#am i making sense?? like this is smth i’ve thought since i was probably 12 still reading the lunar chronicles it’s just so !!!!

[loverofallthingssmart]

i love when fantasy has death like there’s no other way to say it

[onlyjaeyun]

i’ve been following ur writing for some time now and i do have to agree with that anon who said you did CH dirty. you are a very talented writer so it’s just hard to watch.

you started off CH so strong with the lore and little chapters here and there but as it progressed you kind of just got lazy and it shows. when important events happened in the story, they weren’t conveyed through writing but through the texts (ie the riki and yn fight, that was definitely worth a written chapter) and it was honestly disappointing.

the ending isn’t much to say about either. yn and hoon barely go through development after the letter incident and all of a sudden they’re dating and married with a kid like two chapters later?

idk, if it was a mental health issue then i get that but even then you should’ve just gave it a break and thought everything out more. you could do so much better.

thank you for the feedback!

i wanna put you through the progess of a piece of writing from the POV of a writer okay? now keep in mind: i work two jobs, am a fulltime uni student and the daughter of an immigrant household with two parents who still work most of the day just so you know what else i have to deal with, besides my mental health okay?

now, i started off CH strong right? yes. i uploaded on the daily, fine i chose that. a chapter usually takes me around one hour if i actually sit down and focus on nothing but the chapter itself, which includes IG stories, editing, formatting etc. alright

on top of the daily chapters, i constantly replied to 40+ asks a day, a blessing in disguise because no matter how much i enjoy talking to you guys, the pressure does get worse the bigger that number of my inbox becomes, i hope this makes sense

now, i started CH back in october, right when my semester started, thats why i started off strong but as time went on, my assignments and private life got too busy and i guess i felt entitled enough as a writer to skip a few certain chaps and make life a little easier for me by making them regular chapters instead of written ones.

and this is gonna be my main point: i'm not a machine. i wrote a minimum of 5 THOUSAND words per written chapter, MINIMUM. we're talking about a 5-9 THOUSANDED worded chapter EACH WEEK. which usually took me about 6-7 hours, even allnighters.

yes, i chose to do that and maybe my time management wasn't the best but i had to create a compromise where i wouldnt have let you guys wait for over two months which would have resulted in me losing my motivation completely, and yet still focusing on EXAMS. because you know, i'm a fulltime uni student with TWO jobs 😮‍💨

if YOU think i did CH dirty go write an alternative ending yourself but it should be a minimum of 15 chapters including 5 written ones, with at LEAST 9k words each yeah? i wanna see you manage it all, pls prove me wrong snd show me you're better than me i'm genuinely begging bc it might inspire me to do "better" next time.

as a writer/artist/creator, and i can tell you probably arent one yourself or havent been one for long, the longer smth takes to come to an end the worse the pressure becomes which results in a blockage i dont wish upon my worst enemy i'm being deadass. i dealt with some of the worst writer's block ive had since i started writing literally 12 years ago and you're telling me i should have just "taken a break" and do "better"

i never, ever expected anything from anyone but some of you are so entitled to a writer's time and skill it's giving me a headache. maybe you didn't like the timing and writing of the last few chapters of CH and i guess that's unfortunate but this was so unnecessary because you completely dismissed everything else that could have been going on in my life and even belittled my mental health issues like im some fucking AI writing machine

do better, be nicer, write it yourself if you don't like it i'm so fucking over this

if i had gotten out of my own comfort and wellbeing and have actually written another set of written chapters i would have burned myself completely out. ive been in this fandom for not even a year and have already finished FOUR smaus with 50 chapters each, you do NOT get to tell me what i should or could have done better because you dont even give a fuck about me as a person this is just about receiving what YOU think YOURE entitled to but this is MY art and I will do what I see fit even if it's not what was expected of it because i'm a fucking human being with a life before i'm a writer on tumblr

oh, also: i do this for free ㅤ:) just a reminder :) this is my HOBBY :)

and don't you EVER call me lazy again when it comes to writing because i'm not gonna pour my heart and soul into a fic just for you to call me lazy when i literally wrote 50 THOUSAND words for this fucking fic just for the written chapters

goodbye

[tractorbeamofwoe]

My thoughts on the podcast since everyone was asking and LOOK here are some little birds to go with the theme 🥺 I actually texted my mates live updates of my thoughts as I was listening so I’m using those sort of as a guideline because it’s been a couple days and I’ve already forgotten most of what was said 💀💀

• I can’t believe he said he’s been doing it for a cOUPLE OF YEARS and he didn’t tell us like sir you’re keeping this whole amazing hobby to yourself?! Smh

• Anyway I was so nervous going into this lmfao like I genuinely was a wreck just from him saying hello

• Also the fact that he knows what ASMR is??

