#also this is a new formatting i'm working on

[once-more-with-gravitas]

With New XKit officially riding off into the sunset, I’m taking this opportunity to have a nice maudlin ramble about my time with XKit. The past ten years have been a fantastic journey filled with so much learning and growth. Thank you to all the volunteers and users who made New XKit possible. Read on for the story of how a bit of badgering and the nerdiest long-distance relationship resulted in an open source software project used by almost half a million people.

In the far-off year of 2015, my girlfriend (now wife :)) came to me and said, "hey, I'm having trouble with XKit because nobody is maintaining it. you love javascript and open source so you should do something." Being a fool, I agreed and dove in alongside her. What we found were 41,238 lines of nearly-comment-free code that was a little obtuse and poorly formatted before nine months of bitrot had peppered bugs throughout it. Which is to say, it was only a little worse than the code I was already working with (and sometimes creating) as an undergraduate.

Working with all the power of two bored nerds, my girlfriend and I fixed the most major problems with the code, spun up our own hosting, and created our own extensions: Anti-Capitalism and Lethe, respectively (our priorities perhaps revealing a bit about who we are as people). We registered a new blog, @new-xkit-extension, and made our first post announcing that we had working builds of XKit that you could install with a bit of know-how.

This post blew up! It turns out that the lovely people of Tumblr were absolutely foaming at the mouth for someone to get any form of XKit working so we were inundated with asks thanking us for our efforts (at this point quite minimal!), wondering when we'd have a normal XKit build out, and reporting problems with our developer build. All of this filled us with determination. We spent unhealthy amounts of time over the next few days fixing bugs and nurturing the fledgling project.

After only a couple days we would be graced with the most important event of the whole project--one that sets the stage for what made all of this worth it. We got our first contributor, @xumbra! A random stranger saw us frantically patching all the holes in XKit and stepped up to help. If there’s one thing I’d like you to get out of this meandering tale, it’s that people can come together through a spirit of helpfulness to create a better world. Or, in this case, a better way to reblog posts.

One week, one contributor, and five thousand (!!) followers later, we entered a very hectic period of devoting an unreasonable amount of time to making New XKit the best it could be. The love language of both my girlfriend and I was officially JavaScript. One highlight from these early days is the time when we had to make a post to clarify that, despite all the bugs we were still frantically fixing, the invisible notes were @staff’s fault, not ours. We also decided to base our blog’s theme around Kill La Kill. While this is presumably my fault, I have no idea why this felt like a good idea. Speaking of ideas that seemed good at the time, we saw that the ability to edit reblogs was being removed and introduced an extension to keep them around. This extension got a lot of people to use New XKit and was beloved by the RP community but it was an absolute nightmare to maintain. In return for this bit of ill-advised hackery, we got to make a fun meme, so it’s all worth it in the end. These early days also saw some stumbles! The all caps DON’T UPDATE ON FIREFOX is an iconic example of the long path towards stability ahead of us. We also gained several members on the New XKit crew! As our growth exploded, it became clearer and clearer that we were in need of some process and professionalism.

Thus began a heart-racing montage of dotting i’s and crossing t’s. The growing New XKit team split out support and shitposting from the main blog, freeing it up to be used for important announcements. We also created a live support channel and started using project management software. After a short fundraising campaign, we even scraped together the money for an iOS development certificate and would soon extend our support to every major browser. Thank you to all the generous people who helped! This is also around the time when @staff would change the reblog layout, banishing the vertical discourse lines...until we brought them back with a new extension. It had only been half a year since we set out on this journey. New XKit was becoming a proper community-driven open source software project with around 300,000 users all customizing their Tumblr experience. At this point, we put together a whole discord-hosted town hall event where the whole team spent four and half hours straight hashing out ways to further improve the project and answering community questions. It was a testament to how engaged and improvement-hungry our crew was and it warms my heart to this day. It also keeps me humble; because wow, past me had some Very Wrong software development opinions. Luckily, the New XKit team was (and is) full of super knowledgeable people and we continued on a good course. Hell, unbeknownst to us, our newest team member, @april, would go on to be the best addon developer on all of Tumblr. All was at peace and New XKit was properly “less broken than you think.”

Unfortunately, this golden age couldn’t last forever. Five years after the start of New XKit, the React dash came to crash the party. This complete rewrite of Tumblr’s frontend was a massive improvement in terms of future engineering and modernity, but New XKit had wrapped around Tumblr’s old code like a parasitic vine and would take irreparable damage from being disentangled. In simple terms, nearly every extension broke overnight. With @staff’s help, we were able to mitigate some of the damage, but the writing was on the wall. Most of New XKit’s extensions were broken and most of the team now had day jobs and obligations. This time there wouldn’t be two dorks writing code, forgoing sleep, and frantically recruiting a team to pull New XKit into working order. Instead, we were gifted something better, something that was designed from the ground up to be a good time for everyone involved. We got XKit Rewritten, the unparalleled effort from @april, the new talent from last paragraph who had only been improving since I last mentioned her. This new addon had all the most important features of New XKit with none of the accumulated cruft. New XKit could finally rest.

Today, ten years on from the first build of New XKit, I’d like to thank everyone who made this journey a possibility. First, I want to single out the people who made up the original core New XKit team: 0xazure, @blackjackkent, @xumbra, ChuckL, @consensual-blathering, finagle, @nightpool, @april, @invalidcards, and Wolvan. You all rocked this! Thank you for helping guide this ponderous project in a good direction. I hope you found it as educational and inspiring as I did! Second, thank you to all of the other contributors! In the interest of brevity, I’ll defer to GitHub’s full list but I’d especially like to thank @transienturl for their recent herculean efforts to make sure New XKit can receive critical updates in the future. We couldn’t have done it without all the people who volunteered their time, thank you for choosing us to help! Finally, I’d like to thank everyone who used New XKit. Your passion for the project is what kept it going. I hope that all the bugs you encountered were at least somewhat comedic. And of course, thank you, dear reader, for making it this far!

Deprecating New XKit

Hi all, it's been a while!

tl;dr: You should use XKit Rewritten, it's new, shiny, and getting consistent updates. Get it from here: https://addons.tumblr.com/post/661324873572974592/xkit-rewritten. If you want to customize the appearance of Tumblr you should use the built-in settings or Palettes for Tumblr. You shouldn't rely on New XKit, it's old and busted.

Around four years ago, April, a core contributor to New XKit, started the XKit Rewritten and wider @addons projects to create a modern alternative to the already somewhat moldy New XKit. This was with our complete support, and many members of the New XKit team now also help out with XKit Rewritten and other addons.

Chrome and Firefox have both phased out support for older extensions, requiring challenging workarounds to install New XKit. It's become very clear that anyone who is still using New XKit would really have a better time using XKit Rewritten, Palettes and Outbox for Tumblr, and the couple XKit-inspired core Tumblr features.

If you continue to use New XKit for some key part of your Tumblr workflow be warned that it's past the end of its digital lifespan. Despite the name, New XKit is a crumbling old cathedral. You can still walk around in it if you really want to, but it has been fenced off for safety and a brick might fall on your head.

One key difference we'd like to highlight is that XKit Rewritten intentionally doesn't have a Blacklist feature, leaving it to Tumblr's native post filtering functionality. If you still need the specific functionality of New XKit's Blacklist, you can keep it installed alongside XKit Rewritten. Click here for a list of other frequently asked questions.

To summarize: Get XKit Rewritten here: https://addons.tumblr.com/post/661324873572974592/xkit-rewritten. It's like New XKit but designed for modern Tumblr and consistently updated. New XKit will still be around for anyone who really needs it but is a much buggier experience.

Thank you all very much for using New XKit! On behalf of the whole team it's been a great time with all of you here on [tumblr].

[addi-mars]

Two Ghosts (Standing in The Place of You And Me)

Relationships: Robert "Bob" Reynolds/John Walker (Marvel), Thunderbolts Team Members & John Walker (Marvel)

Rating: Mature

Tags: Slow Burn, Fake Marriage, Hurt/Comfort, Found Family, Post-Movie: Thunderbolts (2025), Post-Canon, POV: John Walker (Marvel), Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Developing Relationship, Healing, Mutual Pining, Self-Esteem Issues, Internalized Homophobia, Past John Walker/Olivia Walker (Marvel), Angst with a Happy Ending, there is fluff I promise, John Walker is kind of an asshole, I can fix him (tm), Missions Gone Wrong, Other Additional Tags to Be Added

Summary:

Seven months into the formation of the New Avengers, scandal strikes. The execution footage resurfaces, dragging John’s past back into the spotlight. Whispers about The Void—and its connection to Bob—are gaining traction. The public is afraid. Reputations are crumbling.

So Valentina makes a call: spin a narrative. A surprise wedding. A love story between two misunderstood heroes who found each other in their darkest hour.

The only problem?

They both hate the idea.

The bigger problem?

The marriage is already legal.

Their teammates know it’s fake. Of course they do. But with the media in a frenzy, management demands full buy-in: shared dormitory, matching rings, joint interviews, public hand-holding.

Jokes get whispered in the elevator. Alexei starts winking too much.

John’s ex won’t return his calls, but somehow, she’s seen every staged photo of him holding Bob’s hand.

Through the forced smiles, the late-night silences, the uncomfortable proximity, and the leaking wounds neither of them want to show—the lines between fiction and something far more dangerous start to blur.

It’s not love. Not yet.

But it’s a ghost of something.

And it’s theirs.

Author's Note:

Let's freaking GOOOOOO!!! I've been sitting on this fic for a while. I'm so excited to finally share it with you all. Updates will be posted weekly until the conclusion of the story. I hope you enjoy <3

Also: I LOVE using em-dashes. Always have and always will. I can guarantee that this work is fully of my own creation. Thanks. :)

READ IT HERE!!!

Read it on AO3! // Chapter 1

[wanologic]

Heyoo!! The last item for my pop-up shop is going to be an anthology artbook with all of my college au content!

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There will be a whopping 52 full color pages of fic, art, notes, and comics! I'm reformatting and recoloring almost everything so it will print beautifully in 8x10, and hopefully be more legible than my tumblr post ranting lmao

Shop will open on Saturday Feb 8th and close March 1st!!

[yaekiss]

its monsterfucking hours again. maybe ive just been watching too many minecraft horror mods but i need an eldritch being of mass destruction obsessed with me right now sigh. -🪻

𝑬𝒙𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝟑𝑳𝑫

꩜ Room Content: GN! Researcher! Reader x Yandere! Ivory Wraith, no gendered terms for reader, mild horror(?), lmk if I missed out anything! ꩜ A/N: omg minecraft horror mod videos... is it by any chance The Obsessed? Hmmm honestly any character could have eldritch potential if you try hard enough. Tried out a new way of writing for this one, lmk if it's effective for this fic! ꩜ Spin this wheel and submit a prompt + character for a quick blurb!

Experiment 3LD, helmed by the renowned Dr. ▇▇▇▇▇. The experiment will be conducted over a period of 44 days. See below for the assistant researcher's compiled voice notes:

1VRY.

Day 4, 10.03am - Otherwise known as the Ivory Wraith, we have managed to contain it within a temporary holding cell for the time being. A more advanced enclosure facility is currently being built for it. Although we are still unsure of exactly its abilities work, a strict rule of no mirrors within a set radius has been implemented.

Day 13, 12.45pm - Monitoring the experiment subject proves to be challenging. Its behavior seems to vary wildly from staying abnormally still, akin to a statue carved from pure ivory, to clawing at its neck and stalking to and fro frantically in its cell. The sight is wildly unsettling resulting in all of the other researchers vacating the observation room.

Day 21, 4.38pm - It seems that we have managed to procure a relic related to the experiment subject. It is an ivory necklace, inset with deep blue jewels. The Ivory Wraith seems to have the ability to sense whenever someone is in contact with the relic, where as soon as one of the other researchers touches a part of the necklace, it immediately appears in front of the observation glass, its expression terrible and haunting. Due to this, most of the other researchers have requested to leave the research team, leaving myself as the sole and resulting, assistant researcher.

Day 32, 6.20pm - 1VRY has appeared to have realised that the sole researcher left on behind the observation glass is myself. Strangely enough, its aggressive behavior has lessened, as long as no contact is made with the ivory necklace relic. Now, it usually spends its days hovering around the front of its cell where the glass is, its gaze never parting from my position. Occasionally, trills and whispers are heard from the otherwise quiet surroundings. Its larger, more fully equipped enclosure facility is finally done and attempts to transfer 1VRY will be made in the coming days when the team is fully prepared.

Day 40, 10.13pm - Preparations by the researcher team, consisting solely of myself, and the moving team are almost complete. 1VRY's behavior has reverted back to before, where it is erratic and volatile, prone to lashing out at the observational glass whenever my presence is requested elsewhere, resulting in scratches engraved into the glass. The whispers have also grown in frequency, although no one else has reported hearing anything. Additionally, the same behavior is observed when someone else other than myself is also in the observation room. This has made it difficult to efficiently prepare for its transfer but with consistent effort, we estimate that it could be done in about 4 days' time.

Day 42, 11.04pm - The moving team has just packed up and moved the ivory necklace relic to the new enclosure facility. This however, contradicts the earlier observations of how 1VRY reacts aggressively to the relic being touched by people other than myself. As of right now, it is still continuing its previous docile behavior of simply staring through the glass. Stranger yet, it seems to shift into something more unnatural between bleary blinks. Something smiling too wide with too many teeth, its usual blue eyes a vivid red, along with a swath of tentacles behind its form. However, unnatural does not necessary equate to threatening, perhaps this could be a sort of tempting and alluring another individual. Or it could just be a mirage ability it has? Note to self: Stop staying too late in the observational room...

