#also yeah that’s why i don’t tend to use reddit much lmao

[shadowpeachyuri]

Asks are getting kinda long so. Mostly, I wonder why Reddit is so ticked off at Mac lmao. Everywhere I go, it's either insane villain apologism by making the hero pathetic and wrong, or extreme villain antagonism by overblowing consequences. Bud got dragged out of hell after centuries, got a super snack out of MK's powers, vented in a theatre before a trauma flashback of MK coming to whoop his butt reminded him of SWK and couldn't even skedaddle before Not-Mayor forced him into a symmetrical wardrobe, I mean. an unwilling henchminion arc, and proceeded to get his butt whooped by the gang who love to target his trauma eye and get looney tunes whumped by electrocution in a giant lantern, tossed over a ship, and my little pony friendship is magic style song blasted in his ears. and whatever hell portal Not-Mayor dunked his head in while chained up, a few times over. he was about to throw up with that face he made when LBD semi-possessed him. I think that's enough consequences, he already got The Talk(tm) tied up again w MK, (a compliant hostage) and mostly keeps vagueing warnings to the squad, being very idgaf about LBD. Not much villain behavior compared to others I've seen. He's not even an anti-villain, he's just a self-driven traumatized survivor who vents to people in ambiguous closed off ways and tends to cross over into jerk territory. So I'm here like, are half of tumblr/reddit posts out-dated, bc if someone isn't salty about S1 Mac (rare) they are TICKED about past!Mac (frequent) to which I ask, what did bro DO. I have never seen fandom run on such hypothetical anger before. What I miss, because past!Mac's issues are just vocalized as "never made his own choices." which, is NOT a thing to apologize abt? if anything, it would fuel the fire? It sounds like a reason to ditch your friends instead of following along and passively complaining. A lot of it is also abandoning SWK, but. he visited the mountain? I see a lot about Flower Fruit burning taken from JTTW which is interesting (so yeah, I think fandom relies on the book a lot for their character feelings) bc SWK learns that after beating LBD three times WHICH IS INTERESTING because Mac says "looks like OUR OLD FRIEND The Lady Bone Demon is back" our old friend?? OUR?? by osmosis I thought their break up happened because they couldn't beat her together, and then I watched the show and there was nothing on that. but since learning the twitter post theory about memory manip, well. ShadowPeach just got more tragic. its too bad tho, I would've loved a story of accidentally killing your best friend and realizing after instead of another oh no it was this other villain behind it. but alright. it makes too much sense tho based on SWK's reactions.

OH I DIDNT EVEN CATCH THAT “OUR” bit!! it does beg the question a little bit of “why did she resurrect him then,” but at the same time, it’s a very interesting theory!!

[shoezuki]

This is a post on the cheating accusations around dream mostly surrounding his response video.

If you don’t want to see this or any of these posts then blacklist the tag #discourse

SO I’ve been doing a lot of digging into what dream has said in his response to Geosquare’s original video and report, which was compiled and conducted by the Minecraft Java mods on speedrun.com. 

I won’t talk about that original report in detail, but basically: the mods came to the conclusion that Dream had a 1 in 7.5 trillion chance of getting the pearl bartering rates and the blaze drop odds that he did within the 6 streams he did. As in, someone would need that luck to replicate what dream got. Therefore, he cheated. 

I’m going to put this into a sort of ‘point form’ in according to topic, attempting to put it in chronological order.

Dream’s Initial Tweets

Ok so first like. these are bad. these tweets are what he said (on twitter, excluding in the speedrunning discord) directly after the video was Uploaded to Geo’s channel. 

worth noting he did apologize later, although i wanted to talk about these two instances so i felt the need to include it. 

there’s a lot of interesting wording in the apology tweet itself too. I personally find that when he apologizes he tends to still be very subtextually angry in them with the tone, but more specifically. where he says ‘although i have reason to be upset’, that’s kinda weak and really unneeded. Alongside the ‘intense criticism’, it reads as him trying to say he’s still in the right. kind of like “im sorry i was rude even though I had reason to be rude’. Its an apology sure but he’s not saying sorry for how he really reacted; its justified to him.

Dream’s Response Video

Dream posted a response on his side channel DreamXD on the 22nd, along with the report he had a supposed astrophysicist conduct. I’m going to talk about the report separately from the video for reasons I’ll explain. 

Frankly, the video doesn’t really summarize or explain the report in a meaningful way. At most, it takes some points from it but tends to twist the numbers around, misunderstand the probability and math, and also what the report itself concludes. 

Essentially, dream’s video insists that the numbers found by the mods are wrong and therefore he didn’t cheat at all, yet the report concludes that the numbers found by the mods weren’t entirely accurate, however they’re still extremely unlikely. This is also all under the assumption that the report is entirely correct (ill say how its not next)

His first point is that only his 1.16 run (that was at 5th place two months ago, would have now been 16th) was deemed cheated. This is true; the mods have said that he isnt banned outright and theres no reason to question the legitimacy of his 1.15 runs. 

He also concludes that Geo’s statement that Dream didn’t cooperate with them, and that he deleted 1.16 mod folders, was false. This one is a little more complicated. It could more be chalked up to a miscommunication, although it’s relevant. Geosquare posted screenshots of the specific conversation they had:

Essentially it wasn’t entirely clear, i can understand how geo and the mods interpreted it in such a way. Altho April added in a quote retweet thread that dream didn’t supply the folder she asked for, so he didn’t supply everything they asked for like he states in the video

Essentially: yeah, misleading and weird on both ends. I dont think this is really anything quantifiable, although dream talked about this in the video heavily. 

