#and I got grounded for being upset about it 🙃

[chatonfils]

Having previously been a huge fan of Dan and Phil and now reengaging with my love for Danny Phantom, it is REALLY weird that two fandoms adopted “phans” and “phandom”

Like the reaction I had seeing it be used for Danny Phantom was an experience. It still throws me off guard when I see it in the wild.

[lokigonnakmsforbucky]

insecure (DW x reader)

A/N: So sorry for the long wait for another story! I have been at college🙃

Dean Winchester x Insecure! reader (I think this is Season 4, Dean) Request: can you do a dean Winchester NSFW blurb/headcanon? some praise is included if that’s ok :) maybe the reader feels insecure and Dean discovers and proves to her how much he loves her. :))

Warnings: MINORS BEWARE, NSFW AHEAD AFTER THE CUT, and fluff if you not into cutesy stuff. I also am making a tag list!

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You couldn't last remember the last time you had an "off" day from hunting. It must have been forever since the last time you could finally breathe without fearing someone or something to come after you.

You and Dean were sitting at the dining table in the motel room in Lawrence, Dean was "attempting" to do research on Sam's laptop while he was out getting some food at some burger joint. You could see how frustrated he was getting at the laptop, it was very cute. Seeing him get upset by technology like a little old man, Dean was not old at all. He was only 30, but if you asked him he would say he felt like he was 50 with back problems.

You often thought about how lucky you got Dean. His excellent looks weren't a huge thing but it was definitely. He was so strong, the strongest you ever knew. Plus, he was brilliant. Even though he wouldn't admit that he was. You felt so safe being around him no matter the situation, your safety was his number one priority.

But, you couldn't help but think that you didn't deserve Dean.

That someone else is out there. Stronger, more intelligent, prettier, perfect skin with no scars from random demons, vampires, or ghosts. Someone was out there and he hadn't found them yet.

"Hey." His gruff, voice snapped you out of your thoughts. You hadn't realized that he has been staring at you losing your mind quietly. "What's on your mind sweetheart?"

Dean slowly closed the laptop, and slid it to the side so his entire attention was now on you. His green eyes were something you loved. Loved for him to be on you, but right now his eyes were watching you like you were on fire. You could fill your cheeks slowly and get warmer and warmer. The effect the man has on you was truly something.

"Nothing. I don't even remember what I was thinking about." You look at his green eyes and hope he buys it. You don't want to talk about how you are feeling. Not yet at least.

Dean leaned back in his chair, arms crossed and his eyes piercing into you. Like he was staring into my soul. He always had a way of getting me to talk. To spill all my deepest, darkest, secrets. Not this time, you're not gonna give in. "Sweetheart, tell me."

"There is nothing to tell Dean." you stood your ground, not looking into his eyes.

Dean stood up, pushed his chair in, and turns your chair towards him. Kneeling in front of you. "Nothing? Yeah, I don't believe that. Ever since we got here you have been sitting in this chair staring off into space like a deer when they see headlights." Dean takes your hands now, "What's going on?"

You look back into his eyes and could fill the tears starting to build in yours. You should have known he wouldn't give up until you told him how you feel. "I..." The tears were now on your face, Dean's hands were on your cheeks slowly trying to wipe your tears.

"Sweetheart, what's wrong?'

"I'm not good enough for you." You finally spill what you held in. The six words you have been thinking about for months are finally out. Silence hangs in the air for a few seconds before Dean finally breaks the silence, his face confused. "Why would you say that?"

You stand up and walk away from Dean, towards the mirror looking into it. "I'm not strong, I'm not Pretty, I'm not Strong, I'm just not good enough for you Dean." You put your hands on your face, trying to hide your face, sobbing.

Dean gets up and wraps his arms from behind, slowly rocking you back and forth, "Shhh". He turns you around so you could cry on his shoulder. His hand rubbing your back felt good to let all of this emotion out. For months you have been putting on this strong face. Trying to prove yourself to Dean.

"You're wrong." Dean finally breaks the silence again, You pull your face away, tears leaving wet marks on Dean's Gray shirt.

"You're just saying that." you wipe your nose on your sleeve.

Dean turns you around, so you were now looking at yourself in the mirror, "I am not just saying that. I'll prove it to you. When you look into the mirror, what do you see?"

Before you could even begin your sentence Dean cuts you off, "I see a beautiful, Strong, Smart woman right there." You shake your head and Dean speaks again, "No. You're gonna listen to me. Everything that your head is telling you is wrong. My life before I met you had no meaning. I was running in, not caring if I got hurt. Then, I met you. The woman that excepts me, this job, and everything that comes with it."

You could feel Dean's breath beside your ear, "Let me show you how much I love you."