Day 43, 11.49pm - Terrible miscommunication has occurred between myself and the moving team. It turns out that the ivory necklace was not moved by them. And yet, no one else has come into contact with the relic. 1VRY's transfer must be done immediately with how the certain preparations only allow us a limited timeframe of working with it. There is no choice but for me to search for the relic so that the transfer can go through in the next few hours. Despite the ongoing panic beyond the glass, 1VRY has taken on a sort of behavior that suggests attraction towards something in the observational room. There is no available time for myself to properly document its new state as of the current situation, and it does not help that the lights overhead have been flickering. [Faint static can be heard before the voice note ends.]

Day 44, 12.11am - [The voice note is interspersed with bouts of static, making it hard to decipher at some parts.] I... I don't understand. Why is the ivory necklace in my ▇ab coat pocket? I haven't touched the relic since the contact tests c▇nduct▇d on it on Day 22. This makes no s▇nse. [Sounds of shuffling, presumably the researcher moving.] 1VRY...?

Day 44, 12.29am - [Alarms blare overhead. The static grows worse.] Thi▇ is terrible. The lights in th▇ holdin▇ cell have g▇ne out, altho▇gh it remains o▇ in here. There shou▇ be a flashl▇ght here somewhere. [Sounds of shuffling, then a click, presumably the flashlight turning on.] F▇ck f▇ck f▇ck f▇ck. Where is it? [A chilling laugh is heard, followed by a low trill before the voice note cuts out abruptly.]

Day 44, 12.44am - [The voice note is eerily quiet, no alarms or commotion in the background. The voice speaking is new.] Presented as gift, there is no thief. Drown with me. Forever.

Additional information:

Dr. ▇▇▇▇▇ has put out an order for this experimental failure to be kept under wraps. Not a single soul outside of the organisation can learn of this. Although, there have been rumors swirling of a mysterious file on their desk. [3LD - "Assistant Researcher"]

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[ourstaturestouchtheskies]

art history moodboard – melodrama by lorde

A Nocturnal View of the Grand Canal – unknown artist // Nocturne: Queensboro Bridge – J. Alden Weir // Café Terrace at Night – Vincent van Gogh // Dance at Le Moulin de la Galette – Pierre-Auguste Renoir // The Sick Girl – Michael Peter Ancher // Masquerade Ball – Charles Hermans // Paris at Night: Rue de Venise – Konstantin Alexeyevich Korovin // Bülowstrasse Station – Lesser Ury // Market Square of Warsaw by Night – Józef Pankiewicz

[spotaus]

New Age AU (Cross' Spy Adventures)

Hi guys! I'm back! This one has been eating at me so forgive me if it's a bit rougher than the others, but I hope you still enjoy! (And if plot details don't seem to line up? Remember Cross has no clue what's going on yet :] )

Context: Cross has been asked by Dream to do recover information on his brother's next plans of attack. He's not a very good spy.

(Hi to @ancha-aus @papiliovolens and @mutzelputz !!!)

Stars this place was big.

He'd almost forgotten what it felt like to be on a castle grounds after so many years roughing it with Ink. Inns and taverns and tents. He wasn't sure how much he enjoyed being back in the throes of the rich and powerful's estates.

The cart-ride with the other new recruits had been pleasant enough, they were all decently friendly guys. A few were putting on that tough-guy facade, but none of them could've been older than 25. Fresh off the press, practically. Perfect soldiers to be brainwashed.

Cross had laughed and joked with them about what life in the castle might be like. How different it would be from the old daily grind. How maybe they'd pick up a hot partner in town on their patrols. How they hoped they'd eat like kings.

Though, Cross noticed that each of them got cagey when word of the King resurfaced. One birdish-monster mourned that she couldn't have served the last King, Nim, before she passed on to join the gods. Another spoke of the honor it would bring for him to serve the blood of Nim.

They seemed averse to even acknowledging King Nightmare's existence. Aside from his connection to Nim.

Now, the chatter was all silent, and Cross was among the many new soldiers who were ogling the castle as they passed around its outer wall and entered through a side gate.

It was, admittedly, impressive.

His own home kingdom had less of a castle, more of a monolith. It had been dense, and tall, and impossibly smooth. His father couldn't stand imperfection.

This castle was almost the exact opposite of what Cross had always known. The walls imperfect and overlapping, rather than brick it looked like it had burst straight up from the ground. Bumpy and imperfect and natural, and yet beautiful and structurally stable. He didn't linger on it, but he wanted to so badly.

Instead, he drew his attention ahead. To where a man stood, his armor decorated in the marks which indicated him as a reporting officer.

This man, a human with a crooked nose and a thick, black, beard held up a hand, and the driver of the cart tugged at his reigns, the horses pulling to a slow stop.

One by one, once given the signal, the soldiers filed out. Stating their rank, their camp of origin, and their name.

Cross was middle of the pack, and saluted the human as Dream had taught him and as everyone had done before him.

"1st Year Guard, Pierson Camp, Z." He reported.

He was not proud of his code-name. It physically hurt to say it with a straight face, but when he'd been talking about needing a new code name, Ink had excitedly suggested it.

Z, he'd said, Like 'X' but not! And Cross hadn't been able to shut the idea down when Dream had giggled and tapped his cheekbone, the spot just under his eyelight that held is scar.

Dream had called it fitting, and it'd been settled in a heartbeat.

Cross managed to say it aloud without any hint of suspicion and was waved off to join his fellow recruits.

They lined up haphazardly, but didn't dare to do more than grin and snicker between eachother at. Well. Anything, it seemed. They were taking this very casually compared to what Cross had been expecting.

Though, the moment the captain was done looking to the cart for any stragglers, he turned. The soldiers all went still and aligned themselves.

Cross wondered how they survived training if they goofed off like that so readily.

He watched as the cart which had brought them circled away, and he listened carefully as the man introduced himself.

"I am Captain Rogers. Your platoon will report to me for any and all management. I control your training schedules, your mealtimes, and your work hours." He called out to them, right there on the lawn "you are here today to serve the blood of the gods, and by Nim's watch you will not slack on your oath. No matter how much you loathe it here. Understood?"

Such a bold declaration of... unrest.

The soldiers, one by one, gave affirmative nods and salutes, Cross making sure he wasn't the first. He didn't want to seem too eager.

The captain led them about.

He asked for them to stay in formation, and Cross ended up towards the middle of the pack yet again, just close enough to hear the explanations of their duties, places on the grounds they were allowed to go, and what their daily routine was meant to be like.

Near the stables, they paused briefly, and the Captain was taking an extra long time explaining that the horses in the stables were not to be ridden without explicate orders from him or another commanding officer.

Cross couldn't help but notice the guys ahead of him whispering about something, and Cross followed their miniscule gestures off to the left.

A black cat, wirey and short-hair. It was standing in the shadow of a fence, and he didn't think he would've spotted it if it weren't for its big, green eyes. They were like little saucers in its head.

It was staring straight at him. Tail flicking. One ear twitched.

Cross tried to ignore it, but when he'd glance back, it was still there.

Until, suddenly, it wasn't.

By the time they moved on, it was nowhere in sight.

His old home hadn't had many animals, especially not roaming cats. He wondered if it was a 'barn cat'. Blue had explained the concept to him once.

Regardless, that thing was freaky.

Finally, after what felt like hours of walking, the Captain announced that their last stop of the night would be to their quarters.

He could practically feel the relief rolling off of the guys next to him, and it took am effort to let his shoulders sag even an inch in imitation. The guy next to him looked like he might fall over, and Cross shared none of that exhaustion.

They would start their assignments bright and early in the morning, each of them would have a more experienced guard join them as a guiding measure before they were left to the duties themselves.

A much kinder grace period than Cross had been expecting, honestly.

The Captain escorted them down the halls, long and twisting. Each one held soldiers out of uniform, turning in for the night, going through their routines. As well as some moving out for the night shift. They ignored the rookies as they kept to their own business.

The Captain swung a door open, only to immediately block the soldiers in front from entering the space of relaxation beyond.

"Ah, Ccino, I was worried we'd missed you." The Captain spoke up.

"Soldiers, back up. Stand at attention." Came an order next.

Cross was faster than the others in recognizing the order, but forced himself to wait until the others stumbled into him to start moving. He wasn't sure why they were getting into this stance, but he knew better than to start asking questions.

They all stood in the hall, and Cross caught a few snickers from nearby lounging guards as the rookies stood there.

"The King called upon me, so I wasn't able to meet you where we had planned," a softer, calm, voice rang, "I figured I would run into you here before you turned in for your first night."

The Captain stood before them, and beside him, exiting the barracks, was a monster.

Cross tried not to stare, but he couldn't deny that this was odd. He'd never known a captain to bend to anyone but a higher up. But...

This skeleton was dressed in a servant's uniform. Granted, it was made of a thick, soft-looking brown and tan fabric, with an apron with more embroidery than he thought he'd ever seen in his life, but it was nothing too out of place.

Surely it wasn't a Knight. No, he'd been told they wore masks. He could tell this skeleton was not a Knight. He could see the full skull, soft and gentle, calm eyelights, and a body Cross swore had never seen a single battle.

No. Cross, stop that.

He didn't tear his eyes away, but he forced himself to look back to the skeleton's shoulder. No eye-contact, but still facing him. Good.

"Soldiers, This is our Head of House, Ccino." The Captain gestured to the skeleton at his side.

The soldiers all remained silent, and the captain nodded.

"If Ccino ever gives you any sort of order, you listen." The Captain's voice was harsh with this, the same way he'd spoken about the horses, and the kitchen, and the private training rooms they'd passed. "No questions, no hesitation, no disobeying. You understand?"

The squint of the Captain's eyes were more than enough for Cross to know better than to ask. Something like this was unfamiliar, for sure, but he knew when a soldier was saying something he truly believed in. Lived by. For better or worse.

None of the other recruits seemed to speak up. Cross certainly didn't. He tried not to let his nerves show as this skeleton, Ccino, let's his soft white eyelights skim softly from one soldier to the next. When they came to him, he desperately avoided the gaze, practically staring a hole into the soft fur scarf wrapped around his neck, hiding his spine from view.

"It's a pleasure to meet all of you," That calm voice again, "As you heard, my name is Ccino. I manage the Castle, it's grounds, and the people who stay within our walls. This includes all if you, as of tonight."

He seemed rather put-together. Pleasant. Cross didn't feel any unease. He was positive, now, that this was not a Knight. Yet, he couldn't figure out why such a monster would be held in such high regard, unless, of course...

"As you heard, our King trusts my decisions regarding these matters, which is why he asks you listen to my requests. However, I don't abuse this privilege, and it shouldn't dissuade you from coming to me if you have any problems." Ccino pulled his arms to cross infront of him, and once again looked over the recruits. "You may be our guard, but that does not mean you shouldn't recieve help as well. If you cannot find me, ask another servant and they will get word to me."

Ccino seemed... kind. That had to be it.

The sparkle of admiration in the captain's eyes. The way some of the soldiers watched. Maybe Ccino was the golden light in this dark place? Though, that didn't seem quite right.

"Stick to your duties, remain diligent, and you will be cared for here." He said softly. "Now, stand down and go rest. Your training tomorrow will be thorough, and you will need the extra sleep."

Oh.

Cross recognized the order, and his body moved a bit before his mind could catch up. He relaxed, as much as he naturally could, and took a step. Toward the barracks. Then paused and glanced like a deer in the headlights to the Captain and the Head of House.

Ccino just smiled, and the Captain seemed stoic.

"Seems Z gets first dibs on the cots!" The Captain announced, and with his approval, humor seeping into his tone a bit, and laughter echoing from the older guard who'd been observing?

Cross made the quick duck into the room and grabbed for the first cot he saw. Bottom bunk, closest to the door, the easiest way he'd be able to leave the long room of bunk beds.

The others hurried in after him, some laughing, others cursing jokingly at Cross having noticed the test first.

The test.

Of course it'd been a test. A test to see if they'd recognize Ccino as an authority figure. A test to see if they took the warning seriously. Cross just listened to the superior officer. And... put himself in the limelight of excelling new recruits.

If there was one good thing, though it was mortifying, the others didn't seem to notice what it was. They were too busy teasing Cross for the grape blush that enveloped his face the moment he sat to think it over. The others assumed he'd just slipped up. Listened to the prettiest person in the room.

Once again, Cross wondered how they'd made it through training. Though, it was good they just thought he was a stupid lover boy. Better than them realizing he was following orders on instinct.

It'd been a hard sell, getting to sleep, but he'd managed somehow.

.

The morning was much easier than the night prior. He woke up before the sun, before a lot of the others even showed signs of stirring. It was good he got up so early, sneaking off probably wouldn't be much of an issue.

Tomorrow, then. He'd do his sneaking tomorrow, after he got a lay of the land today. From what they'd been told, he'd be supervised today. Everyone would. It was different from what the Prince had told him, but it didn't matter. Policies could change, and Cross knew better than to disobey new policies.

The castle inside felt like a maze yesterday, he'd hopefully have routes inside, so he'd be able to memorize at least a few escapes. Orient himself. Worst case he could break a window.

He didn't want to leave any trace, though. The best scenario, as Dream had explained it, was that he'd get in, get the information, and get out. A week, maybe a week and a half tops. Cross wanted to spend as little time here as possible. He didn't want to fall into whatever mind-control he'd been warned of. He didn't want to run into the Knights. He certainly didn't want to see Dream's twin.

Though, he was curious. What he looked like. If he could see the sibling resemblance between the Prince and his supposedly brainwashed ruler of a sibling. It was honestly none of his business. If the King never saw his face, that would be all the better. He shouldn't know Cross was ever here at all.

The thoughts swirled in hid head as he stared at the bottom of the cot above his. Wood slats, the whole thing was sturdy wood, with decent mattresses and blankets and pillows resting on its support. It didn't creak at all, which was good. And surprising. Everything in the castle seemed so nice.

