#also we need something that teaches girls makeup other than beauty influencers and their mothers.

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btw i fucking hate the nude makeup phenomenon because makeup is so feminized. at 8 years old youre exposed to makeup videos and its all about how to make yourself look different without people knowing. make your nose look smaller and face rounder and all this stereotypical beauty standard BULLSHIT. makeup should be for looking cool in a way that you couldnt normally. im talking big eyeliner dramatic eyeshadow heavy blush. it shouldnt be for teaching little girls that they need to look a certain way to be desirable

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I have another idea if that’s okay😂 Have you heard the whole “you’re really quiet today” and the other person says “nobody plans a murder out loud” could you maybe do that with angel like someone’s flirting with reader and he’s staring and hates it and gets jealous/annoyed but in the end reader reassures him she doesn’t care if people flirt with her bc she only wants him? Just for it to be a fluffy ending? Thank you so much if you take it💗💗

Babe I hope you enjoy this one. 💜🥰

Nobody Plans A Murder Out Loud

Angel x Reader

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You didn’t get to see your boyfriend Angel that much during the past couple of weeks. Him being busy with the club and you with work so you’re quite happy when Angel came home early and told you to get ready.

This is what you’re doing right now! After you took shower and finished your makeup you’re now standing in front of your wardrobe not sure what to wear. You look around and finally see something that catches your eye. The dress Angel loves to see you in the most. You decide to go for it and grab the matching heels. You try to zip it up but it won’t work. You actually wanted to surprise him with your outfit but plans chance. Your only hope now is Angel.

’’Angel?’’ you yell his name frustrated.

’’Angel’’

’’I’m here querida what’s wrong?’’ he asks you and wraps his arms around your shoulders while resting his head on your head. He watches your appearance in the mirror closely. You look at him with a pout on your face and grab onto his strong arms.

’’Can you help me with the zipper? It’s kinda stuck.’’ you ask him and he nods.

’’Anything for you.’’ he kisses your head and shorty after he’s done and places a kiss on your neck. You turn around and wrap your arms around his neck before kissing him.

’’Thank you Angel.’’

’’No need to thank me baby. You look absolutely breathtaking.’’ he says and you blush. No matter how long you’ve been together he still manages to make you blush.

’’You look quite handsome Mr. Reyes. I’m one lucky girl. C’mon’’ you say and grab his hand.

’’we gotta go’’.

About 20 minutes later you and Angel reach your favorite restaurant. The waiter bring you to your table and the both of you sit down. 

’’Thank you baby for taking me out’’ you say and smile at him.

’’No need to thank me mi dulce. It’s the least I can do after being busy with the club and not being able to send much time with you lately.’’ he replies and grabs your hand brining it to his lips kissing the back of it softly.

’’I love you!’’

’’I love you too so much’’

Shorty after the waiter returns with the menus and hands one to Angel before he turn to you handing it to you with the words.

’’And one for the beautiful lady’’ and winks at you. You take it not giving him a second thought and look through it which is why you missed Angels glare.

’’Baby what are you getting?’’ you ask him and look up.

’’Not sure yet. What about you?’’ he asks you.

’’Same as always I don’t even know why I went through it. I mean I eat the same thing each time we are here.’’ you laugh and he gives you a smile. Soon the waiter returns and takes your order. Once he left you see frown on Angels face.

’’What’s wrong Angel?’’ you ask and grab his hand.

’’Nothing Y/n.’’ he reassures you and squeezes your hand. You are totally wrapped up in your conversation when the food arrives not giving the waiter any attention the two of you keep talking. After you’re done eating and the waiter comes back you see Angels facial expression change once again and he gets more and more quiet the longer you are at the restaurant.

The waiter takes the plates and winks at you before he leaves. You roll your eyes and look at your man again.

’’You*re awfully quiet now my love’’

’’Nobody plans a murder out loud.’’ he says shortly before taking a sip of his beer continuing to stare at the table. You watch him with a smile.

’’Keep planning I’m using the restroom.’’ you grab your purse and get up. Your destination the manager. Once you find her she pulls you in her arms.

’’Hey darling.’’ she greets you.

’’Hey Momma G’’ you say. Momma G happens to be your best friends mother.

’’I didn’t know you’re here.’’ she says.

’’Yeah date night. Angel took me out.’’ you say smiling.

