#amor aeternus ♡

[bucketfullofstrawberries]

You know what,

Yeah

Fuck the system, Edgar lore I haven't shared with tumblr like. Ever. Enjoy, I think;

Edgar may seem like he's simply an overly-dramatic, overly emotional being that's an all-around sweetheart no matter what you throw at him - always bouncing back bright and happy as he'll ever be. And you may be right... but you do have to wrap your head around the fact that He's Nearly Older Than The Human Race Itsself. His Curator included, obviously. Though.. she's far older than Earth. An Elder of the everlasting Universal plane.

However, Edgar.. well, he's been around for Centuries upon Centuries. He's witnessed land fall and he's seen Kingdom's Rise. He's been at the feet of God and met both sides of the pendulum between life and death. He's been through the incomprehensible. He could of been a destroyer - chosen to lead a path of destruction. To be heartless.. and cold. To simply be another corrupted curve of the Universe.

But he didn't. He willingly, unguidedly chose to be in this life he lives today. To experience this timeline. To be here. To create,, to love,,, to heal,,, - to Live.

He knows the danger and the risks of doing this this way. He's VERY well aware of such. He knows he may stop this path he leads at any given moment. But he doesn't care. Because he knows how stories end. They don't always come to an end, of course... some stories live on forever, continuing on with their ups and downs.. and that's a beautiful thing to behold. Hell, he's watched them be spoken into existence. However, ending or neverending, those that eventually will come to a close are precious... stories that he still wants to have a positive impact on & bring people a happy ending. Endings they deserve. Endings that they may only live through once. But it was worth it in the long run.

He doesn't want anything in return, either. He doesn't seek for material possessions. He doesn't seek out actively for fulfillment, though that is a bonus he receives nonetheless. But he's not doing this for himself. Hes doing it for you. And he's doing it for everyone. If he can bring a smile onto someones face... if he can turn someone's life around, spin it on its head and turn things right-side up for the better - then that's what he'll do.

He stopped believing in a strict set storylines long ago. He doesn't believe there's a script to how you're allegedly supposed to live your life nowadays. He doesn't believe there's a certain way to run through your life to get somewhere in particular. You should be free. He wants you to be free. Because when you're trapped, your story won't thrive. It will simply end on a death note. Nothing else uttered.. If, however, you let yourself be set free from strict shackles.. you will surely create yourself a story worth remembering. You'll make an image for yourself. You won't be forgotten. And a being such as Edgar will make sure that you recieve the freedom your soul seeks tenfold.

And yet choosing this life, out of selflessness, he's still managed to achieve and recieve so much. And he's learnt more than he expected to... He's been taught how to love, for before he had never loved. He's been taught how to cherish, because once there was nothing worth cherishing. He's been influenced to give, because, before, there was nothing left to give. And he, himself, has been given so much. So much. More than enough. And he'll never.. be able to repay it. That's what he's told himself, anyway.... but he still wants to try. And he'll spend his whole, entire life trying.

He'll keep a precious life living. He'll assure it's kept safe & he'll do what he can to set it free..

And though, sometimes, for something so complex as him, it can be rough.. and frustrating... and difficult. But no matter how rough things may get, and how hopeless it all may seem, he will continue to persevere. He's never been one to consider his own state of being. And so he will persevere.

A life that was not fufilled with kept from goodness in a worn-away birdcage.. is not a life that seems worth living. That can correlate to the life of humanity... but that can also correlate to the life of an immortal.

What's the point of existing a life full of hatred if all you get in return is the worst parts of existence? Live free and live joyously, is something that Edgar lives by.

Coldness is barren. And unforgiving.

Love is bright,... & beautiful. And it's what he wants to share with the world. With the Universe. And Universes BEYOND this Universe.

He will share his story..... But only once he's helped write yours. And centuries worth of others.

Despite being a figure of a god, though, he doesn't perceive himself as one. On the contrary. He sees himself as lesser than most. He doesn't think of himself as a high figure of authority. Hell, he daren't even speak of himself as hierarchy. He doesn't seek worship. Or praise. He's actually overbearingly humble when it comes to things such as that;

"No need to thank me, your happiness is surely enough!"

"Oh, it's no bother.. no bother at all! Your smile is all I should need!"