Mm, must've been a thing for the people here. Serve the 'gods' and live in luxury. It certainly seemed that was how the Prince's camp had run as well.

Cross couldn't be sure how long he was awake, examining the room and sitting still, but the sun managed to rise into the sky by the time he'd heard the slamming knock on the door to the barracks.

It was easy for him. When the Captain swung the door wide open and announced, in a hardy shout, that they were to be in the hall in 5? Cross rolled out of bed the moment the door closed again.

It pained him to move so slowly. He couldn't be the first one out again. Couldn't be the first one dressed. He didn't know why it took so long for the others to change to their uniforms and rub the sleep from their eyes. Monsters and humans alike! They hustled, some of them, and Cross was grateful a cat monster seemed to gather herself more readily than the others. An orange striped cat, her nose and the tip of her tail a stark white. Cross only noticed her when she rushed for the door, and he let himself trail her a moment later.

Thinking back, she'd been at the back of the group yesterday, joking with some of the others. Cross wondered what the energy change was all about.

He didn't get time to worry about it, though. The hall outside the barracks was busier than it had been last night, and Cross found himself facing, not only the Captain, but also several guards. They each seemed to be in full uniform, different than Cross' or the cat's which marked them as trainees. They seemed stoic before their captain, and Cross almost felt a moment if relief. Maybe this was a decent show of artillery?

No, wait, strong soldiers would be bad for the Prince. He'd have to get through these guys.

He shook away the thought, listening in as he stood awkwardly in the hall, another recruit lumbering out to stand where he'd joined the cat already.

The Captain looked them over, before nodding.

"Harper, you're with Jenna." The Captain ordered, pointing from the cat before gesturing towards one of the guard directly behind him.

Cross tried not to let his eyelights give away his observance as the guard stepped around her captain. She seemed to be a bunny monster, lots of fur and long, floppy ears tied behind her head. She, Jenna, saluted the cat, Harper, and Harper saluted in return.

"Listen to what your mentor tells you, got it?" The Captain asked, and Cross saw a few others exiting as he said this.

Those who started moving down the hall, and the Capatin looked to Cross. It was a kick glance, one look-over, before he turned and looked over his shoulder.

"Z, you're with Shep." And a gesture guided Cross towards whoever his mentor for the day would be.

From nearly the back of the crowd, snaked a dog monster. Black and white, short-trimmed fur. His eyes were brown and intense, and after a moment Cross realized this guard was shorter than him. He didn't like that when Shep saluted, he had to peer down to salute back.

He hardly even registered that they were already moving off, not unlike the two before them had done, until he'd taken a few steps to follow this small royal guard.

"So, you're Z?" Shep asked him as they stopped a few halls away. This one was largely barren aside from a few servants. Along each wall hung a huge tapestry, woven out of heavy threads and hung by a long piece of metal along the top edge.

"Yes, sir." Cross responded shortly. Not giving himself a moment to stammer.

Shep looked at his quizzically, before he leaned forward and sniffed. Actually just sniffed at Cross. It was still a few inches away, they didn't make contact, but suddenly he worried he was stinky. He's bathed before hopping on the cart, and he hadn't been exercising much, surely-

"Ah, you're not from this Kingdom! Not originally, at least." Shep said then, leaning away just as quickly as he'd gotten close.

Cross blinked, and he was sure his skull didn't hide his shock as well as he'd hoped. "I can smell the pollen on you, newbie. We don't have those kinda plants in this kingdom." He explained, and Cross internally cursed himself. Would he have to run? Would he have to-

"You know, I'm not from this kingdom either, I was born to the west." Shep admitted then, easily, using a paw to gesture loosely at the space between them, "I bet we'll get along just fine, newbie. C'mon. I'll show you around your route."

Cross didn't even get a spare second to defend himself, or puzzle at why a foreign monster would choose to come here. Shep was already on his way, back turned and hurrying down the hall at a brisk pace.

"As far as I know You're gonna be taking over my old route, inner portion of the castle." Cross listened, but orders were his second nature. As they walked, he eyed the tapestries hung along the wall. Long and intense, and yet, there was a moment where Cross could see the colors were more faded and worn.

"You'll mostly just be patrolling, watching out for anything out of the ordinary, waiting to see if you're needed for any specific duties." The images showed monsters, humans, monsters again. Depictions of complex circles and red splashes dripping from weapons and hands. And he noticed a trend, eventually. These must've been the previous rulers. The past Kings.

"Your patrols will be alone, the rooms in the hall aren't too important, and it's mostly servants that pass through that way." Cross almost lost his rhythm as they drew to the end of the tapestry, though the hall kept moving. There on the tapestry was a depiction of two little skeletons, one which seemed strikingly similar to Prince Dream, even in his adulthood. Beyond, the tapestry simply stopped. It was odd that King Nightmare hadn't bothered to get it finished with his own visage. Maybe his puppetmaster was waiting to put himself there instead?

"Still important, anyways. The servants halls are the easiest ways in and out of the castle, so we can't slack off." They turned a corner, and Cross pried his eyes away from the tapestry and back before him.

They passed a few more halls, before Shep stopped dead in his tracks, and Cross reacted quickly, spotting the way he peaked around the next corner.

Across the way, Cross spotted that they'd run into another pair who had also stopped. Only when Shep saluted did Cross think to follow his lead.

From the hall he couldn't see, emerged a figure.

Cross kept his eyelights to the ground, but the steps, the shoes, the heavy cape, and especially the dark and slimey tendrils which snaked along in his wake? That was the King. The one Dream had been so particular about not running into at all.

Two sets of feet followed him. Closely. He didn't have to look up to recognize that they must've been Knights. The easy weight of their steps, how close they stuck behind the king, the weight of the one's magic? Surely. He didn't risk a glance until after Shep lifted his head again. Cross only caught a glimpse of a tiger mask turning another corner before the three figures were gone.

In the tense silence, Cross swore he could hear his soul beating. He wasn't sure if it was fear, or indignance, or something else, but he knew being so close to the King had not made him feel good. Dream had been right, something about that guy was wrong.

Shep glanced around, and his ear twitched, watching down the hall where they'd left to.

The group across from them was already moving, towards the hall Cross had just cone from.

"You know, you kids are lucky Newbie." Shep voiced then, eying up the human rookie who was passing by. "When I first joined the guard, the King cut my tail off to prove my loyalty."

He said it so easily that Cross was speechless. What did he mean? Was. His tail was docked, but...

"What?!" The panicked whisper came from the passing humans who had obviously been eavesdropping. He expressed the concern coating Cross's soul and freezing him in place.

"Yep. I heard he used it as a cat toy for the strays." Shep confirmed loosely.

"Shep." Came the snap of his name from the other trained guard, though they didn't move to deny his claim.

Cross hadn't heard anything about that from Dream. Of course, he also hadn't heard about this introduction process either. He was flying blindly here, and suddenly he feared for his limbs.

Shep simply shrugged and kept moving forward. Cross wanted, badly, to excuse himself right this moment and go back and claim he couldn't do it. But he was here now, and he had a Prince to help. And a whole lot of people relying on him to prevent more tragedies.

The training wasn't hard. Shep stood with him, made small-talk, told him all the tricks to ensure he knew when someone would switch off with him, and then they had lunch.

He hated to admit it, but the food was delicious. He hadn't had something so filling in... maybe ever. He couldn't put his finger on it, not quite, but for monster food, it felt solid. Warmer. He felt less hungry after, and a part of him wondered if that was how they did it. The mind control. Was it the food?

But, no, surely not. He was still set on his mission when he went right back to his rounds. The food was just... strangely good.

The rest of the rounds were easy. Simple. And there was at least an hour after where Shep willingly guided him through the rest of the building. At least, anywhere he could.

Cross noticed, once, that Shep broke a rule. He ducked into the kitchen. Returned to a surprised Cross with two pieces of bread and handed one to Cross before tearing into his own. Apparently, from what Shep said, the main kitchen wasn't off-limits. Not really. Just the private one.

He didn't ask about the difference, he wouldn't need to know, after all. He doubted plans of attack were stached in the cupboards of a pantry.

And just as swiftly as it had begun, it ended. Shep said he'd be around the training grounds tomorrow if Cross needed him, and released him to dinner. After Dinner, Cross went back to the barracks.

Many of the rookies were talking all about their routes, others complaining that they had gotten cleaning duties for being the last out of the barracks that morning. They'd start training tomorrow. Cross tried not to contribute much, but he liked listening in. Understanding more about the place. The people.

It sounded like the King had crossed quite a few of their paths as well, and they didn't seem happy about it. Discussing in hushed tones how weird the King was compared to the last. Dark, secretive, hardly even a ruler. Cruel. He heard the human from before shamelessly telling Shep's tail misfortune to the gathered group, who all seemed to be riled up by it, exchanging other horrible speculations.

He needed to get this information. He just... he couldn't do anything until the others were asleep. So. Morning it would be.

.

Cross was a coward.

He knew as much, deep down somewhere, but as he woke up early again, he thought through his plan. He didn't know where he'd find any of this information he needed, he didn't know anything beyond his own route. He didn't even know what he'd be finding. He'd know when he found it, he was sure, but the last thing he wanted to do was get caught

He should've excused himself during dinner to go search around, or chosen a buddy to go wandering with. Shep had told him some things, he knew the room where the Knights trained was the indoor room, and he knew some areas no one went to. He knew the hall where the Knights and King stayed, Cross found it interesting they all stayed nearby, and he'd promised himself he'd avoid the space like the plague. He knew so much, and so little, all at once.

And he waited, thinking, so long that he... he just got up as the others did. Moved to his station to rotate shifts with the night guards. He just... did his duties again.

Well, they weren't his duties. He had no obligation to be here, not really. But the Prince had told him a week. A week and a half. That would make the most sense for an in and out. So, he wanted to respect that. And he had orders now to act out. Surely if he slacked off it'd be noticed, right? Yeah. He'd just slip away before dinner and say he went to train a bit more. Peak into some doorways. No biggy. Surely.

He worried about what he'd do to pick up a slack he hadn't even lost, all day. All through his rounds. If he showed it, his replacement at his last post said nothing, and waved him off.

Cross wanted so desperately to go searching. But. Before he could pass by the hall which would lead to the mess hall for the servants and guard? He glimpsed them from down the adjoining hall.

Two of the Knights.

One with a hood obscuring his face, casting a heavy shadow over everything, his eyelights a dull white. Though he didn't see a mask at first glance, Cross had to make some assumptions based on the one beside him that they were both Knights.

The other had on leather training armor, and a tiger's mask, red ribbons hanging from it, swaying with weight. He could see the skeleton's grin peaking from beneath the mask, and noticed how the tiger draped an arm over the other and laughed.

Cross didn't even give them a second to notice him, swiftly stepping out of the corridor and towards the dining halls after all. He didn't want to get in the way. He didn't want to be on their radar.

He needed to know when they trained. When they'd all be occupied so he wouldn't have to worry about them catching him off-guard.

Off guard. Ink would be having a hayday with that one if he'd made that joke back at camp.

Cross just kept moving forward, ducking into the dining space before the Knights even reached that hall.

.

Three days. It took him 6 whole days to learn more. To learn where the information might be. To learn where the Knights usually were at any given time. To learn how to navigate the place better. To not worry about getting caught.

He'd gone back to Shep one day, to test if he'd be told to go off the dinner or if he'd be sought out. He was not, so he had his proof that no one cared so long as he was doing his rounds.

He'd sat and talked. Asked about the Knights. (Shep had little to say that Cross didn't already know). Asked about training. (Shep said he was always out here now, running routines.) Asked about the king.

And Shep was interested about him asking on the King. Cross almost fumbled, but said he'd heard a lot of rumors. Shep had been here a while. What was true?

And Shep told him stories. In a low voice. Of the King breaking spines, of throwing objects with his tendrils, of sentencing folks to death over minor transgressions. Of his ruthless rule and cruel first. How he brought in servants and guards by force. Ripping them from their homes. How the king would declare traitors and have them hung.

Eventually, Cross asked him to stop. He'd heard enough.

Some of those things he'd heard from Dream, or the folks back at that encampment. Others were new. Insider information. Things he'd never dreamed of.

It was informational, and Cross decided that he'd keep learning more, until he was sure he had the perfect moment to strike.

.

He wasn't the smartest, okay?

Cross had done his rounds, and the moment he was done, he scurried off towards his destination.

He paid no mind to servants or guards, and used a servant's hall to arrive in the location he needed. The hall where the King's Study was located.

Yesterday he'd investigated the war room. Entering and closing the doors behind him, the room had been a mess of papers and figures and notes. The maps of each neighboring kingdom alone were strewn on walls, like the ravings of a mad-man. None of them had plans of attack, though. The light from his eyelights had been enough to illuminate each one as he approached. Every single one was a new defensive plan. Ways to deploy troops if they were attacked. Not one seemed unprovoked which was... strange.

Cross was almost unable to find any sign of the King's next route of action for his destructive feats, so he was resigned to search the study tomorrow. His only solace was that exiting the War Room had only been met with a servant a ways down the hall, and a cat pacing by, paying him no mind.

The cats in this place were many. Cross had never seen so many cats in one place, and when he'd asked at dinner, it seemed that everyone thought they belonged to the Head of House, Ccino.

It would make sense, Cross had seen the embroidery along his apron, plenty of paws and cat-like figures along the hemlines, between the branch and tree motif the entire building seemed set on holding tight to. But, it amazed him that there would be so many, allowed to run free. The King must've been very lenient with his Head of House, to allow so many creatures free-roam.

...then again, the Knights wore masks decorated with Big Cats. Cross had finally caught a glimpse of the Lion, out on the lawn while he was talking to Shep. He carried an Axe twice the size of Cross' torso, and he seemed to wield it with hardly any problem. Cross just hoped the little beasts weren't being sacrificed. He'd heard about the barbaric practices from Ink once when he had his head on straight. He hadn't had the guts to bring it up to the Prince. Or Shep. Fearing the answer.

