#and I'm so behind on everything bc no time T_T

[darklightsworld]

No, I'm not back yet, but while I was in Europe for work they released the Versailles no bara movie trailer. And I... don't know how I feel about it... First of all, if it is a single movie, it will be a victim of pacing issues, because cramping the whole story of 10+ volumes into one movie is crazy. And they have scenes in the trailer that take place in the last section of the series, so... I'm not digging this modernized look: the thin lines and the strangely shaded hair. The voices... okay, I guess. But that piece of music used in the trailer is HORROR! WTF was that?! This musical-esque, boring English language song... Why even English? It takes place in France... And it's seriously horrible. Japanese fans are also complaining about it, it is not elegant, does not fit the style of the story and art. I really hope they don't turn it into a musical. Anyway, I highly doubt this will come close to the old series. With the digitally remastered edition it is still very enjoyable and gorgeous, I was using it in one of my classes. I can't wait for scene comparisons between the old and new.

In another news I have been having a horrible and busy year so far. Moving (traumatic), new job (very busy, I'm still not fully out of the moving boxes yet), trying to teach an uninterested, lazy, skipping, cheating bunch of students who are incredibly spoiled and entitled (English skills and cognitive levels are looooow), and I have just returned from a 9 day trip to Europe with 1 conference and 2 workshops in 3 countries - I do not recommend... Now I have to make the final tests for three classes, and starting next week I am correcting 200+ tests and 1500 word essays. Happy times... not. So, I will be back sometime in summer... I hope...

[noxtivagus]

head in hands thinking of hermes n ebenholz

[merakiui]

PUPPYBOY FLOYD PUPPYBOY FLOYD PUPPYBOY FLOYD AAAAAAAAA UR SO RIGHT MERA he'd be the sweetest little puppy yet the moment you turn away from him he's already messing everything up (definitely not so you pay attention to him bc he doesn't like when you pay attention to anything other than him, he's so annoying in the best of ways <333 orz) He should be punished for being a bad boy, but his puppy eyes are so powerful no one can resist them,,, (i'm no one) Even when he starts humping you in the most inappropriate places there's no way you can be mad for more than 5 minutes

And catboy Jade being the worst menace known to mankind - definitely the kind of cat to swat everything off a table of counter while looking you straight in the eye. He's absolutely awful, but can you really get mad when he looks so cute napping on your lap? (you really ought to, he's only going to get worse and more daring if you let him misbehave) So many thoughts, both horny and not,, tweels are just too perfect orz

(also, could I be 🦈anon? I sent in a request for the lunar love hotel asking but obviously it'll take some time for you to answer that one!)

YES YES YES puppyboy Floyd is so physical with you, always wanting to cuddle with you or, more commonly, hump you from behind. He loves caging you in against the countertop if you're preparing food in the kitchen, distracting you from your main priority by rutting against you, breath hot and wet in your ears... he's so clingy, so needy, so whiny whenever you ignore him or aren't giving him enough attention. He especially hates it if you bring unfamiliar scents into the house. His nose is very keen, as is his sense of hearing, so he'll know when and if you're home before you're even turning the key in the lock.

When he's in particularly nasty moods, he has a tendency to destroy things or make a mess, but he'll help pick things up if you seem truly angry or upset with him (he always makes it up to you by snuggling with you in bed or even preparing your favorite meal; he tries to make it up to you with sex, but you always stop him and he pouts about it. >:( Floyd's always considerably sadder if you yell at him, call him a "bad boy," or ignore him out of frustration. But he's perfected the puppy eyes, so it's really impossible to stay angry for long). You've started fixing this habit of his by providing him with things to chew on or squeeze (like stress toys) so that he won't take his feelings out on the decor in your house.

Catboy Jade... very much a menace and a nuisance and a misbehaving catboy!!!! But he's so cute (and so mischievous), so how can you possibly be cross with him? :< he's very cute when he's napping. He looks so content, and when he purrs when you scratch his head or behind his ears (or when he leans into your hand with that cute, sleepy smile) it's enough to have you cooing so sweetly at him. Sometimes he'll lick your hand a few times before biting down hard, as if he's marinating it. T_T but he's cute, so even if he shreds your curtains or destroys the belongings of any friends (or hopefully not romantic partners) who visit he can be forgiven!!!

He's also a catboy who's fond of water!! He loves to take baths with you. >:) and though he often sleeps in his own bedroom, every morning without fail you'll wake to find him curled against you. Though sometimes he likes to stay up late into the night to do all manner of fun things; if you feel a sandpaper tongue against your bare skin while you're sleeping, don't pay it any mind! You're most likely dreaming about it. :) (catboy jade is a lover of somnophilia hehehe) you're so right when you say he will get worse if you let him misbehave. If you keep forgiving him for every devious thing he does, sooner or later you'll wake to him lovingly fucking you so slowly into the sheets. <3

(aaaa the tweels are so perfect yes!!! I always have too many thoughts for them. They give off such catboy and puppyboy energy, so thinking about them as a catboy and puppyboy... it's too good. orz and you may absolutely be the 🦈 anon!!! I also received your request for LLH, so I'm eager to write it!!)