• Idk and I think it was really sweet how he gets impressed by like even the common/simple birds just cause he’s a beginner n all that like man imagine just being so in love with life and the world and being able to appreciate everything like wow

• yeah welcome to me being soppy™️ for this man for an hour and 12 minutes

• THE WHOLE BABY SEAGULLS STORY AND HOW HE GETS ALL PATERNAL AND BIG BROTHER AND PROTECTIVE OF THEM LIKE I WAS IN BITS and I am deffo gonna write smth about that

• I found it really interesting too him talking about all his hobbies he has and his little obsessive personality so he gets properly stuck into new things all the time cause I’m kinda the same

• Also the fact he started playing at 13 makes me feel less bad and untalented lmfao cause I really thought this man was like...a child prodigy or something 💀

• and WHO KNEW HE STARTED PLAYING THE BASS MY MIND WAS BLOWN

• I also think it’s really sweet how he mentioned his cousin and remembered his teacher who were there at the start cause I feel like not many musicians like to admit that they had lessons or whatever ?? Like it feels like so many people these days are so determined to be “self taught”...Idek if that makes any sense ignore me haha

• Had a little laugh at the thought of him skipping school to play guitar lmfao

• ALSO WHEN THEY STARTED SEXUALISING THE GUITARS FOR LIKE NO REASON LMFAO

• Man was like yeah I like throwing them around a bit and whacking them and I was like 😀

• Really really hoping he releases his solo stuff one day cause from a music standpoint rather than a “I’m in love with him” standpoint I’m really curious to see his...process and whatever

• THEM BRINGING UP HANNAH AND HOW SHE’S A CONSERVATIONIST AND THEY WENT TO HOLY ISLAND TOGETHER I want them to adopt me

• Also not him lying that he’s not a cook?? Sir we’ve seen cooking frenzy 🙄✋🏻

• And the crying at Björk while also probably high as balls 💀💀

• Him saying how his mum has all his awards and stuff crying 🥲🥲

• I’m leaving the catfish discourse stuff till the end btw I wanna be happy first 😅

• SYMPHONIC PICTURES POTENTIAL COMEBACK WOOOOHOOOOOO THIS IS A WIN AND A BIG DAY FOR ANNOYING PEOPLE AND BY ANNOYING PEOPLE I MEAN ME 🥳🥳🥳

• And him being so happy about his uncle coming to his gig and stuff bless his heart

• ALSO I FULLY AGREE WITH PEOPLE SAYING THE VIDEO/SINGLE THEY SHOT AND NEVER RELEASED BEING ENCORE WHSBWJNSWJ don’t be shy release the footage 😤

• Okay so as for the catfish stuff

• I said in another post that had I not known about all the fallouts and stuff, I would’ve just said he sounded bored with the band stuff and ready to move on BUT knowing all that yeah it’s sad

• Idk it just seemed like he was talking very past tense and like...this happened, this is over, it was nice while it lasted etc.

• So I deffo do think he’s leaving but not without playing Cardiff first I reckon

• But yeah this definitely won’t be the last we’ll see of him and I really don’t think I have anything else to add to it tbh

• :)

[jackoshadows]

What are your thoughts on Jon-Bran-Tyrion & their relationship in TWoW & ADoS?

I have read that in GRRM original-idea [?] Jon was to rival Tyrion [because of their love over Arya] as well as Bran for the sake of Northern Power [& Arya apparently too, but not in the same sense??]

[No idea what Bran & Tyrion's relationship was suppose to/could look like, don't think GRRM has mention smth]

That being said, I can get behind Tyrion vs Jon, alright. But Jon vs Bran? How is that suppose to look like/work?

Even if we ignore that they think of each other fondly & miss each other, and that I don't see a reason why this would change all of a sudden... Or that Jon will likely gain the support of the North in TWoW, since he rather fit the "perfect image of an Lord", since he is a able-bodied, traditional [swords-] man, grown & proven as Leader/Lord Commander, has the same education as Robb did, is the eldest Son of Eddard, etc....

[Although I guess Lords like Manderly could prefer Rickon, so they can grap power as his custodian/regents? And the whole being-dead-but-not-anymore-&-what-about-the-oaths thing could be a little tricky & stuff😅] while Bran will likely remain longer behind the Wall, won't be able to rally allies & bannermen [Althouse I have read the speculation of Bran, The Blizzard and The Battle of Ice, my main concern is again the pacing:where Bran's plot seems on overdrive, while Jon's & all those around & in Winterfell are on hold in order for Bran to come back. It's the same problem for me with all those "speculations" about Dany & arriving way to early in Westeros] ...

But the thing that makes it so unbelievable for me is: the fricking age gap?! Put aside their feelings for each other, who is more likely to gain poltical support & all of that, Bran will be like 11 & Jon 18-19? Like... a rivalry between a elementary school student & a high school graduate? 😂🙊

I think for certain that there will be some kind of conflict between Jon and Tyrion. Them shaking hands on the Wall and calling each other friends is foreshadowing a friends to enemies arc, IMO.