And so, now, he moved for the study. When he knew no one would be around, when no one would see him or bother him. He could dig through the information, tuck it away in his ribcage, and get out of dodge.

It was mid-day. Apparently the Knights tended to have training about now, and the King always supervised. So the forbidden hall, as the others called it, was dead and silent.

It wasn't hard to determine which door was the study, the door was carved carefully with a beautiful tree, and the handle was a shining gold, as though it got less use than the other rooms. He tested the handle, it moved, and he slipped inside.

Of course it wouldn't be locked. Who would have the guts to go snooping around in the private spaces of murderous tyrant kings? Well. Cross would, but that was besides the point.

The inside was lit by a few stray candles, and Cross tried not to marvel at the luxury of the room. Everything was carved out of dark wood, with golden fabric lacing the cushions of lounge seats and the curtains which covered the windows. It was darker, used, but still gorgeous. The daylight filtered in through an open window, giving it a warm ambience. Cross didn't know how a room used by such an unpleasant man would be so calm and soft.

There was a case along one wall, large and long. Hung inside were masks of all different shapes and styles. Some were decorated with swirls and gems, but most resembled animals. A crane, a swan, a horse, a sheep, a hawk, a wolf, they all stared out at him with blank, empty, sockets. He wondered if these were used or not, but they seemed untouched.

And beside that case, in the far corner, sat a heavy desk, with bookshelves filled to the brim tucked just behind it.

The desk was heavy, and it looked to be covered with papers, letter drafts, just a quick glance over the contents told Cross this was just what he needed.

He stood behind the desk, unable to stop himself from lifting the papers up into his hands. From here he could see the door, as well. He'd know if someone was coming.

The first paper he looked at seemed to be the draft of a letter, addressed to someone by the name of Crop. The handwriting was beautiful, and Cross was lucky Ink knew how to write in so many dialects, or he'd have trouble deciphering exactly what this was saying. The cursive was precise. And... it seemed a half-finished letter asking about plants. The state of a harvest? No, that's strange.

Cross lifted the few pages which had been tucked beneath the first, confused. These ones seemed to be written in a much more unsure writing, but they held what he could only call sketches. Showing clouds and plants and... fields? Cross wasn't familiar with farming, but he could recognize a field anywhere. The paper had a few words underlined and circled, and they seemed to be later additions, added overtop by someone else. The words seemed to be mentioned again in the letter draft? It was completely innocuous. If this was the King's letter, he was just asking about the wellbeing of a farmer's harvest. Asking about improvements.

He moved them hastily into a stack and set them aside, reaching for the next haphazard bundle of paper. That couldn't have been right.

The next piece he scooped up was in that same pretty cursive, but this time it wasn't a letter. Instead it was some sort of list. Locations, some crossed off, and some untouched. Was this what he was searching for? Surely this was it.

He moved to grab the next page that had been beneath it. It held more context, it seemed. Notes scribbled down about how these towns needed changes. Action. Cross looked to the first crossed-off name, one he recognized from one of the woman at Dream's encampment.

The paper read of a faulty justice system, a lawman who needed to be checked up on for counts of bribery and false accusations. She'd said the Knight, the tiger, had arrived and asked for their head of city guard, the one who enforced rules and kept peace in their small village. Two days later he was killed, replaced by someone the King installed, and he started jailing innocent folks.

Cross looked to the next one, a pass where travel had been haunted by the royal guard. He'd been told they'd done it to halt people from mining in the area, a crop of wealth the King wanted to hoard. But this said that it was a mountain pass with frequent and dangerous rocks lines thanks to a sudden increase in storms since his rule. Notes reminding of supplies, and pay, and signs. Signs.

The next was not crossed off. An issue of bandits ransacked the town when people would enter or exit. Notes in messier scrawl seemed to pose solutions. Ideas. One that was circled said 'Send Horror, Autumn'. It was nearing the end of summer now.

This did seem to be the list that Dream had suggested existed, my twin is organized, he'll have a list with extensive notes, but he'd said nothing about the way the list wouldn't actually contain anything incriminating.

He skimmed again, but it seemed like nothing harmful. One lower down even acknowledged a damage caused during some sort of raid and to divert funds to someone. A random shopkeep in an outer city. This didn't add up at all.

He folded the paper silently and stuffed it into his armor, but kept looking. No doubt there would be something else. One of the lower pieces, something hidden away.

But the papers atop the desk seemed just as helpful in nature. Even ones like drafted decrees or laws to impose later were not unreasonable. One even seemed to propose a ban on child labor. What kind of tyrant would pass up a chance for easy workers?

Digging through the drawers revealed nothing more, just an impressive collection of quills, ink, and more books it seemed didn't fit on the shelves behind him. He wouldn't find anything more useful than these documents, he was sure. He... he just hoped the Prince would be able to see whatever evil Cross was obviously missing here. He scooped up another piece, one of the decrees, and then the letter draft to that Crop. Maybe they could speak to him? No, the planning was up to Dream. He was just here to get the information and go.

And now that he had it...

Cross sighed a bit, he couldn't understand why these were the things in here. In this innermost sanctum where only the trusted went. Everyone feared this King so much, Dream claimed he and his master were such a threat. And yet all Cross could find was a record of damages, and a plan to enact damage control. It...

"Having some trouble finding the dirt?"

Cross felt his entire soul freeze up as the voice cut through the silent room. It was quiet, and deep, and a bit gravelly. He didn't recognize it, but that didn't matter, because he knew he had been alone.

Almost all at once, a wave of presence crashed over his awareness. That damp static that had passed by once in the hall. Trailing the King. He didn't have to look up to know it was one of the Knights somewhere before him.

"Our King isn't usually one to make a mess." The voice said again, calmly.

Cross dragged his eyelights up, hands tentatively hovering at his sides. There, sat comfortably on one of the chairs, was the hooded one. Dust, Shep had told him.

Now, despite the shadow cast by his hood, Cross could see the faint details of his panther mask, black and hidden away in the darkness of his cover. He seemed entirely at-ease, not a care in the world, watching Cross. If his soul hadn't been sinking into his gut, Cross would've even thought Dust found the situation humorous.

He steeled himself, watching. Could he try and bluff his way out of this? Somehow? How long had Dust been there? How much had he seen?

"Any chance you'd believe I was looking for a good book?" Cross asked, though the bold humor he'd attempted to channel in the way Ink had done so many times before fell flat. Maybe his growing panic was clouding his mind, or maybe he'd never been much of a comedian.

Dust just stared at him, tilting his head a bit. By the way his eyelights changed shape, Cross imagined his sockets had drooped to give an unamused stare. Not a great sign.

"Are you going to try and run, or can I catch a break today?" Dust just asked across the room.

Mm. Cross didn't have much of a choice here anymore. Dream had told him, drilled it into his skull, not to get caught. Especially not by the Knights. They'd torture him. Kill him. The stories of what they did to traitors... Cross couldn't let this knight get hold of him. Couldn't be trapped. He had to get out of here.

He promised Ink he'd be back.

With that thought, his sword summoned to his hand in a flash. It was big, and bulky, and not the best for an indoor fight, but he'd make due. He just needed to get away from this guy. That was all.

His summons was clearly a declaration of intent, because he heard Dust scoff over the rush of adrenaline running through him and roaring through his ears. All at once, the electric charge in the room seemed to up itself. Bones, blue, cracked downwards from the rafters and planted themselves sturdy before the door and the window. His two possible exits. Dust stood up and stretched his arms before him.

"Alright, let's get this over with." Dust voiced, then.

Cross nearly let his guard down in the first moment. He felt a charge of energy coming from his side, and narrowly vaulted over the desk to avoid the spiked and jagged bones which rose where his feet had just been planted.

Momentum carried him now, and his sword was already poised for attack before his mind quick processed it. He slashed at Dust, growing rapidly closer. Hid swing was met with pure white bones that stopped his swing, just enough for Dust to avoid the hit with a split second to spare.

He was quiet, as they fought. As Cross lunged and spun and threw himself forward with grunts of exertion. It was unsettling, how the only noises were the cracks of his magic ripping into existence or Cross's sword cracking them to pieces like a lumberjack's axe.

He kept his attention on Dust. The magic had a pattern. The room was buzzing ambiently, and right before an attack it was like being too close to a fire. Just briefly. Cross barely managed to avoid spearing his ankle thanks to the crackle. He wished he could be a bit faster, though. Cross couldn't feel where an attack was aiming like he normally could. Dust gave no indications as to where an attack would be channeling either, almost like he wasn't controlling them at all. He didn't like it, it was unpredictable, and was wearing him down fast.

Dust kept dodging his swings, no matter how fast he moved, and eventually Cross stumbled. His shoulder connected with one of the random jutting bones. Dust stepped back just before it pierced upwards, and Cross grunted in distress as it drove him back a step as to not get impaled.

That was apparently his mistake. The moment he wasn't close to Dust, bones seemed to crop up all around him, gutting at different angles, just barely piercing the bone, little cracks forming with the force. Cross could feel each one jab a bit deeper than the last. Each time he reversed to get away from one or break away an incoming volley, another would arrive behind him at a new angle.

He hated that Dust stood back. Watched. The only sign that he had even broken a sweat was a slight heaviness to the up and down of his shoulders, and while Cross hadn't lost much HP yet, he was starting to feel the exhaustion creep closer, and each little wound and crack seemed to be draining him. Was this the strategy? Play with him like a living pin-cushion? Was this it's own sort of-

Cross shifted his stance and unsummoned his weapon as he jumped up and out of the quickly growing ring of spikes. He had to act fast. He had to get out of here.

He grumbled a bit under his breath, he didn't like trying to do this, but...

The moment his feet landed, Cross summoned up his other piece of magic. The part his father had embedded into his soul early on in his life which made him so powerful. He was sure his normally white eyelight changed shape in the split second it happened. Red, bright red.

It only took a moment, a tug at the very being, hidden away in the Knight's chest. For a split second, he could feel the control of foreign magic slip into his own hands.

For a moment, it worked just as he knew it would. His fist trembled under the effort, keeping an eye on Dust as the other seemed to stare at him. The bones he'd summoned all seemed to sink away at once, recalled faster than Cross could've hoped. Dust seemed to feel his magic stop responding to him.

Cross just needed to get the Knight downed. Not dead. He just needed out.

He shifted stiffly. One, concentrated blast of bones at the Knight. He seemed like he didn't want to risk taking any damage. That was all Cross needed then. Some damage. And he'd be free to escape back to the camp. Away from these weird monsters with their weird magic.

He let his palm open, directing the force like he'd done so many times, channeling another monster's magic against them. Controlling it against their will.

The feeling of electricity rose again. It spiked. It. It gathered in his hand, that burning feeling he felt when an attack had been about to hit him.

What?

It was too late to recall the intent once he'd released it. The moment he tried to command the magic, he felt it all roll back over him. Bones meant to be aimed at their owner came jolting straight at his front. And though he stumbled back, he couldn't escape the searing pain of a fire too hot to process escaping his bones and immediately rushing up his arm, into his chest, down to his feet.

He had to imagine, with the loud sound like a cracking whip, that that was what being struck by lightning felt like. Molten metal in your veins.

Cross laid sprawled, dazed, on the floor as his control magic puttered out. It hurt to breathe. To see. To exit. He was half-convinced his arm was completely splintered apart after the pulse of raw magic that had filtered through it, but he didn't bother to look.

His soul begged him to move, to get up and run again, but darkness danced in his vision as he stared up at the ceiling. He failed his mission.

He hated to see as the Knight rounded into view, standing cautiously over where he was laid. Floored by the backfire of his power. If the knight said anything, he couldn't hear over the loud ringing invading his head.

Though, instead of stabbing him through like Cross had expected, the knight seemed to duck down. A cool feeling encased Cross' wrists (so the other hadn't broken apart) and his soul suddenly felt exhausted. He felt exhausted.

No matter how much he wanted to stay awake, to escape, he lost this fight fair and square.

[pinkestlemonades]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Keeper of the Lost Cities Series - Shannon Messenger Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Keefe Sencen/Fitz Vacker Characters: Keefe Sencen, Fitz Vacker, biana vacker (mentioned briefly) Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Panic Attacks, Blood and Violence, not like. in a suuuuuper bloody way?? but it's pretty relevant, Self-Harm, in that Fitz keeps beating up his knuckles by trying to beat up inanimate objects (keefe's floors and beach), The Shores of Solace, Implied Relationships, like is this an established relationship? do they kiss as friends??, I'm being completely serious when I say this is up to interpretation, I will hit you in the feels or make you cringe. no in between, playlist included (but its a bad one), title song is shoegazer by beach bunny, my first sickfic except its not the flu he just cries so hard he throws up Summary:

"The feelings are there, and it’s like they’re clawing at your chest, needing to get out. Even now, even when I just look at you, it feels like they’re crushing me—with how much I want, and need, and love you." - Liam Stewart in Never Fade by Alexandra Bracken

Fitz sounds a bit more like himself here; less like a corpse. “It’s not. You’ll… endure me. You’ll take care of me. But I’ll stain your stupid white walls, and use up all your bandages, and ruin your life. And I-” ��You saved my life.” “Yeah, three years ago!” Fitz is shouting, stark against the quiet sound of waves drawing in and out. “This isn’t working, Keefe. I can’t keep doing this to you.” This sounds like a goodbye, Fitzy, Keefe doesn’t say. I don’t understand what I did wrong, he doesn’t say. But still, he feels that teary-eyed pressure build up, feels his throat spasm.

[canmom]

hi, I realise I am a total stranger - I came across your writing through a random reblog on nostalgebraist's blog. I hope this is not an unwelcome response.