[spaceyflowerswriting]

Heyy I'm the anon who requested for Jinho!

I read the reply really late sorryyy :(( and yes i did mean a oneshot sorry for my poor choice of words :'(

Looking forward to what you'll be writing! <3

perspective (jinho lee x reader)

details: oneshot, gender neutral reader written in 2nd pov, general canon au but if jinho never took that motel job, you and jinho are roommates/friends

warning: themes of existentialism...? jinho and reader have those kinds of "philosophical" conversations !

summary: a conversation leads to jinho feeling like the knot he's had in his mind is slowly beginning to untangle.

a/n: dw, anon, im glad u even came back and replied at all 😭💖 thanks for letting me know, i hope this works for you~ i focused on the last part (the build up of everything) of ur request bc the rest is kinda hard to fit into a oneshot; much apologies T_T

sharing context/og request below:

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A goal to live for; a reason to make life "meaningful."

Out of everything in Jinho's life, that was what he felt like he was missing. It wasn't suffocating him, but it did make him feel... empty. And, well, he felt empty enough as is, he didn't exactly need the lack of a goal to make him even more emptier. The thing was, no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't find a satisfactory answer.

Granted, he never asked anyone for their thoughts and only tried to come up with conclusions himself, but he felt like he didn't need to. Aside from believing no one was worthy enough to answer, it was just easy to guess how most people would reply anyway. Something cheesy like, "Work hard and achieve your dreams," is what they would say, probably.

It's not as if that in particular was a bad idea, it just didn't feel like enough for Jinho. Perhaps there was more to his feelings... either way, he couldn't untangle the knot in his mind.

~

Jinho tilted his head at the building he found himself stopping at to observe. It was an animal shelter of some kind. A brand new building, one he figured couldn't have been but a few months old.

Brightly colored posters were plastered around and he ended up walking closer to read them. He had to bend down a bit before he could properly see what was on them. The posters were asking for volunteers to help the staff.

"Should I sign up?" he wondered, holding his chin as he read the details on the paper. It was volunteer work, so the lack of pay felt like a waste but he could potentially earn himself a few reputation points. Not to mention, it would probably look good on his resume. He also had free time on his schedule and was able to make adjustments here and there so perhaps...

As he thought about it, the sound of the building's door opening made him straighten up and look over. To his surprise, he saw his roommate.

"Bye! See you tomorrow!" you called out to someone from in the shelter before the door shut behind you. The next second, you noticed Jinho and jumped a little. "You scared me!"

"Obviously," he quipped, smiling. He pointed at the poster he was just reading. "Are you a volunteer at this place?"

You sighed at his quick topic change but went along with it. "Yeah, I just discovered it like a few days ago. I was going to tell you about it since you like animals. I think?"

"How thoughtful." Jinho adjusted the grocery bags in his arm and continued to smile at you. "I was considering it. Is the work easy?"

"Well, you just clean and hang around animals mostly. Sometimes the staff force you to talk to the customers to inform them about the animals, but that's about it. So, yeah, I'd say it's easy."

Jinho hummed at your response. "I'll sign up some other day, then. It's a bit late into the evening now."

"Alright." You eyed his bags and then looked back at him. "Are you heading home?"

"Yes, I just came from a grocery store." Before you could say anything, he added, "I only bought things to make me dinner."

"You asshole," you said with a laugh, lightly slapping his arm.

He politely nodded as if to agree with you. "I'll make it up to you by walking home with you."

"If you make dinner for me with what we already have at home, I'll forgive you then."

"I refuse to cook for you unless I get something out of it."

"This guy..." A few more chuckles left you while you moved to walk alongside your roommate as he began to walk off. "I'll forgive you this time only."

"Okay." He gave you that same blank smile.

You shook your head before settling your hands in the pockets of your pants. "Anyways, now that you know about the animal shelter, I wanna talk about it."

"Okay."

"Could you be any more dry?"

"Gladly."

"You piece of..."

~

Despite the bickering, the conversation eventually carried on into what you intended, and it ended peacefully. When the two of you arrived home, it trailed off into other topics.

Jinho started cooking for himself right away while you slid into a seat at the dining table with a snack of your choice in your hand. The two of you continued to speak while busying yourselves.

"I'm jealous of the simple lifestyle animals have," you suddenly brought up.

Jinho couldn't help but laugh a little. "Talking about the animal shelter again?"

"Kind of, I just meant what I said in general, though. Aren't you jealous, too?"

"I suppose. There is less nuance for animals in their black and white world of kill or be killed. No 'morals' to fight over." He stirred up what was in his pot before glancing at you from the lack of a response. You were currently appearing rather bewildered, as if he said something that wasn't correct.

You cleared your throat. "...I was going to say I'm jealous of animals because they don't have to pay rent or deal with capitalism, but you're absolutely right." While Jinho laughed again, you said, "Being an animal would also be kind of scary, though. Every day I would have to be fighting for my survival."

