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[chiara-klara-claire]

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[annakie]

I have so much to say and no time to say it. Just like... none.

What started out as "Get the new roof on the house (CRITICAL!) and a new back patio roof put up (SERIOUS and would become critical in the next couple of years) and get an 8' Cedar Fence put up (ANY fence was critical but the size and materials was a splurge)... and hey while we're at it, let's get a ceiling fan on that new patio... oh shit the house might catch fire and burn down because the fusebox is dying...

...so all that has spiraled hugely. It's turned into more or less a full home renovation. A renovation much, much needed if you'd seen the state of the place. Liveable, but embarassing with how dated it was and how many things just didn't work quite right, or at all.

It's turned into "I found an amazing contractor who does a great job and charges very fair rates who I get along with great, so let's just spend a huge chunk of my savings and fix every damn thing we can that's wrong in this house, or will soon be wrong in this house, let's make it a place worth living in, a place that will someday sell for more than minimum, a place that for the first time in 21 years I can actually be proud of." It's "Hey, Arturo? Can we fix this?" "Sure, I can do that." "OK, how much? Wait, are you serious, OK I can afford that?!"

It's not just getting the things done that needed to be done but many things that I just wanted. It's Arturo throwing in some amazing little bonuses for free, and doing a lot of little things he doesn't have to do because he's just that awesome.

It's my brain starting to get fried from all of the choices. Every day, so many choices.

It's my cats hiding in the guest room closet all day from the noise, it's me sleeping in the guest room for two and a half weeks so far because the master bedroom is too useful for storage and a thoroughfare. It's every room getting something done -- even if its just a fresh coat of paint and the rewiring, and some rooms being torn apart almost completely and put back together the way I've always envisioned them.

It's now being used to getting my actual job done with hammering and sawing happening 10 feet away, and other people doing their job fixing up my house around me while i do my job at my WFH desk so I can pay them.

It's so much, guys. It's awesome, and a little terrifying, and exhausting. It's me barely keeping up with my responsibilities and trying to be a good friend and not talk about me me me all the time when everything every day is filled with new and exciting things for me.

Today that thing was taking a shower in my home and enjoying it for the first time ever, not wanting to get out ASAP because of how much I hate my bathroom.

At some point, I'm going to have time and energy to start posting pictures and talking about it in-depth again. This last month or two has been a once in a lifetime experience probably, and I want to remember it. It's going to keep going on for another probably two weeks at this point. I'm just too busy or tired or brain-fried at the end of every day to post about it.

But here, here's a preview. This is what my life is right now,and I both absolutely love it and am so tired and ready for it all to be done. But only when every choice is made and every "Hey, Arturo, can we...?" is complete.

[carawenfiction]

Will we have an update soon?

Tumblr won't let me make normal posts for some reason, so the update will have to be in form of an answer to this ask smh. Anyway:

Hey everyone!

This post is long overdue, I know. I’m really sorry to those who have been worried about my wellbeing, as well as those who have been waiting around for an update for so long.

I’ve put off writing here because this “update” is something I’ve been wrestling with for a long time. But I can’t keep going back and forth on it forever, which is why I’m now letting you all know that the Shadow Society is officially discontinued.

I know that this might not come as much of a surprise to anyone at this point. I’ve tried to salvage the story by remaking it into something I’m happy with through a rewrite. But I’ve rewritten the rewrite itself more than once, and no matter what I do, I’m just not happy with the result. Rewriting something that’s already published with all the coding it involves is a lot more tricky than I initially thought it would be.

This is not a case of me being needlessly harsh on myself, however; it’s simply a truth I’ve come to realize after struggling to find a way to keep going with the story. I’ll never be fully content with it, or even content enough, unless I’d be able to completely remake and rewrite everything from scratch – and consequentially, I will never find enough motivation to continue because of how unhappy I am with it.

I’ve seen some speculation about my reason for rewriting the story and my long absence, and that they’ve had to do with comparisons to other IFs (well, you know which one). This isn’t entirely the case. While the comparisons did happen and probably still do, and while they were discouraging in the beginning, I can definitely understand where people have been coming from when making them. I talked about this more in-depth in the forums right after the release of TSS.

The main reason for why I can’t continue is that it’s not a series I feel passionate enough about to work on. My tastes have changed, and so has my writing to some degree. I’ve tried to convince myself that I am passionate about it. It’s hard to admit that you’re not when it’s been in your head for so long, when you’ve tried for so long to make this work and when you know that one part is published and that some people are anticipating a continuation. But it had to be done sooner or later.

Other reasons:

-While I don’t think that my writing style has changed drastically, I feel like it is somewhat different from how I wrote back in 2018 (which is a GOOD thing). Whenever I tried working on the rewrite or second book and attempted to emulate the writing of TSS, it just didn’t sound right anymore, and that took a lot of fun out of it.

-With everything that has happened with CoG over the past few years, they are no longer a company I want to write for.

Please know that none of this has discouraged me from writing in general. I still love doing it. If anything, this has taught me a lot about what I actually want to write and the writing process in general. Whether I end up publishing anything else in the future or will simply do so for my own enjoyment we’ll just have to see, though.

I still have the idea of a shadow-like world in my head, and maybe it’s one I will revisit at some point. Maybe there will be another version of TSS someday, albeit very different from the original one.

But for now, I can only thank you all for the overwhelming love and support over the years, and apologize for any disappointment this has caused. If people are interested, I’d be happy to share parts of the rewrite and unused ideas. The Tumblr page will still stay up at least for some time, but I will probably not be answering any asks from here on out.

EDIT: Forgot to add, but if anyone wants a genuinely amazing IF read you should check out my friend's wip here: https://uroboros-if.tumblr.com/ ❤️ Play the demo here: https://mistyriousness.itch.io/uroboros

[ririya-translates]

Rukiora

Ishida posted on Twitter another winter play backstory for Mitsuki's birthday, July 14, 2023. The post includes a drawing and a music link. I did my best an amateur to translate it into English. Minor play spoilers.

