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i think i just heard a news anchor call the concept of human rights "woke" i am going to fucking explode.
#human rights aren't fucking 'woke' you fucking basterds#holy shit#i swear channel 14 is just fox news but in hebrew#also. yes. they did say the word 'woke'. even though they were speaking in hebrew.#they wanna be america so fucking bad#isreal#fuck israel#palestine#free palestine#human rights
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Recently Gal Gadot tweeted that bullying is unacceptable.
Her hypocrisy is deeply wounding. The shame and blame she instilled into me after I was raped was deeply traumatizing.
Gal is more than a bully; she is a predator who enables predators.
This is my story.
Thirteen years ago, I shared an apartment with Gal Gadot for two months in Milan, Italy. Several young girls lived in the building, all under contract with the same modeling management company.
Shortly after we met, Gal invited me to share space in her room. Gal’s roommate Maya* was going back home to Israel. Maya was 15, and only spoke Hebrew.
Maya was about to leave for the airport. Her bags were packed. The expression on her face was vacant. Tears were in her eyes. It was clear she was in deep pain.
Gal calmly told me that the girl had been raped, and that the experience had put the girl in the hospital.
Gal said the girl was stupid — for going to the wrong club, and for trusting the man who brought her there. I felt sorry for Maya, but I didn’t know what to do and I didn’t speak her language. I didn’t realize that meeting her would foreshadow my future.
Gal had been in Milan for a few weeks. She said she would show me the ropes and who could be trusted. Her confident strength made me feel safe, protected, and loved in a way that I hadn’t felt before. Gal taught me to trust her. I was 18 and she was 19.
Gal told me about men who followed models around to casting calls. They were paid by clubs to convince models like us to join them at these clubs in exchange for expensive food, drinks, publicity photos, and VIP treatment. Gal told me to never trust these men, because they rape.
Gal’s previous roommate had been tricked by one of these men, and the underlying message was clear: trust Gal. I felt safe with Gal. I did not realize then how little I knew about rape, predators, and the culture that supports them.
Gal and I spent most of our free time together. We shared food, clothes, and makeup. We went to the gym. We went shopping and tanning together. We went on photo shoots together. I made her a mix CD. I sang her to sleep. I watched her smoke constantly out of the window. We shared body insecurities, and she shared sex stories. She made sure to appear confident, knowledgeable, and successful — even then. She fed me information about Israel. Whenever she discussed Palestinians, she showed deep hatred.
Gal set us up on dates with men who expected sex in exchange for the lavish meals they fed us, although we never slept with them. She would pick smaller men, and threaten them after dinner. They complained and she chased them off with more threats. She would laugh about it later. She used sex as a weapon.
Several weeks into my stay, she took me to meet her Israeli friends including her best friend Ayala*. Ayala and her boyfriend Yaniv seemed very close. He appeared to dote on her, and they seemed very much in love.
Gal, Ayala, Yaniv and I went out each weekend, sometimes with other friends. The four of us quickly became a core group. We went to clubs to spend time in the spaces reserved for celebrities.
Hidden behind the historic exteriors of Milan’s ancient architecture were sensory-overwhelming nightclubs, decked out like palaces. These places were teeming with swarms of people feeding off of manufactured prestige. I was a sheltered child from a small town, and was utterly unprepared for the dark side of the modeling and nightlife industries.
A short time later, Gal and I spent a weekend at Yaniv and Ayala’s room inside another shared apartment. Gal and I shared a pull out couch while Yaniv and Ayala slept in their bed. The room was close and intimate. We spent the evening laughing, watching movies, smoking, and drinking. Yaniv commented on how I could not hold my alcohol, fully aware I had no experience getting drunk.
A week later, Ayala left for a modeling gig in Greece while Gal was in Ireland for a weekend shoot. Yaniv invited me out to dinner alone. Over dinner, we talked about our significant others, his travel around the world, and his time in the Israeli Defense Forces. I didn’t realize that his intentions were anything other than honorable. After dinner, his friend invited us to a new club.
Yaniv asked if I had ever drank wine, knowing I had not. He bought me several drinks with dinner while telling me that I needed to try different varieties. It’s hard for me to remember what happened after that. I assume he drugged me.
To this day, I have never been inebriated in that particular way, especially after only drinking wine. I was in and out of consciousness, and my body felt limp. I kept falling over. My brain felt like it was shutting down. Yaniv called his roommate Ofir to help carry me home. I couldn’t walk. I was dead weight. I remember odd pieces, like him repeatedly asking me in a sick, almost playfully malicious tone of voice if I thought I was smart.
I remember thinking that we were going home so that I would sleep on the couch, as Gal and I had before. I woke up in Yaniv’s bed, naked. He had removed my clothes when I was unconscious. I remember him climbing on top of me. I could just barely say “no”, and “this isn’t right”. Then I blacked out.
I woke up again while he continued raping me. He was restraining my arms so I couldn’t move. It was violent. There was pain. I will never forget how he looked in that dark room. I will never forget the absolute panic I felt. It was terror. I thought he would kill me next. His rape was full of hate. He did not look at me.
I woke up the next morning, groggy and delirious. I asked Yaniv what happened. I wanted to hear him say it.
“We had sex,” he said, and shrugged. “I thought you knew.”
“I told you no,” I said, quietly.
“You told me no but your body told me yes,” he said. That line still haunts my mind, 13 years later.
I couldn’t get out of his bed, even though I wanted to leave. I was physically sick; not only still intoxicated from the aftereffects of whatever I consumed, but also bruised, shocked, and traumatized. As I lay in his bed, I listened to Yaniv call a friend and brag about having sex with an 18 year old. His conquest; an accomplishment; a notch on his belt.
He told me that no one could know, because Ayala would be too hurt. Soon, he began ignoring me.
I was disoriented and traumatized. I had absolutely no context to process what had happened. I had no sex education, and certainly no understanding of predators or the culture that supports them. I had been taught a woman should be a virgin until marriage.
I thought sex was about love. What I experienced from him was not love. It was hate and disgust. I didn’t have the language to call this rape. Rape was something to fear from strangers while walking alone down the street. Rape was not committed by a friend.
I thought he was my friend.
I was used, discarded, and alone.
Almost alone. At least I had Gal, I thought. She came home two days later. She knew something had happened by looking at me. I wonder if I reminded her of her previously raped roommate.
Gal immediately began interrogating me. I could see no compassion in her eyes. I told Gal something had happened between Yaniv and I.
She took me down to the basement. It was cold, mechanical, and frightening. We were alone. Then her anger exploded.
She stood over me, intimidating and loud, blaming me for what happened. Her eyes were fire. I had already felt small and violated, but she shamed me into feeling obsolete. I felt extremely dirty. Already in shock, I disassociated from my body. I can’t remember most of her words. I remember being in utter terror of her anger.
She was furious for Ayala and “what I had done to her”. Gal pointed her finger in my face like a weapon. She asked me how I could do this, and that I needed to make this up to Ayala. She made me feel ashamed, that the whole event had been my fault, and that I had brought it upon myself by being so naïve.
After that, I feared Gal. I spent nights out as long as I could, hoping to avoid her. When I did see Gal, she would speak of nothing other than her conviction that I needed to speak with or write to Ayala. She would not let up. She was obsessed. There was absolutely no understanding from her. I don’t know how she could not have seen how the rape changed me. I was no longer the same person.
On my last night in Milan, Gal made one final attempt to get me to submit to her demands. She brought me downstairs to a computer. Gal put her hands on me and forced me into the chair. She made me open my email account and write Ayala’s address in the address bar.
Standing behind me and above me, Gal held my shoulders down with a terrible pressure, preventing me from escape. She attempted to dictate what she called my “confession and apology”. I could not do it. I was crying, and my head seemed to break apart. My heart felt like it was bleeding out. My stomach was in awful knots. I began disassociating from my body. I could not speak. I could not write her lies.
She referred to the rape as “your mistake”.
After what felt like several hours, Gal eventually gave up in disgust. It was late at night. She made me promise I would write the letter to Ayala. I never wrote the letter.
I returned home confused, silent, and ashamed. Later Gal returned to Israel for her military training. I ended my modeling career as another young woman assaulted, used, and disposed by the industry and its enablers. I did not think I would ever see Gal again.
When I was getting my degree in Women’s and Gender Studies, Gal showed up on Maxim in a bikini and heels, the cover girl of their issue on the women of the Israeli Defense Forces.
When I saw her face, I had an immense panic attack. I had no idea how much she would upset me. My rape came flashing back. I could feel Gal’s hands pushing on my shoulders. My throat closed up and my heart raced. The nightmares continued to haunt me every night.
After I graduated, I worked as the director of the sexual assault services program back in my hometown. I spent many years helping survivors to validate their experiences and process emotions, yet I still deeply struggled with my own.
Yaniv Nahoum is responsible for drugging and raping me. That was not Gal’s fault. But her confidence and her power in blaming me opened up a part of my brain, and filled me with an all-consuming shame. I can still feel the pressure of her hands pushing down on me.
The trust she built with me was a gateway to my total devastation.
Predators gain trust in order to exploit it for their advantage.
Gal has succeeded in a predatory industry because she is a predator. She is unafraid to destroy others in pursuit of her ambitions. Like any strong predator, she knows how to target, destroy, and consume the weakest and most vulnerable.
Highly skilled predators in our society manage to land roles where they cultivate public trust.
Bill Cosby put on a sweater and built trust as a Huxtable.
Gal Gadot put on a breastplate and became an icon for women.
A predator in a costume is a wolf in sheep’s clothing.
When Gal Gadot says that she supports sexual assault survivors, do not believe it. Her actions speak louder than words.
*not her real name
#since it got deleted from op and the site#I thought I'd get it saved for posterity#gal gadot#TO FUCKING CLARIFY. YOU LOSERS IN MY ASKBOX. I DID NOT WRITE THIS. IT'S NOT MY ACCOUNT#I AM SHARING IT#BECAUSE IT WAS DELETED AND THAT'S SHADY AF
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So this story about Gal’s roommate being raped and Gal balming her for it is being pulled all over the internet.
So here it is. “Thirteen years ago, I shared an apartment with Gal Gadot for two months in Milan, Italy. Several young girls lived in the building, all under contract with the same modeling management company. Shortly after we met, Gal invited me to share space in her room. Gal’s roommate Maya* was going back home to Israel. Maya was 15, and only spoke Hebrew. Maya was about to leave for the airport. Her bags were packed. The expression on her face was vacant. Tears were in her eyes. It was clear she was in deep pain. Gal calmly told me that the girl had been raped, and that the experience had put the girl in the hospital. Gal said the girl was stupid — for going to the wrong club, and for trusting the man who brought her there. I felt sorry for Maya, but I didn’t know what to do and I didn’t speak her language. I didn’t realize that meeting her would foreshadow my future. Gal had been in Milan for a few weeks. She said she would show me the ropes and who could be trusted. Her confident strength made me feel safe, protected, and loved in a way that I hadn’t felt before. Gal taught me to trust her. I was 18 and she was 19. Gal told me about men who followed models around to casting calls. They were paid by clubs to convince models like us to join them at these clubs in exchange for expensive food, drinks, publicity photos, and VIP treatment. Gal told me to never trust these men, because they rape. Gal’s previous roommate had been tricked by one of these men, and the underlying message was clear: trust Gal. I felt safe with Gal. I did not realize then how little I knew about rape, predators, and the culture that supports them. Gal and I spent most of our free time together. We shared food, clothes, and makeup. We went to the gym. We went shopping and tanning together. We went on photo shoots together. I made her a mix CD. I sang her to sleep. I watched her smoke constantly out of the window. We shared body insecurities, and she shared sex stories. She made sure to appear confident, knowledgeable, and successful — even then. She fed me information about Israel. Whenever she discussed Palestinians, she showed deep hatred. Gal set us up on dates with men who expected sex in exchange for the lavish meals they fed us, although we never slept with them. She would pick smaller men, and threaten them after dinner. They complained and she chased them off with more threats. She would laugh about it later. She used sex as a weapon. Several weeks into my stay, she took me to meet her Israeli friends including her best friend Ayala*. Ayala and her boyfriend Yaniv seemed very close. He appeared to dote on her, and they seemed very much in love. Gal, Ayala, Yaniv and I went out each weekend, sometimes with other friends. The four of us quickly became a core group. We went to clubs to spend time in the spaces reserved for celebrities. Hidden behind the historic exteriors of Milan’s ancient architecture were sensory-overwhelming nightclubs, decked out like palaces. These places were teeming with swarms of people feeding off of manufactured prestige. I was a sheltered child from a small town, and was utterly unprepared for the dark side of the modeling and nightlife industries. A short time later, Gal and I spent a weekend at Yaniv and Ayala’s room inside another shared apartment. Gal and I shared a pull out couch while Yaniv and Ayala slept in their bed. The room was close and intimate. We spent the evening laughing, watching movies, smoking, and drinking. Yaniv commented on how I could not hold my alcohol, fully aware I had no experience getting drunk. A week later, Ayala left for a modeling gig in Greece while Gal was in Ireland for a weekend shoot. Yaniv invited me out to dinner alone. Over dinner, we talked about our significant others, his travel around the world, and his time in the Israeli Defense Forces. I didn’t realize that his intentions were anything other than honorable. After dinner, his friend invited us to a new club. Yaniv asked if I had ever drank wine, knowing I had not. He bought me several drinks with dinner while telling me that I needed to try different varieties. It’s hard for me to remember what happened after that. I assume he drugged me. To this day, I have never been inebriated in that particular way, especially after only drinking wine. I was in and out of consciousness, and my body felt limp. I kept falling over. My brain felt like it was shutting down. Yaniv called his roommate Ofir to help carry me home. I couldn’t walk. I was dead weight. I remember odd pieces, like him repeatedly asking me in a sick, almost playfully malicious tone of voice if I thought I was smart. I remember thinking that we were going home so that I would sleep on the couch, as Gal and I had before. I woke up in Yaniv’s bed, naked. He had removed my clothes when I was unconscious. I remember him climbing on top of me. I could just barely say “no”, and “this isn’t right”. Then I blacked out. I woke up again while he continued raping me. He was restraining my arms so I couldn’t move. It was violent. There was pain. I will never forget how he looked in that dark room. I will never forget the absolute panic I felt. It was terror. I thought he would kill me next. His rape was full of hate. He did not look at me. I woke up the next morning, groggy and delirious. I asked Yaniv what happened. I wanted to hear him say it. “We had sex,” he said, and shrugged. “I thought you knew.” “I told you no,” I said, quietly. “You told me no but your body told me yes,” he said. That line still haunts my mind, 13 years later. I couldn’t get out of his bed, even though I wanted to leave. I was physically sick; not only still intoxicated from the aftereffects of whatever I consumed, but also bruised, shocked, and traumatized. As I lay in his bed, I listened to Yaniv call a friend and brag about having sex with an 18 year old. His conquest; an accomplishment; a notch on his belt. He told me that no one could know, because Ayala would be too hurt. Soon, he began ignoring me. I was disoriented and traumatized. I had absolutely no context to process what had happened. I had no sex education, and certainly no understanding of predators or the culture that supports them. I had been taught a woman should be a virgin until marriage. I thought sex was about love. What I experienced from him was not love. It was hate and disgust. I didn’t have the language to call this rape. Rape was something to fear from strangers while walking alone down the street. Rape was not committed by a friend. I thought he was my friend. I was used, discarded, and alone. Almost alone. At least I had Gal, I thought. She came home two days later. She knew something had happened by looking at me. I wonder if I reminded her of her previously raped roommate. Gal immediately began interrogating me. I could see no compassion in her eyes. I told Gal something had happened between Yaniv and I. She took me down to the basement. It was cold, mechanical, and frightening. We were alone. Then her anger exploded. She stood over me, intimidating and loud, blaming me for what happened. Her eyes were fire. I had already felt small and violated, but she shamed me into feeling obsolete. I felt extremely dirty. Already in shock, I disassociated from my body. I can’t remember most of her words. I remember being in utter terror of her anger. She was furious for Ayala and “what I had done to her”. Gal pointed her finger in my face like a weapon. She asked me how I could do this, and that I needed to make this up to Ayala. She made me feel ashamed, that the whole event had been my fault, and that I had brought it upon myself by being so naïve. After that, I feared Gal. I spent nights out as long as I could, hoping to avoid her. When I did see Gal, she would speak of nothing other than her conviction that I needed to speak with or write to Ayala. She would not let up. She was obsessed. There was absolutely no understanding from her. I don’t know how she could not have seen how the rape changed me. I was no longer the same person. On my last night in Milan, Gal made one final attempt to get me to submit to her demands. She brought me downstairs to a computer. Gal put her hands on me and forced me into the chair. She made me open my email account and write Ayala’s address in the address bar. Standing behind me and above me, Gal held my shoulders down with a terrible pressure, preventing me from escape. She attempted to dictate what she called my “confession and apology”. I could not do it. I was crying, and my head seemed to break apart. My heart felt like it was bleeding out. My stomach was in awful knots. I began disassociating from my body. I could not speak. I could not write her lies. She referred to the rape as “your mistake”. After what felt like several hours, Gal eventually gave up in disgust. It was late at night. She made me promise I would write the letter to Ayala. I never wrote the letter. I returned home confused, silent, and ashamed. Later Gal returned to Israel for her military training. I ended my modeling career as another young woman assaulted, used, and disposed by the industry and its enablers. I did not think I would ever see Gal again. When I was getting my degree in Women’s and Gender Studies, Gal showed up on Maxim in a bikini and heels, the cover girl of their issue on the women of the Israeli Defense Forces. When I saw her face, I had an immense panic attack. I had no idea how much she would upset me. My rape came flashing back. I could feel Gal’s hands pushing on my shoulders. My throat closed up and my heart raced. The nightmares continued to haunt me every night. After I graduated, I worked as the director of the sexual assault services program back in my hometown. I spent many years helping survivors to validate their experiences and process emotions, yet I still deeply struggled with my own. Yaniv Nahoum is responsible for drugging and raping me. That was not Gal’s fault. But her confidence and her power in blaming me opened up a part of my brain, and filled me with an all-consuming shame. I can still feel the pressure of her hands pushing down on me. The trust she built with me was a gateway to my total devastation. Predators gain trust in order to exploit it for their advantage. Gal has succeeded in a predatory industry because she is a predator. She is unafraid to destroy others in pursuit of her ambitions. Like any strong predator, she knows how to target, destroy, and consume the weakest and most vulnerable. Highly skilled predators in our society manage to land roles where they cultivate public trust. Bill Cosby put on a sweater and built trust as a Huxtable. Gal Gadot put on a breastplate and became an icon for women. A predator in a costume is a wolf in sheep’s clothing. When Gal Gadot says that she supports sexual assault survivors, do not believe it. Her actions speak louder than words.