’’Ah the handsome Reyes boy. I hope he still treats you well?’’

’’Yes more than well Momma G. He’s the best.’’

’’I’m glad to hear that.’’ she smiles.

’’Why I’m here Momma G. The waiter over there’’ you say and point at him.

’’He can’t take a hint. He keeps staring at me and and flirting I felt kinda uncomfortable. So does Angel I think. He got more and more quiet the longer we’re here. I didn’t want to cause a scene so I wanted to talk to you in private.’’ you end your speech giving her a sad smile.

’’I’m so sorry darling. I’ll talk to him. You go and get your man. Dinner is on me tonight. Wait here I’ll be back.’’ she says and leaves. When she returns she’s holding a bottle of wine in her hands.

’’This one is for you and Angel. The best wine I have here. Pretty expensive too. I’m going to charge w/n with it for making you and Angel uncomfortable. I hope it’s teaching him a lesson. Oh and our cook is wrapping up some chocolate cake for you.’’ she says handing you the bottle.

’’Thanks Momma G’’ you say and kiss her cheek.

’’No need to thank me Y/n. It’s the least I can do.’’ she replies and the door opens. In comes the cook Antonio with the cake.

’’There you go.’’ he says.

’’Thank you Toni’’ you say.

’’Enjoy your night Y/n’’ she says.

’’You too and thanks again for spoiling us like this.’’ you leave and return to your man. 

’’I thought you wanted to use the restroom and not raid the kitchen’’ he says and you laugh.

’’I thought you were planning a murder and not trying to become a comedian.’’

’’1:0 for you baby. Why are you still standing?’’

’’Because you and I are leaving now. Come on’’ you nod with your head into the direction of the entrance. He gets up and follows you. Once you reach your car you put the stuff inside while Angel lights up a cigarette sitting hood of your car. You close the door and sit next to him.

’’You know I hate it when I take you out and you decide to pay.’’ he says.

’’Yes I know. Good thing then that I’m a good girl and listen to my man from time to time.’’ you laugh and nudge his side.

’’Great now my girlfriend decides to do a runner. I didn’t know you had that kind of criminal energy inside of you! Girl you’re a bad influence on me.’’ he says laughing. You get up and stand in front of him.

’’I’m full of surprises. Jokes aside babe. Momma G invited us. Let’s go home Angel. I love these heels but they aren’t made to walk in them.’’

Half an hour later you’re home Angel unlocks the door and you head straight to the living room. Angel get 2 wine glasses and forks for the cake. When he returns you sit on the couch in nothing but your underwear. Angel stares at you with wide eyes.

’’Like what you see Reyes’’ you say and he only nods.

’’Don’t get your hopes up. I’m not trying to have sex with you. At least not yet and now gimme my cake’’ you practically demand.

’’Why are you sitting here like this. Not that I’m complaining mi dulce.’’ he says and sits down next to you.

’’Didn’t want so spill anything on the dress and ruin it. I know how much you love seeing me in it and I love the way you look at me when I’m wearing it.

’’Yeah so do other men’’ he says thinking you didn’t hear him but you did.

’’Angel? I know the waiter bothered you. His behavior bothered me too - Made me feel uncomfortable because I saw the change in your eyes. I know you were upset and I hate to see you like this. That’s why I went to Momma G instead of the restroom like I told you. She apologized for the waiters behavior and charged him with the bottle of wine. That thing is hella expensive. And she packed us up some cake so we can continue our date at home. Btw I’m happy you didn’t murder him. I’d hate to see you locked up. I want you to know that I love you. You’re the only one for me - my ride or die. I don’t really pay attention to other men because I have only eyes for you. You treat me so well Angel better than anyone has before - better than I could have imagined like ever. I love you with all the rough edges and flaws. You may not be perfect but that’s okay on one is - but what is important you’re perfect for me. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. You’re my kind of perfect. Don’t ever doubt yourself. You and Me that’s all that matters you hear me. You and me always. I’m not letting go of you like ever. I love you and no-one else. I love you so much it scares me sometimes. I’m done speaking now incase you’d like to say something.’’ you say ending your monologue. He doesn’t say anything. Instead he gets up form the couch and leaves you sitting there. You’re confused hoping you didn’t overwhelm him with your speech. He soon returns to you and sits down on the coffee table in front of you. He takes your hand in his and plays with your fingers.

