#also these doodles likely won’t be posted elsewhere

[sharpace]

Clubs & Aces!

Going to be posting some Divorce Era doodles I’ve been piling to the side as this month’s bonus content.

If there’s something you’d like to see and hear more about, please comment on this post and I’ll put draw something :)

[whakkicat]

i am leaving

i made a post on my twt about this, but i should make it here as well.

this is my last text post before i archive this account and start elsewhere. video about what’s been happening at some point.

this post will be a personal note to friends, mutuals, communities, etc, and what will happen from here.

brief warning for mentions of abuse

1. i want to start with a word towards the rain world community. first off, i want to thank rain world for giving me a home. for starting me off as an artist. i had never actively participated in a fandom before this, and it was a wonderful experience.

the game brought me and so many of my friends together, i met a lot of amazing artists, some of which i’m still shocked they’re my mutuals, and rain world itself changed my life for the better, i believe. it gave me hope and something to live for when nothing else did.

i’ve always been quite afraid of voicing myself, as i had never participated actively in a fandom before, therefore had never gotten used to talking in one. but to those who’ve stuck around, who have enjoyed my content, thank you.

2. to the people who have been there for me during the worst, who have let me know i am not alone in my suffering, it means so much to me. i really hope that i can still keep contact with many of the people i have met on here.

there have been so many kind people on this platform and it’s been a joy talking to you all. if this is goodbye, to some, i wish you all the best. it’s only what you deserve.

3. i will be reaching out to the main people who i owe art to, regardless of cmms or not. it is unprofessional of me not to keep track of myself and keep everyone waiting. my ADHD has not made it very easy for me. i apologize.

4. this point will mention abuse, so cw dealing and getting out of abuse this year was extremely hard for me, and is still taking its toll on me. it’s part of the reason i can’t stay, because i feel they still have power over me, even if they’re not actively in my life anymore.

as i move on, i don’t want to completely abandon my past, and everything that came out of that abuse in the first place. i am not abandoning myself, or forgetting what i went through. i want to grieve my younger, naive self as i go forward as an artist.

this doesn’t mean i’ve let them win and break me down. i won’t give up on myself. i need to be kinder to myself and heal, so being away from this will help. this also goes out to anyone else trapped in their friendships, relationships. you will be okay. talk to

please do not silence yourself for the sake of other people. your own feelings are just as valid and important as anyone else’s. don’t let people make you feel bad for feeling your own feelings.

5. to mutuals who’d like to stay in contact, i have a priv account on twitter i will mainly be using from now on. it won’t be used as much as it used to, considering this is a hiatus, but it will be where i will reside. you’re free to ask me in dms.

6. i’ve already begun starting over, i won’t be gone completely. if you happen to recognize me in the near future, please do not pester me about it. simply accept that i have restarted, as a brand, as an artist, and i’d like to start over from square one.

7. this account will also be public for the remainder of its existence, however i may clean it up for archival purposes. i don’t want to simply vanish, i am proud of some of the work i have published, and i don’t want it to be forgotten.

it’s a bit odd, considering most of my art is composed of doodles, non-serious jokes, and mostly fanart. hopefully i can make self indulgent art in the future. i’ve always wanted people to know my characters, but was always too afraid to actually talk to people.

closing point i’m sorry if my absence upsets anyone, if you are disappointed in me. i can’t stress enough that this year has been hard enough on me, and being here is hard enough. i want a fresh start. i want to be okay.

i love my fellow artists, my friends, everyone. there’s so many talented people i’ve met and i don’t ever want to forget them. my last post will be my video talking about my experiences this year, previous years, because i feel it’s important for me to come out about it.

this is a goodbye. i will miss many of you. here’s to hoping the rest of the year will be good for everyone! until our paths meet again. good luck out there

[prof-peach]

(Kind of a weird question and not sure if there’s another blog to send this but…) Have you ever read a few of the fanfics or considered posting your own work on a website like ff.net or ao3? There’s a few other comics on them (the art in yours and your doodles are so pretty btw your style is really unique) tho it’s understandable if you want to keep it on your own website. So many good fanfics if you know where to look, and there’s one called the Alola Pokédex that I absolutely adore. Love your work!

This is a fine place to ask that question.

I actually avoid a lot of other comics and content based on Pokemon stuff, so I can focus on my own story. I’ve found in the past if you go off and read a bunch of things others have made, while enjoyable at times it can lead me personally to choice paralysis. Nothing is new and unique, and so when I know I’m writing or creating something that is similar in any way I just won’t make anything at all. My brain just can’t do it, as if I’ve convinced myself there’s no point. SO for my own joy I simply don’t involve myself in others stuff too much (which is fine for me I’m not very present online, and don’t like to be on the internet too much) to allow my brain a chance to create without getting in its own way. Not a single thing I’ve made is unique or special, and I’m fine with that, but if I fill my head with others work I just stop creating which is really bad for my mental health haha. I am also quite dyslexic so reading isn’t something I do well with.

As for posting elsewhere, issues of legalities crop up, and I tend to get nervous throwing all my stuff up in a load of places, more because I don’t remember to use the internet for more than like… a collective of 2-3 things for work, so I’d no doubt forget passwords or just forget to use a site all together.

I’m not much of a writer, so I doubt it’d be worth putting anything up elsewhere, figure that’s more for the literature lovers than anything else. And comic wise I pay for a domain so it’s all add free and personalised so I’m happy to use that and not put it elsewhere.

I like things the way they are ^^ though I suppose I have enough notes on my phone of written content that could be put somewhere, could do without that haha!

Love that you’re enjoying the work and blog!!

[ample-blunder]

INTRO:

𓆏 Hihi, I’m Wings! My main is @w1ng-gl0ss, this alt is basically one of those request accounts! This blog is centered around Vast Error, including Snowbound Blood and Thaumatrope.

WHAT YOU CAN REQUEST:

𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊 Panel Edits! Please provide the panel number so I can snag the hq version of it if you have a specific one in mind! Otherwise, just let me know what you want added in or edited for a character, and I’ll find a fun panel.

𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊 Moodboards! Let me know the character, items or themes, colors, and anything else you might like!

𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊 Stimboards! Kinda like above, but also let me know what stuff I shouldn’t add to the board! I know not everyone likes the look of slime or kinetic sand.

𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊 Doodles! They won’t be the most high quality, but some blocky little sketches would still be fun to do! Feel free to be as specific or unspecific as you want!

𓍊𓋼𓍊𓋼𓍊 Headcanons! Vague or specific is fine! I’ll give you a few thoughts I have about whoever you ask for!

YEP:

✓ Shipping + Rarepairs (don’t make it weird though!)

✓ Vague or Specific asks are both ok!

✓ Fluff! Angst! Any genre is ok.

✓ Introject asks, other system stuff. Ask for it to be tagged if you want it to be.

✓ Kin and kinsona asks.

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✗ Posting my content elsewhere without permission and credit.

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✗ NO NSFW. Thanks.

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✗ I don’t do writing prompts.

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[meowlayn-art]

💜 💀Someone reposted my work on Pinterest, and I am NOT happy. 💀💜

So it has been brought to my attention by a dear fellow artist that someone uploaded my Lucifer piece on their Pinterest.  I wrote it on EVERY bio of EVERY social media I have : DO. NOT. REPOST. MY. ARTWORK. Anywhere. PERIOD. 

The person who uploaded the artwork told me they got that image from a different source than my social media (not an excuse, btw, and again, my watermark says ‘do not repost”) but funny enough, they do not remember where. (°◡°♡) And it was in good quality meaning someone either took it for Tumblr, or Twitter in the first place.

SO.

I already explained it in great length why it is extremely damaging to repost someone else’s artwork when I reblogged this very important post from @otonymous​.

But I guess it wasn’t enough. So here are a few lines and doodles, in attempt to explain why it is damaging for content creators to get our work stolen (and I very much insist on this word) and then reposted without our consent and knowledge, especially when some of us are relying on it as a direct or indirect source of income.

Shady argument #1 : “it’s free to use”

This argument is often used and actually comes from a conversation I had with a (former) follower of mine on Instagram that reposted (and unfortunately, still repost) artwork found on Google and Pinterest (this is another case, and it wasn’t my own work, but sadly enough, it proves my point).