Out of this though, Geo DID correct himself in the description of the mods’ video. Dream shows this in his own response, but it crops out some of what geo says. here’s from dream’s video

that Update 2 is where he corrects himself. literally why the fuck would you crop it like this and put it in the video i mean this looks so weird and genuinely doesnt provide anything. Here’s what geo actually said

Dream specifically cut it before the line where geo mentions how he said he deleted his specific 1.16 speedrun profile. This one is just so dumb to me. I’d say ‘why not include that’ but either i feel its a) so there’s no potential for people to say what he had actually said could be interpreted otherwise easily or b) doesnt want people to know he got so upset he deleted files (ego wise yknow). Again, I dont think this is definitive of anything but god. it feels scummy lmao

The Video: Incorrect Representation of His Own Report

Dream straight up doesnt present the report’s numbers properly. In fact it makes the entirety of his visuals forfeit, i.e. the gold block analogy that goes on for like 20 minutes. 

The mods said his luck was 1/7.5 trillion. Dream’s report says its 1/10 million (with the addition of 5 other streams) or 1/100 million (only the 6 streams).

I’ll only consider the 1/10 mil odds, since its all dream really brings up. but Basically; there’s not much difference between 1/10 million and 1/7.5 trillion. 

Dream says that the difference is 7.5 trillion minus 10 million, aka 7.4999 trillion. This is what his entire visual with the gold blocks is based on. This is absolutely incorrect, i cant stress that enough. 

You can’t find the difference of fractions by subtracting only the denominators. Like. this is elementary school math. it just doesnt work. 

It’d actually be calculated as: (1/10 000 000) - (1/7 500 000 000 000) = (74999/7 500 000 000 000)

If the mods are wrong, they’re only wrong by 749999/7.5 trillion. that’s literally only  0.000000099999866666667. 

Dream no doubt saw the numbers, considered 10 million vs. 7.5 trillion, and used these big numbers to hold his own point. PROBABILITY DOESNT WORK LIKE THAT. I really think he was just taking advantage of the seemingly big numbers here and wrote it out in a way that favoured him. The gold block analogy in the video played throughout the entire video practically, jokes were made on it, and he made a point of it being ‘so big the game crashed’. 

It’s just plain wrong. even so a difference in the odds doesnt prove shit. He’s downplaying his own odds that he found too. 1/10 million isnt a small number. Even though the legitimacy of that calculation is in question, it is still significant enough to proclaim he cheated. 

Some quick points before I move onto the report; these aren’t as significant in my eyes but it adds to the picture

there’s been criticism of his joking manor throughout the entire video, very specifically the Bill Nye joke. Considering he doesnt actually have a name to provide for his astrophysicist, this joke doesnt feel right

the mod he had a voice clip from (willz) even believes that he cheated and has agreed with the mod team the whole time. 

Dream never has a name for the mod who is apparently on his side (more understandable), the minecraft developer he quoted, or the astrophysicist (most damning)

Dream states that fabric is used by most speedrunners which is true, but fabric and fabric API are different; dream also had the latter installed. my knowledge of how theyre different is limited, all i really know is the API is what can enable editing of the code while fabric is more a modloader. im not entirely sure on this

Dream has said at the end of the video that all funds will go to the mod team so they can make a client that will regulate cheaters. this has been noted as feeling manipulative or like a ‘bribe’, but it definitely puts the mods in a bad position. 

either they accept it and look like they ‘gave in’ to dream and therefore acknowledge him in the right

they deny it and look selfish/taking dream’s kindness for granted

geo said they would insist it goes to a charity instead

Dream constantly disregards the mods as young, inexperienced, ‘just volunteers’ etcetcetc, despite the fact that theyre analysis has been discussed by people with confirmed PhDs without much criticism

Dream’s Report

The report itself is extremely interesting, in that it’s very questionable, but even so it doesn’t come to the conclusion that dream didn’t cheat. The tone between the video and the report is drastically different. 

This is from the “3. What are the goals of this document?” section:

It essentially says this isnt intended, from the very beginning, to completely exonerate dream of cheating. Also note that the author says the mods’ report was mostly correct. 

This is at the end of “9 Conclussions”:

It does notably say cheating isnt the only explanation, but it doesnt actually go as far to say that it’s not possible that he cheated. 

But this can be argued to not matter if we consider the validity of the report as a whole

Dream’s Report: Criticisms

Possibly the first and most known debunking of the report is by u/mfb on reddit, although there’s been much more such as this programmer criticizing the code provided at the end of the report (partially due to how the author of it stated that piglins barter 4-7 pearls, which is incorrect: it’s 4-8), Andrew Gelman, an actual statistician professor from harvard, commented on the original mods’ report as ‘impressive’ while Dream’s report is being regarded as something funny in the comments, and even analysis of dream’s behaviours and his argument by a law student

But what u/mfb posted is what i’ll focus on. Some background into the user; he’s a particle physicist, is moderator in subreddits like r/cosmology and r/astrophysics, he’s regarded as a reliable source on r/askscience and r/askreddit. Basically, multiple other people have vouched for him and before all this he had many posts in these fields. 

that’s already better than the unnamed astrophysicist. 

The post is better speaking for itself but here is a few exerpts from it;

Essentially, the report’s methods are debunked by u/mfb-, alongside that a moderator of r/statistics regarded the report as ‘nonsensical in its application of statistics’ and linked to u/mfb-’s comment. 

i’m going to end this here. Partially because severe backpain or whatever,.

but I want to say at this point its practically definitive that dream cheated, that he lied to us, and that he continues to do so. Much more could be said on his video such as his tone, intentions, the overt emphasis on the ‘biases’ of the mods. 

I havent even mentioned that the ‘astrophysicist’ themself may be a scam; they are sourced from a website that is extremely sketchy, has no names attached to it, and was created less than a year ago (with practically no traffic on it until maybe a month ago). 