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Recently Gal Gadot tweeted that bullying is unacceptable.
Her hypocrisy is deeply wounding. The shame and blame she instilled into me after I was raped was deeply traumatizing.
Gal is more than a bully; she is a predator who enables predators.
This is my story.
Thirteen years ago, I shared an apartment with Gal Gadot for two months in Milan, Italy. Several young girls lived in the building, all under contract with the same modeling management company.
Shortly after we met, Gal invited me to share space in her room. Gal’s roommate Maya* was going back home to Israel. Maya was 15, and only spoke Hebrew.
Maya was about to leave for the airport. Her bags were packed. The expression on her face was vacant. Tears were in her eyes. It was clear she was in deep pain.
Gal calmly told me that the girl had been raped, and that the experience had put the girl in the hospital.
Gal said the girl was stupid — for going to the wrong club, and for trusting the man who brought her there. I felt sorry for Maya, but I didn’t know what to do and I didn’t speak her language. I didn’t realize that meeting her would foreshadow my future.
Gal had been in Milan for a few weeks. She said she would show me the ropes and who could be trusted. Her confident strength made me feel safe, protected, and loved in a way that I hadn’t felt before. Gal taught me to trust her. I was 18 and she was 19.
Gal told me about men who followed models around to casting calls. They were paid by clubs to convince models like us to join them at these clubs in exchange for expensive food, drinks, publicity photos, and VIP treatment. Gal told me to never trust these men, because they rape.
Gal’s previous roommate had been tricked by one of these men, and the underlying message was clear: trust Gal. I felt safe with Gal. I did not realize then how little I knew about rape, predators, and the culture that supports them.
Gal and I spent most of our free time together. We shared food, clothes, and makeup. We went to the gym. We went shopping and tanning together. We went on photo shoots together. I made her a mix CD. I sang her to sleep. I watched her smoke constantly out of the window. We shared body insecurities, and she shared sex stories. She made sure to appear confident, knowledgeable, and successful — even then. She fed me information about Israel. Whenever she discussed Palestinians, she showed deep hatred.
Gal set us up on dates with men who expected sex in exchange for the lavish meals they fed us, although we never slept with them. She would pick smaller men, and threaten them after dinner. They complained and she chased them off with more threats. She would laugh about it later. She used sex as a weapon.
Several weeks into my stay, she took me to meet her Israeli friends including her best friend Ayala*. Ayala and her boyfriend Yaniv seemed very close. He appeared to dote on her, and they seemed very much in love.
Gal, Ayala, Yaniv and I went out each weekend, sometimes with other friends. The four of us quickly became a core group. We went to clubs to spend time in the spaces reserved for celebrities.
Hidden behind the historic exteriors of Milan’s ancient architecture were sensory-overwhelming nightclubs, decked out like palaces. These places were teeming with swarms of people feeding off of manufactured prestige. I was a sheltered child from a small town, and was utterly unprepared for the dark side of the modeling and nightlife industries.
A short time later, Gal and I spent a weekend at Yaniv and Ayala’s room inside another shared apartment. Gal and I shared a pull out couch while Yaniv and Ayala slept in their bed. The room was close and intimate. We spent the evening laughing, watching movies, smoking, and drinking. Yaniv commented on how I could not hold my alcohol, fully aware I had no experience getting drunk.
A week later, Ayala left for a modeling gig in Greece while Gal was in Ireland for a weekend shoot. Yaniv invited me out to dinner alone. Over dinner, we talked about our significant others, his travel around the world, and his time in the Israeli Defense Forces. I didn’t realize that his intentions were anything other than honorable. After dinner, his friend invited us to a new club.
Yaniv asked if I had ever drank wine, knowing I had not. He bought me several drinks with dinner while telling me that I needed to try different varieties. It’s hard for me to remember what happened after that. I assume he drugged me.
To this day, I have never been inebriated in that particular way, especially after only drinking wine. I was in and out of consciousness, and my body felt limp. I kept falling over. My brain felt like it was shutting down. Yaniv called his roommate Ofir to help carry me home. I couldn’t walk. I was dead weight. I remember odd pieces, like him repeatedly asking me in a sick, almost playfully malicious tone of voice if I thought I was smart.
I remember thinking that we were going home so that I would sleep on the couch, as Gal and I had before. I woke up in Yaniv’s bed, naked. He had removed my clothes when I was unconscious. I remember him climbing on top of me. I could just barely say “no”, and “this isn’t right”. Then I blacked out.
I woke up again while he continued raping me. He was restraining my arms so I couldn’t move. It was violent. There was pain. I will never forget how he looked in that dark room. I will never forget the absolute panic I felt. It was terror. I thought he would kill me next. His rape was full of hate. He did not look at me.
I woke up the next morning, groggy and delirious. I asked Yaniv what happened. I wanted to hear him say it.
“We had sex,” he said, and shrugged. “I thought you knew.”
“I told you no,” I said, quietly.
“You told me no but your body told me yes,” he said. That line still haunts my mind, 13 years later.
I couldn’t get out of his bed, even though I wanted to leave. I was physically sick; not only still intoxicated from the aftereffects of whatever I consumed, but also bruised, shocked, and traumatized. As I lay in his bed, I listened to Yaniv call a friend and brag about having sex with an 18 year old. His conquest; an accomplishment; a notch on his belt.
He told me that no one could know, because Ayala would be too hurt. Soon, he began ignoring me.
I was disoriented and traumatized. I had absolutely no context to process what had happened. I had no sex education, and certainly no understanding of predators or the culture that supports them. I had been taught a woman should be a virgin until marriage.
I thought sex was about love. What I experienced from him was not love. It was hate and disgust. I didn’t have the language to call this rape. Rape was something to fear from strangers while walking alone down the street. Rape was not committed by a friend.
I thought he was my friend.
I was used, discarded, and alone.
Almost alone. At least I had Gal, I thought. She came home two days later. She knew something had happened by looking at me. I wonder if I reminded her of her previously raped roommate.
Gal immediately began interrogating me. I could see no compassion in her eyes. I told Gal something had happened between Yaniv and I.
She took me down to the basement. It was cold, mechanical, and frightening. We were alone. Then her anger exploded.
She stood over me, intimidating and loud, blaming me for what happened. Her eyes were fire. I had already felt small and violated, but she shamed me into feeling obsolete. I felt extremely dirty. Already in shock, I disassociated from my body. I can’t remember most of her words. I remember being in utter terror of her anger.
She was furious for Ayala and “what I had done to her”. Gal pointed her finger in my face like a weapon. She asked me how I could do this, and that I needed to make this up to Ayala. She made me feel ashamed, that the whole event had been my fault, and that I had brought it upon myself by being so naïve.
After that, I feared Gal. I spent nights out as long as I could, hoping to avoid her. When I did see Gal, she would speak of nothing other than her conviction that I needed to speak with or write to Ayala. She would not let up. She was obsessed. There was absolutely no understanding from her. I don’t know how she could not have seen how the rape changed me. I was no longer the same person.
On my last night in Milan, Gal made one final attempt to get me to submit to her demands. She brought me downstairs to a computer. Gal put her hands on me and forced me into the chair. She made me open my email account and write Ayala’s address in the address bar.
Standing behind me and above me, Gal held my shoulders down with a terrible pressure, preventing me from escape. She attempted to dictate what she called my “confession and apology”. I could not do it. I was crying, and my head seemed to break apart. My heart felt like it was bleeding out. My stomach was in awful knots. I began disassociating from my body. I could not speak. I could not write her lies.
She referred to the rape as “your mistake”.
After what felt like several hours, Gal eventually gave up in disgust. It was late at night. She made me promise I would write the letter to Ayala. I never wrote the letter.
I returned home confused, silent, and ashamed. Later Gal returned to Israel for her military training. I ended my modeling career as another young woman assaulted, used, and disposed by the industry and its enablers. I did not think I would ever see Gal again.
When I was getting my degree in Women’s and Gender Studies, Gal showed up on Maxim in a bikini and heels, the cover girl of their issue on the women of the Israeli Defense Forces.
When I saw her face, I had an immense panic attack. I had no idea how much she would upset me. My rape came flashing back. I could feel Gal’s hands pushing on my shoulders. My throat closed up and my heart raced. The nightmares continued to haunt me every night.
After I graduated, I worked as the director of the sexual assault services program back in my hometown. I spent many years helping survivors to validate their experiences and process emotions, yet I still deeply struggled with my own.
Yaniv Nahoum is responsible for drugging and raping me. That was not Gal’s fault. But her confidence and her power in blaming me opened up a part of my brain, and filled me with an all-consuming shame. I can still feel the pressure of her hands pushing down on me.
The trust she built with me was a gateway to my total devastation.
Predators gain trust in order to exploit it for their advantage.
Gal has succeeded in a predatory industry because she is a predator. She is unafraid to destroy others in pursuit of her ambitions. Like any strong predator, she knows how to target, destroy, and consume the weakest and most vulnerable.
Highly skilled predators in our society manage to land roles where they cultivate public trust.
Bill Cosby put on a sweater and built trust as a Huxtable.
Gal Gadot put on a breastplate and became an icon for women.
A predator in a costume is a wolf in sheep’s clothing.
When Gal Gadot says that she supports sexual assault survivors, do not believe it. Her actions speak louder than words.
*not her real name
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Hey! Could I request how the RFA+V+Saeran would react to an MC who was learning Korean as their third language and is still pretty choppy/needs them to talk a bit slowly? Like I've known Japanese and English since birth pretty much, and I might learn Korean in the future, so maybe something like that if it makes sense? You don't have to use those languages btw! Sorry if that's too specific! I love your work so far, and I hope I see more from you soon, have a nice day!
Hell’s yeah I can! Don’t apologize either, sweet person, you have done no wrong. Also, don’t worry about how specific it is; it helps me understand what you’d like to read! I think it’s pretty rad that you’re learning another language, too! Thank you for supporting what I write and enjoying it. I hope you have a nice day, too; much love!
Yoosung:
He had to take a couple English classes to gradate highschool and get into uni, so he completely understood if you weren’t 100% fluent!
If you were pretty good at reading it, he’d lend you some random books so you could get practice
Wouldn’t pressure you to speak Korean in public either
that shit’s scary sometimes
He was really excited that you could speak Japanese, too
languages are really scary sometimes, okay?
