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patd--phan · 4 years ago

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Wanna Be Yours

Pairing: Dadsbestfriend! Bucky (mid/late 40s) x reader (in early/mid twenties)

Summary: Y/N surprises bucky on a business trip and he promises to be hers.

Warnings: SMUTTY stuff (18+ only pleasee), unprotected sex, creampie, oral sex (m receiving), riding, teasing, significant age gap, reader takes charge, “Doll/sweets/baby/sweetheart”, some cute ass shit at the beginning and end tho

WC: about 3K im sorry I was really H*rny yesterday and I was unable to do anything about it as i was stuck in the car all damn day

Note: So I was really h*rny yesterday and this happened lol I’m sorry. Loosely based on the song wanna be yours-arctic monkeys. Also this will probably be the only smut I ever write bc I don’t wanna become an 18+ blog or make anyone uncomfortable (not that 18+ blogs are bad tho lemme set that straight, most of my fav blogs are)

PS thank you for the love on my first ever fic with Peter Parker x reader, it made me so happy that ppl didn’t think I suck lol ( and i guess i lied saying i would probably never write another one shot lol)

You do NOT have my permission to repost this anywhere, I will come for u if you plagiarize ok bye

It was no secret that Bucky liked to be in charge in the bedroom, and you had absolutely no problem with that. After all, he was older and more experienced; he knew how to make your body sing. But this week you were craving something a little different. Bucky had been away on a business trip all weekend and you really missed him, not just the sex (but I mean…) but just cuddling and talking to him about your day; you were feeling clingy. You decide to text bucky even though you knew he couldn’t answer right away because he was currently in a meeting.

Y/N: I mis youu :( when will you be back tomorrow?

You just wandered around your apartment for the next 20 minutes, casually checking your phone about every 30 seconds just in case bucky was able to sneak in a text. He finally replied after 30 minutes, right as his meeting was ending at 3.

Bucky: Hey doll, I miss you too <3

Bucky: unfortunately one of the investors this morning had to push their meeting to late tomorrow afternoon, so I’m not gonna be home until very late tomorrow night :(

Y/N: dammit :(

Y/N: well good luck at the pitch meeting tomorrow, I love and miss you <3

Bucky: don’t gimme that pout I know your making doll, ill see you tonight on facetime! :)

Y/N: haha u know me so well, and yes you’ll see me tonight ;) (but I still miss u)

Bucky: I know doll I hate it too, see you tonight. Love you <3

Y/n: love you too <3

You didn’t know if you could go until late Monday without seeing bucky. As you laid on the couch smiling sadly about missing your love, an idea popped into your head. He was only two and a half hours away, and he wouldn’t be back at his hotel for another 4 hours at least. Fuck it, you were gonna go drive to his hotel and surprise him. You couldn’t be away so long, you felt super clingy this weekend and you needed to be on top of with him.

You quickly ran around your apartment, packing an overnight bag and you saw the package that arrived earlier on your floor that you completely forgot about because you couldn’t stop thinking of Bucky. You remembered its contents e(a completely evil lingerie set) and threw it in the bag with a smirk on your face.

The drive to Bucky’s hotel felt like forever and you had to remind yourself to stop speeding because you were so excited. When you finally got to his hotel, you had to convince the manager to give you a key to his room, proving that you were the man’s girlfriend with several pictures on your phone which was slightly embarrassing because in almost every picture, at least one of you was half-naked. Worth it. You thought. When you arrived in his room you quickly went into the bathroom to change into a little black dress (with a surprise underneath). Then as you were sitting on his bed waiting for him, you realized it would still be a while before he would get back, so you decided to tidy up his things, packing his clothes and organizing his suitcase. Pleased with your work, you sat back down on the bed and looked at your phone for a while. You finally got pulled out of your Instagram daze when you heard Bucky’s voice in the hallway laughing at something a coworker said. You quickly threw your phone on the dresser, straightened up you dress, and sat at the edge of the bed with a huge smile on your face, giddy to surprise him.

As he turned the doorknob he was still looking behind him talking to the man. When he finally said goodbye and turned his head around, his eyebrows raised up and his jaw dropped, which was quickly replaced with a smile even larger than yours.

“What are you doing here?” he asked, running towards you and throwing his briefcase on the floor.

He picked you up in a tight hug and you squealed, legs immediately wrapping around his waist.

“I told you you’d see me tonight!” you said, still clung to him like a koala.

“W-what?” He replied, still in shock. Letting your legs fall back to the floor.

“I just missed you too much” you shrugged.

If any human could embody “heart eyes” it was Bucky at that moment- he’s such a softie for you. He pulled your face towards him and gave you one of the most loving kisses you’ve ever had in your life. You were expecting it to be passionate and rough, but it was soft, delicate and loving, and your heart melted into a puddle. After your lips parted, you gazed into each other’s eyes before being pulled up in another tight hug. You giggled and wrapped your legs around him again.

“I guess you missed me too huh?” you laughed.

“Oh doll, you have no idea.”

You wrapped your hands in his hair, massaging his neck and he moaned loudly.

“Mm, that feels nice.” He hummed.

“You tired baby?” you asked, he seemed like he needed some TLC (and you were ready to give it to him).

“I am so exhausted.” He replied, making you frown behind his back.

You slowly slid down his body, back onto your feet again, and kept massaging his head. He looked at you lovingly before looking around his hotel room, his eyebrows pulled in confusion.

“Did you clean up in here?”

“Yep, while I was waiting for ya,” you replied, smiling.

His whole face softened.

“Oh, I really don’t deserve you doll.” Making you smile and shake your head.

“Oh yes you do.” You replied making him smile and his heart flutter in his chest.

He pulled you in for another kiss, this one with more fire and longing in it than the last one. His large hands grabbed you ass to pull you closer to him and you moaned into the kiss. You pressed your body against him even tighter and ran your hands through his hair making him moan. You could feel his pants tent start to grow against you and you smirked and moved you lips down to the side of his neck making him groan.

You pull back and look at him, hard and eyes half lidded, it turns you on so much you feel your panties dampening.

“Hey Buck?” you whisper, lips mere inches apart.

“Hmm?” he hums in response.

“I have another surprise for you.” You whisper into his ear before pulling back to look at his face.

“What’s that, doll?” he whispers.

You smirk and step away from him, noticing the confusion on his face before you pull your dress over your head and throw it onto the floor.

Bucky’s jaw drops, making you bite your lip and smirk even more. This was gonna be fun.

“Oh, fuck me,” He groans.

“Oh, I fully intend on it, Buck” you smirk.

He just groans and starts walking towards you.

“Buck?”

“Yeah sweets?”

“Wanna be mine tonight?”

“Fuck, I’ll be yours forever doll.” He says, making you whimper. You pull him against you by his tie, pressing your bodies together.

Your lips crash and tongues swirl together fighting for dominance. Hands moving up and down each other’s bodies like animals. Bucky squeezing your ass so tight you know there’s gonna be marks.

You both pull back enough so you can shimmy off Bucky’s tie and throw it over his head before unbuttoning his shirt and peeling it off him. You then sink to your knees and undo his belt quickly before slowly unzipping his pants, kissing the outside of his member though his pants making him exhale a breath sharply.

“Fuck” he breathes out.

You don’t want to tease him too much (yet) so after another kiss, you shove his pants off and lay down on the bed, his body caging you under him.

The passionate makeout session resumes with Bucky still hard in his boxers pressing against your clothed core. You suddenly remember what you wanted and pull back from the kiss.

“Wait, no” you whisper.

Bucky pulls back, confused and nervous he did something to hurt you.

“What’s wrong?” he whispers.

You take advantage of his confusion and roll him over so you were straddling him with a smirk on your face.

Bucky moans at your actions, core pressing tight against him.

“You said you’d be mine.” You breathe over his lips. Moaning as being in charge is giving you a whole rush of feelings and confidence.

You kiss him, and he lets you dominate the kiss this time, biting his lips and grinding on him. He bucks his hips onto your and you pull back.

“Don’t worry baby, I’ll take care of you, I’ll make you feel so good.”

Bucky moans at your words as you start to kiss all the way down his body, leaving little hickies down his chest. When you get towards his boxers he thinks your gonna kiss his member or pull down his boxers, but instead you go back up his chest, licking a stripe from his belly button all the way to one of his nipples, up his neck, to his lips.

Bucky moans, loud. You give him one more kiss before deciding to stop teasing him (kinda). You quickly kiss down his chest again and then plant a few kisses on his aching cock through his boxers. He bucks his hips and is whimpering under you. Fuck, that turns you on. Your big strong boyfriend who could probably crush you with one arm, whimpering and practically begging under you. Your panties are fucking soaked and you don’t think you can deny your own pleasure too much longer. You pull down his boxers and his cock is throbbing and dripping precum.

“Shit” you moan at the sight.

You lick the precum off him and he gives a high pitched moan that goes straight to your core.

“Baby please, I- I can’t.”

“Don’t worry baby I got you.” You reply as you take his full member into your mouth, sucking lightly.

Bucky moans and bucks his hips into your mouth. You push them back down and suck a few more times before getting off of him. He looks worried for a second before you slide your panties off and straddle his cock.

“Still wanna be mine?”

“Always” he replies.

You sink down onto him, jaw dropping and eyes closing at the feeling. You don’t think you’ll ever get used to him no matter how many times he’s been inside you. You both moan as his whole cock is finally buried inside you.

“Fuck Bucky, you feel so fucking good in me.” You moan, starting to rock your hips.

“God, I’m so fucking wet for you.”

Bucky continues to give low moans as you start to ride him.

“Fuck baby, I love you like this.” He says, making you start to ride him harder, moaning at his words.

His hands come grab your hips to help you ride him faster, harder.

“Baby- shit I’m close already.” He pleads.

“All for me? Shit baby aren’t I the lucky one?” You moan.

Bucky’s grip on your hips tighten and he starts to fuck up into you. He was about to blow.

You moan loudly at the feeling. “Cum in me baby please I need it.”

After a particularly hard thrust into your wet pussy you feel him spilling inside you. He lets out one of those vulgar high pitched moans and grunts that make your brain short circuit and your eyes roll back while your pussy clenches around him. You feel yourself getting close, but you want to give him another orgasm, so you sink down on him fully and slowly ride him, hearing him whimpering and moaning. You feel him get hard in you again (thank you supersoldier serum) and you rock back and forth on him. You reach down to rub your clit, but Bucky sees it and swats your hand away, replacing it with his metal one.

“Oh fuck” you moan at the cool sensation.

You start to bounce up and down on him again, the knot in your abdomen building and heating up. You feel yourself close to being undone as you ride him and his other hand runs up your body and squeezes your nipple through your thin lace bra. You moan and feel yourself clench around him, making him moan.

“Fuck- I’m gonna c-“ you get interrupted by the white hot explosion of your orgasm. Your eyes roll back, jaw hangs open and toes curl as you feel that release knock throughout your whole body, making you shake. You let out those high pitched moans and whines that only Bucky makes you feel.

