#and also bashing my head against the wall at 2.5x speed. btw. if you [subject of this post] even care </3 | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

pepprs · 2 years ago

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like…. UGH!!!!!!!!! girl help im in the water. girl help i cannot ASK for help i cannot communicate my needs i cannot translate myself a) at all but especially b) when there is no trust and… there is no trust. the trust was aready going extremely downhill and then it shattered and i am angry and hurt about it every day and i am still not over it. and this email i have to reply to has been making me upset for 2 days straight that’s why i haven’t replied i wanted it to happen but i don’t want to be a WIMP but i don’t see any way to make this work without admitting / revealing that i am one. about to swan dive into a vat of toxic sludge god bless 🙏🏻💞

#purrs #not abt anyone / anything here btw this is just….. puts my head in my hands. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#yes i desperatey want to be independent and normal yes i am terrified of independence and normalcy i do not see a problem with this <3. yes #i want to redacted no i will not ask for it or assert my needs yes i Iwill always and forever let you walk all over me instead of with me be #becusss yes i feel like you will hate me if you get to know me yes these shoes are made for walking… ON EGGSHELLS!!!! 🤑💃🏻🤑💃🏻🤑💃🏻🤑#delete later #hmmmm maybe i will reply on saturday and just think abt this some more and chalk it up to a busy week which it has been. but ummmmm pain and #suffering like. lol. the MORTIFYING ordeal of being perceived for what i am. of asking to be known. when i don’t know…. redacted. LOL !#also literally it is so fucking sad im making this post in 2022. it’s so sad. like how did we get here. i am asking soooo fucking genuinely.#and also bashing my head against the wall at 2.5x speed. btw. if you [subject of this post] even care </3 #anyways *says im going to stop posting abt personal things* *immediately does it 10x more egregiously* i am normal i am i am iam i am 💁🏻‍♀️

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