Yoosung would brag to people on and off campus about your ability to speak multiple languages
He’s just really hyped that you’re really smart
He’d want to learn really cheesy phrases in Japanese and English
Extra excited if you wanted to learn Korean ones
Would be really nice to correct you if your grammar or pronunciation was off
8/8 would try to learn another language with you
“Yoosung, I’m already trying to figure out one right now” “But it’d be fun!” “You’ll probably stop practicing after a couple of weeks” “Well you’re not wrong, but-” “Yoosung, no” “Watch me”
Now he would say random things in Italian because sOMEONE missed the opportunity to when he signed up for a class
Jaehee:
You knew that Jumin probably had her be somewhat proficient in a couple of languages for business affairs
She might’ve only dealt with that for less than three years, but Jaehee wanted to enrich herself anyways
Then she found out that your Chinese was really good on top of your Tamil
Jaehee was happy that you were fluent in some of the languages of the countries she dealt with the most (no, I totally didn’t google what countries south korea imported and exported with the most)
You two became the couple that spoke different languages at home than in public
However, your Korean wasn’t as close to fluent as you’d like
I mean, she could tell from phone calls early on by your accent that Korean wasn’t your native
She really liked to sit by you while you were translating something aloud and she was working
Those were her favorite nights
Especially since you usually got her to pause working to help you work out a sentence or two
Then it turned into encouraging cheek kisses
Then she couldn’t completely focus
oH WELL
guess you both just have to….be….cute..what..a….tragedy
She would also buy you cute-looking books that were in Korean
It may or may not have been so she could get more of those nights
Zen:
He’s probably had some scripts that weren’t completely in Korean, so he’s familiar with some language patterns and can say “je suis un pomme”
dAMMIT, ZEN
Okay, so you were just slightly offended, because he thought he was saying he’s a prince
You’ll admit that knowing English and French then deciding to move to Korea was a bit odd
But c’mon, man
“…you do realize you just said you were an apple, yeah?” “No, I called myself a prince’ “We’re speaking in English right now” “That’s correct” “It’s literally prince in French” “Well, how was I supposed to know” “Dumbass”
You wouldn’t let him live that down for weeks
Zen then tried to get you to speak a bit more Korean when you were on set rather than confusing people
oh shit
my cover’s blown
Well, now you were the one getting made fun of
“You called me a table” “That may be true” “A tABLE, MC” “At least I said you were a pretty table?” “You called me a moist table, MC” “Okay, okay, you see-” “Mhm” “Shut up, pretty boy” “I thought I was a table?” “That wasn’t even funny” “…” “You’re still a dumbass”
Nobody in the rfa chats knew what you meant by calling him an apple
Then Zen just had to talk about The Table Incident
MC has left the chat
cue him running into the living room
“but, bAAAABE” “Leave, you apple” “MC, love meeee” “I already do” “Can I at least get a hug” “Nope”
MC has entered the chat
He then tried to get take the phone while you were typing out The Apple Prince Incident
You got Seven in on it to change his name in the messenger to je suis un pomme for a week
Seven: (slight route spoilers, but I changed it a bit anyways)
blah, blah, taxes, blah, author of several books in Arabic, blah, likes cat
w a i t j u s t a d i d d l y d a r n s e c o n d
Arabic? And Portuguese?
aww yisss
This was probably when he approved you and went straight to V
Plus cats?? That was a bonus
He really liked talking to you with the messenger even if your grammar was a teensy bit off
may or may not have recorded a few phone calls to hear your accent
Once you had gotten to meet him at the apartment
whoo, boy
He was getting on your nerves just a bit
You snapped just a bit and kinda sorta went off on him in Arabic and he just sat there
“You done?” “Yes, was there an issue?” “Yeah, it was kinda hot”
*narrator voice* He realized he had Fucked Up right Then And There
“You didn’t hear that” “Sev-” “Good day”
This time he wasn’t staying away to protect you, he just didn’t want to turn as read as his hair next time he had to see you
He finally had been able to hold a conversation after staying stonefaced in an attempt to forget
You didn’t tho
After everything had gotten sorted out and you had understood why he was acting like that, it was pretty okay
Neither of your dumbasses realized that you were both speaking Portuguese during the Incident, so the only time he heard your Korean was on the phone
He’d take breaks from working whenever you wanted to practice the language
I mean, if he could be fluent in seventeen, so could you
Seven regarded your ability to speak Arabic as something “holy” and was ecstatic that you were one of the few that didn’t need his help to get home
Jumin:
Once he found out that you could read and listen to Korean, but not speak it all that well, he immediately found a tutor
He’d like when you’d hold short converstaions with him in his native
However, Jumin just didn’t know that you were fluent in Russian and German
It took him a couple of weeks until you greeted him as “dorogoy” (my dear) when he came home from work one night
Jumin knew a fair bit of other languages, so you both spoke to each other in this odd Franken-language (lmao but that’s German already)
He really loved it when you’d forget a word in Korean and looked confused for a second before saying it in German
Would always help you with a word or slang phrases
just because he had to look them up does not invalidate this
Definitely would buy you so many books
You’d probably end up with the same book as multiple copies in other languages
He just wanted the best access to literature for “mein liebling“ (my beloved)
Would be the Softest if you had a question or wanted to carry longer conversations in Korean
V:
So! Supportive!
Since he’s traveled so much, he knows how to ask and follow directions, ask how someone’s doing, and general things like that in a variety of languages
Once he found out you spoke Dutch and Hebrew, he wanted to learn more about the languages
You’d lean against each other on the couch at night and ask questions about each others languages
“How do I call you my moon?” “Mijn maan” “I like that; it suits you” “How do I call you my star?” “Naui byeol” “I think that suits you, too”
If he ever went to a country where many people spoke either languages, he’d ask you to come
Definitely took photos of you interacting with people and reading plaques at exhibits
Was kind of an excuse to take you on a vacation
V would also would carry both a Dutch to Korean and a Hebrew to Korean dictionary for you if you couldn’t remember the word to say something to him
Started having you write descriptions of his work for exhibitions so he could broaden his market
Would 784282/8 continuously help you if your speaking was a bit choppy and lessen any anxiety you had about it
Saeran:
“Just buy some dictionaries” “Yeah, well, what if I don’t want to?” “Then google translate” “But then I’d end up saying something stupid” “You always say stupid things, though, MC” “Don’t be an asshat” “Suggestion taken” (haha, what? me? use google translate for the languages I don’t speak for this post? pssh)
He’d be the ones to leave passive aggressive sticky notes in other languages if you weren’t paying attention
Also the one to label things if he didn’t understand the yelling in Haitian Creole
he’s trying, okay?
Saeran may speak multiple languages but not whatever that spewing was
“Saeran, that was Korean” “Yeah, and I’m a cat” “Hey, at least I tried” “You asked me if the parakeet gave a prophecy, MC” “…That’s besides the point”
Would correct you bluntly
Would continue with the sticky notes on everything
started learning Greek and Haitian Creole so he could add proper translations to things
One morning, he woke up with a sticky note on his forehead that labeled him as “내 사랑, αγάπη μου, doudou mwen”
He ended up keeping that in a drawer on his nightstand
I’m sorry that I write this at several different times. I’d be glad to fix any of these if you don’t like them. Especially Seven’s. I did horribly with his. I hope that they were semi-decent, though, and that you enjoy a few of them!
Please correct any mistakes I made with the languages. I can only vouch for the ones I speak, the rest were google translate. If there’s any other issues, I’d be glad to fix them as well!
#mm headcanons#mm requests#mystic messenger#mystic messenger hcs#mystic messenger requests#yoosung kim#jaehee kang#mystic messenger zen#707#luciel choi#saeyoung choi#jumin han#v mystic messenger#jihyun kim#saeran choi
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Sermon Notes from 15/1/17 Ps Mark
From February our Chinese services will have Cantonese sermons.
CGN TV - China ETTV- Taiwan TVB Pearl- HK
Life transformed when we immerse ourselves in Jesus.
1996, pastor was preaching wherever gospel was encountered, lives transformed.
East to west. West to New England. America to Asia. Every time the gospel moves, advancement and transformation.
Now in our generation, the gospel is being brought back to Israel.
You must know what u are preaching when u receive the great commission to preach the gospel.
The gospel is Jesus and His saving grace.
We are in the end times. Glorious times.
Singapore is small but impacting nations through pastor’s ministry.
Ps Mark gonna share with us an impactful testimony today.
Fu Yan Hui whose arms were crushed, she used to be a porn addict. Her hubby suddenly divorced her in 2010. She was a minister. When you are divorced in China, u are outcast. The elders in the church pulled her off the church and threw her out. The shame and rejection was painful. The condemnation and guilt was overwhelming. Had to take care of her daughter alone. Her son was taken by her husband. She turned to porn. Immense shame. Hard for a man to share about such addiction what more a female minister. When u encounter Jesus, lives are transformed. Remember the woman at the well? When she encountered Jesus, she became unconscious of herself and conscious of Jesus. Became the first female evangelist.
The gospel tells us we cannot help ourselves. Paul says if we can save ourselves, Christ didn’t have to come down. Fu wanted to quit her addiction. The more she tried not to watch, the stronger the desire. Condemnation kills.
She couldn’t accept the gospel of grace at first. But HS told her to continue to hear. So she kept listening. When we face addiction we want to change ourselves. Confess to get it= not full revelation. It is no more your work but His work in you. She confessed from work mentality. Nothing happened. Finally understood not confessing to get it, already is!
Romans 4:25 She understood Jesus was resurrected so she was justified. She IS. Not confessing to get it. Understood Rom 10:10
We can’t save ourselves. Once we know who we are, we just speak. She fell in love with the LORD.
The only one in Simon’s house saw Jesus as the lamb of God was the lady who wept at his feet and cleaned his feet with her hair. She knew she was forgiven much so loved him much.
Fu used to listen to 8-10h of pastor’s sermons. One day she woke up and the 3y addiction was suddenly gone! Totallly delivered.
Transformation comes when we behold the glory of Jesus - transformed into His image from glory to glory. Not from self.
Not us but Christ.
Wu Chuan Dao- a minister. Said grace makes us real. Makes us not ashamed. It is the gospel. The power of God to those who believe. Not sin of man revealed but righteousness of God revealed. No longer ashamed of gospel. Will boast about our weaknesses not of ourselves. Because we are made strong in Him.
Pastors work Mon-Sat. Sunday serve in church.
When we don’t encounter Jesus, life is hard. Wu became alcoholic. Struggled to quit. Heard sermons for 2 years. Didn’t try to change himself. Just keep hearing the sermon and realised one day his sin was forgiven. He was delivered up for our deliverance. HS fell upon him. Original meaning is bear hug. He suddenly spoke in tongues and was delivered from Alcoholism the next day.
We are always worried for our kids. China also. Everywhere in the world also. But our kids are the seeds of our righteousness and are blessed. Don’t worry about them. We are blessed and our kids too. They will be delivered. No matter what problems they face now, they will be delivered.
Fu was so ashamed she couldn’t talk to her kids. Her daughter failed and did badly for school. When she came to receive grace, also showed grace to her kids.
Jesus was baptised in the lowest part Rover Jordan. He didn’t do anything but be baptised. God declared his love for Jesus. At the mountain, also declared love. Whether highest or lowest part of their lives, we parents declare love. Her daughter failed. 13/100. Fu didn’t scold her. Took her to eat Kentucky Fried chicken. Expensive. Grace is undeserved and unmerited. For our kids the power to excel is the gift of no condemnation. The daughter realise it isn’t her performance that earns her mother’s love. She is her mother’s daughter and that’s why her mum loves her. To go Sec 1, must be ranked 8 and above in class. Fu’s daughter is rank 7! Top 3 best student in terms of good conduct. Grace gives us moral excellence. Good character. Only grace can change our kids. We must let our kids know we love them for who they are. All glory to Jesus.
Business testimony.
The LORD is for u no matter what happens outside. Sometimes we can believe God for one area but not another. Yue Limei sells sea cucumbers as her work. Serves in her church on Sunday. 2014- first heard Pastor preached.
We know grace is good but when face challenges we sometimes struggle with legalism.
She had thyroid cancer and heard about how Jesus was striped so his back was shredded so that his body was broken so she could be whole. She received the revelation that she has wholeness because of Him
To hear the LORD, no sin consciousness. She heard so clearly she is the righteousness of God And oneday heard from HS she is healed. Saw a doc. She was indeed cancer free. This was in 2016
Gal3:5
Miracles and worked and supplies are provided by the hearing of our faith.
Limei received healing but felt maybe financial provision isn’t for her. Prosperity is the fruit of our pursuing Christ. We don’t pursue prosperity. Peter was after the LORD and caught net breaking load of fishes. He was not pursuing the fish.
The Hebrews before they left Egypt- all provided for and were strong and healthy. Not pursuing the provision. Going to the LORD.
Mary and Joseph could only offer doves. Tells us they were poor. Jesus was born. Wise men brought gold frankincense myrrh. Wise men pursue Jesus. And where Jesus is, provision is too.
Limei in April 2016, prices of sea cucumber plummeted. Crisis.
When we face financial crisis, know that Christ IS you solution. He has come to give us life and life more abundantly.
She saw prices dropped, she began to read the bible. Read Matthew to Revelation every day. Prayed. Fasted. Her heart wasn’t on Jesus though. Her heart was fixated on her sea cucumbers. Not to see Jesus. All she did was not for the LORD. She thought don’t help self, Jesus won’t help her. Legalistic mentality.
See Jesus in the ark, the bronze serpent, boaz saving Ruth… see the gospel. Look out for Jesus in the bible whether u read NT, OT. Come to Jesus to receive Life. Faith cometh by hearing the word of Christ. For blessings to flow, must be through Christ.
She became bitter after her own efforts had no results. But the LORD brought her to a conference in Sept.
Look for blessor. Not just for the blessings. When we have the Blessor, we also have the blessings.
153 fishes were caught by Peter’s net. He saw Jesus and jumped into the water and went after Him. As he swam to Jesus, his partner hauled in the fish. We pursue Jesus and the blessings follow.
Seek first the kingdom of God and all these things He will add to us.
Don’t worry. Worrying thoughts is the lies of the devil. See you have Jesus and rest in the confidence of faith. Those thoughts will engulf you but bring all thoughts to the captivity of Christ. Understand Christ will fight for me. He became poor to make me bless.
God says it is done, it is done.
She laboured to rest in Him and she rested. And in 20 over days, her friends saw the transformation. The telephone started ringing. The prices of sea cucumber kept rising. She didn’t look for money. Looked for Jesus. But the money came her way. Supposed to be a big loss but Jesus turned it around for His glory.
God is asking u to rest. Not inactivity. It is right believing. Right believing is that which brings right living.
The rooster died and was burned at the cross won’t come back to roost.
Esau and Jacob. Jacob tried to steal Esau’s blessings although the blessings already his. Became afraid when he encountered Esau again.
Gen 32:10,11,12
We fear. But even when afraid, pray. Remember God’s plan for us is peace and prosperity and not harm to come unto you.
Did God deliver Jacob? Yes. Even when your sin is of your own making, He will deliver u.
Don’t put your eyes on those who hurt you. Many a times our greatest hurt comes from family.
Jacob suffered under Laban. Pay changed ten times. Don’t go nuts also go nuts. Pay cut and cut and cut… how come Jacob had the right mind to continue working for Laban?
Jacob had a good opinion of God.
Gen 31:6
“Ps Mark u don’t know my wife.” “No. It is u don’t know Jesus!”
V17- Chinese Saying, people do but heaven is watching. Watch out for who, for u. Jacob trusted God.
BUT- our BUT is about changing our mindset to have a good opinion of the LORS
Darkness all around me BUT the LORD will arise and His glory will be seen on u. Isaiah 60:2
John 16:33 Tribulations BUT be of good cheer
Devil play big. God play bigger. God will do u good no matter what challenges u face.
This is the year of Jubilee. We will all be returned to our inheritance, our blessings. Restoration of our families. Possession restored, relationships restored. We belong to the Heavenly families.
As we look forward to our reunion dinner, we also look forward to our heavenly reunion
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17 strokes in 禧 - victory.
