#and also big d- OKAY NVM I SAID ENOUGH

[violettierre]

Shio going "hm :ı" then "hm >:ı" gave me a will to live, saved my grandma, found a cure to cancer, and solved world hunger.

The first chapter of the official voice acted negai no astro is out! The voices all sound so good!

[rosalineandrosemary]

What are your thoughts about Mirajane x Lucy and Lucy x Juvia?

(I just fell for Mirajane x Lucy since I think they're kinda cute, because a while ago I reread FT and seeing Lucy fangirl over Mirajane at the start...like I get, that she simply admires her, but still!!! Also Lucy being Mirajane's Nr 1 fan is cute thought 🥺🥺 Not to mention their height difference!!! (I think Mirajane is slightly taller than Lucy)

(Now with Luvia...I'm not a big fan of it. I remember when I first watched FT, I was super annoyed by Juvia accusing Lucy of being a love rival, but when they both fought togeher in the Tower of Heaven Arc, I thought that this would mark the end of the unnecessary "Lucy is my love rival" thing. Juvia would understand that Gray and Lucy are simply friends and would learn to stop being extremely jealous and would become good friends with Lucy.

That didn't really happen.

Because of the love rival thing and jealousy being always played as a punchline, I couldn't really enjoy Juvia's relationship with Gray AND Lucy.

But if it had been handled better, I would have enjoyed the "this girl is my love rival >:( -> oh nvm, there was a simple misunderstanding -> we're friends now -> yay, I'm so happy being her friend :) -> ...I just fell for my ex love rival :D" dynamic the ship could have had.

oh, thank you for asking me!!

i'm not sure how i feel about mirajane and lucy as an actual romantic relationship. i definitely think that lucy has had a crush on mira at some point in time, and that they're adorable as friends, but i haven't put enough thought into them romantically to solidly make the call about them in a relationship like that. however it is so cute either way, and you're right when you say that they have a height difference! sorry that i don't have headcanons or more thoughts or anything, just i like it, but it's not in the top few i have and i haven't thought much about it.

luvia though? i love luvia so much. particularly i'm a sucker for lucy/cana/juvia because i love all the dynamics individually as well as together, but i adore luvia. i think that both lucy and juvia have different sorts of boundaries and issues that would lead to them being good for each other, like how they both have abandonment issues (to whoever sent the lucy abandonment issues ask i have not forgotten about you i promise just high school is busy and i have so many thoughts and no idea how to word them properly), and especially how that relationship progresses like you said! they fought so well together during that unison raid, and lucy saving juvia from the rocker guy whose name i can't remember was lovely. i also think that it would be really neat if lucy was able to train with and enhance the powers she got from aquarius through juvia, and i'm a sucker for fics where lucy regains aquarius's key and in one specific fic (it's called Turning Tide on ao3 by lilacskye and i adore it so much (also if anybody wants to ask me for fic recs i do have them and am So willing to ramble about them)) juvia actually has a connection to lucy and aquarius through her water powers and the fact that lucy summoned aquarius in the water that makes up juvia's body, and while that fic is not luvia, the potential of that idea has me quaking. given the way that she followed gray after the guild split, i don't think she wants the people she loves to be alone, which is great for lucy considering that she does not want to be alone. she throws herself into finding her friends once they split, she plays with her spirits as a kid because she's desperate for companionship, while she might like being by herself to recharge she doesn't like being alone, and while juvia's stalker tendencies are played for comedy, i think that her everpresence, especially as she develops to be less of a stalker and more dependable, could be really good for lucy.

okay so paragraph two of luvia because that one is getting long. i think lucy's bluntness or openness, i struggle to define it, could also be good for juvia? like. i'm not sure it's as present of a character trait, or at least not one of the ones they think about right off the bat for her, but lucy feels things incredibly openly. she's loud when she kicks the team out of her apartment and she sobbed when she saw levy and she complains about the walking and it does get better but that openness in contrast to juvia's trouble expressing her emotions would be nice. i think they both had similar sorts of childhood in that regard, we just see them in different points of recovering from that? like. lucy was raised to be this noble daughter, married off for financial reasons, picture of children are to be seen not heard. juvia had her mood reflected in the rain around her, which never stopped pouring until she met gray and really felt something else. i struggle a bit to call what juvia did suppressing her emotions, but they both ended up in that sort of monotony, and they both had to learn more healthy ways of feeling and expressing their emotions afterwards. in the show, we don't see lucy directly after she escapes from her father's home, which gives her time to start trying this, but we see both emotionless juvia and juvia with emotions within the span of an episode. she struggles to define her own feelings, she's confused and mystified and then she attaches herself to gray because of it. she's attempting to learn the coping mechanisms she's looking for but it's a process to recover from this that both juvia and lucy are going through, and i think that they could help each other with that.

so, this is where i'm going to stop, i do in fact have more thoughts about them but it's almost eleven thirty and i still have not done my calculus homework and i do need to do that. if you want to hear more about them let me know, if you want to provide some mira/lucy or luvia or anything thoughts that you have, please send them in i would absolutely love to hear them. i have many thoughts about many things in regards to fairy tail, and while i am significantly more likely to go in depth in regards to lucy i do have thoughts about other characters, the plot, and all that jazz so please do send me asks!! it might take me a hot minute to get around to them (yet again, abandonment asker i am so sorry i just think you deserve a well organized response because it is so important i just have not gotten around to anything well organized) but please do because i will eventually!

[al3x1ss]

Bring them to your home for the holidays {HCs}

Includes: Oikawa, Akaashi, Noya, Terushima, Kiyoko

THIS IS WRITTEN WITH A FEMALE READER! ALSO, ALL CHARACTERS ARE AGED UP!

Author’s note: In my family, thanksgiving means the Christmas stuff is put up after breakfast, so I got this idea ab the holidays and I got v happy. Enjoy!

Warnings: None, fluffy holidays for y’all!

Oikawa

okay mans HATES the cold confirmed

like snow comes he’ll probably hiss

(HISSING AT SNOW ME HONESTLY LMAO)

(Not me seeing a few feet of snow with my sisters and going “wow look at all that cocaine”)

ANYWAY

so y’all met when both of you happened to be in Brazil and he thought you were cute

long story short you had a few dinner dates, even hung out with Hinata!!

you guys hit it off very well :)

so you guys have been together for about 2 years and you’re like ya know what

“Come to my house for the holidays :)”

not only is this man a simp but he loves the warmth so ofc he says yes!!

so while you’ve lived here all your life, only really moving out of Tampa to Miami, you did have to take this tourist him to a basic spot

but you did want to take him to some of your favorite places

after him seeing your family again, you took him to one of your favorite carnivals!

then classic gotta go to the beach I mean

why not go to the ocean!!

issue with December weather in Florida is it changes every second so today was a bit C H I L L E D

(You did have to force him to eat something other than rice tho)

Picky eater kawa confirmed

what better way to spend December 25th than Disney

I mean

Mans whole went “wow 😍” when you told him

Kiyoko

BEST WOMAN I LOVE WOMEN

ahem

you were an exchange student during her whole high school career, turning into best friends and deciding to go to college together

college came along, and with the help of a few friends, parties, and a little too much twister, you realized

you were actually lesbian.

which you know what, we support!

it’s not like you’ve never liked a boy, it just happened to be that women were more your type

oh yeah another thing

Kiyoko is the prettiest thing in your eyes.

OH ANOTHER ANOTHER THING

HAVE I MENTIONED YOU REALIZED THAT YOU’VE ACTUALLY LIKED HER SINCE YOUR 1ST YEAR IN COLLEGE

NO?

OKAY.

so what you DONT know is that Kiyoko has realized she actually feels the same

during your third year in college, she had broken up with her boyfriend of a year, Tanaka, but never told you why

Huh

i wONdEr whY

But, after living in Japan for 7 years, Christmas time is rolling around once again

And you are going home for the holidays!

usually you would go home during summer break, but this time you really wanted to spend Christmas since your older brother had your niece!

and since Kiyo didn’t have any plans you were like

“hey, do you want to come home with me?”

home girl choked on her water 😳

“H-home?”

“Yeah! I’m going back to New Orleans for the holidays.”

cue brain calming down and like sLIGHT disappointment

but

it’s you

and she loves you.

HANGING OUT WITH YOU SORRY

so you guys did presents and stuff

your niece LOVES Kiyoko btw

your dad was like “👀”

I SEE YOU YOU SEE ME MAn

been knew you were 💅AND HE SUPPORTS

so around 4 you’re like let’s go do something!!

and she says okay!!

so one movie Kiyoko really loved was “Princess and the Frog”

Funny enough there’s actually a bakery you’ve gone too growing up

so you get New Orleans’ best beignets!

Ahh, fun times

next, you’ll always hear some type of caroling anywhere you are in the city

which means?

SMALL PARTIES

DANCING

FUN TIMES

you see random groups of people smiling around 7pm, the sun already down

and you’re thinking to yourself

Hey

I want to ask her to dance.

and you do :)

YALL BUST D O W N LIKE YES MAAMS

continuing

Finally at around 10pm you take her to this one street where each place has a bunch of Christmas wonderlands lit up

hile it doesn’t really snow in New Orleans, people used fake snow!!

gotta get that spirit somehow 😗

when I say Kiyoko is a goddess I mean it

the lights bouncing off her face while she’s smiling?

*chefs kiss*

Terushima

ah yes the city that everyone thinks is a state

IM SORRY J

BUT IM NOT EHDJFJHH

So

Chicago!! ✨

Terushima HAS visited Illinois before

However, surprisingly has never been to Chicago

So you were like

I’m born here!! 🥰

Come come!!🥺

And he said

Si si!! 🤪

so y’all flew out on the 20th

while your parents don’t live here, some old friends do

and why not have them meet your amazing boyfriend!

literally all of them were shocked I mean

(Y/N) likes a boy with a tongue piercing?

wack

the amount of BONKERS

but yes you love him very much

and he loves you!!

honestly your friends already fell in love with you two being in love it’s canon

afterwards you guys went too ZooLights

HE HAD THE AUDACITY TO THROW A SNOWBALL AT YOU

“YUJI MY PANTS ARE WET”

“IM SORRY PRINCESS IT WAS JUST A GOOD TIMING-“

you threw one at his face

Not y’all fighting like little kids-

n e wayz

best way to end the 24th?

ice skating-

nope.

It’s actually buying late presents because you two actually forgot to get some people presents and Christmas is literally in like 4 hours!!

YOU COULDNT CATCH YUJI IF YOU TRIED😳

MANS WAS ZOOMIN THROUGH EVERY STORE

GRANDMA? GOT IT

UNCLE? SURE

NEPHEW? YOU DONT EVEN GOT A NEPHEW

It was mega fun tho

surprisingly y’all didn’t get kicked out

you almost did when Terushima thought it would be a good idea to ride a skateboard into the electronics section at target 🤡

but we will ignore that for tonight ❤️

Akaashi

A NOTE:

this one will be the longest one with the most detail for certain reasons! also, for akaashi’s you do have a given birthday because Dec 30th is actually my birthday and I wanted to sprinkle in some of that ❤️

alright

best for last :)

So you got to be in an exchange program during college

and that’s when you met akaashi since you guys were in the same classes!

he also showed you around and was very sweet

so you offered to get him coffee

and after a while he confessed by giving you a copy of a book you both really loved

but

you semester was ending

which means home for the holidays

luckily, you guys would only have one more semester away from eachother before you guys graduated

but you did want to spend the holidays together

so you offered for him to come to New York with you

boy got excited so fast my heart-

wOOSH FOR THIS MAN

But like Christmas in New York with your loving boyfriend of 4 years?

Sign me up

So you know that during winter it’s a hit or miss with snow

is it still freezing cold?

Yes.

But can we guarantee 3 feet of snow every December?

No.

But we can guarantee it in like March JEJHRTJ

so

one thing you told him immediately was that you guys will be watching the ball drop from the roof

“Why?”

“Because I don’t want to get mugged, shoved, or vomit on my shoes, Keiji.”

Yes ma’am indeed

so you guys had a pretty (quiet?) Christmas

your family?

LOUD AS CAN BE

but

Regarding to going places

You guys chilled all day in pajamas

Like the most y’all did was go to dunkin for hot chocolate

but the days leading to New Years?

GOTTA GO GO GO

Classic tree photo yes ma’am

nut crackers AND THOSE GIANT CHRISTMAS LIGHTS AND ORNAMENTS ACROSS FROM JIMMY FALLONS STUDIO?

Y’ALL KNOW THE STREET I FORGET THE STREET LMAO

bro side note their kabobs in that one corner

best thing I’ve ever had I stg

I haven’t been to the city since last Christmas wow now I miss it

OKAY NVM SORRY

you wanted to show Keiji so many things

but

You were used to walking like 10 blocks in any shoes as fast as you can

Akaashi was not 😂

So y’all had to take breaks sometimes

get him warmed and fed ya know

give the man smoochies 🥺

id be giving him smoochies 24/7 if I could

so you better for me 😠

His favorite place was the big Macy’s no lie

the perfumes and cologne section on the 2nd floor looked SO WELL PUT TOGETHER

okay nvm scratch that

FAO Schwartz was his favorite place

he loved the trains

you bought him a train as a late present SHH NO ONE SAY NOTHIN

So the 29th you decided to take him to where you were born

Brooklyn!

it was super fun showing him where you lived before you went to college

and before your siblings moved to different parts of the city

It was lovely

But the final thing you wanted to do was December 30th

your birthday :)

and one thing you absolutely love to do is ice skating

now usually you go ice skating at the public rink like a few minutes away from Rockefeller rink

not only was it cheaper, but there was a Panera like 2 blocks away so quick food!

but

you also wanted to give Keiji the experience

so you sucked it up and paid

you guys went at around 8 and had a blast

one of the best birthdays with him honestly

but, you realized people were starting to exit the rink at around 10

“Doesn’t the rink close at midnight?”

“Huh, weird.”

but Keiji kind of starts looking around while you realize you two are the only ones on the ice

So you’re like

I guess we have to get off 😔

But this sly fox

Pulls you to the center of the rink

Now, you were never one for the cliché act

Especially since so many proposals have happened on this rink that you’ve seen

But when you saw Keiji get to one knee

It didn’t even matter that this happened to so many other people

It was happening to you.

And it’s ESPECIALLY CLICHE

THAT IT WAS ON YOUR BIRTHDAY

however

I guess you can just suck it up, cuz at least you have a ring on your finger :)

- Lex 🖤🤍

End note: Let me know if you guys would like a part 2! Also if you have any ideas for a certain character or place, put it in asks!

[percyjacksonfan3]

Alright so @yourstrulytaaay is reading the PJO series for the first time (and I’m going to reread along with her) so before she starts The Lightning Thief I quizzed her on a few Riordanverse terms and characters to see what she would guess each of them to be.

Tay has seen the movies and she’s heard and seen things from here on Tumblr and social media, but honestly these are too funny not to share so here we go! Thanks for indulging me Tay, because honestly this made me stupidly happy. And thanks for letting me make a Tumblr post about it to kickstart my “lau rereads pjo” tag

Tay’s words are in “quotations”, mine in (brackets).

The Mist- “Sounds like a superhero name but considering the book... I’m almost positive that’s not true”

Mrs. Dodds- “MRS DODDS lmao, her I know from the movies. Creepy ass harpy woman, or something like a harpy. Not that I necessarily trust the movie’s adaptation considering all I know about them.” (We have no choice but to stan here tbh, never trust the movies. But honestly this was a good guess considering Mrs. Dodds is a Fury)

Iris Messaging- “??? Sounds like they’re talking through flowers or some shit” (I mean... close enough?)

Mrs. O’Leary- “Hmmm idk why the first thing that popped into my mind was like a Molly Weasley type of character, but assume I’m just picturing Molly Weasley.” (Extremely valid answer tbh)

Celestial bronze- “I feel like... I’ve hear the term before? Now whether that’s bc it’s popped up in other things or bc it’s mentioned in one of the movies? I’m not sure. And I genuinely can’t even tell you what I’m picturing because I’m like... not really picturing anything.” (Also fair considering it’s just the metal for weapons, so a pretty boring topic)

The Big Three- “Is it the fates? It might be the fates. I’m going with the fates. FInal answer.” (This was so smart of her tbh even if it’s wrong)

Gabe Ugliano- “What kind of name is Ugliano? Seriously Rick wtf. I have thoughts about your character with a last name like Ugliano.

A few messages later.

Oh my god wait Gabe Ugliano is definitely Sally’s bf right?? HAHAHA NVM THE LAST NAME SUITS HIM. I take it back.

Then later:

I’m still cackling over Gabe Ugliano btw. Rick really said ‘this character is the worst and I’m gonna give him the last name to prove it.” (You’re so right Tay, it absolutely does suit him and it’s what he deserves.)

Rachel Elizabeth Dare- “Rachel’s like... the chick who kisses Percy at some point right? idk I saw a tiktok.” (Accurate things are accurate, tho I am a Rachel stan first and foremost.)

Nico di’Angelo- “I’ve definitely heard of Nico before lmao but could I name a single thing he’s done? NOPE.”