I won’t enter too much into details regarding copyright infringement laws (since every part of the globe has a different way to protect content creators: in the US you have the DMCA, in France and most european countries we have basically le “droit d’auteur” or “author’s rights”) but basically finding a content on the internet DOES NOT give you permission to reuse / repost this content elsewhere. NEVER HAD. Usually if you find artwork on Google Image or Pinterest that’s because other people stole them from social media / websites and put them on another platform.

Shady argument #2 : “the watermark”

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA no. It doesn’t work like that. (plus what type of monster would remover a watermark, uh ?)

This amazing tweet from GraphicFighter explains in very simple and educational words why reposting never benefits the artist (they even gives statistics), and why it is overall very bad for illustrators, watermark or not.

Not only because watermarks can be hard to read (especially if an alphabet / symbol system you don’t know), but also because almost no one bothers to click on our social media links when they exists – that’s basic web user behaviour.

So do you really thing they’ll have a look at the watermark and bother looking for the artist ? Nah.

  Shady argument #3 : “hey artist, it’s your fault”

This one also comes from a conversation I had with someone who kept reposting artworks, and I quote their words :

the fact that the photos are freely available on Google means that they are open for use. If this is not the case, then the artists themselves have to limit it in some way, so this is the problem with them.

Needless to say, I nearly choked when I read this last sentence. It is 2020, aren’t we past always blaming the victims ?

In this day and age, Internet is the most efficient way for us to gain visibility and have a chance to get hired for jobs, so of course we post on the net. That doesn’t justify ANYONE reposting our content.  

As of today, I have seen ONCE (and only ONCE) an artist put a Pinterest pin creator on their website (a tool that helps you create a pin from whatever content from their website). That is their PERSONAL CHOICE, and one that enables them to have control and redirect directly to their website once someone see their work on Pinterest. I can with confidence say that this is an exception that proves the rules and that shouldn’t justify reposting other’s artists content without at least their consent.

So again, we artists, in the vast majority, DO NOT choose to have our content put OUTSIDE of our social media. We cannot track it to see if it wasn’t linked to something shady, we cannot make sure people see our websites, we basically DO NOT HAVE CONTROL OF OUR CONTENT ANYMORE. If you found it on the net, it is probably because some other people TOOK IT, and put them “in the open” on the internet without a care in the world so no, it is NOT and will never be an artist’s fault.

YOU REALLY WANT TO REPOST ?

Don’t just assume every content creator is ok with reposts because a few content creators allow it with credit (and they do as they please, I am not here to judge them for that). 

If you really, really wish to ASK if you can repost someone’s artwork and want to contact the artist but don’t know how, you can google their name (if the watermark hasn’t been cropped), make the effort to look for them on social media, or even use Reverse image Search on Google Image.

If we, content creators, spend hours and hours on a piece that you enjoy, the very least you can do is spend a few minutes to look for our name.

And if you don’t manage to find the source of a specific content despite your efforts ? Do. NOT. Repost it. Anyway. Is it frustrating for you ? Yes, it might. But not as frustrating and devastating as it will be for the person from who you steal their work and often, their livelihoods from.

💜 WHAT REALLY HELPS 💜

Reblog, retweet (without comments), reshare in your Instagram stories : show your favorite creators your love THE RIGHT WAY - a way for them to keep creating content and getting rewarded / paid for it.

Thank you.

[nightly-noivern]

It’s been a while, huh, lol? The last time I was doing proper updates on this blog was like, 2 years ago. I just want to leave a nice message at the top (rather than me joking about old community drama, etc). I’ll probably draw a little something on my main (@hummingbird-scratch) as a goodbye, and reblog it here.

I’ve been trying to get back into more art lately, so if you liked my characters, please interact with them there— and see more of what I have created over time! I need to organize that blog (removing defunct links/etc) but I would encourage you to check it out. The noiv co will probably pop back up there in one form or another, and I do pokemon fanart and stuff.

I loved this blog and I still love this blog, I just don’t have the time to dedicate to drawing the same thing daily— I’d much rather dedicate the time I have to getting better in other areas (not just drawing dragons, lol). This blog definitely helped me improve; comitting myself to drawing every day was such an important thing in terms of learning how to make drawing muscle memory, and stuff like that.

Not to mention that I got through some hard times with this. I didn’t talk about this much, I don’t think, but I got pretty sick when I was about 14, and spent a year basically bedridden with little energy— not enough to go to school or hang with friends or anything like that. In that year, I started this blog, and it (and the wonderful interactions) gave me a reason to get out of bed and use the little energy I had. So thanks.

Thankfully, I’m in a much better place physically, and have been for some time— that’s most of the reason I left this blog to begin with: I felt a lot better, so I was suddenly doing other things (outside of my room/house), and I didn’t need this blog to be social because I had people offline that were in my life. I always wanted to come back, hence why I never posted a proper goodbye, but I can admit it’s long overdue, and I likely won’t because I spend my time drawing a wider variety of things when I feel like drawing, and generally spend my days consumed by other projects, classes, etc.

Still, I’m very happy I got to participate in what seemed to be this whole community’s heyday! A quick thank you to everyone who’s interacted, be it in the form of an ask, fanart, or something else entirely! I have all fanart saved and credited, and I still cherish it.

I’m also super happy to have provided mindless happiness / simple entertainment with my silly little doodles of fun dragon-bats. Can’t ask for more than making people happy, tbh.

HERE’s THE TLDR: So it’s kind of bitterswet, I guess, is the conclusion. Yes, it’s the end of a blog I enjoyed, but also it’s the dropping of a coping mechanism that I needed when I was pretty damn miserable. I don’t have any big projects going on rn to boost, lol, but I’m enjoying life and still doing art elsewhere.

If you wanted a life update, keep reading:

I’m 19 now, graduated highschool last year (2020). Which, yanno, not gonna be sunshine and roses: it kind of sucked, because in junior year I didn’t get a normal year and then I didn’t exactly get a normal start or a normal end to my final year, which was especially rough because I had gotten surgery in junior year and finally felt significantly better, good enough to fully participate in school, extracurriculars, etc.

But that’s life, I suppose. Nobody’s having fun with quarantine, though it’s our new normal (apparently, and at least for now).

Despite my whinging, I’m happy where I am right now— my gap year hasn’f exactly worked out as planned (to say the least), but I had the presence of mind to take advantage of some fun volunteer opportunities (I got to feed baby birds for several months straight!) and load up on some fluffy, fun community college classes (ASL, art, animation, and computers).

I’ve played dnd, and run my own campaign, gotten back more into videogames in general, gone on socially distant and safe road trips, gotten back into getting fit, and have generally adjusted pretty well lol. I also, obviously, still do art (just not with the incredible frequency I used to, hah).

So... yeah. Next year, I’m transferring to a state college, and going there. I hope things’ll be better by then, and I’m definitely excited to engage with people that aren’t my family.

I’m still open to talk, and still open for OC interactions / etc. Please reach me on @hummingbird-scratch!

This blog will, of course, stay up for posterity! I will probably do one last edit to remove defunct links from the theme (aka blogs I’ve abandoned lol), and better advertise my mains and organize some of the tags, but otherwise all will remain the same.

[riisinaakka-draws]

part 5/6

5th part of my Black Sails scraps and doodles from 2016–2021. Not in any particular order.

And of course, please do not steal and repost elsewhere! But if you do get inspired, feel free to make your own interpretations :D

This time I have black and white Walrus study, Monsterman gifs, discarded inktober doodles, vane-jack-anne and jack-anne-max and max-eleanor moments, surprise collars, not-so-relaxing-asmr, daddies, another gazing lesbian, curious tentacles, biker girls, more speed with "black sails" and “oh no!” (I swear these are not as sexy as the list might make it sound...)

Under the cut, because this is a very long post again.

Above is the drawing I made for the Flint on “STAGE” pic (2020), although I think I already fixed some of the perspective mistakes after scanning it. I wanted to study the Walrus’ balcony but didn’t really have proper pictures so had to guess some parts. Also at this point I think I didn’t even want to draw Flint in yet.

I mentioned in the art post that I was listening to Lordi’s “Would You Love A Monsterman”  but it was also because it had the same working music and inspiration as my very old project of making a drawn(!) gif serie with the lyrics (because I didn’t want to make a fan vid... lol) and since that has been on hold for a few years (I mean, I started it right after season 2 aired and ended and then continued it while the s3 was going on...) and I really really wanted to share the idea already after sitting on it for so long xD

And I’m mentioning it now again although I won’t share all the notes because there’s just too much stuff... and the timing is off in the gifs and text a bit hard to read at some points, but you’ll probably get the idea!

