#anarecovery

[yumclaire]

hey, i've just started my recovery journey today. i've spent about 3 months undereating and trying to lose unnecessary w8. i know it's not a lot and people struggle with this disorder for years (makes me feel really unvalid) i noticed how much i lost, i don't even have the energy to play my favourite sport as i used to. my parents noticed and worry about it, my mom is sad because she thinks i dont like the way she cooks. i was never sent to an 3d recovery center or had any bigger body problems (unvalid) i started to notice how scared i am of food, which literally keeps me alive. i'm very young, i'm turning 14 in february, this made me realize that i don't want to waste my life worrying and feeling the way i feel right now. i spent a lot of time on the wrong side of tumblr and i came here, hoping it'll motivate me and support me 🩷

[nourishnrecover]

Constant swing between "I'm losing my ED 😨😥" and "I'm losing my ED 💃💕🪩"

but I know, and I'm reminding anyone that needs it, that the second one will last longer. on the other side, I'll have escaped an extremely harmful illness and be glad for it

[findingfreedom1122]

Binged :(

The first time in, damn, how long?

I know I got triggered and started having flashbacks with what my mom was watching at TV. I felt trapped and vulnerable, and my brain told me that bingeing would keep me safe. And now I'm so mad at myself.

I have to tell my dietitian and my therapist. Hope they won't be mad.

~ Lucy

[phoebe-anresearchproject]

Anorexia Recovery Research Project

Hi guys, my name is Phoebe, I am currently completing my Master's degree in clinical psychology and mental health at Swansea university. My dissertation project is exploring the factors that contribute to successful recovery from anorexia nervosa. The aim of the study is to hopefully solidify what factors positively influence recovery, for these to contribute to current research and create a more efficient recovery plan for current and future sufferers. The research will include meeting with the researcher (myself) via Microsoft Teams for a discussion around your personal experiences of recovery, that will last around 45-60 minutes. All information provided will be completely anonymised. I would be extremely grateful for anyone who wishes to take part. If you think this is something you would like to take part in, please either message me directly or email me at 2250195@swansea.ac.uk

This research is being conducted Phoebe Davies (Email: 2250195@swansea.ac.uk), the research is being supervised by Dr Rachael Hunter (Email: r.hunter@swansea.ac.uk).

This research has been approved by the School of Psychology Research Ethics Sub-Committee, Swansea University.

Disclaimer** We ask that any participants be over the age of 18 and are not currently receiving treatment for anorexia nervosa.

[chiarasolems]

ED are a labyrinth, a chasm that makes you feel an unbelievable sense of inner emptiness...an emptiness full of pain to be questioned and reprocessed. #recoveryispossible 💜 I DCA sono un labirinto, una voragine che fanno sentire un senso di VUOTO interiore allucinante... un VUOTO pieno di dolore da interrogare e rielaborare. #sipuòguarire 💜 Link: https://linktr.ee/chiarasolems 💜 · · · · · · #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #recovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #recoverywin #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecoveryarmy #anarecovery #ed #edrecoverywarrior #eatingdisordersupport #edrecoveryfamily #edrecoveryjourney #prorecovery #edrecoveryisworthit #edrecovering #loveyourself #nevergiveup #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderhelp #recoveryisworthit #edfighter #eatingdisordersurvivor #eatittobeatit #edrecoverypower #selfworth #mondosole (presso MondoSole anoressia bulimia binge disturbi alimentari (dipendenze)) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp2LRbatd_t/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[velocitations]

drinking until i'm not weird about food #recovery #anarecovery #cured

[whattheflip11]

#ed #ana #edrecovery #anarecovery #recovery #anorexiaisnothot #yummyfood

[missdietxoke]

got weighted and it was 137lbs which is the largest ive ever been. it’s scary asf but i have to shred these 37lbs. im working hard for it now bc i want & need it.

i have a practice sheet to know what to do over the summer so we’re not out of shape. i started today and it was hard but worth it. im going to buy a scale on the low so my parents don’t see it.

june. 26. 2023

#twvent #vent #ana #anarecovery #anna #anatok

[existentialcatholic]

If I couldn't stay at that size without restricting, my body was not supposed to stay at that size.