’’You know I usually don’t talk about my feelings but with you it seems so simple. You’re the best thing that happened to me Y/n never for get that. I wasn’t looking for a relationship but then you came into my life and swept me off my feet. I couldn’t be more thankful to have you in my life. You treat me well, you love me and take care of me. You gave me a home I’m happy to return to every night. You changed me. You make me want to be a better version of myself everyday. Y/n I want you to know that I feel the same there is no-one else but you on my mind. I don’t give a fuck about the girls hanging around the clubhouse. You’re the one I want - the one I crave. I couldn’t be more happy to have such an intelligent and beautiful, kindhearted and also badass woman by my side. I’m so thankful I was blessed with a woman like you. I love you mi dulce more than anything in this world.’’ he drops down on one knee and pulls out a beautiful ring holding it in his hand. You can’t believe it’s happening.

’’Y/n, my sweet sweet Y/n would you want to spent the rest of your life with me?

Will you become my Mrs. Reyes - my wife?

Will you marry me?’’

’’A thousand times yes Angel’’ you say and he and he takes the ring slipping it on your finger before for kissing you passionately.

’’Shit Angel. I can’t believe it.’’

’’Well you better do my fiancée’’ he says with a smile.

’’Fuck the cake Reyes I need you more than that take me to bed.’’ you say laughing.

He shakes his head laughing 

’’Your wish is my command my fair lady.’’ and with that you stand up and he throws you over his shoulder taking you there. 

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Girls Games 2

After doing further research into other websites that the company who own GoGirlsGames own. I discovered 

gamesgames.com

agame.com

a10.com

mousebreaker.com

Seeing how GoGirlsGames is an active website for girls games only, I wanted to see if the other websites were more gender neutral.  

This is the screenshot for GamesGames.com.

Now nothing is actively wrong with this home page until you look at the categories for games... New, Puzzle, Girls.....? Action, Multiplayer, Simulation, Skill and Sport. 

Don’t Worry Girls, you’ve got a place on our website!! 

Dress up, dating, kissing, hairdresser, wedding and love games! Seriously, could this get anymore stereotypical?

Now when I had a closer look at some of the other sub-catergories I noticed this.

Under action, comes boys games?

A variety of games involving skill and thought as well as sports and action. Albeit slightly stereotypical, nowhere near as bad as the girls section which completely cuts off girls from any sort of skill or challenging game play.

This came up as in the Girls Category as ‘Best Games’. Rapunzel getting lip injections??

Unfortunately playing this game didn't get any better

The game involved injecting each part of rapunzels lip. 

You get to put makeup on her finished result. I’d love to think this game is a deterrent as to me this absolutely terrifying but unfortunately I don’t think that is the case with an implication that their favourite disney princess needs lip injections, children may start believe that is what they need. 

The body shaming doesn’t stop there, my last post I mentioned ‘Fat to Fit’ and unfortunately there is another version.

Once again the character starts off at a particularly healthy weight and is made to exercise ready for her princess ball. I did not play this all the way through as the game play was laggy but I think the title is enough to show the absolute disgustingness of this game.

Nerd to Fab also played a part in body shaming as I had to take off her glasses and remove her braces, pop pimples to help her get ready for her prom. While a proper skin care routine isn’t sexist and neither is a good face mask which I wouldn’t say no to. There is something horrific about suggesting to young girls that having braces, glasses and even spots is something that makes you ‘nerdy’ and that there is even something wrong with being nerdy. Unfortunately this just takes young girls with braces, glasses or spots and makes them somehow seem lesser.

I played a game where a pregnant women had had what looked like a severe accident and I had to look after her. 

Although nothing necessarily wrong with this I found fixing her hair and make up seemed to be a low priority for me. 

Now what came as the advertisement after the game ended is what annoyed me.

MOMMY WASHING CLOTHES????

All I had to do was sort clothes into coloured or whites and then hand them to her!! I never seen such a boring and sexist game. Playing on all stereotypes that mums do the washing, and EVERYTHING IS PINK!!

I played Beach kiss, which was just a little weird. Two young and stereotypically good looking people stood and kissed and avoided being caught. Considering this is the premise for a majority of the kissing games, I find it disturbing this is what we are teaching young girls to inspire to be.

Another suggestion for me was GET YOUR BOYFRIEND, where you watch 3 tapes of different guys profiles and then choose one to go on a date with. 