"Seeing you content is the only repayment I could truly ever ask for, my dear.."

When he says things, such as the former few examples, he MEANS it. He genuinely, truly and wholeheartedly means it. He's not expectant. He doesn't secretly think in the back of his head; "I still deserve something in return for how good I've been. I'm their God. I deserve the praise". He doesn't think like that - no, not at all. He believes those thoughts aren't pure or truthful. They're tainted -- and he doesn't want to associate himself with such self admiration. The gift he only hopes to receive in return is joy, laughter & Goodness. To turn something pure is a miracle in its own right.. and thus quite the gift to recieve as a whole.

Edgar, himself, is not pure by any means. But it's not his fault. He was created as a means for achieving.. well, perfection. In a way. A perfect being. Humane enough, but not weak. But being "perfect" meant having a strict purpose.. and following it through. He's never had a set purpose. He merely does what he feels is in the right. He's done what he feels is good. He's not perfect. He's flawed. And his flaws are impure -- if you were to take them raw. But set them aside, and put them in Edgar's hands... the impurity of it is what makes him special. It's what makes him capable of loving and it's what makes him capable of being outrageously, spontaneously excitable. It's what makes him laugh, it's what makes him cry. If he were perfect - well, there'd... there'd be no Edgar. Just. A shell.

That's not what he was purposed for. And you know what?

He thrived. And he lived. And observed.

And after years of observing, quietly waiting in the shadows, finally coming out of his shell - he created something beautiful for - not only himself - but so many others that have walked their way into his life. Not a game.. or a place to keep orderly with instructions allegedy set in stone. No,

He's created a family.. ♡

If he were to have the option either keeping his joyous demeanor and ways of life, and cutting off the rest of the lively, excitingly beautiful nature of the rest of the universe - or, instead cut off his own happiness and let the universe live on as something to be glorious, leave a legacy and to flourish. He'd choose the latter without another thought. He'd be a husk of what he once was, sure,.. but deep down he'd still know, somewhere in his soul, he'd done the right thing. As the good within everything outweighs his own existence by a LOT. It's certainly worth a lot more to save all of that. Right?

But, if he were to do such a thing, he'd do it with a smile on his face. He'd do it with a gleeful, joyous smile with absolutely zero reluctance whatsoever. His story can end when it's his time to go... just as long as others may carry on a legacy. Live the lives the Universe had purposed them to live.

..That's only a hypothetical, though.

...but still. He would sacrifice himself.

He'd do it a million times over. Because he has no reason not to. Why would he hesitate if it meant the magnificent beauty of life itself would live on forevermore..?

If he could relive his own, personal experiences - with all the joys & laughter he'd brought upon people, recreate the smiles on faces that came and went, he would. He really.. really would. He'd redo it all again.

If he got to meet everyone he's ever met once more, if he got to save things that were once lost. If time itself had warped back and set him to the start. Even if he hadn't a single, slightest clue it'd happened. Despite all the pain,,, all the torment and agony he'd have to endure. He'd re-live it all again.

Because this was a life worth living.

And it may be the only time he gets to live it. With everyone.... With all that he knows and loves...

With you...

❝ I've said many things throughout my time and repeat my words like a broken record. But Your universe is Mine. And I treasure it like the precious thing it is. A Tender.. fragile thing. I've never once seen a place like yours... And I don't think I'll get to see one quite like it again...

It's insignificant, if we were to compare along side every other universe before it, and every other universe after it. But this one is lit by a flame. This one... it sparks with something special....

The hands of time tick down to inevitable death. And others may see it that way, and they will run. And they will hide from it.... But you... people like you-- you don't.

You value your worth. And you treasure every second you have living & make it as memorable as you see fit. And that, in itself, is beautiful.

Keep living... dear explorers. Keep thriving.

Your stories may come to an end some day. But they pass... and will carry on through generations who wish to tell your wonderdul tales.

..And I will be there to tell those tales for the rest of time.

Because I've watched...

