#and I'm using she/her pronouns in german anyway

[queerofthedagger]

I've been (mostly) out for years but sometimes there's moments like. over the last two weeks both of my clients, for some reason, just casually asked me if i had a boyfriend or girlfriend, and it's like. of course they would I've literally been to pride with one of them and all that! but also I'm really just out at work and get asked if i have a partner of any gender without the slightest awkwardness and as an early 90s kid that dug their way through an absolute cesspit of biphobia and bi erasure it maybe still makes me want to sob into my pillow a little, every once in a while like. fucking hell. a lot of shit still sucks but a lot of shit also got so so so much better already

[cr1ngebutfree]

are you new? I love your post :3

Halloo anonymous!!! :333

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- Thank you!!! But yes. You could say I'm new. New here on reichblr !! <𝟑

⋆˚࿔Small introduction ᵎᵎ

(who wants to read, read, who doesn't want, it is what it is)

₊ ⊹➤ My name is Lina(it's my nickname). My pronouns are she/her°.

₊ ⊹➤ I'm interested in WW2 and the Third Reich, and I've been in this fandom for a year and tbh I love this fandom !!

₊ ⊹➤ I am an artist, history lover, and a music lover !!X3

₊ ⊹➤ I'm a Romanian, I learn German, and I speak a little ‧₊˚

[ghostedeabha]

i haven't posted anything in a bit and i'm so sorry, i don't want to reveal too much detail at the moment but i've just been having a wacky time mentally to put things simply.

in return, have some (extremely) random personal COD headcannons :))

warnings: mentions of mental health disorders (including eating disorders), mentions of religious trauma, mentions of child abuse/childhood trauma, idk just some sad stuff but also way more happy stuff than sad stuff i swear

a/n: reminder that i've never played the game, a lot of the information i have on the characters is from fan created content and a little bit of research and some things could be slightly inaccurate canon wise. also these are once again personal headcanons, you don't have to agree with them, just pls don't be mean :)

anyway, i apologize that there's not that many :(( this is just a short lil list so there's def gonna be some characters missing and such. but i will have more headcanon posts out another time <3

cod headcanons (very random edition)

könig is a farm boy <3

impovershed farmer's child to soldier pipeline is real

also idk why but i feel like his real name is like eduard german spelling of edward or something

2 sisters (1 older, 1 younger but born the same year as him) and a little brother

soap is an ipad kid (i will be taking no criticisms)

ghost probably has borderline personality disorder but because it doesn't present in the way it stereotypically does for borderline men so he is undiagnosed

was audhd undiagnosed until he was 25

bro was baffled

the development of his bpd was both through the abuse and neglect he faced growing up and the trauma that one can experience from being autistic growing up but left undiagnosed

soap has severe adhd

PRICE LISTENS TO DISCO AND CLASSIC ROCK 🗣️ guilty pleasure is 50's love songs and smooth jazz

gaz tried to establish team game nights

regretted his decision after one game night

both ghost and könig are gymbros but in the disordered way

orthorexic könig

an-bp ghost

every one of those mfs has ptsd and/or cptsd

valeria is a radfem (trans inclusive)

gaz secretly likes a few kpop songs from various different groups (he really likes g-idle for some reason)

catholic trauma soap📢

was probably forced to undergo an "exorcism" at one point

also had a scene phase

emo könig :(( <3

ghost wouldn't necessarily label himself goth but he does enjoy quiet a lot of goth music and some of the fashion intrigues him

gaz used to be a roadman😭 absolutely hates admitting it though bc he's embarrassed about it

idk i feel like horangi would listen to ayesha erotica unironically

ghost listens to lana

i could also see könig having bpd as well (this is mostly feeding off of the obsessive/possessive/jealous headcanon the fandom seems to share, though i do have some other reasons i could go into another time)

can i get an amen for he/they könig??

soap jokingly said he wanted to use she/her pronouns too and now ghost wont stop actually using them seriously and soap doesn't want to correct him

ghost is fully aware it was a joke and he just wants to see how long it'll take soap to correct him

141 all have matching tattoos (including kate)

ghost also listens to hollywood undead

valeria's guilty pleasure music is taylor swift's earlier albums

ghost smoked weed in high school

dream blunt rotation is the 141, könig, horangi and valeria

könig's social anxiety really manifests itself as arrogance and sometimes he hates that

könig and soap are actual pyromaniacs

one of könig's favourite movies is howl's moving castle

that's all i can think of for now,, hope y'all enjoyed🫶

if you did pls gimme a like and send an ask if you want to request anything <3

[unrivalling]

"Just When Was Grell Sutcliff Alive?" Part 1: Establishing a Timeline

So as many of you know, I recently got into Black Butler (I know, about 17 years too late), and I'm almost caught up. However, I want to talk about how I'm still thinking about Vol 29 and some of the lore dropping Othello does at the beginning there.

Namely I'm fixated on possibly having a timeline for Grell's human life and death.

This wasn't intended to be a proper meta. It's been too long since I've written one, and there's probably important stuff I'm forgetting or don't know. But I wanted to write all of this down to get it out on the page, for posterity. Then it accidentally became a meta. Oops. Mild BB spoilers up to Vol 29, and heads up for some discussion of historical homophobia, transphobia, and state violence at the end. As well as a canon-typical suicide mention. I use she/her pronouns for Grell, but broadly interpret her as queer and transfeminine given the complexity of talking about identity in the time periods I'll be referencing (I use "queer" as a reclaimed, academic, blanket term). I'm also largely taking a Watsonian approach (Grell's experiences from her perspective), although a Doylist approach to Grell (as in relating to the author's intent and cultural context rather than the character's) is also really interesting one, but feels like more well trodden territory. With that out of the way, let's begin.

The info we have So. Something really interesting happened in Vol 29. We got a lot of great Undertaker backstory, but Othello said something relating to Grell that made me eyes emoji.

"Weren't you around 70 years ago?"

So, she never replies to this. But it seems highly plausible this means Grell was not a reaper 70 years before the current date in the manga. We don't quite know what the lag time is between someone dying and becoming a reaper, but I'm taking this to mean she had not died yet, as I assume she would have remembered an event like the one Othello describes. I believe this is the implication. Now, I am making some assumptions:

- To clarify, I know this is all guesswork. I'm just having fun with different possibilities. - Like I said, we don't know what the lag time is between someone dying and becoming a reaper (as in, the new state of being, not the job), and we don't know how long it takes to go from trainee to collections to senior. - That Grell was around 25 when she died. It's hard to tell anime character ages from 20-40 at a glance, but her design seems similar to me to characters that are in their 20s in other series. She could be older or younger, but I'm using that in lieu of a better option. It's not precise, but it'll get us in the ballpark anyway - Black Butler has a lot of anachronisms. However, Toboso is known to research things heavily and her changes are typically very purposeful (the purpose is usually "Rule of cool" and that's why we stan). I'm assuming historical events happening in BB to mirror the real world except where indicated otherwise. - I'm also assuming she's English. The names Grell and Grelle are both German in origin, but there are a lot of Germanic names in English and Sutcliff as a surname originated in Yorkshire. This is only based on a quick Google search--I could do more later, but this seems in line with Grell not being presented as "foreign" to England in any way in the series making her stand out in the same way her flamboyance or flirtation with men does. Establishing a range

The series takes place in 1888 and 1889. 70 years ago would put Undertaker's defection at 1818. If what Othello says is true, this means Grell became a reaper sometime after that date.

Let's establish the outlier possibilities first (again, assuming a pretty rapid transition from human death to becoming a reaper).

The earliest possible date Grell could have become a reaper: sometime in the following year, around 1819. This would put her birth at around 1794, and her death that year in 1819. This feels unlikely because it seems like she would have been exposed to people talking about Undertaker defecting since it was such a catastrophe, but who knows.

The latest possible date Grell could have become a reaper is 1887, which would place her birth at around 1862. This is massively improbable to the point of being impossible since she's a senior in collections and I assume that didn't happen in a year, but again, it's important for establishing a range. Basically, tldr, according to this framework, Grell became a reaper sometime between 1819 and 1887, which puts her human life (and death) in that timeframe as well. This would place her in the Georgian-Victorian eras, or possibly even the 8 year Regency period.

Will the Reaper OVA I've only talked about the manga so far since the 1st anime canon is wildly divergent in a number of ways, but if we include the Will the Reaper OVA, this would push things towards the earlier end of that timeline. I don't know much about the history of fashion (especially not middle and lower class dress), but it seems distinctly late 1700s/maybe early 1800s to me. Which if I'm reading right, would actually push Grell becoming a reaper back as far as the 1790s or 1810s, and would dispute the 1819 date implied by Vol 29. IF ANYONE KNOWS MORE ABOUT THE FASHION REFERENCES HERE, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO TELL ME. I WANT TO KNOW.

(Baby....Grell...furious and stark raving mad recently dead stray cat making it everyone's problem. I'm fine) This is subverted a little bit by the reaper outfits appearing more like Victorian businesswear, but Reapers always seem to be a few decades ahead of the world in terms of fashion and technology. My personal assessment is that the fashion in this is to make it immediately, visually clear that the OVA takes place in the Georgian rather than Victorian period, however that forces me to break my largely Watsonian approach for a Doylist one ("the animators perhaps decided it was necessary to show that time had passed since the events of the OVA"), but considering it came out so long before the lore drop in Vol 29, who knows.