You play through the date and build up the ‘love meter’. no actual conversation, you build up the meter by brushing her hair, scrubbing her lips and applying powder and then the weirdest one is CLEANING DIRT OF HIS SHOULDER.

One game that caught my eye is “Swimmer’s Armpit Makeover” describing her armpits as a hairy mess. Again implying that there is something wrong with that body hair and it should be removed under the public eye. - Even though she seemingly has been training with it?

What amused me further was the fact that we then choose her outfit which seems slightly inappropriate for a swimming race and even if we considered the armpit shaving to be more aerodynamic, the outfit choices seemed to lack that?

We got to choose her hair which again- doesn’t seem very practical?

Then applying eyeshadow seemed a bit impractical even if it was waterproof... got to be pretty I guess?

Moving on to Agames 

 Similar to gamesgames.com the categories immediately split girls off into a different section.

  I clicked on ‘All girls” and it came up with a list of further categories.

The one that amused me the most were ‘Cleaning’, Shopaholic Games’ and ‘Accessories Dress Up’. It is just a list of stereotypes that young girls are being led into for such a young age. A list of what defines them rather than inspiring them to make something of themselves. No doctor games, engineer games? Nothing that even seems like it’s trying to influence girls to play a role that isn’t being beautiful or a mother. 

This compared to the boys section description- even using one of my most hated phrases “Boys Will Be Boys’.

The language used in both of these really shows they believe there is an active difference in boys and girls. Especially using things like ‘hand-eye coordination and problem solving skills’ for the boys but for the girls its hair and make up, practicing your smooching skills. 

What concerns me is “or too young to date’ which comes up a few times, mainly because I think most adults will not be playing this sort of games and that the people who are playing them (8 year olds)- creating a sort of expectation or idea in their heads before they’ve had even had a chance to create it. While probably not as extreme, it reminds me about the discussion how porn creates an expectation for people and then it always falls short leading to sexual violence and extremities.

I think these games need to be firstly separated into sections that don’t involve gender. Dress up and skill can be two categories instead of GIRLs and Skill because it just implies girls cannot play skill based games.

Secondly, the body shaming and female stereotypes need to stop. I do not have a problem with young girls playing dress up games etc, because not every child will be interested in engineering or skill building. However, the games that are available to children shouldn’t be like some of the games shown above. Proving stereotypes like women need a partner, need to be skinny and beautiful etc.

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The “Rural” Mom Meets the “Urban” Daughter-in-Law

                                             Liu Jie, Hunan

                           Different Viewpoints, Constant Conflicts

I am a typical housewife, a good wife and a loving mother, I take good care of my husband and children, I’m hardworking and thrifty in running my household, and I’ve never recklessly spent my money. But something unimaginable happened to me. My son married a fashionable girl who really loved to have fun and dress up and follow the trends of the world. She pursued and purchased whatever was popular in the world, she threw away money by the handful, and however much she made each month was however much she spent. Since there was such a huge difference in our ways of thinking and living, my daughter-in-law and I often would be at loggerheads, we got into angry arguments, and our problems continued to get more and more intense.

One day I saw my daughter-in-law come in carrying a bag, so I hurried over to ask her what she had bought, and how much money she had spent. She lit up and said: “I bought a dress, it wasn’t expensive, just 400-something yuan.” When I heard this, I got extremely angry: How could she be so relaxed, she was acting like she was someone with a lot of money. When I buy a dress, it’s less than 100 yuan, and I wear it for several years. However, the clothes she bought were expensive, and once they became outdated she’d stop wearing them, while her wardrobe got stuffed full of clothes; the more I thought about it the angrier I got, and it started to wear on my face. When my daughter-in-law saw that I wasn’t happy, it wiped the smile off of her face, she turned around and walked into her bedroom, and I heard the sound of the door slamming shut.