As for Jon and Bran, it's hard to see this happening, but I am not ruling out the possibility - meaning that I won't be surprised if it happens. As you mentioned, a Jon/Bran rivalry/bitter estrangement was one of the major parts of the story in the original outline.

By the end of A Game of Thrones,------------------------------------- ---------------------------------g--------------- onto the iron throne with a bit----------------premature death, Bran sits free.--Yet his seat is hardly a comfortable one. In the North, Jon Snow is his bitter enemy. Beyond the narrow sea, Daenerys Stormborn prepares her invasion and on the far side of the Wall, the others are watching with cold dead eyes and gathering their strength.

Can this still happen? I think so. I have always said that GRRM likes his themes of dysfunctional families, conflict among family members and the human heart in conflict with itself and again, I don't see why the Starks should be the exception.

But I think it is a mistake to generalize about “the Westerlings,”  just as it would be to generalize about “the Lannisters.” Members of the same family have very different characters, desires, and ways of   looking at the world… and there are secrets within families as well.

GRRM SSM, May 01, 2001

The reason Sansa even exists as a character in the first place is because he wanted family conflict among the Starks.

Arya was one of the first characters created. Sansa came about as a total opposite b/c too many of the Stark family members were getting along and families aren’t like that.

Why would Jon and Bran have a rivalry? That I cannot speculate on, yet. We still have a lot of story to cover. But in the next book, my speculation is that both Jon and Bran would have changed a lot.

Bran is the current Lord of Winterfell/Heir to the North/Robb's Heir and King in the North. Robb's decree legitimizing Jon Stark could be a possible issue between them.

GRRM has said that death and resurrection changes a person and Jon is going to be spending time in a wolf. A resurrected Jon Snow coming back more wolfish and more hungry. Remember this?

He wanted it, Jon knew then. He wanted it as much as he had ever wanted anything. I have always wanted it, he thought, guiltily. May the gods forgive me. It was a hunger inside him, sharp as a dragonglass blade. A hunger … he could feel it. It was food he needed, prey, a red deer that stank of fear or a great elk proud and defiant. He needed to kill and fill his belly with fresh meat and hot dark blood. His mouth began to water with the thought. - Jon, ASoS

GRRM ties in his desire for Winterfell to a deep hunger that then connects to Ghost - his hunger for Winterfell intermingling with Ghost's hunger...

Remember the kings in the North of yore, like Ice Eyes. I doubt Jon Stark is going to hold back much. He's going to be doing some really messed up stuff.

Meanwhile, Bran's heavily involved in the magical stuff beyond the wall. Has connections to Bloodraven, the Children of the forest, can influence timelines (Hodor), unearth past truths and will be one of the most powerful greenseers. Blood sacrifice and human sacrifice is a big part of the dark magic of the north. Maybe they fight over how to defeat the Others? I think Bran's connection to the children of the forest is how they win again this time around - and his relationship with Jon suffers because of that?

Bran ends up King on the Iron Throne and Jon Snow ends up in the lands beyond the wall - just the opposite of what we would expect for these two characters considering where they are now and what we know of them (R+L=J) etc. How does this happen?

Anyways, according to GRRM, TWoW is a very dark book and if there is a Jon-Bran rivalry, we may see the seeds of it being planted in this book.

There are a lot of dark chapters right now in the book that I’m writing,” he said during a Q&A at the Guadalajara International Book Fair, according to Entertainment Weekly. “It is called The Winds of Winter, and I’ve been telling you for 20 years that winter was coming. Winter is the time when things die, and cold and ice and darkness fill the world, so this is not going to be the happy feel-good that people may be hoping for. Some of the characters [are] in very dark places.”

This is why I find all the Dark!Dany stuff slightly hilarious. Is Dany going to do things that go against the Geneva conventions (lol) in the next book? Yeah, I think so. She is going to come back from her sojourn at Vaes Dothrak and be like I have had it with these effing slavers and go all Aegon the Conqueror on them (About time I say, she should have done it a while ago). But I am pretty damn sure most of our characters are going to become darker in the next book. Tyrion is already on a downward spiral, Jon will surely go on a rampage against the Boltons, Bran most probably eating Jojen paste over there and learning dark magic, getting taught by Bloodraven, Sansa participating in the slow poisoning of her little cousin in the Vale and have you read Arya's Mercy chapter? That stuff is dark.

As for the rest, I think we should ignore the age gap like GRRM is planning on doing ( GRRM sees his young people as adults anyway - "Arya has the experiences of a 40 year old, If a 12 year old has to conquer the world then so be it" etc.) and I do think he will include some time gaps in the next two books allowing for travel etc. I am pretty sure Arya will end the books at 14.