"Don't you already do that?" Jinho glanced at you again, only to make sure you would see the glint in his eye. "You never know when there's a serial killer nearby, after all~"

The sound you made after what he said sounded like you were faking a shiver. "Generally I feel safe, though. I know humanity can be cruel, but at least I'm not living in a kill or be killed situation."

Jinho continued to stir. Wherever this conversation was going, it was starting to become intriguing. "Does it not bother you that humanity is cruel in the first place?"

"Of course, but that's not all there is to humanity. Kindness and being caring is a big aspect of being human. And I think that outweighs the bad, no matter how terrible things get."

"Is that so..." As Jinho turned off the stove, he mulled over your opinion. "Is that how you define humanity, then?"

"Sure, if you wanna put it like that." You munched on your snack for a bit and then blurted, "Oh, and stuff like creativity. Art, cooking, and all that--that's what makes humans human!" You smiled at at your roommate while he stared emotionlessly at you. He had trouble processing your words and only realized he forgot to reply after your smile started to fade. "You're an art student, so you get what I mean, right?"

"Hm." He tried to give you some kind of smile to compensate for his little reaction while he moved about to grab a bowl and spoon. "I'll just say that's an interesting point of view."

You raised a brow. "Is it? I think it's a pretty common view." You timidly asked, "Do you not think the same?"

Jinho let out a small, airy laugh. "I feel like I'm the only human in this world, but I don't think the way you do at all."

A look of concern grew on your face. "Well... what do you think, then?"

"I don't know. I haven't put much thought on it, and even if I did, there's a knot in my head preventing it. All I know is I feel like a human and everyone else feel like... animals."

"Huh." Your look of concern intensified. "I didn't know you thought like that, Jinho."

"Yes, because I've never told you." You shot him a glare, which only earned you a sly smile. Once he got his things together, he left the now empty pot in the sink and joined you at the dining table with his meal. "I'd still like to hear more about your view on humanity. Outside of what defines being human, what do you imagine is the 'most human' goal to have? What is there to strive for in our short, insignificant lives?"

"Woah, this conversation took a very intense turn," you replied, seemingly trying to lighten the mood. "Wait until 1:00 AM or something to give me an existential crisis."

"Very funny, now will you answer my question?"

He watched in amusement as you thinned your lips and shifted in your seat, clearly looking uncomfortable. Still, you ended up giving him an answer, but not before saying, "I don't know if the feeling you were describing earlier means you feel lonely, but I hope you know I'm here for you. We're roommates, but we're friends, too."

Words Jinho had heard millions of times. At least you seemed more truthful about them. As far as he could tell, you "cared" for him more than other people he's met, and you weren't annoying about it or trying to get something out of him.

Still, he ended up shrugging off your kindness. "Don't worry about it. Tell me what your answer to my question is."

A look of pity flashed in your eyes. "Right, uh... I can't speak for everyone, but personally I don't think we even really need to have goals."

"That's boring." Jinho frowned at your unsatisfying answer. He had been waiting all this time for your reply after the interesting things you said, only for this to be your answer? It didn't help him at all. He should've kept to his original idea about never asking anyone what they lived for.

You seemed mildly offended. "Listen, I'm just saying there's nothing wrong with simply living. We all don't need to be main characters going through six training arcs before achieving our goal of beating some bad guy. I mean, maybe some people do have it like that, and good for them to have something to strive for, but me and some other people are fine with just drifting by."

The frown on Jinho's face firmly stayed there. "Isn't that kind of lifestyle empty? What's the point if there's nothing to push you?"

"This probably sounds crazy, but some people just want to live and enjoy life as it is." Now you were just being sarcastic, yet there was a genuineness in your words. "Besides, I'd argue being unsatisfied and bored with life is what's really empty."

Why did that sound like you were indirectly calling him out? Surprising even to himself, it left Jinho unable to say anything in response.

Your words swirled around in his head, and he ended up deciding to just start eating his dinner. Meanwhile you went back to eating your snack and a silence fell over you two.

Of course, there was more Jinho wanted to say, but he was unsure of how to. He had much more to think about anyway.

~

Weeks had gone by. Things went back to normal after a slight awkward stage. The conversation from then had not been brought up between you two ever since but it stayed in Jinho's consciousness. For too long, if he had to be honest.

Again, he never asked for anyone's thoughts on what they lived for because he didn't think anyone was worthy enough to answer, but the conversation he had with you lead him to asking for your opinion.

Your answer was so strange. Here he was, wandering aimlessly and feeling empty with no direction, and was now being told that was okay. He didn't have to feel empty? He could be content with such a life? It made no sense. Yet you were a living perfect example of what you had described. It was easy for anyone to see how happy you were with your life.

What you thought of humans also fascinated him. Kindness and creativity, those were acts of humanity. He was capable of both, was that what made him human? You were capable of both as well. And his classmates. And the neighbors. And even the lady at the grocery store. But how come your kindness felt so different from his? Because he knew he only acted kind to get what he wanted while you acted kind just for the sake of it? Were you... more human than him?

