#always making sure my rp buddies are comfortable uwu

[foreverdaring]

Since it’s New Year’s Eve/New Year has already started for some of you, I figured it would make sense to let you know about Spark’s intentions re: New Year’s kisses. First and foremost, she IS absolutely going to go around giving out smooches, when allowed to do so. However, this, in no way, is supposed to indicate me wanting to potentially start a ship(if both parties are interested we can discuss the possibility, of course) or pushing any romantic feelings onto your muse.  

Spark is a flirty and affectionate creature by nature; though I am completely aware this might make some, both muses and muns alike, somewhat uncomfortable. As such, I am PERFECTLY OKAY with any reaction you see as suitable for your muse - positive, negative, confused, pleased? Anything goes! You owe me absolutely NOTHING in the way of approving reactions, not unless you are completely convinced that it would be an IC occurrence. 

So yeah! Just wanted to throw that out there~

[rkleedongminie]

1 YEAR WITH ROOKIES

HELLO LEO HERE !!! oh my gosh !!!! i can’t believe this day actually came !! april 12th marks one year since i joined rookies with dongmin here. it took me a month to get the courage to finally send in a reserve and im so so so happy i did. this last year has been amazing, it’s had its ups and downs, but i’ve never lost my drive and excitement for being in this group. my muse for dongmin especially has always been crazy, i always have something to write for him even though i get slower at times for school. and omg everyone here was so welcoming to me when i joined, and have always been so happy to plot with my muses and i. i couldn’t be more thankful for everyone i have met since joining rookies. this group really opened a whole new door to me in the rp world, and i can honestly say my life brightened when i joined rookies. and gosh there is just so much i could say right now !!!

when i joined rookies i had been out of rp for a few months after, and i hadn’t joined a group rp almost half a year before due to a very bad experience. and i was nervous and hesitant to join here because it was a whole new things from anime fantasy rp’s and writing a character from a show. i had very limited experience actually writing my oc’s outside of my own fics. but i was so excited to actually introduce my muse here to everyone. and to experience this. i think i literally spent two weeks reading everything on the main blog, and then reading some things on the mods muses blogs. especially taeminrk lmao so really i fell in love with carly’s writing. and by the time i had sent in a reserve i had literally written every thing up for the open events lol idk if anyone remembers how hecken active i was when i started, posting everyday and multiply times. i was having the time of my life

and a year later that hasn’t changed. a huge gigantic THANK YOU to everyone in here. thank you for welcoming me, and for befriending me. thank you for listening to me ramble on tlist, and putting up with my chaotic plotting. thank you especially to the mods who have been so patient with me even tho i keep making silly mistakes (shout out to kyle & my trainee points i swear one day i’ll get it right). aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i’m tryin not to make this long but ONE YEAR !!! IN ROOKIES!!! WE DID IT LEO feelssogoodman sjdnfkjs CARLY you’ve rubbed off one me too much. but gosh i really made one year here with dongmin and both of us have changed so much since last april. dongmin has gone from a shy, and timid, teen who isn’t sure of his goal. to a hyper, half confident teen who just wants to sing with his friends. he knows his goal now, he wants to debut with royal, and the current royal trainees. and even though he has gone through a lot he never lost that spark of kindness and childish excitment. still tackling royal trainee’s at random lmao

ok ok ok leo let’s try and wrap this up. AGAIN. ANOTHER HUGE HUGE SHOUT OUT TO EVERYONE. AN EVEN BIGGER SHOUT OUT TO ROYAL CHAT!! Royal chat fam have been so awesome aaaa. i love you all in the royal chat and i really want to talk and mention everyone but i could go on for days. i hope we keep making memories together.

@ rookies fam. thank you so so so much for this last year. i really really enjoy getting to talk to everyone, and write with so many amazing people. i love getting on here just to read through the dash and see whats going on. who’s dating who, who hates who. it’s so amazing and so much fun. and everyone is just so talented here. i’m so glad i get to be apart of this community and i hope i will be here for many more years to come. i love everyone here, and i love rookies so so much. UWU !!!! <3

i have a few special mentions. and i won’t be mentioning everyone on here that i have spoken too because that would take forever, and over half the master list LOL but i have some important people that i need to thank. 

