#and I'm sorry for keeping you waiting

[walpu]

Hi? How are you doing? You're just taking a break or something happened? :(

Wish you well 🌼

HI DON'T WORRY I'M MOSTLY FINE I've been busy with work for a very long time and then when I was ready to return to writing I caught a cold 💀

But I'm doing better now!!

[corseque]

I realized that I could easily do the same to DAI's script, and I did that, but then I immediately created my magnum opus:

A Text File of Everything Solas Says In Inquisition and Veilguard, The Ultimate Fanfic Resource For Writing Solas' Voice*

and I fell on the floor because it made me happy.

*edited to correct a minor mishap

[gotchibam]

Lilligant ko-fi doodle for Grimm! ✨

[demaparbat-hp]

Son of Agni and Kyoshi.

[a-compass-without-a-needle]

This is what happened after 3.1 isn't it?

[canisalbus]

hey there!! i'd been checking this blog for a while, and I really wanted to say you're a great source of inspiration haha! I really love your dog characters and your lore! The amount of research and dedication is really amazing!! about ludovica's gf, do you mind if I come in with my vision as well? I think she'd be a really fluffy dog, maybe with curly hair. so my mind went to the portuguese water dog; but then i thought of two versions: long hair and short hair. so i drew both (tried my best to make her look like a lady and not a grandpa haha)

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[magefeathers]

everyone else: haha The Summoning sexy

me: The Summoning's "raise me up again" is in direct contrast to Drag Me Under's "drag me under again" and shows an immense amount of growth between the two points in the narrative, for him to go from singing "drag me [...] deep into your love" to "take me past the edge / I want to see the other side" shows that he no longer wishes to drown and wallow in the toxicity of this situation and now wants to move past it and see what lies beyond and in this essay I will-

[dewwshi]

i read homeland and this is mostly the impression i got

[haveyouheardthisband]

Are you guys ever coming back? :<

Someday! -r

[luna-loveboop]

Anon asks are off, asks with media are off. Only people who I follow can mention me.

I'm not trying to make this a more private account, and I have a lot of friends outside of those I follow. Tags.

...sorry. tags.

[modmad]

ANOTHER TPOH POLL SORRY OKAY

heyyy so we're getting down to designing the stretch goal art, and I have done a TV head RGB for the magnets! but we also want a design for sew on patches aaaand idk which one to do lmao help me

... disregard my typos IT'S THE MORNING. OKAY

[yushiteru]

hii wanted to ask if you could do first time having sex w yushi ! i honestly feel he’d be gentle and loving from the way you write but i’d like to see it in your writing style bcs i love it sm <3

helloo~

wow does this give me ideas 🫣 i totally see him being soft and gentle in his demeanor towards you in bed with his overall cautious and attentive nature. the way he babies and comforts sakuya sometimes and the small acts of service he does for sion makes me think he would be so tender and quite chivalrous almost? like being mindful of when the blankets/sheets fall away in case you get cold, holding your hands when you need reassurance, and just making you feel safe and cared for throughout the experience, regardless if its his first time too. but i think even under all of that, he has a needy side and is not one to deny himself of his more primal desires. i also am confident that he's a touchy-feely-grabby kind of guy;;;

like imagine he goes on tour not too long after you guys start dating, so you haven't had a lot of time to get completely comfortable with each other, physically and emotionally. but on the night of ur reunion, he's just so overcome by his longing for you and all the thoughts he had of you while he was away. the images he pictured in his head when he was in bed in his hotel room were downright shameful and he felt bad, really, but he was lonely and you're just so beautiful.

you guys would be cuddling and caressing each others arms, back, face, whatever was closest because the need for physical touch was so strong, as you catch each other up on what was missed. but you'd feel yushi's hands start to slowly wander, from the small of your back to your waist, your hips, and then down to your thighs as he rubs circles into the flesh. even though you guys had never really gone that far yet, you knew what his actions were trying to signal and you just missed him so much that you were reluctant to delay anything even further.

yushi would nuzzle his face in between your jaw and shoulders, letting his breath warm the sensitive skin of your neck as he tries furtively to act like he's just snuggling real close to you, but his fingers are subtly tugging on the waistband of your sleep shorts.

his lips on your neck go from letting out small puffs of hot air to nibbling and sucking on the soft skin; the natural, unique taste of you already making him lightheaded with desire, the anticipation of what may come making him desperate and impatient for more.

his fingers that were curled around the waistband of your shorts have abandoned their original goal and are now climbing up your midriff and sliding under your shirt. they stop at the crease where your breasts meet your torso and his fingertips feel like they were dipped in burning candle wax, leaving invisible marks in their wake.