Clarisse la Rue- “All I’m picturing is like ‘hello Clarice.’ You know the reference.” (This made me laugh)

Mr. D- “Is he the Chiron character? Like he’s... basically Chiron? The centaur. That dude?” (Again so so close so I’m super impressed she knew that.)

Tyson- “... sounds like an asshole. Sorry to him but I know way too many asshole Tysons. The name never inspired good feelings in me.” (Boy oh boy is your opinion about to change!! Is there anybody who’s read the books that doesn’t love Tyson?? Genuine question)

Nancy Bobofit- “BOBOFIT? Actually Rick what the hell. I have QUESTIONS that I want answered. Namely in what world is it okay for him to choose the... weirdest last names for his characters.” (This is where she had her Ugliano revelation about Gabe and she was like “I still protest Bobofit tho”)

Blackjack- “Okay I had a cat named Blackjack so all I’m picturing is him for that one.

Later

Circling back to Blackjack... still picturing my cat... assuming it’s a person...Assuming you’re not just talking about the game lmao... yeah. Still picturing my cat.”

DOA Recording Studios- “Are they... are they... recording an album? Why is there a recording studio mentioned? Percy Jackson over there just laying down some sick beats? Good lord lmao.”

Lotus Hotel- “This one I know for sure bc it’s in the first movie. It’s like... one of the only things I remember. The place where time basically like... doesn’t exist.”

[whereconfusionisarhyme]

First Reactions To Logan’s Playlist

K first song let’s do this

White and Nerdy-Weird Al Yankovic

Wtf this song was definitely Joan’s idea I mean who else would think of ‘White and Nerdy’ for Logan

Is this like canon he listens to this stuff or like songs about him???

Not Perfect-Tim Minchin

TIM MINCHIN

Bo Burnham better be on Logan's playlist

#deep

Is this about the mindpalace/inside of Thomas’ head??? Cause like???? Ouch???? I think????

Lol nvm it’s not sad lmao

I take back my take back it is sad

So this could be literally “in his mind” or it could be figurative and it’s really messing with my funky flow

Streaks-ANIMA!

Cool instrumental

Love the voice sounds a little like MARINA and Regina Spektor

Oh no I’m two lines in and I can tell it’s gonna be sad

OH NO CONFORMITY RELATED ANGST AHHHHH

Wow Logan is just out here being relatable isn’t he smh 😔👊

"Cause you're a smart kid, but you're still a kid" LOGAN REALLY BE OUT HERE BEING RELATABLE ON MAIN

The Elements-Tom Lehrer

Sounds like what piano class would sound like if I took piano class

Something you would listen to in science class

Bop

Medicine-STRFCKR

A Fever You Can't Sweat Out vibes

Lmao nvm

Gonna go look up the lyrics rn brb

A sad bop

Philosophy cool

Human-Tank And The Bangas

Logan playing this to comfort himself because this singer is the only person who has ever told him this

WHO HURT LOGAN WITH THEIR WORDS

LOGAN THE HEART SKIPPING COMMENT ARE YOU OKAY IM GIVING YOU A HUG

GUYS LOGAN IS TRYING TO CONVINCE HIMSELF THAT HE MATTERS IM NOT OKAY

Last???? Relationship???

Okay I'm not a shipper BUT my theorist analysis obsessed brain is just SCREAMING about Roman and Patton

Observation: Logan is probably atheistic and this song covers God a lot. I don't have a conclusion or anything just pointing that out

This woman do be calming tho like yes I'm beautiful yes I'm special thank you

Okay so I already knew Logan wasn't okay but he 100% isn't okay

Fittet Happier-Radiohead

K two words in and I can tell this is gonna be sad here we go

Employees? Or maybe…other sides?

Minor key ok

SELF HARM ISNT OKAY

"WILL NOT CRY IN PUBLIC" NONONONO

So I heard of a good therapist just downtown-

The Watchtower-The Dø

I paused it cause I need a second after the last one

Guys as someone who dissosiates a lot I think Logan might be dissosiating

Dissosiating to protect himself from his emotions

Y'all just trust me in this one

Coming for the TØP brand I see

K ready to start again here we go

Fire beat I'm vibing with it

Is he trying to distance himself from his emotions to try and perform his tasks better like watching from a Watchtower???

This is the first character I've seen that might dissosiate which only means one thing

I'm gonna be projecting an unholy amount in my fanfiction

"No one in particular" hon who hurt you

City Lights=Emotions (which he considers distractions)??? Maybe??

I'm a William Finn fan come on this isn't my first rodeo

Art Is Dead-Bo Burnham

BO BURNHAM I WAS RIGHT

We all love some good Imposter Syndrome (tm)! :D

This gives Learning New Things About Ourselves' a whole new meaning

Ngl this is the first time I heard the degrading of the piano at the end and I'm here for it

In My Mind-Amanda Palmer

Oop we LOVE setting up impossible expectations for yourself to the point you have a cripplingly horrid self esteem! :D

Logan I've done this before and trust me it isn't worth it the mental breakdowns are too taxing

I'll do it when I'm older=I'm never gonna get around to it

I don't wanna be the person I wanna be either

Why do I perfectly understand every lyric am I ok

Live!!! While you!!!! Can!!!!

At least there's a happy ending

Okay so I've decided that once I'm done I'm gonna make a list of songs I think would fit in the playlist

Algorythym-Childish Gambino

K its spelled incorrectly get ready for some metaphors my dudes

Intro is cool definitely very very Logan WOAH OKAY CHAIN SMOKER

Gonna go look up lyrics I don't understand shit

The chorus sounds like Thanksgiving at my Aunt's house where like 100+ African American relatives blast house music and dance until their feet falls off

Nvm no it doesn't

GO OFF

ELPHABA BETTER WATCH OUT CHILDISH GAMBINO IS COMING FOR YOUR BELT

Adlibs are everything

Letter C-Zach Sherwin

This gives off the same vibes as that one pickle video by Charlie Puth

Roman vs Logan rap battle but it's this

I don't really see why this is related but sure

Time Adventure-The Marcus Hedgehog

Nostalgiaaaaaa

Okay Logan has too many songs talking about one (1) person who is it

I have a gut feeling that it's about Thomas and how Logan used to be enough "back then" but now he thinks he's not cause like let's be honest when was the last time someone gave Logan a strong sincere thank you for all that he does????Excluding DWIT (which doesn't really count in my opinion cause they said he was cool, not like an integral and arguably the most important and powerful side) nobody really appreciates Logan???? Hugs???

Anyway plz ignore this is just how my brain works

K next song

The Breach-clipping.

OKAY SLOW DOWN IM GONNA LOOK UP LYRICS

Is this Daveed Diggs???? I haven't listened to Hamilton in like forever is this Daveed Diggs???

LITERALLY PERFECY PARRALLEL TO LOGAN AND THE SIDES

Sound effects

Really just gonna fry my eardrums like that huh

What I Do For U-Ra Ra Riot

Okay scrap anything and everything I said about it being the sides Logan is 100% talking about Character!Thomas

Erase Me-Ben Folds Five

Ooh this intro reminds me of this one particular musical songs but I don't remember which one

Wait have I listened to this before????

I've listened to this before!

Okay I need to stop being distracted

NOOOOOO don't Erase Yourself!!!!

Logan really just do be having no Self Esteem don't he

Okay so theory: Logan didn't pop up in person in the last video because his eyes were too red from crying

I have 0 evidence so it's not a very good theory but…

Just throwing it out there

One More Time with Feeling-Regina Spektor

Oh no it's Regina Spektor

Oh no I'm gonna cry

Okay so Logan doesnt wanna block of all emotion, only permit some to show???? But most of the time block everything????

Did I get that???

Nobody!!!! Thanks!!!! Logan!!!!

Awww he just wants love and recognition

Tbh this sounds a lot like Roman they have so much in common despite their constant arguing

Galaxy Song-Monty Python

Ooh Monty Python

I haven't listened to Monty Python so I sadly don't know the context

Really just dissing all of the other sides aren't we

Can't really blame him tho

Very scientific

"Yeau~"

Sweet with dark undertones. Love it.

Equation-Hans Zimmer

Later I'm gonna check the equations if they're correct XD

Sunrise-In The Heights

!!!!!!

WHO???!!!!!

K to this is one of my favorite love songs ever it's just so sweet and as someone who's bilingual the concept is just amazingly wonderful so yeah I may be freaking out

Also because WHO??!!

Okay I said I wasn't a shipper but let's be honest this is probably about Roman not romantically but like

OR MAYBE JANUS???

IM SO CONFUSED

But Logan is definitely Nina in this situation it just fits so well with her character for the same reasons I really wanna play her (but never will cause I'm exactly 0% Latin American smh) yeah the pressures to be the smartest and then it backfiring horribly and oh God what if Inùtil is also in the playlist ahhhh

Okay moving on

Lifeboat-Heathers

WHAT

NO

NO

CONFORMITY RELATED ANGST LOGAN STOP BEING RELATABLE AHHHH

IS THIS CAPTAIN THOMAS??? THE OTHER SIDES AS A WHOLE??? AN ABSTRACT CONCEPT???

IM NOT OKAY

Bohemian Groove-Will Connolly

Okay I'm still not recovered from the last song but I need to continue or else I'm never gonna finish this playlist

Eeecccchhhhhoooo

Your friends haven't surpassed you Logan you belong with them okay????

Emptiness despite success??? Millennial who???

Vibing with it but also are you okay

Nvm I know the answer already

Hug All Ur Friends-Cavetown

Okay so Logan is a Cavetown gay noted

Self validation??? Who's she???

Lies. You care so much about what other people *sides* think about you

Maybe Logan listens to this song to remind himself to not care too much

But it doesn't work and it's getting to him more and more

Oh

That took a turn

Breathin'-Thomas Sanders

Good move

Don't really have much to say on this

The Bidding

Spoopy

Alchoholic!Logan

New idea for us fan writers

The pronunciation of beurgoise

Okay I'm like pretty certain at this point that all of the songs that mention a someone else is about Character!Thomas

A Better Version

OHMYGOD I LOVE THIS MUSICAL ITS SO UNDERRATED I HAVE LISTENED TO THE SOUNDTRACK AND UNGODLY AMOUNT OF TIMES YESSSSS

But also since I know the song in terrified cause the feels are gonna come in I just know it

Wait so is Jayce supposed to be Thomas???

I am suddenly feeling much more uncertain about my certainty

Okay let me unpause and just listen to it (even though I already know all of the lyrics)

Okay so I'm a dumbass and apparently this song isn't even part of the playlist

Okay so I'm an idiot and the last few songs have all been "related to playlist" and not in the actual playlist I'm big dumb.

Anyway here's my list of songs I think would fit. (BTW, I only went off of lyrics for these ones. I realize that there’s a general sound and vibe for the playlist, but I decided not to follow it.)

Oh No! ~ MARINA

Hug All Ur Friends ~ Cavetown

Bohemian Groove ~ Will Connolly

Guiltless ~ Dodie Clark

Lifeboat ~ Laurens O’Keefe

The Bidding ~ *idk who*

I Am Not A Robot ~ MARINA

Inútil - Lin Manuel Miranda

Through The Eyes Of A Child ~ AURORA

Community Gardens ~ The Scary Jokes

Let me know if I should do this with the other playlists as well! :)

[aprettysonnetfic]

For Those Below Ch 1

Wild Heart Part 3

Kyle Brooks, unable to reach either Warren and Ben, has a bad feeling that something has happened to them. His search for answers reveals a witches plot to get revenge against The Grey Lords. Kyle and Mercy have to team up to rescue Ben, who has been taken as leverage while the rest of the pack is out of reach.

AU in the Mercy-verse

Rated T - please mind the tags

Kyle is a BAMF, and no one can tell me otherwise.

Read on AO3

As soon as Kyle Brooks leaves the courtroom, he looked at his missed calls and texts. He loosens his red Ferragamo tie as he pulls up the missed call from Warren, his werewolf lover and mate. He'll check the four texts from Ben, the British werewolf that had become very dear to both of them over the last few years, as soon as he's talked to his mate. He presses the first speed dial and Warren picks up after two rings.

"Hey there Sexy Cowboy, what are you wearing?" he asks by way of greeting. Warren is tall, lanky, rugged and 100% pure Texas, which thrills Kyle to his Gucci loafers.

"Hm.. as much as I'd like to answer that, Darlin', I'm in mixed company," he replies with his sweet Texas twang, all loose vowels and soft consonants. It's code for werewolf business is going down and I can't say anything. The smile on Kyle's face drops off.

"You okay, love?"

"Right as rain. I'll call you soon, okay?"

"Please do. Oh! Before you go, is Ben with you? He texted me and I haven't had a chance to read them yet."

"Naw, he's working on his car," which was code that Ben was with Mercy.

"Thanks, baby. I love you. Be careful."

"Will do. Love you, too, Darlin'."

Warren hangs up with a click and Kyle quickly opens Ben's texts.

10:28 am

Kyle, Warren said to tell you that he has to go out to Uncle Mike's. He knows I'm not his f*ck*ing messenger boy, right?

10:28 am

Nvm told him myself. He flipped me off I'm so proud

I'm being sent over to Mercy's f*ck*ing garage to keep an eye on her fyi

11:02 am

Something happened & Adam told her to stay put & now she's pissed about it. she keeps FIXING CARS in my direction like it's my bloody fault

11:17 am

send help. she's threatening to s*dd*ing teach me how to change an oil filter for my own good. I know s*d all about cars. . call me when you get out of court

Kyle looks at the time and sees that it's 11:47 then presses his second speed dial to get Ben's phone. It goes to voicemail.

"Ben, it's Kyle. I'm sorry I didn't call back in time to save you from Mercy, darling. If you come greased up to the house tonight I'll ask you to change MY oil, too," he says with a laugh and blows a kiss into the phone for extra effect before he hangs up.

At two he finishes writing a brief and realizes that he still hasn't heard from either Warren or Ben. He sends a text to both of them asking if they're ok and goes back to work.

A knock at his door pulls him out of his research on a case he isn’t sure he can win, and he looks up to see his secretary poke her head in his office, her coat and purse in her hand.

“Mr. Brooks, I’m about to head out, is there anything you need before I go?”

“It’s five-thirty already? No, I’m good. See you tomorrow,” he says as he fishes his phone out from under a stack of papers. He waves as she closes the door and heads home. He checks his phone and there’s nothing from either Ben or Warren. Concern grips his chest and he dials Warren. It goes straight to voicemail.

“Hey, babe, I haven’t heard from you or Ben. I hope you two are all right. I know you might be out by the reservation and not get this immediately. Call me as soon as you get this. I love you,” he says after the beep and hangs up. It’s not completely out of the ordinary that he can’t reach Warren so he quells the momentary panic. He could very well be in wolf form, or out of range, especially if he was out near the Fae reservation. Technology didn’t work reliably out there, so it could just be nothing.

Ben, on the other hand was more worrying. He hit the call button and heard it ring until it goes to voicemail and starts speaking at the beep.

“Benjamin, I’ve been expecting a call back. I haven’t heard from either you or Warren and I’m getting worried. I know how much of a trouble magnet Mercy is, so please let me know you’re okay. Right. Talk to you later, darling. Bye.”

He looks at the scattered papers on his desk and sorts everything neatly so he can get a fresh start in the morning. He’s too distracted to do any more work for the night, so he might as well go home. He plays with his phone, and makes the decision to call Adam’s place. Someone is always there and maybe they know what’s going on. He finds the contact number for the house phone and dials. After three rings, someone picks up.

“Hello, Hauptman residence,” a young female voice says over the line.

“Hi, it’s Kyle, is this Jesse?”

“Kyle! Hi! How are you? Yeah, it’s me,” she replies happily as she recognizes Kyle’s voice, “Are you looking for my dad or Warren?”

“Hi honeypie, I’m so happy to hear your voice. I’m looking for Warren, or even Ben. Are they there?”

“No, Dad and Warren had something they had to do at Uncle Mike’s and they haven’t come back yet. You know how bad the cell signal is out there, right?”

“Oh, yeah, I do. Ben was supposed to be with Mercy today. Are they back yet?”

“I didn’t know that. No, they’re not here. Why are you looking for that jerk anyway?”

“Oh, honey, what did Ben do now?”

“He’s just… ugh. He’s so mean sometimes. He told me yesterday that it looked like a mermaid died in my hair, because I dyed it blue and green.”

“That’s terrible, honey; I’m sure your hair looks beautiful! Do you want me to talk to him about it?”

“Why would you talk to Ben about being mean to me?” Jesse asks, baffled.

“You didn’t know we’re friends?” it’s Kyle’s turn to be confused.

“Nobody’s friends with Ben, except Mercy. You’re also a guy, Kyle. He’s not so mean to guys,” she says matter-of-factly. It makes Kyle sad to hear it.

“You’re right, and that’s a big problem with him. I do know he’s been trying to be better, sweetie, but changes that big don’t happen overnight.  You should just ignore him when he’s Ben the Grouch. I’ll ask him to be nicer to you if you want.”

“If you think he’d listen to you, which I don’t.”