I'm not inclined to take it as gospel truth for the manga canon, but considering Toboso did collaborate on that one, I think it at least worth talking about and considering as supplemental information.

I personally take this to support (but not solely uphold) the idea that "Grell became a reaper sometime during the Georgian period (1713-1837)", but again, grain of salt.

What would it mean for Grell to be a queer person in England in the 1700s and 1800s?

As far as I'm aware, we don't know anything about what Grell's life might have been like before becoming a reaper. Unless I'm missing something, that's a black box until Toboso reveals more.

But establishing this timeline gives us a great opportunity to consider the circumstances she would have lived under.

Understand that I'm not speaking in absolutes here, more "here are some interesting things I like to think about when considering why this character might be the way she is". I'm also not saying Toboso intended any of this to be read into Grell, but as readers I believe it's reasonable to assume Grell may have encountered these events or they might have impacted her unless stated otherwise. A brief list of things Grell would have been living under or around or could have been aware of. I want to do a part 2 talking about how these things might relate to someone like Grell, as well as talking about other major historical events not directly related to queer people (like, you know, the Napoleonic Wars), but this post is already feeling long enough: - The Buggery Act and the Offenses Against the Person Act, which made a variety of sexual acts punishable by death, including acts like anal sex. These laws were used to persecute people, usually queer men (although people who would today be called trans women and nonbinary people were also certainly prosecuted as well*), particularly in the 1700s and 1800s. I believe as of 1862 it was no longer punishable by death, but people still lived in fear of prison and hard labor (Oscar Wilde going to prison in 1895 being a famous later example). Here's an article about the men killed under the Buggery Act. *Trans men were not exempt from this, even if the specific legal and social threat was likely different. If memory serves, Dr. James Barry was jeopardized by rumors that he may have been Too Close to one of his cis male friends. - Molly houses. Generally considered places in the 1700s and 1800s where queer men gathered to socialize and find sexual partners. There was a lot of gender divergence in these spaces, and it's widely believed they were frequented by people who, again, today, could have a variety of gender identities. This article about molly houses and gender is really interesting. This article specifically talks about one in Whitechapel. - The Chevalier d'Eon. This one is just really interesting. While the Chevalier d'Eon was likely one of the first examples of legally recognized gender transition, this person was very famous and wealthy and the circumstances are buckwild. This video is highly watchable and informative. Grell

As a queer person and someone who likes history (I don't have any specific training, I just like learning about it), I already think a lot about what it must have been like to live during this specific time period, and Grell slots into that pretty well as a character to fixate on, since she dovetails with the other existing hyperfixation. By extension, I like using this information to think about what Grell's human life might have been like, and how those experiences could be aligned to explain a lot of her behavior, and seems especially poignant to me in light of all reapers having been people who committed suicide, another recent lore reveal in the manga. Maybe she lived closeted and lived in fear of discovery. Maybe she wasn't afraid! Maybe she was impulsive and endangered herself and others! Maybe she got blackmailed. What if she experienced her first taste of femininity at a molly house? Does she only go after men who reject her because she lived during a time where her affections being returned was intensely dangerous? Did she care about anyone? Is anyone she knew still alive? Thank you so much to everyone who read to the end! If I'm able to rally, I do want there to be a part 2 to this going more into detail about how it makes sense to me that these homophobic and transphobic societal pressures could have created a character like Grell.

[salvadorbonaparte]

Hallo! I am a native English speaker aber ich lerne auch Deutsch. Apologies if you've already done this somewhere else on your blog, but would you be able to explain what you mean by hin/er/sie pronouns? Is hin a singular gender-neutral pronoun (er hat ein Buch, sie hat ein Buch, hin hat ein Buch) and you're also happy with the gendered er and sie, or are er and sie different forms of hin (like when we say she/her/hers, or maybe in German er/ihn/ihm)? I'm trans myself (he/him) and I love learning about the different ways languages adapt for the needs of trans and nonbinary people but I'm not yet very familiar with trans-inclusive language in German so I'd love to know more.

(Oh and as a secondary question, does German have an equivalent word for "queer" - an inclusive catch-all term for basically everything under the umbrella? I've done a bit of looking but haven't found much good information on that so far)

Anyway danke schön and I hope you're having a good day!

Hello! Also I've seen the addendum and don't worry about the typo.

Hen/hens/hem is a gender neutral pronoun I have seen on a list of options for German once that I really liked and kinda want to make happen (which isn't really working). So I also use other pronouns like er or sie. It's taken from Swedish and germanised which I thought is a great parallel to how English got some pronouns from Old Norse (like she actually). I do have a longer post about this somewhere but I'll have to dig it up once I'm home. Please remind me in a couple days!!

Yeah we literally have the word "queer". I'm not sure when people started using it but it's been around for a long while and because it's not a slur in German (while the terms for gay and homosexual have been used more derogatory) it's actually a lot more neutral and accepted here.

[viking-writing]

Hallo hallo!💕 HAPPY NEW YEARS/GODT NYTTÅR!🎉

I'm planning on getting the first fic in my Rammstein AU fic series done in 2024! Hopefully before the end of January as that is Rammsteins 30th anniversary-month (Or so I've been told?) but 2024 is their anniversary year anyway so I'll be done long before the end of this year with the first fic in the series! 😁

@marimayscarlett you need to help me with some of the german so you get to read all the chapters before everyone else! ^^

Here is a sneak peak on some of my OC's.

I've actually found at least one of them on "thispersondoesnotexist.com" and it was surreal how the looks matched so perfectly with how I visioned him in my head. Especially considering how the page just makes random AI persons every single time you refresh. I even ended up finding TWO pictures of him (the two fake men look nearly identical and it was beyond perfect for how I visioned him!)

I'll save the "realistic pictures" for some other time. Instead enjoy some piccrew avatars I made of some of my OC's (with some added facts. Warning; this is a long read so if you don't bother you can just look at the avatars instead)

Name: Cornelia Francesca (II/the 2nd.). However she prefers to only go by "Cornelia" or "Nelia" for short.

Gender: Cis woman

Pronouns: She/Her

Sexuality: Pansexual

Nationality: That depends on what you lay in the meaning "nationality" (She is mostly German by blood but she was born and grew up in France.)

Facial features: Very pale skin (her veins are mostly visible) and her face is heartshaped. She considers her chin to be "too long and sharp-pointed" and with her big dark- blue, doll-like eyes and blonde curly locks she is often underrestimated or "sweet-talked". Her brows are Blonde/white/nearly "invisible", and her upper lip is slightly bigger than her lower lip, which sometimes could be mistaken for a "frowning pout". Furthermore her lips has no cupids bow. Lastly she "wishes she could have had freckles or beauty marks" as she "finds such to be very unique and beautiful."

Body type: She is tall and has an Hour glass figure. She is naturally heavy chested while her waist is small both by birth and "by the aid of corsets."

Piercings and tattoos: None. Trying to pierce a hole into her would "be a waste of time."

Diet: Vegetarian (mostly). She doesn't mind eating eggs or drinking milk as long as its from trusted farms.

Musical taste: Her taste in music is vast and consist of any genre, from any decade. She doesn't have any favorite band or artist in particular as she doesn't like to place any artist or band "up on a pedestal" as they are "all to be considered talented and should therefore all be equally appreciated".

Fashion sense: Anything from disorted jeans to long ruffled lace skirts. Her most "outraged/scandalous" fashion statement are probably the times when she likes to adjust/modify her corsets so they would fit over jeans and t-shirts. However she doesn't like bold prints or too strong colors, except deep blue or deep red. She wish she could have earrings but as already mentioned: piercing her ears would be a waste of time. She likes wearing necklaces that are simple and not too flashy: anything from simple stone pendants to single colored heavy laced chokers though as for pearls, she has "always found them too mature looking."

Name: Bas (He thinks his mother gave him way too many names, so he prefers to only use the first one.)

Gender: Cis man

Pronouns: He/Him (but he won't correct you if you say they/them.)

Sexuality: Asexual & Aromantic He thinks Romance is ok in movies and books...but "in real life he is good with having family and friends!"

Nationality: The Republic of the Congo.

Skin color: Black "and beautiful" as he would usually say.

Facial features: A rounded face. Bald head he lost his hair due to "some hair...disease?" He doesn't remember what it was called, and "he doesn't really care. Without hair it's easier for him to get ready in the morning and then he can have plenty of time to do fun things!". His nose is wide and short with wide nostrils. He really likes his nose, and the rest of his face! His facial hair is usually scruffy or cleaned shaved. He "tried to grow a moustache, once....and it turned out all patchy so he never wants to do it again!". He has black/dark brown puppy- eyes which according to him means he can "get whatever he wants? No he is probably too old for that trick!" . His eyes have dark circles and a few wrinkles under them but he knows that "in his age being tired is a cool lifestyle, so the dark circles are matching great!".

Body Type: A little on the heavier side with a little portruding tummy, which is alright! He is "exactly how he wants to be and no one can tell him otherwise!"

Piercings and tattoos: Both of his ear lobes are pierced with a metal/silvery earring. He wish he could get tattoos but thinks he "probably wouldn't tolerate that much pain over such a long period of time."

