#and a lot of it tbh is on how you improve and see things (???) idk but damn i'm just rlly proud of myself

[astrxealis]

my favorite teacher plays dnd and bg3 do you know how crazy that is to me

[newvegascowboy]

Thank you all so much for the kind words! I appreciate it a lot!

july 5th, 2021 vs july 24th, 2023

bit of an Artist Evolution, but also character evolution. two years of drawing Red! the roots are the same, even if the details have changed.

2 years ago, i was extremely new to digital art and was kind of fumbling my way through photoshop, trying to figure things out as i went. that didnt exactly change, i just got a lot better at fumbling.

then i lost photoshop, had a meltdown, and got CSP. lather, rinse, repeat.

im getting more comfortable working outside my comfort zone. or i guess, expanding that comfort zone. there's still a lot i dont like about my art - and a lot i feel i need to improve on, but i think im getting there, however slowly. im learning and figuring things out, though that never really stops. i look forward to seeing where im at in another two years.

thanks yall for sticking around!

[instantpansies]

ok so @mostlyintact and i were talking about the strengths of each of the sfth boys, and i think i was finally able to get some words out, so i thought i'd make a real post lol. a brief summary of each of their strengths, and examples of plays where those things are visible.

longish post, so i'll put it under the cut.

aj: he really shines in caesar and juliet. the narrative sort of revolves around juliet, and aj gets to really drive the story forward. his portrayal is iconic and natural and just so fun to watch. also, he's excellent in the oopsie daisy bulge, the grape depression, and priscilla's final petal: all plays in which he's got a whole lot of control over the way his characters are going, and gets some shining moments to drive the scenes forward in really compelling ways. he really reveals himself as a director and storyteller. also obviously death for a dollar, where he IS the actual narrator. to be honest, aj might be my favorite from an acting standpoint: his quick turnarounds and seemingly wild word associations and ability to grab a single piece of information and turn it into a whole story is both amazing and very similar to my own style of improv, and seeing him do it so well (even if he gets made fun of for being confused) is just. delightful. idk. his scenes where he's playing two characters at once (in grapression and oopsie daisy) might be the best of all the boys', to be honest.

sam: i think he does well when he's the center of a web of connections. his performance in, say, the evil make-a-wish kid is really fun, where the narrative is focused on him alone, but my favorites are things like the mystery of the midnight circus, the unrelenting aubergine, strange noises, or moist and magical. his characters feel more like an "everyman" in some ways, but always with a really unique personality. theyre relatable without being blank slates. excellent protagonists made better by their worlds. he takes the energy surrounding him onstage and sends it electric at the audience, using his surroundings to bring you in. it's really cool

tom: he is absolutely enamoring as certain archetypes. and he does an excellent job of making an impact with even the smallest amount of screentime. i'm always a sucker for abigail from the neighbour's under the bed--the monologue, the mannerisms--but a lot of that comes from a whole lot of overanalysis of her character, and that's not really relevant here. instead i'll say he's really really good at capturing the audience in death for a dollar, wild wet and worrisome, ballet on the battlefield, wine under the bridge, and priscilla's final petal. but tbh i could point to memorable scenes from almost every single tom character, he's so good at making his time count. his english degree comes out, ofc, which gives us those glorious tomologues, but also he can build up tension so naturally and make a silly story seem so real for a moment. sometimes that "oscar bait" moment can distract from the plot as a whole, but you don't think about it while you're watching him because he's so good at filling the space (to use a theater term).

luke: he's the absolute king of sympathetic characters. no matter how ridiculous the rest of the play is, you can always count on him adding a layer of humanity to his characters. it's easy to see in the milkman, of course, but also in divorces and teddy bears, wine under the bridge, toby's secret pocket, and the grape depression. his people are human, in ways that the others sometimes forget to be, and his storylines are impressively coherent. he seems to be the most concerned with getting the details right--sam nitpicks to get a laugh, but luke keeps track of details really really well, and does a good job of bringing in little things that make a story come together beautifully. more than anything, though, he is so good at building a character throughout a story and leaving you actually satisfied with what you got.

they each have really unique and somewhat specific strengths, but they complement each other so well. i think that's part of the appeal of sfth - they're so so comfortable with each other and find it so easy to read each other that you can tell they're having fun. it feels natural. they click, almost all the time, and even if things go off the rails they can pick up the debris from the crash and run with it. that's what i found really appealing about them--as someone who loved improv when i got to do it, it makes me wish i had friends close enough to do that with. it takes a ton of trust and a really solid relationship to do that, and i just. i just think they're neat :)

thank you so much mostlyintact, i can't come up with this sort of thing without prompting and i can't wait to see if you end up posting smth too 👀 love hyperspecific analysis

[quenthel]

There is so much discussion rn Abt romances in Avowed n how in pillars the romances were bad and RPGs need romances yadda yadda and honestly it's kind of crazy...

Like saying that they are going to lose out on players is probably not true bc if you are a type of player who plays RPGs for the romances then I don't think you are or ever were the target audience for this kind of rpg or pillars of eternity to begin with. Like ik sorry if this sucks to hear but pillars was always a story more focused on an old-school type adventure where you find out the secrets of the world while also being a game that builds upon this rpg legacy and tries to improve on the general ideas while at it.