“Well, I do,” he promises.  “Darling, I have to go. If you hear something about Warren and Ben, please let me know. You have my number right?”

“Yeah, I do. You’ll come by soon, right? You’re just about the only adult that listens to me around here.”

“Werewolves, right? I promise. Talk to you later, sweetie,” he says and disconnects the phone. He bites his lip and makes a decision to drive over to Mercy’s Garage, just in case something happened.

--

When Kyle parks his Jag outside of the garage, all the lights are on and the bays are open, which is odd as it’s past closing time. Mercy’s rabbit and Kyle’s truck are parked in the lot, which means they should be inside. He doesn’t see any movement in the shop, but that doesn’t mean they aren’t in the office. He pops the trunk and grabs the tire iron, just in case. The gravel crunches loudly under his feet as he walks to the closest open bay, loud enough that Ben should hear him coming. He looks inside and sees tools strewn about the floor next to a work bench, and the chairs from the waiting area are all flipped over as if they were thrown. There’s a werewolf sized dent in the hood of the old GTI that’s sitting in the second bay, and the window is smashed to pieces. He hopes that’s how the car came into the shop and not the direct result of Ben smashing into the car. His bad feeling goes from bad to worse, and pulls out his phone. He sends a group text to Warren and Adam.

6:25pm

At Mercy’s garage, looks like there was a fight. Will text again in five, don’t call til then Send help

He pockets the phone and hefts the tire iron. Its heavy weight is comforting in his hands and does a couple squats to limber up his legs. If he has to fight, he will. He had a black belt, after all, even though he was terribly out of practice, he could kick ass. Hopefully if it came to that, it was a human foe and not a supernatural one.

Kyle scans the shadows of the garage, looking for anything that could be hiding there and finds nothing. Slowly, and as quietly as he can, he starts walking to the office door.

The door is ajar, which is wrong. Mercy makes sure the door is always kept closed to keep it the comfortable  temperature of whatever she’s set the HVAC at. He looks into the room and it’s dark, which isn’t good. He doesn’t have werewolf vision, so he can’t see beyond the strip of light that shines in from the garage.

He thinks he sees a booted foot on the floor, attached to a slim figure which is Mercy-shaped. He pushes the door open with the tire iron and reaches for the light switch and flips it on. Suddenly the room is bathed in light and that is most definitely Mercy sprawled on the floor.

He quickly scans the office to make sure there’s no one else there and rushes in to check on her. He drops the tire iron with a loud clang and he checks her pulse. Thankfully, she’s breathing, her pulse is strong, but she’s got several ugly bruises on her face and a split lip that is still oozing blood into a pool on the floor. Whatever happened here wasn’t that long ago. He gently shakes her arm. She moans and starts moving around as she comes to.

“Careful there, Mercy, take it easy. Can you sit up? Is anything broken?” he asks as he gently helps her turn over.

“Kyle? Where’s Ben? There was a witch and then a fight,” she slurs as she sits up and rubs her head, “Ouch.”

“I didn’t see Ben. He’s not in the garage and both of your vehicles are still parked out front. I’ll go look around back. Here, your lip is still bleeding,” he says as he pulls a clean handkerchief from his pocket and hands it to her, “I’ll be right back, so sit still and rest for a minute.”

“Thanks. Be careful.”

“I will. I haven’t been able to reach Adam or Warren, but I texted them to send help. Be right back.”

Kyle picks up the tire iron and does a quick perimeter search. He doesn’t find Ben, which scares him. He pulls his phone back out and sends the promised text to Adam and Warren.

6:31pm

Mercy’s here but was roughed up. Ben was probably taken. She says there was a witch. Call me ASAP

He walks back into the garage and Mercy has pulled herself off the floor and is sitting in the office chair pressing the handkerchief to her lip.

“He’s gone. How bad are you, hon? Can you walk?” He asks and rubs her shoulder gently. She winces and he stops with a muttered apology.

“I can walk. It’s going to hurt for a couple days, but I’ll be alright.”

“Good, now tell me what happened? Do you think they took Ben, whoever they are? God, please tell me he’s still alive!?”

“Ben’s still alive,” she says with certainty, “I can feel him through the Pack bonds, but he feels like he’s far away.”

“Oh, thank god,” Kyle says with relief.  “Can you find him?”

“I don’t know. I can try.”

“Does all of this have to do with the meeting that was going on at Uncle Mike’s earlier today?”

“How do you know about that? Nevermind, you’re Warren’s mate, of course you’d find out about it. The meeting was between Alistair Beauclaire and Adam, Darryl, and Warren. From what I understand, a witch named Euphenia has been seen near the Fae reservation and Alistair wanted to ask for help finding her. She’s got a bone to pick with the Grey Lords because they tricked her at some point. She wants revenge and she thinks that she can use the Walking Stick, though I’m not sure I know why; it’s not going to obey her. She has some sort of earth elemental under her control. That thing knocked me out. Ben fought hard but was knocked out while Euphenia kept me busy. She left without the Walking Stick, and probably wants to use Ben as leverage for it.

“Can you tell if he’s hurt?”

“I don’t… think… so? He alive and not happy, that’s about all I can tell through the pack bond right now. If we can get a hold of Adam, he probably could tell us more.”

“I texted them back and told them to call me ASAP, but so far nothing. Do you think they’re on the Reservation and just not getting service?”

“I can’t tell, but if they’re out there, that’s most likely. We may be on our own.”

“Mercy, we have to get Ben back. I don’t want to think about what she might be doing to him! He’s got enough issues without this on top of everything else.”

“You two seem to be pretty close. Huh. When did that happen? He’s never really said anything about you other than you and Warren make him come over for “shitty” movie nights.”

“That doesn’t surprise me. When does Ben ever really talk about himself? He bitches and grumbles, yeah, but he’s really good at not saying much about himself. He doesn’t have many friends in the pack from what I understand, and unfortunately, a lot of them think that being gay is a communicable disease. If they found out that we’re close, some of them might think he’s another one of us fags and start causing trouble. He’s got enough problems without dealing with homophobic werewolf assholes.”

“Good point, but still, I thought we were friends.”

“He respects you, Mercy. That’s more than most people get from him,” Kyle says gently.

Werewolf ideas of sexuality piss Kyle off, and he tries not to think about it most of the time. He and Warren get plenty of flack from certain members of the pack, and a small, but older, contingent of the werewolves still think that Kyle can’t be Warren’s mate because they can’t reproduce. That’s utter bullshit, he thinks, especially since Warren has explained that female werewolves can’t carry to term. It invalidates the whole argument of what makes a person a mate.

Ben, on the other hand, really doesn’t give two shits about who people sleep with. He’s of the new generation of werewolf that has the modern perceptions and acceptance of different sexualities. However, he learned to keep his mouth shut when confronted with homophobia in the London pack and has just skated along with the status quo.

Kyle thinks Ben is bisexual, but is so blinded by his misogyny and his past experiences that he’s repressed whatever sexual desire he might have. Or, he could be spaghetti and just not care about the gender of whoever he’s had sex with in the past because it was never anything more than fucking. Or not. Ben’s a mystery that Kyle puzzles over from time to time.

It really didn’t matter because being branded as homosexual while being a werewolf was a death sentence, according to Warren. Warren happened to be dominant enough and powerful enough to survive, but Ben most certainly wasn’t. He’d never risk it, even if he decided he liked men. Kyle hated that Ben had to deal with such archaic thinking, so he wasn’t at all offended if Ben didn’t make their friendship common knowledge.

“So what’s the plan, Mercy? We need to find Ben, but how?”

“I might be able to track him by scent if I become Coyote, if I can pick up a trail.”

“And then what? We charge into the witch’s lair, kick her ass, and save Ben? That sounds dangerous. I’m in,” Kyle tells her with all sincerity.

“Kyle, witches are incredibly dangerous, and you’re human. If we find her, we’ll have to wait for the pack to mount a rescue. I couldn’t face Warren if something happened to you.”

“I couldn’t face myself if she’s hurting him, Mercy. He’s my friend and I care about him. We have to try.”

“Alright. Let’s see if we can find them first, then make a plan from there.”

“No plan survives first contact with the enemy. We might be the cavalry.”

“Are you actually willing to die for Ben, Kyle?” she asks, amazed.

“Yes. Aren’t you?”

“Does Warren know how much of a badass you are, Kyle Brooks?”

“Of course he does. My ass is one of my best features,” he replies with a saucy wink.

[janiedean]

(1) Can I just say I hate all this Freddie Mercury biopic wank with a passion? Like, this hellsite went from "Queen is one of those boring 'classic' bands all whites are obsessed with bc they won't even consider new music by diverse artists u.u" to "WWRY is clearly a song about rebellious queer youth, cishets don't touch Queen u.u" after someone pointed out Freddie's ethnicity and sexuality, to "why aren't they making Freddie gay in the biopic!!!11" and... whatever they're whining about now.

(2) And I HATE looking at all this bs and thinking "fake fans", bc I'm pretty damn sure that by most standards, *I* count as a "fake fan", too. I mean, most stuff I know about the band's history is actually stuff about Freddie, thanks to a few documentaries centered around him and my mom, the long-time fan with a big crush on Freddie who introduced me to Queen when I was a kid. Hell, I couldn't even name all their albums or anything needed to be considered a "true fan". But ppl on here... ugh. (3) It's like they're really embarrassed bc they were called out on mistaking "woke" stuff for "unwoke" stuff, and now they have this desperate need to prove their ability to discern wokeness by getting offended about something they don't even care all that much about, as loudly and dramatically as they can.

HAHAHAHAHA.

okay so, tldr: I hate this discourse and I honestly hope that it dies within two weeks out of the biopic for a whole lot of reasons amongst which the ones you said, but like, this discourse actually highlights a shitload of issues with the usual tumblr discourse which I will gladly go into now because I’m fucking tired and this movie isn’t out yet.

now, premise: while I don’t think that true fans are a thing - at most there’s casual fans or in-depth fans but I mean, a fan is a fan so I don’t believe in the *fake* fans thing..... the problem here isn’t that they’re fakes. it’s that they aren’t fans. period.

other premise: from what you’ve said you’re a casual fan which is normal and you DON’T count as fake I mean if you like them and listen to them and know something it’s basically being a casual fan same as I am with idk the rolling stones, I like the famous stuff, I have the fundamental records and I like them when they’re on but that’s it.

but, yours truly is a Not Casual Queen Fan in the sense that a) I got into them when I was seventeen and I’m thirty now so thanks it’s been a while, b) I own all the records, c) I own a decent portion of roger taylor’s/brian may’s solo records (and I have listened to all of them that I couldn’t buy), d) I went to see them live once (k it was with paul rodgers but nvm guys not my fault if I wasn’t born in time for freddie) and I love queen’s music and I’m also fucking cishet and you know what? these people Are Not Fans and they should stop pretending they are and just stop making themselves look like assholes.

SPECIFICALLY:

the movie’s not out yet and I’ve had to see FIFTEEN ‘FRIENDLY REMINDER TO ALL CISHETS THAT FREDDIE MERCURY WAS GAY (at least a couple said he was bi and they were less asshole-ish) AND POC AND IF YOU DON’T KNOW YOU’D BETTER LEARN NOW HAHAHAHA YOU THOUGHT HE WASN’T. spoilers: every fucking casual queen fan who has bothered to buy three records knows that. yes, also the cishets. like, as someone who went from VERY CASUAL (ie: I know three songs) to NOT CASUAL in the span of two months I can 100% assure you that before getting into queen the usual preconceptions are that freddie was gay and that queen = freddie + three other people. the first three things you learn when getting into queen are (more or less in order but it can change) that a) the band was actually brian may + roger taylor first, b) that roger brought freddie in because they knew each other already, c) that mary austin was a fundamental person in freddie’s life and that she was also brian may’s ex and knew him first before they got together, d) the members’s backstories including where freddie was born, so like...... this idea that CASUAL CISHET FANS wouldn’t know that freddie was a) not heterosexual, b) poc is just something a NON-FAN would say because guess what, most queen fans even at a casual level are 100% aware that freddie was a) not heterosexual, b) not ethnical british. and saying that OMG CISHETS DON’T KNOW it’s ridiculous because guess what, everyone knows and if they have no idea they do, though luck, we did;

(spoilers: I also am 99% sure that those ppl have no idea that roger and brian actually sing on the records and composed a shitload of the music and queen =/= ONLY FREDDIE but okay)

they have no idea that rock music in the 70s/80s was not so heteronormative and was not the cishetmalething they think it is. like, please look at led zeppelin (ie THE PEOPLE WITHOUT WHOM YOU WOULDN’T HAVE HEAVY METAL) and tell me they were heteronormative. like, you saw robert plant? yeah, me too. and the thing was that queen were revolutionary in the sense that they brought an operatic/theatrical approach to the music that no one tried before but guess what, the point is that they made it sell. the thing that I would like tumblr Woke People to grasp is that what made queen groundbreaking as far as Wokeness goes is that they managed to sell and become the monster-moneymaking group they were (while keeping things quality) with a frontman who was Not Heterosexual, Did Not Try To Pass For Heterosexual One Day In His Life and Never Shied Away From It. like, idk if people are aware that while the scene was way less heteronormative than they think it still wasn’t the most openly talked about topic around (I mean guys elton john did marry a woman at some point X°DDD), but going around in the seventies flaunting your non-heterosexualness around and selling millions of copies making your stage persona a selling point of your music wasn’t exactly common. like ffs one of the most famous queen songs has a video where for 3/4 of the time they’re in drag and the other part has freddie performing with the royal ballet (and guess what the song was actually written by john deacon and the idea of doing the video in drag was roger taylor’s and none of them as far as we know is Not Heterosexual, but never mind giving the rest of the band some credit when it came to Not Caring About Heteronormativity) and fine, that video was banned/controversial, but it still was a huge british hit and it’s in the top five queen songs Everyone Knows. and tbh I’m terrified of that video being shown in the biopic (which it should since the works was from ‘84 and they stop at ‘85) because I’m 100% sure that those people have no idea it exists and when they find out how long is it gonna take them to decide that IT’S PROBLEMATIC? I mean, Woke Kids on here think the rhps is problematic, I’m shuddering at the thought of what they’d think of the i want to break free video;

actually a lot of us cishet queen fans might have had a wake up call including, er, finding out certain preferences, thanks to either their music or their shows or their videos (*cough* I 100% assure you that watching roger taylor in drag was what made me realize crossdressing was my thing for good like I knew before but I didn’t actually put two and two together until I saw that video and went like ‘............. AH WELL SHIT THEN THAT’S IT FAIR ENOUGH’), and a lot of us cishet queen fans who weren’t, like, strictly playing to heteronormative rules back in the day found a lot to relate to in their music even without being queer ourselves and guess what I’ve never met a single queen *fan* who could give less of a damn about freddie’s ethnicity or orientation (as in: everyone was a-okay with it) regardless of their background. that was what made them groundbreaking and extremely important as well, because they managed to be that kind of record-selling records-breaking band while not shying away from having a Not Heterosexual frontman AND Not Heteronormative Heterosexual Band Members Who Also Didn’t Give Two Fucks About Their Lead Singer’s Sexuality so going like OMG NOW WE’RE GONNA TEACH YOU THAT FREDDIE WASN’T HETEROSEXUAL BECAUSE WE’RE WOKE is ridiculous because dearest susan, we already knew and we already were woke about that and to us he was the frontman of a band we liked for a bunch of reasons;

also I don’t think people realize that freddie was a role model/example for the entire next generation of rock bands frontmen even in genres that had zilch to do with him - I mean guys AXL ROSE had a hero-worship for freddie and sang bohemian rhapsody at the freddie memorial concert WITH ELTON JOHN and grn really aren’t the same exact sphere as queen jsyk, but if you look at axl on stage esp. when he was younger? guys. it’s obvious. like you can see the influence. but lmao, now ALL the very cishet(-ish) singers who OPENLY SAID FREDDIE INFLUENCED THEM DIDN’T KNOW ACCORDING TO TUMBLR DOT COM?

