#also when it comes to language it's one of the few times i'm auditory so i can't just look at a word and learn it

[preciouspiastri]

yall having meltdowns over f1 teams i'm trying to explode duolingo with my mind because it doesn't explain things, we are not the same

[phoenix-and-found-family]

Hello people who found this craziness entertaining!

I made this blog because I was bored and wanted a place to lore dump about my ocs without bothering the few normal people that come across my main blog

‼️DISCLAIMER: THE ART IN THE HEADER ISN'T MINE! I got it from this picrew: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1473879‼️

You can ask my characters anything you want, just be aware I won't answer asks I'm not comfortable answering/are about upcoming lore that I don't want to spoil before I write it

Just state who the question is for, and if you don't I'll assume the question is for me and answer accordingly

Basic blog things:

Sorry Phoenix x Juniper shippers, my blog doesn't do that because I personally don't see it. But I support if you ship them and love to see stuff like that! I do ship Prism x Reginald though, and Prism x Fabby...

Basically I ship her with everyone except Phoenix and maybe John.

Also, I have no drawing skills at all, so please don't expect me to draw them doing anything 😭 (edit: I have a couple drawing skills now and plan to use all of them for this >:3)

My Phoenix!!!

Name: Trevor Clyde Ballesteros

Codename: Agent Phoenix

Age: 22

Pronouns: They/Them

Height: 5'2" No fuck that I'm totally 6'3" and have large muscles

Joined the agency at: 18

Favorite color(s): Red and Black

Disability(s): Agent Phoenix is missing their right leg from a horrible car crash that (supposedly) claimed the lives of their parents at 14, forcing them to live on the streets for two years until they eventually got scouted by the agency. Miraculously, even though they've been in far worse danger and experienced far worse pain, they have not sustained any other lasting injuries.

Personality: Imagine if the Norse god Loki and a can of Monster Energy drink had a child who likes to commit arson as a hobby.

Random facts: Phoenix can read, write, and speak fluent English, Spanish, and Japanese because their parents moved around all the time and barely stayed in one place for more than a month. They're also pretty good at Mandarin Chinese, Portuguese, French, and Galic. They refuse to reveal where they learned all of these languages in only 18 years.

They can do some basic martial arts, (update: they are a black belt in Karate, and did not reveal that until recently for some reason) but they mainly excel at accidental stealth and all-out brawl style fights, for they are very fast and good at analyzing how exactly to take an enemy out.

They are diagnosed with autism and auditory schizophrenia, although they believe that they may also have ADHD because of how much stimulation they need to get their job done.

Lore posts

Here are the links (Oldest to Youngest by when I posted them) to posts that give you more lore about my versions of these characters

The Home Argument (Handler's perspective)

The Home Argument (Phoenix's perspective)

The Agency can Wait

Random Headcannons (self h@rm mention)

A Phoenix burns hottest when it's Born Again (Part 1)

The Most Perfect Name

I know I'm pathetic (angst)

Incident report 067 (more angst)

Why I don't hate you (who could've guessed, more angst)

Art!!

I shall put my art links here when I remember to

Phoenix...but in a dress

Phoenix but not in a dress

Cuddles

Art about my Personality Swap AU

Can't cage a Phoenix arc

Brothers of the Stars (long ass RP chain with @the-one-and-only-043 )

Who's Trevor? (slightly angsty)

The most painful way to say goodbye (even longer RP chain with @the-one-and-only-043 and @wyvchard (sorry for the tags))

The Victim of a Basilisk (Part 1)

Agency file: The Basilisk & Dr. Vadas

The Victim of a Basilisk (Part 2)

Dream Cast ( @wyvchard version)

Dream Cast ( @the-one-and-only-043 version)

Screen Cast (right after the other two, some Agent Circuit lore)

OC's

Agent Ombre (profile)

Agent Circuit Board (image)

Rants (that may or may not contain lore)

Reginald Crane is a professional

John Juniper is known for his lies

A Reversal of Roles (ieytd au)

Random lore (doesn't really have a name)

Operation: Deluge (ieytd au)

How do you kill a Phoenix? (announcement post)

Random things you should probably know beforehand

Prologue: The Death of a Phoenix (This takes you directly to the Ao3 chapter, heads up)

Unconditional Love (Roxanix fic thingy, full of angst)

Part one (Prism's Perspective)

Part one (Phoenix's Perspective)

Part two (Reginald's Perspective)

Part two (Phoenix's Perspective)

A trip to the past (fic idea by @kayssweetdreams , thank you!)

Part one

Random ask things

Phoenix's text will be red

Reginald's text will be orange

Juniper's text will be green

Prism's text will be blue

Fabricator's text will be purple

We've also got Hivemind and his text is pink

(this does not apply to lore posts(usually(sometimes I add this system in because it's hard to tell who's talking)))

Thanks for reading! That's all for now :3

[kutyozh]

I posted 1,139 times in 2022

That's 306 more posts than 2021!

171 posts created (15%)

968 posts reblogged (85%)

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#/ also fun fact i can absolutely not swear in spanish since i learnt it in a religious setting where swearing was absolutely forbidden skdj

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

russian for the ask game?

YESSS of course!!

so there's a few layers to it - on an emotional level, russian was for some time the language of my 'home'. i didn't understand anything, but it compelled me *insert daniel craig meme* on an auditory level (i can still hear the way one of my neighbours pronounced the letter ш - very crunchy).

then ppl started to teach me a few words - the first word i remember being taught is птица (ptítsa) - bird, another one was разгон (razgón) - acceleration (that one i was taught, funnily enough, because they were drinking a spanish red wine called "Rasgón" and it reminded them of разгон, making it quite the pun). so you can see that i have a few personal memories with the language, and i got quite attached haha

it took me some time to start actively learning russian tho - maybe because i was scared it wouldn't be as good as i had imagined it - but boyyy was i wrong. the next thing that absolutely fascinated me was the way that vocabulary works sometimes:

много - немного (many - a few) любовь - нелюбовь (love - dislike)

aka how both the presence and the absence of something are interconnected etc etc *insert galaxy brain meme*. we have that concept in german too but it's not as present I'd say? or maybe i never noticed.

and then - the way the language produces images. beautiful. for example:

Любовь не картошка, её не выбросить в окошко. (Love is not a potato, one cannot throw it out of the window.)

and lyrics by Гречка - Картина:

За окном дождь И в душе моей дождь И между нами дождь И расстояние

Outside the window - rain and in my soul - rain and between us - rain and distance

(screaming about how to me the last line in russian is the most powerful one but seems so bland in english aksjfhsdj help.)

also i absolutely LOVE russian intonation - it flows in super predictable patterns (as it should) and is just so fun to listen to!! the melody is always something that i love listening to, even and especially when i don't know the language well!

this is what comes to my mind right now, and i hope as i learn more i will discover even more beautiful things about it!!

drop a language in my inbox and i'll tell you what i like about it

17 notes - Posted November 24, 2022

#4

"And I seem to have such strength in me now, that I think I could stand anything, any suffering, only to be able to say and to repeat to myself every moment, 'I exist'. In thousands of agonies – I exist. I'm tormented on the rack – but I exist! Though I sit alone on a pillar – I exist! I see the sun, and if I don't see the sun, I know it's there. And there's a whole life in that, in knowing that the sun is there."

— Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Karamazov Brothers

19 notes - Posted September 12, 2022

#2

"Yes, I want disorder. I keep wanting to set fire to the house. I keep imagining how I'll creep up and set fire to the house on the sly; it must be on the sly. They'll try to put it out, but it'll go on burning. And I shall know and say nothing. Ah, what silliness! And how bored I am!"

— Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Karamazov Brothers

29 notes - Posted September 11, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

WHERE CAN I VOTE FOR MÅNESKINNNNN

34 notes - Posted May 14, 2022

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[tryslora]

What I'm Reading Wednesday

I missed a week, so this week will cover everything I’ve finished, and then new ones started, since April 17th… time to catch up!

Physical Books:

The Marann by Christie Meierz - Finished this one up and I have a few quibbles with stylistic choices (might just be me and things I like/don’t like in writing styles) but I loved the world-building. It’s a romance at its heart, and it delves into the differences between humanity and an alien empathic culture.

Promises Stronger than Darkness by Charlie Jane Anders - I listened to the first two books in the Unstoppable trilogy but the audiobook hasn’t been available to borrow from the library so I decided to buy the whole trilogy now that this one was available in trade paperback. It’s interesting reading it because I still hear all the names/aliens in my head in the original voices (helpful, since I’m not sure I could pronounce some otherwise). But it’s also fascinating reading it directly after listening to her book on writing and style, because WOW I can see it even more. Charlie Jane Anders has created a wonderful world that I want to live in, a future that is complicated, dangerous, but also loving, and has so much progressiveness that I adore it. In particular, I love the Everyspeak—a translator that not only handles languages, but also includes the pronouns for every person (handy for the the character who is genderfluid, so no one misgenders them!). I love her world building, and I love watching how her characters have grown and changed over the course of these books. I really care about them, and I worry about how they’ll get through the big conflicts still coming as I’m about halfway through the book.

Ebooks:

Interzone issue 297 - I finished this one up fairly quickly. I need to remember that I have ebooks of most of my short story books on my shelf, because handheld reading is a lovely way to go through short stories. It’s interesting and makes me remember that I do not always enjoy things that appeal to others. Which is fine! Not all works are for everyone. 

Ivy & Bone by R.L. Perez - I do not remember how I came to own this ebook. It’s a Persephone and Hades inspired book, and I’m both intrigued and kinda “meh” about it. I think it follows a lot of beats that will make it very popular with people, but for me, the pacing on the enemies to lovers doesn’t work as well as I’d like. It is intriguing, though, as I said, and I’m looking forward to seeing how it ends.

Audiobooks:

Never Say You Can’t Survive by Charlie Jane Anders - This is the first writing advice book I have loved. I bought myself a physical copy so I can refer back to it, or reread essays when I need a pick-me-up. I’d also like to take a look at the exercises at some point in the future when I have the time (time, hah, that’s an entirely different post). I love her voice (both auditorially and authorially). I would recommend this book to anyone looking for a boost emotionally about their writing.

She Who Became the Sun by Shelley Parker-Chan - Oh my God, I love this book so far. I’m about 3/4 of the way through, and I’m listening to it a tiny bit faster than 1x but not much. This is a case where the audiobook has made a work more accessible to me. The language is lush and thick and exactly what would make me tap out if I were reading a physical book. Plus the length is daunting so an ebook definitely wouldn’t work (I like shorter ebooks, because the length somehow seems longer to me, dunno). I’m very much enjoying the story, the characters, oh, everything. I’m hoping I’ll be able to get the sequel relatively quickly once I finish it.

Manga & Graphic Novels:

The Complete Elfquest Volumes 2 & 3 by Wendy & Richard Pini - I finished Volume 2 and of course, rolled straight on into Volume 3 (thank you husband or buying all the volumes, I am stupidly happy to have them). Volume 2 includes both the Siege at Blue Mountain and Kings of the Broken Wheel arcs from the original run of the comic. Somewhere during the first, I reached a point where the comics were familiar, but not “I read this six times as a teenager” levels of familiar. Then in the second arc, I reached new content. After I was done reading it, I checked when it originally was published and it was 1990-92 which explains everything. I was very very broke after graduating from college and stopped buying comics, even though Elfquest was one of the few I’d still shelled out for as a broke college student.

By Volume 3, everything is new to me, and I am loving seeing this story continue. I get to hear both more about the past (the first part is a series of one shots set in different time periods) and the future. Watching the elves grow and change is a delight (although Cutter with “face fur” still looks so strange to me). Throughout the stories, the elves make big, hard decisions, and then deal with their consequences.

[xoteajays]

I told you! I'm too repetitive in how I communicate with other people.

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Yeah.. There was only twenty episodes between two original seasons, so either longer episodes or even just more episodes than that for the plot to be officially completed. But definitely more content either way though. Just to give it more closed endings, not open ended endings.

Like in the fights; Who knows if Ranmaru is still alive. So there's some chance that could be a fight for Rocky or Hyuga, if it would not be too repetitive though. Cobra and Jesse are equally matched, same for Ice and Hiroto. The Rude Boys would fight Ryu for almost killing Smoky, I can also see them fighting Nikaido for killing Smoky too - if he isn't all in prison with most of Kuryu already. And bring back the more violent White Rascals from season one because I miss their manic madness.

Everyone in the SWORD gangs (and possibly Kuryu) to have so much more screen time. And backstory. And just more everything else too.

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If I ever watch a foreign show or movie without subtitles. Then it does have to be a show or movies that I've seen so many times, that I know everything by heart. That's the only way. And I may not be the fastest reader, but I would still need subtitles to know about the plot though.

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I doubt that I would learn other languages. Not that I don't want to be able to learn other languages because I do. I always thought it was so interesting to know people who speak multiple languages fluently like that. But.. I don't know if it's a sign? Symptom? Of Asperger's. But I've got audio processing disorder which actually is just connected to that entire autism diagnosis. At least for me. That could be a symptom for me. So because of auditory processing disorder, I would feel like that, I don't know.. That even if I attempted to try learning other languages in some way, my hearing would actually mishear words and phrases - since that definitely isn't the first time that happened to me. Like in a general way. I can hear, I'm not deaf. But I'd mishear auditory sounds.

But if I did learn other languages. There is quite a few that I would like to learn though.. And especially some languages more than others.

The secondary language you'd have to learn in American schools was Spanish. Honestly, I never had any interest in learning Spanish before to begin with. And it didn't help that I hated everyone of my teachers. I never liked most of my teachers. So I'd always failed that class since I just slept during class. But, to be fair, I was anemic in my teen years.

And I am not Italian. If you were curious.. My Italian grandfather, he is not even my biological grandfather. Two of my grandparents divorced before remarrying. He's my step grandfather. He died when I was just a young teenager many years ago. I just don't remember much of him though. But I was his favorite grandchild who was always just spoiled.

That's all I will say about that though. I don't like talking about family.

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Yes. It was implied that Kizzy and Kaito were already in America when Koo was hired by Rocky. But I don't know the exact timing though. So I know Koo was defensive, distrustful, of Kizzy and Kaito when they'd come back from America. Because he didn't realize how close friends Rocky is with both of them, and how those three are also founders of White Rascals. With Koo, Kizzy and Kaito being the people Rocky just trusts the most.. Koo, Kizzy and Kaito are his second in commands is how I see it. With Koo being the most responsible of those three too.