Tbh to me it's a bit strange ppl are either like UGH I won't play this trash bc no romances!!! Vs. UGH you can just make up headcanons Abt romancing npcs like ok I suppose you can do this but why not just let a story speak for itself once it releases and why not interact with the narrative and setting.... Like pillars has a crunchy and rich fantasy setting you can get lost in imo and the writing of previous games was very good and ambitious. These games do interesting stuff with the basic fantasy premises and tell relatively focused stories about a couple of intertwined themes.

I think it's telling of the current social climate around RPGs (on Tumblr) that romances are dominating the discussion this heavily. And before you I get accused if anything no it's not "bad" to like romances. Romantasy especially is an incredibly popular genre of fiction. And it's popular for a reason.

But like what's weird to me is how so many ppl just very loudly dismissing a game that looks good so far just bc of no romances. It's like do you critique other games like this too? Do you want like idk Balatro to have romances in it too?

Personally I'm glad there are no romances. And it's not bc i don't like rpg romances (I do love them) or bc i think the romance of deadfire were lackluster (they were fine and fit the vibe of the game). Im glad bc that means the ppl who made this thing probably focused on the things they actually wanted to make and hopefully were passionate about. Playing games where you can feel that passion and which are not just churned out to be popular for popularity's (and money's!!) sake to me always feel more impactful and charming like that's the "good stuff".

Ofc Avowed is super fucking expensive even shockingly so. I can only hope some of that money goes to obsidian and not all of it gets drained into the pockets of EA. I also hope that the same kind of passion n ambitious writing we can see in pillars 1 & deadfire will be still here, but I won't speculate (yet) since I haven't seen the game (since it's not out). I think tempering your expectations about a game is a smart thing to do IG lol.

To be fair the marketing of this game is a mess already. And the pillars games were never rly super popular to begin with so ik a lot of ppl are confused and might be getting the wrong idea. Also we are off of the back of bg3, which was a game strategically focused on romances and characters even when it made the overall narrative suffer. It was also very popular (and a good game!) so it gave a lot of ppl (esp ppl who did not particularly played a lot of RPGs or video games in general) the idea that THIS is the "blueprint" for an rpg. But the thing is it is not.

Honestly I just don't rly get the scorn for this game lol. Idk. Temper your expectations and if a game is not for you then you can just say that n move on. Ofc it's good to be critical (I'm a hater too I get it) but idk msging random ppl who are excited Abt avowed about how you think this game will suck ass is perhaps a bit too much.

[courtmartialme]

Hey! Sorry in advance if this is word vomit-y and a mess im literally crying rn lol

Ok so i found u for ur trans riza art and at first i was like yo cool explicitly trans art! Then i went thru ur blog and found there was so much here and it made me so fucking happy. Like we (trans mascs) domt get as much representation so its really meaningful when u find it in the wild but then when its genuinely good A+ quality content too and theres just so much of it? Words cant describe how fucking happy and seen i felt.

Ive been following u for a while now and just like. Youre so inspiring to me? Like your art is goals its so fucking good, when i see your art it makes me want to draw and improve my own art. Your brainrot and like willingness to do your own thing in regards to trans riza and ur AU art is also just so inspiring to me. And like as a trans masc creator i guess its so inspiring to see you succeed if that makes sense.

As to why im crying rn, i just found ur trans riza comic and its Unlocking things in me its making me cry so hard rn dhddhddnbdjdbdfbnffb like it just makes me feel sm hope for my own future? And idk its just really nice to see such good content and representation that really understands and gets the "trans experience" if that makes sense. So like yeah dhdjdjf just thank you so much for being so inspiring to me and (others bc im sure its not just me that feels like this) and for sharing your art!

that's a very sweet message thank you !!! i'm glad my trans riza art resonates with you ^_^

though anon, i don't think we are "under represented" at all. maybe in big media? sure, idk, i don't pay attention tbh. but anon there are a lot of transmasc artists making transmasc art out there you just have to pay attention :] and i think this kind of art is better appreciated when you stop using words such as "content" and "representation" to describe art made by artists in the wild and save it for big tv shows lol. ofc i get the trans experience, i'm trans. but maybe my trans experience isn't the same as yours. who gets to decide if something so personal is bad or good content? or representation? i think by applying those standards you're only limiting yourself and others

of course, i know you only meant well with your message! but i took the opportunity to ramble about something i think about a lot <3 i'm honored you find my art inspiring bc i honestly mostly draw whatever i feel like drawing lol even though trans riza au isn't very deep or personal or anything, it's important to me so i draw it. i hope all of us can forever create more art about our experiences without worrying if it's good representation or whatnot because that's a silly word to describe the feelings of real people :]

[charmallows]

ok hear me out on my post-finale roomie hcs. ik some of these are really obvious but some also just make sense to me ↓

i love that mic soap and taco rooming together is the general consensus its so endlessly funny to me. no matter how you interpret soap and mic's relationship it's hilarious. personally i see them as sisterly so them sharing a room with mic's weird little girlfriend who probably sleeps in the closet or sometimes ducks outside mysteriously cracks me up so much

balloon and nickel. obvious. really funny if they did truly share a room before season 3 and still do now. like nothing about their living arrangement changed they just dont wanna kill each other anymore

lightbulb and paintbrush. another obvious choice. paintbrush was so deeply afflicted with lightbulb withdrawals in s3 i think you'd have to fight them Tooth And Nail even Suggesting they room with someone else. sorry fan. but i do also think paintbrush takes time to themself to quite often. it's healthy for both of them i think

payjay. duh. i heard somewhere that supposedly they push their beds together to make a big bed. huge if true. also lets them push their beds Away if they need to. which i imagine happens a lot. i feel like if oj doesn't push his bed into the corner of the room alone at least once a week he'll go fucking insane

suitcase and box! with suitcase being the first person box truly talked to in the afterlife and her first real friend i feel this is a good choice. suitcase would be more than happy to room with her if that's what helps her feel the most comfortable. i also just think they continue to get along really well!

