask is about I May Do No Harm, my big thomesa movieverse fix-it

the following contains part spoilers for the fic

2: What scene did you first put down?

The prologue.

I knew a whole lot about the story when I started writing it though. I knew that I wanted Teresa to become the island’s doctor, and go through that whole theme of how she was trying help people, heal them, be a doctor, but had to harm the hippocratic oath in a major way to do so (hence the name of the fic). I also knew about several cornerstones on the way, such as Minho and Thomas’ dispute over Teresa’s fate, or Sonya’s pregnancy. And of course the big reveal about Thomas having been in love with Newt ToT.

3: What’s your favorite line of narration?

ah wait, i first had the very last sentence of the piece in here, but then realized this was abt lines of narration and dialogue is in the question below.

i first chose 3 quotes, but then starting writing my thoughts on this one and they turned so profound i decided to go with only this one (the end of chapter 21 Home):

There was something about that sunrise. Something about feeling Tom‘s arms around her. Something to do with hope. Something to do with belonging.

Something to do with home.

Because that's such a motive in this fic. The question of 'where do you belong', and what does it take to make a home, to find a home, to be given a home. It was very important to me to outline the struggle Thomas and Teresa, but more so Teresa, has with being an outcast.

She tried her best, she really did, and she did terrible things to make it happen. And I was so interested in the concept of Thomas alone not being enough. That a romantic (and potentially sexual) relationship cannot give you all and everything, no matter how pure, how good and how strong that relationship is.

It's funny, this is a Thomesa fanfiction (and it's so important to me that it's Thomesa), but in a way one of the most central parts of this story is that just their relationship alone is not enough - and could never be.

Humans are social creatures, and we need all sorts of relationships to be happy. Platonic ones, casual ones, even slightly tense and jagged ones. We need the strength of the people around us to navigate life - signified by the first reluctant way Aris comes to Teresa for help, where her scientific ideas mattered more than her morality, the gruff way Gally talks to Thomas at the memory stone, or the friendship Fry and Teresa form.

Kind of funny that my most dearest fanfiction - the place where people write about romantic love over and over and over - is the one highlighting everything else a person needs than romantic love. I'll go sit with that thought for a moment or a year now.

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

That's is the very last thing spoken in the fic:

“Don’t you worry, my love. You‘ll never need to know just how wicked the world can get.”

11: What do you like best about this fic?

Uff. Everything? What do you like best about the fic oak?

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thank you so much for sending this ask!

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edit 4/18/2020: haven’t discussed any edits in years. everything has changed drastically and i’m still in the process of updating everyone’s sheets. many new character editions: hell squad itself has grown as a whole. i’ll delete the “supporting roles” section-- everyone is equal parts important now and all have their own stories going on while still being tied to each other in one way or another. all co-exist with some of jonah’s ocs, all of which will be labelled below. 

the owens’ family has grown drastically while also shrinking: i might re-purpose mel in the future but for now she’s got nothing to do with the owens’ story anymore. her sheet will stay up as a page, but i’ll remove the link from the directory. the boys have two new sisters (astrid and lia) and now a step-dad (sean) too! very exciting. jade’s also a lot less of a piece of shit. any writing done in 2016-2017 is pretty much irrelevant. drugs still make him act out, but only in the way of saying shit he doesn’t mean. i’m eliminating physical abuse from jasper’s story altogether, save the verses where he winds up with seth long-term. 

seth will not get a sheet, but his full name is seth bennett. i simply do not want to develop him any more than jasper’s bf/ex-bf.

the marshells are also getting a big change: we’re going back to our roots today. this is something i decided literally 5 minutes ago, but i’m changing their last name back to monroe. marshell has a nice ring, but i’m cheesy and i want to keep their inspiration not just in the back of my mind as a relic, but in everyone’s face directly because i am a whore. i’ve toyed with different ideas for backstory for the girls for a long time, but finally i’ve settled on a house fire in middle school that april and hazel are caught in due to their parents’ neglect. for a detailed version, it’s now listed on their sheets. no more break-in/burglary. also, the monroes no longer live next to the owens-- hazel and jasper meet through theater in high school and jade and april meet through the two of them as usual. hazel’s pronouns have changed slightly since the last edit post-- they and she are both acceptable to use. i’m leaving them listed as nonbinary because they are, but they present feminine 80% of the time so it doesn’t make sense for them to get angry about being “misgendered” any time past high school. hazel’s also a canon tumblr kinnie throughout high school. as a fun fact. april hasn’t changed that much because honestly she was never extremely developed in the first place. she’s still gorgeous and popular and a sweetheart that no one really has any ill will towards. oh actually now that i think about it, she has a scene phase. minor change, but it explains why she likes jade so much and also how she dabbles in drugs here and there.

