#also: gonna start a queue bc my likes are getting full and I don't have enough braincells to post consistently lmao

[somuchwatersoclosetohome]

stage/fright: the last weekend pt.2 aka time to say goodbye

to commemorate my final yap re stage/fright's run at the wyndham's, bookending this final recap with 2 quotes from my other life as a koreaboo bc (1) you've probably realised now that i'm a sucker for quotes, and (2) pretty

i've already done an Emotional Post re the entire... existence... of this run and what a precious experience it was! so this post is more to recount the actual final performance even tho tbh so many other people were at this one that their recaps are highly recommended!!

✨ for the last time (for the next 148 days anyway), this post contains spoilers for the evening performance of stage/fright on 05/04 ✨

당신 덕에 나 인생이 만날 봄이었습니다. Thanks to you, my life was always spring.

act i

ok well before act i even started there were many things to cover, #1 being that this perf was an official moot convention!!! it was sooo fun to share this with so many of the fandom <3

also s/o to the random man who put his MIDDLE OF ROW A ticket on twickets which meant i got to experience the final show in the front row

the theatre was rammed even before they'd opened the auditorium so there was a queue to get into the stalls..... a queue in which we were stood right behind r's family and yves barre (complete with his staple scarf that makes various appearances in the documentary i couldn't help but notice)... steve's partner was also there!!

cue me internally having 🥺 a 🥺 mental 🥺 breakdown... major feels for them having their families (honorary family in yves' case lol) there to support 💖

so anyway after that awe and shock subsided there we were in row A.... @wintersoulwitch and @varneysfangs made a friend w/ the lady sat next to them who had seen reece in other live stuff (the unfriend right??) that we all then completely fangirled over which was very cute…. gonna be us in 10 years telling the next generation about stage/fright

agreed the…. pertinent….. points of the show at which i was going to look over at @spcvarney

speaking of which, carles' face cOVERED in blood during the theatre opening scene. excellent as usual and it got the longest cheer... so much so that you've got reece literally wiping the blood from his eyes (BIG look at @spcvarney at this point ahem)

generally v emotional watching everything for the Last Time (in london)!!

several highlights of jonathan ross' stint as the hostage, beginning with steve/len's extremely detailed mime of opening a condom packet, including the ripping open with the teeth 😂😭😭😭

followed swiftly by wossy's references to producing tlog, and calling reece handsome AGAIN like he did 20 years ago when he declared reece his fave and called for him to be the next hugh grant ("no disrespect to the rest of you" lmao) (also sharing this vid shamelessly bc 2005!reece does things to my spirit) (also reece in a full on hugh grant romantic lead casting...... i'm still waiting)

again many people have already recounted the mark gatiss beautiful swan neck reference but yea BIG lols for that one

i don't think the shoe came flying off the hostage as it had done for like the last 3 performances LOL

interval thoughts

inspired by @spcvarney i now own a small piece of one of the infamous brown bottles that i swiped from the stage before the curtains came down muahahAHA

act ii

[hugo enters stage right covered in blood] *staring at @spcvarney*

reece and miranda are like full on grinning at each other after his entrance at this point SO CUTE hugo and sherrie au i need it

the my migraines/your yourgraines sketch turned up to 11

LOL steve trips over the word theatre in a serious line ("a bloody good bit of theatre") and reece looks so bemused/confused!! cue them both stifling full on giggles i love it

@wintersoulwitch beat me to this one buuuut i now alWAYS look at the warden/bhav during the rehearsal scene and omg the bit with the stage hand was such a good detail hahaha. after each performance getting right up in each other's faces i was actually certain that they did kiss this time?? or their lips touched... but maybe i was imagining things. still, a very nice touch

hooray the return of the big screen!!! was v fun to see both versions on the same day

when reece reappears in the afterlife the cheer for him 🥹🥹

the last tears of laughter fml!!! so many of the cast were looking so emotional 🥲 i don’t think miranda actually cried but her eyes were full of tears 💖

r’s family were the very last to leave the stalls! they stayed in the seats as everyone filed out and then headed into the private door by the stage

i was a little surprised they didn’t do a lil thing at the end (or simon evans come out to say something) but ha obviously a good reason for it…..

stage door

now if i were a betting woman i would have lost a lot of money on this night bc i was like nahhhh who comes to stage door on the final night of a run??? they will have many other exciting plans and also be knackered

but because pembersmith are gods and the in9 fandom are blessed they DO come out for one final time!!!