Feeling you clench around him and watching your completely fucked out face, you feel Bucky’s thick cock twitch inside of you, and you moan as you feel him release in you again. Fuck that makes you feel good. So good you can’t think or move and you start to collapse on top of Bucky, but he slightly catches you and lays you down on his chest, both breathing heavy, with his cock still inside you, cum dripping all down your legs and onto Bucky.

You can’t speak, can’t think, the pleasure totally ruining you. After what feels like forever, you feel your breathing start to return to normal, as does Bucky’s, and you feel his hand rubbing up and down your back, grounding you back to earth from wherever on cloud nine you were.

You hum as you feel yourself finally calm down.

“Holy fuck, doll” you feel him lowly whine in your ear. You can only moan lowly in response.

“Baby that was fucking amazing.”

“Mmhmm.” You hum.

“…but I think I’m gonna lose my mind if you keep clenching around me.” He chuckles.

“oh shit, sorry,” you mumble out. You try to push up off of him but the farthest you got was placing your hands on his shoulders before your body gave up on you.

“Oh my God, I can’t move” you whisper. You’re so fucked out, your body won’t respond to your brain anymore.

Bucky moans at your words and slowly rolls both of you so youre on your side facing him. He reaches down and pulls his soft cock out of your pussy, moaning when he sees a burst of cum leaking from you.

You moan at the feeling of him exiting your body. You look him in the eyes and give him a lazy smile. His eyes sparkle back at you and his hand comes up to rub your cheek.

“Mm” you hum at the feeling.

“That was fucking incredible” he says, making you smile wider.

“I’m not disagreeing” you quip.

He chuckles lightly before saying “you gotta do this more often.”

“What, surprise you on business trips?” you question.

“No” he rolls his eyes and smiles, “Well yes actually, but I was talking about you absolutely taking charge tonight.”

“Oh yeah?” you smirk.

“Fuck yeah doll, I don’t think I’ve ever cum as hard. You looked so damn sexy in charge.”

You look away from his eyes, shying at his words, but also they were giving you the confidence to look right back into his eyes and say “I agree” with a smirk.

“I love hearing those high pitched moans you make, It turns me on so much” you admit.

“You know, only you can get those noises out of me, doll” he chides. You blush and smile at him.

He chuckles and you bring his face towards yours and kiss him deeply, tongues meeting together. You both hum into the kiss as his hand rubs down the side of your body.

When you break the kiss, both of you needing a breath, he pulls your body towards him, resting your head on his chest. You hum in peace as he rubs your back.

“I love you so much Y/N” he says and you feel your heart absolutely burst in your chest.

“I love you so much too Buck,” you reply, lifting your head to peck him on the lips before placing your head back on his chest.

You lay in silence for a minute before your mind begins to wander again.

“Did you mean it?” you ask.

“Mean what, doll?”

“That you’ll be mine forever?” you ask. “I mean not just in the sexy way but that you’ll be with me forever?” you ramble out.

“God yes sweetheart, you’re the one for me.” He responds and you didn’t think your heart could explode anymore, but it just did.

You squeeze his shoulder with your hand before coming up to kiss him passionately again, almost crying at all of the love going though you.

“I promise I’m all yours forever too, Buck” you smile at him.

“Good,” he smiles back, and you rest back on his chest, eyes getting droopy.

“Night-night sweetheart.” You feel yourself smile in your sleep.

“Goodnight my love.” You reply, further cuddling into his chest. Bucky feels his heart combust in his chest. God, wasn’t he lucky to have you. He didn’t know what he did to deserve you, but he knew that he was going to assure you that you deserve the world every day for the rest of his life. He kissed the top of your head before falling into a deep sleep, content with his favorite person tight in his arms.

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haysgrove · 3 years ago

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Ever since that one blooper of Remus cleaning up the plates, I have this one headcanon where Remus can not stand a messy area and he has to clean it. Unless it has a purpose.

Like is the room messy to make Thomas think he's terrible for not keeping his house tidy and not being a responsible adult (aka give Thomas intrusive thoughts)? That's fine in Remus's eyes. But if it's messy just because, like you couldn't bother to clean up, there's no reason for this area to be messy yet it still is? He has this urge to clean up.

Everywhere except the kitchen and bathroom, because those are areas where you need soap to clean and we all know why Remus can't be near soap.

TL;DR: Remus has an urge to clean up if there's a mess without a purpose.

For a big dinner or smth that Thomas has ppl over therefore theres A Lot of dishes to wash Thomas is like "I cant be bothered to clean those. I'll do it tomorrow" Remus is Summoned and hes like

"Clean Those Right Fucking Now."

"YESSIR"

#ask #sanders sides #remus sanders

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kerraelas · 5 years ago

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so my brother -- a whole assload of a douche, yeah?

he has this great habit of only cleaning his room when it's practically impossible to even move around in there. resulting in at least -- AT LEAST -- 5 trash bags full of, well, trash. and i'm not talking grocery bags. i'm takking those heavy duty black bags that ppl use for yardwork. it's full of take out trash, old food, junk he brings home from work, soda cans, if it's unhealthy, he's got it.

not to mention all the plates and shit he leaves out on the railing until someone else cleans it up bc god forbid he does something around the house. last time i cleaned it off -- about 2-3 weeks ago, mind you -- here were seven-fucking-teen plates, four bowls, countless forks and spoons, and an armful of glasses. there have since been more placed on there with old rice and dried whatever-the-fuck-he-eats. but, the dished are beside the point.

you see, he works on the weekdays and is off on the weekends. the trash gets picked up on monday mornings. which makes the weekend a GREAT time for him to clean his room! yeah, no. instead, he waits until he gets home monday afternoon OR he cleans it tuesday. now, any sensible person with any consideration of the 3 other ppl living in the household, would either a) leave the bags in their room until they have the time to throw them out or b) throw them out immediately upon finishing the cleaning.

but no, not my brother. oh no. he leaves them right in the middle of the hallway, blocking any path and any door, until the next trash day. which, again, is a week away.

moving said trashbags to the side of the hallway does nothing bc the hallway is quite small and you still have to pick your way over them.

asking him, politely, to take them into the garage also does nothing but cause him to yell at you and tell you to do it yourself.

but that's not the funny part. the funny part is that he asked me to empty and load the dishwasher so he can bring the dishes that are in his room (believe it or not folks, but there are MORE of his dirty dishes than the ones he leaves in thr hall!!) downstairs. or, in his unspoken word, leave them piling up in the sink for someone else to do.

if it were someone else who asked, i would gladly do so. but, as i mentioned, he does jack shit around the house. he hasn't done the dishes in around... a year, he doesn't clean the bathroom at all, he stopped feeding the animals on his turn a few years ago so i had to take over, and more! that on top of the fact that i had just cleaned the kitchen a few weeks prior and he had already made it into a mess again (i gave up after the first couple days of trying to get him to clean his shit off and put it away), i wasn't gonna do a single thing for him!

to try and bribe me, he said he'd order me food(hah) and, get this, put his trash in the garage. that's right! as a reward for me doing his shit for him, he was going to do something that should really have been done in the first place.

of course, i say no. because, again, i'm not helping him when he acts the way he does.

his response? leaving every single one of his 6 damned trash bags piled up in front of my room and the bathroom.

i figured, it's his trash. if he's not putting it outside, then it should be in his room. so i decided that if he didn't take it out by the time he left for work today, i was going to put the bags back in his room. sounds reasonable, right? not harsh, not rude, just a reasonable act. it is, after all, his mess.

now i know my brother. my brother's a grade A, anger-riddle, asshat of a douche. so i know the consequences of me doing that. i KNOW he's going to get pissed and throw the bags in my room and yell at me. do i care? abso-fuckin-lutely not!

as expected, the bags are still right in the middle of the walkway and infront of the doors this morning! i put them in his room. not blocking his door or his bed or desk, mind you. they're tucked nicely out of the way so he can get to everything. unless he needed to get to his closet(which he doesn't use except to pile up more trash).

also as expected, he gets home and starts throwing the bags in my room, and yellinh when i tell him that he should take them outside, and that they don't belong in the hallway. i also say that it's not my trash. it's his. it doesn't belong in my room. he says, and i quote, "they don't belong in my room either."

well, my good bastardous sir, they do if you're not throwing them away at the moment. it as after all, yours.

he also adds on that "just for that, if i get sick then i'm getting you sick"

would you look at that! he's fucking threatening me for not doing, in my opinion, anything wrong!

and guess what? the bags are back infront of my door and the bathroom door! i hope he realises they're just going to end up back in his room tomorrow. even if his door is locked, i know where the screwdrivers are.

i just wish he realised there are other people living here than just him and that the other people here are not just here to slave away to him. this doesn't just go for his messes. it goes for him running the washer in the middle of the night(which would be perfectly fine if the washer didn't noisily shake the entire house). it goes for him yelling at his game in the middle of the night. and it goes for him leaving the very bright hall lights on IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAMNED NIGHT (actually scratch that. he leaves on every light even if he doesn't need the light at all).

remember how i mentioned that there were about 17 plates of his on the railing? he starts going off on me when there are no plates in the kitchen. all i can do is just stare blankly because if he just cleaned up after himself, we wouldn't have this problem.

#rant #vent #long post #long reads

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melkeyway · 5 years ago

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Rowvember Day 15: Tenuous

Saints Row, Gwen (Boss), Johnny

On Ao3

Summary: Gwen’s patience was tenuous at best and that wasn’t saying much.

Gwen flopped down on her Mama’s couch with a frustrated sigh. She was tired of this shit. Tired of couch surfing. She couldn’t sleep at any of the crips because there were always people there and there always seemed to be a party. She needed peace and quiet in order to get her beauty sleep. Her patience was wearing thin. She pulled out her cellphone and began to text a very familiar number.

Gwen: Im tired of crashin on my moms couch

Johnny: Not a crib?

Gwen: 2 many ppl

Johnny: Just threaten and kick em out

Gwen rolled her eyes, of course he would suggest that.

Gwen: Good idea. Id have to clean the bed tho

Johnny: And u call me the diva

Gwen: O fuck off

Gwen sighed again and sunk further into the couch. There was a couple of minutes of silence before her phone buzzed again. She didn’t have a chance to check it when her ex-boyfriend turned stepfather, Lucius, fell down on her legs. Lucius and her biological mother had been crashing at her Moms’ place for a while.

“Gweeeeen~!” Lucius groaned dramatically.

“Fuckin’ get off me,” Gwen warned and kicked him once she managed to free one of her legs. Their last meeting hadn’t gone well.

“Fiiine,” he sighed and rolled away onto the empty side of the couch.

Gwen’s patience was wearing thin. In the best of times, her patience was tenuous. What did she ever see in him? What a stupid teenager she was.

“What the fuck do you want? I’m tryin’ to sleep here.”

“Can we cuddle? Maybe a little more?” He asked leaning forward.