Bran, Dany and Arya's plots have to be in overdrive in the next book out of necessity. Bran has to advance a lot in his plot, be used to build up the Others as a big threat, give us more info about the Children, Bloodraven, what is actually happening, Hodor etc. - there's just so much stuff here that GRRM has to write. Same with Dany. Dany has to wind up in Meereen, land in Westeros and start her campaign. Same with Arya. I think that's why they will get the most chapters, and time in the next book.

[musette22]

Hi Minnie! First of all, thank you for being so sweet, reasonable and respectful, I can't even describe how much joy your blog gives me! You are a true pro in emotional support for Evanstan fandom, so I guess I kinda need some reassurance. [1]

The thing is, as you probably know, some Seb stans on Twitter take the whole Chris insta situation and turn it into smth embarassing, like making fun of Seb and Mackie ignoring Chris and calling the idea of the challenge stupid (even though Chris did donate, not just "asked fans for money", as they say). It's like they feel the need to attack the first before smb calls they fav out. [2]

I know there ARE good people in Seb fandom, it's just that the aggressive ones are so loud and spread their bs so fast, I end up seeing it on my TL. No matter how stupid it sounds, it keeps making me sad to see so much hate towards Chris and his fans not from some random locals but from Seb stans. It's like two halves of my heart are torn apart. Not even ship-wise, it just seems so hard to love them both and be present on twitter these days. [3]

And, since I'm whiney af today, one more twitter thing: the CW promo era was some kind of honeymoon for us, sure, but I've recently seen some opinions on how Chris was all lovey-dovey and Seb was stiff and bored and uncomfortable, how their interviews were unnatural and boring. I mean, in my part of fandom (non-English speaking country) there has always been a popular perception of boys' dynamic as these "over-excited puppy playing around a confused cat" vids, if you know what I mean. [4]

But it kinda seemed ok for me, and the way they acted a little awkward around each other etc. Well, you can tell I'm easily affected cause now it does feel more negative to me. Stuuupid, I know. Maybe it's my "let's feel sorry for Chris and his fans" phase, idk. Sorry for bringing it here, you just seem to reassure people so well. [5 and last, it was long lol]

Hello my lovely!! This was indeed long hahaha but that’s totally fine, I myself am also someone who also has trouble keeping things short to I feel you 😘 

This is a very long reply so I’m putting it under the cut so I don’t clog up people’s dashes!

Okay so first of all, let me say I was never a fan of Twitter, but everything I’ve heard lately has just lowered my opinion of it even further. I know there’s a lot of amazing stuff and brilliant folks on there as well, but it also seems to be where all the bitchy, hateful, entitled and inappropriate people congregate. So personally, I’m very happy with my little community on Tumblr when it comes to fandom, and for news and social media I prefer actual news outlets and instagram. The sad truth is that there are a lot of harmful and hateful opinions in the world, and as someone who struggles with anxiety, I try to find ways to avoid a lot of it. Especially the stuff I can’t do anything about (you can try to reason with most haters until you’re blue in the face, and 90% of the time it’s not going to make an ounce of difference). It’s much easier to curate your own experiences on platforms like Tumblr and even Instagram than it is on Twitter, or so I’ve gathered. So I’m afraid I don’t have a lot of helpful advice for you there apart from ‘maybe try and stay away from Twitter if you can’ which you probably don’t really want either...

As for the whole Seb vs Chris issue: it’s clearly completely ridiculous. There is no ground whatsoever to believe they’re at odds. At worst, they’re now just casual work friends, but there is no reason to believe there’s any bad blood. It’s interesting to consider that initially, the argument seemed to be they had fallen out and both disliked each other (no idea where that came from but sure), then it was that Chris didn’t like Sebastian (because he allegedly shaded him when he joked that Scarjo was the only one of his friends who came to see Lobby Hero), and then Chris got Instagram and tagged and followed Seb, but because Seb hasn’t responded to the challenge yet, he now apparently hates Chris. For what reason, god only knows, because only last year at MCM London (where I was present myself) Sebastian gushed about Chris and his experiences with him while filming the Cap movies, and lets not forget it was him who initiated the hug at the Endgame premiere. Long story short: they don’t dislike each other. They’re completely fine, people just like to make up drama for whatever reason.   

As for the Sebastian stans who hate Chris and vice vera: to be honest, I wasn’t even really aware it was an issue until recently, because I was under the naive impression that it was kind of impossible to love one but hate the other. Both of them are such amiable, sweet, thoughtful, funny, talented guys, and everyone who actually knows them adores them, so why on earth anyone could hate either of them is beyond me. But even if you do, I genuinely don’t understand this need to pit them against each other? Why? I think a lot of it is down to people just liking drama, or being actual 12 year-olds who still see the world in a kind of high school dynamic-way. I’m not saying Chris and Sebastian have never done anything wrong, but in my opinion, none of it warrants outright hate or being cancelled over. It’s such an immature and unreasonable take. I’m just sorry for the people who can’t love both of them, because man, are they missing out! I understand that it’s painful for you to see all those opinions when you love both of them so much, but that’s why I try to just avoid them. I know they exist, but not seeing them makes dealing with it a whole lot easier, I promise! ❤️