Not much has been spoken about Rukushio. What her family had was uncountable wealth, even among people in Havenna, But she hated the lewd family business.

What she hated were lies, The baseless lies her father always told her.

What she hated was that father. However wonderful a place Havenna was, However much power he had, however remarkable a person, She despised her passionately-spoken father from the depths of her heart.

What she lacked was a mother. The outside world was far too wonderful; This is why she left Havenna for good, her father said. It was all his fault.

When she asked which was more wonderful, the outside world or Havenna, He answered it was Havenna. She grew to hate him more and more.

What she loved were songs. They reminded her of the mother who completely left her.

What she changed was her name. Exaggerated in her mind, she hated that her name echoed similarly to his. Somehow, by adding the 'la' in "Luxiola (Rukiora)", It turned all songlike. She was utterly taken with this.

What she lacked were friends. Her hands were already full in her own little world. What she didn't know was love. Someday soon. What she did was sing to make a living. There was something a bit painful about using what she loved to earn money.

After all that, Despite hating the lies, hating her father, What was it that that made her continue to believe only his stories of the outside world?

(Neji's P.S./ Rukiora doesn't need much backstory probably. When it comes to Havenna, she knows barely anything at all.)

Note: Ishida left his usual disclaimer that him writing these on his own is like a 2D work by a 1D artist and that only the game Towada and him worked closely on together is considered canon. Towada retweeted the thread. He also always leaves a little congrats at the end, presumably like a "Happy Birthday" message.

[freya-howlett]

So, now that I finished totk, I'd like to share my insight of the game overall with y'all. Fight me or agree with me, I'd like to know other people's opinions

PROS

The soundtrack is amazing. Zelda has always been about awesome music and this is not the exception. The soundtrack plays exactly what the environment was to convey. You're exploring the sky islands? The music is then calm. You're in the depths? the music will help you shit yourself. Going even more down, looking for Ganondorf? coolest music ever, full of mystery.

World exploring. I feel like this time totk forces you to explore the world, in botw you could directly go to Ganon and beat the shit out of him with a stick, but definitely not here at all. You find yourself needing bombs so you'll have to look for caves, then you need Sundelion, so you have to go to the sky. In a certain way, I hated that for the first days because I was trying to finish the game as soon as I could, but now I appreciate it.

We have our first disabled Link! At least until the end. It was nice to see him different for once. It'd be cool if he had stayed that way.

World development. In botw, you have this whole piece of land that's mostly monsters and ruins, but in totk things have changed after the calamity disappeared. We have more people around who're in contact with each other. The places don't seem as lonely as before and even people help Link. And, did you notice there's less trees? It's a nice detail, since there's new buildings made of wood everywhere.

Fusing mechanic. Tbh, I didn't love Fuse at first, but then realized how useful it can be.

Link's clothing. There's more clothes available bc they used the botw DLC clothing, which is cool! And the new designs are... slutty.

Zelink. No one can tell me otherwise. All the signs are there, bitches!!!!

CONS

Overall, it doesn't feel like a sequel. And I hated that. Nintendo keeps giving preference towards new players and in this case, it's not worth it. I dare to declare that at least 80% of people who purchased totk played botw and knew exactly what they were getting. This especially has to do with the point below.

There's no mention of the Champions at all, the Sheikah technology is missing, and where tf are the Divine Beasts?? I get that, yeah, maybe the Champions shouldn't be thaaaaaat important anymore, yet what about everything else? Where's my Sheika Slate????????

We were promised a dark game and this isn't it, not at all. Maybe I'm tripping? But I remember clearly on the first years of development people mentioning this game would be dark like Majora's, and going back to the first two trailers I could actually see it was kinda the case. However, with the last trailer, I made a bet that they probs rejected the idea and I was right. I'd like to have something like Majora someday again.

The introduction of a new race out of nowhere. The zonai.... they weren't my piece of cake at first. It seems cheap for me, I'm not sure. I don't know if they intended to introduce something, anything, from them since botw but ended up scraping the idea, but overall the whole experience I have of them from both games is that they took the zonai out of their asses and were like "yup, we got this!"

The end was TOO happy. Like I mentioned before, I'd rather Link have his arm cut. Purah can make another one if Rauru really wanted his arm so bad. Zelda transforming back was okay, but what I didn't really get was why did Sonia and Rauru didn't turn her back before????? They instead waited until Link fought his ass hard, lol.

I hated that Zelda was thanking ME at the end instead of Link. Don't look at me, bitch, look at your boyfriend! This has to do with this other post of mine about how Nintendo can't let go of Link being an avatar despite they themselves providing depth to his character.

I may edit this longer but rn I'm out of ideas and I'm at work, lol.

[floralcyanide]

Kinktober Day Nine

Breeding Kink - Austin Butler

ngl towards the end I got a little in over my head with filth. I could've made this longer but wanted it to be posted today before it got too late. but I love writing breeding kink, I need to do it more often. maybe I will, who knows. if you enjoy this, please reblog and like!! I appreciate it more than you know! <3

pairing: Austin Butler x Reader

warnings: smut, unprotected sex, dirty talk, cum play, fingering, breeding kink, mentions of pregnancy, female reader-oriented

word count: 1457

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It’s finally autumn, and Target is filled to the brim with cool decor items and fun little $1 pumpkins. You’ve dragged Austin along with you to get the essentials you need but also to kill time and look around at the odds and ends Target always has to offer. You’ve been pointing out neat stuff that’s caught your eye, and you know it’s probably grating on Austin’s nerves, but it’s your favorite time of year. You love all things autumn. Austin is leaning against the cart while he pushes it around, watching you look through sweatshirts as he checks his watch. You’ve likely been here an hour already. 

