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concepts for that game i talked about yesterday
#homestuck#homestuck ocs#fantrolls#ocs#karvis horyas#i have other game ideas too but this one is the most fleshed out ...#and also the most complicated i think#đ¨
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DP x DC: The Most Dangerous Card Game
Ok so Danny has essentially claimed earth as his. And he is fully aware that there are constant threats to the planet. Now he canât stop a threat that originates on earth (thatâs something heâll leave to the Justice league) but he can do something about outside threats. Doing some research on ancient spells, rituals, and artifacts, he cast a world wide barrier on the planet to protect it from hostile threats so they cannot enter. This will prevent another Pariah Dark incident. However, barriers like this come at a price. You see, there are two ways to make a barrier. Either make one powered up by your own energy and power (which would be constantly draining) or set up a barrier with rules. The way magic works is that nothing can be absolutely indestructible. It must have a weakness. The most powerful barriers werenât the ones reinforced with layer after layer of protective charms and buffed up with power. Those could eventually be destroyed either by being overpowered, wearing them down, or by cutting off the original power source. No, the most powerful barriers were the ones with a deliberate weakness. A barrier indestructible except for one spot. A cage that can only be opened from the outside. Or that can only be passed with a key or by solving a riddle. So Danny chooses this type of barrier and does the necessary ritual and pours in enough power to make it. And he adds his condition for anyone to enter.Â
Now the Justice league? Find out about the barrier when Trigon attempts to attack, they were preparing after he threatened what he would do once he got to earth. How he would destroy them. The Justice league tried to take the fight to him first but were utterly destroyed, so they retreated home to tend to their injuries, and fortify earth for one. Last. Stand. Only when Trigon makes his big entranceâŚheâs stopped.
The Justice league watch in awe as this thin see-through barrier with beautiful green swirls and speckled white lights like stars apears blocking Trigon and his armyâs advance. The barrier looks so thin and fragile yet no matter how hard the warlord hits, none of his attacks can get through and neither can he damage said barrier. Thatâs when Constantine and Zatanna recognizes what this barrier is. Something only a powerful entity could create. For a moment, the league is filled with hope that Trigon canât get through yet Constantine also explains that itâs not impenetrable. And clearly Trigon knows this too for he calls out a challenge.Â
And thatâs when, in a flash of light, a tiny glowing teenager appears. He looked absolutly minuscule compared to Trigon and yet practically glowed with power (this isnât a King Danny AU though).
And that is when the conditions for passing the barrier are revealed. And the Justice realize that the only thing stopping Trigon and his army from decimating earth. The only way he can get throughâŚ.is by beating this glowing teenager in a card game.Â
Not just any card game though. The most convoluted game Sam, Danny, and Tucker invented themselves. Itâs like the infinite realms version of magic the gathering, combined with PokĂŠmon, and chess. And Danny is the master. So sit down Trigon and letâs play.
(The most intense card game of the Justice leagueâs life).
After Danny wins, this happens a few more times with outer word beings and possibly even demons attempting to invade earth, yet none have been able to beat the mysterious teenager in a card game. Constantine might even take a crack at it and try to figure out how to play. Heâs really bad though. Every time this happens, the Justice league worry that this might be the time the teenager looses. Yet every time, he wins (even if only barely).Â
Meanwhile, Danny, Sam, and Tucker have gotten addicted to the game and play it almost daily. Some teachers might seem them playing the game are are like âawww how cuteâ not realizing this game is literally saving the world. Jazz is just happy they arenât spending as much time on their screens playing Doomed.