But i hope this is coherent. I have interest in this so if theres questions im always open. 

[rhiminee]

Therapy Sessions: Track by track feels

So ok I’ve had time to listen to David’s new album *mumble hundred* times since it came out earlier this week and I think I finally am ready to share my thoughts and feelings as I listen to each song. Sorry this took a few days. I’ve had some personal things going on and I wanted to be in a clearer state of mind before I wrote all this down. :) Here we go!!!

Track 1 - Paralyzed

This song. This song is like a whole different side of David. I honestly don’t usually have favorites of any album but this song is such a favorite of mine. I almost don’t think it’s fair because this is the only song off the album that I’ve seen him perform in concert and that’s a huge factor for me. He SLAYS this live. It’s been out since last August and it’s so next level. It’s almost like it comes from another universe??? Not that there’s a single thing wrong with the rest of the album it’s just that this song is WOW. Its like its own entity. It’s a banger and an anthem and I could listen to it 24/7. David wails on it and you feel every second with a sense of urgency. Honestly one of my favorite things he’s ever done. Wait. Change that. It’s my favorite song he’s ever done. Period. 

Track 2 - You Worry

This title is such a false lead! lol. I thought ok this is gonna be about trying to control your worries and how to be positive, etc. But spoiler alert: David Archuleta is a sneaky cupcake. DON’T YOU WORRY BOUT ME. icu what you did there David. This song is just such a mood. It starts off kinda slow but then it kicks up after the first verse and you know David is messing with you. It’s almost got a reggae type chill vibe to it with the ya-da-da-da-da and the melody. Or maybe that’s just me. “I’ve got my reasons why I am the way I am, so don’t you worry me”. “Living life in a bubble still comes with it’s troubles, I’ve still got a lot to learn about me but that’s ok.” This reminds me of a more mature version of Other Things In Sight from his last album. Like he was a bit bothered in OTIS but now he’s just like whatev. lol. I love it!! One of my faves from this album.

Track 3 - Ok, All Right

This is the 2nd of 3 songs on this album that we had already heard when the album was released. This song is fun and a good mantra for 2020 to try to keep ourselves sane. We need it. I like the sassiness of this and the unexpected changes in melody! David did an acoustic version of it during his launch party that I’m fully 100% in deep love with. Check it out if you get a chance.

Track 4 - Patient

Oh hi, song that I love! I don’t know why I love this so much but I would put it in my top songs on the album. Maybe it’s the stutter singing (is that what you call it??? Le-le-le-le-le-let me know) it makes my heart feel joyful. “I tell myself remember, remember to breathe, I’m trying to be patient, so won’t you please be patient, be patient with me” “Jump the gun, tend to run off at the mouth, I see that it’s in your eyes” “Find the beauty in the letting go, hurry up and learn to take it slow”. It’s almost got a bit of an R&B feel to it. Is that just me?? Maybe it’s just me. I have a pure love for this song. It just makes me so happy listening to it.

Track 5 - Need

This one of only two slower tempo songs on the album (Just Breathe is the other). David uses his lower register, especially in the first verse. Honestly when this song started I was like...is this a duet? Who is singing? Lmao. It was David. In addition to it being a lower register there’s almost a bit of a slurry quality to his pronunciation when he sings here. Or maybe it’s an overlay for the song? Idk. His voice just sounds different to me here. I’m gonna be honest and say this is my least favorite track on the album. Maybe I need to listen more. It’s not a bad song, just not my vibe and the vocals throw me off a bit. Listen and let me know what y’all think!

Track 6 - Brave

This song is such a change of pace from the previous one! It’s got an intriguing percussive cadence in the beginning, fast singing with short phrases and then bursts out into long soaring notes in the chorus, braaaaaaaaaaave!! It’s also has the honor of containing the lyric “bit me in the butt” and I laughed so hard I had had to start the song over. I really like this one!

Track 7 - Good in the Bad

THIS SONG. I wasn’t sure what to think the first time I listened. My brain was like, do I like this? Then the second time I was like, ok yeah. Then the third time and the next 500 times I was like, hi you are my true love. Seriously my level of obsession with this song now. If Paralyzed wasn’t on this album this would be my favorite song. I don’t think Paralyzed should count because yeah it’s a phenomenon and should not be compared to anything else. So. This is my favorite song on the album. I love love love love it. I can’t stop listening. “When it all goes wrong and you’re having a moment, you got to go all out, go bring back the sun out. And if it all goes wrong and you’re living in darkness, well that’s the only way the stars can shine” YES SIR “Fear is like a magnet that keeps pulling you down, so take another look because yeah it won’t take you long, give a break to your mind”. I don’t know why this song speaks so much to me but it does. Maybe because I tend to get stuck worrying about worst case and bad things that could happen and have happened. I know you can’t just ignore that stuff but idk this song just hit me different. Also the cadence and beat really drives the message. I just love everything about it.

Track 8 - Switch

Omg yep. #2 fav song after Good in the Bad. This is such an earworm! Honestly very radio friendly song. “why do i do that why do i do that” that hook. I always hit the switch and the tables start to flip, then the walls come up again, the beginning starts to end. why do i do that. Y’all. I feel that on every level. You need this song in your life. Along with Paralyzed it’s one of only two songs on this album that’s just plainly stating here’s my problem without offering a solution or “hey it’s ok we’re all like that”. I appreciate that David offers these songs too. I know and completely understand that for him music is about offering a message and hope and help to others. That’s one thing I love so much about him. But I also like that sometimes he just says here’s my issues. The humanity jumped out, that sometimes we’re just critical of ourselves without positive thoughts. Sometimes you just wanna be sad or mad at yourself. There’s time later to re-focus. It’s ok to just claim that personal honesty for a bit. If that even makes sense. But yeah. Love love this song. It’s a true jam.