You finally get close to the Target entrance, much to Austin’s relief. But then, you spot the cutest baby outfit ever. It’s a brown onesie with a dark orange pumpkin on it with sage green footie bottoms. You run over to look at the autumn-themed baby clothing immediately. You don’t have any children, but you’ve always wanted them. It isn’t something you’ve discussed in depth with Austin yet, but you both acknowledge you want kids someday. Whether it’s with each other or any time soon is up for debate. 

“Oh my gosh, Aus, look! The little pumpkin hat is adorable,” you gush, picking up the pumpkin-shaped baby hat and inspecting it closely.

Austin watches you tiredly at first. He obviously wants to go home but hasn’t said anything, and he doesn���t want to ruin your chipper mood. He enjoys seeing you like this, but it’s getting late. However, the more you look through baby clothes, the more his mind wanders. 

“They have baby costumes!” you coo, maneuvering over to where there are costumes for babies and toddlers.

Austin scoffs, following you as he shakes his head at your excitement. He glances over at the regular baby clothes and sees a shirt on it that says “Daddy’s good sport” on it with a soccer ball. Then he begins to really think. Austin’s imagination starts going places, like picturing you holding a baby with your hair and his eyes. It’s cute at first, but then he starts seeing you with a small bump in his mind. He put that there. He got you pregnant.  Austin’s face flushes, and he starts to feel warm all over as his thoughts begin to consume him in ways that shouldn’t be in public. 

“Y/N, let’s go ahead and head home,” Austin bites his lip, looking you up and down for a moment before you can turn around and catch him.

“Okay,” you agree, putting down the little witch’s boots you were eyeing.

Austin is abnormally silent on the way home as he clutches the steering wheel tightly with both hands. 

“Babe, are you okay?” you furrow your eyebrows at him from the passenger side, “You’ve been quiet the whole ride.”

“Yeah, I’m fine,” Austin purses his lips, eyes not leaving the road, “Just overthinking.”

“What are you thinking about?” you ask curiously but also a tad concerned. Austin always tells you if something is bothering him.

He takes a deep breath, “I’m thinking about bending you over the dining room table and putting a baby in you.”

Your eyes widen at his statement, but butterflies explode in your stomach at the thought. He wants a baby? With you?

“Oh,” you say, mouth forming into an “O” as you look down at your feet.

You aren’t sure how to respond to that right away. 

“How about instead of the table, we do it in the comfort of our bed?” you say after a brief moment of odd silence, “You can spend all night putting a baby in me if you want.”

Austin looks over at you for a split second before his eyes are glued back on the road, “Fine by me.”

You hurry to grab all the bags of items you purchased and make a beeline for the door, trying your best to put away everything that was perishable in a quick manner. Meanwhile, the whole time, Austin’s mouth is attached to your neck, shoulders, ears, or anything he could get to right now. You finally put away the last thing and all but drag him upstairs to the bedroom. He wastes no time pulling off your clothing, kissing you hungrily in between taking off his shirt and yours. Austin pushes you onto the bed, and you fall on your back, allowing him to pull off your jeans and underwear hurriedly. You move to the top of the bed where the pillows are, and you climb under the covers, watching as Austin removes his pants as well. He climbs under the duvet next to you and puts both his hands beside your head, steadying himself as he hovers over you. He looks into your eyes, and you look into his.

“Are you ready for this?” he asks, and you nod.

“Use your words, darling. Do you really want a baby?” Austin puts a gentle hand on your cheek, thumbing at your cheekbone.

“Yes, Austin. I want a baby, and I want you to put it in me right now,” you say, pressing your forehead to his. Your words light a fire in his belly.

He doesn’t hesitate to align himself with your entrance. Austin pushes in slowly and watches your face contort into one of pleasure as he bottoms out. You move your body up and down along his length when he doesn’t start moving his hips fast enough for your liking.

“Impatient, are we?” Austin chuckles, starting to thrust at a steady pace. It’s still not fast enough for you.

“Yes,” you giggle, “Now fuck me before I do it myself.”

Austin heeds your warning and starts moving faster, eliciting moans from you at last. He buries his head in your neck, leaving minor bruises where he nips at your skin. You move your hips right along with his, your hands finding their way to his hair for something to hold onto as you edge closer to your orgasm. It will be just the first of tonight. You eventually cum, but Austin still has to take a few more strokes before he does. He fills you up and pulls out, but not before he pushes his cum back inside you with two fingers. You watch as he finger fucks you. The sound of both of your cum going back inside you turns you on even more. Austin licks his fingers clean before flipping you over on your front, pulling your ass upward from the bed.

“Now you’re gonna take me again like a good girl, okay? Gonna fuck you and put a baby in your womb,” Austin growls in your ear, rubbing a hand along your lower stomach.

You shiver, growing wet again at his behavior. You bury your face in the pillow as he plows into you mercilessly like he never stopped, his hips snapping into the backs of your thighs. You have to grip the sheets to not be shoved forward and hit your head on the headboard. Austin now has one of his hands on said headboard, gripping it as it slams into the wall. It’d leave a mark later, but you don’t care for now. You see stars and feel the familiar warmth growing in your abdomen again. Austin reaches a hand around your body and rubs your clit, causing you to clench around him. He cries out at the feeling of your grip, fucking you even harder as the headboard gashes into the drywall.

“Fuck, you’re so tight,” Austin says through gritted teeth, “Gonna milk me of my cum? Gonna let me fill you up to the brim and get you pregnant? Hmm?”

You’re incoherent at his filthy words as you feel your second orgasm arise, “I’m close,” you whimper.

“Cum on my cock, baby. Be a good cum slut and take it,” Austin says in your ear, nipping at it as you orgasm around him. The feeling of your body reacting to your orgasm sends Austin over the edge, and he cums hard this time. He has to let go of the headboard and balance himself on both hands, so he doesn’t collapse on you.

“Fuck,” he curses, trying to catch his breath. 

You roll over on your back underneath Austin, panting as you blink away the stars behind your eyes. He’s looking down at you with hooded eyes, his mouth open as he gasps for air. You reach down and feel the mixture of cum and arousal all over you, and you do as Austin did earlier, pushing it all inside with your fingers. Austin watches intently, biting his lip when you stick your fingers in your mouth. 