Curiosity is all he felt. He wanted to understand--he had to understand why you were able to live and think the way you did. Anything but his boring life would be better.

"Who would've thought a simple conversation with some roommate would have me rethinking my entire life?"

It felt ridiculous to him, but he couldn't deny feeling somewhat thankful. The threads in his head were being gently tugged on after all. It could potentially lead to the knot being untangled.

Perhaps the simple insight you gave him that day were the words he had needed to hear to all his life.

[redxblueihateloveyou]

hoa! hoa! hoa!, so the coma sequence was a reference of novel Xiao ge walking to death with Wu xie? cause boooi that scene gets a whole new dimension of feels xD u can see ZYL going thru a whole range of emotions before settling on resignation, at first I thought it was because they were gonna separate but the implication that he knew in that moment that his lover-not-lover was gonna follow anyways is... and it ties up with the 4 ep when Wu Xie tells him if he gonna die it will be on the road and Xiaoge is all 'baby I'll follow u'... man... THE BAR IS HIGH

Yeah!!! I for real am saying, this is hands down THE BEST pingxie scene in all the series to me!! because it's literally both hella important things about the two (and maybe even more meanings behind as @eirenical said in her post), bc they played it ohhh sooo damn well). 1st its for sure that he stopped him from "going into the light" and it's partially SOP (or NYs??) scene when he had a nightmare of dead PanZi (Ah Ning wasn't there in the book if I remember correctly?) and then he was standing near that monument thinking how he must live cause Xiaoge will come back soon.

But its not only this, cause that doesn't quite explain all of it and his nod as in "its okay". There was also another post here (I cannot find it T_T), that said this too. That brings us to the 2nd part where he dreamt about himself dying and how Xiaoge being there the moment he dies made him feel tanquil: "I think I was seriously sick and felt as if I chose the end of my life myself. But for some reason with him there next to me I was surprisingly content and felt no regrets. So what if I can't live forever with him, at least for a bit I found a way to coexist with him in the same place at the same time... I didn't think it would be so romantic. No one else in this world could turn death into a spice that brings out the taste of dreamy romance. No one else could make it so effortless." Bc in SOP book he was very scared of a dream of dead PanZi and it's seen in this scene in Reboot too, he clearly doesn't want to go with them and he's scared too. But in his notes he says that if Xiaoge is with him, he's surpringly fine with it and feels safe, content and unafraid. I will fucking not cry no.

But also 3rd one.. lets not forget his (and Qiling's too) fetish of I quote "we either go on together or we die together" (and we all remember the mountain walk of "You're going there to die, aren't you? If so, I'm going with you.") So we know canonically they both admitted that one won't exist without the other, but in the books it's in Wu Xie's thoughts and Xiaoge's "you're the only thing that ties me to this world" still doesn't reach his brain, so there he constantly thinks that "if Xiaoge dies, I also don't wanna live, but if I die, Xiaoge will keep living" BUT in Reboot the changed it (to make it as a happy end) bc there like they both clearly know that if Wu Xie dies they both die and don't hide it in any way (that's why I made this post xD). So I don't exclude the fact that what stopped him was also the fact that Xiaoge was like "its okay" and after that Wu Xie was like "hell to the no" lol

The bar is sooo high I can't even, I mean how do I live with these two and their love, idk, they ruined everything for me and they keep going T_T

[theres-an-impulstor-among-us]

Hi. It has been a really long time since 3rd life ended. And I have not yet stopped thinking about it. Especially weirdly mundane ideas about it... Right now I'm thinking about how on edge everyone was near the end, and how on that server nobody could sleep the night away and nobody had the gear and security they were used to, so they might have naturally fallen into a system of having a night watchman and taking guard in shifts in the little groups they were in. This could be an idea for the crastle gang or for the Red Army, but I'm just loving the image of somebody staring out over a wall in silence, peaceful friends sleeping by the firelight behind them, never quite knowing if the next person will come to take over or if their shift will be interrupted by violence and chaos...I just like night watchmen a lot really

it's like the calm before the storm, i really like that. where nobody is able to sleep soundly bc they know the endgame is coming but they also want to cherish the last night/s they have together. T_T

...

Martyn sits atop the wall of Dogwarts, watching the landscape carefully for any enemies. In the distance, the lights of the Crastle can be seen. But no movement, and no sign of life can be seen except a faint figure atop the crenellations. Likely someone else keeping watch to protect their allies, just as Martyn is doing here.

Or someone keeping lookout for a readying ambush.

His mind keeps trying to wander but paranoia brings it back to earth. He has to keep watch, no matter how long the night is dragging on. If he doesn’t keep his focus, he may inadvertently let something slip past him, a dangerous something that may hurt or kill his friends. And he can’t let that happen.

He’s already failed to protect one friend recently. He can’t afford to lose another.

His chest twists as he thinks of his fallen friend. He allows his thoughts to drift momentarily, but a moment is all that’s needed.

“Martyn?”

Martyn jerks so sharply that he almost falls off the top of the wall. A hand shoots out and catches his shoulder. “Hey, whoa. Watch out.”