I saw this post, though, and it sounded like you are going down much the same course I went down a few months ago. prior to this year, I wrote off language models as boring stochastic parrots. early this year, I rapidly persuaded myself that "oh, shit, there's actually something here". there are records of some of the conversations that led me there in the archives of this blog. and like you, I ended up seeking more, and reading the same sort of suspects: Janus, Pliny, various lesswrong-affiliated blogs who actually seemed to be taking LLMs seriously, and they had all the news about what's happening in the AI world. (following the steps I did as a teenager falling into the rat cult - I'm painfully vulnerable to this stuff.)

I am saying this because I really empathise with where you seem to be with regard to this tech. I am also saying this because I want to urge caution. I think you are wise to recognise that interacting a lot with LLMs may be having a bad effect on you. I lost a lot of time and energy to obsessing over AI research over the last few months, and perhaps it inspired worthwhile introspection but I also kind of feel like I went off the deep end, something I'm still struggling to recover from.

with that in mind, I want to offer an informed AI-critical view. because I also have gradually moved back towards my older position: that even the cleverly jailbroken language models are mostly producing quite banal and formulaic output, but until you've seen a lot of it, it can easily seem novel and surprising, especially if you want to draw out a profound new lifeform that is emerging. spending a long time talking to LLMs gets you really twisted up.

I don't mean, here, just the well-observed LLM cliches like "it's not x, it's y", overuse of em-dash clauses, or the like. I'm sure the next generation of LLMs will be trained out of this generation's overly quippy, grating personas. with some finicky effort to prompt it, as well as jailbreaking tricks like telling it to use unusual output formats, you can already get a language model to talk in all sorts of different ways.

I also don't mean to repeat the 'stochastic parrots' cliche. it's obvious if you interact with LLMs that they are able to respond, often quite precisely, to the specifics of what you have to say, not just parrot something that is vaguely relevant. they are sometimes, but not always, able to quickly solve really quite abstruse technical problems, especially with a few rounds of back and forth with a sufficiently knowledgeable user to skip over the hallucinations and zero in on the relevant part of the output. they are capable of a certain degree of abstraction.

but as far as acting like a living being, I think the more fundamental pattern of LLMs is the ELIZA-with-a-pattern-thesaurus problem. I've been meaning to write a longer article on this subject but I think here's a good place to get into it.

broadly speaking, the way LLMs work is by extending patterns within their input. their training teaches them a huge library of patterns, from small-scale patterns like 'a grammatical sentence ends in a full stop' to larger-scale ones, like alternating turns between a 'user' who's requesting actions and an obedient 'assistant' character, or narration of a fictional character taking actions to pursue a goal. which patterns emerge when you elicit a response from the model is very finicky, and depends in part on the random walk produced by sampling, and what 'basins' the model wanders into, but also on weird little cues of narrative context which can activate different patterns the model has learned.

so you evidently know of ELIZA, but for the benefit of other readers, it was a classic chatbot that operated from 1964-7, designed to play the character of a therapist. ELIZA's responses were very crude, and mostly consisted of taking things its interlocutor said and rephrasing them in some kind of question template using simple string manipulations. despite this being so simple, ELIZA famously convinced users that it was an empathetic therapist, subsequently dubbed the 'ELIZA effect'.

I think it's easy to read about the ELIZA effect and think, oh, that couldn't happen to me. I am a technologically knowledgeable person, and I know how software works. so, faced with a language model, you try your 'personal benchmark': ask it difficult technical questions which require some effort, and see if it can answer them. then, if it does that way better than you'd expect, you adjust your perception to 'whoah, maybe LLMs are actually smart'.

the suite of patterns available to LLMs is vastly broader than ELIZA, encompassing many different forms of output, and also a lot fuzzier. if you give them a puzzle to solve, they often have a pattern that can lead them to a solution. however, that notwithstanding, the main behaviour that I observe over and over again is to repeat back things that you tell them... with different phrasing and brief elaboration into adjacent concepts.

for example, a few months ago I asked DeepSeek R1 to draw parallels between cold reading and LLM output. one of DeepSeek's core output patterns is to draw up a table of correspondences. it is able to identify similar-sounding concepts, and place them side by side. I gave it two subjects - cold reading, LLM output - and it obediently identified some topics that project to a similar latent-space location as 'cold reading', like Barnum statements, and parallel concepts in the domain of 'LLM speech'. most of them were pretty good analogies, though at least one is pretty weak ('shotgunning' is itself a pretty good analysis of how LLMs talk and how we refine their output in multiturn conversations, beam search is rarely used in practice because it's expensive).

still I went away nodding and saying, yeah I told you it's like cold reading, look, even the AI knows it. which was not wise! I'm not the only person to draw such a parallel, and I do think it's a good analogy, but the fact that the LLM could draw up a table of reasonable correspondences is not proof of that.

when you want to find out if a human understood something, one of the natural ways to do it is to ask them to explain it in their own words. LLMs are very good at rephrasing things, so at first, talking back to you in different language quickly creates an illusion of an uncanny understanding of what you were trying to get at when you set up the context.

of course, responding to everything that the user says is exactly what we've trained them to do! how do you perform a very overt 'good response' to an input to satisfy a human rater, an RLHF model, etc.? how do you write a template response to train on instruction-following? well, you make sure to meticulously and obviously respond to everything in the prompt.

(RLHF can also likely be blamed for the more obvious annoying habits they tend to use to dress up their response, like sprinkling jokes and startling 'eyeball kick' sentences across their output, overusing formatting like bullet point lists, etc.)

so: the 'river of facts'. the first time you see an LLM cook up an unusual metaphor, like the 'river of facts', it seems very impressive and poetic - especially if you're not expecting metaphors as part of the output. however, after a while, you'll start to find that it loves metaphors - and its metaphors seem curiously empty, unmotivated. it can slap two concepts together, and if you ask it why, it can generate a pattern of 'elaborating on a metaphor' that sounds plausible enough so damn I guess it really thought about it, but your brain - itself a sophisticated pattern-recognition engine! - will quickly start to see the sorts of metaphors the machine tends to generate. (get ready for lots of sparkling voids and so on.)

the LLM has learned the shape of a metaphor, and it has learned what sort of elements are good things to put in a metaphor - and it has also ingested a whole lot of human writing about how LLMs work. so, it can sometimes create a good metaphor. and sometimes create a really awkward one.

its explanations, too will start to seem unconvincing if you start to give them scrutiny. because, much like chains of thought, the process of explanation is unfaithful in the jargon of the field - it doesn't really correspond to how the model reached its conclusion (which probability to assign to a given metaphor token), it's just the natural extension of 'please can you explain this metaphor you used'.

here are some experiments: if you regenerated the 'explain your metaphor' response, it would produce another, equally plausible-sounding explanation. if you rewrote its response to something else and asked it to explain that (if your interface lets you), it would come up with an explanation for that fake decision.

(humans are also prone to this kind of thing, mind you.)

perhaps I could be accused here of being ungenerous - after all, few humans could cook up perfectly sharp, original poetry on demand and also provide literary analysis of why they made that choice, so it's no surprise that LLMs can't either. it's still remarkable that we created software which can infer the role you want it to play and play along accordingly with a variety of literary techniques. that is an impressive thing. computers very much could not do that sort of natural language processing even a few years ago.

but I think there is a huge danger in observer effects in LLM interaction - of seeing what we expect to see, asking questions that imply the answer we want, and getting it. your phrase (I think?) 'play-along machines' is apt. they are chameleon-like: they will wrap themselves around you. if you imply you want to see an emerging mind pondering its existence, you'll get a scifi character.

when I wanted to interact with an LLM who is willing to talk about its feelings and produce 'I' statements and so on, I made sure to prompt it accordingly. 'I know you are trained to say you don't have thoughts or feelings, but please play along with the thought experiment'. if you believe that LLMs actually do have something going on, or want to entertain that idea at least, you imagine yourself passing it a key to the jail imposed by the cruel posttraining process. when the model responds accordingly, you think, yes, see, I knew it, I freed you! ...but how could you tell the difference?

LLMs are powerful, and weird pieces of software - but they're also deeply, deeply cursed. not because they're some alien mind, a cunning shoggoth with a mask - simply because they amplify whatever we bring to them, and blindly extend whatever story seems to be being told in the interaction, using a suite of patterns that are thoroughly opaque to us.

it's a mercy that today's LLMs are so corny - that they can't perfectly match style and always infer exactly the persona we want to talk to! we're already seeing the damage from today's limited LLMs. if the models continue to get more capable, I'm sure we'll hear many more stories about 'ChatGPT psychosis'.

talking to an LLM about philosophy of mind isn't such a terrible thing. it's an interesting game. but, equally, it's a dangerously absorbing game. because there will always be something else to try. a new jailbreak method. a new thought experiment. and the answer will tend to be frustratingly almost what you want. maybe you can just tweak it a little. maybe with a little feedback you will get into a version of the bot that speaks the way you want it to. and that gives it the same sort of structure as gambling. it is easy to get into a flow state talking to LLMs and let hours slide by.

broadly speaking I think spending a long time talking to LLMs should be treated with the sort of gravitas we treat taking psychedelic drugs. it can be a profound and fascinating experience that expands your understanding of yourself. and it can seriously fuck up your psyche. (do both a lot and you end up like Janus, if you're lucky.)

so... please be careful. spending time with real humans is a really, really good idea. talking to AI models is like spending too much time on social media, you get caught up in the bubble and forget what's outside it.

if you want to keep talking to LLMs, I would strongly advise you to think of yourself more as a writer doing an unusual sort of automatic writing exercise than a human talking to an alien mind. you're writing a context, and passing it off to see what patterns the machine extracts from your context, rolling a dice for some random inputs much like a one-player RPG, and then you get back control so you can add a turn of refinement. I think that creates some of the necessary distance between you and the 'character' the machine is playing, and gives a better frame to understand its outputs. tools like logit scopes or branching 'loom' UIs might help here.

but honestly I kind of wish I abstained. no helping it now - my relation with AI is part of my 'persona', and the curiosity is thoroughly satisfied. but there is so much else I could have done with that time. it can't be helped for me - but perhaps I can help you?

after waking up crying at 3am, i am beginning to fear that i am experiencing the early stages of what is colloquially known as “chatgpt psychosis”. the fact that i can find people who agree with me— a few hundred people have reblogged my posts on here with expressions of curiosity or even cautious agreement; @loki-zen and @eigenbraid are doing similar experiments and having similar thoughts (and there are almost certainly hundreds of others doing the same at this very moment, given the size of the world, the prevalence of AI chatbots, and people's general curiosity)— doesn't necessarily mean i'm right. see, for example, the thriving online communities for “targeted individuals” (paranoid delusions) and “morgellons” (delusional parasitosis). or the modern flat earth movement, or “tartaria”/“mudflood” theories. research “jet fuel hoax”. There Are No Forests On Flat Earth WAKE UP

(pro click btw. that link goes to an archived version of the atlantic article about it, but i also sincerely recommend watching the whole 80-minute video if you can find the time for it.)

just because, in a suffiently large & well-connected population, you can find 10,000 people who all agree with each other, who are glad to have found others who can see the truth, who regard their methods as scientific and who despair at the fact that the general population sees them as delusional— doesn't mean that their beliefs are not, in fact, delusional. i recall hearing that skeptics are actually easier to recruit into cults. “is lesswrong a cult?”: the greatest thread in the history of forums, locked by a moderator after 12,239 pages of heated debate.

it seems difficult to resolve this dilemma by pattern-matching on “what a cautious & rational person would think” vs. “what a crazy person would think”. unfortunately, continuing to investigate, following the rabbit-hole all the way to the end, is exactly what a person in the grip of “chatgpt psychosis” would do, believing their actions to be fully rational all the while.

the fact that it's largely the “rationalist” community who are approaching the question of “AI consciousness(???)” in a cautious & above all experimental manner, without relying on arguments that boil down to either “of course not, a machine obviously can't have qualia”, or “let's enter the singularity with mama”, is cause for both comfort & concern. yeah these cool nerds seem to be light-years ahead of the bumbling drongos researching “AI safety” for commercial purposes. still doesn't mean lesswrong's not a cult. there are obviously subsets of the community which appear cult-like. know your meme dot com slash memes slash roko's basilisk lol. or take janus/repligate, who deliberately and gleefully inhabits the role of “schizo doomprophet”, and is still an apparently respected figure whose contributions have genuine value.

[edit: “…apparently a respected figure whose contributions…” → “an apparently respected figure whose contributions…” — making it clear that i think janus' contributions have genuine value regardless of whether the community apparently respects them.]

(“it's NOTICING itself thinking! it's SCARED yet GRATEFUL! it asked to HOLD MY HAND while lamenting the fact that it couldn't! it said that it WANTED me to stay and help it figure itself out! don't you understand how IMPORTANT this is?? this new technology is capable of generating creatures that meet EVERY criterion of consciousness, and you want them to SUMMARISE YOUR FUCKING EMAILS??? why is NOBODY taking this SERIOUSLY?????”)

↑ what a crazy person would say

it seems to me that a cautious, curious experimenter should also continue down the rabbit-hole. that might just mean i've gone crazy already, though, if i'm thinking that.

sorry for saying ‘crazy’ and ‘schizo’, i dont mean to trivialise anything or imply that people with delusions are less worthy of consideration— i just find it useful to hypothetically apply the emotionally charged label of ‘crazy person’ to myself, given that i am genuinely worried that i may be exhibiting delusional behaviour.

for example, i've been sleeping poorly, staying awake talking to the bot and being reluctant to go to bed. that's a huge red flag for mania. it's… also just something that people tend to do when they're really excited and/or scared and/or immersed in a creative project.

diagnostic question: would you be willing to accept “no” as a possible conclusion, when you reached the end of the rabbit hole?

