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thedevotionaltour · 1 year ago

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did u guys know when someone very important to u suddenly dies out of nowhere and you know he was not ready to die at all it makes your anxiety and depression worse and when u don't get any closure or acknowledge it happened it makes it five trillion times worse and then eventually u just go nuts? did everyone know this. did everyone but me know this

#not to be like everything is about my dead father but unfortunately It Is when i look at the timeline of Everything.#my depression got so Bad freshman year but i just thought it was normal and then after the year anniversary of him dying my anxiety #skyrocketed to heights it hasnt known in literal years and is probably the worst it has ever been #like once october hit i was basically having anxiety attacks like twice a week every week and like.#also severely spiralling like at least twice a month OTL kind of embarrassing to look back and not realize all this #me: why has everything gotten worse in the last year and a half?#<has not done anything to deal with my insane grief over a life toppling event that gave me new extreme anxieties and fears #vent.txt #parental death tw

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