“Fuck no,” she answered simply and kicked him away, “Go bug your wife. Get her to suck your dick instead some other guy.” He winced and gave her a hurt look. Good. “I’m warning you once, don’t touch me.”

“She’s out on a date. I wasn’t invited.” God, she wished she didn’t know about their sex life.

“Not my problem. You have two hands, go deal with it yourself.”

“Don’t be mean,” Lucius placed a hand on her knee. Her eyes narrowed. That does it. “Please, for old t---”

She grabbed his hand and slammed it into the coffee table. She grabbed the back of his head and slammed it into the table as well. He cried out loudly in pain and held his nose with his free hand.

“I fuckin’ told you to keep your hands to yourself,” she snapped. She took the pistol she had resting on the coffee table and slammed the butt of it into his fingers. He screamed out. “Keep it down, don’t wake up my family. I wouldn’t want to cut off your tongue.” She wrenched his pinky unnaturally. “Looks like you’ll only have use of one hand now.”

“Wh-why?” He whimpered through the pain.

“Cause you didn’t listen. You need to---” she started when her phone began to ring. She answered it without looking at the caller id and put it on speaker.

“Yo, did you fuckin’ fall asleep or something?” Johnny asked as soon as she answered.

“Nah, I’m just breakin’ Lucius fingers here.” She twisted around his next two fingers, “Fucker doesn’t know how to keep his hands to himself.”

“P-please s-stop,” Lucius begged in response.

“Lucius? Ain’t that your ex from Steelport?”

“No, he’s the one that married my mother.” Another finger. More cries. “He had it comin’.”

“Serves the fucker right,” Johnny agreed with a laugh. “So listen, I wanna run somethin’ by you.”

“Yeah, shoot,” Gwen wrenched his thumb.

“Please...Gwen, stop…” Lucius cried.

“Shut the fuck up! Aaand lucky for you, you have no more fingers,” Gwen kicked his side and he fell to the ground.

“You fuckin’ done yet?” Johnny asked impatiently.

“Yeah yeah stop bitchin’.”

“So I’ve been thinkin’. You’re tired of couch surfin’ and I need a place. How ‘bout we go fifty fifty on an apartment?”

“You sure?”

“Yeah, I don’t wanna be alone after…” He trailed off in a sad voice.

“Mhmm. I get it. You got any places in mind?”

Lucius whimpered on the floor as he slowly got up from the floor in a sitting position. Gwen paid him no mind.

“I got a few places I’m gonna look at tomorrow. You in?”

“Absolutely. I’ll pick you up in the morning?”

“Fuck yeah but I’m drivin’.”

“The fuck you are!”

“We’ll see about that,” and with that he hung up.

“Asshole,” Gwen muttered with a smile and a shake of her head.

“I need to...go to...The hospital,” Lucius cried as he finally stood up.

“Well you better get goin’ then,” Gwen responded. She laid back down on the couch. “And be quiet about it. I’m trying to fuckin’ sleep.”

#saints row #rowvember #johnny gat #saints row boss #fanfiction #gwen

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robottii · 6 years ago

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Bee Megatron Soundwave Jazz Arcee Chromia

Give me six characters and I’ll tell you who I would-

Push off a cliff = Arcee

ok im not gonna lie this pink girl scares the shit outta me and its the same instinct that makes u wanna squish a spider, the like iF ITS DEAD IT CANT MURDER ME VICIOUSLY IN MY SLEEP. If she dies im safe, but if she lives I probably wont last to see tomorrow so liek,, maybe put some sharp rocks at the bottom??? or just never go within 50 miles of her and pray someone else does it?

marry = Jazz

I mean I feel like u saw this one coming but as Jazz is the actual embodiment of all things good in the world and objectively the best character of all times I would snatch this mech up in a heartbeat he is MINE and I will PROTECT him and Michael Bay can FUCKING FIGHT ME if he wants to get within A MILLION miles of my robo husband.

kiss = Chromia

I would kiss the lesbian goddess in a heartbeat she is my queen and my bi ass would pay REAL. CASH. to spend five mintes with her i hope her and her wife Windblade live long happy lives Ironhide who

set on fire = Megatron

Okay don’t fucking @ me i reblog shit about him bc yall have amazing art but he’s a fucking bitch ass hoe who set and ENTIRE. CITY. on fire bc they agreed with his ideals but not his militant ways. These ppl were deadass like “we agree with you and want to help but can’t condone excessive violence” and this fuckhat was like ‘welp. bomb them all, i guess.’ Like sorry but there’s no coming back from that my dude, war is hell and ppl do shit but when u destroy and ENITR.E FUCKING. RACE. bc they want to remain neutral u deserve to be melted down for scraps AT BEST.

wrap a blanket around = Bee

Okay this depends on the ‘verse like TFA Bee needs a leash on at all times but Beeverse Bee aka my smol fav son of all time deserves all the hugs and blankets I will fight u about this.

be roommates with = Soundwave

Okay realistically speaking Soundwave would be the best roommate 10/10 like always silent? Has raised kids so knows how to cook/clean/etc and is responsible as shit? Tech-savvy smart person who probably knows how to get superfast wifi? He’d also probably know my entire browsing history and my SS number within the first like day tho so

#SEND ME MORE PEOPLE #transformers #maccadam #soundwave #megatron #bumblebee #arcee #chromia #jazz #Anonymous

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chonideno · 6 years ago

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Hey, deep question, how do you deal with growing up, becoming an adult, handling ppl's expectations and all that kind of crap? Ive graduated last summer, start my 1st real job tomorrow, and i'm a weird mix of completely numb/in denial and freaking out/completely lost and anxious. Idk, maybe you have some magical answer or smth.. Love your work, thank you for sharing them with us

Hey, wow that’s a lot! First of all, congrats on the graduation and the job! And I know the feeling, been there, done that. I don’t know if what I have to say will be right for you, everyone deals with this a bit differently, but here goes:

Take a step back, get some perspective. I know it’s tempting to live the moment very intensely (especially with your first day coming up), but breathe in, take some distance.You’re young. You’re just starting. Whatever stress is coming your way is not going to be the end of you. Think of yourself in a year, think of your end-of-2019 self: they’ll be much different from who you are today, and you have to work through this growth. It might take a toll on you, a lot will happen in a year, but you’ll get there. You’re fine. You’re right where you need to be. it all seems big because you’re right at the start of the journey but it’s okay. None of it will be the end of the world.

Don’t try to be everything at once. I did this, all of my friends did this, and we all crashed and burned so let me save you the trouble. Maybe one day, if you want to, you’ll be that person who wakes up at 6 without an alarm, does meditation and morning yoga, spends thirty minutes learning a foreign language then goes to work for nine hours, then goes to the book club and then to the gym, then to the bar with friends, stays on top of all the art shows in town, takes care of three pets, meal preps, volunteers at the local orphanage, runs a semi-marathon every Sunday and is currently thinking about writing a book. Maybe you’ll be that person. But right now, don’t. Take it one step at a time. If you try everything at once you’ll give up in a week and never try again. I highly encourage you to try new hobbies and cultivate new habits, but do it gradually. All in due time. Let it grow on you. Maybe try to wake up early? You’ll know when you’ll be ready for the yoga. (Talking about yoga, if your job involves lots of sitting, please look into hip stretches they will save your lower back)

About expectations, honestly you have to shrug them off. Figure out what you want, and work on that. If you see yourself in 10 years as a real-estate owner with a spouse and two kids, then work on that. If you want something else, keep your focus on that. Expectations coming from friends and family are hard to deal with but if they don’t fit you, honestly tell them. Make it clear that’s not a mold you’ll fit and that’s that on that. It’s fine, once again. You’re where you need to be. Hopefully you have a good 80 years ahead of you, if you ever fit into one of these molds do you think you’ll stay in there forever anyway? There’s no permanent state of the self babey just do your thing

Don’t be too hard on yourself. Adulting is hard, and like the rest of us you’re going to learn on the job. You won’t be perfect in life, or at your new job from the first day. You’ll make mistakes. You’ll fuck up, because you have so much to balance - the bills, the chores, the social life, the hobbies, it’s all your responsibility now. Once again, breathe, take some distance: you’re fine. The mistakes you make won’t stop the earth from spinning. Figure it out, work through it, watch YouTube tutorials if applicable. One thing at a time. If you have a lot going on, pick one or two things and put the rest in a box until you’re ready to move on. I promise you’ll be doing fine.

For the love of fuck, take care of yourself. Remember to eat, keep your environment clean and healthy, and most importantly, sleep! A good sleeping schedule can save you, I promise you it’s primordial. Take care of your health and body, you’re stuck with those. If you’re like me and you forget to eat when you’re stressed out, go get yourself some multivitamins, they’ll save your butt.

Learn how to cook, learn how to sew basic things back together, keep all your important papers in folders, keep an eye on your finances, ask lots of questions on your first day. What you have a head of you is a lot. But you’ll be fine, I promise!! I was a shaking mess when I was in your shoes and now I’m a functioning adult. It doesn’t mean I have a white picket fence and my life is held together by delicate silk ribbons, it means I know how to roll with the punches now. I figure it out. I know my limits. I know what I want. You’ll get there, I promise. One thing at a time, it’s really the most important thing you need to keep in mind. Slow and steady.

Good luck on your first day!! I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow ♥

#adulthood is a lot!! welcome to the circus!!#no one knows what he fuck they're doing but the most important is to have fun #so go slow #ask for advice #and in doubt: what would morticia addams do?#anonymous #mag answers

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demantfreedman17-blog · 6 years ago

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Economic Rewards For Weight reduction.

The most ideal diets are actually quick and easy to adhere to, nourishing, reliable as well as safe for weight management as well as protecting against diabetes and heart disease. Therefore when I stumbled across a 'lifestyle hack' on a Quora string, which recommended that consuming meals with your non-dominant palm could possibly help you stop eating a lot, I believed I would certainly consider it. I have actually incorporated an intermittent starting a fast strategy with one guideline: If your body weight prior to dinner is actually above every one of the day-to-day weights (before supper) that you have actually captured (make use of a spread sheet) after that you need to miss supper as well as fast up until tomorrow (which indicates lunch for me). Just before weight management, instantly after the weight-loss and again a year later on our team performed a morning meal research study where our experts took blood to determine many of these bodily hormones prior to breakfast and after that every half hour for the upcoming 4 hrs after morning meal. No. That choice will be conserved for that particular food turning if you create an alternative for a particular meal. The people that managed to sustain weight mored than happy with shedding a medium amount from weight.

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parkjmini · 7 years ago

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Reminisce | The End

Park Jimin “I found myself falling more in love with you as I grew older.” You and Jimin were childhood best friends until you had to move away. As years passed and you both aged, the separation between your friendship deepen and you never heard from him again. More than a decade passed and you suddenly stumble upon the man who you never stopped thinking about. Genre: angst Word Count: Warnings: explicit language Italics = flashback Prologue | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | the end

after 8 months of not updating, i want to finally conclude the end of this story. thank you for all who constantly reminded me and checked up on this series i really appreciate it bc it shows me that there are still ppl who are interested. through my major writers block, i have to say that i am quite happy with how this all ended.