LIKE, fuck’s sake, one of freddie’s major accomplishments in that sense was to ending up being a role model for younger singers in a genre where heteronormativity is way less common than everyone thinks BUT where not many people esp. back in the day would be open about their sexuality because it still was a taboo-ish thing -- like, gender roles were a lot more blurred but you wouldn’t hear many of those people admitting openly they were bi or gay or Not Heterosexual and the entirety of the rock scene especially mainstream but also not was entirely fucking aware of it, do these people think THE FANS wouldn’t?

also, we will rock you was WRITTEN BY BRIAN MAY AND IT WAS ABOUT A FUCKING ENCORE WHERE THE FANS SURPRISED THEM AT ONE SHOW IN LIKE MID-SEVENTIES which already shows that They Know Nothing because if they think freddie wrote all the queen songs then it’s already obvious they have no fucking clue about how queen worked as a band because all the members contributed something (guys john deacon wrote at least two of their major hits, roger taylor sang on all the records along with brian may and if you hear the back harmonies on ‘39 he goes way higher than freddie and a part in seaside rendezvous has both him and freddie mimicking other instruments with their voice and you wouldn’t know if no one told you first, brian may wrote a SHITLOAD of music for queen and it was an all-four effort, not just freddie + three other generic british dudes for fuck’s sake) so like, anyone saying that is already giving ample proof that they have no idea;

now of course you can interpret it as whatever the hell you want, but assuming that all of queen’s music that might relate to queer issues was written by freddie ABOUT QUEER ISSUES (this when freddie’s main topic of interest was... not really discussing his sexuality especially in the seventies like again, I want to break free is one of the queen to-go songs everyone brings up when it comes to that topic and IT WAS WRITTEN BY SOMEONE ELSE and the video concept was THANKS TO SOMEONE ELSE) just shows that a) you don’t know shit about the band’s history, b) you’re not a fan because you didn’t even bother to look it up on wiki, c) you’re trying to look woke at all costs;

they have NO FUCKING CLUE that most people in the 70s/80s/90s in the business were NOT politically correct according to their standards LIKE LITERALLY NO ONE WAS;

goes unsaid they probably haven’t listened to one full queen album from beginning to end not even the greatest hits.

tldr: I hate that they don’t seem to realize that things existed before 2005 and that music in the 70s/80s COULD and WAS diverse and *woke* already before they were even born, I hate that they decided that ALL CISHETS DIDN’T KNOW when thank you I think even my damned parents know and they don’t listen to rock music, I hate that they decided that queen APPARENTLY DIDN’T HAVE A FANBASE BEFORE THEM (lol) or that that fanbase didn’t understand them (triple-lol), I hate that they’re reducing freddie to his sexuality when he didn’t want that in the first place, I hate that they’re falling into THE MAIN MISCONCEPTION AROUND ABOUT THIS BAND as in THAT IT WAS FREDDIE + THREE OTHER PEOPLE and not an all-around group effort of people who were friends and deeply loved/respected each other and put the same share of work into it, I hate that they moment they see the movie and are introduced to the actual music/the actual story they’ll MOST LIKELY find problematic things to wank about because like hell they wouldn’t and I hate that they’re basically pretending to give a fuck about a band that I love and have loved dearly in a very non-casual way when they actually fucking don’t.

fucking hell please never let anyone make a biopic about either springsteen or led zeppelin or other people I actually like because this is bad enough, I don’t even want to think of what tumblr ppl would say if they knew anything about any rock artist of medium-large fame back in the day. peace.

[allaboutwannaone-blog]

enemies to lovers!sungwoon 

genre: fluff word count: 2.0k summary: would you listen to your heart, or your mind in the face of love? author’s note: first scenario up, sorry if its too cringey (´・ω・`)  /edits are mine!/

• well *claps three times sassily*

• iTs hA sAeng uN tiMe

• sungwoon was,,, really just like any other classmate (who sits behind you)

• aside from his obnoxiously stupid loud voice (which you’ll grow to love shh)

• and his stupid round glasses that dEfiNiteLy dIdN’T sUiT hIm aT aLL???!! (inserts overly used spongebob meme)

• and his stupid lips that look like clouds (and probably tastes like them too) 

• and his stupidly sparkly eyes and his stupidly cute height and jUst uGh

• come to think of it he was never really a normal person and you were just a wee bit attracted to him JUST A WEE BIT A WEE BIT 

• but ever since this argument you had in front of the entire class,, the wee feelings you thought you had for him disappeared (did it really??) because boi he is annoying  눈_눈 

• it was literature class and your teacher!jisung was asking a question about whether you should follow your heart or your mind when making a choice 

• jisung: “so…y/n, what do you think?”

• you: “actually, i personally think that thinking with your mind is a better option because it will lead you to making a more rational choice, since your heart may make risky decisions based on your emotions. following your heart will not work well in situations that are pressurising.”

• jisung: “brilliant, any other opinions, class?”

• sungwoon: “well, actually, i personally think that your argument is flawed because your mind is logical and logic follows the conventional way of thinking. you’ll never get to go out of your comfort zone! you’ll never take any risk! that’s why you have to think with your heart. think, think!”

• oH HO aH HA *rubs hands in glee* D RA M A

• you: “but taking risks will get you into trouble!”

• sungwoon: “well that’s because you’re a goody-two-shoes!”

• you: “says the one who hasn’t skipped school before.”

• him: “says the one who never fails to hand up your homework on time.”

• you both: “sAYS THE ONE-“

• jisung, exasperatedly: “ALRIGHT CLASS, LET’S SETTLE DOWN, NO FIGHTING BECAUSE YOU GUYS ARE UNDERAGE.” 

• ok but he’s secretly shipping you guys together because oo you both noticed each other’s habits in school mHmMmMmMmm!m

• anyway

• that was the beginning of the hatred between the two of you,, you were like bij what the feck 

• queueing for food in the cafeteria? sungwoon secretly slips in front of you when you're distracted,, talking to your friends

• you confront him about it - but he acts like he doesn't know anything even though the small smirk on his face tells you otherwise,, and that infuriated you to no end

• having lessons? you turn behind and ‘accidentally’ knock over his pencil case to pass him papers teachers give out 

• you feel bad whenever he has to pick everything back up but your pride ain't gonna let you stoop that low to help the enemy so you just kind of just signal to your lab partner baejin to help him and he's always ʘ‿ʘ because he knows something’s up but only for a moment as he remembers you have the video of him headbanging on top of a table once because he didn't hear you entering his dorm room,,,bUT THATS A STORY FOR ANOTHER TIME

• however,, one day when you were going home after long gruelling hours in prison (jk school), you decided to take a detour to a convenience store since you are a thirstin’ and hungry hoe 

• after spending eons deciding on which snack to buy (you ended up buying one of each of the five types you painstakingly shortlisted), you finally decided to go and pay

• bUT GUESS WHO YOU SAW ????? (cues the ‘no shit, sherlock’s)

• yes it is,,, HA SUNGWOON1!1!1!!1!1!1!!

• but he wasn't alone

• was he with a girlfriend????? boyfriend????

• NO!!

• he was with an old lady

• and well, being the nosy person you are, you crept closer forward to figure out what they're saying in front of a pissed off cashier while pretending to look at the drinks

• old lady: “i’m sorry, i do not have enough money to pay for everything. are you sure there's no discount for the elderly? i have the card with me-”

• cashier, rudely cuts in: “this is the second time you're asking me that, and the answer is. still. no. fix your hearing, will you?”

• sungwoon: “fix you manners, will you? i’ll pay for her as well so shut the hell up and start being polite, will you?”

• the mildly stunned cashier decided to shut the hell up and started being polite; scanning their items and even bowed to them after they left.

• however, all you noticed was the blinding smile sungwoon gave to the lady.

• it made you feel things

• good things

• something sort of like…butterflies in your stomach

• your mind tells you to sTOP THINKING OF FRATERNISING WITH YOUR ENEMY THAT’S A BIG NO-NO

• …but your heart speaks otherwise

• you decided to leave the store after purchasing your goods (not without giving the cashier a stink eye) not long after ,, and surprise, surprise!

• you knocked your forehead against the chin of someone (that someone has an unbelievably sharp chin and it probably left a dent in your skull) coming into the store

• and it was,,, sungwoon?? again??

• him: “wait, you…were in there the whole time?”

• you: *blinks* *nods dazedly*

• him: “oh…um, i, um forgot to buy my milk and you’re, um, blocking the entrance?”

• you: “oh.” *doesn’t budge*

• you, 10 seconds later: “youdidwellbacktheregoodjobokbye” *runs away*

• you realised that that was actually your first conversation with him that didn't include any fighting…and you screwed it up 

• but why do you even care about that?? like, who cares if you talk to him??

• “you do.” your smol beating heart whispers.

• and that was the day you started falling for him.

• you started noticing how he always seemed to pick up your pen whenever you try some cool tricks which often resulted in it flying backwards (and hitting him once but you swear it was an accident)

• how he never fails to try his best and give you constructive feedback whenever the teacher told you guys to switch papers to mark (even though he’ll always add in some snarky remarks like “hah betcha didn't listen in class”)

• how he defends his friends when they get laughed at for not knowing how to answer questions at times 

• how his lips look so full and cloud-like 

• but what about him, then? does he feel the same?

• honestly,, the day you ran away after complimenting was the incident that really got him thinking that hey i’m really am whipped

• yes that's rIGHT

• he liked you even before that incident because you looked cute bickering with him (he thought you resembled a smol angry bird)

• and that day just,, confirmed his suspicions that he really likes you

• but he was scared,,

• that you’ll reject him because in his opinion,, you looked like you hated him a lot

• he had no idea how to rectify that because honestly bothering you was the only way he could keep talking to you 

• bUt hAh jokes on both of you guys because you like each other 

• hOWEVER, THERE WAS A PROBLEM

• none of you are budging to make the first move even though you guys keep staring at each other across the cafeteria 

• small accidental (🤔🤔) brushes of hands when passing down assignments make you feel fuzzy inside 

• shy smiles are now exchanged instead of mock glares anD eveRyoNe around y’all is just like “feck this tension between you guys, i’ll die before y’all even kiss”

• and you're just “…hAhh no he doesn't like me…NOT THAT I LIKE HIM EITHER” (baejin: ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°))

• to make sure that everyone lives to see you guys become an item,, sungwoon’s and your friends decided to hatch a plan to get you guys together (they deadass created a group chat for it called ‘we are gonna make this happen’ what jokes)

• …that's why you find yourself pacing up and down the garden in your school (it's monstrous and no lie you were kinda afraid of it but nvm) because your bestie told you to meet her there after eating lunch and you're just like ?? i thought you had a meeting 

• her: stfu nobody asked for your opinion jUst gO aLonG wiTh tHe fLoW jk i love you

• when you finally heard the crunching of leaves and twigs, you launched into your rant like bRUH I’VE BEEN WAITING HERE FOR TWENTY MINUTES WHY ARE-

• unknown: “…sorry?”

• you, a stuttering and blushing mess: “oh-h sor-ry i thought you were my b-best friend because i was supposed to b-be meeting her here.”

• sungwoon, a tad shyly: “wait, what? my friends told me to meet them here too!”

• you: “…oh. guess we have to wait together…then.”

• after five minutes of agonising awkwardness (istg the both of you were dying to speak but it was like there was this invisible barrier), you couldn't take it anymore 

• you: “um, so-”

• sungwoon, at the same time, loudly: “UM, SO-“

• you: “ok you go first”

• him: “no you go first”

• you: “no YOU go first”

• him: “fine”

• you: “fine”

• you: “why aren't you speaking????”

• you, looking over worriedly at the flustered boy: “did you become mute??? are you sick?? your ears are turning red!!!!!”

• him, after a one minute mental pep talk: “okay so you're one of the dumbest persons i've ever met but you're also one of the prettiest too and i've been waiting to say this for the past few months but i really like you a lot but i know that you hate me and want me to be banished to the other side of the world and i'll back off if you don't like me which is a highly possible answer but i like you a lot and fuck why am i rambling”

• you: “wait shut up and let me process what you just said”

• you: *processes for a long time because yOU CANT BELIEVE YOUR CRUSH LIKED YOU BACK*

• him: “…oooookay i’m about to be rejected i should skedaddle away right now”

• and honestly you felt like you could burst but no you can't burst because then you'll never be his girlfriend so you try to keep your guts from exploding 

• but sungwoon was already leaving ,,, you have to takE A C TION 

• so you ran up to him and told him that you actually reciprocate his feelings ,, and you gave him the best hug you could ever give (one that u reserved for only your soft toys and well technically sungwoon is as soft as a soft toy so it makes sense)

• HE WAS SHOCKED, SURPRISED, STUNNED, SHOOK, SURPRISED, SHOCKED (…what else i am not a living thesaurus ffs) 

• his heart was doing that little jump thingy whenever he was around you like “!1!1!!1!????!1!!!!” and he was so happy he wanted to turn around and kiss you but 

• AT THAT MOMENT BEFORE YOU GOT TO TASTE HIS CLOUD LIKE LIPS

• you heard the rustling of leaves and a group of people climbed out of their hiding spots in bushes, behind plants, trees, a random beach chair

• daniel: HEY HEY HEY KEEP IT PG-13 OR THE POLICE WILL COME

• baejin: yEA WE HAVE A BABY HERE *points to daehwi*

• jihoon: and we won't want to scar our eyes lololol no offence to you y/n this is directed to our hyung

• your bestie: i KNEW THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA

• ,,,and that was the end of your fiasco in the garden (not without those bright smiles from your boyfriend that could actually save the world and a few pecks sneaked in) 

• BUT IT WAS JUST THE BEGINNING OF THE CUTEST RELATIONSHIP EVER WITH SUNGWOON, AN ANGEL,,

• and you realised that hey you thought with your heart when you confessed to him lmao

[dat-town]

My heart leads to you

Characters: best friend Yoongi & You

Setting: soulmate compass au, (slightly) sleeping beauty au, friend to lovers

Genre: fluff (despite the summary it’s fluff, i promise!)

Summary: “I think my soulmate is dead.”

Word count: 3.8k

For more fairytale aus, check my Once upon a fairytale masterpost.

Also, happy comeback everyone! ♥

(Original pic credit.)

You will never forget the day when the pointer of your soulmate compass stopped.

It happened in the middle of your Advanced Economics exam. Sure, you weren’t bothered at first because it’s a common thing that the pointer stands still temporarily when your significant other isn’t moving, for example during sleep. But now it was stuck in that one position and didn’t move for the rest of the day. Or ever since for that matter. And that, that only happens when your other half, the one you are destined to be with is no longer alive.

 “What happens when you lost your soulmate? Can you have another one?”

You were six when you asked your mother about the consequences of losing your promised one, the pair of your soul. You have always wondered whether it hurt just like they were taking away something from you. Or is it something that can be replaced?

“Why do you ask, darling?” you mother looked up from the family accounting, frowning. Such a weird, gloomy question from a pre-schooler.

You, sitting opposite of her at the dining table, kept drawing with crayons as the answer rolled down from your tongue.

“Heejin from school said her parents will divorce. Does it mean they won’t be soulmates anymore?” you furrowed your eyebrows not understanding the concept of growing apart. Heejin’s parents will live in separate houses from now on, so she will have two rooms and two places to call home. At least that’s what she said. But you couldn’t put your finger on this. Why would one want to leave their soulmate behind? How could their love change?

But your mother had the answer, of course, because mothers always know everything.

“No-no, it doesn’t mean that, honey. Soulmates are for life. Sometimes they disagree and part ways, a few of them find their way back to each other, a few don’t but the universe is never wrong. They are your better half so you have to treasure them.”

“But… what if one of them dies? Will the marking fade?” you inquired further with your childish enthusiasm as you looked down on the compass tattoo on the inner side of your wrist. It’s nothing special, just a thin black pointer slightly moving inside of an ink circle as big as a coin. Everybody is born with it, it‘s as natural as a birthmark.

“No but it won’t move anymore. You will feel emptiness and cannot experience that kind of love only your soulmate can give to you. So once you find them, you have to take care of them, okay?”

You nodded while gently stroking your skin over the compass. Its vibrations were a little bit ticklish as the pointer moved and you watched it in awe. Soulmate compasses work like normal compasses but not quite. While the magnetized one always points at a stable, unmoving point, North based on your location, the soulmate one depends on your significant other’s position and movements that required location changes while not counting your coordinates in the equation. So finding them isn’t as easy as it sounds even with a compass.

Not even a minute later you went back to drawing since as a six-years-old, your attention span lasted only this long. But it just struck you now that you haven’t forgotten about what happens to soulmates without their other half.

 After experiencing the first sign, you tried to calm yourself down with poor excuses. Maybe your soulmate broke their leg and couldn’t move. But you knew very well that the pointer trembled even at the slightest movements. However yours were deadly still.

No more buzzing, itching feeling in your wrist. The sight of the constantly angle-changing compass used to stir up butterflies in your stomach, fuelled your excitement towards the day when the pointer would go completely crazy near your soulmate. But now it just made you sad. More so, because there was nobody you could really talk to about it.

When you told your parents, they looked at you like they were grieving an unborn child. They even offered you consultation with a psychologist who specialized in the field of people losing their soulmates. But the thing was: you couldn’t lose them because you have never even had the opportunity to have one to begin with. You never met, you had no idea how he or she (let’s not forget the fifty-fifty chance) was like. How could you grieve somebody you didn’t even know?

But there was somebody you would have liked to talk about it, whom you wanted to tell everything because you knew he would never judge you. Min Yoongi wasn’t someone who would do that. Even if it was something pitiful like that a part of you was relieved now because you couldn’t possibly disappoint the one who was doomed to be with you. You knew it was harsh and unfair but a part of you dreaded the day when your soulmate would have enough of you like all your previous boyfriends did. You knew that if somebody then Yoongi would understand it, just like he understands the complexity of you.