so cue me having not brought anything for them to sign and having them sign my cap (the same one i was wearing at my first stage door….. poetry)

they absolutely flew through the queue like true pros… CAT bag discourse has been covered elsewhere but big love for that man, saying mr sheekey threatens to calm the police when the crowd gets too rowdy lmao

the queue is literally back out to the theatre entrance but once everyone dissipates we’re still soaking everything up 😭 and then i yolo’d asking gaby and bhav to sign my cap too!!! bless gaby who only had a biro (so thank you @misskite for the sharpie loan haha). i’m kicking myself for not mentioning the kiss trolling to bhav and how much it was appreciated!!

finally simon evans spotted irl lol

fighting the urge to shout bye steve as he leaves haha

impromptu serenading of @wintersoulwitch with tears of laughter as they leave to catch their coach!!!

and just like that… the london run is over 🌟 see you in september~~~

as promised, the final bookend…

시간은 흘러 다시 돌아오지 않으나, 추억은 남아 절대 떠나가지 않는다. Time flies and never returns, Memory stays and never departs.

[shirogane-oushirou]

8,6,7,5,3, and 9 for whichever f/o you're feeling right now! (for the spicy asks)

i forgot i had that ask game in my queue. screaming crying sobbing. i don't know why this is making me nervous, i'm CONSTANTLY in nsft post tags blabbering on about how i want to give my otter man a brain-melting orgasm to cure him of his Conditions... ;;;

answering these for ren bc he's the one i'm most... in tune with? i COULD answer some spicy asks about some of the others (mars is a good runner-up), but i've never put as much thought into this side of a relationship as i have with ren. SO!!!

whether i ramble on with details nobody needs to know or i just give a-few-words-long answers is up to fate. 🙏🏻 (edit post-writing: ......you wanna guess which option fate went with? 😩 i'm so sorry in advance kjNKJN)

3: Is the sex between you and your f/o usually sensual? Passionate? Animalistic?

more sensual and passionate, if i have to pick among those options.

r!ren's much more passionate from the start, since he isn't forcing himself to play a role and can just be open with his affections. he's the kind of guy to quickly go from a light kiss while we watch something to Full Throttle if he's given the OK kjndfkjn.

doc!ren starts out playful and sensual, and he has more control wrt things like light affection staying light, but as things heat up the mask starts to slip and the passion comes out in him as well.

but, with both rens, we're also very silly. like, he's intentionally being a goof the entire time (see: that one post about an f/o saying "shoot your goo!" when you're about to cum), and if his hands get shaky while he's trying to put on a condom, that isn't gonna ruin the mood... if anything i'd be like, "oh no, he's failing to put the condom on... oooh he's struggling so hard... 💕" and then offer to help with my own shaky hands kjsndkjn. like this is us when something silly happens or we have trouble with something stupid:

5: Do you and your f/o prefer having sex in the dark or with the lights open?

lights on! he wants to be able to see everything... not only in the "i love your body" sense (which is also true), but in the "i want to see every facial reaction so i can figure out what works for you and what doesn't" sense.... whether he's doc!ren or r!ren, he has a mind for study, close examination, and analysis.

and -i- want to see his every reaction bc he's handsome and cute and veeery expressive :3 i wanna see him Fucking Lose It in full hd quality.

6: What was the most embarrassing thing to happen between you and your f/o before, during, and/or after sex?

i can't think of anything in particular that's truly embarrassing tbh. i think there are also things that both of us could feel embarrassed about individually that the other would find endearing, but i don't really count that... :/

idk, it just isn't something i've put much thought into in spite of the fact that something would inevitably happen at some point!

7: Any favourite positions?

nothing too creative! we both enjoy missionary, cowgirl, pretzel dip, and reverse spooning, and he in particular loves giving and receiving oral so face sitting + kneeling at the edge of the bed... really anything that's face-to-face and as close as possible.

and if i'm not up for anything on my end, i'm usually more than happy for us to sit or lie next to each other while i help get him off (often a good chance for some fun power play, teasing, etc) or give him JOI if i'm not up for anything physical at all (ALSO a good chance for power play and teasing lol). he understands that we have VASTLY different "batteries", so even if i'm just sitting next to him while he takes care of things himself, to him that just means we're sitting close and spending time together, yippee~!!

