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momo-crome · 3 days ago

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( disclaimer : i made this theory with the intention of making it into a YouTube video so please excuse if that hasn't translated properly as a post on its own. also this contains spoilers for dialtown + the roger dlc, it makes more sense with the context of it anyway. that along with i use all pronouns for Gingi in this post (he/she/they/it) and uh Tw because i do bring up a few sensitive things like suicide and death but also some other things I'm forgetting )

and one last thing is that there are some pieces of information i didn't know so have been left out in this post but i may or may not make a follow up on this if i find enough to talk about

with that in mind : under the cut is my phonegingi and object head theory !! ♡

A while ago I made a poll on my tumblr asking what one of these theories you’d like for me to make a video upon and ‘figuring out what Phonegingi is ‘n’ their anatomy (or just phony anatomy)’ managed to win. It's a blessing in disguise if I'm being honest as the context of what I'm going to explain and set up in this video greatly helps with my Enc0unter and god theory.

So without any further stalling : I think it's best to start with analysing the cryptid.

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Analysing Phonegingi :

So it doesn't take a genius to see that Phonegingi isn't like anything we've seen before. Not only does their species not really have an in-game name nor explanation, we also don't see anything else like it running around Dialtown. While there is a slim chance that maybe others like her do exist but we’ve never seen them and / or live in other places of the world, I really do doubt it from other characters' reaction to it alone. Not to even mention that Gingi doesn't have any confirmed origins along with the eggs that it lays and doesn't look anything like him. Obviously the whole ‘egg’ thing is a theory within itself but that's for another day.

Now if we’re going to get to figuring out what this thing is, we should analyse its features. We can see some human-like attributes but the list is rather limited when you take a closer look at him. So to make things a tad bit easier I've analysed some of the physical attributes from its sprites and art shown in game, along with a few not so physical things that are worth pointing out.

As shown I've decided to point out its green skin, six nipples, somewhat human body and tail. Some non visible attributes being how she can lay eggs, consume gravel and roadkill just fine, glans that burst when stressed(i forgot to add these two when making this) and teeth. two more noteworthy things being the fact he can speak proper English on top of hallucinations, but these are somewhat irrelevant as of now.

And for the sake of argument, I won't be taking the typewriter and phone heads into consideration as it's been proven by Gingi on multiple occasions that it had made it themselves and along with how it can change just complicates things. That's the same reason why I also won't be taking the scars into consideration as he was most likely not born with them (also it does change on occasion. No shade dogman) But don't worry as we shall return to it once it’s fully figured out what this thing is made up of.

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Analysing Phonegingi : The green skin

Now I feel as if we should start off with one of the most important things with Phonegingi, and one of the most prominent ones at that. That being the bright green hue of its skin, perhaps we could even describe it as being fluorescent. Obviously the claim on its own sounds quite outlandish until we take a look at what could have possibly caused this.

Now there are many things that cause green skin in nature such as hyperbilirubinemia and layered chromatophores within the skin but one main detail i feel like is worth mentioning is that while Phonegingi does have certain reptilian like moments, simplifying judging by looks alone it is worthy to note that it appears to be a mammal of some sorts. Or a creature who's mostly covered in skin. This may seem somewhat irrelevant unless you remember that there aren't any naturally occurring mammals within nature with green skin. So maybe it isn't natural. And maybe this could be from lead.

While from the surface this seems rather outlandish, it is notable to say that there have been many instances where people had gotten their skin punctured by such things made from lead, leading to a long lasting green mark upon their skin. And the reason I bring this all up is in one of the endings for the Roger DLC we hear from Mingus herself that she's been putting lead into Dialtown’s lake. Presumably being the one within the forest. The same first that Phonegingi is from. Now I am no scientist but perhaps the led from the lake somehow found itself into its system though one of the main scars upon her body caused the green pigmentation. That or perhaps even radiation.

Side note here, my original theory was that this was entirely radiation until I looked into it a tad more. But we still have much to discuss with radiation as a topic.

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Analysing Phonegingi : six nipples / eggs

I was honestly pretty stumped when it came to this point, obviously this is one of the main features of Gingi and on paper wouldn’t seem all too bad but when we consider the whole egg laying thing this really throws a wrench into everything until we consider the possibility that perhaps that Phonegingi is more than one animal biologically.

Now obviously I'm not going to sit here and act like I'm all too sure about what exactly these animals are just yet but I do have a contender. That being the platypus. Or that's what i would say because google lied to me about them having nipples. Apparently they only have mammary gland ducts to feed their young but perhaps Gingi’s genes somehow got broken so this being had to insert itself into his system, it’s an interesting look upon this but perhaps it's caused by something else. That I shall explain in a different post if enough people care for me to look into it. Either way : at least we now have a current solution for the eggs too

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Analysing Phonegingi : tail / eating gravel and roadkill / teeth

So now that we've managed to identify one of the beings that makes up Phonegingi, that being the platypus, we still have a few things that are left still in the air. But it's very simply solved when we consider that the other animal that Gingi is made up of is perhaps an alligator.

One of the main attributes of this is probably its teeth, such teeth that Gingi has been canonically confirmed to have from under his face. Such as within text and achievement art. Also another ability of the alligator is the fact that it has been proved to be able to process such things like rock and fresh dead animals, two things that Gingi has also been confirmed to eat without much struggle.

And one final thing to add on, we can also note Gingi’s tail from being from an alligator if it wasn't for how it goes from hairless to having hair on the tip along with it sometimes not being shown at all. That mainly being in model edits of the character so perhaps it's not worth noting.

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Analysing Phonegingi : glans that burst when stressed

This one is quite the new development to say the least, I'm going to be honest when I say that I almost completely missed this as it's only a thing within one of the endings of the Roger DLC. Due to this I am quite honestly clueless, but I was able to find one thing that links back to the platypus point of this theory. Obviously this is quite different but male platypuses do produce venom connected to hollow spurs on the pack of their legs, but other than that I am honestly stumped so I hope that somebody can help me w this.

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Analysing Phonegingi : putting together everything to come to a conclusion

Now with this information we can come to the conclusion that somehow a platypus, alligator and a human came together and created Phonegingi. For how they combined : If we look at the real world for just a moment there have been actual real life mutations that have led to rats growing features of humans. Although all of these examples are strictly manmade and have never occurred in nature, leading me to think Phonegingi didn't just happen. Although radiation could also be an option. While I plan on speaking about the human in particular that Gingi took over, I feel it would only be logical to now take a look at object heads to get a better understanding on how exactly Gingi is able to function.

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Figuring out object heads:

So now we start with the big one. Some may know that dogman has been very useful with helping us figure this out. Okay I am being sarcastic for the most part but this doesn't change the fact that he actually has given us quite a few hints on how this works.

One main thing we can reference is that within Randy’s route we know that object heads aren't fully wires, but rather are a mixture of organic and mechanical parts. And to quote the hound himself : ‘they have layers’. This could simply be a metaphor or an actual explanation but with this man we don't know. I personally think of this as maybe there is a shell that is around the remaining parts of the head that the object head is placed on top of, making object head transfers much easier.

Also he had said within the past that phony’s have an ‘adaptor’ of sorts, so that does help a lot despite humans not being born with them as seen here One more thing I would also like to add before we go in depth about the methods of being dialed ; it is very likely that the technological parts of these objects gain their power from the body, just to clear that up. Either way : I think we should go over all of the different kinds of objects' heads. That being ones given to normies, born object heads and animals n such who are simply born with them.

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Figuring out object heads: normies to objects

This part of my theory was by far the easiest but still wasn't quite that simple, obviously there aren't any real life examples of this happening so we are kinda making this one up along the way.

One of the main things to keep in mind is that when the dialup happened it happened practically overnight. That means that this progress had to be somewhat quick and considering how little flaws that come with having an object head that aren't exclusive to having an object head, there has to be a clear method to do this. So i propose a possible example for how to do this type of surgery:

The skin would be removed from the face, then the musicales before the bones. Making sure to keep the nerves, veins and brain within place. Then a small incision is made within the neck around these parts to not damage them, this being the base for where the adaptor would be placed on the head. But with this a small hole would be left in the neck to be used as a man-made mouth. (this was wrote b4 knowing its in the base of the head so forgive me) Within this process the olfactory nerve is also connected to this hole or slightly above it from out of the adaptor to retain smell. Moving onto the main head now, the back and front of the object is connected and wires from the phone are connected to certain parts of the brain so it has control with whatever object it may be without having to touch it. For the eyes, the photoreceptors are salvaged and turned into optical receptors with small holes in the head to remain eyesight. And finally, the inner ear is changed for a speaker with a microphone on the outside that picks up on a digital signal that transfers to the speaker inside then back to the brain as sound. With that done the case is closed up with whatever object it is being placed on top.

Now obviously this is just a very early draft of this part of the theory. I am aware there are a few characters that contradict this theory such as Abel, Stabby and Shooty or Craig so i may change this part of my theory at another point in time.

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Figuring out object heads: born object heads

This is also pretty easy to figure out as dogman has actually answered this question before, as claimed here the hound has stated that after the dialup fetuses are born with thinner heads to make the process of dialing easier. although this still raises a few questions.

One of the first ones is if after birth they’re given the similar type procedure as normies, as that is the only solution I can think of. obviously there is the question of how this works outside of hospitals but if i tried to figure that out this post would be too long so it’s probably going to be a very boring post in itself.

The second question is asking how the head is altered in that way. my proposal for how and why is possibly genetic mutations caused by chemicals that would have been taken by pregnant mothers back during the dialup. These could possibly serve as a generational mutation to prevent normie children from happening. not an ideal answer but I'm sure i can put a tad bit more research into this later.

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Figuring out object heads: animal object heads

While I do believe this is somewhat irrelevant for this part, I do think it’s worth mentioning and possibly solving. Unlike humans who aren’t born with them, animals and such are. and if you know almost anything about biology you’d know that animals don’t really have the means to have non organic heads without human intermittent so i think I've finally came to a solution to my final point

I believe there is a possibility that animals, bugs and whatnot have object heads created out of bone that simply mimic what they’re supposed to be. Due to the existence of horns and such we do know that this kind of thing can exist. but other than this there aren’t many alternatives

the only reason i bring this up is for my theory it is known that Gingi is an animal so perhaps it could fit into the category of this but due to the whole ‘i made it myself’ line from them it’s very quick to dismiss

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Figuring out how Gingi is made:

So now that we know or well have a somewhat understanding of how object heads function, that begs the question of how did Phonegingi have this information? How did such a primitive creature gain the knowledge of creating such a complicated head that mirrors the one of the former president that he had never seen before? This is where I propose the idea that maybe the human part of Phonegingi actually belonged to somebody before. That somebody being Milton r Wallace

Okay, I feel like I should explain myself a tad. I know it's quite an outlandish idea but it does explain quite a lot. After all ; it is quite a coincidence there is so much mystery around this character and no instance of him being mentioned in the game. I mean if there was a scene where he was mentioned and Gingi just said ‘oh yeah that’s me’ it would be pretty underwhelming. Jokes aside, Milton’s body being the human part of Gingi does explain one too many things such as the seemingly male anatomy, probably the scar on his chest, hallucinations along with connections to Callum, how he would know how to make their object head and even why he’s in the woods in the first place.