“Sorry.” Martyn clears his throat awkwardly. “Lost in my thoughts. Not great for a lookout, huh?”

Etho sits down on the wall next to Martyn. “Something on your mind?”

“A lot of things.”

As the pause grows longer, Etho says, “Anything you want to talk about?”

Martyn hesitates. “I’d… like to talk about Skizz a bit. I haven’t had a chance to fully process his death.”

Etho nods slowly, letting himself settle back. “Me neither. It all happened so suddenly.”

“It really did. He charged in there and I could hear him yelling and then suddenly… nothing. He just went down so quickly.”

Etho awkwardly pats Martyn on the shoulder. “Do you miss him?”

“I do. Weirdly, I do. And I say “weirdly” because I didn’t expect to really care about anyone except Ren. No offense.”

“None taken.”

Martyn gazes up at the sky as he searches for the right words. “Skizz was a… He was just so full of life, you know? Always chatting away about anything and everything, making jokes, trying to make people laugh. But he really cared about everyone. He took care of us. With the tunnel and giving us all golden apples and sharing his resources and always being so loyal even when his life was being threatened.”

Etho nods again. “Skizzle’s always been full of love for the world and its people. His best trait is his heart.”

“And it got him killed,” murmurs Martyn numbly.

After a moment, Etho glances sideways at him. “May I ask a question?”

“Go ahead.”

“What do you plan to do if you and Ren are the last two standing?”

Martyn considers this for a moment. “I… have plans. But I don’t think it’ll come to that.”

“You don’t?”

“No. We’re outnumbered and outgunned; we’re gonna get slaughtered within a few days.”

“We have our loyalty,” Etho says.

“But they have the numbers and they’re united by their hatred for us,” responds Martyn. “They have a common enemy and they won’t betray each other before we’re taken down. They’re not idiots; they’ll coordinate an attack, set devastating traps, and kill us all. We’ll fight back as best we can, but they’ll take us down. If we’re lucky, they won’t force Ren to watch the three of us get executed in front of him.”

Etho frowns. “That’s a very depressing outlook.”

“It’s the most realistic. If they’re smart, they’ll be planning an ambush right now to take us down while we’re at our weakest.”

The two fall silent, gazing out at the nighttime landscape. Apart from a few mobs wandering around on the other side of the river, everything is still and silent.

“You should get some rest,” Etho says eventually. “I’ll take over the watch.”

Martyn glances back at him. “Are you sure? You’re not due to take over for another hour and a half.”

“I’m sure. You look like you need the rest. No offense.”

Martyn gives a chuckle. “None taken. Thank you.”

He climbs down the ladder and joins his remaining two friends by the fire. After adding a few logs to keep it going, he settles down near Ren, comforted somewhat by the wolfy scent coming from his sleeping king. He gazes up at the sky and pictures the faces of two people: Skizz and Jimmy. Two people he cared about, who are now gone. They were full of life and hope for the future, a better future than the raging war going on outside their respective walls.

Martyn wishes he could carry on that hope.

[seungstarss]

hi sei!! ♡ i hope you��re doing well bestie <33 i just got back home from a mock exam and caught up with recall ♡ 🙈 & omg so much happened in this update!! i was suspicious of mrs yang, but i didn’t expect that reveal at all! also rei 😣💔 i’m a little disappointed in her, but my girl was basically forced into it 😭,, not but srsly what’s wrong with won’s mom?? she’s like absolutely crazy 🤧 also why did her “do it any way you see fit” text to yuri sound so ominous,, helpp she genuinely seems really scary 😬 and omg won!! i feel so betrayed T_T …anyways, i absolutely loved this chapter sm, you just wrote everything so well 🥺 <33 i could feel all of yn’s emotions while reading and you captured it all perfectly 💖 tysm for the update bestie, i really enjoyed it! hopefully this ask makes sense lol, my brain’s a little worn out from the test i took earlier 🤓🤭 i hope you have a great day & ily sei ! ♡

Omgg fae, I hope you did well on your mock exam! I hope you're staying healthy and getting lots of rest! But omg I'm glad you liked it aaaaa

Mrs. Yang is really evil manipulating rei into doing this :( I honestly can't blame rei bc gosh like what else could u have done in that situation. It a matter of family 😭 but yes Mrs. Yang needs fcking jail. At the same time,,,, we finally realized the main culprit behind her accident! Yep turns out it was jw himself :(( even though he wasn't the one who physically pushed her, he did cause everything

But aaaa I'm really glad you could feel her emotions 🥺💖 thank you sm for reading

[maiverie]

That's right I'm saurr slayful🤪🤪🤪 and yeah!! It started on the 17th(?) of Feb. But everything is online and I haven't even been on campus ONCE YET💀I'm tok scared to go and since it's not compulsory for me I'll just keep chilling at home until the time comes✌️

Technically I am in the humanities faculty because I do English and linguistics (I did philosophy last year and it was ass,, -516161711/10 do not recommend😒) Psychology is in the community health sciences faculty but they allow people from humanities to take it too!! It's really interesting!!