“Are you going to tell me what it is that hurt you so much that you couldn’t come see me?” Jimin sat in front of you on his bed, his hands twiddling with yours.

“We lost touch, Jimin. As close as we were, we were living separate lives and I wanted to respect yours. You were entering high school at the time and I was just some old friend holding you back from exploring. I liked you a lot, Jimin, so when you began pushing me away.. it hurt me.” Look up, Jimin’s eyes were glossy and rimmed with small puddles.

“Right.. I realized that I was doing that. I never meant to stop calling. I wanted to, I just got distracted by other things. But I never stopped thinking about you, (Y/N). I found myself falling more in love with you as I grew older. When Christmas rolled around, I waited to see if you were flying back. When it was your birthday, I begged Mom to help me mail your gifts.. but even my own mother lost contact with your’s.” A single tear ran down Jimin’s plump cheek.

“You thought about me?” Your voice cracked, shocked by his confession.

“All the time. I could never fully commit myself to a new relationship. I was never fully there because I couldn’t. I was stuck on my best friend.” Your hand slipped from his as the doorbell rang.

He wiped his wet cheeks and got up to answer the door. “What are you doing here?” His voice rang throughout the apartment.

“I need you, Jimin. You make me feel whole. I miss your arms and your chest. I miss you.” A woman’s voice carried with his.

“You can’t be here. Go home.”

“This is my home. It’s our home.”

“No, it’s my home and I need you to go, it’s late.” Jimin was growing angry.

“Fine. I’m sorry. I’ll see you tomorrow. We’ll have lunch or something.” A slam followed her response. He walked into his bedroom with you shocked.

“Were you seeing someone?” You asked softly, your past young self dying inside from jealousy.

“No, (Y/N). But she thinks that I want to be with her and I really don’t. She doesn’t understand that I don’t feel the same and she visits me every week. I tell her every time. I tell her to leave me alone. She’s trying to find the reason to why I don’t want to be with her and she almost found it at first.”

You stared at him, confused. “What do you mean? What’s the reason?”

“If only she came in and checked to see who was in my room. She’d know the reason why I don’t want to be with her.” He held your hand again, glossy eyes soaking you up.

Then it hit you. He meant you. Swallowing the lump in your throat, you drew Jimin in for a hug. “I’ve waited all my life for you to say that you want me the same way I want you. But, Jimin, we don’t live in a fairy tale and you’re a little too late. 13 years late..”

He pulled back and held your face. He searched for answers in your expression, but you remained as blank as possible. “I leave in the next 3 days, Jimin. I don’t know when I’m coming back. I don’t know where life will take me next.”

“So stay. Live here with me, with your dad. This was your life before, the life you loved.” Jimin begged and you’ve never seen this side of him before.

“You didn’t beg this desperately when I left 13 years ago..”

Jimin rolled his eyes and his hands let go of yours, “because that was out of your control. Now, you’re an adult and making your own choices, kiddo.”

You had forgotten how smart and witty Jimin was. You always use to believe that he was smarter because he was older, but it was actually because Jimin was just academically excelling.

“No, you can’t take away 5 apples if you only have 4 to give away. That is when you get into negative numbers and you aren’t learning those yet.” Jimin helped you erase your previous answer.

You pushed away the thick book filled with math worksheets. As a nine year old, you only desired to play, especially with the new scooter that Jimin recently got for his birthday.

“Can we play?” You asked impatiently Jimin poking his temples with the end of his pencil. He shook his head.

“I promised your mom I would help you with your homework and you’re not done with it yet. Come here.” He patted the spot on the lawn next to him.

You stood your ground and crossed your arms. Shaking your head violently, you proceeded to say, “I want to play, Jimin.”

He pouted, “we can play if you answer this problem correctly. If you don’t, you’re coming back to finish your homework, deal?”

You gleamed and nodded, but your smile fell when Jimin hit you with a division question. You had only recently learned division in the fourth grade and you were too busy doodling to pay attention.

When you couldn’t answer him, he patted the seat next to him again and pulled out a clean sheet of paper to write more division practice problems for you to do.

“Well smartass, why don’t you tell me how much it would cost for me to stay here? What job will I be doing instead of a flight attendant? Do I continue school? I definitely can’t dance, Jimin, so don’t even think about that. Are you okay with me living with you? How much is rent? What would happen if we break up? Or if you change your mind?” As smart as Jimin was, asking you to stay was a ridiculous request.

You no longer lived in your old city anymore. You no longer needed Jimin to support you anymore. “I don’t know, if you really want to stay then we can talk about this over the next few days and figure everything out. If you don’t, then I’ll let you go on your way.”

“I’m not staying here.” You told him and the his face sadden by tenfold. “I love you, Park Jimin, as my close childhood best friend. I love you, Park Jimin, as something more than that. But, we would never work out and maybe that’s why it took so long for us to realize how each other feels for the other.”

“But you’re not going to give us a chance?” Jimin’s voice cracked, indicating how much he was holding back from crying.

You pulled him onto the mattress with your arms draped over his torso, your chin on top of his chest. “I gave us so many chances.”

At that moment, he sat up with you in his arms. His lips pressed gently against yours. His scent engulfing you, his nose pressed roughly on your face. His antsy hands wondering your canvas.

The many emotions overwhelmed you, causing you to vibrate and grip onto his shirt to steady yourself. Your heart beat faster than Jimin’s impatient touches. Heat radiated off of your cheeks.

You were feeling a mixture of nervousness and passion. While the other kiss was refreshing, this one was laced with every ounce of passion that Jimin hid inside of him.

After a few more seconds, you pulled away to breathe. Your deep breathing mixed with his as he stared deeply, longingly into your eyes. His chest rose evidently and you whispered, still inches away from his face, “what happened to letting me go on my own way?”

He chuckled, but his smile changed to a small pout as if he had realized something, “I was crazy to push you away before. I’m not going to do that again, (Y/N). I don’t know how many more years I can stand hearing you call me your best friend when I know we both want more than that.”

“So?”

“So.. fucking stay with me, please.” Jimin nuzzled his head at the crook of your neck, burying his hot face into your skin.

The next few days, Jimin would not stop holding onto you. He was afraid of you flying off. He showered you with love and affection. Every night, he made sure you were comfortable in his arms before he kissed you goodnight.

You have never felt more happy in your entire life. Growing up, you had the longest crush on the man, who you’ve been waking up to the past mornings. Jimin was finally yours.

The older protector, the admirable, fearless Park Jimin saw you in the same light that you’ve been casting upon him your whole life. However, something felt off and almost unsettling.

Even though you were happy, maybe it wasn’t the relationship your younger self wanted. It felt almost rushed, but you’ve both been waiting for practically a lifetime for these moments. So... why weren’t you running around the room and doing cart wheels?

As Jimin slept soundlessly at night, you laid next to him wide awake. You didn’t want to stay, even if it did mean that you’ll finally be with the man of your dreams. Your life was in the sky, in different countries.

Your big move when you were younger switched something within you. Through the tears and the new experiences, you couldn’t stay in one place for long. You couldn’t get too comfortable or else, you’ll release it really wasn’t what you wanted.

You didn’t want to abruptly leave Jimin one day. You loved him too much to hurt him like that, so the only way to avoid it was to never start it.

“Why are you going so far away for college? Don’t you want to stay here with me? With your mom?” Your close friend questioned you as you browsed through a college brochure.

“I really.. don’t. I just don’t like it here.” You simply told him, not intending for it to mean much.

He huffed, “I’m here.”

“I know. It’s not you. It’s this location. I’m not happy here. There are millions of different countries in this world, aren’t you curious to what’s out in the world?” You held onto his shoulders, but he shook you off.

“I don’t care about anywhere if it doesn’t involved you. I’ve never found someone as great as you, (Y/N).”

“Don’t say that because you don’t know what you’re saying. How could someone stay in one place for the rest of their lives and be.. okay with it? To be with the same people and feel like they’re not missing out?” You marveled, but you didn’t realize how much your excitement was hurting him.

He cleared his throat and he began to gather his things to leave, “well then, you don’t really need me anymore, do you? Sorry that you felt like you missing out.”

“Why don’t you want to leave?” You followed after him, down your staircase and to your front door. You were unsure why he was getting upset with you.

Your friend spun on his heel to face you with all his final might, “because I’m comfortable.”

“That’s the thing. I’m too comfortable here. I’m-I’m--I’m sick of it!”

“Maybe you should warn the next person you let into your life that you’re not staying for long before they get too attached.” He smiled bitterly before exiting your life.

“Jimin.” You called after him the morning of your mandatory flight back.

The sleepy boy groaned and mumbled, “yes?”

Sitting up, you held his blankets close to your nose to remember the sweet scent you’ll miss. “I’ve decided.”

He shot up, rubbing the morning out of his eyes. “You’re staying?”

“I’m.. leaving. And.. I’m.. not..” you swallowed before finishing your sentence, “coming back for us.” Hot tears spilled at the sides of your cheeks, but Jimin wasn’t comforting you. He was busy curling up into a small ball, cushioning his own heart break.

“Can I ask you why?” His delicate voice cause the guilt to close your throat.

“It’s better if you didn’t know and that there is nothing you can do to change my mind.” Getting up, you needed to get back into uniform.

Jimin’s body shook as his sobs drifted around the room. His tears stained more than his pillow.

He wasn’t the only one who was choked up inside. Hearing your best friend cry was the worst thing that you’ve ever experienced. You experienced turbulence all the time in the planes, times where you’ve felt like you were going to die. But Jimin’s tears shook you violently, more than what turbulence ever done to you. However, the only reassurance you had was that it was for the best. Jimin was better left hurt now than later when he was too invested in the relationship.

Although you had come to the decision of letting go, it was still hard for you to go. Jimin’s nonverbal cues planted your feet to the ground. It made your body hesitant from moving on.

“Are you going to send me off, Jimin?” You asked the sobbing man, his eyes already red from the tears.

He peered up at you and you saw the most hurt expression on your best friend’s face. “Of course. What kind of friend would I be if I didn’t?”

His voice cracked halfway and he grabbed his keys, without brushing his teeth or changing, he headed for the door. “Do you get ready first, Jimin?”

“Sure.” It almost seemed as if he was mindlessly listening to your orders, losing a mind of his own.

When Jimin was ready, the car ride over to the airport was occupied with a heavy silence. You had to refrain from reaching over and holding his hand. Jimin had to refrain from crying anymore. He didn’t want to listen to the radio, afraid to create any songs that reminded him of you.

Once you arrived, Jimin parked and helped you with your suitcase. He had been avoiding eye contact the entire time, but he looked up once more before you left. His breath was caught in his throat when he saw you beautifully made in your uniform and red lipstick, the same night he had saw you again.

“I’m sorry, (Y/N), that I hadn’t realized how much I was in love with you until recently.” He whispered and you fell into his arms, breaking inside and out.