You ‘met’ via Soundcloud where he uploads his music and you occasionally do vocal covers of English songs. For you, it’s just a hobby but for him, it’s his life and it should be because he’s amazingly talented, there are seriously no words for his work. Sometimes you still can’t believe that he, Agust D messaged you one day proposing a collab.

 agust_d liked your audio ‘SIA - Chandelier cover’ and  ‘The NBHD - Sweather Weather acoustic cover’

You have a new message from agust_d!

 hello starlight sonata,

i really liked the english covers you uploaded. i was wondering if you would feature in one of my tracks? since you’re following me i guess you know i’m a rapper but this new song needs a vocal, preferably feminine and i think yours would fit the melody nicely. i enclosed a preview of the instrumental, let me know what you think.

agust d

p.s. i saw in your bio that you’re also korean, cheers!

 There was no way you could say no to that. Of course, you agreed and you two immediately clicked when you started talking about music. Even after releasing So far away, you messaged each other almost every day. After one point, you were talking not only about music related topics but literally everything.

 To: yoongs ♡

I just got a free coffee at Starbucks today

From: yoongs ♡

great. that’s exactly what i need.

give it to me

pleeeease

To: yoongs ♡

But you’re 2800 miles away

From: yoongs ♡

don’t quote blackbear on me

and ilsan is 200 miles away at most

To: yoongs ♡

Are you from Seoul or…?

From: yoongs ♡

yeah. seoul.

originally daegu, though. hence my alias

To: yoongs ♡

Ooooh D-boy, right. How could I forget?

So Seoul, that’s cool. Whatcha doing there?

From: yoongs ♡

trying to make it big with a few friends

namjoon and hobi are rappers too, we share a studio, it’s cheaper

joon is from ilsan too btw

To: yoongs ♡

Then you should all come visit so I can finally see your face

From: yoongs ♡

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here. you happy?

 Well, happy wasn’t the first adjective that comes to your mind. It was more like surprised. He looked so cute in that white hoodie, fluffy, messy blonde hair and nose crunch. He was undeniably handsome. Still, you got why he didn’t post his face all over his social media, he probably wanted people to follow him because of his music and not his looks.

 To: yoongs ♡

Very

You are way cuter than I expected

You know, from someone who sends people to Hong Kong with their tongue technology

FYI, it’s a compliment

From: yoongs ♡

it sounded like teasing to me but nvm

your turn!

To: yoongs ♡

I never promised anything

From: yoongs ♡

it’s only fair

how else could i know you are not a 40 years old bored wife at home?

To: yoongs ♡

It’s called TRUST

From: yoongs ♡

so are you? i mean married?

To: yoongs ♡

No, jeez. Not even a boyfriend

Fine. Give me one sec.

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Me feat the coffee you WON’t get

From: yoongs ♡

are you kidding me?

did you just download an idol’s selfie?

To: yoongs ♡

Wow i don’t even know if i should take it as a compliment or insult

From: yoongs ♡

no it’s just… how are you still single?

To: yoongs ♡

I guess I just haven’t found the right one yet

From: yoongs ♡

you are pretty, your soulmate will be very lucky

To: yoongs ♡

Thanks...

 Since then he bombarded you with selfies taken from that one angle that kills you and even though you had never met face-to-face, he was like a best friend to you. You complained to him about exams and assignments while he whined about his part-time job - being a pizza delivery boy - and missing Holly, their dog. You recommended each other movies, played 20 questions way a lot more than it counts as 20 questions, talked all night about music and silly things. But beyond listening to each other, you were also there to support each other every time the other needed it.

Yet, when you needed him the most, he was nowhere.

 To: yoongs ♡

I think my soulmate is dead.

 When he didn’t answer right away to your text, you weren’t surprised. When he was working and got into the zone, he was a little distant and slow but not answering for a week? That was unheard of. You couldn’t decide whether you should be worried or pissed off. You decided against the latter when two weeks passed and he still hadn’t uploaded anything new to his account. You DMed his friend, Joon who went by RapMon on Soundcloud to ask about him. His reply was immediate.

Oh, shit, sorry I didn’t contact you. It’s been crazy here. Yoongi hyung was involved in an accident, got hit by a car during work. He’s stabilized now but still in hospital.

You could only think of one question: which one? and with the answer you got, you dropped everything else. You didn’t worry about your probably dead soulmate at all when you were on the next train to Seoul. You couldn’t believe you were whining about being ignored while Yoongi had been in hospital for two weeks already because a freaking car hit him. Maybe it was regret that persuaded you to make that impulsive decision of going to Seoul. Or maybe it was something else.

You merely glanced at your bare wrist and the frozen pointer before stepping into the hospital’s hall with a bouquet of flowers. You brought the forget-me-nots only to tease the boy but with a warm heart still. The clinic smelled like any other and the ridiculously white walls made you anxious. For no longer you felt comfortable in your body with the colourful flowers in your hand that made you feel like you were visiting a sick grandma. You tentatively approached the door following the receptionist’s directions. To your relief, a familiar guy was waiting in front of it and when he saw you, he walked right up to you.

"Hi. Y/N, right? I’m Namjoon," he greeted you with a welcoming smile that deepened his dimples. He was a lot taller than you thought, you had to practically arch your back so you could look him in the eye while answering.

"Glad to finally meet you."

"Likewise. So bad the occasion isn’t the best," he grimaced, forehead crinkled with worry. It reminded you why you came in the first place.

“How is he?”

“Taken the circumstances he’s okay. A few fractured ribs, nothing broken though but…” the rapper gulped nervously, nibbling on his lower lip. “He has a severe head trauma.”

“As in?” You weren’t quite well-informed when it came to medical jargon. Did it mean he lost his memories or what?

“It means he hit his head so hard that despite his promising vitals he doesn’t wake up.” Oh. Now you finally understood why Namjoon wrote that there would be no point of your visit. But you were so stubborn you wanted to come no matter what. What’s more, since it was your first time meeting you wanted to look pretty and put on a nice light blue dress. Well, it look like he won’t see you anyway.

“Can I see him though?” you asked stubbornly, not wanting to go back without seeing him after you came such a long way for that. You had no idea if there was any special protocol, maybe visiting hours restriction for patients in coma You didn’t know if you could even see him in this state but you hoped wholeheartedly that you didn’t come in vain. One look and it would be enough, you told yourself.

“Sure. He would be happy to have you here.” Namjoon showed you the way to the right door.  “He talks about you a lot, you know...”

“Yeah, all the time,” another voice chimed in, stepping out of the room you were ready to enter. “Hi! I’m Hoseok but you can call me Hobi like my friends and their friends do. And now I’m starving so we would leave the big guy with you.”

“Sure.” “We will be back in an hour tops and don’t worry about it, you can leave him alone. It’s not like he could go anywhere, we just like to keep him company,” Namjoon waved to you as Hosok dragged him away until they disappeared in the hospital hallways.

“Kiss him awake!” The smiley boy shouted back and that left you speechless, blinking blankly. You waved back hesitantly, still processing what just happened and what you should do. Right, visiting Yoongi.

You were taken aback by your rapidly beating heart. Why were you so nervous? It’s not like he would be up and awake. And it’s Yoongi anyway, no need to be worried. You took a deep breath and stepped into the white hospital room. It looked just like in tv dramas and you smiled at the several Get well soon balloons wishing him quick recovery. You put the flowers into the empty vase on the nightstand and poured water in it from a pot. Then and just then you let yourself look at him.

With his hair falling onto his gauze-covered forehead, eternal calmness spreading on his lovely features he looked as if he was just sleeping. You stepped closer scratching your itching wrist and bent down to brush the boy’s fringe away from his closed eyes. How was that possible that he was even more handsome in real life? He was dressed in common hospital attire, attached to a heart monitor and kept alive with infusion. Still, he looked like a sleeping beauty.

You wondered what somebody’s soulmate felt if the other was in such state? How would the compass act? Unmoving without deadweight? And would the life functions of the person in coma be enough to keep his own compass working?

You were too curious for your own good so you touched Yoongi’s arm that rested by his body gently. He didn’t even stir but when you turned it over and took a look at his right wrist, his compass was vividly alive. The pointer couldn’t stop spinning around in a speed that made you dizzy. It didn’t made sense. Compasses should only act like this around their soulmates while yours was only itching like crazy. However, looking down at it, observing its curves closely you figured out why: your pointer kept fidgeting like it wanted to move but couldn’t.

Which meant that your soulmate wasn’t dead after all. He was only unconscious.

You should have known, finally the puzzle pieces find their place: Yoongi was the one destined for you.

You have often imagined what your first meeting with your soulmate would look like. You daydreamed about romantic buzzing with a sense of surprise, maybe fear of disappointment. But now that it happened, you were strangely calm, almost happy. Your soulmate was the boy who talked you to sleep when you couldn’t fall asleep, who asked you to sing to him when he was tired, the one who thought you were smart, talented, funny and pretty. So why almost happy? Well, meeting in a hospital while he was in coma isn’t the most romantic way to meet but a memorable one for sure.

What did just Hobi suggest?

“True love’s kiss, huh?” you snorted, giggling to yourself.

It was not like you to kiss somebody you just met. But this was Yoongi who also happened to be your soulmate. What’s the worst thing that could happen? Nothing, literally nothing. However, on the bright side, he could wake up. Why not test the gossips they are whispering about soulmate bonds and how special they are?

So you acted on impulse, you didn’t think, you just dived in and let yourself drown. Planting a kiss on a pair of unmoving, dry lips wasn’t the most romantic of experience but you swore you could feel the spark, that familiar tingling in your wrist, under the layer of your skin but you didn’t bother to look away from Yoongi’s face. Those long, fluttering eyelashes, the apples of his cheeks, the tint on his pale skin and the lips you just kissed. It didn’t take a minute and they were widening in a sharp inhale which was closely followed by a slow exhale.

What?!

To say you were awestruck is probably an understatement. You were so lost off words you couldn’t even formulate a normal sentence, much less execute any normal human activity noting that the boy you just kissed on the mouth suddenly woke up from a two-week-long coma. And to top it all, you were still only a few inches away from him face when he opened his eyes.

“Hi,” Yoongi blinked at you still half-asleep, voice raspy and words slurred but his coffee brown eyes were sparkling like thousand morning stars and so beautiful, it made your chest hurt.

“Hi yourself,” you beam at him pulling away, a little embarrassed. Even without looking, you knew your compass was spinning like a madman-driven carousel and you suddenly felt shy. What if he felt it, too? And what if he didn’t?

“Am I dreaming? Or is this heaven?” he asked drowsily, tone thick with sleep, a bit of flirty-ish as he looked around in the blinding white room and tried to sit up.

“Eww, I didn’t know you’re such a cheeseball, Min Yoongi,” you teased lightly and had the urge to playfully hit him on the chest but stopped yourself in time. There must have been some human decency protocol about not abusing physically people who just woke up from coma. So instead, you helped him arranging his pillows and keep him a leverage so he could move backwards until he was in a sitting position.

“Only for you,” he winked at you, mouth pulled in a smirk, probably still high on medicine. But yet again, you found yourself too close to his face and it took your breath away. He had a comical bandage all around his head and he smelled like antiseptics but he could still make you blush. Unfair.

You decided against playing along with him and sat down on the bed, putting an appropriate distance between you. Clearing your throat, you asked the question that had already threatened to fall from your lips: “Did you know?”

“What?” Yoongi blinked, confused and you should have remembered that maybe he was still not entirely conscious but you had too many feeling conjured up inside of you. You felt like you were going to burst if you didn’t get answers.

“That we are soulmates, idiot.”

Hearing you say it out loud, Yoongi grinned widely, showing off his gummy smile and looked down at his hands oddly shy. He watched his own restless compass for a whole three seconds that had driven you crazy before he answered:

“Kinda,” he shrugged and you gaped at him. He sounded a lot more sure than a ‘kinda’.

“How long?”

“Since your European trip. My compass went crazy when you were on the plane,” Yoongi explained and it all made sense. His frantic messages asking about when you would arrive back from your vacation, his offer that he could pick you up at the Seoul airport so that you could finally meet. But in the end, it didn’t work out because he had a show that day and your dad came for you anyway. Weeks passed, the university semester started for you and you were just as apart as you were before.

Until now.

“Ah that’s why you wanted to meet me so desperately,” you laughed, all giddy and happy that Yoongi wanted the same thing as you. But what was it exactly?

“I wasn’t that desperate,” the boy was quick to protest since he couldn’t let his pride get hurt. You knew well Min Yoongi was a prideful man but you liked to test your limits.

“Keep telling yourself that. You even got hit by a car just to lure me here,” you chuckle feeling so incredibly relieved that you could be yourself this easily around him too, not only through texts, and that it wasn’t awkward at all. It felt natural, oh so right. Like the two of you were meant to be.

“It wasn’t on purpose, it hurt like hell,” you soulmate pouted and you wanted to kiss that frown away. Especially now that he played hard to get. “You know what? I take everything back, I don’t want you as a soulmate. You’re horrible.”

“But you like me,” the words were out of your mouth faster than you could stop them and you panicked for a moment. Oh how you hoped you didn’t read the signs wrong, so you decided to raise the bid and add all in.  “It’s okay, I like you, too.”

It looked like that was what Yoongi was waiting for because his smile softened, turning into a beaming one.

“Good. Now kiss me properly,” he sighed, out of breath already and you lean forward slowly this time, engraving each passing second and the look on Yoongi’s face, the way his eyes fluttered close and his hot breath fanned over your mouth while your soulmate compasses danced to the rapid beat of your hearts.

You will never forget the day when you fell in love with your soulmate.

[sarohara]

You: Hey

Stranger: hey

You: Wyd/

You: ?*

Stranger: i'm jake, you?

Stranger: also j chilling here

You: Well, i actually asked "what r you doing" but it's alright

You: Ohhhhhh

You: nvm

Stranger: LOL

You: Well, i'm Sarah

Stranger: nice to meet you sarah

Stranger: and wyd? 😂

You: nice to meet u as well lol

Stranger: also how old are you?

You: I'm just listening to music 😂

You: I'm 16

You: wbu?

Stranger: oh cool i'm 17

Stranger: i'm listening to music too

Stranger: whatchyu listenin to?

You: Oh what song?

You: oHH

You: Hm, Take me Home, i guess

Stranger: oh i don't think you'd like it 😂 it's not pleasant

Stranger: Take me home!! love that song

Stranger: it's amazing

You: Ohhhh i think the sameee

You: About Take me home, sure

You: Tell what r u listening, pls

Stranger: I'm listening to this

Stranger: Currently going through some grief, and this helps, in some weird twisted way

You: Wait

You: is the lyric?

Stranger: wait sorry?

You: is that the lyrics of the song?

Stranger: oh no, that's just my thoughts

You: Ohhhhh

Stranger: did you try taking a listen?

You: Yea 😂

Stranger: not exactly the sweetest shit huh 😂

You: 😂😂😂

You: Well...

Stranger: Haha it's okay, I'm listening to it bc it ain't that

You: ahahha oke then, but do u wanna talk about that?

Stranger: Hmm we don't have to, there's dark stuff, and I don't wanna put that on ya

You: Don't worry but if u don't want to, it's okay :)

Stranger: Okay you're nice and I appreciate that :)

You: Oh thanks dude :)

Stranger: Tell me what's on your mind, how's life been for you?

You: Well...

You: Overwhelmed, I would say

Stranger: Why?

You: But nothing much, u know...it's just life, is what it is

Stranger: Well, what's been bothering you?

You: A lot of things but at the same time, its everything okay..

You: u know, idk, i'm bad at this

Stranger: That's fine, that's not bad

Stranger: I think if you can accept the terrible aspects of life, you're halfway on overcoming them

Stranger: So you're on track, I think

You: Oh wow

You: philosopher :) lol

You: but idk, maybe

Stranger: Hah 😂

Stranger: I guess you could call me that, i'm flattered

You: AHAHAHAH

You: Glad to know 😂

You: and thanks for asking :)

Stranger: Oh yeah ofc

Stranger: Lmk if you wanna share, this philosopher's got a lot to say 😂

You: 😂😂😂😂

You: Got it, sage

Stranger: 😂

Stranger: You amuse me 😂

You: 😂

You: I'm happy now

Stranger: Wait I never asked, where are you from?

Stranger: Aww I'm glad :)

You: :))

You: I'm from Brazil

You: wbu?

Stranger: Oh wow that's so cool

Stranger: Are you latina?

Stranger: I'm from NY!

You: well, depends on what u consider latina😂

You: But yea, i guess...

You: Ohhh Ny, that's so cool

Stranger: wait what does that mean haha?

Stranger: and yup! i love it here

You: Nvm, i was just kidding 😂

Stranger: ohhh haha ok

Stranger: i bet you're cute

You: Ohh thanks :) but i don't think so

You: But i'm sure ur

Stranger: 😂

Stranger: thanks, but i don't think so either

Stranger: so i think we both won :))

You: 😂😂

You: Yea, twins

You: well, how r things over there?

You: covid and stuff

Stranger: Well not too good tbh

Stranger: things are pretty terrible in a lot of ways rn

Stranger: but like you said, it's ok

You: well, just like in the whole world, right?

You: Not so ok but ok

Stranger: world, life, everything 😂

You: 😂😂😂 definition of = suckssss

Stranger: LOL YOU KNOW IT

You: 😂😂

Stranger: It really be rough

Stranger: what's your life like? relationships, school, hobbies, etc?