ofc first mention to the person who’s writing is the reason i joined @taeminrk. carly i have so many thinks i could say and want to say but all of the just left my mind ofc uwu BUT KSJDNF thank you. thank you for being someone i can turn to, and being so patient with me all the time. thank you for letting me ramble off ideas, and for not getting annoyed when i come to you for something. your writing on taemin, as i have told u before, is like one of my favorite ever. i read through is blog before joining and legit wanted to write with you. BUT I WAS SO SHY. it took what.... 4 months for us to finally have a thread?? august eval right. omg i was so nervous but so excited !!!! i love writing with you, and being your friend. i always have you in my thoughts, and hoping that you’re feeling alright or having a good day fjdnkdjd thank u for being u. thank you for being both an amazing mod, and an amazing friend. i’m so grateful and thankful that you are in my life. i love u.

who would i be if i didn’t mention the loml @jaehyunrk oh my gosh fifi was the first person in the royal chat who really like attacked me and it was because dongmin took jaehyun’s maknae spot. and it was so funny because at first i thought they wouldn’t get along but jaehyun took dongmin under his wing and now look where they are. LOOK WERE WE ARE. i’m so so so so so happy we became friends. you’re a majorly important friend in my life. i love seeing you on tlist or on dash, especially now adays watching you go nuts over the boyz ( u kevin stan ). thank you for helping me feel comfortable in royal. thank you for putting up with all my sad ideas, and all my meme ideas. and for even fueling the meme ideas. you’re so supportive of me, and i want to be the same for you. i love u lots

@rkbyunbaek LARI TOO. You were another big help in me feeling so comfortable in royal and so welcomed in the chat. baekhyun and dongmin’s relationship always brings me so much happiness even when they were having issues. i’m so so so happy that i was put into a company with you in it, and that we ended up becoming friends. thank you for being my friend. i luv u

@rkrachel & @rkkey go hand in hand ( w carly too ngl ) bc without kate i wouldn’t have probably talked to hope ngl. kate, i will never get over the reaction in royal chat when we realized there was a decade between kibum and dongmin. that was still so funny, and to this day i will laugh over that. omg aaa but on a serious note. thank you, kate. thank you for being another person i feel comfortable going to. thank you for being someone who makes me feel included, and welcomed. you have been an amazing friend to this last year, and an amazing person. i know i’m often as much if not more of an upset mess than dongmin, but you’ve been patient and im so grateful aaaaa of i’m so happy that i was able to meet you. and through you i met hope. and oh gosh i love hope lmajdsfnskjn hope and rachel adopted dongmin and i so out of the blue, i hadn’t even spoken to hope before then but she as so quick to welcome me, and to acccept my angst filled baby muse. and i’m so grateful to both of you. i love you, kate. and i love u, hope. 

@rkhoon i love u birthday buddy. thank you for memeing with me so much and for always taking my muses on as minions. you’re such a sweet friend, and such a fun person to talk to. i enjoy our chats, and meme days. you’re a great mod, and great friend, and great writer. thank you for being u and for being my friend. i thnk you have banned me & dongmin a total of like 36 times at least. but pls let us stay for another year 

and oh dear ok late one. and a very important one @rksungho we didn’t really talk until i joined cc, and even then i was more in passing. i live in a half state of always worrying that i’m annoying. but you’ve been so patient with me, and so calm when i have a moment. i know i’m clingy and i’m having a lot of downs lately. but you’ve never gotten angry at me, you’ve always been patient and ready to assure me when my anxiety gets to much. lex, i am so incredibly thankful and grateful to be your friend. with everything that has happened lately i might have crawled into a hole to melt into mulch if it hadn’t been for you. and i’m trying to learn how to better stand on my own, i’m working on my mess one issue at a time and its slow i know,  but thank you so much for being so patient with me. for being there when i really need someone, and for assuring me when i need it. thank you so much. you’re an amazing friend, and an amazing writer ( i love sungho so much screams ). and i could really go on for days. but to summarize. thank you. i love you. and i hope we can continue being friends for much much longer. 

ok that wraps this up. happy one year leo, let’s aim for 2 and 3 and 4 and more ! 

[itsjohnegman]

OOC: 1 Year Anniversary (2/4/2017)

((Boy, we sure have come a long way huh?

I wouldn’t say either represents my best works, but they SURE are different. My boy’s different! It’s a whole new world honestly.

I’m gonna get nostalgic below the cut, and do some shout outs–guys, it has been a  r i d e.

I never thought I’d get as far as I did. I’d only RPd once before on Tumblr; it was an Aurora from Sleeping Beauty, and as lovely as she was to explore she didn’t quite click for me. I wasn’t used to keeping a character long term asides–within the year she was gone, though I hang onto her blog for nostalgia’s sake.