With regard to the challenge itself: if the celebrities who are taking part in it are not donating themselves, then yeah, that would be problematic. However, we know that Chris donates to a ton of different charities, so there’s no doubt in my mind that he’s donated to this cause as well. Asking people to buy tickets to try and win this “prize” is not in itself an issue, if you ask me. People can think for themselves, can’t they? If they think it’s worth it, they think it’s worth it. They’re not being forced to part with their money, and moreover said money is being used to help people in need. Of course fake and problematic charities exist, but there are still good ones out there as well, so let’s assume for the moment this one is actually doing all of this from a genuine desire to help people and it’s not some money grabbing scheme.

Furthermore, as I’ve said so many times before, I really don’t believe Sebastian and Mackie are “ignoring” Chris. If they’re choosing not to do the challenge (they still might do it at some point) then I’m sure they have a good reason for that and it isn’t that they’re holding a grudge and are thinking “screw this charity and that Chris Evans, I’m going to ghost him to get my revenge!” I mean, do these people even realize how ridiculous that sounds 🙄 I also believe they would have let Chris know about their decision privately. They do have each other’s phone numbers, you know... 

And lastly, about the CW press tour... I don’t know what footage these people have been watching to come to such conclusions, or what’s wrong with their eyes and ears, but that makes NO sense to me. I’ll tell you what; it was mostly the footage from the CW press tour that got me convinced there was something going in between the two of them! Both Chris and Sebastian acted in a way that screamed “smitten kittens” to me, and if there was ever any “stiffness” from Sebastian’s side, then that was no doubt just his slightly more reserved personality compared to Chris and Mackie’s. Chris and Sebastian’s videos together give me LIFE, so for anyone to call them boring is actually kind of insulting lol. To me, almost every interaction Chris and Seb had during that press tour showed that they were either low-key (in a friendship way) or high-key (in a romantic way) crushing on each other, and they clearly admire each other very much. Any awkwardness I’ve ever seen between them for me seemed to stem from that crush (is anyone not at least a little awkward around their crush sometimes?) and not from any dislike from either side. That’s actually such a ridiculous idea to me that it doesn’t even make me worried, it just makes me laugh. Some people really don’t have eyes, it seems. 

Anyway, that was a reeeeeeaaaaaallllyyyyy long reply lmao, I’m sorry! I hope this helps a little though, because I do know how shitty it is to feel like you do about things that are supposed to make you happy!! Tuning out the haters and focusing on people who feel the same way you do in my experience is the best way to get to feeling good again 🥰 Big hug, and hopefully you’ll feel better soon!

[wthomeland]

Sniff, sniff, poor Quinn getting baby wipes in the shop (aww poor sweetie) and eating out of tins... WTH what's Carrie's proper address? Cuz c'mon gals and all you anons out there, we can't let that go on for a minute longer! We must tell him, how much we still love him even with a disability and how much we are all routing for him and that we all think he is worth it!!! Oh and of course what do you think, gals, should we tell him Carrie is his true love and really, really , REALLY loves him?

Anonymous 2 said to wthomeland: Well now Quinn gets it why Carrie has been nagging the hell out of him with her Moto-shit, meds schedules and and and …. cuz SHE CARES (well more than that)!!! WTH what do you think?

Anonymous 3 said to wthomeland: Just reading about grand mal seizures (as stated by EMT). After the seizure, people likely experience sleepiness, body fatigue, and headaches. Now it’s even more painful to watch the bed scene again as I see Q finding comfort in his pillow, fighting his aching body after the muscle contractions, and battling sleepiness. And in this condition he wants to watch the video. I think those likely symptoms also explain his quietness in that scene, don’t you think?

Anonymous 4 said to wthomeland: Do you think Quinn really got it - awwww her hand on his heart? I mean how much he means to Carrie or for storyline purposes Gansa will still let him have doubts (ohhhh please noooooo - don’t be so cruel!!!!!!)?

Anonymous 5 said to wthomeland: OMG, 6x02, so there were so so many moments in that bed scene that were just crushing to watch. But the one that is killing me is Q’s expression right after C says “You came very close to dying. You must know that.” Rupes just nailed it in those precious 3 seconds. What was your killer moment in this scene? Off to watch it again.

Anonymous 6 said to wthomeland: I think it just finally dawned on Carrie, her “why” chin tremble (the most satisfying ever, 📣 newsflash Carrie, you haven’t shown him ) that she hasn’t shown Quinn that he’s important to her, that she even cares whether he lives or dies, that he’s not just a useful tool for her, she has flaunted enough men in his face without the slightest concern over the feelings she’s known about for ever, even in her hallucinations she’s aware of his affection for her. Maybe there is a change coming.

