#and 2- just. combeferre's reaction. i am not okay about him

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Everyone talking about Enjoltaire death scene and I mean yes but you know what's severely underrated ? That moment when they realize Jehan is missing and Combeferre wants to go get him back safe and sound and Enjolras is like yes because he cares about his friends more than about the death of a spy and he puts his hand on ferre's arm to calm him down and then Jehan is shot and "your friends have just shot you" and

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Fanfic asks! 4, 5, 30, 31! 💞

Hello! :D

4. Link your three favorite fics right now.

1. Okay I am going to be honest I am mildly embarrassed because right now I’m on a Buzzfeed Unsolved kick and I have like four guilty pleasure fandoms that I get awkward admitting to, and this is one of them. But the fic really is fucking exquisite and I just finished rereading Yellow Square like an hour ago and it’s so, so good. Just. Beautifully written and lovely, but also tense and tight and genuinely suspenseful, and the touch starvation in it is written perfectly, and that ending is so good. (It is Archive-locked, so you have to be logged in.)

2. paperclipbitch has been in my top-three authors since LJ days. My actual favorite of their Owen/Ianto fics never migrated over, so I feel awkward linking to it, but the band AU, tell rock’n’roll i’m alone again, is also so, so goddamn good. (I might be slightly fonder of I’ve Suffered Shipwrecks which is like. it’s only not THE MCU fic for me, the if-I-could-only-have-one-fic-in-this-fandom fic, because we were emergencies exists, but it’s a freaking close second. but I haven’t been able to reread Shipwrecks lately because I’m pretty sure the next time I do there’s gonna be tears and some ugly emotions floating up to the surface.)

3. A much more recent new love for me, but Still the Same is 74k of fusion done perfectly, taking the bones of White Collar and instead of twisting the characters to fit the story, twisting the story to fit the character, so we get a glorious Combeferre/Enjolras/Grantaire story where I can still see where the fusion comes in to play but it tells a slowly unfolding unique story, and the characters are great, and I am a sucker for poly where somebody gets added to an established couple.

(I really like reccing shit and I just want to keep linking things but I tried to limit to things I’ve been reading/rereading lately.)

5. What are your fanfic pet peeves? Do they have a huge effect on whether or not you decide to read something?

A lot of my pet peeves tend to be fandom-specific. There will be some characterizations or wide-spread headcanons I really don’t like, and it generally will drive me out of fic more than anything else. (MCU had a few. Harry Potter had... a lot, because I mostly cared about Marauders and I didn’t like the fic most of the fandom modeled their versions of the Marauders on. I’ve found a few in TUA, too.) 

On a more general level, constant misspellings of a character’s name and no breaks between lines both annoy me out of a fic, and I don’t like character bashing. ...There are probably others but they’re slipping me right now.

30. Post a snippet from your current WIP without context - no more than 300 words.

I have multiple WIPs running right now, so I RNGed which one to go with and got Chess fic:

It’s a risk. Sometimes Freddie’s stubborn as a mule, waiting for her to come to him and treating it like she’s shunned him when she doesn’t. There are days when she really isn’t paying attention, and doesn’t see the way he’s looking at her, and she’s baffled when his mood sinks for the rest of the night. But every way of dealing with Freddie has its own risks. Florence still hasn’t balanced all the pros and cons, but she’s getting better every day.

Anyway, she can’t let him get it into his head that she’ll read his mind anytime he wants something from her. He has to work for it, sometimes. Besides, it’s so much easier to deal with him when he comes asking instead. She might have thought it’d be the other way at one point, that he’d been even more difficult when he has to seek things out, but instead it tempers him, gives him a sort of sweetness she doesn’t really see any other time. When he doesn’t have to ask, he’s cocky and pleased with himself and so much harder to handle.

Because what he wants, whether he’s brash and demanding or soft and needy, is for her to handle him. It’s just a matter of if he’s admitting it or not.

(I need to get back to that fic. And most of my WIPs.)

31. Of the characters you write for, which is your favorite? Has that choice been swayed at all by your followers/readers’ reactions to certain ones?