fan and test tube are inseparable to me. i do think test tube shared a room with mic beforehand and it was a tad tense. rooming with fan is comfortable change of pace for her. they're the nerds! attached at the hip! i love them.

salt and pepper. we all know why…..

cheesy and bomb, LOVE this duo. i think they'd be cool. nothing really more to say

cherries and yinyang, i don't think this needs to change from canon tbh. a very solid and fun duo no notes

pickle and trophy. to be so honest with you i just think this one is funny. pickle's such a chill guy and trophy is such a loser. pickle would be so unphased by this guy that trophy would just stop dicking around at a certain point. plus pickle and knife can talk shit about him at the mansion (all in good fun of course. maybe. probably. i do love you trophy)

lifering and baseball, honestly i just think these two could be friends!! lifering's got a really uplifting spirit that i think baseball could appreciate. while i do love his friendship with nickel, it'd help a lot for baseball to be friends with someone just unabashedly positive and supportive, especially after his experiences on ii. and baseball's just a nice, dependable, pleasant dude, balanced well with lifering. idk i see potential!!

tissues and tk!! my eyes were recently opened to the concept of tissues becoming like an honorary sinkers member and i'm in love with it. tk is sweet and accommodating and tissues needs friends who won't ostracize him! not that i think he'd be so poorly treated now but. you know what i mean. i like this duo's potential!

cabby and candle, to be quite honest with you i just could not in good conscience put silver and candle in a room together LMAO. i love them, and i think their relationship can improve, but they DEFINITELY do not need to be sharing each other's space like that. so, cabby! i think these two would make for a just a very solid, very chill duo. cabby's openness and candle's emotional intelligence… while they'd maybe butt heads over some things, both having such strong personalities, its nothing that couldn't be mended between them. i like it!

silver and blueberry are funnyyy. next question

CHEER FACTORY ^—^!!!!!

well he is the floor!

of course there's the mansiongoers, can't exactly leave (apple and marsh can, but they don't really want to)

and clover is still traveling with her butterflies i think. in her lane and thriving

ideally some of the s3 newbies would stay in paradise, but since cabby's library is gone there isn't too much there to live With. and since the majority of the former contestants are on inanimate island, that's where the newbies eventually navigate to. i imagine after society is built on inanimate island some rebuilding efforts are put in place in paradise and some do go back eventually

frequent mansion visitors are pickle, suitcase, mic, paintbrush, and trophy. trophy likes to bother knife (he's masking his respect for him). i imagine suitcase in particular visits a whole lot, mostly for knife but i think she'd build up a decent friendship with marshmallow too! pickle and mic visit for knife but mic also plays in the band with marsh apple and bow! dough is their sound guy, he's included don't worry. and paintbrush visits marsh every so often :)

uhh i had more to say but i forgot. anyway! yeah those are my thoughts. feel free to fight me on these. they're just for funsies

[nerdybookworm25]

Even MORE Caitvi Headcannons

If you don’t ship Caitvi pls just scroll away 🩵

SFW:

- as soon as Cait was able, she was back at work. It was a lethal combination of her workaholic nature and her guilt over what she had done under Ambessa’s manipulation (this drove Vi nuts)

- Vi didn’t know what she wanted to do after the war and healing (physically) and it had her really down for a long time

- Eventually, Vi gets back into boxing (which helps improve her mental health) and much later on ends up opening a boxing studio where she teaches classes for all ages on the Zaun side of the bridge, but still in view of Piltover

- every class is entirely free Zaunites

- The studio ends up reconnecting her with Zaun, less people consider her a sell out/Piltover lapdog, etc, and she ends up regaining ownership of where the Last Drop was, rebuilds it, and reopens it

- You will see Vi there working pretty much any night that Cait is working overnight because she hates sitting alone in the Manor

- All of the money Vi makes from running the bar goes to the upkeep of the facilities, her employees, and the Firelights; she keeps none of it for herself AT ALL

- Cait doesn’t go into Zaun for YEARS after the war. She just staunchly refuses no matter how much Vi tries to convince her to visit her at either of her jobs

- PDA is something they both do a lot but only to an extent

- Like in public Cait and Vi are always holding hands/someone’s hand will be in someone else’s back pocket/an arm will be around a waist but they don’t really like kiss or hug in public

- you might catch a cheek kiss or a kiss to the back of a hand but it is always chaste on the rare occasion it does happen

- these girls LOVE a farmers’ market holy shit like they will walk around with Artemis and Apollo and kids’ll come up and pet the dogs and it’s just like a fun family thing they do together

- SPEAKING OF FAMILY, THE KIDS!!

- I think they have 2 girls and they’re named Cassandra Felicia Kiramman (Cassie/Cas) and Lavander Kona Kiramman (Lav/Vandie)

- I looked it up, and found that League (which I know nothing about tbh) bases Ionian language pretty heavily on Japanese, so “Kona” is the Japanese word for “Powder” or in this context, the Ionian word for it

- Cassie is older and looks like baby Cait but with more indigo/purple hair than Cait’s indigo/blue hair and has Vi’s eyes. She also has Cait’s build: Long legs and a short torso

- Vandie has hair that is a super pale purple — like it’s truly reflective of her name and Cait’s eyes, but holy fuck does she just have Vi’s face. She has a long torso and long legs (Vi’s torso with Cait’s legs if you wanna have it put that way) so she ends up being the tallest in the family by the time she stops growing

- When Cait sees Vi and Lav together, she calls them her flowers (Violet and Lavender — get it? Also fun fact these flowers both have been used historically as symbols of lesbianism so that’s fun too!!)