So.. I would say that Kizzy and Kaito lived in a America for a minimum of two years at least. Not too long, but not too short either. And Kaito does only know English to communicate if he needs to. But if he is so stuck a communicating, Kizzy (or someone else) would help him with what needs to be said or even translated between him and the people who speak other languages. At least in my opinion about this though.

Exactly! Like I know this is just a series... Show and movies. So I really know that is just for background effect. But still. Besides the actors in the series who are actually mixed ethnicity, I thought that it may even be very strange that they would have non-Asian people in most of the background scenes like that. Obviously because this series only takes place in Japan where Asians live so seeing non-Asians in background scenes, like in Club Heaven and Funk Jungle clubs, is just completely bizarre to me. And it still is. I'm not saying foreigners couldn't actually enjoy themselves at clubs when they're there. If they are respectful to the people in the building, Rocky would allow them to stay if they just wanted to stay so they could enjoy themselves. Obviously the Mighty Warriors can speak English, at least some of them can. Which is why, as my own headcanon, that there are some people from Club Heaven can speak English (or another language). Besides Kizzy and Kaito just living in America for a couple years. Because if they have foreigners in their club, or any businesses Rocky owns, it would be nice if someone could communicate with them. If that person isn't fluent in Japanese.

And this is one reason why some original characters are multilingual.

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Yeah. They drank in flute glasses. Maybe when Club Heaven had their grand opening. Because it seems like Rascals are celebrating in those scenes. At least that's how it appeared to me though... In my opinion.

And the reason why those drinks seem colorful is because of the fake colorful ice you'd use to add into the drinks to make the liquid colored like that. Now I feel so old remembering those colorfully plastic toys.

I mean.. Unless they ever mention the recipe for the drinks in the Club Heaven clubs, you can make up your own recipe. But I'm still curious.

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You asked about the bullies being killed in All Of Us Are Dead. So one of the bullies was killed by a zombie at the end of the first episode for that one, and the other bully was killed by Gwi-nam in episode nine.. I think it was episode nine. But those two bullies are completely dead.

those twenty episodes were good! but there needs to be more! and also please cut down on the sword backstory in every single episode, i get it! mugen got their ass beat by the amamiya brothers and the sword district was formed! i get it! get back to the episode!!

if ranmaru is still alive, he could come back to fight rocky or hyuga under bulge’s orders. even tho i know cobra and hiroto would probably win overall, i’d like to see them fight just for like. the scenes of it. i just wanna see the fight scenes. the rude boys ganging up on ryu, disarming his from his swords. oh god what if one of them got a scar? scars are hot. also let takeshi - or shion - beat the shit out nikaido. he was a nameless city boy! he abandoned them! and he killed their friend brother and leader! let them destroy him!!

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japanese is the language class for most australian schools. i think some teach french or german, but everyone around my area learnt japanese. i would’ve kept going with the class past tenth grade but my mum said i wouldn’t be allowed to go on the 12 grade trip to japan, so i didn’t see any point if i was going to miss out on the biggest part of the class. i would love to learn multiple languages but i don’t have the energy and my memory is bad so i’d probably forget a bunch if it anyway. i also think it’d be neat to learn sign language, since i learnt a lil bit in primary school.

i also had a step grandfather on my father’s side! he unfortunately died a few years ago due to cancer, but he’d been in my family’s lives since like 2002 so he was in my life more than my actual biological grandfather who was practically never around. my maternal grandfather unfortunately died not long before i was born. iirc my mother was pregnant with me when her father died.

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smokey is the only person to stick to actually having one second in command, that being takeshi - hence why takeshi became the leader. rocky has kizzy, kaito and koo (k3). cobra has yamato and noboru. murayama has seki and furuya. arguably hyuga just has kato, but sakyo and ukyo are always there too.

koo is the most responsible, then kaito, and kizzy is dead last and cannot be trusted with responsibility.

kaito learnt english to nag the doctors and nurses about kizzy’s surgery and if she’s okay and what he needs to/can do for her. he’s in the waiting room while kizzy’s in surgery, flipping between english studies and reading about whatever specific surgery kizzy’s getting.

if rocky can’t speak english, then kizzy or kaito are the ones getting sent to deal with rowdy tourists in club heaven, if only so they understand why they’re getting kicked out/beat up. they get a warning, and then kaito is kicking ass and kizzy is watching because she loves watching her husband fight.

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good, the bullies can stay dead. they probably got blown up with the bomb. was there only two of them or three and gwinam?

[typically-untypical]

Echoes of the Past - Day 1

Prompt: "Believe nothing you hear, and only one half that you see."

CW: This story is mostly written from Remus' perspective so it's got the typical Remus expected elements such as cursing, crude language and accidental self-poisoning.

There were a few things that Remus knew for certain. The first was that no one was to be trusted unless they were angry. Angry people were honest. The second was that soap was a delicious drink made by the devil. The last thing he knew, probably the most important thing, was if he ate something weird, he shouldn't believe anything he heard and probably only about half of what he saw.

That was the problem he was stuck in right now. The mushrooms had been delicious, but he was pretty sure that the pink elephants dancing around his room weren't real. He was less certain about the Roman standing in his room. His brother rarely came to visit him, and normally when he did it was only to yell and scream. He never got the companionship he desperately craved from his brother, and he rarely got apathy. 

This Roman was staring at him in horror, not Roman's typical MO, but not impossible, certainly unlikely. Roman was dramatic, and he certainly looked a bit dramatic with the way his face was paling. Maybe if Remus could touch him he could confirm whether or not this Roman was an abarician. Unfortunately, his arms were too heavy to move. At least he could move his head, and he did just that, turning to get a better look at his brother. 

"Remus!" Roman screamed but it sounded like an echo through water, hallow and deep. That wasn't what Roman sounded like, but taking substances did sometimes make his auditory processes work a bit wrong, and again, his brother would be that dramatic. Maybe he was actually here! Remus giggled and smiled up at Roman who had come closer of his own accord, Remus could almost reach him, almost touch him, but Roman touched him first. The possibly fake but maybe not fake Roman began touching his wrist, searching for something and tickling Remus' wrist. It only made him giggle more. This probably wasn't real. Roman didn't like touching him. He had done a really good job creating a fake brother though.

"Hi Hi Prince of Pessimism." No problem with him talking to his own delusions. It would be fun not to be alone for a bit.

"You can't be too injured if you can make jokes at my expense." At least his delusion was as much of a bitch as his actual brother. It made Remus smile. He liked when Roman was angry and fiesty, it was better than the empty nothing-ness. 

"Not injured... high maybe.. or poisoned," He felt his stomach churning and Roman just barely got out of the way in time. "Yeah, probs poisoned." Despite the taste of bile in his mouth he laughed, reaching up towards Roman but just missing the other side's hair.

"What did you do?" Roman seemed to be relaxing a little bit and that was a little less fun. He was funny when he was stressed, and when he was apathetic, he left. Roman also summoned a water bottle, holding it to Remus' lips and helping him take a drink. Was he actually taking a drink of his own water bottle and just imagining Roman was there, or was this the real Roman? The water was too real to be a hallucination, and it felt wonderful to have the cool liquid down his throat.

