#and alllll the time my teach would be so happy to get my stuff and she'd always be like

[xxplastic-cubexx]

waiting for marvel to take you up as their comic artist so that we can have amazing art with cherik official storyline

marvel hire me to draw professor x and magneto making out sloppy style for forty issues straight you will get a BAJILLION dollars i promise

[laverna-fanfictions]

Sebastian Stan One Shot

Okay, first of all, I’m sorry that I have been gone too long. I was burried under my midterms and papers, I lost my shit. Now that they are alllll over (thank god) I’m back!! So, thank you for your patience, and I’m so sorry for not writing all of the requests sooner. All of them will be on my blog this week, and that’s a promise! 

This is a one shot for my beloved requester, Sorry for the grammatical mistakes, typos in advance because I didn’t re-read it... I hope it turned out to be the thing you wanted. I hope you’ll enjoy it! xx

Request: @prettysatan : Hello, I was wondering if I could request a Sebastian Stan x reader with a reader from the Czech Republic and they try and teach him the language? If not don’t worry about it (:

WARNINGS: Fluff, slight making out, and nothing else i guess. 

Words Count: 901

   You were laying on your shared bed with Sebastian, talking about your life and other stuff while a soft music was playing at the background. Everything was perfect, heavenly even. You loved being in his arms, it always made you feel calm and safe. And to be honest, you loved to feel his big arms around yourself. He smelt like cookies because he wanted you surprise you, because he had finished his shooting with a new movie. He was finally back.

“Okay okay tell me this. How can I say, ‘I love how tiny you look when I hug you.’?”

You giggled, you loved when he wanted you to translate things. You did the same thing with his Romanian, but he was much more into Czech. You licked your lips, gave him a small kiss, and whispered the things he had asked you to translate. “Miluji, jak maličký vypadáš, když tě objímám.” his smile widened. “I love how your voice changes when you speak your native.” you hid your face between the pillow and his neck, making him laugh even louder. “Well, stop making me blush.” he cocked an eyebrow, his beautiful blue eyes were shining when he looked at you.

“You are a weirdo Y/N. I’m not saying anything to embarrass you.” you hit him by the biceps as a joke. He caressed your hair, gave you another kiss on your lips. “Alright. How can I say, ‘you are amazing.”?” you rolled your eyes at him, you knew he was playing with you. But you didn’t know why. “jsi úžasný.” you replied, rolled him over and got on top of him. “You are the one who is a weirdo. Why do you keep fucking with me?”

He smirked, put his hands on your ass. “I’m not fucking with you right now. If I wanted to fuck with you, you would be naked.” he winked playfully, patted you. “Always a tease.” you rolled your eyes again at him, this time he saw. He made you fall back to his side and got up from the bed. “Alright. I came in bearing gifts, wanted to spend some time with my girl but all I get is sarcasm here.” you knew he was bluffing to leave you, you bought it on purpose anyways. You held his hand and pulled him back on top of you, losing yourself under the weight of his body. A small moan escaped from your lips.

“Okay, I’ll play your game. Shoot me another question.”

“How can I say, ‘I love you.’?”

“Miluji tě.”

He repeated the same way you did, with a slight accent. You smiled at him, brushed his hair with your fingers. “You are cute when you try to say things in my language.” he kissed your nose and murmured. “You are always cute no matter what.” “Now you are just straight up lying.” he kept kissing your face, trailing them to your neck. “And you are being an asshole.” he joked, making you giggle again. “You are too, but that’s nothing new.”

“Ouch.”

He put his hands on his heart, as if you broke it, and made a sad face.  “See, you are an asshole.” you gestured his funny acting, this time he was the one who rolled his eyes. Then, he stopped for a moment. He was looking at you weirdly, in a way you only saw once. It was the same look he gave you at your sister’s wedding when you were walking down the aisle as her maid of honor. His eyes were locked on you, a little smile was on his face. He got up from the bed, walked to his backpack. You rose on your elbows to watch him. “I have one last translation request from you, Y/N.”

“Okay.”

You were still facing his back; you were trying to figure out what he was doing but you couldn’t tell. “How can I say, ‘will you marry me?’?” a huge shock wave filled your body, you didn’t know what to say or do. Your mouth got dry, and you could hear your heart pounding. “W-what?” he turned his body, with a box in which there was a big diamond ring. “Holy fuck Seb, are you serious?” you got up from the bed too, you were both standing still. “Well, I’m not fucking around with a diamond ring.” a slight mocking could be heard from this tone.

He got on one knee, with a genuine smile. “Y/N I’m not kidding. Will you, please, marry me?” you didn’t even realize you hugged him so hard that you made both of you fall to the ground. You kiss his whole face, like a maniac puppy. He was laughing so hard. “Is that a yes?” you were nodding crazily. “Fuck yeah. I’ll marry you. I’ll marry you however, whenever, wherever.” he was hugging you tightly, making it hard for you to breath but you were so happy you didn’t care.

You let him put the ring on your finger, giving your hand a cute kiss. You were so happy, losing your sense of time kind of crazy. You were under the covers, making love all night long. Even when you woke up, you went back to making love. It was as if you were doing it for the first time, those feelings were all there again.

“I love you, Y/N.”

“I love you too, Seb.”

[ae0nx]

FRUITS BASKET S3 EPISODE 8 RECAP AKA THE KYORU CHRONICLES PART 2 (plus a quick recap of eps 3-7)

aaaaaaAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!! I gotta get it out of me otherwise I won't be able to concentrate on work and I will be scrolling through the tag till the day I die. Everything from episode 3 of Season 3 literally hit me like an avalanche - literally cos I marathoned 3-7 over the weekend which I wouldn't advise unless you want an accelerated heartbeat - and I'm starting to realise... maybe I just wasn't ready for season 3. Despite asking for it, haha. Not gonna put as many screencaps for this one cos tumblr editing bay be trippin and I just don't have time nor emotional energy to be fighting with the picture uploads, sorry lol

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Episodes 3 - 7

I spoke before about how (despite my feelings about the characters) the English dub VAs for Akito and Shigure pair up really well audibly. And I think I feel the same way about both Yuki and Machi's English VAs! They both have the same soft spoken yet scratchy element to their voices almost like they are holding slightly back. Although, I'd argue that Yuki has been losing the element of slightly holding back as the anime has gone on which I wonder if the same would be included for Machi's performance?