#DPxDC#Kizzer55555 ideas#Danny makes a card game to save the world.#Technically he worded the ritual so that they had to âbeatâ him as those are the most powerful barriers and most reliable.#keys can just get lost or stolen (like the one to Pariahâs Coffin)#A riddle would be useless once someone figured out the answer. Like how no one takes the sphynx seriously anymore.#(Sorry Tuck. But itâs true).#And there is NO WAY Danny is just leaving a hole open for anyone to pass through. No thank you!#SoâŚbeating him. But itâs not like Danny wanted to fight soâŚhe edited the ritual a TINY bit. Card games are good. Much less painful too.#Danny Tucker and Sam made the most complicated card game they could imagine.#Itâs based on their strategies for fighting ghosts. Capturing them in thermoses. And MUCH based on a on field battle strategy.#It often requires spontaneous thinking on the spot. So Danny? In his ELEMNT. It doubles as practice for his actual ghost battles too.#They had SO much fun making this.#Sam added an entire series of plant cards that act as traps and healing ointments and duds that just take up the field.#Tucker added legitimate hyroglyphics combined with Latin as well as English and ghost speak.#Yes. You actually have to speak that language to play. With proper pronunciation. (Amity Parkerâs think the three are talking gibberish.)#I headcanon Sam and Tucker are fluent in Ghost.#Constantine WILL figure this game out SO HELP HIM!#Some of the cards also have combinations related to constellations either in name or placement on the board.#By the way the board is based on a Hexagonal summoning circle with Rhunes along the edges#And the placement of the cards on the board and on what rhune MATTERS.#Also the cards move disintegrate and have certain abilities. Think of Harry Potter Wizard Chess.#But they are normal when Danny plays at school. This is just for â¨effect⨠Against invaders.#Danny faces multiple opponents. He also halts alien invasions.#While Danny COULD stop crime on earth heâs not sure how to fight a normal human and hold back so he sticks to ghosts.#The Justice league are going crazy trying to figure out who this entity is and after deep research are convinced this is some sort of#Ancient being who has protected earth for millenia. They have paintings on ruins and everything.#Danny is not aware they think this.#Raven starts praying to Danny as if he is a god and wrangles the other Teen Titans into doing so as well. Danny is still unaware of this.#Danny is not a King or an ancient. Just a very VERY strong ghost.
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Escaped clone au
You know all those fics where Danny and Damian are twins but everyone first assumes Danny must be a clone? How about an au where Danny is Damian's clone who escaped the League after he was assumed dead. Damian could even have been the one to have "killed" him, back when Danny was a newly created, fully brainwashed clone minion and trying to kill Damian himself.
Danny gets adopted by the Fentons and canon goes on as normal, until Dan. Witnessing what would happen to the world should he turn evil really drove home to Danny how dangerous he is.
Even if he was confident he could be trusted with his absurd amount of power (which he isn't), what if the League of Assassins found out about him? Does he still have programming triggers from his evil assassin clone conditioning?
So, Danny does the responsible thing: he goes to Batman to turn himself in.
Cue Danny showing up on Bruce's doorstep with ghost hunting equipment, intel on the afterlife, and an almost unbelievable backstory. Somehow he still managed to be more well-adjusted than Damian.
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Here's how I'm thinking Danny leaving the League went down:
After surviving his wounds but failing his mission, Danny (then an unnamed potential Damian replacement) knew there was no point in returning to the League. As a failure, he was meant to be disposed of. He even thought of simply allowing himself to perish, since that was what the League would do.
But he couldn't help but feel as though that would be a waste of a resource. Surely he could be of more use to the League alive than dead?
That tiny bit of rebellious logic is what caused Danny to go into hiding, only living on based on the off chance he would find opportunities to further the League's goals. Obviously, that mentality didn't last long after being exposed to the real world and meeting one Jazz Fenton.
Being adopted by the Fentons was the best cover Danny could have asked for, since any odd behavior he couldn't hide while he was learning how to be "normal" was totally overshadowed by the sheer bizarre eccentricity of his new parents. He was still the neighborhood weird kid, but even that was a major upgrade from disposable tool, so Danny considered it a win.
Anyway, if anyone likes this idea, please feel free to have at it! Interpret it as you please :)
#dpxdc#dpxdc prompts#dawningwrites#Danny: I'm too powerful help please accept this 10 step guide that MIGHT give you a prayer of defeating me#Bruce: and you're saying that on top of all your potentially apocalyptic abilities you're also the ruler of another dimension??#Danny: I know right?? they wouldn't listen to me when I said a teenager wasn't qualified. and technically I'm only 5 years old!#Danny's better adjusted than Damian bc he had Jazz to help him#and he didn't have to be anything other than a ânormalâ teen until his accident#whereas Damian had a bunch of traumatized and emotionally stunted vigilantes with a complicated family dynamic he walked into#Alfred did his best but there was only so much he could do without undermining Bruce or interfering with their vigilantism#Dan happened before Dani so she might not be in this (yet)#but if Danny's clones are still a thing I think he'd be even more traumatized by most of them melting#Dani: you don't know what it's like to be made by a rich supervillain to replace your original and then be discarded as a failure#Danny: ha ha so funny story#damian wayne#damian al ghul
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i haven't touched paint 3d in a long while, so why not try and make the newest monster in it?