Track 9 - Just Breathe

This song is like a bath in warm silk after you’ve been cold and lonely. It’s an experience. It’s like meditation in song form. Refreshing and hypnotizing. ‘I am not weak I am strong, there is still more I can offer. Someday you’ll see the better version of me. When it all stops spinning, when it all slows down. I was swimming deeper but I didn’t drown. Just breathe. So I open up to the flow and learn to love you as we go, until I don’t think I just know.’ It’s like a midsummer night’s dream in song form. <3

Track 10 - Future Self

So true and surprisingly funny! This is such a quirky song. Any song that references reddit and smash bros gets an A+ in my book lol. I was surprised because a lot of times the last track is kind of a throw way imho but this one had me smiling and bopping! It’s a love letter to finding yourself and being kind to yourself. 

Final thoughts:

You guys are gonna laugh because I feel like I say this anytime a new album comes out but I honestly think this is my favorite album that David has ever done. It’s cohesive and fun to listen to and says a lot without being too heavy. It’s so awesome to see the progression in David’s music but even more so to know it’s a reflection of the progression in his life. He’s not afraid to say he’s got issues but he has been working hard on facing those and making strides. It shows in his music. I feel a sense of joy I haven’t heard before. This album is so good. The production quality, the vocals are on point, the beats are stellar. Please check it out if you haven’t already!

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[purplesurveys]

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Looks and Personality

What do you look like? I tick all the marks of a Filipina - kinda tiny, black eyes, morena, flat nose. I’m on the slender side, have thick, wavy hair that gets frizzy when it’s hot, and huge thighs when I sit down.

How often do you bathe? I don’t really have a constant schedule. I take a bath everyday when I have school; I could take a bath everyday especially during summer; but I can also opt to do it every other day when I feel lazy/when it’s colder.

How do you wear your hair? Down, low ponytail, high ponytail, or in a bun depending on what I’m wearing.

What colours do you tend to wear? Black, white, and any muted shade. I have very little color in my wardrobe.

Do you have any tattoos? What, where and why? Nope. I had always wanted to have a ton until I realized I was scared of needles.

What kind of clothes do you wear? My style is a mix of classy and trendy, so I’ll wear little black dresses with flats but I can also sometimes wear a simple top with culottes or long dresses paired with sneakers. Idk, depends on my mood for the day really.

What kind of jewelery do you wear? I’ve stopped wearing jewelry. The two necklaces Gab got me already broke and I haven’t had them replaced with any new ones. Not a fan of rings and I don’t really have bracelets.

Is there anything else you often wear? I’m not too picky with what I put on. My must-have is just a black hairtie on my wrist.

Would you say you had a “look”? Yeah I think so. I’ve molded my style to make it akin to Audrey Hepburn’s, who’s like my biggest idol eveeeeerrrrrrrrr.

When going out, do you dress up or down? Depends on what period of the sem I’m in. I’ll definitely dress up at the start because I want to look good in front of new profs and classmates lmao. But by the end of the sem when all the deadlines are piling up, I’ll go to class in the same shorts I wear at home, a hoodie with nothing inside, and NOT CARE.

What do you wear to bed at home? The thinnest clothes I could find, because it gets really hot. Tank top and shorts will do, but sometimes I’d opt for a tank top and just underwear.

What do you wear to bed when you’re somewhere else? I cover up of course. I’d switch up the tank for a t-shirt, but still keep the shorts.

Is there a place you keep any prized/secret things whilst you’re away? No. That place is my room already.

What’s your favourite food? Either pizza, curry, or sushi. I’m a sucker for all variations of the three.

What’s your favourite drink? Iced caramel macchiato is always so refreshing. OH and I FINALLY recently found out how I like my coffee! Hshssksh Kate poured me a cup of coffee last week and her mix was SO good omg it was 2 packets of cream, 1 packet of sugar, and it can take or leave milk. I’m so excited about this because I never learned how to make coffee that wasn’t just the instant one that does all the work for me. Now I finally feel like a grown-up hahahahaha

What’s your favourite dessert?  Chewy chocolate chip cookies, macarons, cheesecake, and souffles.

What’s your favourite type of food (e.g Mexican)? Indian and Korean. Japanese is a runner-up.

Do you have any mental problems? Yes. I don’t have the time, the money, and the courage to get myself checked and so I just try to get by and get better everyday.

Do you have any phobias? What? Why do you think you have this/them? Cockroaches, needles, and roller coasters. Cockroaches are fucking ugly and we had a lot of them (flying ones!) in our old house; needles are sharp and they hurt; and as for the last one, I generally get bad motion sickness but the whole phobia thing got worse when I had a particularly bad experience on a roller coaster in Singapore.

Why might somebody dislike you? I’m super nice but I’m not denying that I can snap whether it’s warranted or not. I come off a little strongly and it might rub people off the wrong way.

What skill do you possess that you are most proud of? Seeing things through. Like if I want something to work, I do it and I make it work. I hate failure and I like looking like I get a lot of work done.

What is your greatest strength (e.g. honest, loyal, brave)? Loyalty.

What’s your greatest shortcoming or flaw (e.g. cowardly, alcoholic)? My competitiveness can make me a coward. Like I will back out of things as soon as I can detect that I can possibly lose or fail.

Who do you most admire? I don’t really admire anyone.

Who do you most love? Animals.

What three things do you look for most in a partner? I don’t like boxing people into just three standards...I do take a liking to people who kind of stand out from the rest, are intelligent, and have the same stances as I do.

Do you like crowds? Depends on the type. I only like crowds I’m comfortable with, like a concert crowd.

What are your hobbies? Trying out new food.