Ohhhhh I don’t even know. There’s been so, so many over so many fandoms that choosing a singular favorite is hard. Maybe River Tam, because I’ve come back to her again and again for years and years. Abigail Hobbs is a close candidate too, though, and easy for me to get wrapped up in. And more recently I’ve been really enjoying writing Allison’s point of view for TUA fic. I don’t know, I tend to have a couple of characters I really go to for each fandom, but for overall, that is... very difficult.

As to reactions, I don’t really post steadily enough to have a steady follower base, especially as I rarely crosspost to tumblr or anything, so I’m mostly just on AO3 and DW. I do have one fic that’s outshone everything else I’ve ever written in terms of comments/kudos/reactions, but it’s never particularly drawn me towards writing more of that. I do find that some of my favorites are ones where I’ve gotten great comments about how I write them, but I honestly think that’s more the other way around -- I feel very passionate and attached to how I write them, so I’m kind of nervous about if it actually sucks and I don’t realize it, so nice comments about it stick with me longer.

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Revolve 31- Les Misérables 23/2/17

Les Mis last night… first off wow! It was the most amazing, emotional and captivating show and cast I have ever seen!

So I should probably get into it by saying that during my show, Sophie Reeves was on as Fantine, Jonny Purchase as Enjolras, Lee Van Geleen as the Factory Foreman and Andy Conaghan was on as Grantaire. All five swings were on as well, because Steffan Harri, Josie Kemp and Adam Bayjou were all off. Holly Anne Hull was listed to be on but I don’t think she was, though I can’t be sure for definite. Also I’m going to try and be as brief as possible because I don’t want this to be too long.

To start with the principals, I was very impressed with the vast majority of them.

Simon Gleeson, Oh my Goodness Simon Gleeson. He was absolutely excellent, from the moment of the prologue when he opens his mouth for the first time right up until the final bows he just did not fail to be amazing. He did what a Valjean should do and more, he was captivating, raw and amazing and was also such a lovely lovely person at stage door! His soliloquy was fantastically raw and wonderful and right through he was consistently excellent. He’s not a Valjean you want to miss because as far as I’m concerned he’s the best Valjeans Les Mis has seen in years.

On to Hayden Tee. He was a very good Javert, he was gruff, angry yet the emotion in stars and Javert’s suicide was excellent. I liked the interaction between him and Valjean when valjean arrives at the barricade and I really couldn’t have complained. His Javert is fresh and new and I’m delighted he took over from Jeremy Secombe. He’s also only there until April so you should definitely do what you can to catch him. He isn't Jeremy and I definitely prefer Jezza but Tee is a good stand in

Okay so, Sophie Reeves. I had been looking forward to seeing Lucy O Byrne because I was very proud to see an Irish Fantine, however Sophie Reeves was very good. She was the right amount of timid in the factory scene and her deterioration from lovely ladies to her death was heartbreaking. Her Come to Me had me in tears, it was incredibly moving. Her I dreamed a dream wasn't the highlight of her performance for me but it was still good

Katy Secomb is well used to the role of Madame T now, and I enjoyed her performance, particularly with this year’s Thenardier, David Langham who is so tall but very good at the role.

Hollie O Donoghue is a good Eponine. She absolutely looks the part, the photos don’t do it justice. She’s good, I had no problem with her interpretation of the role but there's lots of scope for improvement. She’s not the feistiest Eponine ever but her feistiness is still present at times, especially in her interactions with Montparnasse. Her interactions with Marius and her lines relating to him with heartbreaking though they were a little too friendly. She rushes a lot of her lines which I didn't love but She definitely is good at her role and I can see her continuing to improve. She is a hundred times better than Carrie H Fletcher but I preferred Eva

Charlotte Kennedy is undeniably one of my favourite Cosettes. I’m happy to see a dark Cosette as well because I thibk it looks wonderful with her green garden dress. Her In My life is one of my absolute favourites and i am absolutely delighted she took over from Zoe Doano.

It’s no secret that I am a massive fan of Jonny Purchase. I adored his Joly and his Marius. I never saw his Combeferre but I’m quite thankful I missed it because I’ve heard nothing but bad stuff lol. However despite being a big fan I can’t pretend I wasn’t slightly disappointed that Chris Cowley wasn’t on, but only because I have heard so so much about his wonderful performance. However Jonny made me regret that disappointed. He was an absolutely fantastic Enjolras. He was fiery, passionate, dedicated to his cause and easy on the eyes. His vocals are very good and his interaction with the poor was great in Paris. He was perfect in ABC cafe. He was respected by his peers and I just really enjoyed his performance overall. At stage door he joked about his wig being awful but I didn’t mind it either. He was just excellent and I could say so much more but this is so so long already.