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Figuring out how Gingi is made: scars on the body

I'll start by adding on to my scars as I feel like the male anatomy speaks for itself. Not to mention I promised to return to this so I am now. So let's take a look at the scars that we can see.

Visibly on the chest and right shoulder we can see two wounds. The one upon the shoulder is a supposed bruise from a gorilla bite (although i got this off the wiki and don’t remember this line from the game so feel free to correct me) and the one upon the chest looking like a gaping wound that was stitched up in a familiar fashion to their head. Since we know that Phonegingi made their head itself it is a possibility that he stitched up this wound upon her chest in a similar way but we cant be sure as it’s never acknowledged.

Second point I would like to add is that on multiple occasions Gingi has been called ‘blue blooded’ but these wounds have a more yellowish brown hue to them rather than the blue that you’d assume. Why is this important? Well if you've ever had the displeasure of seeing dried blood you’d know it eventually changes to a brown colour overtime. Now it doesn't take a genius to know that since the man died around 60 years ago his blood would have been heavily deoxygenated. Perhaps being the reason why when reanimated as Phonegingi his blood was blue form the same lack of oxygen.

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Figuring out how Gingi is made: hallucinations and Callum connection

This part is a lot more simple to explain, while i am aware of these things only really occurring due to the cough stirrup consumed by it, i find it oddly strange that these things occur in the way that they do especially since presumably before meeting Mingus in bigfoot’s route, Gingi was never even aware of Callum's existence. Plus I don't feel like the hound would add these hallucinations just to write them off as nothing. Maybe somewhere in Gingi’s scrambled brain he had these memories from his previous life leak though.

Additionally, while Milton being Gingi helps the Callum connection ; it also explains why he would be able to identify Mingus as a cat. For us it would be pretty simple but we need to keep in mind that in Dialtown all organic beings have object heads so Phonegingi would have only ever really seen cats with these heads. While this could be written off as her seeing one within a textbook or something I find that incredibly hard to believe considering they’re confirmed to be illiterate. It could also just be a joke not meant to be looked into like this but it definitely could explain.

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Figuring out how Gingi is made: making the object head

This part of the theory is actually what led me to believing that Milton could be Gingi as he would be one of the only characters who had a physical resemblance to it as far as we know along with having access to that knowledge. Considering we see Gingi make their phone head similar to Callum, maybe he was shown the pattern by Cal when explaining the dialup close to the end of their friendship. Same thing could be said for the typewriter variant of them, probably mirroring Marla’s head since the typewriter head was based upon her along with there being hints of them two having a platonic relationship but since she is sadly as mysterious as him so we may never know.

Either way, since Phonegingi presumably came from the woods it wouldn't make sense for them to make an object head within there. Especially since Theoroar had it in captivity in their early years so it wouldn't make sense for Gingi to create an object head with other animals while caged. If i may even say, i personally struggle to wrap my head around why Gingi would decide to conform with their head considering she certainly does not conform by wearing clothes.

Oh alright.

Either way, I have two options why this would even be the case. The first option is that he was found by Mingus who forced this change upon them so they made the object head. But this doesn't make sense within the context of chapter 3 where Mingus hints at discovering Gingi for the first time. After all; Mingus would probably have just gotten rid of it earlier if that. So for the second option, which is much darker mind you, but perhaps their face could have been heavily mutilated by Milton’s early death along with the decades of rotting that he had to improvise by fixing it with a head made in the way that he had remembered from Callum. This also explains why it's a tad bit different from the norm too since Gingi’s brain would have been a tad bit screwed with this too. Either way, I'll let you decide what option works best with you.

Also a side note; i did actually consider Marla as a possible candidate for Gingi but there was one too many plot holes such as her dying of old age so her body would look a lot different, a lack of any comment by Mingus talking about Marla and her most likely getting a proper burial from somewhere that isn't the woods.

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Figuring out how Gingi is made: why he would be in the woods

Speaking of being in the woods, I have a small idea for why Milton’s body would wind up being there. As far as we know basically every single person who knew him wouldn't have been around, plus as of making this post he has no confirmed family so it's hard to say. Perhaps his body was simply thrown into the woods? I suppose it would be irregular to do that but considering who Milton was it would make sense that this act would be covered up and simply not addressed at all. Perhaps even respecting him enough to dig him a proper grave would attract unwanted attention along with the fact that there are just not enough people who would care for him enough.

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Putting this all together :

With that all being said. Let me summarize all the information that I've proposed so far. We have theorized that Phonegingi has the DNA of a platypus and alligator that has been combined with the body of the former vice president, having some form of lead poisoning from the lake and radiation that has combined these creatures together. There are two questions left now, the first one being just how did these creatures find their way into the woods to combine with the body, and the second and by far the most important one being just how did this creature come to fruition.

The first one is easy, some may know that platypuses and alligators aren't native to Wisconsin but we need to remember that these creatures could be found within a zoo. And would you look at that, in Dialtown we do have a zookeeper, the same zookeeper that found Phonegingi mind you. It is possible that Theoroar decided to dump these two within the woods for whatever reason and they somehow wound up next to the corpse and got mixed up. I understand this isn't a perfect explanation, but it is somewhat logical for now.

Now onto my second point, it isn't as clear but I feel like I've found a solution for how this creature came to life. It doesn't take a genius to know that Milton is dead, meaning even if these animals mutated them it still would leave her dead so it's hard to figure out but I still feel like I have a solution. If you remember I did state that Phonegingi came together as one could possibly be man made so perhaps this same person brought their freakish creation to life. And perhaps that person is none other than enc0unter but this post is getting too long.

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I apologize for leaving this theory on a cliff hanger but this post is getting long and i have a lot more to say about Gingi and enc0unter. As stated in the same poll from the beginning I will be making a whole different theory / analysis about that stuff. With that being said, please let me know your opinions on this theory and if you'd like me to make the enc0unter one or a part 2 when i have the time. so yeah thanks for going though the effort to read this whole thing!! it means a lot

#//if i get the time i will still make a video but i dont know #//espically since i plan on going on hiatus soon #dialtown #dialtown phone dating sim #dial town #dialtown theory #theory #phonegingi #gingi dialtown #dialtown gingi #milton r wallace #dialtown milton #milton dialtown #writing posting #yap posting #+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++#<- mr kitty put his head on the keyboard

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justjasper · 8 months ago

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i love your E rated/smut writing. do you have any tips for writing smut?

most of these are about reality/modern-based sex writing rather than fantasy stuff where all the bets can be off!

there is literally no god word to use for balls/testicles, it's fine

USE CHARACTER NAMES. no "younger/older" woman, "darker/paler" man, just use their names especially during a sex scene

do learn some basic anatomy, please look up where the prostate is, where the g-spot is

but fanfic sex doesn't need to be instructional, you are not teaching people how to have sex. it very much shows when you write like this

fanfic is also not consent 101. it's fine to just let your reader assume they're 100% into what they're doing, and i think "unnegotiated kink" should be reserved for scenarios where the kink is spur of the moment, not just "involves kink but no explicit discussion of it" (unless they're not meant to be, which one assumes would be made clear in tags or descriptions!!)

that said, writing about discussing consent can be really fun, doesn't mean you can never do it. you just have to vibe out whether it's adding to the fic or not

talking really helps break up sex scenes, so write at least one character who's chatty lol

plan out your sex scene so you don't get stuck with what's happening next. remember you can go back to it to flesh it out/work on the pacing. honestly most of my sex scenes start on the page as a list that goes: LICK LICK CIRCLE CHAT SUCK SUCK STROKE LICK SUCK GAG SUCK TALK BIG CUM

speaking of going back to pacing, literally invoking time can help make a sex scene seem longer without saying "they fucked for seven and a half minutes". "a long moment later" "by the time X, the sun had begun to rise/fall", "long into the night"

lube is preferable but optional, even for butt stuff. sex without lube doesn't mean it's painful or dangerous, especially for experienced butt stuff doers.

spit as lube is not a cardinal sin and is miles better than things that are actually dangerous (engine oil? things w sugar like honey? baby dont give your chars a yeast infection)

olive oil is fine but it's messy and it doesn't play w condoms, but fine if you're going historical

speaking of which, from my experience people in established relationships forego condoms way quick. and in general people forget to use them all the time. again, this isn't Safe Sex 101, it's fanfic.

but on the flip side, its sexy/funny when characters have lube and condoms to hand. there is no funnier environmental storytelling than there being a bottle of water based lube in the kitchen cupboard with the peanut butter.

simultanious orgasms are a pain to time and sure they're romantic but there's other fun climax dynamics. maybe one character feels duty/honour bound to always make sure their partner comes first

come/cum? it doesn't matter, just keep it consistant per fic

similar, be consistant with your body part names, even if you use a few. e.g. you use "cunt" in narration, but character A uses "pussy", keep that consistant.

you can still euphamise genitals without it sounding like you're afraid of them - sometimes six instances of "cock" in a row doesn't flow, that's when you should be utilising your "hardness" and "shaft" and "length"

the brain is a sex organ, and all the senses are engaged during sex. you can bulk out yor sex scenes and give great insight into the character experiences by describing what they're experiences with non-touch senses (or the lack of them, e.g. when blindfolds are in the mix)

even in pwp works, you're saying something about the characters who are fucking. you can give context and inferred complexity without plot. are they familiar with each other's bodies? is this new? are they confident, or nervous.

write for you! if you are a person who experiences sexual response to erotic fiction, then a good measure of your own work is if it makes you horny to write/re-read it. there's absolutely no shame about being aroused during the process. there's no harm in taking a wank break.

#writing

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wishingstarinajar · 8 months ago

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WISH HELLO!!

ive started drawing and making transformers characters and want to know how the hell do you draw them so good?!!!?!?

if you've got any tips and tricks for drawing silly robots id love to hear them thank you ;-;

Hullo~

When it comes to drawing canon characters, it's just a lot of references. A LOT of them xD The amount of IDW Megatron and Ravage refs I had for my small comic was staggering but very useful.

I also keep in mind that, while the bots are fairly humanoid in appearance and build, their anatomy is "broken". Usually, when you draw a fleshy humanoid character, be it a human or a furry, you have baselines and shapes that are generally the same for most characters, like where the shoulders and clavicle are. The proportions of the body parts are also pretty normal.