Diet: "Anything goes." He thinks "pasta is boring unless you add some mushroom, a hearty meat sauce and spinach." He thinks "seafood is alright. Shrimps are very good" but to him "nothing beats a well done burger and salty fries!" He thinks that chickens tastes good but that "the source material looks messed up when it runs around and has feathers on it." Basically he thinks all birds are scary and that they "should stay as far away from him as possible!"

Favorite type of music: Bas likes most music but claims that Opera "is the worst." He also thinks that lyrical Jazz that is "too upbeat" sounds "weird and too loud/too confusing." Slow, Classical or electronic music is wonderful if he "wants to relax." He doesn't really appreciate Reggea music too much although "Mark" (Markus) has tried his best to show him "the beauty of it." Soul music is ok, but can get a bit too "screamy/naggy" after a while...

Fashion sense: He loves to wear colorful t- shirts, matched up with a well used, black suit jacket or black, wool coat jacket. Nearly all of his shirts has mostly either vibrant colors or has a cool pattern on them. But it has to be a pattern that is "repetitive and isn't too overwelming". According to himself he "probably doesn't own a single pair of suit pants." In addition to the colorful t-shirts and hoodies; dark or standard colored jeans, comfy shorts and sweatpants is what he "prefers to live in, depending on the season." A hat, preferably a cap worn the "correct way and not backwards" is a "must to protect his head from being burned". He loves colorful hoodies and brown or red scarfs. He doesn't like to wear beanies, because he thinks it "makes him look like the stereotypical black burglar/rapper guy". As for jewelry he doesn't bother to wear any except for the wrist watch he got from his dad, and his standard black or silvery gray earrings. He thinks goldchains are "super corny and he wouldn't be caught dead or alive wearing one! Not even if someone paid him!" As for shoes; regular short laced up leather boots are "easy to wear and they go with anything". Either that or he likes to wear black sneakers, as white sneakers, according to him "would again make him look too much of a rapper guy or some kid trying to impress someone".

Name: Markus E. Weiss and "please don't ever call him "Mark" or "Markie" or any other shortened nicknames as he doesn't appreciate that".

Gender: Male. He says he "doesn't understand the meaning or the need for the word cis. " He also says he "won't understand what 'being trans' means." Hopefully he can be thought otherwise.

Pronouns: He/Him

Sexuality: Straight

Nationality: West-German (the former GDR)

Skin color: White

Facial features: He thinks his face is pretty average and oval shaped, especially for "a man in his age". He has a slightly rounded, slightly pointed chin. His blue medium big, slightly down-turned eyes is for the most part behind a pair of silvery steel, squared shaped glasses. He has been told he has very "kind but sad looking eyes". His brown hair that has "gotten lighter with age", is sually sleeked back without any shaved sides. His hair tends to get very wavy the day after he has showered. His nose is slightly downturned with a slightly narrow- rounded tip and he thinks it looks "pretty average just like most of his face". He has pretty straight teeth except for one upper tooth off to the side that is a little shorter than the rest. His ears are a little portruding. His lips are thin, and it makes him look very mischeavious whenever he is lightly smiling.

Body type: "Asymmetrical" and he is "too embarrassed to tell you how/why". Although he believes he is "quite fit for a man of his age he "knows its only a question of time before he gets thinner or gets a belly/tummy just like most men his age if they don't regularly work out".

Piercings and tattoos: None. Because he thinks that "such things doesn't look right. Except for earrings", but for him earrings "belong in the past with his long hair and big sunglasses."

Diet: What he is being served, which is mostly vegetarian food now...unless "there is a special delivery that contains meat in it". He doesn't drink alcohol. He likes a good stew or "anything that is homemade with lots of love and tradition" but all in all he "isn't really picky on trying out new types of food".

Favorite type of music: He mostly listens to classic rock, or 80's rock, although "Soul and Reggea with a meaning has the sound that makes the world go around." He thinks Patti Smith, Pat Benatar and Annie Lennox are "very underrated." Some of his favorite artists includes Patti Smith, Queen, The Doors, David Bowie, The Ramones and The Rolling Stones. He "doesn't really care that much for hip hop, but they are talented in singing fast/rapping, but it just isn't what he would listen to".

Fashion sense: He mostly wears his uniform. Sometimes he wears the black turtle neck without the gray uniform jacket, and pairs this with the gray or navy blue uniform pants or black suit pants. He "probably doesn't own more than one pair of jeans but he swears that velvet bell-bottom pants were everything when he was younger!" He likes to sleep in black or dark gray sweat pants paired with old washed out band t-shirts or single colored (dark blue, white, dark gray or black) long-sleeves. When he is at work he has a silver pocket watch attached to his suitjacket or fastened by the hip at the belt of his suit/uniform pants. He thinks its "practical that the watch can be attached to the belt if it becomes too hot to wear the uniform jacket".)

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That was some of the characters , but I'm also adding a little bonus. Richard Z Kay in a fancy halloween costume/sexy vampire bat-costume! I swear this character is always so extra. It's funny how real-life Richard Kruspe is one of my least favorite Rammstein member, but in my fic series he is actually one of my favorite characters and I am going to defend him at any cost! I honestly wish he was real and that we could hang out not just "in my head/imagination".

Name: Richard Zee Kay/ RZK/Richard Z. Kruspe/Richard Zven/Sven Kruspe Landers. (The list could be endless for a diva like him!)

Gender: male, bclaims that "sometimes he is a whole gender for himself that should NOT be messed with and always have his way or isn't "diva" considered a gender?"

Pronouns: He/him/"Katchen/Fab/Herr Fab/Frau Fab/Divalicious😘".

Sexuality: PAULsexual ❤ ("it's ok to be GAY"/fab-sexual)

Nationality: West Germany (former West-Berlin.)

Skin color: White or fake/real tan

Facial features: A very sharp jawline and a sharp chin, that he hates as it "looks way too masculine". He has ususally "neatly plucked brows". His eyes are big and blue but slightly downturned. His hair is naturally brown and thick/wavy but he used to have "awful blonde dreadlocks which wasn't his choice by the way". Nowadays (at the beginning of the story) he mostly keeps his hair short and dyes it black and "unlike your neighbour or your aunt he is a master colorist and knows EXACTLY what he is doing!" He has according to his husband Paul and his best friend Thalia a "charming, slightly boy-ish smile especially after he had his teeth properly cleaned and fixed". Another thing that Thalia and Paul has told him is that "his face is really expressive, especially when he disprooves/shows a disgust or confusion about something". He doesn't like his own nose as "it could have been a lot shorter" but his husband Paul has claimed that "that would probably make him look like Michael Jackson AFTER plastic surgery" so Richard slowly accepted the nose that "the universe gave him." He has thin lips, but according to him, his husband Paul "has never complained...if ya know what he means? 😉"

Body type: Richard "used to be a twink-teen in the 80's and early 90's (he was born in 1973 in my fic series) but has bulked up A LOT since then! 💪" He now (at the beginning of the story) has a strong v-shaped back with back-dimples something Paul seemingly "knows to take advantage of 😉" According to Paul, Richard's broad upper body is "both a turn on and an odd threat". Richard would now describe himself as "a friendly but bossy hunk with an ass that is bigger, more perfect and more plump than yours will ever be!". Further he claims that he "takes great pride in keeping his ass that way" and that "it's reserved for Paul H. Landers anygays so don't you even bother!". Richard describes his chest as "more amazing than whatever cleavage you will ever have." Further he says that "unfortunally he wasn't given a big dick that would match his big attitude", but he also tries to remind himself about how Paul always tells him that he "has a beautiful penis/Schwanz...just the way it is". In other words: Richard's below average dick size doesn't affect his self esteem "as much as it used to before he met Paul" and he claims "he owes this to his wonderful husband who loves him as him ❤".

Diet: "Anything goes as long as HE or any other professionally trained chef has prepared the food, because he used to be a chef before he became a hair stylist and master colorist". He claims that the reason for why he quit as a chef was "as much as he loved making food, it got too warm and stressful in the restaurant-kitchen and that just spiked his anxiety to the max!"). He prefers pasta or pizza and "didn't like soups at first but Paul convinced him and now he is hooked on all kinds of soups just as much as his husband!" He tries to eat as much proteins as he can "without chugging down on protein shakes, and actually if he can avoid having to drink those nasty shakes again and still get bulked up nicely, then that would be perfect!"

Piercings/tattoos: He "used to rock a belly button after he first started dating Paul but it rejected, and yes he is still upset by that." As for jewelry he first "shared one of Paul's silvery or black earrings and thought it was cute that they could wear one, each, until Paul began to nag on him to get it back for the sake of symmetry". Which "gave him the push to save money for another hole in the 2nd ear and finally buy his own earrings". Other than that he has been thinking about "getting a tongue piercing or a brow piercing" and although Paul seems to be "very supportive of the tongue piercing, he thinks Richard first needs to decide an actual SHAPE of his brow before he gets it pierced so sadly it never happened". As for tattoos, Richard doesn't have any but he claims that for a short time he "dead-seriously wanted to have 'Property of Paul L.' or 'Property of Heiko' (Paul's birth name.)" tattooed above his ass, but "Paul talked him out of it". He has also thought about getting a tattoo of a guitar on his wrist or shoulder that would "symbolize that his husband used to be a punk guitarist in a band in the 80's and early 90's". Another tattoo that Richard is still considering is "cool, diagonally aligned black stars on both of his hips."