Hebrews 12:2
On the cross. Cross is before u knew Him and first sinned. He foresaw it and provided for it. Before Peter denied him, he washed Peter’s feet
We blow the ram’s horn and we can because of the the death of the ram.
Jesus endured the cross and took the shame on himself
Jesus has rested. He wants us to rest. He has given us His best.
Gen 8:4
Ark rested in the 7th month. Our family will be carried through our trials by Jesus and rested on the date of Christ’s resurrection. 17th day of 7th month.
All those material Blessings of Abraham are but the fruit but THE blessing of Abraham is the righteousness of God in Christ.
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14/4/2013 — excerpt from sermon “Why Jesus is the Answer” by Ps Prince
Keep listening and listening about Jesus and His finished work and resting. The flow will come.
#Because He lives, I can face tomorrow. He holds the Future. Life is worth the living just because He lives.
Your Tomorrow is a good day. Our strength comes from the one who gave up everything to save and bless us. Enter into this rest and be transformed. This year will be a great year for us.
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Colossians 4
COLOSSIANS 4 [Links to all my sites at the bottom of each post]
Psalm 60:4 Thou hast given a banner to them that fear thee, that it may be displayed because of the truth. Selah.
Colossians 4 videos-
ON VIDEO .The runaway slave and his master .The door to speak .Demonstration of the Kingdom in power .The Barnabus- Paul and John Mark controversy .Paul claimed no ‘ownership’ [Copyright] for his letters- therefore the Word of the Lord went forth freely [He urged his letters be distributed and read in the early Christian communities- which functioned as an oral culture at first- then his letters would be re- copied and make up 13 books of the New Testament- almost half of the 27 books- if you count Hebrews- more than half- Pastors- Churches- stop copyrighting and selling the Word of God] .Finish the work God has called you to .Final thoughts
Isaiah 48:16 Come ye near unto me, hear ye this; I have not spoken in secret from the beginning; from the time that it was, there am I: and now the Lord God, and his Spirit, hath sent me.
OTHER VIDEOS [New below the video links] 4-27-18 Friends- Andy, James, Albert https://youtu.be/7IglDSszjrI 4-27-18 Furman- I teach about Jonah https://youtu.be/wLtiypnj3oo [Here’s my past teaching on Jonah https://ccoutreach87.com/jonah-links/ ] 4-27-18 Furman’s 1st message https://youtu.be/NMEg-K6_Cg0 4-28-18 The Word of the Lord to judge Manuel Banales https://youtu.be/hrHFHK4wn5A
https://1drv.ms/v/s!Aocp2PkNEAGMgSUhD0ljpzOImVtQ https://drive.google.com/file/d/1jzl4XBkvF_m9JjIJzpoc-Gx9HK2C8_BE/view?usp=sharing 4-28-18 Why did the Caller Times cover up the crimes of Judge Manuel Banales? https://youtu.be/3Wbc2py_IDQ
4-29-18 caller Times says Christians are uneducated- bigoted rednecks! https://youtu.be/KZVRil0clEw North Bergen [Burger King] https://youtu.be/4S5YHb2hea8 5-1-18 Caller Times unfair criticism of DA Mark Gonzales https://youtu.be/HbUmEvEl0EE Woke up- North Bergen [The first week I slept in the car- and filmed the journey so to speak] https://vimeo.com/267327913 5-1-18 Friends- Albert- James- Stephen- Reuben [Short healing testimony] https://youtu.be/MO_4CIYRJfI 5-1-18 Friends- Ray- Big Charlie n the 3 Pence coin https://youtu.be/2lawi5xxn_0 [Note – right after I made this video- on the 3 fold cord- and talked about ‘3’ signs- we had 3 earthquakes just north of Corpus Christi] https://www.caller.com/story/news/local/2018/05/01/three-earthquakes-were-reported-south-san-antonio-texas/570393002/
5-2-18 Friends- Reuben- Albert [John 3] https://youtu.be/yYGbQg0Mbn4
Teaching Mark 2 in North Bergen- N.J. https://youtu.be/_SRevM8Tcs4 North Bergen- Gas trouble- 1 https://vimeo.com/267053010 Can’t pay? [ Gas pump- North Bergen] https://vimeo.com/267053138 Mike- North Bergen https://vimeo.com/267151505 Trump press conference- North Bergen https://1drv.ms/v/s!Aocp2PkNEAGMgSYJggwt2XhGjeMh Plane take off- heading to N.J- NYC trip https://drive.google.com/file/d/1hAc892XMrEN8VoT8hJGe19FF-TzGQt9P/view?usp=sharing I filmed this walking thru the Fairview cemetery right where I grew up [New Jersey] see some snow too https://1drv.ms/v/s!Aocp2PkNEAGMgSc_F1DPsqk240SO Plane landing at Newark [Liberty] airport in New Jersey https://drive.google.com/file/d/1zlfHQ9ZN-Ypef75ovboHKbN64P9oTkMO/view?usp=sharing North Bergen- New Jersey- Danny gives me a gift this day [He has since died] https://vimeo.com/267493156 Monkey with 3 tails- North Bergen New Jersey Christmas morning- waking up in the car after living 1 week in North Bergen- in the car https://vimeo.com/267701069
Amos 5:9 That strengtheneth the spoiled against the strong, so that the spoiled shall come against the fortress.
NEW As we end our study on Colossians- we see some key figures who were helpers of Paul- carrying his letters to the various churches- Colossians 4:7 All my state shall Tychicus declare unto you, who is a beloved brother, and a faithful minister and fellowservant in the Lord Colossians 4:8 Whom I have sent unto you for the same purpose, that he might know your estate, and comfort your hearts; We read about Tychicus in Acts 20:4 Acts 20:4 And there accompanied him into Asia Sopater of Berea; and of the Thessalonians, Aristarchus and Secundus; and Gaius of Derbe, and Timotheus; and of Asia, Tychicus and Trophimus. https://ccoutreach87.com/2017/08/20/acts-20/ The was another carrier of this letter- Colossians 4:9 With Onesimus, a faithful and beloved brother, who is one of you. They shall make known unto you all things which are done here. More than likely they were also carrying Paul’s letter to Philemon on this journey. Philemon was a slaveholder- who had a former slave run away. That slave was Onesimus- and in the letter to Philemon being carried by the slave himself Paul makes a strong argument for Philemon to forgive him and receive him as a brother- Philemon 1:8 Wherefore, though I might be much bold in Christ to enjoin thee that which is convenient, Philemon 1:9 Yet for love’s sake I rather beseech thee, being such an one as Paul the aged, and now also a prisoner of Jesus Christ. Philemon 1:10 I beseech thee for my son Onesimus, whom I have begotten in my bonds: Philemon 1:11 Which in time past was to thee unprofitable, but now profitable to thee and to me: Philemon 1:12 Whom I have sent again: thou therefore receive him, that is, mine own bowels:
It’s important to see the history behind the letters- and the carriers- Because in the beginning of this chapter Paul himself talks about slaves and their masters- Colossians 4:1 Masters, give unto your servants that which is just and equal; knowing that ye also have a Master in heaven. Some believe Paul was justifying slavery- but the other letter his team was carrying on this journey shows us another view. Colossians 4:10 Aristarchus my fellowprisoner saluteth you, and Marcus, sister’s son to Barnabas, (touching whom ye received commandments if he come unto you, receive him;) We read of this helper in 3 passages of Acts- 19:29, 20:4 and 27:2- https://ccoutreach87.com/2017/08/09/acts-19/ https://ccoutreach87.com/2017/08/20/acts-20/ https://ccoutreach87.com/2017/11/06/acts-27/ Yes- he stuck with the apostle all the way to Rome. And one more note before we end- Paul speaks well of someone here- and Marcus, sister’s son to Barnabas, (touching whom ye received commandments if he come unto you, receive him;) In my study on Acts we saw him- and a split that took place because of him [Acts 15] https://ccoutreach87.com/2017/07/03/acts-15/ Acts 15:36 And some days after Paul said unto Barnabas, Let us go again and visit our brethren in every city where we have preached the word of the LORD, and see how they do. Acts 15:37 And Barnabas determined to take with them John, whose surname was Mark. Acts 15:38 But Paul thought not good to take him with them, who departed from them from Pamphylia, and went not with them to the work. Acts 15:39 And the contention was so sharp between them, that they departed asunder one from the other: and so Barnabas took Mark, and sailed unto Cyprus; Acts 15:40 And Paul chose Silas, and departed, being recommended by the brethren unto the grace of God. This letter to the Colossians was penned about 12 years after this incident and it seems as if the rift was healed. Even Paul and his men had times of division- where some went one way- and Paul went another. Yet in time God would restore those divisions. Of course Paul does give a few practical teachings too- Colossians 4:2 Continue in prayer, and watch in the same with thanksgiving; Colossians 4:3 Withal praying also for us, that God would open unto us a door of utterance, to speak the mystery of Christ, for which I am also in bonds Colossians 4:4 That I may make it manifest, as I ought to speak. On the video I gave some examples of what the door of ‘utterance’ means- It is an opportunity to proclaim truth- to speak it- not just to know it. I gave a few examples of how this works- even when speaking Truth to Power. I’ll add my various links and past teachings that relate to this post and end this study with the last 2 verses of the letter- Colossians 4:17 And say to Archippus, Take heed to the ministry which thou hast received in the Lord, that thou fulfil it. Colossians 4:18 The salutation by the hand of me Paul. Remember my bonds. Grace be with you. Amen. As Paul penned this letter sitting in a jail in Rome- he admonishes all of us to finish the ministry we have received from the Lord. Ministry is not some occupation you feel called to- and than choose to make that a career. No- it is receiving the purpose that God had pre- planned for you from the start- sitting in a Roman prison and being faithful to the call. It’s a Prophet by the name of John who had his head taken off because he spoke truth to power. It’s carrying the message of the Christ of God who was born in a manger- left at the temple at the age of 12- Went on to call 12 men to follow him- one of whom would betray him and another who would deny him. It’s the message of a man who struggled in the garden- who the prophet Isaiah said was a man of sorrows- so tormented at times that he would be unrecognizable- Isaiah 52:14 As many were astonied at thee; his visage was so marred more than any man, and his form more than the sons of men: A message of a man who was unjustly tried- whipped severely- and hung on a Cross. His disciples feeling dejected- that all was lost. And then- he came back from the grave with the scars of his suffering still on him. Yes- he himself showed us what it meant to be faithful. And in the end- that’s what really counts. Amen. Zechariah 3:8 Hear now, O Joshua the high priest, thou, and thy fellows that sit before thee: for they are men wondered at: for, behold, I will bring forth my servant the Branch. Daniel 7:18 But the saints of the most High shall take the kingdom, and possess the kingdom for ever, even for ever and ever.
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https://ccoutreach87.com/2018/04/27/friends-4/ https://ccoutreach87.com/2018/04/11/friends-3/ Colossians 4:1 Masters, give unto your servants that which is just and equal; knowing that ye also have a Master in heaven. Colossians 4:2 Continue in prayer, and watch in the same with thanksgiving; Colossians 4:3 Withal praying also for us, that God would open unto us a door of utterance, to speak the mystery of Christ, for which I am also in bonds Colossians 4:4 That I may make it manifest, as I ought to speak. Colossians 4:5 Walk in wisdom toward them that are without, redeeming the time. Colossians 4:6 Let your speech be alway with grace, seasoned with salt, that ye may know how ye ought to answer every man. Colossians 4:7 All my state shall Tychicus declare unto you, who is a beloved brother, and a faithful minister and fellowservant in the Lord Colossians 4:8 Whom I have sent unto you for the same purpose, that he might know your estate, and comfort your hearts; Colossians 4:9 With Onesimus, a faithful and beloved brother, who is one of you. They shall make known unto you all things which are done here. Colossians 4:10 Aristarchus my fellowprisoner saluteth you, and Marcus, sister’s son to Barnabas, (touching whom ye received commandments if he come unto you, receive him;) Colossians 4:11 And Jesus, which is called Justus, who are of the circumcision. These only are my fellowworkers unto the kingdom of God, which have been a comfort unto me. Colossians 4:12 Epaphras, who is one of you, a servant of Christ, saluteth you, always labouring fervently for you in prayers, that ye may stand perfect and complete in all the will of God. Colossians 4:13 For I bear him record, that he hath a great zeal for you, and them that are in Laodicea, and them in Hierapolis. Colossians 4:14 Luke, the beloved physician, and Demas, greet you. Colossians 4:15 Salute the brethren which are in Laodicea, and Nymphas, and the church which is in his house. Colossians 4:16 And when this epistle is read among you, cause that it be read also in the church of the Laodiceans; and that ye likewise read the epistle from Laodicea. Colossians 4:17 And say to Archippus, Take heed to the ministry which thou hast received in the Lord, that thou fulfil it. Colossians 4:18 The salutation by the hand of me Paul. Remember my bonds. Grace be with you. Amen.
Philemon 1:1 Paul, a prisoner of Jesus Christ, and Timothy our brother, unto Philemon our dearly beloved, and fellowlabourer, Philemon 1:2 And to our beloved Apphia, and Archippus our fellowsoldier, and to the church in thy house: Philemon 1:3 Grace to you, and peace, from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. Philemon 1:4 I thank my God, making mention of thee always in my prayers, Philemon 1:5 Hearing of thy love and faith, which thou hast toward the Lord Jesus, and toward all saints; Philemon 1:6 That the communication of thy faith may become effectual by the acknowledging of every good thing which is in you in Christ Jesus. Philemon 1:7 For we have great joy and consolation in thy love, because the bowels of the saints are refreshed by thee, brother. Philemon 1:8 Wherefore, though I might be much bold in Christ to enjoin thee that which is convenient, Philemon 1:9 Yet for love’s sake I rather beseech thee, being such an one as Paul the aged, and now also a prisoner of Jesus Christ. Philemon 1:10 I beseech thee for my son Onesimus, whom I have begotten in my bonds: Philemon 1:11 Which in time past was to thee unprofitable, but now profitable to thee and to me: Philemon 1:12 Whom I have sent again: thou therefore receive him, that is, mine own bowels: Philemon 1:13 Whom I would have retained with me, that in thy stead he might have ministered unto me in the bonds of the gospel: Philemon 1:14 But without thy mind would I do nothing; that thy benefit should not be as it were of necessity, but willingly. Philemon 1:15 For perhaps he therefore departed for a season, that thou shouldest receive him for ever; Philemon 1:16 Not now as a servant, but above a servant, a brother beloved, specially to me, but how much more unto thee, both in the flesh, and in the Lord? Philemon 1:17 If thou count me therefore a partner, receive him as myself. Philemon 1:18 If he hath wronged thee, or oweth thee ought, put that on mine account; Philemon 1:19 I Paul have written it with mine own hand, I will repay it: albeit I do not say to thee how thou owest unto me even thine own self besides. Philemon 1:20 Yea, brother, let me have joy of thee in the Lord: refresh my bowels in the Lord. Philemon 1:21 Having confidence in thy obedience I wrote unto thee, knowing that thou wilt also do more than I say. Philemon 1:22 But withal prepare me also a lodging: for I trust that through your prayers I shall be given unto you. Philemon 1:23 There salute thee Epaphras, my fellowprisoner in Christ Jesus; Philemon 1:24 Marcus, Aristarchus, Demas, Lucas, my fellowlabourers. Philemon 1:25 The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit. Amen.