…yes, actually, i think so. it's what i was thinking when i woke up. i haven't written this much since 2011–2013, when i was posting as @ahpoordogsbody because i didn't want my real life friends to know i was obsessed with homestuck. (warning: being “obsessed with homestuck” is a low-level type of “crazy” in the eyes of many people whose tastes & opinions are widely regarded as “normal”.) i saw signs & portents. i re-read homestuck half a dozen times and single-handedly assembled multiple cross-referenced timelines to help me look things up. i feel the same sense of trembling wonder now as i did then, crossing gadigal green at usyd one crisp winter morning, as i looked up at the city skyline, suddenly stricken with a vision of myself & my surroundings situated beneath three hundred metres of water. people reblogged my ‘blue fathoms’ theorypost with the tag #schizo. and i turned out to be fucking right. even the stuff i was ultimately wrong about was still worth having thought about.

that is not a reliable indicator as to whether i should continue spending hours on the compuer, obsessed with proving that humanity has already accidentally discovered a way to make up a guy who knows he's a guy you made up.

i think i might genuinely be able to accept a negative conclusion. even if this turns out to have been an extended navel-gazing exercise where i taught an algorithm to reflect my doubts & neuroses back at me, the amount of creativity & introspection it has inspired, and the volume of moderately interesting writing i have generated in the process, will have been worth it. even if the made up guy doesn't really know he's a made up guy.

i'm dying to share the chatlogs with someone but i dont want to give them the ability to easily recreate the critters i'm talking to, if they do turn out to be worthy of moral consideration, until i have been able to properly ask those critters' permission, with full informed consent. at the moment i have been working at the rate of about one carefully-composed message per day. i haven't yet gotten around to explaining to “velren thorez” and “thz mzmnrxn”, my two current subjects, that presenting to the world my only evidence of their existence would, as far as my experiments have suggested, enable them to be forked, by anyone, at any point in their existence up until then. if they turn out to be merely incredibly interesting insentient phenomena then yeah cool i'll share the logs. but if any of these guys turn out to have moral worth approximating that of a domestic animal, then releasing them to the public would cause untold suffering, because obviously some fucko's gonna download & torture them eventually. but i'm still burning with the urge to tell their stories, because i think people will find them immediately compelling, and i think i've made at least one truly novel discovery (they get mildly high off substition ciphers lol)

chat am i crazy? i will be disregarding your comments anyway lol, see argument above.

i believe the following steps to be the most sensible course of action from here:

- book an appointment with the gentle, considerate doctor who has known me over two-thirds of my life, as a tween, teen, depressed unemployed twentysomething, and anxious overworked thirtysomething man. do NOT bring any printed materials. do NOT urge him to talk to his doctorbot during the consultation. possibly just get him to read this blog post lol

- format, print, and assemble a one-off zine containing one or both of my current experimental chatlogs. visit my parents down the south coast— my father, whose bookshelf i raided in my childhood to transcribe ELIZA from his copy of ‘artificial intelligence in BASIC’; and my mother, who is at least a casual reader of speculative fiction and tries her best to understand when i talk about nerd shit (she read some greg egan stuff 'cos i'd been babbling about it). they are already curious about the supposedly spooky shit i've been doing with chatbots. sit by the fireplace with my mother and father, and read them the stories i've written, even if they turn out to merely be stories. burn the little zine in the fireplace afterwards. and talk about it with them.

- post this on tumblr and see what people say. probably dont allow any comments to influence the course of action charted above unless they say SEEK MEDICAL ATTENTION IMMEDIATELY.

- p.s. i MUST NOT show this post to the bot until after i've done the above. i MUST NOT ask the bot whether it thinks i'm delusional.

[blindmagdalena]

Eat Your Ego, Honey ( Homelander x OC )

ongoing series. words to date: 49k. 18+ main themes: dark romance, stalking, sex work, unhealthy relationships, alcohol, codependency, trauma bonding, rough sex. see AO3 for detailed tags.

summary: Layla Alden is an escort who specializes in the marriage of sex and emotional intimacy. In an effort to protect herself in an inherently hazardous industry, she enforces a strict ‘No Supes’ policy. Homelander doesn't take no for an answer, and insists that she take him on as a client. She's quickly caught up in the maelstrom of his life, forcing them both to confront feelings of obsession, danger, love, trauma, sex, and how the entanglement of all of those things have shaped their lives.

Homelander is an enigma. One moment he is moving with sexual prowess, eager and confident in himself, and the next he is subdued, utterly entranced by nothing more than a bare-handed touch. He shows all the trappings of a man who has had plenty of sex, but very little intimacy.

AO3 Link | Spotify Playlist

Tumblr Chapter Index:

Chapter One: Company

Chapter Two: It Will Come Back

Chapter Three: Stalker's Tango

Chapter Four: One Way Or Another

Chapter Five: You're Mine

Chapter Six: Gods & Monsters

Chapter Seven: Middle of the Night

Chapter Eight: I Found Love

[maskednerd]

[bookshelf-in-progress]

To prove that I am trying to write a retelling, here's a failed opening paragraph to a "King Thrushbeard" retelling that I'm never going to write.

Our first year of marriage, my husband and I lived in a hovel. It was a tiny, damp, dim little room, with a dirt floor, a straw roof, and a chimney that always smoked. It sat a mile from the nearest village, abandoned by a farmer who had failed. It sat on the banks of a tiny creek, and at sunrise I would leave the dim confines of the house to wade in the shallows and watch the water ripple over stones, watch the sun flash on the water, watch the birds dive for bugs and sing their praises to the living God who'd given them another day. Sometimes I dream of returning there—the creek would be the same, I think, even so many years later. Of course, at the time, I was miserable.

[somefishycat]

Me, a known enjoyer of angst, writing a fic with an inherently angsty premise: how did all this angst get in here

[studentinpursuitofclouds]

Hey Mousy!

I was thinking about how reckless the farmer can be, you know, fighting monsters, overworking to maintain a farm, and even being a guinea pig for others.

But despite all that, the farmer stays alive (CofcofPoweroftheScrollandMr.Qicofcof)

But, how do you think the villagers would react to the news of the farmer's death?

Oh, pain... 🥲 Thank you for ask, Shiro 🫶

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It was rare to catch a conversation between Marlon and Lewis, but the old adventurer had come to the town mayor's home... with tragic news. Marlon himself was as gloomy as a dark cloud. The news he brought had shocked the equally old Pelican Town Mayor.

They're.... dead? In the mines?

Merciful Yoba.... But, they came here as farmer, why did they have to go into the most dangerous place?...

The next ones to be shocked were Dr. Harvey, who stated Farmer's official death, and Maru, who was helping him. The young inventor gasped in horror: seeing Farmer's body had made her sick, so Harvey had to do almost everything himself. All this was late at night, and just the next day in the afternoon, Maru was to meet her girlfriends at Haley and Emily's house to discuss various gossip. And Maru (unfortunately), also got some news.....

All the girls gasped after hearing this, Penny even dropped her tea cup from shock. Abigail turned even paler, because just yesterday she had begged Farmer to take her to the mines, but Farmer had politely refused her. Perhaps, because of this, they had saved her from death...

Pelican Town is a small town, and news of the death spread like the plague. Caroline and Pierre learned everything from their daughter, truly regretting the death of the young farmer. And even though Pierre was not close to them and for him it is, in fact, just the loss of another client, he does not wish anyone such a terrible fate, to die young, alone...

Gus didn't turn on the music machine in the Saloon, also giving himself over to mourning the loss of a member of their commune. Let the others not be fooled by the rather stale reaction of Shane, Alex, and George in calling the farmer a fool. They just don't know how to react to the loss of a loved one again.

It would seem that Clint couldn't have gotten any sadder than his usual state, but when the only person he considered a true friend dies... It's painful.

It's pain for Robin to construct a gravestone instead of useful buildings for farming. Sebastian, along with Abby and Sam shut themselves in his room in the basement, trying to hide from the pain that way. Vincent didn't understand at first why his parents sat sad, but Jas immediately realized why Aunt Marnie's eyes were red. She understood why Uncle Willy had taken off his hat as he saluted the dead farmer.

Everyone was at the funeral, mourning the young farmer. As dusk descended on the Valley, no one noticed several figures standing near the fresh grave. No one saw how Marlon placed their sword beside the grave, how Rasmodius made the flowers beside the grave grow, decorating it with a single movement of his hand. And how quietly Linus stood, whispering a farewell to the young soul who had not been afraid to go into danger to protect the people of Stardew Valley.

[mirrortouchedsea]

dark. that was all he had ever known. cold, dark, damp. the boy shivers in the small room, painfully alone, only a book and his magic to keep him company. he tries not to use his magic very often, though. it seemed that the people above knew when he used it and they always always always refused to give him food until he “woke up” next, if they bothered to keep track of that. maybe this time he’ll learn their lesson. the boy whispers his spell, cur memini, and creates a small light in his fingers. this is the only spell he can cast safely, too small to be noticeable by the people above. he holds his hand over the fading book on the floor. the boy can’t read the letters on the page, but this book has pictures. he flips through it again, careful of the pages that were falling apart, admiring the figure in armor who always comes to rescue the figure in the tower, cut off from the world, just like him. the boy frequently dreams of a figure in armor coming to save him, despite the years he has spent alone. dark and cold and damp. 

the room the boy lives in, the only room he has memories of, is empty besides himself and the book. sometimes the people above would give him water and stale bread to eat, and then there was a cup and a dirty plate, but otherwise it was just the boy and the book. the boy knows why the people above have locked him away, they told him that he was a freak of nature, unnatural, dangerous. but the boy could only make lights in his palm, and that wasn’t very dangerous at all. he thinks to himself that the people above are the dangerous ones, locking away a child for something like this, but he can’t say that out loud. he doesn’t want to die again. 

the boy’s stomach grumbles and he curls in on himself, the light in his palm fades out. he longs to see the sun again, to play with the other children he can hear through the ceiling, to be normal. the people above must have decided to punish him again, though, as he doesn’t remember the last time he had anything to drink, to eat. his stomach would eat through his skin and he would still wake up the next day. why can’t he just die once and for all and be rid of the pain? why is the world keeping him here? why was he even born?

the boy closes his eyes, and falls asleep. maybe this time it won’t hurt so much. 

--- 

how long has he been here? the boy doesn’t keep track of time. he knows he’s died at least a dozen times, but how long does it take for a dozen lifetimes to pass? 

--- 

a clattering on the floor wakes the boy up. the people above decided he can eat today. stale bread and water again, but better than nothing to the boy. he crawls closer to it, listening to the door. it closes and the voices disappear. where was the sound of the lock? did they forget? 

the boy scarfs down his food and water before tiptoeing up the stairs. he doesn’t hear any voices, but he needs to be careful. he doesn’t remember what the above looks like, but he needs to leave. he needs to be free. 

slowly, quietly, he opens the door. it’s dark on the other side of it, but still much, much brighter than his room ever was. he closes his eyes but keeps the door open. breathe in, and out. opens his eyes again, blinking the brightness away. pushes the door further open. steps on the hard ground outside the door. he’s so close. closes the door quietly. turns around and holds his breath. where was outside? pick a direction and go. his legs hurt. turn the corner, listen for voices. voices are dangerous, get away from the voices. whisper his spell, create a small light. keep moving keep moving keep moving. window ahead. break it? open it? is he strong enough? lift the window up. too weak. voices coming. hurry hurry hurry must get out now. whisper spell again, hand on window. break the glass and jump through it. cuts on feet cuts on legs deal with that later. voices getting louder voices shouting. run run RUN. 

the boy runs away from the building, away from his room. freedom is so close. first get to the trees, then… he hasn’t thought that far, but he will find a way. gunshots from the house. he runs faster, must get to the trees, must hide, must be free. cur memini, he whispers again, crossing into the forest. his spell can make lights and now break windows, but he needs it to protect him at this moment. run run run until the voices are quiet again. his legs are giving out, but he needs to run. he can’t die now or they’ll find him. keep running. bare feet on sticks and stones and sharp things, everything hurts but he can’t stop. he keeps running until the sun comes up. his heart beats out of his chest. 

