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great things happening in the polytrix community.

I NEED THESE SHIP NAMES TO BE MORE USED

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One of fandom funniest common sense facts is that everyone saw this awkward girlbossfailure with a Catholic upbringing level of self shame and parental complexities who holds the ability to shake the veil between earth and hell with her voice and is the one doomed to either save or destroy the world and went "yep, this is a bottom, here it is 82834 works showing how she gets it"

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based on that post i saw

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Drawn to Be Desired, Erased to Be Consumed: White queer gaze, Fan Revisions and Sevika

The white arcane fans have been pissing me off for a while now. Y’all are straight up racist to Mel and vilify her. Y’all love to talk about Sevika and her strap, but you only choose to love and thirst over a version of Sevika. Sevika is Black and South Asian, and white Arcane fans continue to whitewash her and reduce her to nothing but her strap. Y’all selectively consume BIPOC characters like Sevika, sexualizing them while simultaneously whitewashing and flattening the very racial and cultural specificity that defines them. You all misread BIPOC features through a white lens and refuse to acknowledge them as valid in their own right.

This is a problem with BIPOC characters in general, and it reflects a profound ignorance of racial and ethnic features. It’s especially annoying when this ignorance is paired with defensiveness when erasure is called out. Y’all sanitise anything that challenges white comfort.

Sevika is a rare example of a character who is butch, disabled, and racially coded as Black and South Asian. Instead of embracing that complexity, many fan creators selectively filter her through the white gaze, softening her features, lightening her skin in ways that align more with whiteness rather than with the culturally grounded design she was given in Arcane.

For y’all, she’s nothing but a strap with muscles. She’s a stoic domme trope to white fans People love her muscles and the fucking shimmer strap y’all love talking about but shy away from and erase what makes her culturally meaningful.

Your Favorite Butch is Black and South Asian. You just keep revising her to fit your standards. For the love of God, why is whiteness still the lens through which beauty and queerness are interpreted even in fictional spaces that are meant to be liberated from real-world biases? Y’all want ‘exotic’ but not too ethnic.

You misread BIPOC features through your white gaze and refuse to acknowledge them as valid in their own right, but what’s worse of all of this is the defensiveness and derision of white fans when BIPOC fans point these things out. Rather than engaging in good faith, y’all centre white feelings and fragility.BIPOC folks are often expected to “educate gently” or not at all. We’re not a TED talk. We shouldn’t have to to have to explain our bodies to white people like why our knees are darker or why our lips are pigmented. Y'all treat us as if we’re anomalies. Whiteness is treated as the default, and everything else needs justification.

The lack of body hair on Sevika's character design is another bone of contention for me, but that's a discussion for another time. And I know that white beauty standards harm everyone, so please do not bring that argument to me because a white woman growing out her leg or armpit hair is seen as a bold and rebellious feminist statement. Yes, she may still face criticism, but she’s doing so from within the norm, and the act is often aestheticised and commodified, but when a South Asian woman chooses not to remove her body hair, she isn’t “disrupting beauty norms”. She’s seen as lazy, dirty, undesirable and as someone who has failed to “civilise” herself. There is no celebration, no romantic filter, no empowerment. There is only discomfort.

Y’all already call Indian people dirty to the point where when there was a plane crash in Gujarat, people were saying it crashed because of the smell of Indians.

Even in South Asia, darker-skinned, oppressed -caste, and working-class women are far more harshly policed for having visible hair. Meanwhile, fair-skinned or upper-class women might be forgiven for the same features. This intra-community policing is directly inherited from British and Brahminical beauty hierarchies. White and Savarna feminism often erases it by pretending that the European beauty standards conversation is just about gender and not about race, caste, and proximity to whiteness.

I suppose my main point here is that White fans are quick to eroticize BIPOC characters and to erase the racial, cultural, and historical context that makes them whole. Your desire for Sevika is selective. You’ll write fanfics about her strap, but revise her face until it stops looking like her.

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i don’t give a DAMN how much hate she gets, or how many fucked up delusional headcanons people pull out of their ass, i will always, ALWAYS be caitlyn kirammans number one fan.

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And she uses Cait’s expensive lavender scented soaps to do it because Cait is a femme that pampers her damn butch!!

Vi is the butch that wants to take a bubble bath with her little duck, maybe a squeaky ship even

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Reblogging my own shit bc holy fuck it’s gotten worseee

Sapphic council, I regret to inform you that I think I’m not even down bad, but in fact down tremendous

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THIS IS SO IMPORTANT TO ME

🐚SHE-RA Mermaid&Pirate AU Stickers by Kyri45🐚

Happy MerMay Guys!!! And man, this show was an incredible trip, and I’ll always be thankful for that💜 .

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We need more loser Caitlyn! Caitvi is a loser x loser ship! One of them is always suave and cool all of the time no!! They both only have moments of that while being so tremendously down bad for each other!!!

Tomorrow's prompt for Caitvi pride month is lesbian bar and I went a little crazy with it

Expect smut

And loser caitlyn, my beloved

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Being groomed doesn’t always inherently mean the actual act is sexual either. Non-sexual grooming is a thing and manipulation is something all people are susceptible to under the right conditions.

- sincerely, a 20 year old lesbian who has ptsd from an abusive relationship that involved heavy manipulation tactics and the sister of my now ex girlfriend grooming me

If you think Caitlyn Kirramin wasn't manipulated and she "still should've known better" despite being manipulated by the like most evil and well known warlord ever imma just assume you have the same energy to grooming victims and CSA since "you still know right right from wrong" and idc if that's a Hot Take.

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Me fucking too, Cait. Goddamn it here we go again

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Just a reminder disliking Caitlyn Kiramman and making it your whole personality doesn’t make you a good activist or morally superior…it makes you annoying.

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certain people making me wish i can teleport...

like why aren't you HERE?!?.....why aren't i THERE?!?

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‘Arcane: League of Legends’ Team Unpacks Epic Final Season and Teases More to Caitlyn and Vi’s Story

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I relate to Caitlyn so much bc she’s a social outcast due to autism but she also FUCKS because of autism. It’s the duality of being a neurodivergent sapphic.

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Vi singing The Giver by Chappel Roan at friend karaoke, smirking, acting smug and cocky, while Caitlyn sits and watches knowing that in a couple hours, Vi will be taking it like a taker