And I know;

..You're lovely. ❞

~ E.M.☆

[lukas-du-mortain]

Hi ^^ You mentioned a heartbreaking HC for Lukas and Rebecca re Rook?? I'm curious now! (and ready to have my heart broken ;) )

Smoke slowly billows in front of Lukas' face as he exhales. The burning end of his 2nd cigarette illuminates the tips of his fingers. He stares out into the darkness of the woods, wondering what is out there, who's watching him, what kind of supernatural lurks in the shadows. Bright light from his phone screen is the only other source of illumination for kilometers and kilometers. He aimlessly swipes through his phone reel, laughing at the wild and interesting photos of him and Unit Bravo. The selfie of him and Felix. Pictures of Emma laying on top of Felix, dwarfing him in comparison. A candid picture of Adam running with Emma in the early morning.

All of a sudden Lukas stops. A selfie of him and his Alaskan Malmute, Emma. In the background however, is a framed picture of him at the young age of 14, his mother, and a guitar. A 1984 Ibanez rs400, bright red.

Rook's guitar.

Rebecca had known that Lukas absolutely excelled at music. His father's early influence no doubt. On an early anniversary, Rook had waited for Rebecca to come home from the Agency. He had set up roses and candles. Dinner had been prepared and its smell wafted through their tiny Vancouver apartment. As Rebecca made her way through, she heard Rook playing his guitar; the song that was playing when they got engaged.

That guitar was Rook's favorite. Rebecca once told Lukas, "The whole time I was pregnant, and-" she paused."For those first 2 years after, he played you lullabies every night."

Lukas' 14th birthday was the only one Rebecca was there for. It was just the two of them. After dinner Rebecca had come out of her bedroom with a large box wrapped haphazardly in 'Birthday' paper. Lukas was so confused. He told her, "But you already spent my birthday with me. I don't need any gifts."

Rebecca almost cried when Lukas said that. Their relationship used to be so close. But she was resolute, wiping her tears away saying "Lukas, sweetheart, this isn't just a present from me." She took his hands in her own. "It is a gift from your father."

Lukas never heard much about his dad. Rebecca always told him how traumatizing that moment was, so he understood that she never discussed it. All she would ever say was that Rook loved Lukas with his whole heart. Lukas was his whole world.

Lukas opened the box carefully, but with vigor. When he gazed upon the glossy vibrant red finish, he felt his father with him. Every time Lukas played from that day on, he always felt Rook was right there next to him.

In the last year, Lukas has begun to lose faith in Rebecca and their relationship. He knows it isn't entirely her doing, but he still is not sure if he can entirely forgive her for all those kept secrets. That framed picture from his birthday, is a stark reminder of how things used to be. He loves his life now, especially with Adam in it. Though he can't help but wish he had those days back. Whenever he's sad, whenever he's angry, whenever he records a new track, he picks up Rook's guitar and just plays. He plays until his fingers bleed, until he's filled his notebook with song ideas.

It's the only physical reminder that his father existed.

[lukas-du-mortain]

this is so lukas and adam coded fr and i will not elaborate

this is so nayzak and ava coded fr and i will not elaborate

[starglitterz]

♡ AMOR AETERNUS. — your hands were made to fit in mine.

feat ; aether, albedo, amber, ayaka, barbara, beidou, bennett, childe, chongyun, dainsleif, diluc, ei, eula, fischl, ganyu, gorou, hu tao, itto, jean, kazuha, kaeya, keqing, kokomi, lisa, lumine, mona, ningguang, noelle, razor, rosaria, sara, signora, scaramouche, shenhe, sucrose, thoma, venti, xiangling, xiao, xingqiu, xinyan, yae miko, yanfei, yoimiya, yun jin, zhongli x gn!reader warnings ; just hands tbh 😭, mild injury descriptions, entirely sfw fluff, can be considered modern au (?) a/n ; um here is my contribution to to the hand enjoyers of genshinblr <3 hope u all like this hehe :>

please reblog! it helps a lot :)

their hands are smooth and cold, almost as if there is no blood rushing through it even though the exact opposite is occurring when you grasp their hand and intertwine your fingers with their long ones. not a single blemish is visible on their skin, the sign of a shielded life free of hard work - a stark contrast to how much good they've actually done fulfilling their tasks, which are equally as important to those lifting heavy objects daily. a single gold band glints on their ring finger in the morning light, a soft smile playing about their lips as they think about how lucky they are to love you. — ALBEDO, AYAKA, chongyun, kokomi, lumine, LISA, NINGGUANG, shenhe, YAE MIKO, YUN JIN.