“Round three?” he asks with a goofy smile.

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[pinkprimrose05]

ARC-V Month Day 16: Actually, He Would Say That

Look, we all like our cast with their pros and their cons, but sometimes there's just something... missing, when you look at canon portrayal. Some more depth. Some trivial details and silly nitpicks, to add to their flair... which are exactly what today is all about. Show us your headcanons and most random thoughts!

Ah yes, headcanons: my favorite way to patch up the swiss cheese holes in any story ever, and the personal cherry on top I place whwn there are no holes to patch. For someone who claims to have a lot of them, I've shared a rather small amount of my headcanons so far... but that changes today!

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1- In a world where the counterparts stay separate, when all is said and done, the Lancers decide to keep in contact at Sawatari's suggestion -shocker, I know- and so they make a groupchat to talk about mundane life and things that strike their fancy. Said groupchat is... actually decently normal considering its members, but you still see flashes of the weirdest shit sometimes- like Dennis' massive collection of kaomojis, Reiji's 10-page long essays on why black coffee is overrated, Shun's inability to stand back and watch this nerdy fuck slander the superior coffee blend, Serena's copious cat stickers and reaction pics, Tsukikage's concerning stash of blackmail screenshots (99% of which is enabled by Sawatari, much to banana's mortfication), and Yuuya's oddly random, unprompted threats of homicide that he never fails to end with an innocent :D

2- Shuuzou has adopted all kids in the messy Akaba/Kurosaki/Hiiragi family tree, some metaphorically, most literally. He even got Himika to sign off custody of Reira, but left Reiji to his own devices because he just- doesn't know how to go about it with the guy. He's still invited to family & friend gatherings, however, and ends up getting called "son" no less than seven times in front of the whole family and the Sakakis. Legend has it that Reiji is still looking for ways to disappear into the ground to this day. Don't get him wrong, he appreciates the sentiment, but everytime he hears the word he straight up bluescreens.

3- As little screentime as they get to actually appear and talk, the monster spirits are very much still willing to communicate with humans- with a few exceptions, of course. Some of the older spirits like the Magistus quartet and Agents have strong reservations toward making themselves known after the dimension split fiasco(s), but then there's little ones like the Wights and the Ghostricks, who just spontaneously spawn into the human world on Halloween (to the dismay of Maiami City's police department, which had to contend with 57 reports of vandalism and stolen candy and various small acts of mischief the first time it happened).

4- The reason behind the Performapals' synergy and eventual archetypal overlap with Odd-Eyes actually goes a few ways back to one of their shows as a wandering troupe. While preparing for departure, Hip Hippo stumbled upon a lone dragon roaming in the wild on their own, and told his companions about it. One hour in and lots of excitable discussion later, their troupe gained a special new member who would soon become their main attraction, and together they resolved to improve their talents, to put on the best show under their master's conduct.

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Admittedly... this is quite a bit shorter than I wanted it to be. There are still many headcanons I've yet to put into words, buuuut I'm afraid this submission is a tad late already, so I'll have to ever-so-subtly shove some of those into written works and post the rest on their own later (someday. sometime. eventually. for sure.)

Thanks for sticking around, anyway- here's a cookie for your trouble! 'Till next time ;D

[alllinesarebeautiful]

Day 422 Art meditation,  August 18, 2024, “Dark Blue Green, Tree Ring Art”

Dear You, 

Some days I don’t feel like editing, I just want to get the post out. So …

Just a little Self-Love video, in ‘honor’ of my mother, who I am going to be visiting soon, because of her COMPLETE disapproval of my body. Grrr and love combined. I’m just going to do a little post of cleavage with my paper sculpture. I can’t tell you how grateful I am to the women out there who are encouraging physical realness. 

I just went through a 24 hour really deep trigger {related to rejection}, and it took me 24 hours to re-ground myself and I’m feeling a little bit feisty… Also because I know that I’m processing the fact that I’m going to be visiting all of these old {family} patterns, opinions and un-empowering stuff about Body …

Thank you Ego for trying to protect me WITH depression. But my Heart is stronger. 

I had another sleepless night having new creative ideas. It’s interesting that even though I have sleepless nights, my Heart still speaks to me enough to take notes in the middle of the night. I saw myself being fully blossomed. I turned all of this writing and art into humor and connection … 

And then I woke up into my usual emotionally flat state …

I know there is a Marble Jar rule out there to NOT be vulnerable unless someone has filled your jar with trusting actions, but I just believe that the distance between those books & TED talks and the people who really need to learn about shame, control, vulnerability, is too wide. I want to close the gap by making vulnerability and courage my public way of life. And let God and the Universe tell me someday what my purpose is…

I also just believe in Blossoming for no other point than to Blossom … If we all could, not just the dominant people …

It’s amazing to me that similar-bodied women out there are able to show way more skin than I am. I am so aware of all the old rules: If you want to be respected, keep your clothes on. If you DO show skin it means you have low self esteem, or are trying to get love or attention. 

If I stick with what is true for me, which is the whole point of living, then I get to say to my body, “I love you and am grateful for all the hard things we went through. Multiple gynecological surgeries, a large fibroid, endometriosis and the very difficult decision to remove my uterus knowing I still could have had my own baby. But the decision was to end all the monthly pain and bleeding. I am so grateful that the one time they already had me open, they found my appendix about to explode and removed that too. I am grateful for my health, other than the knee situation ...”

One of my favorite books is by Jean Shinoda Bolen, “Goddesses in Every Woman”.  Published in 1984, it still completely holds up. I’m so proud of myself that I bought it in 1991, when I discovered feminism at college. (I also love that Jean Shinoda Bolen is San Francisco based … :) jeanbolen.com/ 

Out of all the goddesses written about in this book, ‘Aphrodite’ (the Goddess of Love and Beauty, Creative Woman and Lover”)  is the one goddess who feels the most pointless to me … Beauty-worshiping has only created the empty void that is social media, new and creative ways to hate ourselves. The patriarchy has propped up physical female beauty as another thing to own, and decide about the details of what beauty is.  