"y/n... can i? please?" he says, his voice quiet, but with enough gravelly desperation that it makes him sound pleading almost. you don't answer, for a lack of coherent words or the little faith you had in yourself to not submit blindly to the temptation. you're not even completely aware of what exactly yushi was asking permission for, and the thought of someone catching sight of you two, how quickly things had escalated, was enough to have you glowing with retrospective embarrassment.

but none of that matters, in the small room that now smells distinctively of want and desire, and feels like someone had lit a fireplace underneath.

you give a tentative nod, the movement almost imperceptible, but to yushi it feels like an answer to his prayers as he collects the material of your t-shirt and bunches it up under your collarbone, exposing your breasts to his awaiting mouth. without loosing a second to spare, he ducks his head down to wrap his lips around one of your stiff nipples, sucking and licking broad strokes on the sensitive tip. one of his hands is back to squeezing your upper thighs, while the other cups your other breast, his tongue now running along the underside, kissing and sucking the skin, making you gasp and whine at the unexpected sensitivity.

you tug on the sleeve of his shirt, signaling to him that you need desperately to kiss him, if not in an attempt to cover up the sounds spilling out of your mouth. it takes a few tugs to get him to latch off, a low grumble echoing in his chest at being interrupted from what he thinks he could do forever, but he meets your eager lips with just as much enthusiasm.

he gently lowers his body onto yours, still mindful not to crush you with his weight and he fits his thigh in between your legs. the movement allows for contact between your core and the muscular expanse of his thigh, and yushi groans at the back of his throat at the feeling of the warm, damp cotton of your sleep shorts.

"wh-what's gotten into you?" you breathe out into his open mouth, in between the sloppy kisses he gives you, the wet, smacking noises surrounding the two of you. you don't mind the sudden neediness, feeling almost overwhelmed by such love and want. yushi doesn't answer, opting instead to pull his shirt off by the back of the collar before leaning down again, his pupils dilated and darkened by lust.

you press a hand against his bare chest, stopping him from coming any closer. "yushi, i need a breather," you let out firmly, blowing a strand of hair out of your eyes.

he visibly softens, the greedy look in his eyes now replaced by his usual warm and fond gaze. moving slowly, so as not to startle you, he tucks the strand of hair behind your ear, rubbing his thumb across your cheek. "i'm sorry, baby. for getting carried away," he mumbles, his words laced with a touch of sheepishness as if he couldn't believe himself. he presses a sweet peck on the skin below your ear, trailing more under your jaw, back to where everything had started, but this time he's much slower, taking the time to write out his devotion with his lips.

"you look so beautiful tonight," he whispers, making you squirm and hide your face in the pillow. "just tonight? so i'm ugly the rest of the time?" you tease, peeking one eye back open.

"don't be a brat," he says with a laugh, pinching the soft skin of your stomach in retaliation. you jump, reaching out to slap him on the chest, but yushi catches your wrist before you can make contact and wraps your arm around his shoulders. he leans down again, the movement all too familiar on this night, and the butterflies in your stomach kick into drive again. "now where was i..." he mutters, unable to conceal the smile on his face as he lowers himself towards your lips and you're more than ready to meet him halfway this time.

ahhh i wasn't quite ready to write full out smut yet (emphasis on yet) and i had this one in my drafts for quite some time so i just wanted to get it out heheh i kinda got carried away with needy yushi, but its honestly one of my favorite characterizations of him (one that i think im 100% correct on;;;;) anyway some of my wish writer friends have already gotten a head start on wish hard thoughts (check out this one by the lovely @yushi-ni !) and i wanted to catch up >:]

[walkingstackofbooks]

I had a fun (awful) idea and can't think of what to do with it, so I'm going to inflict it on you. (I mean this affectionately, please ignore this if you're not up for misery right now!)