#probably my most complicated and favorite paint 3d model so far....#complicated as in this took me 3 hours and 2 crashes#also i think adding in the glossy texture on certain parts of it's body pays off#fanart#my singing monsters#msm#paint 3d#phosphora#phosphoran phlox#titansouls#i am very fond of this glowing majestic deer thing
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#spiderman#deadpool#spideypool#comic#I did this for a class#an ENGLISH class#but we're learning about comics as literature and for the most recent paper we had an option to make a comic#and the main theme we're studying this semester is power so i made this#anyway I forgot how goddamn hard these two are to draw#I hate how complicated their costumes are like its so unnecessary#but I also think this is the most accurately I've drawn them#and they looked consistent through this whole thing#so I'm really proud of myself#and yes this is gay but i'm imagining that in this scene they don't realize they have feelings for each other yet hee hee#some of these were fuckin hard angles too what was i doing to myself!!! this was hard af!!! wtf!!!#and to be honest i drew all of this yesterday and today!!! that was so much drawing!!! og my god!!!#but it was fun he he#except i will always hate the webs on spideys costume. hell world#they have to look such a specific way and it is not easy#enough rambling. enjoy#also sorry im reuploading this because i had accidentally colored in one of spideys speech bubbles as yellow
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This is so shanks coded to me. Like he just keeps losing people and he never learns how to deal with it. So much so that he becomes the abandoning parent. He literally knows nothing else all he has as a frame of reference is all the adult figures in his life leaving him and telling him it is for the best. So why exactly wouldnât he believe that the best way to love someone is by letting go?
He does it to Luffy, he does it to Uta and in some ways he does it to Buggy and Mihawk too. Because he never just asks them to stay. He lets Buggy run out of his life even though it was pretty obvious that Buggy wanted Shanks to fight for this to take a stand a real one on a conviction for once and heâŚdoesnât, he just lets buggy leave.
And then he hitches his wagon to the most flighty (dude is literally a bird motif đ) mother fucker he can find. he lets Mihawk wander in and out of his life as he pleases regardless of what is best for either of them. Because maybe Mihawk has nothing better to do đ. Maybe he would say yes now if Shanks asks. but Shanks would rather die than ask, would cut off his other arm before he even attempted to âclip Mihawkâs wingsâ
And thatâs like the truth of it. Shanks has been abandoned by every person that has ever loved him besides his crew and he knows they will never leave him. But Maybe he just wants someone to stay not because they call him captain.
#shanks is the quintessential abandoned child syndrome#that grows into the leave them before they can leave you adult#except he does it in a nice way and because he does genuinely think he is helping them make the best decisions for their lives#which as shown with uta and Luffy is a pretty big hit or a disastrous miss#you can pry shanks and his abandonment issues out of my cold dead hands#honestly this is kind of#shuggy#because I do think Buggy wanted shanks to put up more of a fight to keep them together#the same way he wanted him to go after the one piece#buggy and shanks arrested development at 15#mishanks#shanks and his abandonment issues entering a bar and choosing to attach himself to the one person most likely to just up and leave at dawn#is so funny to me#because truly that is such a daddy issues move đ#but honestly maybe I do think Mihawk would have agreeded (petulantly maybe) if Shanks had just asked#Hell heâs in cross guild and all crocodile had to do was make a phone call#but they also have the divorce that Mihawkâs not completely over which complicates things#god I need to see the interact in canon đ#shanks unable to form a stable relationship with someone he didnât adopt into his crew challenge impossible#buggy the clown#shanks#red haired pirates#red haired shanks#red hair shanks#akagami no shanks#mihawk and shanks#buggy x shanks#uta one piece#monkey d. luffy#one piece
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a nap in the sun
#pokemon#pkmn#oc#oc art#pokemon oc#trainer oc#orginal character#pokemon art#pokemon fanart#venusaur#pikachu#kanto au#oc: clementine#my art <3#artists on tumblr#digital art#thx u for all the kind comments on my last piece of oc art wahhh it makes me very happy!!!#i was originally gonna put them in virdian forest + make the piece darker but if a piece isnât so saturated your eyes are burning i donât#want it!!! lol // anyway!!! clem is the main focus of my ⌠champion kids⌠au??? idk if au is a good word bc itâs just a part of#my personal hc/interpretation of gamecanon ⌠just down the line yknow! last time i created an oc was my self insert sonic oc when i was a#whole child ⌠14 years ago actually which is insane to think about - but i finally (re)understand why yall would die for your ocâs cause#this is my bbg!!!đđĽşđ𧥠this whole au is super fun for me - i really love exploring the idea of how the champions WE know would be as parents#& how they would navigate both the role as the most famous people in the pokemon world while simultaneously trying to raise a child with#some sense of normalcy? also how the kids perceive and KNOW their parents vs the perception the public has of them! clem is reds daughter#and i think his extremely complicated life and position in the spotlight would play a super interesting role how he raises a child -#especially a daughter!!! this is her taking a lil nap with both her parents pokemon!!! theyâre definitely older now (evident by their#wrinkles lol) but they can still definitely beat any trainers ass but will also be available for their babysitting duties lol
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Even if Marcus having a daughter did turn out to be the red flag in season 1 that showed where season 2 was headed socially and politically, that plot point didn't need to be mutually exclusive with a season 2 plot that was nuanced and interesting re: Piltover vs. Zaun.