A year a go near exactly, @dcstrider went and told me “you know, I think you’d make a good Johh.” John isn’t exactly the character I would have considered ever playing, nor Homestuck the fandom I’d have ever thought to RP in, but seeing Max work was inspiring. One muse, multiple years, off canon while still keeping to the truest spirit of the character, a created verse of shared experiences and rps and art and music…I didn’t know if I was going to be able to pull it off, but boy did I want to try.

I made my John knowing full well I wouldn’t be able to play him close to canon. How could I, a kid who’d just been diagnosed with their anxiety/depression combo for the first time, possibly play a guy who gadflys and pisses people off without so much as a second thought? After playing years of one-shot one-month-tops characters in tabletop with friends who very rarely remembered mun =/= muse, I wasn’t certain if that was the kind of impression I wanted to make on the RP community for my first character. But I didn’t want to make what they call the ‘uwu john’, as cathartic as some players find to make that–defanging him would lose the point of playing him for me, make it so I might as well have just picked up Aurora again. How to reconcile all that?

I did what I love best, and overthought it. John in turn became a character who overthought, over analyzed, remained aware and anxious of their every impression. Like someone had gotten through to him how he was, to somewhat disastrous effect for his persona. And why would that happen? The thought train carried on from there, becoming the basis for what would be his timeline, the Sleeper’s Dream timeline, which I used this anniversary to tease at a little.

I was worried of how I was going to get along on the blog, assuring myself that no activity for starts is normal. And it was–by just doing my own thing for a bit and following people Max recommended to me, I started to gain followers. Interact with them. Flesh out my online RPing style, and as eager as I was for things to HAPPEN to John, they really DID start to happen. I said once ‘you know maybe I won’t be one of those RPers with a group of core buddies, a lot of experiences and changes, one of those blogs that really looks like stuff happened to them, but I’ll be fine just to interact.’ And look now! Several core groups of homies, a bunch of other followers I don’t interact with as often but love to see out and about. 

And you know what, this blog has been an unprecedented situation for me. I went through a lot of changes and discoveries about my own neurodivergences and coping mechanisms while playing John, and I think probably thanks to him a little. And I made a lot of breakthroughs while playing him as an rper and person too--learning a bit how to deal with the ill feeling of confrontation or angst my avoidant ass tries to keep away from, how to breath and communicate past anxiety when reminding myself my rp partners do in fact want to rp with me, more solid exercises in separating mun and muse, handling written angst and muse portrayals responsibly... lots and lots of breakthroughs.

One of the most important though was I had never had a muse that 'grew and chose on their own', like writers talk about so intently. This time though, I got it--I KNEW John's opinions, or his emotions to something ran counter to mine, and what I'd sometimes dismissed as poetic sentiment by authors really started happening, even as I took on new muses, and as someone who lives in their internal world often nothing has been a greater joy sans the friends I've made here.

The reaction to John has been nothing short of stunning--people reflecting on him, engaging with him, messing with him or lusting or pining over him.... You guys and your muses have been just wonderful to me and him. So guys, I just gotta say; thank you, for having me a part of your community. With all my muses, John included, I hope to have a whole lot more stories to tell together.

Alright, that mush out of the way! Now to shout outs.

First one is of course @dcstrider . You got me into this, sonwife, and I couldn’t be more excited to be here. I know we can’t get our muses to talk, but you continue to support, indulge and promo me and DC’s still very much in my orbit in all those respects as well. Here’s to more good, gay times! (I’d say more and make this bigger but I can just gush in person, dweeb)

@virxdian you were probably the very first to follow and the first to engage. I know we don’t keep in contact much now, but you were the first contact--thank you so much, and I hope Kanaya’s story continues to bloom in paths you love. I wish had more to say, but we only interact so much--still, you have a very special place in my heart. Thank you again!