Julian, while in the mirror verse with Kira, is subjected to some... very specific and harrowing torture. Except Kira never finds out about this. The only person who knows about what happened to him is Smiley, the mirror verse O'Brien, who helps keep him together. Julian thinks he can take this as yet another secret no one ever has to know, and reassures Smiley that even in his own sparkly nice universe this has happened to him before and he'll be fine.

Cue, a year or so later, Smiley dragging Sisko into the mirror universe, and during a little rant from Sisko about how sadistic Mirror Bashir is and how no one from HIS Starfleet would be so cruel even to an enemy, Smiley just scoffs and rolls his eyes and says "oh yeah, so what about your Doctor Bashir, huh? Who did that to him then, huh?"

Sisko returns to his own universe with the knowledge that not only was Julian Bashir assaulted and tortured a year ago and never said a single word to anyone about it, but that it was not the first time he'd endured something like that. Sisko has no idea what he's supposed to do with this knowledge, but he does watch Julian very, very closely afterwards, hoping for some hint or sign or tell that he can jump on to confront Julian and drag this out in the open, because if any of what Smiley said was true, Julian should have been given regular counselling before he even arrived on the station...

I can't work out how to have Sisko confront him and have some comfort happen, so as I said, I'm just inflicting this on you for fun.

Nonnie, this was absolutely delightful, thank you for inflicting this upon me!! I've had MANY thoughts, so putting this under a cut!

Ohhh, the idea Sisko being so protective over Julian but having to do it from afar gives me SO many feelings ❤️❤️❤️ The idea of him quietly watching Julian with this whole new perspective, and because he is observant, picking up on things he'd never noticed before (and wondering how he hadn't noticed them - maybe reflecting on his and Julian's time in Past Tense and spotting things there, too?)

But also, the fact that he'd be wondering if he's reading too much into what he sees, perhaps, or if what he's noticed is due to the torture a year ago, or the pre-DS9 "similar incident"...

I think Sisko would both be obligated to and want to ask Julian about the torture he experienced in the mirror universe, and why it went unreported. He'd be very gentle with it, but hopefully also firm that Julian needs to start having sessions with counsellor Telnorri. Julian's very stiff and wooden and factual about the whole thing - he knows the torture affected him, but he's repressed it for this long, and he's worried that he'll struggle to keep his secret if he's having this very similar torture poked at in counselling.

(But since Sisko is completely insistent - and Starfleet would be too, once he's amended his report - he has to go along with it, and just come up with a way to protect himself. During his first session, he ends up "confessing" to having nightmares of the mirror universe, "but it's happening to me in our universe, as a child. I know they're not real, but they've happened often enough that when I first wake up, it takes me a few moments to realise that."

Which Telnorri believes and assures him is a normal trauma response, and yep, it sure works as a good cover for times when he's getting emotional and panicky and slips into adigeon trauma rather than torture trauma, because whenver he now says something like "my parents", Telnorri will gently correct him with a "that was just dream, Julian". Julian has never been more grateful for Garak's lessons, not has he ever understood Garak's "the truth is in the lies" lesson so completely.)

Anyway - back to Sisko. He still has no idea what could have happened to Julian pre-DS9. He wonders if it could have been a mission gone wrong while he was a cadet, if this not-reporting torture is a pattern that Julian's done before - or even if it could have ended up being something classified, that Julian can't talk about... He can't find anything in Julian's records where that sort of thing would make sense, but it's the only way he can think of Julian ever being in a situation where torture was on the cards. He definitely doesn't believe that it was Starfleet, and the idea that Julian might have been a child - that it could have been his own parents - doesn't even occur to him.