Marcus had multiple opportunities in season 1 to stop what he was doing with Silco and actually prioritize his daughter (and his life with her) - or just stop Silco himself, if Marcus had been willing to die or go to prison - but his personal biases and the opportunity for personal gain kept winning out over and over, leading to his death. Which was tragic - even if many of us didn't feel that bad for him - yet inevitable. I never got the sense that Marcus in season 1 was indicating a "both sides are the same" or "we should all just work together" type of plot, but rather, "Here is what the privileged are willing to do - and not do - to maintain the status quo."
In watching season 1, between Marcus having a daughter, Jayce being easily led and reaching too far with his power, and Caitlyn's naivete, I thought that the Piltover plot was taking us to a place where these more privileged characters see opportunities to do better wrt the undercity, but because of ignorance, personal gain, personal biases, or personal injury and trauma, they actively choose to perpetuate the sociopolitical divide and find ways to justify these choices for themselves, regardless of any opportunities they may have to learn, grow, and do better specifically with regards to the undercity. Which helps shed light on why irl power structures seem so rigid and unchanging despite everything. This doesn't mean that the Piltover characters needed to die or anything, but I do think it would've been more interesting if the tragedy element was kept ("fate worse than death" types of tragic endings are more interesting anyway imo), the Piltover/Zaun conflict wasn't "solved" in the end, and the impact of Piltover's apathy and violence wasn't brushed aside. Particularly if there had been a real undercity uprising plotline.
#arcane#arcane critical#marcus#i know it's more complicated than that especially with regards to the most powerful characters like heimerdinger mel silco and others#silco is interesting bc i personally think his deal with jayce - if it had happened - would have created its own problems#and i don't think the writers think of their treaty in that way which is... frustrating in and of itself#but basically i need to think more about what would have upset the status quo more - silco's treaty or attacking piltover#the answer doesn't feel obvious just because like. did jinx's attack on the council work? not at all#this kind of plot for season 1/2 would've needed more serious writing for heimerdinger for one thing. acknowledging his hand in piltover#i think mel still works as long as she gets to have a plot that really is about fighting back against noxus and its ideology#rather than being whisked away by the black rose. like her game of thrones esque plotline is a different beast but it still works well#bc of what she stands to gain - but also what she'd have to give up - to put up her own resistance if that makes sense
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stop thinking so hard about it dude ur gnna get a headache
#breath of the wild#loz#tloz#link#zelda#in general i dont think of botws story so much as others but i also have this idea in my head of link regaining his memories but never#never quite being able to remember her face or even who exactly she was to him . like he sees how they interact in his memory but#he cant remember his own feelings. and maybe he remembers at the end when he sees her but maybe its more complicated than that#like in botw you can make the most of a wartorn world and have all kind of adventures and sidequests and build a home and a town and meet#new people and you cant do all of that on top of the 100 year sleep without coming out of it a different person.#which isnt bad. but i just imagine some things could get harder and harder to remember#' i dont think of botw's story as much as others ' maybe i do actually#meat art
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#this series and i have. a complicated relationship#like. i love it. genuinely one of the most impactful things in my life for several years#but i also worry whether i like the potential it used to have more#and itâs so shrouded in nostalgia that i miss the way i used to feel about it#basically itâs so intertwined with an entire chunk of my life that i canât separate or objectively assess my feelings about it#iâve spent a decade thinking about what it could be or could have been. what it actually is doesnât always feel real#kotlc#keeper of the lost cities
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Octavia sees Blitzø as her replacement in Stolas' life. Blitzø sees Octavia as an addition to his own.