- Cas got nicknamed muffin as a kid and it has STUCK so when she and Cait are together, Vi ends up calling them baked goods or sweet treats and they both roll their eyes affectionately

- Cassandra and Lavander are five years apart and holy fuck they DID NOT get along until they were like 15 and 10 respectively and even then it could still be a little rocky, but it was usually a lot more playful from then on

- They really became best friends the year before Cassandra went on her first tour about Runeterra with Piltover’s professional shooting league

- UGH I HAVE SO MUCH I COULD WRITE ABOUT THESE GIRLS I SWEAR

NSFW:

- idk why im so fixated on Sub!Cait and Dom!Vi right now when I think they do the reverse slightly more often but oh well

- I’m just gonna get right into it I think they’re both into ass play/anal to an extent and no I cannot explain where that thought comes from

- For whatever reason, I think Cait is both the most into that between the two of them and the most embarrassed about it (Vi fucking LOVES to tease her about when she’s domming)

- While neither of them will be outright degrading to one another (both in and out of kink and ESPECIALLY when Cait is domming Vi) but Cait does like a mix of praise and degradation and tries to

- they both absolutely have collars

- Vi kisses it after eating it regardless of if she’s in charge or not

- These ladies LOVE a boiling hot bath together as part of aftercare

- QUICKIES ARE A STAPLE

- these two always have hickies all the fuck over

- Cait always tells Vi to not put them in visible spots because she doesn’t want ppl at work or around Piltover to see them (not because she is embarrassed of Vi at all, but rather because she thinks that it would be unprofessional of her…and admittedly very distracting to her when she’d catch herself in a reflective surface)

- in contrast, Vi doesn’t give a shit where Cait puts a hickey on her and she won’t cover up visible ones unless she and Cait have an official event to go to. It wouldn’t be unusual to see them walking around Piltover together on a weekend holding hands with Vi’s neck looking like it got mauled

- I KNOW I SAID NO IMPACT PLAY AND I STAND BY IT BUT I do think that if she’s in the mood for it…Vi doesn’t mind having her pussy slapped lightly; its never enough to hurt — frankly, it’s more of a tap than anything — but the moan she’ll let out when Cait does that…fuck

- they’ve had sex in some form in almost every single room of the manor (excluding the servants’ quarters and the rooms that Tobias moved to once Cait and Ci moved into the master bedroom)

- Grinding is huge for both of them, but on different parts of each other’s bodies

- I think I’ve mentioned this before (I could be wrong but whatever) but I think that Vi loves to grind on Cait’s thighs

- Cait, on the other hand, loves to grind on Vi’s abs

- Both of them are fucking freaks and will occasionally grind on whoever’s in charge’s boots

- Cait is ABSOLUTELY more of a brat than Vi. They’ll both brat sometimes, but if it’s a game of who’s most likely to, it’s going to be Cait

- I know I’ve talked about how Cait would punish Vi in a previous post, but I don’t think I talked about how Vi would punish Cait

- It is absolutely making Cait work herself up while she watches Vi work herself up OR Vi will make Cait work to “earn” her collar (this is where the boot grinding comes in — just read a FANTASTIC fic with this premise and holy fuck it was so so SO GOOD)

[zolo-san]

How can a boy (or a girl) win Zoros heart? 💋👀

So I think for Zoro, things that are important/attractive to him are all based on the persons personality

I think the person has to have a certain level of confidence and a drive to better themselves/have something that truly drives them This is something that he looks for and tries to encourage in his friends and allies as well I truly think that he joins Luffy mostly because he sees him as someone with a lot of confidence and a drive towards his goal We also see him take pretty quickly to Sanji, someone who on the surface (I have opinions on this that I'm not gonna get into here) seems very confident, and has a clear goal that he's working towards (I could write a whole other post on how I feel that Zoro originally trusted Sanji just based on the fact that Luffy trusted him and he trusts Luffy's judgment, but after fighting along side Sanji at Arlong Park, he actually got to know the type of man Sanji is and that's when he officially decided he liked him) We also see Zoro's tendency to encourage confidence and improvement in allies with his behavior towards Tashigi When Tashigi fist challenges Zoro, he doesn't back down, but fights her despite the fact that he definitely knows that he is leagues above her in skill - but who is he to squash that type of confidence and determination? Later in Punk Hazard we see him try to push her towards success again when he refuses to help her fight Monet even though he (and Tashigi for that matter) knows that he could end that fight 10x quicker than Tashigi can But he doesn't help because he wants Tashigi to do it herself He wants her to have the confidence that she can do it and to grow in skill to match that confidence (I think that this scene with Tashigi in Punk Hazard says a lot about Zoro's character tbh)

Another thing that I think is incredibly important to Zoro and would be something that he would look for in a partner is compassion and loyalty We continuously see Zoro take the time to be kind and compassionate towards other people despite being perceived as someone who is cold and violent by those who don't know him He himself is also an extremely loyal friend and one would assume he's be a loyal partner (who are we kidding this man would literally kill for his partner or die trying), so I think that type of loyalty would also be something that he would look for in a relationship