“I’m sorry for doing this to you, Jimin, but I can’t hurt you in the future when I know it would destroy you more than it does now.” You sobbed into his arms and he pulled you back, confused.

“What do you mean?”

Your mascara smeared under your eyes and Jimin rubbed the rolling tear away. “I don’t stay for long. It’s only a matter of time before I get too comfortable and fly away again. I’ve done it before and I sure as hell would do it again.”

“No matter how much you love me?” His voice grew small.

“No matter how much I love you, Park Jimin.” You kissed him again, dragging out the last taste of his lips, the last smell of his scent.

He held you by your forearms, taking in all your grown features. “You’ve grown up to be a beautiful, independent woman, (Y/N). Don’t forget me when you’re off into the unknown.”

“Jimin... I loved you my entire life. I’ve traveled to exotic countries and I loved you. I’ve gone to places that I can’t even pronounce and.. I still love you. And I hope that you understand my decision of not staying. And don’t you worry, Jimin, I’ve never forgotten about you, you’re with me where I go.” You held up your necklace charm he had given you when you were younger.

He kissed your cheek and drew you in for a long hug. “Goodbye, (Y/N).”

“Goodbye, Jimin. Thank you for being my best friend.”

“Thank you for loving me.” He smiled through his stained cheeks and you felt his arms slowly fall from your arms, and drop down to his sides. You began walking towards your terminal where your coworkers chatted among themselves.

You told yourself you wouldn’t turn around and look at Jimin one last time, but your body betrayed you and your head spun around before you reached your group. However, Jimin was gone before he could take one last look at you.

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wanna-17 · 7 years ago

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lee daehwi first meeting! AU

summary: in which you are somi’s best friend and you find out that she has a hidden twin brother who you are a fan of

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a/n: HIHI so i decided to start a new series which is gonna be a sweet and short one called first meeting! AU with the wanna one members. since it’s really only going to cover your first meeting with the particular member, it’s up to you whether you want to interpret it as romantically or platonic friendship, maybe if the context suits and i get enough requests i could do a part 2 for some in the future? we’ll see but i will be prioritising getting each member done first. but anyways i hope you guys enjoy this first one of my precious baby lee daehwi and look forward to the rest of the members :)

so you’re in high school

and ever since high school started you became best friends with a girl called somi

you guys had different personalities, you were more on the shy side and she was more outgoing

but somehow you guys clicked and found that you guys had a lot of things to talk about and common interests

also during this time produce 101 is airing and you’re absolutely addicted to the show

and lee daehwi, the first centre literally swooped you off your feet

he was no doubt your bias and you’d been voting for him like crazy everyday

and ofc since somi was your best friend you’d always rant about how cute and talented lee daehwi was and somi would just sigh and roll her eyes sometimes

well one day at school your class is given a project to be completed in pairs and obviously you and somi are a pair

usually you two would complete your work at the library but since the weather was really horrible

you guys decided to head to your place over the weekend

and you guys do that except you dont get the work done

so you guys decide to go to somi’s place sometime after school next week to finish it

and tbh you’ve been very curious about where somi lives

even though you guys are best friends you guys always met either in public or at your place

you were just super curious as to what her house was like and why she was lowkey secretive about where she lived

hMMMMMM

so the day before going to somi’s place

you guys are having lunch at school and somi is suddenly like: “oh y/n when you come tomorrow, my twin brother will most likely be home visiting”

and u r like

“WAIT HANG ON A SECNOD U HAVE A TWIN BROTHER?? SINCE WHEN???” you semi yell when you stand up from your seat

you are surprised and shocked bc ur friend has a twin brother and she never told you

“ssHHHHH be quiet” says somi gesturing you to sit back down

and so you do and say

“how come you didnt tell me somi?” while pouting

“well…i guess you never asked whether i had siblings or not” replies somi nervously

“hmm yeah fair enough, well what its like having a twin brother? what’s he like” you ask excitedly

you’d never met anyone that had a twin before and u suddenly find out that your best friend in fact has a twin brother which makes you feel kinda weird and excited

“it’s alright, we’re just like any other sibling pair, he can be slightly annoying sometimes but he’s a good brother overall. i miss him” replies somi looking down

“ohhhhh where is he? does he go to high school here?” you asked wondering if somi’s twin was actually at your school and completely hidden from u

“no he doesn’t”

“where does he go then? and what’s his name? what does he look like?” you asked bombarding somi with questions as you were super curious now

since somi was one of the prettiest girls in the school you were lowkey thinking maybe somi’s twin is really hot HAHA

“i actually can’t say his name but he’s really ugly” says somi laughing

“why not????” you ask somi, “is he a spy or something?? with a hidden identity???”

somi shook her head laughing at you as you continued to pester her about her twin

“you’ll see tomorrow when you come over” says somi “i think things might change when you see who it is” as she sighs

now you were C U R I O U S as to why somi kept it so secret

and for some odd reason, who somi’s twin brother was was all you thought about for the rest of the day

your thoughts went wild as you thought, what if he’s actually a spy? or illegal? a criminal? someone dangerous? what if he’s the youngest ceo in our country?

and for some seriously odd reason you were excited to meet somi’s twin brother

the next day you head to somi’s house with the address typed in google maps

you rang the doorbell and somi opened the door

as you stepped in you saw how the house wasn’t too big nor was it too small it was quite spacious and clean and very cozy

you saw some baby pictures placed up on a shelf of somi and her twin; you recognised somi easily and the twin brother was really cute too

you guys take a seat on the big couch and start working on the project when suddenly you hear footsteps come down the stairs

you were super focused on your work tbh so you didn’t look up

until a voice says

“hey sis is this your friend that always talks about me?”

and the voice is SO FAMILIAR

and you’re suddenly afraid to look up

you do recognise that voice but no way it just couldn’t be

silence

“yep it is” says somi, “look at the state she is in now”

your entire body was frozen and wouldn’t react and you were looking at the ground

“she’s so cute like that” says the voice

you feel your cheeks go bright red and your heart suddenly beating extraordinarily fast

you close your eyes and tell yourself you are dreaming

you take a deep breath and look up

and you are met with a pair of the most gorgeous eyes you have ever seen; one eye was monolid and the other was double lidded but honestly that was what was attractive about him

it was truly lee daehwi lmao sorry i made it so so dramatic haha

he was smiling down at your with the sweetest and cutest smile

“hello y/n! it’s nice to finally meet you!” says daehwi cheerfully

“u-h-h hello– daehwi-ssi” you stutter nervously as you die internally

daehwi laughed and his laughter was like a beautiful melody

“no need to be formal y/n, we’re the same age! you don’t look great right now, i’ll grab a glass of water for you” says daehwi as he heads to the kitchen

when he’s gone you turn to somi straight away

“DUDE WHY DIDNT U TELL ME DAEHWI WAS UR BROTHER?? i wouldn’t have fangirled over him to you and its sooooo embarrassing”

“chill y/n it was actually pretty funny, you totally have a crush on my twin, look at ur face” says somi laughing

“sTOP omg this is all ur fault im so embarrassed, i embarrassed myself in front of my bias” you say as your bury your face in your hands

“seriously y/n this is your chance to talk to him and i don’t usually say this about that idiot but he’s actually a very nice guy, so don’t be nervous anymore”

you take deep breaths and try to collect yourself before daehwi comes back

when he does you’re much calmer even though you still feel like you are living in a dream

“here’s your water” says daehwi as he hands over the glass of water

both your finger trips lightly made contact and you felt your heart racing again

“thanks daehwi” you say giving him a shy smile

he asks what the project is about and starts helping you guys and in no time you guys are done

and daehwi is super friendly and outgoing so in no time you get really comfortable around him

and realise that HES JUST A REALLY NICE AND KIND HUMAN like any human and not some “far unreachable star that’s like a god”

you find out he has cute habits and loves cleaning and fashion and wants to make people happier through his music

you guys talk for the next two hours getting to know each other and you tell him that you’ll continue to support him on produce 101 and he’s super thankful

at this rate somi had literally fallen asleep and is taking a nap on the sofa

he opens up about how it’s hard to meet people’s expectations and that he doesn’t want to disappoint others and you guys have really deep conversations

and in no time it’s already dark outside

and daehwi even offers to walk you to the bus stop

and he puts on a black hoodie with the hood up just in case ppl recognise him anyone watching school 2017 bc i love x’s outfit hehe

you guys reach the bus stop

“y/n it was nice meeting you and i was able to get my mind off things thanks to you”

“no worries daehwi, i’m so glad to have met you and you��re just as wonderful and kind as i’d imagined you to be” you reply cringing at your own cheesiness

daehwi laughs again as he ruffles your hair “you’re so kind too”

“anyways y/n will you do me a favour and not tell anyone that i am somi’s twin? i dont want things to get hard for her if people know about our sibling relationship”

you swoon, he was even so nice to his sister

you nod “of course”

the bus comes and you guys wave goodbye

you couldn’t believe that you met daehwi and got so close to him

he was so nice and down to earth

you lowkey wondered if you’d ever be able to see him again since he was already famous and busy with filming

you convinced yourself that he was probably this nice to everyone and you were really lucky because you were his sister’s best friend

suddenly your phone buzzed and you received a message from an unknown number

“hello y/n, it’s daehwi - i got your number from somi. that’s okay right? next week i’ll be back in town again, so do you wanna hang out? just the two of us this time ;)”

efgqkejfhfjhjf i hope you guys liked this?? i have no idea what the response is gonna be like and lmao i made somi and daehwi twins bc they could totally be siblings :) i realised i probably rant too much lmaooo so let me know what you guys think as i’m always open to feedback and thoughts about my work :) please also look forward to my next one in this series!

