#am i apathetic? is it one of the symptoms of my possible npd?? maybe my possible aspd??
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I bring a sort of genuinely really struggling mentally vibe to the function that well adjusted people don't really like
#its so dark ⊹ ࣪ ˖#im really trying#like really really trying its so hard#im so stressed out i dont know whats wrong with me and i dont know ehat to do to fix it#no this isnt an excuse for some of the things I've said or done#but its an explanation#i dont know ehat i feel when i feel it i hate being autistic i hate being autistic#i hate being autistic#I HATE BEING MENTALLY ILL#I HATE THIS#i want to like things normally i want to focus on things that arent related to some stupid fucking game or tv show#i hate my hyperfixations#i hate idv i hate fionna and cake i hate tsp i fucking hate dsaf i hate literwture i hate writing and poetry i WANT TO LIKE IT NORMALLY#I WANT TO BE NORMAL#i want to get better#school just makes everything worse i eant to die i hate everyhting i like i hate hyperfixation i hate being autistic#not just autistic either its not only one thing its multiple#i fucking hate being bipolar i hate being so difficult#i hate having symptoms of cluster b disorders#worst part is i dont even know what disorders i have#i have symptoms from 3 of ghe 4 disorders in clusetr b#i hate not being able to feel empathy and i hate that i dont even know the reason behinf why#am i apathetic? is it one of the symptoms of my possible npd?? maybe my possible aspd??#or is it because i cant fUCKING CARE ABOUT ANYTHING IF IM NOT OBSESSED EITH IT#i want to understand myself#i literally just want to be neurotypical
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