Something that I'd like to mention, however, is that I think that Zoro is also the type of person who would hate/never want to be saved idk, I just think that he's the one who prefers to help and save others (he's truly a protector at heart), but the idea of not being able to save himself or the potential of someone else getting hurt (or killed) trying to save him is something he can't stand I think this aspect of his character is best highlighted in Thriller Bark and Sabaody We quite literally see Zoro try to sacrifice himself and refuse to let Sanji "save him" during Thriller Bark (this is another topic I could on about forever: Zoro being afraid of loosing people, especially if he feels he wasn't able to do anything to help them, and Sanji being afraid of people leaving him and being more willing to die than let that happen) And then again, we see Zoro get frustrated and struggle to try to hold his own during their fight on Sabaody, not wanting to be "saved" by any of his friends to the point that he could have easily died Anyways...that's a bit of a side tangent but I think it is relevant to Zoro and relationships in general (also what is me answering these asks if not an excuse to force you all to read me stream of consciousness about these characters lol)

The last thing I want to add about Zoro and romantic relationships is that I think he would very much be the type of person who prefers subtly and private moments over big gestures and pda It's a canon fact that Zoro is a bit shy (owo 👉👈) and so he's probably not prone to large, loud displays of affection (we do see evidence in the small, quiet ways he shows he care for his crew mates) In a way, I think Zoro is a bit like a stereotypical Japanese man in that he's not likely to be overly forward about his emotions and would almost never speak them out loud in any direct way I think he shows affection mostly through actions (tho I have a hc that Zoro also just says the most poetic shit out of nowhere without even really realizing or thinking about it lol)

idk if that's what you were looking for anon, but it's what you got lol~

I'd also like to note that I do hc Zoro as both Gay and Demisexual So obviously that influences a lot of my views on him and romantic relationships especially the fact that I don't think that Zoro is ever looking for a relationship In fact, I think he has no interest in a relationship and doesn't give it much thought, but once he catches feelings it's like getting slapped in the face and he's just like "WTF is that allowed??????"

[meat-wentz]

here’s a list of things i think have improved my life over the past year:

a good button up- honestly the most versatile item of clothing that provides year-round comfort, lets my body breathe, and looks stylish no matter what- it doesn’t matter the fabric as long as it’s soft on the skin and the fit is loose enough to provide some good old darcy flounce, can be dressed up or down and has not only helped in my every day comfort but also in easing the irritation of my skin (works well with sweat in the summer and dryness in the winter)

good underwear- insane how most underwear wants me to kill myself, so finding good affordable underwear is a necessity, personally i like parade

good pajamas- again it’s like important that my skin feels nice in something, i live in a high desert climate which is extremely drying and literally makes me the itchiest little thing on the planet, so good loose fitting silky pajamas make me feel like a little prince tucked into bed all nice and sweet

a robe- dawg i love a robe, not only as protection for my outside clothes when im in my house covered in cat fur, but also as an extra layer of warmth in colder months, and a nice thing to ahem, i’ll say it again, let my skin breathe while i dry off from a shower before i get dressed or while just lounging around the house with nowhere to be but still feeling like i want to be “dressed”

chia pudding- dude i eat chia pudding every day and honestly as someone w a lot of digestive issues and genetic digestive shit, chia pudding legit is my girlfriend and i love my slimy little girlfriend

BEETS- had a big beet year after realizing i can eat beets whenever i want. love a beet salad w arugula and spinach and some goat cheese and pistachios and dressing of your choice (i prefer a dill or balsamic)- you can literally have beets whenever you want idk why i only thought i could have beets on special occasions, idk i think i have a weird covetous thing with food i really like, but yeah idk who needs to hear this you can have beets whenever you want dawg its true

new glasses- go see your optometrist. i am bad about seeing any doctor for anything bc i hate it but being able to see is important go get your eyes checked and don’t be like me wearing the same prescription for 8 years and putting it off while seeing stars while i drive and squinting at subtitles

good luck charms- idk man i just like them it’s kind of just nice to have a little thing you put a small amount of faith in every day like a little token from a friend or a necklace you wear or a funny little keychain i like to have a little thing i can hold or fidget with that’s like yes aha it’s my little charm for everyday life that says to me im all good i think having a healthy dose of positive superstition is a nice thing to have

a good perfume- idk it’s just nice to get whiffs of yourself and be like omg that’s me, one of my coworkers has the same perfume and every time i smell her im like omg you smell so good and start blushing bc i realize that’s how i smell and it feels nice

just a good sunscreen dawg and not for all the anti-aging bs but bc it’s just a good thing to wear like if there’s anything ive learned after a lifetime in the desert it’s that dude just wear some sunscreen it doesn’t have to be fancy it’s just good practice and genuinely helps prevent the misery of sun damage from a day in the summer or a long drive or anything you have to do outside

a solid refillable pen- tbh probably my best friend in this whole world is a good fountain pen

anyways i have a long track record of like denying my own needs especially when im depressed or upset which for the length of pandemic and my most recent relationship was something i really fell into and after feeling a bit more like myself and reclaiming a lot of the joy i’d lost, these are some things that helped me ground myself in the world and feel a bit more comfortable being joyous and re-finding what’s important to me (feeling like the food i eat doesn’t want me to kill myself, writing, feeling confident in being a person in the world, seeing clearly, etc etc etc)

[lakesparkles]

MORE MR PEANUTBUTTER!! Can you tell I like him?? The worst part is that it's all very new art, I drew all of this in... 3 days? Idk

So, this one is very self indulgent. I wanted to explore his relationships with some characters in my AU (the one he dates both Diane and Guy, it all happens after the finale of the show). One of the reasons I love creating this AU (I even just finished writing a fanfic about it!!) is so I can develop PB more.