And yet, I love this definition of Aphrodite: she is the “the alchemical goddess governing a woman's enjoyment of love and beauty, sexuality, and sensuality, impells women to fulfill both creative and procreative functions.”

If we remove the commercial aspect of what it is to be beautiful, and move into the creative and fulfilling parts, then Aphrodite speaks to me.

Women have so much depth that gets shadowed in a patriarchy, and the idea that each woman has these mythological goddesses inside each of us is so empowering. I hope we (everybody) can start blossoming in a matriarchal-women-heart-oriented way soon … 

Lots of love,

Anne ◎

Adding more Wall Mural Art!

[youremyheaven]

https://www.tumblr.com/youremyheaven/758271793737891840/helloooo-hope-im-not-bothering-you-but-do-you-have

aw omg thank you for taking the time to respond so thoroughly to my ask 🥹❤️

i think that teas do help but i think you’re right about slowing down in general like by lying on the yoga mat. i think i do struggle with pretty horrible imposter syndrome too (partially my fault. i used to have a pretty big tarot blog, now i have a somewhat big writing blog in a fandom (i just like to write, im in the fandom because it gives me something to tag my work with). sometimes i see people post content that’s more generic and romance related instead of with depth getting more likes than me and i feel like i loser but i think that’s just a recent thing anyway)

also i think it’s so sweet that your man liked you for long but stayed patient and respected your boundaries?? like yes bare minimum but having a good man like you that much that they waited it out and kept you in their life because they’d rather you be there in some form than not at all?? good job because that is an ACTUAL accomplishment

and of course job well to your hormones for triggering that hormonal ovulation wave that led you to this 🤭

may you last long and be happy and patient and kind with each other for eternity💗🧿

i hope u get to make changes to ur lifestyle that makes it easier for u to relax and chill out!!! <333

imposter syndrome is the WORSTTTT. i just think about how there are virtual massage therapists who do reiki healing over zoom and charge $$$$ for it and believe that if they can do it and get away with it, i can do what i do and be okay too hehe. we're all imposters and no one is actually good at anything, we're all just trying our best!!! dont think of success as something u have to "deserve",, you can just have it like its a part of life. you dont think too much about "deserving" education or sunlight or water, you believe you need it and you have it. success is similar, its a part of living, not something that u have to earn through virtue. if youre doing well, its because youre doing something right and thats good enough!!!

its sooo interesting u say that about arm guy being respectful and keeping boundaries lmaoo bc i always thought its a tactic most men use when they cant get with a girl: they say they'd like to stay friends because that means there's still a chance that you can someday get with her 😳as opposed to losing her completely. men crib about being friendzoned but they actually voluntarily enter that territory waiting for their turn with the girl🤢🤮

arm guy has an 8h stellium so i feel like there's more to him that i dont fully see yet. he's been respectful and gentlemanly with me but one time he told me about how him and his friends would stalk me on instagram and talk about how cute i was or whatever and it kinda gave me the ick 🤢🤢like i know thats a normal thing to do but the idea of a group of men all thirsting over me collectively made me 🤢 i sometimes wonder if he has told others about us yet in a braggy kinda way and i hateeee to think about it 🤢he's a good guy and everything but at the end of the day, he's just a guy

i think he stuck around bc he wanted me that bad but i honestly dont find that much of an accomplishment 😭😭i think most men are like that,, they'll do anything to get with u, ignore them, leave them on seen, unfollow them but they WILL persist 😭😭😭

idk about forever just yet lmaooo,, he's sweet and everything but its too soon for that type of talk. although i want us both to be happy together 💛💛and thats whats most important rn

🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬🧿🪬

[sukehiroselei]

One Piece, ep. 716

Franky vs. Señor Pink is one of the greatest fights in shounen history.

Franky wiping Señor's tears away and calling him brother?? *cue: sound of my heart shattering into a thousand pieces*

"If we meet again someday, let's have a drink and tell me all about the woman named Russian." I JUST 😭 whew, need a minute y'all.

This arc's been an emotional roller coaster and I'm a sobbing lump of flesh. I love One Piece a lot, even through its glacial pacing; the intricacy and depth of the world-building is fricking insanity—I'll make a separate post about this soon!!—and so well-worth it.

I never believed the people saying OP's 1000+ episodes aren't long enough until now. Suddenly I'm 700 episodes in, wishing there's more lol

[cocolacola]

I say Seras's stuff is underdeveloped in Hellsing Ultimate because Hirano had been distraught over gonzo's portrayal of her and hadn't gone into as much depth in his own work because he development "had already been done" with gonzo.

It's why I prefer gonzo seras..? (I actually prefer Seras over Alucard in gonzo) because there is more time and drawn out investment to her development. Expressing her coming to terms with her role as a vampire beyond the bloodlust and sexualized portrayal ultimate does.

Now I love Seras, don't get me wrong. But there is a degree of truth to saying she lacks the same canonical love/respect that characters like Alucard has. It feels rushed, thrown togeather and driven by fan appeal rather than character growth.

(I hope I phrased that right, I'm writing this out while half asleep. words are hard...)

I'd say you absolutely phrased this correctly, in my opinion. there's nothing wrong with preferring what was done with her character in gonzo, i prefer elements of her from that series over the ultimate canon to some degree.

(putting a cut here because my response gets pretty long)

something that gonzo 100% does correctly is steer more away from the weird sexualization stuff. this may be shallow of me, but I think that could be one of the reasons Hirano wasn't happy with what they did with her. i think the way that Ultimate (specifically the earlier episodes) handled her was incredibly disrespectful. there's so many unnecessary things that just... didn't need to be there. i will make another post about that someday. i definitely think she can become overshadowed by alucard because of these things, which is why i think these conversations are especially important.