Favorite type of music: "Paul's moans, laughter and guitar riffs🥰"... KISS. Scorpions. Firehouse "just to mention a few". He says he "loves to listen to any brutal Death Metal song, anything by Nine Inch Nails, Feeling B, Depeche Mode, The Ramones, The Sex Pistols or Danzig whenever he is jogging or lifting weights." He claims to have "always been a fan of 80's and 90's synth pop, goth, and punk and swears that his favorite punk band now is Feeling B" which was Paul's former band who disbanded sometime in the early 90's, but with a last concert in the early 00's. Some other of Richard's favorite bands/artists includes Sisters of Mercy. The Mission. London After Midnight. The Lords of The Church. Death. The Misfits. The Clash.Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds. Tool. Slayer. Kreator. DIO. Lamb of God. Accept. White Snake. Nazareth. Meshugga... but "the list could go on and on but it's mostly guys with deep and kinda depressive voices.. " After he started dating Paul, Richard got into David Bowie and the industrial metal band Hindenburg" (although in your universe/the real world, they are known as Rammstein) while Thalia got him into liking Eisbrecher and darker techno.

Fashion sense: "The best!💋" according to himself; no matter what Paul, Thalia or anyone else tells him.

[doughbrainer]

Late Night Phone Calls

Okay, Yeah, I Know This Isn't Sanders Sides And It's Not A Sanders Sides OC Either, It's Just I Watched Despicable Me 4 Recently And Now I'm Gettining Into The Movies 😅 BUT DON'T FEAR, I WILL CONTINUE DRAWING SANDERS SIDES >:) Especially When The Next Official Episode Comes Out Is Supposed To Be Soon 👀 BUT ANYWAYS, Let Me Explain Who This

This Is (One Of) My Despicable Me OC,

Her Name Is Opal Rosie Schultz, She Went To Lycée Pas Bon Highschool With Bratt And Is His Love Interest. When She Was Younger, She Was Primarily An Child Actor That Was Also Known For Her Lovely Singing Voice, But With The Influence Of Bratt's Show, She Had Aspirations To Be A Villain. She Did Eventually Become A Villain As An Adult But She Lives A Double Life As A Singer As Well, At The Same Time Being A Parent Also. She Uses Her First Name "Opal" For Her Singing Career And Her Middle Name "Rosie" For Her Villain Career. She Has Three Kids To Another OC Of Mine, Known As Slit, Another Villain That Went To Highschool With Her And Bratt. She Has A Burning Hatred For. Most Of Her Villainy Consist Of Her Stealing But She Hasn't Made Any Big Plans That Involve Destruction. On Another Note, She's German. Her Parents Are German Immigrants With Notably Thick German Accents, But She Speaks With An American Accent. She's Very Tall, Coming Up To Over 7 Feet. Her Oldest Child, Jasper, Comes Up To Exact 7"0 But Her Other Two Kids Do Not Have This Gene And Remain Around Average Height.

Full Name: Opal Rosie Schultz

Pronouns: She/Her

Gender: Cisgender Woman

Sexuality: Bisexual

Birthday: 6th Of August, 1973

Zodiacs: Leo, Year Of The Ox

Nationality: German, American Accent

Height: 7"6 (228 Cm)

Voice Claim: Alex Vause, From Orange Is The New Black

This Depication Is Specifically Her As A Teen, Around 16 Or 17 Years Old.

CREDIT TO SLEEPIESTORM ON TIKTOK FOR BASE, Bases Used For Feet Are Free Bases That Come With Ibis Paint.

[crplpunkklavier]

inquiring learners are curious, what form of "you" (in german) is most commonly used in an online context? and does this differ from which one you'd choose to use in similar irl situations? you don't have to answer if you don't want to ofc, but you struck me as someone to ask!

hellooo, happy to be asked! <3

it's mostly "du," since online contexts tend to be informal. the only times i've seen people use "Sie" online was like, people @ing politicians on twitter, and even then it reads kind of dorky to me. it's the internet! being formal feels weird here.

so the online spaces i dwell in where i actually speak german are mostly the local kink community, my handful of german friends in discord, and my university, which is 100% online too. the first two of those are always "du." anyone who asks you to use "Sie" for them unprompted on the internet is a freak. either that, or you're browsing a very specific part of fetlife.

(honestly even among german doms it's super rare that anyone wants to be called "Sie." it's like a business thing. it's not sexy. some people demand it but idk how any sub even puts up with that without laughing. anyway moving on)

in my university context it's a bit different. i don't use "Sie" for classmates, although i've seen others do it. there is a big age range in my classes, so people tend to want to make sure and use "Sie" in case they're speaking to someone older than them and stuff. i don't. man, we're all classmates, whatever. the only context i use "Sie" for online is when i email my professors.

i'd say this is all pretty much the same as we'd do irl. there is definitely more of an informal tendency toward "du" online, but mostly the situations are the same. i didn't siez my classmates when i still went to a face to face university either. but that might just be because i'm really cool.

ok lastly i wanna share one of my favorite anecdotes.

so my university as mentioned is 100% online, and has been for years. it's not a covid thing, it's just a genuine distance university. as such, it's doing pretty well with its digital program (most other unis here in germany don't lol our infrastructure is awful) and a couple semesters ago, my bachelors program jumped on the discord hub train and opened a server. i'm not in there anymore, but when i was, many of the users there were smartly putting their pronouns behind their nicknames in parantheses. most of the people doing that used she/her, so since this was a german server, you would very often see "Name (sie/ihr)". as a refresher: the german "feminine" pronoun she is sie, lowercase. the formal you is Sie, upper case. now there were also a lot of people in that server who were completely unfamiliar with the concept of listing your pronouns. and, clearly, those people thought that there were several students in this fucking Discord Server who wanted to be addressed formally, In Discord. and in response, those people listed their names like this: "Name (du)" still makes me laugh. god bless you, cis people. keep trying

[khaleesiofalicante]

hi daniiiii <3

how are you? i hope you're doing good.

first of all a 22k chapter?? you're really doing the gods work huh. it's very very appreciated. and also the single dads au had me giggling and kicking my feet IT WAS SO CUTE OMFG.

it's exam season again at my school. french and german this week, maths and english in the next. and believe me, i've never analyzed so many poems in the span of three days ew ew ew

(which is why i couldn't help noticing that 'french fucker' is a beautiful alliteration. true art.)

Nah but even with all these exams, I'm suprisingly chill. I've just recently distanced myself from a friend who has become extremely toxic over the years. She fetishizes queer men, has no regard for the rest of the community cause she's cishet, made shit comments about my therapy journey, said the n-word (she's not black) and constantly misgenders and deadnames a good friend of ours.

His name is Milo, they use he/they pronouns and they're a wonderful person. He came out a few weeks ago. And some slip-ups are acceptable and normal, as long as you learn and apologize. I mean, you can just practice pronouns if you're having problems. On paper. It takes no effort at all. But my friend even makes jokes about deadnaming them and doesn't respect him at all. I've known her for a very long time, so distancing myself was really difficult, but I just feel more free now. I met a lot of new people who are really good for me, so good riddance to her. We still talk, but I just can't be as close to her as I once was.

anyways my whole inner friend circle now consists of queer people. we really come in packs don't we 😬

so yeah that was me rambling hehe <3

SO MANY EXAMS! I hope you are keeping well 🥺

I'm glad to hear that you are handling it well. Life gets surprisingly chill after you cut off toxic people from it.

I had a very similar experience where one of my closest friends turned out to be transphobic (and racist?). I was so surprised to see that I didn't notice it before - or maybe I thought 'it was a joke'. But then it got to a point where it was absolutely unacceptable and I cut him out and honestly I have zero regrets.

I'm so proud of you for doing this. It's always harder to set boundaries and call out people we're close to and friends with. But those are the most important ones to call out. Because when we don't, we become complicit in their awful behavior.

I'm proud of you! Really!

PS - My inner circle is also a bunch of queer hoes. I wouldn't trade them for anything.

GOOD FOR US, ROSA!

Good luck with the rest of the exams 🤍

[superman--yoosung]

hi your matchups say they're still open, i hope this it okkk!! i'm 🐇

• i have no preference towards gender but i don't like super masculine characters

• i don't really use pronouns but she/her, ver/vers, it/its are ok. fem presenting but with androgynous swag. beautiful in a girlprince way

• adult character from genshin! only recently turned 18 though haha. no tighnari or childe pls!

• i loove fashion (designing it, studying it, wearing it), idols, rabbits and deer, sewing outfits + plush dolls and creaching around at night. i haate loud, messy people and lots of textures (i'm autistic). i hate the sunlight! terrified of dogs IRL but i'd be a collie or black german shepherd.

• i'm mostly quiet (INTP), i have no control over my tone/filter so i get people saying they thought i hate them/i look angry a lot. air-headed, very low attention-span and "bimbo" tier. clumsy most of time/i dont look at what im doing. i love acting valley girl or like a malnourished bimbo (idk). i'm like a dog with the personality of a cat. beliefs.. don't be a freak idk .. don't kill ppl and i will be judgmental if i don't like your vibes.