If you want an explanation about his relationships, it'll be under the cut!

Bojack: they spend way more time together now that they live together in California - PB has two houses, so he travels there to Houston all the time. His relationship with Bojack… Is improving, just like showed in the doodles. Some people even mistake them as a old married couple, but nah, they didn't even kiss once. Maybe once. Bojack doesn't want to talk about it. One day, years later, Mr Peanutbutter will make peace with his own sexuality, look back and realize that things make way more sense now.

Guy: talking about his sexuality, Guy plays a big role on it. I created a whole backstory for him, but it's a story for another day. He's way more comfortable about being bi than PB is - who is now having a lot of questions: "what if he's wrong about it?"; "what if he's too old for that?"; "what if all media reacts very badly about it?" It's a little easier when he's not alone. Their personalities go very well together and, other than that, PB is having the time of his life having a husband now <3 Guy usually calls him "dog" and PB isn't sure if he thinks it's cute or the opposite.

Pickles: I have a lot of thoughts about Pickles tbh. Some of her scenes made me think that she seemed so lonely. Years after dating and breaking up with PB, she realized that their relationship… Was kinda messed up, yes. But she was never angry, even being happy seeing how different his life is right now. When she meets PB again and finds out that, not only he felt guilty during all the time they dated, but also *still feels that way*, she thinks it's a little funny. She has a good life now, he didn't ruin anyone like he thought he did. They end up in good terms and message each other often enough.

Diane: PB calls her his "ex ex wife"! Coming back together has been a nostalgia trip for them and this comes with a bunch of complicated feelings. What makes all different is exactly what Diane herself said in the show: "if they met as the people they are now, things would be totally different". And they surely are different now, even more after spending so many years apart. But different doesn't mean perfect, this they would never be. They still have a couple of fights out of nowhere that Guy is confused about. What changes is that it's, in fact, better. And now they have hope. And they're enjoying finding out once again why they were in love in the first place. It's such an old feeling that they were tricked into believing it's new~

[kaiserouo]

Wow i actually have enough rendered pieces to make an art summary this year. Just barely tho

Ramble below, also template ref

Oh god where do i even start. This is the part where i reflect on myself and do nothing about it afterwards.

In thems of topics, it's mostly just apex d2 and wf. I've never made my own world and characters because most ideas that i have the motivation to make into art comes from me playing the game. Maybe that's why I don't really treat a lot of my original character as "original characters", because they're still bound to a game instead of, you know, born out of the blue i guess.

I barely did render this year... I mean, not just this year of course. I think I slightly got the hang of it these two months? At least I kinda have a pipeline that I can follow and could tolerate / fix some of my mistakes in the later stages (e.g., picking wrong colors for flat color and wanna fix it during rendering etc.). It's... kinda like OOP? Decoupling code? I think it just comes down to opening a million layers and not feeling bad about it. Anyway I think one of my improvements comes from here.

Another improvement would be the speed of doing sketches and the complexity of the lineart I can handle (idk how to say that). I need to draw comics and there would be a lot of people in there, so even if I don't practice specifically I still need to draw some human figures. The complexity part is due to me getting into warframe just because of how fucking complicated they all are. Maybe instead of lineart complexity I should say I'm comfortable drawing somewhat complex characters now without my brain overloading and immediately giving up. Still haven't drawn BT though.

That's probably all the obvious improvements I can think of. I didn't read as many books as last year, but the two main books I read last year are for perspective and anatomy, which I do find very very useful. I still often go back to check some anatomy stuff this year, and with me spam drawing comics I think I can draw human figures better than before... if I only consider proportion that is. I think I have to redo anatomy all over again especially for the muscle part. Also probably should do more real human reference practice... Well, you can probably guess why I said that at the start.

I do think the reason why I do so little rendering is because I mostly do comics. Most of my ideas have a plot and my idea list is waaaaay too long to actually color the comics. And as I feel more comfortable drawing comics I fear more when I wanna do rendering because of the skill gap I have between the two subjects. Also most of you come for silly comics so why do I do full rendered pieces anyways... Yeah, after typing that sentence I do feel wrong thinking like that. But oh well, I guess I can't escape the curse of liking to see numbers go up.

Speaking of numbers, here's some of them. Good thing I don't have to deal with Tumblr API myself.

That's... quite a lot of followers, for me. I mean I don't stay in only one fandom so I have no idea why most of you followed me. Also sorry to ultrakill fans I just don't draw a lot for that game but I see some of you liking a ton of ultrakill post and immediately follows me. Kinda felt that I baited you folks for following me tbh...

Also 3 of my top 5 posts (2234 > 1726 > 1641 > 1531 > 1321) are ultrakill and I only have 27 ultrakill art posts (a lot fewer than other games) so... um, maaaaybe you should consider unfollowing me to clean up your timeline...?

Aaand here are the note stats per month because I've already typed this much so why not just include literally everything in one post

The only thing I can analyze is that the note and post number started to lose correlation due to how much ramble shitpost I have these months.

Okay that's it. I intended to make another art summary for the lineart / unrendered art pieces, but there's just too many to choose from and I don't think you can infer more from these given that the rendered pieces already has lineart in them. Mostly.