neph is probably the biggest addition, because with her comes alex also. god i don’t even know where to start with what’s changed about her. her sheet is actually the original sheet she started with, so i think hers might take priority. alex was initially named josh and he died in a car accident next to neph in her very early days. she was originally created with the intent of being a poet (hence her name nephley, meaning faerie of words). somewhere (not sure where really) i decided i wanted to make her a super well trained figure skater and abandoned the poetry side of her. before that changed, josh was renamed to alex (between aiden’s stepdad and updating evan’s middle name to joshua it made more sense) and his cause of death changed from a car accident to suicide while she was competing. her backstory’s been the same since about 2018. she’s jade’s ex but stays tied to the story most of the time as a friend of both abby and ari (jonah’s) after alex dies. 

alex is more fleshed out than just neph’s dead best friend as well. he grows up an only child with an abusive mother, turns to drugs/alcohol at a young age and gets progressively more depressed. he’s close with ari, azi (jonah’s) and lydia by extension and basically all they do together is drugs. he doesn’t let neph come over when he’s with them because he knows she has potential to be great and refuses to ruin her. ironically enough, by dying he does exactly that. only sometimes he doesn’t actually die, he simply fakes his death to run away with his mermaid boyfriend.

as for lydia, she’s the newest actual* addition to hell squad and pretty much only has ties to ari, alex and jasper by extension there. she’s a scene furry who loves to rave. she’s popular on deviantart with her art (tag tbd) and basically uses commissions as a main source of income. when she moves in with her high school boyfriend (originally named logan but i’m renaming him hunter because i feel like it) she does pick up a job at mcdonald’s briefly, but struggles hard with body image and has an awful relationship with food and eventually she gets hired at spencer’s with her friend james (jonah’s). he takes her in when she and hunter break up (he’s cheating on her) and she isn’t sure where to go. they end up dating in the end.

*emmett is really the newest addition, but he isn’t usually involved in the group. he lives in the same town as russ (jonah’s), jade’s end-game boyfriend in most verses. he’s a jock werewolf, really sweet and defensive of his pack and big. lowkey i think i subconsciously based him off zeke from high school musical. he plays football and soccer and loves to bake. he initially started as a reincarnation of jasper (hence the baking) but i fell in love with his dumb ass so much so that i decided to keep him as his own character. occasionally he does cross paths with abby and befriends him also. he’s fairly religious.

on the subject of supernatural creatures, riley and evan have made some pretty drastic changes as well: riley himself is more developed, but when i created evan in 2015 he was supposed to be fiery. he’s a baby now. he’s built to be a trophy husband and he simply likes minecraft and to get drunk at holidays. riley took all of evan’s fire-- he would also die for his family and he proves it when he goes to juvie for putting a kid in a coma after hearing him call evan a f*ggot.  they’re modern-aged vampires now with a nuclear family. josephine and adam have been introduced as their parents and while previously they would always be on business trips or lived in europe, they simply parent their kids. josephine (josie for short) is best friends with abby’s mother, teresa (jonah’s), explaining abby and evan’s friendship from childhood. teresa and josephine befriend joanna when she moves into town and everyone takes the loss hard-- when there is one. which is only sometimes at this point. the favors, the owens, and the wickfields (jonah’s) are their own mega-family basically. they all celebrate holidays together.

holly and sage whitney are the last updates: holly and quinn (jonah’s) remain friends since childhood since holly used to dance with him. in high school, holly gets a job at starbucks and becomes friends with abby. through abby, she meets azi and they fall in love and live a pretty normal life. sage’s only change is that she’s friends with astrid and lia, the owens’ little sisters. i rarely touch sage anymore because she’s younger than the main age group.

i THINK that covers all of the updates made in the past two years. i’ll try to keep up more with major updates from here on out, but with the amount of aus we create, it does get hard to keep track. i tried to keep everything on one timeline for the sake of this post but there is the occasional “sometimes” listed. this took me 4 hours! :D