Here’s a couple of the gif drafts and experiments from the “monsterman-gif” project I had (somewhere between 2015-2016-2017?):

(Also, I copied the menacing Flint from the drawing above when I was planning the set up for the “STAGE” art! :D)

(all of these were pencil / water-soluable graphite sticks + water and black watercolour drafts before I continued them on photoshop)

(hmm, I think I had a different version of this gif somewhere but it’s buried somewhere in the wip folders...anyway)

There reason I didn’t share them earlier is because I wanted everything to be ready and then... just didn’t do it. Also s3 and then s4 aired and I wanted to include something from there but things spiraled into even more complicated so I just left it to brew, lol). The whole thing is like 80% ready with the 10-11 gifs so maybe someday I’ll share the rest of it.

Next, some old inktober doodles (2017):

The prompt was “poison”. I liked the upper part but not Silver’s face and the bottle’s bottom with the spiky crown and pearls (and infinity loop) felt somewhat clumsy. I’m not even sure what I was thinking with this piece...

Another inktober, prompt “underwater” and in this case of course “underwater training” as Vane is teaching Jack and Anne to swim and dive and guerilla attack ships. I liked the idea but not how Vane turned out and I didn’t want to start over, lol.

An early version of the “G’morning, love” (posted in 2019). At first Anne was wearing a shirt but I wanted them all to be bare and open with each other. Although Jack’s scarf stays on, lol! Working title was also “AnneToulouse” because there’s a painting called “Sleeping” by Henry de Toulouse-Lautrec and I wanted to catch that mood a bit. Around the same time I was also working with the “LaundressFlint” aka “Would you still recognize me?” (posted in 2020).

Next, experimenting with “slices”, like how much story can you fit into a tiny slice?

“Betsy come here!” early sketches. Silver peeking under the desk and Flint’s boots as he caught them. There was also slightly NSFW-version, although I shared it only on discord, I think:

(I wasn’t quite happy with Silver’s face and run out energy to fix things...)

Next, the ASMR AU, 2020. (yeah it was my prompt that I submitted to the challenge... and couldn’t resist illustrating... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

The messy idea and further planning:

Still a few more doodles on this post!

Plans for “I will be your Daddy” or The Next Top Daddy for Vane (2019)

The “like, 30 brothers” that Anne mentions here are the other pirates and captains in the room and the nine step moms (or well, ex-step moms?) are the Blackbeards (ex)wives lol.

awww, this was a nice maxanor piece! I actually like Max’ face here more than in the final result (2017)...

Above, the first idea sketch for the Merbutt piece and the original colour scheme (2019).

Above, an early sketch about Eleanor and Max (finished in 2020) and tbh I liked this composition and style a bit more but for some reason I got caught up honing too much and thinking too much about heights, perspectives, where to put their hands etc... Eleanor had a short hair here and this had more a rockabilly mood.

first(?) sketch for the “black sails” shenanigans (finished in 2018). I really liked Flint’s ninja style and in the last pic’s sketch there’s also someone holding Flint’s coat/cape to be an extra-extra “sail” lol. Tumblr flagged the finished art post at the time, because of the Walrus’ figurehead and her shapes but luckily the appeal went through...

Last pic for this post!

draft for the drawing where Flint accidentally cuts Silver’s hair while they are training sword fighting, oh noooo~

So as you can see, sometimes my drafts are very loose sketches and sometimes very heavy with thoughts and inspiration (so much so that they end up in the never-ending-pile).

Thank you for checking this out, I hope you had fun! :D

[bake-your-bombs]

Is it updated? I don't see any changes on it, unless you're talking about a different DNI?

It should be updated. I only have one DNI linked to this side-blog. If I had another one I would link it to you! I will also check the update on mobile, thank you for giving me a heads up!

Fontcest/incest was removed from my DNI, you’re correct. That was the only change.

If this change made you realize that you cannot look at my content anymore, I hope that you’ll find some other fulfilling content that brings you joy! Go with what works for you, I wish you the best and hope you continue to take care of yourself in the ways you know work for you.

Those are the short answers, but I did end up rambling and the answer got a bit long, so I’ll throw the rest under a read more.

I’ve drawn a couple of cross-verse pairs, more specifically I’ve been drawing an extraspicyhoney poly on more than one occasion that I’ve created with a mutual of mine, along with drawing fanart for a papcest story. In June 2020 I had answered an ask saying I didn’t draw spicyhoney at the time along with my DNI having backed this up, but as it’s apparent I don’t follow that anymore - having that contradiction up for however long, another content creator brought it up to me and I had realized I didn’t update my DNI since. So the change was made.

Though I should clarify that I don’t exactly ship fontcest things outside of those dynamics at this point. To put it specifically, I work exclusively within that cross-verse - actually shipping the brothers from the same universe feels... weird to me. A bit uncomfortable. I don’t have a habit of shipping characters left and right - I focus more on if it can be a healthy or otherwise interesting dynamic to write and consider. Some doodles and content like that does leak into my art I post, but I don’t see myself posting stuff like that constantly. I work with that content largely elsewhere.

On a related note, DNI stuff is... exhausting for me. With a DNI, I feel like I’m gatekeeping myself. It honestly doesn’t bother me what other people like. I don’t follow content I don’t like, and I have my dashboard the way I like it - I... don’t really see the point in blocking myself from people who just like what they like if they’re respectful about it and my own content. For example, if someone reblogs and likes frans or something (something I don’t like myself), but is otherwise a very nice person, reblogs and/or leaves nice commentary on my work to spread it, doesn’t push their interest on others and is respectful about others interests, I don’t mind them! I really don’t. Then there’s platonic ships, and that’s different for me too - it gets very convoluted for me and it wears me out.

This all being said, even if I don’t exactly like having a DNI myself, I will respect others DNI’s. If I do end up stepping on another’s DNI and I realize it or if they ask I don’t interact anymore with them, I’ll honor it. I absolutely don’t want to have an active toxic affect on this community. If you feel the need to unfollow, or to ask me to unfollow you, it’s definitely okay to! I’ll respect your boundaries, and I certainly won’t be offended. As I’ve mentioned before, if the changes made you realize that you cannot look at my content, I’m glad you’re moving away from content that upsets you and I’m glad you’re looking after yourself! We need to take care of ourselves more than ever.

I hope this was enlightening, to an extent!

[keizerinne]

E5D%

Before anything, I’m really sorry that I answered this so late. I tend to get distracted a lot more so lately ;;

I kinda like that I’m always put in pomefiore, even though I sometimes think I’m more like octa... Anyways, you’re the first one to put me in Vil’s top, I tend to get epel’s when I asked elsewhere. I actually like Vil’s a lot although I would have preferred a darker shade myself.

I’m not sure about d though. I assumed it’s no vest, which I prefer most of the time since I get hot and uncomfortable pretty easily. Not a great sight, because I also get really irritable when in that situation. Unless there is a good air conditioning, I likely won’t really wear a blazer.

First year too. I’m actually old but it’s good though that I get mistaken as younger even in vibes. To make up, sort of, plus practice, I doodled it. Still experimenting on non-chibi and feeling rusty, but I tried ♡

[OG vibes post here]

[dear-hikikomari]

[READ ME; ASK RULES]

This is my policy on incoming asks; make sure to take a read through these before sending anything. Asks that break the rules will be deleted on sight, so keep that in mind!

All asks will be assumed as directed to Mari unless otherwise specified.

If you send an ask to the blog, I’ll answer it IC with a little Mari doodle to accompany the response. This is open to anybody, so long as you abide by these rules! That said, if you want to interact with her through a character of your own, make sure to refer to my roleplay rules first; my guidelines for that are a bit stricter. If you’d like to talk to me, the ‘mun,’ directly, make sure to address me in the ask so I know it’s to me! My IMs are also open, but I will not be answering them IC; those are for mun talk only.

Be respectful to the blogger!