Anonymous 7 said to wthomeland: So apparently they cut the scene where Quinn was in the backyard observing Carrie turn off the lights, I’d like to see it, anyway…, what was that final scene?? Beautiful!!! But I have a few questions: 1) What did Max mean when he told her Quinn’s got stranger things ab her? 2) Why did Quinn get “emotionless” re C’s breakdown (I just wanted him to hug her, she was so sad..), it’s like he really didn’t know why but then when she left he kinda got smth and wanted to cry but hold back tears?

Anonymous 8 said to wthomeland: Our prayers were answered tonight!! (6.02) We got TWO touches! Q touched her to give her courage to show him the video. She touched him on his heart to express feelings she was too emotional to find words for. And the way Q expressed so much sensitivity during the fatigue of a post-seizure just left me wanting to reach out and hug him all night long. So how many times did you watch “the scene”?

Anonymous 9 said to wthomeland: Am I alone in having the sickest feeling in my stomach and my heart right now after watching the ending of 6.02? They really delivered on that scene!! Kept waiting for it to cut to another scene, but they let it roll. I will be watching that scene over and over and over. Oh yeah, we should name it, as I’m sure we’ll be referring to it 24/7.

Anonymous 10 said to wthomeland: 6x02 bed scene. Did you notice after C’s second “why” it appears like Q reaches out with his good arm to comfort her? Could there be a third touch?

Anonymous 11 said to wthomeland: Its just so tragic, C and Q. He loves her so much but hates himself more so that he doesn’t even think he is worth saving. And then C loves him too, but is filled with so much guilt. I think she even feels guilty for loving him and needing him, for not being able to let him go. That said, that moment was the breakthrough Q needed. He needed to know that C cared about him before he became a “mutant,” and that she’s not just helping him out of obligation or pity.

Anonymous 12 said to wthomeland: Yup! Seeing Carrie rubbing Quinn’s boobies gives me life. Hell yeah! ✊️

Anonymous 13 said to wthomeland: How dare Gansa, playing with our fellings! 6.02 final scene was so powerful, beautiful, I don’t remember seeing this in any other scene on this show so far. Quinn and Carrie’s emotion was so well showed without them even saying much we could feel their struggle. Rupert and Claire nail it! It’s just the 2nd episode, more to come, our hearts must be strong 😍😭

Anonymous 14 said to wthomeland: Wow. That last scene was so perfect. The portrayal of a thousand little meaningful moments by Rupert and Claire, it was like 4.12 all over again, and this is just 6.02. The way Q shifts to his side to make room for C on the bed… the way he touches her arm and says, “Just play it.” Can we talk about how he chose to have C show him that awful video because he could not be vulnerable with anyone else? How he has no idea and how C basically tells him she loves him without actually saying it?

Anonymous 15 said to wthomeland: Hey I’m over in the UK and havnt watched it yet but have given into the spoilers. I read somewhere that Quinn asks how her day was or something? How does that go? How does she reply? Sorry for being wierd but I’m decending into madness not watching the episode and I’m obsessing over the details…

anonymous 16 asked: Oh I think they will definitely revisit the stroke and waking him from a coma. All of that was running through Carrie’s mind during the conversation. She knew there was much more than she was saying but how does she tell him? Did she really save him? Would he better off if she had decided to kill him? She knows she wouldn’t be able to live with that decision but seeing the pain he’s now in, does she regret it? She’s been holding it all in but at some point it’ll come out for better or worse.

Hi guys! Sorry for the mass response! Anon 13, we agree, that was the most intimate Quarrie scene EVER and we were pleasantly surprised that it happened in 6x02 (though it makes us fear what kind of fuckery they have in store for later in the season LOL). 

Anon 9, IKR? It was a super long scene! I was like, wait, I think there’s been some kind of mistake. We are not worthy of so much Quarrie goodness. I’ve taken to calling it the “Why” Scene, but feel free to suggest a funner name!

Anon 1, definitely one of the big take-aways from the episode is just how depressed Quinn is - and who can blame him? - his body and mind are failing him. Like Anon 11 said, he doesn’t think he’s worth saving. He’s really trying his hardest to let the darkness take him, thank goodness Carrie’s not having it!

Yes, Anon 2, I think one of the important points of the scene was to draw Quinn out of himself. He’s been (understandably) focused on himself for many months - his recovery or lack thereof - has probably been pretty much all the thinks about, except for the occasional escapes with Clarice & Co. I think he hasn’t really stopped to think about Carrie or how she must be feeling during all this. You can tell the way he just stares at her the whole time she’s crying that his empathy muscles are just starting to be probed after a prolonged atrophy. It’s literally like he’s seeing her for the first time since his stroke and registering that she is an actual human person with emotions.

And, Carrie, bless her, has been trying so hard to be strong for him, to keep it together for him (you can see this when she apologizes to him for crying), that she hasn’t realized that what Quinn needs most is to feel needed.