When it comes to bots (outside of the Transformers Animated series), those baselines and shapes are somewhat different, especially when the bot has an alt mode with various (clunky) parts like wheels. Shoulder joints are suddenly further away from what we are used to with humans. There is no clavicle. The shoulder and hip joints barely align. Chests can be absolutely massive while the head is tiny. Arms can be so long, their hands go past their knees.

So you have to throw some logic out of the window there to add all those boxy shapes or vehicle parts.

And heck, sometimes a bot design, or at least parts of it, doesn't make much sense either when you compare it to their alt mode, and that is okay! You have to take liberties sometimes. And never forget....

That said, I've drawn a lot of bots in the past. It was nearly two decades ago but they were my bread and butter, so to speak. I have some experience with them, so please don't think I worked a miracle with my latest round of TF art x'D They are still as tough as nails to draw (even more so to render, IMO!) but they don't need to be perfect. Heck, I am still adjusting Starflare's design and that's okay.

So take your time, find your preferred style and method by trying things out, and go with what looks good to yourself.

#q and a #wish talks #transformers #I like to use that image a lot when talking about drawing transformers xD but it rings true!

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chocopuchino · 1 year ago

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ARAN OJIRO —> "MY PRETTY ANGEL."

WARNINGS—> 18+ MDNI PLEASE!!

Timeskip!Bf!Aran X afab reader. Loudly-Insecure Fem!Reader. Fem!Reader is intended to be shorter than 186cm/6'1, and smaller in general size than Aran. No she/her pronouns.—> Dom!Aran, possesive!Aran?, sub!reader, praising, size kink, mirror sex, big!cock Aran, rough sex, dumb fucking? (slightly)bratty!stubborn reader, reader loses consciousness... Incorrect female anatomy, expressive reader, unprotected sex, squirting!! overstim?petnames petnames petnames. (lmk if I should include anything else!!)

a/n —> first little thing I'm writing >< English isn't my first language so I apologize in advance for any mistakes!! I swear i was so confident to write this.. it's pure shit I hate this sm ushjshsjs... M srry I swear, I don't know how to write the Kansai dialect accent in English :((

Inspired by a short Aran Imagine I read a long time ago, dunno where it is though, also by a Japanese hentai manga that I do not remember either. This is not proof read as well, so again, sorry for any parts that don't make sense or any orthographic/grammar mistakes !! Enjoyyyy :DD

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"Should I change? I'm not sure if I should wear this, it doesn't really look....good on me."

You uttered with a sigh, looking at yourself in the mirror of the entrance of your home, closing your lipstick, ready to go out.

You were wearing a gorgeous but simple, satin dress that hugged every curve of yours perfectly. Your hair was done nicely, the minimal makeup on your face looked stunning, but you felt... Insecure and worried about yourself in this state of yours. Would his teammates like you? Would they dislike you? Were you even looking presentable?

You were gonna attend a dinner party to introduce yourself to your boyfriend's teammates, the Tachibana Red Falcons. You've seen them in court and in person sometimes, and have always greeted them with a simple bow and greeting. At last, it was time to actually introduce yourself to your wonderful boyfriend's teammates.

Aran's head immediately looked over to his upper right to look at you, as he was picking out his footwear. With a sigh, he walked over to you, gently placing his calloused hands on your waist, watching your reflection on the mirror.

"Angel... don't say stuff like 'at. The dress looks beautiful on ya. Ya don't need to change it, you'll be fine, I promise."

Aran softly muttered into your ear, as he leant down and peppered the back of your neck with sweet pecks, his chest gently pressing against your back.

"No, Aran. I'm serious. What if your team doesn't like me? Is this dress too much, maybe? Actually, I don't suit this dress. Is my makeup too much? Ugh..."

You babbled and babbled out, as you looked at yourself in the mirror in front of you, with a scoff. Yes, you definitely felt his sweet pecks in the back of your neck, but you were too focused on how you looked, at the moment.

"Angel, im telling you. You look perfect, and the team will definitely love you. Just stop, wouldn'tcha ? Come on, lets get going now. We're gonna be late, pretty."

One of his hands swept up to lightly caress your jaw, as the other gave a slight squeeze on your waist. Even if he had the sweetest, gentlest smile and tone as he whispered, you could notice a slight frustrated groan from him. But, of course, you were too focused on yourself.

"I wont go like this, Aran. Just look at me. I should definitely change, i cant introduce myself like this. This colour doesn't even suit me, and i should've just let my hair down. Oh, the makeup is definitely too much as well."

You complained and complained, and next thing you know, your wet and puffy eyes were flooding with tears, your lipstick smudged, mascara going down your face, feet weren't...well couldn't touch the ground, your somewhat messy hair was down, whimpers, moans, mixed up words coming out of your mouth, as you looked at your reflection in front of the bathroom mirror, your kind, wonderful, gentleman of a husband, currently ramming himself into you with loud and hard thrusts, his tip kissing your cervix at every one.

"Who's ma' pretty angel, huh? who's the- ngh.... -the prettiest girl i know, 'hah? ugh- so fucking tight, baby--"

Aran caught you on that, and as he basically fucked you dumb, his balls slapping against your ass at a relentless pace. He'd softly whisper lovingly into your ear, with low groans and huffs.

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Your back pressed against his broad and hard chest, his hands under your knees picking you up, your dress scrunched up, half-ly clothed body reflecting on the mirror. You tried, tried so hard, to not look at your poor cunt getting slammed by his fucking cock, but the way your walls sucked him in, taking him in so well despite his big size, just made you even more aroused as he ravaged you on: not like you'd ever admit that.

"Such a pretty angel, aren't ya? fuck... C-come on, just look at yourself, angel....agh. Look at how yer 'pretty little- 'cunt takes me in so well, huh?"

With teary eyes, your gaze went down onto your reflection, getting mercissely fucked, a small budge poking in and out of your lower abdomen each thrust, looking at the wonderful sight of your pretty little cunt getting destroyed. I mean, how could he not? When your wet, velvety, soft walls suck him in so well, just how can he not fuck your dumb little brain up? Why shouldn't he fuck your dumb little brain out so it knows you're the prettiest girl? He just doesn't understand. Don't you know you're perfect? The way you're so small, him being able to pick you up by taking you up from under your knees? Just makes his cock throb even more.

At this point, you're not quite sure how you're keeping up, but you're still some how conscious. Usually, Aran's the biggest sweetheart during sex, soft, vanilla, loving sex with him only. But now? You're not even sure if he's fucking you to shut you up, to make sure you know you're the prettiest, or simply just for his pleasure.

A few more thrusts in and you feel a coil tightening inside your stomach, as well as his cock starting to throb inside you. With endlesses babbles and moans of "pleases, too big, i cant, slower" and such, you, well the volleyball player notices you both need to release.

"pretty angel, i-im gonna 'cum...i-inside--'kay? come on, yer doin' amazin'..... cum for me, angel.. at 'ta same time, mhm?"

Squirt, squirt, squirt.

Oh no, now did you just squirt? Cum, actually? Without even warning him? When he told-asked you to cum with him? Ah, that won't do.

As you reached down your high, his throbbing cock still inside you while you orgasm, your walls clenching tightly onto him, you moaned loudly, incoherent babbles coming out of your mouth. Your legs were sore, trembling, your head resting on his shoulder, one of your arms on top of your face as you tried to muffle in your sounds.

"mmh! A-aran- c-cant~! P-please.. a-agh~ mmhf~!!"

Small tears rolling down your cheeks, oh how fucked up your face looked at moment. His thrusts grew slower and deeper, his girthy, long, veiny cock hitting all your g-spots easily, making you clench even harder. You might just pass out at the moment, as you weren't even able to cum properly because of this cock of his, blocking your orgasm and possibly overstimulating you. Low and deep grunts out of him, his sweaty scent invading your sense of smell, making you unable to think about anything else but him and his cock.

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From slow and deep thrusts, to sloppy, sticky and fast thrusts, reaching out for his high. Your eyes were finally able to meet his in the mirror, being able to make the slightest eye contact with him..but you only saw an innocent grin-

Plop.

A really loud yelp, shriek- a moan leaves out of your mouth. Did he- did he just let go of you? Where- where's his hands? H-huh? No, he didn't let go of you, your feet aren't touching the ground. Kinda, your tiptoes are- But you aren't falling either. Then?

Oh.

His cock spurting and pumping you deep inside, he simply let go of his tight grip under your knees, making you hang by his body, just by his cock.

Oh, kinda crazy.

Aran thinks with a soft chuckle, looked at your fucked state in the mirror, letting it react how it needs to: tongue lolled out, spit dripping down your jaw, eyes rolling to the back of your head, body fully trembling, a big bulge poking out of your abdomen, heavy panting coming out of you, probably electric shocks going through your body as his cock basically parts you apart, white liquid oozing out of your pussy within a few seconds.

He knows he's deep. real deep. Maybe a bit too much? After all, he isn't the one feelin' that cock inside him, is he? But yer' not talking. Oh, maybe a bit too much after all.

You don't even- What's happening? he's.. he's really deep. A bit too much. Is his cock going past your cervix, m-maybe? You can absolutely feel his cock spurting inside you, coating your pretty walls white. You're absolutely gone of your mind, and, the electrical shockwaves going through your body probably made you lose unconsciousness.

With an innocent smile and hum, like he didn't just fuck the hell out of someone, he walks over to your bedroom, your body still clinging onto his cock, his hands on your waist now, gently placing you down onto the soft mattress, pulling out, gaining a few twitches from your legs. He tenderly kisses your forehead, brushing your hair out of the way.

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"So, how did'cha look when ya were all dolled up before, love?"

Aran asks with a gentle smile and tone, as looks at you, walking over to you with a warm cup of tea, sitting on the side of the bed, just beside your feet.

You look at him walking over to you, feeling really sore. You weren't wearing the dress any more, instead, a t-shirt of his and some black cotton shorts of yours. Your face felt clean as well, guessing that he probably cleaned you up as you slept through. You take the cup of tea he reached out to you, sipping on it with a hum.

"uhm... I personally didn't look g-"

Just as you were going to continue, you saw a somewhat scary glint in his eyes; getting a few flashbacks from earlier, you quickly shook your head, sipping on your drink again.

"I looked pretty. Really pretty. Perfect even."

With a nod and hum, he ruffled through your hair, caressing your cheek tenderly.

"Of course ya did, My pretty angel."

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It was safe to say you both did not go to the party that night. As you rescheduled it, making it an appropriate time for both of your packed schedules, you couldn't help but wonder..

"Would he fuck me like this, again, if I said my insecurities out loud next time?"