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Episode 2 | “GET ME OUT OF HERE ” - Devon

okay so i filmed a video confessional earlier which is uploading where i basically talked about dealing with being a winner/the tomb and having an idol/potentially wanting to go to tribal pre-swap/deliberately choosing the puzzle/how much i love jake so that'll come at some point after this but just KNOW that came first. anyway just wanted to talk MORE because i have more thoughts. last round i was really conscious of needing to micro-manage my threat level and i think im putting in work to do that? im very concious that i cant play the same game as montenegro because im coming into it from a very different perspective/position. However, one thing I can do this season is transfer my prejury game, because i think it still works. What I need to do is to some extent take a backseat, where I'm not actively messaging people first, and keeping game talk kinda limited (but acknowledging it when people talk to me). Like I have the safety cushion of my idol, and my connection to jake/jordan, and to some extent dan and lovelis? like im not gonna be a target (touch wood) and hopefully if i am my men tm going to keep an eye out for me.... hopefully? it also means im not gonna be pushy about votes im gonna hear names and run with it (as long as its not jake/jordan, or lovelis tbh i get real good vibes from him). but yeah id really love the beauty tribe to go to tribal this round ive literally never spoken to a single one of them so i'd love one of that tribe that is a complete unknown quantity to go home DJDKLFSF. but yis so im feeling good taking a backseat but im gonna ejector seat myself forwards at some point, just got to figure out when to push the button

Okay so Bodhi left last night and that was really sad. We had nice conversations but i told him that if the rest of the tribe wanted him out i wasn't going to campaign for him. He ended up making his rounds but at the end of the day, no one felt strongly about keeping him. He speaks so well that it took me a night's rest to get my head straight. Also Trace got an alliance together of himself, myself, Scott and Isaac. Bitch i was SHOOK! I am so glad to be likable enough to be brought into someone else's core. So this kind of perfectly positioned myself and Scott between 2 alliances. I believe we're both more loyal to the one we formed before we found out we were going to tribal, but who knows. I did tell Autumn of the news because i figure if we were to lose again. Whichever of Isaac of Trace remains is going to feel on bottom and blow up that Scott and I were two-timing the DADS. Btw that is the dumbest alliance name I have ever been a part of but whatever. The rat pack has also formed and now him and I are in a good spot. I will say that i am nervous that MISS ALYSSA spoke the comparison into existence, but i really hope we don't continue to flop like Luzon did on Cagayan. But hey! If Denise can go to every tribal council in one season and win, maybe i can too. (PS i pissed myself with my score in winterbells but also F*CK WINTERBELLS, thats all, ty)

Honestly I’m really regretting not participating in this challenge because I feel like our scores are.......not great. I feel like I could have turned out the puzzle and even winterbells. The flag Lovelis made is super cute and i think will fair well bc it’s very clean and neat. It’s not super creative, but it’s definitely well made. I think even if we went to tribal I would be okay though. Liam seems like an easy enough boot for us. No one seems that dazzled by his contributions to the tribe.

i literally am the biggest clown who ever clowned for continuing to overdo it in challenges, if i'm allowed to make it to merge at this point it will literally be a miracle.

So Bodhi left on a unanimous vote yesterday and I'm glad that it worked out as planned! I definitely felt bad lying to him about it all and stuff, but I think it was the best for the tribe going forward. What does suck however is that we lost AGAIN! And it was actually close this time! I'm actually annoyed that we lost this time because I submitted my challenge at 4PM and the reason why we lost was because the last submission was at 8 :/ like... y'all couldn't get it in any earlier? Plus I'm annoyed because I find myself in the swing position between the DADS and The Rat Pack. Personally I don't trust Trace after finding out he tried to play the Rat Pack off as my idea when it was really his all along. To me, it shows that he'd betray me later on down the line. And the only purpose for "The Rat Pack" is so they feel like they're in the majority. So since we lost, I don't mind voting out Trace. Duncan and I called to confirm that we're on the same page. We also found out that Devon is telling us the same things about loyalty and allegiances and I don't like that. He also told Duncan that he would throw immunities and play idols for him if he needed it, and that Duncan was his number 1 ally. But he said the same exact thing to me. So... that has me a little sketch. But I also think that Autumn/Duncan are a close pair, so I may need to stick close to Devon for the long hall. But if Autumn/Duncan think I'm more with them than Devon, I'll take it. I'm supposed to go on call with the Dads soon. Duncan wants to tell them about the rat alliance so that Isaac doesn't use it as motive to get us out. Which i agree that it'd be a good idea as long as devon/autumn stick with us. Duncan and I both feel like Devon might be thrown off since he always likes to be in control, but not actually being in charge. So we'll need to do damage control when that happens. But for now it seems like Trace is going unless things change. If things go how I would want it to, then Trace leaves tomorrow.

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Omg!!!!! Another win that makes me so happy . The tribe is all getting along great and I couldnt all for better ppl. I'm hoping soon to get some kind of solid group together. Kendell adam and amiry are ppl I def wanna work with long term at the time. Just gotta see what happens.

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Not much has been happening lately so I might be able to keep this short and not ramble on and on like i usually do (ill still end up writing a novel probably) yippy yay it's day 5 and everything is still all smiles and giggles over here because we've won yet another immunity!! kinda boring tbh but obviously im happy we won immunity because now that buys me one more day and at the end of it that's all i care about. I kinda did want the brauns to go to tribal however instead of the brains because i just really would like my beauties to get a nice foot hold and a lead in the game, i actually enjoy taking to some of these people, and im trying my best to talk to as many people as i can, which anyone who knows me knows isn't the easiest thing for me, i was reading some of my old confessionals from both my past games and the one thing i consistently got dragged for was not being as present with people, which granted i did improve a lot on last time around for sure, but i still got work to do and im realizing that more each day when i have no urge whatsoever to talk to anyone (don't worry, it's not you, it's (crippling depression) me! I understand socializing is part of the game and i do think my social game is my strongest asset but to me i like to think of my social game as a more distinct kind, im more elusive and i like to be that, if you leave them wanting more dahling they'll keep you around, i dont like to show all my cards, and that's a quality that i reflect in both survivor and life, and it has advantages and disadvantages in both but ANYWHO despite all that dare i say i think im still doing *decent* ? I'm making it a priority to reach out at least once a day to *most people (AJ, Augusto, Amir, Austin) are the ones ive probably had some of the best conversations with where it was the most natural and just flowed you know, and still is on day 5, and with kendall ive had some talks with her i do like her but idk i get this vibe she's kinda holding back when talking to me, and ESPECIALLY same with connor? we only had one private conversation and he gave me about a 3 word response, and if you havent guessed by now i like elaboration or at least a lil bit of personality when you talk, no shade just an observation, so that's a small red flag im very much a person who matches energy, one of my go to's in survivor is being open to the possibility of anything, ill always work with anyone who will work with me, and i think thats how everyone should play so hopefully the people ive been talking a lot to feel similar but i guess we'll have to wait until a vote of some sort to see about all that.. I still havent heard any idol talk or even game talk quite frankly so im guessing people are just still keeping the friendly facade up..... or ...... is it me?? am i the one on the outs looking like boo boo the fool or is that just my paranoia getting to me??? im not gonna send myself into a tizzy about getting voted out when we're not even going to tribal i- lemme calm down. If i had to guess I'd say Kendall, Connor, or Amir have the idol probably but sounds like a mystery for another day because im DONE im clocking out for the night until other people wanna wake up and play the game too oop final note: ok but it would be sick and twisted if it turns out they are all playing the game just without me and im the first boot of the tribe

Waking up on this glorious Day 5 with a new perspective. I originally applied to be on the brains tribe and was shook when I got brawn because let’s face it, my arms are akin to overcooked spaghetti noodles. BUT my tribe is so much stronger than the brains. I’m hoping for a big name to go to shake things up. AND I’m not really looking to swap onto a tribe with Trace or Autumn due to our past game history. Love them both dearly, but it’s gonna be a no from me.

okie so! update from me is i think im doing okay. like i think the benefit of no dua lipa cave is you can just build connections with everyone, you aren't voting someone out every round so why not capitalise on that? i'm so afraid of the fact that i'm overdoing it in challenges like i really need to calm. down. but im reassuring myself with the fact that in the first challenge i only was top because i did like... one more thing than others like its not thattt big of a deal? my puzzle time was clownery but hopefully people don't pay attention to it? im getting very anxious about overdoing it in challenges, but my thought process now is like. i need to act like people have an awareness of it, without getting kinda consumed by my anxiety about it? idk im hoping since most of these people don't know me, they wont notice me doing good in the challenge but truly who can be sure also am really just liking my tribe? like jake is ofc a king, i love jordan (who im gonna talk to later, he is the only one i feel like i have to talk to today), i also really like TJ who i was super harsh on at the start for no reason, i get good ally vibes from lovelis, liam m is super sweet even tho he is kinda inactive and dan is so fun (plus he told jake that he speaks to me one of the most so we love that!!). i've been trying to figure out what i even do about a lot of the super old school players that i have no connection/point of reference with? like people like scott, adam, kendall, aj i have truly no basis with? thats whats so scary about a swap, is at this point in the game i know 10/20 people left aka the brawn tribe + duncan/isaac/autumn, and like 10/20 isnt bad... BUT then the other 10 aka the beauty tribe + trace/scott/devon i have literally no connection to which is super scary JAKSDFA. im just real afraid of a swap. just swap me with jordan/jake/autumn/isaac PLEATHE. im just a pile of anxiety this season idk what to do im like frozen because of how scared i am... maybe it'll be all fine

Well, that was a close one. I struggled with that comp all day and I feel like absolute shit that I only got our team that 1 point. To me, it's inexcusable not to have be able to help my tribe as I wanted to contribute and make sure I made my worth known. So now I'm just this paranoid mess that I would have been in trouble had we gone to tribal. It's been hard to talk to some of these people or for most of those who I do talk to, I just don't really know where there head is at. I'm not sure if this is just a really guarded tribe, or if I really should be concerned. So I don't know what to do just yet. And that's not a feeling I like when playing TS.

Not gonna lie, I’m pretty sad that Bodhi left the game like he was so active pre-season so I was expecting him to do his best to go super far and maybe he did? I don’t know, but I did want a chance to actually get to play with him in TS but we keep passing each other by! I hope he is doing good despite how he might feel being the first boot yknow but yeah <3

The way I absolutely flopped with the idol system stuff is all types of funny and sad at the same time like I REALLY thought I did something only for it to be part of the challenge… That being said, Amir did tell me that he has a theory the idol system might be based on numbers which is interesting! I am super thankful he decided to tell me and we went on this long talk about how we are each other’s #1s which is super cute! I really do trust Amir and I do want to go far with him because he’s awesome but that being said, my #1 is me like I promised myself that I’d be selfish this time around just because being the selfless person I am hasn’t gotten me a win but we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it. We did go over a lot of stuff in terms of tribe dynamics and we both kinda agreed that AJ would be the first boot from the time if we went to tribal, we like our alliance with Kendall/Connor, we both like Adam and we both think Austin is sweet/genuine even if we don’t talk to him tons so yay for that too <3

I am SO trying to sell the fact that me and Kendall are a duo to Kendall which is funny to me idk hjfkds like she did approach me super early on about aligning but I do have the tiniest feeling she did that to mostly everyone but I’m trying to pin us with each other to her so she trusts me more, especially since I do feel as though she is the best connected on the tribe. I even called us Crystal Cox (me bc blazing speed and challenge flop ofc) and Ken(dell) ghfjdksl, I’m doing the most but yeah, I just want Kendall to see me as her #1 in the game on the off chance anything happens yknow?

Austin thinks I’m his #1 which is really sweet? I do like Austin even if it is hard to talk to him sometimes but hey, that happens. He told me that he’s really glad I’m on this tribe (which I have heard from basically everyone especially Adam and Amir which makes me feel cute omg) and that we might need to get a group going soon. I was like…. Tea but I also don’t know how quickly I want to get an alliance including Austin going just because it’s like… do I reveal that Austin and I are close-ish and be seen as a social threat? That just ain’t cute sis! But yeah, Austin told me he also really likes Kendall and Amir and that’s awesome that the two people I feel the closest to are ALSO doing THAT but at the same time, I want to be the one doing THAT the most because I’m greedy (by Ariana Grande) so it’s something to keep in mind!