"Imagination mushrooms, very yummy." Remus explained after draining the water bottle of it's contents. He hadn't realized just how dry his mouth was.

"You didn't feed them to anyone else, did you?"

Remus shook his head. Why would he share his mushrooms? Though, he probably shouldn't have moved his head around. His brain ached as if he had drummed it against the walls of his own skull. "Jan Jan says I'm not allowed." Oh yeah, there was also that. Janus would be mad if he had made mushroom soup and shared it with the others, and Janus was less fun when he was more mad. 

"I think that's for everyone's safety." Roman summoned something, it looked like a brick of algae but Remus assumed that wasn't what it was, because it brother was no fun at all. Whatever it was, Roman put it on Remus' head and it felt wonderful. He hadn't even realized he was too hot, but now he was feeling cool and pleasant. Between the algae and the water, Remus was starting to feel less like physical existence was pain. Though, he was reminded that everyone here was a spoil sport. 

"Normally you're a bad brother, but right now, you're pretty good," he giggle again. "I missed you Ro-ro," and he did. He missed Roman more than he would ever willingly admit. They were brothers, and they weren't meant to be separated.

The Roman figment paused at that, and Remus didn't understand why. It made sense. Roman was a good brother, but not all of the time. He had to want to be good, and sometimes that meant leaving his "evil" twin in the dust which inherently made him bad. Too much of the time, Roman didn't know how to be a good brother, he disappeared and left Remus alone, left him to figure things out by himself, but right now, Roman was good. Right now, Roman was here. Well... maybe.

He was also being very quiet, and Remus didn't like the quiet, so he started singing. He was intentionally being annoying, singing off key and with the wrong words. He knew it would irritate his brother but it was too fun not to do it. It was another test too. The real Roman would probably leave, but this Roman didn't leave him. It was bittersweet, watching as Roman walked to the edge of the bed and sat down.

"You are so annoying," Roman muttered, snapping and making the thing on his forehead that had been warm disappear and become cool again.

"Yeah, but I'm your brother, so you gotta love me."

"Whatever you heathen from the depths of hades requiem." Remus could almost see a light smile on Roman's face, "Now you need to rest, close your eyes and pretend you are dead... or something."

"You won't leave." Remus didn't want to be alone, being alone when he was feeling this bad was awful, and hard and he hated it. Apparently, he hated it enough that the fake Roman his brain had created shared his pain. The devastation was palpable. 

"No, I won't leave. I'm going to stay right here with you," He said softly, awkwardly patting Remus' leg.

"Okie dokie," He said, closing his eyes and taking in a deep breath. He didn't really want to sleep, but he was tired. Everything felt super heavy, and at least now he wasn't alone. 

"Night Ro-ro."

"Night Re."

When Remus woke up again, his whole body ached in the way it normally did when he ate something he shouldn't have. He was tempted to go back to sleep again, but he knew he was lucid and the room was far too quiet. There was nothing on his forehead to cool his fever and nothing in the room other then the sound of his own creatures.

Roman was gone. Virgil was gone. Janus was gone. 

He had his rules for a reason. He should have never staked his heart on believing in something he saw while under the influence. That was a recipie for the pain he was no experiencing.

Remus was alone, and he had been alone for a long time now. That wasn't changing just because he had few mushrooms. Getting up, he left his self pity in his bed and began making his way to his door. Everything felt empty, but he did the best he could to make sure that it didn't affect him. He walked down the hallway creating his chaos and letting it fill him.

He didn't notice the water bottle that had been sitting on his night stand. He didn't notice the hint of red listening from around the corner, and he didn't notice as a shadow slipped away. 

Remus was alone, but maybe not quite as much as he thought.

@simplestoryteller @fantasticfangirl21 @joylessnightsky @melaniidarling @tsshipmonth2020

[keylimeimagines]

Alright, thank you so much for the answer!

Now then, I would very much like to ask for a matchup for P5! ( Romantic ofc, I'm leaving it up to you if you'd also like to add platonic, considering romance is your main focus!!)

So I go by She/Her and They/Them, I honestly don't care about which pronouns are used.

I'm an ENFP - 9w1, Gemini Sun, Pisces Moon, Capricorn Rising!

I'm a demisexual, no preference for any gender really! They just gotta be nice yknow yknow

I would consider my love language to be.. quality time I think? Either that or giving gifts to others! On the other hand, I'm not too comfortable with physical affection,, dunno it's just rather awkward!! I do like myself some words of affirmation though,, that's some good shit I swear

Now, personality!!

It kinda depends on who I'm with- so starting with strangers and acquaintances:

I don't really go out all that often (or well.. at all) so I'm pretty awkward around strangers or well- in person in general. I'm usually pretty quiet around them and speak up when I'm spoken to really. I'm as I said super awkward so it's a bit exhausting to talk because I dunno I may be an extrovert but not knowing what to do and say is a bitch I tell you--

As for people that I'm comfortable around/online, I very much let all of that awkwardness go and throw it into the fucking trash HSJDB

I get really really excited and loud and also really chaotic! I like to joke around a lot and like to also sorta make fun of them if they are comfy with it- I am a bit stupid though so because I don't take cues very well so if it looks like they're joking to me when expressing discomfort then oops I'm proooobably not gonna be understanding it,,,

Ok seriously tho I have really high guilt so I like feel guilty for basically every shit imaginable. So, well, I tend to blame things on myself even if I didn't directly cause anything.

But yeah-

That was about it for SPECIFIC traits, here are some general traits!

Generally, I'd consider myself kind! I care for others needs more than mine and tend to forget about myself a lot- but hey! Others say that I'm easy to talk to!

I generally have a problem with taking things seriously! I dunno I just?? Can't get into the mindset of being serious when I need to be? Like I can't relate man- I just feel that a little joke will lighten stuff up y'know!!

Another problem is that I maaaaay bottle up my emotions a lot and then tell people not to do that like a dumbass lmao

Aaand I also am a lousy multitasker- Like I cannot concentrate on more than one thing- especially auditory things! So if I'm doing something it's gonna take like 10 tries to get my attention by just talking- honestly just come up to me and tap me on the shoulder a bunch of times

And lastly, I'm very impulsive! Like impulse spending included- if I think something is funny I'm doing/buying it. No questions asked.

Alright, onto my Hobbies!

I love to draw! I have been doing so for about 10 years now, and I'm not thinking of stopping anytime soon! 5 y/o me made the right choice to copy my sister with doing art as well >:)

I also love to play video games hehe- I prefer singleplayer, but I can do multi if I play with friends! Especially for stuff like Identity V- I'm not going in without at least one other person! That being said, my fav genres atm would probably be RPGs, Indies and horror! Horror doesn't give me the scares at all but it's amusing nonetheless!

I also really really love listening to music! I cannot go without it since I don't like it when theres a lot of people talking (either in general or to me)- my fav genre will always be Jazz or honestly Breakcore ATM!! It does the scritch scratchy on my brain well...

Oh and I also roleplay a lot I GUESS- I just have so many characters what would I ever do with them!!