#aran ojiro #firtspost #english isnt my first language #hq smut #hq x y/n #hq x reader #fem reader #hq timeskip #hq smut drabble #hq aran #hq fanfic #hq smut fic #i do not know how to feel about this honestly #i guess its okay #its decent actually #wait i actually love this #okay take care please #this has been sitting in my drafts #for too long

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fantasyfantasygames · 8 months ago

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MiDDDle Space

MiDDDle Space, Stacked Studios, 2002

@identityuniverse sent me a copy of this and I would like to return it please.

The map of Middle-Earth is, as many fantasy maps are, roughly page-sized. It fades out near the edges of its flat world. It is extremely rare for someone working with Middle-Earth to fill in the least bit of that blank space. This game does it in a very unusual manner: it fills that blank space with outer space. It's a little bit Spelljammer, but it's more Starfinder. Elves and Ewarves and even the occasional Ent colony in space, with big ol' spaceships.

"But why the weird spelling?" you may be asking. Well, that's because it's a cross of Tolkien and extremely horny 90's cult TV show Lexx. You know. DDD like a bra size.

Which also explains the name of the game studio.

The setting doesn't bother explaining how anyone got into space or talking about that obviously-Middle-Earth-shaped postage stamp in the corner. It's all about "planet of the Warriors of Men" and "planet of the Dwarven smiths" and "ice planet of the Elven sex clothiers". I like the "Forest Asteroid of the Ents" but that might be more because I love space-forest stuff and Ents. NPCs are bog-standard stock characters who also want to bone.

The rules look kind of like they started off as Rolemaster (MERP, really) hack before shifting over to d20. It uses some custom classes to cover things like the Animist, Mentalist, Mystic, etc. It has plenty of critical hit/fail tables. It ports in some MERP skills directly, overwriting some d20 skills with them. There are places that refer to MERP mechanics like Maneuver rolls, which were not ported in. It's mostly playable if you're willing to do a fair amount of house-ruling.

You have a choice of five ships, with build-your-own ships in a supplement that's "coming soon" (it is not). One of the ships is very Lexx-looking, with the insectoid feel and the phallic look. It's very powerful and extremely unmaneuverable. You can also get a Spelljammer-like galleon with sails and everything, one that looks like an Elven Armada vessel, a vaguely Millennium-Falcon-like ship, or you can each get your own small ship to flit around in. I kinda like that last option. There is never any crew; the ship flies fine with just however many PCs you have. Regardless of which ship you pick, you're going to have a very rock-paper-scissors setup against other vessels and utter domination against anything ground-based.

The art is halfway between Elfquest and Dr. Voluptua. It's all greyscale. I do kinda like that you can see the artist improve in their anatomy and backgrounds over the course of the few years it took to create the game. It does not have a fun-and-sexy sense of humor, and the game plays things straight in multiple senses.

Honestly the thing that makes me unhappy about this game is that it's lazy. If you want to make a horny elfgame (or a horny-elf game), you do you. There are plenty of them out there, another one is fine. But don't make it a knockoff of two or three different IPs, with mechanics from two more, and nothing in it that really provides commentary on any of the above. Do something different or do satire, don't just push out content.

MiDDDle Space was swamped in the d20 tsunami. There were only about 200 copies made in the first place, so it's a bit of a collector's item in some corners.

#ttrpg #imaginary #indie ttrpg #rpg #review #some people get surprised when they find out there are clothes that use the rest of the alphabet

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disclosed-spire · 1 year ago

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"I spent quite a while writing this, so if you'd want to see more of other characters, be sure to let me know!"

I have been gathering up the courage to send this ask, so I am just gonna guess you want the asks to be sent here.

Can you please tell us about your Gourmand headcanons?

Yeah Ofc! I love Gourmand as they're just absolutely great, especially since my pal gourmy is the first campaign of downpour when it was released. I enjoyed their campaign a lot, and had a blast towards the end of their campaign. Seriously, I wish I could get a hug from them because I KNOW they give amazing hugs!

Time for everyone's favorite family oriented orange slugcat! And as everyone knows, this is my own hcs about them and, and definitely some Gourmand spoilers. Please don't be offended at any of this, as these are my own personal beliefs!

If anybody wants to see more of my opinions on the characters, be sure to ask me! I'm welcome to answering questions about my thoughts and HC's, as well as discussing and hearing others POV's!

ANYWAYS! GOURMAND SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT!

Design Choices

My design for Gourmand isn't very flashy or anything, but to be honest, I feel it suits them and their personality! It's very close to the original, but has my own little flair and sparkle to it to make our pal Gourmand stand out a bit!

I decided to give them just oranges for a pallet, with their nose being the darkest, which is a dark orange. I usually shift blacks and such for cannon designs to another color of the design but a lot darker to keep the colors overall the same, but just a little easier to look at (in most cases).

I made the tips of Gourmand's limbs, including their tail, dewlap, and ears, a darker orange as I took a bit of inspiration from cat breeds in real life, with my own cat being the main inspiration. This makes Gourmand stand out a bit more, and makes it easier for me to make art of them, as their limbs mark where my own wacky anatomy should be.

Personality

My version of Gourmand has a tough exterior as they need to keep a strong stance towards the hardships of the world around them. Despite this, Gourmand also shows a lot of love, compassion, and sympathy for the world around them at the right moments of course! Gourmand doesn't view the world as only black and white, instead, more of everything being in a morally grey area. Gourmand believes there's a reason for everything, and if possible, they try to go to the more pacifist side of things to keep peace.

Speaking of this, the reason Gourmand is like this is because they believe this deep in their heart, but also because they want to provide their colony with a good example. Gourmand wants to show their colony that while the world is extremely dangerous and that they need to take caution, but also that they can also show compassion even in the scariest of situations.

Other than setting an example, Gourmand loves telling tales of adventures, history, and places they've been, as it always makes others happy, and especially gets the slugpups super excited. Sometimes these stories are made up, but Gormand always lets the listeners know beforehand to clear any misconceptions.

Gourmand is a great parent to all, and generally kind to everyone unless their friends, family, slugpup, or colony is in trouble. While Gourmand is kind, they are a force not to be reckoned with, as they are strong both in personality, and physical strength, and those they care about fuel their determination to continue on.

Powers

Gourmand's powers are a bit of a weird one to me! Being able to create something from your stomach isn't something I've seen before, nor do I have a naturally logical way to explain how this would work (Enot was different as they didn't need to have logic applied to them bc cryptid slugcat), but I'll try my best to explain how this works in a rain world logic sense (hopefully). It's a bit complicated, but here's my best shot!

The best way I could possibly explain slugcat powers is that their body developed some kind of mutation, something with radiation (highly unlikely), or something with being a descendant of a purposed organism/modified slugcat. This is where I believe slugcats get their powers from, as this is the best explanation I have for such unnatural abilities. In Gourmand's case, this happened with their stomach!

My best logic to how Gourmand's stomach creation works is that Gourmand needed to have swallowed the created item in their life at any moment for them to make it in their stomach again. Since Gourmand takes a food pip when they create an item in their stomach, this makes me believe that their body harvests the nutrients to make it, using the information of the dna/material/whatever made the item to re-create it in Gourmand's stomach to pull it out. This explains the randomized effect of what's pulled out of Gourmand's stomach.

As for the crafting mechanic, I wouldn't say that's a power. Gourmand could use their power to help combine items, but for the most part, I feel that it comes from a chemistry standpoint. It's still very useful and important! To me though, I don't think it's a power, even from a rain world logic POV.

Headcannons and Slugcat Colonies

This category is a bit different from the Enot post, and that's because I have my own thoughts about the cannon slugcats!

I personally like to think there's a big distance between Gourmand and Survivor/Monk's timeline placement as this makes the most sense in my head for what I'm gonna say, and it gives Gourmand the "Old and cool legendary ancestor" vibes!

Gourmand in my HC was the one that found the slugcat tree, and started a home there for the whole colony! If it weren't for Gourmand, then Monk and Survivor's campaigns wouldn't have happened. I want to give Gourmand that bc it makes them just the more special in my eyes!

The reason I believe this is because it doesn't make a whole lot of sense for Gourmand to already be there and then start searching for food, and then to get up and leave once food is found. If there's more food in an area, animals tend to stick around, and the slugcats aren't an exception from this. I believe that Gourmand searching was making sure that the area has plenty food, as the colony recently moved and was looking for another temporary home. Another thing to support this is the wall drawings, as I feel the colony would talk about Gourmand through generations.

Another one of my HC's is that Gourmand is the leader of the specific slugcat colony. A lot of people probably think this already, but I'd at least like to give my own take with my own spin on how a Slugcat colony works.

Gourmand is a leader in my eyes because of how useful they are to the colony, and how strong they are. Animals usually prove dominance in size and strength, which Gourmand definitely has (My Gourmand is a big lovable fella)! But since this is also fiction, I added more to this. Slugcats usually choose their leaders based on a few qualities, which are:

Size: Gourmand is big yes, which gives them the upper hand at intimidating possible threats! Slugcats view Gourmand as very important due to this factor, as any predators that would try to harm a slugpup would have to face the intimidation of an angry Gourmand. This is why Gourmand fits here!

Strength: Gourmand DEFINITELY has some big strength to them, bro does 3 damage when not tired! This is viable to a slugcat colony as this shows that they can rely on their leader in even the most difficult of situations. That, and also they are capable of defending the young! Slugcats view this as one of the most important features in a leader, so this is why Gourmand is super important in this category.

Intelligence and Powers: Gourmand definitely checks out here! Their powers and their intelligence combine together, making them VERY useful to the colony. Gourmand can use their powers to help get their colony out of a tight bind, to entertain, and to direct. Slugcats can always count on Gourmand if stuck, which is why Gourmand fits!

Compassion: My Gourmand DEFINITELY fits here! Gourmand is super caring and great with kids, kind to everyone that they can be, uses their powers to help others, uses their intelligence to lead, and does everything in their ability to make sure their colony is safe. Why Gourmand left to look for food is because they wanted to make sure their colony would live and thrive. They'd do anything for their colony, and care for them dearly! This is probably the most important rule of a leader to them, as slugcats are usually social creatures, and rely on companionship to thrive.

If a slugcat leader doesn't fit most of these, and/or possibly abuses their leadership, the colony will choose another leader, and in VERY extreme cases, the leader will be thrown out of the colony (Totally doesn't have something like this with another character).

Relationships

Iterators

Gourmand is overall friendly towards all of the iterators, as Gourmand gets the feeling that the world has been unkind to them, given their situation. Gourmand knows that being stuck inside a box isn't the best, especially if they cannot leave, and can only view the world from small holograms. Gourmand feels bad about their situation, so they come to visit the iterators to help keep them company, and to tell the iterators stories they'd be interested in.