#everything re: Via is so complicated right now because on one hand she's right to be upset at Stolas breaking his promise#but also she's just refusing to understand his point of view or even let him explain himself#unfortunately it's a trait that comes with her being still a teenager who's been likely sheltered her whole life#like from Stolas POV he had seconds to react to stop Blitz from being killed and clearly didn't think things through#(also this got me thinking if his pills might have a side effect since he only realized what he did after he started the withdrawal)#but from Via's POV she saw her dad willing to die for his fling after he specifically promised her not to leave her for him#do i think Via should have heard him out rather than cutting him off her life so fast? yes#do I also think she has a right to be upset after the most important person in her life made a choice that betrayed her trust? also yes#anyway let's see how this develop#helluva boss#helluva boss spoilers#helluva boss blitz#helluva boss blitzo#helluva boss octavia
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joke in episode 7 preview: and for my next trick I will yearn so hard your heart will clench at the thought of my sorry little face for the rest of the week
#ive been thinking about his sad faces the whole night making the most angsty scenarios until 3am am i normal#love when a man with complicated lore and history in crime is absolutely SUFFERING because of love#[evil laughter] i hope jack takes his sweet time to kiss this twink actually im not in a hurry#(but i also hope jack suffers a little too)#jack and joker u steal my heart#war wanarat#yin anan wong
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Cold War has me back in its clutches
#i cant stop thinking about them#They have such a complicated but interesting dynamic#they're plaguing my mind every second#ALSO sorry for disappearing for a while#i got horrible sick and literally could not get up so i slept through most of the last several days đ#BUT IM BACK#call of duty#cod cold war#black ops cold war#cod adler#russell adler#bell cod#bell cold war#belladler#adlerbell#russell adler x bell#guys if i crash out in the next week or so#ill most likely be fine /j#the worms are telling me to draw them#Tw1nkee artâŁď¸
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my fanfiction abortion morgue is gaining another jayroy victim that is not long enough to clean up for ao3. this was going to be a very long and meandering noodle about in the river that is jason's mental health and trauma and relationships of all types and healing and the asexual/aromantic spectrum (not that that's the verbage jason would use or language hes even aware of) and low sex drives all that beautiful muck and mire but i have not put a single word on it in well over a year now. so i'm letting her go. be free little fish.
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Theyâre better now, anyways, better than they ever were before. Jason had a crisis a few months back, stopping himself from reaching reflexively for his phone to give Dick a call about- nothing important. And then he had realized that he had reflexively gone to call Dick about nothing important, and had gone and stared out the window for 15 minutes, trying to work himself into a different, less horrifying conclusion than the one gathering in his brain like an avalanche. Roy had come home in the middle of it, taken one look at his face and dropped his bag on the floor with a thunk.
âHoly shit,â he said. âWho died?â
âI like him,â Jason said, somewhere between incredulous and horrified. âThat cunt, that motherfucker- he made me actually like him-,â
âWho?â
âDick!â Jason had shouted. âThat piece of shit, I want to spend time with him, hours out of my actual human life that I canât get back-,â
Roy had proceeded to laugh in his face for a solid ten minutes, positively gleeful about Jasonâs horrible emotional crisis. âHe does that to you, man,â he said once theyâd settled in, still chuckling as he cracked open a can of soda, posted up on their couch with Ethiopian takeout in his lap. âOne minute youâre sitting there thinking oh my god, this guy, heâs so loud and annoying-,â
âAnd he never fuckinâ stops moving,â Jason groaned from his spot laying on the floor below him. âHis body or his mouth. And he chews loud, heâs obnoxious on purpose, and heâs a model and dated Kory but half the time he dresses like something a goodwill dumpster threw up-,â
âHave you seen his new shoes?â Roy asked. âI dress like dogshit, man, but those things-,â
âWally got them for him,â Jason said, and then immediately slapped his hands over his face, horrified that he knew that. Roy laughed again. âHeâs constantly in your fuckinâ business! Constantly! Last time I saw him he knew the social security numbers of the baristas in the coffee shop Iâd been going to-,â
âHe gets enabled,â Roy muttered, shoveling injera into his mouth.