The way I absolutely flopped at that puzzle… this is why I’m a Beauty cause a sis ain’t smart to complete a puzzle and I’m not brawn-y enough to do well in a challenge hgjfdk BUT that being said, Hagthor beat the thots and apiss and I couldn’t be any happier! I do wish Brawn lost over Brain but yknow, you can’t have everything go your way (‘: it’s funny how I slayed the last challenge and flopped this one tho like a bitch really lacks consistency huh ghfjndmks

Ugh fineeeee since I've been called out... by myself. I guess I'll do the bare minimum. So we won immunity!!!! Wooo!!!!!! Low-key though through out the entire process of making the flag, I just kept thinking darn I wish we voted out someone last tribal because drawing 7 people is annoying... watch me get voted out next tribal council lol. That would be quality foreshadowing. Today I have two goals. 1. Figure out what the method of entering the tomb. I intend on getting in contact with Augusto or Connor for that one. Augusto because he is low-key my number one. Connor because I feel if anyone can solve it he probably could. 2. Set up group chat with me, Augusto, and Austin. So Austin can feel a false sense of reassurance and Augusto and I have options. Write more later maybe.

Honestly im feeling kind of trepidatious going forward which is a little wierd, i just dont feel like ive gotten my footing yet in this game. I think like, im in a good spot to be fine on this tribe because of my social game and how I contribute in challenges, but I dont know if I feel good about anything longterm just yet. What really is bothering me is the tomb. Its gonna be round 3 tonight and I haven't made any more progress on getting in than I have night one. I feel like I have a lot of pieces to this puzzle but nothing is fitting together and its bothering me. I'm also a little upset that if we lose, I could see Liam being the target and I can't see my self risking my position to save him if he cant save himself. He has my name on his wiki page its an obvious association to me, and while I think hed be loyal to me, I'm just wondering honestly if him as an ally is worth the target it may bring. Im cautiously moving through the beginning of this game with a lot of unnease and hopefully I find some steady ground soon.

I am annoyed that we are yet again at tribal. I played so fucking hard at winter bells but of course someone on another tribe got like 238593277 billion which threw us back into tribal... So annoying truthfully. But it's alright, I should be able to make it out alive. I want Devon to go home. But I also don't want to let my guard down. This vote is important for a few reasons. The first reason is that our tribe is very close, so I am nervous that lines are going to be drawn in the sand. The second is that, after this vote, we will be down to five, making 3 the majority. We have an alliance of 4, and lord knows that when you are down to 5, whoever feels like 3 and 4 of the alliance are most likely going to try and rope in the 5th person to get rid of each other. So my plan is to make Isaac and Scott BOTH feel as though they are my number 1s so that they actually stick to our alliance of 4 thinking that I will be keeping them both if we lose again. This is the only way that i can see it working, but idk. I feel bad if Devon ends up going because he's a nice guy, but we have to make choices about strengthening our team, and then I have to make a choice about strengthening my place in the game. Hopefully this doesn't come to bite me in the ass.

Things have been going pretty well for my tribe! We won the first immunity challenge and that really seemed to boost tribe morale. Granted, these past couple of days I've been quiet since I'm trying to boost grades that are literally 0s into something manageable before I graduate hehe. I've tried to keep up with people through small conversations, which seems to work better for me at the moment until I get myself together. Adam wants to create an alliance with Augusto and Amir, which I'm totally for. I understand, though, that he doesn't wanna do it immediately since there's really no urgency to? We didn't go to tribal, so why did it matter! That excuse aside, I do hope that us holding our breath to say something doesn't bite us in the ass because these are people I want to work with! I wanna get something going with Kendall as well hopefully, since I adore her! Earlier, I stated that Adam and I (Adam, really) found our way into the tomb and both flopped in the questions. Adam took another stab at it and found out we've been bamboozled! Someone beat us to the punch and has whatever contents were inside the tomb. I'm assuming it was an idol, but who knows what else is in there! It kinda made me lose motivation to keep searching inside but when in Rome? I'll probably end up trying again despite knowing the end result just because I wanna prove I can be a smart cookie as well. I also didn't gloss over this but I'll mention it really quickly, but I'm sad Bodhi went! He was one of the few people I was familiar with on the other tribes so it's unfortunate we aren't going to be able to connect with each other this game. A king has fallen. In lighter and more recents events, my tribe crushed the second immunity challenge. Kendall stunned with her artistry and I'm still gushing over how cute everyone's character was. I kinda like decimated Winterbells, but I've always been good at the game, and Amir did really well in the scavenger hunt. Augusto and Austin did really well in the puzzle also, despite their lack of confidence in offering a strong performance. We appear to be THEE tribe to beat honestly and I'm loving that. I love our tribe! I LOVE OUR TRIBE! It really would be a tragedy if we aren't able to keep up this win streak we're manifesting.

Sorry for not writing this sooner! Been having a bad depressive episode for the last couple days and it makes me unmotivated to write c': I feel like a flop so far in this game, not because I submit shit scores, but because I find it exhausting to connect with some of these people. They're all very nice in their own special ways, but interacting w some is like pulling teeth, and I guarantee they feel the same about me, which I would expect. That being said, I hope we keep winning, cause I don't have the energy to go to tribal right now.

Heading into a second tribal council, there is becoming less and less room to hide. I am struggling to hold my own against the other tribes when it comes to competitions, but thank goodness it's a numbers game. If everything goes accordingly, I am taking a backseat this vote and allowing a 4-2 vote out when it comes to Trace. I appreciated Duncan coming to me with the alliance chat information with him/Scott/Trace/Isaac, but didn't like how Autumn needed to tell me first. Shows that I really can't trust Scott/Duncan after a swap comes up. In regards to Scott, he outright didn't say anything. I like him and all, but it was a slimy move to say the least. He only said something because he HAD to vote out someone in one of his two alliances. This group will be dumb as hell if they let me swap. I'll flip on them as soon as possible and invite anyone into my alliance. The tribe swap is where I made my 'Slithers' game infamous last time, so I'm hoping for a similar output. Don't forget: I swapped with the minority last time in Guyana (shout out to Jess), so I'm not worried about the numbers and how its split. ALL I NEED IS A SWAP OR TWIST. GET ME OUT OF HERE.

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Thank God we won that based on the tiebreaker, but yikes I didn't think my flag would've tanked so hard. Guess I've gotta get better at perfecting my craft huh, but at least we're safe. I feel nervous on this tribe to be honest, because I think I'm the second to bottom on the totem pole after the other Liam, so it isn't reassuring that if we lose twice I'll either be gone, or I could even be gone at our first tribal if he's got a solid alliance going...the only alliance I have right now is with Jordan and I don't really know where I sit with everyone else, but I'm afraid of overplaying... ugh so annoying! I think I just need to force a couple of game related conversations with people to build up some trust, just hope it wouldn't paint a target on my back for trying I guess...

oh gorl, some of these people on my tribe really think im just the clown of the tribe and cant put two and two together, well guess what, IM NOT. So Amir messages me, which nothing out of the ordinary there, ive been talking to him every day so far for the most part like i said we're a little familiar with each other from our pasts, but i was VERY surprised today at what had happened... what had happened was....he starts talking the smallest bit of game with me, basically he just said, "is it me or is everyone really quiet here?" and so i just agreed with him and i said yeah i dont think people are talking game yet which is a little weird, and then i threw the TINEST tea crumpet out there and i said "yeah ive talked to some people so easily like you, but then there's others who.....i cant say the same for" and i was absolutely hinting at connor/kendall just because i havent had the longest convos with them, which no biggie, but THEN about 20 minutes later i get a message from CONNOR of all people saying "hey adam!" ..... obviously im glad to talk to him and im all for getting to know everyone, but my instincts immediately went off and told me it's a little sus....how not even a few minutes ago i was saying how some people never talk to me and then out of no where the one person i was mainly talking about messages me?? Coincidences don't exist in survivor. Now I really have no choice but to think that amir in someway mentioned to connor that i said theres some people i havent talked to at all and that he probably needed to work on that.. which is true, but cmon. i know the tribe brain cell is missing but at least put a little thought into this and message me later tonight or not right after i say it?? I'm not sure if they have any type of past connection and while I definitely do wanna keep building my relationship with Amir, this will definitely make me question him a little bit at least until i see how some votes fall when we eventually go to tribal. Amir also told me he's had the most convos with Augusto, which is funny because thats exactly how both me and aj feel about augusto, which tells me augusto is really playing the game rn, and while thats someone i want to work with, it's also someone i need to be extremely careful with if we're still playing together down the road. plot twist: connor messaging me has absolutely nothing to do with amir and i just made this whole conspiracy for nothing but idk.... it's a conspiracy IM interested in.

***last add on because i forgot to say how the hell im gonna HANDLE this amir/connor situation... im keeping my eyes on it incase theyre in kahoots and also if they think im that dumb then clearly they havent watched me play before, which is great for me but bad for them, you cant trick a trickster try all you want, There's nothing I love more than being underestimated in survivor because it kinda makes it a little easier to play and gives me more options, so sure ill keep up my fake smiles and act like we're all fine and dandy, ill play dumb and wont even act like im onto them but i absolutely am and ill be ready to make my move the second it seems right

Ugh I feel so DIRTY. I feel so GROSS. Poor Devon, truly. I spoke with Autumn and told her about Devon, and she was in without a fight and told me that it should be 5-1. And then Devon came to me and was like... we all good for the vote tonight? And I'm like ................yes? Lol. I'm good, you're probably not. ugh, this is the part of this game that I hate. I want to never lose immunity ever again, let someone else break someone else's heart!

Something about Kendall is so chaotic and terrifying and I can’t put a finger on why.her aligning was her talking to me for the first time in a day saying “let’s align” and created an alliance chat without even asking who else should be in it which leads me to believe her Augusto and Connor already have a trio and I was the 4th. Are all these focking people playing me?? Like i still cant tell if this is a real alliance but i want to believe it is and not a bluff to vote me out. But also like why even do that, the only person on this cast that I trust and have played with, bodhi, has just been voted out. I’m a free agent and I can help that alliance make it far in the game, but they also have lots of relationships on other tribes so like I might not even be that valuable to them. I mentioned to Augusto about the numbers on the blog, hoping to create more trust because I really really love him and want to trust him but I’m still just so damn unsure. if we lose this immunity and I get one bad signal from any of those 3, if they slip up even once, I won’t hesitate to align and gather the minority. But if they are playing me properly, then kudos to them!