[fayewoodss]

small rant about drusic if You want to hear

Tbh dream and music is interesting bc "Mask" was his most honest and rawest work on music for me but also had a lot of the mistakes someone who just starts with music makes. Also "Road trip" is very like this too.

Something You can see on his singing. You can tell he practised more and has a better range than before but still has that thing starters have that his voice sounds a bit idk how to Say it...robotic? Like not robotic but sometimes it keeps the same tone for all the song not making the powerful or more emotionally moments feel in their full streght. I think the point when he achieves more this on his new music is on "Until I end up Death" bc that slower and almost pained "until i end up death...im gonna be just fine" its full of emotion that part is trying to give, it gets to You heaieng him song like that.

His new songs with few exceptions like "Until I end up Death" are less raw emotion but are better in the composition deparment. I think rn if dream keeps making music, he'll be able to do something really interesting bc he has the emotions and things he wants to tell and now is learning the "rules" and how to mess with them to make more composed music and songs. And has many people to help him with it rn that are in the industry. I think dream rn is on the stage of learning the basics to alter on make his works Even better

I think the word you mean is "monotonous," and I agree! I think a lot of that is due to not singing/never having sung before, so his range of notes is very limited.

I think my biggest gripe with Dream's music is it's reliance on pop clichés without knowing how to use with intention. The production is very trendy, but in a way that feels stale and canned, as if grabbed off the stock music shelf without thought. That's not a "bad" thing at all, but just shows his amateur breech into the music field. Lyrically, I think he's almost there, with some songs more developed and composed than others, but I personally don't think he's a poet. He is a writer and a great storyteller, but he doesn't quite get the conventions of poetry and what makes poetry music and vice verse. But this reason is also why I think "Mask," with all it's flaws, serves as his most successful piece: it has the earnest vulnerability that makes it poetry which makes it music. It takes risks and deviates from what is expected of pop music, whereas the DrEP in general just feels like radio background music.

When I say all this, I want to be very clear that none of this is negative. It's simply just review and critique. Dream's music still shows promise for growth. There is incredible potential there, and the reason I wholeheartedly believe that is because we know he's a writer and we've seen his writing and storytelling abilities prove to be substantial. On top of that, he has been dabbling in producing and scoring with his recent videos and there has been a lot of positive reception there. He has a high capacity for learning new skills and improving on them, so if he ever continues music professionally (which I think he's still signed to Republic but I could be wrong), I can only see it getting better.

If I were to speak completely honestly, though, I think he should've moved his career toward writing before attempting music. I think Dream releasing YA fiction or even collaborating with an artist to make a graphic novel would've been more widely accepted and successful than music. He has a ton of material already he can choose from, and even though most of it is Minecraft based, he could take those stories and ideas and make something new and original from it. Unfortunately, I think music is just easier for content creators and tends to get pushed by management teams as the only way to move forward in that career field.

[pinkcaraz]

I really agree with you on the mental aspect part!

This may or may not be true (only my feelings) but I think Carlos plays with his instincts and his emotions more than his brain. So when they fail him, he fails the match. Maybe he needs to find a balance on these things to find more consistency and a sports psychologist may be a good idea to manage his nerves and expectations.

Also, people are figuring out his game, and tbh I think it's quite normal. People knew by heart how Roger, Rafa or Novak played but it still didn't mean that they were easily beatable. When you're rising through the ranks, more people will study your game and more people will understand what's going on which is why (I would say), young talents often have a very big break out at the beginning of their careers only to hit some kind of "slump". When people hear you're winning, they wanna figure you out. This is not the case when you've just started on the scene. Ben Shelton (idk if this is a good example) when he first came to the scene made very deep runs in some very important tournaments because people didn't know what was going on. Then people got used to his firepower and these deep runs decreased in number.

However, this gave him a wake-up call on how to improve his game. He actually has a decent back-hand right now I would say and his returns are getting better.

I know that people complain that Carlos changed his serve but I think this is actually quite important for him. He's still young and he should focus on his weaknesses while he still has the opportunity to improve on them even if there's some ups and downs with it at first. As we've seen time and time again, saving break points left and right won't always save him or he can't always rely on amazing return games. He will never have a Ben Shelton serve, but he should work on making it a reliable weapon.

I rambled too much, sorry lol. But anyway, I know this loss hurt him a lot but I hope it's a learning opportunity for him. Better to do this when you're 21 than when you're 35.

omg no worries you never have to apologize for rambling! i love getting long asks and interacting with everyone :)

i definitely see what you're saying about carlos playing mainly with his emotions and instincts! when he play's freely and enjoys it he plays his best, but he can't always rely on that so yea finding a balance would be good for him.

also totally agree with you about people learning top players' games! it just comes with the sport, and i think ben is a pretty good example bc he has one big weapon that a few people have learned and figured out ways to work around. so he's had to stop relying as much on his serve and adapt.

i haven't heard much about people complaining about carlos changing his serve, but yea i do think it's a positive. he and his team recognized that it's a weak point and have put effort into fixing it, which is great and exactly what they should be doing! and ofc the change isn't gonna take effect right away but i think there's definitely been some progress on it.

mhm he's so young he has plenty of time to learn and even though he's still learning he still produces really good results! so i think it's best to let him do his thing and not worry too much bc he's definitely doing great things despite what some people might say. :)

[lazymonth]

Neg-rant ( wow, two Neg-rant in a row. What’s wrong with me, I’m just woke up tbh ) ⚠️