Remember that this is something I’m doing for fun; I’ll do my best to get to all the asks and give fun responses, but I can’t make any promises. It’ll largely depend on what I feel up to answering, what art I get inspired for, where stuff fits best in the narrative, etc etc. If I take a while to get to your ask or wind up not answering it, please don’t take it personally. You’re always welcome to send something else! You can ask if you’re worried an ask got eaten, but please don’t try to pressure me into answering faster; that’ll just result in it getting deleted. Additionally, absolutely do not attempt to drag me into drama of any kind; I’m not here for that.

Absolutely no NSFW, but other dark content may be present.

Expect canon-typical levels of disturbing content; psychological horror, body horror, character death, self-harm and suicide, mental illness, etc will all likely be present here to some degree. That said, I am not at all comfortable with sexual content and will not be accepting any asks of that nature directed at the mun or muse. Please do not send them here. Offenders will have their asks deleted and/or blocked, depending on severity.

Don’t repost or use my artwork without permission.

Unless otherwise specified, all icons, promo images, sidebar images, and other artwork utilized in asks or the blog itself were drawn by the mun. Please do not repost it elsewhere or use it off the blog without asking me first. If you’d like to use it for roleplay icons or something I might be okay with that, but let me know and make sure to credit me somewhere. I do reserve the right to say no, though.

Please don’t reblog roleplay threads you’re not a part of.

Most of my content is a-okay for anybody to reblog, but I ask that ‘threads,’ (written interactions between two or more roleplay blogs) are NOT reblogged by people outside of them. This can mess with thread trackers and often is considered really rude to roleplayers, so be respectful of this boundary! If I see this happen, I will be coming to ask you to take it down. That said, liking a thread to show your support is 100% okay!

Crossovers with other ask blogs won’t be canon.

I’m open to doing little cameos and stuff like that with other ask blogs, but bear in mind that they very likely will not be canon to the blogs themselves; they’re just for fun and shenanigans. If you’d like to discuss trying something like that feel free to drop by and ask, I promise I don’t bite! I’m sure we can come up with something.

Some additional notes to keep in mind:

Remember that this Mari is specific to the Hikiko AU.

For reference, the Hikiko AU is an AU of my own design; it’s loosely based on Omari, but with some pretty significant tweaks and story changes. As such, these are the basics you should know; Mari is still alive here, 19 years old, and attending a Junior College a few hours away from Faraway Town. If you’d like to know more, feel free to check out the about and AU pages for everything that’s been revealed thus far! And if there’s anything missing there that you’d like to know… Well, you can always try asking Mari. Just keep in mind that this AU is quite a bit different from the canon timeline or classic Omari, and Mari won’t have knowledge of any of the events that didn’t happen in her world. Likewise, this blog is not affiliated with the Hikki or Omari projects in any way; honestly I can't even keep track of who it is that's actually making them, let alone be in contact with the creators.

This blog is not spoiler free!

If you haven’t played the game or know the story, I highly recommend doing so before interacting with this blog or reading any further. While there’s plenty of divergences, the blog also contains some parallels to pretty significant spoilers and will definitely give away some big twists. Omori is a pretty intense emotional roller coaster of a game so I definitely would suggest experiencing it for yourself if you can handle the content it entails. It isn’t necessarily mandatory to interact here, but will probably add to your experience.

Guest characters may pop up from time to time.

On occasion I might let other characters from the AU participate in an ask or pop up in art. That isn’t to say it’ll happen every time, but I figure that’s a fun way to switch things up– and possibly provide some details Mari herself might not be as keen on discussing. That said, I can’t guarantee that an ask addressing them will always make it to the intended recipient– that depends on how likely they are to be able to find it. But do feel free to try if you’d like! You might just learn something interesting in the process.

Mari is an unreliable narrator.

Much like Sunny in Omori, she’s not always going to be honest about what really happened or how she’s actually feeling. Her experiences aren’t always true to reality, often laced with hallucinations, delusions, and dissociation. After all, Mari is someone who strains herself very hard to maintain an image of perfection and stability– and that’s one thing which has remained a constant here. It’s going to take quite a bit of effort to peel back that mask of smiles.

Check here for the dedicated tags!

I have a handful of dedicated tags for different content; feel free to blacklist anything you don’t want to see. I also track the tag #dear hikikomari, so feel free to use that if there’s something you’d like me to see!

#asks - the answered ask catch-all. #threads - the roleplay thread catch-all. #main; dreaming of you - the tag for main ask blog content. #side; pure imagination - the tag for non-canon side content. #my art; through her eyes - mun art tag (posted or reblogged) #reblog; strange reflections - others’ art tag (promos and etc) #mun post; the music stops - ooc posts from the mun.

And now, meet the mun!

Hey, thanks for reading this far! Feel free to call me Timey. I’m 25, and use she/her pronouns. I’ve been roleplaying across various platforms since 2010, so this is just the latest in a long series of experiments; I’ve had this AU in the works for quite a while, so an ask blog felt like a fun and interactive way to share it with folks. Here’s hoping you’ll all enjoy it as much as I do!

[greatfcx]

Rules List for Mobile Users ✨

Last updated: 9/17/24

This is an independent and low activity roleplay blog primarily for the main protagonist of the Star Fox series, Fox McCloud, though it may feature fellow teammates: Slippy, Peppy, Falco, as well as an occasional appearance from James McCloud (borrowing from A Fox in Space and Rayex Visuals for icons) and maybe more to come.  Its canon follows that of Star Fox 64 onward, with some aspects of earlier games, spin-offs, and Super Smash Bros series as well.

I am selective, though I’m not exclusive to mutuals, as I am a shy bean with a full time job and plenty of other offline responsibilities that don’t give me a whole lot of time to indulge in hobbies such as this. Also, please be patient with me for this same reason.

This blog is AU, OC, crossover, and duplicate friendly. Muses from Super Smash Bros. Series and Starlink welcome, too! Just be sure that you have something listed for your AUs and OCs that I can read up on. Also a note on crossovers: I’m a bit poorly educated outside of Nintendo, so I may need some extra plotting and/or time for research with such muses.

IC=/=OOC, my character’s beliefs are not my own.

I ship with chemistry. Feel free to have your muse flirt if they would, but don’t expect anything to develop before we’ve had a chance to talk and plot out the rest OOC. Fox is a bit fickle when it comes to the subject, though, so be warned lol 

No God modding–that goes without saying. Always ask first if you’re unsure if something’s okay, and I will do the same.

Some adult themes may occur here that may be dark or suggestive in nature, but no outright smut. I will always be sure to tag it appropriately (as “trigger //”, and/or hide it under a “read more” with warnings above. Please let me know if I miss anything!

Watch my tags in prompts and memes, as I may have additional guidelines for them there (how many I'm accepting, what I won't answer, etc.) Also, while I try to practice it myself, I do not enforce reblog karma.

I do not condone racism, exclusionist, or homophobia, transphobia, arophobia, biphobia, or any form of harrassment. Bestiality, pedophilia, incest, and any form or level of sexual harassment is also a big no and immediate block. If you see me interacting with anyone like this, please let me know and bring proof, regardless of who you are or who the accused is. I've seen my fair share of slander as well, and I'm not a fan of that either.

Do not drag me into your OOC drama. I may step in if a friend is especially targeted, or there’s been some form of misunderstanding, but only at my discretion.

Do not send me anon hate. If you have an issue with me, dm me about it or it will be ignored at best. Biggest pet peeve is not being trusted to resolve an issue civilly and privately.

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[identityexcavationstation]

The High Fidelity Remake is Good and my Identity is Irreversibly Linked to Music Consumption

Hi! So, I’m kinda insane about playlists.

This year I’ve made a lot of them. They’ve been short and snappy on index cards, scanned and pasted in a book and uploaded to the internet. (I’ve really fallen in love with index card playlists and they’re my thing now and I think everyone should do them always and forever.) They were easy to churn out as a retrospective exercise because the music I listened to as a teenager really defined my high school experience. Also, I have most of my favorite songs from that period in a very dramatic playlist I started in 2014 so it was really a game of copy-and-paste. 

Making these smol boys in batches has been a really peculiar experience because for years now, I’ve only made one playlist at a time. In my second semester of college, I’d officially burned myself out listening to only CHVRCHES for three months and began venturing elsewhere. (Don’t get me wrong, CHVRCHES absolutely bangs, but you can only listen to “Never Ending Circles” so many times before getting seasick.) All of the random songs I was listening to made me feel kinda hazy and purple, like I’d done all of this before. So I made a playlist full of them and called it “Deja Vu.”