And omg same!! But for me it's kind of like,, "oooh I have this super great amazing idea in my head but I can't for the life of me write it the way I want to" and then I just don't write it lol💀

And yes yes yes I'd be so honoured to tag you even though I think you're amazing and I'm lowkey scared you're gonna hate my writinv BUT I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE YOU🤩🤩🤩 it's also my first time doing a written series so I'm really nervous. I'll probably only start posting it next month tho,, cause I've got an smau going on and even though I have an update schedule I don't stick to it and now I'm behind🙂

OOFT THATS SO ROUGHHHHH BUT NO THATS EXACTLY RIGHT COS WHY WOULD U DO ANYTHING THAT ISN'T COMPULSORY 🥴 JUST UHH WATCH THE RECORDING KSJDJDSJ

OHHHHHH oh my gosh yes yes yes pls the humanities are so so cool??? pls ive always thought philosophy was cool but like SURELY only from a distance.... cos if i ever have to take a philosophy course im convinced i would literally hate it so much BAHAHAHHAHA AND OOOHHH yes psychology is so cool ;-;

RIGHTTTT YES SYES EXACTLY??? OH MY GODDD i always come up w sm plot ideas but the thought of having to execute them makes me wanna unalive myself bc i really cannot be fucked ;-; writing is so so so draining i swear T_T NAURRRR WHATTTT ID BE SO HONOURED TO BE UR TL 🥺 omg idrk what im doing w writing these days tbh im in my flop era istg SKJDFJSD BUT I FIND THAT reading other peoples work always gets me so inspired??? hehehe aND YASSS A WRITTEN SERIESSSS OH GODDDD i notice a lot of ppl on tumblr don't really read/write written series as much anymore so ;-; super excited for u hehe YOU GOT THIS?! IM SO EXCITEDDDDD i hope u can spare the time to write in between uni and stuff tho 😔 ik ur schedule be packing so make sure to take care of urself omg 😭

[sanchoyo]

the reason im behind on bnha is bc I do prefer to binge read things only bc I lose interest very fast if I have to wait for weekly/monthly updates on things...thats also the reason ive fallen a bit behind on dracula daily (that and the fact it keeps going to my promotional inbox instead of the main inbox so I don't see them, oops) ...knowing im like That, I'm considering maybe...when the new tmm anime starts releasing, just blacklisting everything related to tmm until its done and I can binge it all @_@ tho I'm not sure how many eps itll be and stuff so...it could be hard to go that long w/out getting spoiled on new stuff...and seeing weekly memes and theories and art/general content/discussions IS fun!! but...ugh my brain has a hard time with weekly stuff like that for whatever reason T_T I guess I'll think on it and decide closer to time

[minyeodan]

your reply about the minbooties was very cute, i'm not the same anon but i've always admired you and want to thank you for your translations. just wondering because you mentioned if that there are different reasons why you would ship min with each minbooties, could you list why hehe you don't have to if you don't want to ^^

i’m honestly kind of shocked that people care about what i have to say??? and about the minbooties?? LOL am i being too low in self-esteem? >

i’ll answer about why i ship each minbooties sinner with minhyun under the cut!

@2hyeons​ ying and minhyun are really similar, it’s probably why i like them both so much as human beings and want to protect them? they won’t complain but instead just endure… they are really loving. there have been a few times ying has reached out to me privately when i expressed feeling sad to check in, and i really appreciated that so much. and i imagine that’s how minhyun does it for jonghyun… i think ying and min are very similar in that they are genuinely kind-hearted, immediately likeable, and very warm-hearted. they are sincere and GOOD at what they do, but don’t brag about their achievements. they make you feel valued as a human being when they talk to you, so as a couple they’d be the pairing you wouldn’t mind third wheeling :)

@cafewoozi​ (hyuncakes) my impression of bonnie is that she’s really cheerful and positive! minhyun’s way of speech is really like… idk when it’s translated you miss a lot of the nuances T_T but it’s a really soft, pretty way of talking! and bonnie is kinda the equivalent in english – never says things critically, always kindly. they are also both the type to always acknowledge everyone in a group. like bonnie will always make effort to acknowledge something said even if it was hours ago lol because she really cares about everyone feeling valued. minhyun is also a behind-the-scenes kind of leader, like when jong was teaching hyunbin, minhyun is always next to him helping him. and that’s like the perfect example of how i see bonnie’s personality – quietly there, always supporting but never taking the spotlight.

@emperorhwangs​ rui is so, so funny but also like, aggressively affectionate?? she’s kind of like seonho LOLOL just shooting love beams everywhere and iconic no matter what she does. i think she’d bring a ton of excitement + love to minhyun, and he’d act annoyed with her but he actually really loves it. she’s also extremely supportive – i’d once talked about feeling stressed about something and she was like ‘I’M HERE’ and it’s like wow, how is she only 17?? she’s really mature & gives off these unnie vibes sometimes lol and this paradox of her being both lovey + mature matches with minhyun, who’s the squishy loving puppy in nu’est but acts as an admirable hyung in wanna one.