You: Well, it depends like... relationships= only my friends, school= not so bad

You: I dance so...it's my hobbie

You: Like, i dance hip hop, classes and stuff

Stranger: you dance??

Stranger: wow

Stranger: 😍 😍 😍

You: Yea, at least I used to dance 😂

You: Whaaat

Stranger: Nothing, it's just cuteee 🥵😉

You: Ohhh 😂

You: Wbu, tell me

Stranger: Sing, play piano, and paint

You: Ohh that's awesome, and rlly cute

You: 😂

Stranger: Aww thanks 🥰

You: Aw :)

Stranger: Wow this just got cute

Stranger: here take some 😘

You: taking 😂

You: u know what

Stranger: yeah?

You: ur the first person in a long time I met rlly nice here

Stranger: awww

Stranger: ugh take some more 😘

Stranger: sweet girl

You: Yeaa that's cute, I 😂

You: Sweet words, i would say

You: I'm not that sweet oke?

Stranger: you seem sweet oke?

Stranger: she's cute, she dances, and she's sweet, and she's nice

Stranger: 🤤 🤤 🤤

You: oh oke i'll change your mind one day 😂

You: Ohhh that was sweet 😂

Stranger: I think the emoji you're looking for is: " 😘"

Stranger: 😂 😂 😂

You: 😂😂😂😂

You: oh yea, ur right, thanks

Stranger: still waiting 🙄

You: I use 😂 for everything lol

You: oh yea hold on

You: reformulating

Stranger: 😂😂

You: Ohhh that was sweet 😘

You: AHAHAHAH

Stranger: oh DAMN 🥰 🥰 🥰

Stranger: you got me blushin

You: Stop it 😂

Stranger: sweet babygirl 😘

You: Oh <3 😂

You: tbh, i don't have any emojis here...i'm on the laptop so..😂

Stranger: ahhh no worries ahaha

You: ahahah oke

Stranger: i wish you were here w me, you seem so sweet

You: Well, where's your mask?

Stranger: I HAVE IT ON

You: 😂

Stranger: but i'd take it off if you were here -_-

You: Oh yea, i can imagine it 😂

Stranger: After all, you gotta leave room for 😘

You: I'll take a flight oke?

You: Funny lol

Stranger: Oh please do baby 😂

Stranger: Also if we accidentally disconnect, just type "jakesarah" in the interests

Stranger: Okay make sure to fly here using a pigeon tomorrow

You: No way Jakeeee 😂

Stranger: Yes way Sarahhh

Stranger: ride that pigeon

You: Oke copy that!!😂

Stranger: What are you bringing for me?

You: Paçoquita

You: A lot of things, don't worry

Stranger: oooh what's that?

Stranger: and what else :)

You: Hm how can i explain...

Stranger: Tryyy

You: It's basically a peanut jam (???) idk maaaan

You: something like that, trust me

Stranger: Oh that sounds niceee, sounds tasty

You: Wait, actually not a jam, just a peanut candy

You: Yeaa it's rlly good

Stranger: oh wow, candy!

Stranger: i love candy

Stranger: Hmm what else?

Stranger: Are you bringing kisses?

You: Ohhh who doesn't, right?

You: Oh 😂 u got meee

Stranger: you better bring plenty 😂 😂 😂

You: Funny 😂

Stranger: Oh well, you won't?

Stranger: Don't worry. I'll bring enough for both of us

Stranger: ;)

You: Well, I'll think about it 😂

You: Waittt whaaat

Stranger: Did google translate fail LOL?

You: Actually, Omegle translate to English again😂

Stranger: LOL

Stranger: I said don't worry, I'll bring enough for the both of us :)

You: I hadn't seen you typed in Portuguese, I just saw it now 😂

Stranger: OH

Stranger: omg

You: Yeaaa i knowww

You: I'm so proud 😂

Stranger: of me? 😂

You: Yea sure 😂

Stranger: 😂 😂 😂

Stranger: of who?

You: You duhhh

You: 😂

Stranger: AWW

Stranger: she sweet <3

You: not so sweet oke 😂

Stranger: yes so sweet 😘

You: i'll change your mind, trust me 😂

Stranger: with kisses? ;)

Stranger: im sure those wouldn't be sour :)

You: Well, i'll think about it 😂

Stranger: 😂 😂 😂

You: sour 😂 awfuul

Stranger: hahaa 😂

You: 😂

You: hey, what time is it over there?

Stranger: it's 8:31

Stranger: wbu?

You: 9:31

You: pm, sure

Stranger: ahhh, that's neat

Stranger: you go to bed when?

You: Soon, i guess

You: but not now

Stranger: What are you gonna do before?

You: Well...

You: talk to u..maybe

You: keep talking actually lol

Stranger: Ah that's nice :)

You: :))

You: can i ask if u have insta?

Stranger: I do, yeah

Stranger: I don't share social media here, if that's ok

Stranger: i hope you don't mind

You: Ohhh

You: Nah, it's totally okay :)

Stranger: Thanksss

Stranger: You probably do, right?

You: what do u think? lol

You: yea, i do

Stranger: Ahaha yeah i guessed

Stranger: I'm not a big fan of social media, you?

You: i'm not that big fan but yea, i use it a lot lol

You: makes any sense?

You: 😂

Stranger: Ahhh yeah haha

Stranger: i do too

Stranger: addiction lol

You: yea, that sucksss 😂

You: but what can i do, right?

Stranger: Is your acct public?

Stranger: Yeah haha, i feel ya

You: Private actually

You: bcz u know...like omegle and stuff

Stranger: HAHA you come here a lot then?

You: I wouldn't make it public

You: Actually i dont oke?

You: Like, just sometimes

You: but still

Stranger: Ahh yeah i know what you mean

Stranger: i only come here sometimes too

Stranger: not too often tho lol

Stranger: what do you usually come here for? how is it usually?

You: Mhm i can imagine it😂

You: Idk, I just come here to talk and meet some people, idk, it's pretty random yea

Stranger: huh, that's nice

Stranger: How does it usually go

You: and I've met a lot of friends here, that's the good part

You: Well*

Stranger: Ah, good friends?

You: Wait, not "a lot", i met a lot of people but friends, only 3, i guess...

Stranger: Oh, are they nice?

Stranger: I've usually not kept contact except with one girl i met a few months ago

You: Yea, they're...like u know

You: Ohh gotcha u

Stranger: wait what? 😂

You: what what 😂

Stranger: "like u know"

Stranger: what do u mean lol

You: Ohh yea, like 😂 funny story, actually not that funny

You: Oh nvm

Stranger: Wait tell me lol

Stranger: im curious

You: It's nothing much oke? Just like, i had a friend that i met here and

You: and he disappeared 😂 that's it

Stranger: LOL 😂 😂 😂

Stranger: you got ghosted poor u

You: Yea i guess 😂 poor me

Stranger: it be rough huh

Stranger: i mean i don't use it much, bc most people aren't as nice as you or that other girl i met

Stranger: that other girl's a little too nice though if you know what i mean 😏 and i love it haha

You: 😂😂😂 ahahahahah yeaa!! i got it!!

Stranger: she's the sweetest girl ever haha

You: Aww :) Have u said this to her?

Stranger: Oh yeah I have, and trust me I've showed that I mean it 😉

You: Showed what? 😂

You: Anyways, that's so cute :)

Stranger: LOL not "images" lol

Stranger: just doing stuff for her that's a little special if ya know what i mean

You: I didn't mean it LOL

You: when did you guys meet?

Stranger: hmm, in april

Stranger: we're not dating lol

Stranger: and it's not like, one-on-one either. So it's just nice

You: one-on-one lol

You: nice description😂

Stranger: LOL no, i mean, there's no solo commitment like we can still see other people 😂

You: Ohhhh wait

You: is it like open relationship?😂 no way...

Stranger: AHAHA well there's not a "relationship"

Stranger: it's more of a friends-with-benefits type of situation

You: it's anything but relationship 😂

Stranger: lmao basically yeah 😂

You: Got it huh 😂

Stranger: Hey i mean it's still nice

Stranger: we have feelings for each other and we express them and that's nice

You: Yeaa, i know well lol

Stranger: lol wdym?

You: Nothing (??) 😂

Stranger: Ahaha okay babe

You: Babe awful 😂

Stranger: Babygirllll

Stranger: lol u mad at me?

You: Wow, i thought u were typing an essay

You: Mad? Whaat 😂

Stranger: OH LOL

Stranger: i wasn't haha

You: ahahahah i realized

You: wyd now?

Stranger: same as before haha, relaxing in bed

Stranger: talking to a nice girl named sarah :)

Stranger: you?

You: I'm flattered 😂

You: talking to a kind of nice guy called Jake :) and same as before, listening to music

Stranger: "kind of nice" 😂

Stranger: flattered too ig haha

You: ahahahah i was just kidding 😂

You: ur rlly nice

Stranger: says you! the sweet girl :)

You: 😂😂 oh stop it!!

You: hey stranger

You: i gtg sleep now...wake up at 5 and stuff

Stranger: yeah stranger?

Stranger: oh shit haha okay

Stranger: you gtg now?

You: as i said...yep 😂

You: yea shit lol

Stranger: oh well, okay then, ig this is it

You: but anyway, it was nice talking to u :) thanks for the time :))

You: "jakesarah" in the interests oke?

You: bye uuu

Stranger: ohh

Stranger: it was nice talking to you too

Stranger: feeling: heartbroken 😂

Stranger: jk bye!

You: oh me too, trust me lol

You: bye u :)

[de-carabaswrites]

Hands in the Garden - part one

Her tone is soft, comforting, and Ryuji feels awfully cold when she pulls away.

Ryuann snippets set before, during and after P5. Rating may go up.

Seventeen – Shibuya

They surprise her with karaoke for her birthday and she can feel her heart burning and glowing with joy at the sight of all her friends gathered to celebrate with her. They bought cheap cans of beer for the occasion and managed to sneak them in and there's so many people in the karaoke bar tonight, it's almost hard to breathe.

Haru and Makoto made the most out of their booth, decorating it with big shiny balloons in shades of pink, white and red, all tied with golden ribbons. They hanged a large banner that sparkles, wishing her a happy birthday. People passing by their booth can't help but stare a little longer, observing the odd mismatched group of teenagers laughing and celebrating. Normally this much attention would make her feel uneasy, but as she clinks her can against Shiho's, her cheeks are flushed with nothing but happiness.

“I can't believe you got Shiho to come!” she squeals happily as she sets her beer down on the table. Squeezing her best friend in her arms, she beams with delight at her friends.

“Ryuji is the one that got in touch with me!” Shiho exclaims, nodding in his direction.

Ann turns to look at her friend, and he gives her a sincere smile, holding his beer in one hand and waving at her lazily with the other. “Thanks,” she says, arms letting go of her friend. “It means a lot.”

He nods and hums at her, taking a swig of his beer. His smile mesmerizes her and she stares at him longer than she wants to. He's quick enough to notice and raises a brow at her in curiosity before being elbowed in the side by Yusuke. The boy has a perplexed look on his face as he points at his can of beer. She vaguely hears him ask his friend Sup? before forcing herself to look away.

- - -

“Oh, I uh... I didn't see you there!”

They're outside, a little farther away from the bar and they can hear the muffled sounds of people laughing and singing inside. Cars are passing and a few people are hanging by the door to smoke.

He's sitting by the curb and stands up when he sees her, shoving his cellphone in his pocket. His calmness is noticeable. He walks up to her with a smile. “Having fun?” he asks, and she can hear all the kindness of his heart in his voice.

She beams at him. “Absolutely. Just wanted some air. It's getting pretty heated in there...” She rubs the sweat off her forehead with the back of her hand. “Also Shiho thinks Yusuke is weird.”

“No shit,” he chuckles. “We all thought that at some point.”

They walk together in comfortable silence, shoulders grazing almost instinctively, before reaching the street corner. With alcohol happily breaking the ice, they're both staring at each other now, eyes taking each other in, aware it's become quieter than when they were closer to the bar. She is all shades of yellow and black in the flickering streetlights and it's almost surreal.

She' breaks the silence first. “I'm glad you came.”

His cheeks redden ever so slightly but he recovers quickly, rubbing his neck. “You knew I'd be there, Ann.”

“Yeah but I still mean it. We've been spending so much time together lately... and you got Shiho to be there too.” There's so many things she wants to say and she feels like her heart is dancing madly inside her chest.

He doesn't say anything. Instead he inches closer towards her, pressing his lips into a thin line. They gravitate towards each other, shyly and hesitantly but it's almost natural at the same time. There's yearning, (there's so much yearning) and Ann feels her cheeks redden as she speaks.

“You all mean the world to me... but you...” She looks away from him, trying to find her words. She tugs at her pigtails anxiously. “I feel like you're much more than that, Ryuji and it's weird because I just keep wondering if maybe...” her voice trails off, too embarrassed to continue. She wraps her arms around herself protectively before looking at him with a dismissive smile . “Just forget it.”

Her heart is racing when he cups her face in his hands.

“Huh...?” Ann's voice is quiet despite the surprise. The shock on her face softens quickly. He smells like beer and she knows she does too. He presses his forehead against hers and rubs his thumb against her cheek, the tenderness of his actions comforting and making her heart tremble. His movements are so gentle, it's almost hard to believe they are coming from him.

“It's okay.” He says, and it's oddly soothing. “I figured it out already.”

She places a hand on his chest and in this moment, he's there, he's solid and they stand there for a moment, breathing each other in, their bodies inches apart. Living. This is real.

He pulls his head back for her to see a small grin on his face. Their eyes meet and she smiles hesitantly, as if her heart isn't just about to burst. She follows his gaze as they drop to her pink lips and she can tell he's ready, and he's not joking.

He closes the distance between them, pressing his lips against hers tenderly, one hand caressing the back of her neck, the other pulling her closer to him. They're both new to this, clutching to each other, ignoring their shyness and self-consciousness and just being sincere. They're leaving their goofiness behind, the silly jokes they make whenever they're too close and just give in to their feelings, give in to a kiss they've both been wanting for so long.

When they finally break the kiss, he smiles against her lips and places his hands on her waist. His voice is barely a whisper when he speaks once more, sending a small shiver down her spine.

“Happy birthday, Ann.”

Sixteen – Texting somewhere on the Ginza Line

Ryuji: Hey, you busy?

Ann: No, I'm on the subway home

Ann: What's up?

Ryuji: Listen, about earlier... I'm sorry for what I said in front of Akira

Ann: Huh?

Ann: Oh nvm

Ann: It's okay.

Ryuji: Are you sure? I've been feeling like a dick ever since

Ann: Did you mean it? Do you really think I'm trying to be something I'm not?

Ryuji: You caught me off guard...

Ann: Ok?

Ryuji: You know I'm happy to help you whenever. You don't need to offer a date in return... It just felt forced is all, Ann.

Ann: Maybe you're right

Ryuji: And besides, if I wanted to go on a date with you, I'd win it fair and square :D

Ann: ... -_- See ya tomorrow

Ryuji: Lol, sorry. You did well today, though. You'll be in shape in no time!

Ann: I feel like my legs are about to fall off

Ryuji: That's a good sign!

Ann: Suuuure. I guess.

Ryuji: I gotta go help my mom with dinner now. I'll talk to you tomorrow!

Ann: Laters!

Fifteen – Shujin Academy

“I heard he punched Kamoshida-sensei in the face!”

She's waiting by the school gates for Shiho, browsing through her phone.

“Mhm! Apparently Kamoshida-sensei brought up his dad during track practice and he lost it!”

The sun is shining but it's a chilly morning, and she wishes her friend would just get here already.

“Poor sensei!! So that's what happened! Sakamoto-kun is exactly like his father then! Although to be honest... seeing sensei with that bandage under his eye afterwards made him look really sexy!”

“I know right!”

She buries her nose deeper into her scarf, shooting a death glare at the two girls coming through the gates, giggling about Kamoshida. They return the gesture, muttering under their breaths haughtily together, something about taking better care of him if it were up to them.

She sighs before shoving her hands in the pockets of her sweater, shivering slightly. Come on, Shiho...

She sees the crutches before noticing who they belong to. Her eyes widen when she sees him, the cast around his leg and the permanent mix of anger and shame inked onto his face. Around him, people are whispering and giggling as they pass him by. His eyes are downcast when he reaches the gate and she has to step in his way to stop him.

He furrows a brow, annoyed. “What, Takamaki?”

A pause. Her breath catches in her throat. What is she doing? They haven't spoken since middle school.

“I... Um...” She knows people are staring, and Ryuji's eyes especially are burning a hole into her soul. She clears her throat and tosses her hair behind her shoulders. “Do you need help going up the stairs?”

Time stops. Her ears are burning.

“Ugh, I don't need this...” He runs a hand through his dark hair angrily and shakes his head. “You feel bad 'cause your boyfriend did this or something?”

Her eyes widen at his accusing tone. The words echo in her mind, clutching at her heart and bringing her back in the moment. She steps aside, allowing him to pass, looking down at her hands. He doesn't hesitate, tightening his grip around his crutches and walking past her as fast as they allow him to.