As for Marius, I enjoyed Paul Wilkinson’s performance however I had a few small issues. Not that he wasn’t good, he was very good, just that I didn’t find he stuck out to me as much as I had expected. He blended in with the other students a little more than A Marius should l think. However he looks nice, his vocals were amazing and I loved his reactions to Eponine’s death. He was heartbroken at her death and help her in his arms for the longest time, even after her body was carried away he stayed by himself for a bit and cried until he was comforted by Grantaire and then Valjean arrived at the Barricade. I do like to see a Marius actually effected by Eponine’s death even if it’s not strictly accurate to the brick. It was heartbreaking and wonderful and I think I’m just really greedy because he was an excellent Marius. I liked him better than Craig Mather and I am really glad he’s back, I just thought he was going to be a new favourite based on audios I’d heard. However his Empty chairs was lovely vocally and emotionally

Okay so on to the students and I’ll try so so hard to keep this brief. So to start with Combeferre, I was absolutely gutted to discover Steffan Harri wasn’t on because I was so looking forward to seeing him. However Danny Whitehead was an excellent Combeferre, if perhaps a little small and slight. I still really liked his performance. He was calm and collected and just very good. He was very dedicated to the cause In ABC and I enjoyed him. Will Jennings was a wonderful Courfeyrac, and I reckon he’d make a wonderful Bamatabois when he’s on. At the start of Red and Black he was completely delighted to hear about Marius’ new found love interest which I was happy to see at last, however he rightly got sick of hearing it and turned back to the cause quickly. His voice is different but sounds great and his ‘And if I should die in the fight to be free, where the fighting is hardest there will I be’ was one of the best delivered lines of the show. I would have loved to see him as Bamatabois. Vinny Coyle is an excellent Feuilly and I was happy to see him on. He looked the part and he sounded amazing. He handled all of the lines very well, his ‘they can come.if they dare, we’ll be there’ actually gave me goosebumps he was excellent and I would love to see him take over the role (However I don’t want Jonny to leave) He’s also excellent when he’s in the ensemble. He was absolutely brilliant in Master of the House and He looked like he was having the time of his life in The Wedding. All in All Vinny Coyle is an excellent edition to the cast and I am so glad he’s part of it. Felix Mosse could catch anyone’s eye. He’s a wonderful Jean Prouvaire and he looks how I imagine a Prouvaire should look. He’s dreamy, wonderful and his voice is smooth and just lovely and His flag waving was very good. He caught my eye constantly during Lovely Ladies and he makes a wonderful pimp, and it’s probably my favourite version of the role I’ve seen. I am 100% positive he makes a wonderful Marius and I hope he gets promoted to principal Marius at some point just cause I know he’ll be excellent. Simon Lynch was an absolutely fantastic Joly. He was sweet, scared and I just don’t think I could find too may faults with him. He was scared at the barricade, particularly during drink with me there was evident nerves and I got the impression he’s a lovely Marius. As I said above, Andy Conaghan was on for Grantaire and he was also very good. His Drink with me broke me, he addressed all the student until Jonny ran down the barricade to have ‘Is your life just one more lie’ sung to him. They embraced almost straight away after the line before they sat down and talked and it was all very lovely. There was very nice chemistry between Jonny and Andy and it made me very happy. Lee Van Geleen is still playing Lesgle which doesnt showcase his talent properly however he was also on as The Factory Foreman and he was very very good and I was delighted to finally see the moustache. Anthony Hansen is obviously a bit of an older Montparnasse but he portrays him very well. His interactions with Eponine were great and I’m pretty positive he makes a good Bishop too. Adam Pearce’s Bamatabois is as weird as ever but I can’t deny I love his stage presence and it’d be a different show without him. Oli Brennan is consistently excellent as a swing and was on for Bayjou. I don’t think there’s much to say other than he was great as per.

Now on with the female ensemble, they were very good. I loved Samantha Thomas in the role of Madeline last night and Kayleigh Mcknight was an excellent factory girl with just the perfect level of bitchiness! Tamsin didn’t disappoint, Lucyelle was very good, Aimee Fisher was excellent and I was particularly impressed by Lauren Soley . Turning was actually enjoyable and Lovely Ladies was very very good i was disappointed with the lack of Josie Kemp because she was off..