Acts 14:14 Which when the apostles, Barnabas and Paul, heard of, they rent their clothes, and ran in among the people, crying out, https://ccoutreach87.com/2017/06/14/acts-14/ Psalm 149 King James Version (KJV) 149 Praise ye the Lord. Sing unto the Lord a new song, and his praise in the congregation of saints. 2 Let Israel rejoice in him that made him: let the children of Zion be joyful in their King. 3 Let them praise his name in the dance: let them sing praises unto him with the timbrel and harp. 4 For the Lord taketh pleasure in his people: he will beautify the meek with salvation. 5 Let the saints be joyful in glory: let them sing aloud upon their beds. 6 Let the high praises of God be in their mouth, and a two-edged sword in their hand; 7 To execute vengeance upon the heathen, and punishments upon the people; 8 To bind their kings with chains, and their nobles with fetters of iron; 9 To execute upon them the judgment written: this honour have all his saints. Praise ye the Lord.
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Amightywind prophecy #103
Prophecy 103 I, YAHUVEH, Judge You by Your Fruit!
Written/Spoken under the anointing of the RUACH ha KODESH
through Apostle Elisabeth Elijah (Elisheva Eliyahu)
November 9, 2008
This is from Prophecy 105, YAHUVEH said to put this up on all Prophecies from now on: I warned you a long time ago Elisabeth (Elisheva) not to name this Ministry after a man or a woman even before there was a Ministry. I put it in your spirit for none of this has been done by your hand, none of this has come forth from your mouth. It is from the mouth of YAHUVEH that has given birth. It is from the mouth of YAHUSHUA your MASHIACH that has given birth. It is from the mouth of the RUACH ha KODESH your IMMAYAH that has given birth. If it had only been by your hand it would have failed long ago. It is by the SHKHINYAH GLORY’s wind that blows across this earth, the Holy wind of revival, it is not by your breath or it would have failed. (Isaiah 42:8)
In July 2010 YAHUVEH GOD also said to add the following from 2nd Chronicles before every Prophecy:
2 Chronicles 36:16, “But they mocked the Messengers of GOD, despised HIS Words, and scoffed at HIS Prophets, until the wrath of the LORD arose against HIS people, till there was no remedy.”
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Elisabeth [Elisheva]: I woke up with a very interesting dream. You know a Prophet is somebody that YAHUVEH intrusts with HIS Secrets but it wouldn’t do any good to keep this secret to myself and I know that I am supposed to share this with those who truly, truly strive to please our Beloved YAHUVEH and our Beloved YAHUSHUA MASHIACH and our Beloved RUACH ha KODESH, our IMMAYAH, precious, precious HOLY SPIRIT, our MOMMA WISDOM.
I had this dream (twice) back to back and I saw the same thing. I saw a report card and in that report card it is YAHUVEH who is giving us the Report Card. But HE does not keep track as in America we grade by the alphabet, A, B, C, D, F. No, HE has a higher way that HE grades and HE grades three different ways. HE grades by percentage first of all, by the percent of the time that we obey HIM, by the attitude with which we obey HIM. In other words, I’m going to say it again. By our performance, by how quickly we perform, and the attitude that we have when we perform for HIM, when we serve HIM, when we obey.
You see we are graded on our report cards, and my hand is starting to shake, by our obedience. All three of them together. HE takes that score and HE takes a percentage and two times, back to back, I saw [a ] Report Card. It was 93%. I believe that the Bride is raptured out of here, because just like Enoch and I was reminded of this and a Word started coming because I was trying to grasp everything YAHUVEH was saying. Enoch had 100%. How do I know he had 100%? Because Hebrews 11:5. [Enoch was translated. He did not see death because before he was translated he pleased YAHUVEH.]
HEY, that’s because YAHUVEH expects 100% Bride! We are not out of here until we reach 100%! So….each time I get a Message that the Bride is not ready yet, we are trying to improve our score. As I was pondering this, and part of my grade, I did not see my Report Card but part of my grade is how quickly I will speak forth a Word or a dream, even if I think it’s something I think somebody isn’t going to be too pleased with.
We’re not going to get 100% until YAHUSHUA says, “Come forth,” ya know, so he knows how much he’s got to work on it and, like I said, the attitude part.
We can do things and we can just say, “Oh I’ve got to do this and I’ve got to do that.” The attitude is what I think the Bride has really got to work on harder. That is that we do it cheerfully. And whatever YAH says, I mean our flesh is going to cringe, but when HE says to do something and you go, “Oh alright, I’ll do it” (grudgingly). Guess what folks your percentage just dropped. It says we are to do it cheerfully as unto the Lord.
When it comes time to give a tithe, HE says to give the tithe and you give the tithe where you are fed. That’s just like this Ministry. You would be amazed, amazed, if you knew how many just think this is just a place that they go and get spiritually fed but they don’t really care whether we are fed. You would really, really be amazed. This is what we do 24 hours a day. We are here to serve our Beloved ABBA YAHUVEH, to feed HIS Sheep and Lambs.
This website doesn’t just give you just something that is nothing about words, that isn’t pretty to look at. YAHUVEH has told us to do exceedingly and abundantly more than you even ask for and you’ve got the beauty of it. Now even for those who don’t want to take the time to read, you even can just listen to the Word. I mean we’re trying. We’re trying. We’re trying. We’re trying. We’re trying to do what ABBA YAHUVEH has commanded this Ministry to do, to do what HE commanded me to do.
Nearly 14 years ago, when I first got on the internet, before the whole world, where HE called me a “Prophet to the Nations – before I served HIM but it wasn’t as a Prophet to the Nations – when I got on that internet it became a Prophet to the Nations. That’s when HE said I had to entertain as well as inform this hardened End Time generation.
OK, now you have the beauty and now you even can hear the Word and now you can read the Word and what you do with it is not my responsibility. My responsibility as HE gave me a dream and told me, and HE spoke audibly to me and told me, “Feed MY sheep.” So we’re doing the best we can do to entertain you as well as inform you. But how few of you even show your appreciation but it really doesn’t matter because our performance grade isn’t given by this world. Our performance grade is given from Heaven and right now, ABBA YAHUVEH, I ask and I thank YOU. YOU gave me the dream twice and YOU said YOU were even going to grade my performance by how quickly I told the dream.
The elementary things down—you know what, isn’t enough. ABBA YAHUVEH [says], “OK now you’ve gone this far. Now I’ve got a higher calling for you.”
So when YAHUVEH says, “Are you going to obey him [man] or are you going to obey ME?” I’m telling you, that I am [going to obey YAH.] I truly believe it’s 100% Bride. When it gets to be 100% we’re out of here! And I’m still here so I know it’s not 100% yet.
[Elisabeth (Elisheva) speaks in Holy Tongues.] Oh ABBA YAHUVEH, thank YOU, thank YOU, thank YOU for that dream. Thank YOU. Thank YOU for that revelation. Nobody, nobody, nobody has got this revelation. YOU’VE trusted me again to give it to YOUR people, to encourage YOUR people, to show them what YOU want and expect out of them.
Prophetic Word Begins:
Oh MY Beloved, MY Beloved, MY Beloved, when you first accept YAHUSHUA your beloved MASHIACH, into your heart, into your lives and put HIM first in your love, you start out striving just to keep the Ten Commandments, the Ten Laws. But that is but elementary school for MY Word says, “Be ye Holy as I am Holy.”
Each day this is what you strive for but when you get in the Bride class it as though you’re going into your earthly college for your Master’s degree for you want your MASTER’S degree and for those of you that are handed that Heavenly diploma on that day that’s when you will be as an Enoch unto ME and you will be caught up to meet ME in the air.
I speak to MY First Fruits. I speak to those that are the 144,000. I grade by the percentage, not “if” you obey ME, but how quickly you obey ME. Not “if” you obey ME, but by what attitude you have that you obey ME; how quickly you obey ME and the degree of the performance, how fully you obey ME.
Do you do things in your time? Or do you do things in MY time? When I tell you that you are to do something do you do it with a cheerful heart? When I tell you to support this Ministry do you just throw them your leftover change like you would tip a waitress or a waiter? Do you make sure that the prophets that minister to you, that feed you are fed and lodged? For this ministry travels the world. They only stay in one place until I, YAHUVEH, tell them they must move on. Do you know how many times they’ve had to leave everything behind? How many of you could live a life like this? How many would be willing to leave their loved ones behind? Back behind in a country they’ll never see again because I, YAHUVEH, have said so. It is not by MY hand they shall ever return. Everyone, everyone, everyone, who accept YAHUSHUA as your MASHIACH, everyone who calls YAHUSHUA the Only Begotten Son of YAHUVEH, should each day be striving to please I, YAHUVEH.
When YAHUSHUA your MASHIACH walked this earth HE had one, one, one desire that HE pleased I, YAHUVEH. Constantly HE reminded you that the things that HE did, HE did to glorify I, YAHUVEH. This is what MY Bride does. This is what YAHUSHUA’s Bride does. To the new baby converts, you are but in elementary school but just as a child in elementary school wants to get to the new grade, so too, you should strive.
Remember Enoch. Ask ME. Get honest with ME and I will show you your percentage grade. This is not for you to get puffed up in pride for no one, no one, no one, not even the Ringmaiden speaking has 100% yet. The day that I tell YAHUSHUA MY Only Begotten Son, “Go get YOUR Bride,” those that are caught up to meet YAHUSHUA in the air that day will know they have reached 100% of MY satisfaction.
There will be those that will hear this Message that will just get into Heaven on their last breath. They will do all they can do just to keep the Ten Commandments, to be Holy before ME in that way. On that day they shall be in Paradise. But you see there are levels to Heaven and the Bride’s sole desire is to be able to come right into the Throne Room. These are the 100 percenters.
I judge you by the percentage of the time you obey ME, again how quickly you obey ME. Do you give ME your best? Or do you just get by? Oh how sad when some of you just throw crumbs at ME. You see I, YAHUVEH, judge your heart. I not only listen to your mouth, I know whether you begrudgingly do something for ME or whether you rejoice. Just like I have raised up those to be helpers to this Ministry, you started out as a friend to this Ministry. You were praying and you prayed and prayed as a new convert wanting to please YAHUSHUA more each day and said, “ABBA YAHUVEH, what can I do to help this Ministry, what can I do to make my life count in this world? Give me a job ABBA YAHUVEH. Make my life worth living.” So I hand you a job.
I speak to one that used to handle the mail to this Ministry. I gave you a job. You started out in rejoicing. You started out that you couldn’t do enough, knowing the mail must be forwarded entails a job, a Holy job I gave unto you. Those that handle the mail, those that handle the finances are sorely tested. Those that are told to give of their finances to support this Ministry are sorely tested. But do you become stronger? Or do you become weaker? Do you betray the job I gave you to do?
Some have stolen, those that I told Elisabeth [Elisheva] she could trust have betrayed, for at the time I speak it they can be trusted. But I never said for how long. But those within her household I have said can be fully trusted. You know your names. There are those in YAHUSHUA’S Demon Stompers, the Holy Prayer Warrior Intercessors, they stand in the Front Lines, they can be counted on to fast and to pray, to live Holy unto ME, they can be trusted at this time.
Oh how much I grieve for those who say, “Just give me a job to do. Give me a job to do. What is my job on this earth ABBA YAHUVEH.” And I give them their job and they should be honored and they say they’re honored and they start out with the right attitude and then the testing gets too hard and their flesh raises up and they throw the job back in MY face and they betray this Ministry once again. Do you not know, I judge you for this? I judge your very heart.
Every time you write that letter of support out, I judge you and the percentage. When a Word comes forth that offends the flesh, just like this Word is going to do, I judge your heart. Do you thank ME? Do you thank the Messenger? Do you put action behind your words? Do you do anything to help this Ministry? I, YAHUVEH, judge you, for you see the Holy Scriptures say, you’re held accountable for what you know. (Are you) afraid of offending your loved ones’ flesh, your neighbor’s flesh, stranger’s flesh more than you are afraid of offending I, YAHUVEH?
Do you speak up and speak out against homosexuality, that which is an abomination you call, “same sex marriage”? That is no marriage! Satan mocks ME through this!
Do you defend the unborn? Do you stand up for morality? Who did you vote for during the 2008 elections? Do you compromise with sin?
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HEY how's gal a predatory rape apologist? i dislike her for she's pro palestinian genocide but i've never heard of this.....