I do, however, think there is a difference between underdeveloped and underexplored. Seras' arc has a clear-cut purpose in the manga and Ultimate canon, but the nuances of it are much more subtle and not explicitly shown. she's more dependent on the other characters to explain and cultivate her situation (such as alucard defending her when walter asks why she was turned, and pip and integra offering their blood at different points in the series)

The reason I usually take issue with people saying Seras doesn't have enough development is because they usually are die-hard fans of other characters with the same amount of issues as her. she goes through an arc just like everyone else. to say there's no substance there is sort of just showing the way people stopped paying attention as soon as Alucard got on the boat and the show started focusing on other characters.

Im not here to say Hirano wrote her perfectly because he didnt. I have a lot of problems with how Hellsing is written. but to say that out of all of the characters that Seras is the one with no development?? it seems like a stretch to me.

when it comes to other people in this fandom, i dont think it's fair to use the "she didn't do anything" argument to simply toss her out of any discussion about the show. that's mostly what im against, so this is actually a breath of fresh air to me. there's so many interesting things to talk about in comparing her development in gonzo vs ultimate.

your point was 100% made and this was great to think about. and as always, thanks for the ask!!!!

[shoheiakagi]

@bandousama replied to your post:

hi and ty for the questions about my silly little au! i love making ideas about it here and even getting some inputs from you guys! putting this under the cut since my response ended up being lengthy. pls feel free to ask any more questions or share your own thoughts!

Is this going to be a story?

I really do want to write this out, but unfortunately i dont really have any writing skills 🫤 it took me a while to draft out these few paragraphs that were meant to be a synopsis/prologue. maybe someday i’ll come around to write quick drabbles?? but if i have any writers following me, i’d be happy to commission this fic!

Will there be any drama between y/n and Shouhei? Like including a fight scene or something?

Even if this never gets written, i do imagine this au to have a lot of drama and the relationship between shouhei and y/n to become toxic (it’s inevitable; he’s a rockstar and she’s a model. there will be drug use and morals will be compromised to achieve fame). Both of them are also not in the right headspace in some parts of the story, with shouhei spiraling as he tries to make his own identity as a soloist, and y/n trying to make it alive in a cutthroat industry through any means possible.

In the synopsis, Shouhei is immediately reminded of those little ballerina figurines when he first sees y/n (y’k, the little docile ones that seems so fragile and is always locked away when the box is not being used). he gets infatuated and soon idealizes her as this pretty doll that he has to lock her away protect from this soul-sucking industry, purposely ignoring the fact that y/n is a complex person with her own flaws and bad decisions.

*spoiler alert* y/n has a bf when she meets shouhei, who she ends up cheating on with him

Is the rock band mainly about the abc boys or all of hrm?

All of hmr are featured, but i think I would focus more on the abc boys since im more interested in them

Is this a story just about Shouhei or all the other guys getting their own as well?

It’s primarily about shouhei, but the other guys also have their own unresolved issues and relationships to work out, which will def be mentioned bc i want to give all of the boys extra depth and characterization. i think i can see chitose being the secondary abc boy in this particular fic, since he’s the one in the worst condition out of the boys, and bc i lowkey might make shouhei and chitose have a closer friendship in this fic. basically a friendship where they get fucked up together and make even more bad decisions. but if i really were to write this out, i’d want each boys to have their own spin off.

What inspired you to think of this au?

its funny cause i was reading this fic in another fandom where person A is this fashion critic who attends a show where person B is modeling and they’re both immediately attracted to each other, when i was like ok but imagine shouhei in this au?? But i can’t see shouhei as some fashion critic, which is when I remember that i have this other au where the boys are like this popular rock band (used to be pop idol group when i first thought of this au), and that fits more since celebrities visit fashion shows (also guys, please ask me about this au too cause i have lot of thoughts about rockstars!hmr and the pop idol girl group thats their competition in terms of international popularity). only difference is that fic did not feature any toxic dynamics lol. also! the whole idea about hmr taking a break as a group, the members pursuing solo endeavors during the break, and shouhei making a lot of noise by being the first member to attend a high fashion event is based off the first few months of bts’ hiatus last year lmaoooo

Since Shouhei is the lead vocalist what do the other band members do?

I actually haven’t thought much of that, esp since hmr is too huge to be one band. so what i was thinking that maybe theyre all split up in different acts under the same company: mikoto originally being a solo rock artist before calling it quits because he couldnt handle the fame. he eventually forms his own small company that aligns better with his values. we have totsuka as the dreamy soloist who sings romantic ballads and wins the nation’s heart, yata and kamamoto being a hip-hop duo with lots of break dances, the abc boys being a rock band, and kusanagi being the manager who keeps everyone in check (look idk if this actually works out like this irl but canon has mikoto having an ample amount of money in savings and kusanagi owning tons of restaurants overseas so 🤷‍♀️)

with the abc boys, shouhei is the lead vocalist, chitose and dewa play the guitars, eric and fuji plays the bass with eric serving back up vocals, and bandou plays the drums.

[cru5h-cascades]

Splatoon 3 Side Order Update (Again!)

Wazzup wazzup eveyone! I'm back at it again with some more interesting Side Order-related news! Recently a bunch of stuff for Side Order has been datamined (it seems that the devs have been adding stuff for Side Order ever since launch), so I'd like to go over some of the stuff that was found. No spoilers, but if you'd rather be suprised whenever we actually get Side Order this is your warning. Otherwise, here's some new info regarding Side Order (organized by when they were added, which were during splatfests)!

Rock v Paper v Scissors (testfire fest, August 2022):

nothing too noteworthy over here, just some scenes, whatever those might be.