I would say that I'm a fairly decent writer, I can definitely write a good few at most 10k character long response-

Uhm uhm other interests that aren't art, writing and music uhh

I find astrology very interesting!! It's just something I've been wanting to get into for sooo long but I never have time auuugh

I also am super super interested in psychology- it's so cool to research stuff and learn new things about the mindset of some people!

Thats- that's all I guess

As for habits!

- I tend to like bounce my leg up n down! And also move around a lot

- A big habit of mine is to ramble on with something and like explain shit really difficultly?? like like yknow uhhh I will talk about something but when I have to explain something it will not be a simple thing like- At fucking all.

- Im pretty sure being Impulsive is a habit? I already explained but- if I want to do something (preferably something that sounds funny) then I'm DOING IT. No questions asked. I will just go "Heheheh what if I do this" and most of the time everyone goes "DONT DO IT NO" and then I already have done it :>

- I like to bite at my nails, but I'm working on this one right now!! A, after I stop biting again that is- maybe I should get some nail polish again..

Uhhh I think that should be all? I'm super sorry if this is so long! English isn't my first language btw, so if there are some grammatical errors and such I apologize for those!

Anyway, please do take as much time as you need on this!! Oh oh, and do remember to stay hydrated n all!! ✨

The one I choose for you is....

Yusuke Kitagawa [ISFP]!!

He would love to spend time with you (quality time is also one of his love languages <33 whether it's just you with him while he's painting OR you're the one he's painting; he doesn't have a preference really (but painting you causes him to get this fluttering feeling since he's capturing you essence as he says)

He paints things for you and gives them to you as gifts! Along with other types of things he'd think you'd want <33

He also gets pretty awkward with physical affection, but he loves to complement you! he's very elegant and philosophical with the way he complements you tho

he doesn't really like to go out for dates often, so just staying inside and doing something is much for fun for him (and of course, painting dates are a thing)

He tries to remind you to take care of yourself as well! He does appreciate your kindness, but he also wants you to be happy as well!! we love a self-care king!!

when you have a problem with taking things seriously, he exactly the opposite - he takes almost everything seriously - but you too complete each other <33

ALSO since you bottle up your emotions and feelings (like he kind of does as well in a way), he'll always offer his shoulder if you need to let it out! he's a very good listener if you need it :))

he's very calm and collected, but despite how much he thinks Ryuji is annoying, he does appreciate your 'chaoticness' a bit

he'll try to help you calm your impulsivity, and your impulsive buying too! he's very understanding, so he won't criticize you for your habit, but try to help you overcome it!

he LOVES the fact that you also like art! albeit it's different forms of it (at least i think he only does painting? im not sure). like i said earlier, you two definitely have art dates <33

one of my headcanons for Yusuke would be that he cannot focus correctly if there isn't some form of music to sooth his mind. Bc of this, he always plays stuff like lofi or jazz, really just anything to help him focus on something (whether it be school work of painting)

he kind of wishes that he was talented in writing, even though he is actually pretty good

astrology isn't something that he's majorly interested in, but he would love to hear some facts and trivia you want to share! same goes for your interest in psychology (off topic but i also love psychology and all that sort <33 )

with your general impulsivity and when you wanna do something risky or something that may be considered dangerous, he just calmly tells you "no, you probably shouldn't do that" and just leaves it like that

artist bf is pretty cool ngl!! im jealous >:(

[adultingautistic]

I also have auditory processing problems. Why do people get offended when I can't understand them? I understand that it's frustrating to have to repeat something several times, but surely they know I'm not choosing not to understand? Right? Especially people with non-local accents - I would think they would be more accustomed to people not understanding them and thus less likely to snap at me, but it often seems to be the opposite.

but surely they know I'm not choosing not to understand? Right? Sadly? No.  It is a very, very rare thing for an abled person to be able to understand a disability.  People who do not have that disability constantly “overlook” it.

For example, I have no physical disability when it comes to mobility.  As a mobile person, I was aware of curb ramps that allow people with mobility aids to get up curbs, and I knew they were important, and ...that’s all the thought I ever gave them.

But once I got a job as an aid at a home for intellectually disabled people (where I met lots of autistics for the first time, and made lots of friends! but that’s another story), some of them also had physical disabilities, and for the first time, I saw the world through their eyes.

I was surprised at how quickly I memorized where every curb ramp at every location we went to was.  I memorized it because it determined where I parked the van- and I grew immediately frustrated that the marked disabled parking spots were nowhere near the ramp, so very often!

“Who was so stupid as to put the disabled parking spots on the other side of the building from the ramp?” I thought.  But...it has always been like this!  I had never noticed before.  Because I hadn’t experienced it before.  

I will also never forget how horrible it was after it snowed.  Every time it snowed.  Stores would shovel and salt their sidewalks like crazy, but they would always “forget” to shovel the ramp.  My resident couldn’t go in the store, then.  He was completely barred from entering, because of a few inches of unshoveld snow and it made me so angry.

But the person I was before I’d lived that had never put such thought into this.  I’d never even noticed it.  In fact, I had done it.  I had shoveled the sidewalk for my jobs at stores I’d worked at in the past- and had never thought to clear the curb ramp of snow.  It wasn’t because I didn’t care about mobility-disabled people.  It was because I had never been one, and couldn’t put myself in their shoes.

So, for people who have never had a hearing difficulty, they just cannot understand.  It doesn’t make them a bad person.  If they suddenly were to experience life as we do (I also have hearing difficulties), then most people would probably instantly become sympathetic and even angry at the injustices we deal with daily.  But because they haven’t experienced it themselves, they really, truly, do not understand.

So the best thing that I find works is to remind them.  Constantly.  Always.  My partner, for example.  There is no one on this Earth who loves me more.  I have no doubt that he cares for me with all his heart.  But he is fully hearing, and he often says things that I don’t catch.

If I say “what?” he’ll just repeat himself, and that is useless to me, as I didn’t hear it twice now.  So then I’ll say to him “Please say that slower, and louder, and more clearly.”

And then he does.  Because he remembers that I can’t hear well.  But he does need that reminder, and he needs it all the time.  It’s not a matter of not caring- it’s that he really can’t put himself in my shoes.  He has never experienced hearing difficulties, and he doesn’t know what it’s like.

So that’s my advice to you.  Don’t just ask a person to repeat themselves- make them remember why you need it.  Add in the “Because I can’t hear well”.  Tilt your ear closer to them, or in my case, stare at their lips (I have learned to read lips and this helps me).  Do a body language that is reminding them you can’t hear.  Remind them, and they will become more patient.

I’m sorry that you have to struggle like this.  I know personally how much it sucks.  But you deserve to hear the words, anon.  So get them to repeat it.  Make them.  I don’t care if they think it’s annoying.  You deserve to hear it.

[marshmallowprotection]

I'm not 100% fluent in any language but English, either, but I'm like... idk 70% fluent in Spanish? And maybe 30% in French? And like 5% in Russian lmao, I gotta pick that back up.

Playing Mystic Messenger, and already being into languages/learning other languages? I certainly picked up on certain phrases, to the point where I could look away from my phone and know what they are saying. I mean, idk what it looks like written, lol, but hearing it i can tell. Simple stuff, though, like "i love you" and "i miss you" and a couple greetings and a few farewells. Its always realling interesting to see translation errors, because that can tell you about the language itself, and how they structure their sentences, etc.