their hands are rough, dotted with callouses and scars stretching across the length of their palm. each one tells a story, they explain excitedly when you express your concern, especially after seeing a burn mark near their thumb. their hands are a map of memories, illustrating tales of travels far and wide which go wrong more often than not. a messy constellation of freckles dances about the back of their hand, and you press a kiss to each one before going to bed daily. — BENNETT, CHILDE, hu tao, razor, XIANGLING, xinyan, YOIMIYA.

their hands are small, nails immaculately trimmed down and kept neat. there's never a spot of dirt on their hands when they grab yours and walk around the city. there's a small bump on their finger that they swear have no idea where it came from, but you think it's because they write too much. the lines racing across their palm are in perfect curves, and the two of you have no need to visit a fortune teller to predict your future when you're perfectly happy together in the present. — AETHER, barbara, GANYU, JEAN, mona, sara, SUCROSE, thoma, venti, XINGQIU, yanfei.

their hands are long and elegant, each finger tipped with a faultlessly shaped nail. once in a blue moon a bruise will form on their wrist, or a scar will scratch itself across their palm, but you gently kiss it and promise it'll be better soon, and it doesn't make them flawed, instead it's a symbol of their strength. the tension in their white-knuckle grip only relaxes around you, their stress ebbing away like the tides under the crescent moon in your presence. no matter how harsh the injury, you'll always be their panacea. — albedo, diluc, EI, EULA, jean, keqing, LUMINE, signora, XIAO.

their hands are strong, almost terrifyingly so, and that's visible at just a glance. veins stand out of their skin when they flex, leaving the citizens open-mouthed and gaping at the sight. they're powerful enough to lift you up into the air with a wide grin, strong hands clasped tightly around your waist, and you know they'll never let you fall. sometimes, they'll place their palm on your cheek and watch with an awed smile as your eyes flutter shut and you lean into their touch, though the smile quickly changes into surprise when you hop forward and kiss their plush lips. — ITTO, BEIDOU, diluc, noelle, zhongli

their hands are always dirty for some unknown reason, and you swear you're this close to travelling to fontaine and purchasing a portable sink. grime gets under their nails from their adventures, and their fingers are covered with scratches from the pricks of thorny brambles. when they visit you in the dead of night or at the crack of dawn, their palms are stained with some unholy mixture of blood, soil and dust - you barely even dare to ask whose it is. but no matter how late they come home, as long as they can hold you in a warm embrace, you're fine with that. — amber, GOROU, razor, ROSARIA, childe.

their hands are stunning, to say the least. their lithe fingers never fail to move with grace, whether when stealing the life of another or dancing across the strings of a mellifluous instrument. rings decorate each hand, deep silver and black colours that gleam in the dark when they trace a finger down your cheek and pull you close for another passionate kiss. the metal is cool against your face, the opposite of the warmth from their lips peppering every inch of skin they can reach. your fingers fit perfectly between the gaps in theirs, and it's almost like your hands were moulded for one another. — dainsleif, KAZUHA, KAEYA, lisa, SCARAMOUCHE, XIAO, yae miko.

their hands are adorable, small with short fingers and nails clipped. but, the part of their nails left is spotted with splashes of colour and design, a rainbow decorating their fingers and painting one in the air whenever they raise their hands to wave to you. and that's not all, because a gallery of nail art adds onto the glamour, with miniscule illustrations of weapons and stars and monsters they've painted on their own smile up at you. but although they put the utmost care into painting their nails, nothing compares to the care with which they hold your hand and smile, ready to give you the best day of your life. — amber, FISCHL, xingqiu, VENTI.

quill speaks !

oh my days this was so fun AHAHA im sorry if some of them dont fit,,, anyways i hope u enjoyed it, ily all xoxo <3!!

© starglitterz 2022. do not repost or modify in any way – reblog / follow if you enjoyed !

[lukas-du-mortain]

Agent Lukas 'Ári' Vanir

Hurricane - I Prevail

Lately, I don't give a fuck.

'Cause I can't be myself when I'm with anyone.

Maybe, I'm already gone.

I'll never be the same.

It hit me like a hurricane.

