#and also to not have them “win” all the time. like hanma doesnt always get to have his fun and chifuyu isnt always right to be optimistic

[gratuiciel]

thinking about this side of hanma hurts so much tbh, this is probably the first time in his life he would have regrets and grieve someone (what if he's already had people close to him die but felt next to nothing (or maybe a vague sense of relief) because they were all objectively terrible/abusive to him? and so he was convinced that ppl dying was no big deal at all to him, and even enjoyed thinking this way bc not fearing for anyone's life = having no weakness that can be used against him). but then he loses kisaki and all of a sudden he's no longer the reaper of kabukicho who laughs in the face of death but a regular guy with (somewhat) regular emotions?? the fuck

and the way he easily said stuff like "i like you" (that word can also be read as love but iirc most translations ive seen have been playing it safe lol) or "life with you is like a circus" (= full of fun and amazing things) to kisaki but like, probably in a playful way (think brothel workers using sweet talk and compliments as a way to keep a client coming/make them attached even though they may not mean it) but thinking back on it, how sincere was he actually? did he catch feelings along the way? did he catch himself saying those words and actually mean it? aaaaa

bonten hanma where were u and what were u doing? how did mikey even agree to letting this guy in? was it because despite it all mikey still respected kisaki and took on the responsibility for everything he'd done? dude is so hard to figure out

time traveller hanma is so compelling tbh. could've been interesting to have two time leapers undoing each other's progress and fucking up the timelines even more. also rly funny to think that the one influencing every timeline the most is not even someone with super powers but just a tiny nerd with Big Dreams, and so whoever manages to influence him during his formative years gets to shape the future lmao (final timeline takemichi turning kisaki into a good guy™ and then in the future ceo!kisaki regularly donates thousands if not more to charity... that dude will Not half-ass anything) i think that's one of the things i like the most about kisaki tbh, the fact that he has the capacity to do either tremendous good or tremendous harm depending on where he sets his sights

ooo hanma playing the long game and trying to get revenge against the ones who made his world dull again, i'd love to read that (but would he still keep his drive for revenge when he sees the way mikey already self-sabotages and will definitely kick the bucket soon anyway? would he start to feel something like compassion for him? also would sanzu even let him approach his king at all skfhd that guy went full guard dog in bonten)

@gratuiciel ur tags hurt me (and I love that) I'm fascinated with depressed era hanma, the fact that he relaxed thinking that Kisaki got away! Only to find his corpse on the road. Keeps thinking about what he could've done, if he had hold on to the bike better, if he had spent less time fighting with draken, and yeah always looking back at these six (6!) months of his life where everything was so colorful and he took it for granted. Maybe the first time in his life where he actually (somewhat) cared about another human being, only to have it ripped out from him.

I always wondered how he came to be in bonten, especially as he wasn't that useful anyway. We joke about Hanma being just some guy at the end of the manga but there was something to be done with him that just didn't happen and it makes me sad. So many fanart of him going back into the past and meeting little Kisaki... I want to develop that idea cuz I feel like he would try to shape into the boy he remembers but at the same time he would be scared to death of something happening to Kisaki. Plus, with the kid not being lonely to death I doubt he would develop that same passion for Hinata. But even if Hanmas not a time traveller, just the idea of him taking revenge on Takemichi and Mikey in Bonten is just, chef's kiss. Wanna write something about that (girl who has 1384949 wips)

[ttkinnie]

Everything you said about hanma 🥲 finally turning human when his first friend dies it's Greek tragedy level of cursed. His way of crying is representative of that I think, still smiling with tears streaming down his face, like he doesn't know how to do it.

Oh my good yes I hc his flirty personality as a side effect of his education too, especially since he looks so much older than he is it wouldn't be weird for him to be a host~ the play pretend boyfriend type that are popular with women. So the words come easily to him, but the feelings are buried so deep in him he doesn't even realize there's something more to that relationship he has with that one little guy.

No but fr, what was Mikey even thinking. I go with different routes depending on the mood, like with how Hanma was just some guy in the end it could be anything but there's: 1) Hanma asked to be let in ~ maybe to get revenge on Takemichi, or because there's no future for him and that's the only thing he knows, or because he wants to kill himself through Mikey's violence and that brings us to 2) Mikey asked him ~ because indeed he respected Kisaki and took pity on Hanma, or he was suspicious about Hanma and wanted to keep an eye on him to protect Takemichi, or he wanted to take revenge on Kisaki for the murders, Emma's among them, through Hanma (this one is interesting for hanma whump and that's my jam)

Okay but the vision of the two time travellers fighting over small Kisaki is hilarious. Divorced parents arguing over guarding their child vibe, except one parent wants to make him a crime lord and the other wants to stop the kid from murdering people. Or darker Takemichi is torn between killing baby Hitler and being nice to him and Hanma protecting the kid and shaping him into a super villain for more moral nuance, the qui pro quos would be so funny my god.

Hanma as a jaded criminal my beloved, falling into insanity with hallucinations of Kisaki telling him what to do? I feel like he would go for Takemichi first since that's the guy who watched Kisaki died, almost killed him himself (I want to read a fic where takemichi pulls the trigger before the track arrives... the moral dilemma) but him being the subject of Sanzu's suspicion sounds hilarious tbh, Hanma acting innocent with angel of death Kisaki on his shoulder screaming kill them all 😭

@gratuiciel ur tags hurt me (and I love that) I'm fascinated with depressed era hanma, the fact that he relaxed thinking that Kisaki got away! Only to find his corpse on the road. Keeps thinking about what he could've done, if he had hold on to the bike better, if he had spent less time fighting with draken, and yeah always looking back at these six (6!) months of his life where everything was so colorful and he took it for granted. Maybe the first time in his life where he actually (somewhat) cared about another human being, only to have it ripped out from him.

I always wondered how he came to be in bonten, especially as he wasn't that useful anyway. We joke about Hanma being just some guy at the end of the manga but there was something to be done with him that just didn't happen and it makes me sad. So many fanart of him going back into the past and meeting little Kisaki... I want to develop that idea cuz I feel like he would try to shape into the boy he remembers but at the same time he would be scared to death of something happening to Kisaki. Plus, with the kid not being lonely to death I doubt he would develop that same passion for Hinata. But even if Hanmas not a time traveller, just the idea of him taking revenge on Takemichi and Mikey in Bonten is just, chef's kiss. Wanna write something about that (girl who has 1384949 wips)