8: Any favourite places (ex. bedroom, kitchen, on a desk, against the wall  etc)?

honestly, if it were up to him, i think he'd be up for just about anywhere, and in my wildest dreams i'd also be up for more creative use of space... but because of my pain and health issues, the best places are the bed and sofa ;;; kissing elsewhere for a bit would be okay, but once things really start to get going we need to get somewhere soft and cushioned lmao.

9: Any kinks and/or fetishes?

OKAYYYY. the Big Question. so. i imagine us, when we start discussing the possibility of sex, sharing our most searched "tags" as a starting point to see what we have in common, figure out if one of us is squicked by one of the other's kinks and need to avoid it, etc. the most relevant kinks are:

femdom (no shit lol, we VERY quickly figure out we're a perfectly matched sub top and dom bottom/service dom)

light bondage (nothing too intense, just a "hands tied to the bedposts, blindfold over the eyes" every now and again kind of deal)

edging (gotta make my boy sooooo desperate~)

body worship (self explanatory)

scent (i can't decide if ren's like... a scent guy or a MY PERSON'S SCENT guy... but he loves to bury his head in my hair and neck, especially if we're doing our ro's-battery-is-empty sessions and he just wants to lean into me.)

sound (to complement his scent Thing i guess ksjdkjn voices are a huge things for me, and i think moaning is super cute, and uh. welp...!! he's good at it!!)

i'm not gonna lie, i think it'd be hot as fuck to fuck doc!ren in gloves and his labcoat KJNJLJNKSJM i have a thing for hands and labcoats so the double whammy would knock me out cold.

aaand i simply enjoy seeing my lovely boyfriend blissed the fuck out ^^ my cocktail of being ace, what i can feel, how often i feel it, etc. is a little fucked, but even when everything is at its lowest possible levels, i'd still get some indescribable Thing out of helping push ren to his limits, watching him completely lose it, and enjoying as he comes down from the high. it'd make me feel good to see him feel good, even if the source of that good feeling is different for both of us. 💕

[pboogerswbb]

Chapter 6

Oh you ANGEL I cant believe you would spoil us in this way with a surprise chapter. This was the perfect amount of humour, horniness, and EDGING. I mean I could do without the edging, but I get it you can't give away the farm right away.

I checked out the Instagram of that Maiya chick you said Zari looks like. GYAT DAMN.

lol Paige is sooooooo in her head about all of this my god

I can't believe people thought she might be mad at Zari after running out of the party… I fear Zari could throw a brick at her head and she'd be like, thank you, again!!!

“My favourite girls!!” Trey’s voice blatantly interjects my spinning thoughts" -> Trey GO AWAY

"Why was she assuming how I felt anyway? Like the kiss mattered to me? Like I’d want more?" -> wow she is really crashing out

"You know what this is? Bad friendship." -> Im dying

BOB BUECKERS APPEARANCE YESSSSSSSS

Ugh hes such a good dad, the perfect man

"He always said I needed a woman to keep me in check" -> don't we all

"Did she not like the way I kissed? Was I off my game? Maybe the tongue was too much? Maybe she didn’t like my outfit." -> Paige crashing out is TOOO GOOD I am giggling as I read

"Too frenzied to even throw a shirt over my sports bra" -> mhm sure sure

"Quick, improvise." -> your Paige inner monologue is so fucking funny and spot on

" This bitch hadn’t been resting" -> 😂😂😂😂

I'm with Paige I can't stand when people don't know how to be sick. Except I call my nest a 'cinnamon roll'.

Everything about it makes me want to wrap her in my arms and never let anyone close in case they hurt her. -> Oh P you are so down bad I don't want to see your heart get broken

"The blonde is chewing on an apple in her sports bra and black Nike sweats, muscles grown more prominent over her training period with the Wings, arms bigger, shoulders wider, outline of the muscles on her abdomen faintly visible even as she slouches." -> Zari, you're down bad. accept it. its ok. she's delicious.

"But now as she sat there, looking like that, I wanted nothing but to get on her. To climb onto her lap and kiss her again like we had on the balcony. " -> Zari girl, I don't know how else to spell this out for you

"that no matter what this was it would have to stay casual." -> well thats gonna be an issue cause Paige is a lovergirl and very down bad for you. Queue Chappell Roan.

“Paige?” “Yeah mama?” “Kiss me.” -> oh wow weve graduated to mama

Jesus christ this makeout is hot as fuck

“Please, Iz, would do anything to fuck you,” -> subtle P!