Until Julian's parents arrive in his office. It takes him a couple of minutes to realise what he's seeing, because he still has the blind spot around child abuse, the firm notion that "parents = good!", but this Sisko has spent nearly two years taking note of Julian's body language and so this time, he spots how uncomfortable and distressed Julian is by his parents' sudden arrival, and is deeply disturbed.

He still wouldn't connect the dots straight away - noticing Julian's discomfort is a far cry from assuming his parents were responsible for his torture - but he does usher them out of his office fairly quickly, saying that he's sorry, but he needs to return to his meeting with Doctor Bashir and so Lieutenant Dax will find them quarters. And then he turns to Julian and asks him what's wrong, and Julian tries to tell him he's fine but that doesn't work because Sisko knows him, has sat with him through difficult times (most recently, post-prison-camp) far too often not to be able to tell that something's wrong.

But although Julian has come to trust and rely on Sisko with work-related trauma problems, he's too surprised and naturally cagey about his childhood to let Sisko in too much, even on a level of "my parents didn't treat me well". He gives him the most basic line that he gave Zimmerman - "We don't get along" - and asks to be dismissed. the rest of the episode happens pretty much as normal (although I think I'd like Sisko to head across to check on Julian later in the day, just at the right time to find him slumped against the wall outside his quarters after his fight with his parents.)

And when Julian's parents go to Sisko to try and sort out Julian's secret being exposed, the tension is palpable, his disdain for them eivident even through his self-restraint. And as he asks more questions abuot what the genetic engineering entailed - even though the Bashirs stick to a factual telling and wouldn't describe it as painful or hurtful, and definitely not as torture - a sinking feeling starts to grow in his stomach that this is the answer to the question that's haunted him ever since that day in the mirrorverse.

I haven't actually thought about what happens next - I keep skipping backwards and forward between other scenes and episodes this idea might impact because there are so many delicious ideas! - but hmmm. I think this Sisko would want to include Julian more in the discussion, but also not want him to spend any more time around his parents than he has to. He'd aks Julian to report to his office and ask the Bashirs to wait outside while he tells Julian about his idea to contact Admiral Bennet. Whicih Julian would be really reluctant about but Sisko says something like, "I don't want to lose you. Do you trust me?" and Julian replies "You really think you can change Starfleet's policy?" and Sisko's honest, with "Not their policy, no. But I think - and I can't make any promises - but I think I can persuade them to make an exception. Will you let me?"

And then it goes through pretty much the same way, apart form Sisko definitely doesn't let Julian alone with his parents at all, and once it's sorted asks Julian to go back to his quarters with him, giving Julian the time to decompress and process everything that's just happened.

Eventually - maybe not that day, but soon after - Sisko does ask him: "The genetic engineering - your time in hospital. From the way your parents described it, it sounded... very distressing." And bit-by-bit, Julian opens up about it and it's very much confirmed to Sisko that this must be the experience Smiley was referring to.

(In his first counselling session after this, before he's even touched on the hospital trauma at all really, Telnorri asks, "So, those recurring dreams you had about your parents - do you think the way they treated you as a child affected how easily you found yourself believing that dream." Which... is far more on the nose than he realises, and Julian breaks into slightly hysterical laughter, realising he's going to have to talk about how he's had dreams of his parents delivering him to the torture hospital for far longer than since his experience in the mirror world, and having it sink in even more how incredibly fucked-up this all is.)

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Oh god, I think I'm going to stop there, but you have no idea how much more of this is in my head - just it's far too much for me to write down! Honestly, I've practically got half an AU sorted out of how this would affect their relationship and its so soft and I have no idea if I'll be able to get any more of it down on paper 😭 But thank you so much for this idea, it's ✨inspired✨. If I do write any more, I'll tag it with "Sisko&Julian AU ask" <3

[isca-rambles]

Tim putting little boots in Lucy's locker because she's technically a rookie TO (temporary or not) so he can call her boot again. that's it. thank you for coming to my ted talk.

[consumebread]

[francy-sketches]

asoiaf twitter is so cool you can say 'I think the way you guys talk about gnc women is kinda weird can you maybe stop that' and you'll get people calling you a freak and a bitch