Also, after hearing so much Korean, and then playing Amnesia: Memories, which is Japanese, I like the musicality of Korean a little better. Im not sure what it is exactly, but Korean just sounds a little nicer on my ears. Although i still like the sound of Japanese in general

Honestly, I like the way all languages sound -- those that i've heard enough to form an opinion, that is. I always get giddy when I hear another language, especially if its one im learning or have connections to in one way and another. And accents?? When they're understandable, they are the cutest thing. haVE YOU HEARD A DANISH ACCENT?? SO cUTe

Bdbdgsj sorry, im a language nerd lmao

Oh- oh- one last thing! I love listening to all the little notification sounds for mysme, and while I usually have the choi twins set, the last time i played, I found one of Zen's that was too cute to not choose where he says, in English, "5, 4, 3, 2, 1... I love you!" Dbdj SO CUTE

Also im a little bit salty about the mic quality for like all?? of Saeran/Ray's notification sounds? They're so much quieter than the others T^T

[417]

My fiancé is much more proficient in language studies than I am. He’s got more than I can count that he knows and that he can work with. I don’t know if he’d be calling himself fluent but he understands the functionality of language and much more than I do. That’s for sure! It’s not what I’m the best at, I struggle with the processing of auditory sounds and I wish I had subtitles for real life because that would save me some problems. 

Honestly, I gotta give credit to anyone that knows more than one language and can talk to others without a lot of trouble. I know how hard that is! I strain to do it all the time whenever someone wants help with their Spanish work and I gotta try to smack myself to remember how to conjugate the verbs. 

I wanna fight Seven, that man knows too many fucking languages and he does it with ease. That fucking nerd. I respect him but I wanna smack him for knowing how to shift between so many languages at once. That’s not natural, you damn bastard. 

I actually like that Saeran’s voice is softer, and well, you can’t say that the title screen doesn’t give you a heart attack when Unknown goes “BAAM! Ha, I saw you flinch!” Saeran is just... well, and even Ray. Their voice just a smidge softer and then we got Unknown who gets me every time even though I see it coming. All my notifs are set to be from Ray Route unlockable sounds. 

[csa-survivor-confessions]

Dissociative Disorders 101

In this post, I'm going to give an outline of Dissociative identity disorder (DID) and Other Specified Dissociative disorder (OSDD).

These two disorders are terribly misunderstood due to horrible representation in media, a lack of education on the topic. Many people still refer DID as Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD) an outdated term from when DID was classified as a personality disorder, we now know the disorder is better seen as a dissociative disorder. I hope this post will help clear up misunderstandings about these topics. 

[CW: Mentions of abuse, medical trauma, war, human tracking, suicide, self-harm, and addiction. All of these are briefly mention and not discussed in detail. Ableism is the only cw discussed in detail]

[Note: This post is not to be used as a diagnostic tool.]

DID & OSDD Glossary:

Alter: Shorthand for alternate personality or alternate identity. The most common language to refer to the multiple identities in the system. You may also see the terms "parts" & "headmates".

Alter jobs: also called “Alter types” or “Alter Roles”. This refers to the common occurrence of certain alters taking on specific roles. This often happens because to some extent DID & OSDD acts as extreme involuntary coping skills. Examples of this are protectors who deal with danger, caretakers who help keep the alters in the system comforted, or trauma holders who retain memories of trauma.

Co-Consciousness: often shortened to co-con. When two or more alter are aware of the outside together. Thoughts of both alters can often blend together. Even at times alters may have split control of the body.

Depersonalization and Derealization: Often shortened to DR/DP. DR/DP disorder is its own diagnosis but those with other dissociative disorders experience it as well. Depersonalization the feeling of oneself is not real or is heavily disconnected from the body. This can even result in one of feeling in control of limbs at all. Derealization is the feeling of the outside world not being real, or a simulation.

Fronting: The act of being the alter conscious at the time and ability to interact with the outside world.

Host: Either the person believed to be the “first” personality (sometimes called the core or original) or the latter who fronts the most.

Splitting: In this case, it refers to when new alters form.

System: A word used to reference all of the alters as a whole. Used like "I am an alter in a system" or sometimes “ I am a system”. Rather someone uses this term is a matter of personal preference, and if they see themselves as part of a system or collectively are a system.

What is Dissociation?

Dissociation refers to the mechanism our brain has to disconnect us from our surroundings sometimes as a benign reaction but severe dissociation is associated with trauma and other mental illnesses.

Every Person has the capacity for dissociation and many experiences some degree of the skill like when you drive home but don’t remember it. However daydreaming in class, spacing out every now again is healthy, there is a huge difference between those experiences and those of people with dissociative disorders.

Dissociation is primarily associated with DID but can also be a symptom of C-PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and some forms of psychosis. There are also physiological conditions that cause and/or mimic dissociation. Like seizures and migraines.

What are the symptoms of DID & OSDD?

[Disclaimer: I’m aware that the DSM is a flawed way to look at mental health, but it is the best way we have to ensure all parties are working with the same definition of terms]

DID:

DID diagnostic criteria are as follows:

1)Two distinct identity states are present. They have to be separate and able to act autonomy. It isn’t “feeling” like another person.

2)Amnesia must occur, defined as gaps in the recall of everyday events, important personal information and/or traumatic events

3)The person must be distressed by the disorder or have trouble functioning in one or more major life areas because of the disorder. This criterion is common among all serious mental illness diagnoses as a diagnosis is not appropriate where the symptoms do not create distress and/or trouble functioning.

4)The disturbance is not part of normal cultural or religious practices.

This DID criterion is to eliminate diagnosis in cultures or situations where multiplicity is appropriate. An example of this is in children where an imaginary friend is not necessarily indicative of mental illness.

5) The symptoms are not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance

So what does that mean? It means that those who have the disorder have at least one alter the hallmark of DID. Alter come in all kinds of varied types and versions. The amnesia criterion does refer to forgetting traumatic events, but also incidents in normal life.

Alters themselves are a complex they aren’t "alter egos or" made up people. Alters can be almost anything, children (younger than the body) adult alters (older than the body), alters based on fiction called Fictional introjects (fictives for short), alters who are angels or spirits, ghost alters, animal alters, alters of varying race and sexualities. This is because alters form to ensure the survival of the child, this includes alters to comfort, protect, soothe and hold trauma away from the wider consciousness. This means that anything that can fill that role can be put into an alter. There is no control over alters, they are not imaginary friends or malleable they are the best way the mind had to survive.

In day to day life DID might look like having missing time, experience dissociation even when in control, a sense of not having an identity, hearing voices within their heads (not auditory hallucinations), meeting people you feel like you should know, having actions you took but have no recollection of, overlapping emotions and trouble focusing.  

People with DID have high rates of self-harm, suicidal behaviour, addiction, disordered eating and other behaviours that cause damage to oneself. This is often even more distressing as one might hurt themselves and not remember it because an alter did it. 

Those with DID will also often have what is referred to as “Inner worlds” or “headspace” this refers to in the mind of the person there is a mental world within. This is a place where alters have a form, body and voice within the mind. It is often a combination of a coping skill used as a kid to escape and a way to be able to interact with others alters. Headspaces often are where alters feel they are when not fronting. It also provides a way of seeing where alters who are not in communication with others are, and can sometimes serve as a visual connection to understanding the others in the system and understand trauma.