It hit me like a tidal wave.

And I don't know why I drown my mind in everything they say.

[lukas-du-mortain]

Sgt. Lukas Vanir + Agent Adam du Mortain

Meus amor aeternus

[lukas-du-mortain]

Hey!! 👀 3, 8, 15 for Lukas and Adam & 14, 34 for Felix and Séamus for the ship ask game?

Lukas x Adam [Meus Amor Aeternus]

What was their first impression of each other?

Lukas saw Adam walk into his office and his jaw dropped to the floor. Lukas is demisexual so he wasn't like attracted to Adam in that way, it was more like "Damn. This dude looks so fucking good." It's not so much the looks, but Lukas loved the way he carried himself, the way he seemed loyal to his brothers in UB, the way he exudes confidence. He also lowkey loves having to look up at Adam (he's 5'7").

Adam saw Lukas and saw a good detective who was dedicated to his work. He respected the hell out of Lukas, but also found him extremely irritating. That was mostly due to having to 'protect' Lukas from Murphy, and was always annoyed when Lukas kept trying to push through the case.

What do they love most about the other? Why?

But in the end, that's what Adam admires and dare I say, loves, about Lukas. He sees a man so dead set on achieving a goal, even if it puts him in danger. He sees a man who is so determined, so resilient, and stubborn. Lukas deals with a lot of PTSD, even before Murphy. But he sees Lukas as a person who is so resilient. Because despite Lukas' night terrors, he continues to be dedicated to his job/s. He loves how Lukas has gone through so much and is still able to push through it in the end.

Lukas absolutely just loves the way Adam treasures their time together. The quiet calm moments in the morning watching a sunrise. The two of them + Emma going for a trail run in the morning, watching the sunrise over the mountains and spreading its light into the valley below. He loves the two of them just going for drives in Adam's car, or on Lukas' motorcycle. Those small moments where they are just metaphorically so bare and vulnerable with one another.

What songs remind you of their relationship?

Lukas' Playlist:

Deep End - I Prevail My Heart I Surrender - I Prevail I Don't Belong Here - I Prevail Hurricane - I Prevail Feel Something - Illenium Sequential Lives - Opal In Sky Planetary Bliss - Opal In Sky Aurora - Opal In Sky

Séamus x Felix [Mo Chroí]

Do they enjoy PDA, or are they more private with affection?

Depends on what you consider to be PDA. If you are talking about kissing and making out in public then no haha.

But if we're talking about holding hands while they walk down the street to the bakery, the way they smile at each other as they sit on a park bench in the summer time, how Felix will lay his head in Séamus' lap when they watch TV. Those little moments where both think to themselves "I love him." They love hugging one another a lot, they do this every where.

Do they have any inside jokes?

Mmm... I wouldn't say so. I've never really thought about this with any ship to be honest.

Ship Asks

[lukas-du-mortain]

hullo!! 🌶️, 🥭, 🥔 & 🍒 for all of them pls!! <3

Who would your OC declare their sworn enemy if they could meet them?

Whomever killed Rook. Murphy. Anwir. And eventually once properly introduced, the Rogue leader and her pet vampire.

What colors best represent them and why? Does this differ from their favorites?

Their eye colors!! Lukas has hazel eyes with specks of brown and gold. Séamus has deep emerald eyes with hints of brown. Gareth has blue eyes with flecks of grey. Lukas' favorite colors are forest green, like his hair! Séamus loves warm colors like reds and oranges, as well as cool bright colors. Gareth likes more subdued earthy colors.

What do they have that others see as a flaw, but they don't care about?

Lukas: His impulsive nature, running headfirst into things without thinking. Stubborn. Séamus: His inaction. Shay has a lot of anxiety and he sees it as being cautious, but others tend to see it as hesitation. Gareth: His inability to care for himself. He serves others and is there to support others, because he refuses to address his own issues.

Who is your OC's perfect companion?

Lukas: Adam, best friends with Mason. Lukas: Mason, best friends with Felix. Séamus: Felix, best friends with Adam. Gareth: Nate, best friends with Mason.

[lukas-du-mortain]

hi hello 8, 9, for Lukas/Adam/Mason and 43 & 45 for Séamus/Felix <3 (@ do-this-for-me)

I don't have a Lukas x Adam x Mason LT. It's just that I've played the same version of Lukas for both routes. In each one he's monogamous and demisexual.