• i think i'd have electro vision just because i get it a lot on quizzes. i also connect to it the most aesthetically. id love a sword and id have a vv elegant/pretty fighting style ..

• personal flaw erm there's zero connection between my brain and mouth so i can't really communicate much of my real feelings (esp affection). i also struggle to connect with ppl!! i'm mostly disconnected 90% of the time so it's very hard to truly love (romantically or platonically) someone for me!

• i'm 162cm... vampire to the extreme i'm 100% a vampire if im in genshin.. very strict on skincare and how i look (sensitivity issues). OR half-deer.. or half-rabbit.. My personal aesthetic is ouji/lolita, victorian/gothic themes of Black Butler and The girl from the other side.. Dark fantasy/dark academia.. LOL

i'm TERRIBLE at giving affection and words of affirmation. i love words of affirmation though and i realllly jus want someone equally as love with me/if not more

Hello 🐇, nice to meet you!! Your matchup was challenging because I kept doubting my choices, thinking, "Wouldn't this or that character's design be a texture/sensory nightmare, though??" which is a really silly thing for me to get caught up in, of all the many factors involved. (But in my defense, all the characters have SO MUCH going on in their outfits haha!!)

Your matchup is.............................

KAZUHA !!

Meeting under the cloak of darkness once or twice could merely be considered coincidence... By the fifth time, however, Kazuha was certain: it was fate that continued to bring the two of you together.

To those unfamiliar with the elusive duo, a relationship such as yours might seem threadbare - after all, since you only made your appearance when the moon was at its highest, and Kazuha drifted from place to place like a leaf in the wind, it seemed unlikely that you would ever cross paths in important ways. But you both knew differently. Naturally, even the smallest of actions, a singular drop in a pool of water, becomes a ripple whose rings inevitably grow in meaningful ways.

This is how Kazuha views your relationship: subtle, and all the more beautiful for it.

Fun details:

It will not take too many meetings for Kazuha to find you endearing. He's observant, so the nuances of your interactions will linger in his mind long after you've left. He'll enjoy learning about you and your mannerisms! He will always be respectful of your boundaries, too - and with his sharp mind, he can often tell if you're bothered without you having to verbalize it. (He'll ask, anyways, though, just to be sure.)

Kazuha admires your abilities and passion in subjects you enjoy. Many of the evenings you spend beneath the moonlight or on cloudy days are filled with discussions that jump from topic to topic, sharing your interests with one another. Kazuha is an eager listener, so feel free to share your passions to your heart's content! He will remember most every word. But when you're feeling quiet or have nothing to share, he can fill the silence with his charming words - though quiet companionship is also enough, too.

Of course, he knows how clumsy you can be, but as long as he's around, the wind will keep you steady on your feet. If you're comfortable with physical touch, he'll reach out to balance you, or let you hold onto him. If not, he'll do his best to verbally warn you of any uneven terrain or obstacles in your path you haven't noticed.

You two are THE definition of elegance in battle. Kazuha can swirl your electro abilities, making potent reactions. And as sword users, you can both keep your skills sharp by practicing together!

If you ever give Kazuha one of your creations, it will almost instantly become one of his most treasured posessions. He will do his best to keep it safe from harm on his journeys - though the wear and tear clothing might get from constant use is, in a way, a sign of how much he loves it. (Please forgive him if the clothes or plushies do see some light damage, though; the mercenary life is not always kind.)

Once you've become closer, Kazuha will bring you gifts from his travels. They're mostly small things that remind him of you: a carving of a rabbit, some medicine for your most recent clumsy tumble's resulting scratches, a paper umbrella from Liyue to help block out the sun. Whatever he sees that he thinks would interest you or that you might find use for in your day-to-day life, he'll get. If you dislike any of them, he takes no offense to that, either - he'll quietly store the details of what you disliked about it in his mind for reference the next time he gets you something.

You want words of affirmation? Oh, boy, does he provide! It's actually rarer for him to not slip a compliment or reassurance into your conversations. He'll take any chance he can to remind you of how much he treasures your company, and should you decide to pursue a romantic relationship with him, how much he delights in giving you affection (and being the recipient of yours, in whatever ways you deign to give it.)

He will write the most stunning of poems with you in mind, string dozens of haikus together with your name as inspiration. And, in the quiet company of only you and the moon, he'll whisper words of devotion, of loyalty and hope.

Kazuha, if asked to point to the one thing he loves most about you, will laugh at the inquiry, shaking his head. How can one point to a cloud in the sky and call it superior to the others around it? Kazuha thinks all of the things that make you unique are inseparably what he loves you for. To ask him to pick one is to ask the impossible of him. Still, if it was you who pressed him for an answer, he might relent, and tell you this: your very presence, right here beside him under the nighttime tapestry of midnight blue and flickering stars, gives him a sense of belonging, makes him think that - yes - there are things far greater than a life of wandering... and they can all be found within the depths of your eyes.

~~I feel like many writers default to Albedo when someone mentions difficulty expressing emotions, and while I do love him for you too (for other reasons), I thought Kazuha would be better with words of affirmation and understanding what you may leave unspoken. I almost went with Rosaria or Yelan, also, as you both could be creatures of the night together (lol), but I hope this matchup is satisfactory!

[kuschelkissen]

The urge to "woke-ify*" rewrite my old stories and OCs...

*as in adding some queer relationships, getting a bit more diverse with body types and skin colours, etc...

Just me rambling and trying to sort my thoughts, probably long post, so... under cut. Feel free to scroll past, it's mostly for me anyway.

So... when I was about 20 years younger, I wrote this story about a group of 8 teenagers going on your average fantasy journey to find a magical item to destroy The Bad Guy (TM), and in the end, I had 4 (straight) couples. 5 if I include the random side characters along the way.

Aaand they all... well. I was a teenager in a predominantly white town in Germany (there was one black girl in the entire school and a few muslims that were tad darker than the rest of us, if at all), my main interest were anime and let's just say, the characters reflect that.

Old, old art:

Over time, I did some redesigns here and there, giving my green haired elf some actual useful armour, for example, and darkening the skin of some of the characters a bit, too, even if not significantly.

The other day I thought I'd try to play around with some body types, wondering where I could go with this crew. It was more playing around with 3D models in Clip Studio, because I was too tired to look for actual references, so don't judge these sketches, they are merely a base idea for me to work with than anything else... (plus it's digital and I just... I can't. Idk why but I just can't work digitally =__=)

Looking at these now with not tired eyes and mind I'm like... yeah, this has lots of room for improvement, lol. But I have a clear vision in mind, we will see if I can manage to bring that down to paper! (Wish me luck).

Apart from the appearances, I kinda want to go into their dynamics/relationships.

I think, my green haired elf girl (Alayses) would probably end up nonbinary if I wrote her today. She got mistaken as a guy more than once (... as far as I remember. It's been a while lol) and I always wanted her to have an androgynous look (though I never really succeeded with that). If I go this route, I'll have to have a deeper look into German neo pronouns, which will be a whole different problem.

I probably won't tear apart all the couples, because I just love too many of them. But... >_> I guess <_< I'll make a "Fanfavourite*" canon.

*as in... my friends from school who used to read my shitty stories and came up with side-ships lol. It's a bit sad that I barely have contact with any of them anymore, would love to see their reactions.

I mean... I even DREW them together for one of my friends. Can as well just make it canon.

And these two already had something going on in my head back then lol sadly they were just side characters and one of them is dead oops.

Apart from that, Tari will probably end up alone or maybe dead, and Leera... who knows, maybe she elopes with one of the side characters (or ends up alone, too, like she originally should have.)

The thing about all of this is...

IF I go this route, I'll have to rewrite everything. Which probably won't happen for a long time, so it will be all in my head once again.

I wish I could go back to having all that freetime I had when I was younger... freetime and energy, but alas...

[cuties-in-codices]

@fenhop YES i've run into several of them :) i'm glad you asked bc i was also very perplexed by the fact that i couldn't find any information on it anywhere (online), except for a brief mention in this short medium article. which is why i also can't really provide any context, i can only share the images i've got.

all of the following illustrations depict the constellation of andromeda and are therefore found in astronomical texts. i'll start with the clearly androgynous/hermaphroditic ones, where the corresponding texts as far as i can tell always label andromeda as female ("daughter", she/her pronouns), but also explicitly describe her half-male/half-female physiology.