Gourmand does have a lot of respect for them, as they know that the iterators have a lot of power, but have to be careful with their given situation. Gourmand views the iterators as fairly important, and that alone makes one of the reasons Gourmand respect them.

Slugcat Family + Monk and Survivor

Gourmand is their ancestor, so Gourmand is related to them. Despite this, Gourmand has a HUGE amount of respect for the slugcat family. This is because even though they had two kids they lost, they decided to stay strong, and to dive in after their family, which Gourmand finds to be very admirable. Gourmand would do anything to make sure they're safe.

For Monk and Survivor, Gourmand has a huge amount of respect for them both! Gourmand finds it admirable that they stayed strong in a world so dangerous, able to take caution, and able to use the tricks they've passed on through the colony. Despite this, Gourmand also feels sadness for them as they know it was an extremely rough situation on slugcats so young. They'd do anything to make sure that Monk and Survivor don't get separated from their family again.

Nightcat and Inv/Enot

Gourmand is friendly towards them both! Although Gourmand tends to dislike Enot's flirting, they still think of them both as friends. Gourmand does find them a bit mysterious as they both seemed to appear out of nowhere, and with the strangest first interactions as well. As far as Gourmand knows, Enot and Nightcat don't know their parents, and don't have any family nearby. Regardless of this, Gourmand took them both into their colony, and loves talking to them.

Hunter and Artificer

Gourmand is best friends with Artificer and Hunter, and values hunting with them! The three are nearly inseparable, and value each other's company, as well as talking about the colony. Slowly overtime though, Gourmand began to have a crush on the two, and seeing the two in a relationship was nice, but they wanted to confess their feelings to both of them. Eventually Gourmand does, and the three end up in a poly relationship! They're quite happy together :D

Regardless of this, Gourmand has respect for Hunter as they went to save Moon despite them being sickly. Gourmand has since then been finding ways to help Hunter, and with Sig's help, they're lessening the effects that the rot had on Hunters body. Through all this, Gourmand sees Hunter as a fearless and stoic warrior, and loves how kind they can be despite this.

Artificer is a bit of a different story, as Arti had some bad experiences with the colony, and Gourmand doesn't agree with Artificers genocidal ways. Gourmand was a bit on edge of first meeting them, but it grew to fondness as Gourmand realized that Arti is trying to correct their wrongs, and make up for what they've done in the past, with one of those being to apologize to their colony. Upon finding out about Arti's situation, they've grown closer to Artificer, and letting Arti interact with the colony as a way to help heal from the past. Gourmand is a firm believer that Artificer can heal, and they choose to stick by Arti every step of the way.

Spearmaster, Rivulet, and Saint

Gourmand isn't super close to Spearmaster, Rivulet, or Saint, but enjoys their company! Gourmand knows they mean no harm intentionally, but also respects Rivulet and Spearmaster quite a bit for helping the iterators. Saint is a bit more distant, and from what Gourmand knows, Saint has a bit of a complicated past. Gourmand isn't going to push it, but they'll always be there if Saint needs someone to talk to. Gourmand is always welcome to them joining their colony, and is on quite good terms with the three.

#rain world #rain world downpour #rw gourmand #rw gourmand spoilers #gourmand #gourmand spoilers #rw #rw downpour spoilers #downpour spoilers #I have not watched any dev logs so if anything contradicts this plz lemme know!#long post #dust hc #dust slugcats #my art #rw shipping #shipping #rw heartwarm

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thescrumblingmidwife · 1 year ago

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dysphoria makes me really afraid to even look at my vagina. what can i do to ease the fear?

I think I should start by saying that everyone experiences their body uniquely. This can mean body dysphoria, euphoria, cycling between the two, and a full range in between. There is no one-size-fits-all body, no one-size-fits-all experience of that body, and so there's no one-size-fits-all way to deal with what you're experiencing.

I appreciate that you are looking for ways to ease or conquer your fear of your body, rather than avoiding it. I think that's a very healthy perspective to take.

Here are some things that I think could help:

Factual Information. Sunlight is the best disinfectant, and the unknown is often the scariest thing. Understanding the anatomy and physiology and having a scientific curiosity can help demystify and offer a clinical perspective. I think understanding the analogous structures to a penis actually really helps - it's all basically the same tissue and structures! It doesn't hold some special power - it's a set of tissues and organs like your lungs or ear canal or knee.

Gradual exposure. The way phobias are dealt with is to take a slow and gradual approach to exposing yourself to the stressful stimulus. In this case, instead of just grabbing a mirror and taking a look, see if you can work your way up via touching, or looking at other vulvas, etc. In the meantime, try using dim lighting.

Disrupt negative thoughts. If you find yourself expressing disgust/fear etc. at your body, acknowledge that you're having negative thoughts, and then try to offer a counter mantra that helps ground you. (What this might be will vary wildly from person to person, so I don't want to suggest anything lest I say something that is triggering for anyone reading this.)

Practice calming your body. Learning how to identify when you are tense, and to control your breathing, refocus your senses, relax your muscles, etc. are all useful skills that can help in a number of stressful situations.

If you can get in with a counselor who specializes in transgender or body dysphoria issues, I'd recommend it. If you are interested in exploring your gender identity/transitioning, also look into gender clinics.

I should also clarify that I myself am not trans, or a trained counselor or psychologist. I identify as genderfluid, in a way that does sometimes result in me having genital dysphoria. That said, I am never afraid of it. I just sometimes wish it were . . . different, or not there. So please take what I say with a grain of salt, and if any other trans folx or people who experience fearful genital dysphoria want to pipe in with suggestions, please do!

#gender dysphoria #tw dysphoria #genital dysphoria

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haircoveredwriter · 1 year ago

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Episode 1x04 thoughts

This episode wasn't one of my favorites, not horrible, a decent episode in itself but it felt as though it fell prey to a few of the issues similar ones in s11 of TWD did. I'll get in to those later but first we'll put the usual page break for those who don't want any spoilers.

First the aspects I did enjoy:

After taking a swim in walker-infested waters post his ceiling crash like a drunk Mary Poppins (you're welcome for the reference lol), Daryl strolls through Paris trying to get his bearings and comes to see an older couple inside a house, having tea (perhaps). The woman caresses the side of the man's face across the table which causes Daryl to pause, appearing to be lost in reflection before looking down briefly lost in a memory, only moving on once the nearness of walkers is apparent. Now who is the only person/woman who Daryl has ever stroked the face of/had his face stroked by?? I'll give you 3 guesses but anyone with a brain doesn't need that many and in case you've been living under a rock, please refer to my previous precious gifs post.

Later we get to see Daryl-of-old while he's beating a prisoner he and Isabelle took in hopes of finding Laurent. Having him go back to his early TWD season story-telling ways was lovely while also mixing it with the depraved Dixon he learnt to be from his upbringing meshed very well. (Basically Daryl wanted to create his own R-rated version of "Babe"). He must have read some anatomy books over the years to know where to cause the most damage without hitting vital organs.

Fallou's group using Molotov cocktails during their assault on Quinn's place is something I've been waiting for someone to do in the ZA! Like, seriously! Who wouldn't be using mini firebombs at this point when supplies are low and it keeps you at a distance from your opponent? It's just good sense imo.

Norman and the show itself did a very good job again pointing out that there is nothing going on shippy-wise between Daryl and Isabelle. (I know many a worried about it but there was nothing there from my standpoint) Daryl looked honestly uncomfortable when Isabelle hugged him, returning it lightly after a beat or two but happy to break away to continue looking at anything else afterwards. We also got Isabelle's own words that she has no romantic feelings for Daryl but simply concern for his wellbeing. When you watch the scene, they have Sylvie asking (a young girl who only now has her first ever crush but knows nothing of love) who is not equipped enough in life to be able to discern anything different.

Daryl's expression looking at the mini Statue of Liberty made me smile as well. Knowing he's getting closer to getting home, no matter what other tasks people throw at him, and getting back to his person would make anyone happy.

Overall the episode sets up the plot for the remaining 2 installments, getting us where we need to be for certain other aspects to take place. (Gonna let that be for the moment until the next ones drop 😉)

What I didn't like:

The pacing seemed quite slow and the story arc pretty much went in a circle, finally reaching an end point which we realistically could have gotten in 10 mins of another ep. Several points of the episode felt contrived just to fill up space before they could move on to a main bullet point in the story. (This was my main issue with a fair number of s11 TWD eps).

Isabelle's lack of any fighting skill is really getting on my nerves. How has she survived this long? The answer is probably by making things up and having others protect her/do her dirty work and other not so nice things so I'll relent. I haven't seen worse stabby abilities since early on in TWD ... again, yes I am not gonna say anything if I can't say anything nice.

Why'd they do pigeon man like that?!😒

Genet is equally as concerned about finding a man who blew a hole in her years-long-prepped boat as she is a kid who gives people hope? Mmmkay.

Regardless of it all I am excited for next week. It's gonna be great. Trust me.

#twd #twd: daryl dixon #daryl dixion #twd spoilers #caryl #caryl is coming #carol loves daryl #daryl loves carol

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Why I firmly believe sapiosexuality, sapioromantism, demisexuality, demiromantism, and other forms of greyromantic and greysexual identities are not only valid, but deserve the same respect as any other queer identities.

[Above: Jaskier (from Netflix's "The Witcher"), whose actor, Joey Batey, described as sharing a sapioromantic and sapiosexual connection with Radovid in Season 3.]

Recently, I've seen texts and videos arguing that demiromantism, demisexuality, sapioromantism, sapiosexuality, etc. are not "real" queer identities, and do not deserve to be represented as such.

In the case of sapioromantism/sapiosexuality, some of those arguments go even further; by claiming that the idea that one could be romantically/sexually attracted towards intelligence would be highly problematic.

So, I thought I would take the time to compare the main arguments I found that are regularly given to invalidate sapiosexuality to the way we treat other sexualities, and address the aspects of those arguments that make absolutely no sense to me, and often sadly reflect clear bias within the queer community.

For example:

1. "It's just a preference."

So is preferring men, women, or any other gender identities when it comes to choosing a sexual partner.

Just because some human beings really are adverse to having sex with certain gender identities, or are specifically driven to "find themselves a man" (for example), doesn't mean that all human beings develop any instinctive preference when it comes to the gender of their sexual partners. Some really are rather apathetic to it.

And, while genitalia does play a role in sexual intercourse, the sight of genitalia, or the thought of interacting with that part of a partner's anatomy, does not automatically trigger a sense of sexual arousal in everyone.

If you personally find seeing, touching, or kissing penises and vaginas sexually arousing or stimulating, there's absolutely nothing shameful about that, and please continue to enjoy it to your heart's content! Lots of people sexually feel that way, it is very healthy (well, as long as you take preventive measures to avoid spreading sexually transmitted infections, obviously, and consent is asked and given all around), so go for it with pride, alright?