If you can’t get to sleep in the middle of the night, what do you do? I’ll watch YouTube videos or scroll through Reddit. Knocks me out instantly.

What is your favourite animal? Dogs, cows, elephants, or pigs. Can’t really choose.

What is your favourite colour? Pink.

If you could ask God (to athiests - IF there was one) one question, what? Why’d they make the universe? What’s all of this for? Cheated for using two questions, but whatever.

Background

Where were you born and raised? I was born in Manila and raised in a city a little east of Manila.

Briefly describe your family. We’re five in the immediate family - my mom and dad have been married for 22 years and I have a younger sister and brother. I don’t talk to my brother anymore after an incident a few months ago; my sister and I are generally close. I have three grandparents that are still alive, but I’m generally closer to my grandma on my mom’s side since she lives nearer. I have 11 cousins but the number just gets so much bigger if you count second- and third-degree ones.

You must choose one - your childhood was calm/peaceful or tragic/turbulent? It was both, honestly. Since I lived with extended family growing up, I had relatives with drinking and violence problems on one side, but also relatives who strove to protect us from them and tried to give us a normal childhood. I can’t really pick one for you, because I experienced both.

Did you have any role models? I looked up to wrestlers from a very early age. Shawn Michaels and Lita were my childhood favorites.

What is the worst thing that has ever happened to you? [Trigger warning: suicide] Attempting suicide multiple times, summer 2017.

How did it affect you? [Trigger warning: suicide] Profoundly. I wouldn’t have met my orgmates if I succeeded, because I only joined my college org after the attempts. At the time I did it, I had no friends in college so looking back on it can feel surreal. I also realized that I am scared of myself knowing that I’m capable of physically getting to that point.

Have you ever had any recurring nightmares or themes in nightmares? When my depression was a lot worse two years ago, I would always get dreams of either me or Gab dying. It was always either of us getting shot.

What were they? ^

Do you currently have a boyfriend/girlfriend? I do.

Do you have any close friends? Yes <3

Briefly describe your best friend: She studies architecture, has a mole on the left side of her face, has a classy sense of style, loves The Maine, has two shihtzus named Hailey and Kennedy (the latter after Kennedy Brock from The Maine), and is one of the most genuine, caring, and smartest people I know.

Any enemies? I don’t think so, unless people have a problem with me that they aren’t telling me.

Who? What are they like?

Would you risk your life for your best friend? (not lover or family member!) For Angela? Easily.

With who was your most important romantic relationship? Gabie.

Of what are you most proud? Going to school in UP.

Of what are you most ashamed? My home life. I’m an open book except for this aspect.

Alignment, Ethics and Religion

What is your religion? None. Atheist.

Where do you stand on abortion? Pro-choice. Ez.

Where do you stand on the death penalty? I’m against it mostly for the fact that execution is literally the easiest way out. For shitty people who have done shitty things, let them rot in prison until they die. For people who have done shitty things but want to be better, let them be better and give them a second chance.

Where do you stand on wearing fur? HATE IT. Wear faux fucking fur if you’re so adamant on wanting fur on your outfit.

Do you have a moral code that you follow? What? Don’t we all have our own compasses?

Could you kill somebody? If my loved ones are involved, absolutely.

For what reason would you kill somebody? If my loved ones are seriously harmed. For self-defense too.

Would you SERIOUSLY CONSIDER killing anybody right now? No, not right now.

Do you trust easily, or not? I trust in the first place; but I can easily take the trust away if it’s abused.

What are your political beliefs (anarchy, communism, democracy etc.)? I’m a social democrat. < God, I don’t really pay attention to labels lmao but this seems pretty accurate.

What, if anything, WOULD you sacrifice your life for? Gabie and/or her family. Way too important to me.

Would you ever, for any reason, abandon your friends in an hour of need? I don’t think I can.

Motivation

What are your dreams/ambitions/goals? Complete college, find a job that pays well, pay for a house, travel abroad, start a family.

How do you plan to reach them? Work my ass off I guess?

How would your ideal partner look? I already have one.

Do you ever want to have a family someday? With children? Yes. I’ll be crushed if I don’t get one.

Who would you want to start this family with, or do you not yet know? My girlfriend, ideally.

What would stop you from reaching your goals (e.g. death, retirement fund)? I’m very money-oriented, like I would rather earn a lot in an okay job than be in a job I’m super super super passionate about but has a lower pay, so I think anything with inadequate pay will definitely demotivate me.

What do you see yourself doing next year? This time next year I’m already polishing up my thesis. I’ll be graduating in a few weeks, and I would have already come out to my parents.

What do you see yourself doing in twenty years? Having a family and being at that point in life where I’m just accomplished. I’d want to be feeling that way by the time I’m 41.

Would you ever have an affair? NO.

Would you ever have a one night stand? Idk, not really for me.

What are your greatest fears? Being a failure.

More information

If you had a month of nothing (no work, no obligations) what would you do? Provided that money wasn’t an issue, I’d eat out. Always. I’d try out new restaurants and the quirkiest food out there.

How do you relax? Sleep, talk to my friends, watch YouTube videos, and, if I have time, take surveys.

What one thing would you change in this world (free Tibet, abolish Sweden)? Do something about pollution or climate change.

Would you ever choose a career or job where your life was at risk? You mean, a journalist? Hahahahaha hell no. But again, unless the job pays well, then no.

Why? In the case of being a journalist, it’s just not worth it to me...which is sad, because I used to be very passionate about becoming one. But when I realized the horrible reality of taking up such a career, it was very easy to turn away. I’ll always be sorry to my 13 year old self.

How would you like to be remembered after your death? Someone who went out of her way to look out for people, no matter the situation. As simple as that.

Random questions

Where you present at any major historical events (e.g. 9/11)? Nope.

How did they affect you?