I really like the presentation of Machi's trauma through her family's expectations to be perfect and how physical it is? How Yuki kind of encourages her to let it out in a healthy way? (Btw the whole chalk breaking scene in the meeting was SO FUCKING SMOOTH. YUKI IS A NERD BUT HE IS SO EFFORTLESSLY COOL A LOT OF THE TIME)

The age gap between Isuzu and Haru for sure isn't the worst age gap in this anime/manga but it's still a bit... hmm...

Episode 4:

In all seriousness, I know Akito deserves some sympathy but it doesn't change the fact that I still see her as a villain. Hurt people hurt people but it doesn't mean they should get away with it, I was honestly pleased Haru got that big confrontation with Akito to tell her WHAT'S WHAT but it was also somewhat... merciful?

Hiro's growth has been so beautiful to see, him realising there are bigger things than him from the event with Rin to his relationship with Kisa to then the birth of his little sister.

Kureno choosing to get his hands a little dirtier and paying the ultimate price for it (as far as we know so far in the anime lol) was great, he is the moon side of Tohru's sunshine.

Shigure... I still don't really get him and Akito's relationship. It's clear he's waiting for Akito to grow the fuck up but at the same time he's not creating an environment for her to grow and develop. He's decided to go with the 'tough love' route which I'm still deciding whether I like it or not tbh. Sometimes it feels necessary, at other times it feels shitty. I respect that he knows he's a scumbag and I don't deny that there are people out there who take revelry in the fact that they are awful but at the same time, him remaining unchanging despite everything feels... unrealistic. But considering throughout this story he doesn't seem affected by trauma, it's understandable, I guess?

Also... that scene where Shigure ponders about whether he should've been with Tohru is THE creepiest creeper shit he's EVER done in this series. No. 🙅🏾‍♀️

Momiji is best bunny boi regardless of how tall and 'manly' he becomes. 🐰His scene with Akito was so authentically him and he really did that shit. We love him. <3

I love the way that the curse breaking should (on surface) be a happy event considering all the trauma the zodiac went through because of it but it's presented mostly as loss as well as happiness. It's the realness of getting out of a bad relationship

Shigure basically laying it out to Tohru how Kyo means nothing in a very taunting way was an excellently painful scene and I choose violence. It was heartbreaking seeing how worthless they all saw Kyo compared to how Tohru saw him but... by this point I was just living in the pain so 🤷🏾‍♀️

The story visually showing how Isuzu is more willing to be soft after her whole ordeal through her fashion choices (e.g. the pastels, the cardigans) was really nice. And Haru being happy about Isuzu making friends with Tohru was cute!

It was nice we saw that Kazuma was still wary about whether Tohru loved Kyo for the right reasons, you'd assume after everything Kazuma would love Tohru as a match for Kyo but he's so emotionally intelligent and also just a protective Dad! Yay, good parenting!

Tohru's confession to loving Kyo was amazing however I still adore Kyo's confession a little bit more. Just a bit. Lol. However, if you add the moment later in episode 8 it trumps it completely. Ethereal goddess.

Kyo and Tohru's grandfather having a scene together was great and nice

Now that I think about it, I wish there was more a visual link in the story between Tohru adapting her speech to imitate her Dad and Momiji adopting his Mum's German accent. Albeit for slightly different reasons, it just adds to the unique connection Tohru and Momiji have. In short, I'm seeing this ship with my third eye now. I get it lol

I don't wanna screencap the scene where Kyo is haunted by both his deceased mother and deceased Kyoko and potentially deceased Tohru because it's the stuff of nightmares. But, it was a wonderfully done scene. You definitely understand fully and clearly why Kyo buried all of that trauma under his hatred for Yuki (I CAN'T WAIT FOR EPISODE 9, YOU GUISE!)

If Akito is a villain, Ren is the final boss. Although, with her type of villainy... I feel like I can kind of enjoy a bit more. She reminds me of a Greek God in the ways she master manipulates people and her desperation for control and power (I just read 'Mythos' by Stephen Fry, it's a great read lol)

It lowkey feels like every female character who's comfortable in expressing their sexuality in this story is punished in some way for it... this is an incomplete thought

Shigure as a child feeling like they should all be pitied is so... mature... I feel like I need more of an explanation for why Shigure is the way he is

Akito's ego death with Kureno? Amazing. I loved that she was at least aware enough to realise how Kureno had been coddling her all this time but again... doesn't excuse her crimes

But anyways...

EPISODE 8

Honestly? I really don't have much to say about this episode besides 3-5 points I wanna get out of my head. It's not a bad thing at all, it's just that there's still a lot left to play out from this 'arc' and this season in general that I wanna complete my thoughts on.

But I'll start with this:

Lol, isn't it funny?! Isn't it heart-wrenchingly funny how the relationship between Kyo and Tohru has kinda reverted back to how they were at the start of the series? The coldness of Kyo at the beginning of this episode (and throughout) was a bit of a gut punch considering all the light and fluffy moments that we've gotten between the two since the True Form arc.

Talking about the True Form arc, I feel like this episode is somewhat a repeat of the same emotions, same trials of the True Form arc. Kyo still 'runs away like he always has' but this time we get him being the most honest and confrontational with his own emotions and trauma than he ever has been during the course of this whole story. While trusting someone (Tohru specifically) for the first time with the whole truth of his story! He always seems to move one step forward and then three steps backwards and while it's a tad bit frustrating, it feels very... real. I'll probably complete my feelings how this arc reflects the True Form arc when we finish this section of the story in future episode(s).

Considering the fact that 80% of this episode is Jerry Jewell monologuing as Kyo and I never got bored really just sells his performance. Kyo was being incredibly cold this episode and yet the range of emotions through his performance made it feel understandable enough for you to empathise with it.

BrattyKid!Kyo to lighten the mood 😹I still wish he and Hiro had more of a relationship, I feel like they could have taught each other a lot. Well... mostly Kyo teaching Hiro tbh

Kyo rejecting Kyoka for her honesty and kindness and then later rejecting Tohru? Oh... kid...

Wow, I felt so good about that whole episode of Kid!Yuki helping Kid!Tohru get home and then it's slightly soured knowing KID!KYO was running about the streets alllll night into the morning?!?! I really did feel Kyo's frustration at not getting that win to actually do something right. And the irony of that being linked to him being unable to save Kyoka from the oncoming car?