Come one, Month. Don’t be such a loser and stop feeling super guilty on realize that you’re being jealous on someone that having a lower follower than you, and not jealous of other people like you who literally having over 700 followers in 3 years ( I guess ). That’ll make you look like a sucker that only cares about fame and how much attention you get in each post, which it’s not. And I scare of being seen like that too, because I don’t want people to think I’m some kind of mean person who’s only care about themselves -

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It’s just… Tumblr is my passion that I’m doing it for fun, even posting something for that one specifically person to see. But in the same time I’m just checking the tumblr every 5 seconds, wondering it’s getting any more notice or not. Which it’s starting to making me feel guilty about being like this, when there’s literally someone out there being like,, idk, Don’t care about how much notice they get, they’re just happy to seeing someone found they post <33. And that’s making feel guilty about lot.. Don’t get me wrong, I’m also happy to get note by people too, and feeling so thankful for every support I get.

I’m not usually being jealous of other artists. Like those artists with over 1,000 followers, or someone that’s crazy good at art. I’m just “ yeah! Amazing art! Good for them! They deserve it!!<33 ” and very enjoyed their art and trying to improve myself. But when coming to someone that very close to me, or having a level skill of art closer to me, even though they didn’t get a much notice of follow as me. I’m still feeling jealous of them, because I was always being like “ God, why I can’t never think of that ” every time they posted some super creative thing. It might get less notice, but it’s so fucking creative and interesting! Which it’s something I probably can’t coming up by myself when comes in to the story telling stuff.

…I just feeling so guilty and scared rn that people I’ll seeing me like a some kind of big company thing that only cares about what they can get. Meanwhile, I’m still seeing myself like a indie game dev that’s still underrated.. and I’m very happy to seeing people supporting my art and stuff. I’m always looking up to other people and always appreciate their hard work.

I don’t know now how many times I said the word “ guilty ”, but it’s the truth. I’m feeling so bad at my bad behavior of being jealous of my literally friends now, and keeping pushing myself to do something to being the same level as them.

To my friends, I’m so sorry of all of this by the way. You’re doing nothing wrong. It’s just me being a jealous bitch, and I’ll trying my best to be better.

Or maybe y I’m love Turbo so damn much, I start to adopt his personality, and becoming a jealous bitch like him- /j

[beesmygod]

If you want a genuine critique, I think your grasp on anatomy is still wonky and part of the reason may be because you kind of go out of your way to avoid panels with full body shots. Your most recent pages are genuinely creative and have a fun composition, but it’s kinda hard not to notice that a lot of them framed around just seeing the upper torso of a character. Its kinda like how artists would just cover up feet with mysterious smoke or debris to avoid drawing them

this response is so long but only bc i agree with this a lot. human anatomy has always been a huge struggle. don't worry, i have eyes and can see how bad it is most of the time. i have one thing to say in my defense: sometimes i have really scenes in my head i would like to execute, but my artistic skill levels are not there. which means i have to make a decision on how to re-frame or execute the panel before my deadline hits. this sometimes means taking the shortest path from a-b if i've already wasted too much time trying to make this work. i've been trying to record these failed attempts more on patreon just bc. idk they're confessional and might be helpful for people to see how much behind the scenes hemming and hawwing there is before the page finally gets made.

last year this problem was especially bad too; when i was really sick i was drawing soooooooooo many "talking heads" pages (this is what i've always thought of them as lol) because they were easier to do (obviously) and it was so bad and i knew it lol. it was making me miserable to the sole responsible party for churning out really really bad low-energy/effort pages and, at the time, not really having an excuse for it.

i tend to direct my art improvement energy on one specific thing at a time, for a while it was making a point to incorporate more backgrounds or foregrounds into pages, then for a while it was getting WAY less shitty at speech bubbles/paneling (still struggling with panels tbh). maybe now that im feeling better i can try to focus harder on anatomy. ty for giving me a direction to head in!!

[sleepinginmygrave]

questions for you bc you know both french and english

was english easy to learn?

how did you learn it. please. i need tips for learning languages

how long did it take you to learn it?

were you taught any in school?

is there anything that you have a word for in french (like an experience or emotion or something) that isn't in english?

what's your favorite english word? and the most fun to say?

not a question but french accents are hard 😭

sorry ik it's a lot!!

AHHH THANK YOUUU I LOVE QUESTIONS !!!

hmm for me it was not really hard but ig thzts cuz i learned it since i was little?

okay one thing that helped me improve my english like crazyyy is being online . like seriously just on social media being on the english side helped me soo much to see how people spoke (like when i joined tumblr since its MAINLY english stuffs i was only on the englidh side of it) AND reading . it started with fanfics really cuz there are so many more in english 😭 at first it was kinda hard but i just translated the word i didnt understand and then it became soo easy now i can read books in english with no difficulty :3 (almost) OH and watching shows/movies in english with english subtitles cuz if i put on french subtitles it doesnt help me improve my english at all cuz all i do then is reading without listening so . yeah

idk sorry 😭 i think i still have things to learn here and there but i woudl say i really became somwhat fluent when i was 12? 13? idk

yeah !! i actually was taught since kindergarten so sine i wad like 2 or 3 lol and during all elementary i was somewhat good during this time, i guess i understood quickly ? then since middle school english classes were not very useful for me tbh its just boring

oh we have plenty !! i cant think of any rn tho sorry

oughhh idk rn sorryy

haha i guess it is 😭