(nothing for Gear v Grub v Fun in September 2022)

Grass v Fire v Water (November 2022)

wave 2 misc scene added

scene attribute to use for the DLC

Spicy v Sweet v Sour (January 2023)

actor attribute added

added two enemy actors under the names Shell and ZakoStandard

Side note: yay new enemies

Dark Chocolate v Milk Chocolate v White Chocolate (February 2023)

actor attribute added to allow enemies to attack a target (possibly the player)

added object actors under the names PaintTargetArea (splatzones), VictoryBall (8-ball), and VictoryBallGoal (8-ball goal)

Side note: YEP THAT'S RIGHT MATES 8-BALL LEVELS ARE COMING BACK.

added scenes imlying progression on a tower (potentially Deca Tower, duh)

Side note: so what that last addition is basically saying is that Side Order will be kinda like Pizza Tower but scary (and marine life themed, of course). But I mean, I guess we should've known about the tower progression for a while now (the French title of Side Order is Order Tower; I talked about this in a post some time ago). But hey, news is news and we're in dire need for Side Order news. Anyways, moving on (things get real interesting after this)

Nessie v Aliens v Bigfoot (March 2023)

added two bosses under the names BallKing and TowerKing (there's been some speculation that BallKing could be the Octowhirl from Splatoon 1, which would be okay with me as long as they don't bring back the Octostamp.... AGAIN....) (also I have a strong feeling in my gut that TowerKing will be the final boss of Side Order)

added an actor for collectible items

added NPC actors

added lift actors (tower control tower)

added spawner objects

added soaker block actor to Side Order

added person names (most likely belonging to the devs) (you know for the credits)

added scenes for a boss fight and something called creator (level creation?)

Power v Wisdom v Courage (April 2023)

added a lift actor to avoid an 8-ball from going somewhere

added an object actor for both inkrails and grindrails

Vanilla v Strawberry v Mint Chip (July 2023)

all Side Order related strings have been removed :(

And that's all we got up to date! Hopefully we get to see Side Order for Drizzle Season 2023 (AKA the game's first aniversery). I mean with all this data in the game you'd think we'd get news soon, right? We got the rewards and now all of this in the game (or at least until all the SIde Order related strings were removed), maybe even more than that. Anyways if you want a more in-depth look into all of this info, please see Splat Channel's vid (I'll link it to the post right here). But with that being said hopefully, one bright and sunny day we'll get a trailer and release date for Side Order. Someday...

Anyways I'll keep y'all up to date with anything new revolving Side Order, I'll even post an in-depth analysis for the Side Order trailer whenever it does come out (I promise this time; I might've forgotten to do one for Sizzle Season but I assure you I will make one this time). Staaay fresh, everyone!

[dustedmagazine]

Tim Clarke’s 2022: Light at the end of the tunnel?

The Smile photo by Alex Lake

I don’t want to curse anyone by saying it out loud, but could 2022 be the turning point after a truly horrendous couple of years? For me, the very fact that two-fifths of Radiohead put out an excellent album already makes this year notable. However, I was also lucky enough to get great new albums by favorites Big Thief, Dry Cleaning, and Aldous Harding. Plus, this year I’ve seen more live music than the previous two years combined. Here’s to 2023 continuing this upward trajectory of more great music, both recorded and live.

1. The Smile — A Light For Attracting Attention (XL)

Any Radiohead-related project is guaranteed to pique my interest, but one involving Thom Yorke and Jonny Greenwood? Having said that, even I was surprised at just how good A Light For Attracting Attention turned out. Veering from spectral balladry to twitchy post-punk, there’s not only variety here, but also a satisfying narrative arc, some great playing from all three members, plus the exciting prospect of another Smile album in the near future.

2. Big Thief — Dragon New Warm Mountain I Believe In You (4AD)

Dragon New Warm Mountain I Believe In You by Big Thief

After giving us two albums in 2019, Big Thief returned with a double album of surprising diversity and consistently high quality. At its best (“Little Things,” “Sparrow,” “Simulation Swarm”), DNWMIBIY feels like Big Thief could go anywhere from here, and if the rumors are true, there are as many more songs on the cutting-room floor as made it onto this 20-track monster. Here’s to another Big Thief album in 2023.

 3. Dry Cleaning — Stumpwork (4AD)

Dry Cleaning’s second album in two years catches this inimitable London band on a roll. There’s enough musical evolution from last year’s New Long Leg to ensure this isn’t just more of the same, though Florence Shaw’s lyrics and delivery are as funny as ever. Plus, Tom Dowse continues to be one of the most inventive and tuneful electric guitarists of recent years.

 4. Black Country, New Road — Ants from Up There (Ninja Tune)

Ants From Up There by Black Country, New Road

Much like Bowie passing away soon after the release of Blackstar, Isaac Wood leaving Black Country, New Road soon after the release of Ants from Up There is the kind of artistic move that feels preordained. This is a massive, ridiculous, intricate, and deeply moving album, and one that I doubt the remaining members of the band will top in Wood’s absence.

5. Stephen Becker — A Calm That Shifts (NNA Tapes)

Apparently, Stephen Becker worked on his solo debut for years between playing in countless other bands — and you can hear it. A Calm That Shifts is the kind of debut that spotlights a talent who has been quietly working in the margins of other people’s music for a long time, refining his craft. This is the kind of expansive folk-pop that has the songs, subtlety, and depth to slowly win you over.

 6. billy woods — Aethiopes (Backwoodz Studioz)

Aethiopes by billy woods

It’s rare I listen to hip-hop at all, let alone hear an album that blows me away, but getting billy woods’ Aethiopes in the Mid-Year Exchange was a revelation. I haven’t been this excited about a hip-hop album since Cannibal Ox’s The Cold Vein, way back in 2001. On Aethiopes, woods paints vivid pictures of urban desolation, set to producer Preservation’s woozy patchwork of old blues and jazz samples.

7. Aldous Harding — Warm Chris (4AD)

It’s hard to know how to take Aldous Harding’s shapeshifting vocal persona. On Warm Chris she’s more playful yet more seriously committed than ever to all the roles in her songwriting, making for some deliciously disorientating pop music. Perhaps not as consistent as her last full-length, Designer, but certainly as charming.