Honestly, I don't know what my feelings are on Kyo being unable to save Kyoka. I don't even know what my feelings are on Tohru pretty much pushing that aside in favour of her feelings for Kyo. It's... complicated and I've been mulling it over in my head for the last 10+ years hahah However, if I was in Tohru's position I think I'd eventually come to a point where it feels like it's too late to really do anything about how bad I'd feel about it. Kyo's intentions weren't horrid, if anything he was just being a scared kid and he's allowed to be that. I just wish Tohru had a bit more time to evaluate it but considering she knew her mother well and assumes that wouldn't have been the full scope of what she had said, I don't have much of a problem with it in general

Lol, I love when Tohru gets a 'FUCK YOU, I LOVE YOU' moment with Kyo. 😂Another reflected scene from the True Form arc... only thing is that this time... it doesn't quite work. 😕

(Again, I love how all of these reflections are resolved in later occurences in response to the duality but I'll get to it next week when it shows hopefully)

Laura Bailey only had a few sentences in this episode but she killed it as always. Comparing her performance in 2001 to now is just... growth!

Ok, so Yuki automatically gets Best Boi in this episode for meddling and chasing after KYO of all people. Showing how he's personally done with hating Kyo. Realising Kyo is pretty much the only person who'll make his mother happy. I think he also lowkey wants to understand Kyo? But, we'll get to that next week.

....Oh yeah, Akito is there.

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In total, I liked this episode even though it has me anxious for the next one. We finally get the full picture of why Kyo is the way he is! Ahhhh - a weight off all our chests, I'm sure. I kinda don't like that they put the ending theme at the end of these episodes - the joyfulness doesn't really match up with the intense theme? But, that's just a minor gripe. And hey, maybe they just want the audience to know... it's all gonna be okay :)

See you next week!!!

[play-exy-be-sexy]

I feel like Allison and Katelyn could become really good friends so here’s so head cannons for them:

At first Allison doesn’t like Katelyn.

Allison sees her as competition, they are both gorgeous and she doesn’t like to share the spotlight.

But the more Katelyn starts hanging out with the foxes, Allison realized that she is actually kinda cool.

She super smart and philosophical.

She loves to argue and talk.

And Katelyn finds herself drawn towards Allison because she is a people pleaser and wants all of Aaron’s teammates to like her.

Allison tends to find herself talking to her more and more and having civil arguments about stupid things.

A lot of times it has to do with clothes or makeup because yes they are smart but smart strong women can still like girly things.

Eventually the talk of clothes turn into shopping days together.

Sometimes they drag Neil with them but most of the time it’s just the two girls.

They like to style each other when shopping.

Allison will go to a store, usually one a lot fancier then what Katelyn is use to, and pick Katelyn an outfit and vis versa.

They don’t show each the outfits till they are back at the dorms.

Because at this point they have each other’s sizes memorized.

Also they have very similar builds.

Anyway they all have a “fashion show” after their shopping spree for anyone who will watch.

It’s usually just Renee and Aaron.

They also swap clothes all the time.

“Kate, you want this? I don’t like how it fits on my arms and you have skinnier arms then me”

That kinda stuff

They both LOVE to gossip about campus drama.

Since Katelyn had a whole other social circle outside the foxes, well like three.

She’s a very popular girl

But Allison kind of has other friends too.

People from her classes that she’s clicked with and some of Seths old friends.

Anyway, this means they hear like alllll the college gossip.

They meet with eachother like once a week at a cute little coffee shop to catch up with eachother but mainly to gossip.

“Did you hear Tom from the lacrosse team got Kassi pregnant?”

“Like Kassi who’s on the debate team?”

“The one and only”

“No fucking way”

“That’s what I hearddd”

Yeah they know everyone’s business at all times.

But they never(usually) share anything past the two of them.

Because while it is their business it’s not anyone else’s.

The logic doesn’t make any sense to Aaron either trust me.

Allison’s last semester, she and Katelyn decide to take a class together.

It’s a feminism class that they thought would be interesting.

It just makes them closer because of course they become study buddies.

They hang out like almost everyday.

Aaron is kind of concerned. Allison is not a very friendly person and Katelyn is the definition of sunshine and happiness.

But they just seem to click so well.

Like so well.

Sometimes Neil joins them in their outings.

Him and Allison are pretty close and he gets along with Katelyn well enough.

Andrew thinks he’s crazy hanging out with two of the most girly girls in the school but Neil doesn’t complain.

Because really Neil loves hanging out with them.

They’re so funny and different than what he’s use to.

Allison becomes a complete different person with Katelyn.

She so much happie and lighter.

Not constantly looking over her back or caring what people think.

Neil has so much fun with them.

They constantly are buying him clothes, even more then Andrew.

They also love to do his hair and makeup and Neil really enjoys it.

Self care days are all their favorites.

They teach Neil how to do his nails, and mascara and be feminine in a masculine way.

Andrew like it a lot.

Anyway when the girls graduate Katelyn definitely cries because she has become so close to Allison but also has become friends with Dan and Renee.

She has a very hard time adjusting to not having Allison to gossip with but they still message and sometimes call.

Neil takes Allison’s place and him and Katelyn become super close their last few years.

Andrew and Aaron are so confused. They thought they just happened to both hangout with Allison not each other.

The three of them get together like two or three times during the school year and like for a week during the summer.

Sometimes Renee, Aaron, and Andrew come during the summer but the smaller visits are just the three of them.

Allison usually rents and Air B&B or whatever it’s called.

They go to New York, and Boston, and Florida, everywhere.

Anyway yeah just Allison and Katelyn being friends and Neil being their little doll.

But also equally part of the friendship

[authenticcadence18]

30 Questions About Me

THANKS FOR THE TAG @bugaboo-n-bananoir ILY!!!!

(Nick)name: Cadence

gender: cis female

Star sign: Pisces

Height: uhhhhh I am not sure, it’s taller than 5ft at least

Time: night! (Well I wrote most of this last night, but now it’s the evening of the next day!)

Birthday: well I’m a Pisces, so my birthday is between Feb 19th and march 20th!

Fave band/group: Pentatonix! Or For King and Country. Or the piano guys, the vitamin string quartet, Voctave.....also Phineas and the Ferbtones👌

Fave solo artists: I really like Lauren Daigle, and Jackie Evancho used to be my FAVE. Aaand idk if this counts but Michael Giacchino! love his scores, especially the score for Inside Out. There’s also this guy called Clay Kramer on YouTube who makes KK Slider covers of popular music, his stuff gives me so much seratonin😅

Song Stuck in my Head: Well I’m listening to music rn and “I’m Me” from Phineas and Ferb is on so I’ll say that! (I’ll revisit this one when I finish the list and update it with whatever song i’m listening to/is stuck in my head then) (ok the music has since been turned off and now I have “Status Quo” from High School Musical stuck in my head so! There ya go!) (now it is the next day, and I’ve got “when the party’s over” stuck in my head...i think these three songs are an accurate reflection of my taste in music🤣)

Last Movie: uhhhhh oh yeah, The Sorcerer’s Apprentice! It was SO GREAT because Jay Baruchel plays the main character (and the main character is super awkward), so I felt like I was watching Hiccup from the How To Train Your Dragon franchise learn magic and it was GLORIOUS. And also Nicholas Cage is great. And I liked the love interest in the movie as well!! She had a role to play in the story and felt authentic and genuine, which I appreciated!

