#amons my babygirl even if he needs decades of therapy

[ankiebitez]

realizing how much sense my amon quiet bpd hc makes to me bc beelzebub is Literally amons favorite person

which btw obviously his obsession with beelzebub is way more intense than it is for an actual fp but i think that the trauma he went through added on to that + with beelzebub not being around except for once every thousand something years it probably feels like just straight crack/dopamine to his brain everytime he sees him (speaking from experience here having a unstable relationship with ur fp is not for the weak)

big fan of projecting my own experiences onto characters i like man bc from what we've seen about him he seems like he just feels really lonely all the time unless beelzebub is around even if he's around friends or something and ive definitely felt that feeling before bc its just like. a Need for the approval of the one specific person that you feel like understands you best

and with beelzebub not wanting to stay in avisos thats definitely where the abandonment issues kick in bc even though avisos is a entire country of people and not just him,

amon would literally follow beelzebub around anywhere just because but beel wouldn't stay in avisos for amon, and that shit hurts .

i feel like it would be near to impossible to let go of the extreme attachment he has to beel if im being honest, letting go of a favorite person is already hard i couldn't imagine if it was someone id known for like hundreds of years too.

i also think that it would be sweet to see amon build up a healthy relationship with mc, he really just wants to feel affection and love from someone he cares about without having to beg for it or be scared that they'll leave if he blinks for a second and he deserves that man

(btw just gonna add in here this is all based on my own experiences with my bpd dont take any of this as like a definitive explanation of bpd i have other shit that probably got mixed in with this)