âHe gets enabled!â Jason said. âEveryone enables him! I enable him! And god, his fucking- puns, man, his quips, weâre all guilty of it but this is a fight, not comedy hour, and even if it was youâd get booed off the stage-,â
âHe texted me what he said to Mr. Freeze two weeks ago and I wanted to eat my phone,â Roy said. âItâs amazing no villains kill themselves after he hands their asses to them, I would be humiliated.â
âHe sucks!â Jason snapped.Â
âHe sucks,â Roy agreed. âAnd then you look around one day at your life-,â
âAnd you go oh shit, I think this motherfuckerâs alright!â Jason mimed hitting himself in the face with Royâs abandoned house slipper. âFuck! Whatâs fucking wrong with me?â
Roy laughed at him, again. âDick Grayson Derangement Syndrome gets us all in the end,â he said. Jason curled a hand around his bare ankle, and Roy looked down to smile at him, the smallest touch making his whole face bloom open like a rose. Jason had to look away from it, wanting to say: stop. No. You know Iâm not enough. You know Iâm not like you. You know I canât give you enough.
Heâs been wanting to say that a lot, these days. Toss Roy off the sinking ship with a lifeboat before he has to wake up one day, years on, and realize heâs wasted years with Jason, who canât love that loud.
He wanted to call Dick about it, which was another horrible realization. Hi big bird, Iâm having boy problems. Dick would probably tell him that it means more that Jason has to try, that wanting to try for it is selfless, makes it more significant, which is the kind of thinking that lands a motherfucker in bed with Barbara Gordon, who is enough like Jason to warrant a comparison, but not enough to call her and ask what he should do. Babs loves like the Bolton Strid, and sometimes Jason isnât sure he loves at all. Not like that.
Jason isnât nearly as selfless as Dick is convinced he is, not deep down. Because he doesnât want to let Roy go at all.
Itâs late, well into the witching hours, and theyâre laying in bed in what was formerly Royâs bedroom but now holds them both, blinds cracked to let the streetlights through. Jason doesnât like the dark. Royâs threatening to buy an eyemask. Jason thinks itâs stupid to blind yourself to potential attackers. Neither of them have brought up going back to sleeping separately. Royâs nose is pressed between Jasonâs shoulder blades, breath humid through his shirt. Not asleep yet, but close. Jasonâs books are proliferating on Royâs shelves, his boxers in Royâs laundry basket, garrotte wires coiled next to bow strings on the desk that has framed photos, past-Jasonâs mouth a little white slash in the bar of orange streetlamp.
Something is clawing at the inside of Jasonâs chest, scrabbling like a wild little animal. Trying to dig its way through his spine, into Roy. It hurts.
He shifts, turns over, pushes Roy over onto his back and rolls on top of him, propped up on his elbows to look down at him. Roy grunts, half-awake and confused, but takes his weight. He blinks blearily up at Jason, a crease between his eyebrows- Jason must look intense right now. âJaybird?â he starts, quiet.
Jason knows this feeling- as all-consuming as it is- is fleeting. Itâll be gone in the morning, and heâll forget it was ever here. He wonât be able to recall its bite until it comes back around again, like Halleyâs comet. He should say something now, while he has it. While he feels it. So Roy can know itâs real. He just doesnât know how to describe it.
âJase,â Roy says, sounding more concerned, âJason, whatâs-,â
âSomething in here,â Jason interrupts, putting a hand on his own chest, a thudding sound of muscle on muscle, âWants to eat you.â God, he feels dumb. Heâs not good at this, he sounds so much better in his head. His words come out of his mouth sour and curdled and stupid, thereâs a reason he doesnât try to talk about this shit-
Roy lights up, slow at first, then all at once, his face creasing up in his smile like old paper, following familiar folds. Jason feels his toes curl next to his calves, his feet pointing and flexing in excitement. Jason wishes he could make himself smile back, anything other than the dead-eyed concentration he knows heâs wearing right now, but the weight in his ribs is too real and too wild for that- if his teeth come out this might get literal. He wants to crack open Royâs sternum with his bare hands, climb in like a contortionist and slam it shut behind him.