@hwangminyeo​ abby’s visuals and sweet personality go really well with minhyun. she acts like a leader for our gc (our sinner leader!) – even though i was the one who kind of suggested the gc, i didn’t want to handle the logistics bc im so bad at stuff like that >

@minhwangs​ sarah is the cutest little bean. ahhh okay so she’s just super, super funny and so open about worshipping the minbooty??? so i think her relationship with min would be like baekmin! min is known as the ‘baekho controller’ so i think he’d give sarah witty responses to all her funny antics. but sarah is also extremely thoughtful, even though at first you might think she’s just an energetic person. she’s quite mature and so i think at times when minhyun is having a hard time, she’d be able to give him real support by both making him laugh but also providing a lot of kind words and hugs. i think she’d be perceptive of how he’s feeling even when he’s trying to hide it and would respond appropriately and accordingly – like if he’s trying to hide his sadness, she’d point it out and emphasize he doesn’t have to hide it, and that she’s there for him?

ahahahah i feel like this turned into a love letter for each of the minbooties (hi bebs i love you all!) but anyway this is why i think they match with minhyun!!! :D

[fluffi]

so should i reply in tiny font or just regular font?

hybe should do better in spreading out the comebacks of the groups under them :/ they're already at a huge advantage, might as well use it strategically. AHA streaming mvs is so convenient for a multi. the filler vids i could use in between could be mvs from the other groups that i stan. also you know what, i still haven't watched a single final performance bc im waiting for a friend to watch with me :D

i have a chinese movie recommendation in case you want something to cry over. i still love its ost and it's been months since i watched it. i'm not sure if you watched it already but more than blue. i've never cried over a movie as much as i cried for that one. the angst *chef's kiss*. i'd do anything to wipe my memory of it and watch it again for the first time.

also sungchan is mc-ing in inkigayo every sunday! and honestly, what the hell is nct hollywood :D but a part of me thinks it's just going to be a bunch of asians living in america like johnny that'll be a part of it. just a hunch tho. imagine having all 4 units coming back in a year with like 1 unit per quarter of the year. i'm not sure if sm even has the money to do this, especially when they filed bankruptcy recently.

and i've seen a lot of twitter memes saying taro's ghosted stans T_T alexa play ghosting by txt T_T sm come on give him smth to do, you're wasting talent.

the mall didn't burn down entirely (like from the outside it looked fine). the ventilation system caught fire so it was more internal—ceilings and all that. covered things with soot(?) and ashes so the entire mall was closed for nearly 2 years. and hey, i've experienced a school fire too back when i was younger. i, too, thought it was nothing but a fire drill until i saw the charred remains of the buildings behind our school : D thankfully, no one died.

the new nct track is for a samsung commercial AHAHA it's funny because nearly everyone uses apple TT_TT and the mv screams neo culture tech tho (well as it should lmao). yes, i was talking about that part in hot sauce but yes, it grew on me too.

ateez really know how to do a performance. they put the standard so high for me when it came to performing. their facial expressions and overall stage presence just impresses me. it's been a while since i've seen idols draw me to them by those standards.

ah, the long stan list! good luck in getting through it and i hope you do have fun as you go :] (also you can check out aurora by ateez and whiplash by tbz. the songs popped up in my head as i was typing this reply, you might like them)

ohhhh, what was the pd48 scandal? i don't watch survival shows so i don't know any of the stuff going on. would you care to elaborate? about their disbandment :(( i hope you're okay now tho! are the other girls still debuting in new groups? anyone eyeing an acting career instead of being an idol?

YES, A PATTERN IN THE BIASES (if you count an analysis of two ppl as a pattern, that is.) because it's the same pattern i have for my biaswreckers :D jake & seungmin, not only do they have the same animal to represent them, they have the same 'golden retriever' type of personality that just makes you go all soft. ygwim ;n; i wish i could elaborate but both boys just devastate me in the same level and my friends pointed out that they were quite similar in some aspects.

jaemin used to send really long bbl messages :< like if there was anything he loved most it was nctzens and it was obv in his messages. speaking of dream, album repackage news today! idk what to feel bc my hot sauce albums haven't even arrived yet :D + i'm dead br0ke.

how do you even manage to read 30k TT__TT i cant handle long fics bc of my attention span :D also, yes, i found the user now, i'll check if i'll like their works soon. <33

YES YOU SHOULDVE BEEN THERE T_T what a day that was. i think seungmin is still sweet and active in bbl. not a single cent goes to waste with him. also i think i'll post the drabble some time this month.