Before you had a chance to speak, Dean turned you around towards him, with his lips on yours. You could feel the passion, the love he had for you just in that kiss. His hands went under your shirt, lifting it over your head. His head started kissing down your face. Your cheek, neck, and your chest. His hands now unhooked your bra, leaving you bare on the chest.

"These are beautiful, everything about you is beautiful." His hands were now rubbing around your stomach, touching every blemish, scar, and even the small birthmark you had. "These are beautiful."

Dean then slowly brought you to the bed and laid you down on it. His mouth back on yours, his hands now all over your breasts. You let out a small moan while kissing him, and he breaks the kiss. His lips traveled from your lips down to your neck, till they landed on your nipple. You let out a moan, your hands traveling to his hair, pulling slightly.

You could feel his tongue around it, sucking a little. You feel your whole back arch into him. Allowing him to know how good you are feeling, Your moans feels the room as he uses his free hand to unbutton your jeans. Sliding them down your legs.

Your hand finds his shirt, tugging slightly. Dean lets go of your nipple with his mouth and speaks, “No… sweetheart. This is all about you.”

He kisses down your stomach, kissing all your scars and stretch marks. He stops when he was on the edge of your underwear. He takes the rest of your pants off, and then slips your underwear off and throws them on the floor.

“Let me take care of you, baby girl.”

Deans's hands spread your legs apart as he bent down in between them, you could feel his tongue lick up and down. Slowly working his way toward your clit. You let out a small moan as he works on your clit and continues to pleasure you with his tongue. Dean lifts his head up with a smirk on his face, "Does that feel good baby?"

You nod your head, "Yes.. so good. More."

After hearing those words, you could feel Dean's fingers rubbing you and you could feel his two fingers slide into you. Curling into you and letting his two fingers working in and out of you, slowly letting them drag over your g-spot.

You feel your back arch and let out a loud moan.

"Such a good girl... look at how responsive you are." Dean's fingers started going quicker in and out. You could feel your orgasm getting closer and closer. Dean just kept going faster and faster.

"Dean.. I'm gonna-" You let out another moan, "I'm gonna cum"

Dean leans up towards you, going faster in and out of you now. Using his free hand to hold you in place. "Cum for me baby."

When he said that you could feel your orgasm overtaking you. Letting out a long moan, Dean's fingers still moving slowly waiting for you to calm down before sliding them out of you.

"You did so good sweetheart," Dean says leaning up to kiss the top of your head, laying beside you. You felt like nothing ever happened. Even though a lot did.

"You mean so much to sweetheart." Dean started playing with your hair, "You are everything to me. Never forget that."

"Your my girl"

[ashsostrange]

i’m (not) sorry to say, but miles is better off by himself.

idk if i’ve ever written a post this long, but i got energy tonight. y’all have been sucked into the black hole of shipping, so let me ground you and remind you of this amazing thing called being single. i’m gna talk ab margo and gwen, but mostly gwen bc she’s obv miles’ (main) love interest. i’ve said more than enough about why miles and gwen don’t work/make sense. if you wna be enlightened then feel free to click the links.

thoughts on ghostflower: here!

reblogging a moot's post w/ added thoughts: hereee!

i love ranting so let’s get it! 😛

i don't have much to say about margo bc sadly, she's barely there. what i will say though is that as cute as miles and margo would be together, there’s one more movie left lol. the third movie’s gna be busy as hell. there’s literally no time for romance, and to rush miles and margo (two people who just met) into liking each other in, like, a three hour timespan would just be terrible writing. plus, we all know she’s there for some bs having to do with miles nd gwen, which is literally soooooooo very lame, words can't describe. one, where are you finding the time to cram in jealousy/all this angsty romance mess when miles’ dad is ab to die and the universe is ab to collapse bc of a nigga that looks like the lovechild of a cardboard box and a cow?? two, is this really all margo is here for?? to make gwen jealous or “help miles realize he’s in love with gwen” ?? shameeee, like summer said. 😐 i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again: margo could be SO much more than a disposable love interest!!!

gwiles/ghostflower fans, i’m going to tell you something that will make you upset. i said i was coming for you and i meant it 🗣️‼️

before you yell at me and push smoke out of your ears, i need you to put your right hand on your chest and close your eyes. you feel your heartbeat? good. now, count to three while taking deep breaths and remember that none of this shit is real so you’d look stupid af trying to attack me. 🙃 some of y’all are getting TOO comfortable being unnecessarily disrespectful and ion like that lol. don’t try it here bc i’m on another level of not gaf!