Last Show: ok well the last show I watched by myself was Phineas and Ferb! Specifically, the episode with the Mardi Gras block party and then the one where Candace and Stacy compete in an obstacle course against Isabella and Ginger (omg wAIT ginger and Stacy are sisters and Isabella and Candace are GOING to be sisters mY HEART I—AH🥺). I hadn’t watched those episodes in forever, so they were really fun to revisit! I think the last actual show I watched was Kids Baking Championship or something, lol. (Those kids are AMAZING. So skilled!)

When i created this blog: November 2019! It was riiiight after the season 3 finale of miraculous aired and absolutely wrecked my emotions. I had some fanfic written that I’d never posted and had been thinking about making a tumblr/ao3 for awhile, and seeing the finale made me finally go, “.....you know what, yeah. The finale is aired, no more spoilers.....it’s time to make a blog.” So I did! And I posted my first fic! And I’m so happy i did :)

What Do I Post: a bunch of multi fandom stuff XD. This blog started off as 90% Miraculous, 10% other fandoms I like...but now it’s just kind of a hodgepoge of my favorite fandoms (with a focus on Phineas and Ferb, lol). I reblog a lot of posts, and then I post original stuff too! I write fanfic, nowadays for Phineas and Ferb but for Miraculous in the past (and probably in the future!), I draw art (mostly Phinabella art because I’ve been drawing them since i was 11 and it feels good to return to my roots), and OCCASIONALLY I will write an analysis post (I’ve got one in the works rn actually ����), attempt to make a meme, or dip my toe into salt just SLIGHTLY before quickly backing away, lol. If I were to list the fandoms I post about in the order of how frequently I post about them, I’d probably say: Phineas and Ferb, Miraculous....and thennnnn everything else is pretty random and depends on the day, lol.

Last thing i googled: Jay Baruchel 😂. Couldn’t remember how to spell his last name!

Other blogs: this is my only blog! Sometimes I think about making a separate blog for my art and writing, but I am not sure if I should or not....maybe I will someday, but idk. I also have an AO3 for fanfic and an Instagram for art! All are under the name “authenticcadence18.”

Do I get asks: sometimes, yeah!! Sometimes I reblog ask games/prompts and get some asks for those (I’ve got so many prompts in my inbox I want to write/draw things for...ah it’s fine, I’ll get to it eventually😅), and sometimes lovely people will leave thoughts or nice messages in my inbox🥺💕. I’ve got a specific tag for all those nice messages so I can read back over them whenever I need a boost!

Why this url: it’s a music pun! When a song/section of a piece of music ends with a dominant chord resolving to a tonic chord (if you’ve read a certain fic of mine you should know allll about dominant and tonic chords👀🤣), it’s called an authentic cadence! There are different kinds of cadences, and authentic ones are my favorite. One example of this is “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.” I also use this blog to be my authentic, fandom-loving self! So I like authentic cadences, and also, I’m Cadence and using this blog to be authentic! Woo! (And 18 is just my favorite number, lol) I’m glad I ended up choosing a name that doesn’t tie to a specific fandom becaaaaaause this ended up being a multi fandom blog!

Following: 232!!

Followers: 292!!! (THANKS SO MUCH Y’ALL ILY 💕)

Average amount of sleep: wellllll for the past week and a half I was sick so I was probably getting 9ish hours a night (because I would sleep in really late, lol). but NOW? In my immediate future? I suspect my average amount of sleep is going to go down because I’m really bad about staying up late even when I have to get up early😅. Hoping to be good about getting at least 7ish hours a night!

Lucky number: 18! But y’all probably already guessed that, lol.

Instruments: my voice, piano, ukulele, viola (but it’s been a HOT minute), aaaand i used to be able to play guitar but then I got a ukulele and forgot all the guitar chords. (I also dabble in songwriting! I primarily use voice and piano when writing music.)

What I’m wearing: my favorite sweatshirt (that was last night, rn I have on a tanktop), some leggings, and socks!

Dream job: I’m currently learning to be a teacher, and I LOVE teaching and working with kids so that is definitely a job I’m really excited about!!! I would also love to portray characters at Disney or something (well, maybe not at Disney because I hear they’re strict, but like....I want to be Rapunzel or Anna or something, that would be so fun). OR, I would LOVE to work in tv animation somehow, be it voice acting, writing scripts/music, and/or story boarding. basically if I could do what Dan and Swampy did for Phineas and Ferb/Milo Murphy’s Law, I would LOVE THAT. (Especially the writing music part. Getting to write music for established characters and get PAID for it would be SO COOL.!.!.!) Also I think it would be so fun to write Disney storybooks! Like, those books that are about Cinderella baking a cake or Ariel befriending a seahorse, stuff like that. Those brought me a ton of joy as a child!

Dream trip: I want to visit alllll the Disney parks someday😅. (Not right now because, ya know, Covid...but someday!)

Fave food: uhhh i really like pizza. And popcorn. Also hummus and guacamole!

nationality: American

Fave songs: “Times” by Tenth Avenue North; “Can’t Help Falling in Love” (I made an entire playlist of just this song when I first started writing my fic of the same name, so I like the original and a ton of covers of it!), “Show Yourself” from Frozen II, “What Might Have Been” from Phineas and Ferb (and lots of other songs from that show, i made a whole post about that once but I can’t find it, oof); “Rescue” by Lauren Daigle; “Thank You” by Pentatonix; “I See the Light” from Tangled; “Your Hands” by JJ Heller; “Perfect” by Ed Sheeran.....i like a loooot of songs so this is just the tip of the iceberg, but I think that’s good for now, LOL! (As soon as I post this I’m going to remember another song I love, lol)

last book: I got the book Unbirthday for Christmas! It’s basically Disney’s Alice in Wonderland, but if she’d never gone to wonderland and things went horribly wrong there. (I think, I’m not that far into it yet, lol)

Top 3 fictional universes I’d love to live in: 1. DANVILLE, PLS. Especially as a kid, I SO would’ve loved to hang out with Isabella and Phineas and the rest of the gang! Danville is so vibrant and unique and people are always randomly breaking into song there, that’s my kind of place! 2. Fairytopia (from the Barbie movies!) because I could be a fairy OR a mermaid OR BOTH and eat seeweed to breathe underwater even if I wasn’t a mermaid. Like, that’s the dream right there. (I’ve always loved mermaids and fairies, lol!) 3. Maybe San Fransokyo from Big Hero 6? All of the technology in that universe is really cool! And I would love to eat a noodle burger, lol .