One of her friends posted an article about how Gal had shamed and bullied her when she got raped. She had posted it on Medium but it got deleted for some reason. I don't know her name but here's the deleted article: Recently Gal Gadot tweeted that bullying is unacceptable.Her hypocrisy is deeply wounding. The shame and blame she instilled into me after I was raped was deeply traumatizing.Gal is more than a bully; she is a predator who enables predators.This is my story.Thirteen years ago, I shared an apartment with Gal Gadot for two months in Milan, Italy. Several young girls lived in the building, all under contract with the same modeling management company.Shortly after we met, Gal invited me to share space in her room. Gal’s roommate Maya* was going back home to Israel. Maya was 15, and only spoke Hebrew.Maya was about to leave for the airport. Her bags were packed. The expression on her face was vacant. Tears were in her eyes. It was clear she was in deep pain.Gal calmly told me that the girl had been raped, and that the experience had put the girl in the hospital.Gal said the girl was stupid — for going to the wrong club, and for trusting the man who brought her there. I felt sorry for Maya, but I didn’t know what to do and I didn’t speak her language. I didn’t realize that meeting her would foreshadow my future.Gal had been in Milan for a few weeks. She said she would show me the ropes and who could be trusted. Her confident strength made me feel safe, protected, and loved in a way that I hadn’t felt before. Gal taught me to trust her. I was 18 and she was 19.Gal told me about men who followed models around to casting calls. They were paid by clubs to convince models like us to join them at these clubs in exchange for expensive food, drinks, publicity photos, and VIP treatment. Gal told me to never trust these men, because they rape.Gal’s previous roommate had been tricked by one of these men, and the underlying message was clear: trust Gal. I felt safe with Gal. I did not realize then how little I knew about rape, predators, and the culture that supports them.Gal and I spent most of our free time together. We shared food, clothes, and makeup. We went to the gym. We went shopping and tanning together. We went on photo shoots together. I made her a mix CD. I sang her to sleep. I watched her smoke constantly out of the window. We shared body insecurities, and she shared sex stories. She made sure to appear confident, knowledgeable, and successful — even then. She fed me information about Israel. Whenever she discussed Palestinians, she showed deep hatred.Gal set us up on dates with men who expected sex in exchange for the lavish meals they fed us, although we never slept with them. She would pick smaller men, and threaten them after dinner. They complained and she chased them off with more threats. She would laugh about it later. She used sex as a weapon.Several weeks into my stay, she took me to meet her Israeli friends including her best friend Ayala*. Ayala and her boyfriend Yaniv seemed very close. He appeared to dote on her, and they seemed very much in love.Gal, Ayala, Yaniv and I went out each weekend, sometimes with other friends. The four of us quickly became a core group. We went to clubs to spend time in the spaces reserved for celebrities.Hidden behind the historic exteriors of Milan’s ancient architecture were sensory-overwhelming nightclubs, decked out like palaces. These places were teeming with swarms of people feeding off of manufactured prestige. I was a sheltered child from a small town, and was utterly unprepared for the dark side of the modeling and nightlife industries.A short time later, Gal and I spent a weekend at Yaniv and Ayala’s room inside another shared apartment. Gal and I shared a pull out couch while Yaniv and Ayala slept in their bed. The room was close and intimate. We spent the evening laughing, watching movies, smoking, and drinking. Yaniv commented on how I could not hold my alcohol, fully aware I had no experience getting drunk.A week later, Ayala left for a modeling gig in Greece while Gal was in Ireland for a weekend shoot. Yaniv invited me out to dinner alone. Over dinner, we talked about our significant others, his travel around the world, and his time in the Israeli Defense Forces. I didn’t realize that his intentions were anything other than honorable. After dinner, his friend invited us to a new club.Yaniv asked if I had ever drank wine, knowing I had not. He bought me several drinks with dinner while telling me that I needed to try different varieties. It’s hard for me to remember what happened after that. I assume he drugged me.To this day, I have never been inebriated in that particular way, especially after only drinking wine. I was in and out of consciousness, and my body felt limp. I kept falling over. My brain felt like it was shutting down. Yaniv called his roommate Ofir to help carry me home. I couldn’t walk. I was dead weight. I remember odd pieces, like him repeatedly asking me in a sick, almost playfully malicious tone of voice if I thought I was smart.I remember thinking that we were going home so that I would sleep on the couch, as Gal and I had before. I woke up in Yaniv’s bed, naked. He had removed my clothes when I was unconscious. I remember him climbing on top of me. I could just barely say “no”, and “this isn’t right”. Then I blacked out.I woke up again while he continued raping me. He was restraining my arms so I couldn’t move. It was violent. There was pain. I will never forget how he looked in that dark room. I will never forget the absolute panic I felt. It was terror. I thought he would kill me next. His rape was full of hate. He did not look at me.I woke up the next morning, groggy and delirious. I asked Yaniv what happened. I wanted to hear him say it.“We had sex,” he said, and shrugged. “I thought you knew.”“I told you no,” I said, quietly.“You told me no but your body told me yes,” he said. That line still haunts my mind, 13 years later.I couldn’t get out of his bed, even though I wanted to leave. I was physically sick; not only still intoxicated from the aftereffects of whatever I consumed, but also bruised, shocked, and traumatized. As I lay in his bed, I listened to Yaniv call a friend and brag about having sex with an 18 year old. His conquest; an accomplishment; a notch on his belt.He told me that no one could know, because Ayala would be too hurt. Soon, he began ignoring me.I was disoriented and traumatized. I had absolutely no context to process what had happened. I had no sex education, and certainly no understanding of predators or the culture that supports them. I had been taught a woman should be a virgin until marriage.I thought sex was about love. What I experienced from him was not love. It was hate and disgust. I didn’t have the language to call this rape. Rape was something to fear from strangers while walking alone down the street. Rape was not committed by a friend.I thought he was my friend.I was used, discarded, and alone.Almost alone. At least I had Gal, I thought. She came home two days later. She knew something had happened by looking at me. I wonder if I reminded her of her previously raped roommate.Gal immediately began interrogating me. I could see no compassion in her eyes. I told Gal something had happened between Yaniv and I.She took me down to the basement. It was cold, mechanical, and frightening. We were alone. Then her anger exploded.She stood over me, intimidating and loud, blaming me for what happened. Her eyes were fire. I had already felt small and violated, but she shamed me into feeling obsolete. I felt extremely dirty. Already in shock, I disassociated from my body. I can’t remember most of her words. I remember being in utter terror of her anger.She was furious for Ayala and “what I had done to her”. Gal pointed her finger in my face like a weapon. She asked me how I could do this, and that I needed to make this up to Ayala. She made me feel ashamed, that the whole event had been my fault, and that I had brought it upon myself by being so naïve.After that, I feared Gal. I spent nights out as long as I could, hoping to avoid her. When I did see Gal, she would speak of nothing other than her conviction that I needed to speak with or write to Ayala. She would not let up. She was obsessed. There was absolutely no understanding from her. I don’t know how she could not have seen how the rape changed me. I was no longer the same person.On my last night in Milan, Gal made one final attempt to get me to submit to her demands. She brought me downstairs to a computer. Gal put her hands on me and forced me into the chair. She made me open my email account and write Ayala’s address in the address bar.Standing behind me and above me, Gal held my shoulders down with a terrible pressure, preventing me from escape. She attempted to dictate what she called my “confession and apology”. I could not do it. I was crying, and my head seemed to break apart. My heart felt like it was bleeding out. My stomach was in awful knots. I began disassociating from my body. I could not speak. I could not write her lies.She referred to the rape as “your mistake”.After what felt like several hours, Gal eventually gave up in disgust. It was late at night. She made me promise I would write the letter to Ayala. I never wrote the letter.I returned home confused, silent, and ashamed. Later Gal returned to Israel for her military training. I ended my modeling career as another young woman assaulted, used, and disposed by the industry and its enablers. I did not think I would ever see Gal again.When I was getting my degree in Women’s and Gender Studies, Gal showed up on Maxim in a bikini and heels, the cover girl of their issue on the women of the Israeli Defense Forces.When I saw her face, I had an immense panic attack. I had no idea how much she would upset me. My rape came flashing back. I could feel Gal’s hands pushing on my shoulders. My throat closed up and my heart raced. The nightmares continued to haunt me every night.After I graduated, I worked as the director of the sexual assault services program back in my hometown. I spent many years helping survivors to validate their experiences and process emotions, yet I still deeply struggled with my own.Yaniv Nahoum is responsible for drugging and raping me. That was not Gal’s fault. But her confidence and her power in blaming me opened up a part of my brain, and filled me with an all-consuming shame. I can still feel the pressure of her hands pushing down on me.The trust she built with me was a gateway to my total devastation.Predators gain trust in order to exploit it for their advantage.Gal has succeeded in a predatory industry because she is a predator. She is unafraid to destroy others in pursuit of her ambitions. Like any strong predator, she knows how to target, destroy, and consume the weakest and most vulnerable.Highly skilled predators in our society manage to land roles where they cultivate public trust.Bill Cosby put on a sweater and built trust as a Huxtable.Gal Gadot put on a breastplate and became an icon for women.A predator in a costume is a wolf in sheep’s clothing.When Gal Gadot says that she supports sexual assault survivors, do not believe it. Her actions speak louder than words.*not her real name
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Who Is Jesus Anyway? Part 2
In Part One, we saw that Jesus Christ was perfect in his humanity. For thirty-three years, Jesus Christ laid aside the full expression of his rights and privileges as divinity and operated as a human being. He did not lose his divine nature, he toned down the manifestation of it so that his identification was complete. For instance, when he was tempted by the Devil in the wilderness, he could have met this first temptation quite easily. If he had communicated and lived as only God, those rocks could have been transformed into a five-star restaurant from any culture or time period. Just one word and a full French staff and food service would have appeared with the most elegant dining room and cuisine imaginable. It didn't happen though because Christ himself chose those options that would be provided for any believer among the rest of humanity. So he said:
Matthew 4:4 (ESV)
But he answered, “It is written, “ ‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.’ ”
Maybe we would like to see Christ over power the devil and blow him away with expressions of great power, but Christ is only weaponized with the simplicity of God breathed words. Why? Because this is the greatest weapon God would ever place into the heart, hands, and mouths of human beings. A veritable sword of the Spirit. Christ here would model what any human believer could do in the face of similar circumstances and enemies. Am I God? Yes, but I now live as a man. And "man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word of God."
Some would like to analyze and dissect the words and works of Jesus Christ to distinguish and determine the evidence of Christ's nature as a man and that as God. But it is a futile task. For in everything he said and did, Christ lived in union with his father. There is no way to find the line between his own deity and his humanity. For his words and works were always initiated by God himself and carried out in perfect harmony with his entire being. There is never a break between his humanity and his deity, except when he is on the cross, dying for our sins:
John 5:30 (ESV)
30 “I can do nothing on my own. As I hear, I judge, and my judgment is just, ...
Consider the following example:
Matthew 8:23–27 (ESV)
And when he got into the boat, his disciples followed him. And behold, there arose a great storm on the sea, so that the boat was being swamped by the waves; but he was asleep. And they went and woke him, saying, “Save us, Lord; we are perishing.” And he said to them, “Why are you afraid, O you of little faith?” Then he rose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm. And the men marveled, saying, “What sort of man is this, that even winds and sea obey him?”
Men of God in the past had always called down a provision from heaven. Elijah on Mt Carmel. Moses at the Red sea etc. Not Jesus Christ. He arose from the deep sleep and immediately rebuked the disciples for their lack of faith and then the storm and the sea. A great calm resulted. And his disciples did not sit back and praise the God of Israel and heaven for their deliverance as the children of Israel did at the other side of the Red sea. No, they did not. They were not with a mere man, like Moses, or Elijah. Men of like passions as their own selves. No, they sat back and wondered, "What sort of Man is this?" "What kind of Man is this?" Not like anyone we have ever encountered or met. Not like anyone we have ever heard about or read about. No, here was someone greater than Moses, "even the winds and sea obey him." The writer of Hebrews adds a greater extent:
Hebrews 1:2–4 (ESV)
in these last days he has spoken to us by his Son, whom he appointed the heir of all things, through whom also he created the world. He is the radiance of the glory of God and the exact imprint of his nature, and he upholds the universe by the word of his power. After making purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high, having become as much superior to angels as the name he has inherited is more excellent than theirs.
What kind of man is this who is superior to Angels? A different kind of man indeed. But don't miss my point: "What kind of man is this." In the Old Testament, the question was always; "What kind of God is this?" Entering the land of Canaan, the children of Israel were under one mandate, They were to discern what kind of God they were serving:
Deuteronomy 5:7 (ESV)
You shall have no other gods before me.
Even Nebuchadnezzar realized this and in the aftermath of the fiery furnace declared:
Daniel 3:29 (ESV)
Therefore I make a decree: Any people, nation, or language that speaks anything against the God of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego shall be torn limb from limb, and their houses laid in ruins, for there is no other god who is able to rescue in this way.”
Is Jesus Christ fully divine? Certainly. Can this statement be made of him as well? " there is no other god who is able to rescue in this way." Certainly and it could be done without any equivocation or rebuke from heaven. But he is more than just God. He is also a perfect man. He is everything God ever intended his first man to be and more. He has the dominion that the first man was a delegated representative of but he has never failed or lost it. He is the firstborn from the dead and brings to all who will believe in him, his incorruptible seed and the first fruits of his perfect redemption. The gift of the Holy Spirit is only a down payment of all that he has for those who truly believe in him.
What kind of man is this? One who is able to save and rescue us to the uttermost. One who seals us unto the day of redemption. One who will bring his redemptive work within our heart to completion. One, who will make all things new in our lives and in our world. He is our living and only true hope. Won't you believe in him right now and come to him right now? Won't you allow him to wash all your sins away? Won't you allow him to heal the wounds and sores within your life? Won't you allow him to purge out the guilt and shame that life has dumped into your soul? Please let this man have your trust and heart. You will never be sorry. God promises that. Amen!!! n
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The Importance of an Ordinary Person Acts 9 1-19. 22nd January 2017 - Kay Morison
What a year for Andy Murray! Despite losing in Australia yesterday….winning Wimbledon….. winning the Olympic Gold medal……becoming the World No. 1 tennis player and…..now Sir Andy Murray!
At first sight it can seem it is all due to him, for he’s the one out there on the court!…but he often pays tribute to his back-up team and especially to his coach…Do you know the name of that coach? the absolutely essential person behind Andy’s success……NO?
Yet Andy Murray says of Ivan Lendl:
“He is the best coach I’ve ever had!”
Behind a great man - another great person.
Everybody realises St. Paul was a great man… BUT, behind him and his ministry was another absolutely essential person, another Great Man: Ananias.
Ananias – the name passes very briefly across our Bible pages, he’s mentioned only twice in the book of Acts, our essential history of the early church. Then Ananias disappears completely from the record, even though his role in Paul’s long ministry was absolutely crucial.
Now, just a very brief comment about the names in the passage we have just read: when we first meet Paul he is actually called Saul, his Jewish name. Only gradually in the Acts of the Apostles does he become known as Paul. The reason for this is that Saul had the privilege of Roman Citizenship. So he also had a Roman name, Paul. And as he became the Apostle to the Gentiles, traveling all over the Roman World, sharing the good news about Jesus, he stopped using his Hebrew name and began to use his more readily recognizable Roman name: Paul.
However, it was Ananias who confirmed Saul’s (or Paul’s) faith in Jesus. So today I want to focus on three things about the self-effacing Ananias that are relevant to our lives today.
1. He was an ORDINARY person
He is described in the Book of Acts as “a disciple” a follower of Jesus. A committed Christian. Not necessarily a Church Leader, or chief organiser; not a leader of this or that group, a member of the preaching team, PCC etc. NO! Ananias was just an ordinary Christian, like the vast majority of us here today.
But he was called to do something extra ordinary! As we’ve just heard read, God asked him to go and pray for blind Saul (even though Saul was the very person who had been persecuting the Christian believers in Jerusalem!)
You will remember that Saul had just had his life turned right round by the Risen Jesus, while travelling along the road to Damascus. But in fact, Saul’s original purpose in going to Damascus, was to round up and imprison followers of “The Way” - which was the initial name for the early followers of Christ. And yet God chose very ordinary Ananias to go to Paul!
So the first encouraging fact we find in this momentous event in Acts, is that God uses ordinary people.
I expect none of us here today would say we were extra ordinary, super-human people, super-Christian people like for example Mother Theresa, Justin Welby, the Archbishop of Canterbury…or Nicki Gumbel: the Barrister who is now ordained and the author of the AlphaCourse…which is now used by millions worldwide!
However, seeing what Ananias did, it follows that God can use us likewise to do great things for Him too! The Bible reiterates this in 1 Cor 1. 27 “God chose the weak things of this world to put the powerful to shame,” (that’s the Promise translation)
Fortunately, despite Ananias’s ordinariness we are given at least two glimpses into his Christian life.
(a) He was a devout observer of the Law of God. A Law abiding Jew, still keeping the Jewish rules and regulations, and therefore well respected by his contemporaries. Are we well respected in our local communities, neighbourhoods, in our blocks of flats?
(b) He was “well spoken of”. It is no good being ordinary and useable by God, if our lives don’t actually reflect the light of the One to whom we belong.