I added to it all semester, and then suddenly it was summer and I didn’t feel purple and hazy anymore⁠—everything was blue and crisp on the way to South Haven as my friend blasted “Settle Down” by Kimbra in her beat-up Honda. So I started a new playlist and named it the first word that popped into my head: “Roots.”

Using Deja Vu as a rubric, I developed some ground rules for the playlists I would go on to create. They are pretty nonsensical but also exceedingly firm because if I don’t make rules for every area of my life I feel like I’m falling into a deep and limitless void. Health! Anyway, the rules are:

The playlist’s title has to be a short noun (seven letters maximum).

This has since transformed into a noun that is also a verb.

To generate a title, I ask myself what short word I would use to describe the phase of life I’m currently in. The answer comes quickly and reflexively, and I choose the very first word I think of.

One song per artist, no repeats!

Exceptions are made for artists who are featured on a track.

There have been times when I’ve obsessively listened to a whole album or an artist’s entire discography, so I have to choose just one song that represents the very best of that album or artist.

Tracks are added chronologically, based on when I first hear them and/or start listening to them compulsively.

The playlist has to contain an amount of tracks that is divisible by five.

If a song in a playlist is deleted from Spotify, I have to find a replacement asap that is accurate to what I was listening to when that playlist was being created.

and, most importantly, 

I can’t make a new playlist until I feel I’m finished with the current one.

These playlists represent seasons of my life, cycles in which I change and evolve and stagnate and fuck up and try again. The only rule I have for beginning a new playlist is that I feel done with the current one—those songs are a little stale and don’t represent me anymore. These “seasons” don’t have any set length, and I can never predict when I’ll feel like a new being who needs new songs to define her. So far, my life has looked like this:

Deja Vu - 176 days (12.03.16 - 05.28.17) Most common lyrics: now, love, time, need, take

snow that covers ivy that covers bricks, towers made from dining hall dishes, smiling at the bus stop without knowing, sheet masks in the dorm bathroom at 2am, pink string lights and pink crocheted blankets and pink shag carpeting, cheap beer behind tarps and walking everyone home

Roots - 111 days (05.28.17 - 09.16.17)  Most common lyrics: love, one, give, wanna, know

t-shirt tan lines, mozzarella and tomato and basil and singed spaghetti, sunset walks around abandoned high schools, green leaves outlined in watercolor, the smell of mildew and old paper in banker’s boxes, sweat-soaked french braids, the knife twist of eye contact, tarot readings under lamplight

Walls - 110 days (09.16.17 - 01.04.18)   Most common lyrics: wanna, know, baby, take, feel

crying in the gender-neutral restroom, pretty boys holding guitars or rolling rock, photos in the forest, blue carpeting and lofted bedframes, pitch-black bonfires, sitting in the dining hall to just watch the people pass, snow on eyelashes in large wet clumps, laughing at lies

Bite - 78 days (01.04.18 - 03.23.18)    Most common lyrics: know, love, stay, come, need

impatience at the airport, texting on the laundry room floor, nervous night drives, five grilled cheese sandwiches, acne like freckles, ceiling photos taken in secret, watercolor lines and paper houses, broken glass on the sidewalk, ink-stained forearms, notebook paper comics, writing small on basement walls

Windows - 131 days (03.23.18 - 08.01.18)   Most common lyrics: love, now, know, baby, fall

books piled up by the bed, rum and coke and orange juice and vodka and cheap white wine, rainy day night walks, streetlights turning the leaves orange, echoes from the party upstairs, solo trips to the grocery store, always leaving the blinds open, aperol and chai lattes and smørrebrød, never coming home

Grip - 136 days (08.01.18 - 12.15.18)    Most common lyrics: know, boy, lost, girl, night

read receipts, the creaking of an empty house, sand and bricks and traffic cones, sitting on the curb and shaking, applause at dinner, bubble tea, bike rides in torn jeans, mr brightside blasting at 10am, doodles during lectures, embroidery at the kitchen table, blue bus panic attacks, half an apple for lunch

Wait - 117 days (12.15.18 - 04.11.19)  Most common lyrics: heart, want, one, back, know

crying in the lobby, measuring oats by the quarter cup, drunken voice memos, shoes on power lines, another bowl of granola, reading all the lyrics, photos taken with the flash on, sleeping on strange couches, shoeboxes full of photographs, wire catching the sunlight, fifteen minutes of windchill

Wave - 108 days (04.11.19 - 07.28.19)  Most common lyrics: wanna, know, now, love, come

dancing on the porch, reading on the roof, tipsy trips to the corner store, silent heavy parlor air, chocolate cake with peanut butter frosting, barred windows and string lights and exit signs, highlighting the important parts, nails tapping on wooden tables, wet wind before the storm, biking straight into the smoke

Home - 178 days (07.28.19 - 01.22.20)   Most common lyrics: down, know, now, wanna, think

steep downhill walks, fingertips covered in graphite and lead, blank faces on green walls, forest walkways, hands gripping thighs too tightly, light leaks in darkrooms, the handwriting of strangers, chains trapped between teeth, white words left unread, twirling at the tennis court, yellow becoming blue

Hand - 63 days (01.22.20 - 03.25.20)   Most common lyrics: know, time, love, die, back

masking tape messages, laughing four shots in, BiC .07mm HB mechanical pencils slipped into coat cuffs, cheeks blushed with red ink, green floodlights and kissed knuckles, windows fogged from the inside, falling asleep with earbuds in, finger guns and everything in boxes, wedging open locked doors

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It’s interesting to look back at these playlists altogether, see them as self-contained units, little stories I tell about myself, about the people I used to be. Adding a song to one of these playlists was like making a vow, entering a relationship with a collection of sounds. It’s like I was saying “this song is now a part of me.” I constructed this little world for myself in the space between my ears, and it, in turn, created me.

I really mean it when I say that the first word that floats to the front of my mind becomes the title of whatever playlist I’m making. I never question what the word means, and its meaning always ends up describing that season of my life. 

“Roots” became a period of reconnecting with essential pieces of myself I thought I had abandoned. 

During “Grip,” I was holding on so tightly to things that had left me ages ago, and I think I knew that, even if I was unable to admit it to myself. 

“Wait” revealed itself in two ways: it was a time in which 1.) I felt stagnant and restless, unable to be patient, and 2.) I was forced to grasp with a physical and emotional weight that had been bearing down on me. 

The mind is a magical thing—it processes what we refuse to recognize. 

Speaking of which, these playlist covers have been driving me up the wall for ages. They’re like nails on a freaking chalkboard for my synesthesia. Is “Bite” a heavily blue playlist? Sure. But is “Home” purple? Is “Grip” pink??? I think the fuck not! 

(I could do a whole goddamn blog post on synesthesia, and I might.)

Now that I know how to switch out playlist cover art (can you believe it’s taken me this long to figure out how to do that?), I have decided to issue myself a challenge/project/way to procrastinate actual work I have to do. 

I’d like to make a piece of cover art for all of the above playlists. And because I am, to reiterate, insane, I’m setting up some Rules For Creation:

All works must be the same size, on the same type of paper using similar materials (tbd but probably graphite, colored pencil, watercolor, fineliners, and/or collage).

The preliminary sketch for each cover must be created while listening to the playlist.

Each piece can (must?) incorporate the five most common lyrics as listed above because goddammit I did not spend four hours compiling lyrics in a web-based word cloud generator for nothing.

If I’m not having fun, I won’t make myself do it because this is literally just for laffs. 

Anyway, I’m looking forward to creating some fun weird art! I know nobody is gonna read this and nobody is gonna comment but if, by some miracle, you feel like it, comment a playlist you’ve made that you’re really proud of! Or comment if you have some weird playlist rules! Or cyberbully me! Anything’s fair game. 

TL;DR playlists are fun and I’m a maniac :)

[blackasteriia]

16, 10, 7 for the ask meme :u

 Super Duper Deep Character Questions

||First question is shown but the rest is under the cut because it’s a doozy||

16.