“Would be so good, just lemme eat that pussy,” I moan into her ear. “Gimme five.” -> Dear god how could any woman say no to this. Trust me, it won't take 5. Maybe 30 seconds.

KIRAN you PUSSYBLOCKER. Imagine he knew he was just interrupting Paige Bueckers tryna fuck is sister 😂. Is Drew or KK gonna call next time they are about to fuck? Menaces. Thanks for brightening my morning with this piece of EROTIC LITERATURE. you the best. 🦫

I AM SO SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO REPLY TO THISSS BECAUSE ILY FOR THIS like these are the highlights of my life atp (my life is void of meaning but working on it)

i like the edging... anyways

writing paige's internal monologue is so much fun but has also started to flow really naturally, like it's such a joy to write and a very easy way to bring in some humor and lightness so i'm glad you found it funny bc i had fun writing it!! girl was full on crashing out

omg right paige would neverrrrr

bob bueckers appearance coming in chapter 7 too

zari stronger than me because i would be on that STAT

its so funny to me that only like a month back kiran was telling zari about how hot paige is and now she's COCKBLOCKING HER SISTER AND PAIGE

anyway... keep kk in mind i guess

ILY YOU'RE THE BEST

[zigtheeortega]

sorry i haven’t been that active this week and i won’t be too active for a while LMAO so if you see me wild out only on oph days u know why SJDFKSDJF

[colour-outside-the-liness]

Hey, I'm doing good too. Just normal amounts of stressful stuff right now. Just moved to a country I've never been to before but can't complain, things are not as hard as the last time I did this so. Thanks for asking! Yeah, I saw you posting about some pretty scary health issues before, I'm glad you came out of that alive and hope you're healthier now!

The nerve some people have! Haha I know I would be pissed if people were questioning my intelligence like that especially after a couple of drinks in haha. Though I do like taunting people when I play group games, I'll be like "don't need to try that hard guys, you're gonna lose anyway" just to mess with them or just call people sore losers if they accuse me of cheating haha (they're probably right on the accusations tho). People get real mad sometimes it's kinda funny. 😂

Omg literally laughed out loud reading this! Hahaha, how did you manage to fall over a road sign then end up in a ditch? lol omg hope you didn't get hurt too bad 😂 I was trying to downplay my drunken escapades but since you shared yours I should tell you my worst one:

I was at this summer street party at night and got drunk on something made out of tropical herbs and cachaça (which is about 48% alcohol), drank 3 and a half bottles of that like it was apple juice, made friends with a bunch of strangers in a bathroom queue (who tried to talk to me weeks later but I had no idea who they were), had to be held by my best friend while I peed (mostly missing the toilet), fell in the middle of the street and scraped my knee, threatened this boy who was helping me walk and told him not to try anything funny or I would beat him up, then dragged my friends to the beach and left them shortly after to go make out with my ex, came back with lipstick all over my mouth and chin and when my friends asked what I was doing I said I was just talking to my ex and they were like NO YOU WERE NOT, hahaha then I kissed all my girl friends on a dare and we danced under the full moon, then I told my best friend I had to puke so she took me to the ocean but I changed my mind and happened to step on a dead turtle on the way back and started crying bc of it, but last month my best friend told me it was a rock I had stepped on (I believed it was a dead turtle for 7 years!). Had the worst hangover of my life the next day. ✌️✨

Ah I'm happy you liked it! I've never listened to Six musical before but it sounds fun! I can see why you like it haha made me want to dance around my apartment 💃. And hey if liking musicals is your thing then it's great, I'm sure Hozier will understand if he's not your top artist of the year. 😋 Here's my "damie" Pinterest board if you or anyone else wants to check it out, totally recommend making one if you're a visual person like me!

https://pin.it/UcHVlkq

Oh I could talk about Dani and Jamie forever I think. I love the beast in the jungle speech too and it's so painful to watch, VP delivered that beautifully, but I have to admit I'm always a crying mess from episode 1 when older Jamie starts reciting that song about being sad while waiting for her lover to return, this show is fucking cruel I hate it and love it at the same time hahaha. Omg your mom 😂 but I mean it's truly an honor to be compared to someone like Dani, no? She's really great even if she needs a little help haha (don't we all).

Aaah you're amazing! Thank you so much, I'll read this pirate AU soon!