listen, even if (when?) gwen and miles team up to save his dad, it won’t change the fact that gwen was keeping some hefty info from miles, yo. she was smiling in jeff’s face and cracking jokes like she didn’t know he was bout to die. y’all gotta be so very real with yourselves. you wouldn’t wna date, let alone be FRIENDS with someone who kept something that big from you, regardless of the circumstances or lack of ill intent. one of the most important people in your life concealing the fact that you’re about to lose another important person in your life is insane.

i’m aware that gwen didn’t tell miles about his dad because she genuinely thought it’d cause mass destruction if he saved jeff. thing is, even if miles knew that, i think he’d still feel betrayed. that’s 100% valid because this is his dad we’re talking about. he just lost his uncle not too long ago, too. i wouldn’t blame miles if he never wanted anything to do with gwen again. i wouldn’t blame bro if he got sick to his stomach every time he saw her. it’d be justified, bc if he never followed her that night, then he wouldn’t have had the chance to save jeff.

my point is that you can be a “good person” and still fuck up bad enough to make someone never wna speak to you again. miles is a sweetheart so he’ll probably forgive gwen. my thing is, miles forgiving gwen doesn’t mean the two of them are obligated to be friends again. they can handle it maturely, go their separate ways, nd never speak again. it’s really not even gna hurt y’all cuz it’s the last mf movie anyway??? 😭😭

if it isn’t clear by now, i don’t want miles and gwen together at all. they have no business being around each other frl 🙃 not as friends and definitely not as lovers. like, sure, that one scene where they’re swinging/talking on the bank was my absolute fav. it was cute. i shipped them before i really thought about it. that scene is still my fav, but my adoration for it isn’t gna stop me from keeping it real.

i really don’t care what anyone says or how in love they think these two are, this isn’t a “forgive and forget” situation. if the writers truly wanted gwen and miles to be involved romantically, then not only should they have structured their dynamic better, they shouldn’t have made gwen the person she was in this movie. love, love, LOVE redemption arcs because it’s a reminder that we're human and we're flawed, but you can’t redeem yourself from that. sorry. (not) i say miles should leave that girl alone 🤷‍♀️ leave all potential girls alone ffs.

in conclusion, it’s okay for miles to be single. he's 15 anyway, it's not like he'll die without a girl. i’m the suckiest sucker for anything to do with romance, but characters in film/animation don’t need to have love interests for a project to be considered good. if you feel like it does, then maybe ts you’re watching just sucks, lmao. a girl and a boy can be friends without one having feelings for the other, or both of 'em having mutual feelings. (in the media idk ab irl..) it’s time to stop forcing ts. please.

and it’s okay y’all, i promise you. it’s okay if miles and gwen don’t end up dating. it's okay if they reconcile and stay friends. it’s okay if they reconcile and don’t stay friends. though unlikely, it’s also okay if miles doesn’t forgive gwen at all! resolutions like these go to show that you can “forgive” someone without letting them have access to you anymore. that’s what miles needs to do. straying away from the “happy ending” everyone is expecting would be nice. it’d be a different approach and a realistic way to complete the franchise. (i’m not just saying this bc i love angst)

but before the gwiles (ugly ass ship name btw) fans start throwing up and telling me to end my shit, it’s 99% unlikely that anything i just stated will actually happen. we’re more than likely getting a kiss between miles and gwen, nd that’s bc the writers are probably high off the same dope they were on when they wrote gwen sneaking in thru miles’ window, j for his parents to be way more calm about it than any other normal parent would be. i could say some more about certain scenes but that's for another night.

miles doesn’t need to be with anyone. especially not gwen when it comes down to it.

oh and i HATE peter b. fuck that nigga. he was nun but an extra in this movie and i know he’s an opp in the next. 🙎‍♀️

that’s all! if you read allat then thanks, cuz i wrote a lot. if you're feeling angry, then go for a walk. this isn’t a place for any typa criticism bc i am right, therefore, i am not requesting confirmation. 🙌 i said what i said. have a good night.

[emeryya]

And the ick just keeps on comin'.

Spoilers for 16x9:

Are Penelope & Tyler Green supposed to be this epic love story now? Like, does she actually love him? Was the point of the flashback to her 'clunky' (?) dinner with a clearly-nervous-and-obviously-not-uninterested-Luke with the 'I hope we find our people' schtick to narratively frame a victim's brother as her (barf) soulmate?

AND THAT TOO. Emily & Luke are all over the 'material witness' angle but no one has gone into the unethical grossness that is an agent-slash-grief-counselor being involved with a victim's brother. Luke's freakout was great (on his end) and terrible (on hers). She's desperately trying to make him her Friend and Nothing More™️ and he's upset for HER sake, as well as the entire team's. I love you, Luke. You deserve better.

I did laugh at I was expecting David Rossi, the legend. But what I got was David Rossi, the AARP member.