I discussed in a previous post  how Xion’s physical appearance relates to her overall self-conception. Because of the influences of others and her own experiences with the world, Xion developed into a young girl with black hair. When she was in the Organization she had blue eyes. However, her eye color changed to a dark brown after she left. This was a statement of individuality that differentiates her from Kairi and Namine. It is also how she approaches her own style. Xion is unique, she doesn’t follow the trends or ideas of anyone else. She wasn’t want to wear other people’s clothes, or act like her peers. Her brand is 100% pure Xion. Pro-tip, if you want to buy Xion new clothes: let her pick them out. Do not choose them for her. She will not wear them. Set her free in a clothing store and see what she comes back with. Whatever it is, you can be certain she’ll be happy with it.  

Xion’s sense of style was a gradual evolution. In the Organization she wore the characteristic black coat, pants, and boots of the uniform, day-in, day-out. Her hair began to grow to the point it needed cutting. She did it with a knife. Fingernails were chewed off. Someone must’ve taken pity and taught the kids about soap, toothpaste, and basic hygiene. I hope someone did, at least. There’s no implication of it in canon though. She does not wear make-up and even if she understood its function, she wouldn’t have time to. There is little to no self-expression in the Organization. Xion is also a child soldier fighting to survive, appearance is way low on her list of priorities anyway. She doesn’t know anything about ‘style’ or ‘fashion.’ Clothes are functional, they keep her warm and they cover her. They also provide basic protection against the elements and attacks. 

The first time Xion shows an inkling of concern for ‘style’ is when she alters her Organization coat. Even without her memories, she recognized that the Organization coat is a symbol that said something about her. Something she did not want to be said about her. She needed the coat to travel the dark corridors, however. So, Xion found a tailor and had them change the design to suit her. She had it shortened and the hood replaced with a collar. Vents in the sleeves made it so they could be rolled-up. She also learned a spell that cleaned dirt, blood, and other stains from her clothes. This is also the point where she realized she could wear the clothes she wanted. Xion never had more than one extra change of clothes, but it was her clothes. Here Xion found some preferences: she preferred pants to skirts, she liked boots, loose shirts were comfy, and she kinda liked necklaces?

The necklace I draw her wearing in her art, for example: 

Is one that she made herself out of a piece of gem she found. She whittled and smoothed it down, then hallowed out a hole to loop a string through. Little things like that enabled Xion to find places for self-expression. However, her ‘style’ was cramped by the reality of her situation. She was still fighting to survive and once again her priorities laid elsewhere.

Once most adults are no longer attempting to murder her, Xion flourishes. She is never a fashionista, she never particullary goes out of her way to look Good. Instead, Xion understands that the ability to express herself should not be wasted. This freedom is valuable and just one more way to carve a niche for herself. It’s a statement of independence and power, a privilege she did not hav before. Clothes are always practical to her. She never wears heels for this reason. Still does not like skirts. Yet, she’ll color coordinate her outfits to suit her: blacks, dark, purple, blues, or reds. She probably has a small rotation of necklaces she likes. She has someone professional cut her hair, although it never grows past her shoulders. She looks clean and put together, confident in her appearance. Also she’s never wearing the stupid tacky apprentice outfit, she has self-respect. Even Xion knows that ascots are lame.

If she ever wears make-up it is very minimal, at most. She also is never going to get a piercing, too much risk of it getting ripped off in a fight. She will, however get a tattoo. Saïx left Xion with a gnarly, ugly scar across her back from hip-to-shoulder. When she’s old enough she gets a tattoo to cover it up. What the tattoo is of, depends. Usually it’ll be flowers and vines, a simple but elegant design that works to cover the mark. So, a painful reminder of her past is covered by something that is her and nothing else. Furthermore, in her room, wherever it is in the verse, Xion tends to collect things. Little trinkets and objects from her various travels. She’s not unorganized but she’s not obsessive about a system. She likes things to be at hand when she needs them. Shelves are for books and knick-knacks. She likes to have a desk to study at. Xion isn’t one for artwork, typically. However, if given art to put on the walls she might comply. 

10.

Xion isn’t traditionally creative, so you won’t see her make many works of art. She might doodle, she might hum, or write out a quick rhyme, however, she is not strongly artistically motivated. At least not in the way that is typically thought of as ‘artistic.’ Remember that Xion is a kinesthetic learner. Physical action is more important to her than an aesthetic ideal. In general, Xion will do things with her hands as an absent minded way to dispose of excess energy. Thus, the aforementioned carved stone necklace or her tendency to dismantle things. That or her little doodles, scrawled onto a page. If Xion is drawing or writing then it’s descriptive. Very grounded art that focuses on capturing details as she sees them. Xion isn’t an abstract person. She is concrete and focused on the space around her. It’s also apart of her general curiosity and drive to learn. Xion isn’t concerned with the lofty pursuit of high art. She’ll consume it, but even then I still wouldn’t consider her a ‘creative’ person. She doesn’t really listen to music and wouldn’t find a lot of joy in perusing an art gallery. Most paintings are boring man, I don’t know what to tell you. 

Where Xion shows creativity is in her problem solving. Xion is well-wired for logic and math. She is capable of teaching herself calculus if given the resources to do so. She can take the information she is given to form a conclusion. Then, use that conclusion to ask more questions that lead to more observation. She uses deductive reasoning and is probably one of the few people not truly victim to the confirmation bias. Xion is trying to disprove herself. It lends to her paranoia and tends to make her a bit of a conspiracy theorist. She is absolutely the one with the red string and the cork board. It also will make her a brilliant scientist and healer. Xion will ask the questions, look from the angles, and think about the problem, in ways no one else will. She will look at almost any design and think ‘how can I make it more efficient?’ She will then think through the possibilities of that. All of these are signs of her creativity. They’re pragmatic, efficient, and adaptable, much like her. 

Very little of this is evident until after Xehanort’s death. When Xion had the free time, the resources, and the ability to focus on it. Once again, Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs, even if Xion had the drive for creativity she wouldn’t have the resources for it. Nonetheless, she had to learn to how to fight the Heartless and adapt to the flow of battle. She also had to survive and exist on her own after leaving the Organization. All of these problems would require creative solutions. It just wouldn’t flourish in a tangible way until the people who were trying to kill her were all dead. So, she learns how to read, learns math and science, and begins to explore the world in a new way, with new tools. 

7.

Xion is a three year old child soldier with extensive combat experience, a history of abuse, torture, enslavement, and neglect. She has no social supports, no parents, no friends, no family. She has spent two years living on her own, feeding and caring for herself. Her coping skills are near non-existant. She has not been taught how to regulate her emotions, which easily overwhelm her or she suppresses them altogether. Several key betrayals have left her paranoid and untrusting. 

According to the DSM-5 the requirement for PTSD is exposure to a life-threatening event and Xion qualifies. She presents symptoms of involuntary memories, nightmares, flashbacks, and dissociation. She will avoid places or people who remind her of the trauma. Although, this is broad and often times Xion labels things as ‘threatening’ merely because they trigger her anxiety. Xion also has low self-worth, self-blame, emotional estrangement from others, and persistently struggles to regulate her emotions. She shows irritableness, hyper-vigilance, reckless and self-destructive behavior, startles very easily, and has deep sleep disturbances. 

When Xion is avoiding Roxas and Axel at the end of KH3, that is part of her detachment from social connection. When she vanishes for two weeks that is her isolating herself to deal with anxiety and negative emotions. Xion is paranoid and is constantly calculating the chances that someone is trying to kill or harm her. This is a learned behavior from years of people betraying her and attempting to kill and harm her. Her nightmares are the most prolific. Xion cannot sleep without horrifying dreams of close calls in battle, her abuse, or torture. So, she avoids sleep like it’s the plague, going up to four days without rest. She doesn’t like to talk about her trauma, or think about it. Xion is very good at hiding her symptoms and her distress. She’ll usually isolate herself when emotions become too much to handle. Failing the ability to escape, she will express it as an explosion of pent-up rage. 

She blames herself for what has happened to her. If she was injured in a fight then it was her fault. She should’ve been better. If she had been smarter, better prepared she could’ve prevented Xemnas from capturing her. Xion is self-destructive and reckless, she has very little regard for her own health or safety. She treats most injuries and wounds like they’re paper cuts, and is confused when others freak out over them. She hasn’t trusted someone since Axel first hit her. Everyone lies, everyone will betray you, they will all eventually attempt to kill you, at some point. From the position of an outsider this seems insane. To Xion it is perfectly rational and logical, a natural extension of her own experiences. Xion’s mental health is poor and her physical health follows it. Food deprivation means she is underweight. She looks like she doesn’t sleep. Her hair is a mess, her fingernails bitten to the quick. 