Additional notes: I actually really loved Master of the House, the little Gavroche was positively hilarious and the little girls were so so sweet, and it was my absolute favourite version of ABC I’ve seen ever, bec

All in all it was an excellent performance with a spectacular cast, the best in years I believe and you definitely should not miss Revolve 31!

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Loving Feuilly

A High School AU where Enjolras is really close with Feuilly and for years people have been half-joking about them dating, until Enjolras has heard “are you in love with him or something?” one too many times and finally thinks “shit... am I?”

And it’s not even that much of a stretch, because he spends so much time with Feuilly anyway, because being around Feuilly makes him really happy, and Feuilly makes him smile involuntarily just by existing, and makes him laugh all the time, and yeah, it’s really, really not that much of a stretch. He knows he loves Feuilly, that’s not in question, not even a little bit, but now he’s got the thought that maybe he’s in love with Feuilly in his head and he can’t get it out.

Without meaning to, he starts this mental checklist in his head of all the reasons he should like Feuilly. Feuilly, who is so wonderfully kind, and the poor thing can’t seem to say no, he’s always busy because he spends so much of his free time taking on extra projects. Feuilly, who is ridiculously intelligent, and takes multiple AP classes (and has the dark circles under his eyes to prove it), and the rest of his classes are all honors, and who calls himself an idiot all the time even though it’s the farthest thing from the truth. Feuilly, who is unreasonably talented, who has a beautiful voice and the handwriting of an angel and a great art-style and amazing piano skills, and on top of all of that is a damn-near professional dancer, how does this guy even exist? And speaking of the dancing, Feuilly, who, now that Enjolras thinks about it, has really nice arts and a great butt, and oh shit, oh no, he really does like Feuilly romantically, doesn’t he?

By the start of Senior Year, Enjolras is ready to admit that he... has some romantic attraction toward Feuilly. He doesn’t want to call it a crush, because that seems such a violent word for such an extremely pleasant feeling, and loving Feuilly really is a pleasant feeling, a bubbly sort of warmth in his chest that makes everything okay whenever Feuilly’s around. So he figures he’ll never act on it, because he’s content to just love Feuilly and let that be enough.

But then there’s, like, a 4-day weekend, because scheduling got way out of hand somewhere in the school administration, and it’s the longest Enjolras has been away from Feuilly since summer vacation, and it hits him like a truck how much he misses him. He’d been half-seriously toying with the idea of how he would ask Feuilly out on a date, since they live like 2 hours away from each other, and Enjolras doesn’t have his license yet, and they’re both so busy, but now he realizes that if he doesn’t ask Feuilly out, he might explode.

So he talks it over with Grantaire and Montparnasse, because they’re his only friends that live near enough that he can walk to their houses, and also because Parnasse has actual dating experience, and they let him bounce ideas off of them until he’s come up with something of a plan.

Enjolras has never been more 50/50 about how he thinks a plan is going to turn out. One minute he’ll think that he’s actually got a pretty good chance of Feuilly saying yes, and the next minute he’ll be sure Feuilly will say no. And he’s nervous, mind-rattlingly so, but he can’t realistically think of a bad outcome. Either Feuilly says yes, and he goes on a date with a person he likes, or Feuilly says no, and they stay friends and Enjolras gets to say he’s gotten up enough courage to ask someone out.

Enjolras knows he doesn’t have much time that week to do anything, so he figures he’ll wait until Friday to ask, but the second he sees Feuilly Monday morning, he knows he’ll never make it. He hadn’t planned on telling any of this other friends yet, so that no one holds him accountable if he chickens out, but at lunch he’s got so much nervous energy that he searches the entire school to find Courfeyrac, and can’t find him anywhere, and finally he needs to talk to someone about it so bad that he tells Joly and Gibelotte (and Bossuet, who happened to be there) and just doesn’t mention that the guy in question is Feuilly. But toward the end of it Feuilly comes over from whatever he was doing before and sits down, and everything’s great because being around Feuilly is just like that, but Enjolras still has this freezing cold nervous feeling and he’s desperately trying to get Joly to change the topic before Feuilly figures out what they were talking about.