I think I mentioned this way back in November, but Zach Gilford looks eerily similar to a guy I have my eye on, and his similar sense of humor is also throwing me. Fingers crossed I'm not about to be brutally murdered 🙃🙃

I'll (grudgingly) watch the finale next week, but mostly for the slim hope that Morgan's about to breeze in and knock some sense into Penelope 'I-Took-the-Nickname-Baby-Girl-Way-Too-Literally' Garcia. Because at this point somebody has to, and it's clear the team is largely going to overlook the whole thing the second she cries in front of them like a fortysomething toddler. Too bad, because I honestly want her to be fired from the BAU and have the others (particularly JJ) genuinely angry at her for a while.

Anyway, what will ACTUALLY happen is nothing. Voit's gon' die, and the issue of Tyler Green being a material witness will disappear, so they'll all be magically cool about it.

Also, I still think Will's gon' die.

Dunno about s17 yet. On the one hand, I don't think I can successfully hatewatch a show I once loved. On the other...well, I assume there's a word for people who slow down to watch the aftermath of car crashes or stand around to see a fire burn a building to the ground. Or watch Riverdale.

[lazypanartist]

While you’re in the onslaught brainrot mood, can you provide terms of affection for there SO?

YESSS

Wasn't expecting this to take so long to write 🙃 Got the ask a few days ago, started it, then got busy & fixated on other tasks & asks

Nicknames for their S/o

Featuring Onslaught

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Tommy Terror

Sweetheart and variations (sweetie, my sweet-)

I know that "Sweetheart - Derogatory" is a southern thing, but I can't see him using other nicknames, really

Expect to be used as an armrest; have him lean down to call you sweetie

Will RARELY use it when he's upset; if he's in a bad mood, it sounds super condescending

If he's upset, he'll just refer to you as "love"; just so if he's angry, you still know he loves you

Tuppence Terror

Doll or Dolly

Face it; she's stronger than you are

It's her power!

So to her, you're kinda just a lil ragdoll

She'll emphasize it by picking you up & squishing you

Psimon

Love

Simple and to the point, as he seems to be

He'll call you any others he gleans from your thoughts, but his go to is always "My love"

Typically not in public, but if he's working with new members of the Light and you're around?

He wants everyone to know that you're his

Devastation

Darling

Almost in the Yandere sense

Now that you're her partner, you're pretty much hers, period

Ofc she lets you do your thing and whatever, she truly loves and cares about you

But if she ever sees you being threatened or whatever, it's on sight

Icicle Jr.

Snowflake

Not in the Fight Club way that most people use it

You're so precious to him!

One of a kind!

..and, y'know. The ice thing

Typically calls you "My snowflake" when talking to others

Shimmer

Ember

Not to get poetic on main, but you're the key to lighting up her world

She's a pretty reserved person, so only expect nicknames in private

Also expect things like love of darling

Cheesy, but at least she's connecting with people ^-^

Mammoth

Dove

It's just a cute little nickname, he told you

Helpless little bird

Really, though?

Doves are a symbol of peace

To him, you are the calm of the storm; one of the only things that can ground him, a sign that there are still good things out there

[eldritch-spouse]

I'm not to sure if you covered this topic yet. How serious your boys take sex? Like an y/n made a joke mid sex, like

Y/n sees a bulge from their stomach from being stretched.

Y/n: *huff* Look at that, *huff *I've been impaled. *Giggles*

I'm gonna take my shot at these guesses. By no means I expect to be right.

Morell: Depends on the joke and how far in heat he is. I think he could handle silly sex when isn't in a heat but if try to be silly during his heat , he would probably gag you or slam you so hard that you can't be silly. 🙃

Gallon: how did you get his tendril out of your mouth?🤨 Probably chuckles and puts his tendril back in your mouth. He can probably handle a little bit of a silly vibe but would probably want to go back serious sex.

Santi: I imagine he would roll with it. Especially If it makes you more horny and happy, he probably make jokes as well. Silly sex is definitely on the table with him.🥰 He will also fuck on a table and make terrible puns. When your sex professional like him you got know how to make people get on all fours.

Vinnel: Depends on the jokes and how your being silly. 🤔Since if you make a insulting joke him in any way he'll be upset. But if its just general puns and jokes and wholesome vibe to it he probably love it. In fact I think he'll try to make you laugh so he can punish you.

Nebul: Nope just no. Silly sex is a no go. Your supposed to be well behaved an, being silly and cracking jokes is not being a good quiet pet🤐. Naughty pet, hes gonna have to punish you.

Grimbly:something tells me no. 😅Let me explain, he would like the build up and during sex to be serious and you domming him and kinda ruff with him but not to ruff. He wants to be insult him in a loving way. Like he's just your pretty little sex toy and no one else can have him. You probably get away with tickling before sex but not after or during. After sex he wants to pampered, not be tickled.