But please also do acknowledge that, for some of us, those are but weird-looking body parts (like some funny sea cucumber or oyster, IMHO) that serve a very specific sensory purpose. i.e. they are a means of receiving pleasurable tactile sensations and offering them to a partner, but otherwise are not particularly appealing to have to deal with.

Sexually, as far as some of us are concerned, that's pretty much all vaginas and penises have to offer.

Actually, when you have ADHD with extremely high levels of creativity and a tendency to give personalities to inanimate objects, sometimes dealing with genitalia can make you completely lose sexual arousal and inspire you to get really silly in bed, because those are really funny looking and personable body parts, and it's so tempting to start making them talk like puppets!

And it just so happens that I could care less about which "silly puppet" I'm "playing with" when I'm having sex! I've got no preference!

One's all gooey, floppy and pulsating; while the other gets real tense, expands and eventually shoots white stuff. So yeah, they obviously look and feel different. But otherwise? I don't even see why it should matter, or why I'd be supposed to want to pick one particular "puppet" over the other!

I don't personally find them sexually arousing to touch, taste, or look at! They are but a means to an end.

So yeah, we all have our personal preferences, and specific things that we instinctively feel sexually attracted to in another person when it comes to sex.

But preferring certain genders, or even one type of genitalia over another, is not how my own sexuality works.

Perhaps it makes sense to you, and this is a good thing! You can and should have preferences... of any kind, really!

But I just don't personally get it.

To me, hearing someone say "I'm only attracted to men, not women" is exactly the same as someone telling me "I'm only attracted to blondes, not brunettes".

Both are 100% valid preferences, and I respect you for having them. It's cool! You can be exclusively into blondes and/or be exclusively into men if you'd like!

I'm exclusively into geeks, I get it! Some preferences matter so much that you can't perceive another human being as sexually desirable without them.

But don't try to imply everyone should feel anything about the gender of their sexual partner(s), and/or that we should give it more importance than any other trait a person has when it comes to defining our sexuality.

Sexuality is an extremely instinctive and preferential phenomenon, where what "turns one on" can wildly vary from person to person.

Some are exclusionary preferences that are apparently deeply rooted in one's biology (gender preferences seem to often fall in that category for most people), while others are likely to be acquired through socialization, and perhaps even conditioning.

And look, I'm fully willing to consider that the lack of sexual response towards another human being's genitalia, and/or the gender of a partner, might be tied to my having a neurodivergent mind, and/or having skipped some early neurodevelopmental stages.

Recognizing that one's gender preferences is likely rooted deep within their biology - that it's a preference they were likely born with - and that they don't have the option of being sexually attracted to certain genders, does not negate the fact that some of us simply aren't wired the same way.

Who is to say that my utter lack of sexual response towards gender is not simply rooted deep into my own biology, too?

Perhaps some of us are born with the ability to experience homosexual desires, others with the ability to experience heterosexual desires, others with the ability to experience both heterosexual and homosexual desires, others with the ability to find another human sexually desirable despite the absence any heterosexual or homosexual desires, and some people are simply unable to find another human sexually desirable.

Still, the point is that, regardless of whether a sexual preference we have is innate or acquired (the good ol' "nature v.s. nurture" debate); the level of personal control one has over those instinctive preferences - i.e. that inner sexual drive that orients us towards those we perceive as sexually desirable - is likely to be fairly limited.

We can find ourselves being sexually turned on by what we perceive as expressions of gender, intellect, emotional sensitivity, strength, vulnerability, dancing skills, musicality, certain specific physical features, and so forth in another person.

Sometimes, it seems that sexual attraction actually requires very specific combinations involving many different preferences to stronger and lesser degrees.

So, as long as it doesn't make that person feel miserable to be "wired" a certain way, I don't see why it should matter that one would be very queer in their own preferences, and wish to proudly express it.

Being apathetic towards the perceived gender, and/or the gender expression of a sexual partner, has only ever made me feel miserable when people start insisting that it's a preference that everyone has.

Or whenever they are trying to confound the issue, by perversely attempting to imply that my instinctive lack of sexual response towards the gender identity of a partner means that I don't value nor respect their gender identity socially.

Respecting that one identifies as a man, seeing them as a man, acknowledging that they are a man, and insisting that society recognises them as such (for example, by allowing them to use bathrooms that align with their gender), is one thing.

But I don't see why my inability to find anything sexually appealing in the way they express their gender, and/or in the way I perceive people's masculinity in general, would say anything about my acceptance of who they are as a person.

If you want to use those labels to objectively categorize human sexual behavior, then I consider it to be another subject entirely!

If you want to ask me "Do you have the capacity to engage in sexual intercourse with members of your own gender and of genders that are different than your own?"

Well sure! Absolutely!

I can have sex with people that identify as men, women, and non-binary. I can display bisexual behavior.

This is what can be objectively observed from the outside, without the observer having any insight, whatsoever, into what motivates my behavior, or causes it to occur.

But if it's about our sexual identity - i.e. what orients that sexual behavior (i.e. what causes it to happen) - and who we are attracted to, for some of us, gender genuinely plays no role in that sense of sexual attraction.

But the way we emotionally, intellectually, physically, spiritually, etc. connect with another human being, regardless of gender perception or identity, might sexually arouse us.

And I feel like this is what some sexual orientations - like demisexuality and sapiosexuality, for example - are essentially really trying to tell us, and allow us to put the emphasis on.

They simply show a need for us to clearly express who we are as individuals, what "pleases us", drives us to seek sexual contact with another person, and what causes - or prevents - that sexual behavior from happening.

So, we can find other people that experience their sexuality in a way that feels similar to ours, we can feel understood by them, and we can share a sense of community with them.

At least, that's how I understand it, and that's what I personally mean when I use labels to describe my own sexual identity.

If we described sexual orientation clinically, in a way that had nothing to do with how we experience our sexuality, and was all about what could be observed from the outside, i.e. :

- Heterosexuality: subject is known to only sexually engage with people of a gender identity different than their own.

- Homosexuality: subject is known to only sexually engage with people of the same gender identity as themselves.

- Bisexuality: subject is know to sexually engage with people of the same gender identity and of a gender identity different than their own.

- Asexuality: subject isn't known to sexually engage with people of any gender identity.

Then I'd be 100% fine with people saying that I behave bisexually.

Because it is true. I do have the ability to sexually engage with people of any gender regardless of my reasons for being comfortable with having sex with them.

But otherwise, I'm a human being, not a human doing.

What I do is not who I am.

And my personal opinion is that using our sexual behavior to define our sexual orientation would only benefit other people, not ourselves.

It would be a way of letting people know if their gender is sexually compatible with ours, nothing else.

Those definitions absolutely don't help me better understand who I am, what I desire, how I desire it, what my sexual needs and interpersonal boundaries are with others, and seek out experiences that allow me to get in touch with my own sexuality.

They miss all the nuances, richness, and uniqueness of the human sexual experience.

And, in truth? If a woman tells you that she is straight, it only means: "that woman won't be sexually turned off by you being a man".

That's all. In light of all those other personal instinctive preferences that woman might have, it really isn't all such a useful information for you to have about her.

It doesn't tell you if she might be sexually turned on by you being smaller than she is, by you having brown eyes, by you having a baritone voice, by you having certain personality traits, etc.

And, quite frankly, I see this whole "it's perfectly acceptable to say you're not sexually interested in someone because they aren't of the right gender, but wrong to say you're not sexually interested in someone because of them displaying heavy ADHD traits (before you're ask, I have intense ADHD traits that keep showing all the time! Think Jake Peralta!)" as utter and complete nonsense!

It's like we keep sending out the message:

"Only gender preferences are real, universal, and worthy of being considered a sexual orientation!

All other preferences are but minor forms of fetishism that can be easily overcome. They are not valid reasons to fail to find another human being sexually desirable!"

Am I the only one that sees that fixed, rigid, gender-oriented system as a means of policing people's (women's, especially) sexual desires?

"What?! But you say you like men, and I'm a man!

Thus, are you implying that I'm not good looking enough for you? That I'm not smart enough? That I'm not tall enough? That I am not man enough?

If you aren't sexually attracted to me, despite me being a man, that means you're just being shallow, racist, ableist, elitist, and so forth!

You should be ashamed for being so superficial / unreasonable!

I am therefore 100% entitled to refuse to take "no" for an answer, and continue insisting on trying to seduce you. Or I can at the very least throw all my sexual frustration on you - insulting you over your rejection - as you have failed to provide me with any justifiable reason for us being sexually incompatible!

Because there is but one type of sexual orientation. Short of being a lesbian, everything else is a blatant excuse!"

Essentially: "I'm a man, you're a woman, and you are straight.

Therefore, I am owed to be found sexually attractive by you, unless you have a good enough reason not to! And, since sexual orientation is limited to gender preferences, I have the right to mock, belittle, and criticise any other preference that orients your sexuality, invalidate them, and insult you for having them.

I also have the right to take your lack of sexual interest in me as a personal insult and attack, as it is clearly meant to send me the message that I'm not 'man enough' to be a sexually desirable mate. I am justified in seeking to make you pay for it!"

Dude, maybe that woman is someone that usually feels sexually turned on by people over 5'8", and you're 5'3"...

And maybe her sexual instincts could ignore you being 5'3" if you had red hair, but they are blonde.

And maybe being 5'3" with blonde hair could be instinctively ignored, if you had a deeper voice.

Basically, even non-exclusionary preferences might play a huge role in sexual attraction.

When taken all together, they may be allowing your sexual instincts to overlook whatever usually instinctively "turns you off" , if there are more characteristics in a person that actively "turns you on"!

I had a gay man once tell me: "Okay, this is confusing as hell to me, because you really are exactly my type of person, and I feel kinda strongly sexually attracted to you... except you're a woman!? And I've never felt attracted to women before!? How's that possible!? "

Look, maybe I simply scored high on so many of his other non gender-related personal sexual preferences, that it ended up overriding the way he usually feels about the gender of a sexual partner, somehow.

Him being sexually oriented towards men - first and foremost - remains absolutely true. But that instinctive preference might not be 100% exclusionary if someone displays a constellation of traits that are so sexually arousing to him, that they wind up triggering that sexual attraction, regardless of his usual preferred gender.

Do I find men sexually attractive? No. But the geek I'm sexually attracted to so happens to be a man, so I'm not sexually adverse to him being a man.

Human sexuality is very multi-factorial and complex.

And yes, I do feel like we would all benefit from openly recognizing any important preferences one has as valid sexual orientations.

Perhaps, then, we wouldn't take "rejection" so personally, and let it affect the way we perceive or value our own femininity or masculinity (or any variation on that theme falling outside the binary) so hard.