Lukas x Adam [Meus Amor Aeternus]

Already answered!!

What do they dislike most about the other? Why?

Lukas sometimes doesn't like how 'set in his ways' Adam is. Lukas is way more competent than Adam believes. He is extremely frustrated by how Adam underestimates him, his abilities, and planning. This ties in to their precarious relationship status at the end of book 3. Adam left Lukas' room and Lukas was so upset and angry about what Adam said and what (didn't) happen.

Adam hates how Lukas can be so damn reckless. He doesn't understand why Lukas just throws himself into things. He loves Lukas' boldness and determination, but also understands quite well, how much that boldness and pride can lead to ones downfall. He doesn't want to lose Lukas.

Lukas x Mason [Eros]

What do they love most about the other? Why?

Mason wouldn't admit it, but he absolutely loves how Lukas respects his boundaries. He loves how Lukas will say, "Walk with me." Then 15 minutes later they are outside the town, in silence with only the chirrups of nature surrounding them. He feels more free, like it's easier to breathe in these moments.

Lukas loves those moments too. He'll just glance over at Mason in their companionable silence, see how calm Mason looks, and just smile.

What do they dislike most about the other? Why?

Lukas hates that Mason won't buy him cigarettes.

Mason hates when Lukas asks him to buy cigarettes. "They'll kill you." - "Yeah, and?"

Séamus x Felix [Mo Chroí]

If they picked out outfits for each other, what would they look like?

Séamus picks: Knee length socks in bi-pride colors, Black creepers, Black denim short shorts, a bright rainbow loose tank top. And if it's wash day, he'll do Felix's hair in a mohawk box braid of sorts.

Felix picks: Gay pride (in the mlm flag colors) socks, ankle high platform boots, black cargo shorts, and a maroon burgundy button up shirt, undone down the front, and sleeves rolled up. Felix would oil Séamus' long red hair to make it shine, then brush it gently into a sloppy top knot bun.

How do they support each other? How do they rely on each other's support?

Felix supports Séamus by always just being there. Sometimes he'll just sit next to Séamus in silence. Sometimes that means walking into his room, to lay next to him while he's sleeping, just so Séamus can wake up to Felix every morning. That also means Felix is just there to create beautiful moments and memories with him, because he wants Séamus to have the best life.

Séamus supports Felix by reciprocating that feeling of love and dedication. Just by purely enjoying Felix in those moments is enough. Séamus will adore Felix when he's just being himself, and he knows that's enough for Felix. To create beautiful memories along side one another.

Ship Asks

@do-this-for-me

[lukas-du-mortain]

Colours in the air they gleam, a sight that brings me to tears. I can see them almost every day. If only everybody saw the same, maybe they would feel the love like me.

- Opal in Sky, Planetary Bliss

[lukas-du-mortain]

Two souls have been bound by time, in a sequential form of love. Reaching multiple lives, connected by the stars above.

[lukas-du-mortain]

5 Songs

Lukas x Adam

The Wild - Mumford and Sons | The song that would play whenever they look into each other's eyes and see that devoted unending love.

Do not be afraid / What's that I see? / I think it's the wild / Puts the fear of God in me

So Numb - TX2 | Lukas singing about his relationship with Bobby ending.

If I said I moved on (moved on, moved on) / If I said I'm fine, that'd be a lie, fuck / You're stuck on my mind / It doesn't get better, you turned off the lights / You left me a letter, but that won't suffice / Memories like leather, they last a whole life / I'lI never get rid of them, trust me, l've tried

I Don't Belong Here - I Prevail | Lukas' self-doubt regarding keeping up with UB.

Time disappears, year after year / How the hell did I get here? ('Cause) / I feel so far away / Minutes turn to hours and the hours into days, I gave up everything / You don't know what you got until you throw it all away

We All Fall Down - The Rigs | A song Lukas would love. It's about support and love and challenges between two people.

Wait, I'm between shadows and sunlight / But your love gets me through dark nights / And I'll be alright

Sequential Lives - Opal in Sky | If Lukas and Adam had a theme song, it'd be this.