Sebastian: I don't know him well enough. Hmm. Keep it enthusiastic and keep fun with him. I imagine sex with mimics is inherently silly in a sense. Sorry can't quite get read on him yet.🙇‍♀️

Patches: MAKE JOKES INSULT THE PUMPKIN PUSSY DEGRADE HIS ASS, MAKE HIM YOUR USELESS PATHTIC GOOD FOR NOTHING SEX TOY. but only during sex and the build up to sex.😊 Try to keep degrading vibe to sexy times. You probably get away with wholesome silliness afterwards.

Ludwig: He probably really chill during sex, so I guess a silly vibe could happen. 😐 but then again I could be wrong. Maybe he's only so lazy and chill because your both taking the sex seriously. Silly sex could possibly lead to his anger and competive nature flaring up.

Fank-e: Sweet robo boi. Yes of course silly sex is possible. Infact I imagine that how sex with him is. Silly, playful and maybe even a little degrading for you. But all the silly fun for him 🤪

Krulu: *Looks at Krulu and then looks at you and then back at Krulu. * KRULU A LITERAL GOD WITH GOD SIZE TRAUMA ISSUES AND YOU WANNA HAVE SILLY SEX WITH HIM. HELLO!!! 😵 I imagine that's asking for a punishment. Sex with him is all about praising and admiring. Keep your mouth shut and just keep thinking praising thoughts. Try not think about how his dick looks like a lava lamp and giggling.

[He's a pervy old god with low self esteem don't give him more self image problems.😔] He'll probably torture me,the moment he finds me. 😭

Breg: I could see silly sex possible. I mean get pounded into ground while get licked probably by a goofy yet also sexy looking lizard monster. Will probably lead to giggling. Just explain to him why and try to keep a wholesome and fun vibe. 🥰 DON'T TRY THAT DURING HIS HEAT. 😠

Fasma: The old noodle daddy😍, Silly sex is bound to happen. Come on he knows he a silly looking demon. Laugh with him tho not at him.

Honestly you can say that with good amount of them. The pumpkin 🎃 pussy being excpection. Wow, Patches ,Gallon , Santi , Sebastian are the boys with least amount of body image issues . If I read into them right.

You got it generally right! 👏👏

Your best bets for silly sex are Santi, Fank-e, Vinnel, Sybastian and Breg.

Not only does Santi know how to roll with jokes and puns, he actually craves that dumb stuff. Because it's wholesome, he doesn't have to be putting on a role for the entire duration, he can turn the sexy charm down a little and fuck around. Make jokes about how you're gonna cough a lung out everytime you thrust, call him a bull, oh how the turn tables! He loves that.

Fank-e is naturally into silly sex, everything is silly with him. Too much, even. He's incapable of serious sex, unless angered or in a fit of jealousy- Even then, there's a bit of room for horsing around.

Vinnel's thing is tears. And while his go-to method of achieving them is through pain, which feeds his sadism- If he loves you enough, he'll try to tickle you into sobbing, or generally try to make you laugh so hard you cry. He's definitely the type of dude to grab your breasts/bulge and make honk sounds. You can do the same.

Sybastian is a playful sort, sex always starts in a funny way- Usually because he fools you. Or because he takes on odd new shapes and challenges you to fuck him like that.

Breg just likes to make you laugh. Sure, it's an awful idea to do this during his heat or laugh at him in a really mean way, but he doesn't mind getting giggles out of you.

Patches is an honorary mention, purely because if you catch him getting horny during a fit, he's gonna jab at you constantly. He doesn't need to speak to make stuff funny.

[lovecolibri]

Is there a post where you’ve discussed why the former RNM showrunner reminds you of KR? If not, would you mind explaining?

I want to know how bad it could get. 🤔😬

I made this post that goes more in depth about some of the particulars of the show as related to the Michael/Buck gf breakup scenarios if you want to check that out as well for some more background on exactly how badly RNM screwed up their own narrative and that is just the tip of the iceberg. We don't have all day so I'm going to pick some highlights.

I'm also putting in a read more because this is going to mention some stuff about episode 2x06 of RNM which is a sensitive subject for many fans and because it discusses a bit what happened in that episode (a disabled gay man, abused by his homophobic father, in a threesome initiated with him by his female "best friend" in a situation where he was injured, traumatized, and had no easy access to leave) and the actress and showrunner's responses to that. This post will have the anti 2x06 tags as well, but if this is something upsetting that you want to skip, you won't have to scroll past it all. (Also, Tina, if you'd rather not read about it either, DM me and I'll give you the edited version) I also don’t know how much you or anyone else reading know about RNM (or the previous Roswell show) so this is going to get...long.