Everything about Xion is a perfect storm of poor mental health and self-care. So, what can be done to help her? Like most problems Xion has faced, its solved by moving her up the Hierarchy of Needs. Providing her consistent meals, shelter, water, entertainment, and affection, gives her the space to focus on her own health. By giving Xion examples of relationships that are not abusive or neglectful, it can reframe her previous experiences. Xion can learn how to trust and to open up to others. It will just take time and energy to encourage her to do so. If it’s available, talk therapy would be invaluable to her. In the case it is not available, encouraging her to discuss her feelings and memories will help her process them in a more healthy way. Xion is very young and she has extensive, painful trauma that weighs her down. However, with proper help, love, and guidance, she can grow beyond her past. She’ll always be more jumpy, or nervous, or anxious than most, she’ll always have that suspicious paranoia. Her sleep habits will never be perfect and the nightmares will never truly go away. She is not resigned to an existence of suffering, however. Xion is adaptable and more than capable of healing. 

[feynavaley]

I had another Hetalia-themed dream.

This time it’s very fragmented, though, I suspect I woke up and then got back to sleeping and to the same dream several times. Another peculiar thing is that I was following the story through a tumblr blog dedicated to it – I remember some scenes as if I were witnessing them (or, more likely, reading and then reconstructing them in my imagination), but I also clearly remember reading specifications in answered asks and looking at some doodles.

The story itself is some sort of global emergency scenario. The existence of Personifications has gotten out in the open; for some reason, their own governments and military are actively trying to capture and imprison them and have also turned the population against them through a clever misinformation campaign. In short, if they aren’t captured by the military or give themselves up, personifications risk being lynched by angry mobs.

The details are pretty fuzzy, but some of them were caught by surprise by the change and they were now trying to gather all in one same place. I have some flashes of America and Canada trapped in a building and trying to escape through the sewers while some civilians and soldiers are chasing them, and other nations (I remember for sure England and France, but there were others) are trying to reach and help them. At one point, America and Canada get separated when part of the ceiling collapses. America starts digging to reach Canada, but Canada stops him saying that it would just be a waste of time and their chasers are almost upon them. After promising each other to be careful, America and Canada set off in different directions.

After a bit of running, America is reached by some soldiers. As he starts fighting them off, he’s reached by England, France, Germany, and other nations, who help get rid of them. America gets out of it unharmed.

Canada, instead, ends up being cornered by civilians. He doesn’t want to hurt them because he knows they’re just misguided and scared, so he hesitates a moment too long and somebody has the opportunity to incapacitate him with a blow to the head. Before Canada can recover, all the others are upon him and they start beating him with anything they can find. (I am really stressed, lol. Apparently, my brain likes beating up my favourite characters as stress-reliever) Wanting him to suffer, (I think the government had fabricated lies on crimes committed by personifications or something like that) the mob stops just right before killing Canada and dump his body in the water.

In the meantime, America had decided to go back and look for Canada. He arrives just in time to see the last deed, and he dives in and recovers Canada’s body.

In the next flash I have, several nations (I don’t remember exactly who) are gathered in what looks like an abandoned hospital. Some are standing in a circle in a corner, discussing what to do, while America, England and France are next to a hospital bed where Canada lies, unconscious and with a breathing mask. Sweden explains to them that the broken bones and internal injuries will heal on their own, since Canada is a nation, but the sewer water he swallowed made him sick, it will take him a while to recover.

(There was also a set of doodles attached to this post – two of them were of France playing with Canada and Seychelles as children, for some reason, while the other two were of Canada in the hospital bed – in one, he was covered with a blanked and America was slumped on a chair next to the bed, holding Canada’s hand, the other one was just Canada lying on the bed, with only a pair of grey sweatpants on and his torso wrapped in bandages.)

Suddenly, Hungary and Germany burst into the room, covered in dirt and panting. They say that the location has been discovered, they need to move.

There is a bit of a discussion on what to do with Canada, then, somebody finds some oxygen tanks and they switch his breathing mask to nasal cannulas. I have a pretty clear picture of America walking with Canada on his back and the oxygen tank in one hand. He looks very concerned, when somebody (Germany, I think) offers him to carry Canada for a bit, he refuses. Canada wakes up for a moment when they’re moving, and America frets a lot over him – asks if he’s cold, in pain, if they need to stop… – but Canada retorts that Sweden gave him quite a high dose of morphine, so, for the time being, he’s fine, and it’s more important they keep moving. (I have no idea of how he could know what was going on, since he had been unconscious all the time, but well, it’s still a dream…)

Next thing I remember, all the nations are settled into an abandoned mansion and using it as their base, but there’s a lot of tension rising.

I have a flash of England, Canada, and Sweden in a room. Canada is in a semi-sitting position in a recliner armchair, still with the nasal cannula on. His breathing sounds a bit strained. When England brushes his hair out of his forehead and notes that Canada is still running a high fever, he smiles and mumbles that he’s fine, but he seems to fall unconscious immediately after. England is clearly not convinced. Frowning, he turns to Sweden and says that the medicines are running low and Canada needs to go back to a real hospital, but Sweden disagrees because it would be too dangerous. He claims that, being a nation, Canada will recover even without the needed medicines, even if it will take longer and the recovery will be uncomfortable. England is obviously angry, but he’s spared from answering by France walking into the room and saying Sweden is needed elsewhere. England then starts venting to France, saying that Sweden is wrong – since their governments and people turned their back on them, personifications have been healing slower. Switzerland, who received a gash to his leg nearly a week before, is still experiencing some pain, and Canada’s conditions have hardly improved. England is afraid he might start deteriorating and die, without proper treatment. France looks just as concerned as England as he sits next to Canada and takes his hand, but he retorts that England can’t antagonize Sweden, they all need to work together.

Meanwhile, in another part of the mansion, Hungary and America are arguing. Hungary is angry because America is one of the most physically capable nations but he refuses to help her go out and look for food because he doesn’t want to leave Canada’s side in case something happens. America retorts that she already knows his stance: either they also go and look for other medicines for Canada (which apparently somebody has refused to do because it’s too dangerous), or he won’t leave the mansion. This only makes Hungary angrier. She says that other people are injured as well, but nobody is making such a fuss. Ignoring America’s claim that nobody is faring as badly as Canada, she argues that food is running low and it should be the priority, and sending somebody without America’s strength and military training would just risk ending up with another injured person. They’re still arguing when they hear a sound coming from a room that should be empty. They freeze, look at each other for a moment, and then dart to the room. America, who is faster, jumps in first and tackles a moving shadow to the ground, easily restraining it.

When Hungary turns on the light, they are surprised to see that the intruder is a dark-haired and dark-eyed child who doesn’t even look in his teens yet. After a first moment of screaming and fighting, the child soon realizes that America is far too strong for him, even kicking him doesn’t seem to sort any effect, and he turns to a sullen silence. Bit by bit, America and Hungary manage to get him to tell what he was doing. 

For a dare, he and some friends got close to the mansion, that was believed to be haunted. They saw some lights on and shadows moving and ran away, but not before the child caught a glimpse of Sweden. He recognized him from all the pictures in the news, but he decided not to tell anything to the authorities because he believes there’s “something fishy” going on. Upon further questioning, he ends up revealing that his mother had recognized America from the news. She had met him years ago, believing that he was just a normal teen, and he had helped her out of a difficult situation. He had been sweet and well-intentioned, nothing like the dangerous monster the news had depicted. Moreover, he had gained nothing by helping her. So, the child’s mother doesn’t believe what is being said about America, and, in turn, doesn’t think it’s true for the other personifications, either. With this in mind, the child wanted to spy on the nations to find out what was truly going on.

At that moment, Hungary and America understand that there are still civilians who believe in them and could help.

I don’t remember anything after this, but I think it was a rather entertaining dream… and it could probably make an interesting story, if worked on a bit. Pity I don’t have the time, haha.

[alithographica]

Hello! I was just wondering, but how did you get so good at drawing? Do you take classes, or did you learn by yourself? I don't know if this question has been asked before, so sorry if it has and this is repetition. Anyways, I hope you're having a good day, and you really are an amazing artist!