sources (in order): 1 ) a copy of the "liber quatuor distinctionum" by michael scot, within an astronomical-astrological miscellany, middle rhine region, c. 1445. Berlin, Staatsbibliothek, Ms. germ. fol. 244, fol. 66v // 2) a copy of "von den 36 sternbildern nach michael scotus" ("on the 36 constellations according to michael scot"), within the "heidelberger schicksalsbuch", regensburg, after 1491. Heidelberg, Universitätsbibliothek, Cod. Pal. germ. 832, fol. 86r // 3) another copy of the "liber quatuor distinctionum" by michael scot, within an astronomical-astrological miscellany, middle german, late 15th c. Vienna, Österr. Nationalbibl., Cod. 5442, fol. 121v. // 4) printed edition of mythographus hyginus: "astronomica", venice, 1485. Munich, BSB, 4 Inc.c.a. 415, 28r // 5) "kalendarius teütsch maister joannis küngspergers", printed book, augsburg, 1512. Dresden, SLUB, Astron.190,misc.1, p. 86

neat, aren't they? lots of gender stuff going on. anyways, those were all of the androgynous/hermaphroditic depictions of andromeda i could find. interestingly enough, there is simultaneously a tradition of astronomical manuscripts depicting andromeda as a man (with the texts often using he/him pronouns, and the illustrations lacking markers of femininity). here are some of those "binary male andromedas":

sources (in order): 1) astronomical-astrological miscellany, alsace, 15th c. Vatican, Biblioteca Apostolica Vaticana, Pal. lat. 1370, fol. 91v // 2) a copy of "die 36 weiteren sternbilder (nach ptolemeus)", within an astronomical-astrological miscellany, swiss-german, c. 1401. Darmstadt, Universitäts- und Landesbibliothek, Hs 266, 15r // 3) a copy of the "liber quatuor distinctionum", within an astronomical-astrological miscellany, southern germany, c. 1450 - 1475. New York, The Morgan Library & Museum, MS M.384, 216r. // 4) astronomical-astrological miscellany, s. l. (unknown place of origin), c. 1490-1493. Freiburg i. Br., Universitätsbibliothek, Hs. 458, 113v. // 5) "liber quatuor distinctionum", within an astrological-mantic miscellany, allemanic, c. 1490. Paris, Bibliothèque nationale de France, ms. allem. 106, 208r. // 6) liber quatuor distinctionum, alsace, mid-15th c. Karlsruhe, Landesbibl., Cod. K 2790, 157v

meanwhile, the same motif also exists showing a "binary female andromeda". here are just two examples:

sources: 1) "48 sternbilder nach ptolomaeus" (within an astronomical-astrological miscellany), southern germany, mid-15th c. Vatican, Biblioteca Apostolica Vaticana, Pal. lat. 1369, fol. 149r // 2) in "die 36 sternbilder", within an astrological miscellany ('tübinger hausbuch'), germany, mid-15th c. Tübingen, Universitätsbibl., Md 2, fol. 315r

(at first i was wondering whether the andromeda in the "tübinger hausbuch" (the second one) is drawn with a beard? i kind of ruled that out though after comparing it to the way other female figures are drawn in the same manuscript. they all seem to have those red shadings in their face. plus, it would be a very atypical depiction of the hermaphroditic andromeda type.)

so yeah. why does the "hermaphroditic" andromeda exist? and why do some medieval texts think of andromeda as a man? i don't know! my unscientific guess would be that there's some general confusion going on in regards to andromeda's gender, which might have led to the idea of a half-male/half-female andromeda, but i might be wrong.

what i can add, in case anybody wants to dive deeper into this, is that most of the illustrations shown above appear in texts attributed to michael scot/michael scotus (1175 – c. 1232), in particular german translations of his liber quatuor distinctionum, but that's about all i can say about that. i disproportionately go through collections of german libraries and use databases relating to german manuscripts (like the KdiH or the handschriftencensus), so i don't know if the "hermaphrodtic" andromeda is a phenomenon confined to german-speaking regions or not. i should also add that i can read some of the text in the manuscripts, but not all of it, so there might be some crucial information right in front of me that i'm missing!

if i got anything wrong feel free to correct me :) or if any of you know more about this iconography, of course!

andromeda

in an astronomical-astrological miscellany, bavaria, late 15th c.

source: Coburg, Landesbibl., Ms. 5, fol. 87r

[peppermintbutch]

feeling gender affirmative rn yes I am a woman (in the way that I was not a girl) yes I am a man (in the way that I was) yes I am something completely incomprehensibly different and separate from that etc. I love being nonbinary everyone should try it. I am Mr Dyke. I am an uncle an aunt a grandfather a son and daughter a sir... also if anyone calls me a gendered term I will rip them apart !

[peach-and-bugs]

💚Martha My Love, Martha My Dear - Abby Anderson x Gen!Reader (they/them pronouns)💚

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Summary: Abby's always liked animals, dogs especially. But this love turns into something similar to worry around smaller creatures, especially the newborn puppies that y/n works with every day. She loves visiting y/n during her off time, but that worried feeling always sets in. it must be because of the puppies, right?

Warnings: minor mention of blood (dog just gave birth to puppies, but other than a little bit of blood nothing graphic)

Word Count: 2, 898

A/N: hello lovelies! so, I went a little MIA but that's because I'm getting ready to move into my freshman dorm in two weeks and my mental health has to come first. it's been an extremely anxiety-inducing time and writing just can't be a priority right now. so, I'll probably be missing for a little while, but once I've settled in and have the time, I can assure you I'll be back to work! I love writing for you all and it brings me so much joy. but besides that, here's something for Abby! I absolutely adore ms. Abby Anderson, but it didn't really occur to me till recently that I could write for her, yet here we are. anyways, I'll let y'all get to reading and as always, feel free to leave questions or comments in my comments or ask box, and happy reading! 💚

Abby Anderson Tag List:

General Tag List: @summergeezburr

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Abby walked with her team, her hand firmly wrapped ‘round a dog leash connected to the german shepherd mute that had come along for their patrol. She watched as her group began to disperse through the base, disappearing to wash up. Owen stayed beside her and nudged the blond with his elbow. 

“Want me to take Pyro back?” he asked, gesturing to the slobbering dog at Abby’s hip. She glanced down at the dog, with his wide grin and panting tongue, and smiled, shaking her head. 

“I’ve got him,” Owen arched a brow ans smirked knowingly. 

“Need an excuse to see ‘you know who?’” he asked with a burning smugness in his voice. Abby tensed but made no inclination to acknowledge his suggestion. She knew exactly what he ment and hated that he’s caught on, but no way in hell was she going to let on that he was right. The satisfaction would eat into his ego too much. 

“As I said, I’ve got it,” it was pretty clear she’d failed to disclose her true motivation and left Owen before he had time to gloat. So what if she was going to see you? She liked your company was all. Was there something wrong with that? Pyro could feel her discouragement and offered comfort by licking Abby’s tightening hand. This pulled her from her spiraling head and a relaxed smile found her lips once more. 

The dog at her hip began to wag his tail as they approached his quarters. He knew he was getting a treat upon his arrival and the anticipation was eating at him. Abby hat to tighten her grip again as he began to tug the leash and much to her surprise, he let out an eager bark as they walked into his quarters. 

“Pyro! Pipe down!” a familiar voice called from the back of the area, which had both Abby and Pyro turning their heads. The pair stayed put and listened to the muffled rustling from a back room, along with the occasional barks of dogs in their pastures. After a moment more, a familiar face poked out from one of the storage rooms and offered a bright smile. “Abby, hi! Nice of you to visit,” you said, shuffling out of the room with arms full of blankets. You turned around and shut the door with your foot, making a loud clang that had Pyro perking his ears up. 

“Hey, can you let him into his pasture? I’ll get him his treat in a bit,” you said as you began backtracking down the hall as though you were in a hurry.

“Everything alright?” the blond asked with a tilt of her head and a mildly anxious smile. You chuckled and nodded. 

“Yeah. Martha just decided to give us all a surprise,” your pace quickened and you turned on your heels, heading in the other direction towards some of the smaller dog spaces. Biting her lip as a nervous feeling tickled he stomach, Abby did as she was asked and took Pyro back to his pen, much to his dismay as he seemed to want to go with you instead.

“Don’t worry, buddy. They won’t forget your treat,” she murmured under her breath as she walked past the outdoor kennels with Pyro. Some of the other dogs yipped and barked at the chainlink fence, excited to see someone and hoping to play. Abby offered them each a warm smile till they reached Pyro’s kennel that was shared with his brother. “Alright, be good boys,” Abby chuckled as opened the gate and unhooked Pyro from his harness, letting him run in to tackle his brother with excitement. She shut the gate with a chuckle and ran her fingertips along the chainlink of the door before she headed in the direction you'd disappeared. 

Abby wasn’t one to travel very far into your unit of work. You mostly worked with the animals in the stadium, notably the dogs, (obviously) as well as some of the livestock. You were almost in a veterinary position if she thought about it. You helped take care of the animal's needs and health and you were passionate about advocating for them. She smiled thinking about it. You were kind of like her father in that way. He wanted to care for and preserve as much life as he could in such a messed-up world. You did that too. 

“Hey, you good?” you interrupted her inner monologue once again as you poked your head out of a small, makeshift kennel. Abby hadn’t even realized how far she’d walked into your space and was quite surprised by the sight before her as she leaned around the corner and over the baby gate, into the room. “Suprise,” you said with a wide grin. You were crouched down by a beautiful white and brown spotted dog who was breathing quite rapidly. The sheets and blankets covering the floor were stained with blood and Abby would have been quite concerned had she not noticed the feeble mewling at the dog's side.

“Martha decided she was ready to be a mama. Didn’t you girl?” you cooed, running your fingertips under the dog's chin. She looked up at you with her dark eyes that had such a human touch to them. She could practically see the trust that the animal had for you. 

“You helped her deliver?”Abby asked rather out of the blue. You looked up and nodded with an eager sparkle in your gaze, as though someone else showing interest in your job was some miraculous thing you never would have expected. Your smile practically brightened the room as you answered. 