Basically the tl;dr is this: both woman have said some homophobic things, talk down to their fans, try to say they aren’t seeing the things on their screen they think they’re seeing, that the way they wrote a scene is being interpreted incorrectly by fans, and that fans need to let go of certain ideas about the show because THEY are the ones in charge, not the fans.

OKAY, SO.

Carina was the creator and showrunner for RNM for 2 seasons. She "left" for "reasons" (strong suspected she was asked to leave) and the show aired it's 3rd season in the fall.

The parallels me and several other dual RNM/911 fans have noticed is the attitude towards fans and the way both women talk down to fans, often claiming they are watching the show wrong, that fans are seeing things, and that fans are not interpreting the show the way THEY want it interpreted. 

For KR it’s denying that Buddie has romantic undertones (which is just...categorically untrue and we have the videos to prove it), and telling fans they’re just seeing things, as well as pulling out the “breath of fresh air” line about a budding m/f relationship that no one wanted and then getting pissy about it when people hated it. 

For RNM where Malex, the mlm couple IS canon (Alex is gay, Michael is bi), Carina's comments were about Michael's choice to date one of the female characters who is Alex's best friend after a major trauma in Michael's life and how it was supposed to be a fun flirty grounding relationship for him or some other such nonsense. (As with KR I tried to avoid hearing anything she had to say but some of it inevitably made it's way to Tumblr.) But she also falls into the camp of pushing a love triangle NO ONE wanted (a decade-long love affair between two men, separated due to trauma, one of whom is an alien in a show with a heavy “true soulmates” theme just can’t compete with this One Cool Woman Who Is Just So Pretty And Badass And Mean To The Guy Because She’s A Strong Woman 🙄🙄🙄), and then got upset when fans hated it, especially after it drug out for a whole season and nearly totally assassinated Michael’s character by having him pick this woman over his soulmate over, and over, and over, and then never show him definitively picking him, because his gf is the one to break up with him while he begs her no to 🙃 It was also another instance of a relationship that people actually really enjoyed as a m/f friendship and could have been a really fun relationship to have on the show, but that would never work as a romance because she had no idea who he truly was, how to talk to him when he was upset and spiraling...do you see where I’m going with this? Carina was also a HUGE fan of telling fans they weren’t interpreting scenes how she wrote them, but like....as a showrunner it’s her JOB to make sure that the story she’s trying to tell is what makes it to the screen and if EVERYONE is seeing something other than what you intended to put out, maybe you need to rethink what you’re doing.

(Also there's something to be said for the actors Michael Vlaims and Oliver Stark doing as their jobs asked and hyping up the relationship (I believe Vlammy was the one with the “breath of fresh air” line that I can never hear again without getting angry) but after getting the backlash and realizing that's not what their fans wanted, they did what they needed to in order to save their own reputations with fans, reverting to radio silence in Oliver's case, and going full tilt HARD into the Malex relationship hype for Vlamis as his relationship was canon)

It’s also important to note, is that RNM starts 10 years after major events in these characters lives after which they went different ways. Michael and Alex were together before Alex left for the military (😳 see the end for some...inch resting comparison notes about these characters), and it's heavily implied that they kept up some kind of relationship and hookups during the intervening 10 years, and the woman Michael gets with was also Alex’s best friend and knew he had started something with a mysterious Museum Guy he met before he left and that he was still in love with that guy, and also she’s a psychic and always seen picking up on things except apparently how much both of them were still in love with and pining for each other which implies she’s dumb, or willfully ignorant, or actively manipulative, so there are some levels of deep betrayal involved in this story that the showrunner just...pretended didn’t exist because they are “adults” and her idea of their “adult” love triangle was that no one, not even the one person in the triangle NOT deeply traumatized and also possessing the knowledge that Alex was still in love with Michael and just...kept it to herself (oh wait, she outed Michael to another friend and then they shrugged it off because “you can’t help who you love”) did anything wrong, Alex was never allowed express that he was hurt or angry, and Michael was allowed to pick her over Alex over and over and over until she broke up with him.

I’m going to touch very briefly on 2x06 because that was the most egregious of the comments from Carina, and I will bless forever the person who leaked the post mortem interview with the actress about That Scene which gave everyone a heads up about it, and the person who leaked the episode early so people were able to screen it and save others from going into that moment blind or able to choose not to watch it at all. The sparknotes version is Alex and Maria talked about Alex’s previous relationships in HS with women (it was Bad, his dad was homophobic and abusive were attacked by a crazy man and Alex was stabbed, Michael came to help but was knocked unconscious at one point, and they all had to take Michael’s car back to his tiny airstream trailer. Alex gay, and is a below-the-knee amputee who was not only running on his leg but also was stabbed, and did not have his vehicle to leave the situation when they returned to Michael’s place, and also was very much still in love with Michael. Maria kisses Michael and Alex tries to leave and Maria says she doesn’t want him to and then kisses him. Sexy times ensue because apparently bleeding chest wounds and concussions are sexy (Michael also exhibits some confusion about the situation which isn’t clarified and could be attributed in part to his concussion). I also have a post with more in depth about the consent issues with that scene though I haven’t looked at it since I wrote it so if it sounds like I was shaking with rage and disgust when I wrote it, it’s because I was.