Do you have any famous relatives? I have relatives in the local government, plus my maternal grandfather’s clan pretty much owns all of Mindoro Oriental so there’s that. I don’t have celebrity relatives though.

Do you have to try and live up to your family’s expectations? Of course.

Are you a loyal member of any organizations? Just the one I applied for in my university haha.

General Information

Name: Robyn.

Age: 21.

Date Of Birth: April 21st.

Race: Brown.

Height: 5′2″

Weight: Uh like 90 something lbs. Idk, it always fluctuates around the 90s.

Are you happy with this? I could gain more weight honestly. I’m a little underweight, and clothes I wanna wear sometimes don’t fit or suit me for being too thin.

Desired weight: A little over 100 would be healthier for me I think.

Sexual orientation: I don’t fucking know anymore lmao. I can be bisexual one day, pansexual the next, and demisexual the next. I don’t really answer when I’m asked this.

First language: Filipino. Second/Third/Fourth etc. languages (if any): English.

Why did you take this survey? I haven’t taken a survey in such a long time because I was swamped with work. Tonight is the first time in two weeks I had enough time to squeeze in a survey.

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HELP I ACCIDENTALLY GOT MY WHOLE OFFICE HIGH

HELP I ACCIDENTALLY GOT MY WHOLE OFFICE HIGH

Hey guys, long time lurker here. I want to preface this by saying it is (unfortunately for me) 100% true.

Seriously you can’t make this stuff up.

So I’m pretty sure I’m going to lose my job lmao. I'm currently house-sitting for a friend of mine, who left last week to go travelling around Europe for 6 weeks. Before he left he made me a huge batch of cookies as a ‘thanks for house-sitting’ gift. I’m not a big sweets person so they’ve been sat in the fridge all week untouched.

On Tuesday night I had an appointment at the oncologist. Long story short I’ve been battling PNET (a rare form of brain cancer) for just over a year now. I recently had a surgery to remove the tumor so Tuesday night I was going to find out if I was officially in remission or not. Thankfully the cancer hasn’t returned but I was told I’d need at least another 6 months of preventative chemotherapy. (Chemo is the worst btw) So that sucked to find out.

I woke up Wednesday morning feeling down about the news from the night before. Just before I was about to leave for work I got a text from a coworker, reminding me that there would be an office potluck that day and not to forget to bring a plate of food.

Crap, I completely forgot.

There was no time to get to the shops. In a hurry, I opened the fridge and low and behold, the huge stack of cookies caught my eye.

You can see where this is going.

I grabbed the cookies and jumped in my car. I got to work and placed them in the communal work fridge for later (the potluck wasn’t until later in the day). Around lunch-time, I started to get hungry. Now, like I said earlier, I’m not a big sweets eater. However, I was still upset about the night before and when I’m depressed I tend to eat everything and anything within a 150 mile radius.

So, like a hunter stalking its’ prey, I opened the work fridge and eyed the plate of chocolate chip cookies. Within moments, I opened the wrapping and ate one.

Yum.

Within moments the cookie was devoured. Then I decided to take another one for the road (back to my desk).

Cue an hour or so later. I’m feeling weird. Like, really weird. I’m finding it increasingly difficult to concentrate on my tasks (I work in a call center) and everything feels slow and bizarre. It’s a strangely familiar feeling.

Eventually my boss calls everyone into the break room for the potluck. We're all stood around the table while the food is spread out in platters. He makes a quick speech to thank us for our hard work over the last month. While I’m stood there, my hands suddenly begin to clam up and my heart starts racing.

Oh God, I think I’m having a panic attack.

Now, I’m the most awkward person in the world so the last thing I want is for people to know I’m having a panic attack. I desperately try to keep my composure and at least try to look normal. It seems to work.

After the longest 30 second speech ever we all head in to grab a plate. I’m convinced food will make me feel better so what do I do? You bet your ass I ate another cookie.

By the end of the break, the rest of the staff had finished off the cookies. We eventually head back to our desks and back to work. I can’t shake how I'm feeling but I soldier through anyway.

One by one, my coworkers dropped like flies. Between 3 and 5pm, half the office had gone home sick. I’d never seen anything like it before. And worst of all, with the amount of time I’ve taken off due to my illness, I couldn’t afford to take any more time and go home. But thankfully, 5pm rolled around soon enough and it was my time to go home.

I got back to my friend’s house and instantly fell asleep. It was about 8pm when I woke up. I was feeling much better than earlier, if not a little groggy. Half an hour later my friend called me from overseas, to ask about how the appointment went. This is how our conversation went:

“Yeah just another six months of chemo then hopefully it’ll be over.”

“Damn, u/teecb1, that sucks. Hey, those cookies should be helpful then.”

“What do you mean?”

“Don’t they say that cannabis is good for cancer?”

It took me a moment.

Oh.

Oh.

OH.

OH NO.

I quickly ended the call and began to pace around the house. It explained so much. My symptoms, the panic attack, my coworkers going home… Yikes. I'm a fairly regular pot smoker, so I assume that's why I didn't feel the effects as severely as some of my coworkers. But still, I had THREE cookies. I'm surprised I wasn't dead haha.

In what seemed like pure coincidence, I received a text from my boss an hour later:

Hi all, for those of us who are well enough to come in tomorrow, there will be a whole office meeting in the main room at 9am.

Yeeeaaah, I’m screwed.

Obviously I’m going to tell my boss what has happened first thing. But yep, I’ve accepted the fact I’m probably going to lose my job over this. Cool cool cool cool cool cool cool

Will update this once I find out. If anyone has any words of advice please feel free to share D:

(Also sorry if this is all over the place it's 3am and I'm so stressed I can't sleep fml)

Submitted January 30, 2019 at 11:17AM by teecb1 via reddit

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What time do you wake up most mornings? Honestly, ever since I’ve been out of school I have been sleeping in until like 10:30am and it has been absolutely wonderful. 