âReally?â Roy asks, small and soft and giddy. Jason nods, serious. Royâs teeth dig into his bottom lip, smiling so wide his nose is wrinkling up, little inky lines in the artificial twilight. âCool,â he says.Â
Jasonâs hands spasm in the sheets next to Royâs head. âRoy,â he starts, âCan I-,â stops. Doesnât know what he wants. Maybe just to look at him until the sun comes up, just to watch the light turn his freckles from a smear in the dim to pinprick-sized marigolds. Maybe to go to sleep on him like this, the thunder of his heart under Jasonâs cheek. Maybe he wants everything. Maybe he wants to be the greediest son of a bitch in Gotham.Â
âYou can do anything,â Roy promises, and the sincerity in his voice makes the thing chewing on Jasonâs lungs shake. âAnything you want. Iâll let you do everything.â
Jason drops his head against Royâs chest with a grunt like heâs just been punched, unable to choke it back. He pushes himself up- Roy makes a quiet, sad noise, grabbing for him- and fumbles the bedside lamp on. He wants to see everything. Royâs pupils are huge, even in the light heâs flinching from, irises that strange half-color, too dark for blue or green and too flat for hazel and too light to be brown. His cowlickâs sending his hair in every direction at the left temple, and heâs still smiling at Jason, like he canât help it. Jason doesnât know what to do, now that heâs here. A restaurant with an infinite menu. What he wants is strange, probably. Not how normal people want things, not what they want. Jason is off-putting, sometimes on purpose, frequently not, and he doesnât know how this will come across. But Roy said he could have anything. Whatever he wanted. Giving up all of himself, for nothing. For free.Â
Jason should take it. Roy will stop him, if he needs it. He puts his mouth on the cowlick, not a kiss, tucks his nose into Royâs hair and breathes in deep. The nothing-smell of hair thatâs not clean but not dirty. Royâs hands are pressing into his lats, his legs spreading and crossing behind Jasonâs thighs, holding him there. Jason curls both his hands around Royâs skull, presses gently, cradling his head- all of Roy is in there, somehow, and he needs to be careful with it. His skull feels too small to hold something so important, too fragile.Â
Jason drags his thumbs over his eyebrows, presses a thumbnail into the scar bisecting the left one- string snap, Roy told him, nearly took that eye out. Royâs looking up at him still, and theyâre close enough that Jason could count his eyelashes, if he wanted. He runs his fingers over Royâs ears, feeling the cartilage, gently pinches the flesh of his earlobe, over the hole where he used to have gauges. He moves down to Royâs neck, puts his hands around his throat, doesnât squeeze. He feels it when Royâs breath hitches. Roy shuts his eyes, swallows, his Adam's apple moving under Jasonâs palms.Â
Jason bites him where his neck meets his shoulder, hard. He thinks about being normal, trying to make it a hickey- but Roy jerks hard beneath him with a strangled noise and that thing in Jasonâs chest makes him hold that position until Roy stops moving, until the bolt of his jaw aches. He lets go, spit shining around the deep purple indents in Royâs skin. Roy lets out a shaking breath, eyes still shut.
Roy already knows heâs an inscrutable freak, Jason decides. Heâs going to do everything heâs ever looked at Roy and thought about doing, everything he thought might be weird that heâs ever refrained from. Roy wonât run.
If he does, well. Jason will chase him. Roy is the one who said he was locking Jason down, said nobody in or out. He canât get too mad if Jason takes him up on it.
He presses his nose near Royâs armpit. The sharp, live smell of his sweat in Jasonâs lungs, muted by whatever axe deodorant he uses that always makes Jason think of a cold wet morning. He rubs his mouth over Royâs deltoid, teeth dragging. Jason pushes up and kneels with his thighs on either side of Royâs torso, picks up an arm, runs his hands over Royâs bicep, digs his thumbs into his elbow. Puts Royâs thumb in his mouth, tastes skin and salt, bites the draw calluses on his fingers, gentle. Does the other arm too, to keep it even. Royâs breathing slow and even, looking at Jason again as he shoves his mouth into Royâs wrist until he can feel the pulse against his lower lip. Royâs trying to caress his face with that hand, canât quite manage more than a brush of his fingertips against Jasonâs ear.Â
Jason knows what he should say here. What he hasnât been saying, because he knows itâs not the same as how Roy will say it, thinking that it will somehow be a lie because the meaningâs different. But itâs words, which are only stories. There is nothing in a story that is a lie, and no analysis that is wrong, with supporting evidence. Which Jason has, which Jason has always had. Roy at his right shoulder. Never wanting anyone else at his back. Saying to Dick: if there wasnât Roy, there wouldnât be anybody. The way they keep finding each other at the lowest of lows, facedown in bottles or looking down barrels of guns to see if they can spot the bullet. Standing there feeling stupid in the holes theyâve dug, pickaxes in hand, before turning and finding the other, just as deep as they are. Saying: gimme a boost and Iâll give you a hand.