The argument for this being a trauma spiral for both Michael and Alex was made by fans as we have seen with the cheating arc for Buck, however as with the Buck situation the showrunner made it very clear that’s not the interpretation she was going for. In fact, the interview regarding the episode was no with the actor who plays a bi-man, nor was it with the bisexual actor who plays a gay man about the complexities of sexuality, it was with the actress and all about how it was a fun sexy time, it was her knowing Michael and Alex still had feelings for each other but she wanted Michael to pick her so she started this situation to see what would stick after it was over, and about her being the one to initiate and be in control of the situation. Which is all...awful on it’s own and some of it got walked back by the showrunner Carina that it wasn’t Maria being manipulative but like...the actress said she played it that way 🤷‍♀️ and she specifically stated she talked with Carina about the scene ahead of time so someone’s intentions weren’t made clear or someone is lying but either way, not a good look.

Then Carina doubled down at the backlash insisting this was a fun, fully and enthusiastically consenting sex scene and that no one did anything wrong, completely disregarding Alex and Michael’s C-PTSD from growing up in neglectful, abusive environments, their trauma responses (Michael falls back on sex as a coping mechanism, and specifically has a history of falling into bed with Alex instead of talking about their shared trauma, and falling in bed with random women because he is desperate for love and connection and isn’t sure how else to get it since people only ever want him for his body and what it can do for them. Where have we seen that before?), their past relationship history with each other, the fact that both of them were injured, that Alex couldn’t leave and even said he wanted to leave and was stopped, and...a host of other issues surrounding that scene. She to this day insists that backlash was unwarranted and was the result of the misogyny of crazy fans just hating female characters for absolutely no reason at all, instead of admitting she never stopped to contemplate how the background and backstories for these characters might affect a scene and that you can’t have a sex scene in a bubble, unaffected by current circumstances and past events. It’s pretty clear she went into creating this show from the very start with the idea of switching the original show (and book) paring of Michael and Maria with Michael and Alex, and making Michael bi so she could “pay homage” to the OG ship by having him date both, and so she could work in the threesome for some “groundbreaking” television. Then as the characters were fleshed out and backstories and histories with each other were decided on, she just...refused to change course or adapt to how the backstories would affect the characters in present day and their motivations, AND how the audience would perceive the characters leading up to that moment. 

Now, 911 is typically better at the adult storytelling because it lets characters be flawed and make mistakes, but the thing 911 typically does, is have characters admit they made a mistake, talk things out, and learn from their actions and become better people through them. So with KR coming in and acting like this cheating thing is not only no big deal but also that it’s a normal, easy and fun lead up into a cute work flirtationship, on top of saying that Buck and Chim already talked things out (though he still wasn’t taking Bucks calls so like, when?! Did he call Buck after he left the message about knowing where Maddie was? Who knows! Not us that’s for damn sure), that The Will isn’t a big deal and won’t come up again, and how weirdly distant and OOC things have felt in 5a, it’s all just very “I’ve seen this film before, and I didn’t like the ending”.

I don’t know since Tim is technically still in charge and has some say over how things play out, and because the response to this new storyline has clearly been worse than they could have imagined or they wouldn’t have done it (though how anyone thought it was a good idea or that anyone in the year of our lord 2022 would accept a fan fave cheating with some rando we don’t even know and now will NEVER like, is beyond me), if that will change anything. 911 as a waaaay bigger budget and are still filming so they have time to somewhat course correct at this point if they choose to. And 911 has other people who can do press so they may just decide to not let her give anymore interviews which would be for the best. Carina was always popping off on Twitter apparently but again, I avoided anything from her like the plague. Plus with a wider, louder audience on a well-established, top rated show in it’s 5th season, the fan reaction carries a little more weight so we shall see! The important thing is, they both seem narcissistic and rude and obsessed with pointless relationship drama that they think is “fun” when it’s actually very gross, with talking down to fans, insisting they are right and everyone else is just seeing things, and making moves with their self-insert characters out of pettiness and to get back at fans.

This is probably....WAY more than you wanted or needed to know, and it’s very long and I’m too tired now to go back and edit this down but here you go!