No one has to agree with me and define themselves in the same way, but this is how I make sense of sexual identities and the labels we use.

2. "You're just saying that you're 'sapiosexual' to say everyone else is more 'shallow' than you are, because they are attracted to physical appearance, while you only care about what's inside their heads!"

Whoa! Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa! Back up!

In society, we keep talking about the masculine brain, the feminine brain; women sports, men sports; feminine interests and masculine interests; feminine personality traits and masculine personality traits, and so forth...

I've heard men say that women that often get angry, and they perceive as being "too aggressive" (often implied as being "too masculine") lose their sexual appeal, etc.

We keep explaining to people that gender is a social construct, and gender identity is about how we identify (or don't identify) with gender within ourselves, as well as our need (or lack thereof) to express it.

We are told that gender is tied to certain personalities, physical, and intellectual traits, expectations, roles, behaviors, etc. in society, that are deemed masculine and feminine, and how you personally identify with either of them, both, fall outside of them, somewhere in between, etc. will tend to define your gender...

So, why are we expecting heterosexuals, homosexuals - and every other sexuality that gives a damn about the gender of their partners - to care more about the physical appearance and the genitalia of their partner(s), than about the way they perceive their partner(s) as having a sexually appealing masculine/feminine/non-binary personality or mind?

A gay man could be sexually turned on by the way they are personally able to connect with what they perceive as masculine personalities and behaviors, with very little care for how their partner physically looks, and still be gay!

They could care very little about penises, be into "masculine hearts, not masculine parts", and still 100% be gay!

Why is gender something that we socially recognize as being expressed through the entirety of a person - the psychological, the emotional, the physical, the behavioral, the intellectual...

And yet, when it comes to discussing sexuality and sexual orientations, suddenly "gender" only boils down to "do you like boobies or male tits, and do you want the V or the D?"

What the ever loving fuck is going on?

And being sapiosexual doesn't mean that only intellectually connecting with a person matters.

Just like being demisexual doesn't mean that only emotionally connecting with a person matters.

It means that we experience secondary sexual attraction only once we've established that primary intellectual or emotional connection.

Basically, no matter how aesthetically or sensually physically attractive we can find another person to be at first sight, we are genuinely unable to experience any sense of sexual arousal (i.e. sexual attraction) towards that person until that other specific condition is met.

We need to either experience a deep sense of emotional connection (demisexuality) or a significant intellectual connection (sapiosexuality) in order for us to be sexually turned on by a partner.

I've heard men say "if my partner is taller than I am, I can't get it up! It's a complete turn off! "

Well, in my case, "if we're not at the very least close friends, and there's nothing I perceive as being geeky about you, the floodgates won't open!"

It's as simple as that.

BUT it needs to be combined with other preferences, too!

Ex: I'm rarely ever sexually aroused by anyone that is much taller and heavier than I am (because I instinctively prefer being the big spoon in bed).

I tend to be more easily aroused by people that have a bubble butt (regardless of said bubble butt being perceived as feminine, masculine, both, gender neutral, etc.).

I have a "thing" for dimples.

I tend to be very sensitive to certain voice types.

Etc.

Most preferences aren't exclusionary (my partner of nearly two decades doesn't have dimples, and it's perfectly fine), some (i.e. those that I will say orient my sexuality) are.

A sapiosexual gay man, for example, that needs to first intellectually connect with a person to experience sexual attraction, could be exclusively into bodies that they perceive as masculine, and even have a non-exclusionary preference for penises as well!

It's just that they'd first need to establish an intellectual bond with their partner before finding said partner's masculine physical appearance and/or "the D" sexually attractive!

Sexual orientations are prerequisites, not the only thing that matters.

Ex: to a lesbian, their partner being a woman is a prerequisite for them to develop a sense of sexual arousal towards said partner, but it's not the only thing that matters.

So again, why is it that most sapiosexual critical arguments I've found put such pressure on sapiosexuals to be sexually aroused exclusively by people's brains, with an utter disregard for the way that person physically looks, behaves, whatever personality they have, etc.?

When heterosexual and homosexual people, for example, can gladly experience sexual arousal in a multi-factorial manner, with plenty of other exclusionary and non-exclusionary personal preferences, as long as the person they are sexually attracted to is of the "right gender preference".

We recognize that "the person having the right gender" is a prerequisite for them to be sexually turned on.

So why is it so hard to simply recognize that the right type of intellectual (sapio) or emotional (demi) connection is but a prerequisite for sapiosexuals and demisexuals to be sexually turned on?

Everything else, that would usually matter if we weren't sapiosexual and/or demisexual, can and often will still matter to us.

Demisexuals and sapiosexuals can also identify as gay, lesbian, bisexual, polysexual, omnisexual, pansexual, etc. depending on how they relate (or fail to relate) to a partner's gender.

A demisexual and a sapiosexual can be as "shallow" as anyone experiencing "sexual arousal at first sight" (primary sexual attraction) towards a partner, too!

It simply creates a delay for us to get there, and for other sexual preferences that we may or may not have to play their own roles.

First we need to emotionally and/or intellectually connect; and THEN we may experience attraction like most allosexuals probably would. i.e. Taking into consideration a partner's gender identity, or not, any preference in genitalia we may or may not have, any preference in heights, body types, personalities, aesthetic appearance, voice types, and so forth...

Because there are plenty of people that I do develop a strong emotional bond with and that are geeks (my two main exclusionary preferences), that I do feel absolutely no sexual attraction for regardless of my being demisexual and exclusively sexually into geeks!

That emotional (or intellectual, in the case of sapiosexuality) bond is 100% needed to be sexually aroused by a partner, but it does not guarantee that we'll find them sexually attractive, either.

It's a requirement - the spark that will light the fire - but a spark alone can't light that fire all by itself if there's nothing to feed that fire, and/or keep it sustained.

3. "Sapiosexuality, i.e. implying you're sexually attracted towards intelligence, is ableist!"

Okay, there are so many layers to address here, and this feels so impossibly wrong on so many levels!

First, I believe that this interpretation comes from the way some sapiosexuals will describe their sexuality as them "being sexually attracted to highly intelligent people".

And by saying "highly intelligent people", this comes across as exclusively meaning "people with a high I.Q. score".

But, when you dig a bit deeper to understand what's actually meant by that, it's often explained as feeling a sense of sexual arousal from engaging in deeply intellectually stimulating conversations with a partner. Ex:

Those who admit to being sapiosexual will say that they are turned on by the brain, and tend to be teased or excited by the insights of another person. This means the person whom you are attracted to might have a tendency to have an incisive, inquisitive, and irreverent mind. As foreplay, the sapiosexual person may crave philosophical, political, or psychological discussions, because this turns them on. (x)

To me, this doesn't so much sound as a question of being sexually turned on by quantitative intelligence or having "a high I.Q.", but more about an interest in figuring out, and being fascinated by, the other person's intellectual thought processes and, sometimes, in sharing your own thoughts with them.

It's about finding the way the other person displays their own intellect sexually arousing, the same way an heterosexual woman might be sexually aroused by the expression of masculinity - or any gender not her own - in another person.

Ever since I can remember, I've been exclusively romantically and sexually attracted towards fellow "geeks". Towards people that tend to fall in love with a specific field of interest, gather as much knowledge as they can on that subject, and have a tendency to get very passionate and animated while sharing that knowledge with others.

But I have a hard time clearly figuring out if what romantically and sexually attracts me towards that "geek energy" (let's call it that) that some people openly seem to openly display are personality traits (an inquisitive mind, sense of curiosity, desire to dig deep, explore ideas and concepts thoroughly, etc.) or the way that they use their intellect to explore all those ideas and concepts.

But yes, I do genuinely get sexually turned on by my partner passionately explaining in great details how lithium car batteries work (for example). It's ridiculous! Don't ask me how it makes sense, rationally, it probably doesn't! But there's something about the energy he puts in the way he's speaking and emoting when he gets really into a subject he knows and enjoys that acts like some kind of sexual desires trigger!

It's insanely inconvenient, too! Like most of the moments where I'd really want to have sex with him happen in completely inappropriate places and times! But, that's just how my body and sexual instincts work and respond to him, and therefore I've had to learn to deal with it!

So, to go back to the whole "ableist accusation", the problem seems to come from the idea that saying that "you are only sexually attracted to people displaying a certain type (or level of) intelligence" would be perceived as being the same as discriminating against people that are not considered "highly intelligent enough".

And that statement is problematic to me on so many levels!

First, because it confuses the instinctive drive to have sex with another human being with what people appear to establish as the right of another person to be considered as a sexually desirable being within society.

And the problem is that you are not supposed to offer the whole planet population equal opportunity to your bed and to your own body, for frak's sake!

Last I heard, that wasn't how sexual desires were supposed to work!

Sexual needs are extremely preferential and I do not believe, for one second, that they are meant to reflect our profound beliefs and values about society, and the need for it to be as safe and inclusive as possible.

Do we accuse every gay man of being deeply sexist at their core, because the fact that they lack the ability to be sexually attracted towards women could be interpreted as them wishing to imply that women are not worthy of being sexually desired?

No. We recognize that being homosexual is but a manifestation of that person's sexual preferences.

We recognize that you can't force sexual attraction, and that one's own sexual preferences aren't meant to reflect their social values, nor their desire for inclusiveness and equity within society.

When that preference is gender, it seems that most people will readily agree that sexual attraction is about experiencing an instinctive need to have sex with certain people, while lacking any desire to have sex with other people.

It's not "sexist", we're simply wired that way. It's what our sexual instincts dictate, nothing more to it.

Heterosexuals, homosexuals, and any other sexual orientation where gender plays a role in how one experiences sexual desires, thus allows one to sexually discriminate against whichever gender(s) they want.

And it's considered valid and normal to do so.

So, how is it that, when the same phenomenon occurs in relation to other types of preferences (height, intelligence, body types, personality types, etc.), like say someone who's only able to instinctively desire to have sex with a person whose intelligence they find sexually attractive (sapiosexual), they would be seen as discriminating against other types of intellect, and being perceived as being "ableist"?

I don't get it! How does that argument remotely work for you?

You are either sexually "turned on" by a characteristic that a person displays, or you're not. It's not a question of personal choices or values, but of instinctive sexual attraction and drive to have sex with certain people over others.

Thus, arguments such as: "How dare you say that you only want to fuck people that [insert sexual preference here]? Are you saying people that don't display that specific trait or preference don't deserve to be fucked? Are you being racists/ableist/elitist/etc.?" should not even exist!

Because if you think it's fine to discriminate against a sexual partner based on their gender without calling that gender preference "sexism", I believe you need to accept that it's fine to lack any desire to get sexually involved with a person based on any other preference that person has!