[rebellangell]

I’ve always relied on food…

Now laying in bed, I had a flashback on how I let myself go, back when I was 17.

I remember feeling so vulnerable and sad that I could barely look myself in the mirror. The only thing close to feeling happy was eating. And not even eating healthy/nutritious food; it was the most high calorie disgusting junk food you can imagine. I gained 10kg in only 2 months, and only noticed when all of my pants started to rip off, which was not only embarrassing but disappointing.

I was disappointed at myself, at how weak I was for not standing up for myself and hiding in endless amounts of sugar trying to sweeten my life up. Needless to say I didn’t worked out at all, and binged almost every afternoon for days, until I had no more money to keep feeding my disorder. That went on until I turned 18 and my life started changing… for the better.

However, it doesn’t end there. Every time I’m going through a hard time, first thing that comes to my mind is having some delicious food in order to feel better, because “I deserve it”, after all. No, I don’t deserve putting unhealthy chemicals in my body, just for my brain to feel a little bit of dopamine. None of us deserve it; but it’s so damn hard being stronger than the voice in your head.

After being sick for a few months, I’ve done nothing but putting junk food in my body (again). And have noticed that I didn’t even let my body recover with some healthy nutrients. Oh no, instead I’ve been feeding my binging disorder with tons of snacks & fast food. I don’t even remember the last time I didn’t ordered at least 1 takeaway a day.

Yesterday I watched a youtube video of a girl who recovered from her binge-eating disorder, and it’s now living her best life after a lot of hard work and discipline. I realised that I’m currently in the first phases of an assured downfall, and got terrified of course. After watching that raw video of her documenting everything including her darkest days, something just clicked on my head. And what it clicked, was the fear of becoming someone like that: a lost, depressed, empty version of myself. By the way, it is also the first time I publicly recognise my binge-eating disorder, which is driving me fucking crazy.

But not everything is bad. Today I’ve made more conscious choices regarding my diet, but we all know this ain’t about a diet only. It’s training your brain, learning how to be kind to yourself and gaining strength, not only physical but mental strength to battle the ED. That annoying voice inside your head every, always pushing and trying to kick in, because it wants nothing else but the worst for you.

[yumclaire]

breakfast of today!

(no calorie counting 🤍)

greek yogurt with nuts granola, frozen blueberries, banana, chia and pumpkin seeds 🩷

[nourishnrecover]

The size of your body &or the amount you consume in recovery does not change the validity or severity of your ED.

You're still valid and still deserve recovery 💜

[findingfreedom1122]

Had an ice cream sandwich for evening snack tonight. My mood swings are almost making me regret it. 🫣

[spencieq]

Someone with an overweight sw developing an ED to lose isnt something to be applauded- everyone is worthy of recovery- weight loss shouldnt mean starvation- they are still sick and still worth feeding themselves- 

[odbymyself]

i dont want to feel trapped inside a body i dont want

[chiarasolems]

Dysmorphophobia is a psychiatric disorder, but most people who experience it, struggle to recognize it. Dysmorphophobia sufferers experience great anxiety related to any part of the body: it can be a specific point such as skin, hair, nose, wrinkles, acne, marks and enlarged pores or the whole body such as perceving / feeling fat, deformed. Dysmorphophobia can affect both women and men. When you suffer from this disease, you focus intensely on your appearance and body image, repeatedly checking the mirror, seeking "reassurance and confirmation of what you perceive/feel", sometimes for many hours a day. This is an extremely painful and disabling symptom. 💜 Grazie jo🙏 💜 Link: https://linktr.ee/chiarasolems 💜 · · · · · · #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #recoveryispossible #recovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #recoverywin #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecoveryarmy #anarecovery #ed #edrecoverywarrior #eatingdisordersupport #edrecoveryfamily #edrecoveryjourney #prorecovery #edrecoveryisworthit #edrecovering #loveyourself #edfam #nevergiveup #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderhelp #recoveryisworthit #edfighter #eatingdisordersurvivor #edrecoverypower #selfworth #mondosole #Dysmorphophobia (presso MondoSole anoressia bulimia binge disturbi alimentari (dipendenze)) https://www.instagram.com/p/CpznDe5NNpz/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=