And as an added bonus, enjoy these malex/buddie character parallels, contributed in part by @idealuk

Michael/Buck: 

both are sandy-blond/curly-haired bi men 

both are in love with brunet (gay) vets (speculation on both because nothing is canon confirmed for Buck or Eddie but like, it’s not far off the mark)

both used to rely on one-night stands/casual sex as a replacement for intimacy they are starved for but cut themselves off from

both can walk through fire

both were a type of savior baby

both light up around the man they love like they could power the sun

both have mommy AND daddy issues 

both have pseudo dads who are alcoholics, see more than people think, and hit them with tough truths and tough love when they need to get their heads out of their asses

both believe their lives are worth less than the lives of the people around them and would rather be shot than have their love shot (Buck didn’t get the step between Eddie and the bullet but if the situation had been the same as with Malex, he would have stood between Eddie and the gun, no questions asked)

both have people who think they are acting cocky when it’s just a front to cover up their vulnerabilities

both have a man that loves them that sees to the truth of them that everyone else misses because they fall for the big, cocky front.

Alex/Eddie

both are brunets and written as half white/half native to the continent

both joined the military as a way to escape what was happening at home

both have difficult relationships with both of their parents

both were injured at war and sent home

both have PTSD from their tours and both have medals earned while overseas 

both seem kind of quite but have a dry, biting sense of humor

both feel they have to shoulder all the responsibilities to keep everyone safe, leaving others behind to do so, or because they think it would be better for them, without really talking to them about it

both often sacrifice their own happiness to protect others or make others happy

both very much “I’ll hold all my emotions *right here* and then one day, I’ll die” kind of people because of their upbringing but are trying to do better

There are probably many more comparisons, but, I think you get the gist. The big difference here? The non-canon couple are raising a child together, soooo that’s fun 🙃

sorry not sorry this is a HUGE mess.

[nursegracecreates]

A List of Shit Grace Has to Deal with On a Daily Basis

So here I am again, sharing about myself while waiting on asks

I'll be the first to admit that I'm hard to live with. I know it.

Me overall: I'm blunt, quiet, sometimes stoic, and lost in thought. And that's on a good day. On bad days, I'm moody, unresponsive, and honestly can be a complete asshole. And still others, I let all the shit that's happened in my life get to me. On those days, I barely make it out of bed. And Grace has learned to navigate these moods, but I know it wasn't easy.

Being a Worrier: I'm a fidgeter, a habit grown out of anxiety. I don't like to sit still for too long, and if I have to, I'm going to be messing with something with my hands. Lighters, pocketknives, multitools, fidget spinners, Rubix cubes, if it can be shoved in my pocket, I've fidgeted with it. Grace says she's my worry stone because when I'm not working, I'm messing with her hands, her hoodie strings, her hair. I've got to be one of the clingiest significant others in the world.

Coming home bloody: While I don't track blood in like Jeff, or Kate, I always manage to miss that one speck of blood. And Grace always finds it. It doesn't really upset her, my work, but I like to let her have as much of a normal life as she can now. And bringing home blood doesn't help that.

The absentminded SO: I can be very absentminded 😅. Projects get left half finished, I read multiple books at the same time, zone out thinking while writing reports, leaving things out. Grace is always cleaning up behind me, sometimes I leave the milk out, or the bread open. I don't mean to be. I just have a lot on my mind. Between work things, my past, my schizophrenia... it can get overwhelming sometimes and I forget what I'm doing

Vices: I'm only human, I have a few vices. I smoke, mostly when I'm working. This is from working with Masky and Tim. I can at least say I've found common ground with both, but part of that involved sharing cigarettes with them for years. I hid it from Grace at first, but she eventually caught me (I thought she would be disappointed, being a nurse and all), but like always, she was pretty understanding about it. And now I don't have to sneak around if I want one away from work.

I also use cannabis, but that's more of a medicinal thing. It helps me manage my schizophrenia and my ptsd, as well as my insomnia. And this is my obligatory don't do drugs disclaimer. I have a legitimate prescription.

Dad jokes: I have a very dry sense of humor, but like to try to lighten the mood sometimes. I also like trying to make Grace smile, but she says my jokes are dad jokes. If one of my jokes flops, I repeat them until it becomes funny. I like to be difficult sometimes, especially if I know something will get under someone's skin. What can I say? I was a little brother once. It's what we do best.

I love making fires. I probably make one on a daily basis, though usually in a firepit or fireplace. Something about the process soothes me. Making and collecting kindling. Feeding a flame with my breath until it catches enough to put larger wood on. Tending to it so it doesn't get too big, but doesn't go out. It's an art as much as it is a science.

And that's all you get for now. If you want to know more, send in an ask 🙃