Oh! That’s the last one! Wow! This was so FUN!!!!!!! Thanks again for the tag, Maddy!!!! :)

I’ll taaaag @sketchy-panda @macaronsforchat @simplynewyorkbound @inkjackets and anyone else who’d like to do this! (And pls don’t feel pressured to play at all, or answer all of the questions! I was definitely vague with a few of my answers, lol)

[deluxedolans]

agh i love you so much, you’re welcome in the UK with me any time my love❤️❤️ so i don’t know how the american system works at alllll, but I work in a primary school (which is kids age 4-11), and I work in Reception (kids 4-5). so we have like a teacher and a teaching assistant (who literally assists with everything) in each classroom! and in my class im an extra TA, who works with children who are struggling and need extra support, but without making it obvious if you know what I mean! (1/2) 🐝

so ill sit with them on the carpet during lessons to help them with their writing, run little groups with a couple of them to get their learning where it should be and just generally try and get them to the levels of the rest of the class socially☺️ I love talking education girl, tell me more about your class please!! -🐝

hi baby bee!! 💙 i know exactly what you mean! you’re there for support but you run little groups to intervene and help them get on grade-level!! ugh, we love talking education.

i teach high school english to ninth and tenth graders, so in ninth grade kids are 14 turning 15, and in tenth grade they’re 15 turning 16. i teach five classes (3 tenth grade and 2 ninth grade) and there’s four classes a day and we run on a two day schedule so there’s ‘A day’ and ‘B day’ so on A days we have periods 1-4 (I teach periods 1 & 3) and then on B days we have periods 5-8 (and I teach periods 5, 6, & 7). 

my ninth graders are really, really sweet. they’re very quiet sometimes, but are really like interested in being prepared for the rest of HS (so far) and seem to enjoy me, hahaha. especially my ninth grade honors class (honors is basically like excelerated) and i LOVE THEM. we talk about youtube sometimes! also, a few days before my birthday in october they surprised me with cool ranch doritos and cupcakes because they knew i was going to a conference on my birthday and they wanted to get me stuff. i literally cried in class. like, that made my whole year. the fact that kids wanted to bring in stuff to make me happy??????? like what the heck that’s so sweet

my tenth graders are HILARIOUS; tenth grade is very different than ninth grade in the sense that tenth graders seem to think they know everything :)

i definitely have a different relationship with my tenth graders than with my ninth. i would say i’m a little more strict with them because they tend to reallly push the envelope in terms of my boundaries (and my patience hahaha). however, i definitely tend to laugh more with my tenth graders because we have a very sassy relationship; i’m a very casual and sarcastic person, so when i’m teaching i tend to let that shine a little more with them, since i am so rigid with my rules, plus sometimes they laugh at my jokes. 

wow sis really went off, huh?? ^^

thank you so much for asking me bee ugh we stan the mind molders of tumblr 💙 i hope you’re having a great day/night:)

[vrael-mcl]

Ashley x Nathaniel HC

I’ve seen this around :D And I like to do things that I see around because it makes the image I have of my OC / OC’s relationships clearer in my head ^-^ @tea-parti ‘s idea :D

When at parties, Ashley never stops talking about Nathaniel with a burning passion. She talks about all of his qualities and achievement and how she’s so proud of him with a love that melts Nathaniel’s heart everytime ( even though he’s all red and a bit embarrassed like “ahaha she’s exaggerating”) 

Everyone calls her ‘Ash’ except for Nathaniel. He calls her ‘Ashley’ because he feels it’s more personal / intense

He’s really calm when she’s sick; he brings Ash her medicine, some hot chocolate and moral support and he’s done. BUT when he’s sick, she calls him every hour to ask if he took his medicine, she goes to his place to make him tea and bring him blankets and movies to watch and pizza and everything

Nathaniel’s heart skips a beat everytime he sees her on a horse. Just noPE. Even though he knows she’s skilled enough to handle the situation he can’t stop thinking of the worst cases scenarios

Ashley-White relationship is bittersweet. That cat gets really jealous and would start to do things Nathaniel falls for. It’s like the little devil only Ash can see. But when Nath is not around, Ashley and White make really good friends

He spoils her with flowers and chocolate for he knows it’s her favorite gift. 

Their song is Seafret - Out of Nowhere

Ashley is not really into books, but she’s fascinated when Nath reads them to her at night, just like bedtime stories

She’s the one who invites him out alllll the time in a variety of places that she likes, but he’s the one in charge of their trips and journeys (locations, hotel bookings, you name it, he has it all prepared)

Nathaniel is the cook in the “family”

Ashley SHOWERS him with affection and support and happiness and her family loves Nath very much :3

Nathaniel loves to teach Ashley stuff, he never had such and excited and curious “student” in his life

The thing that gets Ash frustrated a bit is that Nath doesn’t like sweets. Like she wants to share those with him and can’t possibly understand why he doesn’t like them they’re so gooooooooooooood

When she is very tired, he carries her bridal style to his bed to get some sleep. When he is tired, she insists to sleep on the couch or go home if possible, because she knows she’ll get the blankets all for herself if they sleep together (BONUS she will cuddle with him until he falls asleep if he requests tho)

these are just a couple of stuff, i just hope they dont sound trashy >.<

[sarahjane0886]

Chaos

“And in the middle of the chaos, there was you.”

“Okay, so we have practice tonight. Wednesday we have interviews in the morning, practice in the afternoon. Rehearsal for the opening number and blocking as well. Then we have package interviews. A costume meeting. And then basically that repeats for the rest of the week.” Jenna said going over their schedule together with Kiki.

“Oh my god, I’m exhausted already.” He said flopping back onto the hardwood of the dance floor, draping his arm over his face.

“We were exhausted to begin with. I swear when it hits this point, it’s just adrenaline and delirium at this point. Like I don’t even know how I look like a human in some of the stuff they show of us. And I have DWTS this week too.”

“Noted. You do like pretty un-human right now.” He said letting his arm cover the smirk on his face.

“HEY!” She said swatting him hard. He laughed and pretended to be wounded.

“I’m hurt! I don’t think I can dance.” He said rolling and holding his arm to his body.

“You better be able to! We’ve got lots of work to do.” Mandy’s voice filled the room.