Two souls have been bound by time / In a sequential form of love / Reaching multiple lives / Connected by the stars above

[lukas-du-mortain]

I am normal about Adam.

[shinymoonforest]

happy fucking pride month boy wonder. you are getting kisses and eternal affection from the great wizard merlin forEVER

You know what,

Yeah

Fuck the system, Edgar lore I haven't shared with tumblr like. Ever. Enjoy, I think;

Edgar may seem like he's simply an overly-dramatic, overly emotional being that's an all-around sweetheart no matter what you throw at him - always bouncing back bright and happy as he'll ever be. And you may be right... but you do have to wrap your head around the fact that He's Nearly Older Than The Human Race Itsself. His Curator included, obviously. Though.. she's far older than Earth. An Elder of the everlasting Universal plane.

However, Edgar.. well, he's been around for Centuries upon Centuries. He's witnessed land fall and he's seen Kingdom's Rise. He's been at the feet of God and met both sides of the pendulum between life and death. He's been through the incomprehensible. He could of been a destroyer - chosen to lead a path of destruction. To be heartless.. and cold. To simply be another corrupted curve of the Universe.

But he didn't. He willingly, unguidedly chose to be in this life he lives today. To experience this timeline. To be here. To create,, to love,,, to heal,,, - to Live.

He knows the danger and the risks of doing this this way. He's VERY well aware of such. He knows he may stop this path he leads at any given moment. But he doesn't care. Because he knows how stories end. They don't always come to an end, of course... some stories live on forever, continuing on with their ups and downs.. and that's a beautiful thing to behold. Hell, he's watched them be spoken into existence. However, ending or neverending, those that eventually will come to a close are precious... stories that he still wants to have a positive impact on & bring people a happy ending. Endings they deserve. Endings that they may only live through once. But it was worth it in the long run.

He doesn't want anything in return, either. He doesn't seek for material possessions. He doesn't seek out actively for fulfillment, though that is a bonus he receives nonetheless. But he's not doing this for himself. Hes doing it for you. And he's doing it for everyone. If he can bring a smile onto someones face... if he can turn someone's life around, spin it on its head and turn things right-side up for the better - then that's what he'll do.

He stopped believing in a strict set storylines long ago. He doesn't believe there's a script to how you're allegedly supposed to live your life nowadays. He doesn't believe there's a certain way to run through your life to get somewhere in particular. You should be free. He wants you to be free. Because when you're trapped, your story won't thrive. It will simply end on a death note. Nothing else uttered.. If, however, you let yourself be set free from strict shackles.. you will surely create yourself a story worth remembering. You'll make an image for yourself. You won't be forgotten. And a being such as Edgar will make sure that you recieve the freedom your soul seeks tenfold.

And yet choosing this life, out of selflessness, he's still managed to achieve and recieve so much. And he's learnt more than he expected to... He's been taught how to love, for before he had never loved. He's been taught how to cherish, because once there was nothing worth cherishing. He's been influenced to give, because, before, there was nothing left to give. And he, himself, has been given so much. So much. More than enough. And he'll never.. be able to repay it. That's what he's told himself, anyway.... but he still wants to try. And he'll spend his whole, entire life trying.

He'll keep a precious life living. He'll assure it's kept safe & he'll do what he can to set it free..

And though, sometimes, for something so complex as him, it can be rough.. and frustrating... and difficult. But no matter how rough things may get, and how hopeless it all may seem, he will continue to persevere. He's never been one to consider his own state of being. And so he will persevere.

A life that was not fufilled with kept from goodness in a worn-away birdcage.. is not a life that seems worth living. That can correlate to the life of humanity... but that can also correlate to the life of an immortal.

What's the point of existing a life full of hatred if all you get in return is the worst parts of existence? Live free and live joyously, is something that Edgar lives by.

Coldness is barren. And unforgiving.

Love is bright,... & beautiful. And it's what he wants to share with the world. With the Universe. And Universes BEYOND this Universe.

He will share his story..... But only once he's helped write yours. And centuries worth of others.

Despite being a figure of a god, though, he doesn't perceive himself as one. On the contrary. He sees himself as lesser than most. He doesn't think of himself as a high figure of authority. Hell, he daren't even speak of himself as hierarchy. He doesn't seek worship. Or praise. He's actually overbearingly humble when it comes to things such as that;

"No need to thank me, your happiness is surely enough!"