and oml seungmin vs jake :o let's see how that goes O.O XDD

clickity-clackity AHAH do you have a mechanical keyboard? :c i wanted one too but i haven't got around to saving up for one. but yes indeed, typing asmr v relaxing \m/

sunny hyuck day, fullsun sunday, fullsunday T_T feels were very strong that day. i kept seeing edits on my twt tl and i would just s o b : D i've only stanned nct for a year but i've seen him grow so much i just wanted to crie i love him sm :') yk my mom didn't cook spaghetti for my birthday, but she cooked for hyuck's? : D

and i checked ur recs blog and indeed, full of nct T_T

also have i mentioned that your desktop thing amuses me so much HAHAH i got confused for a sec if i had twt opened or tumblr. plus, i've been wanting to mention that i noticed that our mobile themes are opposites. black and red, white and blue. it's cute XDD <3

help, people have been telling me that our asks are long but i highkey love it. i added a ‘keep reading’ for the mobile users though, sorry in advance hh.

honestly, both works. tiny font saves space but regular font does more justice for my poor eyes haha. its your call!

hybe comebacks :( yeah enhypen got lucky because they came back right before cb season so they got three wins (yay)! on the bright side, txt just got their first win and bts has six wins, so it all works out i guess. omg yes, the streaming thing is perfect. i stan like 20 groups so i have a never-ending cycle of filler mvs and its always so helpful. ooh for the final performances - you wont regret watching any of them! literally wild, kingdom's budget and talent are wild.

ooh, I don't watch any cdramas lmao. i want to but i can barely finish kdramas. if its a movie ill watch it! ive never heard of more than blue but ill check it out <3 where can i watch it?

yes yes i have just realized that sungchan is yujin's co-mc! i watched their special stage (which is literally adorable) and was today years old when i realized that the dude is sungchan pls. nct hollywood was so unexpected and i still have mixed feelings about it now. LMAO JUST ASIANS LIVING IN AMERICA...help. that would be interesting (?) but the concept reminds me of those horrendous awesomeness tv shows. lets hope sm pulls this off well and proves me wrong. lmao all 4 units coming back would probably happen, but i hope none of them get overworked :( i constantly feel like mork lee has four clones :'( also...sm filed bankcruptcy??? dang, what happened?

ugh omg yeah shotaros talent is seriously being wasted in the basement right now. as for fires, scary T-T i wasnt that fazed by them until the australia wildfires happened, and i learned about the consequences of fire and got really scared. its good that the entire mall didnt burn down though! although its weird that no one is opening it :( schools really need to tell us the difference between drills though, it might be dangerous for those rebellious kids.

yeah i just realized that the nct track is an endorsement which partly explains why i cant listen to it. the mv's visuals are stunning!! the set and people are so gorgeous aa i cant

oh yeah im not an atiny but i have acknowledged since 2020 that they have one of the best, if not the best stage presence and expressions on stage for 4th gen. i think their only worthy competitor would be stray kids actually. theyre truly one of a kind and all of them are cute especially that yeosang guy. i will definitely check out your song recommendations though!

oof the pd48 scandal is extremely complicated. to condense it in a few statements: all of the girls' rankings have been rigged since the very beginning and it was rumored that they already had their end group before the show even started. it was like this for pf48 and pdx101 (group x1) which was why x1 disbanded within a month of debuting, and izone were on hiatus for like 4 months. im not the best at explaining stuff like this haha, but i think you get it. you can check out yt or search up 'pd48 scandal', a ton of articles and videos. as for new groups, nothing has been made clear yet. theyve only made instagram handles for now and appeared on variety shows haha. as for acting career, hyewon was supposed to do acting but was forced to join pd48 so maybe she'll continue acting afterwards? nothing is confirmed yet!

lmao two similarities, its okay it counts. ah, true, i can see their similarities now that youve mentioned it, as well as how jeno is kind of like that. however, i am currently attached to jaemin so we'll see what happens from there hehe. i swerve easily.

jaemin on bubble grr, that would be a whole experience. from the bare minimum of vidoes ive seen for him wbk jaemin is so whipped for czennies. ah yes repackage! i saw the post on instagram and went to the comments to see everything screaming ‘iM bROke!’ and it was lowkey hilarious lmao. kpop is really trying to suck our money T-T.

ope the longest fic ive read is like...40k words i think? and it was by jeonginks. ill read anything eiko produces lmao, theres always so much substance in her work. ooh, tell me what you think of luvdsc’s stuff, i just finished binging their entire masterlist lmao.

seungmin vs jake yeah, i havent been catching up on skz enha content because im still obsessing over the dreamies but when that saga is over then im going to focus on my ults lmao (which might include dream soon, hehe).

yes yes i have a mechanical bluetooth keyboard that i use to connect to my computer! it literally sounds amazing lmao, its only 10am here but i feel like im going to doze off from the clickity clackitys already. i cant wait for you to get one! tell me when you do, we can match hehe.

hyuck is an aodrable brat please. hes like the best comedian of nct at this point, so hilarious and filled with variety i love him. he rose up my bias list pretty fast too. LMAO YOUR MOM IS SO COOL I LOVE HER ALREADY. if only my mom would cook for my ults’ borndays.

yes my rec blog is a mess right now, ill organize it soon haha.

omg thank you and yes my website theme is one-of-a-kind. even i get confused when i open it or edit it, and i constantly get comments about it. also i just realized our opposing theme colors and i love it! its adorable.