“Oh my god, we got you!” Jenna shrieked in happiness.

“Yes you did love. However mister hurt on the floor there needs to get his stuff together or else, we’re in lots of trouble.”

“Kiki, up! Wait, that means we have…contemporary?” Jenna said with more excitement.

“Yup~ Mandy said with a twinkle in her eye. Jenna had worked with her frequently in the past and just loved Mandy’s style and interpretation. No matter the ending of the finale she was thrilled Kiki would go out dancing to one of her pieces. He’d dance to other choreographers but Mandy was special specifically to Jenna’s heart so her ending this part of their journey was special to her.

“Ahhh! Kiki!” Jenna said jumping on him and hugging him in excitement. Kiki and Mandy laughed at her excitement.

“Alright you two, let’s start.” Mandy said after they talked for a little bit more about the song and concept. It ended up being a beautiful piece as always and Jenna & Kiki couldn’t have been more excited.

The following days were jam packed with interviews, rehearsals, and meetings. And that was just for SYTYCD. On top of that Jenna was also starting in the troupe this week for DWTS. She’d only be on Tuesday night’s show but at that point, it was almost more than she could handle. She wrapped her camera blocking with Kiki and headed over to the DWTS soundstage. She thanked her lucky stars that the two shows were side by side. It at least made this part easier. As she headed onto the lot, she felt exhaustion hit her like a ton of bricks.

“Hey Jen, you okay?” Peta’s voice echoed from across the lot.

“Yeah, just tired. I’m okay. It just set in. I’m sure you know the feeling.” Jenna said.

“I do but I have Shai here, wanna see him for a few minutes? I just left stage, they were working on a couple of the bumpers. I didn’t see your name on the list for at least 5 more. Val has your choreo for the opening. It’s only about 10 8 counts. Super simple.” Peta said.

“Ohh, yes, Shai Shai time before I go into that mess.” Jenna said with a grin as Peta led her to her trailer. Shai shrieked in excitement when he saw the two making Cherryl laugh. She passed the baby over to Peta before giving them some space. She was such a great nanny and worked perfectly for the family. Jenna spent the next 15 minutes unwinding from the SYTYCD experience and enjoying her Shai time before she headed into the chaos round two.

Once she was in she was immediately swept into learning her bumpers and other things she’d need. She got her blocking schedule and her show schedule. She was going to be in 3 bumpers as well as the opening. She was working with Haley & Arturo when she realized that she had to have been there for at least 2 hours and hadn’t seen her boyfriend yet. They wrapped up at least teaching Jenna the bumpers however there was still fine tuning to deal with yet.

“Let’s take a break. This one looks like she’s going to drop.” Haley said looking at Jenna’s face. She grinned weakly.

“Sorry guys, I’ll have it together next week.” She said as they waved her off. She found a corner to sit in and let herself breath for a minute. She thought about all the things that had been going on lately and just felt so overwhelmed. She continued to sit there with her eyes closed letting herself be immersed in the chaos of camera blocking as well as the chaos of her current life.

“Hey you. I’ve been looking for you.” Jenna had sensed him right before she heard him. He sunk down next to her and she immediately tucked into his body.

“I’ve been here for almost three hours.” She murmured.

“Girl, did you take a break?”

“I saw Shai & P for a bit and then just now.”

“Babe. You’re gonna drop.” He said pressing a kiss to her head.

“You have to teach me the opening.” She said back to him.

“You need to rest.” He said as he went to move. He intended on scooping her up and taking her to his trailer for a bit.

“No, we have opening number in 20. I don’t know the moves and I need to.” She groaned.

“I can teach you in 10 minutes. It’s simple and you’re with me. You need to rest.” He said again.

“Fine, only because I don’t have the energy to argue with you but I’m fine right here.”

“You need some quiet.” He argued.

“You’re all the quiet I need. Just stay here with me please?” She whispered. She realized just how chaotic everything had been lately but the moment he was around her, things seemed to calm. The settled and it was less crazy which was exactly what she needed.

“Always sweetheart.” He said relenting. He shifted and tucked her into him better as he felt her relax. His hand rubbed her back gently, softly massaging the muscles he knew typically bothered her the most.

“I love you.” She murmured as she pressed further into him. Her arm slipped under his flannel button up as she felt herself start to doze.

“I love you too.” He smiled as he felt her begin to drift off. He knew the rest she got wouldn’t be significant but it would help some and that’s all that mattered.

***Whoop! I actually kinda think I like this. Don’t judge me if that’s not really how the Mandy/Kiki/Jenna deal went down, I kinda stopped watching at the end of the season. I was only invested in Jenna and life was too hectic to keep up. Hope you guys liked this! Don’t forget to like it up and let me know what you thought! Love you alllll. Muwah!

[nutmegthings]

Occupational Therapy- An information Interview.

So, here is the result from my first Information Interview about Occupational Therapy. Permission was given to share this information.

This interview was done with an OT student from Australia who had graduated three weeks before hand and had not yet found a job in the field.

Q1. What was the study load like?

They didn’t have much to compare the study load to but said it seemed a lot heavier than the teaching course their friend had done. They could usually get all their classes into 2-3 days a week, but they were busy days!

Q2. How soon did you start your prac/ when were your pracs?

“First prac in first year is only 1 day, gives you a taster but you don't really do anything - all observation. I was in a hand clinic, it's good but because OT is so broad it's only a really small representation of the whole profession. One week prac in second year (also obs), plus 'service learning' where you work with a person with a disability to achieve some goals once a week over a semester, then we had three 7-week pracs in 4th year but I think you'll get one of those in 3rd year and two in 4th year”

Q3. Where were your pracs and what did you think of them?

“I did 1 day prac - hands clinic, really interesting and I'd love to work in hands.

1 week prac - paeds clinic, mostly just playing with kids so it was fun but not super educational.

Service learning - ability centre (helping a man with CP make a recipe book), interesting but quite challenging because he was non verbal and I couldn't really tell if he wanted me around, I felt a little off about it because I felt like he wasn't really given a choice to participate.

1st big prac - home visiting with freo hospital, core OT stuff, not super exciting most of the time but it was really nice seeing how much super simple equipment improved people's lives - one lady I saw was very old and frail and she had to shower with assistance, only once a week because she could hardly stand for more than a minute without tiring out and she had to cling to these rails on the walls, I gave her a shower transfer bench and she was so happy she cried and cried. Equipment like that is stuff you need to know in lots of contexts.