It is an utter mess and Enjolras wants to scream, but Feuilly is there with his beautiful hazel-brown eyes and his soft blue jacket and everything is just a little bit better.

Enjolras finally cracks before last period, mentally rearranges his schedule and figures he can work in a date on Wednesday, and tries to ignore the butterflies in his stomach that are actually tiny ice dragons as he works up his nerve and heads to the locker bay to find Feuilly.

It does not go at all as eloquently as Enjolras had hoped, especially because the first thing he says once the locker bay is suitably empty of everyone but the two of them is, “Hey, can’t I ask you something before I lose my fucking nerve?”

And even despite that, once he finally gets it out, Feuilly... says yes? Is this real life??? Yes, this is real life, Enjolras has to remind himself, because he heard himself ask it even if it seemed to unreal to register as an actual thing that he just did, but he can’t stop smiling, and this is amazing.

He tells all of this friends as soon as he can.

Courfeyrac is honestly more excited than Enjolras, and literally screams when he finds out. Combeferre, who sits with Enjolras and Feuilly in math class, is worried at first about getting third-wheeled, but is ultimately also ridiculously happy for them. Grantaire comes over and starts chanting “OTP, OTP,” because he’s Grantaire.

The date is a simple one. Wednesday during lunch, Enjolras and Feuilly find an area without too many people to sit and they watch an episode of Brooklyn Nine Nine on Enjolras’s computer. Enjolras, at Floreal’s half-joking suggestion, brought Feuilly a chocolate bar. Feuilly bought Enjolras a brownie. It’s a good date, Enjolras thinks, although he has very little experience in these things.

Afterwards, they’re walking back to class, and Feuilly turns to Enjolras and asks, “Are we doing this right?” because neither of them have dating experience, but Enjolras reasons that they both had a good time, so yes probably.

And it’s wonderful.

Until he talks to Matelote later.

Because Matelote has a bunch of points about how Enjolras didn’t really tell Feuilly how much he likes him, and how there isn’t a second date planned yet, and on and on, and she’s honestly trying to help, but Enjolras suddenly realizes how complicated this whole dating thing is. He overthinks until he’s swept into a well of anxiety and everything in his head is chaos and confusion and then...

Nothing.

The next day is a numb depression. It’s not something he hasn’t experienced before, one of those days where even thinking of Floreal, who is usually his base-line for happiness, doesn’t elicit so much as a flutter of emotion, and it is mind-bogglingly weird to look at Feuilly, who he went on a date with yesterday, and feel... nothing.

The attraction isn’t fully back the next day, either.

By the end of the week, Enjolras asks Feuilly on a second date for the next Wednesday, basically the same thing as the first, but he’s not as excited as the first time, and he can’t quite place why. He chalks it up to stress and tries to move on, but he can’t, and he doesn’t know what to do, and they he remembers, oh right, communication is a thing.

After the second date, Enjolras asks Feuilly where he seems this relationship going. Or, rather, he tries to, but the question starts right in his head and leaves his mouth as a disjointed something-or-other about “is this a date thing or a friend thing, I dunno, I know you don’t have any more experience than I do, I don’t know, never mind I guess.”

It is not good.

And Enjolras really, really can’t let it go, can’t wait until a third date to work out why he suddenly doesn’t feel so amazing about this relationship. So that night, he texts Feuilly and phrases the question more coherently. And they talk it over for a little and then decided that they really like spending time with each other but just don’t see each other in all that much of a romantic context. And Enjolras feels amazing, which does not exactly feel like the proper reaction here, but who the flip cares? He asked a guy out, planned and went on dates, practiced healthy communication, and examined his feelings; he feels like he just leveled up in a video game or something, he just gained so much experience.

(Combeferre, who told his mother about this and was hardcore shipping it, treats it like a breakup, as does Eponine, even when Enjolras explains that it only counts as a breakup if they were officially dating in the first place, but Combeferre has a lot of feelings and he’ll get over this.)

And Feuilly is still amazing is a ridiculous number of ways, and still more attractive than Enjolras would have noticed a couple years ago (and he still has a really nice butt), and Enjolras still loves him to bits, but it’s not romantic, and that’s okay.

Loving Feuilly is a good feeling. A really, really good feeling.