I am just happy i have the idol i am going to put it in my ass.

me when the brains tribe only has 5 members left http://prntscr.com/s8y76g

You know what? https://66.media.tumblr.com/b7b4accba586ad321141b6ba80d69044/tumblr_omule3fwZC1w1swfno1_250.gifv I'm mad but I'm not tight because that same alliance that Duncan and I orchestrated is the same alliance that will get us through. So do I enjoy going to tribal? No. And do I enjoy knowing that Trace created an alliance w/ everyone except me and Devon? No. But the Dads will prevail and I trust Scott and the gang. I mean Ducnan is family so as long as we don't go it's fine. But Devon is my baby so absolutely gotta kill for him. That's what keep em close hahaha But no the Trace vote is a dream come true that I only crossed my mind once and STILL got manifested. Like Duncan suggested it and I said you got it because Trace will be the FIRST to rally all the white boys against me in a swap. Cute or not, Trace will kill me I'm convinced. Like something in my spirit told me not to trust Trace and low and behold: Duncan reveals that alliance to me on Day 3. So confirmed, Trace is leaving so that I don't fall to the bottom of the tribe. But it's all good- Isaac listens to Fleetwood Mac and watches Schitt's Creek so he's a good guy. And Scott is literally a cinammon roll who's too busy to snitch or flip. I don't have time to discuss how much I love Duncan or Devon so we're tabling that. Anyway If y'all need me I'll be doing this 4 part immunity challenge that determines whether I make Final 3 in the other org I'm in so try not to need me lmao

okay so... we aren't going to tribal but its still kinda messy on brawn beach. i kinda have felt this energy for a while, but i don't think jake and jordan have enough trust between the two of them for us to be a continual three person alliance. jake is a very reactive, gut-impulse kind of player which is honestly to his benefit since he is super perceptive. however that also means he is quick to be anxious about stuff in the game, which is the same as me and that is why we click. BUT. he thinks something is up with dan/jordan and honestly i see that and feel it. jordan keeps hinting at dan being the one to loop in and i think that does say something about them having some sort of game dynamic. however, jordan is maybe downplaying that relationship which is scary KLAF tbh i still like jordan and wanna work with him, but i do 100% have to keep tabs on him, his social connections could definitely become a problem if he has other priorities over me! so i think i just have to make sure im a continuing priority for him, so i have to find some sort of information to bring to him (maybe when dan proposes the alliance of me/jordan/jake/dan to me ill run to jordan and be like hey did dan suggest this to you how do you feel) to solidify that sort of trust? idk... i want my j-men to stick together and they ARENT. maybe i need to solidify stuff with TJ specifically more, he gives good ally vibes? but ya... its a mess tm

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sugarchains · 3 years ago

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OK SO

im home now

im definitely not going in to work tomorrow

lol and the kids think im sick bc i was just kinda monotone today

yall.

our end of day pd was her playing a song from city high (and NOT the good/famous one) talking about how if this is how students felt about school in the past, we need to make sure we are addressing this/taking care of the kids today

a valid statement!

HOWEVER, if we wanna be assholes-

-this wasnt culturally appropriate bc more than half of our staff isnt even american/from this country so they didnt even know who city high was

-our staff is predominately poc? like a solid 95% and maybe less bc theres like 4 white teachers?????

so you showing us this video/song about how schools used to be doesnt hit the way you thought it would when we are the niggas who were IN THE SCHOOLS MENTIONED

and our ap was doing a piece of the pd today and she took over her time to do this bullshit!

AND THEN. she had a whole spiel about how she took all these pictures in the classrooms right, and how the rooms are always messy and kids notebooks are on the floor

so now we have to have a RESET of the classroom expectations

NOW HERE IS THE THING SHE STAY NOT ADDRESSING

for every room, there are at least 4 teachers who come in to teach in there. so all of us are responsible for cleaning up these kids messes???? i literally CANNOT clean up after fucking 90 kids in 4 different rooms.

thats nearly 200 kids in 8 classrooms, if you count my other fucking subjects they so generously gifted me with

ALSO that fucking bathroom/hallway log of ppl????? its SO ANNOYING.

like do you want me to answer these kids questions or do you want me to track who is in the hallway???

Shout out to the new initiative my ever brilliant principal put in place

Now we are tracking student latest and bathroom/ water usage throughout the day on paper

It's 8 44 and I've already filled up one side

Also I've already cried 2x so

#work things #LIKE #MAYBE SHE'LL JUST DISAPPEAR AFTER BREAK THO

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cherubicharm-blog · 6 years ago

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jan 8 2019

I'm at home sick today because I woke up with a really bad fever :( Yesterday was my interview with the MIT lady and I thought that it went pretty well. It was kind of long though, and I really wanted to go home. I’m so exhausted and tomorrow I have to make up a quiz and get my math grade back, so it’s not exactly an exciting turn out at the moment. I forgot to do my Khan academy for stat, and now I have a 20 quiz grade. oh well. i guess this is it.

it’s kind of hard for me to be in a good mood these days, even though i really try. my tummy is always acting up, and I'm so stressed and nervous about college. what if i don't get in anywhere? i can't go to rutgers, I'm sorry. I know that everyone in my school is obsessed with validating rutgers as a school and insisting that it’s great and smart to go there, but i really can’t and don’t want to. i feel so much pressure that my skin is actually breaking out. i wish i had a super smart older brother who could do everything for me and I could just slap my name on it. maybe then i’d get into a top school.

i really wish I did yale rea, because it’s my top school but no. i did harvard. i used to think that if you have a bad year or a bad time for a long time, the universe will give back to you and help u out, you know? maybe give you some joy or something. turns out it doesn’t. this is all on me.

ap bio is really scaring me. if i mess up one free response question, it’s all over. i can’t believe i put that as my major. wow.

on the other side, it’s official: i am officially 117 pounds! This is the heaviest I’ve ever been in my life, and gaining so much weight since prom (my lowest) to now is kind of surreal. I'm still deciding whether i like it or not.

anyway, what’s the plan for today? sleep more. clean my room. finish oscar wilde. math homework. math studying. bio hw. bio studying. khan academy for stat. shower. maybe talk to ppl, I'm not sure. check back in later, cya lovelies!

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drawlynnfaves · 8 years ago

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goddd im so done even though the end of the semester is coming soon

one of my roommates (the one whos room is riiiight next to mine so i hear her loud music and yacking to her friends every single day and night of my life) is literally the worst and also treats me like crap. so like, here’s how it is. the other roommate, K, is nice to me and would try to chip in on occasion. Terrible roommate, S, has never, and has bought almost nothing ever that all 3 of us use.

Guess what I buy that she also uses? all hand soap, all paper towels, all paper plates, all napkins, all cleaner, all toilet paper (big one), scrub brush, dish soap, sponges, aluminum foil, sugar, etc. And I got a few dollars from K back for it and 0 from S. because we’re (I am) idiots and didnt properly set any rules or know how to confront each other now about chipping in and she buys nothing EVER. BUT ANYWAY

I literally dont do anything to encroach on anyones space, i keep spaces i use clean, I stay very quiet. I took out the big trash we all use every time except two (2) times this whole year we’ve lived together at this apartment, and took it out even when 90% of the trash was from S.

I can’t sleep when I have to hear loud noise. I put up with all the noise S has made all last semester until on one of the LAST DAYS i finally texted her at 4 AM BECAUSE SHE KEPT ME UP ALL NIGHT like “im sorry, not to bother you but im trying to sleep and have to get up at 6 am tomorrow so can you please talk quieter? sorry.” and she finally shut up for once.... until this semester when i started sending texts every time shes kept me up, and now she ignores every single one, doesnt answer, and doesnt stop. ive worked up the courage to knock on the door to ask her to be quieter. she says okay, and doesnt stop. i wear earplugs and smush pillows over my head and nearly suffocate myself and sometimes can still hear her anyway.

i literally do not ask for a fricking lot. but it does not end there.

i dont care if people do weed, i think people can do whatever the frick they want with their lives, i really do, and honestly think its fine for people to do it. just not when its smoking in the contained space i have to live and breathe and sleep in for the day. i put up with it ALL SEMESTER wearing stuff over my face so i wouldnt have to gag on it while im trying to sleep. other roommate K also cant stand it but is more scared than me to ever say anything. My endless patience is wearing thin at this point so finally, after a very big incident of it where she had her hookah right out in the living room with 5 ppl over (btw we’re not allowed to have more than 2 guests, or do weed at all inside here or smoke anything) and smelling up the whole place as usual, i finally work up the courage to ask her “can you please not smoke it in this apartment? i really cant stand it (would have mentioned K but didnt want to speak for her) and it really smells up the whole apartment.” she looks at me warily and is like “...ok.”

she comes back in the living room and puts it back on even stronger. also THROWS A FIT to her friends, yelling “CANT WAIT TO MOVE THE FUCK OUT AND DO WHAT I WANT” bc i asked her to please not do it here.

the next couple of days still does it. im so upset and get so close to calling the university-affiliated apartment ppl on her but never did, even when i tried to text her one time later that she ignored. she even did it today.

but it doesnt end there either

warning: NSFW topic ahead i guess if anyone reads this? also suicide mention (though nothing graphic just wanting to)

so i have to hear her have loud, loud sex. i have something wrong with me where if i have to hear actual people have sex and make noises from it i want to die and sob because im SO GROSSED OUT and cant take it and would rather be actually dead than hear it. she moans and grunts and gets spanked so loud my noise-blocking headphones dont even block it aqll out and i get so so upset. just had to go through that tonight too and had to curl up in a ball and cry bc theres nothing else i can do to cope. i just dont know what to do. every option feels like itll make things worse for me no matter what i do.

and i would leave the apartment when this happens, but theres literally nowhere to go and its night and im in my pajamas and i have to sleep here.

it also doesnt. end. there.

she heard me talking to my friend on the phone, trying to calm down after getting upset having to hear her have sex for the 4th time that day. she heard me telling my friend how i want to kill myself, how i hate myself, because i cant bring myself to do anything and face S about anything and im so upset.

S later has a party this same night with like 8 people here, playing drinking games (youre not allowed to drink here but i wouldnt care if she wasnt a pain in the ass). she tells her friends about me, even though theyre all right outside my door so of course I hear. they all mock-say depressed phrases, like “oooh, i want to cut myself. oooh, i want to juuump.” and go on about how stupid white people are for being suicidal. i.. was mortified. and wanted to die more

i still dont do anything about any of this. if i called during any of the instances where she was drinking or smoking or doing anything in here she wouldve gotten kicked out of this apartment a long time ago.

it makes it even harder bc tonight wouldve been the last straw but she started having sex after smoking her weed and i didnt want to have the apartment ppl come and barge in on her having sex?? i cant knock on her door during that either so im like... idk

I still do nothing after all this. i am such a coward. the most i could do and just did was leave a note in response to one of HER many passive aggressive notes to us about keeping things clean (which is a whole nother one of her issues bc she herself keeps nothing clean) where, i was like “yea that dish wasnt from me. p.s. stop having sex so loud thanks.”

i heard her just now laugh and throw the note out and say something about me bc she fricking hates me

god i just want peace. i want to leave so bad. we only have a week left but idk how im going to make it with her. im about ready to freak out at her after all this built up all year but i dont think i will bc i know itll end with her just making things worse for me

#this is a vent post but feel free to read or give advice im just so upset #and needed to write all this shiz bc im S O D O N E #ohhhtextpostdesire

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