Somatic symptoms are really common, Including: Headaches, nausea and vomiting, Non-epileptic seizure/psychogenic seizures, blurred vision, muscle aches, nerve dysfunction (like dysautonomia), fatigue, other feelings of illness. This is sometimes part of conversion disorder.

People with DID & OSDD almost always also have (C-)PTSD. So symptoms like hypervigilance, nightmares, and flashbacks. As they have DID & OSDD and have experienced trauma they likely have symptoms from that other than dissociation, even if they do not meet PTSD criteria.

BPD has high comorbidity with DID, many people with DID or OSDD are misdiagnosed with BPD. Other common comorbid conditions include Anxiety Disorders, Depression, Eating Disorders, and Conversion Disorder.

OSDD:

So the thing about OSDD is a category of conditions that don’t fit another diagnosis. With this post, we are mostly concerned with OSDD-1a and OSDD-1b because those disorders are most similar to DID and form systems.

The DSM Description is as follows:

This category applies to presentations in which symptoms characteristic of a dissociative disorder that cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning predominate but do not meet the full criteria for any of the disorders in the dissociative disorders diagnostic class. The other specified dissociative disorder category is used in situations in which the clinician chooses to specify the reason that the presentation does not meet the criteria for any specific dissociative disorder. This is done by recording "other specified dissociative disorder" followed by the specific reason (e.g., "dissociative trance"). Example presentations that can be specified using the "other specified" designation include the following:

1. Chronic and recurrent syndromes of mixed dissociative symptoms. This category includes identity disturbance associated with less than marked discontinuities in sense of self and agency, or alterations of identity or episodes of possession in an individual who reports no dissociative amnesia.

2. Identity disturbance due to prolonged and intense coercive persuasion: Individuals who have been subjected to intense coercive persuasion (e.g., brainwashing, thought reform, indoctrination while captive, torture, long-term political imprisonment, recruitment by sects/cults or by terror organizations) may present with prolonged changes in, or conscious questions of, their identity.

3. Acute dissociative reactions to stressful events: This category is for acute, transient conditions that typically last less than 1 month, and sometimes only a few hours or days. These conditions are characterized by constriction of consciousness; depersonalization; derealization; perceptual disturbances (e.g., time slowing, macropsia); micro-amnesias; transient stupor; and/or alterations in sensory-motor functioning (e.g., analgesia, paralysis).

4. Dissociative trance: This condition is characterized by an acute narrowing or complete loss of awareness of immediate surroundings that manifest as profound unresponsiveness or insensitivity to environmental stimuli. May be accompanied by minor stereotyped behaviours of which the individual is unaware and/or that he or she cannot control, as well as transient paralysis or loss of consciousness. The dissociative trance is not a normal part of a broadly accepted collective cultural or religious practice.

Those with OSDD-1a&b meet most but not all of DID criterion. They are considered Complex Dissociative Disorders along with DID.

OSDD-1a is either identity disturbance with less distinct alters than DID (they cannot physically take executive control over the person's body, but strongly influence the person's thoughts and actions with this type there is amnesia.

OSDD-1b does have distinct alter do exist and can take executive control with the type there is no amnesia.

How does DID or OSDD Develop?

DID & OSDD comes from long term childhood trauma. When a child is exposed to long term trauma and the identity of the child cannot properly integrate. This means your brain put up amnesic barriers to memories and perception forming the separate identity states.

DID is highly correlated with sexual abuse, physical abuse, medical trauma, living in a war zone, child trafficking,  and Ritual abuse. Another key factor in a child developing these disorder is the lack of healthy attachment (more info here) You can not develop this disorder after age 9, you can't develop it from a single trauma.

The most current theory used to understand how these disorders works are Structural Dissociation. It refers to the way our brain changes the usual structure to compensate for traumatic experiences. It also posits that a child is not born with an integrated personality, to begin with, and this what allows the extreme dissociative symptoms of DID to manifest.

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ANP refers to “Apparently Normal Part” (someone who takes care of daily life)

EP refers to “Emotional part” (someone who holds trauma memories, reactions, and/or sensations).

Primary SD: is found among those with PTSD. The EP holds all trauma associated things such as fight or flight, feelings, sensations, etc, and is not a fully differentiated being (such as alters are/can be in DID and OSDD-1)

Secondary SD is OSDD, complex PTSD, and BPD. OSDD-1 has the most developed EPs out of the secondary SD disorders. BPD and C-PTSD EPs are less developed than OSDD-1 and are fragments (less fragmented than fragments found in OSDD-1 and DID). Secondary SD emotional parts hold less trauma-related material than the single EP found in PTSD. While the EP in PTSD will hold all of the trauma, there may be an EP in the secondary SD category for an emotion related to the traumas, another for body memories, another for visual memories and auditory memories in some of the traumas, and so on.

Secondary SD is OSDD, PTSD, and BPD. OSDD-1 has the most developed EPs out of the secondary SD disorders. BPD and C-PTSD EPs are less developed than OSDD-1 and are fragments (less fragmented than fragments found in OSDD-1 and DID). Secondary SD emotional parts hold less trauma-related material than the single EP found in PTSD. While the EP in PTSD will hold all of the trauma, there may be an EP in the secondary SD category for an emotion related to the traumas, another for body memories, another for visual memories and auditory memories in some of the traumas, and so on.

Tertiary SD refers to DID. There are multiple ANP and multiple EP. They are more developed than the ANP and the EPs in Secondary structural dissociation (though DID parts can have the same degree of development as OSDD-1 parts and vice versa). EPs can be “small”, as in less developed and would be considered fragments, as they hold limited trauma material such as a single feeling or one or two of the senses in a few trauma memories (or just one or two of the senses in one trauma memory). EPs can also be a fully developed part, such as an ANP would be, but hold trauma material. Multiple ANPs exist and can have various jobs associated with daily life such as a school part, a work part, a caretaker part, etc.

This theory is one of the most widely accepted concepts of how alters form and best matches most people's experience. It does contradict the idea that alters are split pieces of one cohesive identity being split the old model.

Another thing to keep in mind about this theory is it shows the structure and function of the brain are altered from a young age. Brains conditioned to dissociate during stress and trauma will continue to split during stress. This means alters can continue to form in those with DID & OSDD past age 9. 

This Video explains further how this relates to alters splitting  

Treatment:

DID & OSDD can be treated and worked on so the person is no longer experiencing the adverse effects or usually lessen them. Treating DID works mostly the same way as any other trauma survivor. Most kinds of trauma therapy can be used, EMDR being the exception. Certain kinds of meditation and visualisation also prove to be not as effective.

Medication can be used to treat comorbid disorders like depression or anxiety but there are no pharmacological treatments for DID on its own.

What is unique about DID is there is the aspect of how the alters affect you. With DID & OSDD time spent with, alters is crucial. Helping alters who are struggling with trauma becomes deeply important in healing.

The two main options with alters are integration or communication.

Integration refers to a process of when two identity states fuse together. This means you have less altered consciousness states, it also relates to them both being able to handle their trauma. The goal here is to end up with the patient having a singular integrated identity.