 8. Living Hour — Someday is Today (Next Door)

Though it includes my favorite song of the year in “Feelings Meeting,” Living Hour’s third album has plenty of other great songs. “Feelings Meeting” stands out as a thrilling shoegaze masterstroke, while most of the rest of the record is the kind of narcotized dream-pop Beach House do so well.

 9. Daniel Rossen — You Belong There (Warp)

You Belong There by Daniel Rossen

God knows when we’ll next get another Grizzly Bear record. Until then, Daniel Rossen’s solo debut will more than suffice. On You Belong There, his guitar playing is immaculate, and he doesn’t spare any indulgence on the arrangements either, layering instruments liberally across these stridently morose compositions.

10. Skullcrusher — Quiet the Room (Secretly Canadian)

Quiet the Room by Skullcrusher

It’s been a long time since I’ve heard an album playing in a record store full stop, let alone one that’s prompted me to ask at the desk what’s playing on the turntable. So it was with Skullcrusher. It immediately reminded me of Grouper, but less shy and less smothered in hazy melancholy. Quiet the Room is still a deeply introverted record, but one whose sounds are unafraid to shine, mainly thanks to Big Thief producer Andrew Sarlo’s sterling job at the desk. 

Another excellent ten (in alphabetical order):

Oren Ambarchi / Johan Berthling / Andreas Werliin — Ghosted (Drag City)

Ellen Arkbro & Johan Graden — I get along without you very well (Thrill Jockey)

Disassembler — A Wave From A Shore (Western Vinyl)

Goon — Hour of Green Evening (Demode)

Gwenno — Tresor (Heavenly)

Horse Lords — Comradely Objects (RVNG Intl.)

Cate Le Bon — Pompeii (Mexican Summer)

Market — The Consistent Brutal Bullshit Gong (Western Vinyl)

Shearwater — The Great Awakening (Polyborus)

Winged Wheel — No Island (12XU)

Tim Clarke

[engiiiiiii]

I'm now going by Myra. and... idk lol. I may also go by maya in some time but either or it's more comfortable for me. My dead name sucks so much, however it is also really gay (and therefore a little cool) so. I'm gonna be active again on here, I've been really busy for the last week, and haven't actually spent much time on here.

I also plan to come out to my brother pretty soon. I need to find a good time for it, which is sooo hard, but idk. maybe he already knows. I also need to figure out my last name someday, and I guess it depends if my family accepts me or not. it's a slow process with a ton of gender dysphoria but! if I disassociate enough with myself then I can just pretend to not exist...

it's fun documenting this process btw. I do these posts because... I kinda just like saying stuff. I love reading other people's experiences too, and seeing myself sometimes in it. if I finally start voice training I might document that process in depth too because I'm gonna have to do it kinda stealthily and it might help some of the other unlucky queer kids out there. thats for future me to worry about anyway! tyall for being here, I love this community.

[clementines-writing-corner]

mental health, the inadequacy of words, & being kind to yourself

Hello friends.

I am going to be very transparent with you all. I did not get anything done this week. It was a very rough week for me mental health-wise and I could barely drag myself through completing my class assignments, let alone think about writing creatively for fun. (Technically this blog is a class assignment for now, but I try to think of it as a fun hobby so I don’t burn my inspiration out. Having to post once a week for class is just extra motivation to continue to work on my creative writing as opposed to neglecting it for “more important tasks”.) 

I was disgusted with myself this week. I was bone dead exhausted. I kept wanting to cry and cry and cry and never stop, yet the tears would never come. I was so, so very angry, at life, at the world, at myself,  in a way that I rarely ever experience. I felt like I could shatter to pieces at any minute. 

I had a talk with my cousin the other night at a family birthday party about the inadequacy of language, particularly the English language, to truly capture emotion. I envy poets and authors who have the skills to evoke even a mere fraction of the emotions they are feeling or projecting upon their characters through the limited conventions of words. I hope to harness such skills someday. I am most certainly not there yet. I cannot even begin to describe to you the depths of my headspace this past week, and yet I still try. To be quite frank, I have not had a depressive episode so bad in months. It makes me all the more glad that I finally made the decision to attend therapy/counseling. 

I know at least one thing my wonderful therapist (she truly is lovely) will tell me when I visit her this week. I need to practice being kind to myself during tough times. I often get so frustrated when I can’t find the motivation to “properly” do my work or devote my time and energy to something important or beneficial, such as working my creative writing muscles as I do in this blog. And I have always been the type of person to project that frustration and anger inwards, instead of letting it explode outwards. But being negative will only keep me trapped in a vicious cycle of mean thoughts and hurt feelings. Being kind to myself, and giving myself space to rest, recharge, and eventually regain motivation is extremely important. I would do well to remember that more often. And I don’t think I’m the only one who could use a reminder. 

I apologize for dumping that on y’all and the jumbled mess I feel that this post has become, but I think it’s important to be transparent about my ups and downs, in life as well as in my writing. I’m still pulling myself out of the hole I dug this past week. Yet, I do want to reassure you all that I am okay. I may not be great, or even good, but I will get there in time. I am okay.

Whatever you all are going through this week, please remember to be kind to yourselves. And even when it’s hard to, try to remember to dot your j’s and cross your t’s. (Sometimes satisfaction is found in the little things.) It will get better soon. It will.

With lots of love and positive vibes to carry you into this next week, 

~Clementine J. Quincey 🪷

P.S. This post was a bit of a downer (much like my week) so here is something that made me smile this past week; a bright spot in the midst of some cloudy weather, if you will. 

Autumn is my favorite season, (I oft tell my friends I was built for autumnal weather), and this song is just so hauntingly beautiful and melancholic. It almost hurts in a good way. When I stumbled across it this past week, I played it on full blast in my car with my heat pumping but the windows rolled all the way down on my way to class. It was the best. ᕱ__ᕱ