                         Advice Unheeded, Distance Widening

The “Rural” Mom Meets the “Urban” Daughter-in-Law Later on, whenever I saw her get back from shopping, I would scold her: “Lili, look at our family, we are not very well-off, soon your child will be grown up, and then there will be lots of things we will need to spend money on, so we cannot keep on spending money so recklessly. If we have clothes and shoes that fit, then that’s good enough; we can’t continue throwing away money like this. You need to consider your future.” But my daughter-in-law responded by saying she and my son knew how to live their lives and said that I needn’t worry too much about it. Seeing that she didn’t understand where I was coming from made me feel full of resentment toward her, and we would often get into disagreements over these things. Later on, when she returned from another one of her shopping trips, she avoided me, taking advantage of me not paying attention. She stepped quietly into her room and didn’t come out until after she had hidden her things away. After I found this out I got very upset, but I knew that it would be of no use to speak of it, all I could do was turn a blind eye and put up with it. But as time went on I really couldn’t bear it, and I would often whine to my son. It was difficult for my son, who was wedged in between us, and one day he unexpectedly asked me: “Ma, when Lili goes shopping she doesn’t ask you for money, so why do you mind so much?” Seeing that my son was also on her side I felt especially hurt and saddened inside. I got so angry that I ignored them for several days. But afterward my daughter-in-law carried on as if nothing ever happened, which made me even angrier.

With the Word of God Leading the Way, I Found the Root of the Problem

One day, when my son told my daughter-in-law that they were going to go to his coworker’s house to eat, she went to her room to put on makeup, and after an hour went by she still hadn’t come downstairs. Seeing her like this, I came up and angrily lectured her: “Every time you put on makeup for so long, it really is a waste of time! I’ve never worn makeup in my entire life, and I’ve managed to get by, and I don’t look any uglier than other people, I just go with my natural look.” When my daughter-in-law heard me say this she started fighting with me, and I got so angry that I wanted to immediately leave the house and live on my own, away from her. I thought to myself: “What I can’t see can’t hurt me.” But I looked at my son and granddaughter and knew that I couldn’t be so heartless, so I was forced to abandon this plan. But the resentment I held in my heart for my daughter-in-law grew deeper and deeper, and we would often get in fights over small things. We were not keeping a peaceful home.

Living in this kind of a quarrelsome household made me feel very tired and bitter, so I thought that as a believer in God, I was revealing my corrupt disposition in quarreling with my daughter-in-law like this all day long and that it didn’t conform to the will of God. In my suffering all I could do was pray to God: “Oh God! I know that I shouldn’t argue over trivial matters with my daughter-in-law, but I just can’t help it. Oh God! I’m asking You to enlighten me, please get me to understand how to treat my daughter-in-law in a way that conforms to Your will, I am willing to practice the truth in order to satisfy You.” After praying to God, I opened up the word of God, and read where God says: “What do social trends include? (Style of clothing and makeup.) This is something people often come into contact with. Clothing style, fashion, and trends, this is a small aspect” (“God Himself, the Unique V” in The Word Appears in the Flesh). “For man who is not of sound body and mind, who never knows what is truth, who cannot tell the difference between positive and negative things, these kinds of trends one after another make them all willingly accept these trends, the life view, the life philosophies and values that come from Satan. They accept what Satan tells them on how to approach life and the way to live that Satan ‘bestows’ on them. They have not the strength, neither do they have the ability, much less the awareness to resist” (“God Himself, the Unique VI” in The Word Appears in the Flesh). Through the revelation of the word of God I finally understood this: The trend of the world is a means for Satan to corrupt man. Satan takes advantage of social trends to control us and dupe us, it teaches us all kinds of erroneous viewpoints such as, “The love for attractiveness is native to humans,” “Clothes make the man, a saddle makes the horse,” and “Seize the day for pleasure, for life is short.” Once these mistaken viewpoints enter into our minds, we believe that: our lives ought to be about pursuing beauty and paying attention to how we dress, and this is natural and normal. How you dress is a symbol that proves your status and worth; if you wear pretty and fashionable things and put makeup on to make yourself pretty, then you will not be outcast by society, then you will be valued by others; if not, you will be disparaged and looked down upon by others. Because of this mistaken viewpoint we unwittingly get swept up and carry on in evil trends. Looking at society today, it doesn’t matter if you’re young or old, everyone keeps up with the latest fashion and chases current trends, everyone wants to wear extravagant clothing and pretty themselves up with makeup, whoever is on the front-line at a given time is who is chased after by everyone, and no one believes that this is a negative thing stemming from Satan; on the contrary, they are under the impression that pursuing these things is reasonable and as it should be. My daughter-in-law doesn’t believe in God, she does not understand the truth, she doesn’t have discernment, so how can she not be affected by living her life under these kinds of circumstances? She has a love of beauty, she loves to dress up, and she loves to waste her money because she is affected, influenced and corrupted by Satan’s evil trends. To be spurred on by these kinds of evil trends makes her especially vain, she is always comparing herself to others, and she believes that the clothes and makeup she wears is her bargaining chip for raising her self-worth. Really, my daughter-in-law is without the freedom to act independently. By coming to understand these things I came to find the root of the problem, and I felt that everything had suddenly become clear.