Do you enjoy your job? If unemployed, are you content being so? I absolutely love my job. It is by far my favourite job that I’ve ever had and sometimes it doesn’t even feel like work. It just feels like I get to hang out with my friends and get paid for it. 

What is something you have given a lot of thought to lately? My applications. 

Do you have any tattoos? Do you want any/more? I have my one little Death Cab tribute tattoo on my left inside wrist. I can think of some hypothetical tattoos that I like to daydream about but I don’t know if the motivation is strong enough to actually go back and get more. Plus I’m scared of the pain. 

What is your favourite Christmas movie? Chevy Chase Christmas Vacation. Duh. 

What do you get complimented on the most? My eye colour or oddly enough my butt. 

If money was no object, where would you move to? Vancouver or Victoria. 

Do you believe in soul mates? No. The idea is too limiting for me, and that makes it terrifying. What if you let your soul mate go? What if it doesn’t work out?  

If you could wake up tomorrow and be fluent in 3 additional languages, which would you choose? French, Japanese, and OooOoohohoo I don’t even know. Maybe Arabic because I feel like that would allow me to understand a lot of the news better. 

Would you rather go on a relaxing beach type holiday to the Caribbean, a cultural holiday to Japan or an adventure packed holiday to South Africa? Cultural holiday to Japan all. the. WAY. 

Who are the three most important people in your life? Me, myself, and I. (LOOOOL) 

Would you sacrifice everything for love? LOL no

Have you ever been in love? Yes yes. It was wonderful at the time!!! :) 

Where do you see yourself in 10 years? Hopefully not where I am now. 

Are you scared of the future? A little bit right now because things are currently in limbo. But I’m also excited and energized by that fact. 

What’s the last reason you held someone’s hand? I can’t really remember. 

Are you lonely? Be honest. A little bit. I miss having sex lmao and having someone to spend the night always made me sleep better and feel better. But I have my friends :) 

Listening to anything? Nooo. My roommates are sleeping and I don’t want to awaken my precious angel babes.  

Last thing said out loud? "Bye!! I love you all!” 

Last thing bought? My staff meal at work? And before that, a shirt and a sweater from American Eagle. 

Last text received? “Much love to u always xoxoxoxoxoxoxo” from Sydney~ 

What has made you happy today? Ohmygod so much!!!! I got invited to brunch and got to have lols. I ran 5km on the treadmill and even though I HATE treadmills my time wasn’t all that bad, I got a nice new sweater in my favourite colour, I made some decent money at work, I got asked out on a date and a cute guy that I like is going to teach me how to make pasta, we made plans to go to Banff to party... LOTS OF GOOD THINGS. 

What has made you sad today? I had a 1-on-1 session at my gym today that I got for free when I signed up and my form on a lot of exercises that I used to SLAY is sooo bad. 

What room are you in? My room! 

Last thing eaten? Cheetos~~~~*~~*~~ YES

Last thing you drank? Good old fashioned H20. 

Rate your day on a scale of 1-10: Honestly like 8. It was a wonderful day. 

What websites do you have bookmarked? Just a whole lot of recipes. Some interesting reddit threads that I’ve come across. Job postings. And rent postings from back in the summer. 

Last reason you kissed someone? Because I wanted to! :) 

Do you have an iPhone? Yeah. 

Do you bite your nails? If so, do you wish you didn’t? Hahahahahahhah omg yes I do. So badly. I desperately wish I didn’t but I don’t even notice it when it’s happening anymore. 

Last pair of shoes you wore? My salt-stained navy blue H&M booties. Love those things. 

Last movie you watched? Perks of Being a Wallflower with Emma :) 

Name something you’re grateful for. My job! 

Are you wearing anything that’s not yours? Nooope. 

Do you shop at Urban Outfitters? Sometimes if I’m feeling spend-y. 

Have you ever experienced an earthquake? Nope nope. 

Has anyone ever tried stealing your boyfriend/girlfriend away? I don’t really know how to answer this. There were definitely lots of girls that hit on my ex but in retrospect I don’t know if they knew he wasn’t single at the time so were they really trying to STEAL him or just GET him? 

If you were in the hospital, do you think any of your exes would come see you? Maybe if I was like... on my death bed. For any other reason, probably not. Not really necessary. 

Would you rather read an entire encyclopedia or an entire dictionary? Definitely an encyclopedia.

What do you have in common with the last person you kissed? Mmmm lots. We both like music festivals, we both were in the same program at school, we are the same age... idk. Lots. 

Are you doing anything important tomorrow? Hell no. It’s going to be a lovely day of doing nothing. 

Would you move out your house if you could right now? I don’t know how to answer this one. I LOVE WHERE I LIVE so so much and it’s perfect in every single way it’s just too BIG for our current needs and our utility bills are too high. But the hassle of moving for that reason makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry. 

Can you whistle? Oh yeah. 

Do you like being called baby? By certain people. 

Would you rather drink orange juice or milk? Orange juice all the WAY. 

Do you wish you could kiss someone right now? VERY BADLY. 

Do you hate when people interrupt your sleep? Honestly it happens so rarely I don’t even know. 

Do you miss the way things used to be between you and someone else? Yessss. 

What do you think of your best friend’s ex? Quite literally the most manipulative, selfish, idiotic piece of fucking SHIT that has ever walked this earth and he is EXTREMELY damaging to her life and self worth and mental health and if I could personally exterminate one person from this planet it would, no doubt, be him. 

How long would you wait to say “I love you” in a relationship? A long time. I want to make sure it’s not superficial and I want to make sure it’s not going to scare him. I’d probably feel like I was in love a few months before I’d actually tell my partner. It took me about eight months in my last relationship. 