2nd big prac - Curtin clinic, this is an outpatient health clinic run completely by students of different health professions. Great for learning about other professions and how you work together, good practical experience, but the supervisor support is terrible and ngl I was miserable for 7 weeks - learned a lot though. Was a bit of a shame cos it's a great concept with definite perks but it was haaaard to work in that environment .

3rd big prac - Fremantle language development centre, this is a primary school for kids with language delays. I mostly did motor skills development sessions and sensory self regulation activities, this was super fun and interesting, but then I do want to work with kids.

I think it's great that the pracs (the big three anyway) really do get you doing the job, and the uni tries to give you variety so you get a taste of the scope of OT (curtin anyway). I was really really scared to start prac, worried about it for like 2 years beforehand, but when I got there I found I was actually capable of it. I think the worst thing is if you have bad supervisors like my second prac, but I guess that would be true for prac in any context.

Mainly the dodgy ones didn't give me any feedback and I got to my midway evaluation to find out I was failing for a bunch of things they didn't even tell me were issues until then, and they were just suuuuper negative people

So I'd recommend ask for feedback alllll the time just in case you're missing something”

Q4. What was best about studying OT?

“...I do like that it's quite practical and very varied, you're not gonna get bored because you can change fields without extra training. It's person centred so all of your work is based around what the patient really wants and values, which I think is great, it's not just 'can you function on a basic practical level' but 'can you live a life that satisfies you and makes you happy'”

Q5. What was difficult about it?

“...sometimes it does seem a little like you're making things up as you go along, there are specific ways to achieve certain goals but it's much less prescriptive than say physio, you have to be creative and think abstractly sometimes.”

Q6. Is there a particular type of population you were hoping to work with?

“I'm hoping to work with either mental health clients or children but I'm open to anything really - I was tossing up between psych and OT, mental health OT seemed like a good mix”

Q7. And do you have any advice for someone looking to study OT?

“Advice... hmm. Be aware that it's so broad that working in different areas almost feels like a completely different job... good for variety though. You have to really value people's independence and be comfortable talking to people, there's a lot of counselling involved. The anatomy, neuroscience and paediatrics units are pretty content heavy, at least I found them to be, but they were also good because they have a very scientific, evidence based focus. Also don't be discouraged by the first year - a lot of people drop out because it's mostly generic health science stuff, from second year it's way more interesting because it is all OT specific. I also think a longer prac earlier in the course would be better to really know if you like the job - worked out for me but it seems like a waste to get to the final year pracs and discover you don't like it”

[jamofappreciation]

Rules: Answer the 11 questions asked and create 11 more questions!

I was tagged by @onemorelurker for this first one. Thank you!!

Do you like technology and gadgets? Despite being of the age generally thought ‘intuitive’ about such things, I don’t enjoy the frequent problems they have. I appreciate what technology can do for me, but I think it’s often too much trouble.

Android or Mac? Mac

What book are you reading right now (or you read last)? Would you recommend it and why? I’m reading Bucky F*cking Dent! I would recommend it because a very special puppy dog wrote it. ;) Also I like baseball.

What is the word or phrase you say a lot? I use the Dumb & Dumber quote, “Big Gulps, huh? Well...see ya later” a lot. Stupid, I know.

Favourite attire to be in at home? Shorts & tank top with a blanket wrapped around me, or pajamas. Favourite activity to relax? Watching a show or a film, or lying down listening to music.

What trait do you like about yourself? How competitive and sarcastic I am, but also the grace I extend to people.

How did you discover Tumblr, why you stayed? After my suuuuper quick first-time watch of XF I wanted to find out literally everything about everything and came across FYDG (I’ll sing her praises forever--test me) and read the whole archive. Created an actual account when S10 filming started and stayed for the fab peeps.

Is there a thing you like or like to do and people get amused when they discover it? I don’t know if it fits exactly, but I think people are most surprised by how much I know either about movies or baseball/sports in general.

Are you a pet person or a plant person? Pets 100%. I get this from my mother.

What do you like about the city/town you live right now? It’s small. I go to my favorite coffee shop and can see my favorite people without having to plan to meet up.

Tagged by @stupideffinbee for this second one. Thank you! Since you didn’t write new questions I chose your second set. :) Oh and I think these are the questions @chileananderson answered as well, who also tagged me. Thanks, love!

18: What was the last thing you ate? A blueberry muffin. 19: What are you listening to right now? Happy Valley (BBC show on Netflix) 20: If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Grey or red 21: Favorite smell? Vanilla 22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? My boss 23: Favorite sport to watch? Baseball and basketball 24: Hair color? dirty blonde (it gets closer to brown every year and I hate it) 25: Eye color? Blue 26: Do you wear contacts? Oh yes. Couldn’t function without them! 28: Scary movies or comedy? Comedy. But really I prefer intense. 29: Last movie you watched? Split 30: What color of shirt are you wearing? Black and grey 31: Summer or winter? Winter alllll the way. 32: Hugs or kisses? Hugs 33: What book are you currently reading? Bucky F*cking Dent 34: Who do you miss right now? My grandma--her birthday was the day before mine 35: What is on your mouse pad? I don’t have one 36: What is the last TV program you watched? Happy Valley 37: What is the best sound? Someone playing the piano 38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles? The Beatles 39: What is the furthest you have ever traveled? Thailand 40: Do you have a special talent? I can juggle? 41: Where were you born? Oregon

@a-january-girl tagged me and gave me these questions! Thank you so much, girl!

1. Can you explain your choice of online handle? This delectable quote from DD himself. "We worked together for so long that by the time the series ended we had enough of each other. But six years having passed, it’s like – I don’t make jam, but I’m assuming you pour away the boiling liquid – so after six years the liquid is all boiled off, and all that remains is the jam of appreciation.”

2. What is your favorite thing about being a woman? Ooh. I suppose being so close to my mom/my grandma when she was alive/my sisters, etc.

3. But what if you could be a man for one day, what would you do and how would you spend it? Perhaps I’d do some really lovely things for some equally lovely women. Show them some appreciation. And probably also see how strong I was.

4. If you had not had the job you have now, what other job would you have liked to do? White House Chief of Staff (for President Bartlet preferably) 

5. Can you tell us about a teacher you’ll never forget? I love this question because I love teachers. My junior year English teacher was funny, knew his stuff, and was so down to Earth and he made me want to teach. He made everything relevant. Mostly he’s just an amazing man and we still keep in touch.

6. Do you have any talents that we don’t know of? I can sing.

7. What is the very first XF fic you remember reading? (with a link, it’s even better 😉) I had no idea so I looked back in my archive and found THIS POST which is apparently my introduction to fanfic! I find that so crazy since I’m in SO DEEP at this point. Here is the link to the fic. And I guess I owe a massive thanks to @contradiction-to-nature!!