I used to draw a lot, really loved doing it when I was a kid as I said before, and all throughout adulthood too but I haven't done that in almost a year now bc I've got a bit of a case of burnout I guess, it just takes a lot of effort to do it when it shouldn't be like that at all. I used to do fanart too, for other fandoms. Even made one for Dani x Jamie but ended up not liking how it turned out haha. I've got a lot of respect for writers and fanfic writers also! Yall can make words make sense in really interesting and beautiful ways, build worlds so enthralling I can see them vividly in my head. Writing is such an incredibly fascinating skill to have! And I guess the most important thing is that we enjoy doing these things right? Even if we think we're not particularly good at it.

Anyway, have a lovely weekend! 👋✨

Good I'm glad you're doing great but sorry you're dealing with stressful stuff!! Hope living in a new country goes well for you I'm so jealous that you've lived in different countries I'd love to live somewhere else even if just for s few years!! Awwh thank you so much I definitely came out of it alive and am feeling so much better now thank you I mean I do some pretty ditzy things so when people say it to me it's pretty deserved sometimes, I'm secretly smart and people just don't expect it so I never mind too much haha I might have to start saying the things that you do and just taunting them over it I mean, I usually do win even when they make me answer different questions so I will definitely have to start saying things like that to them Haha I love that you're just like "yeah they're probably right in their accusations" I agree seeing how mad some people get over games and stuff is funny (it's me I'm people I hate loosing games depending on what it is and I am very competitive) So it was very dark and all we had for light was my roommates flashlight on her phone but while we were walking home a friend of ours that lived else where kept texting her to make sure we were still safe (my phone as dead at this point) so while she was texting him her flashlight was facing down and someone had moved this road sign to the footpath and it was on that sits on the floor so while I couldn't see it I walked into it and fell over it but while I feel I grabbed hold of it and flipped with it and fell in a ditch with it on top of me... I was fine and was just laid laughing while my friend looked down at me and in the most northern accent ever just said "get up you dickhead." and helped me off of the floor and then asked if I was okay... and I was so it was all good!! Haha 😂 I love this drunken story that sounds like one hell of a night and is a roller coaster from start to finish!! I'm sorry you thought you had stood on a dead turtle for 7 years though, someone really should've told you that it was just a rock!! But that sounds like my kind of night!! I love nights like that... stories that will last a life time... the only down side is the hangover... luckily I have only ever had one hang over in my life and it wasn't the morning after the road sign fiasco... I felt surprisingly good the morning after that haha 😂 It's such a good musical it's about Henry VIII wives and I just love everything to do with his wives and that musical is so much fun and actually gives a little insight to the lives the six Tudor queens had away from Henry and with him because at school we're mainly just taught about him which sucks!! I loved the Hozier song and am definitely gonna have to listen to more of his stuff!! I love musicals so much I mainly listen to musical soundtracks at the minute- usually, Legally Blonde and Six on repeat haha 😂 Ooo thank you I will definitely check out this Pinterest board thanks for sending it to me!! I could talk about them forever too... since watching Bly Manor my niece has been asking me so many questions about it and I am more than happy to talk to her about it haha!! The beast in the jungle speech just breaks my heart every time I relate to it so much and VP just delivers it so beautifully!! Oh yeah now I know at the beginning that it's older Jamie I am just a wreck the whole show is just so beautiful and heart breaking at the same time I LOVE IT!! Even though it makes me sob- I keep putting myself through it!! I mean, yeah I was happy that she said it Dani is great but it was the way she said it... my mum can be something else sometimes... she said she thought Dani was like me the first time she does the accent when she says "I've fallen quite in love with London" because I just randomly do accents a lot too but it was the way she was like "She needs help... but I like her she reminds me of you" I was just like... "Should I go get help?" I still don't know the answer to my question about if I need help or not but I mean I probably do need it You're welcome I really hope you like it!! It's a

great fic I love it!! Yeah I get that if stuff starts taking too much effort and burns you out you're not gonna wanna keep doing it so it's understandable that you stopped!! I think fan art is great and I really would love to be able to do it myself but I just don't have the skill it takes!! Awwh it's a shame you didn't like the Dani x Jamie one you did I would've loved to have seen it!! Honestly there are so many talented writers out there and when I read their fics I am just in awe of the worlds they have built and the stories they have created we are so blessed in this fandom to have so many amazing writers and so many amazing fics out there Oh yeah definitely its important to enjoy what you do!! I know I love writing and love writing fics for Dani and Jamie so I think I'll be doing it for a while even if I'm not great at it haha Awwh thank you very much I hope you have a great weekend too!! ☺️