If you had a child at the age you’re at now, do you think you’d be a good parent? I would be an absolutely terrible parent. 

When was the last time you felt tempted to do something you shouldn’t? Did you do it? HAHA. The other night whilst at work. I almost went through with it but chickened out because I was like “Megan you are bein CRAZY girl” 

What year was it five years before you were born? 1989! 

What holiday is closest to your birthday? Easter. 

What is your name if you spell it without the letters “e” “y” and “t”? Mgan Macka.

What year is the oldest car you or your family owns? Mine for sure. It’s a 2004. 

Who is your 9th contact in your phone? Alina! 

Have you had your birthday yet this year? No! It’s coming up!!! I am VERY excited. 

Why did you go to the doctor the last time you went? I wanted to discuss getting some kind of prescription skincare routine going. 

How old will you be in 5 years? 27. 

Where was the last place you went? Sara and Alex’s. 

Is there a mirror in your room? There are many. 

Do you have a twin? No! I have a birthday twin but we’re two years apart. 

Who was the last person that borrowed money from you? I don’t recall. I’m pretty fucking stingy about my money so I’m not usually the one people come to for a loan. 

The last time you went out to eat, what did you order? This morning I went to brunch with my pals and I got an eggs benedict with kale, garlic, and mushrooms. 

The last text message you sent to someone else - what did it say? I said, “Thanks buddy!!! Hope you get some sleep love you lots!” 

Would you be prepared to do a job that you didn’t like, if it paid well? See: my internship this summer.  

If you hair is straight, do you ever wish it was curly? If your hair is curly, do you ever wish it was straight? I wish every single day that my hair was curlier or wavier. 

Is there someone that dislikes you for no reason? There are tons of people who dislike me with pretty good reasons. 

When did you last see an attractive member of your preferred sex? Did you speak to them? Do you think you’ll see them again? A few hours ago. I definitely spoke to him and I will definitely see him again in the very near future. 

Do you tend to have a lot of those moments where you forget something that you wanted to say? Sorta. 

How long have you known the last person you text messaged? Over ten years now! WHAAAAT that’s wild. 

What exactly did you eat for your last meal? Have you any idea what you’ll be eating your next meal? I had a sandwich at work. Next meal is breakfast and I’m kinda LOW in the food department so we’re gonna probably be dining on some OATMEAL tomorrow morning. WONDERFUL. 

When will you next go for a night out? HmmMMm not too sure actually. This weekend and next weekend aren’t really going to be “night out” kind of things. 

Are you still with the person you fell hardest for? If not, do you still care for each other? No, not with him. I care about him in the sense that I hope he is doing well but want absolutely nothing to do with him. 

If you found out that your ex was having a child with someone else, how would you feel about that? It would honestly probably make me feel relieved because that is not something I’d want for myself at ALL so I’d feel more solidified in knowing we don’t belong together at all. 

Is there someone from your past that you think about from time to time, and you wonder what might have happened to them? Why don’t you see/speak to that person anymore? HAHA YES ALL THE TIME. I don’t see or speak to this person because I broke it off with him to get back together with someone else like two years ago and it was super lame of me, and he is now very happy with a new partner and he deserves that happiness and she’s not my biggest fan so I just sort of try to fuck off and silently curse myself for making that mistake. 

On a scale of 1 to 10, how happy are you with your life? Why? 8. I’m just very grateful for what I have and what is coming up in my life.

What do you remember about your first kiss? I was on cloud NINE after it happened and I couldn’t stop smiling or thinking about him. It was at a skating rink. It was anticipated throughout the whole day and I couldn’t wait. The guy was a cutie pie. 

Have you ever said that you’d never do something, and then done it? Lots. Drugs, get a tattoo, get a piercing. Never hold me to any “I’d never do x” promise. 

Do you have romantic feelings for the last person you texted? I wish I had romantic feelings for Sydney but as she puts it we are tragically heterosexual. 

Have you ever thought about what you might call your children? Or, if you already have children, what are their names? Sometimes, yes. 

When did you last speak to one of your siblings? What did you talk about? I saw Scott last weekend for a bit. We had a drunken confessional conversation at like 3am in our kitchen until my Dad made us go to sleep. And then the next morning we just had lols until he and Rie went out for a hike. 

How many times have you had your heart broken? Just one. 

Where is the person you would most like to see, or most like to be with? At his house, probably sleeping. 

Think of the person you fell hardest for. How many people has he/she been in love with, besides you? I don’t know. I’d like to say nobody else but I don’t know if that’s true. 

Find 5 people on your Facebook friends list, whose name begins with K. Who are these people, and how did you meet them? Kerri M: I work with her at Famoso!  Kelly G: She is a friend of Ali’s who Ali and Geoff met when traveling in Peru. She came to visit Ali this summer for a bit and Ali introduced us because we went to Stampede together to see July Talk. She’s wild.  Khalid A: He is a friend of my ex’s.  Kelsey R: She is a former track teammate of mine from back in the day and also works at the place I now volunteer.  Kennedy R: She is my ex’s younger sister’s friend and used to a date a girl that I work with. 

Who did you last say “I love you” to? Did that person say it back? LOL. Sydney. And yes. She did. 

What do your last 5 Facebook messages say and who are they from? Oh god. My most recent is from Jess (my manager) because I forgot to put my tip outs in the appropriate bags tonight and was just fixing that up, and then it’s...  Girl’s group chat planning our upcoming getaway to Banff.  Work group chat switching shifts.  The friend of the dude I creepily added on Facebook after meeting him on the train trying to get in there and failing.  And Lauren sent me a lovely message on BellLetsTalk day!!!!! <3