8. What’s the most precious object/thing you own? The book my grandmother wrote about her life or the cds my grandpa recorded for us. Equally precious.

9. When was the last time you got really drunk? I’ve never gotten drunk.

10. What’s the most unprofessional thing you’ve done? I guess discussed with a coworker how we disliked a different coworker.

11. Would you rather give up sex entirely for the rest of your life, or give up chocolate AND pizza AND take out instead? Dude. Rude. I...I just...I’m that scene where Joey says “Food, no, sex. No! Food. Sex. Food. I can’t!” So just know I'll regret it instantly when I say sex.

My Questions:

1. Who is your biggest influence?

2. What’s your favorite comfort t.v. show?

3. Funny shows or drama shows?

4. Where do you feel the safest?

5. When was the last time you wrote a letter? To whom?

6. If you had to dedicate a mural to someone, who would it be?

7. Describe your handwriting. :)

8. If you could suspend time for a year and live somewhere else where would it be?

9. If you could have another accent which one would it be?

10. What is your favorite article of clothing?

11. What’s your phone’s lock screen?

I know everyone has probably done this but I’ll tag @ellivia @edierone @kateyes224 @sunflowerseedsandscience @dinascully @chileananderson @starrynight-over-thepast @storybycorey

[weekly15]

6 29 18 / necessary / songs

It’s been so long I’m not sure I know how to come back. With necessary songs from this month. I have a plan now. I have a way forward.

1 / PATTERNS / Eilish Gilligan

Has anyone done loneliness this ethereally, this effortlessly? Space out to this one, relax your limbs, climb into your lonely life like you'd climb into a zero-gravity womb room.

2 / IF YOU KNOW YOU KNOW / Pusha T

If you know you know... 

I imagine this as the massive opening to a trip-hopera about 2018, that zooms out and introduces you to all the characters, each with his, with her visible frustrations, his repressed wishes, her trammeled desires. Let's see how it plays out. Welcome.

3 / LOST MY MIND / Lily Allen

Twinkling along the edge of insanity, as always, with Lily. Welcome back grrl. Cooing disturbed come-hithers, goodness we've missed u. Reminds me of Margaret Atwood's "Siren Song": Alas / it is a boring song / but it works every time.

4 / HUNGER / Florence + the Machine

Speaking of WE'VE FCKING MISSED YOU: Florence, Florence, Florence. She's back. I tweeted, in Jan or Feb, apropos of nothing, "My 2018 wish is for a new Florence + the Machine album!" So basically I manifested this, yw all. This was her massive MASSIVE return, and what a blaze of troubled glory. A voice that quavers with hard-earned strength, stronger as she goes, naming what she claims: our collective loneliness can make us each feel a little less lonely.

5 / DRUGS / Uffie / Bearson

Uffie, baby, who the uff are you? Where the uff have you been all my life? Love her feature on Galantis's uuuge new "Spaceship," but this one's the real gem. Bearson flips her lonesome "Drugs" into an echoey spin cycle that goes up up up while taking you down down down.

6 / I DON'T LIKE UR FRIENDS / EVAN GIIA

"WESTWORLD" was a banger, but Evan's new one smashes. The large middle fingers you've always wanted to give to anyone in your life who just unaccountably SUCKS. Some people, there's just no way around it, they suck. Listen to Evan. Jam out to this so you can see them in real life and not lose your cool.

7 / MESSY / Kiiara

This is a bubbly bouncy quietly bonkers little jam. You don't realize how much it makes ya wanna get DOWN until you are alllll the way down.

8 / BETTER NOT / Louis the Child / Wafia

LAWWd have mercy this an earth-shaker. When it hits, it hits. Would happily jump in a tight-knit circle on a sweaty dancefloor to this, arms swinging like you don't know what a "responsibility" could even be. Might be 2018's most necessary song.

9 / 1950 / King Princess / MELVV

Didn't think King Princess's out-of-nowhere barn-burner could've gotten any more appealing. But MELVV spins it inside-out and upside-down and I forget where I am I'm so dizzy I love the night the stars I can't tell if the ocean is waving with tears or dancing to the beat

10 / SLEEP ALONE / Max Styler / Ella Boh

Stop what you're doing. Stop scrolling through your Instagram feed. What do you want, this very minute? Is it even possible to suss out what you want in a single moment? I want everything. What is want? Are my desires mine, and if not, who put them here, in my guard-dogged mind?

11 / ONLY YOU / Cheat Codes / Little Mix

This boppy breath is a cares-to-the-wind summer dream. Music isn't for confronting your mortality. It's for letting your hair down, for teaching the town where they banned dancing to f*cking dance. Take my hand: we'll teach those homophobic bakers that luv is a wind that blows through every town in the world.

12 / LEAN WIT ME / Juice WRLD

I guess what I mean by "necessary songs" are songs that make you feel a little less lonely, a little more generous, a little more at home in the world. Songs that allow you to have a little more hope. Or at the very least let you forget all that, let you not think, let you close your eyes and dance alone in your room on your wooden floors that you mean to Swiffer more than you do. 

"Lean Wit Me" is something that I'm not sure about, something raw and ultra-real that reaches a part of myself I wish weren't there. But then it makes me feel grateful that someone out there (Juice WRLD) gets it.

13 / PEACHES / CRAY / RAC

Who comes up with this stuff? Who is "CRAY"? Who is Peaches? I don't think I know you, or anything, or anyone. Feels like someone just dropped this song into the ether and walked away. There. My work here is done.

14 / CONFESS / Jack River

Some songs are meant to be shouted. At the end of a long day, in the middle of a longer life. 

15 / COUCH / Eves Karydas

A little sticky-sweet piece of gum dying to get stuck to the bottom of your shoe. I wanted to dismiss this song, with its stupid meaningless hook, but here I am weeks/months later still jamming to it. Eves knows what she's doing, whether you want her to do it or not.

16 / I GET BY / DJDS / Amber Mark / Vory

Sneaking in an extra since it's been too damn long. And to let Amber's amber waves of groan send you into the weekend. At the end of the day, this is a pretty good motto: I get by. Let's try this week, to get by. And let's be happy if (when!) we do.

Best thing that isn't music this week: Look, folks. It's bleak. Read a poem or two. Been seeing "Red Brocade" by Naomi Shihab Nye going around a bit. That's a good one. Or Anne Sexton's mighty "The Truth the Dead Know."  

It is June. I am tired of being brave.

Love and love, to all.