The “Rural” Mom Meets the “Urban” Daughter-in-Law Afterward, I came before God and prayed: “Oh God! I am willing to let go of my prejudices toward my daughter-in-law. May You guide me so that I can put myself aside and do and view things in accordance with Your word.” From then on, whenever I saw my daughter-in-law spent money recklessly on shopping and it made me feel bad, I would pray to God and seek God’s protection so that my heart might be at peace in His presence. Slowly but surely, I didn’t have as much hate in my heart for my daughter-in-law, and through the word of God I became aware: We are all a part of the corrupt human race, we all live under the domain of Satan and are duped by Satan, we all live involuntarily on the basis of our corrupt dispositions. My daughter-in-law is also a victim of these evil trends, I should not resent her, and I certainly shouldn’t treat her on the basis of Satan’s corrupt disposition. Satan is the main culprit of all of these things, Satan is more detestable than anything else.

I carried on in this way for a period of time, thinking that I had already set aside my prejudices toward my daughter-in-law, but since I did not have true knowledge of my corrupt nature, since my life disposition had not changed, when I came across things that weren’t in line with my desires, my corrupt disposition was once again revealed.

The Word of God Led Me to Self-Awareness

One month, after my daughter-in-law spent all the money she had to spend, we didn’t even have money to pay our social insurance. After I discovered this, I was filled with so much rage that I really wanted to immediately kick my daughter-in-law out. Just when I wanted to get angry at her, I suddenly realized that I was again living in a wrongful state, so I hurriedly calmed myself down and prayed to God, seeking His protection over me, so that I would be able to not treat my daughter-in-law according to my flesh.

When I opened up the book of the word of God, I read where it says: “Don’t be self-righteous; … If you regard others as less than you then you are self-righteous, self-conceited and are of benefit to no one” (Utterances and Testimonies of Christ in the Beginning). The judgment and chastisement of the word of God made me recognize that I had always disliked my daughter-in-law because none of her actions conformed to my expectations, she did not meet the standard of what I thought a daughter-in-law should be. I am a frugal housekeeper, and I demanded that my daughter-in-law be the same, to be a good wife and loving mother. When I saw that she was not only not diligent and thrifty, but that she spent her money recklessly, I despised her and thought that she didn’t understand things and that she just threw away her money. In addition, I also wanted my daughter-in-law to obey me in anything I asked of her and live according to my lifestyle. Whenever my daughter-in-law did not do what I asked I got angry, criticized her and gave her dirty looks. But in this moment I finally saw that I had been completely controlled by the satanic nature of “putting oneself above all else,” always wanting to hide the truth from the masses and having the final say. All that exuded from me was an arrogant and self-righteous corrupt disposition, and it was of benefit to no one. “What’s more, my daughter-in-law and I are from different generations, we are not affected and influenced by society in the same way, but I’m always using my own standards to ask things of her; is this not being arrogant and conceited? Am I not being a controlling person? I thought about how supreme God is, how He even appeared in the flesh to hide with humility and obscurity among us to carry out the work of saving man, how God has never used His position to suppress people, and hasn’t forced people to put His word into practice, how all along He’s only expressed the truth to supply man, and used His love to move man and make man repent. But whenever we rebel against and resist God, even though He uses His word to expose and judge us, at the same time He is patiently guiding us, supporting us and providing for us, and with great patience and tolerance He waits for us to turn back to Him. God is so humble and so good! However, I, who am so deeply corrupted, behave so arrogantly and without reason, I always force my daughter-in-law to listen to me in my position as the mother-in-law, and all that I live out is corrupt disposition.” The more I thought about this, the more ashamed I felt. I saw that I had been so deeply corrupted by Satan, that when I was confronted with things I couldn’t quiet my heart in God’s presence. My naturalness was very strong, and I had too many personal wishes, and many times I had lost witness. I really was not fit to live in the presence of God.