The other treatment focuses on forming functional working relationships with the altar and helping them process trauma individually, integration might still happen but a singular identity is not the end goal.

Mythbusting:

“People with DID are just psychotic or delusional” False, psychosis is not a feature of DID or OSDD and has been shown to act completely differently for the person and in the brain than psychosis. This is also offensive as it denigrates people with psychosis.

“DID is fake/made up by a therapist/ social contagion/the person only believes they have alters” False: DID has been observed in multiple studies and social contagion, malingering and therapist coercion are no longer prime theories. People saying this often bring up the false memory scare and Sybil. Both of those have been proven to be wildly overstated and are not the only evidence we have. There are cases dating back to the 1500s with the first psychiatric observations in the 1800s.

“Aren’t they dangerous?” or “they're so scary and crazy!” or “Don’t they need to be locked up” False, The real facts are people with dissociative disorders don’t commit violence at a higher rate than anyone else. They are much more likely to be the victims of violence. Starting with the fact they faced violence as a child to even have the disorder.

“Isn't that possession?” or any other spiritual concepts. False, There is nothing supernatural reasons for DID. Some people have spiritual or religious beliefs that change how they personally perceive their condition, but there is nothing supernatural about DID or OSDD.

“It’s super rare” Not actually the estimate for DID is about 1% of the population. Might sound small but with the number of people in the US alone who have, it means you're likely to meet someone with it.

“I would know if you had it” Not likely. Most people with DID present with covert DID. These people do not have alters who act wildly different from the host. Generally alters will attempt to not show obvious signs as well as being n  the same mind with similar physiological aspects and upbringing influence things like mannerisms.  Only 5-6% of people with DID have an overt presentation. Even these people are unlikely to be able to wildly change the way they dress and the like as it’s impractical.

“Bad alters/evil alters/violent alters/murder alters” False. There are often alters who might feel aggressive or be persecutors who hurt the other alters. But they are not going to commit murder or rape. They are usually more dangerous to the person with the disorder than anyone outside. And this anger usually stems from trauma.

“You can’t have the disorder you wouldn’t know” and other variations on “Crazy people don't know their cray”. False usually people with DID reach out to help themselves they don’t get forced into it. Because the symptoms of DID disrupt life and the usual comorbid PTSD or other mental health conditions. People with DID are also often aware to some extent of their alters. Rather this is voices, time gaps, or passive influence. And people who have known about the disorder and are in treatment often have good communication between alters in the mind, they are definitely aware of their health.

I Hope this is helpful for those with and without the disorder to better understand these conditions. My personal experience with DID does mean I’m particularly passionate about education on this topic even more as it intersects with education about trauma in general. I hope this didn’t come off as adversarial and helps people learn. 

-Admin 1

{Resources: Structural Dissociation Explained, OSDD Diagnostic Material,  The Fantasy Theory of DID, New Models of DID, DID Literature Review, DID Research.org, DSM Library, Webermann, A. R. & Brand, B. L. (2017). Mental illness and violent behaviour: The role of dissociation. Borderline Personality Disorder and Emotion Dysregulation}

[izzyovercoffee]

Hello there, I feel you're the best person to ask about this. If someone was learning Mando'a, but didn't have any experience in learning languages, what should they learn first? I'm aware Mando'a is missing a lot of basic words, so would that be an issue?

aww thank you, that’s very sweet of you to say !! 

actually, before I get into it since I don’t want to take all credit, I just want to recommend also speaking w/ @jacensolodjo as we’re both fairly conversational in mando’a. @cassiansfuzzyjacket regularly releases mando’a vocabulary once a week in addition to general mando posts. @thesummerstorms also works on developing mando’a and missing words with the above and myself. There’s also general mandalorian reconstructionists around tumblr (@suspendnodisbelief being one of the people who posted really interesting development wrt mando’a and mandalorians in the past, and I think still does? EDIT:: also @reconfemmandoforares ). I am definitely missing people, but these are the ones I’m most/easily familiar with so we can start there. I’ll make a post eventually.

I also peruse the mando’a and mandalorian tags/searches often.

Also generally I would be careful w/ mandalorian reconstructionists bc a few in the larger community perpetuate toxic beliefs (toxic masculinity being one of the most common along w/ sexism, but also ableism, racism, and specifically catholic interpretation of mandalorians) that don’t actually … exist. That’s a discussion for another day, but the general conlang mando’a resources are worth checking out if you can find them, keeping the aforementioned in mind.

There’s also the MandoMercs forums, and I would caution exactly the same as the above when entering the community.

Okay. So. That said, I won’t beat around the bush here: learning mando’a can be difficult because, like you said, the language is missing quite a few basic words. Learning mando’a will, at least in the beginning, require maybe having easy access to a mando’a dictionary and creative use of words.

Things you might need to remember:

The rules for mando’a are more like … guidelines … and sometimes to get the point across you need to play fast and loose with grammar. 

If you get too creative w/ word construction, some people are not gonna be able to follow you/your meaning. 

This isn’t necessarily a reflection on you, however, but a downside to limited vocabulary.

Drop words that aren’t absolutely necessary (cuyir, “to be / is / are,” is a big one, te, haar “the” is another, etc) 

mando’a does not recognize/utilize gender markers.

For me, personally … learning / being able to speak some french has been incredibly helpful for mando’a pronunciation and verb conjugation, but not so much on the combining words to make other words. German, on the other hand, is great for that. English is also guilty of doing this, but you know … lol.  

Sentence structure often reflects English, possibly because the origins of this conlang are meant for ease of translation with a majority English-speaking audience and the people involved did not have any familiarity with nor background in linguistics (which also may explain the missing basic words). 

Generally, in learning new languages, we tend to remember words that are most relevant to us / used often. But the process of learning language is kind of difficult, especially if you haven’t before — because there are different ways to learn new languages, and what works for one person might not work for another. ie. some people retain language better with writing down phrases and vocabulary repeatedly or writing/reading in the language, while some others learn better via auditory lessons and verbal recitation / jumping straight to practicing with others.

Admittedly, I am (slowly) trying to compile basic necessary words that are missing in mando’a and filling that gap, but that project is a long, long way from completion (I mean, look how long it took for us to settle on the word for boat lmao). And, bc of the nature of language in general there may always be multiple words meaning the same exact thing, and multiple ways to say the same thing.

What I mean is that there is no “right” way to speak mando’a, so long as your meaning gets across clearly, concisely, and sensibly. At its very core, mando’a is a language meant to be easy to speak and easy to understand. Try not to get bogged down in excess, and any time you can shorten and simplify a sentence do it. You can outright drop entire words, so long as context can be derived.

That aside, also remember most importantly: have fun with it.

I know, I know “that’s so corny” but l i s t e n. Mando’a is meant to be a constantly changing, evolving language. Enjoying messing around with the conlang, coming up with new words/phrases or breaking down existing ones to see the how/why, is some of the best ways to familiarize yourself with the language. And tbh don’t be afraid to message me if you want to practice, and feel free to engage with my posts. I’m always welcome to talk about mando’a and mandalorians in general, and I’m working on being more … uh, time efficient with responding now.

anyway … that was a lot longer than I intended. I hope this helps, and I hope I answered your questions. If not please let me know !! and I’ll see if I can be more clear about everything.