#and DW it honestly Didn’t affect my mental health that much

[banhchao]

Around last year, I had a white girl here impersonate an infamous blog with a disgusting Asian men fetish and racist and misogynistic hate of Asian women (because she too shared the same disgusting views) and beg for my forgiveness on her behalf. When I refused to (as the og blog said vile and dehumanizing shit about Asian women because she was jealous), this girl proceeded to cry crocodile tears and said that I should be happy cause nonexistent ppl threw rocks at her and her nonexistent asian bf. She lied and made herself the victim when she was pretending to be someone that had said harmful shit about ppl like me because she thought the og person deserved forgiveness and that I should feel bad if I didn’t give it. What’s even worse was that she was continuing to post the most racist and misogynistic shit about Asian women on her impersonator blog (ex. Slut-shaming, calling us ugly, dumb, arrogant, angry bitches) while she was talking to me, an asian woman.

This white girl would also constantly ask me if white women or men were worse. When I told her that both as a class were just as bad as each other just in different ways, she refused to take no as an answer. She already had determined in her mind that white women were the ultimate victims (mind you, she said awful things about asian women out of probable jealousy). When she couldn’t convince me, she pretended to be a white man with an Asian fetish and sent me hate about white women to drive home her point. I saw thru it obviously. She even went so far as to call me fat (which isn’t an insult tho I know she meant it as one) and bitch under this false pretense not giving a shit about my boundaries because she would rather that I be insulted by a pretend white man and at least convince me white women as a class suffer than me refuse to sympathize with her white women tears. her victim complex outweighed all.

She would ask me about racism against asian ppl and Kpop but never listen to me, an actual asian person when I disagreed with her. When I called out her asian male fetish she wouldn’t listen and constantly denied it even tho she was constantly infantilizing and generalizing asian men off of stereotypes. She would pretend she cared about our issues and our ppl but would still send triggering shit, caring only about herself and not the person on the receiving end. She would even pretend to be a poc just to add more “legitimacy” to her points.

I told her to stop using the c-slur and she wouldn’t. she once tried to bait me into checking out an asian women fetish blog when I had previously told her I got anxious when I was seen as a fetish - all to convince me of this false claim that asian women were more desired than white women, thus more seemingly more privileged. She would complain that white men shat on white women and uplifted asian women and would be blatantly racist and misogynistic to asian women that dated white men (like an MRAsian). She would constantly lie and try to twist the narrative sending me stories about the marginalized groups she hated doing outlandish shit to her to justify her hate of them. She would accuse ppl of being racist and xenophobic when ppl called out the Kpop industry for antiblackness, cultural appropriation, islamophobia, homophobia, racism, misogyny etc. and claimed white Kpop fangirls were the most oppressed for being called out for their fetishes. cause that’s what white women do; they constantly centre themselves.

I knew who she was and blocked her but for some reason the asks kept coming in. I checked on her blog one day to discover she became a TERF. She became one after learning it was the only movement of feminism that truly saw white women as poor little victims even tho we all know that radical feminism benefits white women primarily. It was the only ideology that saw her as the oppressed victim she so DESPERATELY wanted to be. She wanted to be the victim so badly that she would rather spew toxic, vile hate about trans ppl (who are very much marginalized and oppressed, especially when taking into account intersectionality) than just admit her white cishet girl self wasn’t oppressed. After she turned full TERF I finally figured out how to block her asks and got rid of her for good. at that point I knew there was no use of helping her and refused to give any sort of platform to a literal bigot. She now regularly vomits the ugliest transphobic and racist rhetoric... all to victimize her “uwu I’m such a dainty poor white Kpop fangirl and all of the evil trans ppl and poc hate me!” Self.

This white girl cared only about herself and did not give a shit about how her words could impact me. She laid all of her white guilt into me, an asian person, expecting me to carry her burden. And you know what was even more wild?!? I bought into her tears. I was so kind to her and actually used my efforts to be as empathetic as possible to her feelings and yet she still had no respect for my boundaries or feelings despite that. And sometimes she would apologize and insisted she was learning only to turn around and say something racist again. And I know you may be wondering “why didn’t you just turn off Anon?” but at times, she sounded like she needed help as a young person and I actually cared enough to provide what I could. She was a minor so I tried my best to tread carefully and to be empathetic knowing how being young can be difficult. Sometimes I thought I was actually doing some good and that she was actually taking my words to heart. She took advantage of my kindness instead and even felt entitled to it despite me being a total stranger on the internet.

Trust me when I say, white women will go to any length and measure to weaponize their tears and drive home their victim complex to anyone that will fall for their bullshit. Do not trust them.