Because it's all preferences, and everybody has their own. And not everyone you meet owes you sex!

If people displaying strong and obvious ADHD traits sexually turns you off, my ADHD arse will give you a huge high five and say "rock on!"

I'm used to most gay men not finding me sexually attractive, because I present as being mostly feminine to them (there has been exceptions, as previously stated).

So, why in the world would I ever be remotely upset over someone finding my ADHD behavior/personality traits to be a sexual turn off?

It's perfectly fine that we are not sexually compatible, regardless of whatever reasons we have not to be sexually compatible.

If being with a sexual partner that keeps getting easily distracted, losing momentum, and being really silly/playful in bed kills the mood and the whole pleasure of the sexual experience for you, I'd be making you miserable!

I don't need you to want to fuck me to feel validated as a human being and a worthwhile member of society.

I'll just find myself someone more sexually compatible with me, that's all. And so should you.

And when it comes to the idea of experiencing sexual attraction based on perceived intellect, I can tell you that one of the most beautiful and fascinating minds I know belongs to a man with a developmental disability that is not considered especially "smart" based on classic I.Q. tests, but has this deep artistic and empathetic sensitivity towards TV and movie characters, especially.

He's my partner's cousin, and in his family people tend to find holding conversations with him "tiring", because he keeps talking about the same movies over and over again, and quoting the same quotes, while analysing every aspect of each character he finds fascinating, etc.

But so do I. I saw "Pacific Rim" in 2013, and every single day ever since I've seen it I do at least one thing that is related to that movie. I never get tired of re-watching and analyzing those scenes, listening to its soundtrack, quoting different passages.

And each time I hear those quotes, listen to the music, watch those scenes, read fanfiction, etc., I relive the excitement of the very first time I watched the movie in theaters. It fills me with joy, with excitement, or sometimes even with calm and peace.

And I'm neurodivergent, but extremely good at masking and appearing "normal" in social settings. I'm also what people call "gifted", so I do very well in academic or certain types of work settings despite my disabilities.

I'm an expert at looking 100% normal and blending in, if people don't spend more than a few hours with me and if they perceive the ADHD traits as personality quirks (I can also manage them, and prevent them from showing in some circumstances, but it's extremely draining for me).

So, every time there's a big family dinner, I always look forward to that cousin being there because, simply put: we intellectually connect.

My brain and his get in sync, and we get lost into our own world of TV, movies, stories, music, and fantasy!

It's simple, it's honest, it's easy, it's sincere, it's nurturing, and it's intellectually filling!

And it took a while for the other people in his family to understand that I wasn't spending so much time talking to him out of some misplaced sense of compassion, but because I genuinely crave those conversations and sense of kinship as much as he does.

He's absolutely brilliant in his very own unique way, and what he has to intellectually offer is amazing if you are willing to enter his own world and go on a journey with him.

According to society, he isn't "smart". To me, he's the smartest and most insightful person in the room.

The way we perceive and respond to someone else's intellect is diverse, complex, and extremely subjective.

Do not assume that "high intelligence" means one specific thing, or one specific model of intelligence to sapiosexuals.

Do not assume sapiosexuality excludes the intelligence models that can be found in neurodiverse and or intellectually disabled individuals.

It's about the way brains connect, and/or the way one displays and expresses their own intellectual faculties that will trigger that sense of fascination leading towards sexual arousal.

I don't see what's ableist about needing to be intellectually stimulated by a partner in order to experience that sense of sexual arousal.

No more than it is sexist to need to perceive our partner as being feminine in order to experience a sense of sexual arousal.

4. Studies have shown that human beings are more likely to form couples and be sexually attracted to people with intelligences that are close to their own. Therefore, we're all sapiosexual.

a) "Amory", "partnering", "coupling", etc. Basically any word saying "the desire to form any type of relationship partnership", is not the same as "being attracted to".

You can experience romantic, aesthetic, platonic, sensual, etc. attraction for someone, yet have no desire to make any form of commitment, and/or enter a relationship with them.

Just think about people that romantically fall in love with someone they realise is abusive, and decide to reject that relationship for their own good despite still having strong romantic desires for them.

They're still romantically and possibly sexually attracted, but no longer wish to be amorous with them.

And again, we are talking romantic/sexual behaviors (the decision to act upon those romantic/sexual desires) over romantic/sexual identity (what inspires us those romantic/sexual desires in another person).

b) The definition given in that statement technically also includes scenarios where someone is sexually interested in a person (experiences primary sexual attraction), decides to approach them, starts talking with them, realises they are complete morons, becomes sexually turned off, and therefore are no longer sexually attracted to them.

That has nothing to do with sapiosexuality!

Sapiosexuality is when you don't find people sexually attractive in general.

But, at some point, while conversing with someone and/or listening to them talk, the way their mind works generates a sense of sexual arousal / desire (secondary sexual attraction).

ONLY THEN, does their physical appearance, personality, perhaps gender expression, the tone of their voice, and any other secondary preferences you have might come into play in your ability to remain sexually attracted to them, and/or in your eventual decision to act upon your sapiosexual desires.

If having no primary fascination with someone's mind does not prevent you from finding them sexually attractive before you start getting intrigued by the way their brain works, and/or connecting with it, it's not sapiosexuality.

You are simply sexually turned off by certain forms of intelligences that are incompatible with yours.

The way you perceive a person's intellect can negate the initial sexual attraction, but it is not what causes that sexual attraction.

In sapiosexuals, the intellect is a primary (or co-primary) trigger when it comes to sexual desires. Other preferences tend to be secondary.

Note: while I've put the focus of this post on sapiosexuality rather than sapioromantism, the same principles also apply to those that identify as sapioromantic.

It's just that romantic desires tend to be harder for people to clearly define and conceptualize; when sexual desires are often perceived as being rather straightforward (given the physical response typically associated with it).

Therefore, I found it easier to focus more on a single form of attraction (sexual) to get those points across and hopefully help people understand the nuances between someone who is allosexual (capable of primary sexual attraction) and greysexual (capable of secondary sexual attraction, once a specific condition has been met), rather than muddy things up too much.

But yes, being sapioromantic (or even, sapioplatonic sapioalterous, sapioaesthetic or sapiosensual...), would simply mean that what initially triggers your romantic (platonic, alterous, aesthetic, or sensual...) attraction towards another person is the way you connect with their perceived intellect as well.

When it comes to demiromantism and demisexuality, instead of accusations of "ableism", the main offender often tends to be the idea that demisexuals are just people that are morally against the idea of having sex with others in the absence of deeper emotions.

Again, there's a difference between the way we experience sexual desires, and the way we sexually behave.

A demisexual individual could easily choose to engage in casual sexual activity with someone they are not at all sexually attracted to, simply because they enjoy having sex for the physical gratification that the sexual activity provides them.

"How could you be interested in having sex with someone you're not sexually attracted to?", I hear some of you ask.

Take a look at your hand.

Do you find said hand sexually attractive (if the answer is yes, I won't judge! We'll find you another example, no worries... A neon vibrating dildo that's shaped like a tiny dolphin? A shower head, perhaps?)?

Using the wonderful power of imagination and sexual fantasies, can that very non-sexually attractive hand provide you with plenty of delicious sexual physical sensations to enjoy?

Could it be (let's just put that idea out there) that what inspires you those sexual needs and desires is not the hand itself...

...and yet, the hand gets the job done?

Shockingly, another human being also has hands (and a mouth, a tongue, a penis, a vagina, etc.), and they can very much manage to still "get the job" done, despite not being what inspires you the desire to have sex with them, too.

Unless sexual activity is repulsive to you, or the person themselves inspires you sexual revulsion, you can genuinely choose to have sex with someone that you're not sexually into at all, simply because you enjoy being touched by someone else while you fantasize about the things that do turn you on, for example.

You could also find genuine joy and satisfaction in doing things that an allosexual partner would enjoy mostly for their own benefit (the sexual equivalent of offering them a massage, or cooking for them, in a sense).

You could also choose to use sex as a means of expressing emotional affection and/or sharing physical intimacy when, personally, you'd have been just as happy and satisfied with sensual rather than sexual contact.

So, "asexuality" and "sexual abstinence" are two very, very different concepts.

You do have asexuals that genuinely do not enjoy nor feel comfortable having sex for a variety of personal reasons (including the very valid "I'm just not into it").

But sex-negative or sex-repulsed asexuals, that tend to find sexual activity very unpleasant, are only the tip of the iceberg of the a-spec community (a.k.a. as the people on the aromantic and asexual spectrum).

I would actually say that one of the most groundbreaking a-spec representation (sapioromantic and sapiosexual, according to Batey) I've ever seen on TV is probably the character of Jaskier on "The Witcher".

Because he is portrayed as a very much romance and sex-positive (some might even say romance and sex-craving) a-spec person on the show, that's known to get into trouble for regularly having sex with other people.

But, when you think about it, it does make an awful lot of sense!

Because when you enjoy sex for whatever the sexual activity itself has to offer you (and whatever meaning you wish to give it), without really caring about finding your partner(s) sexually attractive (given you know how to experience sexual arousal and maintain it regardless of sexual attraction), the number of compatible sexual partners you may have can - potentially - become pretty impressive.

You can do whatever you want, with whoever you want, without experiencing any particular need for them to turn you on.

As long as they don't actively turn you off and repulse you, they could absolutely "get the job done" and offer you an amazing time!

If sex is already tons of fun for you, and masturbating alone brings you pleasure... why not masturbate with a friend? Or many, many different strangers, even?

When you're not limited by sexual attraction in the ways you can enjoy sex, imagine the possibilities!

As Jaskier himself says:

Then, this spoon shows up with his sexy, witty brain, and ruins everything...

So, sapiosexuality and/or demisexuality being about some heightened sense of morality, and thinking that having sex with a partner is wrong in the absence of a deeper physical or intellectual connection, rather than being a genuine instinctive sexual orientation? Not really.

It simply is about the way we have (or lack) the capacity to experience sexual arousal in response to other people, based on a variety of features they have.

How we choose to handle and express our desires (or lack thereof) is another story.

Basically, to me, my sexual identity really is about better knowing myself, what orients my desires, and

And the more you understand how your body, heart, mind, and own instinctive desires work, the more I believe it increases your level of agency when it comes to making relationship and and sexual decisions that truly align with your own personal needs and wants in life, in the respect and awareness of the needs and wants of others.

So, a-spec identities, even very queer and unusual ones? I believe that they do matter, and that they do deserve respect and recognition.

They may not be the most pressing matter when it comes to advocacy and keeping queer communities safe, but they do deserve to be given room to exist and be represented, too.

I know I'd likely have personally avoided a lot of bad sexual decisions, situations, disappointments, and even abuses if I'd understood the way my own sexuality worked better, and especially earlier in life.

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