What came over her to want to help him at all? They haven't spoken to each other in months, going their separate ways when high school started since they were in different classes and truthfully, they weren't even that close to begin with. They shared a few laughs here and there back then, but it had been easy to cut ties, especially when he was so dedicated to the track team.

Her heart tightens at the thought, the sudden recollection that the whole club disbanded after the incident making her grit her teeth. How could he associate her with such a disgusting human being? If only he knew the reason why she was giving Kamoshida a bit of her time...

Her mind's in a swirl of anger and self-righteousness as she spins on her heels and makes her way to the stairs, reaching Ryuji in the space of a heartbeat. Their shoulders barely touching, she leans in close to his ear, just enough for him to hear her speak in a low voice.

“Don't act like you know me,” she says this in the most neutral tone she can muster, but even she can hear the challenge and threat in her voice. “Because you don't.”

And with that, she leaves his side, ignoring the looks of students gaping at them and pushing the school's front doors open with a bit too much frustration. She feels her phone vibrate in her pocket when she opens up her locker and forgets all about Ryuji when she sees Shiho's message.

I can't make it to school today, bad injury from yesterday's practice.

Her stomach drops and her insides burn as she rereads the message over and over, tears threatening to blur her vision. Grabbing her books quickly, she proceeds to slam her locker shut and wipe her eyes with the back of her hand. The rush of anger takes over her once more as she stomps on the floor violently, curling her fists into balls.

“Ugh! That fucking bastard!”

Sixteen – Hawaii, Akira and Mishima's hotel room

.

“Are you asleep?”

“Yes.”

“Seriously?”

“...No, Ryuji.”

There's movements in the darkness, a light grunt as he sits up and leans back on his palms.

“I can't fall asleep.”

“Mm.” She rolls onto her back and stares at the silver moonlight reflecting off the ceiling. Rubbing her eyes tiredly, she lets a sigh escape her lips. “I can't either."

Their voices are barely audible, like crystalline murmurs in the night.

“Hey, do you ever wonder what's going to happen to us in a few years?”

“You mean like when we become adults?”

He stays silent for a moment, as if he's letting her question linger in the air above them.

“I guess so.”

She gently pushes her covers to the side and crawls to the foot of the bed quietly, careful not to wake up Akira and Mishima sleeping soundly in the room with them. She lies down on her stomach and crosses her legs, a small smile forming on her lips as he shuffles closer to her bed and rests his back against the end of the mattress. Drawing lazy patterns on the sheets with her fingers, she considers his question in silence. The sound of her fingers moving against the soft fabric is strangely soothing to him, and he allows himself to close his eyes for the space of a heartbeat

She takes a deep breath before speaking. “Well... I hope we'll all still be friends.”

He lets out a small chuckle before twisting his head back slightly to look at her. “I don't think I can imagine a future where we all grow apart from each other.”

She gives him a firm nod before addressing the new feeling of uncertainty bubbling in her chest. “Are you worried about the future too?” Her voice is small, timid, as if she's worried he'll simply laugh it off or make fun of her for being afraid. It's like she knows that deep down, this is a question he doesn't like answering, that this is something he likes to brush off and cast aside with a joke and a silly forced smile.

He surprises her with a sigh that resonates deep within her, the kind of heavy sigh she'd make when she feels tiredness all the way to her bones.

“I guess I'm more worried about becoming like all these shitty people we fix in Mementos... or like my father.”

With a start, he feels her arms drape around his shoulders before she squeezes him tightly. His cheeks are flushed when he places a hand over her arm, patting it lightly in confusion and slight embarrassment. There's so much warmth coming from Ann, it's almost tangible and his skin is burning everywhere it touches hers.

“You'll never be like them.” She says this quietly, her face buried in the crook of his neck and it's like something is letting go of its grip around his heart for a moment. Her tone is soft, comforting, and Ryuji feels awfully cold when she pulls away. “That's just not who you're going to be.”

Her rush of emotions surprises her just as much as him, but when she ruffles his hair playfully in an attempt to lighten the moment, she realizes the truthfulness of her words and that she meant every part of it. Heartbeat steadying and no longer hammering away in her chest, she sits up and takes a deep breath before giving him a cheeky grin. “Besides, I'll be there to keep you in check.”

He chuckles quietly, staring at the darkness before them. Minutes pass before he speaks again, breaking the silence in a soft voice. “You're going to be amazing, Ann.”

Her cheeks begin to burn as she gives him a questioning look. “Why would you say that?”

He turns to look at her once more, this time turning his full body around, his brown eyes meeting her blue ones with kindness and determination. “I mean it. I know you. I know how great you are and what you can do.” He pauses and flashes her a smile. “I know you always put your mind to it when there's something you really want.”

She doesn't know what to do except smile a bashful smile and scratch the back of her neck. He returns the gesture, grinning sheepishly at her before looking at the jet black sky through the window. There's a soft breeze ruffling through the palm trees and it's like there's not a soul in sight.

He turns to look at her and he's surprised to see her observing him so intently, as if she's trying to figure something out about him, her blue eyes focused and concentrated and he's about to tell her to knock it off before Mishima grunts in his sleep and they're both stifling a laugh.

“I guess we should try to sleep.” He's back under his sheets now, staring at the ceiling, a soft smile hanging on his lips.

She nods before lying back down and resting her head on her pillow. “Yeah, have a goodnight.”

They stay silent longer this time, eyes fluttering shut and breathing in deeply almost as if they were in sync, both trying to ignore the soft flush of their cheeks and how warm they felt. He's painfully aware that his heart is racing faster than he'd like it too but he just embraces it anyways.

“Yeah, I'm not worried about you at all, Ann.”

so this is it! let me know what you guys think, i fell in love with those two!

[quonit-aceattorney]

3-3 Reaction

Rules:

Q = Me, Quonit.

BF = Bardic Feline, the friend that made me spend 30 dollars on the game and whom I am messaging

I don’t use those when I send the messages close enough my username doesn’t appear.

Any typos (unless they are funny and part of the conversation) will be fixed.

Index

Q: Got to the next one. Funny name.

Q: Hey this is like the game over thing :0

Q: Didn't even start and I lost already

Q: What did I do wrong Gumshoe

Maya shut up

Q: The hell happened

Q: Crap how and why would anybody dress as me

Q: MAGGIE

YOU HAVE HORRIBLE LUCK

Q: Idea: killer was also phoney me

Q: Wow this place is fancy

GQ: MAGGEY TELL ME ABOUT THE DRAWIN

Q: The fancy place reset :0

OH MY GOD

This place is great

Q: Where the HELL did my magic rock go D:<

I don't see it in my inventory!!!

Q: Oh thank you locks for still appearing

I was very worried a bout it not being in my inventory

FUCK SO IT IS GONE

Q: ...to the park?

Q: Mr what is that red thing on your nose I think you should stop touching it

Q: Doves are usually grey too

Q: Apples are good. Let's talk about that. What is your favorite Apple phoenix? I myself like granny Smith's and pink ladies

Q: Iell I didn't get the old man to talk but it seems the newspaper I got landed Maya a job so

Q: Wow Maya is actually gone. Guess it is time to examine everything again

Q: Well it seems the detention center has reset so that is good

Whatever she isn't here

Office reset

Haha I should really be more upset when Maya leaves

Whatever she is fine

Q: Yay the police station reset!

Gummy!!!

Whatever godot is fun

Q: Of only somebody pointed out one of the many many differences between me and the phoney that trial

Q: Godot I give you passed on a lot of things and I like you but I really wanna know why you hate me

Q: Alright were going back to fancy restaurant

this part was great actually

BF: Hahaha

And then Maya was kidnapped by the effeminate restauranteur, the end

Q: oh hey the restaurant reset. Examine everything?

oh no there is a person here

hell other your head looks like it had been hurt :(

goodbye i guess

HI MAYA

Maya: So how do i look? Phoenix: ... Phoenix: I think you should quit being a spirit medium. yes

let's just take a break and eat food sounds like a plan

i duno if i even have that much on me

oh crap well i guess i am getting lunch

i don't have 50$ on me Gant can i have 50$ oh ya you're in prison/dead

Q: Maya eat my lunch

dammit maya stop taking my money

COME BACK HERE AND EAT YOUR FOOD

Eh maybe some other random person why enjoy it

Q: examine everything

the magmenta!!!

I missed it so much!!!

it's probably poison

Q: gonna take a break for around 40 minuets

Q: that took so much longer and it is partially my fault

Q: Also I did a stupid redraw of one of Zarla's drawings from like 2007 and it looks good but ack i redrew a thing she drew in 2007. Once i feel like it i'll send a picture

i think we may be done in the kietchen. We got some stuff and it may be important so something somewhere may have reset

hey the police department reset!

yesss gumshoe

present him stuff

Gumshoe is this poison

tell meee

wow that's a lot of money

have to go again

Q: finally back and i have muffins to munch on while I play

Q: i remember this music

this is matt's theme whatever

to the other rooms

hey the park reset

there is a motercycle here now

STOP SCREAMING

WHY ARE YOU YET

WHY IS HE RED

Hey he said crap woo another close to swearing word

why are there so many weird people in this trian

trial

Q: case

whatever the fuck

im also saying that dipshit isn't phoenix write

OH FUCK

how did nobody suspect anything about him???

and if they did, WHY DID NOBODY SAY ANYTHING?

OLD GUY phoeny me left and i am mad i didn't punch him while i could

Q: 

i think they were dressed alright enough

locks woo

i am so glad i have the magmenta back

Q: examine everything?

at least there aren't as many rooms

Q: got back to game and decided to see if i can break the locks

Q: i wiiiiin

Q: MIA

OH MY GOD

she is using her boobs to her advantage

i forgot her completly now

*forgive

MIA I TAKE BACK EVERYTHING I SAID I THANK YOU VERY MUCH

Q: Phoenix she is giving up her dignity for you thank her don't judge her

Q: time to move

wooo it reset

Q: iii wiiiin

noooo phoenix this guy can't be the killer

it's that moron red skinned phoenix impersonating asshole >:(

SHIT GODOT

NO

STOP

I AM WINNING GO AWAY

Q: i usually give you passed but not now GO AWAY

Q: that red dude might've put the winning tcken in her pocket when he ran off

i hate red guy

save music

GUMSHOE

Q: well judge, THAT GUY WAS A FAKE FROM HELL

aw he called me trusty

BF: Lol Tigre? XD

quonit-aceattorney

yes

we didn't learn his name yet

Q: but i am amusing that is his name now

BF: Ooooh sorry

Q: it is fine i don't think it was a big spoiler

BF: Yeah Hahaha, he’s not exactly subtle

Q: WHY DID NOBODY QUESTION HIM

he was probably too intimidating but really one person had to right?

"MY OCCUPATION IS DICK GUMSHOE"

BF: Lol think of this whole case as like...one of those old Saturday morning cartoon plots where the good guy gets a really really obvious double

Q: pffft

BF: Like the double has bolts sticking out of their neck and they constantly yell about how evil they are

Q: i can imagine this.

BF: And yet you still have that scene where they are standing side by side and all the good guys are like HOWEVER WILL WE TELL THEM APART

Which one is the real one how can we be suuuure

That’s basically what this case is, haha

Q:

hehe

stoooooop

Q: I wonder who in the end will get to use the ticketyQ: maggey didn't do it mr tigre didQ: HE DOESN'T KNOW ABOUT THE BLOODSTAIN JUDGE GUY.

I say this like it was obvious and makes sense to anybody in the game stupid spoiler i pretend is a headcanon keeps proving itself to be true

Q:

Phoenix: You don't need to be told! Just look at it! SHUT UP PHOENIX >:( THIS GAME WANTS ME TO BELIEVE A STUPID HEADCANON. whatever let's ignore that and get back to figuring out the bloodstain. sry godot

no there is other stuff

LIKE THAT TIGRE GUY

Q:

Phoenix: Is it possible that somebody could've put the bottle in her pocket? Me: YES Gumshoe: ya! Happens to me all of the time! Me: REALLY

well if i had my phoeny's profile i would but nope sorry godot no evidence yet

Q:

Everyone: :talking about old man guy throwing seeds: Godot: Hah! It was nothing. I caught every single one of them with my teeth! impressive. DO YOU HAVE EVIDENCE FOR THIS CLAIM???

Q: i mean empty bags can have meaning why not?Q: well the stuff inside the bag was empty

hey that worked!

nice im cool now

Q: no he didn't put his medication in, red guy didQ: BUT WOO i am winningQ: we all died a little bit inside

maggey he was doing what he was supposed to do and was relying on me to figure out what was wrong with it. he didn't do anything.

Q: old guy tell us your occupationQ: don't lie that she put something in it

IT'S 2019 IN THE GAME NOW YOU SHOULD GET USED TO IT

also wasn't he looking at a sports paper right he was listening to the radio right

Q:

Phoenix: Did she really put that in there?? Phoenix you know not to trust this guy he is wrong she didn't

Q: MR I DON'T THINK THIS COUNTS AS "WASTING". I MEAN HE DIED AFTER TAKING A SIP.

Q:

Phoenix: Congratulations. You have earned the title of Battiest Man To Grace A Courtroom. I love sarcastic phoenix

Q:

Phoenix: Anybody could've word that outfit! Even me! Judge: Mr.Wright please spare the court of any further mental anguish from that image hahahahaha

Q: the bow was blue but whatever. also that is still part of the outfit.

the bow was ORANGE

EDGEWORTH IS PURPLE AND THE BOW IS ORANGE NOT RED. I DON'T CARE IF THE GAME SAYS OTHERWISE IM RIGHT

Q:

Old guy: This is harassment! I mean what are you doing?

REALLY

Q: how about the apron? Like the godamn bloodstainQ: doing lots of stuff in game i should document it moreQ: coffee cupQ: it woooorked

LEFT HANDS AND RIGHT HANDS

ALWAYS LOOK OUT FOR THAT

IT IS A VERY COMMON THING IN THIS SERIES

now you have to sing. sing for us now.

who cars about your age dammit

respect the coffee kudo

the eye lense is TEAL NOT GREEN UGH THIS GAME CAN'T GET ITS COLORS RIGHT

Q: AND SOMEHOW POINTING THAT OUT GOT ME A WIN

and his ear whatever but i still win

Q: HE IS SINGING THE PIDGEON SONG AND EATING THE BIRDSEEDS WOOO I WINQ: back to investigation?

no? okay

Q: but godot finished his coffee! How can we continue now???Q: but he didn't knock over the vase? look at the photo he didn'tQ: your memory is completly unreliable

goooooddbyyyyyyeee

Q: think i can be done for nowQ: game because working is dumbQ: let's bring up that jerk again why not

RED GUY WHY DID YOU DO THAT

Q: Maya: Introduce me next time, Nick! I wanna meet Xin Eohp too!

no

Q: to the detention center

dammit

nvm then

hey gumshoe!

Q: don't be sad gumshoe there are still lots of people that love you and maggey will probably be fine with you againa fter this is overQ: dont lie to me gumshoe i can ee right through it

unless it's in court the locks don't work in court

i win

Q: Maya: I wanna try it!

Phoenix: Then buy a ticket! With your own money! See Phoenix is smart

Q: no im not going tot the park i don't wanna see him right now i wanna talk to gumshoeQ: 2019: The year of gumQ: SEE GODOT KNEW THAT THAT GUY WAS A FAKE AND HE DIDN'T EVEN HAVE TO SEE HIM FOR THAT

GODOT WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ANYBODY

Q: nniiiiice we can go visit his work nowQ: what do you mean the color of your coat looks more detective-y

also im still confused about if franz sent back the coat and kept the evidence or if gumshoe just got a new coat.

to blue screens because i don't wanan see red guy

wtf is with her

Q: I would say this isn't 2019 but i have no right to say that yet because i have never lived in 2019Q: at least she is letting me examine evidence

Trigre >:(

future from 2004 or future from 2019

Q:

Phoenix: Computers are only as smart as the humans who use and make them are ...you know nothing...

Q: im about done here

to the park

Q: the scooter is backQ: well he isnt here that is fine

oh hey that girl is here

is she threatening to kill him or

Q: great so tiger is also involved in not only impersonating me, but also killing glen, and this guy's money problem

to the office

gumshoe you just left go to your meeting

Q: well im headed to where i was going again

hi girl again

imma go touch the desk

Q: of course it's the same color as my suit he used it to pretend to be meQ: HI TIGRE

WHAT DO YOU WANT

Q: well at least i can talk to her now

no maya

Q: if you want coffee just ask godotQ: im to go look in other placesQ: see mr kudo is giving us information it's a ll good

Q:

Phoenix: maybe he's trying to avoid us?" It always feels that way when i try to find somebody in this game and they aren't there. None of them have ever been trying to avoid me but i guess if you think that that guy is trying to avoid you he is

hey maggey is back

Q: i have the cd~

Q: took a minute to fix the sound

why am i How-aceattourney

stupid tumblr

BF: TumbllllllrrrrrQ: oh ya the creepy womanQ: and she wont react to the profile so i guess im gonna leave now

wonder what is going on at this police station

Q: more game.

oh ya i was stuck

hmmm

go talk to people and investigate things

oh ya i still have gumshoe's lunchbox

Q: i know you're mad at him but pls

:shows paper badge: oh hey is that your badge WOW DOES MY BADGE REALLY LOOK THAT SHITTY

Q: ALSO DON'T BITE MY BADGE >:( AND IF IT LEAVES TEETH MARKS IT IS REAL.Q: dammit no new conversation topics

wonder if something else updated though

niiice the police department! I doubt that anything will be there though

how much does that guy at the desk get paid

GUMSHOE :D

oh damn that sounds bad. Wonder if it is from a specific somebody i hate or his girlfriend

Q: it's obvious what lady mayaQ: I was gonna ask what computer virus but asking what one is is dumb

though this did some out in 2004... nah still unacceptable. This is taking place in 2019.