It is no good claiming to be a disciple, without the evidence of our lives to back that up. So Pray:
“Father help me to make a personal application of this thought today. I need to ask myself - If everyone in my church was just like me – what sort of church would my church be?”
Ananias was not only ordinary – but an example of good Christian living.
2. The second thing we note particularly about Ananias was that he was OPEN HEARTED:
Open to God, but also open to listen to Saul the Persecutor - Paul as he became.
We’ve already seen that Ananias was a devout follower of the Jewish way of life, and as such he would have prayed several times a day, fasted, listened to the OT Scrolls being read in the synagogue and been fully open to hearing God speak .
In fact, he had what is termed a vision. He saw and heard God speaking directly to him. Now, not many people in our culture have visions from God, for He speaks to his people in many ways.
Nevertheless, how can we be truly open to the Lord? It’s no use thinking he can use us and speak to us, personally, if we never stop long enough to give him a chance.
We need to take time to read the Bible, every day. Take a short portion, think it over. Recently I have been struck by the Bible phrases: “nothing you do in the Lord’s service is ever useless”….. “keep busy in your work for the Lord”.
· God will speak to us through his Word (but we have to read it)
· through Christian friends giving advice when asked for (if we’re open and honest with them,)
· or through a direct voice or strong conviction prodding our conscience.
But perhaps in other more unusual ways too:
ILLUS: I met with a lady last week who in a dream heard her own name being called. So as she woke up from that vivid dream, she asked her husband “did you call my name?” and he replied “No” So she strongly feels this could be the Lord calling her, (as he called Samuel in a similar dream long ago in OT times) into a fresh work to do for Him.
So we’ve seen firstly that Ananias was an Ordinary Christian like you and me.
Secondly he was open to hear God speaking to him.
But there is a third facet to this ordinary, open-hearted follower of Jesus who played such a vital role in Paul’s life.
3. Ananias was OBEDIENT:
He could indeed have heard God telling him to go to Straight St. in order to find Saul and pray for this persecutor but nothing would have happened if he had not obeyed.
Going back to Ananias’s initial response …it is refreshing and human to see Ananias saying like we do sometimes to God, “yes, but……” or possibly “here am I Send HIM!”
For Ananias certainly did know about Saul the persecutor, back in those days the grape vine worked remarkably quickly: (quote Acts 9: v. 13):
“Lord”, said Ananias “I have heard many reports about this man and all the harm he has done to your saints in Jerusalem”
Yes, he fully understood why Saul had come to Damascus. And yet God was asking him to go and see this persecutor. Quite frightening!
US: It is so important to tell God how we feel, our doubts, our despairs, our righteous anger, to be real and realistic in our relationship with God. He knows anyway.
However, when the Lord said “Go…….Ananias went!”
APPN: I don’t think you or I would normally be asked to go to up to someone who wants to kills us, and pray for them. But sometimes the Lord challenges us to do surprising things for Him.
What are you being asked to do? challenged to do?
Is it something simple? How about committing yourself to using the daily prayer diary for All SS. For “Prayer changes things” and again -“More things in heaven and earth are wrought by prayer than this world dreams of”. How great if everyone here would take the prayer diary and use it every day , so that there are scores of us praying on the same day on the same topic.
Just say, maybe over breakfast, “Lord I pray for…..(and read the topic)…. say Amen and really mean it.
Maybe you are being asked to be obedient to the Lord in further ways:
· Not just to use the prayer diary But, for example:
· To visit someone who can’t get out – ask Suzie for a name.
· To give more to God’s work at All SS
· To be more regular in Church attendance
· To find some Bible Reading notes and use them or read through Mark’s Gospel, chapter a day… There are 16 chapter so that is not a huge task…
Back to Ananias: He obediently went to Saul in the house in Straight Street, and greeted him with those amazing words “Brother Saul….”: Now…. put yourself in Ananias’s place. Imagine you today having to call on someone you are really nervous about and greet them with such love and concern? “brother” / “sister” (Pause)…..Would you be ready to be so open and caring with that person?
How wonderful that Ananias really trusted God and had faith in what He had told him to do!
Just think for a moment: If Ananias hadn’t been obedient to God and taken that risk, we might well not be here at all in a Christian Church……..The fact is that Paul brought Christianity to the then known civilised world, reaching Rome, it’s centre, and subsequently spreading to the UK.
Let me sum up:
We’ve seen Ananias as
Ordinary – an ordinary Christian
Open to God…..a prayerful listener to the Lord
Obedient to what God told him…..
specifically him and no one else…..to do!
And we’ve also discovered what a key person Ananias was, perhaps especially because he was just an ordinary Christian!
In this New Year are YOU going to be a key person in the life of All Saint’s? Our Lord is calling:
· Calling ordinary folk to build His Kingdom with Him:
· Calling for people who are open to Him, listening to him, speaking to Him .
· Calling people to be obedient to what he calls them to do, not only now but on into the rest of our lives.
Ordinary
Open
Obedient
How do YOU fit that description of a believer in Jesus?
And lastly….
What are you going to DO about it?
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Recently Gal Gadot tweeted that bullying is unacceptable.
Her hypocrisy is deeply wounding. The shame and blame she instilled into me after I was raped was deeply traumatizing.
Gal is more than a bully; she is a predator who enables predators.
This is my story.
Thirteen years ago, I shared an apartment with Gal Gadot for two months in Milan, Italy. Several young girls lived in the building, all under contract with the same modeling management company.
Shortly after we met, Gal invited me to share space in her room. Gal’s roommate Maya* was going back home to Israel. Maya was 15, and only spoke Hebrew.
Maya was about to leave for the airport. Her bags were packed. The expression on her face was vacant. Tears were in her eyes. It was clear she was in deep pain.
Gal calmly told me that the girl had been raped, and that the experience had put the girl in the hospital.
Gal said the girl was stupid — for going to the wrong club, and for trusting the man who brought her there. I felt sorry for Maya, but I didn’t know what to do and I didn’t speak her language. I didn’t realize that meeting her would foreshadow my future.
Gal had been in Milan for a few weeks. She said she would show me the ropes and who could be trusted. Her confident strength made me feel safe, protected, and loved in a way that I hadn’t felt before. Gal taught me to trust her. I was 18 and she was 19.
Gal told me about men who followed models around to casting calls. They were paid by clubs to convince models like us to join them at these clubs in exchange for expensive food, drinks, publicity photos, and VIP treatment. Gal told me to never trust these men, because they rape.
Gal’s previous roommate had been tricked by one of these men, and the underlying message was clear: trust Gal. I felt safe with Gal. I did not realize then how little I knew about rape, predators, and the culture that supports them.
Gal and I spent most of our free time together. We shared food, clothes, and makeup. We went to the gym. We went shopping and tanning together. We went on photo shoots together. I made her a mix CD. I sang her to sleep. I watched her smoke constantly out of the window. We shared body insecurities, and she shared sex stories. She made sure to appear confident, knowledgeable, and successful — even then. She fed me information about Israel. Whenever she discussed Palestinians, she showed deep hatred.
Gal set us up on dates with men who expected sex in exchange for the lavish meals they fed us, although we never slept with them. She would pick smaller men, and threaten them after dinner. They complained and she chased them off with more threats. She would laugh about it later. She used sex as a weapon.
Several weeks into my stay, she took me to meet her Israeli friends including her best friend Ayala*. Ayala and her boyfriend Yaniv seemed very close. He appeared to dote on her, and they seemed very much in love.
Gal, Ayala, Yaniv and I went out each weekend, sometimes with other friends. The four of us quickly became a core group. We went to clubs to spend time in the spaces reserved for celebrities.
Hidden behind the historic exteriors of Milan’s ancient architecture were sensory-overwhelming nightclubs, decked out like palaces. These places were teeming with swarms of people feeding off of manufactured prestige. I was a sheltered child from a small town, and was utterly unprepared for the dark side of the modeling and nightlife industries.
A short time later, Gal and I spent a weekend at Yaniv and Ayala’s room inside another shared apartment. Gal and I shared a pull out couch while Yaniv and Ayala slept in their bed. The room was close and intimate. We spent the evening laughing, watching movies, smoking, and drinking. Yaniv commented on how I could not hold my alcohol, fully aware I had no experience getting drunk.
A week later, Ayala left for a modeling gig in Greece while Gal was in Ireland for a weekend shoot. Yaniv invited me out to dinner alone. Over dinner, we talked about our significant others, his travel around the world, and his time in the Israeli Defense Forces. I didn’t realize that his intentions were anything other than honorable. After dinner, his friend invited us to a new club.
Yaniv asked if I had ever drank wine, knowing I had not. He bought me several drinks with dinner while telling me that I needed to try different varieties. It’s hard for me to remember what happened after that. I assume he drugged me.
To this day, I have never been inebriated in that particular way, especially after only drinking wine. I was in and out of consciousness, and my body felt limp. I kept falling over. My brain felt like it was shutting down. Yaniv called his roommate Ofir to help carry me home. I couldn’t walk. I was dead weight. I remember odd pieces, like him repeatedly asking me in a sick, almost playfully malicious tone of voice if I thought I was smart.
I remember thinking that we were going home so that I would sleep on the couch, as Gal and I had before. I woke up in Yaniv’s bed, naked. He had removed my clothes when I was unconscious. I remember him climbing on top of me. I could just barely say “no”, and “this isn’t right”. Then I blacked out.
I woke up again while he continued raping me. He was restraining my arms so I couldn’t move. It was violent. There was pain. I will never forget how he looked in that dark room. I will never forget the absolute panic I felt. It was terror. I thought he would kill me next. His rape was full of hate. He did not look at me.
I woke up the next morning, groggy and delirious. I asked Yaniv what happened. I wanted to hear him say it.
“We had sex,” he said, and shrugged. “I thought you knew.”
“I told you no,” I said, quietly.
“You told me no but your body told me yes,” he said. That line still haunts my mind, 13 years later.
I couldn’t get out of his bed, even though I wanted to leave. I was physically sick; not only still intoxicated from the aftereffects of whatever I consumed, but also bruised, shocked, and traumatized. As I lay in his bed, I listened to Yaniv call a friend and brag about having sex with an 18 year old. His conquest; an accomplishment; a notch on his belt.
He told me that no one could know, because Ayala would be too hurt. Soon, he began ignoring me.
I was disoriented and traumatized. I had absolutely no context to process what had happened. I had no sex education, and certainly no understanding of predators or the culture that supports them. I had been taught a woman should be a virgin until marriage.
I thought sex was about love. What I experienced from him was not love. It was hate and disgust. I didn’t have the language to call this rape. Rape was something to fear from strangers while walking alone down the street. Rape was not committed by a friend.
I thought he was my friend.
I was used, discarded, and alone.
Almost alone. At least I had Gal, I thought. She came home two days later. She knew something had happened by looking at me. I wonder if I reminded her of her previously raped roommate.
Gal immediately began interrogating me. I could see no compassion in her eyes. I told Gal something had happened between Yaniv and I.
She took me down to the basement. It was cold, mechanical, and frightening. We were alone. Then her anger exploded.
She stood over me, intimidating and loud, blaming me for what happened. Her eyes were fire. I had already felt small and violated, but she shamed me into feeling obsolete. I felt extremely dirty. Already in shock, I disassociated from my body. I can’t remember most of her words. I remember being in utter terror of her anger.
She was furious for Ayala and “what I had done to her”. Gal pointed her finger in my face like a weapon. She asked me how I could do this, and that I needed to make this up to Ayala. She made me feel ashamed, that the whole event had been my fault, and that I had brought it upon myself by being so naïve.
After that, I feared Gal. I spent nights out as long as I could, hoping to avoid her. When I did see Gal, she would speak of nothing other than her conviction that I needed to speak with or write to Ayala. She would not let up. She was obsessed. There was absolutely no understanding from her. I don’t know how she could not have seen how the rape changed me. I was no longer the same person.
On my last night in Milan, Gal made one final attempt to get me to submit to her demands. She brought me downstairs to a computer. Gal put her hands on me and forced me into the chair. She made me open my email account and write Ayala’s address in the address bar.
Standing behind me and above me, Gal held my shoulders down with a terrible pressure, preventing me from escape. She attempted to dictate what she called my “confession and apology”. I could not do it. I was crying, and my head seemed to break apart. My heart felt like it was bleeding out. My stomach was in awful knots. I began disassociating from my body. I could not speak. I could not write her lies.
She referred to the rape as “your mistake”.
After what felt like several hours, Gal eventually gave up in disgust. It was late at night. She made me promise I would write the letter to Ayala. I never wrote the letter.
I returned home confused, silent, and ashamed. Later Gal returned to Israel for her military training. I ended my modeling career as another young woman assaulted, used, and disposed by the industry and its enablers. I did not think I would ever see Gal again.
When I was getting my degree in Women’s and Gender Studies, Gal showed up on Maxim in a bikini and heels, the cover girl of their issue on the women of the Israeli Defense Forces.
When I saw her face, I had an immense panic attack. I had no idea how much she would upset me. My rape came flashing back. I could feel Gal’s hands pushing on my shoulders. My throat closed up and my heart raced. The nightmares continued to haunt me every night.
After I graduated, I worked as the director of the sexual assault services program back in my hometown. I spent many years helping survivors to validate their experiences and process emotions, yet I still deeply struggled with my own.
Yaniv Nahoum is responsible for drugging and raping me. That was not Gal’s fault. But her confidence and her power in blaming me opened up a part of my brain, and filled me with an all-consuming shame. I can still feel the pressure of her hands pushing down on me.
The trust she built with me was a gateway to my total devastation.
Predators gain trust in order to exploit it for their advantage.
Gal has succeeded in a predatory industry because she is a predator. She is unafraid to destroy others in pursuit of her ambitions. Like any strong predator, she knows how to target, destroy, and consume the weakest and most vulnerable.
Highly skilled predators in our society manage to land roles where they cultivate public trust.
Bill Cosby put on a sweater and built trust as a Huxtable.
Gal Gadot put on a breastplate and became an icon for women.
A predator in a costume is a wolf in sheep’s clothing.
When Gal Gadot says that she supports sexual assault survivors, do not believe it. Her actions speak louder than words.
*not her real name
#gal gadot#my post got somehow removed from the tag which stinks of supression#so imma keep reposting because TRANSPARENCY PEOPLE
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Colossians 4
COLOSSIANS 4 [Links to all my sites at the bottom of each post]
Psalm 60:4
Thou hast given a banner to them that fear thee, that it may be displayed because of the truth. Selah.
Colossians 4 videos-
https://youtu.be/J5-YhOw_wHA
https://vimeo.com/267593352
ON VIDEO
.The runaway slave and his master
.The door to speak
.Demonstration of the Kingdom in power
.The Barnabus- Paul and John Mark controversy
.Paul claimed no ‘ownership’ [Copyright] for his letters- therefore the Word of the Lord went forth freely [He urged his letters be distributed and read in the early Christian communities- which functioned as an oral culture at first- then his letters would be re- copied and make up 13 books of the New Testament- almost half of the 27 books- if you count Hebrews- more than half- Pastors- Churches- stop copyrighting and selling the Word of God]
.Finish the work God has called you to
.Final thoughts
Isaiah 48:16
Come ye near unto me, hear ye this; I have not spoken in secret from the beginning; from the time that it was, there am I: and now the Lord God, and his Spirit, hath sent me.