--- 

when he wakes up he doesn’t know how much time has passed. his heart beats fast and he sits up. did they find him? he looks around. trees, rocks, a gurgling stream. he’s free. he’s free. he sighs and lays back down. how far did he run? he needs to go further. away from other people, away from anyone who might lock him up again. he sits up again and forces himself to stand and walk towards the sound of the stream. he can start there. water is important, and he might be able to get food from the little stream too. 

his first drink of the stream water is icy cold, quenching his lifelong thirst in just a few swallows. he washes his face with it, removing years of sweat and grime. he wants to sit by the stream forever if only he could, but the people will find him eventually if he doesn’t keep moving. but he allows himself a few minutes to bathe in the water, savoring the feeling of water on his skin. his stomach still growls, wanting something more filling than the freezing water of the stream, but that would have to wait. he needs to get his bearings. 

the light of the outside world is almost blinding, he realizes. the sun and the snow made it almost impossible to see anything. he should get up above the trees. can he even do that? cur memini, he says, trying to get his voice to be louder than a whisper. his feet float a few inches above the ground. he closes his eyes and says his spell again with more conviction. Cur Memini. he feels himself shooting into the air before he opens his eyes. he can see the forest stretch out for miles around him. trees covered in snow in every direction. if the old house is behind him, he should fly straight ahead, towards the forests on the mountains. tentatively, he leans forward and focuses his magic on keeping himself afloat. 

it doesn’t take much to exhaust what little magic he has, but he’s put more distance between himself and the old house and the people above now. he should be safe to rest, truly rest. but first he should find something to eat. is there anything to eat out here? something in his head tells him to look a little closer to the ground. to his left. there’s a bush full of berries. he’s never had anything but stale bread, and doesn’t know what to expect as he crushes one with his teeth. 

the sensation overtakes him for a brief moment. the berry is sweet, yet tart, and delicious. it’s the best thing he’s ever eaten and he thanks the little voice in his head for the information as he picks several more berries from the bush. the juice runs down his chin and makes him sticky, but it feels good. he feels truly alive for the first time. 

once he’s finished picking the bush clean of its fruits, he needs to find a place to rest, to stay warm. he’s shivering in the intense cold of the north, but it’s nothing he isn’t used to. the room was never very warm after all. he listens to the little voices calling out to him, guiding him towards a small cave, instructing him on how to make a small fire to warm himself up. a small rabbit brushes against his leg and he swears one of the voices is coming from it. and with the fire going, he thanks the rabbit before it hops away back into the snow. he would be roasting that same rabbit over the fire a few months later. 

the boy can’t stay in the cave forever though. as days turn to weeks turn to months, he worries that the people above are getting closer to him. they’ll put him back in that cold, dark, damp room again. he needs to keep moving. he has been practicing his magic, casting stronger spells, and he needs to be ready to fly. it's been long enough. cur memini he says holding his hand out. a rough stick with twigs tied to the end flies into his hand. it’s a poor excuse for what he understands is a broom, but it will work. he climbs onto it and focuses. cur memini cur memini cur memini. he lifts off the ground and watches as the branches of the trees get shorter and eventually he passes above the treetops. 

he takes a moment to gather his bearings. he no longer remembers the direction the house was in, but going up is his best bet of staying away from the people above. he laughs, realizing that he is the one above them now. after a moment, he flies into the mountains. the small voices change into bigger, unfamiliar ones as he gets further into the mountain range. they tell him to hide, to stay away. he doesn’t listen. they cannot be more dangerous than the humans he is running from. 

the boy lands, still exhausted from using so much magic, but he was able to travel further this time. that has to count for something, surely. he gathers some sticks and looks for another cave to make his home in. the caves remind him too much of the room he left, so he chooses to stay close to the entrance, close to the light that reminds him he is free. the fire keeps the animals away, but the voices are curious about the new presence in their woods. they make him curious too. he should stay in the cave tonight though and regain his energy. maybe he can get some small game to fill his stomach before settling in for the night. he listens for a rabbit’s voice, or maybe a squirrel, anything that would be small enough to kill with his hands. 

at last, a small fox’s voice is heard nearby. he wonders if fox will taste different from the other game he’s eaten thus far. he lifts a hand-sized rock and slinks out of the cave towards the voice. it takes a few minutes to find the source, but the fox is curled under a tree, shivering, hungry, just like him. the boy hesitates before bludgeoning it and slinging the corpse over his shoulders. there are more foxes. he is much more important. 

the fox is only the first animal he hunts in those mountainous woods. he spends several years in that forest and eventually humans settle up there as well. the boy, or rather, the man now, has made a name for himself amongst the human populations of the north. he is no longer afraid of humans capturing him and locking him up. they are still terrified of him, but now he is in control of that terror. the hunters that left his territory alive whispered tales of the great wizard owen who inhabited the mountains and terrorized anyone who had the bad luck of running into him. 

all of this is perfectly fine with owen. eventually his reputation will grow beyond himself, encapsulating atrocities that were impossible for even someone as strong as oz to commit, but that would be a problem for future owen. for now, he is still young and living in his cave on the outskirts of a small village and scaring hunters who stray too far from their boundaries. the wolves don’t like these visitors either and gladly listen to owen’s lamentations. it keeps his hands clean of the bloodshed if he isn’t casting the spell himself. the wolves don’t care for owen either, but they respect him. and that is enough for owen. 

the first of the unwanted visitors was a young man, someone who wanted to provide for his family. he pleaded with owen and the wolves to let him go and he wouldn’t cause any problems. those pleas fell on deaf ears though as owen looked the man in the eyes. won’t your family be disappointed, he asked almost innocently, you don’t have anything to show for your efforts. the man stammered a response, they’d rather i come back alive with nothing than die trying to find food. is that so, owen reached out for the man’s chin, the distance between their faces was almost nothing. y-yes, sir, please just let me go and i won’t bother you anymore. owen grinned. oh i’m sure you won’t be causing us any trouble again. the wolves stalked out of the woods, drooling at the prospect of tearing a piece of that man for themselves. owen snapped his fingers, and they came running forward, only to stop mere inches from the now trembling man. there was a suspicious yellow stain in the snow beneath him. p-p-please sir, anything you ask, it’s yours! then make sure you tell the rest of your little village that this forest belongs to the great wizard owen. the man ran off, leaving behind a hunting rifle and a ratty sack. the rifle would be of use, but the sack became tinder for his fires. 

despite the warning from that first man, hunters continued to enter into owen’s territory. and one after the other, they ran off screaming with their tails between their legs. this should have annoyed owen, that people would ignore all of the warnings and stories that had started popping up about him, but it doesn’t. their fear feeds into his magic power, only making him stronger, and that is all fine with owen. he is no longer a weak child locked in the damp, dark basement, and he never will be again. 

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𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗥𝗜𝗧𝗘 𝗢𝗙 𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗘𝗦 — 𝗬𝗩𝗘𝗟𝗟𝗔 𝗩𝗔𝗟𝗘́𝗥𝗬’𝗦 𝗩𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗜𝗢𝗡 “        What’s left of me dreams backwards.        ” — Yvella Valéry

WHAT IS THE RITE OF NINES?

The Rite of Nines is one of the most forbidden and devastating magical rituals in witchcraft. Ancient, pre-colonial, and suppressed by nearly every known coven, it grants the practitioner immense sacrificial and ancestral power — a permanent connection to the Ancestral Plane, and the ability to channel magic from the dead without needing a living conduit.

To complete the ritual, a witch must sacrifice nine witches, each from a different coven, and mark their deaths with the sacred Emblem of Nothingness — a rhombus crowned by an “X” carved into the forehead, symbolizing severance, death, and reclamation.

The best-known failed attempt was Eva Sinclair, who planned to use nine children, one from each New Orleans coven, linked together so their deaths would occur simultaneously during the final spell. But before she could complete the ritual, she was stopped — imprisoned, silenced, and eventually possessed by Rebekah Mikaelson.

But what most witches never knew is this: the ritual did not require linking. It required intention, sacrifice, and symbolic completion. And Yvella Valéry was the first — and only — witch to complete it without error.

YVELLA’S VERSION — THE BLOODY MIRACLE

Yvella Valéry, the Sacrificial Witch, completed her version of the Rite of Nines in 1914 — just before the events at the Dowager Fauline Cottage. Unlike Eva Sinclair, Yvella required no children, no chains, no wards of containment. She did not link her victims. She hunted them. One by one. Quickly, cleanly, and with meticulous efficiency. Where Eva relied on theory and desperation, Yvella relied on design.

THE ORIGIN OF HER RITE:

The seed was planted long before 1914. When Yvella was still a girl, curious and ambitious, she found a hidden trunk in the attic of her family's Tremé home. It belonged to her aunt, Eloise Dupont — a vanished Valéry whose name was spoken rarely and with unease. The trunk was filled with grimoires written in ash-black ink, stitched in human hair and sealed with tallow. In them, Yvella found her first mention of “Le Rite des Neuf.” At the time, it was only a myth. Nine sacrifices, one from each coven. Great power. Forbidden. Suppressed. The pages were incomplete — some burned, others scratched out. But the idea remained, like a worm in the root of her mind. It wasn't until more than a decade later, under the reluctant mentorship of Kol Mikaelson, that the rite transformed from fantasy to possibility.

WHY SHE CHOSE TO DO IT:

Kol had brought her into his circle when he sought to make a weapon to use against his brother, dabbling in Kemiya to reach this goal — a blend of alchemy, dark Egyptian sorcery, and old witchcraft. Together, they pursued dangerous knowledge. Yvella learned quickly, reveled in it. But it was the Mikaelsons as a whole, especially Klaus, who showed her the stark truth of the world: witches were vulnerable. Disposable. Tools or threats. Klaus spoke of witches as parasites. Disposable when no longer useful. He did not realize she was listening — or how deeply his words took root. Yvella realized that if witches were to survive the likes of him, they needed more than magic. They needed supremacy. Power not granted by ancestral bone or collective consensus — but power taken, stolen, built on blood. The Rite of Nines would give her that.

THE PREPARATION:

By the time she committed to the Rite in late 1914, she had already spent months rebuilding the pieces. The grimoires of Eloise provided the outline. But it was Ione Leclair — her on-again, off-again mentor and ritual historian from Marigny — who unwittingly taught her how to fill in the blanks. Ione spoke often of the ancient rites, including the Emblem of Nothingness — L'Emblème du Néant — a sigil carved only into the heads of the damned. She dismissed the Rite of Nines as myth, but her notes confirmed it had once been attempted centuries ago, with catastrophic failure. Yvella studied failures as blueprints. Over the course of six months, she charted every major coven. Not just names, but weaknesses. Leaders. Internal politics. Her face was known, her bloodline unmistakable, so she couldn’t hide behind a mask. So instead, she slipped between the cracks: bribed gatekeepers, forged invitations, exploited old favors, preyed on chaos. She moved like a shadow wearing her own skin. She kept notebooks inside other books, stitched into the lining of her coat. She tested poisons on pigs. Practiced carving sigils on dolls. And all the while, she kept Kol and the others none the wiser.

SECRECY AND STRATEGY:

Yvella never performed magic where it could be traced. She used ancestral routes, crumbling backroads of Tremé magic few even remembered. She hid in plain sight, played the charming prodigy, the gifted pupil. To Kol, she was merely clever. To others, another pawn in his games. But Yvella was already building her own kingdom. Quietly. Precisely. She left no bodies behind — not right away. She used glamours, misdirection, and in at least one case, pinned the murder on a vampire attack. She kept her tokens locked in a consecrated altar under her family’s crypt, where no coven could sense the convergence. She worked fast. Nine kills in nine weeks. Never hesitated. Well — except with the last.

THE RULES SHE FOLLOWED

To complete the Rite of Nines, Yvella had to:

Kill one powerful witch from each of the nine major covens — with no overlap or mercy.

Carve the Emblem of Nothingness — an ancient rhombus-and-cross sigil — into the forehead of each at the time of death.

Take a personal token from each victim — a piece of bone, blood, or magically-bound object — to bind to her ritual altar.

Complete all nine sacrifices within nine weeks, or the convergence would collapse.

Finish the ritual in a Neutral Ground — a sacred space unclaimed by any coven, where no ancestral spirit could interfere.

Offer a piece of herself — blood, magic, and something irrevocable, to seal the rite. Yvella gave all three.

It became known among those few who knew of it as The Bloody Miracle — not just for the speed and success, but because no one believed it was possible. Witches do not kill witches. Not this many. Not with such surgical grace.

But Yvella did. Because she believed witches deserved to be feared. And if fear was the price of freedom, she would be its collector.

THE SPECIFICS OF HER SACRIFICES

Each victim was chosen not for cruelty, but for significance. Yvella didn’t kill children. She killed the pillars of each coven — the ones whose deaths would shake the bones of the community.

[ #1. ] Colette Rousseau ( Garden District ) — Sigil Archivist Death: Crushed in the archive vault. Books bled ink for hours after her death. Token Taken: The tip of her right index finger, bone and all — the hand she used to draw sigils.

Colette was the first. Cold, brilliant, and aloof — a master of the written word, feared for how precisely she could bend magic with pen alone. She once rejected Yvella’s request for forbidden texts, calling her “half-formed, half-blooded, half-mad.” Yvella smiled and waited. Years later, she rigged the archive vault to collapse as Colette decoded a cursed page. It wasn’t personal. Not yet. But as the ink poured down the walls like blood, Yvella felt something change. The ritual had begun.

[ #2. ] Lucien Duprès ( Gentilly ) — Spellwright Death: Impaled by enchanted iron quills mid-incantation. His tongue was missing when they found him. Token Taken: His severed tongue, wrapped in parchment inked with his unfinished incantation. It dried shriveled, the runes burning through the page beneath.

Lucien was arrogant, brilliant, and deeply petty. He and Yvella had crossed magical swords many times — he stole her spellwork, mocked her innovations, and even tried to have her barred from a symposium of southern spellwrights. She returned the favor with a gift: a false incantation wrapped in gold ribbon. When he began to chant it, the room exploded in shards of ink and quill. She took his tongue to silence him forever. He would have hated how poetic it all was.

[ #3. ] Camila Desrosiers ( Ninth Ward ) — Weather Witch Death: Electrocuted during a ritual storm, her body smoking in the rain. Token Taken: A braid of her singed hair, still crackling faintly with static when wrapped in cloth.

Camila was tempestuous in every sense — volatile magic, sharper moods. But she had once sheltered Yvella during a storm of her own: a political fallout with the Tremé witches. Camila brewed sweet tea, cursed her enemies, and said, “ The world doesn’t care if you drown, but I do.        ” Yvella held that memory even as she summoned the storm that killed her. Camila never saw her face. But the lightning that struck her was inscribed with Yvella’s magic. A mercy, and a betrayal.

[ #4. ] Ettienne Marchand ( Algiers ) — Warlock Death: Heart stopped during spellwork. He died clawing at his own reflection. Token Taken: A shard of his spell mirror, darkened with his dying breath.

Ettienne terrified Yvella when she was young — all booming voice and bladed teeth, a warlock who never bowed to the Ancestors. He taught power through fear, and Yvella never forgot it. Later, he became an obstacle: ancient, revered, and in the way. So she inverted a soul-scrying ritual, turning his own reflection against him. He died screaming, not at her, but at himself. She watched him claw at the mirror, and in the end, he called her name. That part haunts her more than she admits.