“Yes, I did. Martha’s been showing signs of pre-labor since yesterday afternoon, so I was up with her all night prepping. It’s not often nowadays that I get to help mama’s with their puppies, now that I think about it,” you chuckled under your breath, eyes shifting back down to Martha and her litter of mewling pups.

Abby watched the wiggling balls of white and brown fluff with a knit brow. Logically, she understood that they would be dogs eventually, but right now they looked so small, so strange. They felt like foreign entities of some kind and it made her rather nervous. Her thoughts wandered as you began to coo something unintelligible to one of the squirming creatures and before she knew it, you stood in front of her with one of them in your hands. 

“Wanna meet one?” you asked brightly. Abby shook from her mindscape and her eyes locked onto the puppy held securely in your grasp. Its eyes were screwed shut, brows furrowed like it was angry as it whimpered and protested, squishy paws wiggling ever so slightly. She took a step back, about to decline the offer, but you took her hand before she could, giving it a tight squeeze. Abby’s eyes flickered to Martha, anxious that the mother of the crying pup might get upset at her presence. But the mother seemed quite content, given the circumstances. She periodically looked up to you and Abby with her puppy, but for the most part, she attended to the brood squirming at her hip. 

When Abby hadn’t been paying attention, you'd let go of her hand to open the baby gate door of the small room. Your hand found her fingers once more and a shiver rushed through her nerves, urging her to step into the tiny space. You coached her to the floor beside you sitting with your legs crossed. Abby stayed tense and unmoving. She didn’t want to risk any wrong move regarding you or Martha, who sat behind your back. The puppy in your hands wiggled as he was moved and Abby froze completely, except for her tongue darting out to wet her dry lips. 

“Abby, relax,” you murmured, running your fingertips up and down her open palm. The blond looked up at you and swallowed thickly as you eyed her with curiosity. “What are you afraid of?” you asked her. Your eyes wandered her face, tracing the natural edges and curves that made up her. She tried her best to relax and looked down at the puppy snuggled into your hands. 

“He’s so small,” she managed to utter. You only nodded. “And I don’t want to hurt him on accident,” you smiled now and let go of a small laugh. Abby looked up at you with an expression that could best be described as offended. 

“I’m sorry,” you said first, biting your bottom lip, your thumb had begun to brush over the puppy's scruff, rhythmically lulling him to sleep in your hand. “But I can’t believe that for one second,” you smiled at her fully. 

“Why?” was the only thing the blond could ask. You tilted your head again and shrugged.

“It doesn't seem like you. You aren’t careless,” the puppy made a whimpering noise in his sleep and you both looked down. “And yes, you're strong. But I’ve always thought you were mindful of that,” you finished quietly. Abby didn’t know what to say, but as she watched, you opened her palms, your fingers soft against her calloused skin, and transpired the sleeping pup into her hands. He flinched once, then twice, but his breathing evened out once again and all was well.

“He’s soft,” she managed to say after a moment. The white puppy’s soft claws brushed against her skin as he twitched. He took up only one of her palms, leaving the other free to pet him if she liked. 

“He’ll be a big one though,” you murmured, scooting in close beside her. 

“How do you figure?”

“He’s got a big daddy and a big grandma,” Abby smiled gently and nodded. “Bot for now he’s one of the smaller ones,” you finished with a sigh. 

“Will he be alright?” You nodded, your cheek brushing against Abby's shoulder as you leaned in.

“Yeah, he’ll be good. He’s got a great mom and we can bottle feed if necessary,” Martha let out a shallow sigh and you smiled, turning your attention her way. “Wanna go see some of the bigger babies?” you asked, gingerly taking the puppy from Abby’s hands and returning him to his mother and siblings. He wiggled for comfort but settled in nicely by his mother’s paw.

“I don't want to take more of your time,” Abby started, but you brushed her off. 

“No way! You're just helping me with my rounds is all. I need to check in with them anyway. They should be waking up from naptime and will be ripe and ready to play in their field,” you explained as you walked farther down the hall. Abby was still hesitant but followed nonetheless. Despite some of her anxiety, she was enjoying her time with you, which was strange, of course. Maybe what you'd said about the puppies had helped her feel less nervous after all. You walked around a corner with Abby in tow and were greeted by a chorus of squealing and yelping puppies eager for playtime. Abby watched your gentle smile grow brighter if that was even possible as you began to laugh. 

“Hey, furballs! How was that nap?” you asked, knowing you wouldn’t get a response other than more barking. You gradually opened the pen door, worming your way into the kennel without letting any puppies out. Abby watched with amusement as some began jumping at your legs, almost pushing you over. You giggled the whole time, biting your lip as you tried to get Abby into the room without letting the puppies out. 

“Ok, how about you just sneak past-” you began trying to guide her in and opened the gate just a bit more while stretching your leg out to keep the wiggly ones on. Abby managed to squirm past and the gate was slammed shut behind her. You stood up in full with your hands on your hips and began to laugh, Abby doing the same. That is till one of the older and bigger puppies ran up behind Abby with an excited bark and jumped up. His paws pushed into the backs of her knees and they gave out, causing her to stumble forward. The next thing she knew, she was tightly gripping both your upper biceps, and your hands were planted flat palmed and quite firmly to her chest. You both stood frozen for what felt like a matter of minutes till an excited bark shook you from the daze. You took a long step back and smiled an awkward grin, turning from her rather quickly. 

“Alright, let's get y’all out of here,” you barked, walking towards the back gate that let the puppies out to their grassy playpen. Abby felt excruciating embarrassment burning the skin of her neck and she had surely turned bright red. She tugged at the collar of her shirt, which was suddenly feeling too tight, and bit her tongue before she cursed her awkwardness. 

However, unbeknownst to the blonde, you found yourself in a similar state. You began to fiddle with the hair behind your ears and take deep, quick breaths to relax your racing heartbeat and cool your hot skin. You hadn’t ment to grab her like that, it just happened so fast- you stopped the spiral before it could start. You walked out to the grass line, arms crossed over your front as you watched the rambunctious older puppies run a muck in their outdoor playroom. Abby eventually awkwardly approached, taking her place by your side. You smiled, but said nothing about it before, choosing to leave it alone and move on to save you both some dignity.  

“They’d love another playmate, you know,” you suggested, tilting your head to the oleander pups. Some had begun to wrestle while others played with various homemade toys lying about the small yard. Abby chuckled but shook her head. 

“No, it’s alright. I don't wanna be too rough,” you wholeheartedly laughed at that and shook your head. 

“Trust me, they would be much rougher than you,” Abby chuckled, watching some of the wrestling pups, and agreed with your assessment as one began to bite at the other scruff, causing it to whimper in a submissive manor rather than an aggressive one. 

“Yeah, maybe you’re right,” she murmured. She continued to watch with you when she felt something bump her shoe. Looking down, a red ball had rolled her way. Or, rather, it had been dropped by one of the german shepherd pups who looked up at her with wide brown eyes and a toothy puppy grin. 

“You wanna play fetch with Abby, Turkey?” Abby smiled at you with an arched brow.

“Turkey?” you shrugged and bit the inside of your cheek. 

“I had a sandwich for dinner when the littler was born and was running out of name ideas. Give me a break,” the blonde chuckled and leaned over to pick the ball up. Turkey jumped with excitement, yipping as the ball was raised. The ball was sent flying across the yard and Turkey was keen to grab it. However, a flying ball catches quite the attention in the puppy yard ans soon enough there was a decent-sized horde running and wrestling to be the one to bring it back. Abby chuckled as she watched the affair, and after some time the one and only Turkey was the one to prevail, running back eagerly with the ball held tightly in her jaws. Abby crouched down to meet her and the other few puppies running at her side. 

Turkey and her friends barreled into Abby with eager paws and a dropped ball, knocking her over with more force than the blonde would have expected. In a matter of seconds, her back was flush with the ground as puppies began to crawl over her chest and lick at her face. She began to laugh louder than she had in some time as she tried to push the puppies away, but when one was moved, another took its place. One was even biting at her braid, growling as he played with it like a tug of war rope. You crouched down to try and help but were similarly ambushed by small paws and slobbery coffee breath. 

When she got the chance, Abby turned her head to the right. With grass tickling her cheek and a wiggly puppy between her hands, she found herself feeling only bliss. But with a little thought, she realized that feeling wasn’t because of the grass or the puppy, but you. She realized she adored the way you laughed and how you scrunched your nose when you smiled. She loved how playful and gentle you could be and how much you cared for all the animals in the compound. And then, she noticed that worrying feeling again. But it wasn’t queasy and tight like it normally was. It was padded and buffered by a warm sinking in her belly, and despite the concern, it was comforting. 

She found you comforting. Comforting like a puppy curled up in your lap or sharing space with another person you cared for. This sudden realization was new and nauseating but in a brewing-with-anticipation kind of way. She chuckled lightly under her breath and returned her gaze to the puppy wiggling between her hands. Maybe she’d have to visit more often. 