OTHER VIDEOS [New below the video links]
4-27-18 Friends- Andy, James, Albert https://youtu.be/7IglDSszjrI
4-27-18 Furman- I teach about Jonah https://youtu.be/wLtiypnj3oo
[Here’s my past teaching on Jonah https://ccoutreach87.com/jonah-links/ ]
4-27-18 Furman’s 1st message https://youtu.be/NMEg-K6_Cg0
4-28-18 The Word of the Lord to judge Manuel Banales https://youtu.be/hrHFHK4wn5A
https://vimeo.com/267011471
https://1drv.ms/v/s!Aocp2PkNEAGMgSUhD0ljpzOImVtQ
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1jzl4XBkvF_m9JjIJzpoc-Gx9HK2C8_BE/view?usp=sharing
4-28-18 Why did the Caller Times cover up the crimes of Judge Manuel Banales? https://youtu.be/3Wbc2py_IDQ
https://vimeo.com/267016033
4-29-18 caller Times says Christians are uneducated- bigoted rednecks! https://youtu.be/KZVRil0clEw
North Bergen [Burger King] https://youtu.be/4S5YHb2hea8
5-1-18 Caller Times unfair criticism of DA Mark Gonzales https://youtu.be/HbUmEvEl0EE
Woke up- North Bergen [The first week I slept in the car- and filmed the journey so to speak] https://vimeo.com/267327913
5-1-18 Friends- Albert- James- Stephen- Reuben [Short healing testimony] https://youtu.be/MO_4CIYRJfI
5-1-18 Friends- Ray- Big Charlie n the 3 Pence coin https://youtu.be/2lawi5xxn_0
[Note - right after I made this video- on the 3 fold cord- and talked about ‘3’ signs- we had 3 earthquakes just north of Corpus Christi] https://www.caller.com/story/news/local/2018/05/01/three-earthquakes-were-reported-south-san-antonio-texas/570393002/
5-2-18 Friends- Reuben- Albert [John 3] https://youtu.be/yYGbQg0Mbn4
Teaching Mark 2 in North Bergen- N.J. https://youtu.be/_SRevM8Tcs4
North Bergen- Gas trouble- 1 https://vimeo.com/267053010
Can’t pay? [ Gas pump- North Bergen] https://vimeo.com/267053138
Mike- North Bergen https://vimeo.com/267151505
Trump press conference- North Bergen https://1drv.ms/v/s!Aocp2PkNEAGMgSYJggwt2XhGjeMh
Plane take off- heading to N.J- NYC trip https://drive.google.com/file/d/1hAc892XMrEN8VoT8hJGe19FF-TzGQt9P/view?usp=sharing
I filmed this walking thru the Fairview cemetery right where I grew up [New Jersey] see some snow too
https://1drv.ms/v/s!Aocp2PkNEAGMgSc_F1DPsqk240SO
Plane landing at Newark [Liberty] airport in New Jersey https://drive.google.com/file/d/1zlfHQ9ZN-Ypef75ovboHKbN64P9oTkMO/view?usp=sharing
North Bergen- New Jersey- Danny gives me a gift this day [He has since died] https://vimeo.com/267493156
Monkey with 3 tails- North Bergen New Jersey
https://youtu.be/mij6WkuCllE
Christmas morning- waking up in the car after living 1 week in North Bergen- in the car https://vimeo.com/267701069
Amos 5:9
That strengtheneth the spoiled against the strong, so that the spoiled shall come against the fortress.
NEW
As we end our study on Colossians- we see some key figures who were helpers of Paul- carrying his letters to the various churches-
Colossians 4:7 All my state shall Tychicus declare unto you, who is a beloved brother, and a faithful minister and fellowservant in the Lord
Colossians 4:8 Whom I have sent unto you for the same purpose, that he might know your estate, and comfort your hearts;
We read about Tychicus in Acts 20:4
Acts 20:4 And there accompanied him into Asia Sopater of Berea; and of the Thessalonians, Aristarchus and Secundus; and Gaius of Derbe, and Timotheus; and of Asia, Tychicus and Trophimus. https://ccoutreach87.com/2017/08/20/acts-20/
The was another carrier of this letter-
Colossians 4:9 With Onesimus, a faithful and beloved brother, who is one of you. They shall make known unto you all things which are done here.
More than likely they were also carrying Paul's letter to Philemon on this journey.
Philemon was a slaveholder- who had a former slave run away.
That slave was Onesimus- and in the letter to Philemon being carried by the slave himself Paul makes a strong argument for Philemon to forgive him and receive him as a brother-
Philemon 1:8 Wherefore, though I might be much bold in Christ to enjoin thee that which is convenient,
Philemon 1:9 Yet for love's sake I rather beseech thee, being such an one as Paul the aged, and now also a prisoner of Jesus Christ.
Philemon 1:10 I beseech thee for my son Onesimus, whom I have begotten in my bonds:
Philemon 1:11 Which in time past was to thee unprofitable, but now profitable to thee and to me:
Philemon 1:12 Whom I have sent again: thou therefore receive him, that is, mine own bowels:
It’s important to see the history behind the letters- and the carriers-
Because in the beginning of this chapter Paul himself talks about slaves and their masters-
Colossians 4:1 Masters, give unto your servants that which is just and equal; knowing that ye also have a Master in heaven.
Some believe Paul was justifying slavery- but the other letter his team was carrying on this journey shows us another view.
Colossians 4:10 Aristarchus my fellowprisoner saluteth you, and Marcus, sister's son to Barnabas, (touching whom ye received commandments if he come unto you, receive him;)
We read of this helper in 3 passages of Acts- 19:29, 20:4 and 27:2-
https://ccoutreach87.com/2017/08/09/acts-19/
https://ccoutreach87.com/2017/08/20/acts-20/
https://ccoutreach87.com/2017/11/06/acts-27/
Yes- he stuck with the apostle all the way to Rome.
And one more note before we end-
Paul speaks well of someone here-
and Marcus, sister's son to Barnabas, (touching whom ye received commandments if he come unto you, receive him;)
In my study on Acts we saw him- and a split that took place because of him [Acts 15] https://ccoutreach87.com/2017/07/03/acts-15/
Acts 15:36 And some days after Paul said unto Barnabas, Let us go again and visit our brethren in every city where we have preached the word of the LORD, and see how they do.
Acts 15:37 And Barnabas determined to take with them John, whose surname was Mark.
Acts 15:38 But Paul thought not good to take him with them, who departed from them from Pamphylia, and went not with them to the work.
Acts 15:39 And the contention was so sharp between them, that they departed asunder one from the other: and so Barnabas took Mark, and sailed unto Cyprus;
Acts 15:40 And Paul chose Silas, and departed, being recommended by the brethren unto the grace of God.
This letter to the Colossians was penned about 12 years after this incident and it seems as if the rift was healed.
Even Paul and his men had times of division- where some went one way- and Paul went another.
Yet in time God would restore those divisions.
Of course Paul does give a few practical teachings too-
Colossians 4:2 Continue in prayer, and watch in the same with thanksgiving;
Colossians 4:3 Withal praying also for us, that God would open unto us a door of utterance, to speak the mystery of Christ, for which I am also in bonds
Colossians 4:4 That I may make it manifest, as I ought to speak.
On the video I gave some examples of what the door of ‘utterance’ means-
It is an opportunity to proclaim truth- to speak it- not just to know it.
I gave a few examples of how this works- even when speaking Truth to Power.
I’ll add my various links and past teachings that relate to this post and end this study with the last 2 verses of the letter-
Colossians 4:17 And say to Archippus, Take heed to the ministry which thou hast received in the Lord, that thou fulfil it.
Colossians 4:18 The salutation by the hand of me Paul. Remember my bonds. Grace be with you. Amen.
As Paul penned this letter sitting in a jail in Rome- he admonishes all of us to finish the ministry we have received from the Lord.
Ministry is not some occupation you feel called to- and than choose to make that a career.
No- it is receiving the purpose that God had pre- planned for you from the start- sitting in a Roman prison and being faithful to the call.
It’s a Prophet by the name of John who had his head taken off because he spoke truth to power.
It’s carrying the message of the Christ of God who was born in a manger- left at the temple at the age of 12-
Went on to call 12 men to follow him- one of whom would betray him and another who would deny him.
It’s the message of a man who struggled in the garden- who the prophet Isaiah said was a man of sorrows- so tormented at times that he would be unrecognizable-
Isaiah 52:14
As many were astonied at thee; his visage was so marred more than any man, and his form more than the sons of men:
A message of a man who was unjustly tried- whipped severely- and hung on a Cross.
His disciples feeling dejected- that all was lost.
And then- he came back from the grave with the scars of his suffering still on him.
Yes- he himself showed us what it meant to be faithful.
And in the end- that's what really counts.
Amen.
Zechariah 3:8
Hear now, O Joshua the high priest, thou, and thy fellows that sit before thee: for they are men wondered at: for, behold, I will bring forth my servant the Branch.
Daniel 7:18
But the saints of the most High shall take the kingdom, and possess the kingdom for ever, even for ever and ever.
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https://ccoutreach87.com/2018/03/20/colossians-1/
https://ccoutreach87.com/2018/04/05/colossians-2/
https://ccoutreach87.com/2018/04/20/colossians-3/
https://ccoutreach87.com/2018/04/27/friends-4/
https://ccoutreach87.com/2018/04/11/friends-3/
Colossians 4:1 Masters, give unto your servants that which is just and equal; knowing that ye also have a Master in heaven.
Colossians 4:2 Continue in prayer, and watch in the same with thanksgiving;
Colossians 4:3 Withal praying also for us, that God would open unto us a door of utterance, to speak the mystery of Christ, for which I am also in bonds
Colossians 4:4 That I may make it manifest, as I ought to speak.
Colossians 4:5 Walk in wisdom toward them that are without, redeeming the time.
Colossians 4:6 Let your speech be alway with grace, seasoned with salt, that ye may know how ye ought to answer every man.
Colossians 4:7 All my state shall Tychicus declare unto you, who is a beloved brother, and a faithful minister and fellowservant in the Lord
Colossians 4:8 Whom I have sent unto you for the same purpose, that he might know your estate, and comfort your hearts;
Colossians 4:9 With Onesimus, a faithful and beloved brother, who is one of you. They shall make known unto you all things which are done here.
Colossians 4:10 Aristarchus my fellowprisoner saluteth you, and Marcus, sister's son to Barnabas, (touching whom ye received commandments if he come unto you, receive him;)
Colossians 4:11 And Jesus, which is called Justus, who are of the circumcision. These only are my fellowworkers unto the kingdom of God, which have been a comfort unto me.
Colossians 4:12 Epaphras, who is one of you, a servant of Christ, saluteth you, always labouring fervently for you in prayers, that ye may stand perfect and complete in all the will of God.
Colossians 4:13 For I bear him record, that he hath a great zeal for you, and them that are in Laodicea, and them in Hierapolis.
Colossians 4:14 Luke, the beloved physician, and Demas, greet you.
Colossians 4:15 Salute the brethren which are in Laodicea, and Nymphas, and the church which is in his house.
Colossians 4:16 And when this epistle is read among you, cause that it be read also in the church of the Laodiceans; and that ye likewise read the epistle from Laodicea.
Colossians 4:17 And say to Archippus, Take heed to the ministry which thou hast received in the Lord, that thou fulfil it.
Colossians 4:18 The salutation by the hand of me Paul. Remember my bonds. Grace be with you. Amen.
Philemon 1:1 Paul, a prisoner of Jesus Christ, and Timothy our brother, unto Philemon our dearly beloved, and fellowlabourer,
Philemon 1:2 And to our beloved Apphia, and Archippus our fellowsoldier, and to the church in thy house:
Philemon 1:3 Grace to you, and peace, from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.
Philemon 1:4 I thank my God, making mention of thee always in my prayers,
Philemon 1:5 Hearing of thy love and faith, which thou hast toward the Lord Jesus, and toward all saints;
Philemon 1:6 That the communication of thy faith may become effectual by the acknowledging of every good thing which is in you in Christ Jesus.
Philemon 1:7 For we have great joy and consolation in thy love, because the bowels of the saints are refreshed by thee, brother.
Philemon 1:8 Wherefore, though I might be much bold in Christ to enjoin thee that which is convenient,
Philemon 1:9 Yet for love's sake I rather beseech thee, being such an one as Paul the aged, and now also a prisoner of Jesus Christ.
Philemon 1:10 I beseech thee for my son Onesimus, whom I have begotten in my bonds:
Philemon 1:11 Which in time past was to thee unprofitable, but now profitable to thee and to me:
Philemon 1:12 Whom I have sent again: thou therefore receive him, that is, mine own bowels:
Philemon 1:13 Whom I would have retained with me, that in thy stead he might have ministered unto me in the bonds of the gospel:
Philemon 1:14 But without thy mind would I do nothing; that thy benefit should not be as it were of necessity, but willingly.
Philemon 1:15 For perhaps he therefore departed for a season, that thou shouldest receive him for ever;
Philemon 1:16 Not now as a servant, but above a servant, a brother beloved, specially to me, but how much more unto thee, both in the flesh, and in the Lord?
Philemon 1:17 If thou count me therefore a partner, receive him as myself.
Philemon 1:18 If he hath wronged thee, or oweth thee ought, put that on mine account;
Philemon 1:19 I Paul have written it with mine own hand, I will repay it: albeit I do not say to thee how thou owest unto me even thine own self besides.
Philemon 1:20 Yea, brother, let me have joy of thee in the Lord: refresh my bowels in the Lord.
Philemon 1:21 Having confidence in thy obedience I wrote unto thee, knowing that thou wilt also do more than I say.
Philemon 1:22 But withal prepare me also a lodging: for I trust that through your prayers I shall be given unto you.
Philemon 1:23 There salute thee Epaphras, my fellowprisoner in Christ Jesus;
Philemon 1:24 Marcus, Aristarchus, Demas, Lucas, my fellowlabourers.
Philemon 1:25 The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit. Amen.
Acts 14:14 Which when the apostles, Barnabas and Paul, heard of, they rent their clothes, and ran in among the people, crying out, https://ccoutreach87.com/2017/06/14/acts-14/
Psalm 149
King James Version (KJV)
149 Praise ye the Lord. Sing unto the Lord a new song, and his praise in the congregation of saints.
2 Let Israel rejoice in him that made him: let the children of Zion be joyful in their King.
3 Let them praise his name in the dance: let them sing praises unto him with the timbrel and harp.
4 For the Lord taketh pleasure in his people: he will beautify the meek with salvation.
5 Let the saints be joyful in glory: let them sing aloud upon their beds.
6 Let the high praises of God be in their mouth, and a two-edged sword in their hand;
7 To execute vengeance upon the heathen, and punishments upon the people;
8 To bind their kings with chains, and their nobles with fetters of iron;
9 To execute upon them the judgment written: this honour have all his saints. Praise ye the Lord.
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