Even if he doesnât mean it in the same way, he means it. I want you, I want you, I want you. The inflection changes the meaning, but only by the barest degrees.Â
âI love you,â Jason says, and heâs not lying, because he means them, even if itâs not always how he thinks he should.
#my writing#jayroy#important to note that JASON'S thoughts on his position on the ace/aro spectrum may not be the most woke or whatever. THE AUTHOR (ME) think#that whatever jazzes your music is great and wonderful#Jason's thoughts are very complicated and he is dealing with a deep and wide trauma base and is not aware of the asexual/aromantic labels#this is not a âthis is how YOU should feel!â this is a âhow would a character w/o access to that type of language or emotional awareness#handle a situation where he has One Person who he does not know how he feels about just that he cannot let this person out of his life#and feels poorly because he thinks he is 'not enough' or 'does not feel enough' compared to that person? and is worried he will hurt them?"#& trusting and respecting someone enough to believe in them that they know the whole you and are making the choice to be in this#relationship with you with their eyes open and are okay with what they are getting and not trying to throw them out to 'protect them'#i at the time was having some real in depth thoughts about this stuff wrt the guy who i am now dating (he knows this)#and his position on these spectrums and my location on these spectrums etc. it kind of a little bit was a love letter to him.#anyways. it was going to be long and in depth and complicated and i just dont have room in my heart for long complicated in depth jayroy#at the moment. alas#i also then had my trans woman jason epiphany/sign from god and this was going to get EVEN MORE COMPLICATED#just not the threads i want to weave with anymore#if you read all these tags WOW
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day 6: a world to revisit
#kingdom hearts#kh#kh1#kh4challenge#wonderland was pretty cool in kh1 but imagine how it would look in the new engine and with better movement options#also that world text is also one of the most complicated graphics ive done as of writing this (1 month before this is posted)#tried doing more stylised colouring for this one to try and fit a set palette and i think it looks pretty alright!!#this one goes out to the bestie because im glad i get to make wonderland things for you now :)
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What astounds me about the whole "you need a pure human SOUL to perfect the serum" thing is that so many people take Chujin's conclusion at face value. Chujin Ketsukane? Chujin "Winner of the 'You Tried In Engineering' Award" Ketsukane? Chujin "Fumbled Inventing Robots So Hard He Earned The Ire Of The Usually Pretty Chill King" Ketsukane? Chujin "I Accidentally Killed A Human Child By Overshooting The Parameters On My Guard Robot" Ketsukane? That Chujin Ketsukane?
#undertale yellow#get reaaaaal.#get so reaaaaaaaal.#i know that people make his conclusion correct because they wanna bring Kanako back (even though she's not actually dead)#or something along those lines to make Ceroba's whole tunnel visioned scheme all feel worth it in the end#(even though her whole arc is about not being so caught up in the past and reaching out to the people around her)#but it doesn't feel right to me that the serum would work. it feels more like the point is that this whole affair was a harebrained#scheme cooked up by a paranoid and desperate man.#believe what you wanna believe but personally i don't think being pure of heart would've been the answer. i don't think#there's any way for a miracle serum to be conjured up like that.#also SOUL stuff has been shown to be more complicated than most people think. alphys thought that injecting determination#into Fallen Down monsters would make their SOULs persist after death and they ended up waking up then fusing into Amalgamates#tldr: i *personally* think that even if Ceroba got Clover's SOUL the serum still wouldn't have worked.#(edit: I'm not vagueing anyone btw. I've had this post in my drafts (along with a lot of other thoughts to spare everyone the spam)#again. think what you wanna think. these are just my thoughts.)#uty analysis
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