Thank you! :D

I have taken classes. I did art in high school, I took a few classes in college, and I completed a botanical illustration certificate last year. It was very helpful to have that class structure and in-person feedback but literally everything I’ve been taught I have also found online or in books. The trick with the online stuff is that you have to figure out how to put it together yourself, and it can be hard to know where to start or who to listen to. For that reason I personally do like classes, but classes aren’t accessible or desirable to everyone so let me reassure you that they’re not necessary.

*If you do want to take a class, I recommend checking out your local botanical garden, museum, or art academy! There are lots of classes in unexpected places and they’re usually cheaper than university courses. I’m a little lukewarm on university art classes anyway as many art departments favor theory over technique—they teach you about Art™ rather than practical techniques. While it can be good to learn about Art™, it does precious little to help you draw well, as is the goal here. That is less likely to happen if you take your classes elsewhere. Anyway.

I’m working on making a few tutorials myself but I’ve have been busy with Inktober and freelancing and whatnot. Stay tuned.

Whether or not you take classes, my main advice is to draw a lot. Doodle dumb things. Sketch serious things. Draw things around you. I improve the most when I use references and spend time understanding them rather than just copying. I mention this for two reasons: 

A lot of people have this idea that using references is cheating. Quite the opposite—references are essential, they help you understand how your subject works, and every single professional I know uses references extensively. Full stop. That’s probably not surprising in my work given that it’s scientific illustration, but I promise it’s also true of animators, creature designers, etc. If you don’t see one using a reference, it’s because they’ve already spent so long with references that the information is now burnt into their eyeballs.

Inspirational references are vital. I won’t lie, I spent a lot of my early years copying my favorite art (shoutout to Pokemon and Ciruelo Cabral, y’all got me through middle school). I now do the Professional Adult Version of that by just looking very critically at the work I admire and figuring out (1) why I like what they’ve done, (2) how they did it, and (3) whether I want to incorporate something like that into my technique. This has been a big part of my growth—don’t steal, but get inspired. Seeing how your peers work can help you figure out your own direction. (Slight promotional plug, but I run @original-art for this exact purpose—reblogging other artists whose work I like to have around.)

In short: I’ve learned from coursework, I’ve learned by my own experimentation, I’ve learned from other artists around me. I’ve spent a long time getting to where I am now and I still have a long way to go. It’s an ongoing process. I can’t overstate the importance of just working and giving yourself time to grow.

And for the record, just so this post isn’t all Wandering Nebulous Advice and questionable comma usage, the single book I’ve found with the most clear, helpful instruction is Betty Edwards’ Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain. Support your local library or bookstore.

[sphelon8565]

Greetings today dear citizens of the internet, tumblr and elsewhere!

I’m Pretty much back!

11/30/2018

today’s another episode for me to post preview  works in  doodling concepts of character profiles of my yet to written fiction Battle Rehime.

To check my previous posts here’s the links:

Battle Rehime 001

Battle Rehime 002

Yeah it's been a long time I haven't post in weeks, some of these drawings are done around  the end of 2017 without further ado, I’ll be featuring the ff characters:

Kilik (Soul Calibur), Magneto, Sinestro, Ezreal, Griffith (BERSERK), Monkey D. Luffy and Jam Kuradoberi (Guilty Gear)

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Kilik

One of the early important figures in the Soul Calibur series...**In addition to Battle Rehime, he’s in the quest for searching the curse sword lerking around the world, in order to track down it’s wear abouts, he’s however had to deal lot’s of enemies getting in his way, teaming up with Luffy and the StrawHat Pirates, tagging along the likes of Domon Kashu, Zidane and Vaane Fanel. He may will be trained by Master Asia at some point after...

“Listen to the beat of my soul!’

“This rod, Kali-Yuga, shall bring you doom!”

“Here, I’ll show you the way of the Ling-Sheng Su, Jam & Domon!”

“erg...that straw hat sure had a good appetite, after all...!” **pertaining to Luffy

“Alright Zed, you’re not gonna do anymore harm!” (said after protecting an unconcious Ahri)

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Magneto

To understand Magneto, he has a strong hatred to human kind and is infamous for battling against the X-men on multiple occassions. To stir things up, he’s pretty much an every enemy to those whoever stands in his way, unless they make some certain pledges, just to attain his agenda. This is why he’ll be getting along with the likes of Golbez, Sinestro, Black Adam and anyone against humanity. He’ll likely get along with Haman Karn, Char and the rest of the other villains on certain conditions...**To be expanded soon

“Mutant kind will prevail!”

“Foolish boy, you are a mere puppet to human kind” ~said well battling against Squall Leonheart.

“How dare you meddle with my plans! Begone you scoundrel knight!”

“I dare you to interfere with my mind, you newtype scum!” ~To any newtype

“Perhaps I shall crush you swiftly along with your mobilesuit, Kamille Bidan”

“I am sadden that you are opposing mutant kind dear young girl...

you will soon regret what Munroe (Storm) has meddle to you,” Said during a battle against Janna, The Storm’s Fury.

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Sinestro

**In the Battle Rehime world, he’ll be connected to alot of important figures and also once tutored some of the good guys. With a strong connection to the universe, he’s as just as lethal as Dr.Doom’s agenda, making him sooner one of the strong key figures in an upcoming war against the heroes to meet his own goals.

Also plan on making Richard Riders (A.K.A. Nova), one of his past students replacing the said Hal Jordan to expand something dramatic tensions going on between them..**Hal Jordan is pretty much dead......in this fanfiction story...

“I am sensing fear inside you little girl, you won’t prevail if you don’t conquer it”

“If you want to restore your earth’s form of order then you must instill “fear” beneath these worms!

“I’m telling you...fear is the key to victory in defiance of discord and tyranny! & if we prevail, then the throne shall belong to us...!”

“Pathethic, Tranquil of the Gales, for a girl fill with winding hopes, you still feel fear trembling down to your feet! & it’s all because you don’t understand your surroundings!” **Said after defeating Janna in an intense battle.

“You won’t be able to defeat me Richard Rider!”

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Griffith

“I haven’t come up with a dialogue yet for this character, but in the early chapters of my fiction, he is already trying to recruit allies for his own band. (Pretty much took place after the infamous Eclipse that sacrificed all those he knew in his life) Starting with Lanaya of Dota 2....

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Ezreal

**Here in Battle Rehime, he’s good friends with Booster Gold! tagging along to explore and discover what elses beneath the world they’re living with. and no worries Lux X Ezreal fans out there, these two will cross paths in some way or another....

“Hey May (Guilty Gear)! hope I could go out for an adventure anytime!” 

“Gold, I’m sensing something bad going on...”

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Monkey D. Luffy

Monkey D. Luffy, the one day who dreams to become King of the Pirates, so where could the Grandline be? With friends along in order to achieve his dreams, he has yet to face the world whatever multiple tensions are going on between the ideologies of mankind. 

**He pretty much befriends anyone....even the bad guys....

“I’m Sorry Tifa, I was just dragged by their pranks...!” said after a hilarious incident that pisses Tifa Lockhart off...

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Troll Warlord

Here in Battle Rehime, Troll Warlord is on a self-journey to challenge the previous champion of a league tournament held every year all around. While he is known for making ruckus to anyone, much the dismal and pity of others....the heroes just let him be their ally due to important complicated reasons...thanks to Lux, Tidus and Rizzrack for convincing the good guys that he’s really not that of a bad guy...after all, even Bruce Wayne find something useful with this guy...

He, However in this crossover fanfiction verse, had a funny friendly relationship between the good guys for thinking them all as a nuisance (especially Janna, whom he often hates of all the company) and would like to kill em all after the war. but it’ll likely won’t happen especially with sympathetic and open-mind beings around.

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Jam Kuradoberi

**In this crossover verse, she is in search for more rare ingredients, that would sell good for her restaurant. Luckily for her, she tags along with the Strawhat Pirates, making good friends (and a good friendly rivalry) with Tifa Lockhart, and befriends a lot whoever she cross paths with. **

“If I win..... you WORK UNDER ME!”

“Hello Rubberboy, you like my cook don’t you?”

“Hey! Your Ki looks strong...you make me enjoy fighting you!

stay tune for another post!

11/30/2018

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