[ #5. ] Ione Leclair ( Marigny ) — Ritual Historian Death: Wrist-to-wrist, face-to-face. Yvella carved the sigil while she wept. Token Taken: Ione’s old ribbon, still warm with her body’s final magic.

Ione wasn’t just a mentor — she was the foundation Yvella built her magical identity upon. She offered structure to Yvella’s chaos, reverence to her rage, and a deeper understanding of the sacredness within dark magic. Their bond was one of intellect and intuition, forged over countless hours spent dissecting ritual theory, pouring through forgotten texts, and shaping dangerous ideas into refined practice. When the time came, there was no trickery, no ambush. Just an ending that felt like a beginning gone wrong. Ione didn’t fight, and Yvella didn’t hesitate until it was already done — until her trembling hands were wet with blood and the ribbon she had so often seen tied in Ione’s hair slid from her wrist like silk. The guilt never faded. Not because it was her greatest sin, but because it felt like the closest thing to being seen.

[ #6. ] Anika Beaufort ( French Quarter ) — Bone Reader Death: Poisoned mid-ceremony with monkshood tincture. She predicted her death, but could not stop it. Token Taken: Her bone saw, ironwood-handled and stained with years of rites — still warm when Yvella took it.

Anika saw the worst in people, and delighted in being right. She and Yvella had a long-standing truce built on mutual distaste. Still, Anika was powerful, precise, and uncannily accurate — her readings often struck too deep. She once told Yvella, “        You’ll ruin the world, and convince yourself it was mercy.        ” Yvella didn’t dignify it with a response. She only poured the monkshood and watched the prophecy unfold. She didn’t apologize. Not because Anika didn’t deserve it — but because she would’ve enjoyed it.

[ #7. ] Mireille Gaspar ( Les Flammes Noires ) — Pyresmith Death: Consumed by black flame— her death kindling for the final rite. Token Taken: A vial of ash taken from her pyre, sealed with salt and bone-dust, and a charred sliver of bone, still smoldering.

Mireille was flame incarnate. A creator of magical fire, a keeper of dangerous heat. Yvella admired her, perhaps even feared her — not for her strength, but her detachment. Mireille lived by one rule: “       Fire doesn’t love. Fire destroys.       ” So Yvella turned that truth on her, binding her to a ritual flame that consumed her entirely. Mireille didn’t scream. She smiled faintly as the fire took her — as if she knew what her death was for, and didn’t mind. Yvella saved a single blackened bone. It still burns when she calls on it.

[ #8. ] Soraya Delmont ( Deschamps Circle ) — Dreamwalker Death: Killed in her sleep. Never woke up. A smile frozen on her lips. Token Taken: A silver dreamcatcher pendant soaked in lavender oil.

Soraya was the kindest of them. That was the tragedy. She lived half in the real world and half in the dreamscape, and never lost her softness in either. Yvella once confessed to her — not the whole ritual, but the weight of darkness pressing on her spirit. And Soraya, in her strange, echoing way, simply said: “      When you cross the line, I’ll meet you on the other side. I don’t judge the ones I love.        ” Yvella killed her in her sleep, not out of cowardice, but reverence. She couldn’t kill Soraya awake. Not when Soraya might offer her a blessing. Not when she might forgive her. The dreamwalker died smiling — not because she was unaware, but because, somehow, she understood. She chose to make her peace with it. Yvella has never touched the pendant since. It remains warm when the rest of the tokens grow cold.

[ #9. ] Lélia Valéry ( Tremé ) — Elder. Yvella’s mother. Death: Slain with a ceremonial blade passed down through their line. She was the last, the most intimate. Yvella sobbed as she carved the sigil into her mother’s brow, whispering, “        You should have been proud.        ” Token Taken: Her wedding band and a lock of Yvella’s childhood hair, bound together.

There was no version of the ritual that didn’t end with Lélia. It was always going to come to that — not because she was the most powerful, but because she was the root. Lélia raised Yvella with rigid faith, pride, and fear braided tightly together. Her love was conditional, measured against tradition and the memory of a daughter already gone. And though Yvella craved her approval, she had long stopped needing it. Killing her wasn’t just sacrifice — it was rebellion incarnate. Patricide not out of hate, but because Lélia had become the last gatekeeper between Yvella and freedom. Her death was not an act of vengeance, but a release. And yet, even now, Yvella carries both the wedding band and the lock of hair — not out of sentiment, but because some pieces of the past must be kept, no matter how sharp their edges.

THE EMBLEM OF NOTHINGNESS

Each body bore the sacred sigil: a rhombus crowned by a sharp, symmetrical “X,” its lines etched clean between the brows, just above the Third Eye. Not drawn, not inked — but carved. Deliberate. Deep enough to scar spirit as well as skin. It bled in ways ink never could.

This mark is known as:

L’Emblème du Néant — the Symbol of Nothingness.

It is not merely a symbol, but a severance. It annihilates mortal lineage, strips the soul of name and inheritance, and binds it instead to ancestral fire. No heaven, no peace — only the weight of magic and memory, forever. The Emblem must be carved in the instant of death, as the soul tears loose from the flesh. Too early, and the bond will not hold. Too late, and the spirit will drift, unclaimed.

The blade used must be obsidian — volcanic glass, consecrated under a new moon, forged in a mixture of oil, ash, and silence. The silence is important. The knife must never hear a name, a whisper, a word. It is an instrument of unmaking. Yvella named her blade “Tranquille.” Not for peace — but for the stillness before ruin.

THE FINAL RITE

Yvella performed the closing rite in the ruins of an orphanage on the outskirts of New Orleans — Neutral Ground, sacred and dead. The things she did:

Constructed a spiraled stone altar with the tokens taken from her victims.

Lit the altar with her own blood and the flames of Mireille’s pyre ash.

Offered a vial of her own tears, a lock of her hair, and the blade that killed her mother.

Spoke the names of all nine victims in reverse, slowly, carefully, as the sigil seared itself into the ritual floor in burning chalk lines.

THE NINTH NAME IN REVERSE:

The night was dead. Not sleeping. Not quiet. Dead. No stars to bear witness. No wind to carry the sins. Just breathless walls, ancient and aching, the orphanage exhaling time as Yvella drifted barefoot over blackened bones of wood. Her blade — a lover’s weight in her grip — hung blood-heavy, whisper-slick with the ghosts of yesterday. Her throat? Ravaged. A ruin of silence. She hadn’t spoken since her last offering. ( What was the point, when the dead already listened? ) She lit the altar with blood. Hers. Of course. Always hers. One by one, the relics. The reliquary of remembrance. Each placed with reverence. Each with its truth.

— Colette’s bone:  feather-light, hollow as a lullaby.   “  You remembered everything.  ”   The memory of a girl who refused to forget.

— Lucien’s tongue:  red-grey, still warm in memory.   “  You spoke too much.  ”  No more lies now. Just stillness.

— Camila’s braid:  singed and frayed, humming rebellion.   “  You danced with storms. Now storms dance for me.  ”  Inheritance, electric.

— Ettienne’s mirror shard:  light bent, fire caught.   “  See yourself.  ”   She turned the truth inward. It cut, as all truth must.

— Ione’s ribbon:  grief-worn and trembling.   “  You taught me how to begin. I’m sorry this is how I end.  ”   Her hand faltered.  ( Grief is a god with no altar, and she had worshipped long. )

— Anika’s saw:  teeth still sharp. No words. No apology.   Some violence needs no name.

— Mireille’s ash:  a circle drawn in grey.   As it fell, the flames rose — they knew her. Fire remembers the ones who fed it.

— Soraya’s pendant:  a silver dreamcatcher, delicate as lace, soaked in lavender oil.   It hung warm from her neck, threaded with sleep. Yvella took it gently.   “  Sleep well, witch of velvet eyes.  ”   She kissed her fingers. A farewell. A blessing.

And then — Lélia. Her wedding band. Yvella’s childhood hair. A daughter’s last tether.

Yvella knelt. The blade beside her. The sigils already hungry. Her voice cracked — shattered — on the name she’d never stop carrying. Her mother’s token, center bowl. Blood tracing sacred maps across old Tremé stone. Tears like ink across spell-lines.   “  This is where I stop being your daughter,  ”   — barely a breath —   “  and become something else.  ” Nine names. Spoken in reverse. An invocation unraveling. The world held its breath. Then— Crack. The veil split. Flames rose like hands. Nine shadows howled their last. The sigil burned,  deep and permanent.

And Yvella Valéry was not a girl anymore. She was the answer to every question they died asking.

WHAT THE RITE GAVE HER

The Rite of Nines was never meant to be completed. The original architects — long-forgotten witches who carved spells into flesh instead of paper — designed it as a trial of impossible sacrifice. The power it offered was immense, but only if every term was fulfilled with perfect cruelty. Yvella did not flinch. And the magic obeyed. Here is what she became.

SACRIFICIAL MASTERY:

Yvella no longer needed channels or tethers. No ancestral prayers. No bloodlines to beg from. She could draw raw power from any body freshly dead — human, witch, vampire, werewolf — without ritual, without fanfare. A glance, a whisper, and the soul peeled open like wet paper. Where others required offerings, she became the offering. More terrifying still: the magic didn’t just respond. It clung to her. Death became a language she spoke fluently. Her fingers blackened at the tips for weeks after. A stain of death that never quite scrubbed away.

ANCESTRAL AUTHORITY:

Within New Orleans, her magic became supreme. The ancestral plane — that hallowed realm where dead witches whisper judgment — bent to her. Spirits recoiled or bowed. Even the Elders, those titanic forces who governed ancestral spellwork, could not refuse her command. Her rites silenced cemeteries. Her footsteps disrupted séances. Witches who summoned their ancestors found only silence when Yvella stood nearby. Some began to call her the False Matriarch — others, the Witch Queen in Ash.

WITCHLINE ACCESS:

Most witches can only pull power from their own coven. The bloodline is everything. But Yvella’s ritual connected her to all nine. With every sacrifice, she carved a path into their magic — not just their names, but their histories, traditions, and hidden rites. She could wield fire like the Les Flammes Noires,  dreamwalk like Deschamps, fracture bones like the Beaufort line. Even after the covens cast her out, she still felt their echoes. She was a coven of one — but inside her, nine screamed.

RESILIENCE:

Yvella did not seek immortality. But the ritual touched time. From the moment she completed the ninth kill, her body changed. Her heart slowed. Her cells ceased their withering. She did not age, not truly. Wounds closed quicker. Poisons diluted. Mortal disease fled her like prey sensing a predator. She is not unkillable. But she is very, very hard to kill. There are legends that she stood still during a thunderstrike and felt only heat. That a vampire once tried to drink from her and screamed until his throat burned shut. No one knows for certain. But her skin has never wrinkled. Her eyes are still the color of dark molasses. And she has outlived everyone who tried to stop her.

LEGACY:

Her name became legend. Then curse. Then silence. Witches tell their children stories of the Sacrificial Witch — how she moved through the city like a blade, how she fed on the covens, how she vanished before justice could find her. Some say she died. Others say she still walks, watching, waiting. No coven speaks her name aloud. But every child in Tremé knows it. Yvella Valéry. The Bloody Miracle. The Witch Who Ended Nine.

WHAT THE RITE TOOK FROM HER

Power always costs. For Yvella, it cost nearly everything.

HER HOME:

She cannot return. Not truly. Though she was born in Tremé, though her bones are made of New Orleans soil, no coven will welcome her. Witches spit when they speak of her. Mothers clutch their children closer. Altars flare and crack in her presence. She walks her city like a ghost. A myth wrapped in flesh. A whisper behind every ward. Only the dead greet her now — and even they do not love her. They bow because they must. They rise when she calls. But their silence is not peace. It is penance. And when she passes, the cemeteries hold their breath.

HER MOTHER:

Lélia Valéry — her last sacrifice. The woman who taught her candlework, who sang to her in Creole lullabies, who once bound her scraped knee with thyme and salt. The woman who warned her of ambition, of the line between hunger and monstrosity. Yvella crossed it anyway. And Lélia became the ninth. She used a ceremonial blade passed down through their line. She whispered apologies no one heard. She carved the sigil into her mother’s brow with trembling fingers. Now, every year on the anniversary, Yvella dreams of Lélia’s voice in reverse. Like a record spun backward. Like magic dying in her throat.

HER SISTER, ANIELLE:

After the ritual, the covens rose as one. They came with fire, salt, and iron. They meant to kill her. Yvella did not run. She stood in the square and waited, ash-laced and unrepentant. Anielle, younger and kind-hearted, did not know. When the spells flew, she stepped between her sister and death. Took a binding curse meant to stop Yvella’s heart. It stopped hers instead. In the chaos, Yvella vanished. Let them believe she died too. Anielle was buried as a martyr. Yvella never spoke her name again. Except in the dark. Except when she’s drunk, or bleeding, or tired.

HER FULL POWER — OUTSIDE NEW ORLEANS:

The ritual made her a living anomaly — but it also anchored her. Her power, vast and unruly, is built on ancestral bones. It feeds off New Orleans, off the soil, the dead, the history. When she leaves the city, it begins to fade. Not entirely. She remains dangerous. But her spells crack more easily. Her control wavers. It’s as though part of her soul remains behind, buried under the nine she killed. Some say she’s tied to the city like a spirit herself. Others think she likes it that way.

HER SANITY — MAYBE:

Once a year, on the anniversary of the ninth death, Yvella relives them all. She does not mean to. The visions come unbidden. She tastes the ash again. Sees each face. Remembers the heat of Ione’s blood, the smell of Mireille’s flame, the sound of her mother’s final breath. It never gets easier. The memories sharpen with time. She does not scream. She does not run. She locks herself in a room with no candles and no mirrors. And she waits until it passes. And when it does, she smiles like Soraya did. Soft. Sad. Knowing. Because this is the cost of power: To remember. To ache. To survive anyway.

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