Anon 3, sure it makes sense that he would be tuckered out after his seizure, but I think his quietness was mostly due to the fact that he was in receptive mode during the scene. He was trying to take and process the information that his eyes were receiving - the video, Carrie’s tone, her words, her tears, her touch. Quinn’s brain is not processing very swiftly, and I got the sense that he was really, really concentrating on trying to make sense of what all this meant. Anon 7, I think this is why he appeared “emotionless” - but he was far from it (I’m going to answer your Max question with another set of questions).

Anon 4, I don’t know that this is the big “aha” moment when Quinn realizes that Carrie loves him, I don’t think he’s emotionally ready for that, but the realization that Carrie is actually hurting because of his condition, because he has given up on himself, I think is going to motivate him to try harder. This is the first big turning point in Quinn’s recovery. In fact, that’s the main purpose of the scene, to stimulate Quinn’s desire to get better, not for himself, but for Carrie.

Anon 11, sorry, but I don’t see the guilt in Carrie. Not at all. I see that she is hurting because he’s hurting and he doesn’t know what he means to her, but I don’t see guilt. I see her being selfless in not wanting to burden him with her feelings and needs (this is why she apologizes for crying). I also don’t think (at this point, at least) Quinn thinks she’s helping him out of obligation or pity. Like I said above, I think he just hasn’t thought about it much at all. He’s been absorbed in his own issues, and figuring out why Carrie’s hanging around nagging him was the last thing on his mind.

Anon 5, so many killer moments, but some that come to mind are:

When they ask each other how their day was, like a married couple who had a fight in the morning and wants to make up at night. (Anon 15, when he asks how her day was, she says “Well, it started with someone throwing a coffee mug at me, went downhill from there”)

Quinn re. watching the video, “I didn’t want to… but I do now.” He feels safe with Carrie and wants to connect. (right Anon 14?)

The way Quinn reaches out and touches her arm, telling her to play it (and Anon 8, I have now watched the scene more times than I can count)

The way Carrie keeps looking at him when he’s watching the video to see how he’s reacting

Carrie, “those tiles, those are what led me to you.” The “led me to you” is just so touching - she’s making sure he knows how hard she tried to find him

The way she gasps when she says “three whole minutes you were dead”

The single tear streaming down Quinn’s face

Her utter heartbreak when he asks why she saved him, and the way her voice breaks when she asks “why?” like how could you not know? (Anon 10, I noticed his arm was in a different position after her second why, but I think there’s just some kind of continuity error bc when they cut back to him, his hand is behind his head again)

How she apologizes to him for crying, like she’s supposed to be the strong one now

How she has to leave because she is so overwhelmed, but she lays her hand on his heart and looks him hard in the eye before leaving. (Anon 12, it’s his heart, not his boobies 😒)

Anon 6, well, it won’t surprise you that I disagree. Carrie’s been by Quinn’s side for six months now. If he hasn’t realized how much she cares about him it’s because he’s been wrapped up in himself, as well he should.

Anon 14, I agree, this was her ILY, without saying it. I love how the dialogue between the two is so sparse - they really don’t exchange that many words, but so much is communicated in other words. Truly amazing! Rupert and Claire killed it in this scene.

Anon 16, while they may revisit the stroke, I don’t think that was running through Carrie’s head at all. His question was about what happened before the stroke - he didn’t remember the sarin incident and so she walked him through it. He was poisoned; left for dead; she looked for him; found him alive (hence saved him); and he died/was revived in the ambulance. The purpose of the scene was to show Quinn how much Carrie loves him, the lengths she went to find, not to download all the factual details of that day into his brain. And I don’t believe for a minute that she would ever regret not killing him. She knows it’s the depression talking, and that in him somewhere there’s a fighter (”for a man who wanted to end his life, I’ve never seen someone fight harder to stay alive”).

[probably-lucifer]