@jazzifiant you reached out to me in a different way--my first OOC chat, one we have never looked back from since. Watching you play your muses and understand them the way you do is amazing, and as bad of practice as it is it makes it difficult sometimes to separate muse from mun for how much I want to shove my boys at your boys. They’re so  LOVELY and so are YOU, instantly recognizable from your adorable love for math and your fall kitty aesthetic and the lovely snaps of Beau you’ll send us.  Honestly? My ‘type so fast you typo’ ooc talking style is accidentally copied from you. :/ Sorry about that.... You and Shan are my h*ckers, and I really can’t tell you how much it means to me that you have let me into your worlds and Shou into your character’s hearts. You are a joy to wake up to, to rp with, to plot and talk to. I can’t wait to see you in the chat. ;3

@aalexmiller the sweetest, softest Shan.... Queen of the Longtypes and inventor of Ideas... talking to you is so good Shan, it’s like floating in warm cinnamon milk...comforting and gentle but far from bland, peppy and sweet and nostalgic almost. You bring soft sweetness with you wherever you go--not to doubt your capabilities to be hardcore in any way, it’s simply your online aura. You’re beyond just softness though--you’re clever as hell too, grasping Sburb concepts and trivia that flee my mind completely and coming up with interesting ideas about the world and the mechanisms off the top of your head. On top of that, you brave a cold and unforgiving cyberscape with not just one, but TWO ocs as your muses and you have made them as complex and interesting as any canon character muse while keeping them and their motivations wholly different. You are a wonder and a delight Shan, and it’s an honor to get to talk to you every day. I can’t wait to talk to you next!

@di-stri-ai Voss, you have tried so hard for my sake. You are admitted online to your anxiousness, and I know it’s so tough to work past that to engage. You’ve gotten amazing headway though, and your muses and art are SO good--please feel free to be confident, I know it’s easy for me to say but people REALLY like your muses and art, and you can totally be proud of that. I gotta buck up and kick some of that good plot jazz off--and I wanna meet up with you irl more often too! I’ll try to text more often--I just want you to know that you’re way important to me, as a friend and as an rp buddy, and I always wanna be able to support you, in this endeavor or in any others.

@asomatousaria I need to make muses who aren’t so intimidated by yours/reach out better, because you are always incredibly fun to talk to. Indulgent and intelligent beyond measure, getting my muses or myself roasted on your psychanalysist rotisserie is always an eye opening and fun as hell experience. It takes me all my willpower to not just throw all my muses at you and ask you to take em to pieces. (whoops, that sounds dirty. :/ sorry bout that) Your grasp of character, motivation, and psyche is impressive beyond belief, and even with your reassurance and total Hamildork/DisneyDork thing going on I often remain intimidated enough to forget to reach out first. ; ~ ; I gotta work on that.... Emi, you’re sharp as a whip, patient and I can’t wait to kick my own ass into doing more with you.

@bvllheaded

I’m not revealing who’s in first place of the ‘Gay for Shou’ club is, but including both fictional and real people you are absolutely in the top five Kera. It’s so much fun rping with you, and as hard of a time as you give yourself for taking your time it’s always SO worth it when it comes around. I eagerly await each ‘installment’ of our rps, because everything that comes of it is so good--we jive and share lots of interests, and that makes the experience all that much more rewarding. Not to mention, you and Jelly have been reteaching me the freedom of fan characters--the fun in it, and the fun in being in an enthusiastic community with others who are just as excited. It’s a blast, and I’m so ready for more.

@canterintuitive

I met you through Kera, and all I knew at first was ‘That person on the Zelda AU RP that whips out really good ref art from nowhere’ which quickly turned into ‘That person on the Zelda AU RP that MAKES really good ref art from nowhere wtf how’. From there, it’s been a fairly new process but it’s incredibly fun to talk to you--both ooc and ic. All your craft is so GOOD and all your characters are so DEFINED, it’s incredible work. Not to mention you’re?? Adorable?? Peter Pan-sthetic is so cute?? I’m honored to be taking on Sam from you, and I hope to do her justice.

@idiotsyncrasis

our gay boys... our gay, gay boys. You are the first to RP a romantic relationship with Shou, and it’s been really interesting negotiating that out via their interactions. It’s a little catch and grab since we let circumstance dictate, but I’d like to think these two are gonna be alright. II know both boys have their problems, but I’m really hoping for some happy gayness in their futures. Your writing is also a joy to behold, meaning these interactions become detailed and lovely. Thank you for being on board with these guys and their eventual happiness. May their gay times intensify and their hearts be light!

If I didn’t get to you here it’s likely cause I’m finishing this up on mobile and about to get dragged into another day of IRL responsibilities, but there’s a lot of people I want to thank for being there, rping with me, and talking to me! So many of you guys I wanna rp with more and get to know....and I have finally made a muse that has lived long enough to feel he’ll be around for longer yet to do so.Here’s to a year of good times, and the hope for many more!