GUMSHOE HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW WHAT ONE IS

it's 2019 guys get with the times

Q: so much of this game has already happened i feel so uncomfortable now that this is taking place in the future

OH THEY'RE MAKING FUN OF ME OKAY

still bad but

and not only that they're more scary when they are attacking the POLICE

i mean mr.godot is a highly specific example but sure if i was sick and sneezed on him he might get sick too

oh so they are using that specific example to make fun of me again har har so funny guys

Q: OH SO THE GUY MADE A VIRUS

WELL SCREW THE VITIM IM HAPPY HE DIED

he probably had a reason for it but i don't believe it

Q: ya that family sounds dumb we should arrest themQ: i am angry right now

more stupid last names

ya guess who im going to stand up to

IM BRAVE

IM STRONG

I THINK IM PRETTY ACCOMPLISHED

I'VE RUINED SOME PRETTY EVIL PEOPLE'S LIVES

IF THESE GUYS ARE EVIL I WILL TAKE THEM ON

IF THEY AREN'T EVIL I WILL TAKE THEM ON

I AM NOT SCARED TO MAKE BOLD CLAIMS LIKE THIS

Q: oh uhhhh maggey still hates you and we had to eat them. Sorry dude... how about you go do something that will make you happyQ: eh if anything goes wrong and she doesn't eat them we can just threaten her with a gun. Always does the trick for me.Q: when did maggey leave whatQ: well i need to sleep now. Lost again but im lost at a different point

Q: "I'll stop spamming you now"

:opens Ace Attorney:

Just trying to get unstuck i don't think much will happen, only got 30 mins

lets see where am i

don't think i can get any locks but i don't think there is much harm in trying

can't break one lets look for another

Q: im still stuck imma go try againQ: found a thing in my inventory i think this is important

I love my magic rock

:00000 it worked

well ya your dad is the stupid c long name thing so of course that has to do with you

oh hey i broke a lock

from the looks of that cutscene that looks like mr tigre

one more lock

Q: I BROKE IT

WOOOO I AM UNSTUCK

Q: she crying :(Q: ugh no room is updating

i need to get the other locks i bet

Q: i win. That was easier than thoughtQ: why are we discarding so much stuff

:o a room reset

DAMMIT TIGRE GO AWAY

i swear if he tazes me

SO HE PUNCHED ME

I'm done with people assaulting me in some way and then taking my evidence

GUMSHOE

Q: GUMSHOE

SAAAAVE MEEEEE

thank you gumshoe

that improved my opinion of him greatly. There was nothing negitive but now there is more love to give

Did phoenix even every tell anybody about that time von karma tazed him and ran off with the letter

alright i need to sleep and there is a savepoint. yay! Also! GUMSHOE SAVED ME!

Q:

haha

at least he is dead and his daughter is better

alright i am sleeping now

Q: I can't sleep sadly

Not because I am too tired but for other reasons. I'll keep playing

MAGGEY do you think I can predict ANYTHING that will happen in a trial at all

I'm only play because of how Gumshoe saved my butt back there

Hey Gumshoe :D I am forever in your debt because of what you did back there

Q: Looks like we found the medicationQ: Oh ya I forgot about GodotQ: (He just called the judge a loser)Q: Oh so that guy will testify. One of the people who almost helped with the repeat of what happened with the letterQ: OH now I know he is covering up the existence of tigerQ: Phoenix your cover up swears suckQ: This game is so obsessed with left and right being contradictionsQ: How dare Godot say I shouldn't existQ: Playing a bunch not saying much though

I am Winning and godot is still making weird metaphors

Q: LOUD RUMBLEQ: I hope I can make tigre suffer

Save point. I think I can sleep now

Q: maya just because tigre is coming to the stand doesn't mean we are gonna win

gumshoe!!!

Q: well usually we have no idea what the trump card is

(fuckin letter)

Q: sense when have I lost a case?

Making matt guilty isn't loosing

making him fuck off was the true prize i won that

back to trial

Judge do not be intimidated. He's like 9 feed below you.

Q:

Tigre: WHO DA HELL CALLED ME TO DIS HOLE WAS IT YOU Phoenix: No it was the Judge Judge: :hides:

Q:

Godot: :makes Tigre shut up: Phoenix: T... Too cool... hahaha

Q:

Tigre: That lowlife ain't no lawyer! He just punches away at stupid details til he wins! i feel called out

okay so question: People hate 2-3 so much and one of the reasons  is Moe's testimony but there are SO MANY THINGS IN THIS 3RD GAME LIKE THAT

Q: not only that but this game is a lot more vague on "hey hey you were supposed to do this you are on the right track"

Q:

Godot: I hear it can be pretty hard to set up appointments when you're dead

BF: hahaha I think 3 tends to get forgiven most because the overall plot is VERY well constructed.  Also I think the alleged hate against 2 is overblown.  2-4 is such a beloved case after all

but you'll see what I mean about overall plot in a bit.

4 tries like HELL to do what 3 did, I think, but it gets tripped up a lot along the way.

(and yes 3 is hard. I'd say the only thing it does that's more forgiving that 2 is that IIRC, it doesn't penalize you for screwing up Magatama sessions.)

Last Friday at 11:31 PM

Q: ahhh alright. I'll be waiting for the 3 plot. Also it doesn't get mad at your for screwing up magatama sessions?? I have not noticed such a thing.Q: but he was there because 1 other people say he was and 2 why else would that guy tell him to go thereQ: problem with having so much evidence is that i can't remember what is what and what proves what or that it even existsQ: oh hey these matchesQ: HUH

wooo

wooo it worked

oh boy more things that are very close to swearing from him

Q: so many things wrong with this next testamony

WHICH ONE DOES THE GAME WANT ME TO DISPROVE

Q: heeeey it workedQ: I am winning :DQ: it's the tigre guy obviously >:( He impersinates a lot of people

phoenix hiding under his desk

Q: obviously it was that girl

internet not working dammit

WHAT DO YOU MEAN NOBODY COULD PULL OFF A STUNT LIKE THAT THERE HAVE BEEN WEIRDER THINGS

:Shows paper badge: Judge: It is an insult to think anybody could be fooled by that well then maybe you should reevaluate your life choices

guuuuumshoooooeeeee

where are you man

YESSSS GUMSHOE IS BACK

THANK YOU DUDE I WAS WAITING

GUMSHOE YOU ARE GREAT NEVER PUT YOURSELF DOWN YOU ARE VERY USEFUL AND WE ALL LOVE YOU

heeey maaaggggeeyyyyy can you cheer gumshoe up for me he's being sad

quonit-aceattorney

OH SO YOU KNOW HOW THE BOTTLE LOOKS DO YOU :)

WELL I WIN!

he yells

hahahahaha glowey mask thing hahahaha

oh fuck you stop throwing coffee at me

why do you hate me so much i am not a criminal

hey gumshoe i won!!!

maybe maggey can be happy now

[livingllz-blog]

The Story of Us: Part 2

WEEK 5:

This week, you went to colorado for hockey. We went to lunch and hung out the night before you left and I started ignoring your attempts to talk to me in person and just gave one word responses and even BABUSHKA-ed out of your room. You texted me later asking if I were upset w you. In all honesty I was upset w myself since I felt like I was dragging you along and couldn’t decide on how I felt. We talked that night before you left and I told you to keep your options open and maybe meet a girl in colorado (HAHA) bc I realized I couldn’t live w myself if I hurt you. Since I couldn’t decide on how I felt, you suggested we kiss. I honestly got so scared. I didn’t want our first kiss to be awkward and forced. But I also was afraid if I felt nothing in the kiss, it would hurt me or worse, you. I realized it was kinda a mistake and I really should have but by then, you were on your flight to colorado.

That Friday night/Saturday morning I called you. In tears. You were out to dinner w your whole team but made time for me. I cried about a douche that tried to get w me and I was honestly upset he didn’t wanna be friends after I said no. It was stupid but I was drunk and just couldn’t understand the situation. You cared mostly about whether or not he touched me in any way I didn’t want him to and once you found out I was safe and okay, you comforted me in the fact that you would be home soon and everything would be okay. That was enough for me to fall asleep

You returned from colorado saturday afternoon. I was really excited to see you esp after you sent me a snap saying “*winky emoji* tonight” and then never showed. Your excuse? “was tipsy yesterday”

That was the first time you lied to me and cancelled.

WEEK 6:

You suggested we get sushi that night after your business pitch meeting that “shouldn’t take long” and I was beyond excited. I love sushi. But then you had to cancel on dinner bc your meeting went too long and once you were free I wasn’t. But you didn’t even cancel on me did you. No I had to figure it out myself.

That was the second time you cancelled.

But ig it wasn’t that big of a deal bc you asked me to come up that night and somehow I ended up sleeping over again. We had class the next day and from some miscommunication, I ended up walking to class alone. You thought I said something else besides meeting up and when I asked why you didn’t just ask to clarify, you said “cuz actions speak louder than words?” “And what were your actions” “Too just keep laying there with you?”

You even suggested we have a cuddle sesh. The next day, I even met your sister and you bought me bubble tea. I gotta say it was nice. I could see us doing that more in the future.

Then the next night, you invited me to the hockey house. And then last minute you cancelled and said it wouldn’t be fun. I waited the whole night for this party and I was so disappointed. So my roommate (V) and I went to pi kap instead. Then we went to delta sig where I saw your friend (D). We took pictures together and decided to walk back to race together. We were originally gonna meet you on the lawn but it was so cold outside I called and told you we would be waiting on the couch. You immediately got really angry, frantically asking what couch (you assumed the one in my room) but I only meant the couch in the lobby.

This was the first time you got jealous. But not the first time you got salty. The most salty I’ve ever seen you.

The three of us walked to get my roommate from (U) and then we walked to get pizza. I made casual conversation w (D) and you just sulked behind us not talking to anyone. At one point (D) saw someone he knew and when he stopped to talk to them, you pulled my arm and said “let’s go, he’ll catch up later”. At the pizza place, I was looking out the window for (D) to make sure he was coming and you said “whatever. Who care’s where (D) is”. When we left the pizza shop, you didn’t leave w us and when I asked, you said “I wanna stay here”. I had to basically babysit you the entire way home, your mood only lightening up when (D) went back to his room. I got out of the elevator on my floor w my roommate (V) and you reached out to me and said “where are you going?” I said “to my room to eat my pizza?” You replied “maybe I’ll see you later tonight”. I honestly didn’t want to. You were acting so weird all night and I just wanted to eat my pizza and sleep. But then later you texted “so you don’t want to hang out with me?” And I knew it wouldn’t be good if I didn’t come up so I did. When I walked into your room, you had your head in your hands and it sounded like you were crying when we talked. You kept mumbling something about (D) and leaving you to go dance w him. It was so funny bc it obviously wasn’t what I wanted. But you couldn’t see that. You were too blinded by your jealousy. I then tried to put you to bed and you kept throwing salty comments at me but I knew you were drunk and upset so I just let them all slide. You asked me why I wasn’t getting into bed w you when I tucked you in and I told you I wanted to sleep in my bed but you weren’t having it. You were so convinced I was going to leave you for (D) after you went to sleep. HA.

The next night, we had our third talk. And in that, I basically friend zoned you. I didn’t think I could deal w how clingy you were the night before and this was all before we were even dating. I told you I was so busy and I didn’t have enough time for a relationship and that it wouldn’t be fair to you.

WEEK 7:

The next two days after our talk, you were really salty at me. I asked you to go on a walk w me and you said no. I asked you to go to dinner and you said you just left. Finally after you asked to hang not so well “what you up too” *3 mins pass* “fuck it nvm”. We ended up watching stranger things and cuddling, so ig it worked kinda well. We even had a cuddle sesh the next night too, even tho I was sick. I hadn’t eaten anything all day and decided I should at least drink a smoothie but going out into the cold wasn’t a good idea for me so you memorized my order and actually got dressed to walk out into the cold just to get a smoothie for me. My heart swelled. How were you such a good guy. I didn’t think I deserved you and you were so whipped for me.

WEEK 8: where things start going downhill

You said we couldn’t hang out anymore or cuddle bc “I teased you too much”. Okay can I just say, while we were cuddling, I didn’t understand why your dick was OUT OF YOUR PANTS. That’s not a thing!!!

This weekend, we hung out friday night and I fully thought we were gonna sleep together. And when we woke up? I was gonna ask you out. But of course things never happen as they should. You were really salty that night when I said I would go back out to another party, you said “just go. Idk what you’re still doing here” I stayed in w you, for you. And when I was ready for bed, you said I’m gonna sleep here tonight. Even tho there were ppl fucking in your room. Why couldn’t we sleep in my bed? Bc you wanted to sleep in yours. That’s such bullshit.

That is the third time you cancelled. And the worst time of all.

The next night, we met up outside of our building and I thought we were just gonna go up to your room, but instead you took us to the hockey house to play flip cup. I was surprisingly really good. We even had a 1v1 and I beat your ass haha. If I wasn’t already drunk before, I definitely was now. But I still remember everything that happened that night. We played more flip cup and even did some dancing together. I love dancing, I can’t believe it took us 8 weeks to dance together. Can’t say you’re too bad at it either. Also, can I just say leading up to tonight, you have always respected my boundaries and not tried to push me to do anything I didn’t want to. You never forced yourself onto me or kissed me when I didn’t want it. While you’ve made the situations, going the 90%, you ALWAYS waited for me to put in that last 10% when I was ready. That was something I really respected about you. Tonight was kinda the same, while we were dancing, you did try and kiss me but instead I asked what the hell last night was about, you not wanting to sleep w me. You said “can we talk about this later” and I just went on dancing and you moved on. I ended up talking to this guy that went to PSU since my best friend goes there and I was asking him about their parties. I noticed you eyeing us, so I included you into the conversation but if anything that just made you more salty and we left almost immediately after that. On the walk home, I asked you again about last night. For some reason you seemed really hesitant but we pinky promised to tell the whole truth. You said “I don't understand what we are. Normal ppl don’t just cuddle as much as we do and it never leads to anything. We haven’t even had our first kiss yet!” So I kissed you. Under the tree next to the parking lot outside our building. “What I only get one kiss” And I kissed you again.

Honestly I expect a kiss to have fireworks and be amazing. All the other guys I’ve kissed, there has been nothing in the kiss. But with you, I felt something more. Not fireworks and the whole shabang, but I did feel a little spark. Maybe it just needed more time. After all we only knew each other for 8 weeks.

But then as we stood under our building roof, you holding both my hands bc it was cold and it also made it more intimate and dramatic, you said that you needed more from me. You wanted to fuck me. “Don’t use that word tho (fuck), it’s not the only thing I want from you. I also want a relationship”. But I had told you already, I’m not having sex until marriage to which you replied “I know you’re a good Christian girl. But 10 years is a long time. What if it’s in the moment tho? What about true love”

Whoa whoa whoa. What about true love??? We’ve known each other for 8 years. You can’t be serious. You can’t be saying you love me..can you? So I asked you “do you love me?”

“I like you a lot and I feel really comfortable around you”

“I feel comfortable around other ppl but it doesn’t mean I love them. Do you love me? Yes or no”

“Yes I do”

WOW what a truth bomb.

But by the end of the night, it’s agreed that we have differences of opinion and one of us has to decide. There’s no compromise here and I’m not folding on what I believe. So if he truly likes me so much, loves me, he needs to decide he’s not having sex, not having sex w me. He asks for some time to thing about it and I tell him of course, he should think it through. But I’m not worried. Sex is such a little thing. It shouldn’t be a deal breaker, esp if he likes me so much.

The night before thanksgiving break, we’re playing Kings in your room and the card is never have I ever. Your roommate (C) goes “never have I ever waited until marriage”

Ouch. What hurt even more? When someone asked (C) why he said that, he replied “I wanted Liz to drink”

So you told your roommates something extremely private about me, and then they used it against me. That’s fucking messed up.

I talked to you about it the next morning before I left for break and you apologized for him. You said it was never your intention to hurt me and I knew that was the truth. I willingly forgave you.

Throughout thanksgiving break, the time apart makes me realize I like you more and more. I can’t wait for us to talk after break bc then we can finally start going on dates and seeing what the future has in store for us.