Life is perfect when you've got money right? #1

I'll be the first to tell you that I was spoiled as a kid, with toys, candy, games (sorta), movies, etc.(...I'm exaggerating but not by much). We always had a bit of money back then (mostly. Usually. We did we just weren't very mature about our purchases. Or they weren't rather, I didn't even get an allowance until I was 15 because, and I quote "We buy you everything you need anyways" which was not true seeing as they stopped buying me stuff when I was 12, and we'll get to that ark of my kinda fucked up life later.) When I was eleven we moved into this really nice house. (It had two master bedrooms, so I the oldest child got one, the yard was huge, but I grew up in Vegas so I preferred hiding inside for obvious reasons.) The house itself was lovely, the kitchen was how, modern, granite, etc. The floors were bamboo, it was awesome, I loved it. I especially loved my cuboard under the stairs, it was big, and spacious, and cool, and I got to be alone. (As a fan of Harry Potter I can see the irony of my situation.) I had all my toys that my little sister who was barely one couldn't play with in there. I had cities built with my Polly Pocket collections, my favorite barbie dolls (I had like 7, but only three were really played with for some reason), my food toys were set up (like a picnic basket, and some stuff for it. I constantly brought my blanket downstairs, and my pillows. I never did get a lot of food toys oddly enough) how I wanted them (I had it set up as though I lived alone, my play food was "real food", my dolls were my friends, my blanket was my bed, my pillows on top of by blanket was my couch, etc. (...This explains a lot of my life honestly... I am such a lonely little shit holy fuck.) So anyways point being why I hate those rooms now. I was playing under there one day minding my business, my little sister was dead to the world aka asleep (I've never seen a child sleep so hard so easily in my life. You'd think it'd ease up with life, but no, not really. I think it might've gotten worse actually) mom was making lunch, stepdouche was playing a game, or so it seemed. *insert dramatic music because dealing with my problems with humor is how I get by in life* Now I'm going to be honest I never really got over the whole "scared of the dark" thing, matter of fact, to this day, I still have a fear of it. (Thanks anxiety, I fucking hate your slimy little guts too, you fucking dic-) Back then though it was because I thought I could see ghosts, and at this age I could watch most horror movies without any real fear. (This is not true. It actually triggered something I'm currently explaining.) Nowadays though, according to my research, I've never been diagnosed (do you know how fucking long it took me to even convince my depressed as shit parents that mental illnesses aren't bullshit? TOO FUCKING LONG! Literally took me 3 fucking years to convince them another year that "oh yeah, she *might* be depressed, but no on the anxiety because of that one time she talked to a stranger (yes because that's exactly how it works you fuckwad.), then another year and a half that "nah bro she's got anxiety and depression for sure." Then another three months to get them to agree that I probably need help, and that's only cause I got drunk and confessed far more then I ever wanted to. I am positive they don't think Schizophrenic disorders are a thing but alas my brain (and me honestly) are, and will always say fuck you to anyone that says that) I've found that it triggers whatever schizophrenic disorder I've had since I was little (as they usually are). So I'm playing with my toys when my stepdouche (I call him as such for reasons you'll understand if I ever get around to telling more of my traumatic childhood stories, one day I might even tell you about the reason I can't even smell hot sauce without the urge to throw up.) Turns off the light and closes the door. I, being the almost Gryffindor, but not really, more of a Slytherin actually, person that I am turned the light back on, and left the door alone after I found that he was holding it closed(it didn't have a lock, and even if it did most locks, in modern houses at least are on the inside anyways.) I went back to my toys(is now a good time to bring up my habit of making safe places in closets because of my subconscious fear of him, and my cunning side subliminally telling me he can't get me because he's to big? I still hide in closets tbh). Now I don't know why I thought that was the end of it. I really don't. But I did. And I regret it. To this day I regret facing that fear. Because from this day forth, I would avoid that closet when he was near (so always), the dark would never be much of a friend, and spiders, and any form of Web (I don't know why that's capitalized but what the fuck ever. Yes, yes I am vulgar) would give me a (at least minor)panic attack (of course I wouldn't find out what anxiety, and panic attacks even where until I'm sixteen or seventeen, and I'm reading All Time Low fanfiction where people keep bringing up anxiety, and this one goes into detail, and suddenly my whole life makes sense. I'm not even joking a little bit right now). Because noticing my bravery he decided to not reward, or silently acknowledge it, but to do the one thing he knew would freak me out. Now it started off simple "Freddy Krueger's gonna get you"(by this time I'd mastered the talent of becoming friends with the scary monsters so I could send them after mean people instead of having them hurt me so that obviously didn't work) I said he's not real etc. Etc. Turned the light on, blah blah blah, he turned the light off and leaned heavily against the door (he was probably getting tired or smth), I heard him. Now he knows my fear of bugs, he constantly brings up my fear of bugs, (there's plenty of stories I could tell you there) (now this wouldn't be so bad if we hadn't just had a poisonous spider on our kitchen counter get taken away by the bug man (thank you pest control people. I owe you a lot of gratitude. Now if we could just have you literally obliviate all mosquitoes, that'd be nice thanks), but he's a dick, it hadn't even been a week, and we did.) He starts talking about how spiders love places like my cuboard, and how there's probably a bunch of poisonous ones in there with me, so, in a very prideful definitely Slytherin way, I walk (mostly leisurely, but with just a touch of absolute terror) to the door, turn the light on, and try to get out. I tell him it's not funny anymore, I ask him to please move, he doesn't he just keeps going on about spiders and blocking the door (I think I got it to move a bit in the ensuing panic), in the end my mom saves me when I'm screaming and banging on the door like my life depends on it, finally coming out of the kitchen or wherever. And that ladies, gentleman, and others are my reasons for hating small cuboards under the stairs. Questions?