[italeean]

I’ll start introducing myself

name: Elle (it’s not my actual name, I chose it because my initial is L)

pronouns: She/her

nationality: Italian, but I speak English too (pls be indulgent if I make some mistakes)

age: 20

likes: anime, movies and series, science (I’d like to get into Medicine University scratch that, I'm a proud Med student now), studying in general, eating, sleeping (whenever I manage to), music, lazying around under a blanket, swimming and going to the beach (or to the swimming pool, both are fine)

dislikes: crowds, too-noisy environments, getting up early, rude people 

LIST OF ANIME I’M INTO

MASTERLIST

ABOUT REQUESTS

COMING SOON

MY AMAZING FRIENDS

OTHER RANDOM FACTS

I’m a lee (my username is a combination of this term and my nationality)

I studied piano and singing

I come off as a permanently angry person with a resting bitch face, but I'm actually pretty shy (and not THAT unkind)

I speak Italian, English, Spanish, German and I understand some French... and when I'm particularly mad, I curse in all of the languages above

MBTI personality: INTJ

My love language is physical touch (how surprising... 🙄)

I have a little sister, but we’re not related by blood and she was not adopted by my parents. She is my 15-year-old cousin, but we wanted a sister and we made a pact (everyone mistakes us for sisters anyway lol)

My existence is an insult to the art of drawing, so, even though I love some good fanart, I’ll just reblog drawings and never post anything of mine (it’d be a traumatic experience)

I was born in a town on the seashore, so I can't stay for too long without seeing the sea... I don't necessarily need to have a beach day, but I need to see it from my window

[whispering-jabberwocky]

Oh baby, my time has come!

I'm actually a huge name nerd and most (not all) of my brainchildren have a very meaningful names. Let's start!

Samir Rihh

He is my dnd character: rogue/wizard air genasi. We play in an fantasy setting inspired by India, Africa and Middle East. He was inspired by the tale of Alibaba and Forty Thieves.

First of all, his surname is, I think, morroccan and it means "wind". I'm not 100% sure since it was a wild google search some time ago, and I can't find this page anymore.

His first name was given to him after his great grandmother - Samira, who loudly and proudly banged a djinn for money. The name actually has two meanings, depending on a country of origin. In India it would mean "a light breeze". In arabic countries it means "companion in evening talk". Both match him pretty well, especially after heartfelt conversation with Lia during night watch.

Now, before he was using his bithname, he used a lot of nicknames. Our dnd party met him under "Nine". It was simple, he only got nine fingers at the time. I really wanted to play with someone with a weird nickname then. After he get his missing finger back, he began colling himself "Spectre", because that is what Tanit, our necromancer and his best friend, was calling him, after their first meeting in the desert. She saved his life, as he was stumbled upon a caravan she was traveling with, almost bleeding to deat due to his famous finger getting chopped off. His other known nicknames include "Dragonfly" and "Blackbird". Granted, all of them sound different to us, since we play in Polish.

Lanaya

She was my first dnd character. A wood elf druid, who is secretly a werewolf.

I must say, I did not do her justice. I had trouble playing her properly as I never really get a good grip of who she is.

She was raised in a pretty hippie elven society, where there was a druid in every family. Everyone knew each other, so nobody bothered with surnames. Therefore she doesn't have one.

As for her name i ripped it of from Dragon Age Origins, but also kind of meaningfully. In the game, Lanaya was a First to the Keeper of the Dalish clan, that the Warden may recruit to stop the Blight. However, the Dalish currently have problem with werewolfs attacking their camp.

Mash

Mash is my sweet baby warforged warlock.

The thing is there are some gender shenaningans about them. As his owner never gave him a proper name and called them simply Machine (Maszyna in Polish), they were officialy refered to using feminine pronouns and conjugation (maszyna is a feminine noun in Polish). However, since Mash in a concious being and wishes to be his own person, he uses masculine pronouns and conjugation, while talking about himself. He also calls himself Mash, instead of Machine.

Honorable mention of my FFXIV babies:

- J'lico Khat: she is goooone, but au ras are prettier, what can I say? She was my main miqo'te girl from Seekers of the Sun. Her name was 100% lore friendly, but also a huge troll, as it was a sorta phonetic way to spell "Jellicle Cat". You know, like from Cats the musical? I started playing in pandemics and it was the last movie I saw in the cinema at the time.

- Suiren Aijiro: us what J'lico has become. Did I mentioned au ras are prettier? Anyway, it was a bit of a spontanious decision, but I needed a nice, old-timey japanese name. To be lore friendly! And there is a character named Suiren in a comic I am making with my sister. So I stoled it. From myself. I feel kinda weird about it tbh. Primarly I came upon it in a manga Hibi Chou Chou (this is not a recomendation, this shoujo is bland). It means "water lily". As for Aijiro i took it from list of traditional japanese coulors. This one is white with a hint of indigo.

-Soren Wolpertinger: my beautiful bunny boy. Ok, so Soren means "strict, severe" and that's not a vibe, but I adore the sound of it. And Wolpertinger is a german cryptid - a creature with rabbit head, squirrel body, deer antlers and wings of a pheasant.

Now, I don't really know who to tag, as Vio already tagged everyone I know, who would be intetested. So feel double tagged! Spill the beans!

OC name meanings tag!

Stealing from @albatris :3

Rules: Search and post the meaning of your OCs’ names (if you made their name up or they go by a nickname, post an explanation of how it came to you)! Bonus if you can find something for their last name too

Emerald "Emmy" Acero:

"So, uh. Don't think I ever got the chance to give you my name. It's Emerald—" "—Like the gemstone?" "-Yeah like the gemstone. You can just call me Emmy though. Everyone else does."

Emmy's first name is pretty self-explanatory. His last name, Acero, is Spanish for Steel. His father, Orion Acero, picked it out when transitioning as a way to distance himself from his dead identity and any ties to Emmy's other father (whom has no idea he even is a father). Therefore, once Emmy was born, it became his last name as well. The only thing Emmy has even been told about his other biological parent was that he is a 'deadbeat musician' and that Orion didn't want Emmy to end up going down the same path.

OOC, Emerald was an import of my D&D rogue, Immeral (Immi), when I was invited to my first VtM game and had trouble coming up with a character thanks to Long Covid brainfog. What started as a modern clone of an existing character ended up evolving into his own being and is hardly recognizable from his D&D origins. The most notably being Emmy is an absolute heart of gold, dumb of ass. And Immi is a Lawful Evil dumpster fire. Which brings us to...

Immeral Ethanasath:

The character that would become one of my most replayed and AU'd to death (quite literally in most of his games) was a last minute randomly generated lawful evil rogue as a loyal subordinate for my buddy CerberusKnight's Conquest Paladin, Ajexs. Everything from his appearance to his subclass was randomly assigned in a scramble to have the character ready for a D&D one-shot. I had so much fun playing him I put him in a longform campaign to determine his origin story. Then COVID absolutely bodied me in mid 2020 and left me with less than stellar focus or creative function. I stopped playing spellcasters altogether because I couldn't keep up with the complexity and found it hard to create even new martial classes that didnt feel like cardboard cutouts. So I played Immi again. And again.

As for how he got his nickname, English is not CerberusKnight's first language and he had a lot of trouble pronouncing Immeral, often adding a 'd' to the end and accidentally calling him 'Immerald'. So we made it canon that Immeral loves nicknames because Common is also not his first language, so he told the paladin Ajexs that he could just call him 'Immi' as long as Ajexs let him call him 'A.J.' in return.

So of course, you can see where once I imported him to a 'human' setting, 'Immeral' naturally became 'Emerald'. I've only just recently gotten into a place of recovery where I can create new characters again, but I've been playing iterations of this disaster since 2019 and he holds a special place in my heart.

And as far as I know, the name means absolutely nothing and in canon, Immi picked it out himself when he hit a century old, aka elf adulthood.

Javier Andres Peña:

Emmy remembers the little message he found once he was awake again. Scrawled on a sticky note and left stuck to his cracked phone screen: Don’t walk home by yourself anymore, okay? —Javier

Javier, the Spanish derivative of Xavier, means 'new house'. Andres is a derivative of Andrew, meaning 'manly' or 'warrior' (hilarious, considering this man is the walking personification of toxic masculinity). Peña originates from 'de la Peña' or 'by the cliffside' or 'by the rocks'

I can't take the credit for this one. Javier started as a backstory character for Emerald (the one responsibly for Emmy's turning, specifically) created by that game's Storyteller. However, the original version of that game flopped horribly and I left it after being treated quite poorly by the storyteller and one of their players. Myself and two other folks from the game liked our character interactions so much we decided to split off and keep running the game, set in a new city. And of course, Emerald ended up reaching out to his renegade ex to escape one court and arrive safely half a country away.

Javier's role ended up being upgraded from a backstory character to a proper NPC by @zeeseal, but while sorting out Javier and Emerald's history, Javier ended up becoming our shared brainchild. Our beautiful disaster son. And of course, Emmy endearingly refers to him as 'Javi'.

I finally got a chance to play Javier as a true PC when I was invited to a game set in 1982 Melbourne Australia, as Javier's backstory included being turned in the 1980s and it seemed fun to explore what he was like before he became jaded with his new lot in unlife as an eternal 20something. I often poke @zeeseal for her input on how our terrible terrible son would react to certain things for the first time and the game has been a blast so far. Especially being American and playing an American character stuck with no home and no money in Australia with other Australian players/PCs and Storyteller.

As for tags, I'm sniping @bludoods, @whispering-jabberwocky @mayaminamoto, @sayonaramidnight, @raceofhearts and @ichithecupcake.

(And anyone else who wants to do it)