"Oh, it's no bother.. no bother at all! Your smile is all I should need!"

"Seeing you content is the only repayment I could truly ever ask for, my dear.."

When he says things, such as the former few examples, he MEANS it. He genuinely, truly and wholeheartedly means it. He's not expectant. He doesn't secretly think in the back of his head; "I still deserve something in return for how good I've been. I'm their God. I deserve the praise". He doesn't think like that - no, not at all. He believes those thoughts aren't pure or truthful. They're tainted -- and he doesn't want to associate himself with such self admiration. The gift he only hopes to receive in return is joy, laughter & Goodness. To turn something pure is a miracle in its own right.. and thus quite the gift to recieve as a whole.

Edgar, himself, is not pure by any means. But it's not his fault. He was created as a means for achieving.. well, perfection. In a way. A perfect being. Humane enough, but not weak. But being "perfect" meant having a strict purpose.. and following it through. He's never had a set purpose. He merely does what he feels is in the right. He's done what he feels is good. He's not perfect. He's flawed. And his flaws are impure -- if you were to take them raw. But set them aside, and put them in Edgar's hands... the impurity of it is what makes him special. It's what makes him capable of loving and it's what makes him capable of being outrageously, spontaneously excitable. It's what makes him laugh, it's what makes him cry. If he were perfect - well, there'd... there'd be no Edgar. Just. A shell.

That's not what he was purposed for. And you know what?

He thrived. And he lived. And observed.

And after years of observing, quietly waiting in the shadows, finally coming out of his shell - he created something beautiful for - not only himself - but so many others that have walked their way into his life. Not a game.. or a place to keep orderly with instructions allegedy set in stone. No,

He's created a family.. ♡

If he were to have the option either keeping his joyous demeanor and ways of life, and cutting off the rest of the lively, excitingly beautiful nature of the rest of the universe - or, instead cut off his own happiness and let the universe live on as something to be glorious, leave a legacy and to flourish. He'd choose the latter without another thought. He'd be a husk of what he once was, sure,.. but deep down he'd still know, somewhere in his soul, he'd done the right thing. As the good within everything outweighs his own existence by a LOT. It's certainly worth a lot more to save all of that. Right?

But, if he were to do such a thing, he'd do it with a smile on his face. He'd do it with a gleeful, joyous smile with absolutely zero reluctance whatsoever. His story can end when it's his time to go... just as long as others may carry on a legacy. Live the lives the Universe had purposed them to live.

..That's only a hypothetical, though.

...but still. He would sacrifice himself.

He'd do it a million times over. Because he has no reason not to. Why would he hesitate if it meant the magnificent beauty of life itself would live on forevermore..?

If he could relive his own, personal experiences - with all the joys & laughter he'd brought upon people, recreate the smiles on faces that came and went, he would. He really.. really would. He'd redo it all again.

If he got to meet everyone he's ever met once more, if he got to save things that were once lost. If time itself had warped back and set him to the start. Even if he hadn't a single, slightest clue it'd happened. Despite all the pain,,, all the torment and agony he'd have to endure. He'd re-live it all again.

Because this was a life worth living.

And it may be the only time he gets to live it. With everyone.... With all that he knows and loves...

With you...

❝ I've said many things throughout my time and repeat my words like a broken record. But Your universe is Mine. And I treasure it like the precious thing it is. A Tender.. fragile thing. I've never once seen a place like yours... And I don't think I'll get to see one quite like it again...

It's insignificant, if we were to compare along side every other universe before it, and every other universe after it. But this one is lit by a flame. This one... it sparks with something special....

The hands of time tick down to inevitable death. And others may see it that way, and they will run. And they will hide from it.... But you... people like you-- you don't.

You value your worth. And you treasure every second you have living & make it as memorable as you see fit. And that, in itself, is beautiful.

Keep living... dear explorers. Keep thriving.

Your stories may come to an end some day. But they pass... and will carry on through generations who wish to tell your wonderdul tales.

..And I will be there to tell those tales for the rest of time.

Because I've watched...

And I know;

..You're lovely. ❞

~ E.M.☆